#harm ocd

[ink-wells-and-feathers]

hey u. yeah person reading this. you don't have to reblog that thing if you don't want to. it doesn't make you a bad person if you don't. nothing bad will happen if you don't. if you're like me you're struggling with this. I understand I am too. but nothing bad is gonna happen and you're not a bad person.

[mr-bl00sky]

To everyone out there struggling with ocd, whether it be pure-o, relationship ocd, iocd, pocd, zocd, harm ocd sexually taboo ocd, otherwise taboo ocd, ocd surrounding numbers, checking ocd, or any other form of ocd I forgot to mention, I LOVE YOU. Please don’t forget that. You aren’t alone in your struggles. Everything is going to be okay, nothing is going to end in catastrophe. You are going to be okay. I love you all so much, you’re all so strong just for being here.

[therapeutic007]

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[nightcolorz]

Me: has POCD

Real life adult onTikTok with like 20 billon followers and an anime profile pic: did you know that it’s actually pedophilic for a seventeen year old to have sexual thoughts about another seventeen year old. That is pedophilic because they are sexualizing a minor. Yeah. Stay safe

another real adult on TikTok: It’s basically rape to pet your dog. The dog can’t consent and you’re molesting it. Pls kys if u have ever pet any animal or looked at one

self proclaimed “safe space” on tumblr: if you engage with any kink of any kind you are a disgusting sexual deviant and need to be put in prison with the other freaks and perverts. Normals only, crazies will be blocked

Self proclaimed feminist on TikTok: it’s pedophilic to be attracted to a short woman. We all know you think of her like a little child and that’s why she turns you on. Yeah. You child liker.

Flea, they/it, who has “kill all nazis” in their tumblr bio: you will be blocked on site if you engage with media that depicts portrays or acknowledges p3d0phili@ n0nc0n r4p3 In3st v10lence g07re or any other immoral content in any capacity. That is normalizing CP and is equivocal to committing a crime against children animals and women in real life yourself. DNI m01esters

Fleas mutual Barf: remember to do the sign of the cross six times if you ever see p3d0phili@ic fan art of Deku from my hero academia on ur tumblr for you page. If u don’t do it six times then the government will be alerted that u distributed and engaged with CP and they will come to ur house and arrest u

woman on TikTok: it’s actually pedophilic to experience sexual attraction to an adult. Every adult used to be a child, so you are sexualizing a former child by being attracted to an adult

Me:

[its-simply-just-krys]

harm ocd is one of the scariest disorders and i feel like it’s not talked about enough on here. the dark and impulsive thoughts and urges of it feels so dangerous. i feel dangerous. i’m constantly scared of myself and my thoughts.

[stellarcider]

hint for everyone who has real fucked up sexual/violent OCD obsessions: it feels real for everybody. yes, that real. you might have have unnerving sensations in your groin, in your fingertips, in your lips that make you feel like a set trap. you might understand the emotional logic of why somebody would like and do the things you're thinking about. in your hysteria, you might generate justifications for the act in your mind, unsure of whether you actually mean them. after however long you've been thinking about this one thing, you might feel completely numb to its horror and let your festering imagination play out beside you with no opposition. you might have thought so many bad things that you know you have crossed a line, where now, things forever cannot be undone or unknown. knowing you're horrible, you might not care.

and still, none of it is true.

in a year or three or more, you may know that the roiling mess of your brain isn't what you are, that you do not have that awful secret, and that you are never going back to believing it.

[ack-cough]

(You look around the table and see your family. You're normally not this quiet at the table, and they clearly notice-)

(you might as well TAKE your fill)

(!!!)

(You excuse yourself from the table and head the bed early. You try to ignore their confused looks and worried questions)

[bisexualseraphim]

Me: So yeah I think the reason I’m so misanthropic is because people are so unforgiving these days. I do believe anyone can grow and change no matter what they’ve done and I personally don’t give a shit if someone tweeted something rotted 12 years ago when they were 15.

Therapist: Mhm, so you agree that you are also not a terrible person and worthy of forgiveness for mistakes you made years ago?

Me: Pffft naaahhh not me I’m the most evil motherfucker who ever existed. Genghis Khan would quake with fear upon seeing me. Didn’t you know I caused 9/11? I was literally a baby but I’m sure it was my fault somehow

[eyepocalypse-adventures]

Harm OCD flag

[PT: Harm OCD flag /end PT]

A flag for anyone with a harm OCD subtype or wishes to have this subtype for any reason.

[ocd--culture--is]

moral/harm ocd culture is asking "are you sure" 100 times when someone says you're not a bad person.

[cupboard-of-npd]

Having ocd and autism is just eating something and it tasting wrong™ and immediately 'I JUST ATE POISON AND IM GOING TO DIE IN 7 DAYS'

[genericruleroftheflies]

I’ve thought about it a little and I think Misaki has OCD. I’m not expert I just have my OCD experience to go off of so maybe I’m projecting but...

Disclaimer: I have gone to therapy for OCD but I’m not a therapist or anything so take what I say with a grain of salt I’m just reading into a fictional character.

To me, Misaki shows some more obvious traits of OCD, aka the kind people are typically familiar with, cleaning and organizing. And while he does the cooking and cleaning as part of his rent to live in Usagi’s house, there’s an extra/mini/preview where before they live together Misaki needs to clean Usagi’s house before he can start to study for his entrance exams. So while I believe Misaki does actually like to cleaning, cook, and organize all are things he does a bit compulsively.

He cannot begin to think about studying until Usagi’s house is clean… and he’s made him food and dessert for the next week!

My point is that this reads as more “obsessively cooks and cleans for comfort when he’s stressed out” rather than just cooks and cleans because it’s covering rent. Also because we know Usagi doesn’t give af about money or Misaki paying rent.

And I think it’s of note that cooking and clean is what Misaki starts to do as a child after his parents die and his brother is work all day every day.

This ties into what I think is another *possible* OCD type or OCD signs that Misaki shows. While I think it’s written like he has misplaced guilt over his parent’s death because he feels like it was his fault… I do think it’s possible those play hand in hand.

Misaki doesn’t want to ever be trouble to anyone or ask for anything, because he fears if he does it could lead to someone being hurt. To me, that kind of sounds like Harm OCD.

But I could understand if someone says it’s more like survivors guilt than OCD.

Harm OCD I believe like many pure O (obsession without physical compulsion) OCD types deals with intrusive thoughts in this case thoughts of harming others.

If I was to describe it in Misaki’s case it wouldn’t be that he would harm others so directly but his thought process is like “if I bother this person with my wants—> they will die” or at the very least “they will be troubled” and that in itself to me is quite an intrusive, OCD thought. (But I myself do not struggle so specifically with harm OCD at least it’s not my main problem… but pure O in general, yes.)

Misaki gets this from the belief that his parents died because he asked them to hurry home.

This not wanting to trouble people is like the main through line of Misaki’s character, in continues throughout the manga.

I would even say his main internal conflict (after initially getting together with Usagi) is between wanting not to trouble people vs being selfish. And it’s wanting to be with Usagi that makes him actually push back on this tendency of his. Tendency… maybe coping mechanism…

(This is when he is telling his brother about Usagi in act 52)

All this to say, Misaki may obsessively cook and clean as well as obsessively avoid doing anything that could cause anyone trouble in an attempt to relieve his intrusive thoughts. In the end, doing stuff like that doesn’t actually help it’s only a temporary coping mechanism to a larger issue so it’s good that Misaki comes to be more selfish in his relationship with Usagi. He can no longer just be avoidant. He must face his fears (exposure therapy anyone?) and see it’s not so bad when he does the thing he fears.

I’d also just like to add this moment where Misaki’s freaking out and then Usagi is like “The new ribbon came for Suzuki” and Misaki is like “you change it then!” But then Misaki goes to change it. I totally read that as Usagi purposefully was like it’s okay babe here’s a little task you can do to calm down (because he smirks after mentioning it). Overall, Usagi is just really good at reading Misaki the more the manga goes on (though he is an idiot sometimes)

I do think one could also touch on sexuality OCD with Misaki but I don’t really want to as I believe the OCD comes from intrusive thoughts, those being thoughts you don’t secretly desire but actually fear and strongly don’t want to happen, so I wouldn’t want to say Misaki has OCD around being gay because by the mid point he is saying “I don’t think we are doing anything to be ashamed of” about him and Usagi. But I would say early on he has some internalized homophobia for sure.

In conclusion, this is a long winded analysis of Misaki maybe having OCD. Hopefully it wasn’t problematic! Again I’m not an expert on any of this it’s only come from what I know about it with my own experiences.

[therapeutic007]

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[shatterdome-underscore]

Vash the Stampede has harm OCD bc I have harm OCD and I say so

[cavityinmybrain]

something that i do that i had no idea could’ve been ocd related is constant scrutinization of my memories. a lot of my intrusive thoughts center around me being abusive or hurting people, and the compulsion i get from it is to circle memories with whoever it is my brain is convinced im abusing.

just constant “is this action abusive? did i say this to be manipulative? this person said you didnt feel abusive to them but what if you just manipulated them into feeling that way? was THIS action abusive? what if everyone sees your relationship with this person and knows you abuse them? what if everyone is just being manipulated by you? did you say THIS to be manipulative?” while circling the memory around and around. it is exhausting.

[bl0w-m3]