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I've always felt too awkward to send in an ask, but I just wanted to finally say that I absolutely ADORE your Springtrap. And your style has changed so much in a really positive way! Keep doing you, you lovely human being! š¤
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its been hard but i went back and reread some of my own writing on the subject(s) and god damn i am good. i love being catholic, i love being queer, i love being pro-choice. all of those are intrinsically connected by my love for women.
#1 mary in particular and all of us made in the image of God#2 women in general because they are pretty#3 and finally women as full active human beings with intrinsic rights as fully deserving citizens and decision-makers in their own future#i get it. i get the conflict#actually i don't think there's much of a conflict between the first two at least not anymore#no one can ever convince me against that again ever since like five years ago when ive decided that im perfect the way i am n God loves me#but i have been...confused lately about the first and the last#confusing just because. im in theology school. and we don't talk about That like That but. it's just hard you know#which may be shocking because abortion is my THING#i LOVE abortion i have volunteered at a CLINIC as mentioned i have written EXTENSIVELY in defense of it#and yet the intrinsic beauty of God found in all creatures from largest to smallest has started to get to me#but all it took was rereading my own work-in-progress treatise and the banging arguments i have already made to remember#that we cannot#and must not#erase the dignity and beauty and freedom and intrinsic creative power of women#for any cause#for any reason#and it's hard it's always hard#but i reaffirm my stance to all of you and to myself#that God wants women to thrive#i really believe He does#and i can't bear to worship a God that cares so little for women that He would reject the very rights and dignity that He infused us with#in the first place#and others may disagree#today is the feast of the holy innocents and of course many people have made certain posts about it#and yeah i get it and that's what i mean when i say its hard it's always hard#but the God that i love knows.#He knows.#He knows it's hard.#and He loves us anyway.
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okay I donāt know how to make this idea I have in my head make sense but here it goes: imagine reader spending time with the team and knowing that Aaron has kind of a stoic image when it comes to the team but then heās a cinnamon roll at home and the reader tries not to embarrass him with the team and Aaron ends up thinking that the reader is mad or upset because sheās not being as touchy or flirty with him as she normally is but really sheās just trying not to ruin his image??? Did that make sense? I hope that made sense
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it makes perfect sense cw; fem non bau!reader, established relationship, touch starved aaron <3, angst if you squint, fluff and some ending spice ā¤ļøāš„ wc; 1k
This was the second time you'd met Aaron's team.
The first was a few weeks ago; you'd brought Aaron a case file he'd forgotten at home. Multiple pairs of eyes latched onto you as you stepped into the bullpen, looking a bit lost until Aaron departed his office to greet you.
When heād introduced you, only the briefest of pleasantries had been exchanged. Tonight - a small party at David Rossi's - proper acquaintances were finally made.
Your initial shyness was to be expected; getting used to their dynamics, their quirks, fearing you were invading the 'family' they had created.
Aaron's done what he thought would make you more comfortable; staying in close proximity, offering subtle reassurances - a hand on your knee, silent check-ins - and involving you in conversation. He had no doubts the team would make every effort to be welcoming, but he was also well aware that they could come off as intimidating without meaning to be.
But as the night went on, your reservation was directed more at him.
You strayed away from his touch, meeting his eyes with uncertainty, clasping your own hands together instead of intertwining with his. Such detachment was in complete contrast to your typical behavior; normally, you were wrapped around him any chance you got.
Not to mention, you had been all over him back at home. Prolonging your departure by having him pressed against the door, kissing him senseless. Youād almost been late to the time Dave had stated dinner would begin.Ā
And now, Aaron was left wondering what he could've done wrong in such a short amount of time.
"Are you enjoying yourself, sweetheart?" He asked when a private moment between the two of you finally presented itself, finding you in the kitchen. The others had filtered out to Daveās patio.
"Yeah, your team is great." You flashed him a quick smile as he neared, busying yourself with the charcuterie board JJ had brought. "You never told me how fun they are."
"They have their moments," his hand found your back, pressing a kiss behind your ear. His actions caused you to tense, only proving his suspicions further. Something was wrong.
"Honey?"
"Hm?" You glanced towards the doorway before looking up at him, your cheeks flushed. You took a small side step away, creating some distance. Anxiety bubbled in his chest.
"Did I do something wrong? You've barely touched me all night. If I upset you somehow, Iām sorry."
"No, no you haven't done anything. I just..." You turned your head away again, timidly and quietly admitting, "didn't know if you wanted me to."
His eyebrows quirked in confusion, you continued.
"This is your team. I know you have an image you want to maintain, and I respect that, so I didn't want to do anything that could potentially embarrass you, with me being as touchy as I am. I panicked, I didn't want to cross a line without knowing."
Oh. His eyes softened in understanding, as yours displayed inner conflict, your heart and head being pulled in different directions.
"Well, I do want you to. Please do."
"Are you sure?"
"Within reason." He offered you a sly smile, not insinuating he wanted hot and heavy actions in front of his colleagues. "But I want you on my arm. Holding my hand. Being your affectionate and loving self. It's what I love about you, and it's meant to be shared."
In fact, it was the one thing he was looking forward to about tonight. He felt more possessive than usual, a state that might have concerned him if not for the pride that came with it. You were his, and he wanted everyone to know how lucky he was.
And selfishly, he wanted the others to know he was worthy of love, (given, he was still trying to believe the same). That there was more to him than Aaron Hotchner, the BAU Unit Chief. He was needed, and not in the professional way he was used to, where his value was measured in results and responsibilities. But rather, being a doting and deeply loving partner.
A smile slowly made its way onto your face, grabbing his hands and lacing your fingers with his before guiding them to your waist, wrapping both his arms around you yourself.
"This may sound pathetic, but within the two hours we've been here, I've missed you."
You laughed gently at his whining, clinging onto his arms. "It's not pathetic at all. If you think you were having a rough time... I had no idea how hard it is to keep my hands off you."
"Good thing there's an easy solution for that. Don't restrain yourself."
"In that case," this time, you didn't glance towards the door, in fear of being caught by one of Aaron's team members. You grabbed his face, your lips meeting his in a kiss.
He immediately reciprocated, a breath of relief escaping him as well; needing this, needing you, the lack of contact throughout the night excruciating. His mouth moved on yours with seamless urgency, as though instinct guided every touch.
The kiss quickly grew heated and messy. Aaron's arms tightened around your waist, backing and picking you up onto the counter, stepping in between your legs. His hands pulled at your hips in desperation of getting you closer. Your breath heavily picked up, assisting him by pressing your chest into his.
Aaron couldn't help but smile against your lips - for a number of reasons. The all-consuming love he had for you, being with you - being close to you - with the team just steps away. Feeling much the same, a giddy giggle escaped you.
"You know..." you mumbled between kisses, your fingers toying with the buttons of his shirt. "You look sexy tonight. Absolutely irresistible."
A breathless chuckle shook through his chest. "We should head out. They'll come looking for us," he teased back, his fingers digging into your hips - a silent cue that he had no intention of actually joining them.
You hummed softly in response, undoing his top button. You stopped there; as it was, youād only undone the button to get a reaction out of Aaron. It worked, a heavy, trembling breath leaving him. "Let them."
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Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!Reader Summary: Reader becomes a full-time nanny to three-year-old Benjamin, but what she doesnāt realize is just how hard the job will beā not because of the child, but rather her growing attraction to his father. Category: Mature (18+) Content: adults with age gap, drinking, dry humping, oral sex (both receiving), fingering, unprotected vaginal sex, ālittle girlā nickname, cum play, praise Word Count: 11k (idk how this keeps happening lol)
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NOTE: This fic is titled after and loosely inspired by "Pony" by Ashley Monroe. It's not required listening, but obviously I recommend the song. It's been a favorite of mine since I was a teenager obsessed with Dean Winchester, so... that probably explains a lot about why I am the way I am... LMAO anyway, enjoy <3 I had a blast writing this one!!
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ACT I: If I Had A Baby...
The first job I ever had also happened to be theĀ bestĀ job I ever had. I was twenty years old, and I found an ad in the paper searching for a full-time nanny to a little boy. I didn't think anything of it, other than I desperately needed the money and I didn't mind babysitting. A few years out of school with no plans to attend college and no solid idea of what I wanted to do with my life, I wasn't sure if I'd even get hired. I was almost certain that no one would want a college-aged kid with no stable ambitions or previous job experience, but I was desperate. And CPR-certified.
It was a start. A shot in the dark.
By some miracle, Spencer Reid apparently was also desperate enough to be willing to take a chance on me.
He explained over the phone that he was away more than he'd like to be, and even if he tried to work from home, doing FBI work and raising a toddler alone at the same time was nearly impossible. I agreed to an interview, absolutely elated that I had a foot in the door and the bright beacon of hope for some sort of routine. Something to occupy my time and something to care about, to careĀ for.
I was expecting the work to be... not hard, necessarily, but I wasn't naive enough to believe that taking care of a child was a walk in the park. There would surely be tantrums or bouts of "I miss Daddy!" or refusal to eat what I made him for lunch... I knew going into these interviews that I would be signing up for a major responsibility that meant a lot, not only to Spencer but also to his child. I had to prove that I could do my job and do it well. That alone was a challenge, but one I was willing to work with. I was ready for it.
What IĀ wasn'tĀ ready for, however, was the betrayal I felt when my brain failed to warn me of the possibility that he was not only a single father, but aĀ hotĀ one.
The second I showed up at his door and he opened the barrier between us, I swear it felt like the sun swallowed me whole and burnt me to a crisp. He smiled brightly and introduced himself, and I was done for.
"You must be Y/N! Hi, I'm Doctor Spencer Reid."
Doctor?Ā So he was smart, then, too. Perfect. The Trifecta of Peak Hotness had been achieved. That instantly made this new job ten-times harder than I anticipated, and I hadn't even started yet.
I wasn't sure I could go through with it at first, but the more we talked, the more I relaxed, and I felt sympathy for him. He was a genuinely kind and loving parent who wanted the best for his son, a three-year-old named Benjamin who loved dinosaurs and airplanes and Cheeto Puffs. I didn't get to meet him that day, since he was with his Aunt JJ (who, the way Spencer told it, was most likely feeding his Cheeto Puff addiction as we spoke), but if the interview went well, I'd get to meet him in the next week.
I mulled over my options and almost decided not to show up for the next interview; to call and tell him I'd changed my mind or something, but it pained me to even imagine the disappointment in his voice had he asked me why. For whatever reason, the vivid image of a toddler pouting and crying to his father because he had to leave, and that no one wanted to care for him burned itself into my soul until I relented and just took the job anyway.
It was fair to at least meet the kid first, right?
Benny was insanely talkativeā but not really conversational. Most of the time I tried to keep up, but his mouth was moving a mile a minute, and the conversation always ended up falling flat on my end, so I pretty quickly decided to give up and enthusiastically let him carry it.
He had his father's brains as well. ForĀ hoursĀ that first meeting, he sat there and read me passages of aircraft encyclopedias, and in between two random sections I politely requested that we move on to dinosaurs (which were infinitely cooler). And then, in that adorable toddler voice that made it impossible to be irritated, he looked up at me with wide eyes and said, "I read all my dinosaur booksĀ lastĀ week. This week is for airplanes."
Spencer looked like he was going to divert the conversation entirely, perhaps suggest that Benny do something else while we talked some more, but who was I to interrupt the kid's routine and crush his dreams? If I was going to be his nanny, then I was going to have to make him like me. Right?
So, I nodded like I'd never considered it and encouraged him to keep going. To which he did, very happily.
Spencer seemed happy, too. He was always delighted to see Benny when he came home from work, but there was something about the way he relaxed and perked up all the same at my first interactions with his son that twisted my gut. What that man was filled with at the sight of me wasn't just joy, butĀ hope, too, and regardless of where that joy and hope came from, it was an incredibly dangerous thing to notice as a young woman.
It wasĀ wayĀ too easy to fall into daydream territory. I was alert and attentive when watching Benny, of course, but the second Spencer walked in and completely knocked the wind out of me with that joy and relief radiating from his perfect smile, it was like a screw came loose in my brain and turned me into a feral, horny beast. And then I would return home, alone with my thoughts, and I couldn't divert them from the wild direction they took.
At first it was just your standard wet dream, a girl lusting over the older man she nannied for. It was purely pornographic and provided nothing but short-term relief until I saw him in person again, which frustrated me.
I almost thought about quitting, or saying I was looking into schooling so I could cut down on my hours, but...
That wasn't fair to Benny. He and I had actually formed a pretty stellar routine, if I do say so myself.
And every time I thought about leaving, I couldn't help but think about what I would tell him. Would I even tell him anything at all, or would Spencer just omit me from his life completely and give him an explanation in my place? Who would watch over him after I left? Someone old and mean who made him eat vegetables instead of Cheeto Puffs, andĀ demandedĀ he read to them about dinosaurs instead of airplanes, not giving him the option to develop his curiosity in whatever way he chose? Who would tuck him into bed on the nights his father was late or out of town, and would they sleep on the couch soundly and happily like I did?
I hated even thinking about it.
And then there was the first paycheck.
Truth be told, I hadn't even thought about the money, not after I met the boys and introduced them into my daily routine. I remembered Spencer telling me after my first day alone with Benny that he wouldn't get a paycheck to me until the start of the next month, and I was okay with it. Really, I was just focusing on trying not to drool for the entire conversation, but I digress.
Payment completely slipped my mind.
And then I showed up to do my job, and Benny was nowhere in sight.
"Where's the little guy?" I inquired, looking around and hearing nothing either. "He's usually waiting at the door for me like a dog."
Spencer laughed and concealed something behind his back. "HeĀ doesĀ really enjoy his nights with you... He's actually staying with JJ and her kids tonight, though. Our schedules opened up and she offered to take him for the night. I was going to call and tell you, but I wanted to give you this, anyway."
He handed me an envelope, folded over but not sealed. I took it with an, "Oh," unsure of what it was until I saw the corner of the check. It felt rude somehow to open it in front of him, but his presence was so overwhelming anyway,Ā especiallyĀ being alone with him, that I needed something to occupy my hands and my thoughts and just about everything else I had in my possession.
At first, I thought it was a joke. A prank. It was too good to be true; He was just messing with me and would hand me a fifty-dollar bill on my way out for my trouble. Surely, if not that, then it was a mistake.
I didn't know how long I'd stood there, staring at the paper with whatever expression was all over my face, but it must have beenĀ tooĀ long and too concerning because Spencer sounded worried when he asked, "Is there something wrong?"
I blinked for a moment, then finally had the courage to look him in the eye, my mouth completely dry. "You areĀ notĀ giving me five-thousand dollars right now."
"Well... No, technically, I'm giving you aĀ checkĀ for five-thousand dollars. What you do with it and when is completely up to you, but... You deserve it. Y/N, you've been a Godsend, and Benny and I are lucky to have you around. Thank you. Very much."
I didn't even think about it. It was an insanely kind gesture, and I was in such a state of shock and gratitude and mind-numbing attraction to him in that moment that I leapt forward and flung my arms around his neck, tears stinging my eyes.
He hugged me back tightly and laughed, allowing me to cry my thanks into his shoulder as we nearly tumbled into the coffee table.
ACT II: If I Was A Lady...
The months flew by, and before I knew it, it was Benny's fourth birthday.
Spencer and his friends heavily involved me in the planning process, a gesture that surprised me, but that I obviously would never be thankful enough for. It's not like I hadn't ever known a loving family or anything, but they were all so warm and welcoming; it was like I'd been friends with them my whole life. My chest bloomed brightly with every laugh and every hug, and I don't think I could have been any happier. I felt like I belonged there.
It was a day, and night, I would never forget.
Everyone had left, and Benny was fast asleep in his bed. Spencer and I looked down at him with smiles so bright, if they'd actually radiated any light the poor boy would have woken up.
"Ah, the cake coma," I laughed quietly, Spencer guiding me out of the bedroom. I couldn't stop giggling even as we walkedāAdmittedly, I was a little buzzed on champagne. Still, Spencer laughed with me, and we sat down on the couch. I could tell he was exhausted, but happy.
"I still have to clean all of this up..." It was more of an amusedĀ I'll-do-it-tomorrowĀ statement, but I had this drunken simmering need to please him so badly that I shook my head and hit his arm.
"No. That'sĀ myĀ job. I'll take care of it, you just take your beautiful ass right to bed, you hear me?"
He raised an eyebrow but laughed at me anyway, clearly amused by my banter. "Maybe I shouldn't have allowed the underage drinking after all..."
"Oh, please. I'm not even drunk, just a little loose. Besides, I'll be twenty-one in a couple of months anyway."
"Mmmm."
I hadn't realized how much closer we'd gotten until just then, when he hummed and looked me over. I could feel his breath on my face, and our limbs were just barely touching. Suddenly it was like my entire body was numb, sizzling everywhere we touched, and the champagne had become a part of my bloodstream. The fizz was all I knew, all I was.
Spencer's eyes found mine, and they didn't look away. They pulled me in slowly. I was powerless to stop it, not that I'd ever want to...
In fact, I very eagerly melted into him the second our lips found each other. My head swam, my fingers started tingling, and I wasĀ veryĀ aware of every movement we made. I straddled his lap, and he welcomed me with open arms, pulling me flush against him as his tongue darted out swiftly to taste mine.
I couldn't believe it was actually happening. Every few seconds I kept thinking to myself,Ā this feels like a dream... It has to be a dream...Ā Between the pent-up attraction I'd been accumulating for him over the last few months and the alcohol that loosened me up and dissolved any ounce of common sense I possessed, I felt like I was in a different world entirely.
He hardened underneath me and my nerves went nuclear, instinctively forcing my body to roll over his. I ground my hips, aching to feel that sweet friction that I'd only felt once before with another manā so long ago and so unbelievably dull in comparison to the sensations I was feeling in Spencer's lap. I was onlyĀ barelyĀ experienced with sex, but I was experienced enough to know that I didn't have anything to be nervous about; This man would takeĀ goodĀ care of me. I felt it in my bones.
The thought alone sent my body into overdrive. I whined and rolled my hips relentlessly, wishing I was completely bare and feeling himĀ soĀ deep inside me that his absence would leave me haunted. I wanted to feel him forever. I wanted him to ruin my life and claim me as his own, until there was absolutely nothing left of me.
His hands cradled my head reverently as he continued to kiss me deep and slow, raising his hips up to meet mine and aid in getting me off. The gentle tugs of his fingers through my hair and the warm hums of encouragement he offered to my mouth as I climbed higher and higher towards that precipice of pleasure made me weak. I felt so fragile in his arms, like I was meant to be right there, allowing him to guide me wherever. I would have done anything for him, anything so long as he kept holding me and making me sighāmaking meĀ glow.
"FuckāI'm gonna come," I exclaimed in a broken whisper, breaking apart from his mouth to bury my face in his hair. He brought his hands down to my hips then, groaning as quietly as he could into my neck as he helped me rock back and forth across his lap.
It wasn't an earth-shattering intense orgasm by any means; there wasn't nearly enough stimulation for that. But I wasĀ soĀ wet and aroused that even the low, quick and burning pleasure that shot through my core for a few seconds was enough to satisfy me. I wasn't in any position to complain.
That was, of course, until I reached down to touch Spencer's belt, and he pushed me away. Not aggressively, but his handsāwhich had been so gentle and welcoming just moments beforeāhad gone rigid. Frozen and firm, like he'd just been scared half to death.
He scrambled out from my reach and put so much distance between us that I went cold. My name tumbled from his lips in a regretful sigh, and it stung.
"We can't ever do that again."
"Okay," was all I could manage to say. I was still tingling all over, like my whole body had fallen numb and was now just warming up to the idea of having senses again.
"That was irresponsible. And I'm too old for you."
"M-hm," I agreed absentmindedly.
"You should go home."
"Okay."
"I'll call you a cab."
"Thank you."
I went home that night with a deep twist in my gut that wouldn't go away. The rejection hurt. It scared me, too, wondering if I'd still have a job when I woke up in the morning. Was that the last time I would ever see Spencer? And Benny? Had I really just screwed up the best thing that ever happened to me?
I barely slept. Every time I closed my eyes, I was back on Spencer's couch, getting myself off in his lap and reveling in his embrace. I woke up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat, hating myself for being so reckless, and even more so for not regretting it a single bit.
After I was finally able to get a solid couple of hours of sleep, I had a text message from Spencer waiting for me when I woke up.
I sincerely apologize for last night. The job is still yours, but I also understand if you don't want it anymore. Take a few days, whatever time you need, and let me know.
I was relieved, of course, but also deeply curious to know how we would keep things professional after something like that. I guess I was just mostly surprised that he was willing to, considering he seemed pretty rattled by it.
Still, If he was willing to try, then so was I.
I'm sorry, too. I wouldn't give up you and Benjamin for the world. All is well?
He texted back almost immediately;Ā All is well.
It only clicked into place a few months later, once the initial shock of our "escapade" had faded away and we could return to business as normal. Because, really, the truth was weĀ couldn'tĀ return to business as normal. We tried, but he never looked me in the eye for longer than a second at a time, he refused to touch me in any way, careful not to even brush my hand as he handed me my monthly check, and his small talk was even more painful than it had been previously.
Still, I continued to be Benny's nannyāand best friend, according to Auntie Penelope, much to her dismay. I still loved that kid more than anything in the world, and I still, unfortunately, wanted his father to kiss me again.
I was willing to let it all go, though, to admit that it was a silly stupid crush that could never come to anything and just deal with it like an adult, and then I had to overhear the motherfucker when he came home one night. I was resting on the couch, about to open my eyes when I heard the door open, but then I heard a voice that wasn't Spencer's. It was his friend, Luke.
Spencer cut him off then. "Quiet, please."
There was shuffling, keys being set down, and then a small laugh as they got closer to me. I didn't move a muscle, focusing only on my breathing. "Right. Don't wake the hot nanny, got it."
"She'sĀ right there," Spencer hissed, and I tried not to laugh. My insides flared to life as he added, "And I asked you not to bring that up..."
"Oh, come on, Reid. You have the hots for her; big deal. It's normal."
"So? I'm... I'm technically her boss, and she's far too young for me. It's not right, and you know that."
"Whatever. You do what you think is right, man, but I'm telling you; Ignoring it is only going to make you more stressed."
Spencer mumbled something incoherent, and the two shuffled off into the kitchen for God-knows-what. All I could think about was that heĀ wanted me. It was probably killing himĀ justĀ as badly as it was killing me not to give into each other again. My mind was racing, my heart beat violently in my chest, and I knew then that I had to pretend to wake up or else I'd sit there and burst into flames.
I had to leave. I had to do something; What, I didn't know, but this revelation had me reeling and feeling a myriad of things, and I needed to sit with them, preferably alone so I wasn't tempted to just jump him on the spot.
"Did we wake you? I'm sorry." Spencer's kind voice warmed me from the inside out as I shuffled into the kitchen to say goodbye.
I quickly gathered my things and avoided his gaze. "Oh. No, you didn't. If you're back for the night though, I'm gonna go home. I'm exhausted."
"Little guy was that rambunctious, huh?" Luke joked.
I smiled and gave him a wink. "Oh, no. He was an absolute angel, as always. His daddy raised him well. Goodnight. See you tomorrow, Doctor Reid?"
He cleared his throat, rasping out, "Yes, tomorrow. Goodnight."
"Night."
I tried not to run mischievously out the door, willing my legs to be normal. But the second there was a tangible barrier between us, I bolted to my car, high on adrenaline and unable to wipe the smile from my face; I was wide awake.
Eventually, though, I realized it would be absolutely stupid to do anything about it. Did it boost my ego and my mood? Absolutely. It also softened the blow of his avoidance and his initial rejection that night; All of his behavior made much more sense. Sure, I was a little disappointed that he wouldn't entertain our mutual desire, but as long as it was there... It couldn't be that bad, right?
Wrong.
I'd gotten a text from him earlier in the day, asking if I could come over last minute to watch Benny. I wasn't going to say no, obviously, but when I got there to see him dressed up, I shot up an eyebrow.
"A little fancy for work, yeah?" I told him, hanging my keys up and listening for Benny.
"Oh, I'm... not going to work, actually. I, uh... I have a date."
I froze. I panicked. I didn't know what to do, what to think, or how to react. Naturally my thoughts immediately jumped to the worst-case scenarioāvisions of Spencer sleeping with another woman, someone older andĀ notĀ a nanny. Someone who was distinguished and well-read and smart, someone like himself. Someone who was more inherentlyĀ rightĀ for him. It... made me sad.
Admittedly, I felt stupid even thinking that way. It wasn't my right to dictate his dating life, no matter how badly I wanted him; I knew what he tasted like, knew how it felt to come undone in his embrace, and yet I wasn't entitled to him solely based on that.
Still. It doesn't mean I had toĀ likeĀ it.
"Oh... Um... Good for you," I told him, nodding and turning away in case he tried to profile me. "Have fun."
He said goodbye to Benny a few minutes later, and then gave me a polite, transactional wave on his way out the door. It shut, and it felt like my chest was collapsing.
But I was only able to wallow for a few seconds. Benny tugged on my sleeve and looked up at me quizzically.
"Auntie Y/N, are you sad?"
His sweet face lifted my spirits like it always did, and I didn't have the energy to think about the other emotions that were swimming around in my chest anyway. So I smiled at him and picked him up, shaking my head. "Not anymore, kiddo; I get to hang out with my favorite person!"
We spent all night munching on Cheeto Puffs and building Lego sets, and it was unsurprising to me that by the time I'd finished one, Benny had finished three. Still, our sets combined to make a larger one, and then we were able to give the people names and backstories and adventures.
Either time passed very quickly, or Spencer didn't last very long on his date, because the front door opened and I was surprised he was home before I could put Benny to bed.
"Daddy!" he exclaimed, running and dropping his half-eaten Cheeto Puff in my lap. I laughed and tossed it in the trash can on my way to the door, greeting Spencer, who was hugging his son tightly and making him giggle profusely.
"You're home early," I observed as he set him down.
"Had to make it home before curfew, of course." A joke. He was deflecting. I kind of hated that I felt relief at the insinuation.
"Of course," I agreed.
"So, what did you guys do while I was gone?"
Benny jumped and grabbed his father's hand. "Auntie Y/N and I made aĀ wholeĀ Lego village! It has a library!"
"It does?" Spencer asked bending down to his level and positively beaming. The sight made my chest tighten.
"It really does! Do you want to come see?"
"Oh, absolutely. I just have to talk to Auntie Y/N first, and I'll be right in, is that okay?" He nodded and Spencer ruffled his hair. "Okay. Say goodnight."
Benny turned and ran to me then, and I squatted down to hug him. "Goodnight, Auntie Y/N. Thank you for building with me."
"Oh, you're welcome, kiddo. You're an excellent building partner; The best in the business."
He laughed and scampered off to his bedroom, and as I stood up, I felt Spencer's eyes on me. I couldn't decipher what the feeling was on his end, but regardless, it burned a hole through me and made my heart pound in my ears.
"How'd it go?" I asked casually, dusting Cheeto off my jeans.Ā Did you do it just to forget about how much you want me? Did it work?
He shrugged and leaned against the counter with a lazy smile. He almost looked exhausted. "I'd have much rather liked to be at home with my boy and his best friend to tell you the truth."
My heart was racing, and I couldn't help but wonder what he was getting at. Was he fucking with me? Or was he simply telling the honest, innocent truth, while I was letting my lust take the drivers' seat and go searching for some insane imaginary intention to help along my hot-single-father/nanny fantasy?
Suddenly,Ā IĀ was the one who felt exhausted, and Spencer could tell. He shifted and continued talking. "Thank you again for staying with him on such short notice."
"Oh, anytime. It's what I'm here for. In fact, feel free to go onĀ allĀ the bad dates you want."
I don't know why it came out of my mouth, but I was glad that Spencer laughed. Still, I scrambled to get my keys and walked past him to leave, kind of embarrassed by the verbalized impulsive thought regardless.
His hand grabbed my arm gently before I could leave, and my heart caught in my throat. I dared to look up at him and immediately felt that familiar heat return to my core, suddenly very fragile under the weight of his gaze.
He studied me for a moment before he let go of my arm and cleared his throat. "Goodnight."
I couldn't help the feeling that he wanted to tell me something else. He did say he wanted to talk to me before putting Benny to bed, after all... So, what? That was it?
It was stupid, and I should have just told him, "Goodnight," back, but those damned impulsive thoughts kept dancing on my tongue with reckless abandon, and I couldn't stop them from escaping. So, without another thought, I tilted my head and asked him instead, "Was she my age?"
Spencer stared at me, something darkening in his eyes when he responded, "No."
I threw back one of his considering hums, glancing down at his lips before looking him directly in the eye and giving him a firm, "Oh." There were plenty more things I could have told him, none of them appropriate. But I figured I'd already had enough pushing my luck for the night, and reached for the doorknob instead of dragging it out. The night would end like it always did, with a formal, professional farewell.
I was about to finally tell him, "Goodnight," but his hand came down very gently over mine and rendered me silent. Our eyes met once more, and a shiver ran down my spine.
"Even if sheĀ hadĀ been, she wouldn't have been you."
And then he opened the door for me, and I walked out without another word, my head spinning and my heart threatening to give out on me. He hadn't even kissed me, but he might as well have; I was just as breathless.
ACT III: He Is Nice, But He Looks So Mean.
I was actually littered with nerves walking in the door the next time I came over to watch Benny.
I hadn't heard anything from Spencer for a week, until he called and asked me to come over for the night to watch him while he went to work. I was going to do it with no questions asked, obviously, but because that insane confession was echoing in my mind on a continuous loop since it happened, I couldn't even bring myself to think about seeing him again andĀ knowing...Ā I had no idea what reaction my body was going to have to being in his presence again.
It scared me, but also deeply excited me.
Once my body had enough courage to step through the doorway, my heart rate sped up exponentially, and then upon seeing what was in front of me, it stuttered with a terrifying halt.
Warmth flooded my veins and brought a smile to my face when the four-year-old boy I nannied for and loved more than anything threw his hands in the air and yelled at the top of his lungs.
"Happy Birthday!"
He ran up to me and nearly toppled me to the ground, and on instinct, my arms reached out to pick him up as he hugged my neck and listed off the things he did to celebrate.
"Daddy said your birthday was yesterday, but we wanted to give you a party just like you did forĀ myĀ birthday! So we went to the store and got you ingredients for your cake, and we made it just for you!"
"You did?" I exclaimed, setting him down and letting him lead me to the kitchen where the cake was sitting out on the table, clearly homemade by two boys who didn't know the first thing about baking or decorating anything. Spencer was standing across the kitchen table with a proud, albeitĀ I-know-it's-not-much-to-look-atĀ smile, but I barely had time to thank him before Benny told me about the process, step-by-step.
As he went on, I nodded and admired the cake, complimenting the purple and green swirls of frosting (his favorite color and mine, he explained), and the trail of assorted candies in the shape of a stegosaurus in the middle (my favorite dinosaur).
"Do you love it, Auntie Y/N?"
I hugged him again with tears in my eyes. I tried not to actually cry, but the tugging at the back of my throat and the blurring of my eyes was extremely difficult to push away. I realized then, as Spencer watched me with his son and looked like he might have been ready to cry himself, that it wasn't worth trying to hide. I was extremely moved and even happier in that moment than I think I'd ever been. I loved that man and his child more than anything I'd ever known.
So, I blinked hard and let the tears silently descend down my cheeks, kissing the side of Benny's head as I told him, "I love itĀ soĀ much. And I loveĀ youĀ so much. Thank you."
I looked up at Spencer and said it again. "Thank you."
He nodded, reaching for the star-shaped candle next to the cake. "You're very welcome. Benny, do you want to help Auntie Y/N light the birthday candle?"
The boy squirmed in my arms and I let him down with a laugh as he excitedly reminded us, "That's my favorite part of birthdays!"
"I apologize if you find an eggshell," Spencer warned a few minutes later, slicing the cake after the song had been sung and the candle had been blown out. He slid my plate over and handed me a fork. "Benny and I did our best to fish them all out, but it's... surprisingly harder than it looks."
As Benny nodded in agreement, I looked down at him and took a forkful of cake. "Oh, I don't have anything to worry about. I'm sure you two are excellent eggshell fishermen."
The four-year-old giggled, but his father sighed as if to say,Ā Don't say I didn't warn you...
To no one's surprise but Spencer's, the cake was delicious. I may have played it up for dramatic effect, putting on a whole show as I chewed and considered every bite, playing as if I was unsure andĀ reallyĀ critiquing the dessert. I set my fork down and looked at Spencer with squinted eyes, then slowly to his son. The suspense was obviously killing him, his small limbs bouncing with anticipation and a smile that suggested he was going to urge the verdict out of me if I didn't announce itĀ veryĀ soon.
I decided to spare him the wait.
"Benjamin Reid... That might just be the best cake I've ever had."
"Really? No eggshells?"
I laughed, reaching to give him a high-five as he beamed up at me with sparkling eyes and a wide-open smile. "Not aĀ single one. You should be very proud of yourself. You and your dad, both."
Benny hugged me again, and I glanced over to Spencer, who was slicing another piece of cake and staring at me with that intense look in his eyes, a satisfied half-smile adorning his face. A rush of heat came surging through my bloodstream like a tidal wave, and I had to look away from him or I was afraid I'd collapse on the spot.
Benny didn't know it, but he was saving my life in that very moment, as the three of us ate cake together. I refused to look at his father. I needed literally anything else to keep me from even glancing his way, and my four-year-old best friend's rambling habits were the perfect focus.
He told me more about his process for decorating the cake, and while I was genuinely a little surprised at how much thought there really could have been with the task, with an ever-moving mind like Benny's, it was actually quite clear by the end of it. It charmed me to no end and filled me with pride to know that I'd had enough of an impact on him to trigger this level of detail and consideration. Again, it's not like I'd never had people who cared about me before, but when it came to the Reids, my heart sang a tune I'd never heard, and it was the most beautiful, brightly vivid sound I'd ever had the pleasure to hearātoĀ feel.
I was thinking too much about it, letting the song swallow me whole as tears stung in the back of my eyes and threatened to fall again, when Spencer's phone buzzed on the table. The sound grounded and intrigued me, even more so when he glanced up at me for a moment, right before directing his words to his son.
"Benny, Uncle Will is outside. Is your bag ready?"
He jumped from his seat and nodded. "In my room."
"Okay. Before you grab it, say goodnight to Auntie Y/N."
I felt the toddler's arms hugging my legs, and turned all my attention to him, refusing once again to look at the man whose eyes I could feel burning me alive with something deeply ravenous, begging to be unfettered. I had a feeling, creeping over my senses like a thick blanket of ivy, that I wasn't making it up and letting my desire for him take the wheel, either; Just as the loving, family-friendly song in my heart had beenābright and vividāthis feeling was just as much the same in its intensity, only echoed with a sound that felt very much like those dark, lowĀ humsĀ Spencer always emitted alone in my presence. I felt it all around me and hoped to God that I wasn't about to leave this place feeling like a hopeful, stupid idiot.
"Goodnight, Auntie Y/N. Did you like your birthday?"
"I did, Benny," I answered in earnest, ruffling his hair. "You're very thoughtful and kind. Thank you so much."
"I love you, Auntie Y/N."
I squeezed him tight and made sure he understood every word as truth when I told him, "I love you, too."
ACT IV: When I Grow Up, I Wanna Be Your Girl.
The apartment was quiet when Spencer took Benny outside to meet with Will. I did my best to keep myself busy, cleaning up forks and plates, and wiping down the counter tops while simultaneously ignoring the hammering of my heart against my chest. The organ wouldn't calm down, even as I hummed to myself. It's like those nerves that I had walking through the front door that night never actually went awayā only subsided for a little while in favor of wholesome celebration.
Part of me wanted to flee, but I knew it wasn't an option. Not really. I had to at least talk to Spencer and thank him for the effort. Perhaps I was good enough of an actress that I could pretend to have been ignorant of his glances all night, or at least that they didn't affect me like he maybe wanted them to.
Catching myself in the act of overthinking again, I grunted and slammed a glass of water, willing the fresh liquid to wash away any insanity. There was no use going through all the possible scenarios in my head, not when there wasn't much time before Spencer returned. No matter what happened, I wasn't going to be prepared for it.
IĀ certainlyĀ wasn't prepared for the way my heart practically leapt out of my chest when he returned, softly opening and closing the door. It took everything I had not to turn around and allow him to see how nervous I was. I kept my back turned, hoping and praying I wasn't visibly shaking as heavily as I felt. I was warm all over.
His presence behind me was dense and ever-presentā almost suffocating. I took my time drying off the plates and forks I'd washed while he was away, hearing him rustle around without a word or acknowledgement of me, and then he finally spoke. I almost dropped a fork.
"Why are you doing my dishes, Birthday Girl?"
"My birthday wasĀ yesterday..."
He laughed and came up behind me, a gentle hand on my lower back as the other reached around and took the silverware from my grip. I relented, feeling myself numb at his touch and trying to steady my breathing.
"Yes, but we're celebrating today. InĀ myĀ household at least, that means you're not allowed to do any work."
I turned around to face him as he set the fork down on the counter, his other hand still hovering over my back. It returned to his side, disappearing into the pocket of his pants as I crossed my arms and looked up at him. Thankfully, despite the constant whirring of nerves and desire coursing through my entire being, I was able to hold a conversation without hesitation.
"You're not my dad."
Another amused grin. "No, I'm not. But IĀ amĀ your boss. And as your boss, I'm asking you to take the night off and enjoy yourself."
The way he was staring down at me seemingly punctuated his words with a gentle seduction that made me ache with need. I was getting stronger and bolder by the second, leaning forward just enough to be toe-to-toe with him.
"Okay, then,Ā Boss... Tell me, are there any restrictions to enjoying myself in your household? Because..."
The second I heard that familiarĀ humĀ rumble from his chest, I knew I was in dangerā glorious, beautiful danger. His eyes glanced down at my mouth for a second before returning to my own, his body leaning into mine and his free hand reaching out to trap me against the counter.
I tilted my head and brought my fingers up to toy with the tie hanging from his neck. "IĀ amĀ all grown up now, after all..."
"And I suppose you knowĀ exactlyĀ what you want..."
"Mm-hmm," I drawled, pulling him in closer by the tie. Our lips were barely touching by that point, and I felt my head start to pulse with anticipation as he urged me to go on.
"Well?"
"I want to be yours."
He hummed again, pushing his body to mine and bringing the pocketed hand up to hold the side of my head. "Mmm, Darling, you always have been."
And then he kissed me.
He tasted like sugar, but his intentions were anything but sweet. His mouth devoured mine with a fire that threatened to turn me to ash. Every sense I had was alight, engulfing me in a heat so intense that it was all I was sure to know for the rest of my life. It's all I wanted and all I needed.
I met his intensity with eager hands, exploring the planes of his body as his tongue did wicked things to my own. This time I didn't even need the champagne; I was dizzy on Spencer alone. The fizz boiled me from the inside out and urged my limbs to cling to him like it was my life's purpose. Hell, for all I knew, itĀ wasĀ my life's purposeā to burn for him and let him consume me. To revel in his dancing flame and allow it to become my life force. I wanted it more than I'd ever wanted anything.
And I was sure to let him know that, too, refusing to hold back the string of whines and moans that escaped me every now and again. The hand that had been resting on the counter behind me came down to grip and hike up my thigh, our hips colliding just as beautifully this time as they had the last. The memory caused another wanton sound to tumble from my mouth, and Spencer caught it greedily, pulling back for air long enough to squeeze my thigh and sing me a praise of his own.
"God, I love the sounds you make..."
His lips were on mine again before I could respond, but I didn't even need to. Not verbally, anyway; I guided his hand down the side of my face and over my chest, pushing my body into him and feeling his fingers tighten. His kisses grew hungrier, and suddenly I was starving.
I was finally able to break away from his mouth in favor of tasting the skin and stubble along his jaw. Then, I buried my face in his neck and reached for his belt, praying he wouldn't jump away like last time.
Thankfully, he didn't. His grip on both my breast and my thigh tightened again, but he didn't pull away from me. His breath didn't even hitch.
I took that as a good sign and slowly undid his belt. The sound alone was enough to send a jolt of excitement between my thighs, though the visions dancing behind my eyelids of what I planned to do in just a few moments helped my pleasure immensely. I dragged my tongue softly along Spencer's neck before freeing the belt and sinking to the ground alongside it. His hands fell away from my body and chose to root in my hair instead. The gentle tugging at my scalp admittedly made me stumble, but not out of discomfort; I was actually quite surprised at how much I liked the feeling.
Spencer noticed, humming again with amusement as I went back to tugging down his pants. Still, he said nothing, instead watching me intently as I continued my journey.
I didn't hide the desire I felt as I palmed the length of him through his underwear. In fact, I couldn't decide if I wanted to keep my sight leveled or to angle it up at him, because it was a damn good sight either way; The sensual nature of my fingers gently caressing him, knowing what was resting beyond that thin layer of fabric and imagining how it probably felt to him, or the thick and domineering air between his face and mine, his gaze committing every movement I made to wicked memory...
With a sigh, I opted to lean forward, ignoring the sharp bruising on my knees and putting all my focus into the task at large.
Spencer seemed to tell I was thinking too much, gently massaging my scalp and cooing, "Have you ever done this before?"
Yes, but... "Not with anyone I've actually wanted this badly..."
"Mmm, that does make a difference..." he observed. "Whatever it is that you need to be comfortable, Y/NāĀ tell me. Okay? Promise me you won't hurt yourself in any way just to please me."
A surge of heat exploded through me at the intensity of it all. He was sincere, and by the sound of things, sympathetic to my overthinking. It was another show of just how much I wanted him to guide me, to hold me in his comforting, knowing embrace and show me exactly how life should be lived. Every life experience there was to know, I wanted to know it withĀ him.
"I promise," I told him firmly, not breaking eye contact as I tugged at the cotton between us.
His eyes struggled to stay open when I finally gripped his cock, feeling the weight of it in my hand and bringing it to my mouth. I glanced down then, taking in every ridge as it disappeared slowly down the length of my tongue. I reveled in the taste, in the fullness I felt the deeper it went, and once it hit the back of my throat and caused me to choke and pull back, I angled my eyes back up at his face to find the most heavenly sight I'd ever seen.
Spencer watched me all the time. I was no stranger to his intense gazes. But when I looked up at him that time, his mouth open and eyes so deeply darkened with need that they could have drowned me, I truly thought I might have died and entered the afterlife. Perhaps that was dramatic, but there was no other possible way for me to describe the feeling that coursed through me in that moment. Suddenly I was chasing it, longing to be in that state of euphoria forever, and my mouth eagerly went to work in pursuit of it.
I took my time, exploring the ways he could fit in my mouth and the ways my tongue could cover the length of him. I went in search of any pleasure point I could find, occasionally looking up to gauge his reaction and finding nothing but those beautiful, salacious pools of liquid gold.
Eventually, I was brave enough to take him to the back of the throat again, holding him there and seeing how long it would take before I felt the air leave my lungs. I repeated the process a few times, stroking him with my hand in between gasps of air and shivering at the way he tugged my hair. My vision was starting to blur, but I persisted, aching to know what he tasted like as he came undone.
Unfortunately, it wasn't in the cards for me to find out that night.
I whined as he held my head away from him, praying he wasn't backing out.
"Stand up, please," he asked softly. It sounded like he'd been breathless, and maybe he had. The thought that I had that effect on him calmed my nerves and made me dizzy as I stood, and his hands cradled my head once again.
"You areĀ soĀ good," he whispered, kissing me deeply. I melted into him, only for him to pull back and continue his praises. "So beautiful..." Another toe-curling kiss, and then, "So perfect."
My eyes fluttered shut as his mouth moved over my jaw and to my pulse-point. "My good, sweet girl," he murmured, and the words caused me to clench around nothing.
"Please."
The word fell out of me with a whimper and at its urgency, Spencer's mouth attacked my neck with a gentle, hungry bite that sent a shiver down my spine.
"Follow me."
And I did. I always would.
As much as I would have loved the opportunity to look around his bedroom and make banter about what I discovered on any normal day, my brain was so overwhelmed and numb with desire that the thought hadn't even crossed my mind.
Not that I would have had the time to think about it anyway; He was on me the moment my legs touched the edge of the bed, devouring my mouth once more and pulling me into his atmosphere with fervor. Willing myself to get even closer to him, I brought my fingers up to thread through his hair and was rewarded with another gentle tug of my own.
Suddenly I was extremely hot, squirmy and anxious to break free from the confines of clothing, and Spencer could tell.
He broke apart with a laugh, bringing a hand down to trace the collar of my shirt. "Have you no patience?"
"You're the one sucking my face like it's the end of the fucking world," I breathed when he shifted the collar and exposed more of my skin to the air, earning me another low grumble of a laugh.
"You're not complaining are you?"
"God, no."
"Mmm, good," he hummed into my cheek, reaching down and tugging my shirt over my head. The fabric caught on his nose for a second, bringing a laugh to the surface of my tongue before he swallowed it with another kiss and tossed the shirt to the ground.
Warm, nimble fingers spanned my bare stomach and thoroughly explored the surface area of me, up and up until they slipped under the backside of my bra.
"Is this okay?"
I pushed myself into him and nipped at his bottom lip. "Yes, Doctor."
Goosebumps littered my arms as he deftly unhooked the bra and slid it off my body, and I barely had time to take a breath before he was kissing me again, pawing at my chest and slipping me his eager tongue. My senses were on overload, that hot pang of need pulsating between my legs as I then fell backwards, letting him lay me down and settle himself between them. His kisses traveled lower, tongue darting out to flick over my peaked nipple, and I involuntarily arched up into him.
No one had ever paid this much careful attention to my body beforeāIt was always a quick pleasantry to get out of the way before the main course. But the way Spencer held and touched and tasted me felt like a crash course in intimacy. He was still hungry for me, obviously, but he made it feel like it wasn't just about the destination. He savored each and every second of the moment in all its pent-up, beautiful glory.
Which is why, when he finally slipped a hand down the front of my pants, he seemed delighted to find that I was practically soaked through my panties already.
His middle finger pressed firmly at my clothed heat, and I sighed into his mouth.
"Look at what I've done to you... Poor thing. You're justĀ achingĀ to be filled, aren't you?"
My head had no choice but to arch backwards as I moaned into the open air at his words, my legs clamping around his hand. "God, Spencer,Ā please..."
"So I'm not wrong, then?" he mused, teasing me some more and justĀ barelyĀ pushing the fabric aside. I squirmed and lifted my hips, trying to guide him in the right place, but he pulled away from me then, leaving me cold.
Only a second later did the heat return; Spencer stood at the foot of the bed and gently helped me scoot to the edge. He removed the rest of my clothes and stared down at my bare figure as he unbuttoned his shirt, debauchery settling in his eyes as they raked over me. With careful consideration, once his shirt was on the floor with the rest of my clothes, he came down and caressed my inner thigh, slowly spreading my legs apart.
"You're so wet and needy, I'm willing to bet you don't even need me to prep you..."
All it took was one lithe finger to prove his theory correct. It slid into me with ease, and I whined out at the contact. One finger swiftly became two, and after a few slow pumps with no resistance, he seemed satisfied. "Mmm, that's what I thought... You've been ready for me for a long time, haven't you?"
"Uh-huh," was all I could manage under the circumstances. Every word and every touch was rendering me incapable of anything more complex.
He removed his fingers from me then, and leaned down to nudge my nose with his own. "How are you feeling?" he asked me in a whisper, fluttering a gentle kiss over my lips as his cock barely teased my entrance. It was such a simple question, but it only deepened the desire I felt for himā It was gentle and attentive and intimate...
"Never better," I responded earnestly.
"Yeah?" he cooed. He pushed into me slowly then, and I gasped at the pressure. "Are you ready to take it?"
"Uh-huh," I stuttered once more, crying out silently when he finally bottomed out and ground his hips in a slow circle against my own.
"Tell me what you want, little girl," he begged sweetly against my lips. "Please, I need to hear you say it."
I gripped his shoulders and pulled back a little to hold his gaze, almost gasping out again at the way his hips pinned me down. It was difficult to form the perfect sentence, but I figured I didn't really need to say much at allā only the whimper-y, pathetic truth, which was, "I want you so bad..."
"As you wish."
The words barely left his lips before he began to move, hooking my legs around his forearms and spreading me apart further. He fucked me deeply, and with a steady pace that knocked the wind from my lungs and already had me seeing stars. That had never happened before.
Spencer could tell, a grin forming on his face as he freed one of his hands and softly traced my jaw. "Better than you thought?"
Absolutely. But there was something about that cocky grin on his face and the lilt in his voice that made me want to be difficult. I struggled to talk through heavy breathing, but I managed to choke out, "Don't... flatter yourself."
I don't quite know what I expected, but it was a bit of a shock to me when he hooked his thumb into my mouth and pressed down gently on my tongue, quickening his pace inside me and making me gasp out again.
"Aw... Are you not enjoying yourself?" he pouted without a single hint of sincerity; He knew I was.
I cried out and involuntarily closed my mouth around his thumb, my insides burning alive at all the sensations coursing through me. My cunt clenched around him, and he cried out himself, laughing softly as he did so. "That's what I thought..."
I wanted to watch him the way he watched me, to study his features and his movements and take it all in with reverence, but he was too fucking good at this. He was so skilled in the art of rendering me senseless, all I could do was lay there and take it. He gave himself to me in the most intimate, soul-crushing way, and I wanted to bask in it forever.
His other hand snaked along the inside of my thigh and held me open for him as he looked down, watching himself fuck me. I barely caught glimpses of his wandering gaze, wondering how he could be so focused when it was taking everything I had to stay cognizant. I blamed it on my lack of experience withĀ goodĀ sex, and silently vowed to myself that one day I would return the favor.
Until then, I would lay at Spencer's mercy and take pleasure in the simple fact that he was willing to give me thisā to give me a piece of himself that would no doubt ruin any other partner. He was setting the standard and exceeding it simultaneously. He was kind and caring and considerate. He was thorough and thoughtful.
And he was making me come.Ā Hard.
The orgasm hit me out of nowhere, my body stuttering in quick, pulsing flashes of pleasure that got stronger and stronger each second. Spencer fucked me through it with ease, never missing a beat. His thumb slid out from my mouth and down my chin, allowing me to cry out for him all I wanted, which, seemingly was his goal.
"That's my good girl," he breathed, his voice tight. Perhaps he wasn't as put together as I thought. "Let it all out for me... Please..."
Please... God, that word sounded so good falling from his lips. It echoed in my mind as I gave him what he wanted, though not from choice. It was like his movements and his words were designed specifically to draw the sounds from my body. I would have given them to him anyway, but I didn't have to try, and that was the magic of it all. He knew exactly what would keep me mewling through the most intense pleasure of my life, and I was more than happy to allow him the pleasantry.
His orgasm came at the tail-end of mine, and though I was steadily growing tired at the exertion, I found the strength to clench around him again, recalling how he'd reacted before. I reached for his hand and allowed him to lace our fingers together as he came with a loud shuddering sigh.
Finally, I was able to focus, another chill running its course through my nervous system as Spencer pulsated inside me. His movements faltered as he spilled over, filling me so deep that I had no choice but to gasp again. My name sounded heavenly on his tongue as it danced in the air behind curses and sighs, and suddenly I understood why he enjoyed hearing my sounds so much. The warmth that bloomed in my chest as I watched and felt and heard him come undone above me delivered me to the most prideful of feelings.
I watched as his face relaxed, felt as his body eased and fell away from mine, and before I had time to even think of what to say, he was moving, kneeling at the end of the bed and spreading my legs again.
Oh, my God...
I couldn't even tell if I said the expression out loud, but I certainly felt its gravity in my bones, low and reverberating as Spencer inspected his work.
His fingers barely caught what had leaked out, and then his tongue followed suit, licking a gentle hot stripe up the seam of me. My fingers clutched at the comforter underneath me, searching for any sign of stability as my senses started to lose control once more.
"Darling," he praised, kissing the inside of my thigh, "you took me so well..."
I was halfway through telling him, "Thank you," when he started licking at my clit, making me stutter. He took his time, tasting me thoroughly while filling me with his fingers. Between drowning in the residual pleasure of my previous orgasm and also in the sounds he was making below me, it wasn't long before another one approached. It was sharp and quick, making my back arch up off the mattress as Spencer sucked my clit into oblivion.
Rather than incoherent cries of pleasure, the only thing that dared to leave my mouth at the sensation was a very loud, very appropriate,Ā "Fuck!"Ā to the evening air.
The curse tumbled out over and over again as the orgasm rocked through me, and he pulled himself away from me at the end of it with a shit-eating grin. "Such a dirty mouth..."
It took me a few seconds to catch my breath, shivering as he climbed back up on the bed and laid beside me. "You're one to talk, Doctor."
"I guess I'm a poor influence. Sorry."
It was mostly a joke, but I could tell that he believed there was some truth to his words. I did my best to reassure him, not only because he was my boss and I needed to reinstate the idea that weĀ bothĀ made the decision to sleep together, not just him, but also because I secretly hoped he wouldn't regret the decision at allā regretĀ me. Selfishly, I wanted to know if he'd consider keeping me around as more than just a nanny. I wanted to know if there was even a slight chance that this wouldn't end in total emotional disaster.
"You have nothing to be sorry for...Ā Nothing..."
Spencer studied me for a moment, something settling in his eyes that I couldn't quite place, but it felt... warm. It was a different warmth than the searing heat that his gazes had radiated before. Perhaps it was wishful, foolish thinking, but I almost imagined it feeling akin to the realization that you were falling in loveā the type of warmth that terrified yet excited you all the same, that triggered your nerves and also gave you hope.
It reminded me of that dangerous, beautiful hope that lingered in his smile every time he'd come home from a long day at work to see me and Benny safe and sound in the comfort of his home.
His hand gently brushed mine, I laced our fingers together, and that's when he finally responded.
"Neither do you, you know... I meant what I said. Every word." His fingers tightened in mine, and I felt myself become breathless again. "You're perfect. And I'm lucky to have you."
"You're just saying that because it's my birthday," I joked, trying to keep myself from crying in front of him. I didn't know why that was so important to me, especially considering just a few hours ago I'd decided not to hide the truth from him, no matter how emotional and teary of a truth it was.
Spencer pressed his forehead to mine, sighing my name through a smile. "You are... theĀ bestĀ thing that has happened to me since Benny. I was afraid to admit it at the start, but... You're so good to him, and so good toĀ me...Ā I genuinely don't ever want to know what life would be like without you."
I couldn't help it then. My vision was suddenly obscured by tears, and I was blinking them away, letting him capture my lips in a tender kiss that rivaled any other.
I prayed in that very moment that there would be more like them in the future.
CODA: All My Rings Will Be Made of Gold.
Turns out, there had beenĀ plentyĀ more, and then some.
It's hard to choose a favorite, though obviously I'm quite biased when it comes to my boys. So, I suppose it's easy for me to recall the night I got engaged as my favorite.
I wasn't nannying for Benny anymore; He was in school during the day (Kindergarten! I cried dropping him off on his first day, and Spencer had to console me with kisses and ice cream), and by that point I'd been moved into the apartment for almost a year.
I was out grocery shopping, and when I came home, there were flowers all over the floor, bright colors scattered in an obvious trail that led to the bedrooms. I didn'tĀ quiteĀ understand what was happening, but my heart still hammered in my chest, unable to shake that feeling of warmth and hope.
"Boys? What are you up to?" I called, dropping the bags off in the kitchen and following the flowers.
They were both kneeling on the floor of Benny's bedroom, Spencer with an open ring box in his hand, and Benny with a piece of paper in his.
"Will you be my mom?"
Really, how could I have said no? There isn't a world in which I ever would have, but even still. Benny was unable to sit still, waiting for me to answer him, and I remembered the night they presented me with that first birthday cake of many for years to come. He was the same way then, happier than ever to surprise me, and meanwhile all I wanted to do was burst into tears over how much love I was feeling.
Unlike that night, however, I was simply unable to tease him with the anticipation of an answer. I couldn't even pretend to consider it, not for a moment. It was the easiest answer I'd ever given. To this day, it still is.
Benny ran up and hugged me the tightest he ever had before, and Spencer got up from the ground to meet us, slipping a thin gold band on my finger as I repeated the word to him through the tenderest of kisses.
"Yes."
THE END.
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My Playmate, My Sister (Part 2)
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My sister Hanni and I lay in each other's arms, Hanni's head nestled in the crook of my neck, allowing me to take in the sweet aroma of her hair. We had just encountered the most passionate sex either of us had ever had, and despite the fact we both wanted more of each other, neither of us had the energy to move. Instead, we drifted off into a satisfied slumber. Even though I had just experienced her in the most intimate way possible, my dreams were still filled with visions of my sister, and for good reason. She was the soon-to-be playboy playmate of the year and possibly the hottest woman in the universe: my Hanni. I imagined taking her in every position, in every place I could think of, immersed in her beautiful moans of ecstasy.
I knew I could tell nobody about this new direction in my life and the incredible luck I had stumbled upon, not that anyone would believe me anyway. It was all too much of a fairytale that a regular guy like me, though I like to think I'm handsome and charismatic, would ever find myself in the arms of a goddess like Hanni. She was the very image of perfection: smooth, with a toned form, soft, hand-filling breasts, flowing blond hair, and an angelic face. Though it had taken me to find her in the pages of a Playboy, I now couldn't imagine making love to a more ideal woman than Hanni.
"Girls like Hanni don't show me the time of day," I thought, "let alone my sister!"
Nonetheless, there she was as I awoke to an empty bed the following day and shuffled downstairs with sleep still in my eyes. She was a goddess, her silky blonde hair cascading around her gorgeous face. My eyes continued, taking in her petite frame, smooth and toned in all the right places. I watched her momentarily as she bounced around the kitchen; it was like I had court-side seats to one of the Playboy photo shoots I had found of her online only a week ago. She seemed so happy, with a beautiful smile and an energy in her step that made her glow; it was even better to know I had a part in her cheerfulness. As she bent over to reach one of the lower drawers, a flash went off in my mind, reminding me of a pose like one of the photos I had seen. Then she arched her back and reached her hands up, stretching out the morning stiffness, flash, a sexy pose only Hanni could do just right.
Flash again, and I wish I'd had a camera as Hanni reached up to a shelf just a bit too high for a coffee mug, the little yellow sundress riding high enough for me to see the pair of pink lace bottoms she was wearing. Hanni heard me behind her and knew she had been giving me a show, ensuring the cup she wanted was far enough back to prolong my view. As she finally grabbed the mug she wanted, I slid behind her, causing her to shiver just a little at my touch. I gently put my hands on her arms and simply stood there, taking her in.
"Good morning to you too, Y/N," Hanni said seductively.
"When you weren't there this morning, I thought I had dreamt it all up," I complained. I rubbed my hands up and down her arms, and she leaned into me lovingly.
"I considered giving you a little wake-up call," Hanni said, placing her hand gently on my hardening cock over my boxers, "but I figured you might want to rest a bit more. I don't think I've ever been with a guy who lasted that long before."
I couldn't help myself. I slid my hands under the bottom of her dress, intensely moving them over her smooth skin until we came to cup her flawless breasts. Hanni continued massaging me through my shorts, and my cock grew into her palm in response. She reached up and scratched at the back of my head with her free hand. Showing off her yoga flexibility, Hanni turned and arched her back to bring her lips to mine, still facing forward with my hands kneading her luscious mounds.
The feeling of our hands upon each other was so gratifying for both of us that we pushed against each other, Hanni firmly planting her toned ass against my growing member. She stood up a bit on her toes and moved her little bit over my shaft. A few soft and playful bounces against me, and my body was begging for her. My hands continued their worship of her body, one focusing on her squeezable tits and another on her curved hips. I reached for her bottoms while still grasping one of her breasts, rolling her nipple between my thumb and forefinger. We dry-humped each other like that for probably three minutes, our desperation and haste getting the better of us.
Hanni needed me, and she writhed beneath my grasp, her hands prying me closer to her. Her heavy breaths forced themselves out as she tried to keep her tongue locked in a back-and-forth battle with mine. She purred soft moans at me, her hips rotating her lower half around my hardness. I could almost feel the heat of her sex against my boxers, and it snapped me back to reality. I had to be inside this gorgeous playmate now and as much as I could while this sexy little jackpot of luck was within my reach. My sister was the very definition of my lust and love and probably was of any guy she had come across since her first photos were snapped. I reached down between us, hooked my finger on her panties, and began to push her bottoms down, preparing to take her right then and there. We were both aching for it, holding our breath as the material slid down her silky when...
"Hello!" said our mother, opening the front door.
The mug Hanni had been holding dropped from her hand into the sink, shattering, as both Hanni and I scrambled to separate. I slid onto the stool at the island, and Hanni smoothed out her shirt just as my mother rounded the corner and gasped.
"Hanni!" both of us frantically looked around, thinking we had missed something that would give us away, "you didn't tell me you were going to be home!"
I sighed in relief as my mother moved to hug Hanni, and I shook my dad's hand as he followed his wife into the kitchen. I noticed that my father looked across the kitchen instead of at me as I asked about their vacation. His eyes were locked on his little girl, whom he had not seen in months, and I figured he was reacting to the sight before him just as I had when I had first seen Hanni days ago.
"Hanni, don't you think you should be a little more covered around your brother?" asked our father as I poured myself a bowl of cereal.
"Nice to see you too dad," Hanni said with a smile on her face, "besides, it's not like I was looking at me anyway, he's too focused on his food as always."
I immediately looked down into my cereal bowl and shrugged, hoping my dad wouldn't push the issue any further. I wasn't sure I'd be able to keep my cool now that my mom and dad were back and our watchful eyes were upon us.
"I'm sorry, and it's good to see you too, Hanni, and I'm glad you're back," Dad rebounded. Just try to cover up a bit more, okay?"
"Sure Dad," Hanni drew out.
"Leave her alone, honey. She's a grown woman now," said our mom. "Speaking of which, Hanni, you have got to get me on whatever diet you are because you look great!"
As the women chatted, our dad told me that he had left his laptop charger at home and that they could only stay for two days on the boat trip they had planned; ten days was too long for a lawyer such as my father to be out of contact.
"So kids..." started Mom, "we still have the sailboat for eight more days, well seven now, and I think we should all head back to Florida today so we don't waste the money."
I could feel my luck turning from bad to worse. My morning had started with the prospect of fucking the most gorgeous blonde vixen I'd ever known, my sister, and a playboy playmate over the sink before I even ate breakfast, and who knows what the rest of the week could have held in store. I looked over at her. Even with the flowing dress, I could make out her sexy frame, and I couldn't believe I had just been cock-blocked by my parents. Hanni caught me looking at her and made eyes at me to answer my mother.
"I don't know, Mom," I said unenthusiastically. It's kind of short notice. Besides, how could we all fit on the boat, especially with your friends already there?"
"First of all," replied Mom, "I know for a fact you have nothing else to do. Second, this is not just any sailboat; it's built to comfortably fit six. Of course, you'll have to share a room with Hanni, but it's nothing you two haven't done before."
Hanni and I stole a glance, smirking at the double meaning, and we could both feel our luck turning. We knew we couldn't say no to our mother's request, and since Hanni didn't have any photo shoots with playboy scheduled for a few weeks, her tan could certainly use some work before then. (Her work with playboy was still unknown to Hanni's parents and she intended to keep it that way as long as possible.) We had nearly been caught fucking in the kitchen moments before and had planned to do so as often as possible before our parents returned home, but all was not yet lost.
Hours later, we were packed and headed to the airport once again. Hanni and I sat as close as possible in the backseat without looking inappropriate as the car bumbled along. Hanni had to fight off smiles and giggles as I gave her knowing looks, and we chatted with our parents. If we were alone, we wouldn't be able to keep our hands off each other, but in only a few hours, we would have the opportunity once again.
"I'm dying over here," I whispered to my sister as we both exited the vehicle.
"Me too, just a few hours and you can show me just how HARD it is for you." she whispered back and pretended to stumble as she exited the vehicle, pressing her little ass against my yearning cock.
As we made our way through the airport toward our gate, Hanni thought about how things had changed in the few nights since she had returned home. There had never been a shortage of guys begging for her attention, but how she and Y/N had come together had felt so... natural. He was just the kind of guy she was always looking for, caring and cute, but sturdy and down-to earth. All the guys she had met since college and now in her work with Playboy felt so fake to her. They were no different than the TSA officer who joked that she had been randomly selected for a pat down before eye-fucking her and waving her by. She nearly threw herself at me and wrapped her arm around mine when we were both through, she was so disgusted with everyone but me.
Our affection for each other became more manageable now that we had been forced to act appropriately for long enough. The flight to our connection in Nashville was uneventful save the not-so-jokingly references we both made toward joining the 'mile-high club.' We talked the entire flight, interesting and loving conversation that had brought us so close in the first place. Our parents looked across the aisle, happy to see our children getting along so well as Hanni slumbered on my shoulder for the last half-hour before landing.
Unfortunately, as most things usually do, not everything worked out so peachy in Nashville. Due to our short-notice seats, and though we had gotten lucky in Chicago on standby we would not be taking the afternoon flight to Jacksonville as planned. Even though our father could afford it, even the first class seats were sold out, so given the choice to stay the night and take the flight the next evening, we chose instead to rent a car and drive the rest of the way. Nobody was too happy about that, but once again we found themselves shooting down the freeway toward our destination in no time. Always opting for the more luxurious option, our dad had rented a large van with comfy captain's chairs and a large back row.
After we all stopped for dinner, our father announced that he would drive through the night and the rest of the family could sleep unless he needed a replacement. With the sky now completely dark and our mother keeping my father awake in the front seat, I moved toward the front, asking:
"Everything okay up here?"
"You bet. We've got our snacks, and this Cat Stevens special on the radio has put us in a great mood," Mom enthusiastically replied.
"Well, I haven't gotten much sleep from finals this past week so I think I may go pass out on the seat in the back," I said with grogginess in my voice.
"Hey!" fired Hanni, "I wanted that back seat, Y/N."
"You'll just have to share it then, it's plenty big for the two of you," Mom mediated.
I looked back, now realizing what my sister had intentionally done, and saw that naughty grin on her face she'd shown me multiple times since she'd been home. Our father turned the music down in the rear speakers and I made my way toward the back. Hanni quickly followed me, and as I laid down on the large backseat, Hanni took her place in front of me, sliding her sexy frame so that I spooned her ever so slightly.
Mom looked back at her two children; they seemed to be fidgeting a bit to get comfortable in the darkness of the backseat. She could just make out their forms but thought that the seat must have been smaller than she had previously judged.
"Y/N, why don't you be a gentleman? Take one of the blankets and lay on the floor so Hanni can sleep comfortably," she implored me.
"It's okay, Mom, he's a big oaf, but there's enough room for me," Hanni teased. "Oohmphf," she let out just as she was finishing her sentence.
"What's the matter honey," Mom asked upon hearing her daughter's funny noise.
"Nothing mom, just caught a bump back here," she lied.
Truthfully, as Hanni was teasing me to our mother, I had worked my hand to her breast and pinched her nipple solidly over the fabric of her cotton t-shirt. Hanni moistened at the contact and knew we had to be extra careful with our parents in the front. She reached behind her and took hold of my cock with her hand ever so slightly. She could feel me thrust my hips forward at her touch and she wished we were alone so we could both release the intense feelings of desire we had felt for the second time that day.
"You know, I actually wanted to get a little sleep," I said quietly.
"Oh, I'm so sorry, you go ahead," Hanni replied, cutting off all contact and crossing her arms in front of her.
Too turned on by having my fuckable playmate sister curled up in front of me, sleep was now the last thing on my mind. Instead I began to tease my sister by tickling lightly at the backs her crossed arms, trying to break her from her feigned stubbornness. Hanni leaned away as I touched her, trying to sell her act further, but I was not discouraged. I moved my hands down her abdomen and slipped my fingers just under the waist of her athletic shorts. I moved them slowly around the waistband, massaging gently; it was becoming impossible for Hanni not to react. Then I began pushing the shorts down just below her hips, exposing the white cotton panties underneath and the wet patch they held over her sweet quim. As I moved my fingers toward it and felt the spot, I knew she wouldn't be able to hold out for long. I began to push one finger against the puffy lips over her panties.
"Still going to hold out on me?" I challenged her quietly.
"You're the one who wanted the sleep," Hanni said, holding her ground.
But truthfully, Hanni couldn't take it anymore. Y/N was too good; it was as he I knew all her sweet spots as well as she did. She began to gyrate her hips back against me and we were once again spooning firmly against each other. If felt so good to have Hanni back in my arms, and having her mouth-watering cheeks split over my fully hard cock didn't feel so bad either.
Rather than let me continue, Hanni sat up quickly and quietly and reversed her position. Her face was now rather close to my cock, and she wasted no time. She grabbed at my waistband and pushed it down over my cock. I could feel her warm breath on my shaft and nearly shouted as she grabbed a hold of my member and took the tip into her mouth. Not to be outdone, I pushed her shorts and panties down her legs in one move and grabbed her hips in both hands. Simultaneously, we then began to pleasure the other.
I darted my tongue out over Hanni's clit, licking first in broad stokes and then quickly over her little nub. Hanni held back a scream, and may not have if she had not been inching my cock into her mouth at the time. After she worked it in and out about half-way a few times, Hanni sucked gently at my tip and flicked her tongue out over the slit. I was in heaven - and I too began to breathe heavily. Using my fingers while continuing my attack of her clit with my tongue, I reached up and worked a finger inside of her tight little hole. She began bucking at my touch and felt as if she could hardly concentrate on the blow job she so wanted me to enjoy. I continued to lap at her cunny, and Hanni started moving involuntarily; I could feel how strong her core was as her hips bucked in my hands. I sucked her clit into my mouth and pulsed around it as Hanni neared her orgasm, her pussy now getting wetter with each passing second.
Hanni, too, was getting the desired effect out of her efforts; I could barely keep up licking at her with my tongue in between heavy breaths as Hanni's head bobbed over my stiff cock. I had pulled her on top of me by now and placed a blanket over our bodies. The captain's chairs hid our heads from view, but if our parents had flipped the lights on, we would easily be found out. Not to mention that Hanni let out the occasional squeal that was just quiet enough to be drowned out by the radio. I was glad of it because I loved the sweet sounds that Hanni made, letting me know I was doing a good job on her.
"Hanni... Hanni... I'm almost there," I alerted her.
I expected her to release me as I continued stimulating her with my fingers and tongue, but Hanni had no such plans. Seconds away from release, she could feel me unintentionally thrusting toward her, and she took me in as far as I could go, massaging my soft sack with her nimble fingers. Once, twice, a third time,e she slid her luscious lips almost entirely up and down over the length of my cock. On the third, she held me there, and I began to pump my semen into her mouth. I was in heaven, breathing out heavily onto her wet pussy as I shot rope after rope into her throat. Never before had a blowjob made me orgasm so hard. I shuddered as Hanni pressed her lips over my sensitive tip, swallowing and erasing all traces of my release.
But Hanni had been close just before I came, so as she proudly kissed the tip of my member, I picked right back up where I had left off. Hanni was back in no time to her panting and twisting about as I grasped firmly at the soft skin of her ass and began to sink my tongue into her soaked canal. She tasted so sweet, and I held her tight as she involuntarily fought my hold on her because the pleasure was so intense. She was dripping now and had to bury her head in the seat to hide her moans from our parents. I began to fear that they might turn around, but ignored the thought as I sent my sister over the edge. She arched her back, pressing against me as I continued plunging my large tongue in and out of her, making sure to connect with her clit every time. Hanni came hard, and as her eyes rolled backward and her vision went stark white, she was immersed in a warm bath of ecstasy. It flowed over her body forever, and when she finally came to, she had to push my head away from her drenched pussy; even my breath was too much for the sensitivity I had caused her.
She returned to the spooning position, and we lay there with each other. Two lovers lay in a post-orgasmic bliss, unfathomably satisfied and proud.
"I don't think I'm ever going to be able to let you go, Hanni," I spoke to her softly.
"You don't have to," she whispered back. "Besides, I don't know where you learned it, but I've never cum like that from oral in my life, and I'm not about to give that up."
We held each other close, our unknowing parents sitting only a few feet away. Hanni's backside felt so good against my front that I still couldn't imagine sleeping despite the release we had both shared minutes before. Hanni's shorts and panties were still bunched just below her knees, so when my cock started to stir again, it pressed right between the gap between her legs. She was wet as ever, and my shaft slid slowly along her slit as it filled along with my desires.
"No way," Hanni protested, "it's too risky."
But as she resisted me verbally, her body sang another tune. With my hands exploring and massaging the tips of my fingers coming into contact with the sides of her breasts, Hanni once again began to writhe under My attention. I grasped at her body, hands firmly over 32C tits, her perfect, erect nipples poking into my palms. She could distinguish the tip of my cock from my shaft as we both began to gyrate against each other, Hanni still resisting penetration. It was almost animalistic; our bodies moved independently, and we needed each other just as much as we had the first time, only the night before. At some point, Hanni's worries about being discovered by our parents began to dissolve; she could only think of getting Y/N inside her. I hadn't even thought about our parents since I had first had my cock in the playmate's mouth minutes earlier, and I wasn't about to start now. Just as we thrust a final time and pulled away from each other, Hanni reached down between us and pointed my rod at her opening once more. I pushed past her slick folds and into her drenched tunnel, feeling like I belonged nowhere else as her walls clamped down on me.
"Do you two want to stop for something to eat or drink before you fall asleep?" Both the children froze as our mother looked back at them.
With my hard cock now fully inside of her, Hanni could barely think, let alone respond to her mother. It was all the two of us could do just to stop from continuing our incestuous activity without even responding. Hanni's bald pussy pulsed in anticipation, gushing around the invading member and ready for it to begin thrusting in and out of her. With much effort, Hanni managed, "I think I'd rather... oohhh... full at the moment, Mom." I could hear the ecstasy she was feeling in her voice and was now afraid our mother might too, but I gave her a daring little thrust mid-sentence anyway.
Hanni turned her head and looked at me wide-eyed, shocked that I would carelessly jeopardize our secrecy by fucking her as she spoke to our mother. Her big green eyes staring into my only made me want her more, and I pulled slowly out of her and pushed back in again, watching her mouth open, and pupils dilate in response. I couldn't even stop my slow assault on Hanni as she addressed me,
"You too Y/N," my father, Dad asked, "are you too comfortable back there to stop?"
"Yeah, pop, you don't know how good it feels..." I thrust into her again, "being able to get some..." another thrust, "rest finally."
"Alright then, we will see you in the AM," said my father.
Hanni and I were already miles away when our mother turned out the final light in the front, and the only lights came from the dashboard and headlights. We were the only ones on the road, and Hanni and I were in complete darkness. I resumed sliding my cock in and out of my big sister, the heat and feeling of having her tunnel wrapped around me excruciatingly pleasurable. She moved just right, and I relished the feeling of my hands upon her, feeling her strong, sexy body moving in front of me. I kissed her neck and sucked at it, her skin tasted sweet, and I wasn't even surprised. I pulled my cock out of her and held the tip right against her opening. I then prodded slowly at her, pushing into her pussy less than an inch each time. Hanni made a frustrated moan and reached down between us.
"God damn you....uhhh," she let out as I pushed into her just a bit, "just fuck me.... put it in.... fuck......ohh...... you asshole."
I loved what I was doing to her. Her need for me was genuine, and I enjoyed teasing her like this. One more prod and Hanni's patience was gone. She reached down and took a firm grasp of my cock, and pulled it towards her. Her hand wrapped around me felt so good that I lost track of my intentions and started to oblige her. The feeling of being halfway inside my sister and her hand holding onto my other half was like no other feeling in the world. In one last effort, I stopped and held there, grinning.
"If you don't fuck me.....oh god..... right now," Hanni demanded, "I'm going to straddle you.... and ride you right in front of mom and dad."
Happy with the results of my teasing, I gave in to Hanni and thrust the rest of my cock inside her velvety tunnel. I moved slowly at first and began to pick up speed, but Hanni was now panting for her approval. After a minute or so of jamming my pelvis against her soft, grab-able ass, I was now pounding into my sister with passion, and Hanni rotated her hips in earnest to get more of me inside of her. She felt like she had never been filled quite this perfectly and grasped onto my hands, interlocking our fingers as if to tell me.
Now free to move about, the little gymnast in Hanni maneuvered so I lay under her, and she rested atop me, weighing down against my chest as we remained locked together at the hips. I could only make out a little bit of the playmate's body, so I again began to paw at her with my hands. She loved the feeling of my big, strong fingers probing at her, rubbing every inch of her body and squeezing her breasts and ass lightly. Hanni lifted her tiny hips and then sank back down hard on my engorged member. Her mound mashed against me as she did so, and she rotated around a bit upon each meeting to stimulate herself further.
"Y/N... Y/N..." Hanni whispered in my ear with lust thick in her voice.
Her panting into my neck drove me crazy, even more so when she flicked her little tongue over my neck and earlobe. I took hold of her pistoning hips and added to her up-and-down plunging motion by pushing up to meet her. Our lips eventually found each other, and Hanni rubbed a hand through my hair as we explored each other's mouths. Hanni's tongue wrestled mine intensely, mimicking the rhythmic movement of our bodies.
Hanni could feel her orgasm approaching, and she knew it would be a powerful one. The little blonde playmate thought of how taboo it was that she was fucking her little brother and so dangerously close to our parents at that. The thought only served to bring her closer to climax, and Hanni continued to slide up and down on her brother's pole in search of it. She whimpered into my mouth and then released my lips slightly, breathing into them. The soft blows of her breath were stimulating and sensual; I was now close to cumming as well.
"I'm close, Hanni," I warned her.
"Oh my God, me too," my sister managed between thrusts. "Come inside me, please, Y/N... uhhh... come inside."
Her begging brought me so close to release that I held on for dear life so my sister could have time to climax. I didn't have to wait long, three more full strokes into her moist channel, and she was clawing at my back as she began to cum. My body tensed, and Hanni sat down hard on me, impaled and writhing on my cock. Then it hit: my sister and I began to orgasm in unison, clutching each other tight. Jet after jet, I pumped into her, and Hanni bit down on my muscular shoulder to hold back her screams. She could feel herself being filled with my cum, and her pussy only clamped down harder on me to experience it. As I released a torrent inside my sister, I was in absolute bliss, cumming so hard that I pushed into more strongly, seeking further depths in which to spray my incestuous seed. She was mine, and if I was going to mark my territory, I wanted to bury my cum as deep inside her unbelievably tight pussy as I possibly could. Hanni embraced it and shifted to allow me deeper, bucking in time with her heartbeat on my cock. She milked every single drop out of me as waves of ecstasy washed over her. Hanni's soft cries of passion were so sexy I felt like I was once again in a dream. My sister, the playmate of the year, was still climaxing atop me, holding my rod firmly inside of her as she came. I had her until she shuddered for the last time, my cock still too sensitive to move. Hanni relished the feeling of still being filled, and she lay limp atop me, taking deep breaths to recover.
It made me smile to think of how careless we were when making love, casting aside all cares in search of each other. Hanni's tight t-shirt was bunched over her beautiful breasts, and her bottoms had fallen to the ground. She was disheveled as we got up, and we both basked in our post-orgasmic amazement. Suddenly, a light flashed in the cabin, and our mother grabbed water from the package in the middle row. Hanni's shorts and panties were visible on the ground from her seat, and her naked children were a foot away from them. Were it not for the blanket, she would have been able to see my mostly-erect cock still buried inside Hanni, her daughter, fluids from our lovemaking escaping between us. Furthermore, seeing Hanni lying directly atop me would have taken minimal effort. We held our breath and begged that our mother wouldn't discover the hot, incestuous romp that had occurred right behind her.
Sure enough, Mom's eyes moved quickly over the cast-aside bottoms, her brain not making the connection. As she shut off the light, both of her children sighed in relief.
"That was close," I sighed. Hanni only giggled in response.
With that, I teased Hanni with one more little thrust and then slid my softening dick out of her. Hanni grinned naughtily at the action and kissed me firmly. Our tongues played lethargically for a moment before I rolled Hanni off of me. We hugged each other close, my package pressing tenderly against her folds and Hanni's soft breasts against my chest. Making eye contact, we examined each other in satisfied states before drifting off to sleep. We still had days of sharing a room ahead of us, but for now, fucking each other in the backseat of a car driven by our parents seemed enough for a lifetime, or at least until we woke up the following day.
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Uncovering the mystery behind the man in the selfie
I was actually reluctant to share my research and analysis on the mystery man on my public sm account for various reasons (including how certain people in the fandom will react). That is why i only shared mine in the Discord server i'm modding in. However, since i found part of my research has made its way on X and here on someone's Tumblr, i guess and as promise i will share my full analysis and research here.
I know people are still divided on who that person is. Is it Luke? Or is it JD? For me, my conclusion is Luke. But yea it is still up to everyone's own interpretation.

So this is what i shared with my discord community.

I went through various interview footages, went into Pinterest, googled photos for both Luke and JD to get the almost perfect images of the thumbs, knuckles and ears that i think is the best to compare with the mystery man in Nic's selfie.
For Luke, these are the photos i used to make the comparison:

As for JD, these are the photos that i used.

Of course i had to use Chat GPT to help me analyze these images to see which matches more with the mystery man. So these are the breakdown.
For the thumb and knuckles

JD's on the left (Pic 1), Luke's on the right (Pic 3)
For the ear
So in conclusion, according to my research and Chat GPT analysis, the mystery man is Luke. And actually even without, doing all these, based on my intuition alone and also observation on how Nic smiles in the selfie, we know that guy is Luke cause that smile is the usual smile she always put on when he is around. But yea everything is up for debate and like i said above, it is up to your own interpretation. Not everything presented here is conclusive. I am just sharing what i see and and what i have researched and analyzed. š


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Hiiii, i was just wondering if you can write a ronin x reader where reader had actually accidentally killed someone back then out of anger bcs they've had it with that person and ronin found out
(I ACCIDENTALLY WROTE 2000 WORDS FOR THIS ONE.)
(but hey! here ya go!)
WARNING: Mentions of Murder, Blood, Gore-y stuff in general.

Devilish
It's always been easy for you to stomach slasher movies.
Post-graduation, your beloved friends would constantly pester you, asking you to join them for their gore-ish movie nights, which consisted of none other than A-grade thrillers and horror films.
You recall how your eyes would remain locked on the screen, observing the killer, watching how they move with such ease, such delicacy and ruthlessness. The main character, so sweet and innocent and naive, no matter how far they run, the killer would reach themāreach for their throat, their head, and slice it open with a knife, or an axe, or some other mundane object with a blade.
Your friends would scream. They would jump, yell, screech, flinch at the sight of it, but you didn't. You never did. They always took the liberty of hiding behind you in a haunted house, clung onto you when they felt scared, shivering and sore from running through strung-up props from some human anatomy playset.
You've seen this scene before. It's become a cliche for you. The image of blood, gore, intestines, organs, splattered all over the pavement doesn't make you want to retch, to imitate them and pour your guts out in the nearest bathroom. You've seen worse. For a writer with serial killers for friends, at least.
At least once a week, there's a new message in the server's #killer_shit channel. Sometimes it's Angel, a wide portrait with the lifeless body of a man in a suit, a gunshot wound to his head, pale and eyes rolled back. Sometimes it's Misaki, a selfie with half of their face in it, and a deformed figure of a human in the background, teeth pulled out and fingers cut off.
More often, it's Ronin. He's the reason for why you've built your constitution for such wicked imagery. The unfamiliar shape of a person curled into a satanic circle, carved pentagrams into skin and stomachs gutted out. Bodies hung, skinned, decapitated, bloody and bare and brutal. The first time you saw the absolute crime scene he left behind, your stomach churned, uncomfortable and weary, as if it were the next thing on Ronin's hit list.
Ah, well. You're a writer. You've gotten used to writing your serial-killer protagonist. That's all.
It's mostly a lie. It hasn't always been easy for you to see the familiar maroon-stained weapons and fucked-up corpses.
You swallow the thought back down your throat and into your stomach. Part of you starts hoping that maybe Ronin would kill you, he is in the area after all, but you've passed that obstacle in your relationship a few weeks ago, when you chose to kiss him and all his entirety.
Six years had passed since then. No witnesses, a wrecked crime scene, and the body was never found. A perfect crime. Your perfect crime.
You were afraid it would come up again.
Unfortunately for you, the world is not beautiful, nor kind, nor considerate. It comes up on a simple Tuesday morning. The clock reads 3:33 AM, the Devil's hour. Alas, who else to absolve you of your sin but Lucifer himself?
"Well seeing as how I picked dare last time and almost got caught by the policeā" Misaki started, earning a few snickers from the people in the call, "I choose truth."
Ronin was their dealer, an honest mistake on everyone's part. He was unpredictable, impossible to read, especially in games that involved a lot of thinking, as if he saw right through you. Everyone stayed silent, curious as to what crazy idea he'll say next.
"Hey, I'll hit ya up with an easy one this time." His voice rang through your ears, sarcastic and teasing. You ease up after hearing his stupidly hilarious pun and how he'll give Misaki an easy question. "The Devil wants to know if ya had a serial killer experience b'fore you became one. 's all."
"Oh! Actually, there is one!" Misaki exclaimed. āWhen I was a wee child, back in high school, I think? We had this exchange program, so I got to go abroad for a bit. There was this guy in my class, a massive freaking bullyāand when I say bully, I donāt just mean wedgies, oh no. I mean that this guy was a total monster. He beat people up so bad he almost killed them.ā Their hands moved as they explained, making the flashback much more interesting than it seemed.
V coughed. āYou donāt suppose heās ever received juvenile detention?ā
Misaki shook their head. āNoā¦no, he disappeared.ā
You didnāt like where this conversation was headed. āWhat happened?ā you asked, faking your curiosity. You cared much for Misaki, but if they were talking about what you think they were, then maybe youāve been connected to the Slaughterhouse Losers for far more than you remember. How satirically fateful.
The ravenette continued, brushing strands of their red hair out of her face. āNo one really knows. One day, after he beat up a particular student, their name was Eve, nicest person ever by the way, he justā¦vanished.ā
āEve Eden?ā Your voice spilled from your throat, small and yet audible enough for everyone to hear. You curse yourself internally.
Misakiās eyes lit up. āYeah, howād you know?ā Their head tilted ever so slightly to the left, āOh my gosh, donāt tell me you studied there too?ā
Your eyes moved back and forth frantically, stopping at Roninās web camera. His eyes were deep in thought, calculating and analyzingāanalyzing you. You were being observed by a poet, a writer, just as you observed your favorite serial killers in the slasher movies you used to watch with your friends.
āYeah! Eve used to be my best friend. Weāre still in touch too, we watched the Fear Street series not too long ago.ā You spoke in a way that made you look tired, eyes weary and voice deliberately faint and slow. You prayed someone would get the message.
āAww, hey. You sound like you should get some sleep.ā Angel replied, your savior, a true angel indeed, biblical and all. After a few grumbles from Misaki, and a huff from V, you pretended to concede and left the voice call.
You had a dream that night. No, not a dream. You donāt dream, and when you do itās easier to call them visions. Theyāre prophetic in a way, a calling from the past or the future, a blemish upon your sleeping patterns. You wish they would stop.
A punch, a kick, a stab. Dragging a dead man walking. Throwing him across the dirt. Heavy breathing. Blood on balled-up fists. You pull.
Thereās a head of hair in your hands. The adrenaline rushed through your veins, giving you strength, supporting you through your justice.
He had to pay.
A flash of white blinded you, and there you saw Eve, fast-asleep in her hospital room, countless needles struck in her skin, once full of color, yet now washed out.
Anger surged through you. You regret nothing.
He drowned that day, in the lake you and Eve used to swim in when you two were children.
You grit your teeth as he struggled in your grasp, opening his mouth to curse you, a fatal mistake. The water simply entered his lungs faster.
When he succumbed to the tide, body filled, you were sure he died, not from you, but from the weight of his own ego.
You burnt his body in the woods. You swept up the remains and buried them in a nearby cemetery. You said your prayers. You left.
When the school investigated his disappearance, Eve covered for you. She said you were in her hospital room the entire time.
The sun woke you up, rays fluttering through your eyes and blinding you. Groggily, you get up and check your cellphone. A message notification greets you. Itās from Ronin.
<goreboy> [08:34]
gmorning darling
hows My favorite writer Doing?
Incoming call from goreboy
ā Yes please ā¦
ā no thanks ā¦
You accept his call, snuggling under the covers and breathing in the scent from the jacket he lent you. It smells like a certain kind of menās cologne, strong and makes you want to sneeze, but it also smells like grease and iron. You laugh to yourself.
āWhatcha laughinā at baby?ā Roninās web camera is open. Heās on his phone too, seeing as how heās using the portrait function instead of the usual landscape. His red hair is messy, with no beanie to tame it. You stare at him for quite a while, a giddy feeling in your stomach. The devil really does look like an angel.
āNothing.ā Thereās a huge smile on your face, and you can feel the heat rushing to your cheeks.
āYou free later? Got somethinā tāgive ya.ā he suggests, accent slightly seeping through his words. You can tell heās just woken up with how slow and steady he talks.
āMm, yeah? Whatās the devil gonna give little old me?ā you tease, playing into your role as his partner, his darling, his everything. He scoffs on the other end of the line and he gives you a toothy grin, making your heart somersault in your chest.
āJusā meet me in Purgatory, darlinā.ā
When the two of you meet in the familiar alleyway where your first kiss was shared, you gain the strange feeling of deja vu. Ronin has you up against the wall once more, trapped between his arms and staring at his pretty face.
āHey.ā you whisper, face flushed red.
āHey yourself.ā he whispers back, eyes intense and searching. You worry about what heās trying to find within you, you worry about how the secrets youāve whispered to the wind in hopes to rid yourself of them are now caught in his spiderweb.
You shift uncomfortably in his gaze. He knows something. He has you all figured out. Curse you for falling in love with a mastermind.
Ronin slowly moves his left hand to your chin, tilting it upward, making you look at him.
āGot any confessions fār the devil, little lamb?ā
He knows. Your eyes dart back and forth between his face and the space on your right that heād left open when he moved his hand to cradle your face. Thereās a mental debate between your heart and your brain. You wish you could run. You canāt bring yourself to.
Sighing, you grab his hand and lead him through the twists and turns of the alley, reaching the cemetery on the other side. The two of you walk together, hand-in-hand amongst the dead, as if you ruled over them.
At the end of the graveyard, thereās a stone pillar that divides the woods into two paths. You drag Ronin to the path on your right. You still remember, scissors in hand, how far you ran to catch up to him, his hands grasping at the stab wound in his stomach.
You turn left. Thereās a field of flowers there, beautiful and serene, and oh-so ironic. Youāre about to look back at Ronin when a hand brushes against your ear, placing a flower there. There was something oddly romantic about it. Here you were, showing him your sins, your crimes, your mistakes, and he gladly accepted your insanity, your madnessāyou.
āI buried him here.ā It's half-a-whisper, but the devil hears you nonetheless.
Your lips trembled, guts spilling out to the man before you. āI lured him here. I stabbed him and chased him down.ā The events of that day flash rapidly in your mind, making your breathing unsteady and rapid. āI grabbed him by the hairāā You extended your hand, pointing to the body of water in the distance. āāand I drowned him.ā
Ronin could only watch as your chest heaved, needing air, needing release. Your mouth, once agape and needing sharp intakes of air, broke into a smile, maniacal and crazy. Your hands reach to cover your lips, but your laugh echoes through the flowers, the trees, the lake, and through the two of you.
Your eyes are bloodshot. Roninās eyes are too. His grin matches yours.
āHe died egotistical.ā You shoot out, a dead look in your eyes that definitely does not match your smile. You wonder if Ronin's surprised at your sudden plot twist in his storyāisn't it everything he's ever wished for?
Ronin, upon realizing the severity of the situation, cackles, just as you did, deranged and demented and deadly. He reaches for your face, your expressions complementing each other.
He pulls you in for a kiss. It tastes like concupiscence. You drown in him.
Youāre insane. Youāre adorable. Youāre a devil.
In between kisses, you hear the voice of Lucifer, calling you from hell. "You're perfect."

THIS WAS SO FUN FOR ME TO WRITE. THANK U SM FOR THE ASK!!
cross posted on rottenvamp @ ao3 <3
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my dear, you ask for more kuri x reader reqs, i shall give:
bandaging him after battle, though he flinches from the pain, its not the only reason he gasps at your touch
Cold one night, and he lets you wear his scarf to keep you warm
you witness him in a fit of rage, you dont run
he holds you and dances with you during a merienda, all because he heard your favorite song play in the distance
ā„ļ¾ć»ć perfect
synopsis: part two of pocus -- after he loses to luffy, you swoop in to patch up your husband's wounds... and have a little heart to heart about his perfectionism.
cw: fluff, comfort, angst if you squint, KATAKURI DOES NOT PLAY ABT YOU, he is forty eight, you are forty seven, katakuri's got it BAD, reader's kind of a baddie.
a/n: i used the first bullet but i'll still try my best to use the other ones <3 THANKS MOLDY FOR THE INSPO and others feel free to ask

Within the confines of the Mirro-World, your heels broke through the still silence, their elegant and signature clack stirring Katakuri awake from his exhaustion-induced nap.
Much like you with his spurred boots, he could recognize the sound of your heels anywhere, no matter the setting.
In fact, in an almost Pavlovian way, he could always count on his heart being sent into a frenzy just by their mere click.
But that went for countless things about you.
The smell of your shampoo...
The smell of your perfume...
The sound of your voice...
Over the years, the Sweet Commander had become well-versed in all things you-related, as you did him.
But in this instance, this was the one thing he didn't want you to get used to seeing.
At all.
"(y/n)," he rasped, eyes weakly fluttering open as you knelt by his side, greeting him with your typical warm smile. "You shouldn't be here... it's not safe."
Carefully, you placed your first aid kit, effortlessly popping the latch and pulling it open.
"You know me better than that," you stated simply, carefully sliding your hand under his head before lifting it up, placing a soft towel as a cushion. "When have I ever been the type to turn tail and run?"
As you rummaged around for a cloth, you found yourself glancing around the space, taking note of the significant damage done to his once safe haven.
"The two of you did quite a number on this place."
"What about the children?" he piped up once again, "Are theyā?"
"Safe? Yes," you assured, gently lifting his arm and resting it in your lap before you began to wipe off the blood. "Kota is escorting them away from Mama's disaster path."
"And Soda?"
"Assisting your brothers and sisters in hunting down Strawhat."
You chuckled at the thought, carefully gliding your medical cloth along his strong biceps as you fought off your schoolgirl flush.
"He's actually quite hellbent on bringing the boy to justice."
At the reminder, Katakuri's expression fell to a solemn one, the weight of his predicament suddenly weighing heavy on his battered shoulders.
Here he was, lying in a crater with a hole in his side, bruised and bloody and helpless as his poor wifeāwho should be the furthest away from all thisātended to his wounds.
This wasn't how it was supposed to go.
This was never how it was supposed to go.
"(y/n)... you're not supposed to see me like this," Katakuri huffed, breathing labored as you moved on to his chest.
Confused, you raised a brow, tilting your head.
"Not supposed to see you how?" you asked, dabbing your cloth on his bloody pec.
"Like this," he grunted, wincing slightly at your touch. "Weak... defeated..."
He shook his head, too ashamed to even look you in the eye.
Time and time again, he found himself fracturing the image of himself he had worked so hard to paint for you, so hard to keep up for you.
How much more disappointment could you take?
He lost, not to any opponent but to a rookie.
And not to any rookie, but to one well over half his age.
A woman such as yourself didn't deserve such inadequacy.
You deserved a strong man, one who never falters; one who remains exactly what he's said to be no matter the circumstances.
And that just... wasn't him.
"My love," you cooed, your hand carefully turning his chin to face you, greeting him with a look of pure devotion. "You are so hard on yourself."
For a moment, you halted your cleaning, dropping your cloth and sliding your hand into his instead, allowing his large fingers to interlock with and envelope yours.
"This weight you've been carrying on your shoulders for so long has been making you forget that you're only human."
Gently, you raised his hand to press against your chest, allowing him to feel the steady rhythm of your heartbeat.
"You've been making yourself out to be invincible and perfect... and for the family's sake, I understand... but the last thing I want you to feel is that you have to keep that up for me... have to feel ashamed of yourself because of me."
Raising higher, you pressed his hand against your cheek, melting into his warm touch.
"You could never, ever be weak to me, Kuri... and losing a duel could never, ever drive me away from you."
His eyes widened, as if that information was news to him.
"I am here and I am by your side because I love all parts of you. No flaw or fault you come up with could possibly change that."
Teasingly, you pressed a soft kiss against the heel of his palm, not breaking eye contact with him for a moment.
"I'm serious. Twenty-seven years in and I've just gotten attached. There's no way you're getting rid of me now."
At your poorly-timed joke, Katakuri couldn't help but let out a small chuckle, amused.
He was never one for jokes before, but when they routinely came from your mouth, one grew fond.
Though, it helped to have a wife as pretty as you.
Taking you by surprise, a mochi appendage suddenly wrapped around your waist, slowly pulling you into his embrace and positioning you in such a way that it allowed him to rest his head against your chest, snuggling closer into your warmth.
"I love you... (y/n)," he muttered into your skin, eyelids already becoming heavy.
At the sight, your heart was practically a puddle on the floor, and you couldn't help but thread your fingers in his soft, spiky hair.
"I love you, too, Kuri," you hummed, resting your chin on top of his head.
The two of you stayed like that for a long while, holding each other and whispering sweet nothings within the comfortable silence.
That is... until Katakuri suddenly became curious.
"(y/n)..." he started, slowly opening his eyes.
"Hm?" you replied, still carding your fingers through his scalp.
"How's Strawhat?"
At the question, you raised a brow, confused as to why he would care.
But catching a glimpse at the look on his face, you instantly knew why.
"You'll be relieved to hear it," you sighed with a slight grumble, glancing up at the countless mirrors surrounding you. "He just left our territory."
Though, already knowing what he was thinking, you were quick to follow up.
"I won't forgive him, y'know... not for this."
But, much to your expectation, he smirked, overcome with an odd sense of pride that the little runt managed to do everything he said he would.
Rolling your eyes, you let out an exasperated sigh, quietly shaking your head.
"I'll never understand you fighting-types..."
Mood brightening, you husband placed a firm kiss on your chestāsubconsciously wary of his teethābefore quickly scooping you up, painfully rising to his two feet.
Frantic, your eyes went wide.
"What theā?! Kuri! You shouldn't be moving right now!" you panicked, fawning over him like a worried hummingbird.
"You shouldn't be laying on the ground with me," he stated, smoothly, effortlessly carrying you with one arm. "I'm getting your dress dirty."
"I don't care about my dress! You have a hole in your stomach!"
"We can clean up together at home... I'll have the maids draw a bath."
"Honey, you are really badly hurt right now..."
"Do your feet hurt from running? Do you need me to carry your shoes?"
"Kuri, you don't have toā"
"Are you hungry? Do you want me to stop on the way back and grab something?"
You sighed, having gone through this song and dance before.
If he wasn't spending his time being endlessly harsh on himself, he was spending it being endlessly doting toward you.
Not that you were complaining or anything... but for once in his life, you wanted him to relax.
"Why don't you let me do all this? You should be the one relaxing, not me," you asked, concerned.
"This is how I relax," he nodded, his shoulders already feeling lighter now that he was carrying your shoes for you. "I can't rest until things with you are squared away."
Sensing that he wasn't going to budge, you caved with a sigh, allowing your head to droop against his chest.
"Just... be careful... I don't know how many more surprises I can take today..."

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k-707 2025 BOLD UPDATE INSTRUCTIONS
Hello everyone :)
The new k-707 is going to be released in the coming days :D but as it is a kind of new experience, we have some kinda instructions in order to get everything working fine.
Step right up, folks, for the grand unveiling of our biggest project yet! The K-707 isnāt just a modāitās a green revolution. Taking on almost every flower, patch of grass, bush, and tree makes this even more massive than the K-505. And trust us, our brains are already feeling the strain! :D
But before instructions, let me tell you the k-707 story ;)
We really hope you'll enjoy it. We worked hard on it with 5 rules :
Replace EVERY tree of the game
NO overrides with crazy high polygons amount
Follow as much as possible the Maxis directions ( trees style )
Decrease amount of polygons where it is possible
No trees defying gravity and laws of physics
It took long for few reasons ...
At first, we always knew the first version was a vast experiment. When ea made its direct x11 update, it was time to make a bold update ... but we didn't want simply remove the non-strictly-dds-x2 images and replace them ... we wanted more. We always wanted more, even we are not kinda ea gurus :D ( hey EA ! don't you want hire some true creators with a long term vision of your game ? ) <- poll : would you like k-hippie as maxis creators or not ? :D
Joke apart, it was difficult. Almost 1 year long, we searched and searched solutions to get rid of all problems we met when replacing foliage on a debug tree, or modifying anything on a debug tree ( for info : we are not blender gurus nor sims 4 core users )
All we knew was few lines :
When cloning a tree, you cannot lose the any of the vert color data. I suspect whatever tool(s) you are using to do the cloning is losing this data, since this setup is somewhat unique to trees.
The vertex color layout for trees is as follows. Green and Blue are ignored for channels 1ā¦4 : Color 0 RGB Surface color tint Color 1 R Rustle direction X Color 2 R Rustle direction Y Color 3 R Rustle direction Z Color 4 R Rustle phase ( game generates two wind scales that change over time, this term interpolates between the two )
The pipeline keeps the rustle information in a vertex color format for what the game engine will load, which means itās in the range 0 and 1. The shader remaps this into a 0.5 to -0.5 range before scaling it and applying the offset to the leaves. Note that these directions are clamped but not normalized ( theyāre allowed to be different lengths ) The WindMagnitude material parameter acts as a scaling factor.
So, we started with this information, begging in vain for some help, both inside the Sims community and outside ... but nobody helped us. And frankly, it interested no-one except us and our beloved followers :)
We found multitude of tutorials ( funny how many they are as soon as it is clothes related ) but nothing related to our specific target. We paused our research many times, made direct x11 updates for our other k-mods and so on. Until ... zaceitorius in July 13rd 2024
Who is zaceitorius ? We do not know. A simple member of sims4studio with 6 posts who gave us a simple bright clue which seems obvious after all, but yet very very precious indeed !
And here we are today. 300 trees and numerous plants later ... <- another reason why it took a long time :D
We made a lot of vertex experiments, we lost data colors, remade again and again some other experiments and well, we are still experiment, remake small details which seem important to us and so on ... And for now, it works :D And now you are warned : the k-707 is far from perfect.



And now, the instructions :)
The k-707 covers both trees & plants, both debug and lot trees & plants
What's new ? No more than usual. We tracked all the non-strictly-dds-x2 images, reshaped some trees ( such as the multitude of oaks ), added some flowers ( where we removed them in 2021 ) but kept many foliage we already did. We tried to simplify many details but added some others and replaced some plants.
How many stuff it represents ? We do not know. Many indeed. We stopped the count :D
Because of its size ( and our love for our sanity ), THE RELEASE WILL ROLL OUT IN PARTS ( not slowly but piece by piece ). If we waited until it was all perfect, youād be seeing it around ( maybe ) September 2025 ... Letās not tempt fateāor burnout! :D
The K-707 is neatly organized for your convenience :
Each DLC gets 2 folders : one for plants, one for trees.
The base game gets 4 folders ( a bit different since most of the greenery is drawn from there ) divided into lots and debug folders.
Expansions which have very few greenies ( City, Get to Work, University ) get the same folder named : k-hippie-k707-multi-greeny-2025
IMPORTANT :
Leave them in each of their foldersĀ ( or create your owns based on a similar methodology )
If you merge files : we canāt help troubleshoot if it doesnāt work anymore, so be smart ;)
Youāre free to do as you like, but we strongly recommend keeping this tidy folder setup. If you need to troubleshoot down the line, itāll save you a major headache.
And for the mavericks out there who love merging filesāgo for it, but know this : we wonāt be able to help if things go haywire.


Now, we could wax poetic about how stunning the K-707 is, how every leaf, petal, and blade of grass is crisper, richer, and beautifully integrated into your worldsābut hey, we'll do it later, inside the release post :D
We could do more, more realistic trees and so on but we do not want integrate crazy high poly models. We do not want an unplayable game isn't it ? ;)
The k-707 is not yet finished. We got some more work to do on it, shape the last details, and some re-checks.
But here is what is new compare to the previous version : we kinda cracked ( a bit only ) the code. Trees swinging in the wind like itās a dancing contest ? No more. Trees defying gravity and laws of physics by groveling into the ground ? No more. Just remember we do not have the hands upon the worlds construction, so, when trees are not into the ground, well, call your reseller aka EA itself ...

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Jason headcanons PLEASE!!!!! <3
I had to use Juni Baās The Boy Wonder images of Jason as they are the best and I love them, LOOK AT HIM! Skrunkly bastard (affectionate)
You are legally contracted to hold his hand 24/7. Constant touches are a thing with Jason as he doesnāt like you being too far away from him to reach for you in the instant something bad were to happen, he wanted to be able to pull you away from the first signs of danger he sees.
Heās protective over you because he didnāt think heād get the chance to find happiness nor peace in his life after coming back from the pit. He didnāt believe it was in the cards for him at all given how his life had been thus far.
You ground him when Jasonās thoughts got too loud for his liking and needed something to focus in on and whatās better to focus on other then your touch in order to calm himself down. He practically melts and gets fearful when you try to pull away.
If itās a rainy day in Gotham -which is probably more often then not- you and Jason would use this as an excuse to cuddle up to one another in your most comfiest of clothing and sit on the windowsill to listen to the rain outside as you exchanged kisses.
This man has never known a moment of peace until you entered his life and so he is extremely grateful that you even give him the time of day to go out with him. Without you heās hopeless and lost because he had been wanting a truthful and honest connection but had never found it with anyone but you.
You donāt treat him as though he was going to snap and instead like an ordinary human being and Jason has never been more in love then he has when you made him feel normal.
Jason likes having non sexual skin to skin contact with you where he got to trace your bare skin with his hands as though he were admiring a masterpiece, a deity before him because to him you very much were and he loved every aspect of you no matter what, heāll go as far as to kiss your bodily insecurities as often as youād let him if it meant showing you just how in love with you he was.
Bonus if you reciprocate this by kissing his scars and insecurities while telling him how beautiful and perfect he is, Jason can and will cry into your shoulder when you do shower him in sweet words and soft caresses.
Heās not use to tender touches and so heād often flinches before realising that heāll never come to harm when with you, heād only be greeted with love, affection and respect.
He reads you to sleep when your having troubles doing so on your own, heāll hold you against his chest as he reads the chapter of his book aloud for you, his thumb stroking your side reassuringly until you fell asleep with your face buried into your neck.
Jason sleeps with his back towards the door whenever he holds you, itās so that if anything were to try and harm you, theyād have to go through him first and Jason would fight tooth and nail if it meant keeping you safe.
You were his reason for being and he wasnāt about to let you be ripped from his arms, he shamelessly wants you to himself because when has he ever had something that was just his?
He likes it when you greet him in the mornings by hugging him from behind as he makes you breakfast and loves it even more when you tighten your hold every time he moved. Jason loved being loved and he loves being loved by you especially.
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nightmares no more



pairing: yoon jeonghan x reader
genre: fluff, ceo au
w/c: 0.8k
summary: everyone wants yoon jeonghan and you were lucky enough to score him.
warnings: none
a/n: this right here is my man, love of my life, aaaaa i love him so much, also disclaimer this post used to be under my old url httphannie <3
It was already well past midnight and you were still sitting at your desk, paperwork laid out in front of you. To anyone it would look like an uncoordinated mess but you had everything in the right place. There were the legal documents that you were settling for the contract with another company and there were the marriage plans over there. Your bulletin board behind you was pinned with various arrays of dresses and contracts.Ā
You rubbed your eyes, tired from the work. If you went to sleep now you wouldn't have the preparations for tomorrow's meeting ready, not to mention you had to go see the venue for the wedding with Jeonghan. Your week had been busy and you hadnāt gotten a good night's sleep in what seemed like forever.Ā
Being the secretary of the CEO of the biggest company in the country and trying to balance planning your wedding was hard. You were constantly rushing everywhere; trying to get everything perfect. Not to mention the nightmares you had been getting. It was a big enough scandal when the press found out you were dating your boss but now they knew you were engaged to him.Ā
Yoon Jeonghan was one of the most sought out bachelors in the country and even when the both of you had announced your relationship, there were still some delusional girls who would try to hurt you. Every night you woke up in a cold sweat, the same image of not being able to breathe and hands grabbing you from every angle haunted your mind. That was partly the reason why you were still up working.
There was a knock on the door and Jeonghan popped his head around. āI thought I told you to take a break.ā You rushed to him, embracing him tightly, inhaling his comforting scent. āI missed you too, my love.ā
It was as if the barriers that were protecting you fell apart and you felt tears start rolling down your eyes. You couldnāt stop them from falling while you hiccuped continuously. Jeonghan hugged you tighter, running his fingers through your hair, untangling the kinks.Ā
āWhyāre you crying? You're making your beautiful face look sad.ā He pressed a kiss on your forehead as he stared at your glassy eyes.Ā
āI donāt know.ā You sniffled. āItās just that Iāve got the contracts to prepare and then we have the wedding, not to mention all the nightmares Iāve been having. I just feel like I canāt do anything, youāre the one handling all those people, Hannie.ā
Your fiance frowned, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. āThatās not true. Whoās been handling all these business papers, even though I told them not to worry, and whoās been holding this wedding on their shoulders?ā Jeonghan smiles. āThereās so much light in you that it blinds me sometimes. Youāre a wonderful person and I love you, so it doesnāt matter what people think. Much less people who donāt even know you.ā
āWhy are you like this?ā Your cheeks were still stained with tears but your lips were curled into a small smile.
āLike what?ā Jeonghan gave you a cheeky grin, he blinked innocently up at you. āIām just telling the truth. You stole my heart the moment I saw you.ā He gasped dramatically, clutching his chest, before giving you a wink.
You giggled, pulling him in for a kiss. It was sweet when your lips touched, both of you had been so busy that it had been so long since you shared such an intimate moment. His lips were warm and you couldnāt help but feel at ease when he was with you.Ā
Jeonghan picked you up suddenly which made you squeal. He didnāt let you say anything, carrying you out of your office and into your shared bedroom. He threw you down on the bed, arms pinning you both sides. A second of silence ticks by. You stared lovingly at your fiance before tugging him down onto you.
āAre you trying to seduce me, Yoon Jeonghan?āĀ
āAnd what if I am, Y/n? Donāt tell me youāve fallen for my charms already.ā His tongue flicked over his bottom lip. You didnāt get to reply before a yawn escaped your mouth, your cheeks flushed and you diverted your eyes.Ā
Jeonghan grinned and he leant down so his forehead was touching yours. He let out a light laugh. āSleep, my love. Iāll keep the nightmares away.āĀ
You knew you didnāt have a choice by the way he was looking at you, it was the same way heād stare down his partners to get a good deal out of them. Reluctantly, you nodded, letting him tuck you in and kiss you goodnight.
āTake two weeks off, the company can survive without you 24/7.ā Jeonghan placed a finger against your lips, knowing you were going to start protesting. āThat isnāt a question, youāre far too stressed, just let me handle things.ā
āBut Hannie-ā
āNo.ā He placed his hand on your cheek, the warmth spreading through his palm and across your face. āFrom now on, youāre not allowed in that office, you leave all the work to me. Iām the CEO for a reason Y/n. Promise?ā
You sighed, knowing it was no use to try and protest. āPromise.āĀ
Jeonghan smiled, placing a kiss on your cheek. āSleep well, my love.ā
#jeonghan x reader#jeonghan fluff#seventeen x reader#seventeen fluff#seventeen imagines#svt x reader#svt fluff#svt imagines#yoon jeonghan#yoon jeonghan x reader#jeonghan x you#jeonghan imagines#svt#seventeen#seventeen scenarios#jeonghan seventeen
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How about yandere Pete with a mysterious loner reader whoās secretly a vampire
You Better Lie Down cause The Angels are Watching

Summary: Yandere! Pete x Vampire! Reader
TW/CW: Yandere tendencies, obsessive behavior, blood, animal, assault (on reader), blood drinking, toxic relationship
A/N: Decided to make this Pete post TFTM, but pre epilogue because I feel like this was be the perfect time for him to make a new āfriendā <3
Reblogs are appreciated!
- For this particular scenario, I can see this right after the comic book fire
- Pete, forced to work midnight shifts at his fatherās deli because āIf you like horror movies so much, maybe ya donāt mind working in one!ā
- Heās forced to clean up the blood that drips on the floor, section the meat for cold cuts, prepare the sausages, and worst of all, close the up the shop itself. Leaves him a 5-10 minute walk to his dingy, dirty, rotten house
- You had just move into Eltingville. Needed a fresh start, you said to yourself. You lived in a tiny apartment thanks to years of scrounging pennies and dollars. It was not much, but it was more
- There was also another reasonā¦.news articles talk about THAT incident, but you didnāt need to worry about there here. You were justā¦.well, you
- Always came in the last 30 minutes to an hour of Peteās shift. Always asking for the leftover raw meat for ātonightās dinnerā
- It was like Cupid struck Pete at that moment. Just watching you open the door had restart his heart. It was like you were placed on this planet just for him to
- It was so bad. He just shook with excitement as he handed the order to you (definitely creamed himself)
- Cuts to him back at him, watching his typical snuff films, and all of the hot butchered woman was now just you. Your (H/C) flowing so easily while your (E/C) showed fear before being completely drainedā¦it got him going
- God, just the mental image of following you home, figuring out your routine and using that to dissect your life, routine, even the little things
- He started to shake uncontrollably when you came in. You didnāt even notice, just focus on getting your fix. At this point, Pete was watching you with all of his eyes. From the moment the bell chimed to the moment you walked out, you consumed his whole being
- Got to the point where he was carving himself in the name of you. You were his savior, his sanctuary. He didnāt know a life without you, and heāll make sure of it
- So one day, he follows you out. Closed extra early and followed you 20 feet behind. The scars, still fresh, painted the side of his shirt. He hadnāt showered in days, possibly weeks even. You were the only thing on his mind
- In fact, he started collecting taxidermy animals and even preserved animal fetuses to send you (once he found your address). You were just that special to him <3
- Unfortunately, a stranger just came out of nowhere and dragged you to the nearest alley. Pete froze in fear, watching you try and fight off the intruder.
- Heart thumping, he grabbed his Swiss army knife out of his pocket and ran straight down the alleyā¦
- ā¦only to discover you sucking down on his neck. Thick blood pooled from the are while the intruder screamed in agony. You didnāt want to do this. You being this way was the entire reason you movedā¦but now look what happened.
- Worst of all, the butcher just saw youā¦.staring at you. Expect, it wasnāt out of fear. No, it was worse
- Pete was panting aggressively. His face, now a crimson shade of red, lapped up the bloody site he was seeing
- āHoly shit. You canāt beā¦are you-ā
- āA vampire? Depends on who youāre askingā
- Heās a weird companion. Since youāre a vampire, you probably donāt mind the macabre and strange. AKA: his āgiftsā are weirdly charming, albeit creepy.
- His knowledge of horror was expansive, and his knowledge of vampires in media is pretty scary. Almost as if he was studying to be a professor for old horror media.
- You may or may not have to politely tell Pete about some of the more absurd stereotypes (āNo, Pete. Vampires donāt bleed glitter.ā)
- What IS creepy is his constant need for you. Always following behind you, stalking your every move and taking notes of the spaces you hang around
- Would absolutely die of happiness if you were the vampires that are goth/emo/alt. Would demand to dress you every single day. If you agreeā¦expect your assets being shown for the whole world to see
- Luckily, heās a good blood source. You can survive on animal blood, but human blood is ideal. Luckily, Peteās the perfect test subject for stuff like this
- Would keep your vampirism a secret. Itās the perfect way of controlling you and it makes him feel special
- Itās a toxic, co dependent relationship, and Pete couldnāt be any happier.
#welcome to eltingville#the eltingville club#eltingville club#eltingville#pete dinunzio#eltingville comic#eltingvile club#eltingville pete#pete dinunzio x reader#the eltingville club pete#pete eltingville#yandere tec#yandere x you#yandere x reader#yandere character#yandere
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hello just popping in to share this mental image that has been living rent free for days now inside my head.
i keep thinking of bruce laying on tim's legs, his arms wholly wrapped around tim's midsection so that his right hand is coming up from under his son's back to his left side, and his left hand on his son's right side. his fingers clawing rythmically and slowly up and down while he nibbles and blows raspberries on tim's stomach.And tim is just breathlessly laughing, whipping his head side to side while weakly pushing at his dad's head. At some point he just tangles his fingers in the dark and greying hair, back arching sporadically as he laughed himself silly, unable to escape from the tickle monster's iron hold on him. he can't squirm away from the touches, can't flinch away, and it's so so fun. he's pretty sure there are no coherent thoughts in his head anymore as he grows limp.
it's the perfect cardio method because 1) not his worst spot, so he can be tickled for longer 2)Somehow, the vicious and unflinching focus on his tummy and sides make his thoughts turn to absolute warm mush MUCH faster than any thing else 3) Bruce gets to make growling noises (rare) a few times when he's really feeling playful and it throws tim into absolute frenzy because it's the only warning he's given before his lower ribs are being grazed by mind numbingly ticklish teeth
i think Dick was also the biggest victim of this when he was younger, and he was also the REASON bruce created this technique. He flopped around too hard and his dad just found a way to keep him still. also he kind of died anytime bruce nibbled on the spot beneath his ribs.
JASON AND HIS SWEET CHILDISH REACTIONS TO HIS TUMMY GETTING TICKLED :((( i don't think bruce would use this technique at all even after jason and him get in a better talking stage. it would take him a long time to feel comfortable enough to use this method on his second son, since he knows how jason feels about that particular spot and the reactions it brings out of him, and he knows not to use that vulnerability out too soon for the both of them.
GIRL sdjkfh i know i said this in DMs already but seeing this in my email earlier literally got me through my workday today
that is SUCH a mean position -- esp because like??? Bruce is over 6ft and Tim is under 5ft10???? there is no way Tim is getting out from under him lol, no way to escape the tickling -- and that pin is DIABOLICAL. there is NOWHERE to go to lessen it because there is tickles coming Everywhere lol, both sides AND the front. you are so right that he would have so much fun, total brain mush. and all the raspberries and nibbles with Bruce's stubble??? diabolical
KILLER cardio method omg. Still tickles like crazy but yes, no worst spot means that Tim has a higher tolerance, perfect brain mush tickles, AND NOT THE GROWLING AND ENCROACHING ON HIS WORST TICKLE SPOT rip tim, god's strongest soldier fr thats so evil, tickle monster Bruce is at his most powerful here skjdfhf
this TOTALLY exists because of Dick i agree ksjdfhdsf he is so so squirmy when being tickled, Bruce had to keep him pinned somehow. and Bruce raspberries and nibbles on that ticklish spot right below his ribs????? bestie your mind......
THE JASON FEELS!!!!! Def did it when Jason was younger (once Jason was comfortable/felt safe enough to goof around like that), but Bruce tries so hard not to push boundaries now that theyre trying to rebuild their relationship (which, of course he does, it's Bruce we're talking about here, but Jason's tickle boundaries he manages pretty well). Whenever they're in a good enough place that Bruce dares try the evil, diabolical technique on him again, though?? Jason is gonna straight up Die sdkjfhdf
but,,,,,,,, do you think Dick steals the technique or is this a tickle-monster-Bruce special? because if Dick steals it, he would totally inflict it upon Jason before then because he is Also so very much a tickle monster lol
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365 Days from Rot to Hot (Pt. 3).
Find your colors. You could use AI, take a trip to Loweās (this is one of the things I did), or actually use a service, but sorting out what colors suit you is essential. A major part of building my blend and creating my personal style was based around finding things that suited me, and I do believe that you shouldnāt start buying clothes or putting a look together unless you know your undertone, have a grasp of your colors and your body type, understand your seasons, and are prepared to experiment with what youāve learned. Finding your colors should be the first step you take, as it will make the process of creating looks easier and give you a general idea of what things will look good on you.
Search for inspiration and donāt hold yourself back. Itās your life; itās your fashion; itās your style. You can be as basic or as eccentric as you want. If you think Kendall Jenner and Hailey Bieber are goddesses, then take inspiration from them. If youāre a budding Betsey Johnson or a Lisa Frank and want to design your own clothes and make them even brighter, then do that. If youāre obsessed with Bella Hadidās western era and want to chase your own wild horses, then go ahead. Iād recommend doing what I did and creating a number of Pinterest boards and using Instagram to create polyvore-like style and vision boards.
Set a reasonable budget and stick with it. You cannot spend more than you have, and itās not wise to get into debt pursuing a lifestyle that you know you canāt afford in the long run. Create a reasonable budget and work with it; donāt try to work around it. I found myself shopping from Walmart, Meijer, Gap, and J. Crew Factory and looking for sales before I bought anything. Donāt jump into the process and waste your money buying everything straight off the racks; utilize stores like TJ Maxx, look for sales, use what you already have, and really make an effort to make your dollar stretch. Another part of working with your budget is not blowing it by shopping at Shein; if you buy something and then have to throw it out and rebuy it after 5 wears, youāre not actually getting any bang for your buck.
Utilize Pinterest and social media to find women that look like you. An integral part of creating your own blend and finding what works for you is seeing it on other women. I followed a number of women that looked like me and didnāt look like me, lived in areas of the world I found fascinating, and had tastes that I wouldnāt describe as mainstream. I used a number of different languages to search for the trends that I liked; I used Twitter and Instagram to look at hashtags; and I took total advantage of the resources I was able to access. I used magazines, went through online archives, and spent time building my ideal image. Was it perfect? No, but as time passed, it became more and more helpful, and it eventually became the Pinterest board that I use now and my main vision board.
Tie it all together and see how things work. I had to experiment with so many different looks, delete and recreate so many vision boards, and try things for myself. Am I a hairstylist? No, but Iām also not a billionaire, so I had to learn how to style my wigs to see what suited me. I went to stores to try things on, experimented with IG to see if certain pieces of jewelry would suit me, and had the time of my life during my experimentation phase. Collecting online images isnāt enough, and itās very hard to actually get a grasp of what you like if youāre doing everything online. Try your lookout, put things together, adjust it as you please, and tie your loose ends up.
Pt. 4 to come next.
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OH MY GOD GUYS I GOT THE ANAKT GARDEN SET AHHHHHHHHHH
warning for major alnst spoilers ofc
I KEEP TAKING PHOTOS THE WRONG WAY AROUND šššš
okay im gonna summarize information
you get these id cards the main peeps of them their birthday blood type number signature fingerprint who their guardian is (i cant tell the difference between them on the card it looks the same to me but idk maybe its alien language)
and it also says what dorm theyre from
mizi till ivan and sua are in buru flower rooms although different ones
(all in buru flower room. sua is in x, till is in c, mizi is a, ivan is d)
meanwhile luka and hyuna are in different rooms which makes me believe its by like year(s) and based on when they graduate from anakt garden or something like that? i forget
according to an interview (of sua and ivan) they're from the 50th anakt garden class
hyuna is chala flower room a, and shes also the only one without a signature
interestingly enough luka is the only one without a letter after the room which i think is because of how im pretty sure hes like a clone or something? like like made and there were many others of 'him' that were made until they found the perfect him to use? im like 70% sure his guardian has also implied it or something in one of the interviews? i think it mightve been regarding either the top three or before luka vs till
i use a translator app and go through it and then (usually) mainly share ones about ivan (as hes my favorite) and include other interesting stuff that doesnt have to relate to him
also there will be some things i just dont mention
well ive only done it once and for like the art book lmfao but yEAH
i keep forgetting which page i read it from so this time im gonna write this post while looking through it to make it easier for me haha
skimming through it though i do see some stuff i think they've posted on the twitter and patreon before though i DO remember there was this one that was blurry and i think i saw it in full here
be warned translations may not always be 100% accurate cause for some reason i take a CLEAR photo of the text and then i take another but zoomed in to more specific parts of the text and it changes the translation so im just sat here like what why does having more context make it worse sob
(future me here what do you mean i can only translate 50 images a day š maybe its my bad for taking so many pictures of the same part but sometimes it translates differently when i zoom into specific parts that make more sense so on parts im confused on i do that a lot)
also in the previous post i tried rephrasing it a lot but at this point its really not gonna work with this
Mizi (1) Her guardian sent a 'lullaby tape' and 'deep sea mood lamp' to help her sleep. She called it 'Shine' or something? I can't be 100% sure but she whined to a teacher about missing it and thus that was sent over.
Mizi/Sua (2) Sua helps Mizi study, and sometimes reads to her, and everytime she does it, "I feel she creates an unknown world for me."
Sua/Mizi (1) Sua was shy and didn't laugh much when entering Anakt Garden, but after meeting Mizi, she laughed a lot.
Sua (2) Children in the Anakt Garden have become more interested in the opposite sex. There are rumors among the children that there is "a tree that can succeed if you confess". Sua seems to be popular with boys as she often goes under the tree.
Sua & Ivan (3) Sua was chosen as an Outstanding Child alongside Ivan in Anakt Garden, an honorable title given to a child who sets an example for others every year. The two will be interviewed and included in ALIEN STAGE MAGAZINE VOL.2.
Sua (4) Recently, Sua's been practicing hard enough to stop crying(?). When asked why, Sua said, "I have to practice more because it's my dream to be on stage with Mizi."
ši cant tell if its a mistranslation or if its a 'i know the truth about alnst so i want to practice not crying while on stage with her' or something
Till & Ivan (1) Today, Till fought with a new kid named Ivan. He is an aggressive child, so he needs regular education at home. Fortunately, Ivan has generously forgiven him, but I will do my best to prevent this from happening next time.
Till & Ivan (2) Till's theoretical grades have improved a lot! Practical tests are always perfect, but theories have always been weak. In particular, his grades in Religion and Music, which were his most vulnerable, have risen markedly. Is it because some kid has provoked Till recently? He's very competitive, so when he has an opponent he wants to win, he burns!
It's not stated but y'know I'd think it'd be Ivan š.
Ivan (1) Ivan is significantly less talkative than other children. He may have a slower language development than other children because he's adapting to a sudden change in environment.
Ivan (2) For an art class on the theme of "The Most Memorable Moment of Life", Ivan painted a sky full of shooting stars on the paper. Each star was drawn carefully, and his concentration was so focused it was like he was being sucked into the paper.
For that I'll refer to the scene back in Round 3 and my post on the artbook where it explained more on Ivan's thoughts and how the shooting stars meant to him it was
(10) in the slums, when being held over like the edge due to the anger of a dealer, he faced the fear of death at such a young age that it stuck with him, that death was always near him. the shooting stars that then appeared stayed with him unconsciously (the translation it gives me is āthe ecstasy faced with death took place intensely in Ivanās deep unconsciousness.ā)
Ivan (3) He often observes his facial expressions in the pond before going to school in the morning. I feel the one translated on the patreon (free) has better translations but it only shows a few not all and I remember reading this one as one of the ones included.
Ivan (4) Although Ivan is mature for his age, he is the most childlike when he is with Till. (they fight a lot)
Hyuna (1) Hyuna is a child with gentle charisma. She has a high sense of responsibility, so she takes the lead as class president and takes the initiative in all activities. She does not hesitate to do good deeds, such as actively approaching children who do not fit in well with the Anakt Garden activities, and she is a role model for all children.
Hyuna (2) Hyuna, who loves singing, always sings in front of the children during compulsory playtime. Yesterday, she stood at the base of a tree and sang "Anakt's Lullaby" in an impromptu arrangement, and Hyuna's changed lullaby was popular at "Anakt Garden" for a while.
I've heard people theorize that Wiege is that lullaby.
Hyuna & Luka (3) Luka was hiding in a tree and looking at Hyuna, as if he wanted to play hide and seek with her. Hyuna saw Luka and invited him to play with her.
I usually format it based on whose referred to first but I actually cut off a part of it and its about how Hyuna is popular and then it mentions Luka and then I have no idea what's being said I'm using two different translator apps and they both don't make sense. Perhaps the idea is something like, 'the lonely child Luka, who also excels at Anakt Garden, even memorized her name.'
The translations it gives me call him an only kid, the best in Anakt Garden, and then continues with ", Is Hyuna" or "memorized her name" so above is my best guess tbh š Reasoning? Since idk what they meant by only kid, since it mentioned in the beginning how Hyuna was popular, then if I compare then he was probably lonely (there is also art of him by a tree alone staring at Hyuna who is surrounded by many others), he was also good at his studies and so was Hyuna, and I added even to emphasize that ah Luka didn't really interact with people but Hyuna ended up catching his attention (thus he was staring at her).
Luka (1) Luka always practices until late at night. If there's even a singular thing he can't solve he immediately asks the teacher a question.
Luka (2) Luka won first place in the Anakt Garden singing contest! The children were moved to tears when they heard Luka's crying. The crying sound is clear and sweet, and moves the hearts of those who listen to it. There is a jinx that if you win first place in the Anakt Garden singing contest, you will win Alien Stage, and our teachers are expecting that Luka will win Alien Stage. It is so exciting to imagine Luka growing up day by day.
if I recall Hyuna was second
ooh thats scary the art. dude i didnt even realize there was someone behind him.. its luka whose holding up like a paper and theres two large hands on his shoulders and theres a person in black behind him but theyre so big you cant even see them just their arms and torso wtf š
Luka (3)
Luka complained of persistent headaches and hyperventilation during the night.
Physical examination results show abnormal blood flow and lack of oxygen in the body. There is a high possibility of congenital heart disease.
Luka's voice change begins. Intensive care is required to prevent damage to his crying(?) voice. Tea and nutritional supplements that are good for voice will be included in his diet.
one translation is 'crying voice' and the other just translates voice as crying
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also i cant be 100% sure the translation is right calling it congenital heart disease idk korean and the apps can be inaccurate so take it with a grain of salt
Luka (4) The end-of-month evaluation grades have dropped by 10 points compared to the previous month. Although it is a small drop, in order to prevent this, we plan to select excellent teachers from the Anakt Garden and provide intensive management. We also request periodic discipline at home to prevent Luka from being distracted.
i kind of hate luka but dude this is really making me feel bad for him holy shit š wtf
now its i think graduating from anakt garden and writing messages to people um its a lot of text so idk how im gonna tackle this
MIZI
(two attempts at writing 'Mizi' are crossed out) Hello Mizi, (crossed out) Hello Mizi! You sing really well! If there is an angel, wouldn't it be right here? (crossed out)
I prepared a song for you (crossed out)
Thank you for giving me a recorder when I was little.
It's my only treasure (crossed out)
It's really sad that you're already graduating from Anakt Garden.
Actually, we could have become friends at any time, but I just didn't have time. (crossed out)
How are you. Hi. -Till- ---
What kind of place is the ocean?! I want to go play later too~~! ć¼????? IDK WHO THIS IS google registers it as jp characters and i think thats wrong so..ć¼
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My dream, to Mizi Mizi the jellyfish girl (??) The day we were lying in the Anakt Garden meadow and looking at the stars together You became my dream. Is that why? The time I spent with you felt so precious to me. I have a lot of things I want to say. I feel complicated. (crossed out) I don't know what kind of world will unfold if I leave Anakt Garden, but I hope you will always live as green and free as the sea of summer. I believe this is Sua as there's a part mentioned earlier where Sua and Mizi liked watching the stars together and would sometimes fall asleep there instead of going back to their dorms (i did not mention this earlier thats my bad)
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Mizi! It seems like you are a child who really loves singing. I am glad I was able to enter Anakt Garden with you and listen to your songs! I hope you will be successful after you graduate! -????-
the characters of the name are not even registered google keeps thinking its the letter m
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You're so cute because you're quirky and lively! -?????-
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Thank you for always greeting me brightly every morning. Thanks to your bright energy, Anakt Garden life (?) I think it was fun. Good luck for the preliminary round, and see you on stage. -Ivan-
(at good luck he said 'cheer up' or 'ķė“' which has like a lot of meaning to it and can be like 'hang in there' and is something Till taught him to do and I think he also said it to Till in an interview I think before their round happened, i just used good luck cause its easier to understand and cheer up in english doesnt have as much impact without that context)
yeah here and there was also the comic by what i meant him like learning it from till
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.....i have to do this three more times........... hahahahaha hang in there me ....today i learned if you hold the button that takes a picture it will suddenly take multiple pictures of the exact same thing. š
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ā„ļø SUA ā„ļø MIZI (there are multiple hearts drawn over the page and MIZI is written next to SUA with a heart)
(mizi says a lot and as its handwriting its hard for the translation apps to decipher it from the image so bare with me for any errors)
Hello Sua! How are you? Did you know I would say that?? I can't believe you're already graduating, from Anakt Garden. Now that I'm asked to write something like this, I don't know what to write⦠If I had known this would happen, I would have taken the writing class harder! Then I could tell you everything I wanted to say!! Craft (this is scribbled out) Well I'll put all my memories in this letter ā„ļø A moment I was thankful for Sua ā„ļø
Thank you for secretly eating cherry tomatoes for me when I was a kid and hated vegetables. Thanks for taking my prank well!
Now that I think about it, I think I played a lot. Thank you for helping me with my homework every day. Thank you for always listening to my worries Thank you for handing me a handkerchief when I was crying Thank you for silently comforting me when I failed my test
Thank you for always singing with me Thank you for appearing in my life I'll stop talking here, because we're always together! My dream. Sua, I love you!! -Mizi who loves you so so much-
GUYS IM GONNA CRY
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I actually still like you. Even though you rejected me, can you think about it one more time? -???? no idea who this is-
dude can you read the room her girlfriend literally took over more than half the page šššš
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I don't usually say this, but your voice is nice. I hope you do well in Alien Stage. -Till-
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As an Oustanding Child, alongside you, I'm glad I was able to put my name on the list. I'm sorry we didn't talk much. You've always been an excellent kid, even (maybe 'when you're at') at Alien Stage(?? I can't tell) You'll get a good result. -Ivan-
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IVAN
Hi! Ivan! I'm Mizi! You're handsome like a prince, you sing well, you study well⦠Why are you so perfect?! And Sua too⦠Are there only perfect kids around me!? By the way, I saw your stage costumes were all black a while ago, but I think you look better in white than black! How about wearing white on stage? I'm looking forward to a great performance! -Mizi-
NOT HIM DYING IN WHITE THOUGH. you know what. i bet. i bet he thought huh maybe till will think i look good in white. and then he wore white. AND THEN HE DIED
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I don't know what to write because I don't remember talking. Take care. Bye. -Sua-
DAMN. girl you know on his stats in the art book he sees you as like a sister right šš (who am i kidding ive seen your stats too)
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By the way, when is your birthday? I've never seen you have a birthday party. -just expect me not to include names of anyone not from main cast because I won't be able to tell if it's a mistranslation-
I just envied you so much. That's why I wanted to get close to you. -???-
Actually, I liked you, but we never talked to each other. Take care, goodbye -???-
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Were you the one who stole the pencil back then? -Till-
ššš i think theres a note somewhere i dont think i read it in this one but in a previous alnst post about ivan stealing tills things and then returning them because he wanted praise or something
i cant recall if the pencil thing is related to him or if it mightve been related to mizi since sometimes the translation app gets pronouns wrong but i think there was a mention of a stolen pencil and it being returned to someone in here i just dont remember what page. dammit.
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You are so perfect that it's hard to approach you.
-???-
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TILL
Hi! Till! You're so good at singing and composing The lyrics and composition are so (she crossed out a word that looks similar to something she then says but I can't tell what it is) I'm so, so jealous of you for doing so well!! I often think of the song you sang at the Anakt Garden Song Contest Come to think of it, you got your ears pierced not too long ago, it looks really good on you! The guitar looked unique on the stage Are you taking it with you? For this performance I'm really looking forward to seeing your performance~!! Way to go! -Mizi-
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When we were young, we fought a lot without thinking, but now that I'm older, I think I can be a better friend than you think. It seems like separation comes too quickly. I knew it wasn't useful, but I felt a little more intense with you. (crossed out) I hope you remember me. -Ivan-
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I still remember you getting dizzy and falling over while headbanging at the Anakt Garden singing contest. It was really funny⦠-???-
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I'm sure you're talented
-Acorn-
WAIT ACORN??
wait you can see part of the graduation messages on the patreon OH YEAH that was where i read the part of sua's and there was just this whole part blurred out (mizi to sua)
you know what im gonna ignore messages from anyone not of the main cast at this point idk why i did it for so long š
wait shit i forgot what i havent translated now š
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Take care. See you on stage. -Sua-
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IM DONE
OKAY
NO MORE
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Inescapable: Letters (Steddie X You)
A/N: I give you treat my dear friends. A glimpse into inmate Steddie. I'm going to write a full story but for some reason the idea of them writing back and forth burned into my brain. Think of this as a prequel so to speak.
Enjoy!
Warnings: Older (Early 30s) Prisoner Steddie & Young (Early 20s) Fem college student Y/N, Everything is in letter format. Mentions of smut, some dirty talk, angst (because I'm me), both men were convicted even though they are innocent, near the end we get some glimpses of toxic behavior, Jealous Steddie <3, cliffhanger esc ending.
Word Count: 2918
"You can build a prison of stone and steel, but you merely present the prisoner with a challenge. Any truly determined man will find a way out but love, love is the perfect prison. Inescapable."-- Wilson Fisk (Daredevil)
July 1996
Mr. Munson and Mr. Harrington,Ā
I know you donāt know me but my name is Y/N Y/L/N and Iām a student here at Hawkins University. Iām supposed to be doing a project for my criminal justice class and with your permission Iād like to do it on you.Ā
Iām working towards getting my law degree and so many kids in my class are doing theirs on people like Bundy or Gacy. How does that help teach them? Iāve done research on your case and I feel like you both are innocent. Add in the fact that the judge wanted to make āan exampleā out of you two⦠itās ridiculous.Ā
Neither of you had a prior history of violence and Mr. Harrington, your parents are prominent members of Hawkins! UGH! I just donāt get it.Ā
Sorry. I went off on a bit of a tangent there⦠I just hate how you both were treated.Ā
If you donāt want me to utilize your case for my class Iāll completely understand. If you donāt respond Iāll take that as a no as well.Ā
Thank you,
--Y/N.
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July 1996,
Sweetheart,
You have no idea how good it made us feel to have someone reach out to us, let alone agree that we are innocent. Society forgot about us a while ago but thankfully Steve and I have each other.Ā
And now you we hope : ).Ā
We have no problem with you doing your project on our case. What do you need from us? Details I imagine but what else? Are we allowed to know more about you? We know your name is Y/N, youāre a law student, and judging by the intoxicating scent that wafted when we opened your letter you smell really fucking good.Ā
Please feel free to be open with us.Ā Ā Weāre nice guys we swear.
-Eddie
Y/N,
I hope Eddie didnāt come off too strong with his letter. I told him we need to be respectful but like he said people kind of forgot about us. Itās nice to feel appreciated.Ā
We have no problem with you using us on your project and you donāt have to tell us anything you donāt want to. I understand that talking to someone in our circumstances can be a bit scary especially for a young lady like you.Ā
Are you only going to be speaking with us or do you need to talk to our families to? My parents gave up on me after I was found guilty so they probably wonāt be much help. Eddieās uncle Wayne Munson is a nice guy. You can tell him we sent you and heāll answer your questions. We also have someĀ friendsĀ people who were around the time we were arrested who can help to.Ā
We look forward to hearing from you,Ā
-Steve
P.S. You can call us Steve and Eddie. We already feel old enough : )
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July 1996
Eddie & Steve,Ā
Thank you so much! You have no idea how important this is to me. I donāt just want to do this for my class but Iād like to use this case for my graduation project as well. But we donāt have to think about that now. I barely like to think that far ahead so I use the excuse of that is two years away.Ā
Eddie didnāt come on too strong : ).
I AM a law student and a sophomore at Hawkins U. Iāll be 21 in a few months so I can finally move up to being a bartender at the restaurant I work at. College is expensive but soon it will be worth it. Iām attaching a picture with the letter just so you have an image of who youāre talking to.Ā
Growing up I heard all about you two. Hawkins High used to have your Hellfire Club, Eddie, but they disbanded it a couple of years before I graduated. The parents said they didnāt think it was right for their kids to belong to a club created by someone such as yourself. Since Dustin Henderson wasnāt there to advocate for you guys anymoreā¦
I donāt have to reach out or talk to anyone you donāt want me to. I know most of the people involved in your case arenāt even in Hawkins anymore.Ā
Iām so sorry. It must be hard having everyone you know disappear.Ā
My parents arenāt exactly fans of my chosen profession. My mom hates lawyers since her divorce lawyer wasnāt able to get her more alimony from my father and my dad is cop so enough said hahaha!
Iāve been with my boyfriend for a few months. Heās a film major and keeps begging me to allow him to do an interview with you two. I keep telling him no. Youāre people not circus animals.Ā
Letās start with you two telling me whatever makes you comfortable in regard to your case!
-Y/N
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December 1996,
Sweetheart,
Merry Christmas!Ā
Did Wayne give you the presents we bought you?Ā My uncle said itās important for college girls especially soon to be lawyers to have tape recorders.Ā Iād love to hear if you liked it and if you can use it in your classes.Ā
Itās been a couple of days since you called. I hope everything is alright. We miss the sound of your voiceā¦
Y/N, I know I can come off a bit forward but I hope I didnāt scare you away by talking to you the way I did during our last conversation. I canāt help it, you know? Youāre just so gorgeous and youāve been so good to us that my brain promptly goes into flirtation mode.Ā
Anyway, yeah, I want to hear how your Christmas went and if Derekās family was good to you.
-Eddie
Honey,Ā
Merry Christmas!Ā
Ed forgot to mention that we did get your gifts and are incredibly thankful for the books. Since I was arrested Iāve opened my mind when it comes to reading and Munsonās fantasy books at least take me away mentally to a different world.Ā
Heās right by the way⦠you are incredibly beautiful.Ā
Would you be open to seeing us in person?Ā
Just a nice friendly visit where we can talk about your project and get to know you more.Ā
If not we completely understand.
-Steve
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February 1997
Eddie & Steve,Ā
Iām sorry I havenāt come by or answered the phone. After our last visit, I justā¦
I love Derek but I care about you both so much.Ā When you kissed meĀ We have to keep this professional. Not just because of my boyfriend but because Iām studying to be a lawyer. How would it look if IĀ fell in loveĀ started a relationship with inmates Iām working with?
Please understand.
-Y/N
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February 1997
Sweetheart,
We understand but you have to also understand that weāve never met anyone like you. Youāre so kind and beautiful. You listen to what we have to say and actually care about us. I can still feel your lips against mine and nothing in my life has ever tasted as sweet.Ā
Can you still feel me, princess?
For the first time in almost 11 years, I actually have some hope.Ā
Does he make you feel like we do, honey? Your heavy breath against my mouth when I kissed you tells me no. I know weāre trapped here for the next 14 years but, baby, we can still take care of you. We just have to be a bit imaginative with certain things butā¦.
No one has to know, baby, not even Derek.Ā
-Steve &Ā Eddie
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February 1997
Baby,Ā
Fuck, sweetheart, you have no idea how hearing you touch yourself over the phone got us going. If we could have private phones we would have stroked our cocks for you so you could hear how much you turn us on.
I can still hear your heavy pants in my ear while you fucked your fingers.Ā
Iām playing with myself right now at the thought of how tight that young little pussy is. Fuck⦠picturing those sexy hips slam against me as you ride my dick. Do you like it rough or nice and slow? Delicate, just like you, pretty girl.Ā
Shit. I just came so hard.Ā
Would you let Steve and I fill you up? Make you really ours?
I wish we could fall asleep with you between us. Iād give anything to hold you in my arms and play with your hair.Ā
Canāt wait to see you again, princess.Ā
-Eddie.
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April 1997
Honey,Ā
How did your test go for your class? Iām sorry we werenāt more helpful but Iām glad you brought your stuff to show us what youāve been working on. It makes us so happy to see you working so hard and achieving your dreams. You deserve all the good things in this world.Ā
Iāve been thinking about you since we last saw you. Arenāt you glad now you wore that sexy skirt?
God, I can still smell you on my fingers. I loved feeling you cling to my arm as I thrust them into your tight little cunt. We have to work on silencing those moans a bit more : ).
I keep having dreams about your pretty mouth wrapped around my cock just looking up at me with those big, beautiful eyes while I fuck your throat.Ā
Do you think about us? Tell us all your fantasies, baby.Ā
We love you.Ā
-Steve
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April 1997
Eddie & Steve,Ā
You are such bad boys, you know that? I like it thoughā¦
Sometimes when Iām writing to you, Derek will walk by and I feel naughty but giddy. Iām doing something I definitely shouldnāt be doing. When we have sex, I donāt see him anymore.Ā
I just see you two.Ā
I wish I could take care of you the way you do me. I want to feel you both inside of me, stretching me open. I want to choke on Steveās cock and ride Eddie till I canāt walk. I want to feel you both cum inside me and make me yours.Ā
I love you toā¦so muchā¦Ā
I hate to ask this after everything but Derek would like to film you guys for his project. Iāll be there to so you wonāt be alone with him and I can use the footage when I start working on my graduation project later down the line.Ā
After everything, if you donāt want to I completely understand.Ā
Iāll call you both tomorrow.Ā
-Y/N
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May 1997
Please,Ā
Iām so sorry! The prison said you arenāt allow visits for the next month after what happened and you arenāt taking my calls.Ā
I didnāt know those were the questions he was going to ask you, I swear.Ā
After the stupid bullshit he pulled, I broke up with him and kicked him out of our apartment.Ā
I know you both are innocent and I donāt feel the same way he does.Ā
I love you so much.Ā
-Y/N
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May 1997,
Donāt break up with him. Heās right. Weāre fucking criminals andā
Y/N,
Eddie is still upset but we do believe that you didnāt know he was going to blind side us. We just needed some time to compose ourselves. The questions Derek asked about those kids, Nancy, and then seeing him kissing you when we walked in just fucking⦠It was too much.Ā
Add in the fact that he made some points, you know?
By the time, we get out of here weāll be in our late 40ās essentially starting over. Itās going to be so hard for us to get a job and other things like a house or a car. People will always look down on us for something we didnāt do but they believe we did.Ā
Youāre going to be this badass attorney with men your age groveling at your high heeled feet to give you the world.Ā
Weāre scared about dragging you down with us. You deserve the world, baby girl.
Just give us a bit more time, ok? During this time, I want you to think about if being with us is the life you really want. Really think about it, Y/N.Ā
We love you to⦠no matter what.
--Steve & Eddie
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August 1997
Eddie & Steve,Ā
Iām sitting in my first class this semester and I am already exhausted. I started my new job at The Hideout and I left at like 3am. I got some good tips though so that will help with tuition. I can also send you guys anything if you need something.Ā
I heard your appeal was denied again.Ā
Iām so sorry.
With cases like yours, itās so hard to get those pushed through and approved.Ā
Iām thinking about you two every minute. When I crashed, I kept wishing I had your arms around me.Ā
Iāll call you tonight before my shift.Ā
I love you!
-Y/N
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August 1997,Ā
Baby,Ā
Yeah, weāre kind of over it now. After so many denials, you just kind of give up trying. It was like that with my dad and his case. Then again he was just a repeat offender and Iām a murderer so.
You didnāt tell us you were working at The Hideout. I used to play my guitar there with my band when I thought I would be a rockstar. Iām not gonna be anything now.
Iām sorry, sweetheart. I guess weāre just a bit low right now.Ā
I wish we could be there with you to. I want to fall asleep to your voice talking to me about everything. I could listen to you talk for hours, babe.Ā
Donāt overwork yourself.Ā
Love you,
--EddieĀ
Honey,Ā
You never have to worry about sending us anything in here. We make enough money and then Wayne gives Eddie some to get by.Ā
My mom was there at our appeal. It was nice seeing her face again after all this time even though she didnāt talk to me or stick around to meet with me at the prison.Ā
I imagine my father didnāt know she was there.Ā
I agree with Munson, donāt over work yourself.Ā
We miss you.Ā
--Steve
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October 1997,
Y/N,Ā
We didnāt mean to scare you, baby, when you came to visit. We just⦠you were supposed to come visit us last week and you didnāt. You donāt answer when we call.Ā
We get worried.Ā
Please, sweetheart, answer the phone so we can talk.Ā
We love you, pretty girl.Ā
--Eddie
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October 1997,
FUCK YOU!Ā
You donāt get to treat me the way you did when I took time out of my day to come to see you! Steve, you have no right shouting at me and degrading me in front of all your cell block friends. Eddie, you donāt get to grab my wrist and command that I āLower my voiceā when you both are sitting there talking down to me.Ā
The three of us know you werenāt worried about me but fucking jealous Iāve been brushing you off for someone else!Ā
I have shown you both nothing but respect and opened my heart to you from day one!
Iām sorry your both in the situation you are in. I genuinely am but I have given you no reason to think Iād ever hurt you by fucking cheating on you.Ā
I wouldnāt put my career and heart on the line like I have just to fucking throw it away that way.Ā
--Y/N
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October 1997
Little girl,Ā
I know you get off on being a bad girl but we swear to God, Y/N. You donāt get to talk to us the way you did during our visit. We understand that you have a busy life but that doesnāt give you the right to not show up or not answer the phone when you say you will.Ā
We may be convicts but we still have feelings.Ā
Telling us to āfuck offā or saying that bratty shit you said like āIām sorry Iām busyā is not ok.Ā
Respect is earned.Ā
Letās also not forget, Y/N, that you cheated on your boyfriend with us. Itās not farfetched for us to think you may spread your legs for more tips at the bar you work at.Ā
Donāt play this game with us, princess. You wonāt win.Ā
Eddie &Ā Steve
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October 1997
Edward Munson & Steven Harrington,Ā
I always win and I have more self-respect than you both seem to think I do.Ā
Weāre done.Ā
--Y/N
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October 1997
Ed and Stev,Ā
I hate you sooooooo much. I fell in love wit you and did things with u Iāve never done with ANYONE! Except fucking obviously : ). I never did get to feel those ābig cocksāĀ stretingĀ tearing me open. Why is that? Oh yeahā¦because youre in jail!
I was willing to wait bcause I loved you. I didnāt care if youād be 40 someting when you got out. You will NEVER find someone like me again.Ā
Iāll move on though. Always do.
Hey check out this cute boy I met. I took a picture of him sucking my neck. Iām not drunk enough to send a video but you can use your imagination.Ā
Youāre good at that especially when u r imagining me cheating on you with men like him.Ā
Assholesā¦
--Y/N
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October 30th, 1997
Trick or treat, little girl.
See you tonight.Ā
--Steve &Ā Eddie
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