#either by trickery/connections/whatever

[chemical-processes]

The line in the tomb of the dragons about Ceredin keeping the wastrels from Maia got me thinking about Maia's old life at Edonomee. The entirety of the staff, no matter how much they love him, or don't love him, or remember him, or even just think fondly of him, they'll never get to see this kid they watched over for eight years ever again... Even if they could scrape together the funds to escape Edonomee and Edonara, assuming they could find their way to Cetho, they'd never get close to the Emperor

[epic-the-musical-confessions]

I think it's unfair to be so harsh on the crew while acting like Odysseus was perfect on his end. It's the textbook example of conflict imo - Odysseus wants to get home, his crew also wants to get home. Odysseus has a wife and son to get back to; we can assume each person in the crew also have someone waiting (such as Ctimene and Eurylochus). The crew fucks up, but it's important to note that it's because they either don't know everything that's going on, or they have (legitimate) reasons to doubt Odysseus.

If my captain was favored by the gods (who are historically fickle), keeps a lot of secrets (not great for someone who keeps getting divine interference), and makes decisions I don't understand (because I lack the context for all the crazy shit he gets into), I'd also be nervous. I trust him because we've been fighting together for ten years, but well, he also has a reputation for lying and trickery. If said captain knowingly sacrificed six of my fellow crewmates without telling any of us beforehand, I would assume that whatever camaraderie we had is off and I can't trust him with my well-being. And let me remind you that Odysseus did end up choosing himself over his crew, and that the crew still helped him against Poseidon.

Miscommunication and divine interference is what ultimately screwed them over, not the crew or Odysseus. I read a post somewhere on here that Polites and Eurylochus both help connect Odysseus to the crew, and that things went to shit once Polites died, and I agree. Polites helped voice Odysseus'concern/perspective, Eurylochus helps voice the crew's concern/perspective. Neither of those perspectives are wrong.

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[reneesghostinthelivingroom]

Tarot Readings

|| Sabrina Spellman x fem!reader

|| Warnings; based on the tarot reading episode, reader being a little spooked from the reading, reading hinting at who Sabrina's father is, short drabble

|| Summary; reader and Sabrina get caught in the rain on their way home, so Sabrina takes her to Dr Cerberus'. Reader gets a tarot reading.

Requests open!

Started; october 16th

Finished; october 16th

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The Academy of Unseen Arts. Like something right out of a mortal's story about witches. Sometimes you couldn't believe the type of people that were apart of the Church of Night. The older, more traditional ones always... unsettled you. There was one, however, whose views aligned with your own. Sabrina Spellman. The girl you've been dating for the last month and that always seemed to be up to some sort of mischief. Honestly, there was always something new with that girl. Which kept things pretty entertaining for you.

Y/N's Tarot Reading

Today she had taken you to the shop where her Aunt Hilda worked. It was raining and the two of you had just gotten back from the movies. You were never one for mortal films, but Sabrina seemed to enjoy them so you tagged along. The one she showed you actually hadn't been that bad. It had been a horror film, so you found it quite interesting.

"Oh! Dears!" Sabrina's Aunt Hilda called out to the two of you, coming to greet you both at the door. You'd been mid conversation about the movie when Sabrina stopped to smile at her Aunt.

"Auntie! Hey! We were just walking by when the rain caught us, and Y/N's never been here before so I thought I'd show her around." Sabrina explained, you actually found the shop quite interesting. An Occult section caught your eye.

"Sabrina! There's an Occult section!" You grinned and gave her shoulder a small squeeze before running over. Sabrina gave you a loving smile. You ran over and skimmed through what they had, finding some pretty neat things. You had picked up a book on demonology in modern era when an old lady seemed to almost appear in front of you. Startling you for a moment.

"Oh, I'm sorry dear." She gave you a smile as she apologized, her eyes glancing you up and down." You look as those you have some.. questions about your future? Maybe a little tarot might help, hm?"

Taking a glance over at Sabrina, you looked to the older lady and nodded." Yeah, alright. Let's see what your cards tell you." You'd always found tarot to be very intriguing, even dabbling in a bit of it yourself. So you followed with interest. Wondering if maybe you could learn some new tricks from the lady.

What she showed you... shook you to your core. The cards had been Devil, Lovers and Magician. The lady explained that the devil and lovers were connected here; that there was much more to Sabrina than either of you knew. Claiming her to be a daughter of evil and trickery. The lady warned you to tread carefully. Or else you might get caught in it all too.

After the reading, you rejoined Sabrina. Feeling a little shaken. It revealed some things that you could only hope would never come true. The devil card still fresh in your mind as you looked at Sabrina. She noticed something was off with you and frowned.

"Y/N? Everything okay?" She took your hand in her own, brushing her thumb against your knuckles. You simply nodded, though wondering if Sabrina really would become some dark figure for the Dark Lord. She narrowed her eyes at you a little, you could tell she wasn't fully convinced.

"Okay.. how about a quiet night at my place? We could cuddle, maybe watch another movie? Take your mind off whatever's bothering you?" Sabrina suggested, that did help you relax. Things would be okay. Sabrina would be okay. You told yourself, almost like a mantra to try and relax further. The tarot reading had you a little more shaken up then you thought it would.

"Yeah- yeah. Sounds good, 'Brina." You gave her forehead a kiss and she smiled, taking you back to the Spellman home.

[celticcrossanon]

BRF Reading - 27th of September, 2023

This is speculation only

Cards drawn on the 27th of September, 2023

Question: How is Princess Catherine's health right now?

Note: This reading was done with all upright cards (no reversals)

Interpretation: She is healing and recovering.

Card One: The Seven of Swords

The Seven of Swords is the thief card, a card of deceit, lies, trickery etc. With respect to health, it indicates a medical issue that is hidden, something that creeps up on you. The condition may need multiple series of tests to discover what it is. You can feel like the good health you have previously enjoyed has been stolen from you.

The energy of this card is of something insidious that creeps into the body and hides from being discovered, stealing your energy until it is uncovered and treated.

Swords is the suit of thoughts, so it may be that Princess Catherine is suffering from conditions brought on by stress, or that her condition is exacerbated by stress.

Swords cut flesh, so there is a possibility that some sort of surgery may be required to deal with this health issue, either now or in the future.

Card Two: The Hierophant

The Hierophant is the card of institutions and marriage. It usually appears in my readings as the BRF. For health purposes, it indicates doctors, professionals, counsellors, psychologists, and science-based medicine.

This card tells me that Princess Catherine has the best medical care that she can receive as a member of the BRF. She is under the care of doctors and they are treating whatever condition she has that is stealing her health and energy. Alternatively, she is seeing a counsellor or psychologist to deal with her mental stress. She has all the tests and medicine she needs and is being very well looked after. The card also indicates that whatever is wrong with her, it can be treated at home.

The Hierophant is the card of Taurus, and medically Taurus rules the throat and the voice. Catherine may be having issues connected to her throat, her vocal chords, or to the glands that are in the throat, such as the thyroid.

Card Three: The World

The World as a card indicates the end of a cycle and the beginning of another cycle. In terms of health, it indicates a complete recovery from whatever is troubling you. Whatever is wrong with Princess Catherine, this card indicates that she will make a complete recovery from it in the future. If it is a condition that stays with you for life, then it will respond to treatment and remain managed and under control.

Underlying Energy: The Star

The Star is a card of healing. It is one of the best cards you can have for health. As the underlying energy, it says that whatever is wrong with Princess Catherine, she is healing from it and her hopes for a return of good health will be fulfilled.

Conclusion:

Princess Catherine may be suffering from stress or from a stress related disease. She may have some condition that worsens over time and needs a lot of tests to diagnose it properly. It may be concerned with her vocal chords or her neck, or part of her neck such as the thyroid gland. It is likely that this condition came on gradually and it has only recently become severe enough for her to seek medical advice.

She has the best doctors and medicines on hand to treat her. If the condition is due to mental stress, she has access to the best counsellors and psychologists etc to help her. It is likely that the condition can be treated at home. Treatment will be successful. She is currently healing and recovering, and she will make a full recovery over time.

The overall message from the cards is of healing and recovery. You can see that the cards start off dark and end up light and open, with the Star card of hope and healing shining underneath the reading. Whatever is wrong with Princess Catherine, she is healing from it right now and she is going to be absolutely fine.

[boneslikebarerootsrp]

Adoptable: Shadestar

She/her - can be changed by adopter ~110 Moons Old

In-Character Relations: Grimsley

Traits: Shadestar's personality is up to the adopter, but here are some notes to help give an idea of the clan culture she was raised in and a defining characteristic of hers.

A typical Emberclan cat is known to be honorable, chivalrous, and strict. They are raised in a community that values comradery and fairness, and look down on others that rely on trickery and foul play.

Shadestar, in particular, is a cat that knows that the ends define the means. She will do whatever it takes to produce her wanted results.

Loose Backstory:

Shadekit was born in the noble colony of Emberclan, located on the Oregon coastline and surrounded by two other clans called Mothclan and Dewclan. [adoptor can determine kithood relationships and events].

Right around the time Shadepaw became an apprentice, a young rogue began picking fights with Emberclan patrols. This black cat, named Rune, terrorized the border, attacking any patrols or stray cats he found and leading to many being injured or killed by their wounds. This continued for eight moons until, finally, the rogue's attacks came to a halt. [adopter can determine apprenticehood events as well as her warrior suffix. perhaps one of her friends/family was injured/killed by this rogue?]

For a time, there was peace. The clan apothecaries only spoke of the rogue when they spotted him with the generations-old eyeless sphinx cat, the well-respected Star-Gazer, that made their home in the abandoned theatre in the ghost town nearby; the same place where the apothecaries communed with Starclan.

Nine moons into this peace, however, some Emberclan cats began to find the graves of deceased clan members dug up, their bodies either gone or desecrated then and there. The scent of that black cat rogue was the only indicator of who or what was committing such a crime.

This act was the last straw for Shade, who began to concoct a plan to stop this rogue once and for all. Working quickly to solve this dilemma, she found out that the Star-Gazer was no longer communicating with the rogue, and that Rune had a sister he was adamantly 'protecting'.

She set out one day to use the sister as a lure, but the sister practically ran straight into her as if running from something. Killing her was easy enough, and her dying cry brought Rune running. He was bloodied and injured, and the sight of his sister set him into a rage. Shade challenged him to an honorable duel- to honorably kill another cat without breaking the Warrior Code- and he agreed instantly.

With all the fury of all those he had wronged, Shade struck the rogue down with a lethal blow to the stomach, his already tired state allowing her an easy victory.

She left him to bleed out, with her last words being that 'he'd better pray she never sees him again should he survive'. She returned to Emberclan a hero, but the patrol that went out to the sight found no trace of either rogues' bodies. Life returns to normal.

[shade's story is up to the adopter for a vast majority of her life following. during this time, she becomes deputy.]

Many, many moons later, the apothecaries across the clans begin to have stressful, ominous dreams from Starclan. Their connection with them begins to dwindle, and it becomes harder and harder to contact their ancestors.

A terrible winter slams down onto the coastline that following season. With a poor herb harvest prior, many cats across the clans fall sick and succumb to illness. The very next summer, a wildfire sweeps across the forest Emberclan lives in, forcing them to evacuate to the cliffside where Mothclan lives.

The conditions around the clans begin to drastically grow worse. Prey and herbs become scarce, flocks of birds drop from the sky, and the sky always seems choked with ash.

The Emberclan leader dies suddenly and unexpectedly, leaving Shade as the new leader. However, when she goes to the theater to speak with Starclan, there is no one there to meet her on the stage. She is unable to retrieve her lives. When the Star-Gazer is asked about this, they have no answer; the first time they've had no answer.

This revelation throws the clans into a frenzy, with many scared and concerned as to what this means for the future of the clans.

Shadestar joins her clan's apothecary to the half-moon meeting, only to find the Star-Gazer dying on the stage of the theatre. Their dying breaths are used to speak of ancient beings and lost secrets of the universe, of the magic that was dying along with the world. That someone has to stop the magic from leaving. They lift one frail paw to Shadestar's chest, and something pulls.

They were dead the next moment, and Shadestar is left with a strange pull towards the far, far distance.

With no other options and a severed connection to Starclan, Shadestar takes it upon herself to follow this pull that the Star-Gazer left her with. She knows that she may never return to her clan, but she has to do this to ensure its future survival. She has no other choice.

Shadestar has been traveling for a year to the Court.

[gottagetshiver]

Ok here's the Shane lore form my Stardew fic no one asked for. It's an excerpt from the fic itself, in the form of a flashback/Shane telling his story to the farmer:

The first day of high school is universally difficult, that’s simply the way of things. However, they’re much more difficult when you step into those daunting halls without someone, anyone by your side. 

No friends, no acquaintances, nothing. Freshly out of a moving van unloading in a new part of the city and right into the lion’s den. 

Shane’s first week is a nightmare. Of course, he tries to connect with his peers, but it’s difficult. Kids are mean, and they notice his ratty clothes and uneven haircut a mile away. After a couple days, it’s easier to simply not try to make friends. Don’t try to get close to them, and don’t let them get close to him. 

That is, until one boy sits next to him in math class. 

“Hey!” the boy chirps, bumping his shoulder into Shane’s as though they’re old buddies, “I’ve heard this teacher is really easy, I’m so pumped. I suck at math, I’d probably fail otherwise. I still might fail, actually.”

Shane hums, trying to not engage too much. His shoulders are pinched up by his ears, his lower lip is worried between his teeth, and he just wants to go back to being invisible. This, being seen, is not safe. 

“Are you any good at it?” the kid asks. “Math?”

Shane chances a look at him, and sees no hostility or trickery in the boy’s face. Cautiously, he nods.

“Cool!” the boy whoops, earning them a warning glare from the teacher. “I’m Riley, and you’re going to make sure I don’t fail.”

Riley holds out his hand to shake, and just like that they’re inseparable.

Shane and Riley do everything together, from homework to the gridball team tryouts to movie nights. 

It’s Riley’s house Shane ends up at when his dad flies into a rage, and it’s Riley’s floor he sleeps on for weeks at a time when his own bed isn't safe.

Riley’s there when Shane’s mom leaves one morning and never returns, and Shane’s there when Riley gets sick. 

It starts small, with Riley seeming confused at first, answering questions Shane doesn’t hear or tracking things with his eyes that Shane doesn’t see. It’s concerning, of course, but when Shane either calls his name or pokes him on the shoulder he snaps out of it. It’s fine. They’re fine. After all, they have each other and that’s all they’ve ever needed to get by. 

It becomes less fine when Riley crawls through Shane’s bedroom window at three in the morning, frantic as he desperately explains that people are following him. That there are people reading his thoughts and following him and oh Yoba Shane, they’re going to get him. They’re out to get him and he didn’t know what else to do other than come seek out the security of his best friend.

Shane doesn’t know what to do either, so he does what he can. 

He very slowly, and with so much terror he thinks his heart may give out at the ripe old age of sixteen, walks Riley twenty three blocks to the hospital in the dark. 

The following weeks are torment. Riley’s parents are neglectful at best, fully absent at worst, and Shane takes it upon himself to be the stability his friend needs in his life right now. He picks up his homework from the school and does it on Riley’s behalf, brings him whatever he needs from home, and spends every visiting hour in the hospital with him. 

When the diagnosis finally comes in, Shane’s the one double and triple checking that Riley takes his medications properly. He’s the one to fill all the doctors appointments and support group meetings into the calendar, and he’s the one to drive Riley there. 

A friendship forged in fire, Riley had called it once he started doing a little better. They’d be bonded for life now. Shane thinks that arrangement suits him just fine, it’s not like he has other friends anyways. 

When Riley turns eighteen with only three months left of high school, he ages out of his care team and the standard of his treatment promptly drops to the depths of hell. 

Suddenly Shane finds himself not only scheduling appointments, but in them and furiously advocating for Riley’s care, or lack thereof. He’s monitoring and documenting all the horrible side effects he’s having, only for the doctors to shrug and tell him that’s just how it’s going to be. 

He’s the one tracking his friend down by piecing together nonsensical texts; like clues from a midnight scavenger hunt and scraping Riley out of a gutter. 

He’s the one that ends up defending his best friend from the system that fails him. 

After writing a lot of letters begging for help, Shane gets Riley accepted into a specialised clinic. It’s not perfect, far from it, but at least they seem to care when Riley reports having debilitating side effects or when the medications stop working as well as they had been.

By some miracle, Riley is stable and well enough to graduate high school by the time summer rolls around, and even gets into a small, local university. 

Shane doesn’t think twice about throwing out all his acceptance letters other than the one to that school. Sure, he could have gone somewhere more prestigious, but without Riley? Not happening. They’re forged in fire, after all. Where one goes, the other follows. 

Being out on their own in university brings a whole new side of life to light for them; girls. Not that they hadn’t been interested in high school, they had been, but with Riley’s illness coming on they hadn’t had the time or energy to devote to a relationship. 

Now, though, Shane is in a new girl’s bed every weekend. It never means anything, he never lets it, and he can’t get enough. He’s grown into himself and he sees the girls looking, and it’s nice. It’s a far cry from the last time he walked into unfamiliar halls of a new school. He’ll take the trade-in of bullying to bedding any day.

Riley takes a different approach to it all, though. He meets one girl during their second semester, and that’s it. 

“I’m telling you, man,” Riley sighs, laying spread eagle on the floor of their shared dorm room, “she’s the one, I just know it.”

“If you say so,” Shane replies, wrinkling his nose as he inspects the latest series of hickies on his neck and shoulder. He’s really going to have to ask next week’s girl to go easy with the teeth, too many marks lead to too many questions. 

Time is flying in school, Shane and Riley’s life has finally begun and they have no interest in slowing it down.

Only three months after they graduate with their bachelor’s degrees, Shane is both the best man and the maid of honour at Riley and Anna’s wedding. At the reception, he enters wearing half of a tuxedo and half of one of the bridesmaids dressed, much to everyone’s delight. 

Six months after that, when they’re all living in a shitty apartment together as they seek out jobs in their new fields, Shane’s the first one to be told about Anna’s pregnancy. 

Seven months after that, he’s outside a delivery room, pacing the hall as Jas comes into the world. 

An hour after that, she’s in his arms and he’s gasping out a ‘yes’ between sobs and just like that, he’s her godfather. 

Three months after that, the word cancer gets nervously mentioned for the first time while sitting at the dinner table. 

Six months after that, he holds a screaming Jas all dressed in black in the hallway of a funeral home while Riley says his final goodbyes to his wife.

Suddenly Shane wishes time would not only slow down, but stop and reverse. He’d give everything to go back and just have one more day. One more hour of dancing around trying to make Jas laugh as she first learned how. One more dinner at that greasy diner on the corner, the one the three of them frequented until Anna started to feel sick at the smell of it during her pregnancy. 

One more day in their dorm, all snuggled up on a twin sized bed that barely fit one of them, let alone three, watching terrible movies until the sun rose. 

Just... more. Shane wished for more. Cancer at twenty five is a cruel, horrible thing. Cancer at twenty five and leaving behind an infant? Shane vows that if he exists, Yoba will have to beg mercy from him when it’s his time to go. 

Yet slowly, life goes on. Somehow, it goes on. 

Shane and Riley move in together, into a new place without the grief woven into its walls, and they try to live. Jas grows, and so does Riley. 

Shane doesn’t. 

No, instead Shane slowly falls into his mind. Slowly finds it harder to climb back out.

Slowly, until it’s fast. 

He’s somewhere. Driving, as he often does overnight now. He and Riley share a car, and he likes to make sure Riley has access to it during the days so he can take Jas out. She’s three now, and she adores the park. The kid is determined to master the monkey bars and it’s the cutest shit Shane has ever seen. 

However, driving is one of the only things that soothes Shane’s racing thoughts, so he does it when he can. 

It’s been a week since he could go for a proper drive. Jas has been sick, and keeping him and Riley busy, not that Shane would complain. That kid means the world to him, after all. He wants to be there for her if she’s sick. He wants to be there at any point if she needs him. 

His demons are strong though, and he needs a drive. 

At two in the morning, a text comes through from Riley.

Riley:

Home soon?

Shane ignores it. No, he won’t be home soon, not if he can help it. He’s having a particularly difficult time outrunning his thoughts tonight; he needs to take this to the mountains. 

Up to the lookout over the city. No people, no cell service, no railing at the drop off. 

He wouldn’t actually do it, but it’s tempting sometimes. When his demons get too hard to outrun in a car, the idea of outrunning them in a freefall can be an intriguing one.

Riley though, and Jas. He could never do that to them. 

He stays at the lookout until four. 

As soon as he gets back in range of the cell towers, his phone explodes and his demons crash down around him. 

The mugger had chosen him because of Jas. 

“He had his kid,” he’d said, “I figured he wouldn’t put up a fight.”

Jas still had a fever, and without the car and with Shane gone and out of reach, Riley had set off to carry Jas to the twenty-four hour pharmacy for more children's tylenol. Shane had given her their last dose before she went to bed and they’d figured she’d be okay until the morning. Seems not. 

The guy had thought Riley was reaching for a gun in his back pocket as opposed to the wallet he said he was grabbing, choosing to shoot first and ask later. 

Now Shane paces a sterile interrogation room at the police station with a wailing Jas in his arms, still with a burning fever and now very, very traumatised. 

It doesn’t fully hit Shane until hours later, once he’s putting his last signature on the paperwork, that he now has a kid. All those years ago, agreeing to be her godfather, this is why. 

He looks down at Jas, asleep in his lap with her thumb in her mouth and her cheeks still too flushed for his comfort, and fuck. She’s his kid now. His responsibility, and his alone. 

They move again, though this time it’s not to outrun grief, but born from necessity. Shane doesn’t make enough to afford to stay in the place he and Riley had been renting. He doesn’t even make enough to stay in the same neighbourhood. 

All in all, Shane and Jas move three times in the following two years. Each time somewhere cheaper, and by the end Shane is sleeping on the sofa so Jas can have her own room. He’s treading water financially for now, but he can’t maintain it much longer. He’s slowly sinking. 

When Jas turns five, Shane breaks. He digs through his phone for a number he’d saved as a teenager, thinking he’d never need it again. How wrong he was. 

It’s late, well past the acceptable hours to call someone, but she picks up. That's what she said, wasn't it? She’d always pick up when he needed her. 

“Marnie,” Shane rasps, feeling like that scared and abandoned fourteen year old again, sitting in her guest room crying himself to sleep after being dumped there for weeks at a time by his parents, “I need help.”

Shane packs up their place over the next few days and by the weekend, he has Jas on a bus out to Pelican Town. She’s having a great time watching the mountains roll by as they leave the city behind them, and that works for Shane right now. 

Over these last two years he’s slowly felt himself fading away. He’s always there for Jas, always, but in the small moments he has for himself he finds he no longer knows who he is. 

He’s been living for too long crippled by trauma and grief, too needed by Riley and then Jas to have any time to heal. Now, with the cracks in his soul running as deep as they are, he thinks perhaps healing isn’t a possibility for him anymore. 

Jas takes to the ranch like a fish to water, and once she’s in bed on the first night Marnie pulls him into a hug nearly tight enough to fuse the broken pieces of him back together. 

Nearly, but not quite. 

Because after she lets go, Shane walks himself into town, up the saloon stairs, and tries to drown those demons once and for all.

If he’s going to sink, they’re coming with him. 

[depthsoftheabyss]

Isn't it truly heartbreaking how everything with meaning has either become meaningless or weaponized against us . " Take note of people's actions not words" they say and why ? Because now words are just letters we put into sentences to get whatever we want , most people don't mean what they say but they'll make you believe so long as they get what they want , such a shame when our words are supposed to connect us it's supposed to help us understand each other as humans and yet we have to beware of everyone's words . Even a smile is an act of trickery these days , most smiles now are fake ; we're all partaking in a play where no one seems to see the bigger picture only their own , people greet you with a smile to come off as pleasant but we're slowly being thought to smile and rejoice in private for the public is our enemy and wishes us a great amount of evil . We're told how to use our sexual organs ; don't give it up too easy nor should you make them wait longer for they'll use interest . Is this not my body ? Does my pleasure and dignity not matter ? Why are there rules and slandering for my own desires and yet everyone else gets to act on their immorality ? Am I slut if I choose to partake in a sexual act in the first month ? Does it make me more woman if I wait two years ? Why is it you try to own me more than I own myself ? Isn't sex supposed to be something that is enjoyed by two people? I was born into a time that is cruel and cold , I'm tired of the judgment , the continuous ego battle, the stripping away of emotions to look stronger more in control . Life has become a prison and I want no part in it .

[wordy-little-witch]

Surprise, a Fandom that ISN'T One Piece!!!

Super Mario Bros.

I have. So many thoughts. So many AUs. So much swirling in my brain. I've already infodumped on one theory/au to my boyfriend ((thanks, Eggy, ilysm!!)) BUT I am now gonna throw it out here.

Gonna be long so I'll put a cut teehee

Okay so like. In Super Mario Odyssey, there's the Ruined Kingdom, yeah? And like. The whole point for the area is that it's full of echoes of the past, no definitive answers, it's essentially a world, place, nation lost to time completely. And the location on the map is near the Darklands, which is feasibly bear Evershade Valley. I am going somewhere with this, hold on.

Now the Ruined Kingdom is called that because it's name is lost completely and totally to history. The only thing left is the crumbling architecture and the mild vestiges of a land unknown, overrun in game by enemies, with the dragon guarding over the area. There's differing weather phenomena, metal rods, storm motifs all over the area, either newer to the land or leftover from the time Before whatever happened.... happened.

Now I'm gonna pivot here, the Ruined Kingdom is near the Darklands, it's got the storm motifs, and keep all of that in mind.

In Mario & Luigi: Superstar Saga, we get introduced to the Beanbean Kingdom. The events in game are generally unrelated to this, barring one BIG thing that comes with repeated references in subsequent games for Mario and Luigi both - Firebrand and Thunderhand.

There are two temples, relatively abandoned and no longer worshipped at or in, heralded by two deities, one of Fire, the other of Thunder. Mario and Luigi both go individually to one temple each where they wind up receiving the abilities from the deities there to wield fire and lightning.

These abilities and associations continue on in more games as well.

Mario is associated with fire and flames and heat and warmth and sunlight and energy and ambition and charisma.

Luigi is associated with lightning and thunder and static and chill and darkness and night and lethargy and unconventional bravery in the same ways.

They are complementary forces, cohesive yet different, opposite and balanced, the sun and moon effectively in mortal forms. And celestial motifs with them aren't uncommon in games at all, frankly.

Now let's shift again back to the map.

The darklands is associated with volcanoes, Koopas and Goombas and so on and so forth. It's heat. It's burning. It's ruled by Bowser, with his lava-association, his fire breathing abilities, his spikes and tail and horns and draconian features. The Darklands is fire and brimstone and is near to the Ruined Kingdom. Mario's primary adversary rules and resides there.

Evershade Valley is in close proximity to the Darklands. It is associated with spirits, with darkness, with trickery and night, and it is ruled over by King Boo, a powerful Boo with a magical crown and it has its own lunar motifs and shadowed descriptors. Boos are ghosts, and all ghosts can be fought and defeated by an electronic weapon. Luigi even has a higher impact ability with MORE electricity on hand to fuel the Poltergust. ((Also let it be said that in paranormal research, electricity is often considered a source of power to supernatural beings. Electricity, limestone, running water - and all those could easily be found in the Mansions. Interesting...))

These two areas are ruled by the two main antagonists to the two primary protagonists who have complimentary and equal associations as well as crumb like connections to a forgotten kingdom.

Mario and Luigi btw are both built differently to most, depending on game perspectives. They're human, most likely. They may have smth like achondroplasia ((and I do love this take honestly)), or maybe they're descendants of a different inhuman species and this accounts for their biology. ((Add in that on the wiki, their race isn't homosapien which may be a silly little joke OR could be something else entirely, idk and idc)).

Regardless I really really love the idea that Mario and Luigi are the descendants of the people who lived in the Ruined Kibgdom once upon a time, maybe even from the royal family there itself.

If something went horribly wrong and the kingdom was in danger, if there was a threat they could not stop or a foe they could not face, escaping with their lives would the the best and safest bet.

And with warp pipes everywhere... well. It isn't too much of a stretch for them to scatter, is it?

Or even for some warp pipes to lead to an entirely new world with different nations, nationals, and a certain Italian Heritage....

Anyway yeah. I think Mario and Luigi are from the Ruined Kingdom, I think there's far more to what's left there and it would be so cool to have another game with that setting bc I am OBSESSED

[king-of-theforest]

Kitsu

A boy born with the spirit of the fox. A spirit of mischief and trickery but it also holds wisdom and cleverness. The fox started to manifest itself when a life changing event happened. He was battered down so much but he rose above and since then a tail and two fox like ears was born. As of now he has nine tails. When the fox inside him wants to fight and he lets the fox possess his body, his eyes become golden and slit revealing the fox's true eyes and his aura is golden as well. When both of them agree to fight together, his eyes become silver and slit. Due to his high spiritual energy he is capable of doing magic. He learned spells that are capable of binding and when he uses them the color of his eyes become silver.

Fox Abilities

Illusion

He is able to change his appearance through an illusionary human face mask that he casts upon himself. This lets him become literally everyone even their voice. He can also change his appearance into a fox using a fox mask. A gray fox with the ice blue color for his eyes. He can also hide himself by casting an illusion on the area to make him seem invisible. He can also change the appearance of other beings, objects, and himself or just simply switch his appearance with others. The illusion's power is also able to manifest images of himself that one cannot determine whether he is the one or not. Its as if one cannot touch him and he can also switch objects, magic, and people of their positions. A more focused power is that he gains the ability of those that he transformed into.

Tail

He manifests tail as a sign of having a life changing event that triggers it to grow. He can have up to nine only. Each tail contains vast amounts of spiritual energy which he can use. Once reached nine, he can transform into a divine fox that which has almost an unlimited source of spiritual energy. The divine fox's ability is capable of bending reality and unleashing devastating amounts of energy against its opponents. The fox has dichromatic eyes due to Calcifer's soul, the left eye has the golden glint of the fox and the right has silver slit eyes while its fur is white.

These tails can defend against any attack unless if it is a blade that has a concentrated amount spiritual properties. They react depending on the situation because they are connected with the users instincts.

They can also be used offensively as they can slash or pierce through almost anything. Even magic but spiritual energy can be proved difficult.

Spiritual energy

He can use spiritual energy for flight, spirit bolts, unbounded blasts that knocks away enemies, can contain the wind with his energy and blast them like blades, and of course barriers. There is also fox fire that can burn away magical or spiritual energy. He can also take magic away from a being or object and render it to become normal and make himself stronger.

Bewitchment

An ability in which any word that you say onto any living being becomes bewitched and they will do whatever it is your bidding. It is said that the higher your emotional output is the greater the range. Bewitchment does not only reach the mind but also the target's soul, meaning that even if the target is unconscious, they will reawaken and still do your command. He may also possess other people with his own conscious mind and during this the fox in him controls the body to keep it safe.

Absorption

This type of magic either absorbs the target's life force or magic. This completely reduces the magic until their is nothing left.

Magic

Sealing

He learned spells that at first was able to seal the fox inside but he learned that the fox is only looking out for itself and himself and has made an agreement that they will help together. Now he is able to use this magic to be able to seal enemy's movements and their magic and abilities by either using shadow magic or his newly learned spell which is spider web. The shadow magic is also able to link the targets shadow's on other objects or people as well.

[alyjojo]

The Person On Your Mind in September 🫏 2023 - Aries

Whole of their energy towards Aries: 7 Pentacles rev

This could be love for someone, but for most I’m getting this is someone at work that you probably don’t get on too well with. Going by messages and the energy I get, you could have gotten in this person’s way every step, every attempt, The Magician rev shows manipulation, trickery, purposeful sabotage, and then your messages show you really can’t stand this person. If there’s been some kind of competition, you could’ve have played dirty, if so they’re aware. They’re giving up, you win. It’s possible you’ve “won” a particular position or something at work as well.

Feelings: 3 Wands

Either they’re actually leaving or they’re just waiting around on you to leave, it feels like they can’t get away from this fast enough. They also show up as someone fair, decent, and kind, so I’m not sure what you’ve been up to Aries but this one may come back to bite ya in the butt. They don’t wish you any harm, I’m getting that any issues or cruel sort of behavior is on your side.

Intentions: King of Cups rev

They want to MELT DOWN emotionally, cry even, about how you refuse to work with them, maybe never were kind to them, caused 9 Wands in their life. Like every hurdle was placed by you, every wound had your name on it, they feel you were more of an adversary than you ever were a teammate, and they feel SO much about everything they’ve been through with you. They could also feel like you’re an emotionally manipulative person, clearly…I’m getting you kinda are, and to your benefit. Yeesh 😬

Actions: Queen of Cups

How they’re actually coming towards you is sweetly, being kind, loving, caring about you and being genuine, whether you reciprocate or not. They only want to heal the connection or whatever has been said/done between you, before the parting of ways that’s expected with 3 Wands. You not liking this person, or being mean to them, really hurts them. I mean…this could be anyone. This person has genuine intentions, and sensitive feelings, whether you do or not, maybe just keep that in mind when you deal with them. Part on good terms 🌸

Messages:

Their side:

- 100% Fair

- I just want to talk to you.

Your side:

- Condescending

- Dark Desires 😈

Possible signs:

Scorpio, Virgo, Cancer & Pisces

If you’re dealing with:

10 Swords rev can mean roughly two things. Either you’ve been through extremely painful endings with other people, they have with you, and those are beginning to heal; or you’re in some situations that will only inevitably end painfully and you refuse to face facts and let go of whatever needs to be let go of. Some may be you, some may be others, you’ll have to use your own discernment for this one.

Aries - moving away from some drama with you, but they don’t feel very confident about it

Taurus - love has put them through hell, with you or otherwise, and they’re recovering now

Gemini - has no excuse for their actions and knows it, they do have regrets though

Cancer - no means no, putting their foot down

Leo - over the past but still extremely emotional about it too, could be this person, could feel manipulated by you or switch it

Virgo - a trickster, only out for themselves

Libra - happy things didn’t work out, or you are, one of you benefits from the others’ ending

Scorpio - healing the connection and doesn’t want to see it end or let you go 🩷

Sagittarius - lies to you about money and being on top of things, or you do

Capricorn - not telling you their plans or not following through with them, or you’re not

Aquarius - secretly crushing on you 😍

Pisces - with The Moon, could literally just up and leave in the night, or you do, major relationship problems between you & a possible separation

[cornerverse]

What is your opinion of the episodes Confrontation and Collusion? What do you like and dislike about the episodes? What would you change about the episodes?

OH BOY

So I saw the leaks and I just. I've gone on rants on my mainblog. Actually I'm gonna comment on them with the Leaks in mind so if I mix up something that got cut, ignore it.

Let's go!

Confrontation:

First, I think the whole setup is a bit ridiculous. Why is the class fine with Chloé being anywhere near the class president spot again? I forget if she was just the VP to Lila but still. Then there's the paperwork. Why was Marinette the one in charge of filling out this paperwork for everyone? It should be their teacher. Even if everyone's filling it out on their own, why hand it over to the class president instead of Bustier herself or the principal? Why were Lila and Chloé allowed to take the paperwork home with them instead of turning it in at school?

Secondly. The teachers are going to discuss the choices on the paperwork with Lila and Chloé but.... not the students themselves? What?

Thirdly: Why does everyone get their new class assignments now? Like? I know that when I was in school, I got my class schedule the first day of the new school year. Not the last few weeks of the previous year at an entirely different school!

Fourth: Sabrina suddenly has a moral compass???? What the fuck?

Fifth: Nothing will get me past the fact that Marinette committed so much property damage and installed a peep window into the girl's bathroom. That is making me lose my fucking mind. Idc that she wasn't being a perv she was trying to catch two mean girls it's still creepy on principal and who knows who got caught in the crossfire! If I had used that bathroom and later found out it had a hidden peep window I'd feel violated as hell!

sixth: It is so narratively unsatisfying to have Marinette 'win' against Lila by using lies and trickery since the whole thing with them has been about how the Truth Prevails and the Power of Friendship is stronger than her lies!

So yeah. Changes.

Ideally I'd let Chloé keep her character development and have this be just Lila, but we can't have nice things so fuck it.

I'd also like to have Marinette take down Lila by genuinely getting people to see the truth. Like, ya know. Smacking some sense into Alya with "You know I'm Ladybug. Lila claims to be BFFs with Ladybug. I hate Lila because she lies about things. Have you connected the dots yet??????". And other such things where, again, friendship and truthful communication help save the day!

If we have to do this same plot then four things should change.

Have Lila and Chloé steal the paperwork from Bustier's desk and replace it with the forged copies instead of the nonsense of the class president doing the work.

Have Sabrina's change of heart be either genuinely foreshadowed in other episodes of her being redeemed, or have her not care about 'morality' so much as 'Chloé is no longer being her friend, so fuck her and her plans'.

Have the students find out the paperwork was changed, not because they get their schedules way early, but because they're in the meeting to discuss their futures instead of just the teachers listening to Chloé and Lila on their behalf! The duo play dumb with the 'but that's what was written down on your paperwork?' thing whenever the other students panic about it being wrong.

literally anything but the bathroom peep window!!! God DAMN that won't stop bothering me! Just. Just have Sabrina record them! Or have her lure them into an empty room with a laptop and a zoom call going! Anything else!!

Collusion:

BOY FUCKING HOWDY

Chloé manages to trick Bustier into thinking Marinette slapped her and they're brought to the principal's office? Fine whatever.

Bustier, for some reason, begging Chloé to apologize for getting slapped? And attempts to emotionally manipulate her by bringing up confided private things and Chloé's fucked home life in front of the girl who, as far as Bustier believes, just assaulted her? Yeah no girl you deserve to get fired!

Getting Akumatized over being 'unjustly' fired? Okay fine. A little sus that she later just can de-Akumatize herself once she gets what she wants. Like, did you willingly get Akumatized to run the mayor out of office?

Speaking of: LB and CN teaming up with the Akuma(and therefore Monarch) to run the Mayor out of office????? What?????

Chloé being the voice of reason on how that was fucked up and Ladybug immediately attempts an assault with a deadly weapon????

I know it got cut from the episode but Andre declaring a divorce, abandoning Chloé in favor of Zoé who he's known for like 2 months and has little legal rights to have custody of(seriously what does Zoé's dad think?) while saying that Chloé deserves to be abused???? FUCKED UP and I'm not letting it go because TA himself didn't know it was cut until the episode aired!

A 14 year old declares herself mayor and the town is okay with that? Like I'm guessing they don't like her but it's considered totally legal? I guess???

Ways to fix it: You can't. Throw the whole thing out.

[verbosebabbler]

So uh, I might have gone into a fugue state and wrote this whole thing starting from me spiralling about if Zampanio is real or not and ending in pure allegory on the nature of fiction. I'm going to let it stand unedited as an example of my particular brand of spiralling and to stand for the message it holds at the end. Zampaniosim itself is a great game. You should play it.

I do not think Zampanio is real.

And I'm not talking about not real as in it was a fake game in the story of the GameFAQ creepypasta or whatever inspired it that got a community of people all misremembering that they played it ala Polybius. No. I mean fake as in Zampanio as a concept did not exist before JR. There never was a GameFAQ creepypasta, there never was a community looking or knowing about the game, and the early marked ones in the discord server were all people JR recruited to pretend that Zampanio was something they thought was real and they played, rallied the same way JR rallied the first generation of discord users after the marked to make similar kinds of comments on the zampaniosim itchio page.

The problem is I do not know if this is true or not.

You see, throughout all the comments I've seen JR make, I've never seen them outright lie (or at least never caught it). If they don't want to answer something or want to misdirect the reader, they give some gigglesnort back speak that is technically true but can more easily be interpreted in a way that is false. Like a Fae or something.

But with discussions of the Zampanio creepypasta they're just straight faced like, oh yeah, this is an experience I genuinely had and there are real people who were looking for this thing before I got here, like they would talk about any of their other personal experiences like the flaming chickens accidental fake death or their neopets account.

But I cannot find any actual legit references to Zampanio that do not in some way connect back to JR and around the time the Zampaniosim started up. None. Zero. Nada. No the Polo Atari game wouldn't count because the word Zampanio is not uttered in any documentation, it just an unreleased old game based on the horse back riding sport.

Yet the second I feel sure in this opinion that Zampanio was never even a thing outside JR and this is all just a created fiction to add intrigue around Zampaniosim, I find more comments from JR just calmly talking about how they stumbled upon the creepypasta and community with not a hint of trickery in the delivery and made unsure all over again.

And the thing is, any comment here could not placate me. The story could be real, and I don't mean either the game or the community following a myth. Rather, Zampanio could have been a non widely read creepypasta (whether just about the game or also the community) that got deleted, became lost media, and with JR the only one to remember it, they retold the tale to others where all further discussions would lead back to JR as the sole person who saw the original.

But it could also just be fake. A URL edited to look like it was once real. The 404 or the plain redirect GameFAQ uses would be used for links that did both once existed but are hosted no longer, or links that were just changed up that never were meant to lead anywhere like https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/pc/69/big_chungus_amongus

Either way, there's no way to convince me it might have been real, and not in the way of me not wanting to be convinced otherwise. Any evidence could have been edited, or appropriated like the Polo game. Any testimony could be a recruit trying to keep the myth alive. Even a copy of the GameFAQ wouldn't be enough as JR could easily have writ one up from an alternate account before this all, delete it, and say the now dead link was what they stumbled on.

The only thing that could prove it truly separate would be an actual game or discussion of dated before Zampaniosim that has no ties to JR. And this would only be if either the game or community existed. But if the truth was just one creepypasta on GameFAQ, the most likely of these scenario, then there isn't a way to prove it.

I get upholding the fiction. ARGs are upheld on the thin thread of believability of its reality. Would people be as invested in the the perils of a group chased by Slenderman if they posted where they bought the Halloween costume on Twitter? It's just not possible to go mask off and talk about an ARG while it's running, or else it'd just be considered as like a fictional web series and held to those different standards. And for this ARG the end is never the end.

JR can talk so openly about Zampaniosim because it's clearly created and not the original Zampanio. Because the context of the ARG is that Zampaniosim is a branch off of Zampanio, and Zampaniosim's spiralling branching nature is meant to symbolize a microcosm of the branching this esoteric original Zampanio wrought. That this clear branch of Zampaniosim is an example of JR falling to the obsessive call to recreate Zampanio and from this causing others to branch off in turn. If they admit there was no original Zampanio, neither in game or legend, and they're just telling a tale of how obsession leads to spiralling branching creations of influence, the veneer of Zampanio's mystique crumbles.

Zampaniosim is a tree growing out of the ground, pretending it's only the branching tip of the great tree Yygdrasil lying below the impenetrable surface, using the myth to flock followers to nurture and grow the tree into something larger. But really, it's just a normal tree, using the lie of Yygdrasil to draw support until it's grown enough to attract followers on its own merits, as I believe it has now.

There's talk to be had why people don't invest in indie fiction, that these works have to delicately balance on the thread of "being real" just to get people to care. A sprout doesn't have to be a branch of Yygdrasil to be worth nurturing. Go aid a sapling so that it may grow into a mighty tree to stand on its own. Support indie creator's original works. End post.

[20percentbug]

hi so i may have done a little bit of bug fables oc drawing and writing. this is a bit of a long post, so buckle up :)

this is aloy and silver, and they are both gods. their whole shtick is unwavering loyalty to each other and a distant admiration for what mortals are because they’re so weird and interesting.

silver is the moth (left) and aloy is the wasp (right), silver is a ghost, and also dead, and also spiritually bound/linked/chained to aloy, who is kind of her host in the way that they provide her with a physical connection to the world.

aloy is a god of trickery, illusion, and manipulation. they may seem a bit aloof, but inside that mind of theirs they are brainrotting over how fascinating mortals are and how random they seem. they often end up participating or inserting themselves into some random bug's life from time to time.

aloy also likes to refer to silver as “silv”.

silv is the remnants of a goddess of runes; she’s much more reactive than aloy, having lived amongst mortals for a while, but she still finds herself pretty interested in a mortal’s whole deal. being a ghost, she can possess stuff to control it, but prefers not to — it’s pretty boring to control something that can’t move.

aloy, thankfully, repaired a proper construct for silv to possess when she ever wants to, so silv often does that whenever she wants to walk around and feel the world again.

there’s a caveat to it, though:

that construct is a weapon of war in a kingdom filled with magic from ages ago. we’re talking possibly countless generations old. thousands of years. and the construct that aloy found and repaired was from that same war, preserved in an amber.

so, uh. whenever silv wants to walk around, she tends to scare/unnerve the hell out of any bug who sees her either alone or next to aloy. bugs call her “the warden”, and she has a whole cryptid story and small following. that’s for another time, though!

to recap:

aloy (they/them) and silver (she/her) are both gods; silv being dead and spiritually linked to aloy.

aloy is fascinated with mortals for their spontaneity, and likes to play along with them. he acts pretty aloof and sometimes aggravates other bugs because he doesn’t really know slang or social norms and all that.

aloy is, though, not against telling lies to make a bug believe something or do something wrong, possibly twisted, even. they treat mortals as little science experiments that they got attached to!

silv is more reactive to mortals because she’s had to live with them before, and as such, she often overreacts when a bug happens to do or say something rude or offensive or whatever. (she’s also a little bit of a prude)

she has a corporeal form that she uses to walk around with aloy sometimes that looks scary as hell, and gained a cryptid following from it. she’s not that much for actually being threatening, though, and doesn’t like conflict a whole lot.

silv will be so ready to hurt and maim whoever threatens aloy, tho.

[blacksunscorpio]

Astro Musings No. 10

Prominent Lilith…

in a chart  can be found in people who work in areas like defending the rights of women, refugees, the under-privileged; in international law, in war zones, in women’s refuges. These individuals are gutsy advocates, activists... typically the people who experience the darker side of humanity and as a result, know the truth about it. The truth the general population would like to sweep under the rug. You’ll see this feminine energy surrounding the dishonored, rejected and abused. One who feasts on a never ending sampler of the deepest ends of the emotional spectrum; rage, grief, all forms of toxicity, past-life and trans-generational residues and influences, conception/in-utero/birth traumas. This where the “curse” label comes in, as anyone with strong Lilith positions is a carrier of the same, the accumulation of off all these attributes. She will be a receptor of it as well as a deliverer. She will also use it to her advantage and can become someone quite feared and respected.

Prominent Lilith in a man’s chart will usually indicate that he will act out Lilith’s issues through a partner or project Lilith’s issues onto them. There are likely to be issues with the mother. Very similar to a Moon in Scorpio in a man’s chart or moon in the 8th. He may also attract partners who are very strong in their femininity and the quintessential “man-eater”.

Those with Saturn in Capricorn

Will usually find themselves being the ambitious types-especially regarding school or their career. Saturn is discipline and in its element in Capricorn [ruled by Saturn]. 

12th House Stelliums in Synastry or Composite

Can indicate a spiritual-like connection. A deep emotional connection with a ton of emotional involvement. Very likely two people ill appear in each other’s dreams. May even indicate a telepathic connection with heavy Neptunian house influence. However it can also indicate undoing by either one of the natives to the other. In addition, it can indicate a relationship that has hidden aspects. Often this is seen in relationships that are forbidden or forced to be kept secret in some way. Be careful with unrequited love here as well as deception. Heavy 12th House has this nasty knack for making those with it’s influence feel euphoric and even dreamy but it can be hard to ascertain where things are working for or against you. Asteroid Aphrodite Touching the Moon

Will accentuate a native’s beauty and sensuality. Their emotional expression will be seen as “beautiful” by others. This is a common placement found in actresses and even models. If in the 1st house this will be quite akin to having Venus [Aphrodite’s Roman counterpart] on the ascendant. If in the 5th house, a native might find themselves having frequent casual flings that will be catalyzed by someone being attracted to their physical appearance.

Placement found in “Sex workers” Will often be

Venus or Mars in the 10th, 6th, or 2nd

Pluto or Scorpio on the Midheaven

Uranus in the 2nd 6th or 10th [Uranus equates things that are unconventional and rebellious. It also rules the ‘Avant Garde’. On a career or Money house this can indicate one who makes money or has an unconventional career]

Mars in Aquarius [Pornographic actor James Deen has this placement]

Mars in the 8th

Mars touching Neptune [Neptune can indicate fantasy/illusion/acting + Mars = sex]

MARS IN CAPRICORN [Actress Sasha Gray has this placement]

Venus aspecting Mars Lilith and/or Pluto

Venus in the 8th

Dominant Lilith

Strong Asteroid Eros [433], Nymphe [875], Lust [4386]. or Priapus[H22]

Mars in Scorpio

Those with Mars in Pisces

Are quite passive with their aggression. They do not like conflict and typically hate drama but some can find themselves being subversive in their tactics. If badly aspected this can indicate cowardice or one who resorts to manipulative in order to assert their will.

“Sister Signs”

Such as Taurus and Scorpio, Leo and Aquarius, Aries is opposite to Libra, and Cancer to Capricorn are opposite each other yes but they are considered “Sisters” because of the way in which they balance each other out There is always give and take. Taurus is practical and down to earth while Scorpio is existential, Aries sets things off while Libra diplomatizes, Cancer feels and nurtures while Capricorn executes. Moon in the 8th House can indeed make someone think of sex often. 8th house is ruled by Pluto/Scorpio and the house that rules sex and the Moon is one, if not the most receptive point in the natal horoscope. As a result, a native with this placement may find themselves immersed in 8th house thoughts

Jupiter in the 8th House I’ve mentioned before in a man’s chart can indicate one who is well endowed [BDE]. In a woman’s chart it can be an indicator of one who is OVER sexed. The highest sex drives live here because Jupiter EXPANDS. Mars in this house is also a pretty powerful contender. 

Gaslighting...

In astrology, despite common misconception isn’t always a Plutonic attribute but a NEPTUNIAN one. Though Pluto is a master tactician and can often probe to the deepest levels of the psyche, Neptune can downright pull the wool over one’s eyes. Neptune rules confusion, illusion, deception and trickery [as can Mercury]. If there is someone in your life that has a nasty habit of this [natally or in synastry] check to see if

Neptune is aspecting Nessus

Neptune squaring/opposing Mars

Neptune squaring/opposing Mercury [Decepion/mind]

Neptune squaring/opposing Moon [Deception/Feelings]

Neptune squaring/Opposing.conjunct Nessus [Deception/abuse]

Neptune squaring/IOpposing Pluto

Neptune squaring/opposing Sado [Deception/perversion/abuse]

Neptune squaring/opposing asteroid Psyche No. 16 [Deception/Mind/innerworld]

Piscean influence or 12th House influence debilitated/afflicted.

Ladies and and Gentlemen, If you find yourself attracting predatory creepers who happen to be in the older age range...

This is likely due to some sort of Capricorn or Saturn placement touching your Venus. Saturn represents the “father figure” and when touching a receptive sexual/feminine planet like Venus, older men may prey on you. This is especially likely if there is a cross aspect to Pluto which adds obsession.

Moon/Saturn

in hard aspect can be an indicator as well.

Priapus touching Venus with Saturn

in the mix can indicate these older men will do anything to fuck you. Priapus is wild sexual abandon and need to merge [but the male version, he’s Lilith’s counterpart].

5th House Stellium with Saturn in the Mix

or a 5th house in Capricorn can indicate feeling restricted in the area of fun. 5th house is naturally ruled by Leo/the Sun and is the are of life that rules leisure, enjoyment, children/childhood, casual relationships [often of the sexual variety]. When Saturn is here, he can restrict or add a touch of maturity to the aforementioned areas. This could be the person who had to grow up faster than everyone else for whatever reason. This can also be the person who feels blocked from innocent expression of love and therefore they can be terrified of committing. They can be socially reserved, shy, awkward and/or naturally distant even if they deeply crave relationships. People can misjudge their temperament for indifference or coldness but in reality they can’t help it. This is not to say that they will never become emotionally/romantically involved, but more so it may take a longer time than others. Having benefics in said house can help combat the effect of Saturn [depending on harmonious or challenging aspects.]

When Jupiter is transiting one of your angles...

This is Usually an indicator of a lucky break and or windfall. Even more so if Uranus is in harmonious aspect to said angle. The luck can come out of the blue.

If aspecting the 10th, this can mean lucky break in the career.

 The 4th, Perhaps a lucky break in family or even a pregnancy. 

The 8th a lucky inheritance from a family member. 

7th, Luck in love.

Malefic Uranus in Natal or Synastry 

can indicate where one feels abandoned. Uranus is about “sudden breaks” so often if it is touching 4th, Sun, or moon it can indicate someone whose family has been plagued with Divorce. I often seen Sun inconjunct or square Uranus in charts of people whose father was absent or split from life right away. Moon in hard aspect to Uranus can be an indicator of an absentee mother. 

Composite Charts with Stelliums

Indicate that the planets and houses will be integral parts of the relationship

1st House stelliums indicate that the couple’s image and personalities will be significantly affected. All 1st house dealings will be accentuated. This will be a karmic relationship.

2nd House stelliums indicate the couple will be very concerned with material values or even quite possessive of each other. They may make money together. Gift giving can be a big factor in the relationship. Careful for neptune here as it can indicate “stealing” of resources.

8th House stelliums indicate the relationship will center around sex/obsession's and/or even marriage since this house is the life/death house. Karmic tie. 

4th House stellium indicate family, security and comfort will be paramount If Jupiter is here, they may have [many] children together.

10th House stellium can indicate a power couple or two people’s relationship that center around their careers. They may be talked about or subject of gossip only because their relationship is akin to celebrity to others.

3rd House Stelliums in Sagittarius 

Will usually be one who is verbose. They have a LOT to say and since the 3rd house is ruled by mercury, planet of communication and Sagittarius is a fire sign ruled by expansive Jupiter, one is always seeking to expand their mode of thought. They may have a knack for languages. These are also the people who will do well if they travel abroad for school. The classic “shipping you off to boarding school in Switzerland” aspect. Very Philosophical thinkers here. Akin to having a Mercury in Sagittarius.

Pluto touching the MC in Synastry

Can mean that the Pluto person can transform [for better or worse] the Midheaven person’s public persona, career, or reputation. For example, Brad Pitt’s Pluto is forming a harmonious aspect to Angelina Jolie’s Midheaven and she went from being the bad girl/outcast of Hollywood to gaining Pitt’s social capital the moment they got together. Her popularity increased exponentially because of him. She was more accepted due to her association with him in Hollywood inner-circles than she was before when acting out her aloof, devil-may-care, vile-of-blood sporting days.

Planets in your 1st House

Can influence your appearance just like your rising can. So even if you are a Scorpio rising, your Sun in your 1st house can make you shine despite the dark Plutonic influence on your ascendant. Aries rising’s are typically on the shorter and stockier side but with Jupiter in the 1st it can make one Tall and Muscular. Capricorn risings with Venus in the 1st Can have RBF yes, but with Venusian influence can have a sort of Cold Beauty. Leo Rising’s with Saturn in the 1st can have a regal aura but a very stern or austere appearance. Virgo Risings with Mars in the 1st Can often be very graceful. The structure and detail of Virgo with the athleticism of Mars are working together Ballerina’s/Dancers often have this placement.

Sagittarius on the 7th house/DSC Cusp or Sagittarian influence on Venus or 4th House can indicate marrying someone outside of your culture.

Minor Planet/Asteroid Pallas in the 3rd or touching Mercury can indicate a writer or someone who is quick witted and ambitious regarding intellect.

Positives for Venus in the 12th 

typically a knack for knowing how to love others. One see’s the hidden parts of others that they do not show. These are the people who wind up having complete strangers spill their guts to them because others unconsciously sense that this person is naturally sympathetic and an empath, Strong empathetic ability here. In addition They’ll attract people from all walks of life. Very go with the flow people. Easy to get along with. 

A square Between Saturn and Neptune in Synastry

Often means the Saturn person can restrict the dreaminess and idealism of Neptune. Saturn wants Neptune to come back down to earth and will often call Neptune out without reservation if they catch them being less than honest. Neptune may feel stifled and unable to express their idealistic nature with Saturn’s rigidity involved.

CEO Placements

Strong Cardinal Energy/Dominant Cardinal Modality in the Chart

Leo Midheaven/Strong Leonine Influence in the chart/angles

Taurus Midheaven

Mars/Aries Midheaven [Bill Gates has this Placement]

Capricorn/Saturn Midheaven [Jeff Bezos has this placement]

10th House Stelliums

Capricorn Risings

Scorpio Sun

Saturn in Scorpio

Saturn in Capricorn [Warren Buffet Has this Placement]

Earth Placements on the Angles

North Node influenced by Jupiter

Saturn, Mars, Pluto, or Jupiter as the Most elevated Planet

Hate to Break it To You

But if your North Node or Your Partner’s North node is squaring many Planets in synastry, this indicates a bit of an “uphill battle” regarding the relationship. The life purposes of two people are at odds. Though there can be tons of passion involved, two people can either encourage each other’s bad habits [usually the case with Jupiter] or Commitment may never be solidified [Uranus]. Venus squaring the north Node can indicate pain regarding love or just two people who may never get a chance to tell each other how they really feel. 

Those with Venus in Aries

Can be quite selfish in love. Aries is ruled by Mars, ruler of the 1st house that is all about the “I”. As a result, one’s loving style can be very egoic. These are usually the Takers in the relationship. They may find balance with someone who has Libran placements on their sexual planets but the give and take can feel unequal if Venus in Aries isn’t careful. Adversely, those with Venus in Libra or Mars in Libra need to take care to not be noodle-backs in romance. Love doesn’t always mean self-sacrifice or running yourself dry. It’s natural for those with these placement to appreciate reciprocity in relationships. After all, Libra is the scales. Balance. If you see that you are giving more than you are receiving, don’t be afraid to draw a boundary and set things straight with whomever might be taking advantage.

A positive for Venus in Aries is there decisiveness in romance, however. They know what they want and aren’t afraid to cut the fat if someone is not meeting their expectations. Rarely will you see this person suffering from self-worth issues. These are ferocious flirts. The kind of person who will ask you out first.

Strengths of Mercury as the Most Elevated Planet

Mensa Level IQ

Inventive

Witty

Quick

Agile

Dexterity

Easy Reading Comprehension

Excellent Writing Capabilities

Fine tuned to detail

Orderly

Funny [especially if Jupiter is touching]

Nessus in Capricorn

Can mean Dad was abusive or some Dominant parental figure could be/could’ve been a big source of Pain. in the 9th they could have demonstrated this by forcing the native to take up a belief system or secondary education that matched their values as opposed to the natives. Work can also be a source of abuse here or these natives can work themselves to death.

Sado in Gemini

 can mean one who can hurt with their words or can mentally abusive someone.

Those with Mercury in Earth Signs [Cap, Virgo, Taurus]

Find it VERY difficult to accept facts or figures without evidence. These are the skeptics. The ones who need proof. One who has this placement may think your love for conspiracy theories, or belief in ghosts is silly. 

Love Languages for the Signs are:

Aries-

Physical Touch/Words of affirmation. Mars is Masculine/Yang in nature. Code? Regardless of gender/orientation subscription- they loooooove their ego stroked. They love the fire stoked and are the ultimate Hype Men/Women. In their personal and public lives. The two languages work in tandem with Aries’ basic needs. You know an Aries loves you if they are cheering you on or giving you a headlock hug. They feel appreciated if this is reciprocated.

Taurus- Receiving Gifts. Taurus is ruled by Venus which rules the 2nd house of Money and Values. As a result, buying shit for a Taurus or showering them with expensive gits reaffirms the sentiment of love for them. They’ll often do the same.

Gemini- Words of Affirmation. This Chatty Sign loves to converse. They feel good when they’re able to socialize and exchange ideas. The sapiosexuals of the zodiac. As a result, words of affirmation tend to be their favorite mode of romantic/platonic expression. Giving or receiving. 

Cancer-  Acts of Service. Cancer is the sign of nurturing. Ruled by the moon, the celestial “mother” these natives don’t feel good if they’re not able to care for something or someone [no matter their hard exterior]. 

Leo- Physical Touch/Words of Affirmation. You’re doing it wrong if you’re not physically loving on a Leo or Telling them they’re awesome. Leo’s LOOOOOOVVEEE their ego stroke. It’s a fire sign thing. Plus, being the Lion’s they are, they need to feel that they are being recognized/worshipped. As a result, positive verbal reinforcement followed by a kiss or a hug usually does the trick for these natives.

Virgo- Acts of Service/Words of Affirmation. Virgo is mercury minded. Hence they work quite cerebrally. They need to HEAR you tell them something. Be it feelings, how they’re doing well, etc. However they are an earth sign that’s ruled by the 6th House of work and routine. You’ll find coaches, trainers, med professionals etc., here. Hence, acts of service tends to be a very Virgo-esque expression of love.

Libra- Gift Giving/Receiving/ Acts of service. Libra’s are also ruled by Taurus which rules the material/luxury. Their love of the finer things- often aesthetically pleasing aspects in life can be hit or miss for some, as it can appear superficial at a surface level. However, they, being a more passive sign love demonstrating their love by pleasing others. Keeping things charming, chill and agreeable. Venus also likes indulgence. This is why swag coming in or going out from/to a Libra  is appreciated. 

Scorpio- Physical Touch/Quality Time. Scorpios are ruled by Mars [planet of Sex] and Pluto [Planet of sex] lol. They’re also a water sign that’s honorary fire thanks to being co ruled by mars [Aries’ ruler]. As a result, these hard-shelled arachnids appreciate physical expressions of love. As opposed to intercourse, a Scorpio is satisfied with things as simple as hand holding, to a simple kiss on the cheek. Pluto likes to merge. Scorpio is also a water and 8th house is very binding on a life and death level. The most precious resource is time and Pluto rules resources. As a result, Scorpio’s enjoy receiving quality/giving time to/from the people they care for.

Sagittarius- Quality Time. Though these globetrotting archers have a hard time staying in one place, you know they love you if they are taking the time to be with you/putting their adventures on pause for you. In addition, they love spending time traveling and going places with those they love.

Capricorn- Gift Giving/Receiving/ Quality Time. These Goats live primarily in the material world so the fruits of their hard labor are the key to demonstrating their love to their loved ones. They also appreciate these things being given to them. Saturn is also father time and the ruler of longevity. Spending time with a Capricorn or them spending time with you is a sure-fire way to know that they give AF. 

Aquarius- Words of Affirmation. These are the big thinkers of the zodiac. So when they are working in their service/socially-minded modes, they appreciate being told that what they do makes a difference and is appreciated. They are also air signs so they primarily work through intellect.

Pisces- Quality Time. These Neptune ruled fish are the empaths of the zodiac. They feel everything so at times it’s important to have someone around to be there for them. That is why Quality time is often big on a Pisceans list for primary methods of affection [giving or receiving]. 

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Welcome Home, Sister Part Four

Summary: Gabriel felt it, they all felt it. Castiel has seen it. You have to experience it. Waking up though, you find yourself in an unknown place. Immobile but searching for Cas regardless but when you see him you know… this ain’t Cas.

Word count: 1460

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As soon as Lucifer’s grace entered (Y/N)’s mouth, every supernatural being felt a rupture in the universe. It was as though their entire way of living was soon to be permanently altered because of this single event.

Gabriel, without a doubt, sensed it. And along with it came the emotional turmoil. Sadness, joy, dread, excitement. But the most prominent one: fear. Because Gabriel knew, he knew, that without him nothing would ever fall into place which clearly prompts an all out celestial search for him.

Ever since he’d killed Loki and assisted the Winchester’s in their quest to find Mary and Jack, he’d had to impersonate some other ancient deity… Seth. The Egyptian God of Confusion and Trickery. Considering the entirety of the Egyptian Gods had died out a couple centuries ago, he needed to find some replacements for the key Gods - Osiris, God of the Underworld, Isis, Goddess of Love, Horus, God of War, Ra, God of the Sun, Anubis, God of Death, Thoth, God of Wisdom and Bastet (Bast), the Cat Goddess.

In true Gabriel fashion however, he didn’t actually recruit any other being for the job. So he took on them all for himself, or continuously came up with lies as to why the requested God hadn’t turned up.

He emigrated to Egypt in hopes of avoiding Heaven’s eye as the angels have a strong disdain for people who worship “false Gods”. They’re just being pathetic honestly. Either way, he’d been desperate for any sort of escape or false sense of security he could find before the inevitable would eventually happen, as he knew only too well that his little mischievous interruption was just that; an interruption

Regardless, he straightened abruptly from the fake meeting he was in (he created multiple illusions of himself and adjusted to suit each and every deity to perfection), made the illusions simmer out into nothing and attempted to contact Castiel through his grace. To no avail it seemed as no matter which tunnel he tried to enter, or which crevice he tried to wedge himself into, all of his efforts were wasted.

Castiel’s grace was gone!

His brows furrowed slightly in worry and stood there perplexed for the better part of a minute. His eyes darted to random places frantically before he halted his movements altogether.

“Lucifer,” he whispered to that dark, realising the extent of how severe the situation was. His grace was off limits because Lucifer had corrupted it.

Twisted it to its very core, manipulated whatever made Castiel more human and erased it with the image of an ideal soldier. Based on how Charlie had described Apocalypse World Castiel, Gabriel decided that a connection was disturbingly accurate.

Granted, this modified version of Cas didn’t have a twitching lip, nor did he have a German accent, but he would be just as lethal and just as effective. Heaven’s perfect little soldier.

Knowing Lucifer though, Gabriel knew he’d also set Castiel on his rear so maybe trying to track his grace wasn’t the best idea… Oh well! Guess he’ll just have to be super sly then?

Still, there was something bothering him.

If Castiel has been exploited as he presumes, then there will be nothing preventing Castiel from protecting (Y/N). Whilst that isn’t necessarily a bad thing, he knows for sure that the youngest Winchester won’t enjoy being under a constant watch and will have especial disdain for how uptight and over-bearing he’ll be.

Despite the circumstances, he scoffed fondly for his soon-to-be sister. Sobering up and out of his momentary goof, his eyes gained a new look.

The look of the old Gabriel, Heaven’s youngest archangel and God’s messenger was back and ready to roll, baby.

(But not before a quick lollipop obviously.)

*Flashback*

He didn’t know what happened. All that mattered now was his new found devotion and his clarity of life ahead.

(Y/N) - his superior - and he had been trying to flee the Bunker because he’d had orders from the archangel Gabriel to evacuate Earth and enter a specific reality he’d created, but he’d had to take her with him. As protection.

Against Lucifer and Michael, previously he’d blindly followed the order because it was in his best interest to do so and because of how much he cared for the archangel. Free will was what Michael called it, what an interesting concept?

Anyway, they’d been climbing the stairs up to the upper floor before he’d paused. His entire body froze but his grace did the complete opposite. He’d known that Lucifer was attempting to worm his way into the chinks of his damaged grace, known he should’ve fought more fiercely, more dangerously, more like an angel of the Lord should.

But the grace, Lucifer and Michael’s conjoined grace was the most mesmerising thing he’d ever gazed upon. His physical body remained fixed into place, but his celestial self was overwrought with a need to interact with this divine essence.

He could only describe his surroundings as white, plain and blank. Nothing special to note or take into consideration. But the distracting pull of this everlasting, angelic core consumed his entire being. His grace was wrenched towards it, as though a magnet was tugging at his roots.

The closer he got, the more he could see. A future, the promise of a future so great, his grace began pulsing with raw and uncontained euphoria. It was a future where archangels and angels alike thrived and basked in God’s creations, where they lived life so peacefully, lived it to its fullest!

Distantly, he couldn’t deny that there was a slight intrusion to his grace. Something that was prodding and roaming wherever it could, distantly he recognised it as the enemy.

Enemy.

Enem…

Eney…

Emeny?

Eme, ene, eme…

Blinding. It was like a hot knife was being rammed into his chest, causing the wound and instantly healing it. No time to consider it, he was instantly engulfed with (false) memories of when he was a fledgling. How happy (he’d never had a chance to experience it) he was with his older brothers. With Michael and Lucifer.

And soon, (Y/N). But Lucifer says he can’t reveal anything yet. He said think of it as Chinese whispers, where only he and Lucifer and Michael knew the secret. Oops, no good being a cheater, so he’ll keep his mouth shut.

His mouth shut, but his eyes opened anew with the promise of angelic salvation for him and all of his siblings.

“You alright, Cas?” she asked. His eyes widened but he remembered his promise. So, he merely beamed and announced merrily:

“I’m alright, thank you. Better than alright actually”. And he meant it.

Everything was not alright. You woke up and instantly registered how you were immobile. You couldn’t move anything. Your eyes and mouth seemed to be the only exception but that did nothing to soothe your panic.

“There, there, little sister. Don’t panic, we’re here,” Michael alleviated you. You couldn’t even have the vindication of saying it didn’t work, because for some bizarre reason, it did. Your eyelids fluttered shut once more, and your lips moved sluggishly.

“Where-” you croaked, so you poked out your tongue to wet your lips. “W-where am I? Where’s Cas?” you repeated slightly clearer than last time.

Michael huffed, raised a brow and mocked you with a contemplative look. He left you in the dark for a few moments, before inhaling sharply and gestured blindly for something behind his back.

Footsteps started clacking on the floor and approached you. Suddenly, you grasped that you had you had no knowledge of your surroundings. Your breathing turned fast, and your eyes watered slightly but it all stopped when a familiar face appeared above you.

It was undoubtedly Cas, but the stern and almost distasteful look on his face seemed permanently engraved into it. This was an unfamiliar face, same features maybe, but they were twisted into something ambiguous.

For the most part, your breathing stabilized itself but that was mostly due to your mutual studying of each other’s face. “Cas?” you tried.

He almost flinched, it was barely noticeable, but you did anyway.

“My name is Castiel, but if you wish to address me as such, then I will not resist,” his voice was as robotic as when you’d first met him all those years ago. “I hope you are well, sister.” You detected slight apprehension in his tone, but elected to ignore it until you became more level-headed.

Averting your head from Castiel, you instead addressed Michael. “Where the hell have you taken me?”

Lucifer came into view and dominated your vision along with his older brother. What he said next shook you to your core, “Welcome home, sister.” Then, you screamed.

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A/N: Well oops. I’ve been away obviously but I hope this chapter makes up for it. It’ll stay kicking off next chapter so I hope you enjoyed. Let me know what you think (by the way I’m looking for a beta to read it over so if you’re interested let me know). Hope you’re all okay :)

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imagine if you were like a relatively normal rabbit guy living in like cartoon animals delaware or something and one day you receive a vision in your sleep from an unfathomable ancient God of chaos and destruction and rage and hes like Hey whats up. sooo im trying to choose someone to be basically my avatar in the mortal world and spread devastation and fire and death across the world and well you're the lucky guy. so like just agree and i'll basically channel my fucked up dragon energy into your puny physical form and make you a horrible unstoppable beast and you can basically fuck shit up everywhere forever. it'll be a blast i promise ive looked into youre dreams i know youre the kind of spite filled bastard who would be into that.

and youre like hmmm that sounds a little Problematic but also you have no friends and hate your job and hate your life and the world so basically why should you care. so you take the deal and for a few hundred years you run around with your cool new lizard satan power sowing distrust in the masses with your trickery and burning down buildings and eating farm animals whole while nobody's looking. and the more you destroy the more the hatred and fear you kick up amplifies your connection with your god powers, widening the scale of your rampage until there are no more cities left to raze, no more kings left to devour, any remnants of civilization are few and far between, and they all know to fear you.

so your god rolls up again like Heyyy you're doing a great job man im giving you a gift. take the power of my claws and tear through reality. go find other universes full of worthless squishy mortals to terrorize.

so youre like Okay cool sure sounds like the reasonable next step here. so you do that, ripping massive holes through reality and destroying everything that dares to exist within your reach. and you do this for what starts to feel like an eternity, endless violence spread across countless worlds, it all starts to blur together.

it gets fucking BORING so you kinda start slacking off, changing your form to enjoy the simple pleasures of mortal life without the stress of actually being one of them, but then homeboy dragon god comes back and is like Hey dude hold on. you can't do that we had a deal. i grant you my power. and you fuck shit up for all eternity right? you cant be doing this pussy shit with my power that's not what it's for.

and youre like well im sick of the destruction and the fire and the screaming it's all the same. it never surprises me anymore. can't i have a break every once in a while? and he's like FUCK no absolutely not. i made a mistake granting my power to you I'm cutting you off. you can keep what you already have but im not giving you any more and you can't have the boon of my dimension-rending claws anymore either. have fun with your smelly little mortals IDIOT! and he disappears.

and for a while you can kinda do whatever, fuck that guy, what does he know? as long as you keep causing mayhem every once in a while you can maintain your power. but eventually your antics get you in hot water with a particularly powerful empire, and they have particularly powerful mages, and they devise a magical trap to contain your power and seal you away for a thousand years. so you end up bound to a pair of enchanted golden bands locked in a chest in an ancient temple for like, wayyy too fucking long. not fun. not cool. big fucking bummer honestly.

once you're finally released, the first thing you see is this weird really tall ripped bird guy with sunglasses. and you naturally expect him to cower or whatever but he doesn't seem to know who you are at all, and he's confused why a bunny man with horns and claws and a tail came out of these weird bands he found while exploring the forest but he's, like, really nice to you and introduces himself as the bodyguard of the unikingdom.

you don't know what the fuck a unikingdom is but you're hesitant to tell a royal guard about your past, especially in your current weakened state, so you kinda just skirt around the issue and say you don't remember anything. so he offers to show you around and shit and you're learning about all the new things that have been invented in the past millennium and it's pretty cool you guess but that little lie sits like a pit in your stomach. it is your nature, your destiny to destroy it all, but hes so nice. no one has ever been this nice to you in your life.

and he introduces you to his friends and they're all really nice too and it just makes you feel even worse because you're getting attached now, but it's only a matter of time until you're forced to face the truth. the truth of who you are, who you have always been for as long as you can recall, a monster. why couldn't some jerk have freed you so you could just backstab them and regain your power? why did it have to be this guy? why is he so pretty what who said that