#hard to explain

[smiles-on-a-rainy-day]

Thank you

viktojadesigns

[makingsenseofwhathappened]

Harassment doesn’t always roar. Sometimes it whispers. Sometimes it laughs. And sometimes it just watches to see if you’ll flinch...

[serpentface]

IT SEEMS LIKE I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE

[slfcare]

i so dont mean to ruin the mood or anything but

how do you survive and stay relatively positive when the world is getting worse and worse every passing second? would love to know 😭

I honestly think it’s really about bringing it all back to yourself in the here and now every once in a while. Don’t get me wrong, do stay updated with everything going on in the world, but be careful not to stray too far away from you.

It’s okay to create and participate in online spaces that are not about current events. It’s okay to put your phone away when you feel stressed out. It’s okay to focus on just your everyday responsibilities, no matter how mundane they are. It’s okay to not read the news for a day and instead take extra care of yourself, take things one at a time and keep yourself busy.

It’s okay to recognize when you’re starting to spiral, and instead say—hold on. There’s laundry to do and a dishwasher to unload and I should text my friends.

Everything seems to be falling apart at once and this gets magnified to an extreme when all you’re able to consume online is how screwed we are, to the point where not consuming the bad news feels like denying it. But that’s not the way to deal with it. Don’t let your feelings of helplessness make you isolate yourself in a bubble of fear and despair. Keep talking to people, keep hoping for better days, keep taking care of yourself and reflecting + evaluating how you’re feeling and what you can do about it in the moment. Keep putting energy and intention(!!!) into the mundane and keep moving forward.

This may not be directly applicable to staying positive, necessarily, but keeping yourself away from the opposite (getting lost in negativity instead) is the next best thing, and you can do better from there. Sometimes hope is really just about holding on to the things that don’t hurt you.

[jmgangel]

Is this anything?

[beabigbeabig]

devotion

[project-changeling-zero]

i kinda wanna get this off my chest.

as a transmasc non-binary, growing up and living in an AFAB body, with the circumstances that i am unable to transition at this moment, has been a really conflicting experience for me.

because i feel so. close with girlhood // womanhood, and feel like my voice should be taken into account, but then i feel incredibly fake and sexist and like i'm invading spaces because i want to be known as transmasc.

and i have to remember, men // AMABs can go through a lot of the traumas women // AFABs do, so to invalidate myself for what i went through just because "you're not a woman" makes me feel stupid, but it feels like i have to?

no one has said that i'm wrong, but i feel wrong. maybe i am.

to this day, i still struggle with fully accepting that i've suffered trauma related to girlhood, especially since there's no real "evidence" of it ( as in, i was sexually harassed // coerced, but never assaulted, for an example ), in comparison to other women in my life.

i dunno. i don't know if people talk about this much, maybe i shouldn't, but it gets consuming at times, and i spent more time wondering if i'm right to feel this way than the fact that i am and that there's trauma behind it.

it's really difficult to explain. i just feel like i'm a fraud. but also like i belong. and neither of them feel 100% 'correct' to me.

[dnphobic]

dan and phil are actually gonna be together forever huh?

[socialbutterfly19]

In my thoughts tonight. Been a very nice weekend. Learned a lot. Figured somethings out and still pushing forward

[iamthehappyjester]

Gman and laptop ai wheatly as a snack

[hektor-world]

I'm full of unsaid words, hard to say , hard to keep , hard to explain

[34saveme34]

btw I love the realism in smg4 so much

like gambling addiction outright getting you in bad trouble and only ever winning if you cheat or somehow get an unfair advantage

Puzzles not getting sane or anything in jail

I've been thinking n I really hope when it comes to that we'll see Puzzles getting out for real and like, their further interactions- because as I was thinking about it, they could be mighty awkward in the begininning, even with just Puzzles's childish nature

I'm not saying they won't get along, I'm saying that I feel like it won't be immediate? I don't know, it's hard to tell as of now that how much will they actually click

my one hope Ig is they won't full on hate each other

[y2kbeautyandother2000sstuff]

damn do I love The Strokes! I listen to a lot of music and most of it is heavier/grungier/angrier than they are, but I absolutely adore this whole album! I found this song in 2008 when I was working in a kitchen and it chilled me out bc being in a kitchen made me aggressive as fuck lol

"Hard to Explain" The Strokes

2001

Found on Youtube, The Strokes page

[kerizaret]

Remember if you can't focus. Give the sun a visit. Take a walk. And then hopefully you'll be cured

Not much sun tody 😔 and I'm not good at taking walks... i should try but it feels like so much to prepare for 😭 it would cure me for sure

I went to sleep though for a while and it helped a lot I think so 👍 there's something

[ang3linthesnow]

this song fills me with an inexplicable sadness

[oilith]

I find it interesting how in s1 eda seems to be the childish one out of the two sisters, but if you think about it lilith is actually extremely childish, much more than eda