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#fear#living#courage#bravery#brave#the book of alchemy#the book of alchemy: a creative practice for an inspired life#suleika jaouad#fear of time#fear of being alone#fear of being a burden#fear of death#fear of pain#afraid of living#fearing the worst#afraid of the future#scaries#fear of joy#facing fear#caring for oneself#being open#facing discomfort#uncomfortable#confront fear#take away its power#replace fear with wonder and curiosity#fear immobilize#stagnation#rumination#apprehension
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the way white queers ascribe sainthood to Black trans women and completely ignore Black trans men and Black nonbinary people has convinced me more than anything else that they really truly donât care about any Black trans people beyond wearing us as a little badge they can show off to prove theyâre The Good Ones
#woof! woof!#itâs all Black trans women built the lgbtq community!! until yall have to confront your fears of Black masculinity#*and I say âmasculinityâ to mean masculine trans men or non passing trans women or nonbinary people who seem too âmaleâ for queer tastes#transandrophobia#transmisogny#exosexism#transandrophobia noir#transmisogny noir#exosexism noir#transgender#black transgender
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if there was ever a tv adaptation of the magnus archives i think sasha should be played by the same person as notsasha the whole time.
there are perhaps a few polaroids shown briefly in the background with someone you don't recognize during s1, but they disappear in s2.
in the end, the viewer doesn't remember the 'real' sasha either, because she was never acting in the show. all you have is memories of notsasha.
the first time we actually see the actor in the pictures from s1 is in the flashbacks at the beginning of s5; sasha and tim talking, jon's birthday, sweet memories that just- don't seem quite right, even though you know this is the true version.
#anyways#been thinking about this a lot lately for some reason#something something the audience is complacent and complicit with the atrocities of the media and are forced to confront their own moral#reason for finding enjoyment in the show#something something the viewer is the Mass Entity of Fear which terrorizes this world#feeding off of their terror#the magnus archives#tma#tma spoilers#sasha james#not sasha#jonathan sims
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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store đ
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying âLET me kill the jokerâ to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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A Stolen Life...
All of us reading this have been given a fantastic opportunity to enjoy our lives. We really only have one opportunity on this beautiful planet called Earth with which to thrive or survive. And while all of us likely want to thrive, sadly many will not. Itâs not that the people surviving this experience of life want that for themselves. But rather, the life that has been given to them has beenâŠ

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#break free#challenge fear#confront fear#fear is a liar#fear is not real#God cares deeply for you#God is good always#God will protect you#Love Him#love motivation#no compulsion#no fear#no guilt#no separation from God#overcome fear#recognize fear#Seek Him out#survive#thrive#trust Him
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A Most Mousterious Mind.
#deltarune#kris dreemurr#noelle holiday#Chapter 2 complete! And woah what a chapter that was!#Noelle has now beaten Susie out for my 'favourite character'. mostly because she's significantly easier for me to draw.#I still like Susie quite a bit but of my god I am struggling with how to draw her.#It seems like each world/chapter focuses on a certain person feeling lost/desparate for escapism and learning a key lesson.#The character writing is so good too! I love stories that force characters to confront themselves and their maladaptive coping mechanisms!#Noelle is a people pleaser who feels she has no one to truly confide in! She's in such deep grief and bearing it all alone!#She scares easily but at the same time feels draw to 'scary things' because she associates it with warmth and comfort.#Noelle sweetie dearest honey gravy...why do I also feel like the narrative wants us to be cruel towards her?#Is that Kris? Is it the soul? What is going on with some of these dialogue choices?#The vibe is 'Doomed arranged marriage' and I am very fearful for what is to come...#****CH.2 SPOILERS:****#Because Kris is both our avatar/vessel and the antagonist right? That's what the end of the chapters appear to be telling us...#Fascinating way to frame a story if true. If not...Well I'm really hooked!#Alas I am playing with people so It may be a while before I start ch.3 but look forward to more art! I'm officially on the bus now!
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I'm kind-of genuinely devastated that they decided to cut out the reveal of Perrin having known all along about Mon Mothma's rebel activities and was getting interrogated WEEKLY by the Empire and never cracked even once.
This would've helped answer SO MANY QUESTIONS about Mon and Perrin, and it could've easily helped answer the question of why Mon felt like she could just walk away from her family after making herself public enemy number one.
She goes to finally explain it all to Perrin right before she makes the speech because dammit she might not have trust him or even like him all that much but she doesn't want him DEAD and he deserves the chance to find this out from her and get himself to safety before she turns his life upside down, and he tells her he's known all along and covered for her this whole time and never once cracked or been discovered, even when she framed him for gambling and sold off their daughter to a gangster's son. He lets her know that he doesn't need to go to safety, he's not just going to run now because that'll just make him look like he was involved in it. He can continue to cover for himself when the Empire comes to interrogate him again, and he can do it well enough to ensure Leida doesn't get implicated, either. Mon's priority is the rebellion, her priority is her work and it always has been, even to the detriment of her relationship with her family, and Perrin understood that but it meant that HIS priority had to be protecting and taking care of Leida in the absence of her mother. So Mon has to go, but Perrin has to stay because their daughter needs him now more than ever.
And it just makes the choice that Mon has made so clear, the sacrifice she chose to make for the sake of the rebellion, and she can't back out now, she can't make a different choice because she tells herself she's doing this FOR Leida, to try to make a better world for her daughter to live in, but in order to give Leida that world, she has to leave Leida behind.
But she realizes now that she CAN trust Perrin, she could've trusted him all along, so she chooses to trust him now. She trusts him with their daughter, she trusts that he can take care of himself and Leida in her absence once more.
This helps Mon's arc SO MUCH, and I honestly love it, and as Bissell says it's technically a non-canon thing now because it clearly never even made it into the script really let alone got filmed, but it's pretty easy to slot it into what we DID get to see, so as far as I'm concerned, this is my canon. This fixes so many of the problems I had with the end of this arc for Mon and makes it so much more emotional and almost tragic. Mon made her choices and you can argue that some of them were mistakes if you want, you can argue that it made her a bad mother if you wanted to, but it's so much more complicated and nuanced than that, and I love that this finally makes that so clear. Mon made her choice and her family paid the price a long time ago, long before Mon was willing to acknowledge that she'd made that choice.
#star wars#mon mothma#perrin fertha#andor#andor spoilers#andor s2 spoilers#sw andor#star wars andor#this fits in SO much better with the perrin from mask of fear actually too#and the relationship he and mon have and the choice that mon makes towards the end about keeping him in the loop or not#she doesn't KNOW for sure if she can trust him and she has to make a choice and she does#and she sticks to it#but she did know that he had strengths that she didn't have and they had been more of a team once and she did care about him#and i love the idea that mon is the one who keeps distancing herself and all perrin can do is watch#and he's smart enough and connected enough to know exactly what's happening and why and he even AGREES with it#even though he hates that she doesn't trust him and hates the way it makes leida feel#he never confronts her about it because what she's doing IS important and if she wanted to trust him to help her then he's right there#he loves mon enough to just keep his silence and take care of leida and do what has to be done to protect her#and mon loves perrin enough to try to protect him by keeping him out of it#and unfortunately all that does is tear the two of them apart because that's what secrets do#GOD it just HITS in the perfect way#this is the kind of quality development we could've gotten with fuller seasons#just let mon feel the real consequences of the choices she's made#let her get slapped in the face with the truth of what she's chosen to do#and she can't regret it or even claim that she wishes she'd done it any other way#but her actions have had consequences#much like cassian's choices have consequences even if he'd do it again if he had to because the rebellion and the cause is worth it
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oooh. fic requests! how about 6 - fight or 19 - allergies for steddie?
Hello! I'm sorry it took so long to get to this one, but I hope it's alright! I went with:
6. Fight - Steddie
cw: implied/referenced child abuse, implied/referenced domestic violence, unhealthy relationship dynamics (not between Eddie and Steve)
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The most frustrating thing about fighting with Steve is that he doesnât fight. Not really.
Sure, heâll poke and heâll prod and heâll snip and heâll snap; heâll dole out bitchy, passive aggressive comments and roll his eyes and sigh pointedly, but the moment things get heated, the moment an argument gets real, itâs justâ
âFine. Fine,â Steve snaps, tossing his hands up with an exasperated huff. âYouâre right, okay? Iâmâ Iâm sorry.â
And at first, Eddie had always felt so vindicated, so flush with the triumph of winning an argument, that it had taken him a while to realize that it feltâ wrong. That Steveâso confident, so sure in his opinions, so willing to stand up to people when he has something to defendâwould just give in without a fightâ it feels wrong.
So Eddie had tried to pay attention â really pay attention. They donât fight often, but when an argument inevitably does crop up, Eddie always wins. Rather, Steve always lets him. He never raises his voice, never gets in Eddieâs face, never really even makes counterarguments. He cedes to Eddieâs points and then subsides and itâsâ itâs infuriating, because Eddie doesnât understand.
âDonât do that,â Eddie growls, tugging a frustrated hand through his hair.
âDonâtâ what? Donât apologize?â Steve asks incredulously.
âNo!â Eddie bursts out. âNot if you donât mean it!â
âExcuse me?â Steve draws back, offended. âWhat the hell do you want me to do to prove Iâm sincere? Get on my knees and fucking grovel?â
âThatâs notââ Eddie leaves off with a frustrated noise, trying hard to keep his tone level. âI donât want to win an argument just because you let me. I donât want you to apologize just because you think itâs what I want to hear.â
âIâm not letting you win,â Steve says quickly, crossing his arms over his chest.
âYou are, though. You do. Every time. You wonât actually engage, you just say Iâm right and then clam up and thatâs it,â Eddie says.
Steve levels him with a look of disbelief. âSoâ what, you want me to yell at you? You want me to tell you that youâre wrong?â
âI wantââ Eddie pinches the bridge of his nose, taking a second to gather his thoughts. âI want you to feel like youâre allowed to argue with me. I donât want you to just give in and then resent me or something.â
âI donât resent you, Eddie,â Steve says with a roll of his eyes.
âNo?â Eddie pushes. âHow many times have we gone to bed after an argument with me perfectly satisfied, thinking Iâve won, while youâre actually still mad at me?â
âThatâsâ I donâtâŠâ Steve shifts uncomfortably. âIf Iâm still mad, thatâs my problem. I can just get over it.â
âBut thatâs exactly what I mean!â Eddie insists. âThat shit builds up! And besides, what if youâre the one whoâs really right? I might actually be wrong, and you should tell me. Or maybe thereâs some kind of, like, compromise we can reach, I donât know! I donât want you to be afraid to push back â I donât want you to be afraid of me.â
âIâm not afraid of you,â Steve says, jaw jutting out stubbornly when Eddie fixes him with a considering look. âIâm not. Iâm justâ how long before yelling turns into a screaming match? How long before it turns into throwing shit around, orâ or shoving each other, or worse?â
âSteveâŠâ Eddie murmurs, the last of his heated frustration draining away, leaving a clammy kind of dismay in its place. âSteve, I would never do any of those things to you.â
âI know,â Steve says, and it sounds like he means it. âI know that. But what if Iââ
âNo,â Eddie says firmly, because he thinks he understands now â Steve isnât afraid of him, heâs afraid of himself. Afraid of turning into everything heâd been raised around: the blowout arguments between his parents, his momâs petty destruction of his dadâs things, his dadâs frustration turned back on Steve, a cycle of violent familial bullshit that Steve is determined to break free from, even if it means saying that heâs wrong every time. Eddie comes forward, grabbing Steveâs hands; he canât even remember what theyâd been arguing about moments before, but he knows he doesnât care anymore. âYou would never do that. I know you, Steve, you are nothing like that.â
Steve looks down at their joined hands, blinking rapidly. âThisâ you⊠Youâre more important than winning. Than any stupid argument,â he says.
âThatâs exactly why we should have stupid arguments,â Eddie says, grinning a little when that gets a choked laugh out of Steve. âIâm serious. Letâs have stupid, petty arguments so they donât turn into big ones. I swear Iâm not going to stay mad if you get on my ass about not doing the dishes.â
Slowly, Steve nods. He doesnât entirely look like he believes Eddie, but thatâs fine. Itâs always been like this â Steve unwilling (or unable) to believe that someone will love him if he doesnât make it easy for them. Eddieâs been breaking that down, bit by bit, and this is no different. This is no chore.
âIâll still love you even when Iâm angry. Even when youâre angry,â Eddie promises. âI just love you, full stop.â
Steve nods again, more certain this time as he looks up to meet Eddieâs eyes. âI love you, too,â he says, because he always, always says it back, which suits Eddie just fine.
He figures if they can agree on that much, every other disagreement will be a breeze.
#ezzydean#steddie#eddie munson#steve harrington#stranger things#eddiesteve#solar wrote#answers from solar#listen one day when I have the energy and focus I'd love to write a fic about Steve's penchant for avoidance and bottling shit up#and Eddie's confrontational behavior and his need to get everything out of his head all the time immediately#and their combined fear of rejection and abandonment#and the mess they make trying to navigate a relationship with those issues#(and how they fix it)#but for right now Eddie gets to be the emotionally mature one
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I've spoken before that Frenchie and Ed have similar coping mechanisms with the animals they fear: cats and spiders.
How Ed is scared of spiders and puts tattoos of them on his body as a way to try and confront and overcome his fear. But he also puts on black gloves covering them up; not always confronting, instead compartmentalizing.
I want to focus on Frenchie's fears, reactions, and growth.
As early as the pilot, Frenchie talks about his fear of cats. We hear at least two different myths about them, and just like how Ed tattooed spiders on his hands, Frenchie decides to make a flag with a cat on it during arts and crafts time.
This is the first step of Frenchie confronting his fear. That flag, with all the others created by the crew, is placed on the flagstaff a tribute to all of them, something that hangs with honor. Just like Ed can cover the tattoos with gloves, Frenchie doesn't have to directly look at the flag at all times.
Next, we see in episode six that Frenchie takes his fears further and becomes a witch, with Wee John as his cat (my favorite room people!) This is a nod to Frenchie's comment made earlier (and the overall folklore of witches and black cats, bad luck) about cats being witches.
I love that when the crew was deciding what would be scary for the Dutch ship, besides going full play, Frenchie once again decided on cats (and witches.)
In season two, Frenchie continues with embracing cats in all decorum.
Just like in the play, Frenchie becomes a cat during the Kraken era, putting it on the back of his jacket and making claws his weapon of choice. Knives in their hands!
He becomes the thing he fears to strike fear in other people. It is still putting up a facade in many ways, putting on this costume to get through pirate life â just like Ed puts on the facade of the Kraken to get through this exact same phrase. For both Ed and Frenchie, this is a part of them, but it isn't all of them.
Yet Frenchie also talks about how he locks his trauma away in a box in his head. Bottle it up. Frenchie contains multitudes, from embracing what he fears to trying to shove it in a box.
The one thing I love about the portrayal of trauma in this show is how each person handles it differently. How both Ed and Frenchie both use fear as both a coping mechanism and to instill fear in others. They are brave.
We see Ed by the end of season two grow and accept all sides of himself: the kraken, Blackbeard, Ed. Frenchie is on this same path with spiders, while I don't know if the show would have gone quite the same way with him as Ed, we do see growth, particularly with Frenchie becoming captain.
When the whole crew is reunited, working on getting the Revenge back to a better state â just like they are emotionally doing â Frenchie gets to gleefully choose the flag of the ship again. The cat that was on the back of his jacket is now the flag design, once again the thing Frenchie fears is the matra, striking fear in the heart of others. But this time, we only see one flag: the cat with red eyes and sharp claws.
Flags, or ensign, on a ship are important. They often symbolized, especially during the time of this show, a ship's nationality and therefore legal jurisdiction. Pirates didn't have to worry about that, instead they had freedom in their flag choice. Choosing a cat as their symbol, to let others know they are pirates to be feared, is a choice. And Frenchie's growth over the course of the show, embracing his fear is wonderful to watch. Captain Frenchie indeed!
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if we were gonna get a Deku vs Kacchan pt. 3 with an actual fight to help them solve their issues and understand each other, imagine how funny itâd be from aizawaâs perspective? heâs like âphew yes itâs been a difficult year but at least the two problem children finally get along, iâm so glad theyâve worked everything ouWDYM THEYRE FIGHTING AGAIN.â
#âdo i ground them???? can i even do it rn???â#i want cosy stability and grounded boys backkkk#also no i dont actually think that dvsk3 will be an actual fight#im leaning towards a verbal confrontation? with katsuki wanting to know why izuku is so unhappy and izuku finally breaking down and telling#him about his feeling about the fear and the guilt of not saving everyone AND losing ofa and and and#and handholding or hugs. Yes.#bnha#mha#bakudeku#bkdk#izuku midoriya#bakugou katsuki#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#aizawa shouta#eraserhead
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i need to see post canon siffrin and isabeau rushing into a relationship and both of them trying so hard to make each other happy that it comes at the expense of themselves and their relationship in the long run. i need to see them make each other worse. i need my little barbie dolls to crash and burn <3
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Talk to Me
Pairing: Soldier Boy x Reader
Summary: Ben had a vivid nightmare last night. You know how he is about his âman feelings.â But you try to get him to open up anyway, before you both lose your tempers.
AN: This was requested by my lovely friend @deans-spinster-witch. It's set in the Break Me Down-verse and is a sequel to the SB imagine below:
See this imagine for context: Ben loses you.
Word Count: 1,600 Tags/Warnings: Angst, hurt/comfort, fluff
Imagine: You confront Ben about his fears.
âWhat the fuck is wrong with this cocksucking coffee maker?â Ben snarked.
He bumped the top of it with his hand, so hard you thought he was going to break it.
Your brows furrowed as you shot him a look. It was too early for all that.
âNothing?â you said. âWorked just fine for me.â
He sported an even grumpier face as the coffee finally poured into his mug.
Somethingâs wrong, you thought.
Ben was usually quiet in the morning. Relaxed and slow until heâd had his coffee and started his routine, with his newspaper at his favorite lounge chair, then breakfast in the kitchen with you.
You were making pancakes on a griddle, but you were also watching your boyfriend. He wasnât just quiet. He was downright grouchy and taciturn.
What crawled up his ass? you thought. Though you had your suspicions...
âBreakfast is done,â you called to him.
He eventually joined you, sitting down at the breakfast bar. You served him a mildly enormous stack, and just two pancakes for yourself. In most respects, Ben was still a bottomless pit.
However, after eating the first couple of pancakes in silence, he pushed away from his plate and leaned back in his seat. You held your coffee mug between both hands and eyed him.
âYou okay, baby?â you asked, repeating the very words youâd asked him last night.
He glanced at you through surly brows. âYeah. You can stop asking me that.â
Right, you thought. Heâd been twitching in his sleep, muttering, making sounds that had worried you enough to wake him with a gentle hand on his dewy arm. His response had worried you tooâthat haze of disoriented shock, followed by relief when he recognized your face.
Youâd comforted him the best you could after his nightmare, but he hadnât wanted to talk about it. You knew he wouldnât now, either. That didnât stop you from trying.
You set down your mug and soothed a hand up his arm, until your fingers disappeared under his shirt sleeve.
âWhatâs got you all sunshine and rainbows then, Mr. Grouch?â you lightly teased. âI even made you pancakes. Still waiting on my thank you.â
Ben didnât want to answer, though he briefly glanced at you. He slurped at his coffee.
You sighed. A tick of annoyance at your brow.
âOkay," you said. "Well, since we had breakfast here, I figured we could go out for lunch later when we get to the city. Thereâs this amazing deli I could take you toââ
âWeâre not going,â Ben said.
You blinked in surprise. Your hand fell away from his shoulder. âWhat?â
âIâve got things to do,â he said. And without looking at you, he grabbed his half-full plate and got up to bring it over by the sink. He speared a few pancakes back onto the plate youâd served them up in before dumping his plate into the sink.
At least he was learning something about living with you. Now, if he really wanted to impress you, he'd wash that damn dish.
But for now, you wanted answers more than you wanted clean plates. You slowly got up out of your chair and went to him. You tried your best not to be accusatory when you asked your next questions.
âWhat do you mean? What do you have to do?â
He didnât seem to want to answer you. Or maybe, he didnât have a good answer, because he was fucking lying.
You laid a hand on his arm. âBen. I need you to talk to me right now, because this is our first day off together in weeks. You know this was supposed to be our day. So youâd better have a damn good reason.â
He frowned angrily down at you. âWeâre not going because I fucking said so. Thatâs all you need to know.â
You glared back at him, standing your ground.
You raised a brow. âThatâs not good enough with me, and you know it. But if thatâs how youâre going to be about it, Iâll call Annie and make it a girlsâ day.â
You turned on your heel to walk away, but an iron hand grabbed your wrist. Holding back a wince, you frowned at Ben over your shoulder. His face was tight with irritation.
âYouâre not going any-damn-where,â he snapped.
âYou better let me go, right now,â your temper snapped right back.
This man was protective, but he had never been this bad. Not even after you got out of the hospital after Vought Tower collapsed. Granted, youâd been fully healed. Heâd never outright tried to forbid you from leaving the house though. Â
âWhat the hell is your problem?â you said.
He didnât want to let you go, but after a beat, he released you. His frown deepened when you had to rub the ache out of your wrist.
He hadnât meant to grip you that hard. Part of him relentedâŠbut then it firmed back up, when he remembered last night. The images were still filtering through his mind on a loop.
The alley, the blood slipping through his fingers, your pale, cold cheek, and lifeless eyes staring up at him.
âThereâs something we need to discuss,â he said gruffly.
You tilted your head at him. Your face was tight and angry now, but you still followed him into the living room. You sat down together on the couch, and with crossed arms, you waited for him to speak.
His elbow rested on his knee while his hand swept over his mouth and beard. Then his gaze slid over to yours.
âYou need to take Compound V,â he said.
To say that shocked you was an understatement. Your eyes widened, and your body went rigid.
âExcuse me?â you said lowly.
âThereâs no way around it,â he said. Grit was laced in his voice, but you didnât care.
âIâve made myself very clearââ
âAnd you also said weâd revisit this little chat, so here we are,â Ben retorted. âYou need to live in fucking reality. I canât be with you 24/7. I donât trust those CIA fucks to wipe their own ass, let alone keep an eye on you. Especially when Iâm in the field.â
You just managed to lasso in your temper when you finally realized where this was coming from. You inhaled a couple of calming breaths. Your fingers tapped your knees. You sat up straighter before you turned to him more fully.
Your hand reached out to cover his on his thigh.
âBen,â you started. Soft and even. âWhat did you dream last night?â
His face tightened further, his lips pressed into a line. It took him a moment, but eventually he answered.
âNothing. Doesnât fucking matter.â
âWe both know that it does,â you chided.
When he just maintained his stoic façade, you slid closer to him on the couch. You curled a hand around his bicep and pressed a kiss to his shoulder.
You looked up at him.
He didnât want to break.
You just waited until the green of his eyes met yours.
âHey. Itâs just me,â you said softly. âTalk to me.â
His brows knit together, slightly. His jaw clenched and twitched under his skin.
âI lost you,â he said.
Admitting to that was like admitting that his uniform was a lie; that he had no fear. That he was invulnerable. That he was a god in human form.
But you had become the last human part of him. To lose that would be to lose everything again, worse than 1984.
Somehow, youâd become his reasonâŠfor most things. He didnât think you realized it, nor would he allow himself to tell you.
His eyes closed when you leaned up and pressed a kiss to his cheek. You let your fingers sift through his hair, brushing it back and away from his forehead.
âDo you know why I want to stay normal?â you asked. "Albeit fragile and breakable."
He didnât answer, but his eyes silently asked for one.
âBecause I want to stay myself,â you said. âPower corrupts, and thereâs a big chance I wouldnât be the woman you loved anymore if I injected that shit into my veins.â
Ben frowned. He hadnât considered thatâŠbut he still felt it was a price worth paying.
You moved off the couch and into his lap. He welcomed you with an arm curling around your waist and another moving up your thigh.
Your arms twined around his neck, and you kissed him properly, nice and slow. He tasted like coffee and maple syrup. His hair was soft between your curling fingers.
You parted from him after a while, just to press another comforting kiss to his temple.
âI know what Iâm asking of you, and Iâm sorry,â you whispered against his skin. âBut weâll figure something else out.â
âHow?â he scoffed, his brows furrowing again. âIn a few decadesââ
âI thought you didnât mind a few wrinkles,â you teased.
A smirk flickered across his lips. âYou know what the fuck I mean.â
âI know,â you nodded. âBut we have time. I promise, weâll figure this out.â
Ben didnât totally believe you. There was going to come a time where you were going to have to make a choice: between him and your principles.
It wasnât fair, but that was the reality. Life wasnât fucking fair.
Until then, maybe he could make one concession.
âIf you wantâŠâ he said. You leaned back enough to see his face.
He met your gaze. âWe can go to dinner later. In the city.â
A slow smile spread across your face.
âBut weâre getting a private room,â he warned, squeezing your hips. âAnd weâre driving there and back. Thatâs it.â
Your smile warmed further, and kissed the corner of his mouth. You were sure you could convince him to go a Broadway show afterwards, if you plied him in a few key ways...
âI like the idea of a private room,â you said.
His fingers crept up your pajama pants, drifting down between your thighs. His thumb started to stroke warmth through your panties. It had you smiling, sighing, subtly pressing into his hand.
His smirk deepened.
âYou do, donât you?â he said.
You let out a breathy laugh at the change in him. It didnât take much to get him worked up. So you hugged him close and spoke into his ear all the things you had planned for him tonight.
Before, and after dinner.
AN: Lol I love writing this lovable asshole. đ Especially in the BMD-verse.
I have more Dean imagines coming soon! Including a requested sequel to "You are Dean's one exception," in which Sam "crosses the line"... đ«Ł
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me, seeing the differences in chapter 12 routes when you choose either to face kham directly or go to the peri trader in disguise:
#a tale of crowns#atoc spoilers#atoc chapter 12#oh i fear that i've made a mistake#perhaps not but the outcomes of the two routes are certainly uh#very different#my initial choice was mostly to confront the peri trader in disguise#but then i got curious and sent my A-romancing crown to face directly and hooooooooooooooooooooo boy#anyways#my thoughts
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I wish Sam and Tucker got to be characters more often. Thinking about how they also have a significant part of their lives they have to hide from their parents because they're also out ghost hunting with Danny all the time. And they have the capacity to walk away from it in a way that Danny doesn't. But they don't. This has got to be a strain on them too, this upended their lives too, and they don't even have any ghost powers to deal with it.
Sam already isn't on good terms with her parents; she could probably tell them upfront exactly how much time she spends hunting ghosts and if she said it in a bitter and sarcastic tone of voice they would probably just frown at her and tsk for her being so morbid and dramatic. I can't imagine she's the kind of kid who talks honestly to her parents about anything anyway. We barely ever see Tucker's parents but the few times we do they seem generically nice and normal. Do they worry about him, suddenly out all the time and coming home harried and beat up and found at the scene of rampant property destruction? Is he lying to them for the first time in his life? Does Danny ever ask them about this or is he too wrapped up in his own Family Angst?
#thinking about the Fright Knight fanfic I wanna write about them all confronting their Worst Fears#and realizing I'm giving them all parental related anxieties#that's just what being 14 is like#Danny Phantom
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me when my meteor-powered robot gf attempts to murder me đłđł
#context:#after Bortom city recognized Beatrix as a threat and began persecuting herâ she became widely known#A great reward would be given to those who captured the runaway androidâ and most people feared her.#To sum it upâ she was alone in her journey and refusing to trust anyone so easily.#The persecutions got worse when more cities allied themselves with Bortom. This attracted robot hunters.#At some pointâ Beatrix met this golden-eyedâ humanoid shadow that always seemed to watch her from afar#It wouldn't stop following herâ until it was close enough to initiate a confrontation#Beatrix was basically FED UP with the persecutions and so she fought using her fists... while he had a gun.#The bullets couldn't cause great damageâ and were actually microchips designed to stunt robotic enemies#Beatrix barely resisted the effects and managed to take down the other... who raised its hands in defeat.#Imagine the situation: She's literally got him on the groundâ fist raised to deliver a powerful blow while he's SHAKING IN HIS BOOTS#Turns out the microchips take effectâ and Beatrix attempts to escape before it's too late... But her systems go off abruptly#...Then she wakes up in this cozy workshop of sorts. She goes outside and BOOM!!!#A ship moved by machinery? Robots living peacefully? People walking past her without batting an eye? This must be a dream!#She's finally found Fusionsprunt (or was found but it). The city built for and by rebells like her.#and about the golden-eyed enemy? yeah uh. that's Hunter. of course that was Hunter. he could NOT resist making a dramatic appearance.#the mysterious enemy is actually just some silly guy w workaholic tendencies father of a prodigy and who also enjoys piloting his spaceship#fusionsprunt#fusionsprunt hunter#fusionsprunt beatrix
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âi think when weâre red ⊠we can have fun again!â
gem doesnât love pearl. she loves red pearl.
she loves pearl when sheâs not herself. when her mind is clouded by a red fog and a desperation for blood. when sheâs at her lowest. she loves what they are when they both have nothing to lose.
she can only love her when neither of them are them.
âas much as she would love to, itâs too early for red pearl. okay? she can stay where she is.â
pearl has never considered red pearl to be her. red pearl is another person - red pearl is who she doesn't want to be. red pearl is what she has to become to survive.
gem loves pearl. she does!
just not the one who's healed. not the one who's happy. she loves the one that's hurt. the one that hurts. the one she can hurt people with.
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