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[thatdogmagic]

re: this pointless shit again

Well, I'd done pretty good ignoring this as I promised I would, but a third party meddler made that impossible, so here we go.

So, as some of you may know, and some of you may not, pretty much every time I post an update to the website, a trio of stalkers jump on my every word and go on a posting blitz. These are people who very openly just want me ostracized from every community I'm in, at a time when community matters more than anything, and they've proven that they'll invest over a year's worth of time into making that happen.

There are a series of posts about it listed here. I suggest people read Ependa's post especially because she keeps getting ignored in all of this.

I honestly think I took too much of the responsibility for what all happened in the posts that are still up, but it is what it is. I was doing my best to be gracious and diplomatic about it. More's the pity.

Anyway I suppose I should be flattered by the level of effort involved in all of this, but it's still a pain in the ass. I've done my best to ignore it, and was overall managing pretty well, but that was before a third party decided to involve themselves to stir shit and/or score internet points.

In March, after the most recent update and rollout of commission prices, someone kindly reached out to let me know that there was some exclusive werewolf artist telegram group chat going on. Effectively a kind of clubhouse, with a pretty wide range of people in my peer group. The owner followed me, and had gone as far as to send me DMs in the past, but to my knowledge had never extended an invite.

They did, however, extend an invite to one of my stalkers, who, again, for the past full year and change, has been openly calling for me to be publicly ripped apart and ostracized.

This person has not been at all shy about that. The owner nonetheless platformed them for a couple weeks. During that time, they went on near daily rants about me specifically. So far as I've been told, I was pretty much all they could talk about, before they dropped out of the chat on their own accord.

I can't say that the owner was intentionally drama-mongering or not, but it doesn't really matter, at this point. I have a hard time imagining that they didn't know this was going on, however, and have blocked accordingly.

Now, as I said, there was only one person that reached out, and I'm grateful they did. But it is only one out of 70+ individuals, which doesn't feel great. I mean, this is the same community of peers for whom I'm trying to build an entire website. Which was already a lot of work with a lot of uncertainty. Now, suddenly, it was more of both.

I'm bringing this up because, even before all this, uncertainty was a daily issue I had to grapple with regarding this issue. This situation has made me feel like I have to keep track of every moot on a near-daily basis to make sure they haven't suddenly unfollowed. It's made me have to assume every unfollow in my peer group is due to someone buying into the drama.

Some of you have caught mutes or blocks that may have been undeserved as a result. I'm sorry about that; I'm just not interested in taking chances with this, and I don't want someone who may fully believe all the nonsense to have access to me on sites I want to post on comfortably, among friends.

In addition to having to keep all that in mind, I also just generally have to brace for the fact that, every single time I post a site update, I'm in for another round of bloviating. Which isn't fun, but it's decidedly less fun when I have to care about a) any of it, at all, in any capacity, b) how intense it is this time around, c) who fell for it.

It was a lot to keep in mind already. On top of all the actual work involved. It made writing and coding all of these updates even more of a chore, which is arguably the point of the harassment campaign , but, I digress.

So, needless to say, hearing about this, that this was not only allowed, but that people more or less sat passively by...

My motivation was already on shaky ground. And I'm not too proud to say that this effectively killed it.

It's not that I think all the folks in the group chat are awful; I think many of you just plain wanted to stay out of it, which, for the record, I appreciate. But, things being the way they are currently, you unfortunately now represent a level of uncertainty that is way too much for me to take on.

That is to say: I would rather not have to care about unfollows, at all. I would rather not have to care about whether or not someone believes the bullshit. I need to stop caring about it, period. I need as few reasons to care about it as possible, which means shedding a couple-few of them where I can.

So-- for my own sake, I'm stepping away from the idea of this being a larger community site. It's instead going to focus on folks that Angela and I already trust and have worked well with in the past, including alums from the original Werewolves Versus run.

Like I said: I already can't tell the difference between someone who just wants to stay out of it, and someone bought in to all the bullshit. I can't tell the difference between an unfollow for 'eh too much porn these days' reasons, and 'I fully believe she's a ~horrible transphobic rot~ on this earth and should be fully ostracized from the community' reasons.

It's all been a little too 'high school but super high stakes' for me. And in the year 2025, I have to admit to myself that I just don't have the energy for it. Not with fash breathing down our necks every day of the week. Quite literally on the day I've been drafting this, my state governor had to release a statement about how the Feds are threatening to arrest him.

That's the very real uncertainty we're up against right now. Adding 'now regularly give a shit about the fallout of some petty internet drama' on top of it is too much to ask.

We'll leave ourselves open to bringing in additional creators as time goes on, but yeah, the grand vision for the place needs to be set aside in favor of something more manageable. 'Cause, end of the day, I only ever wanted to work on my own shit, and facilitate others being able to work on theirs. The community thing was just a lofty idea tacked on, and it's one that'd be better off being left behind so I can focus on the actual work, and not the popularity contest.

The good news is we're still going to be a small collective of werewolf artists. We're still going to go through with our general mission statement. But our roster is primarily going to be more made up of people we already know, trust, interact with regularly, etc, versus the goal of building up a mod/volunteer team, and eventually taking applications for galleries from the community at large. Someone else with the time, energy and money can take up that task.

And speaking of: now that I've stepped away, as my stalkers were clearly hoping I would, I hope the people in their lives and in their friend circles tell them it's okay to move on to actual projects now. To put all this effort into their own community sites and studios (that are completely real and attached to completely real LLCs). They've got all this energy freed up now, so they should be able to do great things with it, I'm sure.

To anyone who might have gotten their hopes up about what this site could've been: I'm genuinely sorry.

To everyone else: our audience has been wonderful to us generally, through all of this. Thank you for sticking with us, and for believing in us.

And to the hate watchers: stay mad I guess. It's your life, do with it what you want.

[oh-no-its-bird]

SO many amazing takes and additions in my reblogs and asks, I want to reply to each and every one of them but the skeletal claws of depression and unmedicated adhd keeps my ass sat in bed where I will read manga and stare blankly at a wall for 12 hours instead.

[reasonsforhope]

Heads up/warning that I'm going to start posting articles related to the Israel-Palestine War

I've worked really, really hard to keep my blog about positive news only, and that's going to continue - these posts will be only about good news related to the war.

Of which there really, really isn't much, so I don't know that there will be a lot of posts, but I will be posting articles about humanitarian aid reaching those who need it and actions that will prevent more lives from being taken.

I know that, no matter my position on the war, this is something that would be very controversial and make a lot of people upset, so I wanted to be explicit about my position on this - and my posting policy, which is not the same thing. I also wanted to give people a heads up because I know the war in general is really, really triggering for a lot of people right now, for a lot of different reasons. I'll be tagging all relevant posts, so if screening those out is something that you need to do, you can.

I have worked very hard to make this blog a space with only good news because I know how much it can matter to have just one place, if nowhere else, that you can count on to not give you emotional whiplash with horrible news. To know you have one place you can go where you are guaranteed not to see bad news that will send you into a tailspin. That's why I've had a policy of not including signal boosts or PSAs about tragedies, no matter what they are, on this blog. (I do post about some of that stuff, including the Israel-Palestine War, on my main blog, though. I consider this blog to be me trying to run a public service, basically, and so have specific policies for myself around that, including my editorial and fact-checking standards.)

I'm going to be honest, I was really, really hoping the war would end after a couple of weeks, which has historically not been uncommon for wars with/involving Israel.

But that's clearly not happening, and I can't keep not acknowledging what's happening on here, so, this post.

With that, I imagine people probably want to know my actual stance on the war, since that's what I'll be posting in accordance with.

So, here's the official stance of this blog:

Every time a civilian is killed, it is a tragedy; Every time a child is killed, it is a tragedy, no matter their nationality. I condemn all antisemitism and all Islamophobia.

I support all calls for a ceasefire, as well as demands that Israel immediately stop its repeated bombing of hospitals, ambulances, shelters (including UN shelters), and refugee camps.

There is no situation in which the repeated and/or intentional bombing of hospitals is justified.

There is no situation in which the repeated and/or intentional bombing of shelters or refugee camps is justified.

There is no situation in which the repeated and/or intentional bombing of ambulances is justified.

There is no situation in which the killing of children is justified. Yet more children have now been killed in Gaza than in all global conflict zones combined in each year since 2019.

There is no situation in which cutting off an entire country and/or territory's supply of food and water is justified.

Yes, this applies to every group involved in the war, including countries supplying either side, and any countries or non-state organizations who may yet join the fighting.

The initial Hamas attack on Israel was a tragedy. The continued Israeli bombardment and invasion of Palestine is also a tragedy.

Most of the things I post will be about aid reaching Palestinians or news about tangible, confirmed progress toward a ceasefire. I probably will not be posting good news posts about aid reaching Israel, unless it's explicitly and only humanitarian and/or barring drastic unforeseen changes in circumstance. This is because as of yesterday, November 7, the Palestinian death toll is over 10,000 to Israel's roughly 1,400 (only about 200 of whom have been killed in the past month, starting on October 8, aka outside of the initial attack by Hamas). At least 3,195 children have died in Gaza, 33 in the West Bank, and 29 in Israel.

The Palestinian death toll is nearly 8 times the Israeli death toll. The number of children killed is 110 times higher in Palestine than Israel. (Source for death toll here, ratios via calculator.) Every single one of those deaths is a tragedy - and there have been far, far too many tragedies this past month.

(On a related note, Israel stands very, very little chance of actually eliminating Hamas with this war. The US has attempted this same strategy and failed many times: the US failed to eliminate the communist/North Korean regime in the Korean War, which is technically still ongoing 70 years later; failed to eliminate the Viet Cong in the Vietnam War; failed to eliminate numerous groups of Iraqi insurgents in the Iraq War, which triggered Iraq's civil war; and failed to eliminate the Taliban in the Afghanistan War, even though that war lasted for literally 20 years. Afghanistan is once again under total Taliban control.)

The last thing we need is another 20 year war. The last thing we need is more civilian deaths. Bombing civilian settlements, as well as hospitals, shelters, and refugee camps are war crimes under international law, meaning that both Israel and Hamas have committed war crimes.

It's time for the war crimes to stop.

Humanitarian aid reaching civilians is good news, and I will be posting accordingly.

Ceasefire now.

[crossbackpoke-check]

Dysprosium, Mary Soon Lee

dysprosium, AN 66, is a silvery-white rare earth metal. its name is derived from the greek dysprositos, meaning “hard to get at”, owing to the difficulty in separating and isolating this rare earth element. dysprosium is used to measure neutron flux, to fuel reactors, and to activate phosphors. terfenol-d is a magnetorestrictive alloy, meaning that it changes shape when a magnetic field is applied, and is used to manufacture underwater acoustic systems.

jason “robo” robertson, dallas stars #21 for @simmyfrobby’s nhl periodic table poems <3

[ganondoodle]

is there a way to get out of that cycle? i dont know whats right to do, keeping my feelings to myself will only lead to exploding at some point and hurt me, but sharing what i feel or think about pieces of media while not wanting to hear differing opinions- and being rly emotional affected by them and unable to ignore it alot of the time.... but also wanting to connect and not feel this lonely all the time ....... but then my opinions being dead set will lead me to being mean and feel guilty for it, doubting myself (what if I AM wrong after all) so if i cant handle that i should just keep it to myself- and im back at the start

"be yourself" can i???? should i???? myself can be mean! i can be agressive! i can explode at people! unnecessarily so! i dont want that!! i feel so guilty and embarassed! wanting to connect only with the people that feel the same as you is a silly and stupid want that will never work and yet i keep trying it anyway!! its all so contradictory!! it only pushes people away bc i can be so unpredictable and mean and yet i am unable to shut up!! i dont know what to do!! i feel guilty for it all constantly!!! i hate it!!!

[gideonisms]

This is a very vague question, but do you have an advice on writing? I really enjoy reading your fanfiction! I want to practice more but sometimes it’s difficult to move beyond an idea to actual prose.

This is so sweet and deeply flattering. Thank you SO much for reading and enjoying!! it is all I could ever want to write fun fics that appeal to the mutuals ❤️

As for advice on moving past the ideas stage I have the same problem and it's literally the hardest part of writing to me. Those executives do NOT function at all in my brain. To get anything done I have to just set a timer for myself for like 20-45 minutes and tell myself there are no bad ideas and I can just write Anything as long as it relates to my fic. So I will often start with a couple paragraphs that sort of lay out the general concept then move on to some bullet points with a few sentences describing scenes I think I might need. THEN I write the easy parts of the scenes, like the dialogue. Then I flesh them out. Then I typically have one long burst of writing where I go crazy and throw everything I can think of in and stay up all night. Then I go to bed, wake up, usually send it to my beloved beta, and edit several times. And THAT is the process.

I think the main thing I have to do is give myself permission to write things that are bad. I can make it better later. If I ever have an idea I'm not sure about because I think it might be too much I make sure to write that one. Idk

[555bunnies]

Have you ever tried not being an autistic Retard and actually get a life and a real job outside of littlest pet shops?

Oh my gosh ! My first anon hate 😁💕💕💖🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 IM SO EXCITED !!! I wonder who you are, internet user hiding behind this anonymous message on tumblr oh so shy, too shy to show your face !! Well, I have a life of course ! It’s littlest pet shops obviously haha you said it yourself, but of course you’re someone who needs this information to be reiterated to you. Oh but do you yourself have a life..? Seems you have an awful lot of time to be sending messages online to strangers. It almost makes me feel bad for you 😢 aww poor anonymous. No friends… nobody to talk to except for little ol me. Feel better soon 🫶

[frogiwi]

HIIIII KI ✨🥰🫡 7, 18, and 27 pleas for the more fic writer asks !!!

HI HIDEY ILY

7. your preferred writing fonts

OUGH. SORRY I KNOW U ARE TYPEFACE ENTHUSIAST. HOWEVER I JUST USE GDOCS DEFAULT ARIAL..............

18. if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

DO I KEEP THEM? pause while i go look through some docs LOL

OK I FOUND SOME. i found a lot actually but i got bored of rereading them so i'll go with the first one i found which i had entirely forgot about, deleted from my first makichi fic, right in front of my eyes

“Do you trust those guys?” Chihaya blinks. Sure, he does. Loathe as he is to admit it, Kiyomine is as much of a monster as ever, and Kaname improves at a pace far beyond any true novice could. Todo’s performance had been questionable in their last game, but Chihaya’s willing to give him another shot to prove himself because he’s shown results before. Yamada is as reliable as ever, even while they iron out the kinks in their lineup. They have good senses, and what some of the group lacks in skill, they make up for in enthusiasm. They’ve settled into a good routine, and they’ll only get better from here. “Outside of baseball,” Makita tacks on belatedly.

so.... i wrote this fic back in july, so i don't really remember any of my thoughts outside of the notes i have in the doc. but these lines happen during a conversation chihaya and makita have after the second round of the summer tournament in first year, when makita asks chihaya to meet up. the fic is about, like, exploring how the shitty things makita said to chihaya came from a place of hurt and rejection rather than from hating chihaya or resenting him, and about chihaya learning that makita didn't resent him but just wanted to be friends with him. it's about reconciling, to put it simply. it's a short and sweet one too. i think the reason the above passage got cut is twofold

a lot of my early bouba wips have this thing where i. have the narrating character (chihaya or todo, p much) kinda... reflecting on the composition of the team and thinking a nice (and/or snarky) thing about each person. idk why i did it so much. we get it, the team is full of earnest weirdos who are great at baseball or are learning to be great at baseball. the show told us that already, move on. i think the reason this came up in this fic is bc makita has noticed that chihaya is actually friends w his high school team while he wasnt friends w anyone on his and makita's old team, and makita wonders why they weren't good enough. so chihaya thinks about his team and why he's friends with them. i think this paragraph just didnt feel like it really added anything by going specific though. none of these things are like, things makita or others on the old team didn't have tbh. but then to my second reason

"outside of baseball", now that i think about it, doesn't make sense at all in a fic about chihaya. bc 1) we know that one of his biggest problems is trusting people, which is presented to us through the lens of baseball and how he would only rely on himself in crucial moments, rather than being presented to us in terms of his social life in general, and 2) makita doesn't care about things that aren't baseball, and he wouldn't care about whether or not chihaya trusts his team outside of it. he WOULD care so much about whether he trusts them in baseball, bc he didnt trust makita or the rest of that team. but i dont think ANY of this occurred to me when i cut it. but now that i reflect on it i'm glad i did LOL

ok anyways idr what i was talking abt. i found a TON of cut stuff for the todochi/makichi cheating fic too but it was all boring. no wonder it was cut AHAHA

27. your favorite part of the writing process

HM.......... i think..... ok, i don't have much of a "process" other than: write whenever my brain and hands allow me to until either i get hopelessly stuck, or i finish it. if i get stuck i go to some trusty friends and gather thoughts and i discuss deeply with my beta (THAT'S YOU!). and then i work on it more and finish it. editing is generally minimal.

so that said, i think my favorite parts are

when i have an idea take hold so strongly that i spend a day writing multiple thousands of words and end up with a solid chunk of really good shit, ESPECIALLY if i was just endlessly rotating it in my head before but never writing words other than notes. what's better than coming back to ur doc the day after a writing fever like that and seeing all this shit that wasn't there before. IT SLAPS.

actually, having beta discussions is probably my favorite part. it's so fun every time to absolutely dissect the shit out of the plot, or a character, or a paragraph, or even just a sentence. i feel like how i think about writing has transformed so much in a short time bc of this part of the process and it's also made me better at identifying my own goals and intentions etc. it's really fun to really get into it for hours and come out of it with a page full of notes to start plugging away with. i've never stayed stuck after we do this so it really is the best thing ever

ok this got rly long as always but these ones were interesting and took some thought (other than font....) so THANK U ILY

✍️ fic writer asks

[callmeend]

you guys don’t want hate anons

uhhh.. ranting in tags

[escxelle]

i saw an article the other day that had the headline along the lines of 'baldur's gate 3 fans are sad to hear that you there is no lord gortash romance plot' and i'm usually a very open-minded person but... maybe i will second guess the bg3 fans in question...

i was geniunely scared of him when i first had a conversation with him in act 3... he's a creepy, slimey, horrible, disgusting man and yes i know he's fictional but his whole presence just made me nervous, sick even. i can't see why anyone would like him let alone want to romance him...

he's a fantastic villain yes. his actor (idk who he is sorry - please tell me!!) did a wonderful performance, the way that he's written and the story-telling is insanely good but it's because of that excellent performance from the devs, the actor and writers that it just feels too real...

of course, if you're doing an evil playthrough then it makes sense to be nice to him and whatnot but do you really have to romance him too? :/ there was a reason why the game didn't come out with a gortash romance and there's a reason why the devs still aren't putting one in, maybe think about the reasons behind that other than "but he's hot" or something??

[teh-nos]

love when someone has only ever been in one or two giant fandoms where they've been into the popular pairing and they try to comfort other fic writers about how they too have a few fics with only 800000 kudos and it doesn't mean those ones are bad. they read something amazing last week with only 47000 kudos! wow! see how even great fic can do TERRIBLY! perhaps you just wrote something weird and obscure with only 3700000 hits in the first week but don't worry it is sure to hit normal numbers eventually, once the readers find it!

(note: i have picked silly numbers for this post because i don't want to inadvertantly pick a number at random that makes someone feel bad. unless you have 47000 kudos, you fancy bastard.)

[declawedwildcat]

I don't think there's anyone left following me who also followed @brilliant-starlight-deactivated, but apparently they closed her tumblr already so it's the best I've got. I'm sorry to say that she passed away last week on February 6th.

I don't believe she was doing any commission projects anymore, but if she was working on something for you, or if you were a friend who sent gifts you might like back for sentimental reasons, you can get in contact with me and I'll see if there's anything I can do.

[lionbearfox]

so i got hit with some unexpected car expenses recently and i'm thinking of offering some commissions to help offset the costs, but is that something people would actually be interested in/buy?

[triptychofvoids]

I feel like the human building project is still missing something. Maybe another arm or 3, Id be willing to donate

youre right!! honestly, now that medic has managed to bring you guys to life (or, the frankenanon i suppose) hes not too sure what to do with it. for the time being though, he has a ton of leftover material to work with (and i do mean a lot!!) so hes going to start sewing on extra limbs. and we've got an extra jaw, another nervous system, extra organs.... it might be fun to try to put two different brains in there!! lets see what happens!! doing fucked up experiments and evil arts and crafts on you guys now, ok?

[truecorvid]

lord please forgive me i am getting into fights in tiktoks comments again

[byanyan]

okay i am... feeling some kind of motivated today, so i think... i'm gonna just dig all the way down to the bottom of my drafts and work my way up without letting myself overthink about what i'm writing or whether or not it's "good enough" bc that (plus the number of drafts) it what's been really blocking my progress. anything i get done is getting tossed into my (still paused) queue, and... idk. maybe if i make enough progress i'll let the queue start tomorrow, we'll see