#ftm thoughts

[ftm-guy27]

Someone liking and wanting me as much as I want them <3

many of my sexual fantasies and kinks boil down to ‘someone being really attracted to me and me not having to ask for affection, just be given it.” which could mean nothing.

[swankytigre]

I want a Little Caesar’s pizza and a flat chest. The chance of either are slim this evening

[bunbun34]

i want to eat my boyfriend out very badly 😩

[puppy2needy]

You know when bro starts whining and begging me to go faster so I have to slowly grind against his special spot with my tip and that causes bro to start sniffing with pleading tears in his pretty eyes, I wrap my arms around bro’s waist and hush him softly as I whisper in his ear, “shh.. it’s okay, bro…” To make sure he’s comfortable, I asked what his color is and he reply’s with a trembling, “y-yellow..” So I make sure to cover bro in kisses then once he stops crying he asks, “I’m okay now… Can you start moving?” I smile then press another kiss to his lips, I begin to pick up the pace again. All while bro is thanking me and after we’re done I clean the mess with a wipe and carry him to a warm bath and take care of him. Then when we’re in bed, while we’re cuddling he tickles me and I giggle and then we fall asleep in each other’s arms, lovesick and kind. Like, so real mate 🤗

[urween]

Watching Once Upon a Time and seing the Dark One on his knees is something else while i am in post-period horniness 🎀

[aromantic-fae-witch]

Hello! this pride month, I really want to get a binder! I think it will significantly help with my gender dysphoria. I'm low income and really can't afford any expenses other than food and rent right now.

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DM for my venmo if you're able to help!

even just a couple dollars adds up! thanks ����️‍⚧️❤️

And happy pride month!!

[savroon]

being young and transgender and in love is the deepest connection next to our bodies and the earth i believe

`both of you know that you are going to change on the outside . know that in ten years time there will be a completely different body and face and smell and eyes . but we are still drawn to each other regardless , no bound or gender or limit that can hold them back .

i sometimes wonder what it is that makes my love so unconditional . love doesn't have a look, but it is somehow in the corner of her mouth when she smiles . the way she holds me is not limited to any chromosome or genital . maybe i am tied to her soul and no, i dont want to have it any other way .

[xenite51]

Alright…today is Trans Day of Visibility. I’ve debated all day on whether to post anything because of the fear. I’ve seen so many of my trans family out there posting and putting themselves out there I’ve decided I shouldn’t live in fear and I shouldn’t give that example to others. I’m a 36yr old transgender man, here’s my story.

When I was a kid I thought I was a boy until I was told…and shown…that I wasn’t. I prayed every night that god would fix me and I’d wake up as a boy. Then puberty hit and my world crashed. I felt betrayed and lost all hope. I became highly suicidal, I started failing in school, I was like a drone just going through the motions. Still, I prayed and begged for god to intervene, and every morning I woke up hating what saw, what I felt. But I loved who I was inside.

Fast forward through high school and college because it was all the same. 2009 I saw this guys video https://youtu.be/VnOSkLhCqb4?si=IumNeTwatCDLV7L0 and was shocked. I didn’t know what “transgender” was or that this was even possible. I grew up pretty sheltered in an evangelical Christian home. I immediately dug into research, found a counselor and psychiatrist and started HRT.

It lasted about 6 months then I quit. My relationship with half my family was damaged, my girlfriend wasn’t supportive, I was out of money and dropped out of college. I decided, actually said out loud, fuck it I’ll just be what they want me to be. From the end of 2009 to 2016 I pretended to be cis (not trans) and straight. Those were the darkest years of my life. The only positive out of that time was that I got my amazing daughter out of it.

2016 and I’m yet again at a crossroads. The man I was with was cheating on me, doing drugs and emotionally abusive. I had enough and broke up with him. I put myself out into the dating world again and found my beautiful, amazing, supportive and loving wife. Early on she told me she accepted me, for me. She knew but I denied it. The end of 2017 rolls around and I finally had enough. I told her she was right, that I’m trans and needed to pursue this. Again I found a counselor, a psychiatrist and endocrinologist and started HRT March 28th 2018. June of 2019 I got top surgery. This year I hope to take the final step in my transition. Now 7 years later, here I am. Living my best life.

That’s all any of us want out of life. To be happy, do our best, and be our true selves. We aren’t out here to hurt anyone, or indoctrinate anyone (seriously I wouldn’t wish this on anyone). So please, educate yourself, talk to us, get to know us. You might find out we’re more alike than we are different.

*top left I was in high school, top right was some time in 2015, bottom left was 2019, bottom right today*

[b0y-wh0r3]

thinking about coming out to my parents, i’m having my hs graduation next year and I want to use my name

me thinks

[made-this-cause-why-not]

I feel like in honor of me finding and accepting my trans identity someone should write "Trans James Potter x Lily Evans". Like anything from him being a subby bitch to Lily making him scream. Please, I feel like the occasion deserves it

[swankytigre]

After being “ladied” several times despite not looking like a lady and attributing it to my gigantic chest size, I finally bought a few binders.

They arrived today so naturally I decided to actually take a lunch and drive home to put one on (added benefit of seeing @coelii and Sebastian since they’re painting today). Im not a super excitable person and it definitely takes a little time for things to grow on me, so it probably seemed like I was pretty indifferent about it upon walking out. Honestly I was just glad it fit since I don’t think I’ve EVER bought something a size medium to contain the melons (regardless of how thin/fat I was).

BUT I just went to the store and ran across the road from the work parking lot WITHOUT jiggling and holy shit that was pretty fucking rad.

[bunbun34]

🐰 sad ramble

why must the cute ones be so far away from me or in a relationship...

-🐰

[puppy2needy]

Anyone wanna wrestle or roughplay? but i definitelyyy won’t let you overpower me and pin me down easily. Or bite and push back against you :3

[urween]

Get to know me

you can call me Ew or Urween, or whatever you want

my pronouns are he/him, i'm transgender (ftm)

dm me if you want to know my age but i don't give it publicly

I'm a frenchie 🥖🍷 but i understand pretty well english (learning russian too)

fav movies : Split and Demolition

fav series : The Handmaid's Tale

colors : mainly shades of green but also of brown

fav mcu movies/series : CA:TWS, Daredevil (and born again), Black Widow, The Avengers

fav animal : crow 🪽🐦‍⬛

singers : Harry Styles, Hozier, Zayn, Bon Iver, Ex:Re, Billie Eilish, Lana Del Rey

i believe in a lot of esoterism subjects like astrology or spirits, etc. so my sign's pisces 𓆝 if you want to know

i have anxiety and i'm a high sensitive person (great combo)

random things i love : rain, gold combination with green or black, tea, cold coffee on the morning, poetry, psychology, strange stuffed animals, esoterism (practicing), freemasonry and kinda all the subjects around, fall and winter, alchemy, odd and forgotten themes like dead languages or symbols, malachite, pinterest, rusty lake, u.s capitol, art, myths, avocado, abstract ideas, obsidian

random things i hate/don't like : sunny days, summer/spring, strong smell or taste because i feel overwhelmed often thanks to my hypersensitivity, some texture for the same reasons, injustice, green beans, insects, physical contact without permissions, elektra

here's some of my fandoms/interests, plus infos if you're curious :

★ Marvel (inclunding x-men) -> honestly i've been a fan since i was able to talk. My dad initiated me into the mcu, we watched almost all the movies together. Thanks to that, Logan (wolverine) is a character special for me because he's the first i remember loving even if i was only 7. But, my fav one is Bucky Barnes ♡. Tbh, i have a huge amount of loved characters in this fandom, so here's a bit if you're interested : Yelena Belova, Kurt Wagner, Wanda Maximoff, Natasha Romanoff, Loki Laufeyson, Jessica Jones, Wade Wilson, Karen Page, Frank Castle, Matthew Murdock, Venom, Poindexter, Mysterio, Moon Knight, Erik Lehnsherr...

★ Jake Gyllenhaal -> is that even a fandom ? let's say it is. What can i say about him, expect that i spend long hours watching all his interviews, movies and photos. He is the first actor who made me discover ✨cinema✨, and this is one of the many reasons why i love him so much

★ The Lost Symbol -> well.. ik ik, nobody has ever heard of this show but i'm glad, it's my little secret comfort place (Mal'akh mostly)

★ Other actors -> Sebastian Stan, James McAvoy, Pedro Pascal, Tom Hiddleston, Elizabeth Olsen...

★ One Direction -> yeah i know sad era to be a 1d fan, but i'm still here 🤍

★ Split -> controversal ik, but i have a strong opinion on the subject of this movie and i promise i don't support misinformation or/and misrepresentation of mental health.

my pinterest and my letterboxd

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Credits : Pinterest for the images / @uzmacchiato for the hearts, daggers (thanks again) and @sweetmelodygraphics for the white lace

[pickle-the-lad]

I'm plotting!!

Next week: I'm going to start saving up for a name change!! I'm going to have to pick one of my middle names to go with, so I'm most likely going to be Dylan Edward Cougill.

And then I'm going to be spending 4 YEARS after that saving up for top surgery! I don't know the exact amount. All I know is that the surgery alone is going to be up to 6500, and my weekly allowance is $20 plus $2 every time I do a load of dishes. On average, I do two loads a day. So about $34 a week.

I highly doubt I'm going to get any financial aid, despite trying to get on disability for the past 2 years, and I don't feel like I meet the criteria for most charities. So this is my only shot to getting these things off my chest. The price will probably change but I got to try...

[jacksonssidehustle]

One of the very few things that worry me abt going on t is that i spent sooo long building my wardrobe

Only getting pieces with a good fit

Upcycling to my fit

Sewing my own clothes

I dont wanna outgrow them cuz im so lazy

But with growing, not just as a trans person, just in general, you grow out of things

And you grow into other things

Life is about change and as scary as it is, im trying to be better at accepting the constant state of change that is being alive