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midzilla · 2 months ago

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In lieu of the all inspiring text posts and videos I've been seeing lately across my feed, all I want to do is lay in bed - depressed, overwhelmed and unable to even imagine how to improve a single aspect of my life.

#mid.txt #part of me thinks I should try and talk to someone but honestly? that seems like it would make things worse #anyways time to lay down for a bit

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sforzesco · 1 year ago

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listen. listen, there's a kind of intimacy in having a dedicated rivalry, okay. who else is going to know you like this!!! also it's funny

Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini

Julius II: The Warrior Pope, Christine Shaw

and on della rovere’s soldier comment:

Popes, Cardinals and War: The Military Church in Renaissance and Early Modern Europe, D.S. Chambers

and finally! regarding the delightful Mess of political-family relationships, including the marriage comment (altho the montefeltro family that giovanni married into did have sforza family ties, since giovanna's mother was battista sforza, but this is about the more immediate alliance based relationship and della rovere's hand in the rejection of a milanese match for his brother. and. this is not even remotely a serious comic, but now I am once again thinking about insular all these families are. the fucking medicis are here too, if you go half a step to the left on della rovere's family tree)

Julius II: The Warrior Pope, Christine Shaw

Giulio II, Il papa del Rinascimento, Giulio Busi (Bianca Maria Visconti is Ascanio's mom. btw)

panel inserts of the cards they're playing with are all from the Visconti-Sforza tarot deck! (I used public domain scans/photos for the comic itself)

ko-fi!⭐ bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost ⭐ cara.app

#weeping. ascanio's dialogue covers up della rovere's sleeve collar. i spent all that time drawing details on it and FOR WHAT #(it was fun)#there was another deleted bit where ascanio has some petty line like 'i bet arguing makes you hard' but then i realized #that's something that lucullus would probably say to crassus and also i need to set that line up for ascanio #we gotta. we gotta character build (lays down face in the ground) we have to provide the character set up for it #it's really more of a line for cesare to drop at some point over how much rodrigo and ascanio argued #shout out to the time rodrigo threatened to throw ascanio into the tiber river or that time ascanio like. decided to physically get into #a fight with juan borgia #and they were still gambling partners after that????? damn okay. sometimes the vice chancellor can be (checks note) im not finishing #that statement #komiks tag #italian renaissance tag #ascanio sforza #giuliano della rovere #i WILL get a relationship dynamic tag for them once i can figure out something punchy and fun. anyway!#ehgh. I NEED. to go to milan. and go thru the archives. let me in. LET ME INNNNNNNNN

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xxplastic-cubexx · 7 months ago

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Hope you're feeling better, Snap. Good luck with your finals! :)

SO IM FEELING MUCH BETTER NOW FOR SURE

#fave #art on the fridge #snap chats #BESTIE. //PTERANODON SCREECH//#I JUUUST ANSWERED YOUR EMAIL AND WENT TO OPEN TUMBLR AND THEN I HAD TO LAY DOWN #and then when i got up from laying down i paced my room for a good two minutes i think. im a professional pacer....#i keep coming back to type these tags but then getting up to go to the corner of my room and then coming back and repeating the process #CHARLES COMBAT OUTFIT MY BELOVED i blacked out. hi #let it be known i do acknowledge erik as well ... i just have to do so like an embarrassed school girl. as i do.#and go to the shadow corner. i do have to stand there a bit before coming back to giggle and then go back cjaLVKAJV #how sweet 🥰 must be a good day for erik to be so nice 🙂 so nice of him .......... 🙂eehehehe........#have i exhausted how im gonna look at this for the rest of the day yet no i dont think i have. im gonna look at this for the rest of the da #OPEN ON THE PHONE. while i rework this final ...... like a sailor lost at sea with nothing but a locket of his wife to keep him company..#except instead of the sea its articles about the fashion industry ..... wtf they got me doin in business 😭😭#sorry scrolled up and i felt my soul go dokidoki. i will be doing this many times throughout the day #THANK YOU SO MUCH BESTIE FOR ALL YOU DO this truly picked up my mood today 🥺#cherik save me ..... whats most funny is that roses Do Be In Fact my favorite flower 🤧🤧#SOME SAY BASIC i say so am i..... an iconic flower for a reason idc. ... . .. also bluebells but thats cause of viva pinata...#ANYWAY. i have staring to do. THANK YOU AGAIN BESTIEEEE //combusts//

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lanternlightss · 6 months ago

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actually i want to talk about my fic to cradle your heart for a moment because !!! there is a very significant importance about the ending of it, when venti was blinded.

one.) is that he notes his friend leaving first—venti was fully, one hundred percent, half-assing this fight. he could have finished that fight as quickly as it started, but what would that have done? what message would that send? his friend knows he is going against a god, one that used to be his friend, one that he is scrambled to keep hating. and the god the bard knew before Loomed, venti wants to be on the same leveling with the bard. venti is more so focused on the bard’s well being than his own at this point—besides, anything will simply regenerate itself, so there is not much to worry about anyway! (and. well. how that worked out.)

two.) the braids being cut off? that was a calculated move on the bard’s part. such an important and integral part of both their designs, this was bard’s attempts at rejecting venti’s gentle words and offerings. this was him saying, “there will only be one of us to do this, and it will not be you.” this was him lighting and adding to the fire to burn the bridge between them.

#there is also significance in where the bard HAD struck #at the cape. the chest. the thigh #where his wings sprout from in archon form and where his tattoos lay #the one to his wrist was a move made in frustration—the bard aims again for the area around his throat after #i ALSO wanted to get across that even though this was half asses from vens point—the fact that bard could keep up at ALL was impressive #he planned an overthrow !!! he will not win. but he will not go down without hits of his own weakening his opponent #i tried to get that across with him being a bit attuned to the anemo—such as the Near hit to when ven teleported himself behind the bars #the swinging in between the small gaps of teal #that bard 🫵 the wind is fond of #even still ….#anyways uh 🙏 got brainrot and wanted to infodump about . my own fic 😭#“why did ven not teleport out in time #for the blade” his friend !!! crying !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was got off guard. let the wall down for a moment #by the time the bard had the sword up to swing ven was still looking at the tears #bard vc why do you love me so much …. stop this immediately #<- feeling horrendous amounts of mixed guilt and sadness and Anger and despair woo hooo !!!!#lantern says stuff #wow there’s a lot of typos in tags. it is 1am sorry

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alexjcrowley · 7 months ago

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I feel like yesterday I had a conversation worthy of a Tumblr shitpost and I can't get it out of my mind. But I really wish I could, get it out of my mind. It was harmless, it was amongst friends, but it was so fucking cursed that even if the words used were indeed in the bible they should edit them out because they don't belong there anymore. They have been tainted forever.

#and we were both sober and not on drugs but jesus christ #what the fuck #how did I retroactively traumatised myself with something I came up with #it was pure shitpost but sometimes even that reaches a level where it's like 'you know what I should go out of the house and lay down #on the grass'#I crave grass. I need to get whatever the fuck was that out of my mind.#you know what? There is something as too much commitment to the bit.#and I usually stop this stuff before time because I can genuinely get tired of coming up with absurd shit #and this time I didn't for reasons (?) I genuinely wanted to see how far we could push it and if my friend would stop #he fucking didn't. The conversation ended on the fucking bit and we were both like 'hey what the fuck was that about'#anyway never dragging the bit for so long again.#maybe it's just because I am tired like if I had a decent ampunt of sleep yesterday today I wouldn't he even thinking about it but #I woke up with the memory of that conversation likr a bad hangover

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thisbrilliantsky · 1 year ago

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first time ever fainting and it happened at 1am when i am home alone and on the other side of the house from my phone. dont especially love that for me!

#PLS DONT WORRY i am fine. i think it was standing up quickly while watching a lifeguard rescue video asdghk #my rescue career nipped in the bud!!#i was in the kitchen having just let puppy outside when my vision started greying out and i became dizzy #i was able to sit down and then lay down on the floor before i actually passed out #i was only out for a few seconds i think but i did actually lose consciousness bc for a moment i didnt know why i was on the floor :|#but it mustve only been a second or two bc puppy was still sniffing me #i broke out in a cold sweat and just laid there for a couple minutes (& puppy laying next to me) and now im completely fine #but that was a bit scary. i gotta say. that's never happened to me before.#ive had some close calls a couple times when getting blood drawn but this was so sudden slghjlskhgj #in the video i was watching they were rescuing a girl with a spinal injury :\ and she was screaming in pain :\#the other rescues in the video were mostly wholesome and then that suddenly happened :\#in case anyone was wondering whether i would be helpful in a medical emergency! pls do not count on me alsdghksdlg #my sisters know this already unfortch #ANYWAY i will not be watching those anymore. im going to watch some baby animal videos or smth now and go to bed

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skrunksthatwunk · 7 months ago

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would be really cool if my mood ever stopped vacillating wildly between high-anxiety self-loathing despair mixed with bonesludge ennui and wowie!!! gosh im such a cute giggler i looooooove picking flowers and skipping!!!!! isn't life so grand? :D within the span of a few minutes. girl slow down. pump the brakes there kid bc this thing sure as shit didn't come with a seatbelt

#it's kind of exhausting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to have that be happening all the time!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i want to lay on the floor and ruminate so bad rn but i have work to do like always #fear save me from my apathy once again pls so i can get back on track. we're nearly there okay we got this go team #(<- fucking bluffing so hard im seeing stars)#it does certainly create the impression that i only feel okay when ive got something key jangling reality away #but tbh i think that might just be the bonesludge talking. at least for SOME of it yk #like i definitely do that the bonesludge has a point for some of it but not all of it #you're missing out on some nuance there my good bonesludge #anyway i would like to just turn down my emotions a little bit maybe. just a little bit all of them thank you #ok maybe not the happiness i do like that. not to pick favorites but that one's pretty good #but the feeling visceral guilt and horror and shame at the mildest implied incrimination for hours to days afterwards? bad!#the despair and hopelessness and anguish of simply being alive?? yikes!!! please be nice to me body brain neurochemicals etc im begging you

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steinbit · 1 year ago

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i can't believe it.. . . i actually officially just handed in my thesis... .

#ofc everything that could go wrong went wrong #i've been on the verge of tears for like two hours straight now lol i've just been that stressed :'^)#i had to call the student service office like literally 5 mins before the due time because nothing was fucking working #luckily they allowed me to just send all my documents over email for them to upload manually but still #im not really happy with the results and i even forgot to include some of my own fucking work in it like Holy Fuck HOW #AND i didn't finish all the schematics i needed 😭😭😭 and the ones i DID finish are really really bare bones.. .. .#there are also a TON of stupid little writing mistakes everywhere and the formatting could have been So Much Better #BUT !! ! ! IT IS DONE!! ! IT IS DELIVERED!! !!!!! !!#now i just have to see if it pass muster and then defend it in front of the examiners and supervisors aND THEN DONE FINITO #anyways i'm gonna go eat something and then lay down a bit ✌#does fish make noise??

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forgotten-daydreamer · 10 months ago

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vent moment but my health is a bit worse than i let on, which is weird ik since it seems like complain about it all the time here, and apparently i also look sick, because two separate people in their 40s or 50s asked me, 24, if i needed their seat on the bus. kind of them. but humiliating nonetheless.

#medical stuff cw #i sat on the steps instead of taking their seat #vent cw #i have to take five different pills a day excluding birth control which i also take for health reasons but okay #i have to thank italy for its healthcare system because at least i dont have to pay a fuckton for all that stuff. except birthcontrol.#as i may have mentioned they found quite a bit of blood in my piss so im getting tested for ��️cancer✨️#also because i've been having health issues which might be rated #my blood work is all off but i didnt get tested for tumoral cells specifically because i may have 'just' an autoimmune condition #so im on heavy duty antibiotics too now bc i also developed antibiotic resistance last year. anyway.#i need to take those and then they'll test my peepee again but this time they will also test explicitly for tumoral cells #because something is off and my previous blood work didnt point out what exactly #terrible anemia and other slightly-off numbers that however shouldnt be off considering my lifestyle #i eat almost everything. drink plenty of water. exercise. barely smoke. not even drinking anymore. i'm not too fat nor too skinny.#so. some of the numbers that are off dont really have a reason to be off which is why they are testing my blood and piss for cancer #but like. in 3 weeks because i have to take antibiotics and iron meds (not supplements. meds.) first #so my mind's trying to convince itself that i dont have a tumor. but what if i do? i know i dont. but not knowing makes me go insane #also i have to get tested for heart disease because that motherfucker is not working properly. doesnt pump enough blood to my brain.#i took an ekg and it came back pretty normal except for tachycardia #now i have to go get an holter ekg - but was told to wait until uni starts again bc i need that exam to be done when i have a daily routine #so basically they slap electrodes and shit on me for 24 hrs while i go do my shit around the city and then see how my heart behaved #because i cant stand without struggling to breathe and sometimes it happens when in laying down to.#sometimes i cant fall asleep because i cant breathe #at first the doc thought it might be a reflux issue but not. all good on that front.#so. we'll see. and i mean. i KNOW it's not cancer. like. i'd be dead by now bc i've been having these symptoms for five months #however. i dont know if it's not an autoimmune disease. and if it is? what am i gonna do?

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tam--lin · 6 months ago

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kinda crushed it on the indoor boogie board/kneeboard/surf simulator today, and am unreasonably proud about it

#I was cruising laying down and the attendant was encouraging me to go to my knees #So I pulled up but lemme tell you. The balance is different from kneeboarding.#Almost lost my entire swimsuit and got knocked around a bit and fully flushed ny sinuses with chlorine #I used to be SO freaked out about water up my nose. Still dont love it.#But I did the Water Guarantee Up Your Nose activity anyway. And wiped out. And then got up and finished my time!#Indoor waterpark on Christmas was a great idea if I do say so myself #Tam.txt

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guinevereslancelot · 1 year ago

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kitty laying on my legs btw 🥺❤️

#the most snuggly she gets is sometimes at bedtime she lays on my legs #ONE time she let me hold her it was the best most special moment of my life #she lets me pick her up sometimes but she doesnt like it she's just a really good girl and endures it #but as soon as i put her down she runs away #but posy pretty often lays on my legs at bedtime for a bit #pumpkin is properly snuggly with my mom and brother after i have gone to bed but pretends shes not my cat and never snuggles me :(#so posy snuggles means so much 2 me 😭#pumpkinnjas snuggled me like three times in the past year since getting posy #and even before that i was never her favorite person so snuggle #anyway i love her w my whole heart #kitty tag

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silhouettecrow · 2 years ago

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365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 331

Adjective: Old-Fashioned

Noun: Posy

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Old-Fashioned: in or according to styles or types no longer current or common, or not modern; (of a person or their views) favoring traditional and usually restrictive styles, ideas, or customs

Posy: a small bunch of flowers; (archaic) a short motto or line of verse inscribed inside a ring

#hello yes i am late again #i would have been earlier (not on time but earlier) but i lay down on the couch a bit ago and fell asleep on accident #just like i did last night #(except that was in bed that time)#my day wasnt too busy or anything but i did sort a lot of our new and old magic cards #i also worked on an art piece and looked at some jobs #(im still waiting to hear back about a few but i dont want to risk ending up not getting a job with one of them if i just keep waiting)#my girlfriend and i also watched more orphan black #i suspect we will finish this season within a week (especially since we only have six episodes left atm)#im excited to see what my girlfriend think about the following episodes #anyway this is another rather straightforward prompt #but like (i think) ive said before sometimes those are the most fun to work with #also i had no idea about the archaic definition of 'posy' and i love archaic definitions especially this one #so i think i may look at that one for my poem #however im planning on taking 'old-fashioned' in a antique or heirloom type of direction regardless of how i interpret 'posy'#im interested in and excited about exploring all of that #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least #*thinks

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flatstarcarcosa · 2 years ago

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what asshole got super fucking high and left dirty dishes and trash all over this bedroom, huh

#txt.txt #this is a joke #i don't think i would have slept any better if i hadn't bc heyo why's my back Doing This again #anyway.#even though i still feel tired i feel SIGNIFICANTLY less stressed and insane about it #haven't decided if i'm gonna try and be awake for a bit or just lay back down and it doesn't matter #bc i can do whatever the fuck i feel like doing without explaining myself to anyone or having to get up 500 times!

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trashyandtiredsol · 2 years ago

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The jist of my fainting experience in the tags here!! Long as hell

Feel free to tell me more about it

#the first one which was actually 2 was one right after the other #i was in the shower scrubbing my hair and was doing it a bit rough since I had major lice at the time (don't have it anymore thank god!!)#the water definitely was a bit on the to warm a little warmer than what I like #so as I'm doing that I fuckin fainted #hit the side of my neck on the faucet #it was kinda like I was dreaming during the fainting part #i don't remember falling at all and next thing I know im laying down in the shower #my mom asked if I was okay and I said I was then I finished up and stepped out of the shower #then I fuckin fainted again!!! my mom heard me fall again and came back in the bathroom #don't remember falling aljust remember next thing I know I was on the floor #mom called an ambulance and turnes out I scratched my back on a box that was next to the shower tub combo we had #it scarred and idk how the fuck I ended up hitting it since when I woke back up I was next to it not on my side and it wasn't knocked over #then a while after that was the next fainting time!!#so I hadn't eaten that day or drank anything cuz I was scared to go out of my room whenever my then father figure was around #he was a real fucking ass and greedy as shit for my mom's money since he gambled all his away #they fought a fuck ton #now my mom #brother #and i don't live there anymore and don't have any contact with him #yay!!!#anyway so I didn't eat or drink anything that day #so it was dinner time and my mom called me out of my room for dinner and I walked out waited for her to give me my plate #and so I was kinda walking around just moving around #then I started getting dizzy #told mom #then I was sat down at the table #my non bio brothers and bio brother were in there room eating or gaming #then my fingers cramped up MAJORLY #then I fainted then I woke up then I was moved to the couch and crying and I felt like I couldn't open my eyes and my fingers were still #cramped then the ambulance came and i was able to open my eyes on the way to hospital and my fingers weren't cramped anymore!!!

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wilburs-hibana · 3 months ago

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getting the animatic itches again

might have to do what i did in my early rise days- just do bits of songs so i can actually make them without burning out over a whole 5 minute song lasfjlsdkj (looks at my 6 mini animatics i made before-- wait was saturn before dt??? i forgor-- the devil town one and 5 of those were for the same au aldjfalj)

to be fair i managed to make tsob weekly while making the itte animatic and working my full time job,,,, i can probably make a few little animatics that are probably gonna be shorter than that one-

,,, if i wake up in less pain than i did today i might start thumbnailing because the brainworms are so real <333

#rambles #nonsense #letting myself breathe and step back from rottmnt means i dont shun everything i made so i can actually look back on it all and learn lakdj #including learning from my past shitty behavior but thats a topic for another day and probably also therapy if i can ever get to that #i was say sorry for rambling but this is my main blog which is basically my stream of concious at any given time laskdjflsdj #i guess devil town would be a better comparison though cuz i wanna use v3 of dt for a really sad animatic for a one shot i read last night #:3c #also wanna make a “this is home” animatic #i realize those are both cavetown songs omg alkjdflsjd #anyways i should go to sleep before i decide to try and thumbail everything for going to bed.#...#i did thumnail my rise dt animatic at the equivalant of 1am when i should have been asleep...#i know lmk and rise hyperfixations are mirroring each other but maybe that would be a bit too much of a mirror alkdjfalsjd #i need ot go to sleep if youve read all of this uhhhhh hi! you get a cookie <3 #also shoutout to anyone who knows what the hell im talking about #i cant even trace them on my masterpost of sad-leon cuz in my grief and immaturity i removed all those specific links #avoiding saying a specifc au name so i dont accidentally appear in the hashtag or search alkdjflasdkj #for the “this is home” animatic idea i kinda wanna make an edit but that means finding a downloadable version of this specific movie and #that takes many more spoons than i have at my disposal alsdjflajd #anyways im shutting up for real now and going to bed or gonna thumbnail- well see how i feel after laying down alsdjfladjf

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freakalot · 2 months ago

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"toji, you're gross." ☆

your oaf of a lover, toji fushiguro, lays with his weight all-but crushing you into the couch. what was meant to be a relaxed movie night has somehow ended up with your panties pulled to the side, toji's cock reaching inhuman depths inside of you, and your face wet with his spit.

he won't stop fucking licking you.

"hell you mean 'gross?'" toji squishes your cheeks together, forcing your lips to stick out like you wanna kiss him. "you're the one with my cum all on these pretty lips."

okay, so what if you let him cum in your mouth before sticking his dick in you. and so what if you practically made out with the head of his cock after said blowjob? he was a mess and you're oddly addicted to the taste of his release. it's all that good food you've been bulking him up on. that good food is also why he's so fucking heavy on top of you, and why he's got that extra bit of meat on his bones for you to grab onto while he leans down and licks your lips clean. you ignore the way your pussy tightens around him at the act.

"oh god you're like a dog," you try to turn your head, which turns out to be a mistake when toji licks a stripe up your cheek instead. "down boy. git' off."

"mmm, careful," toji nips at your earlobe. "this dog bites."

you roll your eyes, "this dog begs," you correct him. "and drools."

"you wanna put a collar on me or somethin'?" toji laughs when you clench down around him again. "now shut up and let me taste you."

he catches your lips in this awful sloppy kiss that you're ashamed of enjoying. his tongue rolling over your lips and tracing the row of teeth behind, just to push onwards and try to map every crevice of your mouth in the name of explorative innovation. his hips roll forward into you and, not for the first time since your movie started, toji brings you to a leg-shaking orgasm.

he stills his cock inside of you as he follows you through and cums as well, deep inside of you where he insists it belong, before giving you only a second to catch your breath before meeting your gaze in something that makes you pull a face.

"ew, toji, don't you dare—"

"i'm gonna lick you clean," toji grins, pressing his first gentle kiss of the night to the corner of your lips, before pulling out and trailing his tongue down your neck, chest, stomach... "like a good boy."

"i'm gonna start telling your friends you call yourself a good boy in bed."

toji nips at your thigh, and then delves his practiced tongue between your legs to lick you clean of himself.

"go ahead," he says, mewling like a fucking cat at the taste of your releases mixed together. "no one will believe you anyway."

#jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk smut #toji smut #toji fushiguro smut #toji x you #toji x reader #toji fushiguro x reader #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x you #jujutsu kaisen x you

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