#and writes a diary

[seariii]

Blue box EP 24 and start of 25 (we could only watch the first couple minutes)

Ayame is in the aromantic spectrum

Im almost in tears, Hina's pain is.... So painful... I feel her, I feel for her...

I.... Seeing her reminded me a lot of things from the past.... Well, a lot of feelings, I remember the deep sharp pain and crying like she did, feeling overwhelmed and not knowing what to do but cry... But my memory is fussy as to what exactly made me cry like that... *Shakes head* she did remind me of a couple memories. The scene where she looks at Taiki and he's looking at Chinatsu I felt it on my soul

.... I... Really liked this anime, I really like the writing... I really like Hina, she pains me so much, her refusing to let Taiki reject her, in a "I don't want to hear it" way with the "you may notice you're in love with me and regret it in the future" excuse, she just... Refuses. "No"... What Taiki did was healthy, but.... It was still painful....

Her fantasies of wanting to be next to him, of wanting to hold hands, of wanting to be in a relationship... Her being so in love... So deeply in love...

Which brings me to Ayame... Heh one more to my collection!! She's arospec. But.... I normally don't get her, I can't see myself dating anyone just because they like me, without me having feelings in return, but.... Her seeing how deep Hina's feelings are was.... Also very painful, her realizing she has never been in love, not knowing what to do, and... Envying her, because deep down she wishes to feel that deep deep love too...

It's painful seeing people around you have feelings that you don't know but yearn for...

...I don't think I have the words for Ayame right now tho... But I understand that feeling, of wanting to feel feelings deeply and strongly... It's something I envy of others a lot too... I used to have much stronger feelings, I used to be able to feel so deeply, but now I sometimes I feel... Shallow.... ........ It brings me comfort to know that some of those feelings are there, even if at certain moments I can't see them... But... That's not the case with everything I wish to feel...

I feel like there's so much I feel on this subject, and so many things I wish to say, but I don't have any words right now... It picked the wrong day jajaja.... Or maybe the right one? Who knows

[emilycastlevania]

[mournfulroses]

André Gide, from a journal entry featured in The Journals of Andre Gide, Vol. 2: 1914-1927

[proxycrit]

Day 26- Lanayru Mountain

Perhaps dragon song sounds familiar. No matter; it’s time to get to business.

On that note, magnesis is reacquired! Purah’s still working on the other glyphs.

(“We’ll find a cure by the end of this year, I promise.”

“I hope we do, Mimi. I really, really hope we do.”)

((This is a totk au called familiar familiar! Zelda doesn’t go back in time, history is forever changed, and link is beset by ghost memories from his magic arm as per usual.))

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[bebx]

[hereiswhatremains]

"I watched life and wanted to be a part of it but found it painfully difficult."

— Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966

[fear-is-truth]

okay but imagine this . . .

you get hired to babysit manny for the night—just manny, susan assures you—but as soon as you walk through the door, it’s clear you’ve inherited all three heffley boys.

greg follows you like around like a puppy. he talks nonstop about how middle school is full of “juvenile morons” and how people say he’s “wise beyond his years” (no one has ever said that). he keeps trying to bring up high school drama he barely understands.

rodrick clearly didn’t know you were coming, because when he sees you, he immediately vanishes upstairs. a few minutes later, he reappears—wearing heavy eyeliner and smelling like half a can of axe. (“oh, didn’t know you were here tonight,”) he orders pizza, leans over the back of the couch and tries to impress you by talking about his band.

manny is barely a factor. (greg handed over a sleeve of cookies and let him play with his gameboy in exchange)

when susan and frank finally get home, the house is unusually quiet and suspiciously tidy. manny’s already in bed, and greg is wiping down the counter. rodrick, of all things, is vacuuming the living room. frank stands in the doorway, eyeing his sons like he’s trying to figure out if they’ve been replaced by aliens.

susan thanks you with a smile, handing you your payment, and the boys? they’re already plotting to make sure you come back next week.

[forestechos]

As a 31 year old I’m telling you, life does not end after your twenties nor are you old in your 30s. I might have a smile line or two and some new aches in my body but there is so much more life to live. If you are feeling the inevitable passing of time a little more lately, I just want you to know that it is okay if you don’t have it all figured out yet by 18, 22, 25, or any age after. And you certainly don’t have to fit any mold that society has placed in front of you. Go at your own pace, be kind to yourself.

I promise there is time left for you.

[malusokay]

Journaling prompts to reinvent yourself ౨ৎ

how do I want the world to see me, and does it match how I see myself?

how do I show up for others, and how do they show up for me?

what about my life feels like love and what doesn't?

where does my time go, and where do I wish it would go?

who do I admire most, and what about them speaks to my soul?

is the way I live aligned with the life I dream of, or a I just coasting?

what qualities in others feel the most magnetic to me? Do I reflect those?

what’s inside my bag, and what does it say about me? (be honest, even the gum wrappers count.)

if I could script my perfect morning, how would it begin?

what passions have I ignored that I would like to reclaim?

what’s one small, powerful shift I could make today to move toward my dream life?

write a tender letter to the future version of yourself. What do you hope they’ve become, and what do you want them to remember about now?

As always, please feel free to share your own prompts and check out my insta for more of me! <3

✩‧₊*:・love ya ･:*₊‧✩

[charbroiledchicken]

reblog if you're a writer but would rather drink straight cyanide than show any of your family members your work

[seariii]

Love live superstar, Liella's last season isn't good but they still manage to pull on my heartstrings ...... EP 11

The scene where Kanon is dreaming, about her under the rain, clearly sad worried depressed, with cold tones, and looks up and sees her younger self under a ray of sunshine, with flowers and warm light surrounding her. It hit close to home...

And then when they're about to sing in the love live, when they do their little counting each of them, I was telling my brother I love when they do that in love live, idk, it means a lot to me. But then they put Kanon thinking of her dream again, and her younger self smiling at her, the rain stops and she says how music is supposed to make people happy and how it's supposed to be fun.... And Kanon is like let's have fun. That scene fucked me up. Made me want to tear up a bit.

A year and a half ago or so... The bestie said something that meant a lot but also fucked with my brain... Was when I was very active in the milgram fandom, being happy and interacting with everyone, talking with everyone, just, having a blast in Tumblr. He said how I had started acting like my younger self again, and how he was happy for me... It's something that I still think about sometimes and... I don't know.... I think of it and I talk to myself and I'm like that's you and look back and look now and ....

........

I think I've said before, or some people know, that I used to go to dance classes. Something I would do when I was little was to show the choreography to anyone willing to watch jejeje I would sing the song and dance it for them. I was very excited and loved it. My memories of that are kinda fussy heh but my mom has told me about it, and I remember snippets of it...

But I remember I loved the getting on stage, the lights, the people, the dress ups, getting my hair and make up done, the clapping at the end and heavy breathing knowing I had poured myself in my performance.... I loved it all... The spotlight and the performance.

I saw myself in Kanon, even if I didn't kin her, from the first episode "that's literally me" I thought heh.... And idk those two small scenes where she saw her younger self messed with me... "Kanon chiquita" I said.... I refer to my younger self as "seari chiquita" and idk.... Yeah

No conclusion just .... Mhm

[poetic-questions]

—Anaïs Nin, "The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934"

[mournfulroses]

Nikolay Punin, from a diary entry featured in The Diaries of Nikolay Punin: 1904 - 1953

[proxycrit]

LINKTOBER Day 16: Lanayru Wetlands

Rumors have it Zora’s Domain is besieged by caustic rains. As travelers leave Lanayru’s capital in troves, two plucky (or foolish) adventurers swim against the muddy tide in hopes to learn more about the unnatural phenomenon.

Anyways, it’s raining mud? What’s up with that.

(FAMILIAR FAMILIAR AU is a totk what if passion project where zelda does not get sent back in time. Here’s the masterpost!)

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[ummwhosabi]

"Loneliness is when you sit on a bench for four hours but no one knows you're there."

A. "Urielle"

[thedeluxedoll]