#how do I even react to this?
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15 year old me would’ve lost her shit and I’m just. Here. And I don’t know what to do with that. I don’t know how to feel. One Direction was quite literally everything to me for my middle and high school years and knowing that it will never ever be the same now is shocking. Waking up to the news that one of the boys I was so obsessed with is just gone is shocking. And while I mourn the person Liam was and what he meant to me during those years, I also just don’t know how to, to grieve? To be upset? I just feel kinda numb tbh. I don’t quite believe it yet
#one direction#liam payne#i’m just losing my mind#i feel sick#i feel empty#I feel bad that I’m not reacting with the same level of tears as I did Zayn leaving#i just don’t know#how do I even react to this?#how do I just move on with my day?
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Bisexual crisis Crystal edition
#dead boy detectives#dbda#palasaki#palasaki week#it was supposed to be for the free day but i've completely lost the plot and I don't know if I'm on time#...or early#i know we all like to think crystal knows she likes girls#buuuut we saw her past. that is not an emotionally intelligent person#i think she was the kind of girl who put other girls down idk#i just think considering how she speaks for women so many times throughout the show#that it would be great character development#also charles figured it out decades ago#maybe even while he was alive#most of the time he crushes on girls though so you wouldn't know it#edwin probably doesn't know either i'm aware#but imagine if you will him reacting to this like "ugh#because he was there when Charles went through this journey and he did not care for it lol#whatever. niko you angel we all adore you#especially crystal... tho edwin might not like that#edwin: how dare you suggest you like niko more than i do?#preposterous
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There are ten billion personal Lamb interpretations and all of them are correct (and also the other characters but I suffer from lamb favoritism)
If you're looking for an excuse to ramble about your Lamb or AU (or any cotl character you have) take this post to do it NOW
#todays thought: i try to keep very canon in terms of lamb and other characters appearances and some personalities#easier for other characters but they all mostly have to be freeform esp the lamb because of how the game has a framework for these guys#enough framework to give us an idea of how they would act but not enough to truly paint an entire characterization without player input#and the lamb was stated to straight up be a player insert so thats character framework free game#anyway i try to keep my fics and au close to the bishops relics of the old faith storyline so i have a strict bullet line of progressive#points that i have reach to meet the same completion of that storyline#so my 'job' as the writer is to use imagination to think of how (realistically) how long the journey would take and#how would the characters realistically react to the process of the bishops being revived and any protests#and what *motivations* would our main character who was wronged by these bishops even have in order to continue the games storypath#obviously the options to *not* revive the bishops cannot be done because it goes against canon story which im trying to follow along#so there are lambs that believe in full on forgiveness#or do so out of obligation or threat under mystic seller#or to progress as a god or to punish the bishops or any other means#but the great thing about the game is that it never really tells you the motivation behind this progress you gotta do#its 100% up to you as a the player to decide what the lambs thoughts are in this act#for me my Lamb has a personal vow to Never Be Told What To Do Ever Again since their personal choices was taken from them#so they'll revive the bishops even if narinder fights against it BUT its also a hypocritical because the mystic seller asked them to free#them in the first place#which is against the point they make and therefore a hint that there is something more to it than just 'dont tell me what to do'#which idk if any readers have caught on yet but its meant to be subtle and its meant to bite back later#So they praise forgiveness and understanding and redemption cough rehabilitation coughs but are a huge hypocrite when it comes to themselve#especially with the ancient tablet knowledge and the fanatics letters do they slowly come to a plan where 'forgiveness' has a price#and forgiveness is actually a grave punishment in disguise. apocalyptic even#and it will get only worse if someone gets in their way#i have more but#I NEED TO STOP rambling in the tags. its 4am#sara shush
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ty to @icedmatchawoatmilk13 for sending this to me! i may have gone a bit overboard but this was so much fun to fill out/think about BAHAHA💖 ill still never get over how perfect the song sarah smiles is for them...the lyrics AND the fact that its an alliteration...im gonna do an animatic about seb and clora to that song one day i swear 😩 ((blank template by oakwolves!))
#like fr....'i was fine just a guy living on my own/waiting for the sky to fall/till you called and changed it all doll' LIKE!!!!!#makes me think of seb just waiting/dreading for anne to die but then clora comes along and changes everything/saves anne AND him#ok sorry my squeeing and yapping about how perfect this song is for them is done#choccyart#clora clemons#the hardest part of this chart for me to fill out was the starting arguments one honestly...but i think theyre pretty even LOL#clora is the ROOT of their arguments usually and then seb just reacts to her bullshit......so its a 50/50 LMAO. cause and effect#also sebs pda WOULD be at 100% if not for clora LMAO#and sorry for making seb h*terosexual😔 honestly i cant see either of them with anyone else hes just clorasexual tbh#also if i could have given seb an autumn birthday I WOULD HAVE but i needed his bday to be early on in my fic...for reasons...#looking at aquarius personalities tho i DO think it unintentionally suits seb a lot#i wouldnt have made cloras bday in april either if i could have chosen freely i would have done either summer or december#but then again i just recently learned that the birth flower for april is DAISIES!! so its perfect🥰#youd think i would know this since my bday is also in april LMFAO i like how i only care/do this research when its about my ocs and not me#BAHAHAH priorities!!!
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Messing up while trying to learn healthier coping skills or communication skills doesn't mean your progress ceases to exist.
If you lashed out at someone during an argument instead of using your coping skills, it's okay to forgive yourself. If you reacted based on your emotional urge instead of looking at the situation, that's okay. It happens.
No one is perfect all the time. I think we expect so much more of ourselves. In my case, because I felt so ashamed of who I used to be. It makes me feel extra pressure to "do better". But the reality is, people who aren't in recovery mess up too. And sometimes they may not even notice it.
You don't need to beat yourself up about it. In fact, beating yourself up about it doesn't really help anyone. You can learn from it. Was there something going on that made it harder to use your coping skills? Was there a certain trigger? Maybe a bad day? Take your new knowledge and move forward.
Your progress still very much exists. I promise.
#my post#i failed a lot when i self taught myself skills#i'd use really great communication skills for awhile#and then i'd ignore them to act on my emotions#even now i still mess up#it doesn't happen nearly as much#and i think i will always mess up#because i am human#but i can be accountable#and do better#also like#how i react after messing up is different now too#i apologize#i admit what i did wrong#and i try to do better
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i have to be so real. sometimes you have to outright not give a shit what the author thinks. i’m not saying to disregard how a character is portrayed and give into fanon characterisations but sometimes i will see fans be like “(head writer) omggg do you think this character is a good person?” “how would this character react if xyz happened?” as though that’s not a question you can and have to answer for yourself.! any character can contain multitudes and if you keep limiting your perception of them solely on word of god its not fun for the writer or even yourself anymore. THINK FOR YOURSELF. INVENT NEW WAYS TO FUCK YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTERS OVER
#put that bitch in situations and frustrate yourself as you figure out how they would react in character#and be critical of how you’re doing so and second guess and wonder is this right#and then examine your blorbo’s behaviour to come to your own conclusion!#you can only say “they would NOT say that” if they say it first !!!!#this is not even necessarily about illario but its sort of about him#its really about a pacific rim character bc as i trawl through travisbeacham’s tumblr dot com#trying to read about lore its like ‘is chuck a good person’ WHO CARESSSS. WHAT DO YOU THINK#how have YOU reacted to him? and take yourself out of the equation— what makes his character unappealing in a meta way?#how do people in-universe think of him?#i think all these questions could of course also apply to illario#who suffers hard from ‘players take him at face value’ despite many pointers to more shit going on behind the scenes#of course this statement applies to the larger audience#bc everyone who fucking follows me here or is mutuals with me loves that freak too#anywyas. i ahve to go hibernate again . i have a real job#txt
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forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.
#or just the moral dilemmas#rewatching amc interview is kind of making me insane#that moment in episode two when louis is looking for a sort of assurance in the fact that lestat may actually have some good in him#look at how he cares about music look at the simple wondrous things that can bring him joy#and then the immediate dread when the opera performance turns out to be imperfect because he knows how lestat will react to *that*#I think there’s also something really interesting in the highlighting of lestat upbraids the less skilled singer before killing him#(slowly)#but also I will wait to watch more before I articulate my thoughts#vampires#interview with the vampire#amc interview with the vampire#I do still find the lestat and claudia film and novel dynamic by far the most compelling for how she tries to usurp him but almost to be him#but I’m enjoying this#I’m very curious if I will like show claudia more on rewatch#the movie always resonated most with me (sue me lol) because there seemed to be more simultaneous fondness and attachment even at the end#dark stories of the north
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Lokius + touch in season 2 / (season 1)
#lokius#mobius#loki#mcuedit#marveledit#lokiedit#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs#okay for starters had to make this bc LOOK AT THEM#but y'all please can we talk about the differences between the two seasons my god!!!!#in s1 they gravitate toward each other so naturally but there's such an... idk. calculated casualness in their initial interactions#testing the waters of intrigue if you will??#'would you let me close enough to -' or 'how would you react when-' then 'what happens if i -'#and almost always stolen away from the eyes of others before realizing the magnitude of what they've built#then because of it in s2 the care and confidence in how they don't even hesitate to reach out and take what's theirs is INSANE#in front of everyone and all they've ever known they don't just want but NEED to show what they mean to each other#to not only reach out but hold on as long as possible...#how they ground center and balance#and most importantly no one matters above or can get in the way of doing exactly that they make me feel every emotion and then some 😭😭
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Probably the only thing giving me any hope at this point is that every few days some random gentile posts in the Jewish subreddit something along the lines of "I think I'm going insane am I going insane what's going on why is every single comment on my social media feed straight up Nazism why does nothing get taken down when I report it why is my niece simping for a terrorist organization what's happening are you guys seeing this shit." And the answer is always yes ofc we have been seeing this shit for a while. But it's always nice to get some confirmation that someone else is seeing it too.
#like obvs we have some allies but that's not even what im talking about lol#it's just random people every few days who are clearly not politically minded or particularly interested in jewish issues who finally snap#and barge into the jew subreddit like WHATS HAPPENINGGGGGGG because obviously they have tried to be like haha what the fuck? to their own#family and friends. and have gotten to see first hand what happens when you push back against jew hate lol#idk it makes me feel less batshit crazy#to see that there are also at least some random gentiles who dont even particularly care about jewish issues#who are like oh my god oh my GOD? what is HAPPENING?#because that's how we all feel but no one else seems to be reacting??#and it's like so so so so SO obvious and SO hateful everywhere#that you so clearly do not need to be like plugged in to jewish politics or politics at all#to see the difference and see how the whole world has just decided it's fun to hate jews again and it is EVERYWHERE#so it's gratifying to see at least a few people who dont have a reason to care#also being like ummm am i going insane or something?? you guys are seeing this too right?#gingerswagfreckles#antisemitism#leftist antisemitism#jumblr
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....So, um, does this not freak anyone else out??? Is it just me??? Because like, this sounds like actual hell for all the kids involved. Their entire childhood and teenage years has now been dedicated to filming a (unneeded) reboot of Harry Potter to the point they can't even go to school at any point with this type of school being set up for them and them only, and even then the school stuff is second to filming, being at hours that let's be real, any other kid would be fucking resting and such in, not having to race to do school work because they spent their normal school hours filming. This is literally actually giving vibes of WB trying to find any loopholes they can to have the kid actors film non-stop to the point it won't be surprising if stuff comes out about behind the scenes some time after the reboot is done with. Btw before anyone says this is normal on sets with kids, last I heard a-lot of film sets aren't setting up schools for the next decade basically of the kid actors life, they have tutors coming onto set at best to handle the school work with the kid actors and when they done with filming finally, the kids go back to school like normal. This is basically set up to mess up the kid actors chances at education and developing like kids should while in education let alone their chances at socialising outside of fellow child actors and the adult actors around them...all so that a terf can make more money for her bigotry and replace the cast that turned against her.
#harry potter#harry potter reboot#harry potter 2027#anti harry potter#harry potter critical#jk rowling critical#fuck jkr#fuck jk rowling#jkr critical#like hey remember when we had actresses like jeanette mccurdy and alyson stoner coming out and revealing the stuff they had to suffer#and everyone rightfully reacted in horror??? what happened to that#because this is edging to becoming that all over again#like how the fuck did we go from the movies actually auditoning the parents too to make sure the kids were safe#to clear loopholes around getting kids to film as long as they can?#like i know we made fun of netflix for how long they take with stuff like stranger things#BUT AT LEAST THE ACTORS CAN SAY THEY GOT TO GO TO SCHOOL AND BE NORMAL AT TIMES#lord knows how the fuck these kids are even gonna be able do gcse's while having to film this crap
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Remember this post where I talked about how funny Host!Vic’s gender neutrality is? Well now it’s even funnier because this episode seemingly confirmed something I have suspected to be true for a while now, which is that fictional Vic Michealis SOMEHOW DIDNT REALISE THEYRE BI?????
#this is so funny#suspected this because of their interactions with Leighanna and The Fourth Witch#compared to their interactions with male characters#with Leighanna they are obsessed with her they want her so bad but they seem to justify it by wanting to be LIKE her instead#the fourth witch on the other hand? very clearly flirting with them the whole episod#and they just don’t seem to pick up on it#meanwhile you have characters Jordache‚ Dr Milk‚#that frozen guy who’s name I forget#who they very openly flirt with once intrest is shown#and even in this episode I think vic would have reacted quite differently if it was Greg flirting with them#they seem so… hesitant and unsure‚ like they’re trying to reject Charlotte’s advances#which they like NEVER do with male characters‚ this guy wants love so bad#also god. the way they fall for Charlotte and become flattered by her advances as the episode goes on#and you’re just sitting there like. this woman cheated on her husband sixteen times. this will not end well#you just know vic is going to get unbelievabley attached after they hook up and charlottes going to lose intrest within seconds#also I love how Izzy was like ‘ok last time our characters relationship could pass as a friendship so this time I am NOT giving you an out’#god this episode was so good#the last couple haven���t really hit so well for me so this was a lovely reminder of why I love this show#MAN. the implications of this for their relationship with Bianca. they didn’t know. they had no idea.#shitpost#very important people#host!vic#vic michealis#vip#ALSO I believe irl vic prefers the term ‘queer’ over bi judging by that one interview I re read this morning#but I usd bi here because queer in certain contexts can be used for both sexuality and gender identity#so saying ‘they didn’t know they were queer’ might imply they didn’t know they were lgbt at all which clearly isn’t true#also host vic is not real vic so their sexuality could be different#dropout#dropout.tv
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Tenna POV.
(No vibrations ver.)

#utdr#deltarune#art#fanart#spamton g spamton#spamtenna#tenna#(implied)#safeutdr#deltarune chapter 3#deltarune ch3#pipis#illustration#shitpost#joner draws#described#id in alt text#this came about after i did a 1 minute from memory drawing challenge with some irl friends for a bunch of dr characters (+ some others)#my spamton turned out kind of Horrific and i thought well. surely i could do even worse#im not sure i fully captured the like. weird vibration thing he does but overall i think i did pretty well?#like. if This Thing jumped out at me i think i'd react similarly to how tenna did in that scene
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Hello Walten Files Fandom, long time no see
#the walten files#twf#twf spoilers#the FUCK do I tag this guy as he has the same name as the other Bon#I guess just.#TWF bon#eye contact tw#face horror#shmorps art#just kinda. putting this on the table then running back into my TMC fixation#I don't even really know how to react to that new episode man it was so. MUCH /LH#So much information to take in at once-
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the way a LOT of people reduce Bob to his traumas and illnesses pisses me the fuck off.
he does anything and "it's because of the trauma!!!" "it's because he’s mentally ill!!!" "he did it only because he's so anxious!!!" or maybe it's because that's the fucking way he is? the way he always was?? as a person??? just like a ton of other (perfectly healthy) people???? ??? he's a human being with his own personality and behavior.
Stop seeing him only as his disorders and traumas. He'd fucking hate it.
#yes he has a fuckass ton of traumas and illnesses BUT THATS NOT EVERYTHING HE IS#my eye will start twitching soon i swear#if I see one more post or comment on social media with this shit I will lose it#saw a comment under the moment where bob looks worriedly at john who fell down#and the person said that he reacted like that because of his trauma#be so fucking for real#THE FUCK THIS HAS TO DO WITH ANYTHING#the dumbest one so far#bc like genuinely how did you come up with this?#but all the other ones are so stupid too#bob reynolds#robert reynolds#he does things that are caused by his anxiety/traumas/disorders#im not arguing with that#but half the things he does – that’s just the way he is as a person#if not more than half#bob IS the sweetest boy#even the bits that we know about him are all about that#he can be sarcastic and he can stand up for himself - we saw it#but he also IS so cute and soft and awkward#and he has the biggest heart#ALL THAT IS IN THE MOVIE TOO#be even a little kind to him and he will be a hundred times more kind to you#even after everything he’s been through#because THATS HOW HE IS#and how he always has been#open your fucking eyes people#thunderbolts#voidwalker#sentryagent
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My brain malfunctioned and I was digging in MTMTE the whole day, forgot to blink, kicked pillow 8 times and was talking with my reflection 6 times
Ended up with 60+ screenshots of nerds being socially awkward/abnormal/straightforward because we use books to talk, not people, silly, cool or sweet, or just facts ahah






























#Man I remembered again how much I love Mega and Rodimus duo I wonder how they would react to each other#If they met as their younger versions untouched by war#Swerve literally can quote every of Blurr's races#Cried again when Ratchet left his words are some poetry that doesn't need to sound like one#Whirl Cyclonus and Tailgate ? EHEHEH#Scavengers are unhinged hobos ahaha#I want to put them in one story with Sixshot and Terrorcons#NICKEL MY SWEET GIRL#Looked at Sunder and thought of how damn well he would look if to make him even more and scarier#First Aid acting immediately and giving orders what to do in emergency situation? Yes please#Functions is universe with their “you are our eyes” plot twist YESSS#Functionists giving Rung a fake wheel to make at least a little sense of him and call him ornament? Pfffht#SWERVE IS SO F**KING COOL WITH THIS WHOLE HOLOMATTER ABILITY#Yeah no I hate Getaway.#Senator Shockwave giving an order to stop forced change of brain until two in charge agree on this?#And this way saving Megatron#Whirl saving Megatron because functionists are WORSE#Functionists invented empurata and all universities#Trailbracker... Would have loved to see more of him and Rodimus. His attempt to save him hit hard#Rung having a claustrophobia? Matter of fact I saw no angst of him that I would have found angsty XDD Somehow him getting forgotten#is the worst I saw#Necrobot is a crush. Hear me out he is a crush and very cool. I wish he had more time with Nightbeat.
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i fear part of the reason i really enjoy the idea of nat and travis having wilderness baby 2.0 is mostly how shauna would react.
like, obviously she'd crash the fuck out because no, not fucking again, this cannot fucking be happening again. but also because you know she wouldn't be able to make up her mind how to feel about it. she's horribly jealous, natalie has her partner (her partner didn't die of hypothermia), natalie has the wilderness's favor, she gets to be pregnant when there's more of a food abundance. but at the same time, there is still every chance that baby won't make it, and shauna wouldn't wish that on anyone.
and if that baby did make it? well. fuck. who knows? because she's so jealous, she's so painfully jealous, and she's so heartbroken, because her baby didn't make it. but, i also think there would be some part of her that is fiercely protective of that baby. it may not be hers, but it made it, and she will probably do a lot to make sure it keeps making it.
#there's also just how it would change travis and nat's breakup that i find super intriguing and natalie's dynamic as queen during her reign#and not to mention all the other girls reactions#like holy shit there's been two pregnancies out here. one ended in stillbirth and sent a teenager into severe ppd#the other is our fucking queen#like. how do you react in that situation?#inherently i understand why they didn't go that direction (i doubt the writers even rlly thought of it)#but i find it fascinatingly juicy#yellowjackets#shauna shipman#natalie scatorccio#travis martinez#travnat#pretty heavily implied#jackieshauna
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