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3416 · 1 year ago
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what film are you hoping wins?
it's hard bc i've liked all 6 that i've seen. barbie is def a charity nomination kfljsdklfs... i'd be happy if it were anatomy of a fall, past lives, or oppenheimer tbh. all of those were more captivating than they had any right to be, lol.
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javierduffy · 4 months ago
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silly drawover because i missed them :]
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velvetwyrme · 5 months ago
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Forgive me i do not know much about jazzprowl,,, who are pterrorgal20 and bugboi 😔😔😔
(Is pterrorgal Prowl’s pterodactyl Green?? But then who is bugboi…. I am not sure 😔)
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yes!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ur spot on for both 🥹!!! ahrdjfkkengkebgkebfk,,
Green (Prowls pterodactyl/pet flyt) -> pterrorgal20 (Felicity Greene)
Bob (Sunstreakers insecticon) -> bugboi (Bob)
completely useless detail but i did reference/colourdrop this panel specifically LMAO
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if u look closely theres also. one more person i hinted at, whos name i was even less subtle with but the placement i WAS subtle with so ill just say outright:
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Buster (Thundercracker's dog) is also there EHTJFHRKFJ and she has a silly pic of TC as her pfp LMAO,,
also ur so so valid agrjflfbdkdbfkf,,, im being incredibly biased and self indulgent so it is. a particular niche for sure LMAO. im glad you're enjoying it regardless though :]c!!!
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theloveinc · 1 year ago
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katsuki is such a deep sleeper but once you move to leave the bed suddenly he’s up
asking slurred questions: “w’s wrong? cant sleep?” while trying to grab you and get you back into bed
you just answer “‘m gettin water katsuki lemme go” all groany trying to get out of his hold
he doesn’t let go easy but once he does he follows you through the house into the kitchen. you get yourself a nice cold water bottle with condensation around it(AGGHHH) and drink. like the creep he is he stares at you but you can’t notice bc he’s wrapped himself around your back. you offer his some water and he downs the rest(greedy loser). then you both go back to bed, which katsuki decides to pull you in close and never let go(even if you die of thirst)
anyway love you caitie❤️❤️
All that intense hero training and a whole. entire. war. just for him to be able to go from dead-to-the-world and Snoring to ... ready to run a mile after you around the house..........
Even if all you gotta do is pee, too... you're coming back to bed all groggy eyed to find his wide open, like he was just sitting there, making sure you were going to the bathroom and Nothing Else. Cuz you're right, if it's water, then he's right there beside you the whole time and drinking the whole thing on the way back upstairs (that is, after you manage to get him to let go of your wrist and stop all the get back in bed-ing...for someone who complains about your whining, he's surprisingly? Unsurprisingly? no better).
Please, please, please, for his sake, just keep a full water cup by the side of your bed and make sure to use the bathroom right before laying down, too (even if he's whining about how long you take then also) just so you can stayed wrapped up with him for the max amount of time possible🥺🥺🥺 Doesn't that seem like the best solution?
(^^ don't tell him I snitched, but bakugo told me to write that last bit, btw)
Love u more, anon!!🩷🩷🩷
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fumifooms · 1 year ago
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thanks for infecting me with marchil its so so fun to just see them pair themselves up in the background now
especially love how much she picks him up like a cat (and when he has the opportunity to do it to her too he just lugs her around like a sack of oats) gosh i love them they're so funny
YAAAAAA 🎉🎉 I’m so glad to hear it welcome to the sillies corner 🤝
THEY’RE SOOO SO FUNNY
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They’re worsties that cannot get enough of each other
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faaun · 4 months ago
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said goodbye to him feeling weird!
#hes abt to go skiing w his friend im abt to go back to the uk to an ordinary life#he is perfect and I've felt appreciated none of the time and i think it's not his fault idk#not how racemic compounds work not how amphetamines work not how people work#french suits his mouth but german does a bit more i think . climbed to a very beautiful place#asked him to be my boyfriend then almost took it back yesterday. chemistry is not his strong suit#he carries things for me he catwalks he gives me his jumper when im cold he's good at kissing#he got me a beautiful necklace on a riverside in amsterdam he lights my cigarette with his#he holds my hand and his only complaint about me putting lipstick on his lips is that it wasn't evenly spread#his eyelashes are long and he's sharp and scarily productive and very good at navigation#always on time always the right place . i make a comment about being a beautiful collective and he says yes but it's odd that we havent#received the social benefits of it. what you mean? well when im alone or with friends people just...give me things. flowers baked goods#compliments a pack of cigarettes he says. he asks me if I've ever had to pay for a pack. i felt genuinely SO UGLY like am i. downgrading u?#ppl see me next to you and..what you get negative attractive points? gosh.#unfortunately shutting the fuck up is not my strong suit so i never let that go. he says nooo it's just you are So Gorgeous that you scare#people away. OK!!! he knows he's pretty and he uses this to his full advantage#you're cool and you're friends with all the club bouncers and you take such good care of me and you know#the state secrets and we can scheme murders together and i love that you love your friends#but when i joked we wont get to see each other in months and you said 'so?' that rly did smth very upsetting!!!!#twisting and backtracking is his strong suit but unfortunately seeing it happen is mine#and sometimes it's endearing and sometimes i want to kill him about it. he would be a very good diplomat#who the fuck stumbles gracefully on cliffs? anyway his voice is gentle and he says i don't want you upset#he holds my hands he says lets talk about it please i want you to know i appreciate you#he says all the correct things i believe 0 things out of his mouth and he can tell#i am snappy and terrible and calm. i tell him he's sweet and i want more i want to be missed#SHUTTING THE FUCK UP IS NOT MY STRONG SUIT! would you be ok being just friends? eventually.#and the next day ive decided what to do with you. what is that? you can still be my boyfriend. he says thank you.#walking is our strong suit so we go everywhere. i tell him about my best friend his head looks great thrown backwards#im afraid this is too good for me and I'm also afraid it's not enough. not asking questions is not my strong suit.
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sengenism · 4 months ago
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You don't know how much this blog is affecting my obsession with Sengen.
Like, you made me realize so many things on why Sengen is so cool, amazing and things (I literally cannot put my feelings into words wtf)
Like, they are so similar and different at the same time, they both hide their feelings behind a marks carefully crafted by them and how they both would immediately see behind eachothers mask.
I'm literally not okay that ending/sequel is so Senkaku coded, I mean cool ship but I really don't see chemistry behind them, but ignore that.
And, and, I don't see enough people taking about it but only Senku and Gen (and Byakuya) have dual coloured hair.
I think they are soulmates but because it's a Shounen jump they were afraid of the gays.
Anyways, thank you for your blog and for feeding my Sengen delusion, I love you and continue being cool.
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OH MY GOD AN ASKKKK!!!!!! THANKS ANON <3333
i understand not being able to put feelings into words because same i have so many thoughts on sengen in my drafts but it's so hard to make it all... proper-y
and one of the things is the dual coloured hair thingy!! i've noticed that and it's just sitting in my notes here like:
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they are complete opposites and yet so similar. they match each other's freak so badly it gets on my nerves and everyone else's. like there's so many little things about sengen that one can elaborate about, which makes me think inagaki-sensei put a lot of thought into their dynamic?
for example, shoes. gen goes from barefoot (representing tsukasa's side, as tsukasa is also barefoot. minami, tsukasa's #1 fan is also barefoot) to wearing matching shoes with senku for winter (as far as i'm aware, only taiju and yuzuriha, senku's best friends, share the same shoe style, so it can be inferred that senku made the shoes for gen. although, nikki's is similar but slightly different too) to going barefoot again after winter, then finally officially wearing the senku shoes post treasure island arc. shoes/outfits/designs really say A LOT about the characters in dr stone imo and we need to talk about it more (boichi clearly puts a lot of story details into the design!) like the villagers wearing the same shoes/colour etc... oh i could go on and on.
so yeah definitely– senku, byakuya and gen being the only characters with dual coloured hair is something to discuss! i feel like gen is highly involved in the top best byakuya story lore moments honestly but that might just be me and my sengen goggles on idk lol
as for the extra chapters, i honestly just kinda ignore the senhaku in it?? LMAO like they made it easy to ignore since the scenes were just a few pages and not really continual. that being said, i don't mind senhaku and i think it's a decent ship which would be fun if explored romantically, but yeah i personally see them as like... cousins or something. not only senku and kohaku tbh, but senku and all the villagers are in some sort of relative-y relationship in my eyes because it's hard to remember that senku and byakuya are not biologically related when they look like carbon copies of each other lbr
thanks for the ask! u sound really cool too idk if i should be happy about spreading mass delusion but i am and we can meet at the ward :D
#also i feel like they really dont commit to that ship at all#like for the ship that theyre pushing to be semi canon-y... they're not putting any effort in it sidhkddj#they would have big shippy romantic moments#but they would also go nahhh it's not like that!!! too#like what the hell sure#honestly ive said this before but i kinda thought theyd go real canon by the end of the manga#since it's... as u said... shounen jump lol#half surprised it didnt#and half not surprised bc the team is super aware of their fanbase#like the amount of sngn merch says as much lmaoooo#personally i think inagaki sensei doesnt care abt ships at all#like he isnt bothered by sngn or whatever#and he sure does welcome the cash lolololol#me if i was an author tbh i too would milk a ship if it was popular#something gen and senku would do too#imagine reconstruction era and theyre making films of senku's life and journey to revive all of humanity#and then sngn becomes a thing in their world bc fujoshis will thrive no matter the era....#and then senku n gen who r desperate for dragos to fund whatever new side science project they're on#would so do fanservice for more dragos#like senku would be gritting his teeth and against it but he'd do it still and no one would bat an eye at senku's disgust in all the moments#bc that's just senku being senku#meanwhile gen would be so flawless he'd do double the work and pull it off#anyways im running off topic lol#tbh if i had to ship smth that wasnt sngn id ship snk/luna and gen/khku#btw THANKS FOR THE ASK IM SO HAPPY THAT U LIKE MY BLOGGG#i get worried abt how much i yap on here but it's comforting to know that it's ok!! thanks i love u too#:D#ask!
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noctunis · 13 days ago
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hi hi tell me what games you've played and your fave characters bc i love games n hearing about them :]
you have no idea how happy these sorta questions make me, i love getting asked about my interests n about me ! ヽ(*´∀`)
i’ve played a loooot of games so i can’t list all of them but i will definitely list my favorites ;
rdr — arthur morgan, john marston, charles smith, javier escuella, molly o’shea, abigail roberts, hosea matthews, mary-beth gaskill, kieran duffy,
ffvii - cloud strife, zack fair, angeal hewley, genesis rhapsodos, sephiroth, tifa lockhart
ffxv - noctis lucis caelum, ignis scientia, cindy, lunafreya
mortal kombat - mileena, kitana, johnny cage, cassie cage, sonya blade, skarlet, erron black, jade, tanya, nightwolf, kenshi, reptile, takeda takahashi, smoke
resident evil - leon kennedy, jill valentine, carlos oliveira, luis serra, ethan winters, ashley graham, alcina dimitrescu
overwatch - cole cassidy (jesse mccree), hanzo shimada, mercy (angela ziegler), sombra, lifeweaver, orisa, d.va (hana song)
telltale twdg - clementine, lee, kenny, ben, nick, luke, javier, kate, marlon, mitch, louis, aasim, violet
fear and hunger (+ term.) - cahara, d’arce, the girl, le’garde, daan, levi, henryk, abella, pavel
dead or alive - marie rose, hayate, kokoro, leifang, kasumi
honkai star rail - sunday, jing yuan, anaxagoras, stelle, gepard, argenti, firefly, dan heng, sampo, phainon, aglaea, cipher, mydei, castorice, luocha
mystic messenger - jaehee, 707, zen, vanderwood,
obey me - mammon, barbatos, simeon, beezlebub
detroit become human - connor, gavin reed, kara, luther, sumo, hank anderson
life is strange - max caulfield, nathan prescott, warren graham
thank u for asking my lovely! took some remembering and some brain power thinking of these off the top of my head lolol
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hows-itgoagain · 2 months ago
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i got a shit score on a test this morning and was Upset and ended up drawing this to cope so have some landot i suppose 🙏 also there’s dialogue that i’ll write under the cut
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“this makes absolutely zero sense.”
“yeah i… i dunno.”
“it’s pissing me off. why the hell did Orter make me do this??”
“‘cause he sucks?”
“… yeah, that might be it.”
“i’m gonna tell him you said that”
“you said it first.”
“that’s besides the point!”
“…”
“you doin’ alright?”
“this is giving me a headache, and i’m tired.”
“that checks out. it’s too late for this.”
“mm.”
“do you want me to make you tea?”
“… yes, please.”
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pcktknife · 1 year ago
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what do you think about the newest penacony story patch in hsr?
penacony numero uno. actually the best arc out of the 3 so far but sunday should kill himself*
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starflungwaddledee · 2 years ago
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Okay you gave me permission so now it's time to go fully autistic
*inhale*
So something I'm really interested in (mostly for my Bandee x Marx bias) is that comic with Marx and Bandee interacting, like, what's their relationship in this au, how'd they get to that point and heck, what was even happening? also it kinda seems like Bandee may be the main guy in this au or is just really important which makes me happy as Bandee isn't treated the best by Nintendo at all (hell, Sakrai said he didn't add Bandee into smash because he didn't like him) so seeing Bandee get the spotlight always brings me joy
And about the Meta and Galacta comic, it seems like Bandee plays a factor here too, with the mention of him being what gets the most reaction out of Meta and that makes sense because canonically Bandee is the weakest of the four and most likely to die quite easily, so it would make sense for the others to be protective of him
ALSO META BEING SEALED AWAY AND GALACTA SAYING HE'LL TAKE GOOD CARE OF, I'M ASSUMING BANDEE, DOES THAT MEAN GALACTA TAKES META'S PLACE??? HELLO???
anyway hi im really invested and also your art is fucking astounding
hell yea, fully autistic! the best kind of message! thank you also for the sweet words about my artwork ahhh! but hoo boy isn't this The Ask Ever. okay, let's get into it!
Bandee is, i think maybe obviously, my most specialist little guy ever and everything i make is likely about him in one way or another. so you're correct that he is indeed the main guy in both these AUs; he is the central protagonist which i think he deserves!!
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(but he does also go through the angst blender a bit, just like... a warning. i adore happy endings but before that i do tend to meat-grind my faves pretty well in the drama machine.)
clockwork heart is actually a spin-off of awtdy (we do a little AU-ception in my household) which is our* primary au. (*a lot of my au work and headcanons are fleshed out very collaboratively with my girlfriend! the initial concept for awtdy was her idea, which i then very meanly shoved my bandee-important agenda into lmao)
awtdy sets this basic alternate world-state: during the Haltmann invasion, Galacta Knight defeats Meta Knight in battle and makes a wish on Star Dream to trade places.
this causes all sorts of terrible fun problems for everybody and basically gives rise to a bad timeline that a lot of folks do not come out of intact (rip floralia)
the Meta Knight vs Galacta Knight comic covers an important turning point in the story, where Meta Knight lets slip that he cares about Bandee the way he cares for Kirby. Meta Knight has an especially strong reaction to this for two reasons:
one is because, as you said, of the three remaining heroes Bandee is the most vulnerable-- seasoned and experienced fighter he may be, but against someone like Galacta Knight? 💦 he's still ultimately just a mortal dude. this obviously puts him at terrible risk, because Galacta Knight also considers him far more expendable than Kirby.
"i'll take good care of him" is transparently a threat and not actually... you know, kind.
secondly is because (unbeknownst to Galacta Knight) Bandee uniquely remembers Meta Knight. he knows that the timeline is screwed up and Galacta Knight is not meant to be there, and is actively working to rescue his real mentor. Meta Knight knows that if he's found out, Galacta Knight won't hesitate to kill him.
suffice to say the guilt of this would drive him capital i Insane!
as for the Marx "hurt like hell" comic, I am actually sorry to have to tell you that that scene is their first ever interaction in this au! 😂 in this alternate version of the story Marx is also aware of the timeline fuckery (due to his existence as an eldritch, temporal little creature) and he tracks Bandee down late in the game with a risky trade offer; which Bandee refuses. that's what's pictured in the comic!
it goes on for quite a long ways after that; though I don't know if it'll tickle your ship dynamic quite right because Marx is mildly antagonistic towards Bandee (and everyone) the whole time. so while they are cursed to be Stuck Together By The Narrative they are not really close or even particularly friendly.
they do indeed interact in it quite a lot, and I personally think Marx would gladly shoot his shot if he was offered it; but Bandee is neck-deep in a different ship for the entirety of awtdy and is especially miserable/pining as hell throughout clockwork heart.
but that's okay because Bandee is, uh-- totally fine!! he's normal. he's fine. he's very very fine and things will be very very okay.
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mohntilyet · 8 months ago
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bats eyelashes do you have any resources on tyche’s backstory. if not would you like to talk about her <3 anything about her in fact <3 i love her so and i especially love her with lucanis even though i know she is going through the horrors tm as soon as veilgaurd ends and she has to deal with his whole crow family. feel free to talk about her emotions over that whole ordeal too because I’m very interested in it and I like your thoughts about how it would down!! just shaking my cup at you atp spare tyche pls. much love!!
tyche is. yeah. “i’m the only normal person here” is a thought she has had multiple times throughout this game and it’s only true to an extent. because everyone else around her just leads very intense lives. a woman who thinks the only way out is through but instead of finding a path out she thinks she can just chainsaw her way out of the hedge maze if it gets her to her destination faster. chronically unable to say “i love you” and avoids getting attached. this whole thing was meant to parallel solas a little and the talk they have in the fade where she’s like “…was there nobody in the inquisition you care about” is almost desperate. solas picks up on that like it’s a surprise tool that will him him later
(rest under the cut because i literally just keep going sorry anon)
particularly, a big thing for her is her family, her life in rivain, and how she spends most of this game tearing herself up about it and refusing to get them involved in this ‘saving the world’ bullshit she’s doing. woman who writes to her mother and says “everything is fine. this is the easiest job i’ve ever done. the elven gods are stupid as fuck btw” and the letter is about weisshaupt LOL .. one of the craziest things in vg for me was finding out just how many personal quests involved the companion’s families, because the more she saw her friends lose the more it solidified this idea in her mind that she has done the right thing by isolating her family. she’s usually very direct but this is the one thing she’s very touchy about.
the ‘tevinter slave’ thing that a lord of fortune rook mentions to me is a full out lie told by tyche so no one goes digging into her business. she originally went into this thinking “they less we know about each other, the better. i have a life to get back to after this” and then fails miserably at trying to stay detached and finds herself really liking everyone AND fully inserts herself into their business. she can’t just hear things like “my brother is being manipulated” “my mom doesn’t care about me” “my grandmother is gone” “my baby skeleton son who has done no wrong” “the dwarves need us” “i have to save the griffons. the identity crisis doesn’t matter so much” “i love my hometown and i can’t save it” etc etc and not desperately want to do something to help
sort of meta wise as well because people have critiqued how it’s always rook helping, but not the companions asking rook if they need anything. not to me. not if that was on purpose. a kind of, “i can fix this, and then we can all go home. because that’s what i want, of course. nevermind how these guys have changed my life. i’m sure the hole in my heart doesn’t mean anything”. AND its HEAVY on the lucanis romance. every moment she spends with him, the worse she falls in love, and the more she’s convinced there’s nothing but tragedy to come when he leaves her for the crows. the nuclear level fallout that almost occurs when lucanis says he’ll stay with her as long as he can hold off the crows is so bad. she takes her own duties so seriously and doesn’t expect herself to be what changes things, for anyone. not even necessarily because of low self esteem, but that she is the most pragmatic woman alive, and to a fault <3
you can imagine the weeks when she’s trapped in the fade prison when her family actually shows up like “minrathous just got nuked and my daughter is nowhere to be seen. something has to be wrong. what the fuck happened” and everyone gets about a month to come to terms with the fact that tyche has lied for the better part of a year (not sure about veilguard timeline. i think its minimum 4 months) and unfortunately have to find out a lot more about her through her siblings, and get to stew on that information for a while. i picture awkward conversations and maybe some bickering, and it’s lucanis who is like “well right now she’s dead. so can we focus on getting her back so we can actually talk with her?” <- man who bared his whole life to her and found out she didn’t do the same. i love self sabotage. i think they have a very long talk when she gets back, and the last minute sex has to be shifted a bit in my mind to make some room for what tyche assumes will be a break up speech that turns into a declaration of love and patience. this rewires her brain
aaand the crow stuff (sorry it has taken so long to get here) makes more sense to everyone and how tyche has reacted when they see how much of a unit her family is. tyche can’t picture the kind of betrayal and fighting because she has never experienced it. there’s probably some longing from lucanis here (🌀🌀 oooh you wanna leave your fucked up home sooo bad 🌀🌀) . illario in particular to her is absolutely unthinkable, and despite my adoration for him, tyche hates his guts <3 she also is very close with her grandma and doesn't at all understand caterina, but she's also primed to expect the best from family and it doesn't totally compute what caterina has done until lucanis (or illario. the angst potentials of it coming from illario compel me) actually spells it out for her and then the family dinners get REALLY bad
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lesbianfakir · 9 months ago
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Hello! I'm a big fan of your princess tutu fic, do you ever plan on updating it?
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa anon I’m like. People leave nice comments so I know they like my fic but it feels WILD to realize hey people like my fic. So thank you that’s very sweet!
As for updating I got distracted by a big family emergency and ever since I just haven’t been that excited about tutu… but I have a lot of fun writing this story and I do want to finish. I have the next chapter fully written I just need to edit it, I can try to get that edited and posted in the next few days
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strawberryrhubarbs · 21 days ago
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if I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a thousand times; any weird old man who comments on my face mask at my job should have to pay me $25
#$45 during pride month#BC TELL ME WHY ITS ALWAYS OLD WHITE MEN OF A CERTAIN AGE#like. do you need to be muzzled so u don’t make comments abt what other people choose to do and not do with their lives#it’s always so fucking rude or passive aggressive as well!!!! some guy literally POINTED at me like I was a zoo animal like?????????#one guy genuinely asked if I found myself getting sick less so that guy is fine#bc it came from a place of curiousity instead of ridicule#and I do get sick less!!! I work retail so I see a LOT of people in one day#and ppl are freaking gross!!!!!#but yeah idk what the fuck the old white man population’s problem is with face coverings#esp since they are in a compromised group for covid#but for me I can’t help but equate those statements with being a tr*mp supporter and tbh I’m probably not far off!!!!#it’s probably going to happen a lot more bc we are entering busy season but it STILL pisses me off#so I’m just going to make them feel as awkward as humanly possible without being rude back#the guy who pointed at me I was just like ‘was there anything I could help you with’ and he looked like a deer in headlights#or even better i just stare at them and say nothing in response#And SO MANY OF THEM ARE LIKE ‘do they make you wear that’ and I’m like ‘no I just prefer to’ and they’re like ….oh#anyway all of them should have to pay me money and also should have to step on legos as penance#bc as someone I love likes to say it costs 0 dollars to have a normal interaction#and I also don’t get paid enough to be pestered abt why I care about my health and other people’s health#anyway thank u for coming to my ted talk <3 it just makes me SO MAD LMAO#if anyone has any ideas about what I can say / do to make the interaction awkward without doing anything that could get me in trouble w#my managers PLEASE let me know
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faebriel · 1 year ago
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I thought it was interesting what you said re the for good nonnie, and I’m really curious on what you mean when you say c!rainduo never fully understood each other. Would love to hear abt that!
yea for sure!! honestly it's a big factor of how i personally interpret their relationship. i don't have the vods on hand so this is gonna need an element of "trust me bro" but it's there
i think wilbur and niki were very good friends, but there were fundamental things to how they each operate that the other never really... grasped? it's something that isn't always explicitly said in canon, but always stands out to me. some parts aren't exclusive to just them, but it forms this broader pattern that spans them from day 1 to the end of the server.
the starting key to all this is the manberg-pogtopia era - wilbur is exiled, niki offers help, and he asks her to stay. there's a really telling interaction imo when wilbur and tommy are scampering around manberg (i think they were stealing supplies iirc?) and wilbur and niki have a conversation over in-game chat. wilbur asks niki to stay in manberg, and niki responds in-chat that she will, but she's visibly upset by the response and mumbles as such to herself afterwards. and after that, wilbur kind of falls into a mental pit, and he stops considering niki's safety in manberg until she is literally about to die right in front of him. and then he doesn't explain the "let's blow up manberg" plan at all, so niki is left with the realisation that wilbur tried to blow up manberg, presumably with her in it, without knowing just how quickly he sabotaged his own plan to save one of her lives...
and on niki's side, she's in the same box as everyone else when it comes to not understanding wilbur's issues in pogtopia. she agrees with fundy on nov 16 that wilbur has changed, and he's not the same wilbur from l'manberg anymore - she's still loyal to him, but she (like everyone else) doesn't really piece together that wilbur is suffering from mental problems that have spanned back to the presidency. he's just changed. he's not the same wilbur who was her friend (even if she still looks out for him the same way).
then when niki unearths the TNT underneath the presidential podium, she doesn't say anything or actively try to seek wilbur out (although they were all pretty quickly distracted by techno) - she trusts him, but she doesn't understand that wilbur has been giving off suicidal red flags all day (two of them explicitly onscreen, towards her - leading her to mushroom and giving her the blue, and arguably whatever happened with that coat offscreen) and that wilbur going missing right as she discovers the TNT is there and ready to blow is a massive, massive danger sign. and i mean, why would she. like everyone else, she thought that they won and that there was no reason why wilbur would want to destroy the place anymore. she didn't get quite how far he had spiraled.
it's that seed of misunderstanding that lets niki's feelings fester from doomsday onward. wilbur didn't kill himself, he abandoned her. it wasn't because he was dealing with suicidality, paranoia, delusions and pretty steep mood changes, it was because he actually never cared about her or anyone and all he cares about is chaos and destruction and he always thought she was a stupid, foolish dog at his heel. ghostbur's existence is an offence that tips her entire perception of what is real and what isn't. and when the target of niki's anger - tommy - is killed and revived, she has to shift all that unresolved grief and anger and misunderstanding onto the specter of wilbur.
starting to get into more fanon territory, i think wilbur puts niki on a bit of a pedestal. pre-death, even pre-spiral, the thought that she may struggle in manberg - that she's physically safe (which let's be honest, she was not) and that she will be fine - doesn't even cross his mind. despite being good friends, he never goes to her with his stress and worries as president. post-revival, he hems and haws over his apology to her for weeks before he makes it, and ironically he's been out of her life for so long that he doesn't even know she tried to murder his little brother. niki is a bit more proactive, but she doesn't understand wilbur's nature - largely, she doesn't understand his struggles with mental health (and he never shared them before pogtopia, and in pogtopia he was a whole other kettle of fish, so why would she?) and how it influences his behaviour. wilbur does a lot of shitty things, he does a lot of scheming, but he's never directly trying to fuck her over in the way she comes to believe he did. she was collateral. and that is it's own kind of pain, but it's not the mustache-twirling kind of disdain that she seems to think he had for her at doomsday and when she responds to news of his revival.
anyway. i think that wilbur's apology to her stripped back some of those misunderstandings between them (esp because niki had gone through her own mental health gauntlet by then, and come out with a stronger support network for it), but it was moreso about re-establishing that despite everything else, they still care for one another and that's what important.
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clowniconography · 2 months ago
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sorry that there are people in your inbox
it's wild lol i didn't realize that posting the exact same opinion i have before but with hatsune miku this time would get people so riled up
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