#compilation of journals

[depvotee]

Mmmhhh..... Really tempted to do those art journals with Elden Ring but with POV of my characters

[llovelymoonn]

mahmoud darwish journal of an ordinary grief (tr. ibrahim muhawi) (via @luthienne) \\ courtney love by nigel shafran for love magazine (2013) \\ lianna finck home hole \\ james baldwin giovanni's room

kofi

[angelsdean]

the winchester sons + sports: It's about how sports --often baseball in particular-- represent normal. The first thing John says to Dean is if Sam is ready to toss a ball around. Then we see the sports-themed mobile above Sam's crib, specifically featuring baseball objects. John tries to entice Dean to talk and be "normal" again post-Mary with a baseball. Bobby forgoes hunting practice to just play catch with Dean and let him be a normal kid. Twelve year old dean considers joining the baseball team when they finally stick around somewhere for a longer stretch of time. But there are no trophies in John's storage locker from Dean's baseball games. We wonder if he ever joined the team at all. What Dean does find from when he was twelve is his first sawed-off. What represents dean's childhood? a gun. Dean kills someone for the first time when he is twelve. When Adam is twelve John starts visiting him and taking him to baseball games. When Sam is twelve he is on the soccer team. That same year, 1995, Dean is abandoned by John and experiences being a normal kid. He wins the state wrestling championship. Sonny proudly displays the award on his wall nearly two decades later.

[ 1x01, John's Journal, 3x03, 7x10, spn wiki, 4x19, 3x03 outline, 9x07 ]

[anotherhumaninthisworld]

Historians having takes on frev women that make me go 😐 compilation

Sexually frustrated in her marriage to a pompous civil servant much older than herself, [Madame Roland] may have found Danton’s celebrated masculinity rather uncomfortable. Danton (1978) by Norman Hampson, page 77.

The Robespierres sent their sister to Arras because that was their hometown, the family home, where they had relatives, uncles, aunts and friends, like Buissart who they didn’t cease to remain in correspondence with, even in the middle of the Terror. There, among them, Charlotte would not be alone; she would find advice, rest, the peace necessary to heal her nervousness and animosity. Away from Mme Ricard, who she hated, away from Mme Duplay, who she detested, she would enjoy auspicious calmness. It is Le Bon that the Robespierres will charge with escorting their sister to this neccessary and soothing exile. […] If there is a damning piece in Charlotte Robespierre's case, it is this one (her interrogation, held July 31 1794). She seems to be caught in the act of accusing this Maximilien whom she rehabilitates in her Memoirs. She is therefore indeed a hypocrite, unworthy of the great name she bears, and which she dishonors the very day after the holocaust of 10 Thermidor. Charlotte Robespierre et Guffroy (1910) in Annales Révolutionnaires, volume 3 (1910) page 322, and Charlotte Robespierre et ses mémoires (1909) page 93-94, both by Hector Fleishmann.

Elisabeth, as she was popularly called, was barely past her twelfth birthday, younger even by three years than Barere’s own mother when she was given in marriage. On the following day the guests assembled again in the little church of Saint-Martin at midnight to attend the wedding ceremony of the handsome charmer and the bewildered child. Dressed in white, clasping in her arms a yellow, satin-clad  doll that Bertrand had given her — so runs the tradition — she marched timidly to the altar, looking more like a maiden making her first communion than a woman celebrating a binding sacrament. Perhaps the  doll, if doll there was, filled her eye, but certainly she could not fail to note how handsome her husband was. Bertrand Barere; a reluctant terrorist (1962) by Leo Gershoy, page 32.

The young nun who bore the name of Hébert did not hide her fate. She did not wish to prolong a life stifled from her childhood in the cloister, branded in the world by the name she bore, fighting between horror and love for the memory of her husband, unhappy everywhere. Histoire des Girondins (1848) by Alphonse de Lamartine, volume 8, page 60.

Lucile in prison showed more calmness than Camille. Before the tribunal, she seemed to possess neither fear nor hope, she denied having taken an active role in the prison conspiracy. What did it matter to her the answer they were trying to extract from her? They said they wanted her guilty? Very well! She would be condemned and join Camille. This was what she said again when she was told that she would suffer the same fate as her husband: ”Oh, what joy, in a few hours I’m going to see Camille again!” Camille et Lucile Desmoulins: un couple dans la tourmente (1986) by Jean Paul Bertaud, page 293.

What did it matter to Lucile whether she was accused or defended? She had no longer any pretext for living in this world. She was one of those heroines of conjugal love who are more wife than mother. Besides, Horace lived, and Camille was dead. It was of the absent only that she thought. As for the child, would not Madame Duplessis act a mother's part to him? The grandmother would watch over the orphan. If Lucile had lived, she could have done nothing but weep over the cradle, thinking of Camille. Camille Desmoulins and his wife; passages from the history of the Dantonists founded upon new and hitherto unpublished documents (1876) by Jules Claretie.

Having been widowed at the age of 23 [sic] years, Élisabeth Duplay remarried a few years later to the adjutant general Le Bas, brother of her first husband, and kept the name which was her glory. She lived with dignity, and all those who have known her, still beautiful under her crown of white hair, have testified to the greatness of her sentiments and austerity of her character. She died at an old age, always loyal to the memory of the great dead she had loved and whose memory she, all the way to her final day, didn’t cease to honor and cherish. As for the lady of Thermidor, Thérézia Cabarrus, ex-marquise of Fontenay, citoyenne Tallien, then princess of Chimay, one knows the story of her three marriages, without counting the interludes. She had, as one knows, three husbands living at the same time. Now compare these two existances, these two women, and tell me which one merits more the respect and the sympathy of good men. Histoire de Robespierre et du coup d’état du 9 thermidor (1865) by Louis Ernest Hamel, volume 3, page 402.

Fel free to comment which one was your favorite! 😀

[stormyrainyday]

apologies this is far from a coherent shower thought but i think it's time we like. decided to detach our identity a bit from the things we do. it's fine to just read. you don't have to be a reader. it's fine to just game. you don't have to be a gamer. you can be those things but i feel like in a quest to find ourselves and open our hearts, especially to others online (because i know, the first thing we do when on a new platform is say hi im [name] i like these things we should talk, i know, i do, my pinned post is literally that), i feel like we forget that we are more than the things we do and even the things we love. we, to borrow words from slay the princess, contain it in our multitudes.

it's a sentiment i've felt for a long time as someone who has been on the internet and in fandom spaces for a good decade now, and like. i find when we hold these things so close that they become us, we become too defensive over them. how many minor fandom disagreements spiral into threats, name calling, doxxing even? i find, especially younger users in fan spaces, tend to take even small differences of opinion and take them personally. saw someone blow up and call people awful names over believing only one person could top in a genshin ship. another left a server i was in because they disliked a popular character, and other (respectfully), decided to share why they did like her. i get that things like rejection sensitivity are a thing, but i think this failure to recognize the self as an entity apart from the things you do and the thoughts you have definitely contribute to this. phenomenon i suppose.

it's genuinely slay the princess that has given me the vocabulary to express and understand this thing i was already thinking. i think, though we are not gods, it's important to understand that we are not things so easily defined. we consist of our thoughts, our actions, our perceptions, our beliefs, and more. even the outside world's perception of us reflects some part of our nature. but not all of it. it's impossible to define oneself in one, two, three words or even an essay.

because like we don't exist in a vacuum. part of our existence is defined in our interactions with others. but not all. never all. there is no one who can truly know you, and we cannot truly know ourselves. our principles bend to the whims of circumstance no matter what we tell ourselves otherwise, so we can't decide what we are or what we would be in a situation for sure, ever. and that's not a bad thing, but if we can't ever truly know ourselves, then how can we assign such great importance to something as superficial as the things we enjoy sometimes?

we are both a constant and the capacity to change. and to take just a handful of things and call it your identity, even subconsciously, is a disservice to the self. in an effort to be seen we break ourselves down into easy (i hate to say it but) marketable pieces.

take being a reader for example. it has always felt like vague slang for booksmart, thoughtful, likely quiet and introverted as well, just as much as it means "i like to read books". theres an aesthetic to it involved, and a whole subculture. do you write in your books? do you keep them museum-fresh quality? do you read smut or classics or high fantasy or satire and what does it say about you? if you say audiobooks aren't real literature, are you signalling to others about quality and sophistication, or are you a pretentious asshole, and ableist to boot? these connotations assigned to such an otherwise benign thing about someone are i think are reflective of the construct of identity and perception. i could go on about it in a way that's more coherent but i, a student, have other things to do right now.

(does being a student make me intelligent? does it impress you to know i study medicine? what if i told you i average Cs in my classes? what if i told you i dislike patient care? what if i told you i'm not here for the money OR to make the world a better place, and that i'm here purely to serve my curiosities about the way the body functions and to absolve my obsessive need to understand just what are we? does this change what you think of me? does it matter? what if you knew the guilt i felt for seeing so much suffering, but still hating patient care enough to worry endlessly about being stuck in it as a career? am i better for it? but i have not acted on this guilt. it is a mere feeling that only i know. knew. is it different now that i've confessed it? does it matter? does any of it change who i am, fundamentally? or am i a thing detached from it all? or. as i like to believe. is it both? your shifting perceptions of me and the way i change shape and form (so much like our beloved princess in slay the princess) in your eyes, they make up me just as much as the soul or the self or whatever other philosophical name you assign to it. at the end of the day, isn't the most important thing that i am just me? both devoid of and constituted of the sum of my parts? what is found in the spaces between my cells? impulses and chemicals. is that me? is it all me? can i ever really know it? and why, why, why define it at all?)

[goblincow]

#MÖRKTOBER – 01/31

Day one of WAIL OF THE ROT KING, an adventure playset for Mörk Borg.

["ai" art theft is not the same as collage]

:// Welcome to GREEN MILK, the GOBLINCOW newsletter and this very special 8-part series entitled SAVE VS DESPAIR, a holistic retrospective of the cultural object that is Mörk Borg that will be publishing every 4 days over the course of October.

A release calendar, for the sickos among us (thank you kindly):

GREEN MILK | #007 | 7:1 — What is Mörk Borg? (01/10)

GREEN MILK | #007 | 7:2 — Interlude I of II — Rules Light, Vibes Heavy (05/10)

GREEN MILK | #007 | 7:3 — Cultivating Mörk Borg (09/10)

GREEN MILK | #007 | 7:4 — Digging Deep in Graves Left Wanting (13/10)

GREEN MILK | #007 | 7:5 — The Vigorous Undeath of Mörk Borg (17/10)

GREEN MILK | #007 | 7:6 — Interlude II of II — A Funeral Playlist for the End of the World (21/10)

GREEN MILK | #007 | 7:7 — Life Locked and Failing in a Dark Fort (25/10)

GREEN MILK | #007 | ?:? — Burn the Book (29/10)

GREEN MILK | #008 | Save vs Despair — Mörk Borg: a Holistic Retrospective (02/11)

[kitkatstu-dies]

some photos!! i lowkey forgot to take my Nikon for a week (I will try to be better lmao)

Anyway there is a festival in town today and tomorrow, and I am excited to go to it!! This past week has been rough in the lab, so I'm grateful for something to distract me from it.

[stupidlittlespirit]

I totally dig the whole ford aroace hc, but at the end of the speech alex gave, he said "but you know, when we were doing gravity falls, gay marriage had only like, just been legalized" wouldnt this kind of imply ford was trying to ignore something a little different? i dont know, what do you think? could you try to explain what alex said in your own words so i can understand better? i think im def reading it wrong... and you're the smartest person i know when it comes to writing and ford LOL. i like hearing your rambles about aroace topics. bc im on that spectrum myself, you unknowingly explained a lot of things to me I didnt know about myself, like, multiple times 🤣 you dont have to reply to this if u dont want to btw, just ignore it. i wont be offended

I think first and foremost, the most important thing to pay attention to is that Alex states in that interview that if you identify with Ford as a queer person, that's great, he wants you to be able to see yourself reflected in his characters. No matter what your queer identity is! So, you can see him as gay or bi or ace or aro or trans or whatever you like, because that's the beauty of interpretation! No one is singularly right.

I believe Alex made reference to the gay marriage thing just because of the topic of queerness in Disney shows in general. At the time, it had only just been legalised so it was unlikely you'd be able to push a big network as far as getting a major character to show ANY sign of queer identity. Not one specific one. I think he was just kind of saying it in general as a reference point for how unlikely it was to have queer characters in things (and aces ARE queer, no matter their romantic attraction preference. Aros are also queer despite having no attraction.)

In reference to Ford's attraction and his lack thereof, Alex says that quote: "for all people on all sides of the gender and sexuality equation, the idea of '...I'm not sure what this part of myself is, so I'm going to fixate on something I can understand..... as long as I'm doing this, then I don't have to focus on that'."

and I think that's something that rings true for ALL queer people.

The reason I (tongue in cheek sort of) said that about him being canon ace is because Alex compares Ford to Tesla, who was infamously 'celibate' and was outspoken about his distaste for romance/sex across the board. Tesla is known as being ace. Alex describes Ford as having a similar reaction to Tesla when it comes to attraction: 'I really thought of Ford kind of like Tesla in that realm. He is distant.'

I know Alex uses women as a specific descriptor in that passage, but I think that's because Tesla spoke about women most often because heteronormativity (and was very sexist about it at times, but considering the time period, whatever). Tesla does state that he fell 'in love' with one girl, but I don't think it's ever been expanded on for what type of love.

Tesla is never described as having had relationships with men OR women. There's a chance he was gay ace, bi ace, or just aroace. We'll never know, and there's not really any reason to try and sus out someone else's sexuality, but it reads to me that he was someone who was just aroace and Not Interested. He had his science and that was all he wanted.

That sounds exactly like canon Ford.

So the comparison to Ford rings strongly of him being Asexual first and foremost. Then, when you align it with the other clues in Journal 3, it really speaks very strongly to me that Ford is ace. I mean, he keeps a fucking photo of Tesla on his desk! And he outright says that he has this picture whereas Fidds has one of his wife and child, and that's confusing to Ford. He doesn't understand it.

He doesn't want to 'settle down' or 'start a family' as Fidds suggests. He never has crushes on people. He never expresses sexual or romantic attraction to anyone. He loves, but never in a romantic capacity. He admires, but in an educational context.

Also, in TBoB, Bill teases Ford for dreaming of a sexuality quiz that asks him 'what are you most attracted to?'. Ford answers: Logic and planning........ And Bill again teases him with the Plansexual line. If that doesn't scream Ace, I don't know what does.

I think for me personally too, I have been (and am in) Ford's position. I spent so long burying my head in the sand about being asexual because I truly believed there was something wrong with me. I was told there was. I've even sought out conversion therapy (never went through with it, but felt like I should at the time).

Ford's running from his true feelings in that sense is very much a mirror to my own. And I think that mirrors many queer people's experiences. So, to go back to what I opened with: if you want to see him as gay specifically, you can! I want to see him as ace, so I will! He isn't a real person, so you can project yourself onto him. That's okay to do :)

And I'm glad that my answers have helped you, by the way! That's a really sweet thing to know and I'm really glad some of the stupid stuff I yap about has helped you haha <3

[rejoiceandregret]

I once imagined my mind a beautiful forest, every thought a lush, green tree; but grief set my world on fire, and now every thought is born of ash; every laugh and smile carries the faint scent of smoke.

[atlabeth]

being a journalist is so hard because i can write 10k words of fanfic in one day and feel like i can do anything and then i remember that i actually have to like. have structure in my articles

[kunikiiida-kuuun]

BSD Locations- Yokohama Visit 2024 - Part 5

The final part of the Yokohama Pilgrimage!

The previous parts:

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4

24. Harbor View Park (S1EP9)

It's so close to France Yama. It was really windy and a pleasant area to relax after a long day. You can see a wonderful view of the entire city from here!! The sun was setting around the time I visited so it was kind of perfect :')

25. Harbor View Police Station (S1EP9)

Only a few minutes from the Harbor View Park. It so happens that a black car also passed by as I was taking a picture, such a great coincidence XD

26. Motomachi Park Telephone Booth

A nice old-fashioned telephone booth!! I'm not sure it is still operating though...There were some beautiful western styled architectural buildings on the way here.

It was getting so dark at this point that I was worried I wouldn't be able to find this telephone booth, but thankfully I did! (It was only like 16:45 or something 😭)

27. Motomachi Park (S3EP26)

The park featured in the 15!anime adaptation. Honestly this place was kinda difficult to find (i think I literally passed by a cemetery??). It was so deserted and I'm the kind of person who gets spooked when alone and loses sense of direction when it starts getting dark lmao. I tried to match the angle of the anime but the design of the park was slightly different.

How was Dazai even jumping over that pillar thing? It was so big, it would take a lot of effort to climb on top of one, much less jump from one pillar to another 😭

When I was leaving the park, I saw a cute kitty too!! Somehow, I felt like my trip was really complete lol. I really wish I had some cat food (I want more cat friends!!!! 😭)

28. The Sky Garden Yokohama Landmark Tower (OP2)

The final place on my list and one I was dying with excitement to visit!! S2 opening is so iconic and my favourite BSD opening, so I tried to search for a building with the same view hahaha. The ticket costs 1,000 yen, but I got it for 900 yen by booking in advance on Klook! The view was absolutely stunning!!!! I would definitely recommend coming here for the night view! 💕

The Cosmos Clock 21 changes colors every 15 minutes and it's so pretty!! They have a cafe and they have some books too! You can just sit and relax while gazing out towards the beautiful Yokohama timeline! :)

Speaking of which, they even had the BSD Anthology collection in a section labelled, "Books based on Yokohama" XD

I picked a random one and there was a chapter in which Kunikida was sick? I'm not sure if the anthology series is being translated anywhere but I sure as hell do not remember any chapter like this?? There was even one where Fukuzawa was feeding cats or something and I'm so intrigued, I will consider getting a copy if I ever find it in stores.

It seems that they have days when they plan fireworks at the Yokohama harbor. I saw it on a free pamphlet i collected from the subway station. It's called Yokohama Sparkling Twilight!! I've added the link for any of your fanfic requirements lol. Imagine how cool it would be to see the fireworks from here thoo!? 😩💖

Yokohama Museum of Art was the last place on my list. It's actually located close to the Landmark tower, but it was getting really cold and my legs were killing me so I had to call it a day lol :')

Final Thoughts

Looking back now, I find it crazy to think I planned to visit all these places on foot in one single day (and managed to pull it off???) If I had started a little bit earlier, I suppose I could have squeezed in a few more places, because it gets dark so quickly in winter, but the exhaustion would have got me before that hahaha. I think I walked 30,000 steps that day, the most I have ever walked in my life ig 😂 But it was totally worth it!! I felt so happy to see all the places featured in the anime, and it's just amazing how much work the anime team put into the smallest details. It's just so wholesome and fun to connect the places to the anime versions.

I think it would be better to do such a pilgrimage in summer instead. The BSD anime page on twitter had also made some posts about some of the locations, which i forgot to share. I'll add them to part 1, to the other references I listed.

I'm not sure if it's because I love the series so much, that made me romanticize the place a bit, but Yokohama really was such a lovely place. It was such a charming and peaceful city and when I walked around the harbour I found myself thinking how I wouldn't mind living here hahaha. If I ever get the chance to visit again, I would like to relax a bit, without having to worry about moving along to the next destination XD

And that's the end of my Yokohama Pilgrimage!! Thank you for taking time to read this! Honestly I'm so honoured if anyone even bothered to go through these posts and I did not expect this to have five parts hahahaha but I hope you enjoyed hearing my silly commentary!! ❤️

[asoftepiloguemylove]

hey, i've seen your post on being the eldest sibling and having to be the mother of your siblings against your own will. i was wondering if i could request for a webweave related to this but having to grow up? kind of like mxmtoon's almost home, "i was just a kid dreams were looking big and then i had to grow up" tysm!!

i hope you're doing okay <33

Mitski Class of 2013 // Sleeping At Last Eight // Sylvia Plath The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath // mxmtoon almost home // 나의 아저씨 My Mister (2018) dir. 김원석 Kim Won-seok // Bill Hader on Andy Muschietti's direction during It Chapter Two (2019) // Mitski First Love / Late Spring // Warsan Shire Backwards // Li-Young Lee // The Florida Project (2017) dir. Sean Baker // Lorde Ribs

[typaws]

Compilation of the doodles I had in the corners of my chemistry notebook from high school. I really liked my doodles so I cut them up and pasted them onto a notebook I also made.

[dent-de-leon]

would read a whole dnd book that's just cataloguing different entries of weird relics scavenged from the ruins of Aeor, archives of the Cobalt Soul, little curiosities of Nana Morri's, etc.--

[bisexualadamparrish]

made myself a 2025 vision board <3

[thatfriendlyanon]

I told You not to take off Your shoes but You did it anyway as if this is some holy image-born ground and not just the dirty tiles of my kitchen floor and I told You to give me the keys and leave me alone but You came knocking anyway and waited until I opened the door even though You could have climbed in through the window and I call You He but I have learned more about Your true self through my mother than from any man I’ve known and in answer You say You’re a mother too.

i am proud of you. you stand on the threshold of a terrible past & recount the shapes of ghosts that have been haunting you for thirteen years. i am proud of you. we take stock of the trinkets placed around our bedroom, each one tied to a memory or precious friend, to remind us that we are Here. i am proud of you. you touch tender parts that are still healing, name them & lay them out like blankets to be mended & then used to stay warm. our heart quivers & our hands shake & the light passes across our forehead like we are being anointed with oil. the past & the future are both fearsome things, but the Man you met on the conference hall floor last may is still holding the little girl in His arms. we are going back to go forward. i am proud of you. i am proud of us. i am proud of me. we are healing. we are held.