#i guess it doesnt really matter because it's not like i have to commit to a label but yknow yknow yknow

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[ginderfluid]

been questioning if im aroace for theeeee longest time and the only things that keep me hesitating are if (1) i get isekai'd to the bsdverse as akutagawa's 6'4 alpha and (2) sabrina carpenter gives me a chance

[anxiously-sidequesting]

To me personally malistaire is the funniest and most pathetic villain wizard101 has ever had AND I MEAN THAT SINCERELY!!! Between doomed children who have been manipulated, groomed, and isolated into becoming products of their environments, someone scorned who has been punished unfairly by having your biological heart torn out your chest and turning your children and all of reality against you to satiate their own ego, a nonhuman entity so powerful and so clueless they unintentionally threaten the lives of everyone around them, Malistaire FELL DOWN BRO. Like yeah you're bitchless now. You and me both. Get in line. Everyone in this room is bitchless. We are ALL living that ✨💅🏾💃🕺 Single Life™. You are a middle-aged man. Cope

[6mayhem]

but i would give anything for just one day spent in the life i had when i was 15. it may not have been perfect but i felt like i belonged somewhere. and i didn't worry so goddamn much about the big picture

[1morefrenchfry]

Okay so i been REALLY thinking about this for idk the last week or so? And i want to hear other people opinions

So u think can VILE be considered a kind of a forced work for the operatives?

I mean yea, they have a place where they get food, a home ect..But! They OBVIOUSLY cant LEAVE, they are constantly told that if they try to they are gonna die

Just imagine u ended up not liking this life and want something else? ( dexter flashback) Guess what u CAN'T.

All most every operative we see is like- in their 20's, very young, and is told in the show that VILE looks for people who are orfans, Poor, ect

Basically people who cant stand for their own and probably need help, they get an offer who they cant reject and suddenly they are stuck in an island having to steal till VILE decides they are not worth it anymore.

( sorry for the Long ask i needed to take this out, hope ur day/Night is good)

Hi slim, thanks for the ask! Sorry i took a while to get to it.

Regarding the question - yes, i do think the vile ops feel “trapped” in some manner. Even though all of them signed up for this (well, kinda - all the operatives signed up for valuable imports, lavish exports - not the villains international league of evil) - they cant ever just change their mind and quit this life. There is no going back. Its why when Dexter left it was such a big deal. It was why Shadowsan spent 20 years part of something he did not believe in, and its why Blacksheep had to escape in the first place.

I also definitely like the HC that VILE targets those with weak support systems (whether because theyre in poverty or come from a broken family) - we have some evidence of this as gray and shadowsan, the only two vile characters besides carmen whom we get a hint of backstory for, both seemed to lack parentsl figures in their youth. Obviously this could just be circumstantial but i think it would be interesting if this idea was committed to.

Maelstrom’s on the faculty and he’s well informed on matter’s of psyche - there’s no doubt in my mind that he’d be well aware of the benefits of accruing loyalty from those who dont rlly have anyone or anything else. Itd very feasible to me that he’d put it into “practice” when recruiting operatives.

That being said, the above doesnt excuse any of their actions as VILE ops or remove culpability. But its interesting to think about, no doubt! Hope you’re having a nice day as well!

[goomyloid]

the chara comic you posted is awesome! i really love the way you color things!

personally, i think chara would not be okay with seeing the monsters be killed, even to "see everything about them because they love them". if i interpreted the comic correctly, and you were suggesting that they would think it's worth it to "see everything", i'd like to ask: why do you think that?

i'm not trying to be confrontational or anything, i'm just curious about your interpretation of their character

hiii firstly thank you for enjoying my comic!! i worked pretty hard on it so im really glad people like it!

i had to think about this question for a while, and i guess this is my answer:

i think that while chara was alive, they weren’t okay with seeing monsters around them die, and wouldnt kill them themself, but that doesn’t mean they were ‘pure’ and against killing altogether; they did want to kill the humans from their village, and getting the chance to do so was presumably one of the reasons they were willing to commit suicide. after all, it seemed to me like their plan was just as much of a revenge plan as it was a plan to save monsterkind, and i think it’s a common interpretation that they were stewing on those negative feelings after death for a loooong time.

though i suppose that’s just my reasoning for their capacity to kill. in terms of them wanting to “see everything,” i intended for there to be a few different meanings/implications for this:

1. the more literal comparison to the player, relating to how we do the no mercy route not because we hate the characters, but because we love them; we want to see everything they have to say, even if it means hurting them, because we’re too attached to the world undertale has to offer (though this feeling depends on your personal experience with the game)

2. the less literal, more diegetic comparison to flowey, who has cycled through numerous timelines, “reading every book” and “burning every book” so to speak, i.e. seeing everything the world has to offer — not out of love, but in a desperate attempt for entertainment, since he couldnt feel love himself. hence the line, “you need more and more and more love, but it’s never enough. so you stretch everything thin until it breaks.”

3. a nod to chara’s tendency to push things to its limit in general. things like them filling water glasses all the way to the top, or 9 being their favorite number. but their desire for extremes (such as their plan, which was pretty extreme if you ask me) doesnt always end in success; sometimes it ends in dire failure.

this, along with the fact that no matter what interpretation of chara you may hold, they generally might not have been the greatest person. which makes sense, right? no one is gonna be entirely good or bad. if anything, people tend to portray more of the ‘bad’ side of chara we see in the no mercy route. and while chara interpretations historically DO tend to be overwhelmingly (and inaccurately) negative (insane killer facemelty evil demon and all that), it still feels wrong to me to do a complete 180 and say chara was completely good and normal and hated dying and death and everything related to it. (not that this was your interpretation ofc, just using hyperbole to describe other interpretations ive seen in passing)

before this gets wildly too long, the point ive been trying to get to is that there’s Nuance. i dont think chara is “okay” with killing monsters so much as them seeing it as a means to an end, in a sense; the person doing it is trying to achieve something outside of just Piles of Asriel's Monster Dust. to “love something so much you want to destroy it” isn’t usually a conclusion most normal people come to, but these three entities in question — the player, flowey, and chara — are definitely Not Normal, each in their own respective ways. all of this is to say that chara doesn't necessarily condone the player annihilating monsterkind or flowey toying with people's lives, they can understand the sentiment behind it and Why we do it.

i could go on but the TLDR is that: while i think chara has the capacity to wish death on others in general, the main idea is less about what they think is morally right or wrong and more about their reaction to OUR (and by extension, flowey's) decisions; it's less so chara "being okay" with monsters dying (in fact, i tried to convey that they're not all that happy about it, with how they look down at flowey rather Menacingly on that one page) and more of them analyzing the situation as a whole and reflecting on their life and sentiments.

DEEPLY SORRY FOR THE WALL OF TEXT but it was fun to get my thoughts out more clearly! usually i like to leave comics like this more up to the reader's interpretation, so if others saw it differently than me, that's totally okay, these are just my personal thoughts ^^

[noctilin]

Hi jez!! ive been a long time follower of yours and your art has been a huge help when i was struggling in school. Hope you dont mind me asking this out of the blue but Im graduating soon and i still dunno if the careerpath i'll be taking is one i wanna take for life. I really like art, but im not really good at it, and i dont rlly have the means to "follow my passion". Im curious, do you do art for a living full time, or are you doing art while also having a quote unquote "real job"?

it doesnt really help that my parents arent very supportive of my art hobbies as of now, especially since im not making any money out of it. Money speaks as they say... LOL

hello!! i answered a question similar to this before you might be interested in. but tldr, i draw for a living! mainly freelance illustration.

commitment to art as a career is such a... complicated topic, i won't lie. even more difficult when you don't really have a sturdy support system like you say :( unfortunately, most people don't realize this is or isn't what they want until they take that leap.

personally, at first, it felt good, affirming to earn a living out of my art, it still does, but after years of it, i realized i would rather not monetize my work. it caused me to develop a complicated relationship with my creative process over the years. it often makes me question if i feel fulfilled with what i do, or if i'm only making this a means to survive. it burns me out constantly. even in the present, i have to continuously recondition my own perception of my process. but i'm currently not in a good position to just switch out my career.

i have been incredibly lucky that my art garners interest the way it does, and i make sure not to take it for granted. but i cannot hide how mentally draining it is to draw because i need to make ends meet instead of drawing because of the joy of it.

i like my art, i just wish i could enjoy it without worrying about a hungry stomach at the same time. 😅

i guess the point i'm making from all this is that money as a motivator in a creative field can be a mind killer. some people can do it, but i've rarely met such personalities... so what i'll say is this: if you want to learn and be around creatives, i would encourage going to art school, if you can. but going to art school isn't the end of it all either if you find it difficult to enroll yourself in one. art is accessible to all nowadays! just take a few google or youtube searches and maybe a little trip to the library, regardless if you want to keep it as a hobby or pursue it professionally. i've met a lot of artists who've landed full time jobs in studios without finishing an art degree. it's just a matter of letting your portfolio talk for you, a little bit of luck, and surrounding yourself with people who spark and uplift your creative spirit.

i know this is all still uncertain, but if there's anything i'm sure about, it's the fact that you don't have to give up art to live. art is living. it can still be your hobby if it doesn't end up as your job. and even if it doesn't become your career now, it's not impossible to have it in the future. i hope you find your way and, for what it's worth, congratulations on your upcoming graduation :)!

[hazbin-proship-central]

I don't mean to sound rude when I ask this but how did you become okay with accepting yourself as a proshipper? I've recently discovered that I can consider myself a proshipper and it's got me confused.

I've gotten more comfortable with my identity, but I've been an anti for so long that it causes so much internal conflict. So I guess I'm just asking for some guidance?

- 🧡anon

Hmm. Well, for me, I never even adapted to hold the anti mindset until around 2020 or so. Before then, I would've been considered proship (even though i wasnt aware of the term then). I think what made it pretty easy to transition away from an anti mindset was the fact that I have always had a "proship mindset" beforehand, and it was just a matter of me letting go of the weird purity nonsense I absorbed from social media.

If you are struggling with feeling like youre a bad person, realize that fiction does not harm people. People harm people. A fanfiction with problematic themes does not cause real life harm. The only thing causing real life harm in this equation are humans, and the blame should be put on them, not charluciferlovurr1996 on ao3. If someone is "influenced" to commit crimes or other harmful actions because of a show, book, video game, fanfic, or any other form of media, thats on them. Grown adults should have the ability to understand that just because something is "romanticised" (god i hate that word) in a story, it doesnt mean that its okay for them to do it in real life. If they choose to do wrong in real life over a fictional story, that is on them, not the creator of the media/story.

I feel that once you really, truly understand, it will be a lot easier to stop feeling guilty. If you want, you can message me (either on here or my main, @pinkcroptops ) if you need to talk more. I understand.

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

have read a publication about i-no and I was fascinated by your analysis. So I want your opinion on why the hatred/enmity between her and Sol?

So I can hazard a couple guesses based on my limited knowledge of certain Xrd story beats, but here's what I've got (under a cut because this is VERY long:

Both I-No and Sol are non human for the majority of their interactions: Sol is a Gear because of Asuka, and I-No is a Magical Foci created by the hopes and desires of every human on earth during the crusades. Both have been forced into a kind of "Savior" role (Sol by Asuka, who said he "needed a warrior" for the things to come in Overture, and I-No just by the very fact that she was created by Humanity's earnest wishes for the crusade to end being focused into her in the backyard)

Now, the key difference here is that I-No has half her power taken by The Original/Happy Chaos before she can become a God, because he believes that that would be a bad thing. The unfortunate side effect this has is that it rips I-No's ability to feel things and have desires from her, and that eventually causes her to become EXTREMELY jaded and cold (her constant hedonistic attitude towards life is a facade she puts up because of this).

Now we start getting into my own interpretation of events here, so whether or not this is all correct is a total matter of analysis and how much lore I actually correctly understand or not (essentially: "Hey I could be wrong or missing some details here, so please take what I'm about to say from here on out with a grain of salt")

Guilty Gear has this running theme of what humanity REALLY is and how people who are non human can still possess humanity; in a world where a lot of new creatures exist and have sapience thanks to magic, is it really just to still claim that these things are "lesser" because we decide that "Humanity" is unique to one species? I think Guilty Gear says both "No" and "Being human doesn't necessarily make you capable of humanity - having humanity is a choice you make"

Look at Sol Badguy - the man spends the whole series desperately clinging to and chasing the humanity he's lost. Even being a Gear he experiences IMMENSE guilt over the atrocities he commits to the point that he isolates himself for a large part of the series while he desperately and violently tries to undo the damage the gear project that he and his friends created unleashed on the world. He has to clean up a mess that he is in part responsible for, and one that Asuka made worse and then forced him to be a part of by converting his Fiance into Justice and then himself into the ONLY Gear that could stop her (Hence Sol being the titular "Guilty Gear")

Now you have I-No. This is the part where I remind you I-No ONLY exists because of the Crusades. She was essentially wished into being by the victims of the Crusades so that someone could stop them. The crusades started because of The Gear Project and Justice declaring war on humanity. In a way, Sol Badguy is responsible for her (very miserable) existence. Couple that with the fact that thanks to The Original taking half her power, she awoke essentially half-made with this inherent desire to fix the world (because of Humanity's wish) meaning that she has this intense power and only a vague idea of how to use it and what she should use it for that she doesnt totally understand, and that will likely breed frustration. Xrd however compounds this a little:

We learn in Xrd that I-No has repeatedly tried, and failed, to use her time powers to stop a ruinous future from coming to pass. This mostly involves Ramlethal, but it's stated at some point that the massive Gear stomping around in the Ruined Future is Sol, having lost control of his Gear Cells and bloodlust (it's stated a few times that without the limiter and if he "dies" somehow that Sol will lose control of himself and convert somehow into a fully violent out of control gear but I'm not as familiar with the specifics of that whole deal)

So essentially, Sol and I-No have both been forced into this Savior Type role. However, I-No knows Sol as both responsible for a lot of stuff, and as a potential danger and even catalyst for the end of the world. Inherently, because of her own purpose as a Magical Foci, she hates him for that. I think for Sol it's just that this woman seems to keep getting in his way and pissing him off on purpose and fucking with him - and just in general Sol has very thin patience for that kind of person. I-No also works with That Man (Asuka) who he hates with a burning passion because of what he did to Aria and himself. That's one way to look at it.

The other way to look at it is that even though Sol and I-No have slightly similar goals, the TYPE of world they end up wanting is different come Strive; Sol wants his humanity back (which he gets) and I-No wants a world where EVERYONE is like her. It boils down to this: Sol has what I-No seemingly, at least from her perspective, can never have: humanity. I think I-No's actions by the end of Strive are actions that ultimately become fueled entirely by frustration and jealousy - she is trapped in a world that does not make sense to her and cannot hold her as she was meant to exist. She has no identity or as Ky puts it "Present" to live in (hence her obsession with the future). Sol does because he was able to cling to his own desires and chase his humanity until he finally caught up to it, but because of the aforementioned issue of having half her powers taken away from her, I-No couldn't even believe in her own feelings or desires as "real." She says that to Jack-O in the interrogation room when talking about her memories with Will. So basically, I-No was never even given the ability to chase what she really "wanted," she couldn't even if she tried to. She had only her inherent purpose, and in a way, Sol took that from her by having everything she wanted and also fulfilling her role in place of her by saving the world. A fair few times even. That's why she ends up trying to create a world of her own design when she gets her full power back in Strive's story.

The tragedy of I-No is that she is very much like Sol, except she was doomed from the very start. She was created with only half a self, born into and shackled to a purpose that she never had any chance of fulfilling. I think largely the enmity between the two stems from jealousy over all that, but also, just the very fact that the two butted heads on a very similar path that differed JUUUUST enough to make them really hate eachother.

That's just my take on it though. There's more I could get into here with how the Axl/I-No relationship fits into I-No's story but that doesn't have as much to do with her and Sol hating eachother (actually I got off on a few tangents related to your original question overall but I hope I ended up answering it at least somewhat LOL). I definitely reccommend asking around and seeing what other people think of it because admittedly while the passion is there for me when it comes to guilty gear lore, I still have a comparatively ramshackle understanding of a lot of plot beats and motivations when it comes to some other Gearsters around here. I do like talking though so thanks for the ask!

[smolweeblets]

Yelena AOT X Reader fluff alphabet

A/n: Yeah im not dead yet, not my best work but i feel bad for leaving you guys for so long, i really miss writing, till next time 😭❤️

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Affectionate in a soft, quiet, and gentle way. Like, this woman just goes up to you and snuggles you while you do your thing and just plays with something of yours, like your hand, your hair, or a piece of your clothing.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Super sarcastic and rough as a friend but of course has that soft and caring side when it really matters. She teases and bullies you (playfully, and if youre okay with that). Her favorite one is definitely calling you short. No Lena, we arent short, youre just an overgrown beanstalk.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

She actually does not like being too close when you sleep together, but always needs to have something touching you. Maybe an arm around your abdomen or stomach or you two holding each others hands.

Also, just silently plops next to you if youre doing something in your couch or bed and just sleeps there or tries to make menial conversation.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

I feel like younger Lena (or, i guess the current one) is really focused on their job for a better life for the two of you but if youre still with her after a few years, she starts to reach her goals and cares less for working so much.

She just knows the kitchen basics, maybe has a signature dish that she always knows how to make well. Shes really nothing exceptional in the kitchen but she can definitely cook a decent balanced meal. As for cleaning, she doesnt do it much but when she does she does a whole deep clean of everything in the house. If you live with her I suggest leaving for a while because she enjoys working alone and she will be moving and messing up some of the furniture for a bit.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

If she knew it was coming, they would try to delay it for as long as she possibly can. She genuinely doesnt want to hurt you, but sometimes, thing cant be fixed and she has to do it. She speaks clearly and gets straight to the point. Comforts you for the time being and offers to stay friends. She probably will hate how awkward it would feel to be around you but she makes an effort, she still cares for you deeply.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Really takes a while, she doesnt feel the need to be married, she doenst really care for your titles or anything but she would probably do it for you and so other people know you are very serious with each other.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Usually gentle mannerisms because being rough and brash really isnt her thing. She does like to playfully wrestle sometimes though, and she isnt afraid to swat the back of your head of you said something out of line. Emotionally? She tries her best to be mindful of you, but she usually really isnt good at this sort of thing.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Only during like really emotional moments. Maybe something like gently cradling you after intercourse or comforting you when youre upset. Sometimes she wraps her arms around you and rests her head on top of yours when your both just standing idly.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Takes a while. She knows for a while but is scared to admit it out loud until shes super sure that its safe with you.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Doesnt really get all that jealous, if ever she does shes just quiet and brooding about it bust shes definitely gonna be noticable more clingy away from prying eyes. Its adorable. But please dont actually make her jealous shes gonna be sad.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Usually quick and they can land anywhere on your face. Can be passionate too of course, but likes to keep them short and sweet most of the time. She likes her kisses to be reciprocated, like, anywhere on her face as well. If you give her some unprovoked shell take a second to process then smile goofily and give you some back.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Shes actually pretty good around children, they vibe with her and she vibes with them. Doesnt see herself having ome of her own though, is aware of the responsibilities and stuff and its just too much for her. Loves babysitting though.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Groggy asf morning voice. It melts your heart.

Also doesnt feel like doing much of anything in the mornings, even talking seems like too much effort when shes just woken up but if youre still in bed with her shell pull you closer and you two just cuddle together for a while until shes ready to start the day.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

She is not a night person, but shes usually sillier and more vulnerable when you both are going to bed. Loves having pillow talks with you.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Ohohoh. She is the queen of being usually secretive then suddenly dropping a bombshell and you just stare at her dumbfounded.

You never knew she even had an actual family until she invited you to a dinner with them on a random night.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Patience of a saint but only when it matters. With you, when youre taking while to do something or when theres a good reason to be waiting then shell be able to do so for hours. But in small inconveniences shes grumbling and groaning to you about how the line is so slow, or the internet isnt working again or this man at work is getting on my nerves.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Remembers everything. She will know the name of your first pet you had to the name of one of your friends in first grade.

R = Remember (What is their favourite moment in your relationship?)

Definitely when she knew you reciprocated her feelings.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Super protective. Within reason of course but she constantly worries and fusses over your wellbeing and always makes sure that you are as safe and comfortable as you can possibly be. Her heart melts when you try to protect her from anything even though you know she is fully capable of caring for herself.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Not too much effort, usually a gift or maybe a schedule to go somewhere but she is literally the most thoughtful person ever. Like? Lena I dont even remember when I said I liked this but now that I have it I'm going to cry because I love it so much.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Has a tendency to go quiet a lot, especially through text. She just doesnt find it in her to reply or talk sometimes. Yoy can never tell if shes mad or if you did something if you dont ask. She can and has left you on received for days at a time.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Decently concerned. Like, she'll make sure that she always looks presentable and stuff but doesnt go out of her way to do any special routines or anything, just a good face wash and shes practically good to go. Doesnt do makeup, if she does its like super light you barely notice its there.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

For short trips when she knows youre gonna come back, shes decently fine. Misses you of course, but she’d manage. But if youre gone for good, shes going to hide and suppress how much she wants you back and just how big of a part of her life you were.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Shes a menace with weird/cursed food combinations. I cant think of any specific ones but I know some of the things she likes to eat should be considered a threat to humanity and what it stands for. She also offers you some. You politely decline.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

I think she doesnt like people who are unsanitary. She doesnt care much for looks but you need to be clean and practice basic personal hygiene. This is partly because she has a strong smell. Shes understanding if youre going through something like if youre mentally unwell though, but only if she already knows you and what youre going through. Otherwise she generally wouldnt be near you.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Not so much a habit but if shes not cuddling with you she literally sleeps like a corpse. Stiff as a plank and her hands crossed over each other on her stomach. You have so many picture of her when shes taking naps on your bed you giggle every time you see it.

[squeiky]

Go tired of seeing "old hedgehog" designs of sonic and shadow with them just having greyed out quills and decided to do something about it

So yeah qpr sonadow (yeah shadow is 50+ fucking finally. Im considering giving him a cane. An asthetic or an actual one idk. Maybe both?)

Sonic grew his quills out (wanted a kind of longhair rockstar kinda hair thing idk if i achiebed i though. Also still unsure on what he'd wear so i just slapped on his sa2 beach costume and added sandals (and possibly socks).

(Oh and there a scar from the Mephiles blast on his stomach- as well as top surgery scars because of course he had top surgery its sonic)

(Oh and also the "old lady swagger" sonic is just him crossdessing/going lady mode because he always rocks the look )

Shadow styled/shortend his quills and i put him in a nice black collared sweater. He wears glasses because my guy has eye problems

(Btw. Im horrible at telling ppls ages so if they dont feel old then idk what to tell you guys i have no idea what aging is at this point)

Then, instead of simply making old yaoi i ended up getting obbessed (and happy) and started making everyone old

So next up was amy and Blaze. (Silver is here too)

I think theyre a little bit on the younger side of the old yaoi? I did consider the fact that some people age differently (some look older whilst others look younger) so Amy and Silver got the more "youthful-ish" complexion whilst Blaze and Espio got the more older one.

Thoughhh im still working on their design. I can always make older old lady Amy (now that i think about it i should 100% make Amy a granny looking buff woman because i feel like thats beautiful)

Either way amy and Blaze kept their uh.. "hair" short. Amy still wears supergirly clothes and Blaze wears more masculine type clothes nothing else.

Next is espilver

You cant sue me for making Silver a short king menace to society.

Not really much on design so far other than Silver is way more plump (pearshaped) now because life got better, and Espio is taller because what is he if not a tree?

Ask them how they met? It was at bowling. Why bowling? Its because thats less weird then "was investigating the multiple crimes husbando commited and ended up getting said yet-to-be husbando arrested, but after he got out we totally fucked"

Yeah

Oh, and because i couldnt choose, Espio is trans AND intersex! Yeah!

Also Amy is silvers ex (Silver has like.. 2 exes... Possibly more?)

And then theres everyone else who arent a "ship" persay:

So i call this the moreso young adult group with Tails, Charmy, Ray and Cream.

Tails (in college) and Charmy (not in college) obviously hang out and play videogames.

Cream, because when she was little she didnt get invited to fight deadlt monsters, grew up, and decided shes going to fight deadlt monsters. So i tried to make her a cool suit but idk.. it needs reworking cause the whole "secret agent" vibe works! But not the way i like.

Rouge is forever foxynand will continue to be the most attractive woman on planet earth no matter what age. Shes also still a meance to socitey and we will forever love the jewel thief (old) woman.

Knuckles doesnt cut his quills so those shits are LONG hes also old as well but idk what he'd wear

And yes Metal (also Chaos) is here too. Metal is a bit rusty (literally) but overall well kept and fancy. I think eggman would be dead by now, so i gave it a crown on its ears to symbolize how it took over i guess.

OKAY SHIPKIDS:

Blaze x Amy ( bio kid): Flare (was thinking "Spark" because of the love idea but idk yet)

Espio x Silver (bio-kid): Greybell

And then heres the fun part:

So Sonic and Shadow dont function like the others here, in that- while saving the world and whatnot, every so often they'd either find a kid following them (similarly to Amy and Tails back in the days) or save a kid during their whole adventure.

The first time this happened was just Luca (a black jaguar) who followed Sonic during one his little solo adventures and Sonic was like "do you have parents i can take u back too" and she was like "nah" so of course, after seriously looking for her parents through ppl with database accesses like tails and rouge, he was like "u wanna stay with me?" And Luca was like "YEAH!"

And then Sonic called Shadow like "Shadow do u want kids" and which he replied "what?" And then suddenly they adopted Luca. This is how it began.

Eventually, as one grew up, theyd find another, and then another and then well now they have like 11 kids in total.

Now, after ALL of this, they took a break and after that years worth of a break were like "wanna make a kid? Like for the challenge of having to that from scratch"

And sonic was like "what?"

So they hit up the labs and made a bio kid who is 2 months old and is the most hectic fucking thing theyve ever had to deal with so thanks for the prior 10 experinces (alas they do not compare to the mega menace)

[amoirsetpacis]

* ROMANCE HEADCANONS

NAME: Vash Saverem(-Wolfwood)

NICKNAME: Spiky

ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: bi

PREFERRED PET NAMES: he likes just about any of the pet names wolfwood uses with him but if anyone else tried literally any of them he'd probably feel Really Gross

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: mawwied

FAVORITE CANON/FANDOM SHIP: you have one guess and one guess only . i promise you it is not hard

OPINION ON TRUE LOVE: guy who spends over a century and a half with the understanding that it wasn't something that could ever happen to him and he was okay with it but was sure about and happy that it could happen between humans gets smacked squarely in the face with the concept of it and proceeds to take 10 volumes to accept that it happened to him

OPINION ON LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: again, not something he would ever have accepted for himself, not with who he is. honestly probably at least a little bit skeptic of it, but also will literally always eat up a cheesy rom-com. the concept of it is something he'd like to think exists-- it's a beautiful thought! and he's sure it's probably happened, but that doesn't mean he's entirely naive, either.

HOW ‘ROMANTIC’ ARE THEY?: decently! it's not something he necessarily has a lot of practice in but he likes to spoil wolfwood when he can, regardless of what form that takes. for someone like him there's a lot of 'romance' to be found in doing silly little domestic things together; neither of them are really huge 'grand gesture' types

IDEAL PHYSICAL TRAITS: tits guy who's obsessed with his husband, like that guy was engineered to tik off every box but really though it varies. i dont think he's even really aware of it himself. he's a big dude, even if its mostly Lank, so probably people that could even come close to physically keeping up with him.

IDEAL PERSONALITY TRAITS:��understanding, kind, patient-- able to keep up with his bullshit, because he's completely aware that he's A Lot

UNATTRACTIVE PHYSICAL TRAITS: he's not gonna judge you for having an unattractive face, but it's definitely a turn off lol

UNATTRACTIVE PERSONALITY TRAITS: cruelty, lacking remorse, apathy for others

IDEAL DATE: bonding over Activities! doesnt matter if it's parallel play or sharing the thing one of them is interested in, he's literally happy just sharing space and these sort of intimate moments

DO THEY HAVE A TYPE?: guys that could feasibly throw him around like a frisbee if he let them . headstrong women

AVERAGE RELATIONSHIP LENGTH: his current relationship is the only proper one he's ever had, lol.

PREFERRED NON-SEXUAL INTIMACY: vulnerability and being soft. the world they come from is harsh, and wouldn't allow it. so like genuinely just any physical contact where they're both comfy in like sweats or something with absolutely zero bravado. cuddling on the couch or leaning on each other when theyre brushing teeth or standing at the counter. real big physical touch guy but literally only with wolfwood lol. super clingy/your personal space is actually also my personal space in private

COMMITMENT LEVEL: these guys may as well have been common law married in the literal series so like pretty fucking committed lmao. it'd be a lie to say he doesn't get nervous about commitment sometimes because he's spent his entire life Not being committed to staying in one place, let alone with one person. it's a super radical life change that he can even be that way-- i joked about what happens in the series but you can see in real time when he starts to realize that commitment that he'd already made without realizing it. part of the reason he had like a panic attack meltdown before they got married is because of that fear

OPINION OF PUBLIC AFFECTION: sometimes i think they do it to be Deliberately Fucking Annoying for the bit to either each other or other people, but for the most part it's mostly like. hand holding. sometimes a Smooch. they're both honestly kinda shy in public most of the time. he's still clingy but it's turned down by like 95%

PAST RELATIONSHIPS?: lol

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TAGGING: you . do crimes

[a-confused-loser-venting]

Situationships are something really.

one of my best friends is in one and i see this guy mostly always grabbing her by the waist and pulling her in like she’s his property but has 2 times rejected her and pushed back on how the relationship is going “too fast” even though it has been more than half a year already. my friend and i agreed that if this happens a third time then she shouldn’t be giving this guy the opportunity just because he cant commit.

is not that i can’t empathize with his past relationship and how he doesnt want another failed relationship to happen again, but its not fair to make someone else incorporate their feelings to bring you comfort just for you to pull back on yours.

idk. i think im in a similar situation. not as serious but…

i have met this guy online like months ago. we met being pretty flirty but we both manage to very quickly and smoothly have platonic conversations which i believe is important in a relationship before going into the more serious details.

ill admit, we were pretty sexual with one another. sending each other pictures, videos but also asking about each other and getting to know one another. however, i should say that because we are very and i mean very long distance i knew that he didnt want to have a relationship cause he couldn’t deal with it. i respected it so never pushed him.

we kept talking with each other, still being sexual, and i guess i let it go to my head cause when he told me he has been talking to other girls and fallen in love with someone who was much more available and was thinking of marrying kinda destroyed me.

i guess, i dont know. an aromantic falling attached is dumb i guess. i know what i was getting into yet i let it go too deep and became stupid. i guess i finally felt it for onces or not idk. those so called feelings.

despite everything, i respected him cause i already knew i was already in a losing battle. in reaction to this i pushed back on being sexual with him, deciding to only treat him as a friend.

however, he then tells me how he has been having problems with her, how she hasn’t communicated with him much and soon enough accepted that he wasnt going to pursue her any longer. i of course comforted him as a friend and he tells me his woes of finding someone to settle down with and just being loved unconditionally. which i think is a wrong way to think if you want a committed relationship. but i guess what does someone like me even have to say on the matter?

we have been talking less than before but at times he comes to me being flirty and although i push back like before i enable his behavior. i just dont get it, i think i have understood many times already he doesn’t find me attractive and that im not someone hes looking for.

so am i just his stupid girl he can come to whenever his lonely?

i wish i wasnt dumb. i wish my loneliness can just cut him off. i wish i didnt feel the need for companionship. or feel more left behind.

i dont know.

[firebuug]

indirectly not really tagged by(stolen from) @scp-168 because i'm cracyyyy (want to type and ramble)

3 ships:

damian already went off about abc but i need more abel and hokma. you guys talk about old man yaoi but WHEREEEE is the old man x old man yaoi. your coworker aged you 40 years and then he remanifests in his office as a manifestation of his flaws and his trauma and he's old as balls too. tell me you arent all over his ass. also can we have a old woman yuri carmen.

literally all of the ships i've been going crazy over have literally just been oc ships but also i need everyone to know that even if i don't play it anymore gregor x rodya will forever be the bisexual fail ship of all time. they both get no pussy. they beat each other up daily. gregor is used as a headrest and is also boob height. what's more to love? but also gregor and meursault? there's no chemistry here whatsoever other than they were both done dirty by their society and also have a ridiculous height difference. i feel like gregor talks and says shit and meursault takes it too seriosuly or doesnt get it and they both sit in silence for the next 30 mins. i hate them

none of this matters (holds up my oc polycule that consists of a giant centipede a wriggling neurotic mass of wires a giant bird dinosaur beast and the occasional cockroach that needs some love and forces you to like them) (holds up my queerplatonic autistic distortion sex explosion that commits The Pianist 2 and kills thousands and forces you to like them) (holds up my giant centipede kissing the bug from limbus company and forces you to like them) (holds up my bisexual telephone who hates men but wishes the living cymbal piano man and knight butch would kiss her so bad)

First ever ship: ugh i wish i knew, i'm pretty sure it has had to be an oc ship of some kind, but that probably doesn't count since that's just playing with dolls, so my money is on some stupid hetalia shit (i refuse to actually speak the name of the ship but like. it was one of the most popular mlm ships in the fandom so fuckin. guess). although the first ship i actually started making content and reading fic for instead of just looking at pictures of (i have no idea if hetalia came before this or not) is skarso from tos sob

Last song: im currenlty listening to music lel...im listening to Paranoiac Intervals/Body Dysmorphia by of Montreal one of the songs of all time nglll

Last Movie: Probably a movie i watched at my schools entertainment club, which was..across the spiderverse (it was really good but the ending was kinda disappointing)

Currently reading: I need to start reading again but I keep getting distracted by art and the Evil Devices, but I'm working on continuing Villain VS Villain by Rosalind B. Sterling and recently bought Chainsaw Man Buddy Stories and the first book of part 1 that i'm waiting to get brainrot again to read

Currently watching: i need to finish catching up on major adventure time episodes so i can watch fionna and cake and not be confused. also want to finish steven universe sometime...also need to finish watching madoka w my friends....

Currently consuming: also wateh

Currently craving: watermelon (we only have it when im not craving it like a dehydrated man in the desert)

[livecharliereaction]

gonna be a long ahh post

ill try to see if theres anything strange for all of them but i dont remember all alibis n circumstances etc im using the red truths + question arc tip screen oki thats all i have Well i have my liveblogs too but that doesnt seem useful. first ep didnt have red truths yet but im quite sure it had to have been natsuhi or maria so

this was natsuhi + krauss + eva + hideyoshi + rudolf + kyrie

rosas definitely weird in ep2 i very vividly recall her BEING in that chapel too but i could be misremembering that part. though beatrice was there

this whole ordeal was a little strange i wish i remembered who exactly witnessed her bcs i feel like it wasnt just natsuhi n servants... Kyrie definitely saw her yes? I dont know what to make of it. What a cute outfit though shes so cute

also these mentions on shannon n kanon ep2 descs Awh

kanons key or servant involvement seeing as none of the others were first 6

kanon n jessica couldve killed each other Why? Who knows But someone carried kanons body out

"no one is hiding (regarding jessicas room)" STop i wouldve said that too im just like him i cant diss his abilities anymore.

Oh but also "kanon was killed in this room" =/= "kanon was killed in this room at that time" Im thinking about the scene where he "reappears" again i think its been said theres no disguise stuff so maybe

am i confusing the scenes because "theres no corpse" What happened in the doctors room???? when they saw him come back and bury his fingers to that wound i wouldve said he mightve died at that moment but then whats with the corpse. Girl

i miss her so much shes so funny "You are incompetent" in red is crazy

Beato:(.......

rosa had the keys yeahhhhhh i dont exactly remember Why i thought she was weird at the time but it was probably her. She was running around w the rifle too Well thats all for ep2 anyway

wtf even was charumi3 that was evas time to shine yes

Its definitely dead

None of the six committed suicide! hmm the weird linked one i remember it Though. Isnt "The six died instantly" incorrect in kinzos case if he was already dead... Since its a separate statement it doesnt have to refer to those six yes?? So maybe one of them besides kinzo didnt die instantly... Like battler suggested w a chain murder or one person going around to make up the chained rooms

Then theyd have a key too... girl i dont remember what eva was doing at this time also

at that point eva was supposedly in her room w a headache while witch eva was killing them so yeah doesnt look great for eva That servant things still possible too + rosa might as well have killed maria though idk who killed rosa in that case

eva did not kill hideyoshi... servant thing still strong and also wtf was kyrie thinking here anyway might as well blame her n then say eva killed kyrie but i forgor where eva was here again oopsie

"No life forms other than humans have any connection to this game" seems like a witch denying phrase but ok i guess its not a life form then

Lol. Once again kinzo thing makes this not matter... Though there go all my servants dawg maybe that was only for first twilight then

that is worrying. Do you think kanon n shannons names being pseudonyms affects the red truth. "shannon is dead" What if shannon is the idea of her servitude to the family and she threw it away for some reason and that way theres a Sayo who is killing people and doesnt really break the truths "shannon is dead" OR "there are no more than 18 humans on this island" All that goes for kanon too im just pretending that i didnt spoil myself his real name haha. Well kanon even more so since they made him appear and all but that couldve been jessicas delusion too...

she used to have so much fun that beato...

also even if eva was confirmed to not be involved in nanjos death that doesnt negate she couldve done well.everything else heart

thought about "Because of your sin, people die." a lot yesterday... The part about it not being about or with beatrice is of course very confusing and weird But yeah i cant even guess except apparently hes the reason the game exists? Or at least the reason it goes on or more specifically "cause of the eternal torture between us"

I dont understand how it could be about anything else BUT beatrice but ok. Maybe he was mean to maria like ange. But maria was literally 3 years old at that point... I guess he left the family 6 years ago but im having a terrible time trying to understand whats wrong with that really I guess asumu isnt blood related to him afterall but it cant be this great big sin beefing with rudolf u know. Id think his comebacks the reason the cerenomy was seen fit to be carried out (thinking about the amount of people) but angie wouldve normally been there instead of him anyway so the amount of people is the same and its over 14 anyway (13 sacrifices + whoevers imitating the epitaph) so i dont really understand blinks

i like when he goes Ah ngagh nnnghhh aaghh...!!! this vn loves to make people roar also They do it all the time. battler n beato do it the most but eva and many others always roaring too

also??? according to the wiki they didnt use red truth at all in ep3 until this point thats crazy i guess beato really WAS more careful about it

oh ange i miss u

i cant even tell what the first ones about theres no game record in ep4 tips how annoying <- doesnt remember at all what happened. Well ange was there uhh.

nvm its definitely about this one. I seriously remember nothing there was so much ange ange ange it was all eyes on ange.... I might reread my liveblogs

OH YEAH it was ppl supposedly witnessing kinzo killing everyone. Although uh "all ... acknowledged the presence of kinzo" Thats very different from "kinzo was there n killed everyone"... It couldve been in spirit or even if his corpse was there. Also last ones crazy u can just change that well i guess they were counting a corpse then

thats crazy confusing combined with knoxs rule about no accidents... what is left...

STOP. THERE GO BOTH OF MY SUSPECTS STOP IT

none of these negate kanon n rosa culprit yeah?

omfg wtf theres an image limit let me do the rest in another post

[manyfucks]

14. which of your muses second guesses themselves the most? why? and 15. do any of your muses have trouble falling asleep / staying asleep? <333

multimuse meme - accepting. do any of your muses have trouble falling asleep / staying asleep?

muses who can't sleep + why sweeney todd, grief tyrion lannister, fate of the realm and alcohol kathryn janeway, duty, also probably had too much caffeine kim wexler, too much work not enough time malcolm tucker, has whatever brain rot thatcher had that meant she only slept 4 hours eve of eden, she spents 2 hours staring at the ceiling, thinkin house, he's solving it (the universe) muses who sleep well hilda spellman, honk shoo mimimimi robert dubois, he has one really inconvenient nightmare every now and again marcellus wallace, he's busy and needs his sleep datak tarr, he ruined your family and he sleeps like a baby. hogs the bed charles xavier, mostly gertrude robinson, starts dreaming to solve more cases madame thenardier, passed out drunk and very tired from madaming andromeda tonks, passed out drunk and very tired from raising her grandson grunkle stan, sleeps & dreams of money mimimimimuses who don't sleep - lilith, archaic demon who doesnt sleep - seven of nine, alien tech puts her in 'regeneration cycle' - alfie solomons, too much redbull, he will never sleep again

which of your muses second guesses themselves the most? why?

i am starting to realise that my muses are not generally 'second-guessing' types. most of them are ego-maniacs and completely devoted to their own goals, whatever those may be. under the cut because this got long!

i have a genre of character who second-guess their perceptions often - alfie solomons second guesses what he knows constantly because he's brilliant but paranoid, and is not afraid to change allegiances or flip the world on its head. but he does not doubt himself. house fluctuates between self-loathing and arrogance/hubris, but he does not doubt his mind. lilith doubts the reality of what she can impose (specifically when she is under the yolk of the dark lord), but she is dogged and determined to the very end. tyrion lannister similarly can doubt the things he thought were certain, so that he can see more clearly. of the characters listed, he is the one who doubts himself the most, out of resentment that was once from others, and is now in him. kim wexler has a crisis of confidence in who she has become, but when she figures out what the right thing to do, she pursues that no matter any consequences also. to compare her to someone else who goes through a similar experience but for the worse, sweeney todd was a fairly unassuming, sweet person - a traumatic event unmoors him from his life, and he commits wholly to a new life (over a period of time) that he cannot be dissuaded from. any of the complicated feelings of grief, he can sublimate into rage and revenge. the effect it takes on him, hollowing him out, is the same - but he does everything he can to avoid dealing with the tragic, mature feelings that will make him feel uncertain. instead he becomes extremely certain: the world has been bad, and now he will do as the world showed him. people who doubt themselves the most would be: robert dubois: he has been a man with a single purpose all of his life, and now that this is complicated by prison, and by being a father, he finds himself increasingly unsure of what he should do. most of his mission in TSS he spends, half-in and half-out, doubting if he is only a man like his father, or if he can be more, and better. in fact, he's certain of it - his self-doubt is a softening of his idea that he is hopelessly destructive, a cruelty to others lest they try to visit cruelty upon him. i think upon arriving back to america, he would be emboldened enough to try to take on the task of being a good father like he never had, something he actively pushed away for fear of how hopeless it felt.

eve of eden: eve's entire story is about doubt. doubting god, doubting the world, doubting herself. she's been given everything - almost. that last inch of unexplored land festers away at her. i don't think she was easily led (though that was a part of it) i think she was someone who could not help but pull at threads. if the seams of the world come undone, that's a tragedy. but she'd do it again. as i write her (my canon for her is that she and adam are undying and forever roam the earth, even though their children age and die) she is extremely self-doubting, fighting her urge to pick at things with the knowledge that she has ruined things by doing so. she fights her instinct at every turn, and it is this self-denial that contributes to her misery. because, inevitably, she will one day pull at the string again. she will one day see the serpent's bounty and respond without words, respond by wanting to bite into it.

seven of nine is reckoning with having individuality, when this has never before been the case. she's a mess of self-doubt. she's going between the values and way of being she has always known to something more 'flawed'. while she can be incredibly sure of her actions, she has never had that same security in herself as an individual. it comes slowly over a few years, and continues after voyager. once voyager lands, i think seven is truly feeling alone - voyager was a small community of people who absolutely relied upon and needed one another, with a written code of behaviour. the real world would challenge her even more, but i see her eventually buildiing up confidence once again - she remains as someone who is self-doubting, because that is part of the nature of humanity as she has learned it.

kathryn janeway is someone who has taken on the role of a captain fulltime, navigating her crew for seven years through drama and alien hjinks. she has a few breakdowns adn bouts of depressions, exacerbated by self douubt because she simply has taken on too much. usually she is incredibly confident and driven, but the souls of her crew weigh heavily on her - constantly, and without breaks. she makes friends with people around her, she has romantic interests in people off of the ship, but her ideas about authority isolate her from others. she is a Doubter, she doubts if she's good enough for the impossible task put to her.

charles xavier is someone who has a relationship with doubt a little similar to kathryn janeway - he worries if he is good enough to lead mutants. but, he has a strong idea of what mutants should be, formed in opposition to what magneto believes. he is someone with a healthier relationship to self-doubt. while it bites at him, he can see the joy and bittersweet experience of seeing something come to pass that confounds him, or someone showing a new side to themself that he feels he 'should' have caught. he is confident, but he is able to examine himself and his place in relations to others critically, and grow with circumstances.

some of my most confident muses are: malcolm tucker is someone who lunges at his next move with infamous ferocity. but in his final moment, he sees stops talking, the very thing thaht has kept him in power for so long, always moving to the next disaster to prevent or manage into subission and irrelevance. i think his last line is him giving up on it all, truly retiring - but while it's painful, it's not because of disillusionment. he never felt politics was anything but a vicious game to maybe have some good effects through harsh toil. he just knows he will no longer be a part of it. aunt hilda: hilda doubts her place often, but she's got a palpable determination. when lifes trials (mainly zelda) kill her and stick her in the cain pit, she crawls out every time. things don't often go right for hilda, but when they go wrong, she digs her heels in harder to doing what's good for her. the chuurch excommunicates her? ok! she'll go get that job she wanted. the high priest inappropriately propositions her? ok she killed him. in a crisis, hilda never doubts herself, even if she seems a little fragile or gentle in her demeanour.