#cried while rewatching this to get the stills btw

[nostalgicfun]

The Easter Bunny Is Comin' to Town, 1977

[loveandmurders]

Here's a random story that I thought about. Honestly I just wanted this idea out there but anyways

The Sinclair brothers x reader (poly)

Reader and her friends get stuck in Ambrose and all that. But like the other fics, they obviously keep you for whatever reason (I'm sexy hun). And they become a bit possessive (technically yandere cause they're killers and like all the horror movie killers would be yanderes but if you're not comfortable with yanderes, you don't have to write it yandere like) and all that. Reader kills themselves. But instead of reader being like dead, they come back alive (kinda like happy death day. Love that movie btw. Watched it with my sister(both movies and both watches twice. We both had a crush on the love interest and I also had a crush on like half the cast cause the girls were hotter than they should've been)). They start the day over and try to find ways to get away from the brothers and all that. Yet they still find her or she still ends up in Ambrose. She keeps dying as well. She kills herself, she might get stabbed or shot by another victim after the new victims come in after like 2 weeks. After a while she goes insane and just fulls on freaks out and cries. The brothers get confused and ask if she's alright and everything and she just breaks and explains. (They either believe her or not). If they believe her then cool but if not. She keeps killing herself so she can tell them everything they say until they finally believe her. "What that's crazy" *kills herself and then comes back and repeats that before he said it that time* "...how did you know that?" *Kills herself and all that* kinda like 'cam you guess what I'm thinking of?' type shit.

Oops sorry for being a yapper but I just had it in my mind and had to share

Omg !! I don't know why I haven't seen your ask before but YES!! This is such a good idea, I love it 😍

I recently rewatched this movie with my gf, I forgot how cool it is!

Unfortunately, I don't do request any more, and I think your imagine is pretty complete already :)

Obviously, the reader stops dying when she understands that her fate is to be a Sinclair 😌

[cynthia39100]

so sorry for late response and i need you to know that as im typing this i’m listening to i am the one reprise and god it’s sooo good. yes it def takes a lot of courage to do what natalia did especially since natalia and dan weren’t on the same page about how to take care of diana it’s just natalia is soo brave.

omg yes the lighting with the wide shot too and the close up! i love that moment when characters say the same thing but in different ways. it’s such a cool way to show how the characters are thinking differently which i just love it.

the reprises are always the best with it turning all the lyrics on its head which for a musical is my favorite thing to happen and it’s my favorite part. yes the i am the one works with saying it to dan like it works well saying it to diana and also saying it to gabe which i really like.

i did my rewatch a couple of days ago and i’m obsessed with the why stay/a promise blocking that you mentioned a while ago like i really love it. both diana and natalia having a realization in their respective relationships but then also coming to a different conclusion about how to work out their romantic relationships is sooo good. o believe that this is the first time that diana thinks about leaving because she has to for both of their sanities and then natalia later on realizing that yes she can be loved by henry and maybe she’s a mess but they work well together. like i’m obsessed with everything surrounding that song like natalia and henry hugging at the end vs diana and dan going farther away from each other like ahh. i really wanna watch it a third time before it goes away from pbs since there’s not that much time left because i really do love this musical and im obsessed with this pro shot. i’m really thankful that you love it because it opened me up to watching the musical.

honestly i would love an in depth analysis of i am the one like it’s one of my ultimate favorites from the show so i do love how you talk about it and hijack the post lol.

Don’t worry about the late response. I’m not super quick either ^^ (working on Merlin stuff recently) (thanks for all the reblogging btw)

Natalie really is so brave!! She cares so much for both Diana and Dan even though he never got enough love from the two. There are so many instances where she silently cries watching Diana sinking in delusion or Dan fussing over Diana and never her. But she still defends Diana when they agreed to ETC and took Diana to hospital when Dan couldn’t. And she stayed with Dan when Diana was gone. She’s incredible. Thank god she had Henry.

I really like some lyrics in Why Stay.

“Why not simply end it? We’ll all comprehend it cause most of the world would say, he’s better off that way to be free. And maybe so is she.”

It’s so poignant depicting the complicated mindset, feeling grateful but also suffocated by the overwhelming good intentions from the other person, how the relationship is viewed by the society and themselves. I just thought it’s really nice that it doesn’t tell us which is more correct—should the caretaker in the relationship stay or leave/is it fair for the care receiver to lash out like that. It just puts it out there for you to think. The fact that Henry and Natalie hugged in the end while Diana and Dan fell apart seemed to suggest that both ways were correct and I really love that.

I’m glad you’re not bored by my I Am The One rants haha. I might write it properly but also I sort of feel like all my feelings for them were poured into that fic I wrote so I feel less urgent to do it. Even if I do it’ll be a while since I suddenly want to get the pride badge of Merlin Bingo and I have less than a week to finish a fic I only thought of like… last weekend 😂

[kr-han]

Would you post more High&Low trivia?

YES! But I'm so sorry that there isn't much left. I haven't had any time to rewatch nor reread anything about HiGH&LOW recently. Life sucks, sometimes but it goes on😪 Also, I didn't know much about the next generation (a.k.a Fujio and the gang).

Anyway, for anyone who just found this, here's the previous.

⚠ CAUTION ⚠

What I write down here wasn't necessarily facts, it contains some of my head canons and assumptions, so please take it with a grain of salt.

So, here something that I left behind!

Cobra and Yamato didn't attend high school at all. They were out there riding along with MUGEN while Noboru was in school and getting to a law school.

Cobra brings a wrestling magazine with him to the toilet (yes, he's taking a dump while reading, presumably, about his great Inoki-san).

Hiroto, most of the time, didn't help around the house.

Masaki has been doing the chores all to himself even when Takeru was still around.

Takeru was the one who did all the paperwork according to The Amamiyas' jobs and his brothers were at loss when he wasn't around. That was why we found a lot of documents and related news to their parents' incident in his room.

Although it wasn't a fun fact, but even if Kuryu didn't beat him up, Smoky didn't have much time left. He got several severe medical issues such as: asthma, pneumonia, hematemesis (the main reason why he coughed blood), and cataract. It was already hard for him to see and move around. Thus, he sacrificed himself. I assume he also had Marie Antoinette Syndrome considering his grey/white hair. (I might need to write a whole new content for Smoky).

Meanwhile, Eri has asthma and pneumonia. It can be cured, except for asthma.

When P was little, he cried like "Pii, pii, pii…." every single time. That was why he is P.

Takeshi has this breakdance-like-attack that always on the beat, thus he called Takeshi. It was a pun on the name 'Beat Takeshi' (he's a comedian, btw).

There was actually some kind of changes on character design, name, and all. It might explain on why some names are different on different sources. But I guess I'll write it for the next post.

I guess, that's all for this time. I hope it doesn't disappoint you. Please wish me well on my final paper, so that I can dig and write more.

You can support me on ko-fi as well!!

Thank you so much, hope that I can comeback earlier and write more. See you!!

[miraofhearts2point0]

things i tweeted while rewatching aib s2 part two (eps 6-9) (final part!)

Chishiya ......... // sighs

forgot abt the whole docyor aww he has a heart🥺🥺 bit idgaf // wheres my "i'd probably ignore them both" response to Kuzuryū's "which group of people woyld you save" question

- Hayato....my baby Doudou..... i'll kill you Chishiya

- idgaf abt doctor Chishiya bruh like at all. i really cant bring myself to care

- this Beach origin Niragi erasure // Ann and Niragi were the first two there Kuzuryū came next dpmo

- im only watching ep7's first few minutes so i can be disappointed by the shootout then going straight to the Q♡ to see peak television

- MOMOOOOKAAA // Momoka😢😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

- forgot how lazy the decision to have Kuzuryū kill himself was now im pissed // THE POINT WAS THAT HE STILL BELIEVES ALL LIFE IS EQUAL. AND HE BELIEVES HIS OWN LIFE IS JUST AS VALUABLE AS CHISHIYA'S. YES HE REALIZED HE CANT MAKE THOSE CHOICES BC THEYRE SELFISH BUT WHEJ FACED WITH THE SAME DECISION AS HE ALWAYS HAS BEEN HES ABLE TO PUT HIMSELFON RQUAL FOOTING. HE'D RATHER DIE THAN GIVE UP THOSE IDEALS OF EQUALITY. HE WOUPDNT KILL HIMSELF FOR SOMEONE ELSE BC HIS OWN LIFE IS OF VALUE DPMO

- Kuinaaaa😭😭😭😭😭😭 // Ann😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 // Heiya😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

- Niragi shoe jumpscare help whyd that actually scare me // better thaj his bare feet to be fair but whys he dripped out bros dying

- i miss Niragi church scene 🙁

- why do i even watch this show when all i do is complain bruh

- where did Niragi even get a gun from brah makes zero srnse

- KUIANN😭 // Ann's stance smths purring

- i miss Chishiya's J◇ mahjong arc

- SHIIRABI MIRA MY BELOVESS

- straight up they could make it rain earlier so why couldnt they have done the same for the shootout i donf get it

- "you've changed a lot" girl how // bro has not done a single thing to warrant that response

- i miss my hope i had for this scene i really miss it // "we're scum" sincr when was Arisu selfish it's like they (the writers) dgaf im crying

- the way there are no stakes here i cant do this. i wish we got Niragi chasing Arisu underneath cars and shit and Chishiya shooting at Arisu to stay put like this is nothing // two flashbacks of selfishness girl bfr

- where tf was the screaming crying Niragi begging everyone to not let him be alone im sick anf tired this wss so stupid

- idgaf im skipping to ep8

- MIRA HERE I COME!

- .

- "i won!" and Usagi is just like "thats great man but irdgaf rn"

- MIRA I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH

- USAGI HAVING A HALO AROUMD HER HEAD TO PORTRAY HER AS THE LIFHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL IM SICK

- big fan of the mild body horror in this ep

- Usagi taking a piece of glass to protect Arisu this is so evil

- Usagi😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 but im fr crying

- Usagi and Mira calling him Alice fawk

- Arisu and Usagi being portrayed as dying on the ground together, Kuina and Ann having the same symbolism, and so did manga Niragi and Chishiya.......what does this mean

- Usagi probably thought she was gonna die alone......... // Usagi Niragi parallels go crazy im sick

- Usagi ...

- Mira crying over arisagi me too girl // actually bawling

- i might seriously cry through the rest of this episode

- Heiya's answer always makes me bawl i cant stop cryign // Niragi's "i dont want it" im gonna kill myselt

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- Tatta is so beautiful -> I THINK I JUST SAW HIM ON THE STREETWTF

- Kuina and her mama bawling again // Kuina in general just makes me sob

- i cried so hard im shaky now // i also did in fact, cry for the entire last 30 minutes. btw.

- second time i loudly yelled at my mom for being in the way of Niragi and Chishiya on the TV screen. maybe i am a real fujo -- hating on women for simply being in the way of the yaoi ship

[bexfangirlforlife]

911 episode 121 (8×15) first watch notes:

Well well well... I only looked at very little before this. I don't wanna watch this rn. But I need to, so let's go I guess

You really don't need to show us this, I think we understoof what happened at the end of the last ep.

Ok well where she put it is important but the rest.

No I can't look at Bobby

I'm already getting sad

Lol. I paused at a moment where the first word after unpausing was "tumbler". How fitting

Buck already looks so sad, I can't

Yes, Athena! So good

What was that? I couldn't really see. The thing Bobby did and looked like Chimney saw? Did Bobby just open is ventilation or...? I really couldn't see anything he did there

"I'm not gonna let anything bad happen to your family" ... you mean you wont let Chimney die.

Oh that made me queasy

"No I was not" 😆

Tommy! 😃

"You called your boyfriend?" - "ex-boyfriend" ... why is everything so funny rn?

(Am I losing it?)

Why is the fbi all like "omg we missed them". As if they didn't know where they had to go eventually?

Omg helicopter race? This is some Alarm für Cobra 11 shit

(Wow now I wanna rewatch an episode of afc11 😅)

Lol this is ridiculous action, I love it 😆

They left somewhere mid air, didn't they?

Or wait. Did we see her in the helicopter? Was she even in there? I was so focused on Tommy and Buck and the weird action that i can't remember rn

Btw THIS is the part where you give me the flashback of what happened and not that bit at the start

See these two are in their (science) job to save lives.

Bobby is already losing strength

"Except for you" - I think I'm really losing it cause I giggled at that way too loudly

He wrote "my people" not 'us'

Buck is all chipper and joking. Nooo

I was totally fine. I was fine when Bobby looked at everyone leaving. I was fine when he locked himself in. I was fine when he took off the mask and Buck realised what was going on. But when Bobby started talking...

"You're gonna be okay, Buck." made me start sobbing immediately.

"They're gonna need you. I love you, kid." Made me loose it completely

I had to pause

And the pause screen isn't helping either

The tear in his eye. Nooo.

I almost cried earlier in the ep, when Chim mentioned Bobby's kids and all I could think was "he might be with them soon"

But this. Leaving is kid, Buck, behind like this. I can't. I'm not fine. I can't unpause. I keep sobbing while typing all this

"There was one dose" I'm sorry, but you can't tell me you couldn't have at least tried to get Moira to make another one. Like she would have jumped on that, to have more leverage again

"I don't wanna go." made me need go pause again.

Bobby was at the point that he rather would have died in the past. But now he has a family again. He doesn't want to leave the life they made together. I can't

I'm still sobbing at what they're saying, but he does look a bit like you pulled him out of a haunted house and not like one usually looks when they're sick and dying on a show

😭 someone go hug Buck, his dad is dying of looking like a ghost disease

(I'm sorry my coping mechanism is bad jokes)

Not the praying nooo 😭😭😭

😭😭😭😭😭

I'm still crying

Honestly starting the episode I didn't think I'd be crying this much or tbh at all. I thought my denial (that is still lowkey there) would be too strong

I'm watching this on prime and they keep lining up red white royal blue at the end of the newest 911 episode for me. I don't want that rn. Please stop doing that.

Okay. I'm very torn on this episode. I really liked it, but also not as a whole. Let me try to put my thought a bit detailed there...

I very much enjoyed the first 25ish minutes. It was classic 911, some stakes and a lot of sillyness. Very good ep for me if it was an episode that had a happy ending, you know like they usually have. Last third of the episode also very good. Extremely emotional, done well (except for the ghost make up). Put Eddie in there and it's a well done emotional hit. But put the two together, they just don't fit to make one great episode, which if this is truly Bobby's end should have been.

Like I said I enjoyed the first two thirds as well, but I kept thinking that the first episode of the two parter hit me more. Got me more emotionally invested than this one. This was fun and games kinda enjoyment. Which is also why it surprised me so much when I started sobbing later. I did not feel the emotional weight of all of this until the last third. Which idk how to feel about.

So yeah... gotta think about this for a while. Let's see where we go from here.

Also: seeing Bobby's helmet at the end saying "cap" was not as emotional as it should have been cause all I could think was how much I do NOT want Gerrad back. Like keep is face off my screen, for real. I don't want him anymore

[faksyan]

idk fuckinnn. bandage boy from stray dogs something i forgot every name involved you know who i’m talking about

Forgot I didn't post this. woops. clawing at walls barking meowing biting you. That's Dazai. you don't even know who that is and I am about to lose it. Haven't thought about him in so long. The fucking. character of all time to ME. The ask game in question.

First impression

I watched bsd first as a pretty young teenager and loved him cause he's an anime pretty boy and then a few years later hated his ass because he's a terrible person and then a few more years later. well.

Impression now

When I started yet another rewatch I went in with the idea of fully hating the guy. And then things. Happened. The same reason I switched to hating him before (maturing and thinking about trauma) was the exact reason I did a 180 SO fast (some more maturing and thinking about trauma). I did a liveblog and looking back on me talking about how much I dislike him is so funny knowing what is to come. I did not know yet. I love him so so so much he makes me so sad I relate to him I don't understand him at all I love projecting my own shit on this guy. He is a victim of circumstance and a product of the environment he grew up in in the worst way possible, and still he is trying to change and be better because even though his morals are screwed up, doing good is better than not. He's depressed he's suicidal he's using flirting as an attempt to bridge the gap between himself and the rest of humanity and feel less lonely. He even ate hallucinogenic mushrooms once and went to work while tripping absolute balls. He's a genius and knows everyone's next move and a mary sue and the speciallest princess ever and also so emotionally stunted it's painful to watch. He's a loser he's a creep he's a weirdo he was in mafia at 14 and he has superpowers that defeat all other powers. he's also my favorite guy. I am normal. I'm fine.

Favorite moment

Sighhhh what ISN'T. a few but this isn't about that. there are too many I can think of right now. Everything during Oda’s death in Dark Era. Wrote a thing about it and cried btw. Him talking to Kyouka before she passed the exam also. The conversation with Atsushi after his mentor’s death. THE FYODOR DEATH FAKEOUT mainly because I waited for that chapter so bad after seeing him get shot to death. I like him carrying Chuuya out all by himself to save him in Stormbringer. Him cheating in the arcane in Fifteen. Oh I love how much he despises Mori!!!! that's not a moment I guess then every time he's scaring the shit out of him, both as a kid and an adult. he should tell Mori to kill himself next. Him calling Shibusawa friendless in the movie.

Idea for a story

Ohhh I have so many bsd fics started. There's one where Oda comes back to life some years later and joins the Agency, and they talk and hang out and love each other so so much. There are a few where he attempts to woo various people and fails miserably. I have a few about him and Chuuya post-Stormbringer, one where he cooks for him to apologize for being horrible in it and another more silly one with spying and Oda shenanigans.

Unpopular opinion

Aroace. does not want a single man around him carnally. or woman but I don't think I've seen people ship him with one like ever. either way all romantic ships with him are annoying as fuck unless I use them for comedy purposes in which case they're awesome because I Understand.

Favorite relationship

Him and Oda and Ango. As a trio and with two of them separately. I love their dynamic so so much. The day I met Dazai lives in my head rent free. And the potential of his relationship with Ango post-betrayal, where Dazai is bitter for years and Ango is depressed as shit but they still know they have each other in the bed of the day, that their love for Oda is something only the two of them can share and understand? delicious. I like thinking when they see each other again in the manga next time they hug. won't happen but ah. I can dream. Like his relationship with Atsushi and Kyouka too. He's a terrible influence and they all know it.

Favorite headcanon

He doesn't actually want to die. He treats Akutagawa Like That now because he knows he fucked up but doesn't know what to do with him. Him flirting with the nurse that one time is not a funny haha thing if you put two and two together and think about the implications of Kyouka trying to use seduction to get what she wants and him also being in the mafia as a kid just as she was. Oda owned a cat that Dazai took in after his death. He also took most of his things and keeps them in his house, including their photos from the bar with them and Ango and a few with Oda's kids.

[skunkes]

You probably get this asked a lot but do you have any particular things you keep in mind when writing in your journal? I started recently and it's been great but I find that Only recapping my day gets to be a bit tedious (esp when I don't go outside much lol) so I was curious what you do to keep motivated with it ! Ur sticker layouts are always so cutes btw I'm very inspired by them ^_^💖

Yeah! I mainly journal for Memory Keeping as i have a weird obsession with wanting to keep track of anything/everything, so i just think of what future cheye would want to know, instead of just recapping day.

Makes me really sad bc in college all i had energy to write was like "ate x went to class went to mailroom went to class 2 had x for dinner 1 am now goodnight" and its like. What about. The whole rest of it!! What did u do who did you talk to when was it that you saw a raccoon irl for the first time!!! Were you stressing over assignments?? Which and why!!! I have 0 tangible, meaningful, memories of what happened now. Just sterile clinical ones. :(

I do track things consistently like my rating for the day, the time i woke up and the time i go to bed, what i ate, if i cried, along wit other personal stats (i like the numbers!). Sometimes I also dont Do anything in a day so i just focus on other things, like taking the opportunity to write about feelings a little bit, so future cheye Knows the state of mind i was in on a given day, or maybe talk about how I bought something and am excited to wear/use it

Not much happened today so I wrote about and included how my dad described the plot of to, and showed me, some scenes of The Untouchables 1987 today because a song always reminds him of that movie...

yesterday I wrote about how my sister and I are planning on trying some pillsbury cocoa rolls on thursday, since we couldn't today, and that I am Excited.

I don't know, its small things that I feel I'd appreciate in the future even if they seem silly or pointless right now...(and also good for keeping track of personal growth, as Im hoping I at one point get to pinpoint where my complaints about Not Wanting to Drive fade away from the entries. Ykwim?)

ITS KIND OF LIKE THAT ONE POST ON HERE...like "if you see this tag one delight from your day no matter how small". You ""force"" yourself to come up with something to pad the entry with, and I think it's small things like that that will be really telling of your time here, in the future ^_^ time capsule of the old you

like. Did you see something insanely funny? Did your best friend say something weird... Did the internet platforms you browse all rally over a war criminal dying... Is it still rainy and chilly like it was yesterday? Are you excited for your birthday even if its many months away... What series did you start rewatching? Did u get scared by a shadow while walking your dog...idk! Anything, everything

[echo-of-the-eye]

I really wanna get back into the dragon prince fandom. I kinda fell off after s4. Now I don’t hate s4-6 (in fact I actually really like 6!) but I do have problems with them. Mostly s4. (Heads up there will be some criticism of s4-6 so if that upsets you feel free to not read. I haven’t kept up with the fandom but I know opinions on s4 were really split when it came out. And unfortunately I didn’t like it very much. If you did like it, good for you! That’s great! I honestly wish I could say the same)

This ended up getting really long so I’ll put it under the cut.

I think my expectations were too high. I’d waited years for s4 and the trailer looked so good and I trusted the creators so when it came out I was really disappointed. I was already having a really bad day and was emotionally drained so when I watched it and it didn’t meet my expectations I genuinely cried from disappointment. Now that was an overreaction (and I really should have waited till I felt better) and on rewatch it isn’t THAT bad, but it’s still not nearly as good as arc 1 (which I love with my whole heart).

Most of my problems are with how rayllum was handeled. I know some people liked it cause they felt it was realistic and I kinda get it. I’ve heard arguments about how it makes sense cause even though Callum is mad, he still cares about Rayla and therefore doesn’t want to hurt her, so he gives her the cold shoulder so he doesn’t end up saying something hurtful. But I disagree. Even if it is realistic, it’s not DRAMATIC and that’s more important to me. I just wish they could have had ONE big fight where Callum gets to be a bit pissed. I also wish they explained where the fuck Rayla has been and why she happened to come back just in time for the plot. She said she missed him but what made her return at that specific moment after being gone for two years? (Also curious what people who haven’t read through the moon thought. Cause they barely even explain why she was gone). After ttm I was so ready for angst, it was such a good setup and then it felt like they didn’t deliver. Especially after the creators kept promising it would get darker and more mature (and then s4 ended up being the most childish season. Seriously, what was up with those jokes they weren’t even funny)

There are things love about s4 though. The fight between Claudia and Ibis with Ezran’s speech and Aaravos possessing Callum was amazing! But the rest kind a fell flat for me.

I like 5 and 6 a LOT better but they still suffer from some of the issues from s4. If s4 was done better I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have that many problems with 5 and 6 either. I liked how rayllum got back together EXCEPT for how CALLUM was made to apologize to RAYLA!?? For how HE reacted when she came back? (An entirely reasonable reaction btw) When she never apologizes to him for leaving in the first place!

I feel like there are also some pacing issues. I’m not qualified to talk about what they did wrong or how they should have done it and I can’t quite put my finger on what’s wrong but it felt off compared to arc 1. I think it’s mostly that it wastes a lot of time on meaningless stuff that doesn’t do anything for the characters while the actual meaningful character development gets rushed and they barely linger on the emotional moments. In arc 1 it felt like every moment and line mattered. Like you couldn’t cut anything without taking away from the story cause everything added something important to the characters. But s4-6 there are many moments I could go without (and that I actively dislike), again mostly in s4). Each episode also felt way better structured in arc 1.

I know a lot of people love arc 2 and 3 and that’s good! I’m really glad you’re able to enjoy it and I’m honestly kinda jealous. I wish I could enjoy it as much as arc 1 cause this series meant so much to me! It still does and I still get exited over new seasons, but I haven’t been able to engage much with it cause my interest kinda faded when it didn’t live up to its potential. I’m looking forward to s7 and I hope it delivers cause I still love it after all. It’s one of my favorite shows of all time. I’m trying to get a bit back into it again, looking through the tag and stuff cause I want to engage with it more. Unfortunately I do not control the hyperfixation so we’ll see how it goes. Chances are it’ll come back once s7 drops (which is in one month holy shit!!!)

[maggiezw]

How to fall for thai BL series in 3 acts (my experience):

Act 1: I'm so bored so I start looking for drama recommendations (enemies to lovers) in YouTube

Act 2: Found a thai series that catches my attention mostly because one of the leads kinda resembles japanese idol Shigeoka Daiki. Evidence here:

Left: an embarrassed First Kanaphan. Right: an embarrassed Shigeoka Daiki. XD (god, they could be twins :ppp)

Act 3: Become obsessed with First Kanaphan and Khaotung Thanawat, watch their other series, meet other gmmtv actors, also become obsessed with them, also watch their other series and it becomes a neverending cycle and I still can't get out of it (not that I want to, though)

Anyway, the series that had left me quite an impression until now are these (in non particular order):

The Eclipse: obviously, but not only because of Khaotung and First insane chemistry but akkayan wholesome relationship and the sutile way the characters start to grow right in front of our eyes since episode one. There's something in the way Ayan and Akk hate each other at first because of their different ideals and values, but as they start to know each other (through their confrontations) something clicks within them and start to recognize themselves in the other one. The way Akk starts to question his beliefs and the way Ayan start to soften himself, the way he is so patient with Akk and the way they care about each other, "You are allowed to be weak, at least with me" will be forever engraved within me... who would have imagined they used to hate each other? They both have so much to learn from each other and both have the same patience to wait for the other. They are literally the cutest couple I've seen and have become my safe place. Btw, this is the series I rewatch the most lol

Not Me: a friend of mine recommended this one to me because I told her I liked First in The Eclipse so of course while watching it I started looking up for First but A SAVAGE GUN ATTHAPHAN appeared on my screen. That person really amazed me with his portraying of the twins, and become an instant favorite. The way he changed his voice, the manerisms, everything 👌. Of course this drama is 10/10 not only acting wise but plot wise and the way they manage certain social and political issues. I loved every single one of the characters of the gang, their camadery, their drive, even their individual matters were realistic and valid and we can easily relate. And yes one more time I have to mention First because here's when realized how good actor he is, this series was way before the eclipse where he was a highschool student but in not me he looked older, more confident and an entire new persona. I love him.

Theory of Love: I do not remember if I saw this one right after Not Me but oh how I suffered with Third and Khai story. From a person who loves angst, tears, hearbreaks, drama and rom-coms, Theory of Love is perfect. Starting with how the first half it's form Third's perspective and the second half from Khai's perspective, a reference from "Flipped" (Third's favorite movie) and how each one of the episodes are named after a popular rom-com movie (they're film students). I admit I saw myself a little in Third since I was in his same situation when I was in highschool (in love with our best friend) so it was SO frustrating seeing him suffering for someone who doesn't deserve a single tear and only hurts you but at least Khai proves us wrong (???) One more time I fell for Gun Atthaphan acting skills (my boy cried his tears out in this one) and Off Jumpol made me hate Khai so much until the second half. I really, reeeally love how this series is delievered and would like to buy the DVD lol.

Tonhon Chonlatee: YESSS THE INFAMOUS ONE LMAO 🙉🙈, I think it's really not necessary to mention the second hand embarrassement this series gave me at some points (the very first scene lmao and the ones that came after) and how bad some issues were handled but I would like to thank Tonhon Chonlatee for giving me a whole new perspective of the kind of actor Khaotung Thanawat is. He's so versatile. I think this was his first main role in a series ??? Chonlatee is a very shy and sweet hometown boy in love with his neighbor since childhood he has a pure heart but also knows how to stand up for himself. The contrast between Chon and confident troublemaker Ayan in The Eclipse still amazes me really. Another thing I loved about this series were the girls in Chonlatee life: his mom who always gives the best advices to his son, Pang, his best friend who deserves the title of best best friend and Miriam his roomate who was there to support him. Love them.

Moonlight Chicken: The earthmix is earthmixing (lmao I had to say that xd) Anyway, this one is love in different stages of life and we love that. Earthmix chemistry is no joke, their scenes together in ep 1 some made me melt of cuteness, other some made me 🙉🙈 There's something about them idk how to explain, they give a "mature" vibe which made them perfect for Uncle Jim and Wen. Funny how I started hating Wen because I thought he was cheating his boyfriend Alan (First my beloved again) but ended up being my fav character. About Gemini and Fourth this was also my introduction to them AND THEY WERE THE CUTEST in charge of the youth, the pure love between a deaf rich boy and a poor boy. they really are the cutest 😩💕. As for my beloved Khaotung and his character Gaipa in here, what can I say? Again he surprised me with his acting skills, he's just too good at delievering emotions. Of course First my beloved was super serious and grumpy here and I really missed his smile but he did a good job portrying alan. Love them.

[sunflowerdigs]

I rewatched The Lost Sister last night and was struck by the parallels between Kali and Vecna, particularly the fact that the first thing we see her do is create the illusion of spiders (that look like black widows) on Axel. She's also very angry, extremely manipulative, and has a bit of a God complex. She creates illusions, so it's not surprising that she'd eventually buy into the mentality that reality is what you make it, become somewhat delusional regarding her place in the world, and decide that it's ok to become judge, jury, and executioner for people she really knows nothing about just because they hurt her.

(I loved the use of misanthropic teenage bop Dead End Justice, btw, that was brilliant - all of the music in the episode was well-chosen.)

Typically, murder is where the line is drawn in fiction - once you actually kill someone in cold blood of your own free will, there isn't any coming back. But Stranger Things is a bit different since Eleven has killed several people but the show still regards her as a hero. Kali isn't a lost cause. She's a lot like Billy - she has become the monster that she believes everyone around her thinks she is, but you can tell that it's not what she really wants to be. Like everyone else, what she's really looking for is love and acceptance (which is why she's pulled together her little gang), she's just looking for it in the wrong places because she's never been taught how to find it in the right ones.

Even if the show aligns her briefly with Vecna, I'll be really disappointed if they make her a full-on villain like he is. Kali is thoughtful (I like how she addressed robbing the convenience store) and compassionate in moments, even while she is also disturbingly manipulative. Vecna is neither. And when you think about all that Kali has been through, from Brenner's lab to American street life, that level of dispassion in the face of everything makes sense, as do the tears she finally cries when the one person she thought could understand her rejects her way of life and looks at her like she's scared of her. The actress they cast was terrific. And I would really, really like to see her again, fighting on Eleven's side, against Vecna and the MF.

And maybe getting with Robin js...Robin/Kali, Billy/Steve, and Jancy would be my ideal ending. So it won't happen, lbr.

[jeekyl]

Station19 : 6x02 : Are station19 ok ?

The obvious theme on this episode and the last one is clearly Maya and Jack the two messed up people of this station. But are They ?

TW : mention of sexual assault  Because believe me when i say, Vic is next into spiraling out of control. She being all “ oh Carina married Maya without knowing that she’s a blackmailler” bitch  shut up, you’re next. You know what Karma is ? watch it. , jesus, Vic honey why are you opening up your mouth ? why ? she hide her pregnancy, she spend her time lying and being oblivious and she open her mouth gossiping ? why ? just shut up. That all i have to say. Beside the fact that she is insecure and selfish too. Wanna talk about the time you didn’t care about Theo’s feeling? Your body, your choice, won’t argue it, won’t dispute it, it’s you’re right. When theo talk to her, she didn’t care. And basically theo said “ i cried, because i was hurt you ignore me and left me out”. But Vic espect the other shoe to drop, but why ? Is it because you know that you left him out of you decision ? again your body your choice but at least talk to your patner, say “ listen i don’t want a child right now, maybe  later,  but for now i’m not ready, can you accept that?”  

Travis is being out there stating over and over again the same thing while his station encourages him while ignoring what he is saying. Jesus. Travis have always said he want to run for mayor to steal vote from dickson, great name for a great pun. He never said he wanted to be mayor, he said i want to run for mayor so dickson can’t be, can be any other person. 

Amusing how Ross use it and the firefighter names to provoke dickson. Jack is just out of control but he has being for a while, for those who missed it, rewatched it will be obvious. dude learn he is a bother an uncle, wanted to rekindle with his foster sibling but failed miserably, understandably i must say, being in the foster system is never kind, he literally admit that he was sexually abused so.. there’s that,  Carina was abuse mentaly and sexually because it was the theme of the day. Sorry but at this point if Maya goes to a therapist and say that her father abused her more than physically i will not be surprise, she start to spiraled after Andy’s attacked, so there’s that.  Beside Carina trying for a child which doesn’t help that Maya is going out of hand and hurting. She’s scared, hurt, fells like being rejected, inside and out, literally. So yeah she’s hurting and still in control somewhat. Watch out for Italian women they are strong. I think that she’s hurt that, her wife doesn’t trust her enough to tell her something as important as the backmailled, but more importantly, why Maya wants to be captain. For her it’s because Maya  have a goal that she have to obtain. But : Something Carina doesn’t get or at least don’t understand, Maya have choose her. Yeah she reverted back to her old self, but Maya have made Carina her priority. Her captaincy is because being a person or people pleaser isn’t easy to get ride off. But Maya did choose her, She doesn’t care if she’s promoted back to probe as long as it’s fair. Her demotion isn’t fair. Her watching sullivan and beckett being at each other throat for the post is just ridiculous at this point. Yeah beckett is sober, allegedly, but how can we know ? Andy did most of the work as much as captain and as a lieutenant. Maya at this point barely care about her job, she cares that she his helping and that her wife is happy, and now ? none of that works. She’s demoted for unfairly reason, she pointed out the obvious ( do we need to talk about the time she call Diane for help for the death of George Floyd because she didn’t know how to help and clearly her team was affected or are we going to ignore that?) She see her team, but right now she can’t see them because the team is a wreck, the team is messed up, all because, she decided that saving a life was more important than a lawsuit, that they would win btw. She was saving a life, like a doctor would do. Like a fucking firefighter is supposed to do. Anyway. She prioritize a life over paper. At what point did fighting fire and being a paramedic come over paper ? i don’t know, ask Travis. He would know either anyway. She did nothing wrong, but she is punish, and right now she is pushed back into her childhood where her father would treat her unfairly and smash a boll into the wall because she help someone in needs. Ring a bell ? If not, re watch. Pretty sure you’ll see it. Someone point out that Maya isn’t that bad, and that her treatment is more or less unfair. She help a life, and got blame for it, she was so aware that she saw what no one else saw, and Ross as long as sullivan deny it, and beckett who was drunk during work, brought out by sullivan got away with it with nothing. Sullivan, beckatt and at this point Ross is in the wrong and they still think they are right.  That communication. And Fuck these people need to talk. Bring Back Diane for the love of god because those people are so not okay. 

[pourquoiyyy]

This episode was so good wtf

Like I know it was 1 hour and 27 minutes so they had time, but still, something I don’t like with dramas is that very often an issue drags on for a whole episode or several episodes or a season, but in lovely writer so many things happen in each episode and in this one damn

So much happened???? And it’s very often sadly easy to see where the plot of a drama is going but I keep getting surprised by lovely writer, like they don’t take the easy BL route

This got quite long so…

First, Aey is trying to mess with Gene and Nubsib’s relationships ? Well, yeah, but actually he’s in love with Gene and I really have to watch the episodes again because I really didn’t see that coming, I was so convinced he liked Nubsib??? What clues did I miss?

(also Aey has a very very bad problem with his own self-image and self-worth, he did some very bad things this episode, but this scene of him watching his reflection in his phone, boyyyyyyy, Bruce is a good actor. And like it was a long scene, but it didn’t feel like it, it didn’t feel like time wasted in the episode)

Nubsib is angry at Gene ? Nope, just worried

Aey drugged Nubsib and Gene is trying to find a way to get out this night pUrE? No, my boy Gene is just worried about having sex with Sib for the first time AND actually Sib is somehow just feeling hot and not under any influence, he was just really really into Gene that night

Also so much kissing in this episode?? Like Sib and Gene are in the honeymoon phase of their relationship and they can finally admit to each other how much they love one another. I’m not saying kissing is essential to show in a drama btw, but it sometimes feels in BL dramas that the characters are allowed a quota of kisses per season or episode and once they’ve reached it, it’s DONE, you’ll get a cheek/forehead/hair kiss or a hug, or a high five, but that’s it, and again, it’s not that I absolutely want the characters to kiss, but I can’t help but think sometimes that would it be reality, these people would be kissing right now. So like before Sib’s mum arrived when they were on the couch, the situation they were in really called for a kiss, they were just gazing at each other, excited about this new development in their relationship, but I was in my usual BL mindset of « well, they’ve already kissed enough in this ep » and then they went and surprised me with an another kiss? And not just like a small peck like I’m used to in BL (which again, these aren’t bad, but realistically speaking, this really wasn’t what Gene and Nubsib wanted at that moment) It shouldn’t be surprising, but still it was

AND BAM! The coming out to your parents plot (that is sometimes THE WHOLE ISSUE OF A SEASON, I’m looking at you Korn and Knock) that I didn’t expect in an episode where so much had happened already. So I thought, yeah, they might just pretend they’re not together, we’ll hear some not too good comments from the parents about BL because Gene writes BL novels and Nubsib is acting in one, but nope, they wanted to prove my assumptions wrong again and Gene said he didn’t want to lie to their parents anymore! So yeah, we did hear some homophobia, interesting comments about BL fangirls and how much of a trend BL is right now and it almost seemed like Sib and Gene had changed their minds, but then Gene surprised me AGAIN and they revealed the fact that they’re dating to their parents.

And usually coming out plots drag on which I can understand because coming out to your family isn’t easy, but in lovely writer, in 30 minutes they did so much! Also, in the preview they showed only some parts of this plot carrying on, but I’m pretty sure that like usual with this series, it won’t take the whole episode, maybe the first half of it. And if it does take the whole episode, I won’t be disappointed because I quite like what they’ve done with it already

The double standard of the mothers finding BL cute, but maybe not if it’s their sons. They were saying it would be nice if their sons were actually together, that two grooms in suits would be adorable and that their families would be even closer, but really when Gene and Nubsib admitted they were really together, they went quiet, they cried, they didn’t defend their sons’ relationship to their husbands.

Aaah, the fathers! I expected them to have the worst reactions to Gene’s and Sib’s coming out and also sadly the most « typical »  that we see in series. And they did but not in the usual way it goes. It was really interesting to look at them and see how completely different their reactions were. Nubsib’s father was more about: be careful about my reputation, the reputation of my company and the reputation of this family, and treated his son’s love for Gene like a child’s infatuation that’s gone too far. The authoritative father that won’t even let his son speak and explain, Nubsib could only follow his orders.

While for Gene’s father, it was completely different. He was really really quiet and seemed really suspicious of their relationship before they revealed it and after they did, he just didn’t say a word while his wife kept throwing him worried glances. Then, when it was just their family left, he refused to talk to Gene, just telling him to go to his room until Gene got angry (and again surprised me) saying he was gay (an actual character saying he is gay in a thai bl series, it shouldn’t feel like victory but it does) and loved Nubsib and wouldn’t stop so why couldn’t his dad accept it? Before, AGAIN, dropping a big ass bomb, Gene’s father dated men (or a man) before marrying his mother. As much as this episode surprised me, this shocked me the most lol, I really didn’t expect THAT, but it’d explain Gene’s father’s reaction

Homophobia of course still exists today, but it was even worse when he was young and he never came out and probably chose to leave his partner and lead a « normal » straight life. Seeing your son at around the same age in the same situation but making completely differents choices, choosing to embrace his homosexuality and his love for Nubsib, well, I can understand that he needs a little time to accept this situation and talk to his son

This has become very long and I didn’t think I had that much to say about this episode, but boy I have even more, I loved so much about it. But first:

I HATED that Aey pretended to have drugged Nubsib, especially since he actually wanted to drug Gene and what, rape him??? And then laughing about it? Uh uh boy. Still, I really love Aey’s character, he keeps surprising me and I’m looking forward to his character development.

Otherwise, loved this episode. Gene in particular was really interesting: his conversations with Aey, the way his first time with Sib went (and wow, Sib’s innuendos in this episode, I still can’t get this image of him with his toothbrush in his mouth out of my mind), his bravery coming out to his parents and saying he was gay and forcing his dad to have this conversation and not avoid it.

Loved how supportive the brothers were, trying to tell their parents that society was much more open and accepting nowadays, helping their brothers as well as they could.

On a same note, Gene’s brother getting angry at their father on Gene’s behalf. I loved how their dialogue went about expectations and disappointment in a parent-child relationship, love me some family drama.

Gene and Nubsib holding hands under the table while facing their family’s disapproval

I’m going to stop here because this post is way too long for something probably only me is going to read, but I needed to write my thoughts to get them out of my head

Very raw thoughts btw, I need to reflect on this episode A LOT and rewatch it probably

[ducktales-fanartist]

Okay so I rewatched "The 87 cent solution" and watched the scene where Dewey was nearly killed by a falling plane, and so I wondered..what if Gizmoduck didn't reach him in time?

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"Gizmoduck! Fire!'

Scrooge ordered as he ran to the side of said robotic hero. Gizmoduck used his visor to scan the area but besides Scrooge and the kids, he couldn't see any sign of this 'Chester', "I don't see anything."

Scrooge scowled, "Hurry! Attack beforehe gets away! That's an order!" He bellowed in frustration.

Gizmoduck was hesitant, especially with one of the children running into what would be the line of fire, but forced himself to comply, "Umm, engage Midriff Missiles..?" He phrased it like a question.

Huey quickly ran to intervene, "No! He is of not sound mind! Don't fire!"

Scrooge growled like an animal and climbed onto Gizmoduck's back, "My mind is perfectly sound. Blow it all to pieces!" He demanded, pounding onto the metal suit like a child going through a tantrum. Gizmoduck attempted to stop him but the pounding caused the suit to go haywire and spin the hero out of control. As a result, Scrooge fell to the ground and landed by the kids just before the missiles fired. Instinctively, the older duck immediately covered the three children behind him to avoid them getting hit.

The missiles flew out of control before all three of them aimed for and struck the Sunchaser that was patrolling the sky. The plane began to descend down, and Lauchpad's attempted to pick it back up only caused it to steer in whatever direction.

Scrooge and the kids looked up to see this happen, as did Gizmoduck, "I'll handle this!" He announced and prepared to take off.

Except he didn't, he attempted to take off again only to be hit with the same issue.

"My Helmetcopter's stuck! Someone else handle this!" As predicted, the hero began to panic and attempt to fix whatever was stuck. Meanwhile, the plane was still going down with no stopping it.

Only now did everyone realize that a certain duckling with a blue shirt was in the path of the falling aircraft.

"Dewey!" The family cried out in unison. Dewey was too scared to get out the way himself, standing almost paralyzed on the bridge.

Scrooge felt his heart beat faster in his chest as he could only watch the plane get closer to his great nephew and Gizmoduck realize what was happening all too late. The wind whipped passed him as the duck hero wheeled by him in an attempt to rescue the child.

However, he couldn't see if he reached him before the plane crashed into the cement and he embraced the kids to protect them from the impact.

Soon, the dust settled and Scrooge turned back around. The Sunchaser was lying on it's side and he spotted Lauchpad exiting the plane and get to the ground safely. The pilot ran around to the front of the aircraft but stopped in his tracks immediately. The kids left Scrooge and went to join Lauchpad.

They only stopped when they saw the familiar silhouette of Gizmoduck emerge from behind the plane. A small figure was cradled in his right arm while the other leaned against the metal. Scrooge gasped and walked slowly towards the hero, passed the shocked children and Lauchpad, who looked ready to cry. He first saw a somber look on Gizmoduck's face as he rolled closer and shifted his right arm to give the old duck a better look.

Scrooge gasped again and put a hand to his beak.

Dewey looked lifeless in Gizmoduck's arm, he was in a feeble position but he clearly wasn't conscious. His head lulled to the side against Gizmoduck's chest. His body was covered in cuts and bruises but the most serious injury Scrooge could see was a bleeding gash on the side of his head, staining his feathers red. Scrooge swallowed and laid one hand on his chest and the other on his head. Gizmoduck began to speak.

"I'm sorry sir...the plane struck before I could reach him. He's alive, but..." The hero paused.

Scrooge could hardly process what just happened let alone what could happen.

He hardly noticed the other kids had joined him, and suddenly, the older duck was shoved to the side by some duckling in rage.

"Look at what you've done! You're so obsessed with a few cents that you lead our brother into danger!" Louie's voice rang loudly next to him. No one expected the normally chill triplet to react this way but given the circumstances, it's not that surprising. If it was Huey, it would be more surprising. That's not the point though.

Scrooge turned on Louie with a scowl, "You're blaming me!? This useless excuse of a hero fired the blasted missiles!"

"But you ordered him to fire!" Huey intervened, "Honestly, I feel more comfortable he's the one handling our injured brother than you!" He blew up, having lost his patience at this point, now knowing how dangerous this it getting. He sent a worried glance back at Gizmoduck, as of sending a silent message.

The hero gave him a reassuring nod and he adjusted his hold on Dewey before racing away, obviously to the hospital. Huey then faced his uncle again.

"Uncle Scrooge, please, you're very sick. If this goes on, not only could you die, but you're putting each of us in danger with your chaos.

Scrooge opened his beak to argue but paused, and thought back to what happened. Dewey ran off because he said he 'saw' someone and the plane did go down because he ordered Gizmoduck to fire missiles towards an invisible intruder...

Then, suddenly, he sneezed. And again. And again..

"Okay, maybe I am a wee bit sick.." He admitted.

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A bit abrupt but the rest of the episode pretty much played out the same way, except Dewey was absent.He's okay btw, he recovered with time but I like the think that in the long term, he and Scrooge would have more trust issues to work with :,)

[allhailthewicked]

Random JATP Headcannon: Reggie Pep-Talking Julie

 Disclaimer: Hey y’all there’s a lotta negative self-talk and body image stuff in this long and chonky puppy (like a dachshund). Am I just simply projecting in this headcannon? Si señores, señoras, y señoritas ...umm chile anyway so... on to the angst and fluff.

Julie is a bad bitch.

And we love that for her. But every bad bitch has a few weaknesses. Like popping balloons or falling for a ghost who died in 1995 or being afraid that you are going to lose everyone you’ve ever cared about. But there are days when Julie’s biggest weakness is her body. Then again Julie loves her body, she loves how her hair curls and how it frames her, and even though it can be a pain in the ass, she loves it. She also loves her smile and the gap between her teeth and how musical her laugh is. She loves how she can pull off a blazer and a dress and how her eyes sparkle in the sun. She loves how clear her skin is and her brows and her height and everything but some days she doesn't. But some days she looks in the mirror and cringes at what she sees.

Ha, it's funny to think that I can pull this off.

I'm too much of this and not enough that.

I don't really love how I look in this.

Maybe I should just change

These thoughts often seem to be swirling around in Julie's brain. But sadly those aren't the worse thoughts she has that award goes to thoughts like:

Luke would never fall for a lifer like you.

and

He’s way too good for you. Maybe you'll have better luck if you're prettier

Julie sighs flattening her crop top grabbing her sides before quickly opting to change into a longer looser shirt. She grabbed her phone from her nightstand shooting a text to Flynn.

Trouble #1💜: hey love! you free rn? i’m having a terrible bbd today and i need a distraction and a hug

Trouble #1💜: and maybe a good cry

Trouble #2💕: aww girlie i would love to but i’m in colorado at my aunt’s wedding reception

Trouble #1💜: oh shit. i’m sry i forgot.

Trouble #1💜: no thoughts head empty only body negativity

Trouble #1💜: how’s the wedding? did stacy cry when your aunt came down the aisle?

Trouble #2💕: don’t worry about it jules. a certain dead ghost boy has haunted your brain cells maybe you can go to him. i’m sure he’ll love the cuddles 😉😉😉

Trouble #2💕: stacy bawled btw but so did aunt hilda and dad pretended that he didn’t, but we all know he loves seeing hilda happy.

Trouble #2💕: it’s so fucking freezing. but the dress was absolutely gorgeous tho

Trouble #1💜: cuuuteee love that for them. well, i have to go guys maybe practice a song or two. but luke was kind of the one who started this. idk i’m just going to try and get through the day so i can rush back to my room and rewatch New Girl or something

Trouble #2💕: WHAT DID THAT BASTARD DO?!?!?!

Trouble #2💕: I WILL COME DOWN FROM COLORADO TO BEAT HIS ASS!!!

Trouble #1💜: He did nothing. I’m just overthinking ya know. Like I’m not worth it. He doesn’t need me. I don’t deserve him

Trouble #2💕: jules i’m going to be real with you. HONESTLY HE DOESN’T DESERVE YOU!!!! but he does look at you like you’re his source of life so don’t let this dead, paler than wonder bread boy hurt you!!! he’s so lucky to have you in his life.

Trouble #2💕: you are a gorgeous girl!!!! stunning. an absolutely beautiful, smart, and amazing person!! everybody lights up when you walk into the room. but you know who lights up the most. mr. boo-berry music man simping cute bright dead eyes looking ass.

Trouble #2💕: but maybe you should talk to alex if you don’t believe me. sadly he seems like the himbo with the most emotional knowledge. so maybe talking to him will help. but promise me you’ll take care of yourself love

Trouble #1💜: I promise. flynn imma just wear a bigger sweatshirt and pretend that i’m okay instead of feeling like I want to wrap myself in a blanket. it’ll be all good. gtg bye love you :)

Trouble #2💕 : THAT’S NOT HEALTHY!!! but please do take care of yourself. i’ll be back soon and i’ll talk to you later💕.

Julie grabs an old Orphuem hoodie that belonged to her mom, slipping it on noticing how she still hasn’t quite grown into it. Walking past her mirror one more time Julie scrunches her nose not appreciating how her tight jeans look on her. In fact, she doesn’t like how her nose looks today. 

Fuck I hate when I feel like this. Maybe Flynn is right. I should probably talk to Alex and at least try to avoid Luke. He doesn’t need to see me like this.

Sighing, she makes her way over to the garage. She opens the door only to see Reggie intensely focused on playing the riff he was working on for their new song.

“Is Luke around? I need to snatch up Alex, but I don’t want him to see me and worry,” she asked, starting to giggle when he snapped out of his trace as a small yelp left his lip.

Reggie spotted Julie’s Orpheum hoodie not noticing how much his eyes widened.

Julie cocks her head at the gaping Reginald before realizing he was staring at her hoodie. “It was my mom’s,” Julie whispered as Reggie nodded along, “she used to work there in college. Mom and her best friend, my Tia Maria were waitresses there. But I’m getting distracted, is Alex here? I just really need to talk to him and his dumb emotional availability.” 

“Well, it’s Alex and Willie’s 6-month anniversary, so I hope he’s not around here. But he’s like at the beach with Willie being all mushy.”

“Oh wow, they’re so cute together! He’s definitely seemed so happy since he met him,” Julie said, truly proud of her drummer but not completely masking her disappointment of not having anyone to talk to.

“Yeah, he's more free now. Plus it gives me and Luke the opportunity to rag on him on how easily he flushes when Willie teases him. But you don’t need to worry about lover boy or your lover boy,” he says while waggling his eyebrows at her. 

Julie sadly laughs trying to hide her face from the boy. As Reggie seemingly oblivious continued “Luke is at his parents. He’s been going more often trying to find sneaky ways to leave his song. Some unpublished songs Julie. He has never done anything like that since you went to his parent’s house with him. The closure is cathartic for him,” he whispered, putting down his bass. “He loves seeing his mom’s face light up when she finds another song. But you seem down Julie, what’s wrong?”

“Oh it’s nothing Reggie don’t worry about it,” Reggie cocks an eyebrow at her with a concerned look on his face. Julie looked away sighing, putting on her hood before continuing on, “I’m just a little under the weather and just needed someone to talk to, but it’s fine. I’ll be fine. I will be fine in a few hours. But don’t worry, and please don’t tell Luke.”

“Well Julie you can talk to me,” Reggie pauses puts down his bass putting his hands behind his head, legs cross, frowning slightly, “Believe it or not I can be a little insightful but seriously Julie you’re like my little sister and I hate to see you like this.”

Reggie taps on the spot on the couch next to him motioning for Julie to sit down.

“I’m not going to force you to tell me anything but if you need someone to talk I here when you are ready,” And with that, Reggie picked up his bass and started to work on what seems like a new song.

Together they sit in this calming silence as Reggie starts to pluck away at this melody taking notes of what chord progressions work and what doesn’t while Julie quietly points at chords. This goes on for about five minutes until Julie finally says something.

“Fine okay you need to promise me that you won’t tell Luke because he’ll try and fix this, and he’ll probably make me feel worse,” Reggie quickly nods before putting his fist out giving her a promise fist bump. Julie wetly laughs at this before taking her hood off, running her hands through her hair.

“You know for years I’ve waked up and then immediately looked in the mirror and some days I loved what I see those days are good. I love how I look and how I feel, and I’m just happy. But some days I don’t... some days I look in the mirror and I just see every single flaw I have, and I just want to hide in my bed and not let anyone see me. Some days I feel like I don’t deserve you or Luke or Alex or Flynn or even my family. I just look into the mirror, and I’m like why would anyone stand to look at me. And you know today is one of those days. When Mami was alive she would call a day like today a BBD. It was a code for bad body day or day when we would just wear matching hoodies, cuddle, and binged movies without telling Dad what was wrong. But he understood, he understood that Mami would take care of it and that she understood what I was going through. We did it so often until she you know... that I don’t know how to tell my dad about it. Like him making me hot chocolate like he used to won’t make going away,”  Julie sighed wiping the quickly forming tears from her eyes. Julie turned away from the concerned, so he couldn’t see how close she is to completely breaking down.

Reggie wrap his fettuccine arms around Julie pulling her into a warm hug that smelled like the lemon-lavender bath and body works body wash she bought him for the shower in the garage. The was comforting which led to Julie letting her guard down, shoulders shaking as she heavily sobbed into her undead friend’s shoulder as he rubbed her back. After she was seemingly cried out she looked up at Reggie, who looked wide eyed at her.

“I’m sorry I snotted all over your flannel. God that’s so disgusting. I’m just going to go to bed and just mope and watch Netflix. Thank for being a shoulder I could lean on. I’m sorry that I was just being annoying,” Julie whispered as she tried to wipe away the snot only to make a bigger mess.

"Hey hey hey it's okay Julie I can just wash it or like blame it on ghost ectoplasm. Julie do we leak ectoplasm?"

Julie laughed wetly as Reggie frantically looked to see if he was oozing before realizing that he was getting distracted. She quickly noticed the major shift in demeanor change as he seriously looked at her.

"Julie you are beautiful and I know that you don't feel like that now but you will eventually. And I know that you don't want me to fix you and I won't because I can't. And I know you might want to try to impress Luke with how you look or just think that your looks are all that Luke that think about, but I am his best friend and I know that he would be head over fucking heels gone for you. Even if you look like whatever a Jar-Jar looks like he would see you as the light of his world. He is in love with you and your soul and you deserve that love. But you deserve self love even more. Julie you are not a thing to be looked at then judged. You are a person with feelings and  personality and a story, a story to tell. Your body looks the way it does because of all the things you've experienced in life. Julie I know this all may sound meaningless coming from me but you are literally one of the strongest people I know and I know you can through. You will not be less strong if you reach out for help. You might be my favorite Molina but talking to Ray is smarter than you think and he can help. I just hate seeing my sister hurt like this," Reggie said before yelping as he noticed that Julie had started to bawl again.

"Wait Julie no I'm sorry. Was that too much. God I know you said I shouldn't try to fix things. I should've kept my dumb mouth closed and not bring up Ray. I'm sorry Julie don't cry," Reggie rambled nervously rubbing her back

“No no no no Reggie you didn’t say too much. You just shocked me honestly but like in a good way. I mean I can’t say that I will believe everything you said. But thank you Reg. Thank you I am so glad that you are in my life. You’re my favorite Peters and you are much smarter than other people give you credit for,” Julie says laughing at Reggie’s bright smile.

“I mean need them to underestimate me sometimes. But let’s watch something together to at least make your BBD a little better.”

Julie smilies quickly nodding before putting on the first episode of the Mandalorian and snuggling close to the older brother that she never had. 

Julie felt okay to say the least for the next couple of weeks her next BBD hit her. Julie sighed pushing herself off the bed looking in the mirror that is covered in encouraging notes from her Dad, Reggie, and Flynn. She sighed about to leave her room to go talk to her Dad again about what was going on before she notice a hoodie on the bed. It was a fleece lined hoodie that was left on her bed folded her bed saying ‘Uke I’m your father’ on it. 

Reggie Julie sighed shaking her head smiling as she picked up the little note that was left with it 

‘I knew that you said that you and mom had matching hoodies for your BBD’s so here’s one that we can wear together. I mean only if you want to I know it was something you and your mom did so I don’t want to butt in on a tradition. But it could be like a signal that you’re having a BBD. I don’t know it might be stupid but I hope you like it.’

Julie smiles at the slight awkwardness of the note before slipping on the hoodie

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1998 Film Rumpleteazer Rewatch Part 3

This section includes so many opportunities for characters to just be themselves and do silly things that I will never get bored of it.

Here’s Teazer in her Peke costume. Onward!

The Chaos Twins weren’t at dog practice and have no idea what they’re supposed to do. Munkustrap is aware of this and carefully directs them, making it obvious what they’re supposed to do, including pointing at each one when it’s their turn to bark. But, Jerrie has the smaller half of the braincell and he keeps barking twice. Both Munkustrap and Teazer start signaling to help him, but he refuses to pay attention to either one of them.

And Teazer hangs her head in shame. At least she tried.

To distract herself from the shame of failure, Teazer decides to make Munkustrap’s job even harder by...grinding on him. Shortly after this number we’ll begin the part of the show when at least half the cast becomes horny on main and Teazer’s trying to beat everyone to the punch. She’s a Tugger fangirl, but she’ll settle for any Deuteronomy brother as a runner-up. 

Of course, Munkustrap is not amused, so this was all pretty pointless.

So Teazer cries to her mom about the terrible day she’s having. 

Whatever Jenny (Mom) told her inspired her to try again. I think this is where Etcetera got her ideas from.

The rejection is brutal. Jerrie still doesn’t know what the fuck’s going on.

Teazer takes off her costume and cries to her dad this time. Jerrie, still not knowing what the fuck is going on, has allowed Pouncival to stand in front of him in line for the March of the Pollicles. This will end poorly.

Teazer doesn’t really do much else in the Pekes and the Pollicles. Other cats have to take their turns being funny. Let’s skip ahead to halfway through The Song of the Jellicles, when Jerrie and Teazer come out of hiding.

Teazer ducks right under the psychic twins. Coricopat is offended but Tantomile doesn’t seem to care.

Anyway, Jellicle cats are of moderate size. Considering how many times it’s stated that Jellicle cats are small, I like to think that Jerrie and Teazer are a bit bigger than most Jellicles their age and insist that “We’re not too big! We’re...moderate size!”

I admit that I have no idea why Jerrie and Teazer are standing this close. Maybe they’re just whispering to each other.

Etcetera, Victoria, and Rumpleteazer would like to remind you that Jellicle cats are black AND white. Victoria, the white cat, and Etcetera, who’s white-ish, make sense for this, but Teazer has almost as much black on her as white. Did she just want to be included? Is she trying to get on Victoria’s good side?

The main thing these three have in common is that they’re all part of THAT group of teenagers who make a big deal out of trying to lose their virginities on prom night. They’re all going to be grounded before the ball is over. Teazer’s probably grounded already.

Then Alonzo sneaks up behind Teazer and nearly gives her a heart attack.

Teazer tries to hide behind Victoria, hoping that she will protect her from Alonzo, who isn’t even trying to do anything. 

Also btw Tugger’s back.

I don’t think Tugger is in the mood to humor his fangirls right now. Misto’s ignoring him again and he hasn’t had a chance to sulk about it. He weaponizes his ass against the Hormonal Trio, especially Teazer. I don’t think Victoria was even hit.

While she recovers from her ordeal, Teazer claws at her ear in a very good impression of Mistoffelees.

So, when Victoria and Etcetera swarm Tugger, Teazer, not wanting to get ass attacked again, keeps her distance. She’ll try again later.

Now the dancing actually starts. The Hormonal trio are joined by Bomba and Demeter On the Prowl. Bomba is Tugger’s favorite fangirl and she taught the kittens how to be horny on main. She’s even more determined to get laid than they are. Demeter just goes where her sister goes and tries not to think about Macavity.

Etcetera is just crazy enough to turn Bombalurina’s Sexy Dance. Teazer is not that crazy, so she hangs out with the kittens on the throne with Munkustrap. Teazer is technically not a kitten anymore, but she’s close to them in age. Jerrie and Teazer are Misto’s age, but while Misto keeps trying to prove that he’s an Adult, the twins would rather still be kittens. They don’t want any of that responsibility crap.

Of the Hormonal Trio, Victoria is the most successful. She gets to do a Symbolic Coming of Age Dance with Plato. But, Teazer doesn’t want to be completely outclassed and asks Tugger if she could join him for Cuddle/Nap Time. He rejects her again, but he’s more polite about it this time. She has to go cuddle with her brother. Again. Like she always does.

If the younger cats see the Jellicle Ball as prom night, than this is The Slow Dance, where if you didn’t bring a date, you’re socially obligated to pair up with somebody and everyone has to scramble to find a partner before the song ends. Teazer falls into the category of girls who have a close male friend or sibling to fall back on.

Teazer is very invested in what Victoria and Plato are up to. Jerrie is already falling asleep.

They have just enough energy to tumble over each other on the way to the Cuddle Pile.

But, when the party gets going again, Teazer gets a chance to moon the camera.

So...Grizabella. The Chaos Twins really don’t have much to do with her, do they? They weren’t even there for her first appearance, so they still probably don’t know who she is.

Teazer is hanging out with Etcetera when Grizabella appears again. Etcetera WAS there the last time, so I’ll assume that she quickly explains.

And Teazer just leaves. I guess she assumes that this any of her business.