#especially for something that is already misunderstood and hated

[author-chan06]

Heya you comfortable with an anti-contact (NO)MAP following you?

of you aint, please discard this ask and block me! no hard feelings ^ ^ and wether youre ok with us interacting or not, i hope youre having a nice day :]

-JoeI

Hello! If I’m correct no-map means No Contact Minor Attracted Person, correct? If not, please correct me, but if that is the case then—

Yes! I am very much pro-para, and totally support anyone who is para, and that includes the more stigmatized ones. As long as you harm no one (which is why I am also very pro no-contact for the could be harmful ones) then you are absolutely allowed to follow me!

I bet it can be really hard to have something so hated, and I’ve seen a lot of that hate myself, but I would never want to participate in that.

As someone I used to know said: “Thoughts and feelings don’t make someone a bad person, their actions do.” So as long as you’re not harming anyone, you’re good in my books!

Wishing on you a wonderful week~! <222

[dark-night-hero]

Imagine being Zayne's non-mc significant other. part2

Imagine growing up, Zayne has never been the loudest in a room. He was more of a constant quiet yet present and warm person other could lean on into. He doesn't speak often but when he does, people listen. Especially you, his lover. The one who loved him before he even knew how to love himself.

Imagine the way he watched you across the room as the two of you where now separated by a small sea of people. His eyes out of habit looked and found you. He knew that look on your face, the kind of face that others would mistake as absentmindedness but he knew that look. But he recognized the way your brows softened when you are lost in your own thoughts. He knew you were thinking. About him, maybe. About what you two have.

Imagine the way he smile softly to himself, even as he turned back to the conversation. As a joke passed around the group, he let out a small laugh, not forced, but not full either. And then something caught his attention. A familiar laugh rang out from somewhere in the room. It was bright and child like, MC. She had always laughed like that, ever since they were kids. Zayne didn't need to turn his head to know where it came from. He already knew.

Imagine she had been under his care for a while now. Her recovery had been long but she was making progress. She was strong, even if she didn't believe it. And he? He was protective of her. Not in a romantic way, but in the way that an older brother might be for a younger sibling. But that didn't stop people from speculating. The familiarity between them, the shared glances of old memories they painted as a picture, people misunderstood too easily.

Imagine, he hated that you, his lover had to see that. Especially when he caught your eyes again. Your friend was sitting next to you speaking softly. He couldn't hear what your guys were saying, but the tension in your posture told him more than words ever could. Then you look at him. No, past him before looking away. That hurt more than he expected.

Imagine Zayne love you with everything he had. From the quiet moments to the loud. From the days were you two barely spoke to the nights were he held you like a lifeline. He love you. He never said it as much as he should have, but it was always there in his actions. The way he picked up your favorite drink on his way home. The way he listened to your ramble about your day even when his own had left him drained. The way his hand always found yours under the table, steady and sure.

Imagine he knew something had shifted. Not his love. Never his love. But your trust.

Imagine he knew what it looked like. The way his eyes drifted when MC laughed. The way he softened around her. But what no one else saw, what you did not seem to realize was that it wasn't love. It was duty. About family. MC was a girl he grew up with, a patient he'd watched fight her demons tooth and nail. She was a reminder, not a desire.

Imagine, he saw it in your eyes, the creeping doubt. The belief that you were nothing but a second place to someone who wasn't even playing the same game. That realization shattered him. He remembered the conversation you two had once, late at night, your head on his chest. "Do you think you could ever love someone more than you love me?" You asked, not accusing or something, just plain curiosity.

Imagine the way he had pulled you closer, kissing the crown of your head and saying "No, there's no one else for me. Only you.” He meant it. He still meant it. But something had crept in between the two of your lately. An invisible wall neither of you had placed but both felt. It was born from the silence. From the misunderstandings. From him not being careful enough with the way others saw his kindness, and you being too quiet about how much it hurt.

Imagine watching you smile faintly at a conversation you aren't really in, Zayne felt a pang of guilt. Not because he had done anything wrong but because he hadn't done enough to make you feel safe. Loved. Chosen.

Imagine the way he wanted to cross the room. Sit beside you. Take your hand in his and whisper 'It's only ever been you.' But the timing never seemed right and maybe, you wouldn’t believe it anymore. So he stayed seated. Eyes lingering just a little too long. Not on MC. But on you. The one who had seen him. Chosen him. And loved him with a kind of quiet bravery that both terrified and humbled him.

Imagine the way he swore to himself that he'd stop being silent. Stop letting the shadows of old relationships or misunderstood bond blurs the truth. He was yours. And he'll prove it, every day from here on out.

[ⓒdark-night-hero] 2025°

:happy ending? Not quite. Sorry it took so long, I was playing valorant and was editing everytime I died.

[rafescherie]

SALT IN THE SUGAR BOWL — RAFE CAMERON

pogue!rafe decides to end things before either of you get too attached — but it's already passed that point, for the both of you.

salt in the sugar bowl miniseries | you are currently on part one — part two - part three |

cherie's note — heavily inspired by letthespiceflow on c.ai c: been using that bot a bit, and wanted to write a fic based off of the intro of the bot! press here for the link to the bot!

rafe had never been one for the kook life — fancy boats, and stupid polo shirt outfits. more than one hundred spent on an outfit and it became one for 'special occasions', otherwise it would be covered in the filth of the garage floor, and deep obsidian motor oil. his hands were already stained, not something unusual for his line of work. despite his resentment for the kook life, and everyone on the other side of the island, they paid him a hell of a lot of money for the work he did — and he did it well. it had only been a few years since he had opened his own mechanic garage, months worth of projects to work on since the very first day. he was always kept busy — whether it was with upgrading a vehicle, or fixing somebody else's, he always had his hands full.

that's how he met you. so generously, he had offered to tow your vehicle back to the shop upon discovering it moiling the smoke from under it's hood — like your guardian angel sent from heaven, it was the least he could do for a pretty girl. his mother had taught him better, always trying to be a gentleman where he could be.

until today. this morning was different — the air hung thick with the aftermath of the hurricane in his brain from the night prior. he knew he needed to act on his thoughts, and do what was best. but he absolutely dreaded seeing the look on your face, and watching it completely shatter your heart.

"need the wrench, angel." he requested from beneath the heavy vehicle, grease smothered hand appearing from below to extend an open palm. bounding almost excitedly off of his leather-worn workbench, you placed the cold steel tool in his hand.

"so uh, listen," a grunt escaping his lips, absentmindedly going back to working on the vehicle. his muscles tensed with every torque of the wrench, biceps shining with a mixture of grease and sweat. the unmistakable sound of heavy bolts hitting the cold cement of the locally-owned garage rang through the bay, the hum of rock music playing throughout the shop.

his heart thundered against his chest — he felt like such a dickhead. it had only been a few months since the both of you had started seeing one another, and he was already planning on ending things. it wasn't something he wanted to do: it was something he needed to do. he hated knowing he was the reason you held yourself back from the possibility of college. no matter how much he had stressed to you that your schooling was important, especially given the opportunity of growing up on figure eight, it never seemed to stick with you. all you wanted was to be around him, and as much as he adored having you tag along every day, he didn't want to be the reason you would ruin your future.

"been thinking... maybe we should, cool things off, a bit."

the words stuck in your head for a minute, heart racing over the sentence. had you heard him right? there was certainly the possibility you had misunderstood. "what is that supposed to mean?"

rafe sighs, audible even from beneath the heavy vehicle he had been working on the last few months. the last thing he wanted to do was look at you, speak directly to you — the hurt in your eyes would eat him alive like no other, as if the guilt wasn't already working towards that alone.

"you know.." he starts, voice tame despite the race of his emotions, "you an' me."

you furrow your eyebrows, confused on the sudden shift. he had been so sweet just yesterday — peppering you with so much love you were sure you would have fainted on the spot. but maybe that was his attempt at sweethearting you — trying to help soothe the mental turmoil he was experiencing for ending things so suddenly with you. "what, why?"

he shakes his head, wishing you'd just drop it. but an explanation was what you deserved, after all. it was the least he could do. he drops the wrench onto the cement beneath the car, sliding out from underneath to kneel in front of you. he runs his tainted hand over his buzzed hair, another deep sigh falling from his nostrils.

"you're a smart girl, sweetheart. think about it — you're a kook, and i'm a pogue. you come from the rich side of the island, and i come from the cut. it wouldn't work," he starts, wanting nothing more than to wrap his arms around your fragile body, reassuring you it wasn't your fault, "besides, last thing you need in your life is someone who dropped out of high school, 'specially since you're headed to college in the fall."

ouch.

"rafe..." you trail on, biting the inside of your cheek in any sort of control against the tears that threatened to spill onto your flushed cheeks. "i- i thought you didn't care for all that?"

"i don't," he replies, ocean blue eyes looking around the shop in a desperate attempt to avoid eye contact.

"so where is this coming from?" you ask, heart thundering against your ribcage. desperation was laced within your voice, soft and trembling at the realization of the news you were being hit with.

he let out a sigh, hesitating before he opened his mouth to speak. there was no easy way to say this, so he opted for brutal honesty. his eyes never left yours as he said the words he dreaded most.

“it’s dangerous,” he started, his voice low as he slowly stood up in front of you. “it’s just asking for trouble. people would have my head. not to mention what your parents would say. we just…we can’t do this anymore.”

none of this was fair — neither to you, or to him. but there was no turning back now, the words had already popped out of his mouth, and the inevitable damage was already done. the look on your face was like a gut punch to his stomach, making him feel dizzy and sick all at the same time. he hated himself — really, he did.

one thing you knew for sure about rafe — he either didn’t care at all, or he cared too much. he always told you it didn’t matter what your parents thought or how anyone else would react; he promised he’d always take care of you. but as reality crashed down on you like a ton of bricks, that promise felt like a slap in the face. you hadn’t even realized you were crying until the hot tears streaked down your flushed cheeks, landing on the bare skin of your shoulders, exposed by your tank top.

"it's for the best, baby."

the oil on his hands smudges onto the cotton fabric of his wrinkled, disheveled shirt before he lifts them to cup your face in his palms. his blue eyes search yours, the sting of salty tears making it harder to hold his gaze. but you don’t let him linger — you swat his hands away and turn for the exit, your footsteps heavy against the garage floor.

you stupidly wish to hear his footsteps trailing behind you as you walk back to your parked car — but they never come. how foolish, how naive, to think he would follow. even after he fell in love with you. even after he let you fall in love with him.

[selenepsyche]

Scorpio Moons Are Always the Villains.....Right? Or Did You Just Need One?

"Jennie's lazy." | "Beyonce's in the Illuminati." | "J.Lo doesn't even sing." | "Ice Spice is just a meme."

These are things that have been stated multiple times in the case of these Scorpio Moon musicians. Whether or not you agree with those statements isn't the main point for today's post. I'm here to point out a pattern that I have noticed in Scorpio Moon celebrities.

Scorpio Moon celebs, especially women, are uniquely villainized in the public eye. Not just because of what they do, but because of the energy they give off and who they are. They're powerful, private, and unique. Whether they're deeply misunderstood or genuinely problematic, society reacts with projections, suspicion, and obsession. They immediately accuse them of being cold, manipulative, and sneaky. But I am also gonna include a small lesson in Evolved vs Unevolved Scorpio Moons.

How Scorpio Moons Behave

Scorpio Moons are usually deep, intuitive, passionate, captivating, powerful, mysterious, and creative. We feel emotions deeply and don't trust others easily. It's difficult to truly know us because of how private we are. We have strong intuitive abilities that allow us to perfectly read rooms, sense people's true motives, and live without needing approval. But at our worst, we could become too paranoid, easily hold grudges, withdraw emotionally, and have a fear of being vulnerable. To the outside world, we are usually seen as deceptive, cold, intense, and misleading. That image alone is enough to provoke suspicion and resentment, especially in the public light.

How Fame & Notoriety Affect Scorpio Moons

We already know that being famous is difficult. It can strip away your privacy, morals, willpower, and it's all about competition. People will create their own narratives of you and act like they know you. Scorpio moons are not gonna be able to deal with this easily because they will be more restrictive to what they talk about and what they post online. The only time you'll ever hear from them is if they're dropping a new song or movie trailer. This is why they're seen as fake and calculated. But they're just trying to protect the important parts of themselves that they know fame will devour.

People will become suspicious of their quietness. People could overanalyze their facial expressions. People could say their confidence is threatening and "stuck-up". People could say their boundaries are arrogance. People could think they're hiding something because they don't explain certain things or give the fans what they want.

Beyonce

Beyonce is one of the most celebrated and awarded performers of all time. She has built a legacy on talent, perfectionism, and near-perfect control of her image. She rarely gives interviews. She releases music on her own time. She rarely, if ever, explains herself and gives the public the reaction they want from her at certain times. Things like this have fueled the public's suspicion of her and backlash she's received.

One particular incident that I remember was about her being criticized for using a pre-recorded track while performing at Barack Obama's Inauguration in 2013. She said she didn't wanna risk singing live because she didn't have time to practice with the band and since it was such an important event, she didn't wanna risk it. She was severely dragged for this.

Over the years, she's also been accused of being apart of the Illuminati, stealing artistic concepts and choreographies, sabotaging other women's careers to get ahead, and using feminism and black culture performatively. Some of these critiques may be valid and some are speculative. Either way, they've all been triggered by the same emotional reactions: distrust, obsession, and the desire to expose her as something she's not showing us. She's been dealing with hate like this for the majority of her career.

But she doesn't react. She comes back with albums that are revolutionary and game-changing, from Sasha Fierce, to Lemonade, to Black is King, to Renaissance, to Cowboy Carter. She comes back with different personas, as an entirely new and stronger person than before. Classic Scorpio Moon.

Jennie Kim

Jennie is in one of the biggest K-pop girl groups of all time, Blackpink. She has always stood out from the very beginning. Even before her official debut, she was collaborating with K-pop icons such as Lee Hi and G-Dragon. She quickly became a fan-favorite due to her talent, presence, and beauty. She's also considered the it-girl of the 3rd generation of K-pop. Jennie was also pretty different because she didn't behave in a way that most idols are expected to. The love quickly turned into hate.

The first major controversy she experienced was her "lazy dancing" scandal in 2018-2019. I was there to witness it, and it was so much hate being thrown her way. So many YouTube videos were being made about it. She was being attacked for dancing "lazy" while they were on tour, when in reality, she was most likely exhausted from the intense schedules. She also had a ankle injury at the time.

People were also pointing out how she was more a bit energetic for her solo stages at the time, but "lazy" for the group performances. I feel like this might have also been a misunderstanding because when you're performing solo on stage, you have to give it your all since all eyes are gonna be on you. She's still being called out to this day for dancing "lazy". I think it's clear that has low stamina now, which can easily be improved and I understand people's criticism about it. But people are still hanging this over her head to this day. The main valid criticism that I've seen Jennie receiving though is when it comes to appropriating Black culture.

People were also attacking her for her dating rumors with Kai from EXO and V from BTS. People were attacking her and saying they don't deserve to be together, even though nothing was ever confirmed. But throughout all this, Jennie has never addressed rumors and hate (I don't remember if she has in interviews). She continues to build her career in ways that'll make her a legend. She doesn't seek approval. She sets standards. She even has a song that's praising herself (Like Jennie).

Jennifer Lopez

Now let's be for real, not every Scorpio Moon artist is a misunderstood saint. I wanna use Jennifer Lopez and Kali Uchis for these examples. Just as this placement can cultivate emotional resilience, privacy, and depth, it can also cultivate manipulation, control, and the unwillingness to take accountability (Evolved vs Unevolved Placements). Even though they aren't saints, my point still stands about how they've been uniquely villainized in the public eye.

Jennifer Lopez has been exposed for using other black female artists vocals in her earlier songs without crediting them (Ashanti, Christina Milian). Their vocals carried her hits and Jennifer just lip-synced or layered some of her own vocals over them. She has also done interviews where she contradicts herself, disregards people she's worked with, and even potentially lies about her past (ham and cheese on a roll with a orange drink, iYkYk??).

People don't hate her because she's successful. Most people don't like her because of how much she's appropriated and taken from black culture and markets "women empowerment" while stepping on women's necks behind the scenes. She's also officially been exposed for the stuff she did with he who shall not be named, so that's gotten her even more hate. People have been hating on her for years because of all of this, and I don't think it's gonna stop anytime soon. This is a prime example of how people don't just sweep things under the rug with Scorpio Moons.

Kali Uchis

I love her music, but I gotta do it. What makes Kali's case interesting is that she hides behind a spiritual, divine, transformative, and healing persona. These traits are common with a Scorpio Moon and this is how she is seen by most people. She plays it well and knows how to sweep the toxic things she has said and done under the rug with the help of this image. That's why the problematic things she's done aren't talked about that much, unless she messes up and her true self just so happens to slip through the cracks. She has a curated image with alluring, feminine visuals and "soft power". But when faced with criticism, she defaults to passive-aggression, projection, or complete silence.

She has been called out for defending men who have SA'd women, and dated them. Don Toliver has those allegations against him and she has a baby with him now. There was also a situation a few years ago, where she bullied a trans woman for calling her out because she tanned her skin darker to pass as a darker-skinned Latina and changed her whole aesthetic to appeal to the Latin market. She's been exposed for allegedly stealing smaller artists' aesthetics and being rude to fans throughout the years.

With her skincare line, "Homebody by Uchis", she claimed the products are vegan and all-natural. But that was a lie. When someone called her out for this, she blocked them on her main account and her clothing line account (bodiedbyuchis). She also claimed the jeans from her clothing line are not made with polyester, which she made multiple comments on her story at the time about how toxic it is. But guess what? They had polyester. I checked her website again though and it seems they no longer have it in their clothes.

In her most recent controversy, she shared a Billboard 100 chart, showing off her ranking at #4 but covered Sleep Token's pic, whom was in the #1 spot. She also later accused them of using payola in another shady post. When asked why she did this, she claimed it was because she didn't feel comfortable showing someone who does blackface, which isn't true (and racist Morgan Wallen was right under him, yet she didn't cover him). When replying to another comment later, she admits she doesn't even know them but that the picture made her uncomfortable. So you decide to accuse someone you don't even know, of doing blackface and being racist just because they got the #1 spot and you didn't? Girl bye.

I remember when she shared her 2024 Spotify wrapped, she also covered Raveena's face and song, whom was her top song of the year (Hypnosis). It's genuinely odd and it's giving jealousy. Scorpio Moons are known for their intensity but they're also masters of control - controlling narratives, controlling perceptions, and silencing anything or anyone that threatens them. Kali frames anyone who questions her behavior as being jealous, being a hater, or having low vibrational energy. In one breath, she preaches healing and positivity, and in the next, she's throwing shade on her IG stories.

You can be spiritual and still be harmful. You can be sensual and still be emotionally immature. Kali weaponizes self-love and spirituality as a shield from accountability. She is the perfect example of what an unevolved Scorpio Moon looks like. There's also a big difference between emotional privacy and emotional arrogance. Not addressing the problem and deflecting is not okay. Kali reinforces her ego instead of transforming it.

All of these things make Kali disliked in the public eye. Well, I would actually say that it more so hinders her growth as an artist because as I stated before, most of the bad things she's said and done have been buried or covered up due to her spiritual image and maybe management helping her. But since this situation with Sleep Token has been blowing up everywhere, it's been making more people bring up her past. People are definitely gonna hold this over her head for a long time.

In Conclusion.....

Whew, this is the longest post I've ever done. I'm so proud. But to conclude, this post reiterates the fact that Scorpio Moons have an emotional intensity that makes them unforgettable, unbreakable, and often unbearable in the public eye. We don't cry for comfort. We don't explain themselves when they want us to. We usually work privately share only what we want them to know. But because that isn't what's expected of us, especially celebrities, we get hated on for it.

Some, like Beyonce and Jennie, hold their power quietly, gracefully, and "dangerously". They give us access into their personal lives only when they want to. Others, like Jennifer and Kali, show us what happens when that energy calcifies. They show us what happens when the mystery becomes smoke and mirrors.

Scorpio Moons will always be polarizing. We weren't made to be liked, we were made to be felt. And whatever that feeling is - admiration, suspicion, or obsession - it will stick. But with that being said, thank you all for reading this!

dividers: @omi-resources & @anitalenia gifs and pictures: @sir-illmatic | @bey-life | @venompinks | @parkrose | Pinterest

© selenepsyche - All Rights Reserved

[villiedoom]

I have some idea what your previous post is about. I think your best options are to either carry on as normal (if possible), or share your side of the story, just so people don't have only rumors to go off of. Either way, I think it would be best for your mental health to block/mute all accounts/everything to do with this other person, and just authentically follow your own path. Please feel free to ignore this, your post gave me the impression that you were seeking advice, sorry if I misunderstood.

Thank you (as well as one more person) for the support!

I though about sharing my side many times throughout all the years; it's already taken too much of my mental health and I don't know how to handle all this stuff properly.

I decided to share the basic things in public, with the goal of informing people on what my side is and counter disinformation against me. No names here. Those who know, they know.

OP sorry for using your message for this stuff!

DO NOT attack anyone, whatever you think of them. And do not involve me any more. I may respond to something in private messages and you are free to inform or ask me, but I also reserve the right to remain silent.

I don't know what they want from me except for me to give up my entire species concept and realistic style, on which I spent years of my life (I was also the first one who started working on realistic 3D, this has been my dream since childhood and no way I'll give up on doing 3D models of my weird cats)

Back then (2018-2019) I was a rather small artist with barely more support than a couple of friends and, along with being very personal and touching on some very specific cult-like tactics, it all collapsed me in a really terrible way. I am hurt and angry to this day.

The other people involved are either those I have no contact with (mostly these who are used against me; I have info about some of them, including from their former friend who contacted me about all this once, but idk if I can share it, I don't want to involve anyone without their consent), and the main ones are problematic.

Their attack on me was manipulative and controlling (in a "I do this because I love your species and care about them being original" manner) and downright threatening (like "you will have problems if you do not change your species") from the start (2016) and no detailed explanation was given. Then they suddenly turned friendly and were okay with me, my style and my species; back then (in 2017) it was my initiative to talk about it and they were okay.

They also openly took inspiration from my art, especially my symbolic/spiritual art and lore; by openly I mean their direct questions about using this or that from my art. I was okay with it at first. Then, for personal reasons, it became problematic for me as well; I felt trapped and used. And so they went against me again. And do this to this day. All the stories about me accusing them of stealing the species are either a misunderstanding or a lie; it was personal and more complicated. Now I don't care what they draw, I try to avoid them.

For other "funny" stories (and about why I said they are"problematic") you (not you personally but anyone who is interested) may try to contact @kissthegogo-goat-witch (hope you're ok with that)

I already blocked them, all their friends, and sometimes I block even their fans just to keep their whole circle away. I had my grievances against them, but I'm not interested in continuing all of this.❗❗❗

For my species - I work on them on my own; they are based on oriental shorthair and I am transparent about this. I do not believe that I am not allowed to use my concept, which I created and started to work with on my own, only because other person was the first one to use a similar idea. Not to mention the personal meaning of my species and characters to me.

I am not happy with this "similarity" either, because I hate to be associated with them; these comparisons, as well as the memories, bother me throughout all these years. Back then I've been trying to find a way out, tried to draw Koties "less similar", destroyed their concept completely and built it anew by using the photos of real cats, desperately redrew their concept from scratch many times. I once gave up on them and their lore and story entirely because it all have drained me deadly, so I changed my old characters into Vaerafes (Vewis as a Vaeraf), which was never fully voluntary on my part. I also deleted all my old art and avoided sharing it.

But now the Koties, my vision of them, and my right to own, draw, and share them, are my personal priority and my little win that I managed to finally draw and share them again. I decided to come back to them when I was working on the history of my entire lore and concepts, and realized that I need them, I miss them, I still love them, and I don’t want to give up on them. I'm tired of living in fear and pressure.

Other people and their questions and misunderstandings are not my responsibility. Hundreds of people call my characters Pangur after all. Plus, our characters aren’t just cat designs but also their story, meaning, etc.

(numbers are years, 15=2015 and so on)

I have used - and use - different creatures and styles in my art, but it is my right and choice to do so. I have the right to have them all as valid; none of this is an attempt to deceive my followers, nor is a crime.

Sorry for messing around; I'll likely delete this post later, but I decided to share it to make my side more transparent.

[verysanebsdfan]

Hey hey hey from your friendly neighbourhood lurker, I love your writing on my Kinro request and while it may have been short it was really sweet and adorable, I was kicking my feet and everything anyways to my request.

Can I have Kinro (yea again kinda insane about him atm) hcs where he proposes and the reader is from the modern era so he doesn’t know how it go about it, like to he tries different ways to propose and its not clicking with reader.

(Accidentally didn’t sign this off like I normally would in my last request so here we go)

From yours truly,

Your friendly neighbourhood lurker

hello, thank you for requesting again!! i am glad you liked the previous one.

i'd like to apologize though, i misread it and wrote confession instead （´∇｀''）hope you won't mind much. no promises but if i feel like it, i will write the proposing too!!

masterlist

cw: oblivious reader

wc: 556

ᴛʜɪʀᴅ ɪs ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴜᴄᴋɪᴇsᴛ ᴛʀʏ (ᴋɪɴʀᴏ x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ)

When you waltzed into the ever-so-stoic guard’s life, he never expected himself to fall so hard for you. When he first met you, you were just someone from the Tsukasa’s Kingdom of Might, but then more about you was revealed. Day after day, he would see you helping around. Whether it was with food preparation, manual labour, or anything else.

And that is how he initially developed an interest in you. Once when working, you got to have a small chat, nothing big or interesting, just a small get-to-know-each-other. But that led to a friendship.

It was obvious since the beginning that Kinro thought about you differently, I mean, how could he not? You were ethereal. Your touch was soft and delicate. Your voice was so smooth and pleasant. Your- oh yeah. 

Kinro was aware that your traditions, especially those that regarded partnership, were very different from his. In the village, it was usually a mutual agreement, yes, but there was mostly no prior dating or a form of an intimate relationship, maybe because everyone knew each other, but that’s besides the point.

After night after night, he spent rethinking this, he made up his mind. The next morning, he walked up to you, slightly recalling the info he got from the modern people. “Dating.” “ Partnership?” That was it.

“(Name)? Would you like to be my partner?” He asked in a slightly shaking voice, his cheeks flushed. But you misunderstood completely. “Sparring partner? Sure!! Albeit I am sure you will defeat me in seconds!” 

Yet the situation was too awkward for a correction.

The next time was a direct confession.

“(Name). I like you.” He said with a certain gentleness in his usually stoic eyes. “I like you too! You are a really good friend.” Was your response.

It was only the second time, yet he was already getting desperate. So he asked Gen for advice, but that didn’t make him more confident either, since even Gen himself wasn’t sure if you “friendzoned him” or whether you are just completely oblivious.

Third time, last time. Yes. He has to be more direct about his feelings. 

“(Name), can we please talk?” He asked in the evening, when all work was doen for the day. You two then moved somewhere more private.

“So, what is it that you wanted to talk about?” You smile at him. That gorgeous smile, which makes his heart beat and his blood rush a little faster. 

“There is something really important I have to tell you.” He took a deep breath. “(Name). I am in love with you. I never thought I would, especially with someone from the modern world, yet here I am. Every time I look at you, my heart speeds up. You occupy my thoughts all the time. And I think it would be fair if you knew.” He spoke softly while looking into your eyes.

“Kinro…” you softly mutter, and his blood runs cold. He doesn’t know if you hate him now. Why are you so quiet? “Why didn’t you tell me earlier?” 

“I did, you were just,” he looked at the ground and thought over his words, “oblivious.”

And with that, you come closer to him, grasping his hand in yours. “Oh dear, I am so sorry. I was in delusions, I never thought you’d like me too.”

[daiziesssart]

a humiliatingly long character analysis of lily evans

Someone sent me an ask that briefly mentioned how misunderstood Lily is, and before I knew it I was typing out this monster. I am. sorry. This is literally just me rambling about her, what I find compelling about her character, and why her character is so often misunderstood.

This is long as hell so I'm putting it under a read more lolol

Part of the reason I like Lily so much (other than my being ginger and projecting onto any redheaded female character I see) is that even though she isn’t explored as much as her other Marauders Era counterparts, we know enough about her to start building the framework for her character. And what I see is a girl who was incredibly interesting, kind, and flawed.

One thing I always think about in regards to Lily is that she was dealt with a pretty unfair hand. As soon as she receives her letter, she’s basically torn between two worlds, both of which have been less than welcome to her. On one hand, we have the muggle world that she’s known all her life, but once she starts integrating into the wizarding world, she likely feels a bit of a disconnect with that world. To twist the knife further, her sister- whom she loved dearly and grew up so close with- starts outwardly resenting her with such unbridled hostility that they likely couldn’t even be in a room alone together without major conflict. 

On the other hand, we have the wizarding world– a world she’s not as familiar with and one she soon learns holds a demographic of people who hate everything she is and would rather see her excommunicated or even dead. And even though finding out you’re a witch/wizard is probably such an exciting and life-changing moment, I can’t help but also take note of the difficulties, especially if you’re the only one in your family with magic. You’re essentially uprooted from the only way of life you’ve known at an already complicated age, and now you have to quickly become acclimated to this new world that you only just found out existed. Not only that, but now you’re suddenly attending a school with classes that are primarily focused on this world of magic (which is still brand new to you), and you have to work extra hard to play catch up in order to do well. Like, that all seems like… a lot for a kid to handle.

And then I remember how young she was when she was thrown into that mess. She was only 11, and kids that age desperately crave any sense of belonging. I mean, that’s something that still holds true for adults, but it’s especially critical for a developing child. So imagine Lily, ages 11-15, struggling to stay afloat in this weird purgatory between these two parts of herself, both of which have been the cause for major and traumatic experiences relating to rejection in her life.

(I say it was the “cause” even though it’s obvious that those things were never her fault at all, but when you’re a young kid navigating the world, the only thing you’re able to process is that the common denominator is you, therefore you’re the one who must shoulder the blame.)

So now we have this tween-teenaged girl who has a dysfunctional relationship with two major parts of identity and probably feels absolutely lost. 

This is why her hesitancy to end her friendship with Snape makes sense to me. Even though by fifth year he’s already well past toeing the line with the dark arts, Lily was willing to overlook some pretty egregious and troubling things in order to maintain the relationship. I kind of interpret that as her way of desperately clinging on to any sense of belonging she has left; her relationship with Petunia has already been poisoned, and now there are people who resent her existence as a witch; if she loses Severus too, what and who else does she have? And what tone does that set for her, if everyone and everything she’s come to hold close to her ends up turning her away?

It’s also important to note that not only is Severus one of her few remaining connections to the muggle world, but he’s also a wizard who grew up in the muggle world; he understands her, and I don’t doubt that he gave her some stability at times when she needed it (her finding out about her being a witch, her having trouble acclimating to the wizarding world, etc).

I see this as being one of her flaws and I can actually appreciate how relatable and realistic it feels. Lily is not a bad person; on the contrary, you’d be hard pressed to find anyone to describe her as such. Not to get all clinical and boring, but the interesting thing about (unhealthy) coping mechanisms is that it can actually be really hard to identify them in your own behavior. Unless you’re in therapy and/or are actively psychoanalyzing yourself, you likely don’t even realize how many of your common behaviors are born from self defense mechanisms put in place by your brain after past events.

To me, it makes sense why she avoided actually confronting the idea that Snape was too far gone. We know that she was aware of the path Severus was taking, but it almost seems like she was still convinced that she could save him, and could possibly steer him back in the right direction. It’s only when she becomes the target of his bigotry that she realizes that the Snape who called her a ‘mudblood’ was not the same Severus who was the one who held her hand and introduced her to this new, exciting world.

In a general sense, yes, it is selfish, to only take a stand when something starts affecting you personally. But I also think it’s important to note that it’s unlikely that this was a conscious decision on Lily’s part. In my eyes, it was easier to delude herself into thinking she still had a chance to save him before it was too late when she was able to separate him from his actions (considering, a lot of the time, she was only hearing about them after the fact, rather than seeing them firsthand). But the elusion is shattered once she sees that the Snape she grew up with– her friend, Severus– is, in fact, the same person who’s out there calling other students slurs, dismissing the malicious use of Dark Magic on others as just “a laugh”. There we see a Lily who is actually revealed to have been somewhat aware of Snape’s involvement with the darker side of magic, and genuinely feels pretty ashamed about her inaction.

That moment in SWM is probably somewhat of an epiphany to her. It’s like a dam that’s been broken, and now she’s overwhelmed with the realization of exactly how much she overlooked in order to keep their friendship afloat. And for someone like Lily Evans, someone whom we know is opinionated and unafraid to call others out on their bullshit, that can be hard to swallow and feel pretty mortifying and shameful. And I think this was a huge turning point for her- at that point, she doesn’t have the luxury of avoiding uncomfortable truths anymore and now that she’s getting closer to graduating and being thrown out into the world on the brink of war, this was probably a really sobering discovery.

This is where we don’t have as much info to go off of, and a lot of it is up to interpretation. But we actually have little crumbs to go off of following her graduation and leading up to her death.

One of my favorite little tidbits isn’t in the books, and @seriousbrat's post reminded me about it. Here's the actual entry on Pottermore for anyone who's interested, but I'll summarize: after James and Lily began dating, Lily brings James to meet newly engaged Petunia and Vernon. Everything goes downhill, because Vernon is a smarmy asshole, and James is still pretty immature and can’t help but mess with him (which… fair, I guess). Petunia and Vernon storm out after Petunia letting Lily know that she had no intentions of having her as a bridesmaid, which causes Lily to break down into tears. I mention this because I also think it’s a pretty important aspect of her character; like we’ve seen in her past friendship with Snape, Lily seems more than willing to forgive others most of the time. Petunia is a bit of a complicated character herself, but she was objectively very cruel and unfair to Lily once it became obvious that she was a witch and Petunia was not.

Something that always stands out to me is just how desperate Lily is to earn Petunia’s trust and approval again. Even up until her death, she was more than willing to mend the relationship, were Petunia ever to consider. 

This is a detail about Lily that I feel is misunderstood quite a bit. I’ve seen a lot of instances of her character being reduced to a one-dimensional archetype with little to no complexity. And often, that archetype is “know-it-all, prudish, self righteous bookworm who is also a goody two-shoes with a stick up her ass”. What annoys me is that the reason for this is most definitely the scene in which she blows up at James in SWM for bullying Snape, and hurls quite a few insults at him directly after an extremely devastating and overwhelming situation for her. This frustrates me because we know for a fact that she’s the polar opposite of this archetype I’ve seen her reduced to. 

In actuality, she’s referred to as popular, charming, witty, bright and kind. From flashbacks we also are shown that she’s opinionated, bold, and not afraid to challenge others. With other context, like her interpersonal relationships, we can also see that she’s pretty emotionally driven and wears her heart on her sleeve. 

(I know Remus didn’t mention Lily much in the books, but I really love how he described her in the movies. He tells Harry that the first thing he noticed about him was not his striking resemblance to his father, but his eyes, the same eyes Lily had. He also calls her a “singularly gifted witch” and an “uncommonly kind woman”.

“She had a way of seeing the beauty in others, even and perhaps most especially, when that person could not see it in themselves.”

I know there are mixed feelings on whether or not the films count as canon source material, so take it with a grain of salt, but I personally cannot see a world in which Lily and Remus didn’t become close friends.)

Here we have a direct description of what she was like and who she was, corroborated by recounting of memories of her, and yet for some reason, this feels like the thing that is most commonly lost in translation.

I don’t think I can say why I think that is without mentioning the dreaded M word (misogyny- it’s misogyny), but I also don’t want to get too off topic so I’ll be brief: female characters are typically not given the same grace as male characters. When we have an undeveloped male character, he’s awarded the assumption that despite his lack of depth, there still exists a complex and multifaceted character– it’s merely just potential that hasn’t been tapped into. Whereas when we have underdeveloped female characters, they are taken at face value, meaning that not much exists beyond the little information we have of them. They are not presumed to have a life or a story that exists beyond the surface of what we know like male characters are. That’s why I think characters like Regulus, Evan, or Barty (just to name a few) are more popular than Lily, despite being less developed than she is.

(Before anyone gets defensive, no, I don’t think it’s an individual problem that you alone need to be shamed for. I think it’s the result of a deeper issue regarding misogyny in media as a concept; these are things that we’ve all unknowingly internalized and while it’s not our fault, we still have to do the work to deconstruct those learned prejudices.)

What I find really cool about her character is that despite how much she’s been hurt, she’s also still known as one of the most loving, kind, and considerate characters. There were so many times in her life where the love she received was conditional and ripped away from her– and I think that’s what makes her sacrifice even more poignant. She was able to protect her infant son from an extremely powerful dark wizard, wand-less, knowing that her husband was just murdered in cold blood, just from how much love she felt for Harry. Her love was a force of nature on its own, and I just think that’s such an amazing thing about her. 

I know I’m biased, given that she’s one of my favorite characters, but even upon delving into this, I still just find it so incredibly hard to understand how anyone can actively hate her (not indifference, but actual dislike). In my opinion (again, no one is unbiased, and she is a favorite character of mine, but trust me when I say that I’m trying to be objective as possible when I say this), she’s probably one of the most likable characters of the Marauders Era. I think perhaps a lot of people haven’t given her a chance or really taken the time to learn about her character, but it could be a myriad of other reasons that I’ll never understand. 

There's so much more I could say but this is long enough and I will stop myself

Lily Evans, u will always be famous to me

[roseameilatempest]

why sanegiyuu DOES make sense

woo another analysis

Both sanemi and giyuu are complex characters, and both of them did play off each other in crucial ways for their character development, their dynamic is complicated and much more then ‘they hate each other’ because in fact sanemi was the only one hated giyuu, giyuu didn’t hate sanemi. And that was due to a misunderstanding. Let’s start with giyuu, we already know that giyuu had a lot of mental issues during the time of the anime, tanjiro helping giyuu with that was a major part of his development and it’s what leads us to how sanemi affects giyuu’s character. After tanjiro causes him to acknowledge that he actually does have worth, he allowed himself to think about making another connection with another person, something giyuu did want.

Out of all the people giyuu could choose he decided on sanemi, most likely due to sanemi’s similarities to sabito giving giyuu a sense of familiarity. Giyuu never tried to hide that he wanted a connection, he shows it, picturing him giving sanemi ohagi and him talking about it with tanjiro. With sanemi, sanemi is pretty much the polar opposite, sanemi made up a entire life plan as a coping mechanism, ignoring reality and causing him to do very harsh things and that it’s itself is a delusion. He is genuinely harsh to anyone that reminds him of himself, tanjiro, genya and of course giyuu.

the people that sanemi did feel calm around didn’t remind him of himself, instead family, for example masachika and especially kanae. Sanemi acknowledged kanae was very different from himself, she was an older sibling too, but she was kind, even towards demons, just like how shizu (sanemi’s mother) was kind to kyogo (their father). Every parallel between sanemi and kanae was linked to his mother and how much he missed her. Kanae pacified sanemi for a while, though in the long term sanemi did not need that type of comfort, he needed a full on slap to the face, to bring him back to reality. he needed a slap, and trusted support so he wouldn’t completely loose it.

like i mentioned earlier sanemi did hate giyuu, but it was due to a misunderstanding. During the hashira meeting giyuu walked out, saying he wasn’t like the rest of the hashira. Giyuu meant to say that he didn’t deserve to be a hashira but sanemi misunderstood. Sanemi couldn’t fathom why someone would be so vulnerable openly, he didn’t even think for a second giyuu could think he was inferior because sanemi himself would rather die then be that vulnerable. Causing their miscommunication.

giyuu also needed a slap and he received multiple, one of them being physical, and that one is of course sabitos, after his sister died, which is what caused giyuu to get so attached to him in the first place.The second one was tanjiro, when he helped giyuu open up. Lastly the final one was sanemi during the final battle when giyuu got saved by obanai, and sanemi yelled at him “don’t space out now or i’ll murder your ass” which caused giyuu to acknowledge that he was indeed the water hashira, and then they slammed their blades together.

Although sanemi did have a positive influence on giyuu, it’s worth pointing out that giyuu had a positive influence on sanemi too. Because sanemi did get the well needed slap back to reality when genya died. His delusion broke into pieces. He needed support after the final battle, and giyuu was there to give him that support.

They were alone together after the corps defeated muzan, and they had so much in common. They could truely understand each other causing them to be vulnerable with another person, something they hadn’t done in years. The proof relies in the fact they were eating together, of their own free will. Tengen was close with them at the end of the manga but tengen wasn’t there, Because that panel was about sanemi and giyuu and their bond, there wasn’t a need for words because it was shown. Sanemi and giyuu thrived for the first time in forever, that in itself creates romantic chemistry. Their friendship was meaningful because they had so much in common, they could understand what the other was going through because they’d gone through the same thing.

[thebettertraiaad]

ships I hate in DC

(heads up this is just my opinion and this is just my own critique of the story line and character!)

were discussing two canon ships I hate. green lantern and star sapphire, selina and bruce wayne. first off I hate whenever DC tries to milk and couple from the old comics ESPECIALLY when the stories just mush together just like green lantern and star sapphire, the thing I most disliked about this canon ship was how in the other variations of the comic of their relationship star sapphire is either 1# literally sleeping with green lanterns or the green lanterns core younger coworker(kyle reiner) Or in another issue where she tries to create a life where she has a normal healthy relationship with a guy(i forgot his name but he literally became a new lantern of sorrow) And let me tell you why he became the lantern of sorrow real quick! because she chose to chase and save hal from being injured and ditched her own wedding that was already planned to cling on the most rocky relationship she has with hal. and the most toxic thing dc fans especially the defenders of this ship, and how 'oh well they weren't like that in a different issue-' and truly as a way to describe throwing away gold is an understatement for how diluted and how desperate the female characters seem especially when being written with a specific love interest. And now selina and bruce, their whole relationship stems on literal sexual drive and how 'misunderstood' they are when they literally never even tried to open up with anyone else prior to their encounter and dont get me started on selina. why dick and jason?? I get that she is this flirty 'untamed' woman who is cat like but to literally act like she is in heat anytime a man is a 12 feet away is just so absurd. and bruce just excusing her behaviour since he 'loves'? mind you this is a man who had flings and never had any real connection with anyone who isnt a parental figure or a friend or child, so to say that its going to be a long healthy marriage is a little absurd, yes bruce is also whore-ish like selina but the same time their whole relationship feels forced and stemmed in sexual contact and adrenaline. and I HATE people who say that 'oh, selina would be a great mom/stepmom to the batkids' when she literally slept with dick and NEARLY got jason too, those people have never read a comic in their life and to be so diluted to think that it would be something to cheer for isnt a good look and the ship on itself is the most wattpad teenage hormonal fantasy it could get especially with the complexities of the character and how they literally are in the opposite spectrum and none of them wont even stick as long as it should have.

[majikkulu]

𓂃 . 𐑞 i  was  looking  into  the  chart  of  the  new  pope.  since  we  don’t  know  his  exact  birth  time,  i  focused  on  the  major  conjunctions.  one  placement  really  caught  my  eye is his  north  node  at  22°  sagittarius.

𓂃 . 𐑞 now,  22°  is  known  to  be  an  intense  degree.  in  astrology,  it's  sometimes  linked  to  life-and-death  situations,  major  transformation,  or  moments  of  extreme  loss  and  rebirth.  it  can  symbolize  being  on  the  edge.  whether  that  means  literal  danger  or  total  spiritual  crisis.  what  struck  me  even  more  is  that  i  have  pluto  at  exactly  22°,  in  my  7th  house,  so  i  know  how  heavy  and  intense  that  energy  can  feel.  it’s  not  subtle.

𓂃 . 𐑞 this  placement  made  me  wonder: is  this  pope  going  to  bring  destruction  or  deep  change  to  the  belief  systems  we’ve  known?  i  think  so.  his  chart  suggests  he’s  here  to  shake  things  up.

𓂃 . 𐑞 one  of  the  biggest  indicators  is  his  moon  conjunct  pluto.  that  kind  of  emotional  intensity  can  make  someone  a  lightning  rod  for  projection.  people  might  see  in  him  what  they  fear,  or  what  they  secretly  admire.  he’ll  likely  be  a  very  polarizing  figure.  some  will  worship  him,  others  might  hate  him  with  everything  they’ve  got.  this  is  pluto  we’re  talking  about.  there’s  a  deep,  almost  fated  energy  to  it.

𓂃 . 𐑞 he  also  has  jupiter  conjunct  pluto,  and  we  know  jupiter  expands  everything  it  touches.  combine  that  with  pluto.  the  planet  of  destruction,  rebirth,  secrets,  and  power.  you  get  someone  who  could  radically  transform  religious  institutions.  especially  because  jupiter  rules  sagittarius,  and  his  north  node  is  there  too.  it’s  giving  “tear  down  the  old  to  make  space  for  the  new”  energy.  honestly,  i  wouldn’t  be  surprised  if  he  exposes  corruption,  reveals  secrets,  or  challenges  centuries  of  tradition.

𓂃 . 𐑞 there’s  a  possibility  that  this  transformation  won’t  be  peaceful.  he  might  face  real  danger,  especially  with  this  level  of  power  and  disruption  in  his  chart.  he  could  become  a  symbol  of  spiritual  revolution  but  also  a  target.

𓂃 . 𐑞 emotionally,  he  seems  deeply  tied  to  his  mission.  his  sun  and  moon  conjunct  mars  give  him  an  unstoppable  will.  he’s  passionate  and  might  even  be  combative  when  defending  what  he  believes  in.  this  is  someone  who  fights  for  faith.  not  with  softness,  but  with  fire.  there’s  a  warrior  archetype  here,  wrapped  in  spiritual  clothing.

𓂃 . 𐑞 at  the  same  time,  there’s  a  softness  to  him  too.  sun  conjunct  venus  can  make  someone  warm,  loving,  and  even  magnetic.  people  might  feel  drawn  to  him  not  just  because  of  what  he  says,  but  because  of  how  deeply  he  seems  to  care.  and  with  mercury  conjunct  neptune,  he  might  speak  in  a  way  that  feels  prophetic  or  poetic  like  he’s  channeling  something  divine.  but  it  could  also  make  him  misunderstood,  especially  by  people  who  aren’t  ready  for  what  he’s  saying.

𓂃 . 𐑞 he’s  here  to  tell  a  higher  truth,  to  reveal  what’s  been  hidden,  and  to  push  people  out  of  blind  faith  and  into  conscious  belief.  that  sagittarius  north  node  gives  him  a  mission  rooted  in  truth,  expansion,  and  philosophical  or  spiritual  evolution.  he’s  not  here  to  maintain  what’s  already  built.  he’s  here  to  burn  away  the  illusions.

𓂃 . 𐑞 i’ve  seen  people  already  calling  him  things  like  the  antichrist,  which  feels  like  a  reaction  to  how  deeply  uncomfortable  his  presence  might  be  for  some.  personally,  i  think  he’s  just  a  catalyst  for  transformation.  a  mirror  that  forces  people  to  look  at  their  own  faith  and  question  it.

𓂃 . 𐑞 also,  he’s  has  a  lot  virgo  in  his  chart,  which  honestly  makes  sense.  there’s  a  strong  theme  of  service,  dedication,  and  maybe  even  sacrifice  in  his  chart.  he  feels  like  someone  who  was  born  to  carry  a  heavy  spiritual  burden.  if  he’s  not  careful,  it  could  consume  him.  but  if  he  handles  it  right,  he  could  change  everything.

[harridansibyl]

12th House Stellium Themes

(My observations as someone who has this stellium)

Solitude

feeling alienated from others or getting easily exhausted by people's energy, especially in group settings

you can have the ability to read people extremely easily. You can be in the presence of someone you've just met and already feel that something is off

only feeling like you can be yourself when alone

more prone to cut people off, distance, or ghost

enjoy spending time on creative projects, journalling, interests alone

Disconnection

constantly feeling like there's a fog separating you from the world around you and other people

either experiencing chronic dissociation or having episodes of it

feeling inhuman or unreal, like you were dropped onto Earth with no incentive

feeling like you have one foot in another realm at all times

Living more in your mind than in real life or constantly using escapism as a coping mechanism (music, movies, substances, limerence, daydreaming**, social media, etc.)

Projection

having others tell you who you are despite them only knowing surface level information

constantly feeling misunderstood or like no one knows the true you

putting on a mask in front of others, usually unintentionally

being a mirror to other people, they can see themselves and react accordingly

people becoming obsessed with you, either hating you or seeing you as their ideal (especially with Venus/Lilith)

people can describe you as being mysterious, quiet, or like you have your head in the clouds

this can be applicable to 8th house placements/stelliums

Paranormal

seeing shadow figures or experiencing unexplainable things, especially in childhood

being extremely sensitive to your environment and having the ability to pick up on things that others don't notice

prophetic or really surreal/vivid dreams

being really in tune with your subconscious mind while also feeling blocked off from it

again, also applies to 8th house (there's a lot of crossover lol)

I'll be doing a part 2 to this because there's more that I want to touch on

[a-griffin-in-the-sky]

The Undiagnosed Autistic Girl

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It’s funny how when boys have autistic meltdowns, it’s seen as part of their charm, he’s sensitive, he’s just spirited, he needs a little space. He hits a wall and people rush in with support: a diagnosis, a therapist, sometimes even a future carved out with understanding. But when did I melt down? I got a hand clamped around my wrist and someone hissing “Knock it off” like I was choosing to unravel. When I couldn’t brush my teeth because the texture made me gag, my grandmother pinched my nose until I bled, held my mouth open like I was some wild animal refusing to be civilized. And when all that control didn’t “fix me”? 

They didn’t ask questions, they gave me medication that numbed me out so completely that I stopped reacting altogether. Not better, just quieter. That’s what happens to undiagnosed girls. You’re not quirky, you’re difficult. 

You’re not misunderstood, you’re bad. You’re not struggling, you’re “too much.” And society? It hates “too much,” especially in girls. It punishes you until you shrink, soften, or disappear. I was lucky, I eventually got an ADHD diagnosis. But even then, all I got was a prescription, not support. No tools, no accommodations, no compassion. Just a pill and a patronizing smile, like that was enough. No one ever asked why I was screaming; they just wanted me to stop.

No one ever wanted to know what overstimulated me, what scared me, what made the world feel too loud and too fast and wrong. Boys got therapy appointments and fidget cubes, and understanding smiles. Girls like me got labeled dramatic, handed a pill bottle, and told to calm down. And if we didn’t calm down fast enough? Suddenly, we were the problem. Ungrateful. Broken. Even when the meds didn’t help, just numbed everything until we weren’t screaming anymore, until we were hollowed out and silent, they called it progress. But I wasn’t better. I was sedated. And now that I’m older, I’m unlearning all of it. I still remember the exact moment something cracked open inside me. 

It wasn’t a breakdown or a big crisis, it was just one offhand comment from my grandmother, sharp and casual like the flick of a match, and suddenly I was sobbing in the middle of a restaurant, unable to breathe or think. I ran outside, choking on something I didn’t have the words for, and my mom followed, finally asking: “You want to go to therapy?” I still needed medication. I still needed time. But slowly, the fog started to lift. I gained weight. I felt hungry again for food, for life. I felt real, like maybe I didn’t have to disappear just to survive. But here’s the cruel truth: even after all that, I was still too much for most people. Too emotional, too reactive, too weird, too intense. Even after healing, after doing everything I was told to do, they didn’t want me. They wanted a softer version. A quieter one. A smaller one. 

That’s what being a woman on the spectrum is like: being punished for existing too loudly, and praised only when you fade.

You don’t get support, you get scolded. You don’t get understanding, you get silenced. You don’t get recognized, you get erased. 

You learn to mask before you even know what masking is, trained to be palatable before you’re ever allowed to speak your truth. They call you dramatic, lazy, selfish, rude when really, you’re overwhelmed and doing your best in a world that never slows down or makes room for you. You cry in a restaurant, and they call it a scene. You stim and they say you’re disgusting. You melt down, and they call you manipulative. And even when you finally get a diagnosis, it feels too late because the shame has already taken root, twisted itself around your identity. Medication might help, but it doesn’t erase the years of being told you were the problem. And yet, here’s the good part: we’re talking now. We’re breaking the silence they forced on us. 

We’re naming the things they told us to hide: sensory overload, shutdowns, stimming, masking, burnout. We’re finding each other in the margins in comments, blogs, DMs at 2 a.m., and we’re saying: I see you. I get it. You were never too much. You were never wrong. And it’s time we talk about the double standard the “he’s autistic” excuse that only ever seems to go one way. When autistic men cross boundaries, act inappropriately, or harm someone, especially a woman, people rush to defend them: “He doesn’t understand social cues,” “He means well,” “You’re being too harsh.” But when an autistic woman has a meltdown in public, she’s labeled crazy, dramatic, unstable a Karen. When she can’t make eye contact, she’s rude. When she overshares, she’s embarrassing. When she stims or forgets to mask, she’s weird too much. 

So let’s be clear: autism is not a free pass to ignore consent, violate boundaries, or cause harm. Being autistic does not mean you can’t learn right from wrong. If autistic girls are forced to sit still, smile politely, and internalize every ounce of shame just to survive, then autistic boys can be taught to respect others. Autism doesn’t excuse harm, and we’re done letting it be used as a shield for men, while women get nothing but blame, silence, and scars.

When I was in high school, I once walked by a guy I thought I knew and gently tapped the top of his head, like a light head pat. I was autistic and didn’t fully understand that boundary, didn’t know that it might come across wrong. But instead of telling me to stop or setting a boundary with words, he strangled me. Full-o,n wrapped his hands around my throat. I panicked, thrashed, punched him in the chest, trying to get free, screaming, “What is wrong with you?” I went over to the security guard after I calmed down, shaking, but in the end, they blamed me because I touched him first.

 Not violently. Not aggressively. Just a misunderstood, socially awkward gesture. And somehow, his violent overreaction was more acceptable than my autistic mistake. That’s the kind of world autistic girls grow up in: where our intent doesn’t matter, where our social missteps are treated like crimes, and where our pain is always less important than someone else’s discomfort.

The administration didn’t punish him. Nothing happened to him. Because technically, I touched him first. That was the logic they used, as if a gentle tap to the top of someone’s head justified being strangled in a school hallway. I learned quickly that speaking out would only get me in more trouble, that being autistic didn’t excuse me, but somehow excused him. I still had to see him in the halls after that. And maybe the worst part? My friend, someone I trusted, stood there and did nothing. 

Just watched. Didn’t step in. Didn’t say a word. Later, he called me and told me I shouldn’t have touched him or punched him, like it were my fault. I snapped. I screamed at him over the phone for thirty minutes, telling him exactly what kind of hypocrite and coward he was. Told him if he wanted to join the army so badly, maybe he should start by learning how to stand up for his friends. Our friendship was never the same after that. And honestly? I don’t think I ever want to speak to him again.

So an awkward autistic girl gently taps someone’s head, and she’s seen as crazy, unstable, violent, out of control. Meanwhile, autistic boys can shout, throw chairs, even physically assault people, and still get excused because they’re “working on their coping strategies.” The double standard is real, and it’s brutal. Women and girls on the spectrum are held to impossible standards of politeness, emotional regulation, and social performance. And it doesn’t stop after high school. It follows us into adulthood, where the bullies become our bosses, and we still get pushed out, punished, and pathologized for not being “normal” enough.

 We’re still denied help. Still mislabeled. Still gaslight. So if you’re a woman with ASD reading this please hear me: you are not broken. You don’t need to be fixed. You just need different accommodations, different support, and a world that stops pretending one-size-fits-all. Men get coddled for their diagnoses. We get discarded. You’re not wrong for feeling like you were treated worse, because you were and are. Don’t let them gaslight you into thinking you’re crazy, you’re not. You’re surviving in a world that was never designed for you.

[lutethebodies]

The Misunderstood Blunt Instrument

Two Minthara posts from yesterday (this one about the glorious new wallpapers and this one about her weapons and armor) got me thinking about The Mace as her weapon of choice. If I recall correctly the fandom has touched on bits of it already, so I won't go too long on this (and forgive me if it's been mentioned already), but other than the two cited above my brief searches haven't yielded anything new. And what I got thinking about was how ditching the maces upon recruitment is almost essential.

Personally I never retain them as her melee weapons, for both mechanical and RP reasons. For the first it's because I routinely respec her to a Dex-based build and of course maces are Str-based. The second reason is because (and forgive me if I’m late to the party here) that as a paladin she’s a blunt instrument for whatever deity she’s sworn to: Lolth, the Absolute, etc. And once she’s free of both, she’s free to choose how to defend herself and/or her friends/lovers among the companions.

As noted here, the mace itself may be two fun call-backs in one—both to her EA version as a cleric and, as dual-wielded by an exile, to Drizzt's "draa velve" fighting style (and I'll take their word for it because I may be the only over-40 D&D fan who hasn't read Salvatore's books). But representing this with maces feels specifically like a reductive and more brutish or ugly choice—and the perfect encapsulation for what she's become while enthralled.

The Absolute (and/or the three Chosen) has sanded down all the complexities of Minthara's character into the "mad dog" epithet Ketheric dumps on her during her trial. I'd add (based on much better arguments by much smarter fans) that for the casual BG3 player this is all she is and all she'll ever be, especially (as she notes after Orin's death) that if Tav/Durge had killed her, that would indeed be her fate.

The mace is also a symbol of Minthara's pre-tadpoled hubris of privilege, arrogance, and elitism in that it's the deadweight of how her life up to that point had sculpted her to precisely this outcome. A symbol of her trauma. "How the mighty have fallen" is a cliché, sure, but it's a cliché precisely because it's true and happens so often. The schadenfreude that fellow envious Lolth-sworn might feel when encountering this manic, raving caricature of their own culture! The shock that anyone who knew her from her previous life might feel about how she's changed for the worse! She says as much when candidly later admitting that pride is one of her sins.

The mace is a great choice for an enthralled Minthara, but that makes it (for me) necessary to abandon when she's a companion. The mace helps further that convenient, simplistic, reactive, and reductive way of writing her off as just another male-hating Drow dominatrix. It helps any player confirm lazy priors about her, which might be why she's both blithely dismissed by some and jealously policed by others.

So that's why I always ditch those weapons and re-arm her with Phalar Aluve. It may be just as reductive, but I think it fits, because 1) it's a fab finesse weapon for Dex-based builds, 2) fuck you Lolth, this is a weapon of Eilistraee and Minthara will wield it at you if you come for her and anyone she loves, and 3) fuck you Absolute, she is not your blunt instrument anymore, and she will smite you with something entirely different and with extreme prejudice.

[worldly-fluster]

Oki this is Part 2 of the "Someone else says I love you/asks you out before him"

I know at least some of you are excited for this, I hope it turns out good cause I have no plan, we ball lol

Sylus, Xavier, Zayne, Rafayel

I'm gonna base what happens on the random poll I didn't mean to make and make this into mostly fluff-hopefully. @lemurianmaster Hope this met expectations ❤️

ALSO- I'm feeling a little unsatisfied with Xavier's so I might make a stand alone post for his, I mean, I'll finish this one but imma make another cause it just doesn't sit right with me how his went. I is unsatisfied lol

Sylus-

Recap: Sylus saw you being friendly with a 'rando' at a coffee shop, the last thing he heard before the guy left was 'bye babes, Love you!'

•...Uh Oh. Oh no.

•He was nothing if not pissed.

•Before he could get up and get between you two, you both went separate ways and you came back to your seat next to him.

•He already has Mephisto following the guy though.

•He would do it himself but he wants to spend as much time with you as he can.

•He gives you a smirk, with a raised eyebrow. If you squint you could see a little bit of a furrow between.

•You barely notice, still too happy off of seeing 'that rando' as you start prattling off.

•He's in the middle of imagining ways to...play with this guy, not really paying attention to what you're saying and nodding along, when he hears it.

•Something that makes him freeze up.

•"-I haven't seen my cousin in so long-"

•He doesn't even realize he stopped breathing for a moment until you ask if he's okay.

•His shoulders relaxed, as if the weight of the world left his shoulders as he smiles.

•"I'm alright now Sweetie, just figured something out that has bothered me is all...what do you say we go to my place for some one on one time? I think Mephisto needs attention."

Xavier-

Recap: Tara was bored and Nero was wanting to start shit lol. Nero tried asking you on a date, as a friend of course, and Xavier didn't take it well...

•Xavier didn't know what to do.

•He wants you to stay by his side at all times, but if being with someone that isn't...him... is what will make you happy then, what else can he do?

•He feels that pulling away from you would help but every time he even thinks about you with someone else, well, his evol acts up...

•One time his evol caused a black out and you kinda freaked out in your apartment alone, you booked it to Xavier's apartment for 'safety'.

•Needless to say after that there were multiple power outages.

•Just knowing that you would choose to go to him instead of anyone else-any man- it made him feel better.

•He can live like this...for maybe a bit more.

•He'll tell you sooner or later but right now he just wants- needs you.

Zayne-

Recap: Zayne overheard you and Grayson trying to figure out how he(Grayson) can confess to a girl he likes but Zayne misunderstood it thinking Grayson was confessing to you, he gets overwhelmed from work and the stress from this 'confession' and passes out. Next thing he knows he's waking up to your note telling him to rest...

•Zayne refuses to talk to Grayson in the week that follows.

•He just can't get it out of his head, hearing him 'confess' to you really hit a nerve.

•It doesn't help that he hasn't been able to see you or hear from you in that time because you got swamped in work, he knows you procrastinated but it came back to bite you. He just hates that it bit him too. Huff.

•In his mind you and Grayson may as well be dating, especially since he heard that Grayson got a girlfriend the day after he heard the 'confession'.

•He stressing.

•Yvonne went into his office one day and when she saw him working non stop, she convinced him to take a short break. His hands were shaking from too much Caffeine and not enough food, so he agreed easily.

•He could not have been more grateful for this break.

•He saw Grayson eating lunch with this girl, holding her hand, staring lovingly into her eyes. They kissed.

•At first he thought Grayson was cheating on you, but then the pieces started to come together.

•You weren't dating Grayson.

•He felt like his heart was flying.

•The feeling of relief made his head spin slightly, or that could have been the lack of eating, who knows.

•He immediately pulled out his phone, with a soft smile on his face and called you.

•"Hello?"

•"It's been a while. If you aren't busy, would you like to go to the new bakery that opened not far from the hospital? We can catch up, my treat."

Rafayel-

Recap: He was wanting attention and tried calling you but you didn't answer. He got excited when you 'called back' only to be disappointed when he heard you talk about being in love with this Mystery guy, he got sad and hung up. We ended with him cuddling with your plushies and blankets you left at his place. Now we continue...

•He is ignoring you...for all but 10 minutes.

•He sent an S.O.S text to both you and Thomas.

•then put his phone on silent to wait.

•Ended up falling asleep in the blankets and plushies.

•Woke up not long after to someone banging on his door.

•He wonders who it is.

•When he opens the door, he doesn't even get the chance to get a full 'Welp hello miss bodyguard' before you're all in his business. Checking for injuries and making sure he's okay.

•His heart feels like it's dying. He swears.

•"Why did you text S.O.S??? Thomas is freaking out thinking your dying!"

•You notice he isn't responding and just staring at you.

•You take his face in your hands and rub your thumbs on his cheeks while searching his face.

•You can hear him breathe in sharply as his hands loosely grip onto your wrists to keep them there.

•This.

•This is where he belongs. In your hands.

•Even if you 'love someone else', as long as you stay by his side he doesn't mind facing the world anymore.

[wildernessuntothemselves]

it's that time again where i distract myself thinking about all the series i wanna write so i will once again include you with me. which fics (those already published as drabbles and those in my drafts) do you wanna see be turned into series?

kingdom come He thought he was falling for a sweet, misunderstood witch. You made him believe you needed saving—so of course he fell in love, pledged his life to you, and swore he'd protect you from the world. Turns out, he needed saving. And you're the reason he’s doomed. Now he’s cursed, collared, and stuck at your side as your loyal little hellhound, He should’ve killed you when he had the chance. But he didn’t. And now? He belongs to you.

God is a Woman

You were just toying with him. A pure, church-raised boy who didn’t know the first thing about lust—let alone demons. You only meant to tease him, maybe break him a little. But what you don't know is that the boy who once begged at your feet is the one fated to destroy you.

3. Tale as old as time

You're not supposed to mess with any of them—but that never stopped you before.

Soobin’s the innocent altar boy who watches you like he’s starving. Yeonjun’s the temple guard who spoils you as if it would win you over. And Beomgyu’s the entitled noble who thinks you belong to him just because he wants you.

You can't choose, but they've all decided you were theirs.

4. Real Boy

ou don’t do love. You don’t even do feelings. You just wanted something pretty to keep you company—so you stitched together the perfect little puppet and gave him life.

Beomgyu is sweet, soft-spoken, and so heartbreakingly devoted. Maybe too devoted.

There’s something off about him. Something that clings.

But when that isn't enough, you try again—this time creating Taehyun, blank-eyed and beautiful. He’s quiet, polite, a perfect doll.

And Beomgyu hates him.

He doesn’t understand why you needed another. Why you’d want anyone but him.

And if your new creation ends up broken? Well… maybe that’s what he was made for.

5. Not even death

You promised Beomgyu you'd love him forever. Then he died.

Grief nearly broke you—until Yeonjun, his best friend, helped pick up the pieces. You never meant to fall for each other. It just happened. You loved Beomgyu. You still love him.

But now things in the house aren’t right. Pictures are moved. Bruises bloom on your skin. Yeonjun keeps getting hurt. And sometimes, when you turn around… you see him.

Beomgyu’s back.

And he hasn’t forgotten your promise.

Not even in death.

6. Stud!gyu

Beomgyu is your prized hybrid—beautiful, obedient, and always so eager to please. You’ve spoiled him since the day he arrived, and in return, he’s given you everything you’ve ever asked for. Especially when it comes to the “product” your clients are willing to pay top dollar for.

Everything was fine… until the day you skipped your morning shower.

He caught the scent of your boyfriend—and snapped.

Suddenly your sweet, soft boy isn’t so sweet anymore. Now he’s jealous, territorial, and refusing to give you anything. A very expensive contract is on the verge of falling through, but beomgyu doesn't yield. He tells you the only way he'll be getting his cum is if you collect it from your pussy.

7. Wild ones

When the wolves came crawling to your coven for help, you named your price: one of them would have to be sacrificed. You didn’t say what that meant—but they agreed anyway. And now their eldest lies chained to your altar, hard and helpless, while you wring every drop from him in front of his brothers.

Yeonjun is sweet. Obedient. Easy to break. But the others? Not so much.

You shouldn’t have teased theme. But you couldn’t help it. They’re all so easy to rile up—and you love watching them fall apart.

You’re not afraid. You probably should be.

8. pup!gyu and kitty!you

Beomgyu’s a big, clingy dog hybrid you’ve spent months avoiding—loud, touchy, and way too obsessed with cuddling. You never wanted anything to do with him… until winter hit and the heat got cut off.

You only meant to use him for warmth. But now he’s rutting against you in his sleep, crying your name like a bitch in heat, and you’re the one helping him get off just to keep him from leaving the bed.

And now that you’ve touched him, now that he knows how good your hand feels wrapped around his cock? There’s no going back.

He’s your mutt now. Your problem. And you’ll take care of him—your way. Just as long as Master never finds out.

9. Bazaar

Beomgyu’s never shown interest in the prince’s fancy mates. Not the trained courtesans or the purebred hybrids gifted to him since he was a pup.

Then he sees you—a mongrel on display in the back of a seedy market, leered at and pawed over for coins. He shouldn’t want you. But he does.

And once he gets a taste, he’s hooked.

Now you’re living in the palace, forced into silk and collars, while Beomgyu follows you around like a lovesick mutt—clingy, possessive, begging you to let him breed you. To give him kittens. To love him.

10. High stakes

You’ve killed slayers before—young, cocky, predictable. So when they send another one after you, you’re more amused than worried.

Until you get him alone.

He’s sweet-faced and flirty, but under the charm is a sadistic little freak who stabs first and moans later. You leave him dazed and bleeding on your floor… and he still finds you the next night.

You try to feed. He kills your meal.

You try to run. He makes you beg.

You fuck. You feed. You both almost die.

And still, neither of you can stay away.

[ginnyw-potter]

Commenting etiquette

Yes, we do need to talk about it. And I'm not talking about the hateful comments, there are mean people everywhere. I'm talking about people who enjoy the fic but don't seem to get that across entirely.

I frequently hear other writers get so discouraged by unmindful comments and it's something I've experienced too.

And I absolutely do not want to get people scared to comment, because the majority of comments are good and wonderful, I just hope a few do's and don'ts help everyone along.

You do not know the writer and the writer doesn't know you Most of the time, you do not have any rapport going with the writer or very little, unless you are besties who are in each other's PMs. What that means

It is really difficult to guess people's tone and intentions from a few words in a comment box, especially if they're dubious. So don't make them dubious! It's so easy to say I like...., I enjoyed... Put it in there, please (more tips below)

You don't know what people are going through There can be about 700 reasons a writer doesn't update... maybe they don't feel like it, maybe life got in the way, sometimes people go an have babies, or their house burns down! The dreaded AO3 curse! So, be kind, always. You are getting free words. Writers do not owe you an update when you want, no matter what humongous cliff hanger they left you on

It's so easy to be misunderstood online.

"But I want an update!"

Yeah, I get it. you're excited! But asking for an update is hardly ever going to land well. What you can say instead of 'When do you update?' (or other, ruder, options and double question marks often come across as rude. leave them at home) is 'I am eagerly awaiting an update!' You're still letting them know you're filled with excitement for an update, but you're not demanding it. Important note: If you say this, please let it not be the only thing you write. Say a little more as to why. If you want an update, you surely know why.

... So how do you write a good comment?

(Obviously there are a lot of ways to write great comments, but here are a few pointers for people who get anxious leaving a comment.)

Say you are enjoying the fic or the chapter. it's so easy. This is the bare minimum if you comment, in my humble opinion I love this fic This chapter was amazing This fic lives in my head rent-free!

Point out things you liked or tell what the fic did with your emotions I really loved it when x went to x and confessed their love I was at the edge of my seat the whole time! Crying over this fic, it's so perfectly angsty

You can express sentiment about the further story, but do it well I can't wait to find out about x I will be wondering about x until next update I am so entranced, I am so excited to find out more about x When you update I'm going to be first in line to read!

Any other sentiments, a thank you note or the likes are nice, or leave more kudos by pasting in the more kudos images (it's so easy, and posts tend to have instructions) link here

Example of a good comment:

I love this fic so much I have literally not stopped reading until I was caught up When she was almost run over by the bus, my heart stopped and I was so relieved when she made it! I loved the bit where he helps her clean up the tea spill, so sweet and tender. I wonder how she's going to explain that tea stain to her evil stepmother.... Thank you so much for this update!

You can also install the floating AO3 box, and I love to use it to already comment on particular things I liked as I go so I don't forget, and it easily let's you copy-paste bits into the comment box so you can point out exactly what you liked about it.

A lot of people have started treating fics as something to consume and don't see the writer behind it, and it's so sad to see people recommend people to only read finished fics, that don't comment or only to ask when they are getting more words. (I know if you've read this far you're likely not one of those.)

And then they're surprised their favourite author stopped posting, when that author may think their fic isn't liked by you (because you never took the time to say) or they lose the enjoyment of posting because people just always simply demand more, more and more.

In summary, be kind to your writer. they're a whole person who is putting wonderful stories out for you for free. they likely have a day job or school to get to and a 100 worries you know nothing about. I'm not the comment police, I can't tell you what to comment but I just hope you take into consideration how your comment is going to be received by the writer on the other side.