#half of them will probably be reminders to myself on how to use words lol
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martianbugsbunny · 1 year ago
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I had the benefit of a really strong liberal arts education bc I was homeschooled and that was really important to my mom, and I'm pretty aware that public education in that domain can be pretty lacking (which is a criticism of the system that doesn't teach writing skills the way it should, not of the people who go through the system), so I'm considering starting a series of posts for vocabulary/writing tips. just for fun, just in case there are people who might find it useful. not in a "writing can't be good unless it's perfect" way but in a "if you want help figuring out the right word to use in such-and-such situation or ways to structure things to make them flow better" way.
if you're interested, cool! and if there's a specific thing you struggle with and wouldn't mind an outside voice on, drop me an ask, both anons and otherwise are turned on w this blog, so whatever you're comfortable with, and I can either give you my best advice or throw it anybody else who knows
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hollowtakami · 1 year ago
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HOW THEY HUG YOU
CONTENT: self indulgent hcs on how my fav characters give hugs! just pure fluff, nothing more. giyuu and rengoku may be ooc because this is my first time writing for them and im still learning!
WORD COUNT: 771
AUTHOR NOTE: guess who can’t sleep again lol! i’ve been battling a pretty severe episode for a while now, and i’m trying to pick myself up again so i thought i’d write some fluffy hcs for my comfort ppl! remember that you’re loved, friend!
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SATORU GOJO - NECK HUGS
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Satoru hugs as though he’s never known personal space. It’s probably because of his infinity, and how he never lets anyone get close to him; so, he’s gonna be as close to you, any chance he gets.
He’s clingy, but not overbearing. He’d ring his arms around you and pull you into him. Holding you close and feeling you bury your face in the crook of his neck is his kryptonite, he loves it.
While he hugs you, Satoru would gently rub your back or run a hand through your hair. Or, if you just need to be held, he’ll understand. Satoru isn’t the best at communicating, but he’ll comfort you with gentle words as much as he can.
Depending on why he’s hugging you, Satoru’s hugs can be a little tight. If he’s happy, you’re gonna be seeing stars because of the lack of oxygen. If he’s a little low, it’s a lot more gentle, so much so that it startled you the first time he softly melted into you, arms snaking around your neck and pulling you in.
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KYOJURO RENGOKU - BEAR HUG
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Kyojuro’s hugs melt your heart faster than his flames ever could. He’s so gentle, wrapping his arms around you, one looped under your arm and the other around your shoulder as he pulled you in. His look of sympathy disappears as you fall into his chest, close to his heart as he sets yours ablaze.
Contrary to his extroverted nature, Kyojuro’s hugs are very gentle. He’s a hashira, he knows how to protect people and keep them safe. You half-expected to be squeezed to death by him, but was pleasantly surprised when you found yourself safely cooped up in his embrace.
When he hugs you, his hands instinctively move to your hair, the arm snaking around your shoulder gently moving as fingers run through your hair to soothe your woes. He’ll whisper affirmations and words of comfort to you, telling you that it’s more than okay to find yourself in a moment of vulnerability such as the ones you both share when you hug.
He’s the best hugger known to man and you cannot change my mind. He’s used to giving Senjuro lots of hugs, so he’s basically a trained professional.
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KEIGO TAKAMI - WAIST HUG
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Keigo loves hugging you and having you close, he’s rather protective of you and hates having you away from him. Sure, he could always send a feather to you, but that’s not close enough, even if his feathers are a part of him. If he could, he’d become one with you. After an isolating childhood, Keigo craved attention and closeness.
His arms snake around your waist, gently holding your sides as he pulls you close and wraps his wings around you, cocooning you in his warmth, the safety of his plumage. His feathers only add to the softness of the hug, their feel is great for grounding people should they need it.
When he hugs you, Keigo loves peppering you with kisses, seeing you smile and giggle in response, He loves seeing your soft, flushing face as he pecks at your cheeks and dotes on you. His favourite thing to do is give your forehead gentle kisses or caress your back with a feather or too, anything to make you feel more comfortable and safe.
He’ll whisper to you and remind you that you’re loved, that things will be okay. He’s good with words, since he interacts with his fans and other heroes a lot. Though, this doesn’t mean his words are empty, Keigo would move boulders for you. After all, with Japan’s no. 2 around, nothing would ever be able to hurt you, not when you were in his arms.
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GIYUU TOMIOKA - LOCK HUG
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Bless his heart, Giyuu isn’t the best at comforting people sometimes. But he tries for you, nonetheless. He’ll offer you his haori, heart melting when he sees you slide it over your shoulders before he locks your arms to your sides with a hug, His arms around yours as he pulls you into his chest with a worried expression; he’s either overthinking a little on how to help you more, or concerned for you. But, it’s definitely both.
His hugs are light as a feather, not much pressure at all. He doesn’t want to hurt you or make you uncomfortable, he’ll protect you no matter what. He’s proud of you, grateful that you felt comfortable enough to let your guard down in front of him, and he wants to repay you by giving you the best comfort he can muster.
When he hugs you, he’ll gently whisper to you, tell you that everything is alright, you’re safe with him. He’ll hear your soft replies, smiling to himself as he feels you nestle deep into the crook of his neck.
Giyuu’s hugs can be somewhat timid, but he’s trying his best! You’re healing together, and his hugs heal him more than recovery breathing ever could.
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debrisyume · 2 months ago
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Hey guys, I made the terrible mistake of getting into fnaf a while ago and now I care about the lore and have lots of Thoughts. I felt compelled to talk about my various theories/headcanons so here I am.
This ended up being entirely way too long, I split the post up into two but it’s still really really long I’m sorry that I cannot shut up. There’s just so much to go over and I wanted it all in one space just to be done with it. I’m mainly posting this for myself (new deltarune chapters are coming out soon and I want to focus all my brain energy on that when it’s time) so it’s okay if no one reads it, but if anyone tries I need to prepare you lol.
Gonna start off with saying that I believe that Cassidy is the Crying Child, as opposed to a separate character sharing Golden Freddy with him. I like 13n0th3r3’s posts on it here and here best, a lot of my points will be similar to theirs so I want to credit them (they’re also far more concise than me). I’ve spent a long time thinking about how it could work and this post is the result of that. I understand why other ideas are more popular, but there’s plenty of suspicious stuff going on with Cassidy/CC/Golden Freddy, and I wanted to make my own case for it even if it ends up being terribly wrong. Maybe parts of this will sound compelling or I’ll come across as crazy lol, I don’t mind.
CassidyVictim/GoldenVictim will be the focus of the first half, plus my take on the first victim and the nightmare experiments etc, while the second will be dedicated to TOYSNHK/fnaf world/stitchline. Be warned for spoilers on more recent fnaf content like the Into the Pit game and interactive novels. To make this more digestible I titled each topic I went over and added a word count, so people are free to skip ahead to anything they're interested in, if you're confused by something I said, maybe a previous section will provide more clarification. I hope this doesn't end up too confusing?
[FNAF 4/GoldenVictim] 6300+
Ok so in fnaf 4 you follow Cassidy throughout the week leading up to his birthday party. He has a suspicious Fredbear plush with glowing eyes that can talk to him, and he’s frequently bullied by his older brother, who is commonly believed to be Michael Afton. Another common theory is that the nightmares during the fnaf 4 gameplay are dreamed up by his brother instead of Cassidy himself. I actually think there was evidence for this even before the logbook showed us that Michael has been dreaming about Nightmare Fredbear. The bedroom is very different from Cassidy’s room in the minigames: different toys, a closet, missing plushies, etc. This can be chalked up to pixel art limitations, but it’s interesting just how inaccurate it is. Whether it’s Mike or Cass who’s the dreamer, it implies that the player isn't having these nightmares in real time like one might first assume.
The gameplay is identical to Fnaf 1, and you hear the first phone call from Phone Guy in the background as ambiance. Something I find noteworthy about this phone call is that he mentions the bite of 87. I think this stuck out in Michael’s mind, reminding him of how his brother died to the bite of 83, and this could have helped trigger his nightmares. You also have Easter eggs where a hospital IV, pill bottles, and flowers show up; if Cassidy was in a coma until he died it’s unlikely that he saw them, so they’re probably there because Michael did. Shout out to these two users who figured this out when the game first came out.
Going back on topic, there are a lot of conflicting theories on Psychic Friend Fredbear. The idea that he’s Charlotte is cute, but I think he’s a bit too mean to be her. He tells Cassidy how his brother hates him, and he encourages his fears surrounding the animatronics. I don’t think Charlotte would enable him like that, especially since she’d be aware it was a human who killed her, and the plush never brings attention to Purple Guy. He also looks evil af in the logbook lol, which I don’t think suits Charlie’s character. At the same time, he is comforting and assures Cassidy that he will be there for him. He will tell him to be careful and warn him about Michael hiding to scare him.
People often associate this plush with William, because it resides in his secret office by what seems to be a walkie talkie, and they share some lines with each other. Michael is told by his father to put his sister back together, just like how Fredplush tells Cassidy that he will put him back together. The Toy Chica cartoon has Toy Chica as a stand in for William while he commits his crimes, and at the end she says “Tomorrow is another day” just like Fredplush.
I don’t think this association between the two is wrong, but it’s not because I think the plush is literally William talking to his son. My main issue is that he seems… too into it? He keeps up the shtick even as his son is dying, saying how the plushies and himself are still his friends, which along with “I will put you back together” feels a bit unnatural to say to his dying son. That always felt pretty off to me. Notably this is a callback to Cassidy calling the plushies his friends on day 1, and there’s also how “I’m still here” seems to be a follow up to “I am here with you” on the first day as well. Despite the slightly different text color during this scene (which could easily be a mistake or doesn’t mean anything significant, such as a change in tone as opposed to person, like the difference is really subtle for being a separate character if that’s the intent), I think these lines indicate that the plush stays the same entity throughout the whole game. I’m open to the final speaker being William, but I prefer keeping the plushie consistent between nights.
The plush also seems to react to stuff that’s actually happening in the room, such as predicting Michael’s jumpscare, I don’t think William would be able to see that through a camera with a likely limited point of view (and it doesn’t make much sense to be Cassidy’s imagination either, since it has knowledge that he doesn’t). There’s also his various supernatural behavior such as teleporting around, being invisible to the other kids, etc. Claiming that it’s all just in Cassidy’s mind feels like a copout.
What I think is actually going on is that the plush is powered by Cassidy’s agony, his fear and distress over whatever he saw was powerful enough to bring his favorite toy to life. I don’t believe Fredplush is malevolent despite not being the most helpful, I think he just doesn’t know any better and sees the world the same way Cassidy sees it, as something dangerous. All he’s seen is Michael being mean to his brother, so it’s easy to believe that he hates him. As far as he knows Cassidy is completely right in believing the animatronics are out to get him, so why shouldn’t he warn him? He’s trying to protect him but is going about it the wrong way, so he only ends up enabling his paranoia. This is a Psychic Friend Fredbear stan account he’s just dumb ok.
I think Fredplush is similar to the Ella doll from the novel trilogy. Ella is powered by Henry’s agony, she came alive after Henry cried over it and projected his daughter onto her. Baby emphasizes that the doll was alive because of Henry’s “tears”, and there’s someone else we know that cries a lot… Fredplush is similar to William in that Cassidy projects his dad onto him, which is why they have similar lines and behavior (I think William would encourage Cassidy’s fears to make his son dependent on him). He can also be compared to Simon, Jake’s doll. Simon is how Jake’s dad talks with him while he’s at war, in order to keep his sickly son company. Simon at the end of the story is still talking to Jake after Evan (the dad) dies. This is overheard by Jake’s caretaker, and Jake goes onto to possess Simon. Before Jake possessed him, Simon came to life through some sort of emotional energy, likely love.
I think a very similar scene happens with Fredplush, William overheard Fredplush talk to Cassidy, tell him how he’ll be put back together, and this is what got him interested in the supernatural, as well as how he learned the phrase and used it for Elizabeth. A common thread between all three toys is that the person who brought them to life all thought they were already alive in some way: Cassidy considering the plushies his friends, Jake hearing Simon talk to him every day and considering him a fellow kid, and Henry being desperate to have his daughter back and pretending Ella is her.
This would be similar to the novels where William is very interested in the Ella doll and wants to study it. It’s actually his main motivation throughout the trilogy, to get his hands on that doll and understand what exactly is going on with it, so I think there being an equivalent to it in the games is logical. Another similarity can be made between Simon and Theodore, a bunny toy Henry made for his daughter. It has recordings of his voice to talk to her, telling her that he loves her. There is also some… weird connection between Charliebot and Theodore that isn’t properly explained, we just know that Charlie was able to send a message through Theodore somehow. This is made more clear in the graphic novel, but it’s implied to be the case in the original novel too (or at least, it’s the only thing that really explains the message):
“Shining Star, Silver Reef,” John said, but Jen didn’t react. “I have to say, this is a strange place to call home,” he said, though what he wanted to say was, You owe us an explanation.
“A message.” She looked at Theodore’s head, then looked accusingly over her shoulder, though all that was visible behind her was a dark hallway.
She’s looking accusingly at Charlie, I’m guessing Theodore has some of her emotions since he was a beloved toy of hers as a kid, and she had him close to her in her room while she was in emotional turmoil during The Twisted Ones, using him for parts. The only other thing I can think of is that their connection comes from being made by Henry, who made them while he was in the middle of grieving Charlotte, as Charlie has a similarly strange bond with her adult body, even sharing memories with her.
You could compare this to the ‘link’ the animatronics have with each other in the trilogy, this ‘link’ is how William is able to control the twisted animatronics as Springtrap. No matter how it works, this is yet another talking toy, spoken through by dad, with some supernatural connection to the child they belong to— I’d personally call that a pattern. And honestly I wonder if Fredplush only had recordings of William’s voice like Theodore did, which is why Cassidy believed he was alive. Theodore is even told that he’ll be put back together by Charlie, which is notable to me since it’s a loaded phrase we don’t hear very often. I’m pretty confident about Simon/Ella/Theodore being able to explain the Fredbear plush.
I also think Jake’s similarities with Charlotte are often overlooked by the fandom. While Jake had a brain tumor like how Cassidy died through a traumatic brain injury, the Simon doll is akin to both Fredplush and Theodore, and Jake is more similar in personality/role with Charlotte. They’re more put together than other spirits and help the others find peace, wanting to look after them (Jake not wanting to leave Andrew alone and Charlie being determined to help Golden Freddy). Specifically they help them by giving them happy memories, which is how Charlotte helps Golden Freddy find rest, by fixing Cassidy’s birthday party. Unlike Charlie & Jake, Cassidy/Golden Freddy is the one who’s often framed as needing help and guidance from others: happiest day, “help him find his way”, “I will put you back together”, “rest your own soul”, faded reminding Cassidy of his memories, Golden Freddy’s isolation, etc.
I also think Charlotte is the player in the other minigames so she’s giving all the children their cake (I mean, that’s already the Puppet’s function). What Jake controls in the Stitchwraith is the head of the Simon doll, and Charlie’s soul seems to mainly connect to the Puppet’s mask too, as Larson can hear whispers from it. The Puppet is described as ‘doll-like’ in You’re the Band as well. Heck, Jake going on to possess a doll based on him feels like another Charliebot similarity. I’m not necessarily trying to argue parallel theory here, but it’s very common for stories to link various characters together through having them share similar elements. I think Jake having stuff in common with both characters prevents him from being a perfect counterpart to either.
I also want to point out that the Charliebot twist was foreshadowed even in the first book, which was written during Fnaf 3 and 4’s development. Charlie is often compared to the robotic Ella toy, her first body (like being the same height as her as a child and having the same clothes), she has three closets, one of them being her ‘big girl closet’ for when she’s older, Aunt Jen takes her back to the old house to open that closet, her skin is always clammy and her expression never changes, etc.
There’s also talk of memories/emotions lingering behind. So it was likely that agony was an idea in Scott’s mind even back during fnaf 4, though I do want to point out that the general idea of a child making an imaginary friend real or some horrific spirit birthing from a traumatic event aren’t even tropes exclusive to FNAF. So I don’t think the idea should be dismissed because agony technically wasn’t a thing yet, a toy coming to life isn’t some rare story idea, just look at Banette from Pokémon, a plush that was made sentient through its anger over being abandoned. Emotions having power is another common feature in ghost stories, so I don’t think it’s something that can’t be relevant to fnaf 4 despite us only knowing more about it later, especially since Scott often uses future media to explain stuff from the past that we didn’t get.
I think Cassidy bringing his toy to life is what William is trying to replicate through the nightmare experiments. He wants to see another toy come alive through agony, probably to figure out how he can do it himself (likely for the Spring Bonnie suit or wanting more sentient animatronics in general). I think he misunderstands it as something he can use to live on in a separate body, as opposed to creating a separate entity entirely (though maybe this isn’t totally wrong as agony is a form of remnant in itself). That’s why the fnaf 4 gameplay bedroom has many toys with faces, even on inanimate objects. The toy telephone, the robot, the weird green caterpillar toy(?), the Freddy and Foxy plush.
These are easier to anthropomorphize than any other object. Kids are more likely be attached to them, and I think William is aware on some level that an object becoming haunted through emotions is achieved through some level of attachment. In Dittophobia, the book that explicitly tells us that William experimented on fear with children, Rory doesn’t seem to be aware of Freddy’s at all. He doesn’t recognize any of the characters. However, he does really like rabbits, and I think that’s why there’s no Freddy or Foxy plush in his room, but there is a random bunny toy by the closet. The experiments might have even worked and be responsible for Shadow Freddy and/or Shadow Bonnie’s existence.
I don’t think Cassidy went through the nightmares seen in Fnaf 4, but I do think he had seen something similar to them in order to inspire William. Nightmares about scary, sharp looking animatronics that can be fended off with a flashlight (probably just of Spring Bonnie and Fredbear). Faded even asks him about his dreams in the logbook. I think these dreams were brought on by whatever he saw, which I believe was a springlock accident. This can be misconstrued as the animatronic coming alive and eating the person in the suit, which would better explain why Michael makes fun of him IMO. If he saw Charlie’s or Lizzie’s deaths, then Michael would know that despite Cassidy getting the wrong idea about what happened, that someone still died and that would reasonably explain his trauma (it feels overly cruel to make fun of a kid crying over seeing someone die/a person’s corpse). But if Cassidy is talking about something as outlandish as the animatronics wanting to eat people, many would find that silly.
A springlock failure doesn’t require someone dying either, in fact there’s protocol for an employee to find an empty room to bleed out so they don’t disturb the customers, yet the minute someone actually dies from one they’re discontinued. “Try not to nudge or press against any of the springlocks inside the suit. Do not touch the springlocks at any time. Do not breathe on the springlocks, as moisture may loosen them, and cause them to break loose. In the case that the springlocks come loose while you are wearing the suit, please try to manoeuvrer away from populated areas before bleeding out, as not to ruin the customer experience.”
Phone Guy mentioning specific ways to set them off such as moisture or touch suggests that FE learned about this happening from experience. So there have been accidents where someone survived (probably from not all the springlocks going off at once, maybe it was regulated to the arm or leg), I think Cassidy was witness to one of these, and Michael didn’t take it too seriously because they didn’t die, heck it was probably very hushed up so he could have thought Cassidy was making it up.
Honestly I kinda want the person he saw go through a springlock accident to be William, as he survived one in the novels and has scars from that incident. Seeing his own dad nearly die would explain a lot about why it deeply affected him, and it’d be easier to cover up the incident if the person hurt was one of the owners who doesn’t want to shut the place down. It also adds a nice element of irony to Cassidy being so scared of his dad getting hurt in an springlock incident before, only for him to be the one that triggered the accident that turned William into Springtrap later.
However, there’s no real proof that William went through a prior springlock incident (plus the one in the novels was likely done by Henry in order to kill him after the MCI), and I think Michael might take his brother’s fears more seriously if he knew the source is from their dad’s accident, though maybe he was able to shrug it off better after William survived and didn’t take the situation seriously anymore. The idea is cool but it kinda doesn’t matter who was hurt beyond the fact that it happened at all.
One of the hints to solve fnaf 4 was “what’s seen in the shadows is easily misunderstood in the mind of a child”, and the only shadowy things we see are the backroom where a shadowy William helps someone put on a suit, and the shadows of the springlock suits, so Cassidy stumbling upon a springlock accident happening in that room makes a lot of sense to me. It ties into his fear of the springlock suits without the misunderstanding being so mundane that it’s anticlimactic. We know that the springlocks are dangerous, and his constant crying is rather concerning—it feels a bit strange if whatever he witnessed was completely innocent.
During the final minigame where Cassidy dies for good, I think this is where Cassidy comes to possess his Fredbear plush and haunt the other toys with his agony, who were present on his deathbed. He possessed the Fredbear plush because he has the most emotional attachment to it, and it might have had some metal to it if there was a walkie talkie/speaker or a camera inside of it—this would be similar to Jake going on to possess Simon. I think William kept the Fredbear plush and donated the other toys to the prize counter (not being aware that they were infected with agony), where Charlotte went on to use them during Give Gifts, Give Life.
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(One of the fake/real script pages posted on the official fnaf twitter as a teaser. In fnaf burning something is usually necessary to get rid of remnant)
It seems like the presents that the puppet gives away are the plushies nearby on the prize counter, so I think Cassidy’s haunted toys ended up being what Charlie gave to the MCI kids. She could have been following her programming, wanted to comfort the kids through giving them toys, or maybe a part of her knew there was something off with them and thought this could help Cassidy in some way. This caused a connection to be formed between Cassidy and the others, and after Charlie gave life to them, it caused Cassidy to become Golden Freddy. That’s why his jumpscare suddenly shows up after the last child gets their animatronic head. Cassidy calling the plushes his friends ends up being quite literal, the MCI kids are his “friends” now.
I don’t think the Golden Freddy we see is a suit but rather a pure ghost. The fifth child’s corpse shows up out of nowhere, and Charlie never interacts with it at all, which never made much sense to me. It implies that the corpse isn’t in the same room because otherwise she ends up completely ignoring it, which seems out of character, especially with the Puppet’s voice spelling out HELP THEM in the background—but Golden Freddy is the exception? This corpse is also missing in the fnaf 6 screenshot during happiest day, I think this meant to show that Golden Freddy wasn’t one of the children that Charlotte ‘carried in her arms’, but also that Golden Freddy is no longer the fifth missing kid in the MCI (also note how it’s during this image that Henry says it’s time for Charlotte and the kids she helped to rest, further excluding him from the group).
Similar to Jake only waking up after the Simon doll was put on the Stitchwraith, Cassidy only woke up as Goldie after Charlie gave life to the other kids by using his toys/remnant. Going by the angry jumpscare, he’s also quite upset about it.
I think the Candy Cadet story of the woman with the five keys and option to only save one child describes Charlotte during GGGL. She has the option to save one person, maybe bring a child back to life or help them move on, but she can’t pick one over the others, so she tries to save them all and ends up ‘trapping them’. If she didn’t stuff the children directly, I think she used Cassidy’s agony-infected toys to try to help them possess the suits. They would only be able to possess it if they died in the suit, that’s how it’s described in the novels (meanwhile in the games we’re always seeing corpses strewn about), but if they need Charlotte’s help in the games as GGGL indicates, then I think she had to use remnant in order to do so, with the plushies being put inside the suits.
I think this creates a nice character arc for her when she tries her best but ends up failing more than once (GGGL/HELPTHEM, SAVETHEM/You can’t), only to finally succeed in helping everyone move on during happiest day. Tbh I always leaned more towards PuppetStuff but I’m fine with WillStuff as long as Charlie is responsible for their possession, I think it’s more interesting if she makes mistakes before finally completing her goal in saving the others. I’ve also never been convinced much of any interpretation that doesn’t have to do with possession because of the phrasing of ‘Give Life’. This is a very different situation but in The Fourth Closet you also have Charlie ‘giving life’ through giving her adult body the Ella doll, which is similar to the plushie idea.
I think Charlie using Cassidy’s remnant to help the others possess their suits is also necessary to make the GGGL = Five keys parallel work. Golden Freddy is the only one Charlie doesn’t give a gift to, and if Cassidy was instead springlocked by William, then they were never ‘trapped’ by Charlie. They would just possess the suit on their own, even though the Candy Cadet story says five kids were doomed by what the young woman did, not four. But if Charlie gave the others Cassidy’s remnant, which also led to Cassidy himself turning into Golden Freddy, then the comparison fits better.
Golden Freddy is the most supernatural animatronic we’ve seen, he can teleport, fade from existence, transform into just a head, disappears in SAVETHEM when touched, his endo isn’t in the Help Wanted furnace when the other classics are there, and he doesn’t show up in HW at all, as if he’s not well known to the public. His head is straight up missing in the good ending of fnaf 3, and the logbook refers to him as a hallucination of a ‘strange animatronic’, implying he’s not real/physical. Ennard and Molten Freddy, who have a lot of remnant in them, can’t do any of this, Springtrap, another springlock suit, can’t do what Golden Freddy does either. The Stitchwraith, who is occasionally seen as a Golden Freddy parallel, also doesn’t work the same way he does.
He’s more similar to the phantoms and the shadows, who are often theorized to be agony beings, and I think Golden Freddy is more like an agony being than a possessed suit. In Fnaf 2 he looks broken down, but is suddenly fixed during Fnaf 1. This doesn’t make much sense when springlock suits are discontinued so they have no need to him to be around. Yenndo in Sister Location works identical to Golden Freddy during Custom Night, and appears suddenly during night 4 instead of Funtime Foxy.
I think Golden Freddy looks different based on the status of the other classic animatronics, he’s withered when the others are, he has a Funtime endoskeleton when the others are in the Funtimes, he’s a child ghost after the others get dismantled etc. Another point about his appearance just matching Freddy’s, he’s depicted with 4 fingers when Fredbear should have 5. Spring Bonnie has five fingers, and Dreadbear, a variant of Fredbear has five as well. Golden Freddy doesn’t have 5 because his design is based on Freddy, who isn’t a springlock suit.
Recently we learned that Golden Freddy in the movie was originally supposed to have someone in the suit to control him like the other animatronics, but this was shut down by Scott because “Golden Freddy doesn’t move”, this adds more to the idea that he’s just an apparition IMO. He’s not like the others because he’s not a possessed suit.
I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Golden Freddy, Fredplush, and the shadows have similar powers. Golden Freddy also has a lot of decapitated head imagery: his jumpscare in fnaf 2, the Fredplush’s head appearing on a flower, and the Fredbear jumpscare in UCN involving him biting you. Makes sense for a ghost who died through a head injury.
This connection between Cassidy and the MCI kids would also explain why they seem to be stuck in his memories in the happiest day minigames. The main party room in Fnaf 3 mirrors Fredbear’s Family Diner, and the other minigames relate to Cassidy’s experiences in Fnaf 4 as well, even going in the same order you’re supposed to do the minigames, but backwards. He sees the shadows of Fredbear and Spring Bonnie before meeting a boy with a Spring Bonnie doll (Glitch minigame), a girl spreading rumors about animatronics killing you (Stage 01), a girl with a Toy Chica doll (Chica’s Party World), a boy with a balloon (BB’s Air Adventure), and finally sees a broken Mangle toy in his sister’s room (Mangle’s quest to get the cake to give to the other kids). I think the stage 01 minigame with the child who goes missing is referencing the rumors Cassidy heard as opposed to being something that literally happened.
Fnaf world makes this connection even more clear by having a side quest where you set up the happiest day minigames/hints for the clock ending in order to save Cassidy. Notably, the only minigame you don’t make is the party one for all the kids (which I think is because it’s the most vivid memory he has after death). A popular theory that explains the MCI kids being stuck in Cassidy’s memories is shattervictim, the idea that a piece of him possesses all the animatronics. I think this theory is sorta right? What loses me is the method, I rarely see an explanation for how and why it happens, especially since Cassidy is the only character it happens to.
I didn’t like this theory for a long time because of the lack of any clear explanation. Cassidy walking to Freddy’s offscreen and somehow leaving his memories behind doesn’t cut it for me. It just felt very wishy-washy, I don’t think it’s that easy to leave a piece of yourself behind, I think it has to be tied to an important object. I use him haunting his toys and those being given to the MCI kids to explain it.
This ‘shattervictim + goldenvictim’ combo might be why getting the Golden Freddy poppet in Help Wanted 2 involves pouring five different flavors into one drink (four flavors coming from the soda machine and the fifth one from the sodaroni drink on your desk, making it stand out from the others). Connecting five different dead kids together creates Golden Freddy (the fifth one not being murdered by William Afton?). Perhaps this is why their ghosts stay behind even after the suits are destroyed while the Toys (if they’re possessed by the DCI) don’t seem to have any souls trapped in them after getting scrapped. Their bond with Cassidy prevents them from moving on until he’s ready to go too.
When I compare GGGL with Happiest Day they seem like parallels to me, the way nothing can be done to Golden Freddy until the end. Golden Freddy can’t come alive if the others aren’t possessing their animatronics, and he can’t move on if the others aren’t at peace too. I think it gets really messy if you have to add another kid in here. If Golden Freddy isn’t ’shattered’ himself, and rather just has a piece from CC, then I don’t really get why he can only receive a cake after everyone else had theirs. Under shattervictim he shouldn’t be treated as any more special than the others, yet he ends up being the center of happiest day. I believe this works better with CCassidy as Golden Freddy getting his ‘pieces’ back from the MCI kids, being ‘put back together’. The kids having his memories mixed in with their own, plus having their remnant taken away and used for the Toys & the Funtimes, might also be why they’re apparently less aware than Charlie, who never went through that.
Despite Golden Freddy being a ghost, I do think that Cassidy has some sort of connection to the Fredbear suit that bit him (possibly turning the purple accessories black as well), in fact I think this is why he’s ‘broken’. William in TFC tells us how “The spirit follows the flesh, it would seem, and also the pain”, the Fredbear suit could have chunks of Cassidy’s head and blood on it, as well as being something he directly cried on. There is a lot of “pain” tied to that suit; the fact that it’s responsible for his death should hold some significance to his spirit. And I know many will disagree but honestly the way this is phrased makes it seem like flesh and pain are separate ways for possession to take hold, pain referring to emotional pain and/or what caused the pain/death in the first place, that being the animatronic suits.
Cassidy’s spirit feels a connection to this suit and is compelled to possess it, but he’s having trouble because he’s also about to possess his plush, which already has his agony. That’s why he needs to be put back together, he’s being torn in two and has poor control over the suit as a result. This suit might be the yellow suit in the back during fnaf 2 if it’s not Spring Bonnie (and if Cassidy doesn’t have much control this would explain how William was able to use it unscathed, and why he decided to use a suit that was apparently haunted by a child he killed in the first place), I just don’t think it’s physically teleporting around or ever attacks us, Cassidy’s ghost follows wherever the MCI kids go.
William’s plan in the novels is… confusing but he’s trying to possess the amalgam by moving his flesh inside the animatronic piece by piece. He’s able to interact with the kids this way and seem familiar to them (despite them recognizing him as their killer before) as Spring Bonnie is present in their spiritual plane. And Afton is still mostly whole in the novels, so even a little bit of flesh can cause a connection, it looks like.
I think if the Fredbear plush was ever put inside the suit, this would allow Cassidy to fully possess it (similar to Charliebot) and able to attack/move normally like the other kids. But whenever we see Golden Freddy, the plush and suit are not together, hence the ghostly projections attacking us instead. I do wonder if William tried combining them together as an experiment, but it feels kinda useless since he’d had to take it out sometime before SL anyway. If I spitball for a minute, I'd guess the logic here is that William wanted Cassidy to lead the other kids and assume that as his son that he'd listen to whatever dad says, so this would let him have control over all the kids. But Cassidy is "broken" and can't even remember his dad well, so he took the plush out to work on "putting him back together", not knowing that he’s likely making it worse by having the two separate like that.
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Something that makes me consider this more is how Fredbear plush seems to be right next to a (notably non-possessed) Fredbear suit in Into the Pit. If you check the presents enough times it comes out and looks noticeably lighter than the Freddy plush in the prize machine, while also matching in color with the suit close to it. If you zoom in and compare to the other toys, its sclera seems to be black like Fredplush’s eyes while the others are blue/pink/purple. Not to mention how the Youtooz Into The Pit merch set has a Fredbear plush pin (which had me really excited at the idea that it’d be significant to the game as opposed to just an Easter egg lol).
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I think it mostly exists so that you can trade this for an important item if you missed out on something else earlier (that was me and I was worried that I got softlocked lol), but it is interesting how this possibly shows that the Fredbear plush isn’t always at the office. If I think about it, there’s nothing saying that the Fredbear plush can’t teleport around like in Fnaf 4, with William bringing it back to the office when he finds it (imagine how annoying this would be for him haha). Dittophobia never says the plush is present in the facility anywhere, either. I’m not completely certain it’s not just an Easter egg but it’s intriguing to me. With this idea in mind, having them so close together but still separate almost seems a little sad, Cassidy is this close to having a proper vessel like the others, as opposed to his consciousness being split apart.
I want to end this section with my take on the ‘why would the tiny toy chica be missing her beak’ question. This has stumped me for a long time because of how specific it is. It’s not calling out the similarities between the fnaf 4 minigames and the fnaf 3 minigames because Toy Chica isn’t missing her beak in that minigame, it could be hinting that Toys Girl possesses a version of Chica or that Toy Chica did the bite of 87, but how does that help us solve fnaf 4? This is one of the only hints Scott gave us yet it doesn’t actually tell us anything that important (and TWB implies withered Foxy did the bite anyway?). Dream theory explains this pretty well in a way that’s very relevant to the story, but I don’t think that was the intent for fnaf 4 at the time.
I couldn’t come up with anything that satisfied me until I saw Cosmo’s video about his own take on the fnaf 4 clues. He proposed that the Chica doll took off the beak on its own because it’s actually made by William in order to lure kids like the Funtimes. I don’t agree with the exact idea, but it made me consider that the Chica toy could move by itself and took off its beak instead of the girl breaking it, which made more sense to me if it’s actually haunted like Fredbear plush is.
That made the significance of this clue far more understandable to me, Scott was trying to hint towards the idea that a child can bring their toy to life, but ended up being too vague. Scott calling attention to this was supposed to make us think of Toy Chica, who was possessed and therefore not acting normal, doing it on her own in fnaf 2. This was supposed to mean that the toy worked the same way, instead of the girl breaking it herself. Maybe we were meant to believe she wouldn’t break them on purpose since she clearly likes her toy collection, telling Cassidy to admire it as if she hasn’t even noticed that the beak came off. She also seems older than a toddler who are more prone to accidentally damaging their stuff. We didn’t have much reason to think that the toy was haunted at the time with just this, but if this was Scott’s intent I can see the little details pointing to it.
Just like Cassidy, she brought her Chica doll to life, and just like Cassidy, she copies her toy in death. As Golden Freddy Cassidy will teleport, turn into a head, and have black eyes with white pupils just like his Fredbear plush. As Toy Chica this girl will take off her beak just like her own Chica doll did. I think she’s a prototype version of Susie, given the design similarities and connection to Chica. She has short blondish hair that can grow out in a couple of years, a pink shirt like Susie’s pink dress, and a red bow in her hair like Susie too (I believe in ToysMCI or the very least the MCI kids having influence over the Toys). In a very roundabout way, this was supposed to hint towards both goldenvictim and agonyplush.
[The fifth child] 5200+
How does the MCI work if William’s younger son is Golden Freddy? The original newspapers during fnaf 1 tells us that two kids were caught on camera being lured to the backrooms on June 26th, and this led to the arrest of the man who did it the following day. Later on, we hear about five kids total being linked to this incident, and that their bodies were never found.
What I take from this is that the two kids who were caught on camera were killed last, and the other three were kids who were already reported missing, but weren’t known to be victims of the same perpetrator until the police investigated more. If they were all lured on the same day, it’s strange how they were only aware of two kids being gone at first (to the point of making an entire newspaper about it, talk about jumping the gun), as if they only ever had camera footage of those two being tricked and figured out the rest with other means. This leaves room for CC to be Golden Freddy, as it’s possible that the fifth kid was either wrongly associated with this incident, or just wasn’t stuffed into an animatronic like the others. I usually go with the latter, I think this child was kidnapped by William for the nightmare experiments.
The secret office with the observation cameras in Sister Location was supposed to reveal to us that William was experimenting with children, by giving them nightmares similar to Fnaf 4. I think the Funtimes were originally built to kidnap kids for these experiments as opposed to murdering them to farm remnant. In the novels, Elizabeth seemingly dies before the MCI and as Circus Baby, she kidnaps children for her father with her stomach claw. None of those children die after she grabs them or are even injured, so Elizabeth’s death seems to have been a genuine accident on William’s part. Circus Baby would have only been recently made so I can see there still being kinks to work out/some sort of malfunction happened.
We hear about how there was a springlock suit meant for Circus Baby Pizza World (which is different from the rental service, it was open for one day because Lizzie died), but springlocks were discontinued before the MCI even happened, so this puts Lizzie’s death before the MCI. We are also told that the rental service opened after the closure of a successful Freddy’s, I think this was the 1985 Freddy’s location after the MCI occurred. The article talking about the gas leaks that closed down Pizza World tells us that the rental service will be open soon, so Pizza World was open before the MCI and the rental service was open after Freddy’s shut down.
I think another possible date that helps us put a timeline to this is the 1, 5, 7, 8 numbers that Circus Baby repeats in random order. These come back in fnaf AR so they seem to still hold some significance. I think this is either Lizzie’s birth date or death date. Death date makes more sense to me as it would also be important to the Circus Baby AI as it’s when she killed Elizabeth. For 1985 we have either 1/7/85 or 7/1/85, so January 7th, 1985 or July 1st 1985. I think the first one makes more sense as Lizzie’s death date, which gives William enough time to set up the rental service and the bunker after June 1985.
This is all important because I think William wanted to kidnap kids for the nightmare experiments around the same time he did the MCI. Because his Funtime kidnap plan fell through, he still needed to get a subject, so I think he kidnapped a child from Freddy’s. Similar to Dittophobia, he only kept track of this child for a short amount of time (Rory’s notes stop a month after his 7th birthday, the same age he was kidnapped at) but instead of keeping this child for ten years, I think he killed them. William often kidnaps kids then kills them: The Silver Eyes trilogy where Charlie is kidnapped from Fredbear’s Family Diner, the movie where Garrett is kidnapped then killed, arguably Dittophobia (Rory’s memory is completely fucked, I think William lied about him willingly running away), and Toy Chica the high school years, where Toy Chica knocks someone out then shoves him in the back of her car, which sounds like this child wasn’t killed at Freddy’s, but taken from there.
Toy Chica even describes how she will manipulate the child into thinking that she saved him from a kidnapper, this can be compared to William convincing Rory into thinking the bunker is a safe haven for him. I think the cameras during 1985 probably worked similar to the ones in Fnaf 1, where the guard will only see something happen if they’re looking at the camera at the right moment. That’s how it was missed that William lured two other kids to the backroom and took a third kid to his car.
This part will be more speculative, but I think this child could go on to possess Balloon Boy (I’m not joking). I think the toys aren’t possessed by the DCI but rather the MCI. It works similar to the Funtimes where they have their remnant from the withereds being used for parts for the toys. ‘Something borrowed, something new’ was one of the teasers for Fnaf 2 that I think hinted at this idea. Even without remnant specifically existing, it’s not a stretch to imagine a robot will become haunted or behave erratically from being given parts from another possessed robot.
The problem comes from Balloon Boy, as he seems to be designed very differently from the others, he doesn’t even look like he has an endoskeleton, so he might not have been given any withered parts. He’s also conspicuously absent during SAVETHEM even though literally every other animatronic can be found there, even Golden Freddy. So is it even possible he’s possessed by a DCI kid?
I think it’s likely he was made prior to 1987 like the puppet, and that it was even William who made him, as Balloon Boy heavily resembles the doll-like figures in the SL bunker. He might have even resided in the bunker first before being used for the fnaf 2 location. I think overtime William grew frustrated with the lack of progress with the nightmare experiments and decided to just make the kid possess Balloon Boy, explaining his haunted behavior such as disabling your flashlight and getting the others to kill you by calling them over. He can’t kill you himself but he’s certainly going to try his best.
If I’m going to be honest I want this kid to be Sammy because of the scene in The Twisted Ones where Charlie mistakes a Balloon Boy for her brother lol.
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Hello? A voice called again. She put her hands on her head, forcing it back, and looked up to see several children standing around her, all with plump little bodies and broad smiling faces. Sammy? She moved toward them instinctively. They were blurred, and she couldn’t see their features. She blinked, but her vision didn’t clear. Don’t trust your senses. Something is wrong.
It would also match Charlie’s own possession where neither were stuffed and just died near an animatronic. William could have an easier time kidnapping Sammy because Sammy would be familiar with him and likely to trust him, since he’s friends with his dad. Sammy doesn’t die in the novel trilogy, but Charlie also isn’t an android in the games. I think it’d be kinda weird for Sammy to not exist because Henry was introduced having twins, it’d be like if Elizabeth was novels exclusive and William didn’t have a daughter in the games even though he appeared in a book first having just her. I’m not dying on this hill, I just think it would fit pretty well and it would give a name and identity to the fifth victim. This would also be rather fitting with JJ looking like a twin of BB, perhaps she’s a hallucination projected by Balloon Boy, based on vague memories of his sister.
Into the Pit might help my case here as BB is the protag in two separate minigames involving the dead kids (he’s even the ‘fifth child’ paired with four other kids in one of them), and there's a Balloon Boy figure on either Henry or William's desk, which could mean he was around even in 1985.
Another option is Andrew, especially if he’s still TOYSNHK in the games. Whoever TOYSNHK is, seems to be familiar with the nightmare experiments (the bedroom is even the last ‘office’ you can unlock, which might mean it’s supposed to be important), so Andrew might work if he’s still TOYSNHK. I do like the idea of CC pushing the fifth child out of the Golden Freddy role only for the fifth to come back later as TOYSNHK, even if GoldenTOYSNHK seems to be the clear intention (my thoughts on the VS are, complicated but that’s for the next post). There’s also how he says “story of my life” when Jake tells him that they’re in the back of a truck, though it’s specifically one filled with garbage. That could be a reference to Andrew being knocked out and taken to William’s car, but it can also be a reference to him being treated like trash or something. Again, I like giving the fifth victim a name, so I’m open to the fifth victim being either of them. Maybe it’s even Michael Brooks who was Golden Freddy in the novels IDK.
I think it’s also possible that they were made to possess Funtime Freddy once William was done with them. Funtime Freddy already lives in the bunker and we see the shape of a child inside the stomach tank in his blueprints, similar to Circus Baby. We don’t know if the Funtimes got to kill/kidnap anyone during any party they were rented out to, so if that didn’t happen than Funtime Freddy never got to use his stomach claw, unless he killed the experiment victim. If there’s a spirit inside Funtime Freddy that’s more ‘whole’ than the others, having a similar awareness to Elizabeth (being fully possessed as opposed to relying solely on remnant from other sources), then that could explain why they were able to kick Elizabeth out of ennard (the last line in particular ‘say goodbye to our friend!’ sounds like something from FT Freddy as well), and why Molten Freddy is clearly controlled/led by Funtime Freddy of all animatronics.
It personally always weirded me out how they kick Baby out specifically for being bossy, but then let Funtime Freddy be in charge with no input from the others. I think that makes more sense if he has a spirit of his own that has more awareness. There’s also how ennard uses ‘we’ and ‘us’ while arguing with Baby, but starts using ‘I’ and ‘me’ as Molten Freddy, as if only one soul is calling the shots. The fifth child possessing another Freddy would also make for a good parallel to Cassidy, especially with FT Freddy & Bonbon being similar to Cassy & Psychic Friend Fredbear.
They could also possess the Cupcake instead, perhaps by being stuffed alongside Susie in Chica. The Cupcake in the movie acts like they’re possessed, even being the one who killed William, which sorta fits if the fifth child/Cupcake in the games is TOYSNHK still. The Week Before implies this further with how it will kill someone even when far away from the pizzeria (and therefore far from Chica too) and how it even runs/hops away from her at one point, which hints at a sentience separate from her. I know it being possessed by Susie's dog is a popular idea, but I struggle to figure out how that could have happened. In the novels her parents are aware it was hit by a car, so they likely found its corpse on the road, meaning William couldn't have gotten his hands on it. Though maybe it's different in the games I guess I dunno.
Another possibility for the fifth child is that Elizabeth was associated with the MCI as a child who went missing recently. William would have to cover up her death as he can’t let anyone know that his animatronic killed her, her known circumstances could be vague enough to make people think she was one of the kids killed by the same serial killer. This would sorta make sense with how she gets paired with the MCI under MoltenMCI, the idea that the MCI’s remnant is in Molten Freddy/ennard. Personally I prefer the experiment victim theory (kidnap5th?) but this would leave fewer loose ends as we wouldn’t know much about the experiment victim despite them being the fifth child. I also prefer the idea that William lied and made it out like Lizzie was killed in a springlock accident instead, being the same one we heard about in fnaf 3 that discontinued the springlocks, as it fits very well with it happening in a ‘sister location’.
This even goes well with the gravestones in Fnaf world, 6 altogether, with one off the side. And this was in the same update that teased Circus Baby/Sister Location coming soon. The seventh dead child should be Elizabeth, the new kid we’re about to meet. The six are the four MCI victims, CCassidy, and Charlotte (or Elizabeth is one of the six gravestones while Cassidy is off to the side as it wasn’t directly his dad’s fault that he died, while Baby was one of his own machines, it doesn’t matter). CC is likely involved because this is right after Fnaf 4 where we see him die, and Fnaf world’s secret lore relevant quest is about putting him back together. So I believe he should be one of the graves. But if both CC and Elizabeth are included, that leaves no room for the fifth missing child, unless it’s just Elizabeth.
The last possibility for the fifth victim is Charlotte, I don’t think this is completely implausible? It would certainly fit with how often she’s associated with them, but there’s a few issues with it. First of all it’s very likely that she died two years before them, so her being linked to the incident is a bit strange, though it’s possible that after someone was caught they looked into past incidents at Freddy’s and thought it made sense for this serial killer to have also targeted her since they’re using Freddy locations to find their victims. Another problem is that her death seems to be public, as her corpse wasn’t hidden.
Maybe she hid her corpse after waking up as the Puppet, as some sort of childish notion that her dad would be upset to see it, or an employee found it first and Fazbear Entertainment decided to cover it up, as they’re inclined to sweep everything under the rug. I think this would also make a lot of sense if she died after Cassidy, so the company didn’t want to be associated with another death so soon, or she was the first death and they didn’t want anyone to know about her corpse at all.
“Three children are now linked to the incident” doesn’t have to mean anything recent, after all in the novels it’s implied that the MCI lasted months (“As we all know, Michael was not the only child lost during those terrible few months.”), and it’s very common for serial killers to go years without hurting anyone, which the police could wonder about once they find out about missing kids at Freddy’s, whether it’s this guy’s first time kidnapping/killing kids or not. However, there isn’t really any indications of this outside of Charlie constantly being associated with the MCI. I suppose you could take Henry describing Charlotte’s death as a ‘wound first inflicted’ on him to mean that his child also went missing like the others. We don’t really know anything about how Charlotte’s death was perceived by the public, not even if William was suspected for it. In the novels it was covered up to the point no one knew she was taken instead of her brother.
There’s also the Fazbear Entertainment policy around dead bodies we hear in fnaf 1, being that any corpse found is explicitly covered up and a missing person report is made within 90 days. “Fazbear Entertainment is not responsible for damage to property or person. Upon discovering that damage or death has occurred, a missing person report will be filed within 90 days, or as soon property and premises have been thoroughly cleaned and bleached, and the carpets have been replaced.” However I always figured that was made in reaction to the MCI in 1985, because of the animatronics killing most of the security guards. The kill count would be too high for the restaurant to stay open. In this case they’d have to always been really damn shady as opposed to slowly growing more corrupt as more murders happen and they didn’t want to close.
I mean ig the springlock suits were always a thing and those had rules that were very dismissive of employees’ safety (make sure not to bother the customers and bleed out where no one can see!). I suppose this could also explain how they didn’t have the right victim count for the MCI at first, the other three kids going missing was covered up by FE until the last two were caught on camera and brought to the attention of a reporter.
It’s also possible that Cassidy and Charlotte’s deaths were the start of their downfall into prioritizing the company’s reputation over human lives. Pigtail Girl even jokes about the employees hiding your body if the animatronics kill you, though I think that’s just a rumor, it does end up being accurate in the future (I know people often read that as the animatronics stuffing people, but notice how she says ‘they hide your body and never tell anyone’, the animatronics don’t talk lol, and presumably the people hiding the bodies are also the same ones not talking about it, given how she words it). But honestly idk. I do like it because of how much Charlie is considered an honorary member of the MCI though.
In fnaf 6 we also have Henry talking about Follow Me, where he claims that William lured ‘them all back’ to the safe room again. This phrasing is interesting to me because we never actually see the Golden Freddy kid lured away by William, and if Henry knew about this by investigating the old pizzeria and finding the animatronic parts on the floor, then he would see that only four animatronics were lured by William. Henry doesn’t seem concerned about the missing fifth child at all, which makes me think that he already has them accounted for. He’s aware that the fifth victim mentioned in the newspaper is either his daughter being associated with the incident, William covering up Elizabeth’s death, or that the fifth victim was kidnapped and experimented on. If he doesn’t, then he should be worried about how to find them or mention that they’re missing. It also implies that he thinks only four children were lured to the safe room.
The only other thing I can think of for the fifth victim is that the fnaf 1 newspapers are about the DCI instead, where we have another set of five murdered children. There is a really interesting post on this that theorizes that Cassidy is the sixth DCI victim, where William uses the Fredbear suit to kill five kids and then stuff Cassidy into the suit he used (which is similar to the novels Golden Freddy who was killed first by William in a Fredbear suit then stuffed inside of it). I particularly like the idea that the Fnaf 2 location used to be Fredbear Family’s diner and that’s why the Fredbear suit is there. I don’t agree with everything in that theory but I really like the new take on how the MCI/DCI work. They bring up a lot of interesting points I already agree with.
Something else that could add to Golden Freddy not being an MCI kid is the Help Wanted 2 gravestones. Let’s ignore the order for a second and look at how the kids are numbered.
Chica/Susie—0
Foxy/Fritz—1
Freddy/Gabriel—2
Bonnie/Jeremy—3
Golden Freddy/Cassidy—4
Puppet/Charlotte—5
We have six children/animatronics, but it only counts up to five. Idk what to make of Susie being zero, but I wonder if this could be alluding to only five of these kids being killed by William, with the one exception being his dead son. Maybe it would work better if Golden Freddy himself was zero, but I think the idea still works even like this, because the important part is not who is zero, but that they only make up a total of five.
My take on how they’re numbered is that it’s the order they found peace. In fnaf 3 you have to give the kids the cake in this order: Susie, Fritz, Jeremy, Cassidy, with Gabriel’s cake being given at any time you want, so you can put him in between Fritz and Jeremy like in the gravestones.
I like this idea since it fits with how the gravestones work. An effigy is made of the ghost children, with them wearing the happiest day masks, and you light the gravestones like you’re lighting a candle, the entire process reminds me of someone trying to help spirits find peace or wanting to honor them. Another possibility is that it’s just a hierarchy thing: Chica is a part of the band unlike Foxy, Freddy and Bonnie are often paired together with Freddy being the leader, Golden Freddy and Puppet are the most mysterious animatronics and have many similarities, in this game they’re both the secret allies of the Voltron parody version of the animatronics. I think either works as opposed to a strict death order.
I’m not totally opposed to Charlotte dying last, I think it would make a lot of sense with the Puppet being recontextualized as a security robot in fnaf 6, especially with what looks like wanted posters in the alleyway. There are certain details that don’t really make it fit for me, but that’ll be for later when I go over the death order in more detail.
Going back to the experiments, there’s something pretty disturbing about them besides the obvious. In Dittophobia Rory describes the Afton family house but is familiar with it like it’s his own home. His mom picked out the wallpaper, his grandma made the quilt, that’s his dad’s chair, etc. He starts to question his memory later on, and we’re left wondering just what from his memories he actually got right. Did his grandma make the quilt for his real bed, or was it something Cassidy’s own grandma did for him?
In the observation maps in SL, we see one for Fredbear’s Family Diner and the Fnaf 4 gameplay house and how they’re connected. Is this the original diner, or some sort of recreation of it? Did William put the experiment victim through the bite in order to kill them (or maybe they got clawed by Funtime Freddy as an equivalent)? Is he trying to make the kid think they’re part of the Afton family, like what Glitchtrap might be doing to Vanessa and Gregory? Heck, this is supposed to be a pizzaplex story and Rory even sounds similar to Gregory.
This idea that William tried to brainwash the experiment victim is why I like the idea of this kid being Sammy, because it feels oddly fitting for William to try to replace Henry in Sammy’s mind as a way to screw with both. One problem that could be present with Sammy being the fifth victim is why Henry never mentions him. In the novels, Henry was so fixated on Charlie’s death that he forgot about his son, so something similar could have happened here (poor kid lol), but I do think there’s other explanations for this. He might be aware that Sammy has already moved on (if he possessed Balloon Boy) or knows he’s in Molten Freddy (if he possessed Funtime Freddy).
We know Henry had to visit the bunker in order to get that blueprint for the scooper, he could have also read out notes about what William did to Sammy, which might include the animatronic he possessed. Balloon Boy’s parts are in the fnaf 3 location which gets burned down, so that should have freed him according to what Henry knows about remnant. Funtime Freddy was a part of Molten Freddy who he already had a plan for. Another option is that he just doesn’t know that his son possessed anything. It’d be rather ironic for him to be so focused on Charlotte that he never figured out that Sammy is still around in diet Ennard.
I mean he also doesn’t mention CC, which either implies he’s unaware of his continued presence or doesn’t care as much. We literally see him around in the logbook right after this (not to mention The Week Before) so just because Henry doesn’t say anything about it doesn’t mean it suddenly can’t be true. I don’t think he was ever meant to be an absolutely reliable narrator, he has his own biases and limited info to work with (I will die on the hill that Shadow Freddy isn’t working for William)
Since Fredplush is present in the bunker and I theorize that Cassidy possesses it, I also think Cassidy is likely aware of the nightmare experiments (and maybe the plush absorbed agony from the victim(s)?). Coming Home, Alone Together, and the movie shows us that spirits are free to walk around wherever, being tied to a suit or having their corpse somewhere else doesn’t mean they’re stuck in a specific area 24/7. There’s an interesting detail where Susie is noted to be picked up by Chica at 12 am, and we also learn in the first game that the animatronics are only trying to kill people from midnight until 6am, where they can’t get to the guard anymore. William in The Silver Eyes says that the children ‘wake up’ at night as well. What I take from this is that the children are free to do whatever during the day, visit their families or just hang out at the pizza place, and when midnight strikes they suddenly take control of the suits.
This is sorta how I explain the discrepancy with fnaf 3’s follow me and the MCI’s remnant being in the Funtimes, the children are forced to go into the Funtimes when the classic suits are destroyed, because that’s their only tie left to the living world. The toys are scrapped by that point and don’t make for viable bodies. Cassidy probably works a bit different where he’s drawn towards wherever the MCI are at after midnight strikes to become Golden Freddy. This might even explain for why Fredplush doesn’t do anything to Mike, Cassidy is already in ennard or is manifesting as Yenndo (and considering how rare it is to see Golden Freddy in general, this kind of thing could just be difficult for him). I will also point out that while Golden Freddy teleports around, when you actually do see him he’s usually very still in a sitting position, just like the unmoving plush.
There can be an argument here for the plushie not being possessed, but black eyes with white pupils is typically supposed to indicate possession. Not just once, but twice now has Sanshee released a Psychic Friend Fredbear plush that calls him the “Possessed Fredbear Plush”, the more recent one being paired with a non-possessed Fredbear plush without the dark eyes, so there is supposed to be something strange going on with Fredplush. (the card also implies that he’s TOYSNHK which is really funny to me, love the image of this cuddly toy wanting to fuck William up. Though I wonder where the idea came from, the leading theories on Fredplush are that he’s William or Charlie, not TOYSNHK. I consider the possessed toy title more trustworthy than the card itself but it is interesting— wait, I just realized that ‘he’s here and always watching’ perfectly applies to the plush in fnaf 4… huh).
I know that merch isn’t supposed to be the most reliable for lore, but it’s just interesting to me how it’s been called possessed more than once (which would be rather misleading by this point), and it makes enough sense with how possession works that Cassidy is haunting his favorite toy. I’m open to the idea of the plushie in SL being a recreation, so the original could be anywhere, but I don’t really agree with it. The idea of William altering the plush to look possessed is a little odd to me, and we don’t see it being used in Dittophobia (though I suppose it could be for the neighborhood/diner experiments instead?).
I think the nightmares are a mix of Michael’s trauma over his brother’s death, his experience working at fnaf 1, and Cassidy haunting him and giving him the nightmares, whether intentionally or not (I also have a bit of a fringe theory that the ghosts of the MCI kids could be inside the dreams as the nightmare animatronics through Cassidy’s urging but it’s not something I feel strongly about). Dittophobia is paired with another story where we learn that being haunted by a ghost will give you strange dreams. I don’t think either of the Afton boys need to directly experience the nightmare experiments for Fnaf 4 to happen, I think Michael is too old for the age William usually targets for his victims, and it doesn’t make sense to me for William to be putting Cassidy through the fear experiments when at best, only Charlie has been dead by then. And even then I don’t see how Charlotte’s possession of the Marionette would inspire him to make the gas chambers.
I think it makes more sense for him to be inspired directly by Fredplush. The passcode for the cameras is 1983, presumably after the year Cassidy died. The passcode being for the year the experiments started would make it too easy to figure out, a date special to William feels more right to me. I also want to say that I think William can just milk Cassidy’s death in order to make Michael listen to him, that’s such a great way to guilt trip him that I don’t think the experiments are necessary to make him subservient.
Notably the animatronics look very different to Rory than in fnaf 4, they’re described as zombie-like and decomposing, as if they have flesh. I doubt William’s nightmare gas has the mannequins look the same to everyone, it’s probably just based on what they personally find scary. There’s also no mention of Nightmare or Nightmare Fredbear, and only four animatronic dots on the breaker room map, which implies that they’re exclusive to Michael and are probably more ghostly in nature. Cassidy made the animatronics in Mike’s dream look the same as his past nightmares about the springlock suits.
[First victim] 4000+
I guess I should go over who died first between Charlotte and Cassidy. I want to make it clear I think either is perfectly possible, but I do lean more towards Cassidy for various reasons. But first I want to talk something more fun, I like to think they were really good friends when alive. Charlie is protective while Cassidy is timid, she might have even developed her protectiveness from looking after him. They both seem to be outcasts, with Cassidy only having toys for friends and Charlie being bullied by the other kids at the party. Their fathers were friends and worked together at Fredbear’s, so at the very least they should be somewhat familiar with each other.
I also find it sweet how it’s Charlotte who gives the Golden Freddy kid his cake during happiest day. That minigame is clearly a recreation of Cassidy’s last birthday alive, so she’s either giving the cake directly to him or someone who’s taking his place. I’ve thought a lot about their possible friendship and I just think it’s very cute, a lot of little details just line up well. I also think it adds more to the story if William’s first victim is not only his partner’s daughter but his son’s best friend.
I’m going to go over the evidence for why both make sense as early deaths. The springlocks are still in use during Fnaf 4, and they were supposed to be discontinued before the MCI happened, as it was a springlock failure that discontinued them and William moved the suit after this was put into place, hinting that he used it for the MCI. This puts Cassidy’s death before the MCI. He also canonically died in 1983, Scott made it clear in a comment on one of matpat’s theories that the copyright 1983 was also meant to be the current year of the game, and since then we’ve gotten more direct references to the bite like in The Week Before or the ITP game.
William also uses his death date as a passcode for the nightmare experiment cameras, telling us that the year is important to him in some way, and also that they were made after the year 1983 had passed already. I’m not really convinced on the frights books being in the game continuity, but both they and the novels have 1985 as the MCI date, so I think it’s fair to assume that’s the same for the games.
Charlie also dies in 1983 in the novels, and Help Wanted 2 chose to have the puppet poppet be found if you use the 1983 code. Some think that it doesn’t mean anything because it was the original code, but I think it’s significant that they deliberately associated Charlie with the 1983 code. Between this and the novels, again I think it’s fair to assume she died in that same year. The Puppet poppet also seems to ‘replace’ Fredplush in the office, which I think is interesting given Fredplush’s association with Ella and such, but that’s more of a fun detail than anything important. For whatever reason this level is also called the puppet master. The animatronics present in this level are Ballora, the minireenas, and the bidybabs, so I think it could be referring to Ballora as the ‘leader’ here? She’s the Puppet’s mom lmao?
Henry also talked about a wound first inflicted on him, most say this is talking about Charlotte being the first victim of William, meaning he’s the first one who suffered the loss of a child because of him, which I can agree with. Though this phrase is so flowery I guess it can be taken to mean the MCI affecting his business. I think it makes more sense with how he says he let it “bleed out to cause all this”. He was so struck by grief over Charlotte that he never stopped William from committing more murders and making killer robots. Some also take this as confirmation that she died before Cassidy, but I don’t think that has to be the case. He’s clearly talking about children directly murdered by Afton, which Cassidy doesn’t qualify as.
What I find the most compelling is Charlie being responsible for the MCI’s possession, it just makes things far more cleaner for this to work if she died beforehand. If you think that she stuffed the bodies, she either has to die before them or on the same night it happened, so that she can find their bodies before the employees do. I think Charlotte fits better as a more experienced ghost vs GGGL being one of her first actions as the Puppet. Charlotte’s death also gives William an earlier example of animatronic possession. I like William witnessing multiple examples of supernatural phenomena (the plush, the Puppet, Circus Baby) to explain his interest/knowledge of it. Charlotte and/or Elizabeth’s deaths might have even recontextualized the plush’s ghostly nature for him, now wondering if his son is in the plush (or even the suit).
I can see why people might think she died afterwards. The Puppet is suddenly a security robot in fnaf 6, which has certain implications. This, as well as the posters in the alleyway, seem to imply that a murder has already happened, with those being wanted posters. I’m not saying this isn’t true for sure, but I find the evidence for Charlie dying earlier more convincing. And it’s honestly one of those theories that are hard for me to work with/explain if it’s not true.
The problem with Charlie dying afterward is how we’re constantly told the MCI happened in 1985 while Charlotte died in 1983. If MCI83 is true, that creates a very short timeline of events, at best Cassidy died a few months beforehand, so we need Freddy’s to be open and possibly Elizabeth’s death to happen during that timeframe too. It feels like a bit much at once for almost all of the major deaths to take place in the same year. Though admittedly this is mostly based on vibes than anything else, I think things just fit better if Charlie died before them and the MCI still happens in 1985. Maybe future games will prove me wrong, which is fine, but I’d have to get used to Charlie not being the first victim lol.
So I think I made it clear that both Cassidy and Charlie are some of the first deaths, but why do I think Charlie died a little later? Well I think the main thing that convinces me of it is the Puppet, or lack thereof. The Puppet is a very significant character to the story, yet he isn’t present at all in the Fnaf 4 minigames. No animatronic, no toys, no posters, no cartoon appearance, and no parts in the back room. This is very strange if he already exists at this point. Even if the Puppet was temporarily discontinued because he needed repairs, surely he’d show up in the marketing somehow? Someone having a Puppet plush, a picture of him somewhere? Heck, even toys of the fnaf 2 animatronics are here, yet there’s no Puppet?
We see the Puppet being damaged in Fnaf 6, but I’m more interested in why Scott decided to exclude the Puppet from the game during Fnaf 4’s development. I honestly don’t think there’s a good reason for why he isn’t around unless he wasn’t even created yet, which would automatically mean that Charlotte died after the bite. If he did need repairs and fnaf 4 takes place before he was fixed, then there should arguably be rumors of a child dying, some indication that the Puppet exists, and the neighborhood kids should understand Cassidy’s fear. That’s a very significant thing to just leave out, especially if Charlie’s death is the reason why Cassidy is so upset.
Foxy still has merch despite being out of order, and we know Glamrock Bonnie used to be in the band despite him being decommissioned. Animatronics don’t just completely disappear from the pizzeria because they’re not active anymore, there’s always hints that they were a thing. At the very least, I don’t think the Puppet kid dying before Cassidy was the intent when Fnaf 4 was first made. But maybe Scott changed his mind about this later idk.
There are other details too, such as how the Puppet is never associated with the Fredbear diner animatronics, and rather the Freddy gang. The Fallfest poster, Charlie’s connection with the MCI, SAVEHIM Freddy being the same brown as GGGL Freddy who’s different in color from the noticeably yellow Golden Freddy in SAVETHEM. I really think the Puppet was solely a Freddy animatronic. He doesn’t fit in with the springlock suits, he’d be the only “normal” animatronic. There’s no posters that have the Puppet with the Fredbear animatronics or have him associated with the diner at all. William has to drive away after he killed Charlie (in most MM theories), but his house is in walking distance when his son is alive.
But wait, doesn’t Charlie die at Fredbear’s Family Diner in the novels? Well, there’s no strong evidence that she or Sammy were meant to be the Puppet all the way back in The Silver Eyes when that was established. The only thing going for it is that both the Puppet and Sammy were unaccounted for. Except then the Puppet never shows up, it was always intended for Charlie to have died instead, and the Puppet was likely still a male child back then, since fnaf 4 is much closer to fnaf 2’s date than FFPS’s date. It’s not impossible that Charlotte was meant to be the Puppet since The Silver Eyes came out, but at the moment it’s very difficult to figure out when Scott planned for that retcon.
There are also barely any similarities between SAVEHIM/Security Puppet and Charlie’s death in the novels. In the novels, she was playing in a closet with her twin during a Halloween party, when William as Spring Bonnie suddenly came in and took her away, eventually killing her. In SAVEHIM, beta Charlie was outside crying when William suddenly showed up in his car and killed him. In Security Puppet, Charlie is locked out in the rain when William drove up and killed her. William in both minigames was not wearing his suit, and Charlotte was never inside the restaurant.
It’s also very unlikely that Charlie in the games died as young as Charlie in the novels. Charlie was dead at age 3 in the novels, this was necessary to explain her gaps of memory as a robot, as many people do not have good memories of their toddler years. She’d have less reason to question things and Henry wouldn’t have as much work to do if she was only three years old. It also gives her a deeper sense of vulnerability as she wasn’t able to do anything but cry as Sammy was supposedly taken away. If she was older, she could have tried to fight back or immediately run to tell someone what happened.
Her knowing Sammy as being kidnapped is an important detail as well, as William’s wham line in the second book “I didn’t take him, I took you.” would make FAR less sense if it was instead “I didn’t kill him, I killed you.” Not that it makes much sense in the first place without knowing the robot twist, but it’s even more nonsensical for the twins to be switched if one was certainly dead. At least you can sorta believe Charlie repressed being kidnapped by William until the reveal (her having a shoddy memory of her childhood is noted quite often). This is all necessary for the story of Charliebot, which doesn’t exist in the games as her own character.
In the games she is supposed to look after the other children as their leader and protector. This doesn’t work if she died as young as she did in the novels, especially when Henry describes her as having a protective nature. There’s also her voice in UCN, sounding like a young girl, but not like a toddler (apparently she was even voiced by a 10 year old, which is very different in terms of development compared to 3 years). She speaks clearly and coherently, which puts her at an older age. Ghosts are not shown to really grow up after death, the dead kids in the novel trilogy and in frights haven’t really matured despite their years of death, so that argument doesn’t work for me either. Some toddlers can develop faster than others, but Charlie in the novels is clearly more average and not particularly more mature than others her age. She only screams after Sammy is taken and is described as having babbled with him.
I don’t think she’s like, as old as Michael or anything lol. I put her more as 6-9, while Cassidy is 7-10 and Lizzie is 5-7 at time of death. None of these are that backed up by anything it’s more just vibes. Charlie has to be old enough to make sense as a more mature child, Cassidy has to be old enough for his crying to be seen as pathetic instead of understandable for a younger kid, and Lizzie just makes sense to me as the youngest Afton.
I like to think that when Cassidy died, she wasn’t at a good age to process death which is why Circus Baby makes her more excited than nervous, which would make more sense if she was only barely aware of how her brother died. It’s a distant memory, she might not have even been told what happened if she wasn’t there. The movie also has Abby not really knowing much about Garrett and having a significant age gap between them, his death didn’t personally affect her. Her voice also makes her sound like she’s 5 imo, the way she sometimes slurs her words together. If you take the 1, 5, 7, 8 as her birthdate, a possible birth year for her is 1978, which would put her at five years old during 1983.
Something else we know about Charlotte’s death date in the novels is that she died on Halloween. If this is true for the games, then that would also put her after Cassidy’s death, as his birthday is clearly during summer or spring break. But maybe it’s hypocritical to point out all the differences between Charlie’s death(s) and suddenly take the exact date as canon. Though I think that’s more harmless and can easily be applicable to the games, and if we’re taking the year as canon we can also take the month. There is another thing about it that makes me think she died later. At first, in The Silver Eyes ‘Sammy’ was noted to have died during the year 1982, but then this was retconned into being 1983.
This is honestly very unnecessary unless it was for a specific purpose, that being to leave room for Cassidy to die before Charlie. I will also point out that the rare screens in the alleyways of FFPS have many Halloween themed posters, which could be hinting that her death date is the same as in the books. I actually think Charlotte’s kidnapping and the bite of 83 were initially meant to be parallel events that closed down Fredbear’s Family Diner before Scott decided to make Charlotte and Henry canon to the games. Fnaf 4 had source code hints that went from 1987 to 1982 and finally 1983. I think it’s possible it was meant to be the bite of 82 at first before Scott changed it for whatever reason. My only guess would be to have a ten year gap between the bite and fnaf 1. I don’t really like the 1993 date for fnaf 1, but it is a popular take and TSE has Charlie coming back to town ten years after the MCI.
(I also personally think the 1987 stuff was a complete troll and not the original intent during development, nothing about how the bite works in Fnaf 4 matches with what we know about the bite of 87. Scott also completed the game much faster than he originally planned for, and there’s only so much time to make the Fredbear Family Diner pixel art. The 1987 references reminds me of Scott baiting the idea that fnaf 2 was a sequel if anything)
There are some stronger points to Charlie dying at Fredbear’s. First there’s the PizzaBear minigame at the beginning of FFPS that’s a deliberate callback to SAVEHIM, with PizzaBear looking like Fredbear (albeit with a black hat but it’s still very yellow for a Freddy) and having a shadowy clone ‘birth’ from him. Shadow Freddy is specifically a withered Golden Freddy (granted the Shadow Freddy in this minigame is gray instead of purple but). Then there’s Charlie dying in an alleyway that looks pretty similar to the FFPS alleyway, and Rockstar Freddy having purple accessories like Fredbear does. While it’s not confirmed that the FFPS location is the original Fredbear’s, it would make a lot of sense thematically for Henry to choose that location for his trap. PizzaBear being Fredbear also links Charlie to the diner. I personally think she did die at the same location as the diner, but it was rebranded as Freddy’s after the bite, and then closed for good after her death. Here’s a good post on it. I feel like it’s a nice narrative for the owners’ kids to die in the same building.
I also think there’s a bigger purpose to the Puppet not existing in fnaf 4, that being that he was made for Cassidy, either in his honor after death or something for his birthday. He looks oddly similar to the Puppet: the dark color scheme, the tears, the stripes, and the plushies. The Puppet gives plushies away, being surrounded by them in the prize counter, and Cassidy also clings to his own toys. He might have “given life” to his plushies just like how the Puppet “gave life” to the animatronics. His pose as he’s dying is very similar to the crying Shadow Puppet in Fnaf 3, who shows up as a large figure in Mangle’s Quest, mirroring Cassidy crying in front of a broken Mangle toy (that puts itself back together during the minigame, interestingly enough).
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There’s also the clock connection, the Puppet ‘sleeps’ when the grandfather clock song is playing. Not only does Cassidy have a grandfather clock in his house, but clocks are what you need to find to ‘put him back together’ in fnaf world. Another possible similarity is the various Nightmarionne plushies around the pizzaplex, giving the impression that Gregory is being stalked, it’s oddly similar to how Fredplush works.
This was used as evidence in the past that he was meant to possess the Puppet at some point, before it was changed to be Charlie. After all, this is pretty similar to Elizabeth looking like Circus Baby, who was ‘made just for her’. I don’t think this is quite what it means, I have two different takeaways from this. The first is that Cassidy has a connection to the kid who possesses the Puppet, beta Charlie, and the second is that the Puppet was inspired by him in some way in-universe. Happiest day clearly involves Cassidy’s memories, with the goal of it being to fix Cassidy’s party by having the Puppet involved. This adds to the idea that Cassidy and Charlotte are friends imo, his party doesn't ‘go wrong’ when she's an active participant.
It’s never actually been confirmed that Henry made it, Afton could have created it instead, or maybe both worked on it together. The puppet is not only a security robot but a birthday animatronic made to give out gifts (his favorite plushies) and cake. We see this in the logbook with the happiest day coupon and a prompt asking you to make a new birthday animatronic with a picture of the Puppet on it. There could have been any number of reasons why Henry and/or Afton made it: sentimental reasons/to honor him, to keep Charlie company after losing her friend (Henry kinda does this in the novels, he gives her many robotic toys as companions, presumably to make up for being separated from Sammy), or even as a vessel for Cassidy to possess (yeah). If Afton wants to learn how to live forever as an animatronic, he needs to experiment and figure out how that’s possible, and Cassidy’s ghost is the best subject he’s got for a while.
I think it fits as he’s an oddly humanoid animatronic and has some similarities to the Funtimes, with the clown/jester/mime aesthetic. The minireenas in particularly look nearly identical. Heck there’s even a version of the Puppet that looks like Afton made it, with the Funtime faceplates. If that one was made by Afton, the original one could be as well—it’s even a Puppet Afton made that gives us the memory of Charlotte’s death. The SL office in UCN has the Security Puppet there too, further connecting it to the Funtimes (let’s just ignore Eggbaby lol).
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I would also like to point out that the Puppet doesn’t exist in the novels, and this is the same trilogy where Cassidy has no importance to the Aftons or Henry's family (I’d say he doesn’t exist but there’s a boy in the MCI with a black-and-white striped shirt that cries a bit that I’ve been squinting at it…). The Puppet being a part of the restaurant points to it not being solely for Charlotte either. Charlie’s robotic toys in the novels reside only in her house, she’s rather protective of them, and none of them are characters part of the Fazbear brand unless it’s an alternate timeline from the novels, like Ella going from being a Charliebot to an alarm clock toy in frights.
If the Puppet was at Freddy’s, then she’d be forced to share it with the other kids. While this doesn’t mean it wasn’t meant for Charlie in some way, the purpose of it can’t just be Charlie’s protector, otherwise he shouldn’t be considered a Freddy’s animatronic, he’d just be Charlotte’s caretaker. The different colored bracelets and phrasing of ‘assigned child’ also implies that the Puppet can be assigned to other children. The idea of making a whole security robot just for one child sounds like a great way to piss off many parents, heck maybe that’s why the other kids were bullying Charlie, they were jealous.
Also if my theory that Sammy possesses Balloon Boy/Funtime Freddy is true, then there’s some nice irony going on here. Henry made the classics, which hold the souls of the MCI. William made the Puppet and Balloon Boy/Funtime Freddy, which hold the souls of Henry’s children. Idk it’s like symmetry lol.
I think the most reasonable idea I have is that the Puppet was supposed to debut on Cassidy’s birthday as a sort of gift, being the one to give him cake/a present like in the logbook happiest day coupon. I mean, he literally lives in a present box haha. Cassidy would have the “special honor” of being the first child the Puppet meets, perhaps also being the only one who gets a gift from him at the diner, since the Puppet seems designed for Freddy’s and would have been moved there after this. But since the prank happened before the Puppet could be set up, he never got to meet him, and it was quickly altered to have the security programming instead (maybe as a way to save face after Cassidy’s death— I can see William making it for his son’s birthday while Henry turns it into a security robot), before going back to being an animatronic dedicated to presents and cake.
This would grant more significance to Charlie/Puppet being the one to give him cake during the happiest day minigame, that’s what was supposed to happen originally. I also think it explains the randomness of the Puppet getting rid of the security features if that wasn’t even his original purpose. Like it feels kinda backwards for it to originally be a security robot only to lose that in favor of birthday stuff, doesn’t it look better for FE to keep something to protect kids around? Unless it was the security features that was the add on, and that didn’t even work out for them since a child died again, so why bother anymore?
[Nightmare Dreadbear/The Week Before] 3200+
For this section I want to go over more evidence that CC is involved in Golden Freddy. First there's Nightmare Fredbear’s voicelines from UCN. Something interesting about a few of them is how they reference Fredplush's lines.
Let me put you back together, so I can take you apart all over again / I will put you back together
We know who our friends are, and you are not one of them / We are still your friends, do you still believe that?
Him firmly declaring that William isn’t a friend matches well with the Golden Freddy kid in the movie being the only one who isn’t under William’s thrall (as confirmed in an interview where the actor explains that Golden Freddy was using Mike to get back at William). He has another line about “pulling you apart”, and the emphasis on this might be significant. The rest is just him talking about he’s no longer part of a dream/illusion (though it does make me think of Golden Freddy being more of a ghostly figure).
I find the callbacks to Fredplush’s lines intriguing, it’s like whoever is behind these voicelines has heard them before and is deliberately twisting them—perhaps the second line in particular is also a response to William’s “Because I am one of them” in TSE, as an explanation for why the kids won’t hurt him (especially since the ‘we’ is probably referring to Cassidy and the MCI kids, like how the ‘we’ from Fredplush is referring to himself and the other toys). Something even more interesting is how they show up in the background of the Curse of Dreadbear DLC. A DLC that is filled with Fnaf 4 references, having the Fnaf 4 house and animatronics, a new variant on Foxy (Grimm Foxy even resembles the Halloween versions of the nightmares) and Fredbear. Dreadbear even has a gapping torso like Nightmare Fredbear, just without the teeth, and his clawed hands resembled the claws of the Nightmare animatronics as well.
The minigame where you have to put a brain in Dreadbear feels very notable to me, it seems to imply that William was experimenting with Cassidy’s soul or corpse. If you fail the game you hear a flatline like at the end of Fnaf 4. Dreadbear used to be called FrankenFreddy, but even without that it’s clear that he’s based on Frankenstein, which is a story about a mad scientist taking pieces from other corpses to create artificial life. Frankenstein’s creator is often seen a failed father figure too, he didn’t provide any guidance and immediately rejected him when he wasn’t what he expected.
I wonder if this can be compared to William attempting to bring his son back to life and/or making him possess an animatronic. Maybe Nightmare Fredbear’s lines about “taking/pulling you apart” has to do with what William did to his son? Fsr the ultimate guide keeps mentioning this idea that someone put Cassidy’s soul inside of an animatronic. It’s brought up in both the Fredplush and Curse of Dreadbear sections. I mentioned before that William could have put the possessed Fredbear plush inside the suit and taken it out because Cassidy didn’t recognize him, this would arguably connect his soul pieces together, but taking the plush out would ‘tear it apart’ again. William removing the plush would also mean Cassidy loses out on having an animatronic body to walk in, and have to stay as a small plush toy. This all could have deeply upset him, explaining the harsh tone the voicelines have. Whatever William did to put Cassidy back together, he really didn’t like it.
The Toy Chica highschool cutscenes has Toy Chica take a piece of her victim’s body with her after she kills them. Could her trophies be symbolizing remnant? Chica has some obsessive interest in finding the perfect boy (which is an interesting way to frame how William chooses his victims, maybe implying he’s looking for something specific but the kids all fall short), maybe a way to do that would be to combine the parts she got from them into one being? Did William try to combine the children’s remnant together to create a new version of Cassidy?
That’s probably a big leap, but I think it makes sense if the cutscenes are giving us more info than him just killing people (whoa William is a murderer I didn’t know that). As many of her luring methods are quite ridiculous and don’t seem applicable to what he actually did (FLAF killed any theory that isn’t AftonMM so we can’t even use the part where she breaks a window to argue that’s about her luring a child from their house, and yes I’m bitter about it). The body parts Chica take also fit well together: two hands (a hook from Foxy and a paw from Twisted Wolf), two ears (from pigpatch and Toy Bonnie), an eye (a yellow eye from Funtime Foxy, Golden Freddy is often depicted with a single eye too), a top hat (from Freddy), and a face (from the Puppet).
Maybe it has to do with Golden Freddy’s creation and how it relates to shattervictim, like William having a hand in mixing up the MCI’s remnant with CCassidy’s (for what it’s worth, there’s a part in the keys story where the woman is directed by the person who kidnapped them all to choose one kid to save). Toy Chica quoting one of Fredplush’s iconic lines just kinda makes me wonder if this cartoon has anything to do with CC.
I also want to give my take on the seventh victim here. We never see Toy Chica kill the first victim, she just mentions him at the start, and he’s symbolized with a foxy hook. I think it makes sense if that’s for Cassidy, who was accidentally killed by his brother, who obviously has an association with Foxy (and William has some responsibility for his death since if he looked after his kids better the bite never would have happened). The next one in line is Freddy, who Charlotte has been connected with through Lefty and SAVEHIM, and then there’s Susie with her dog. But notably Toy Chica talks about running his dog over, not that he’s secretly alive. This to me shows that these luring methods aren’t completely one-to-one. The rest of the MCI follow, and I think the last victim would be whoever William kidnapped for the experiments.
Also in the logbook we have Faded asking Cassidy DO YOU MISS THEM? on the same page of a prompt that says: If you were to die in a grisly work accident, for instance being stuffed inside an animatronic suit, who are the people you would miss the most? Which directly implies that Cassidy has people to miss because he’s in an animatronic suit, enough said lol.
Other evidence that Cassidy is in Golden Freddy shows up in The Week Before. This book heavily suggests a connection between the two. Ralph dials 1983 on a phone, which plays out the bite happening, he still hears crying after he ends the call, and then gets bitten like Cassidy did, CRUNCH. The book cuts off before it says Golden Freddy did it, but I think it’s safe to assume it was Golden Freddy since Fredbear was the one who killed Cassidy. I’ve also seen it compared to the Fnaf 2 minigames that end with an animatronic jumpscaring you, like the Puppet after you see his death.
It also shows that Cassidy is just as violent as the other spirits, which makes sense to me since I never figured why he should be an exception to the rule. He talks about being scared in the logbook, but William calls the kids ‘vengeful, confused, and frightened’ in The Silver Eyes. We see Susie as a sweet girl and she still kills people as Chica (also Cassidy never does anything particularly kind when he’s alive anyway, being shy/timid/sensitive doesn’t automatically mean you’re nice).
There’s another scene where the book seems to be vague about Golden Freddy killing you: you can throw Mr. Cupcake in the vent to draw Chica away, but he gets bitten by a mysterious animatronic. This is described as scaring off both Mr. Cupcake and Chica, and when you look inside, you see glowing white eyes before he bites you. I think this is also likely Golden Freddy, which seems to put an emphasis between him and bites.
The book isn’t usually this vague about who causes your death, they’re named most of the time or you read about some ‘blue colored blob’ or a hook killing you, something like that. The animatronics also tend to get along or work together in the book, biting Mr. Cupcake is very mean and seems OOC for the others, unless we’re talking about Golden Freddy who’s typically a loner and cut off from the other kids in some way. Glowing white eyes are Golden Freddy’s signature too, so between this scene and the bite of 83 remake I think Cassidy is likely involved with Golden Freddy. It’s possible that it was one of the shadows instead, but they aren’t relevant/present in fnaf 1 and the kids don’t seem to be scared of them either. They follow Shadow Freddy with no fuss and Shadow Bonnie has been seen helping the children. It’s totally possible that it was one of them though, they both have glowing white eyes as well, I just lean more towards Golden Freddy.
Ever since the book came out I’ve seen a bit of a resurgence in GoldenDuo, but I didn’t notice any new evidence of two spirits in Golden Freddy. If anything, the fact that only CC is referenced makes it feel like he’s the only child possessing it. There’s one scene where he kills Ralph that people seem to believe confirms multiple spirits, but after reading the whole thing and finally understanding who “Bronwen Light” is I’m more certain that’s not the case.
With the limited info from spoilers I thought Bronwen Light was similar to Kelsey, some sort of fake person/projection, but having the full context I think what’s actually going on is much different. She’s a junior reporter who wants to reveal what’s going on with Freddy’s, but was rejected by her editor. She was interviewed by Ralph before the story but wasn’t hired. She finds out that the animatronics are planning to escape and hurt other people, and breaks in to stop them, but gets caught by Bonnie and later killed the same night, shoved into a Freddy suit. She leaves a recording for Ralph where she explains all this, and implores him to stop them from leaving in order to protect everyone.
What was weird about her was how she seemed to know too much, referring to Bonnie as Jeremy at first and knowing Coppelia’s name (mentioning her to Ralph so he can be concerned for her safety), so it came across like she’s a ghost or a projection from the one of the kids, but I think this can all be explained.
Bronwen did a lot of research, so I think that’s how she came across the names of the MCI and of Coppelia— before she broke in she actually tried calling Ralph at home, and if she can find his home phone number I think she can find the name of his daughter. Her knowing Bonnie is Jeremy specifically is more odd, but there’s a scene in the book that explains this. Ralph needs to stop Chica from attacking him and tries singing happy birthday to her, and a name pops in his head as as he does this: Susie, I think something similar happened to Bronwen with Jeremy, the name just popped in her head when she was attacked by him earlier.
In the phone recording where she gave all this information, she dies at the end, and I think her ghost is still around, because she talks to Ralph as Golden Freddy kills him. There’s an ‘angry onslaught of noise’ and then a woman’s voice says “It's me. Thank you... You did it. She'll be all right now. She's safe. She's safe..." This is almost certainly Bronwen to me, not Cassidy the little girl. It’s described as a woman’s voice, not a child. Cassidy shouldn’t really care about Coppelia, but Bronwen does.
"I've held on as long as I can, but I can't make it any longer." She laughs, bitterly.
"So this is my last night, too. Don't worry about trying to save me. It's too late. Just worry about saving your daughter. Save everyone else. Please, Ralph.” (From her voicemail) there was also a garbled ‘it’s me’ from her at the end of the recording, something that’s said by all of the animatronics in this book, not just Golden Freddy.
She thanks him because he listened to her and sabotaged the animatronics from escaping. Another option would be Ralph hallucinating all of this which would also make sense with how Golden Freddy works (he’s literally getting brain damage atm lmao), but it being Cassidy doesn’t work at all for me. Why would they comfort him when they don’t show any signs of trying to stop hurting him, even if it wouldn’t work and he died anyway? Comforting him implies some regret in killing him, yet they just continue?
Not to mention just how brutally he kills him, that doesn’t really track with how she reassures him. I guess you could argue GoldenDuo with this, CC doing the attacking and the fifth child trying to comfort Ralph, but shouldn't the fifth child have more control than CC? One was bitten and left a piece behind, the other was stuffed and more fully possessed the suit? And if Goldie is an apparition instead, I think that should mean only one kid is there anyway.
I guess another option is that Cassidy was mimicking Bronwen the whole time to trick Ralph, but that doesn’t mean Cassidy is a girl? Bronwen isn’t a made up persona, she has an actual corpse, name tag, and met Ralph before—Cassidy would have to use her voice whether they’re a girl or not. But I also kinda don’t see the point of Bronwen being Cassidy tricking Ralph, she DID actually come to Freddy’s and die (which is pretty strange unless she did believe they were going to break out, now that I think about it), she’s the only significant adult woman in the story, so I don’t see why it can’t be her real voice and ghost.
She even tells Ralph to call her mom, so she’ll know what happened to her and possibly get her writings about FE’s wrongdoings out into the world. If Golden Freddy is just screwing with Ralph, why bother saying this? How does he know Bronwen has a mother or that she researched so much about Fazbear Entertainment? Why would he care? If Goldie is trying to help Ralph and wants Bronwen’s mother to know what happened to her daughter, why does he kill him later, preventing him from doing so?
Her knowing that the animatronics want to the leave is the only suspicious part to me that can’t be easily explained, but letting Ralph know that isn’t going to help anything? They could just kill him or let him leave without having to worry about that, if anything it puts them at a disadvantage, especially when he starts messing with their charge later. The only purpose of this would be to mess with him more, like they want to bait him back inside to get another opportunity to kill him, which I can kinda see because Golden Freddy seems very hostile, to the point the others are scared of him (Chica is literally described as backing away from whoever hurt Mr. Cupcake). This would make Cassidy a pretty spiteful spirit though, not someone who cares about Ralph.
Tbh if anyone is pretending to be Bronwen Light to comfort Ralph I could see Charlotte since the phone Ralph gets from her spells out SAVETHEM at one point. A second ghost separate from the Golden Freddy suit comforting Ralph makes more sense to me because they wouldn’t be able to stop Cassidy from killing Ralph. The narrative of Brownen being a ghost kid who’s trying to stop the others from hurting people makes more sense with the Puppet than Golden Freddy too, like why is Goldie killing Ralph after he did exactly what he wanted lol. I think it’s possible there’s some ghost fuckery going on since Bronwen Light apparently sent the message the same day Ralph finds her decaying corpse, but that could be the phone acting finicky— Ralph listens to old recordings and haunted messages from the ghosts the whole book, I can see it just being delayed.
It’s also possible that she was just a ghost during the whole message and was pretending not to be dead, that was actually my first assumption when I first read it until the call ended with her being interrupted by a ghost child and dying. I can see it being either way. I think the second playthrough of the book might actually be Ralph haunting the place and not realizing that he’s dead, too. It’s weird how it starts with him having Bronwen’s phone though I guess it can be explained through him bringing his own phone. No matter what's going with her I don't really see how this proves that Cassidy is a girl.
I think(?) part of the reason why people believe Bronwen is just Cassidy is because people think she was shoved into a Fredbear suit, but the book is actually quite clear about her being stuffed into Freddy, it’s just a Freddy from the ‘Fredbear days’ (and apparently that only applies to the head too). Ralph doesn’t mention it being yellow like he does with Golden Freddy, and from what we know Freddy’s was open concurrently with the diner at some point during 1983. While I’m here Ralph isn’t said to be stuffed into Golden Freddy either, he says IT’S ME as he dies but so do a lot of the other animatronics in this book, so I don’t think that’s a good indicator for who he was stuffed into (ngl I’m very biased against every goldenduo/trio/quartet/whatever theory I’m sorry lol, I don’t think it does anything but make Golden Freddy more messy as a character).
Something interesting in the book is how Coppelia seems to be haunted by the ghost kids. She has nightmares throughout the week which causes her to sleep badly, and seems to be deliberately targeted by the animatronics for being Ralph’s daughter (who they’re upset with for leaving). I actually think these dreams could be Golden Freddy’s doing, as she admits to dreaming about Freddy and gang to her dad, but specifically talks about ‘Fredbear’, who she shouldn’t know about given her age (Fredbear also seems to be specifically CC’s thing). Golden Freddy does seem to have an association with dreams already so this makes sense: UCN is a nightmare, movie Goldie talks to Mike in his dreams (and asks for his little sister, whose situation can be compared to Coppelia), and he could be responsible for Michael’s fnaf 4 nightmares.
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I guess I should also address some of the other common debunks of the idea that Cassidy is a boy and/or CC. People often don’t consider this theory because they’re certain that Cassidy is a girl, but I don’t think that has to be the case even if they’re not CC.
First there’s the princess from Princess Quest being named Cassidy, this is often used as a theory that the Princess is Cassidy in some way. But this was quickly taken out after this was noticed, and not put back in, not even in Help Wanted 2 which had a new Princess Quest game and confirmed to us in the files that the Red King is Old Man Consequences. I struggle to think of why this was taken out unless it just wasn’t true and would give people the wrong idea. Charliedoor has stayed in the files, and this has made people think Patient 46 is a Charliebot, which is a very unpopular theory now (though her name being used here while she has no relation to it is also pretty strange).
We have also been told that Scott wasn’t supervising Security Breach’s development 24/7, he often wasn’t in the same building as them and didn’t even tell them the full story, so things like this could have easily slipped by. It’s actually pretty common for lower ranked developers to get away with putting random stuff in the files that’s not really relevant. I suspect that something could have been misinterpreted or someone thought the princess being yellow+fighting Glitchtrap meant Golden Freddy and made assumptions, and the mistake was only realized to be a mistake post release. In the recent interview Scott talks about how the names found in the source code stay as the “canon names” even if he doesn’t like them, such as Glitchtrap and Burntrap, yet despite this the Cassidy name was removed. As if it wasn’t canon.
I think it’s far more likely for the princess to be a piece of Vanessa’s soul, the game is all about helping her escape Glitchtrap’s control, and a cool way to do this is helping out the one piece of her that can fight back against him as opposed to… a third party somehow being able to involve themselves with this? I see the princess being yellow as more of a reference to Vanessa’s blond hair than anything else, and the game makes a lot of callbacks to her journey in Help Wanted. Finding the Vanny mask and Glitchtrap plushie, the Grim Foxy maze, the HW version of the office, being taken over by Glitchtrap, etc.
If Vanessa in the game is supposed to be putting herself back together, this is actually quite similar to CCassidy being told to find his pieces in fnaf world, so I can see a comparison being made there that gave off the wrong impression, but that’s just speculation. I also want to point out how the name of the Princess Quest ending is called ‘vannyredemption’ in the code, which I think makes more sense if Vanessa is the princess and redeeming herself by turning against Glitchtrap. Redemption isn’t really something others do for you. Something else that could tie into this is how the arcade conspirator talks about the princess— he seems to believe that she’s sentient and that he has to prove himself to her, claiming that he’ll “save her”. Why would he need to save Cassidy, who’s just here to help Vanessa? She’s the one who needs help escaping Glitchtrap, not Cassidy.
If the princess is meant to be Cassidy, I also don’t see any good reason for why the name was taken out unless it’s just wrong or misleading. Everyone already saw it, so trying to ‘hide’ it because we weren’t supposed to figure it out that way feels odd to me. I get believing this after it was only just taken out, but a lot of time has passed since then and this theory hasn’t really gotten any new evidence pointing to it (and I’d argue nothing about the princess is strange enough to warrant ghost identity theories beyond being connected to Vanessa somehow, like she never says anything that makes her seem that self-aware or moves on her own).
The princess could also be symbolizing Cassie, with her full name being Cassidy, as ruin is rather similar to princess quest. If her father is the Bonnie bully, then he could have named her after the child he accidentally killed. Cassie and CCassidy can be compared with each other through their terrible birthday parties too.
I know some people are really certain that the princess is a ghost, but that doesn't have to mean that she's Cassidy in particular? If anything it could be that the dev who added her name in just got the wrong ghost girl. There's other options such as:
Elizabeth—being a parallel to Vanessa, and a strawberry blond, so the design fits. The plush babies are also supernatural and Circus Baby seems sentient in HW2, so she could still be around and unable to do much besides control the plushies, a VR version of her animatronic, and an arcade game character. 8bit Baby from fnaf AR might have even been a precursor to this, especially with the yellow eyes in her glitchy form. Would honestly make for a cool redemption arc for Lizzie— her helping someone who was coerced into listening to her dad after she herself wanted to make him proud (she’d still be killing people in her various Baby forms but whatever let a girl breathe).
Susie—another blond girl and the MCI kid we know the most about. The sprite of the princess also looks like she has a curl to her hair like Susie does, she probably physically resembles her the most. The tree in Princess Quest that's half bare also reminds me of Oliver, a tree in Coming Home whose falling leaves symbolize Susie eventually leaving her family for good. Chica also shows up in the background and the MCI references could be present because of her. Perhaps Fruity Maze, whose main character resembles Susie and is haunted by her memory of her dead puppy, can even be seen as a sort of prequel to Princess Quest.
Charlotte—arguably the most in-character. If the Red King/OMC is Henry then him being a king makes sense when his daughter is the princess. There's also some interesting music connections between Princess Quest and themes associated with the Puppet. First there’s Gracefully into the Abyss & Alchemist Fantasy, and then there’s Through the Cracks, a song from Freddy in Space 2 that appears in the level when you unlock the Puppet, compared with the Princess Quest menu theme. The glowing blue mushrooms also appeared in The Twisted Ones, and if the gravestones are a reference to happiest day, that's pretty relevant to Charlie, who sets it up. Lighting up the gravestones could parallel Charlotte giving the children cake.
I also know people often see Golden Freddy as Afton’s rival, but it’s Charlotte who kills him for good in the frights books (while Andrew, the VS in that continuity, has to be protected from Afton), so her being instrumental in defeating Glitchtrap makes plenty of sense to me. Goldie as the VS always seemed more focused on hurting Afton while the Puppet wants to prevent harm coming to other kids, which necessitates Afton dying and not coming back. I mean even in fnaf 3 we have Golden Freddy setting up a springlock failure, which guaranteed that Afton will possess the suit and suffer endlessly like the kids he’s murdered as opposed to killing him with his crazy ghost powers, lol.
I personally need more evidence that the princess is particularly separate from Vanessa before I believe any of these options, but they're there if a ghost has to be involved.
Then there’s the novels having a female Cassidy as part of the MCI. I could go off about how often Scott reuses names in this series, such as Jeremy and even Michael, who's supposed to be important and therefore it could cause confusion to see his name more than once, but that will be a bit unnecessary because while Cassidy is a girl in the graphic novel, I don't think they're a girl in the original novel. I think Cassidy is actually the kid with a black-and-white striped shirt.
But I need to add some context first. In the novels, Carlton gets injected with remnant and enters some spiritual plane where the ghost kids are hanging around. Michael Brooks is trying to put his friends back together by fixing their torn drawings. In the original novel, we have these characters: Susie the blond girl, Fritz the freckled boy, a girl with long black hair, a boy with a black-and-white striped shirt, and Michael Brooks. It’s not made clear who possesses who besides Susie having control over Mangle in one scene. Susie possesses Chica in frights, and I think it’s fair to assume that works the same in the games, as it lines up with her gravestone matching Chica’s head in the ending of fnaf 3. This is also where people get the idea that Fritz possesses Foxy, Gabriel is Freddy and Jeremy is Bonnie from. I think it’s likely that Fritz and Susie still possess the same characters in the novels, but this also means it’s unclear who’s Freddy and who’s Bonnie in the original novel.
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The graphic novel adds in Gabriel, making him replace the striped shirt boy. Fritz no longer has freckles and is given the striped shirt to wear, so this leaves the girl to be named Cassidy there and possess Bonnie presumably. But she doesn’t even look the same as the girl from the novel. Instead of long black hair, she has light brown hair in a ponytail. Literally none of the MCI are accurate to their novel counterparts except for Susie, who’s consistent with the games. I don’t recall Brooks having a description tbh so he’s fine too lol.
My point is that the graphic novel takes a lot of liberties, it’s often taken as fact that Cassidy from the novels possesses Bonnie but that’s not exactly true, we aren’t given any hints as to who they possess. If Cassidy is supposed to be Golden Freddy, and they’re added in a continuity where the Golden Freddy role is already occupied, I think it’s far more likely for them to be Freddy (whether they’re the girl or the boy), but that’s just my take. It can still be either way, for all we know Cassidy possesses Foxy here.
So, why do I think Cassidy isn’t the second girl in the novels? Doesn’t the book make it obvious that it’s her? Well, I don’t think it’s that clear about it. Let’s go over it:
“Here, right here!” Carlton called. The little boy in the striped shirt helped align two more pictures, and Michael traced over them, connecting them into a single drawing. A second boy in a striped shirt appeared from the blurry surroundings and sat down on top of the one already sitting with them, merging into him seamlessly. Only Carlton seemed to notice the merging of the two children, not even the boy in the striped shirt himself seemed aware.
Beside them was the little girl with blonde curls: they had found all her drawings and put them together, and now she looked solid and real, no longer ghostly like the others. She was able to speak in full sentences, her cognitive abilities having steadily grown stronger as her drawings were united.
Carlton is with Michael Brooks, Susie, the striped shirt boy, and Fritz (who’s offscreen for now) as a group. He’s helping Brooks put the other three back together. After Susie has her pieces together, she introduces herself and Cassidy.
“But it was him who helped you?” Carlton pointed to the yellow bunny in the drawing that showed all five kids.
“Yes! That’s him.” She smiled. “My name is Susie,” she added. “And that’s Cassidy.” A girl with long black hair approached, carrying more pictures in her arms. “And you?”
Carlton looked briefly at a little boy with freckles. “I ...” He struggled to speak, and Carlton glanced nervously at the man in the room as he matched two more drawings together.
“There!” Michael exclaimed proudly. Another ghostly image of the freckled boy climbed under the table, and merged with the one who was already there: he instantly became less ghostly, and more whole. “I’m Fritz.” He smiled, suddenly filled with more life.
…But, this requires her skipping over the unnamed boy already part of the group, in favor of the girl who only came in just now. Which is kinda weird. She even technically says the name first before she approaches, which isn’t too strange by itself with how tenses work, but with the added context of how wonky the writing can be (Carlton is the one saying ‘and you?’ to Fritz in the same paragraph when Susie speaks, which is confusing af) it kinda makes me wonder.
What is even stranger is this part of the book later:
“There!” Michael cheered, momentarily distracting Susie from trying to leave. The last phantom of the girl with long black hair came and sat with them. When she had merged with the others like her, she blinked, then looked up and took in a long, calm breath. “We’re all together now,” Michael said with a smile. The drawings on the ground had disappeared, and five real-seeming children sat with Carlton under the table, no longer ghostly images.
Carlton, by this point, should know the black haired girl’s name. Susie is no longer the ‘blonde girl’ after being introduced, since Carlton now has a name to call her by. Yet despite knowing her name is Cassidy, he doesn’t call her that in his head. Instead he refers to her with her hair color as if that’s the only identifier he has for her (it’s even a mouthful compared to just referring to her as Cassidy). And I think that’s because she’s not Cassidy, Susie was actually introducing the striped shirt boy that was there the whole time.
A striped shirt boy who cries, and gets told “I’m going to help you put these together” referring to the drawings that will restore his memory. It’s not much detail, but it’s quite similar to another striped shirt boy we know who cries and gets told that he will be put back together. At least he has dialogue, which is more than even the girl gets. The two mentions of the black haired girl I copied above are literally her only pieces of “screentime”. Thinking about it, he’s probably the MCI kid that gets the third most focus here after Brooks and Susie. That part where Fritz is asked his name is basically all there is to him, and the black haired girl is the only kid to never speak, while the striped shirt kid gets mentioned quite a few times and talks a little more than they do. He’s even the first one Carlton sees and talks to after Michael.
This even makes more sense with Carlton asking for Fritz’s name, “and you?” implies that he’s familiar with everyone else now and just needs to learn Fritz’s name, but that only works if he already knows the name of the striped shirt boy whose been sitting with him. I also want to point out that if she’s Cassidy, then the striped shirt kid gets ignored twice when it comes to learning his name. First Susie decides to introduce the girl walking over first, and then Carlton only asks for Fritz’s name instead of his too, even though he’s interacted with him more often.
Everything about the way this scene is written makes more sense to me if Carlton knows the striped shirt boy as Cassidy instead of the girl. No one introduced the black haired girl because she joined last and didn’t ever speak with him. If she isn’t in the games, then we technically don’t even need her name in the first place. The graphic novel adds in Gabriel, but if the striped shirt kid was him, why didn’t we just get his name? Or Jeremy if that was the intent? We know they’re both part of the games MCI, but if Cassidy is the striped shirt boy, and the girl is just someone there to fill in a slot for the MCI, then having her being unnamed makes plenty of sense to me. Skipping over Gabriel/Jeremy’s name just feels unnecessary.
Also if she did get a name and it wasn’t something from the logbook or was one of the gravestone names, it would probably just confuse tf out of the fandom. If the striped shirt boy was named differently from Gabriel and Jeremy, I can see people eventually connecting the dots that this is supposed to be CC and we’re finally getting his name, but if the girl was something random, like… Alice or whatever? Not everyone would realize that she’s similar to Michael Brooks and isn’t a game character, just as many would assume she’s actually super important and mysterious because she hasn’t been referenced elsewhere, so I get the logic in excluding her name if it’s not Cassidy.
Like I said earlier the writing can be awkward at times (this isn’t even the only time the speaker changes in one paragraph), and I think believing Cassidy is the black haired girl makes plenty of sense with how it’s written at first. It’s just the part where she’s not called that after being introduced that makes me raise my eyebrows, and looking at the scene as a whole makes me question it further. I know I keep bringing this up, but I really don’t get why ‘Cassidy’ doesn’t talk at all, this is a pretty important character we are just learning about, and it baffles me that she’s apparently the only person who doesn’t speak here. Giving her a small backstory akin to Susie’s dog wouldn’t have been that hard imo. But if she’s not really Cassidy, this makes a lot more sense to me. We are instead given just enough info about the striped shirt boy to link him to CC. The initial introduction could even be a deliberate misdirect as Cassidy is often treated very secretly for whatever reason.
Maybe she still is Cassidy, after all Cassidy ended up being a girl in the graphic novel. But as much as the graphic novels can improve things (such as having Charlie bring up Sammy more in TFC when it’s relevant, where in the original novel she seems to almost completely forget about him, which is very odd), they can also have big mistakes. Such as having John go with Charlie to see her father’s grave, meaning he should also see the gravestone with her own name on it. Or the end of The Twisted Ones which has adult Charliebot check on Charlie’s corpse instead of Aunt Jen, which was quite necessary to explain why her aunt has her body in the next book, causing great confusion if you only read the graphic novel adaptions— especially since the whole book has adult Charliebot looking for her.
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Heck John still acts like he saw Aunt Jen there instead in the graphic novel, even though the design was completely different from what Aunt Jen looked like earlier.
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It’s kinda hard to find information about how adapting the novels work, but from what I hear Scott doesn’t have much involvement and it’s just the scriptwriter and the artists who create the graphic novel. The two changes above are pretty significant details that mess with the story, yet they were left in. What chance is there that some minor characters will be fixed so they’re accurate to their book designs and names? And to be fair, things don’t have to match completely when it’s in a different continuity, much less an adaptation of a different continuity. If the artist or scriptwriter made Cassidy a girl without Scott telling them to, I can see him thinking it’s not necessary to change it, because the original novel already has Cassidy as a boy.
Making an entire graphic novel can be hard, so it might have seemed rude to tell them to redraw the characters and rewrite the script to match the book exactly when ultimately, the MCI here are not that important. In every continuity there’s always some difference to them, whether it’s the characters’ involved or the designs. Especially since the artists seem to be given pretty short deadlines as well, I would probably have left it alone in Scott’s shoes, assuming he had any involvement at all.
I will also point out that the graphic novel already changed up the spiritual world scene: different dialogue, it’s Brooks who introduces everyone, Carlton never talks with anyone who isn’t Brooks or Susie, the kids interact with each other more, there’s an extra Michael running around even though he’s supposed to be the only kid who isn’t broken apart, they’re supposed to be sitting under the table as the drawings are fixed, etc. I can easily buy them also changing up the characters, however unintentionally (I figure the creators just assumed Cassidy was a girl because of the name and picked randomly between Gabriel and Jeremy, Susie was the only one who had a drawing of her already which is why she’s accurate, etc). I think I’d be less inclined to consider Cassidy as the striped shirt boy if the graphic novel MCI was more accurate: Fritz has his freckles, the girl has her black hair, and Gabriel is wearing a striped shirt.
Recently we learned that sometimes the artists are even told to draw things incorrectly and according to the exact reference picture given by scholastic even when the artist knows better: Diana Camero, who was also the artist for TFC, talked about how she knows Ballora in the Cleithrophobia story isn’t supposed to have legs, but scholastic insisted that she had to draw Ballora according to the reference image given. This explains a lot about the graphic novels’ various inaccuracies and why only Susie looks accurate. In fact I wonder if the only reference was a picture of Susie as opposed to the novel itself, because her red ribbon is absent in the adaptation. In the FFPS drawing her red bow is hard to see, while the book’s narration very clearly describes it being tied into her hair.
So yeah, I think it’s perfectly possible and maybe even more likely that everyone got it right and Cassidy is the girl here, but I think it’s vague enough to believe that it’s the boy instead. Which has a lot of interesting implications, we have a crying boy with a striped shirt as part of the MCI named Cassidy, who’s also paired with a boy named Michael (being the odds one out compared to the games MCI). I think this striped shirt boy could be the novels’ version of Cassidy Afton, who isn’t William’s son here but still gets associated with the MCI.
And of course I have to talk about the girl from the logbook, the one who is given cake by the Puppet on the happiest day page. I understand why people think this girl is Cassidy, but I don't think it's that straightforward. First there's how the design is different from the TFC girl, having short hair in pigtails as opposed to long black hair. Then there's how the page is actually more connected with CC. The prompt references his death, “Write about one specific memory from that day that will make you feel better (his fixed birthday) if you find yourself facing new difficulties CERTAIN DEATH (his ruined birthday)”. And instead of making this a MY NAME page, or having faded associate the page with themselves in some way, they ask CC if he remembers his name.
There's a page right after this that talks about a happiest day coupon where the Puppet gives you a gift, and the title of this page references the bite of 83 "Take a BITE... out of fun on your next birthday!", connecting the two events together. Anytime we see the phrase putting someone back together, it has to do with a ghost remembering themselves. After Michael puts Elizabeth back together, she remembers that William is her father by the next game, Brooks and Carlton put the MCI back together so that they can regain their identities. Fnaf world tells us that putting CC back together involves happiest day. And this page associates CC remembering his name (aka being put back together) with happiest day. It seems pretty cut and dry to me. Also faded is clearly more aware than CC at the moment, so them helping him out so that he can help them reach their happiest day is just… odd? Charlotte is aware and doesn’t need cake, why aren’t they like her?
I could buy this girl being Cassidy more if the graphic novel updated her design to look more like this girl, but instead she's pretty unrecognizable, so I'm more convinced by how the logbook chooses to associate HD with CC.
Return to the pit sidenote: One last thing, I will address this with more depth in the next post but I wanted to talk about the curly haired girl real quick. I’d say this is valid evidence of Cassidy being a girl and therefore separate from CC, but this girl’s identity is reallyyyyy vague. The scenario is kinda like happiest day, but is different in every way that matters (even if you don’t think CC is the receiver, his memories are clearly relevant to happiest day and that connection just isn’t present here). We don’t get a name for this girl or who she possesses, zero depictions of ‘Cassidy’, whether theorized to be her or not, have given her curly hair, so this is a very strange way to indicate her identity. I find it confusing why she isn’t just called ‘the girl with long black hair’ again, it’s bizarre to say she has curly hair as if that’s some iconic trait we have always associated with her.
It’s Susie who we’ve seen get the curly hair descriptor before, and the book conveniently leaves out her hair color. We see a picture of a little girl with hair buns/pigtails, but the hair is clearly too light to be black, so that shouldn’t be ‘Cassidy’ according to what we know about her. Or it’s a retcon/design difference between continuities, but that would make for a pretty odd change, as we almost never see Cassidy yet one of their only traits is not even present (assuming they’re the girl in TFC). So how are we supposed to know this is her if she looks different from usual and we aren’t given her name or other identifying features, such as wearing a Golden Freddy mask (which would also link this more clearly with happiest day)?
I don’t even know if there’s more than one girl, and if that’s the case then shouldn’t this kid just be Susie? She’s never absent from the MCI, especially when compared to such an obscure character like Cassidy. In fact, the phrasing of ‘the girl with curly hair’ implies that there’s only one girl here with that hairstyle, which makes it far more likely for this kid to be Susie imo.
The way time travel works in RTTP is also at least somewhat non-literal, considering all the supernatural stuff that happens. If not and everything happened in the memory is accurate, then it can’t be in continuity with the games considering how different the MCI goes, so either way ghost shenanigans or timeline differences leaves room for this girl to be literally anyone, like Charlotte or even just some random kid. I just pointed out how CC seems to be part of the novels MCI so this wouldn’t be too weird (if anything an AU where Charlotte is part of the MCI makes more sense than adding CC there, as his death goes very differently while Charlotte is still a victim of Afton).
Unless we see a girl whose name is explicitly Cassidy that’s meant to be a MCI victim, I think CCassidy is still possible. Yeah I’m being really pedantic lol, I get people being sure this is Cassidy but it’s hard to take this series at face value sometimes (look at stuff like the grave order in HW2, while I think it’s valid to theorize as a death order, I also don’t think it’s wrong to consider something else), it loves to have ‘gotcha’ moments, or be misleading at times. Oftentimes you’re supposed to give things a second look instead of going by your first thought.
[Lefty] 1200+
I want to talk about Lefty real quick. He works as the extra Freddy in the game, being a differently colored Freddy part of the main group, both for the Rockstars and the Scrap animatronics, which is something usually reserved for Golden Freddy. His eye is colored a bright orange/yellow, and in the game right before this we just had Yenndo, who has yellow eyes to indicate that he’s related to the yellow bear. His pose in the alleyway mirrors Golden Freddy perfectly as well, especially with the gapping mouth.
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I also find it very interesting how the soul inside of Lefty is Charlotte, but it’s Lefty who gets paired with the Afton Family fun poster. Then there’s how in one of the fnaf AR trailers, we see a Lefty minigame sprite that is literally just a recolored version of the Fredbear sprite from fnaf 4.
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Perhaps it was just for convenience’s sake, but I doubt that since they also made an entirely original sprite for Glitchtrap in the trailer, and even if they didn’t, I still find it notable that they chose the Fredbear sprite that bit Cassidy in fnaf 4 as opposed to… literally any other Freddy sprite.
Lefty also has five fingers, just like the other springlock suits we’ve seen, and his unhinged jaw with the two poles on either side looks very similar to the Fredbear sprite too. If the lawsuits are accurate, then we have an animatronic who bit a child’s head (like the bite of 83) and another whose head fell off, scaring someone (similar to Golden Freddy’s jumpscare, and perhaps to Cassidy being afraid of the headless Fredbear suit in the backroom). The case number for the lawsuit with the injured child even starts with 83. Both of those are likely to be done by Lefty, as he’s the animatronic with the highest risk and appears to be very erratic in behavior.
In the case of the lawsuits just being jokes, I think we’re at least supposed to imagine that Lefty was responsible, since he’s the most suspect of the non-scrap animatronics. And whenever we see Golden Freddy with a single eye (the movie and the character encyclopedia), it’s the right eye that’s present, just like Lefty. He also shows up in the ‘Springtrapped’ challenge in UCN, which might hint towards him being a springlock suit (other really random characters such as JJ, Nightmarionne, Rockstar Foxy, and trashy & gang show up too which can hurt my point, but I do think out of all of them Lefty is the most fitting outside of Springtrap himself).
My theory is that Henry took his old suit, the same one that bit Cassidy, to create Lefty and capture his daughter. That’s why he has so many connections to Fredbear/Golden Freddy. In fnaf 6, we have Scrap Baby/Circus Baby, Scraptrap/Spring Bonnie, the Puppet in Lefty, and the Funtimes/MCI in Molten Freddy. There are only four endos burning in the furnace in Help Wanted, which tells us that the Fredbear suit wasn't involved in ennard. Lefty being a remade Fredbear ties up a loose end with that specific suit.
Something else I’ve considered is that it’s just the Fredbear head that was used for Lefty. Golden Freddy has those head based attacks, Nightmare Fredbear appears as a head on the bed, and Cassidy was bitten, so he might have the best connection to the head of the suit. There is also an emphasis on the animatronic heads when it comes to possession: the fnaf 3 ending, and You’re The Band, where Gabriel is able to possess a little boy through him wearing the Freddy head. It probably doesn’t matter either way, but I always thought the ghosts’ association with the heads of their animatronics was interesting.
We know Henry went to the bunker, as he had to have gotten the scooper blueprint from somewhere, and it would also allow him to learn about the Funtimes. I think he was inspired by the Funtimes to make Lefty, as they work pretty similarly in that Circus Baby/Funtime Freddy were made to capture a child, while Lefty was made to hold the Puppet. Circus Baby also mysteriously quotes Lefty in AR, "I am so glad that I found you, let me find room for you, inside..." which is a reference to the mechanic they both share.
And if Henry looked through the bunker, he might have also found the Fredbear plush that holds Cassidy’s soul (assuming William didn’t mess with its remnant), he might have been able to tell that it was possessed with its black eyes and glowing pupils, and took it with him to the FFPS location, so it would end up burning too with everyone else. Or maybe Cassidy got bored of being stuck inside the bunker with nothing going on and teleported to wherever he sensed his friends lol. Like I mentioned earlier, I think it’s very possible the plush still has that ability.
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There's also this bizarre teaser for FFPS that has a Freddy plush being pulled by strings. The strings are only seen if the screen is brightened up, which makes him look like Fredplush. I think this is a reference to the old halloween edition teaser that had Nightmarionne behind a Freddy plush that was also only seen if it's brightened up. Maybe it's a hint that Psychic Friend Fredbear is in FFPS somewhere? It also feels like it’s saying something about Golden Freddy and the Puppet being connected together. For whatever reason those two are often intertwined.
I think after the MCI formed ennard/Molten Freddy he was unable to manifest as Golden Freddy again, as the other MCI kids are very broken and we literally don’t see Golden Freddy in either fnaf 3 or 6. He could be stuck in Molten Freddy with the others, though I’m not sure if the Afton family fun poster has him as Golden Freddy or Molten Freddy. Lizzie is a redheaded clown, William is a man in a purple suit, and Michael is his identical puppet, while Cassidy is represented by the bear with a birthday hat who’s led by a chain from the clown.
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Lizzie is being depicted as controlling towards Cassidy, even though that’s a bit much when at worst she’d be a bossy younger sister. But if Cassidy was in ennard that makes more sense, as she was controlling towards the other Funtimes. However Lizzie never acted controlling towards Molten Freddy, so the metaphor doesn’t work completely. Maybe the chain is less about Lizzie’s relationship with her brother and more to show how hard to control Golden Freddy/Cassidy is (the bear does seem rather eager to attack).
There’s also an AR Skin of Golden Freddy where he’s chained up underwater that might be relevant to this? That version also gets paired up with Ringmaster Foxy (Michael) and Ballora (maybe mom?) for the Dark Circus Event, which makes me inclined to link him to CC over the fifth child. Ultimately the poster feels like another hint towards GoldenVictim. If happiest day takes places after fnaf 6/UCN, I think it just makes sense for Cassidy to still be split apart multiple vessels, and then burning them allows a chance to put him back together for happiest day.
[Logbook] 6900+
Holy shit we're finally at the logbook, it only took a million years.
I used to be into this book being Fazbear Frights merch, but nowadays I think it was made by Fazbear Entertainment, for the simple fact that the book seems very, very old.
The pages are yellowed with time, and there’s a lot of stains, both fresher looking blood stains and more typical dirty brown stains as well. In page 22 there seems to be an outline of a drink left on the book, maybe coffee. Page 48 and 34 have jagged outlines in the corner as if it’s supposed to look like it’s ripped. The foxy grid even has the text for the numbers fading away. I think this book was made a long time ago in-universe, even if parts of it might have been written in much later. I’m not sure where the blood stains come from, I wonder if Michael had this book even while he was ennard, and the blood comes from that. Sometimes the blood stains are by faded’s various MY NAMEs, which makes me wonder if it really has to do with the ghosts affecting the book, or if they were written by a living person who could bleed.
I recall hearing a theory before that Ennard might have drawn the crappy hearts on page 16, Michael is a good artist and these seem oddly childlike. I can see ennard looking through the logbook out of curiosity, adding the hearts in, and leaving blood all over the book.
Since Elizabeth is in charge of ennard I think she could be drawing hearts for William, Michael and Cassidy (since she’d be starting to remember herself) or it’s for Funtime Freddy, Funtime Foxy, and Ballora like the commenter mentioned. Maybe Michael held onto the book for so long because his sister wrote in it.
I've looked over this book a bunch of times, trying to make sense of it. Why does the Cassidy code work the way it does, with faded writing out MY NAME and CC giving the coordinates through altered text? Why does there seem to only be a single name in the logbook when there's at least two unnamed ghosts involved? Why do the things CC say not feel like real answers to anything besides ‘It was for me’ matching with THE PARTY WAS FOR YOU and ‘I can't see’ with WHAT DO YOU SEE? What song is faded talking about in IS THIS SONG FAMILIAR TO YOU? Why does the foxy grid make no fucking sense?
I originally had a big analysis of the whole logbook here, but that ended up way too long, so I'm going to try to be more brief here. I don’t think that worked very well but whatever lol.
—Considering how most of the coordinates are given through altered text, such as changing the page numbers, highlighting certain numbers in red, and changing the order of 1-10, I think the clues given by Michael could still be altered by a ghost. One has him telling you to go to page 61 on a MY NAME page, and the other has him write out 8:11 on a incident report sheet that is otherwise left blank. It could be that Cassidy changed both numbers to help spell out his name, like page 61 or the chalkboard numbers were originally something else, and 8:11 doesn't fit into Michael's shift. It's perfectly possible this was done purposefully by Michael instead (which would imply he’s familiar with who Cassidy is), but he doesn't otherwise acknowledge the ghosts in his book so I'm uncertain about it. This also makes the code more consistent/you have to wonder why CC suddenly stopped helping with the code if he was behind most of it already.
—Cassidy is not responding to Faded's questions outside of THE PARTY WAS FOR YOU and WHAT DO YOU SEE. "I can't see" and "I'm scared" are the first things he says in the book, before faded even tried talking to him. He's reacting to a new situation, he's "waking up" somewhere dark and is confused as to what's going on. People often assume “I can’t see” means that he’s blind, but it’s also just a common phrase for when it’s dark and you have trouble seeing (also notice how Golden Freddy… doesn’t have eyes, like huh I wonder why CC has bad vision), I think he should be able to see well enough to read the book considering how many of faded’s questions rely on the book as a reference, such as Fredplush showing up in the DOES HE STILL TALK TO YOU page. This could be him coming into consciousness as a ghost or in a new animatronic. "I can hear sounds" comes sometime later when he heard a random noise, not a song or someone talking to him, more like clanging or creaking (the various pizzerias aren't exactly silent at night). If he can understand ‘the party was for you’ well enough to respond to it, why does this line make it seem like he can’t hear what’s going on around him clearly?
This dialogue doesn't read to me as deliberate responses to anything, Cassidy just seems confused and worried, I even think him affecting the book in this way was accidental at first. It explains why “I'm scared” and “I can hear sounds” don't work well as answers to any specific questions. "Is this song familiar to you" and "Does he still talk to you?" are more yes/no answers. If Cassidy was supposed to be scared about something specific, the text could have been written in such a way to make that more clear, such as him saying "He scares me" and we can theorize if that's for Fredplush or Nightmare Fredbear.
—Faded notices this, and wants to communicate with him, but they can't alter text like he can. Susie in Coming Home has to put effort in so she can communicate with her living sister “Tucking her tongue firmly between her lips, Susie started drawing. It took all of her concentration to make sure the drawing showed up on the page, but it did. Drawing was all she could do. If she wrote a note, Samantha wouldn't read it.” The faded ABC in the foxy grid is them testing out their handwriting, writing out the whole alphabet to see if they can do it, and afterwards they start asking their questions. The alphabet fades away because they had trouble figuring out how hard they needed to concentrate for the words to stay/appear at all, but eventually it worked.
Cassidy's first few lines of dialogue are on the second to last page of the book, with the foxy grid being towards the end as well. It's like the two started backwards at first, which I think makes enough sense. IMO this also implies that altered is a stronger spirit than faded, since he has an easier time messing with the book, which makes more sense to me if he’s Golden Freddy while faded isn’t.
—Let's take a closer look at the gravestone, it read outs MY NAME in place of either CASSIDY or whatever Faded’s name is. Writing out MY NAME on a grave as opposed to the actual name feels very unnatural, it’s only like that for the sake of the code. It almost feels like the name is being censored by someone to keep it a secret. Were we supposed to replace every instance of MY NAME with Cassidy after we figured out the code? Does that end up changing anything? Thinking about this made me consider something— if CC can change whatever is in the logbook, and faded is trying to help CC remember things about himself, are they actually writing CASSIDY all over the book, with CC responding by altering it to read out MY NAME?
I think this works pretty well as a sequence with the first three times we see MY NAME. First they wrote out the name Cassidy on page 29, and then ask CC if he remembers his name two pages later, like they’re checking if he recognizes it. They write it in a gravestone as if to remind him that he's dead, and they write Cassidy on the same page they ask DID ONE OF THESE BELONG TO YOU? Does the name Cassidy belong to you? Then they write it on pages where CC has altered text before (feelings about tonight’s shift) as if to make sure he sees them, and they also write it on pages where Michael wrote in the logbook, since CC might be interested in his brother’s words. The whole logbook is Faded asking CC very pointed and specific questions: his purple telephone, does his creepy plush still talk to him, his favorite ride, etc.
This is their way of telling CC about himself, and continually writing Cassidy is another attempt at this. They’re insistent on Cassidy remembering his name even if he can’t remember anything else, so they keep nudging him towards it. Eventually he responds by altering it to spell out MY NAME, yes that is my name, and starts making a code to reaffirm it to himself. Faded notices this and continues to write CASSIDY to help him complete the code. Or maybe he conveniently recognizes it after they write it seven times so they stop writing the name over and over lol. I like this idea since it makes the code more consistent with their respective writing styles, explains why CC gives hints for his name on pages with faded text, and doesn’t require me to try the foxy grid ever ever again :)
If we don't take it completely literally (since the code mostly exists for us), I think the "real" logbook would just have Cassidy circling/highlighting the letters on the word search, with the coordinates he gives just being the equivalent of that. I think CASSIDY/MY NAME would still be on the gravestone/Did any of these belong to you page though, since they're more relevant there. This would also match well with how CC is almost always using first person pronouns: I’m scared, I can’t see, I can hear sounds, it was for me, and my name.
—I think Faded asking WHAT DO YOU SEE under a picture of a mirror and right next to the word search is fairly significant. Not only does it associate the word search with CC, it’s like they're telling CC to look in the mirror, and he responds with "It's me, Cassidy. Who are you? What is your name?" It’s more polite to ask for a name when you introduced yourself first, and I think this is a more natural response to the question than “I can’t see”. IMO it makes more sense for his response to be in the word search since the mirror is right there.
For anyone who hasn’t noticed, there’s actually a bunch of IT’S MEs in this word search, the phrase just gets interrupted a lot because whoever is altering the text leaves the word key alone. It’s easier to see if you look at this pic and read horizontally.
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image taken from here, also a good post arguing for CC being the happiest day receiver
Maybe whoever is doing this is so desperate because the one of the only things he can remember clearly is his own name, but that’s just my take.
I've seen fans claim that the letters that spell out Cassidy don't use altered text, but three of them actually do. Let's look them over:
5, 2–C (Afton Robotics)
3, 9–A (Pizza)
1, 5–S (it’s me)
7, 2–S (it’s me)
9, 3–I (it’s me) (or you multiple the 9 and 3 to get 2, 7 which still gives you the same letter and from the altered text part of the word search)
10, 11–D (Freddy)
8, 11–Y (Freddy)
So three of the letters are from IT'S ME, a couple use Freddy, which feels relevant if the character behind the Cassidy name is Golden Freddy, and we also have Afton Robotics. Afton Robotics always felt a bit out of place with the other words, which are usually quite simple like cake or guard. Cassidy using it to spell their name feels somewhat notable to me, as if it’s something we can associate with them. People often see IT’S ME as a Golden Freddy phrase (though it has been used for others, it's more emphasized with Goldie), and I already pointed out how they use Freddy. As for pizza… maybe they just like it lol, pizza is popular with kids.
I don’t think the words chosen are like, strong proof for anything. But if you think Cassidy’s full name is Cassidy Afton and that they possess Golden Freddy, then the words they picked out feel very relevant to their character, which I thought was neat.
Something that could play into Cassidy looking into a “mirror” is the words chosen to spell out his name. Freddy is backwards (written as YDDERF) while Pizza and Afton Robotics are upside down, written like this:
A
Z
Z
I
P
(No I’m not writing out Afton Robotics like this) It could easily be a coincidence, but I thought it was kinda cool. These are also the only words on the word search that are even reversed.
Before I speculate about who faded could be, I want to talk about the recently popular Dave solution for the logbook. I obviously don't agree with it since I think Cassidy is CC. I'm not sure if this will convince many people because a lot seem to really like it, but I wanted to go over the issues I see with it. I'll start by comparing it with the Cassidy code.
Cassidy: You find the pages with MY NAME on them, look for out of place numbers, many of which are altered deliberately by someone (if not all), and plug them in the word search.
Evan/Dave: You look at the dialogue from CC, you match them with Faded’s questions, two of which aren’t even real answers. Lucky for CC, faded just so happened to choose the exact right pages for him to answer that happened to spell out his name on the foxy grid. CC, while crying and saying that he’s scared, is also being very strategic and making sure to answer the right questions so they can figure out his name, which is very ?????? ok sure. You have to fill multiple rows from the foxy grid, which takes a very long time (and has Faded’s handwriting in it, so CC has to rely on faded caring enough to fill it out, and not only that, but filling it out in the way he wants, ie the whole grid as opposed to making a 15x15 one like the word search, which is far quicker), then you plug your coordinates in.
This is far more tedious and convoluted than the Cassidy Code, for no good reason. They didn’t have to make CC’s answers not fit perfectly, they didn’t have to make you fill out the whole grid, if anything a 15x15 grid like the word search or A1Z26 makes more sense. Despite how meta it is, I can see one of the kids making the Cassidy code on purpose, since they’re consciously changing the text to give out hints—I cannot see CC doing the same for this code. It relies too much on faded just doing the right things for him, when they’re not even trying to figure out his name, they chose those pages at random or because it was relevant to the question they were going to ask. I do not think “I can’t see” and “I’m scared” were on purpose, he was just very agitated at that moment and unintentionally affected the book, only talking more deliberately once faded started speaking to him.
It also just seems very coincidental that people managed to kinda find something (and even then both ended up being flawed, Evan being more Eva, Dave being backwards, the responses not fitting perfectly), like it’s easy to come across a name when they’re so short. Why does DAVE need to be reversed anyway? Couldn’t they have made it in order? Doesn’t the whole ‘reflect’ part make more sense for the mirror and the word search, so it should be the Cassidy name coming out backwards, if anything? As opposed to the name in the foxy grid which has no association with mirrors or even CC?
The foxy grid also has no reference to the fact that a name is on there, unlike the word search which clearly has someone talking in it. I just don't think a second name exists when the fandom has struggled to make sense of this grid for so many years (I myself have many attempts that just don't work lol), and nothing about the logbook has been fixed/edited to make it easier, unlike with the Cassidy code which used to have a MY NAME missing but was added back in.
That alone makes me think that there isn’t a name in there, otherwise I think Scott would be concerned about how no one has figured out the second code. That’s why I came to the conclusion that it’s just faded figuring out how to write in the logbook, because it’s the best idea I can come up with with why they seem to be spelling out the alphabet, and we learn in Coming Home that it’s something ghosts can struggle with. There’s some pretty good discussion of the foxy grid here if you want to read it and I agree with this debunk of Dave being the solution.
I understand people being desperate for CC’s name to be in the logbook, it’s weird if it isn’t, but that doesn’t mean any solution that kinda works has to be correct. I still think Cassidy as his name makes more sense. Sure, we don’t have a name for faded, which kinda sucks, but unlike with CC there are ways to narrow it down/figure out who it is, as Cassidy being CC would likely mean this is a pre-established character. This isn’t too different from Fredplush’s identity (another character important to CC) being quite vague but there being enough hints to point to something more specific.
I just think it's fitting for a book all about CC to reveal his name at the end, we don't really get much from faded here since they solely talk about him and never about themselves (which is why I think them being a prior character makes more sense, as it allows them to not revolve their entire character around him). All the evidence points to there being only one name in the logbook, yet it’s not for the character we are actually learning about? That seems kinda backwards to me.
There is the question of why faded doesn’t seem to reveal their name after being asked for one, which I’m not totally clear on. It could be that it took place offscreen and we’re supposed to guess at it (I think this would make sense with Charlotte as the other gravestone), or they want Cassidy to figure out who they are on his own (so we’re technically in his POV regarding faded). Faded appears to know him quite well, so they might prefer for him to recognize them by himself, especially in an effort not to overwhelm him. I mean, going by the word search, it seems like their questions triggered an intense reaction, the way he’s going ITSMEITSMEITSMEITSME. He might not have asked for a name very calmly lol. Honestly I even wonder if the lack of answers from Cassidy is because he doesn’t realize who this is and is ignoring them on purpose out of discomfort or annoyance. The way he asks who faded is twice kinda reads to me as agitation, he could be very confused/interested as to why faded knows so much.
Ok this took me long enough, but who could faded be? They're very familiar with Cassidy, so they likely knew him when alive. They even know about stuff we’re unaware of, such as his favorite ride being the carousel or random toys he owned before. I would like to point out that I find it unlikely that they got his memories from looking into his mind because they share a body like Jake and Andrew. Jake can only look into the memories that Andrew hasn't forgotten, he can't find missing memories to learn more about his backstory. In the books he's able to track down where his haunted objects are because Andrew himself is already aware of them, so I don't think faded knows so much about Cassidy because of bodysharing. Sure, them knowing about Psychic Friend Fredbear is kinda weird, but I can easily imagine Cassidy mentioning his talking plush to his friends and family, since you know, it's a talking plush.
Faded also has an interest in helping Cassidy, or at least jogging his memory. The best candidates for this are Charlotte, William, Michael, or Elizabeth.
There isn’t a ton going for Elizabeth beyond the fact that as his sister she would know a lot about him and want to help him. The book also has a lot of pictures/references to Circus Baby. The timing also fits pretty well if they were together in ennard who had the book for a time. However, even after being put back together by Michael, Lizzie seems to think her purpose is to kill children, even saying she was created for that reason, which means she still thinks she’s Circus Baby on some level. So would she actually remember enough about her brother for this to work? The fact that the other ghosts are present but not doing anything is also strange.
I like the idea of Lizzie being the faded ghost but it doesn’t quite match her villainous state of mind, especially if the logbook takes place later and she was abandoned by the ghost kids (which might have included her brother) sometime between sister location and fnaf 6. That wouldn’t put her in a good headspace to help people. It’s a cute idea to me but it doesn’t quite match her role as a vengeful ghost spurred on by how she was tortured, and eventually wanting to follow her father’s murderous wishes for her.
William probably sounds very out there but I think it makes sense. We have no sense of tone from faded, are they being kind or stern? If William wanted Lizzie to be put back together, it stands to reason that he’s interested in putting his son back together as well. And a way to accomplish that is to see if he remembers anything about his life. The questions can be taken rather clinically, and if the book is an older one, the text might have been faded from time. The use of a red pen does link back to Michael, and the handwriting looks rather similar to Mike’s as well, which makes sense being his dad.
Maybe he got the logbook during 1987 when he was a nightguard and he wrote the questions all the way back then, and the ink ended up fading overtime before Michael got his hands on it. I think this works best with the idea I mentioned way earlier that William tried to make Cassidy possess the Fredbear suit by putting the plush inside, but Cassidy didn't remember or listen to him, so he started asking him questions once he noticed his presence in the logbook to jog his memory.
Then there’s Michael. This also probably sounds very weird but I think it can work pretty well. I always found the detail of faded using a red pen like Michael very odd, and I wonder if it meant something. How come the foxy grid has the ABC look so faded, even more than usual, having the letters just disappear? Is this really ghost stuff, or is someone using a pen that’s slowly running out of ink?
Here’s how I picture MikeFaded working: he gets the logbook, fills in random BS, opens it another day and suddenly he realizes it’s haunted by his brother, Freddy plush turned into Psychic Friend Fredbear, random page numbers have changed, there’s a bunch of IT’S ME in the word search, maybe his own handwriting was changed, etc. He wants to talk with his brother’s ghost, but whoops his pen is almost out of ink, and he can’t afford to wait another day to talk to his dead brother when he has the chance to. Cassidy could suddenly leave at any moment or even decide to murder him once he realizes that it is his older brother like he’s wondering, so Mike just starts writing his questions in capital letters so he can be noticed.
I like this idea because then there’s no real second name code to figure out, Michael gave his name in front of the book already. The red ink does seem rather splotchy in some cases too. Like there are drawings from Michael where the ink is fine but others where the ink isn’t as red or there’s spots missing. Compare the pics he drew between page 92 (exotic butters), 29 (water skiing), 34 (casual bongos), and 41 (Nightmare Fredbear) to see what I mean. Would also fit pretty well with Michael drawing a gravestone for himself and faded having a MY NAME inside there. Kind of a wildcard idea but something I like quite a bit. I also want to point out real quick that Michael does have different handwriting throughout the book, it’s usually different when it’s by a drawing vs him responding to a prompt, so I don’t think the different handwriting would completely debunk this theory.
I think Charlotte would make the most sense with her involvement in happiest day, especially if I'm wrong and there is a second name to find in the book. In the lorekeeper ending, we have two obscured gravestones, technically we do know that Charlie is likely one of the hidden graves, but it was never actually said in the games what Cassette Man’s daughter is called. And the logbook would have been a great way to confirm it for the gameline (maybe CassidyPuppet is real if CassidyVictim isn’t lol). It also reinforces Charlie as the protector of the group. We do see her try to look after the others in past minigames, but after hearing Henry talk about it, seeing her help another ghost with his memory would have been good at showing that off.
Personally I believe her grave is the one being covered by grass as opposed to the one on top of the hill, to show how she’s closer to the MCI than Cassidy is. It matches better with the fnaf 3 bad ending as both images would have Golden Freddy behind the others and separate from them. If you look closely the grave is actually really far away, in a hill behind the tree as opposed to right next to it. In happiest day we also have the balloons representing the souls, and Charlie is grouped together with the other four as the fifth child while Cassidy is the sixth kid off to the side.
I lean more towards Charlotte overall because of a wacky theory I have. Remember my idea that the Fredbear suit was used to make Lefty, and a part of Cassidy’s soul is present in the suit that bit him? Well, what if Charlotte and Cassidy are talking inside Lefty?
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(As someone who doesn't like goldenduo this is what making this theory feels like lol, I wonder if it was obvious I was going to say something like this when I mentioned my Lefty/Fredbear theory earlier)
I never bought the "talking in the book means these two have to be sharing a body/Stitchwraith is a Golden Freddy/logbook parallel" logic much (Stitchwraith always resembled ennard far more to me), and I'm not completely confident in this idea anyway (technically Cassidy possessing Lefty doesn’t even mean Charlie is faded, or that when they talked in the logbook it was during the time they were in Lefty together—she might be too out of it), but certain details lined up pretty well so I wanted to talk about it.
—Cassidy is acting like he just woke up as a ghost, but Michael only got this book during fnaf 1 by the earliest, and by then he'd be Golden Freddy for years. This also doesn't make sense with him and the fifth child sharing their body for a while now, it's clearly depicting the first time these two ghosts have met and had a proper conversation (asking for a name, testing Cassidy’s memory, etc). Cassidy waking up in Lefty, brought upon by Charlotte's presence, would explain this more. Golden Freddy is also rather ephemeral, not showing up often and disappearing when touched in SAVETHEM, Charlie likely had a tough time getting a hold of Cassidy until they were stuck together.
It's possible that the ghosts communicated before Michael wrote in the logbook, but I think it makes more sense for CASSIDY/MY NAME to be written in the gravestone as opposed to Michael drawing a grave around a name. Michael’s handwriting is also important for figuring out the code, so it would possibly have to go years without being finished if they talked in it before he used it, which is a bit off to me. I guess one of them only knew the other as Cassd instead.
—Something that has ALWAYS bothered me about the logbook is the question, “is this song familiar to you?” There are only a couple of songs I can think of, the Puppet’s music box, Freddy’s music box, and Ballora’s song. Which song is it, and why is faded asking a question about a song that they can’t play on their own? The Puppet doesn’t control the music box, and it’s unlikely that Gabriel is involved here. What song are we even supposed to associate with Cassidy?
There is another song that could be referenced here though, and that’s the lullaby that plays in Lefty. The one that’s always playing in order to calm down the Puppet. My Grandfather’s Clock was a pretty well known song in the 1980s, and it’s associated with the animatronic that Cassidy always had connections too. It could be a song both him and Charlotte liked. This is honestly the main reason I find this theory compelling, it’s hard to figure out other explanations for what ‘song’ this is, or why it’s being played right as faded and CC are talking.
—Cassidy says how he can hear sounds, which is a pretty random detail that doesn’t tell us much, except the fnaf 6 animatronics are specifically attracted to the noises in your office, and can be lured away by sound as well. There’s even the salvage section where you’re supposed to see how they react to audio prompts. Was this line supposed to imply that Cassidy is in a suit that’s affected by noise? I also want to point out how Cassidy mentions hearing sounds in the night 4 section of the logbook, and Lefty gets salvaged on night 4 as well. I don’t think this necessarily happened simultaneously, but it might have been a deliberate reference.
—Lefty’s ‘dream wand’ could even relate back to Faded’s question about Cassidy having dreams. We learn in Alone Together that ghosts can dream, and perhaps Lefty's lullaby makes Cassidy "sleepy" too. Calling it a dream wand also feels sorta pointed? Lately I’ve actually been wondering if this question is subtly asking if Cassidy has been haunting his brother, as technically attacking Michael in his dreams as Nightmare Fredbear would involve Cassidy dreaming with him, lol. Going by my idea that Mike wrote in the book first, faded seems to be asking Cassidy about his dreams in response to Michael drawing Nightmare Fredbear, as if they suspect that Cassidy has something to do with why he drew that.
—Cassidy has trouble seeing, as if he’s lost vision in one eye or is seeing out of the empty eye socket in Lefty. In the fnaf 3 bad ending, we see Goldie with a glowing eye in his left eye socket, and that's the same side where Lefty is missing his eye. Cassidy is on the left while Charlotte is the right. I would like to point out that Molten Freddy, who’s supposed to have the remnant of the MCI, has a glowing left eye too, which is supposed to symbolize that the bad ending of fnaf 3 is canon for now. Lefty missing an eye on his left side could be to indicate Golden Freddy’s presence like how Molten Freddy’s glowing eye shows that the MCI still need to move on.
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—This book, where we get Golden Freddy's name, came right after FNAF 6, where Lefty is the Golden Freddy of the game. He gets paired with two different posters, the Afton family fun poster and a creepy pic of the Puppet. The Puppet image is suppose to hint that Charlie is in Lefty, so the poster about the Aftons could be saying...? The poster makes more sense if it was paired with either Scrap Baby or Scraptrap, but it could have been put on Lefty’s alleyway instead as a hint. Maybe them being stuck together in this game even ties into why both Charlotte and Cassidy’s names were obscured. Cassidy's gravestone was revealed in the logbook, while Charlotte's gravestone was revealed in The Fourth Closet, a book that was already being worked on during FFPS. It also shows how putting a spirit back together works, with them having limited cognitive functions like Cassidy in this book.
—I think the Fredbear Plush could be involved as well because of the teaser with a glowing Freddy plush on strings. Lefty might have found it after Henry took it from the SL bunker (or Fredplush teleported to the pizzeria) and kept it for himself. This would reunite Cassidy with another piece of his soul, which would help put him back together for happiest day. Charlie being present makes this more fitting considering how she's the one who gives him his cake (I think this could also relate to what's going on in FNAF world, which I will go into more detail in the second part of this post).
I also believe the question "does he still talk to you?" implies that Cassidy is still able to communicate with his plush friend, as that's spoken in the present tense, like the toy is in contact with him, so the plush should arguably be around somewhere, or sharing a body with Cassidy under PlushVictim.
—The logbook convo would have to take place during fnaf 6 for this to work, but I think it makes enough sense with how old and dirty it is. Maybe Michael brought it with him or Henry found it in the bunker/the Afton house. Heck him finding a bloody book with Mike's name on it could be part of the reason why he didn’t expect Michael to show up, he thought he would be dead. Though I think Michael likely kept it post-scooping since he draws the exotic butters which was only mentioned on night 5.
—Lefty’s voicelines in UCN are very odd, and don’t seem to reflect Charlotte’s character? She tells William to stay out of her way, yet Lefty has been looking for William and doesn’t want to let him go. It matches with the motivations of the VS actually, “I will never let you leave, I will never let you rest” and “I’ve been looking for you, and now I will never let you go”. Lefty’s voice sounds like a more tired Charlotte (perhaps matching her state of mind during FFPS) but Lefty himself seems like his own character.
“It will all be over soon” and “I’m so glad that I found you, let me make room for you” sounds like something he could have said to Charlotte when finding her, and are now being used as threats towards William (I mean Circus Baby does the same thing with ‘you won’t die’ first being used for Mike and now her father, but rephrased in a more threatening way “…but you’ll wish you could”, Lefty’s lines could work the same way). “There is room for one more” implies there’s already someone inside (separating himself from Charlotte) and William will join them, while “Come spend eternity, inside with me” just reflects the general goal of UCN as a never ending punishment for William.
So whoever TOYSNHK is, seems to be VERY familiar with Lefty’s purpose and general goal, and is able to accurately reference it in his dialogue. I don’t think Charlotte was in a good position to understand why Lefty captured her or that it was even his entire reason for existing, since it’s not like that was explained to her at any point. Henry doesn’t talk about him creating Lefty to grab her in his final speech, and she is supposed to have been sleeping/docile for most of her time inside of the robot.
So it’s very possible that TOYSNHK himself only knows so much because he was Lefty and was affected by his programming (I say TOYSNHK but really I mean Golden Freddy, I think whether TOYSNHK is Golden Freddy or not, it makes sense for Goldie to have control over UCN to some extent considering how strong his presence is, or for TOYSNHK to draw on his memories to recreate Lefty, vs Charlotte who likely doesn’t know Lefty’s perspective). Maybe the voice isn’t even supposed to Charlotte's anyway, but rather another child who’s tired of being a restless ghost for decades.
I even looked up the wayback page for what Scott said about Lefty’s voice in a casting call for UCN, and it seems to help my case here: “The character is Lefty, a possessed sentient bear who likes to whisper a taunt after killing the player. The voice should be soft, yet chilling and a little menacing as well.” Soft, chilling, and whispery also perfectly describes the VS’s voice, and taunting the player after killing them matches with Scott saying how the VS likes to toy with the player. I’m also interested by how Lefty is described as possessed and sentient, that’s not something said for the other animatronics from what I’ve seen, though I can’t/haven’t checked them all (not all of them are archived) so I could be wrong. But I’m very curious about whether Lefty is possessed because of Charlotte’s spirit inside the puppet, or if it’s because another spirit is already possessing him. His voice is also supposed to be that of a child’s going by the age range given to him.
It feels like I’m talking bullshit (there are a lot of assumptions here/builds off my other specific theories that aren't confirmed) but it also makes a lot of sense to me. The biggest problem is how it feels like there should be bigger clues to this? But fnaf is always super vague when it comes to Goldie and Cassidy/CC so idk.
Another thing that could add to this is how TUG describes the logbook as being able to help solve the ‘many mysteries’ of FFPS. But the only real mystery solved here is what name belongs to the gravestone. Confirming that Michael is Mike Schmidt and that he’s the fnaf 4 dreamer aren’t even mysteries relevant to fnaf 6. But if LeftyDuo (ugh) is correct, it could explain where Cassidy/CC/Golden Freddy is in FFPS when it’s not made clear that they’re even present. Henry doesn’t talk about either and Goldie’s presence in Molten Freddy is uncertain. It can explain why Lefty tries to kill you when it’s supposed to contain the Puppet, so the AI should be in control, which doesn’t make much sense when he acts so violent with Mike. And if Charlotte is in control, you’d expect her to go after William first. But if the Lefty suit already had another spirit attached (someone who has reasons to hate Michael), and now has to contend with Charlotte’s agony as well, that could explain his violent behavior. ‘Behavior upon suit seal not guaranteed’.
And yes, if this is true it would be incredibly messed up with how Lefty is made to trap and shock the Puppet. There’s the question of how exactly painful the shock would be, I’ve seen some people try to interpret it as more gentle, and maybe Cassidy has enough control to somehow make it less severe— but even if the voltage isn’t painful, being made to trap someone still sounds like a very uncomfortable situation for both kids. If Cassidy is TOYSNHK or helping them out maybe that’s part of why he’s torturing his dad in the next game, he’s upset over the loss of control and how he was forced to hurt Charlotte—which might have been Henry’s fault, but who’s the reason why she’s dead in the first place?
And that’s the first half finally done. I hope this was at least interesting to read even if you don’t agree with the theories I brought up. The next post will cover more frustrating topics such as TOYSNHK and the stitchline debate, but if you're not interested in those/already have your ideas regarding them then I think this post is as complete as it can be. Perhaps in the future I’ll be more thoroughly convinced that CassidyVictim can’t be true, but in the meantime I thought there was no harm in discussing my take on it. Thanks for reading!
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so me and @lemonking00 decided to make a tier list...but it's what neurodivergency/mental illness the cast of Hazbin/Helluva have
Explanations/are they medicated?/extra details or thoughts below because this will be a long post if I don't
ADHD- Millie: unmedicated, she just doesn't like it
Vox: medicated but OH BOY DOES HE FORGET, man will go 3 days without it before remembering then he's medicated for 4 days and they he's out of his ADHD medication! and it's ALWAYS when the pharmacy runs out and won't have it in for a few days
Bee: unmedicated she doesn't care she's just having fun
Clara: she's just here because LK said Odette was autistic and we wanted an ADHD/Autism sibling dynamic, I was going to skip them because we don't know much about either, she's properly medicated, Carmilla makes sure she takes her medication
Autism- Vaggie: we're all in agreement on this right?
Alastor: I know he's a sociopath but we've been joking he's autistic for a bit lol
Lucifer: his special interest is clearly ducks, yes he's canonically depressed but the autism is winnning
Sir Pentious: ok so everyone I know agrees with his so, mans got that autistic rizz
Vortex: ...ngl we just wanted him to be the ASD to Bee's ADHD being the ADHD/autism couple dynamic
Millie's dad: as stated by LK "he just seems autistic" and then explained farmers give off autistic energy, LK's the autistic redneck friend so I'll trust him on that
Lute: ...I have no explanation she just seems autistic, and like a homophobic homosexual
Zestial: so initially we put him in the group therapist tier but the autism won so we moved him
Odette: explanation for why she's here above
AuDHD (written as AUDI relating to a series of inside jokes but long story short half our friend group is AuDHD and one of said friends used to have an AUDI)- -Blitz special interest in horses, bad at emotions, he's not medicated, he should be on several medications, he's not on any of them
Charlie: ok hear me out, we all agree on the ADHD yes, but her dads got that tism ok, she would to. she is medicated, and Vaggie reminds her, but it's a gamble whether or not she'll take her medication even with a reminder
Cherri Bomb: ...bombs and just look at here that's my explanation for why she's here, no she's not medicated, there's other drugs, no it's not the same thing she doesn't care
Velvette: she's better about taking her medication than Vox is but she still forgets, always seems to run out around the same time as Vox...when they don't have the medication...being Valentino during that is great/j the two will lock the doors and make him deal with their unmedicated asses till the pharmacy has the medication again
Fizz: I don't think I need to explain why he's here, he's not medicated, he doesn't like the feeling and he likes himself better unmedicated, and Ozzie loves him either way so fuck getting his ADHD medication
Adam: simple explanation, ADHD and Autism is hereditary, so it had to come from somewhere and in the words of LK "it wasn't Eve, idk how but she's neurotypical", Adam doesn't believe people when they tell him he's AuDHD, so no he's not medicated
Emily: I'm not explaining myself, she is medicated and does take her ADHD medication on the daily, Sera will remind her and if she forgets after that Sera will just give her the medication
Depression- (depresso expresso because funny) Stolas: literally cannon, and while also Autistic unlike Lucifer the Autism is not winning
Octavia: I would be too if my family was that much of a mess
Barbie Wire: just fucking, look, no I'm not explaining this
Sera: (just makes gesture like, look at this bitch)
Twamatised- (referencing a joke in Gravity Falls) neither of these need explanations fucking look at the two that are here!
OCD- Moxxie: we actually added this catagory for him, he's just got those vibes
Niffty: I swear I remeber reading something on an old ZP era sketch dump saying she had slight OCD, I might be misremembering, probably, but got those vibes
Group Therapist- (fun fact this was initially a Husk only category but a lot more characters belonged in it then we thought) Husk: (points to episode 4) and yes depresso expresso as well but, I made this category for him so
Razzle & Dazzle, Fat Nuggets, Keekee, and the Egg Bois: all are here for similar reasons they're (basically) pets that bring joy and improve peoples mental states
Ozzie: I don't think I need to explain this one, since it's basically cannon
Rosie: ok so all the overlord are autistic (minus Vox), but they go to the category that takes priority and she's seen being a person you go to for advice so, this is just cannon
Carmilla: quote from LK "mom", that's why she's here, again all overlords are autistic (except Vox)
NDP- (narcissistic personality disorder) Verosika: we actually added this category for her so
Striker: ok this one's debatable but he definitely has a personality disorder of some sort
Valentino (KYS) was added just for Val to tell him to die
BITCH was added for reasons obvious if you look at the characters, no headcannons here we just wanted to call out these characters for being bitches
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i feel like max would totally freak out during her first gay awakening like... she's always been in heterosexual relationships (+with guys who didn't treat her well btw) so she would totally panic bcs?? she's always thought of herself as straight and suddenly she starts feeling something for a girl?
she would totally blush at a compliment or just simply bcs of the proximity of her girl crush around, although i think she wouldn't be straightforward and confess her feelings bcs well... it's max.
she would either ignore those feelings and try to move on (while ignoring the girl and hurting her by distancing herself) or she'd talk to frankie or sam about it (and they would support her 100%!!)
i feel like frankie and duke would tease her about it, tho. sam would totally be surprised at max's confession but would have a serious talk about it, saying how she's proud of her and would support her no matter if she was gay or not. i think that rich would also play an important role in here since he's always been like a "dad" to sam's kids (and don't forget how important his character was in the last season!!🤠) but also bcs he's gay himself and he would give max some advice, tell her his journey with his own sexual orientation and feel proud of her. i feel like her real dad would have some "but's" if he ever found out about it (idk he just looks like a total homophobe to me lol + considering how bad of a dad/ex husband he is since he always fucks something up). max would be hesitant about telling him about it, tho. knowing how he always lets everyone down i wouldn't even be surprised if she wouldnt tell him.
um, what else... i think max would totally be into rainbow stuff. yk, rainbow hats, rainbow umbrellas, bracelets, socks(😭) anything that reminds her of gay pride. i feel like she would be bisexual/lesbian (i'm a lesbian myself so obv max being a lesbian would be so 🥰🥰) but yeah she would totally have a lot of things in her room that have colors of her flag AND obv she would put a big ass pride flag above her bed. idk the thought of it just makes me happy 😭🤞🏻💞
thank u for listening to my ted talk . i'd love to see more similar stuff to this written by you on ur page and i hope you're doing ok <3 ^__^ i love ur works!!
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oh god, max would be so confused at first. after a few times hanging out, max would catch herself flirting and realise that she's not even joking. that she wants to be around you way more than normal, in a way that's different than being comfortable with her other friends. because being around you doesn't make her comfortable! she feels really awkward and her heartbeat gets all funny and she worries about screwing up her words when she doesn't usually give a fuck about what others think. max finds herself worrying about what you're up to, if you laugh at her jokes, if you'll think what she's wearing is pretty. if you think she's pretty.
honestly, she doesn't even care about the guys she dates as much. there's so many times where max basically uses them as a prop, makes out with them because they're there and talks about them like they're not there. so it's even more confusing to name these feelings because it's completely not like her. and yeah, that feeling of being unsure would make her push you away. but feeling empty without you being near her would slowly eat at max's resolve, and she'd go to the people in her life who always help her figure stuff out.
when max talks about it to sam, sam helps in that half-cringe but very thoughtful way she always does. she'd tell max about a woman who tried pursuing her, mer (in season 3, i think? when max was in chicago for college iirc). frankie would probably walk in during this conversation, and max would be annoyed at both of them—sam for being gross and telling her about someone pursuing her (ew, no one wants to hear about that from their mom) and frankie for being so nosy—but max would eventually settle down and listen.
sam would tell max that whatever she's feeling is great, that the only thing that max might regret is not exploring these feelings and figuring herself out a little more. frankie would say something about how it's fine to not know what you are and just see how it fits and how you feel, relating it to how non-linear their discovery of their gender identity was. frankie would help her realise that everyone's story isn't the same, as frankie tells her these stories about their other LGBT friends. some people feel like they've always known and some people go so long but then have a sudden realisation, like max, but that's all valid and normal. but yes duke and frankie would totally make fun of max for freaking out and acting like this over a crush at her big age.
especially with rich and the other trusted adults in max's life (like phil who would be so happy for max too, and ask all about you), max doesn't need to tell xander about it! his absence in their lives means that he doesn't get to know the real them until he shows an interest in knowing them. if he doesn't act like a dad then he doesn't get to be one, yknow?
when sudden awakenings happen and you reflect on your past, it's funny to see what you've missed. max would look back and think 'shit, i totally had a crush on shego' or something as she looks back at her cartoon crushes. even super close friendships she had growing up, max will realise 'hey maybe it wasn't het of me that i wanted to impress her that bad' or 'wow, i was really jealous when she got a boyfriend'.
ultimately when max accepts that her identity is actually an exciting thing that she gets to discover about herself, she would adore pride. i think learning about the history, the many struggles it took to get this far, and the support of the community is bolstering for any baby gay. but especially with how sam talks to them about feminism and to be proud to be women, it'd be something max thrives in. figuring out whether she identifies as bi or pan or even a lesbian is something that she knows will come in time - for now, she'll be overwhelmed with the love and support she has from the people around her, and a new community with people just like her. (i think max would find the lesbian flag super pretty)
*insert max doing an 'am i gay quiz' nick from heartstopper-style*
thank you for the ask! i love these ted talks!! people loving these characters gives me so much motivation to write em, seriously.
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letters-to-rosie · 1 year ago
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Minutes to Midnight is seriously and envy-inducingly good! But I just want to say that, when you said "one shot of all time", my mind immediately went to you've got your demons, and darling, they all look like me. And then I got reminded of why it's my personal favorite (other than it being plain good, ofc): the summary. A well-written fic is a well-written fic, obviously, but the perfect summary really adds to the experience. Like how it catches your eye and makes your heart race because you know that an author who can write such a summary... well. They also can and probably did write a fic that blows your clothes off and turns them inside out before sending them to the hamper. It's about the anticipation.
Ahem, so anyway. I started thinking about how few words one needs to evoke an emotional response, and I wanted to share my excitement about that.
ahhhh thanks for the recommendation!!
I'mma use this as a little bit more time to gush over Minutes to Midnight just because, and then gush over you've got your demons as well because oh man. thank you for sending it my way!!
Ekko is my favorite character, but I am also a big fan of making him Worse, and I love how Minutes to Midnight does it in a way that feels so authentic. like I can extrapolate him right away from what we see in the show. and this is the only fic I can think of that really takes it to such an extreme, but again it's done so compellingly that it really feels like a Jinx version of Ekko, even if Jinx remains similarly filled with rage. there are just so many lines I love and I could list them all day but when it culminates at the end, tying together the time themes and the regret and the betrayal it's just... I love it so much
one line for fun: She’s bleeding, choking, underneath him, and he hits her, and hits her, don’t you get it, I could have done this anytime I wanted but I didn’t, I didn’t, I gave you my life and you threw it back in my face, even as she claws at him alley-cat-desperate.
every time I read it, I'm just in my room, actually screaming lol
and now for you've got your demons!!!!
there were also a ton of lines I could have pulled out but then we'd be here all day but
Dark against light - though the light has always been Ekko. i cry She chose him long before he chose her. i cry endlessly Powder never asks Vi her favorite color, because she doesn’t know what she’d do if she didn’t say the same thing Ekko did. a never-ending stream
but man it's just so stunning. like you said, I love how few words it uses to get its story across. getting to read prose that packs that sort of punch is always so special. Powder/Jinx is just so relatable and you really feel her struggles come through. her tangle of confusion and not getting things like marriage really resonated with my ace self (and I always enjoy an ace-spec Jinx). but her crush was so precious I just wanted to hug her and let her be happy with Ekko and maybe my delusional ass can imagine that they are someday in that fic universe lol
and the way the summary gets entirely recontextualized at the end????? INCREDIBLE truly a one-shot of all time. we have to make it an indefinite article now lmao
I got super lucky because the author of "you've got your demons" wrote my gift for the secret santa we just had!! that fic is called Moonlight Refuge and let me tell you if it didn't convey every emotion I wanted, which is the "I should want nothing to do with you but I can't help myself" part of timebomb, and in this one it's mutual and just fantastic. I spent like half my comment writing AHHH because the emotions were just everywhere it was a good time
also hi @cranechel we're in the corner gushing over your fic... I will leave a comment soon but wanted to answer this lol
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rigelmejo · 3 months ago
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Little notes:
I tend to do whatever is easiest for me, if there's other options available. If there is a way to look something up, but it is Work, then I'll choose not to look something up. I'm lazy.
So I found this audio drama today, no idea what the title is and still trying to figure out. It's normal for some audio dramas on bilibili to avoid using the actual audio drama title, so they don't get taken down as fast (i imagine), so I usually recognize it if it's something I KNOW (like a priest audio drama) by the author name or character names in the title or description. Today I'm listening to this.
It's interesting. I love the theme song that plays at the end of episodes. Now I really want to know the NAME, so I can try to look up the end song on youtube, since youtube often has audiodrama theme songs on it. And on youtube i could add it to my music playlist. I am forced to finally read rhe title and description, which I had not bothered doing until just now at 2 hours into it. 丁昭 and 程诺文 are the main characters. Still have no idea what the audio drama title is, have any of you heard of it? Edit: I have found the title from the names! 金刚不坏
HAHA I FOUND IT
This is the song I like
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This is the other song I like from it, in english:
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(This song is on repeat rn because I'm so into the old radio hits vibe of it)
My point is that I would have not read the description, if I hadnt really wanted to save that song to my youtube playlist lol.
So, weibo lets you browse without an account. So I browse, lately looking up 光渊 stuff. Weibo has a click translate feature, so I use it. Because im lazy. I read the first half of a sentence of a post, the second it feels hard, i click to translate instead. I might look at the chinese afterward, and compare it with the translation. But i probably translate a LOT that i could have just... read. I only read the art manhua people share, because i MUST read them. Theres no translate button lol.
So given all this, do I listen to show audio? Not really, if theres subtitles in any language. I rely on the stuff i can read, reading's easier for me. I have to make myself listen to the chinese, and compare it to the subtitles, if i see subtitles.
So I've been watching Guangyuan, obviously. I love MoDu. Ive been watching it with japanese subs. Thankfully, i can barely read japanese (except some kanji since they look like hanzi). So I have HAD to listen to the chinese dialogue. No other choice.
Yesterday I found the modaozushi japanese stage play on bilibili, and of course its only in japanese audio. I have not found anyone make chinese subtitles yet. So i was trying to watch it last night. Baffled I managed to follow what i did.
It reminded me of a couple years ago, I watched the whole Japanese dracula musical with no subtitles because i REALLY WANTED TO SEE IT and thats the only way i could. (Id love to buy the dvd they released once, if anyone ever sees it for sale). My japanese was even worse then. Yet somehow I watched it and followed along.
Me really wanting to do something is a huge motivator, and me having NO OTHER OPTION but to do it in the language.
When RGG Ishin was only available in japanese, no english version was released yet, I got it and played the start. I dont know how I managed to follow enough to follow the main plot but i did. I looked up a translation and explanation video later on the game, and realized i was making guesses on Dialects (and historical forms of words) I had no prior knowledge of when I was playing. If I had known that in advance of playing in japanese, I probably would have felt it was "too hard to try." But I didn't know. And it worked out.
Its funny to me when I go to japanese study for a while, after all this Chinese study I do. Because like... my Chinese and French are probably at similar levels, maybe Chinese is B1 in reading? French is B2? Listening in Chinese is better than my french listening, theyre both intermediate though. Ive learned enough I dont forget how to read what I can read, I dont forget how to understand what I can listen to.
Japanese is like... definitely A2/upper beginner. Its beginner. Or very low intermediate. Its at that point where outside of graded readers, some stuff is SLIGHTLY doable to understand. But it takes intense effort, focus, feels draining to try and understand, and understanding is vague and broad (few details if any). Its like Chinese was 3 years ago for me. It feels wild to feel the drop in comprehension from 80%+ of most things (knowing what the main idea is and some details), to 50% (knowing what some of the main ideas are - if i'm lucky, no details). I am like wow I cant believe I pushed through this phase in French and Chinese, its a draining frustrating phase!
I tried rewatching a couple cdramas I've seen in chinese like 3-4 years ago, and because I notice so many details now it Feels equally hard - but i notice so much more now. And i can realize how general and vague my initial understanding had been. Its like... watching some movie for adults thats complicated at age 10, following the main idea (maybe they save the day!), but then rewatching at age 20 and realizing how many themes the movie has, what its commenting about society, the subversions its doing, the nuanced mystery plot that you didnt even notice being foreshadowed and revealed at age 10.
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Fic Writer Tag Game
I'm a bit late doing this, but thank you @olenskas for tagging me in this lil game!
Anyone who wants to participate, go on ahead!
How many works do you have on AO3?
Five... for now...
What's your total AO3 word count?
136,475. I'll hopefully hit over 140k after I drop this next chapter of Half-Life.
Your top 5 stories by kudos?
Well, considering I only have five fics, I'll just put them in descending order:
Half-Life - Resident Evil 4, 36.9k, Plaga!Leon Kennedy/F!Reader, Unfinished Chapter Fic
The Betrayer - Dead by Daylight & Resident Evil, 72.6k, Chris Redfield/F!Reader/Albert Wesker, Unfinished Chapter Fic
Madness is the Color Green - Marvel Cinematic Universe, 13.3k, Thor Odinson/F!Reader/Dark!Loki Laufeyson, Unfinished Chapter Fic
More - Dead by Daylight & Resident Evil, 4.1k, Leon Kennedy/F!Reader, Finished One-Shot
Tend The Light - Dead by Daylight & Alan Wake, 9.4k, Alan Wake/F!Reader, Finished One-Shot
Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
Oh, baby, do I. I love the interaction! I love seeing people's opinions on my work! I get so excited when someone says something nice to me, especially if they put a lot of thought into their comment or asked questions. I eat that shit UP.
Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Lmao, all my current fics have smut or will have smut in them. I'm a freak like that. As for the type... I mean, I explore all sorts. Some of them are soft and romantic, some of them are dark and rough. I just love putting some kind of emotion into them. Though I suppose I haven't posted the darker smut scenes just yet, but they're coming (ba dum tsh).
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
No, thank god. But with the rise of AI fics, there's always a possibility lol. A reminder to please not steal my fics or use them for AI fodder, thanks.
Have you ever had a fic translated?
Nope. Would be cool though!
Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Yes, way back in high school, me and two of my friends wrote a BBC Sherlock fic together with self-insert OCs. It got mildly popular on Wattpad lmfao, but it was never finished and that account was deleted so it doesn't exist online anymore. I still have the files for it in my docs though, for the nostalgia. I doubt I'll ever revisit it, but it was my first real foray into fanfic writing and without it, I wouldn't be the writer I am now. <3
What's your all time favorite ship?
I'm gonna be so real with you, I almost exclusively read reader insert fics. I enjoy some ships in passing, but it's not something I really care about or obsess over. That being said, there's something compelling about Roman Roy and Gerri Kellman in Succession. But I guess my real answer is currently my reader insert with Logan Howlett. I need him bad.
What's a WIP that you want to finish but probably never will?
Oh boy, there's many, sadly. I try to tell myself I'll come back to those stories eventually though. And hell, I might. Never say never. In particular, I have a Moon Knight/F!Reader fic idea in my docs that I'm not sure how to actually write. Maybe someday.
What are your writing strengths?
I think I'm really good at capturing a character's essence, mostly because I study them like a critter under a microscope until I understand them in my own terms. I also think I write pretty decent prose, and I feel like I inject emotion into my stories well.
What are your writing weaknesses?
Ugh. Obsessing over minute details that really don't matter. It hinders my progress, but in my mind, it has to be perfect. Despite that mindset, you wouldn't believe how often I go back and edit my work retroactively lmao. Oh, and over-explaining or over-describing things. I have that quirk where if I believe if I go into enough detail, I'll make more sense, but later realize I made it more confusing lmao. My biggest writing flaw though? Taking approximately 800 years to write literally anything. God, do I wish I was more prolific. Alas.
What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet, but want to?
God, so many. The amount of little fic concepts I have in my docs is crazy. Currently, I'd love to dive into a COD fic. Specifically a Poly!141/F!Reader one. I had this pirates AU idea, but there's no real plot there lmao.
What's your favorite fic that you've written?
This is difficult because I put my heart and soul into my fics, but right now, I have to say Tend The Light. I honestly think it's my best writing yet. The irony that it's my most niche work is not lost on me lol.
Thanks for reading!
Here's my Tumblr fic masterlist:
Sapphires And Silver Linings Catalogue
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deliciouspirateangel · 7 months ago
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Putting down my thoughts on Wicked for posterity. General stuff first and spoilers under the cut
I liked a lot of the aesthetics of stuff but god the colors are so washed out. Look at Wizard of Oz then look at this. It’s embarrassing.
No complaints on the vocals, everyone delivered. The weakest were probably Morrible and the Wizard but they don’t have big singing roles
I cried the entire time. But every 30 minutes or so I’d ask myself “am I crying bc the movie is making me cry? Or because I love Wicked in general?” I think it was the second
For a movie over two and a half hours, it didn’t feel long at all. Felt like it flew by
There were maybe a dozen people in our theater but we were all dressed up, all singing. I had my Madame Alexander Elphaba doll in her Shiz uniform with me, and my sister brought a giant bubble wand and blew bubbles when Glinda first appeared. It was fun 🩷💚 I’m gonna see it five more times in theaters
I tried to go in as blind as possible. No interviews, no articles, no watching or listening to song clips. I didn’t even know Idina and Kristin had cameos, but I wept when I saw them. The bit went on maybe a minute too long but it was still enjoyable
Loved all the references to the Wizard of Oz movie that I caught. Mainly Elphaba riding her bike with the lion cub in the basket, and someone using the word “gulch” lol. Oh, and the old timey title card was cute
The costumes were great but why were there so many repeat outfits? Madame Morrible wore multiple outfits multiple times. Boq and Fiyero didn’t even get second outfits. And I mourn Glinda’s cute white school uniform and yellow One Short Day dress. And the blue in general from the stage show
Buuut I know they were pushing the pink&green aesthetic sooo hard in the marketing and merch, and obviously it’s hoping to be a bit of a Barbie spiritual successor, so whatever. At least all of Glinda’s costumes were gorgeous
I loved the Wizard’s little miniature of the whole country. It reminded me of a WoO themed Polly Pocket set I had as a kid.
The way they thought they needed an action scene at the end? They did not need it. I didn’t hate it but it was just like come on can we focus
And ugh the ending song. I’m disappointed in how that was arranged. I didn’t mind Elphaba falling at first and seeing her little self and then coming up. But idk the way they kept stopping and starting the song when they should’ve just run with it was a little bothersome.
Madame Morrible’s line delivery on “wicked witch” was also disappointing. It’s so iconic and important in the musical but there’s no emphasis on it here
I did like the change to “Something Bad”, and having the little meeting of all the talking animals instead of just Dr Dillamond and Elphaba in the classroom
And like idk I felt like there could’ve been some more creative camera work over all. There were a few attempts but idk. People need to learn how to spice things up for musicals, visually
That’s all the specifics I can think of right now. If you read all this, ily 🩷💚🩷💚
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stolenslumber · 2 years ago
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devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes (preview)
Jay needs someone to pretend to be his girlfriend, and you're just the person for the job— seriously, you're almost a professional at this point, regularly charming the families of your idiot twin's friends who need your help getting their parents off their back. You have strict rules, though: (1) you'll only pretend to be someone's girlfriend on three occasions, maximum, (2) nobody is allowed to catch feelings, and (3) you get three favors in return. Too bad Jay is hellbent on breaking every last one of them.
PAIRING: park jongseong x female reader GENRE: fake dating, college au, vaguely greek life au, vaguely rich kid au, acquaintances to partners in crime to fake relationship to lovers i guess? lol, jake is your twin bc i thought it would be funny WARNINGS: swearing, (eventual) kissing and suggestive content WORD COUNT: ~2.3k (preview), final word count TBD but likely long knowing myself PUBLISH DATE: probably in the next two weeks!
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“WHY DO YOU LOOK SO NICE?” 
“Why do you sound so surprised?” You scoff, tossing the apple you were just about to eat at Jake’s head. Annoyingly, he catches it in mid-air, then makes a show out of polishing it with his shirt and taking a big bite out of it. “Hey, I was going to eat that, asshole.”
“Shouldn’t have thrown it at me, then.”
You roll your eyes at your twin, then go to retrieve another apple from the fruit bowl. It’s surprisingly well-stocked, given that you’re in a frat’s kitchen. Honestly, it’s surprising that there even is a fruit bowl in a frat’s kitchen, but the president of this frat runs a tight ship.
Said president appears in the doorway just then, snatching the apple from your hands as well as the one from Jake’s hands. “Guys, seriously, you have to wash these before you eat them.”
You and Jake both whine simultaneously. “Chan!”
“I already took a bite out of that, bro,” Jake complains.
“I’m starving, please have mercy,” you beg.
Chan whips his head around from where he’d begun washing the apples in the sink to fuss at you. “What? Why haven’t you eaten yet? It’s almost 9pm!”
“Which reminds me— why do you look so nice?” Jake repeats.
“I had a thing with Mark,” you sigh.
“You can just say you were pretending to be his girlfriend; we all know what you mean,” Jake snorts.
“I had a thing with Mark,” you repeat, resisting the urge to throw another apple at Jake’s head. “It was at this ballroom downtown, and of course he had nothing to wear, so I had to take him shopping first, which made us late, and then his parents wouldn’t stop talking my ear off about how I need to convince him to give up the music major, so I couldn’t touch any of the food there. Not even the foie gras torchon,” you recall mournfully. “We just got back, like, five minutes ago.”
Chan hums sympathetically— he knows how much you love foie gras torchon. “You can probably ask for an endless supply in return for your appearance at today’s thing,” he suggests, only half-joking. It absolutely sounds like the kind of thing Mark Lee would agree to, what with his ridiculously large inheritance and hapless generosity (last month, Mark lost thousands of dollars in some animal shelter-related pyramid scheme, marketed to him by none other than Haechan Lee).
You wave a hand dismissively. “Nah, I’m keeping Mark’s favor for something else.”
Jake raises an eyebrow. “What else?”
“Whatever it turns out I need in the future, dumbass. What’s it to you, anyways?”
“Just wanna make sure the poor guy doesn’t end up trapped in your snares forever, little sis. Yo, can I have that apple back?” Jake turns to Chan with characteristic puppy eyes.
“You’re only older than me by eight minutes,” you grumble, the age-old retort slipping out of you before you can help it.
“No, Jaeyun, you cannot. And don’t talk to your sister like that— oh my god, why do I sound like Taeyong,” Chan mutters, thinking about his predecessor frat-president-slash-mother-hen.
“Jeez, government name and everything.” Jake holds his hands up, relinquishing his claim to the apple.
“In fact, your sister gets to have both of these apples, after I clean and cut them up, because she is a saint for continuing to save our asses from our parents like this,” Chan lectures, unceremoniously carving out the chunk of the apple with Jake’s bite marks and tossing it into the trash bin.
“Real ones get it!” You reach out and high-five Chan.
“That is so unfair, c’mon, man!” Jake splutters. “She gets just as much out of these fake relationships— seriously, didn’t you drive her around everywhere for, like, a month after she went to that wedding with you?”
Both you and Chan shudder at the memory. “Ugh, my worst cousin and the worst guy he was ever with. They’re still married, by the way.” Chan shakes his head. “God knows why.”
“Love conquers all…?” Jake offers.
“What the hell are you talking about love for,” a new voice grumbles. Jay strolls in through the doorway, hands full with plastic bags promising wonderful things based on how your stomach reacts to the smell.
“Oh, hell yeah, chicken!” Jake cheers. “Took you long enough, bro.”
“Traffic was hell, something about a ball downtown, and— oh. Hey.” Jay stops abruptly at the sight of you, now munching on the apple slices Chan hands you, one by one.
You wave vaguely in his direction, too busy eating to respond. Jay is one of your brother’s friends who you don’t know that well, since you’ve never pretended to be his girlfriend. It’s strange that you two don’t know each other better, actually— as the social chairs of your sorority and his fraternity, respectively, you would usually have a lot to work on together. But this year has been particularly busy for you, what with your senior thesis and your various things with Jake’s frat brothers, and you had delegated most of your social chair responsibilities to your co-chair, Yunjin, who was far better suited to the social part of the job, anyways. You suspected Jay had done the same thing, since the two of you only ever texted to confirm budgets for any joint events.
“You need to have more than one-and-three-quarters of an apple for dinner,” Chan scolds you, parental instincts back in full force.
You shrug, about to turn around and rifle through the cabinets to see if you can find some peanut butter to add to your apple slices when a takeout container appears in front of you. Tired and still starving, you react rather slowly, your eyes tracing up the hand on the container to the veins of an arm belonging to none other than Jay.
“You look hungry,” is all he says, before popping the container open for you and rearranging the rest of the plastic bags on the counter. “Jake, tell the others to come down for food.”
The others means that soon, there will be an influx of hungry frat brothers in the kitchen, and you have no desire to be anywhere near that, so you mumble a quick thank you to Jay, plop the rest of the apple slices into the takeout container (against Chan’s complaints about the contamination), and move to leave the kitchen, eager to be on your way to your sorority house.
The last thing you overhear before you leave is Jay asking, “Why did your sister look so nice?”, and Jake and Chan responding in unison, “She had a thing.”
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A few days later, when they’re doing work in the library, Jay asks Jake, “So how long have Mark and your sister been seeing each other?”
Jake’s pencil jerks across his graph paper, a jagged line appearing on the page at the same time that he swears. “Dude, what the fuck?”
“Dude, what the fuck,” Jay echoes flatly. “Didn’t you say she had a thing with Mark?”
Jake blinks. “Well, sure, in the same way that she’s had a thing with Chan, and Yeonjun, and Vernon, and all the others.”
Jay gapes at him. “Your sister dated all of them? And all the others?”
“What, no, she didn’t date them, she fake-dated them! Just a couple of times, mainly showing up to things with their families so their parents would leave them alone about finding a partner and all that. You know how the parents are.” Jake gestures vaguely, referring to the oddities of the world of wealth they were born into.
Jay nods slowly, understanding dawning upon him. Does he know how the parents are? Oh, does he ever. He has always had a good relationship with his own, but they had been more pushy on the whole love thing as of late, with the not-at-all subtle questions his mother asks about any special someones in his life and the unfunny jokes his dad cracks about how he’s still spry enough to help raise grandchildren. Especially unfunny, given the health scare his dad had given them all in the last year.
Jake’s voice brings him out of his veering-towards-morbid thoughts. “But seriously, bro, how is this news to you? My sister’s been doing this… Cinderella-genie thing for over two years now.”
Jay’s eyebrows furrow. “Cinderella-genie thing?”
“Yeah, I mean, she transforms our frat brothers into respectable young men with a respectable relationship, but only for three occasions, and she gets the same number of favors back.” Jake wrinkles his nose. “It sounds weird when I say it like that, and don’t get me wrong, I love to give her shit for it, but it’s all above-board stuff. Sunghoon bought her bubble tea for like, three months.”
“She fake-dated Sunghoon?”
At the mention of his name, Sunghoon pops one side of his headphones off. “What’s up?”
“You fake-dated Jake’s sister!?”
Sunghoon shushes him before responding. “Yeah, don’t you remember? It was a couple of months ago.”
Jay’s ears flush, both at how loud he had unconsciously gotten, and at the reminder that he really has been out of it for a while now. It’s not like he’s been living under a rock, but he has definitely been spending a lot more time with his parents and away from his friends ever since his dad’s health scare.
“She was great, though,” Sunghoon continues. “My mom still thinks I made the biggest mistake of my life ‘letting her go.’ But she’s also been leaving me alone about ‘finding love’ because she thinks I’m heartbroken, so yeah, Jake’s sister works wonders.”
Jake smirks. “Sim genes, man. Elite stuff.”
Sunghoon scoffs. “You wish. Didn’t I hear your mom yelling at you on the phone the other day for not having settled down yet?”
“Ugh, don’t remind me. Does she not realize what decade this is, I mean, we’re still in college—”
Jay interrupts what looks to be the beginning of a long rant from Jake, cutting him off with, “So where can I sign up?”
Jake stares blankly at him. “Sign up for what?”
“The Cinderella-genie thing.”
Sunghoon scrunches his face awkwardly. “Uh, she kind of has a waitlist, buddy.”
Jay waits for him to laugh and say he’s just kidding, but he doesn’t. “Are you serious?”
“Yeah, she doesn’t do the fake-dating thing for multiple people at the same time, and she’s pretty busy with all her shit, so I’m not sure how long of a queue you have ahead of you…”
“Okay, but Jake could get me ahead, right? Cut the line, or something? C’mon dude, I’m your best friend.” Jay is suddenly desperate, remembering the conversation he’d had with his mom on the phone last night, where she had dreamily recalled meeting his dad in college and delicately reminded Jay that he could have a plus-one to the Parks’ upcoming 50th wedding anniversary celebration.
Jake eyes his friend warily. “I dunno, she really doesn’t like stuff like that. Unfair advantages, I mean.”
“My parents aren’t getting any younger, Jake, and you know, with my dad last year and everything…” Jay does his best approximation of batting his eyelashes at Jake.
“Are you guilt-tripping me?”
“A little?” Jay’s smile turns a little maniacal. “For real, my parents have their 50th wedding anniversary coming up, and it would be the perfect event to bring her to so I can reassure them that things are going well in my love life.”
“Are things going anywhere in your love life?” Sunghoon’s tone is skeptical, and reasonably so.
Jay has been distant lately because of his family, but even before that he had always been known as somewhat aloof and unattainable. Devastatingly handsome, yes, with killer grades and fierce ambition, and a business empire to inherit to boot, but he is also his parents’ one and only miracle child, born after years of trying and almost giving up. Jay’s parents are older than all of his friends’ parents, and their family business has always been that— a family business. Jay has two years after graduation to learn the ropes in the business, and then he’ll be due for an MBA, and then a return to helm the business, but this timeline has recently felt more urgent than ever with his parents’ flagging health. They would never say it, but he knows the only reason they haven’t retired yet is because they don’t want to hand over control of the business to anyone but him. Jay has worked his ass off in college, trying to get there as fast as he can, as well as he can. But his parents also want him to enjoy college and find true love, and while he’s been doing pretty well with the former, the latter has been on the backburner for, well, forever. Who has time for true love, in between classes, fraternity duties, the various shenanigans his friends get up to, internships, networking, TA-ing, volunteering, being on the executive board of two clubs, and eating, sleeping, dreaming, and thinking?
So. No. Things are not going anywhere in his love life, and he confirms just as much to Sunghoon with a grunt, to which Sunghoon wheezes out his amusement.
Jake eyes Jay with pity, now. “Alright, that guilt trip was successful, but more so because you just admitted to being bitchless for so long. I’ll put in a good word to my sister for you.”
Jay perks up instantly. There is light and beauty in this world after all! “Awesome, thank you bro, you won’t regret this, I promise!”
“I wasn’t planning on it, but those are famous last words, Park.” Jake raises an eyebrow at him. “Are you sure you can handle my sister?”
“Why not? She seems… nice.” Jay is slightly evasive in his answer, and truthfully, it’s because he isn’t really sure what you’re like. All your interactions to date have been cordial, almost business-like, and you and Jake are fraternal twins, so it’s not even like he’s really familiar with what you look like. He is, however, sure that you look beautiful in a ballgown, even if he only saw you in one in his frat’s kitchen.
Jake chortles outright. “No, my sister is not nice. Yeah, I’m definitely going to convince her to help you, just because I think it’ll be hysterical watching her turn you inside out. Good luck, my brother in Christ, because you’ll need it!”
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sappho-of-space · 2 years ago
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20 Questions Writer Meme:
I was nominated by the lovely @ashilrak to participate in this. Answering the these questions was a fun- a little walk down memory lane and a reminder of how much I've grown.
1. How many works do you have on ao3?
47!
2. What's your total ao3 word count?
189419
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Mostly Percy Jackson at the moment! I've written snippets for The Magnus Archives and Danny Phantom. I've also contemplated writing for Marvel for a while.
4. What are your top five fics by kudos?
1. A God in Chains (3151)
2. At the Armrest of a God (3149)
3. we both have bad taste in men, but at least we have each other (2073)
4. cookies aren't the only hot thing here (1713)
5. you and i until eternity (1705)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
Complicated answer. I did in the past until I dealt with some harrassment/negativity with a previous fandom. It scared me away from interacting with any that I didn't really know on my own fics. I've found a lovely new community, so I'm trying to respond to comments more to show everyone how much I appreciate them.
6. What's the fic you wrote that has the angstiest ending?
I actually had to skim a few of my fics to remember their endings, lol. My answer is probably:
another flower in a garden of tragedies
Or
Of New Blood and Old Hyacinths
7. What's the fic you wrote that has the happiest ending?
I've written a lot of fluff with happy endings, so I'll just answer this with the fic with my favorite ending.
"we both have bad taste in men, but at least we have each other" is a win for the lesbians and was just so much fun to write. I've gotten a lot of requests for a continuation of it, and I've had some ideas, but nothing enough to put to paper.
8. Do you get hate on fics?
Lmao, yes. I've orphaned about 7 fics from a previous fandom because of the toxicity of the fandom (My Hero Academia). It was everything from demanding updates to trying to 'cancel' me for no reason but because they didn't like how I portrayed a character. On my most recent fics, there hasn't been much overtly negative- just jokes/comments that don't land well. Overall, I'm happy with my new community.
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Yes, lmao. I write hedonistic shit that would make even the most stone cold nun blush. Looking through my fics makes me realize I really enjoy temple/altar defilement.
10. Do you write crossovers?
None yet, but I'm not opposed! I enjoy reading them when they tick all of my boxes, but I will admit, I can be pretty picky.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
None that I know of, but I wouldn't be surprised.
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Yes! Just one. I thought it was very sweet and adored the fact that someone liked my writing enough to spend time translating it.
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Just one, but I'm very open to doing more! I've written in a rouns robin, but I think I would prefer doing a full co-write with one or two other authors.
14. What's your all-time favorite ship?
Very hard, but probably spideypool. I've had a Spider-Man fixation for about half my life, and I simply love Deadpool. Besides spideypool, probably perpollo or jonmartin.
15. What's a wip you want to finish, but don't think you ever will?
I don't think I have one? I have 4 wips currently. One has an ending well in sight. Another has 15k words already, and I refuse to let all that go to waste.
16. What are your writing strengths?
Descriptions and pacing! I've been told a few times that people enjoy reading my au's because I don't infodump all at once, I make the gathering of information feel natural and comfortable. I personally love my visual metaphors.
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
Time management. I'm generally very busy and get easily distracted. Getting myself to sit down and actually write is a pain.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
I try to write around using another language if I don't know a native speaker who could help me. Writing in German would be no problem for me (I studied it in college), but I would shy away from anything else.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Attack on Titan (I was in 8th grade, lol). I published it on Wattpad, and it did fairly well before I deleted it.
20. Favorite fic you've written?
This is almost impossible to answer, but I loved writing "And Spring Will Come Again." It was for a fic exchange that I pinch hitted for. I went a bit overboard with the nature imagery and metaohors, but I had fun researching folklore + mythology. Anything that requires research is very fun to me.
I, sappho-of-space, hereby nominate @celestialepiphany .
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sayitalianolearns · 10 months ago
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Diary entry 559
아… 감기에 걸렸다 ~.~ 요즘은 빨리 가고 싶은데 오늘은 '엘리자 천천히 가자' 자신에게 말하는 거야. 어쨌든… 호랑이 잡는 망태기라는 이야기 요약이 사진에서 있어. 대신 여기에 몇 문장이 있어 [이 이야기에서 새로운 단어아 문법을 찾았어]
문장 연습
(...버퍼링 중이다...)
나가고 싶었는데 밤이 되고 말았으니까 나갈 수 없어요.
저는 사진술에 대해 네가 말했을 때 귀가 솔깃해졌어요.
제가 이 책을 읽어도 될까요?
학교에 새로운 길을 발견했어요.
파티는 다음에 저는 너무 졸려서 제 친구의 집에 자고 갔어요.
봄에 나무의 나뭇가지에 꽃이 많아요.
선수가 그 신발을 꽉 묶었고 펄쩍 뛰었어요.
이 가위가 정말 뾰족해요.
그 사람이 갑자기 다가왔고 그러자 우리 친구 집으로 가버렸어요.
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what i learnt
yesterday i was having a hard time with this korean story. i made it through the half of the book and ofc stories are getting a little more complex (and i'm obv happy they are!). not to mention i historically have bad days in which i cannot speak any language (not even italian -so nice if i really wanna go abroad but yeah ig i'll make it through anyway lol...). i tried to keep calm and remind myself that these days don't happen to block me: i don't have to make them mean i'm taking steps backwards (but even if so, it'd be fine: i'll have better roots next) or i'm not good enough and i will never be able to be fluent in korean or anything of this kind (basically that i'm a walking failure). these are just tougher days, they happen not just while learning a language but generally in our life's experience. and getting out of our comfort zone and trying something more complex, even pushing through these tougher days (when we have the strength to), is the only way to get better at whatever we're attempting to do. so yeah, i told myself let's not consider my tiredness and my (yesterday only possible) cold, let's not add excuses: let's try to make it anyway. let's go slowly and get out of this uncomfortable place. so i made a couple of summaries, answered the questions on the book and focused on the grammar; while today i tried writing some sentences using those words and grammar. and yeah, hopefully i'm slowly learning something new and making a liiittle step forward. this is what matters the most to me right now. i need to focus on my story first, without comparing to anyone else's or on how much it's taking me to reach my goal.
song of the day
"... e poi, non è nemmeno bella..." throwback to that time a french guy wrote me about this song trying to dedicate it to me... lol (he was meaning good tho). i think also a swiss guy mentioned it to my parents when i was a kid and we were on vacation at the sea? yeah, of all the songs carrying my name, this is probably the most mentioned to me (together with beethoven's music)
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farever · 1 year ago
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Another mid July of hers
When I was thinking about this day, the word "suddenly" came to mind. "Wow, suddenly it's 26," I muttered. But then I realized that it was actually not a sudden thing that happened. that being this whole 26-year-old self was actually slowly happening since I was 25, 24, 23, and so on. That this self is such a constantly growing being, day by day, year by year.
I thought I was conscious enough of that, to live in the moment and embrace everything I have now. But it turns out the journey of being conscious is not happening in a day, week, month, or even a year, and then there you are living your best life consciously. It's more like a recursive lesson that life will teach you again and again in different styles without knowing where the finish line lies.
So many changes have been happening since the last mid-July. I finally got my second degree, landed my first job, got the second one, and even went across another continent I've never visited before to see how it was competently managed in a particular p.o.v. of mine. So many indelible moments happened, though, of course, they will always come with consequences in a bundle.
I thought I was good at learning something new, but there were times where I kept reading a paper for a week only to find out that I barely understood half of it the week after. There were times I spent hours just to find out one stupid error in my code could actually be solved easily by some random IT guy on stackoverflow ages ago (lol). Sometimes I cried, deep diving again into Dunning Kruger's valley of despair for the umpteenth time. Sometimes I think I am not capable of doing what I'm doing right now, but I remind myself again that this is a long-life learning process that I have decided to walk on, despite the seemingly endless list of fears I have had throughout this life.
Those endless lists of fears I had throughout this life.
If a phrase could depict the past six months of my life, it would be "to let go of fears, one at a time."
Since April, I finally decided to try an activity I probably feared the most as an introverted person: deliver speeches in front of people in English. It was challenging, yet surprisingly, I enjoy the process quite a bit: meeting new people, preparing & practicing for a speech (though it's hard as hell), and taking on some roles. Sometimes I think, Why have I even tried this hard to do something I do not really like? The answers are still hidden somewhere, waiting to be found some time later. But one thing I know for sure is that letting go of this kind of fear will put me at ease and allow me to keep on walking towards my dreams.
The same thing goes with these writings I kept for years. I finally decided to unearth them, to let go of fears I have against the possibilities of being read and known for my thoughts and feelings scattered everywhere on this microblog. I will let go of fears to be seen through the imperfections captured word by word—inconsistency, grammatical errors, anything you name it. This amateur, casual writer's indeed imperfect and will never be.
I have seen mid-July in different lights throughout the decades. One time it was like a blooming season; most awaited and felt so special. Other times it was just like another average, undocumented day in my life. But this time, I'd like to freeze it, turn it into immortal words that might remind my future self of all the precious learning and unlearning processes life has brought me to. 
Here's to another mid July He wants us to have, Far.
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daisymae-12 · 2 years ago
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20 questions for fic writers
thanks for the tag @kiwiana-writes ❤️❤️❤️
I wasn't going to do this because a silly part of me was feeling some imposter syndrome - mostly because I haven't published a fic for RWRB yet, and that makes me feel like I'm not a 'real' fic writer (yes silly I know) 🙃 reminded myself that I have published stuff on ffn/ao3 before even though it was 6+ years ago 😅 ANYWAY filled this out so I can look back in a year or so and see what's changed 🌞
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
5 on my old AO3 account that I pretend doesn't exist 😂 1 on my new AO3 (though it's just a fic where I dump my drabbles)
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
48k
3. What fandoms do you write for?
only RWRB now
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
lmao not going specifically name them because these days I like to pretend all my old fics don't exist but my fic with the most kudos (354) is a soulmate fic 😌
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
Mostly! (I've tried to respond to all of them but I'm always fighting the procrastination monster)
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? 7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Confession for these two questions - I've never actually finished writing a fic 💀 but! I don't think I could ever write an angsty ending - I need a happy ending 😂 I'm going to finish a fic one day, I swear (hilariously I think the first fic I'll ever finish will be the Vampire Henry fic at this rate LOL)
8. Do you get hate on fics?
Thankfully no
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
I've always planned to but I've never actually reached that part 💀 (see above confession about never having finished a fic lol)
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
Nope! Don't think it would be something I would do in the future either.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
No and I don't think anyone would want to steal any of my half finished fics LOL
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Nope
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Nope
14. What’s your all time favorite ship?
Alex/Henry 🥺
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
Ahh all the unfinished fics on my old AO3 account. Sometimes I still get comments on that soulmate fic asking if I'm ever going to update and while I'd love to finish it, I'm in a different headspace now from when I started it (10 years ago!)
16. What are your writing strengths?
Let me see if I've got an answer for this in a year because right now I genuinely don't know 😅
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
Does being a slow writer count? Never finishing a fic? I'm working on it 😅 I have 6 (whoops) WIP's right now and there's two that are SO CLOSE to being done - I've just got to keep fighting my easily distracted brain 🥲 The day I finish writing a fic, I'll genuinely cry and probably buy myself a cake to celebrate 😂
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
I'd like to? I do love reading fics that include Spanish dialogue. But my second language (Tagalog) is kinda useless for this? 😂 You'd think it'd be helpful cause it uses a lot of Spanish words/phrases, but it's too much of a different language overall to be of any use. (lol I'll read fics with Spanish dialogue and randomly be amused when I recognize a word that's the same in Tagalog - "I know that word!!!")
19. First fandom you wrote for?
HP (hate what jkr has done to taint it tho 🙃)
20. Favorite fic you’ve written?
Since I've never finished a fic, my fave WIP's right now are my Fake Dating/College AU fic and my Vampire Henry fic 🥰
no pressure tags as always (sorry if you've already done this and I missed it 😅) @heybuddy-drabbles @affectionatelyrs @littlemisskittentoes @cultofsappho @happiness-of-the-pursuit @read-and-write- @14carrotghoul @inexplicablymine @suseagull04 +anyone who wants to do this
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thatdesklamp · 2 years ago
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WAIT OMG-
been reading intrinsic warmth for a WHILE and your writing is top tier!! i always wondered to myself every time i’d read a chapter why the writing just STICKS, yk? i’m a MAJOR book girlie, i read 24/7.
AND THEN IMAGINE MY SURPRISE WHEN I READ ONE OF YOUR TAGS THAT YOU PUT UP ON ONE OF YOUR POSTS WHERE YOU WERE ANSWERING A QUESTION FROM ANOTHER LOVELY READER AND I SEE THAT YOU TOOK AN ENGLISH A LEVEL?
first of all (not 100% sure on this) but i’m pretty sure only british ppl take gcses, a levels, etc. YOU’RE BRITISH?
i feel like i’ve met my other half rn over something so tiny but yeah. IT LITERALLY EXPLAINS WHY YOUR WRITING IS SO GOOD:
i could point out the NUMBER of times i’ve seen juxtaposition, symbolism, foreshadowing in your fic to someone if they’d asked me to point it out for them. at first i thought you might’ve done it unknowingly, and then i decided that nope, bc foreshadowing is such a BIG writing technique that it simply couldn’t have been by accident.
it’s one thing to know about a writing technique and another to actually be able to SUCCESSFULLY incorporate it into your writing. if it isn’t clear enough, i’m saying that you did it AMAZINGLY. you’ve got a natural talent and i’m envioussss (in a supporting way ofc 😭).
you should really look into making your own book, and i think you EXCEL at the supernatural aspect of plot in stories. your writing is so unique and different yet so warm, it reminds me of autumn (my favourite season).
idk how to end such a long message, ultimately i don’t have a reason for typing this up and shit. ik you have tons of people probably saying the same thing and it might just get repetitive for you, but i wouldn’t feel comfortable not being part of said bunch-of-ppl-probably-saying-the-same-thing.
oh! and take your SWEET TIME updating. it’s your story, your fic, your writing. the ONLY thing we readers can give you as a payback and thanks is time, patience, and understanding <3333
RAHHH BRITTANIA 💪💪💪💪
Agh. Yes—I’m British (English to be precise, sweet sweet caroline etc), hence the use of ‘u’s in words like ‘colour’ and ‘humour’, and also why everyone’s parents are their ‘father’ or ‘mother’ and not mum/dad. ‘Mom’ feels too American but ‘mum’ feels too rah engerland, yk? I’ve mentioned previously that I’m looking forward to writing fics where the characters are actually from England and where I’m actually allowed to write them the way I talk, mostly. Good lord am I excited.
And yes lol I took English for an A-Level. Bloody smashed it too, if I get to brag, mwahaha. Didn’t take it any further (I’ve also previously said that I’m a # woman in stem uni student, which is true), but I still write a killer essay imo. Give me 10 minutes to do a refresher on ‘Othello’ (it’s been a while okay) and I can talk for donkeys about his tragic fall and how much of a wanker he is. Which he is! I’m a Desdemona defender for life.
You say ‘natural talent’. PLS. No!! God no. Not at all. I wish—that would’ve made it a lot easier, but whatever I can do rn is down to bloody years of toiling away on my shitty little laptop, I promise. I’ve got another anon ask that asked about some writing tips so I’ll do the bulk of them there but my number 1 will always and forever be to practise. Whatever skill I have now has been earned over the many years. You don’t even want to see some of the stuff that will never grace my ao3 page (atla had me in a chokehold through covid and I have never been the same).
But you are genuinely so complimentary: this is so so lovely of you. Thank you?? It’s really weird being someone who writes and also someone who enjoys analysing literature; you’re right, half of the ‘techniques’ are intentional (the number of times I’ve flicked through some chapters’ drafts and thought, ‘fucks sake none of this makes sense, I need to add some decent foreshadowing or none of this will make sense in two chapters’), but also so much of my writing is just thinking, ‘hmm, this doesn’t really feel right. No no, I don’t like the vibe of this. I want this to feel more GRAAHHH and less lalalala. Lemme change this up a bit’. Whether that leads to the whole, short sentences->speeds up the pace of the reader when reading the section->increased tension, mimics actual fight encounter, etc etc (all the stuff you blag on about in eng lit), then maybe that counts as intentional? And maybe not.
Making my own book? That’s lovely of you to say but I also really don’t have any ideas for anything non-fanfic’y! Lol. I love a good bit of canon compliance, that’s my issue. That being said—hey, another eng a level reference—I’ve made multiple references here to being the world’s #1 ‘Atonement’ hater. Unfortunately, it also lives damn rent free in my head and I’ve got the bare bones of a WW2-era, perhaps epistolary, longform fic buzzing around. (Fandom: Marauders. I’m a disgrace but here we go). I’ve written nothing for it and maybe I never will, but that’s one of the only things I can see as being more standalone from original canon. Anyway: it’s the fanfic life for me. Ali Hazelwood’s life is but a distant dream.
But anyway! Thank you again for your lovely words. The next IW chapter will take a very long time, I have to be frank, so thank you for the reassurance that that’s not absolutely disgraceful lmao T_T Thanks again!! <3
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alittlefrenchtree · 1 year ago
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oh one more question if I may: I would really like to know your impressions and opinions on all of us strangers 🥰
(then when we're ready we'll talk about duneeeee)
I often walk into screening rooms with very little knowledge about the movie I’m going to watch. All of us Strangers was one of them. I knew Andrew Scott and Paul Mescal were there, and I was pretty sure it was a love story without being certain of anything.
It was indeed a love story. And it wasn’t at the same time. At least not only, not to me.
I’m convinced that All of Us Strangers is the kind of movie everybody sees a little bit differently, depending on who they are and what their story is.
Undoubtedly, All of Us Strangers is a movie about grief, about love and about that delicate balance between being alone and feeling lonely. But, for me, all of this is quite secondary. For me All of Us Strangers is a movie about what it feels to be a writer. Or probably what it feels to be an imaginary/creative person, but mostly a writer. As the major part of my self definition is about writing, it was about being a writer for me.
For myriad reasons, I rarely feel like i’m watching a representation of myself on screen. I felt that with Her (Spike Jonze, 2013) in a level that was a bit life changing, and I felt a little bit of that with the Banshees of Inisherin (Martin McDonagh, 2022), on a more minor scale. Not to much through a character I would see myself in, but through the idea. The idea of love in Her, a bizarre idea of intellectual curiosity about friendship in the Banshees and the idea of being a writer with All of Us Strangers.
It’s quite bizarre for me -- who is as much a weirdo as an intellectual snob -- to watch something and feel seen, feel like someone, somewhere is thinking the way I think. It actually reminds me of something I learned in philosophy class (see, intellectual snob) in high school. The memory is freaking old (I’m ancient) so I don’t remember the name of the guy or how he put it exactly BUT the rough idea is: a poor man with the ability to dream himself as a king every night, in a coherent scenario that would goes on and on night after night, would be as (if not more) happy than a king who would dream himself as a poor man every night.
The idea has stuck with me and I think the movie is exactly about that. About the power of imagination, about the importance of what’s inside your head, about how your brain can be your worst enemy but also your biggest ally and provides you everything you need and everything life can’t give you if you know how to use it. About how little you need irl if you know how to navigate through all the realms that exist inside your head.
It’s funny because very different people would watch the movie and mostly see the sadness and the loneliness of it, which is entirely valid as well and, like I said, depends mostly of who you are.
Obviously Andrew’s and Paul’s performances are very good and the movie is beautiful but what I took away with me was the idea and the writing of the said idea.
But what I love even more is how the movie stayed with me ever since I've watched it. When I’ve seen it my thought was indeed "it was good but so sad lol" and all of this wanking and overthought ideas haheves developed in my head over the past two weeks because I think about it so often.
Anyway, I’m not sure you’ve asked for a half-review, half-self-therapy answer but this is what you’re getting anyway 😅 Thank you so much (again) for asking me this 💜 I was looking for an opportunity to write this but I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have without your ask 🫂
(i'm not sure i'll ever find the right words to talk about dune omg 😱)
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