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Till there were no more wolves in the West
dharmashark @dharmasharks
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“I’m afraid of a lot of things, Steve,” Bucky says softly.
“But this thing sticking in my heart—the part of me that’s yours? It is the best part of me. Maybe the only good part.” His rueful smile wavers. He makes a pained expression.
“What if it’s the only good part?” he asks.
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@dharmasharks am I correct in that this is the Bucky from your fic?
#fic rec#stucky fic r c#stucky fic rec#for fucks sake#why is he like this#perfect fic is perfect#perfect muse is perfect#how are supposed to live in the world
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every time I say “starting nooooow I won’t have any major expenses” something HAPPENS! there’s raw sewage backing up from my drains, and apparently the plumbers will need to break the floor and the wall to get to the pipes and fix it.
if the cat stuff hadn’t wiped out my bank account, this would be annoying but manageable. as it is…..I’m going to try to get everything up in the store for Friday.
#it’s hard because I’m trying not to push myself too hard with mono#the nerve damage stuff is scary#so I’m doing my best to have a zen attitude about all these goings on#but like another surprise 3.5k expense?? how is anyone supposed to live in this world?#there will reach a point where I’m forced to sell this house.#because I don’t know how much longer I can do this all#sorry to be nothing but complaints recently. but things have been hard!
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Lan Wangji Goes To Lotus Pier AU: Part 4.5: Morning Period.
(Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#mdzs au#Yunmeng Jiang training arc AU#This is 4.5 because it was originally all supposed to be part of the same comic#This part wasn't as punchy and I was close to scrapping it but I figured I'd at least give it a chance.#Despite the fact I already had it in pencils...cleaning it up took a very long time. Still hate it. Sunken cost fallacy enacted: It lives.#Okay quick commentary (I'm very late to post today)#While this is supposed to be a 'snapshot' of routine - Wei Wuxian slept in. Normally he is up earlier.#Meaning he delayed the dueling part of the day. Hence LWJ's hand gesture.#I also imagine that LWJ and JC have a bit more of a friendship in this AU since they spend a few hours in the morning sans WWX#I always enjoyed how JC and LWJ on paper seem like they would get along but Do Not in canon. Let me have a world where they do.
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ango core
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#a fumble so colossal it started that chain of events that’s causing the end of the world rn#like how do you live with yourself after that#good job ango u BITCh#wet puffy eyed and misrable#sad lupin trio hours#odango#this was supposed to be a fun little shitpost but it made me geniunely sad#it also took FOREVER like why#ango bsd#bsd#bsd ango#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs fanart#bsd art#bungou stray dogs#bsd fanart#bungo stray dogs fanart#bsd memes#bsd meme#bsd shitpost#ango sakaguchi#ango sakaguchi bsd#lupin trio#bsd buraiha#buraiha trio#dark era bsd#dark era ango#illustration
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probably a weird read of all the mending rune endings but I feel like Marika guided a Tarnished of no renown to become the next Elden Lord because, should the new Age still has her as a God, at least the new Lord would not prioritize their feelings for her over the world anymore (like Godfrey & Radagon did).
as Ansbach said “a Lord not for Gods, but for men”.
She’s already a really flawed God with too much love and hatred and humanity even after her ascension, a God who is willing to break rules for her loved ones (at least from my interpretation), and 2 previous Lords are…too involved with her. No matter if one interprets that as love or duty, you can’t deny those two guys act in accordance with their interest in her. Look how well that turned out.
So I feel like the reason a random Tarnished got the chance to become the next Lord is because Marika wanted them to know the Lands Between first, to love this land & the life within on their own term, with their own journey separate from her.
We don’t need to love or to know her at all.
And so she can trust us to always choose the greater good over her.
(But joke is on her I’ll suck af as a Lord I love her too much I’ll literally just be Godfrey Radagon 2.0 😭😭)
#er brainrot#I’ve been thinking about how each mending rune ending is Marika managing as best as she can if she’s stuck on being a god again it’ll#at least 1/ with a Lord that would not choose her over the greater good and 2/ satisfy sth depending on endings#like duskborn and blessing of despair is so her cursed children will be able to live freely in such world while perfect order is her trying#Miq route of giving up total autonomy hoping things would turn out right this time#but idk how to articulate these well yet so for now#yeah been thinking about how Marika would feel about those endings#marika: no wait you’re supposed to deny me when I act up#me looking at her with stars in my eyes: but I just want to do what you want to do….#IM SORRY IM VERY WEAK AUGHHH#queen marika the eternal
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after death ; life again.
what a lovely bouquet! what's the occasion?


#submas#maybe it says something about our world when we adorn our dead with flowers.#human lives and flowers. both so fragile. both beautiful in their own rights.#an eternal cycle; to return to the earth and re-emerge as something wonderful#all this is a long winded way to say i think there is a quiet beauty even in sorrow and grief. you just have to look for it.#hmm. anywayss#i know i said i was gonna draw more horror stuff. but i kept trying and none of it was coming out how i envisioned it.#bleugh. oh well. i suppose it's just as fun to draw flowers as it is to draw blood. :×#submas emmet#submas ingo#<- kinda. i mean that is his coat.#emmet#ingo#my art#🐌 slow pieces#tw implied death#<- also just in case
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Anyone else who's both a deltahead And an enahead, We need to do something sinister to toby fox and joel g for releasing deltarunes 3 and 4 and dbbq chapter 1, after 3-4 YEARS of wait, within Barely over 2 MONTHS of each other
#Slash joking slash lighthearted obviously But surely you understand what i mean because I DONT KNOW HOW TO HANDLE MYSELF.#I CANT. LIKE I CANT. DELTARUNE????? DELTARUNE IS IN *20 DAYS*????????????#LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN. WHAT. I JUST GOT ENA??????? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO HANDLE MYSELF?????? TO LIVE???????????????#ena#deltarune#ena dream bbq#calli.txt#Like genuinely.#How did i even survive 2021-2025 because I can barely imagine a world other than the one we have now#HOW. did i survive. More importantly HOW *WILL* I SURVIVE?????#DELTARUNE????? IN 20 DAYS??????? HELP?????????????????
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this chapter makes me so insanely sad… Laura has been alone with her grief, no closure or solace, for years. Like even beyond losing her love she’s got nobody else who really understands what happened, or why. As others have said she’s just back where she started but worse :(
#And like. How are you supposed to cope.#Laura knows she’s attracted to women. How is she supposed to deal with that?? We don’t know if she ever married but she would be expected t#How is she supposed to process this!!! Carmilla turned her entire world upside down and she couldn’t reverse that even if she wanted to#And goddamnit. Imagine living with the man who killed your best friend. Your lover. Your creature of the night.#Damn…..#carmilla#re: carmilla
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Interminable
#silly stratosfear interpretation/speculation#unfortunately my strato is irreversibly scarred post-af2#like there's SO MANY WAYS you can go with this 300 year abuse#like does he sickeningly expect an omnipotent force to control his life his words and his interactions after getting used to such things?#how can he perceive the world that has his abuser's mark on literally EVERYTHING and still pretend everything is fine?#ANSHINE. THE SKY EMPORIUM. EVERYTHING a reminder of their abuser!#how can he bear to look at himself in the mirror when this. this thing he's looking at. is him now. Like this is what he has done to himsel#this is what he has done to everyone#also how is he supposed to live on with the idea of him being a monster - a villain and he was made to exist because of that purpose?#like his trauma and Celesteal's abuse is on an EXISTENTIAL scale.#that probably applies to the Points that can grapple on the situation lol#idk i just find it interesting#adventure forward 2#adventure forward#stratosfear#anshine#stratoshine#i guess?#ect0 stuff
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I truly have no patience for "criticizing a creative choice is disrespectful" as a statement. If you can't tell the difference between sending hate or harassing creators/fans, vs. saying "I didn't like this and here's why" you are an idiot. And on the flip side if you're a creator and someone says "I didn't like this" without any sort of personal attacks or hate involved, simply on the basis of critique and personal preference, and that makes you feel bad enough to stop creating then maybe you should step back and either get offline or make room for someone who has an actual creative vision that isn't "I want everyone to like me."
#queue#i feel like i keep saying this in different forms but#man. remember the weirdo with a wildly misinformed ogl take#one of their friends tried to get me to stop being like you can dislike this without making up weird lies#and ultimately sent me hate after i ignored multiple asks so i blocked them#and i checked them later and like. they were the sort of person who caved to every. single. anon. just groveled and cried and capitulated#and yeah the realization that they thought this was the CORRECT behavior to be spineless and without perspective#was truly a damn bitch you live like this? moment. like real talk anon hate cannot change my mind#because to be perfectly honest i perceive myself as so vastly superior to anyone who sends anon hate it's like taking direction from an ant#(considerate and polite anons with reasoned statements? yeah i'll listen but like. if you just don't like me. sounds like not my problem.)#like. obviously criticism doesn't FEEL good it's not SUPPOSED to but if it's an argument and not an ad hominem attack? it's valid#and an artist worth their salt should be able to understand this is how the world works. get offline if you're upset - that's valid!#you're allowed to AVOID it. you just lack the power or right to shut it down.
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Jurassic World Chaos Theory Season Two Spoilers
Benji Dad’s🥳
#i need more of this#spectacular give me 14 of them right now#need more episodes of this#benji dads?!#how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions#and I’m supposed to what? not ship this?#this is beautiful#this is benji focused#benji season 2#benji for the win#benji is my everything#jwcc benji#jwct benji#benji gif#benji#benji jwct#benji chaos theory#benji centric episode?#jurassic world chaos theory#jurassic world chaos theory spoilers#jwct#jwct spoilers#jurassic world chaos theory season 2 spoilers
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Reflecting on that finale....
...where the heck are the Nublar 5 even gonna GO? What are they going to do???
The game is over. What, are they going to sneak off after Brooklynn? Infiltrate a base where the Broker knows they're coming? They got their pass. None of them got eaten by raptors. They have Bumpy's egg to care for.
Chasing after Brooklynn would be irresponsible. She kinda needs a rescue, but also, what are they going to do? They don't know the Broker's name, so they can't run to the authorities and expose the operation. Their one lead got buried in an explosion and a cave-in.
I know logically the plot should have them go to Malta or BioSyn valley, but with what resources and what guidance?!? Last time, they snuck on a boat that took them 90% of the way there, after using Brooklynn's guidelines and extreme stealth to follow their enemies to their secret bases.
I suppose they have Dark Jurassic to pull from, and, of course, Ben's girlfriend is a Wild Card, but...are they gonna jeopardize all their lives to go get Brooklynn from a place she doesn't want to leave, when she's told them not to follow her? Both sides are stuck in hostage situations right now, and I doubt Brooklynn passed any secret messages when her whole purpose was to try breaking cleanly and going solo.
The game's over.
They lost.
#go home kids#adventure's over#return to your lives citizens#take care of the baby#jwct#chaos theory spoilers#jurassic world: chaos theory#how are they supposed to find things now?#...again it's gonna be the GF#not sure how#but she's the stealth card
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guys i’ll be honest.. I’ve made it through a lot on here, but if tumblr decides to sell to midjourney or any other generative AI I have to delete everything… 😔 it seems like they’ve already scraped most of the posts on here dating all the way back to 2014, but even if it’s too late to prevent theft of my art, I just can’t keep using a website that would do something like this— I don’t want to contribute clicks and views to a company that so readily throws its artists and creators (the reason anyone uses the site!) under the bus. If it does happen, I will probably make an archival drive of all my posted pieces and upload a nightshaded version to google drive or pixiv or something. If there are any works you really love, I would recommend saving them on your own.
I’ve had my art reuploaded without permission, stolen and sold on random websites, but this generative AI grift is the worst of them all. It’s soulless greed that does nothing but take advantage of those who already struggle to make a living in a notoriously thin job market. It’s a pointless theft machine. As if the world was ever starved for artists.
#so awesome that everyone gets to lose their job and mainstream art gets to stagnate to a whole new degree so that 25 tech bros can cash out#my moms an artist and when we get lunch it’s just 2 hours of us crying over the genocide in palestine and how AI is taking everyone’s jobs#super awesome world we live in!#anyways this was supposed to be informative. if anyone knows where to post safely these days i’d really love to know.
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The idea of Dale not feeding himself for possibly days on end is terrifying when you consider that might result in him not feeding the actual newborn baby he's in charge of for similar amounts of time.
Dale is absolutely not in charge of feeding Dev. Devs primary caretakers have been au-pairs.
Dales eating disorder is just about the only trauma he's made sure Not to pass on. Even if he denies it he is aware that his eating habits are fucked, he just cant bring himself to do anything about it. If there's one thing Dale always makes sure of its that Dev at least has access to food.
#Dales problem is that he finds the act of eating straight up revolting. He hates it. everything he tastes reminds him of the basement#He lives off of like the worlds blandest granola bars. If he didnt have the Au-pairs force feeding him snacks he would be dead I think#The thing about Dale to me is that he genuinely wants to make sure Dev has a better childhood than he did#Unfortunately 'not trapped in a lemon basement for 7 years' is an extremely low bar#The other problem is that Dale is straight up not good at empathy.#He knows that hes a bad father.that he cant love his son properly. So his solution to that is being as uninvolved with Devs life as possibl#He genuinely thinks its best for dev to be raised by robots#He was separated from his own dad for so long. And then his dad was so distant that-#-I genuinely dont think he realizes how important a parent love is supposed to be for a kid
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notice how when you hear about all these rich white men in high positions of power doing heinous shit, none of them end up being trans men or mascs 🤔 but surely we're just as privileged as any other cis guy right?
#antimasculism#transandrophobia#surely its fair to say we experience the same level of privilege yes?#notice how theres no trans men in positions of power#notice how we're none of the top richest people in the world and its all cis ppl mostly men#notice how we're still more likely to live in poverty than average cis men also#notice how we've never been able to actually exercise this supposed power we have by default of being men#its almost like theres more it to that and its the fact that we're trans which might come as a surprise to some but its kinda a huge#fuckin handicap in life!
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for various rl and depression reasons I haven't actually gotten to play da:tv for quite a few days now, and I cannot adequately convey to you the sheer hilarity of the effect hearing lucanis' voice again just had on me. I was fully in the deepest trough of a depressive slump, still breathing but by no means what I would describe as 'alive', heard him Say Something (as he does), and immediately something in my soul went 'oh yeah no this changes everything actually I just forgot for a moment there sorry for the inconvenience'. like my depression is not healed or anything (it never is :') ) but it did lift its crushing weight from my entire being by a significant amount and let discernible light in where there had been pitch dark unshifting misery before. this is so funny. no real life human contact or warmth, no high ideals, no wise words encouraging hope, no awe nor curiosity over the infinite complexity and wonder of the universe has managed to do what lucanis dellamorte breezily coming to terms with the grand necropolis by grasping its role in nevarra's financial system just did in an instant, 'what like it's hard' style. no one is more baffled than me to find that it's not even a bit he just does that to me. that literally just happened. mary kirby I unironically kind of owe you my life
#emotional support lucanis dellamorte Saying (Insane) Things like they're the most obvious thing in the world saves lives apparently#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#listen. i feel so much shame all the time about how the things that seem to help other people... don't really seem to help me much#all the 'this is good for everyone' stuff fails to bring me relief pretty much 100% of the time and all it does#is add alienation and shame to the mix. this is a twenty year long pattern. I don't think there's much getting away from it#so when something does actually kind of work even if it's not replicable or under my control and it somehow is also FUNNY...#we must take those#perhaps I am a strange grotesquery of inconsolable pain untouchable by and implacable to human warmth and comfort#but at least I am soul-level committed to the bit and I suppose that is something#social connection meditation and healthy excercise? GOD how i've tried and over decades it has not cumulatively helped#even as much as this one blorbo moment did. i'm not ok but I am living in a universe suddenly where I understand the state#of ok at least conceptually. like oh yeah. it is a thing. it's not what I am but it is a state that exists. do you see what I'm saying#also why I frankly just don't care what anyone else thinks or feels about this game. to me it's been this and that'll still be true#no matter what. which is another kind of relief as well.
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