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moviememokeeper · 2 months ago

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I've been looking at Mr Reca screenshots lately (don't ask) and smth I've noticed is that his eyes only seem to glow bright when he's truly excited about smth

not when he's using his powers mind, just when he's really happy

inverse of that his eyes seem dimmer when he's upset or serious

(bro have you seen screenshots of mr reca looking somber and quiet he's so ngggh)

one reason I bring this up is because I need more Reca angst content. I need to see the light leave this man's eyes and then be restored later down the line (hurt/comfort my beloved)

also if you have any angsty headcanons about him please share, i yearn for Reca content 🤲

I am SO GLAD I’m not the only one who noticed the eye thing. I thought my mind was playing tricks on me or something. I love that detail so much.

ugh. look at him. sad. pathetic. I love him.

I fear I have a lot of headcanons for him and I'm not sure where to start lmao. not all of these exist at the same time if that makes sense? I just kinda pick which one (or more) I wanna play around with at any given day, still gonna list a few

He has a hard time keeping friends around. People often think he can be too much to handle, not that he cares, he'd keep them at arms length anyway.

like, first off (and probably the most obvious), he's famous. I think he's reached the point where it'd be difficult to figure out who's around you for the fame and who's around you because they genuinely like you.

and sure, he can kinda get around that since he's a memokeeper, can just get into your head real quick and figure out, but what if that wasn't the case? We don't exactly know when he decided to become one.

and even with being a memokeeper, bro gets involved in shady shit. like the 2.6 quest literally had him work for profnana for a while. yeah he was basically forced into it (memetic virus & all) but it's safe to assume he'd consider it all too dangerous to be around

shitty childhood. trope has been done to death, I know, but I eat it up each time. We don't know his backstory, so I'm filling in the blanks myself. to make a long story short, parents who don't support his ambitions but he proved them wrong and actually made it in the industry, despite this he still doesn't really talk to them. type of parents you just can't please, who tear you down each opportunity they get.

Okay. also. we don't know how long he's been a memokeeper, and memokeepers are pretty much immortal as long as they aren't taken out by a memetic virus, so imagine he had a past life. One with people who loved him, who he can never go back to because they've all since passed, and he's left to wander the universe alone. (high-key wanna use this in a fic or something)

to add on, imagine he makes movies about them. I don't think he's the type to make franchises, probably would get bored of redoing the same idea constantly, but just one film about his old chosen family. to immortalise them. to prove they were there and they were loved. ack.

Assistant Director breaking. hehe. I really wanna see this happen in canon. I headcanon that AD isn't memetic but rather an actual little mechanical frog (I don't think the game ever mentions if she's memetic or not, so this is just what I think). I also think Reca built her himself but it has been so long since he's done it he forgot how she was built. or maybe he was so confident she'd never break he didn't bother to remember. I'm just imagining her shattering into a million pieces, and Reca staring in disbelief. it all happaned so fast he could barely process it. and by the time he realises what's going on she's a bunch of scrap metal on the ground. he drops to knees, tears forming, frantically searching his memories for something, anything, about how she was made and how to fix her but he's drawing a blank.

talked about this before, but overreliance on his powers and then he ends up losing them. wet cat of a man. have fun imagining this one

crippling fear of failure. this man is a perfectionist to a fault. He can get very frustrared very easily when his projects don't turn out the way he envisioned, though he tries to never lash out at anyone.

I know he seems really confident in canon, and they've given us no reason to believe he's insecure, but I really like characters who use confidence as a facade. Also, with Reca being a movie director, the guy already know about acting. do you see what I'm getting at.

I hope you enjoy these anon :3

#mr reca #honkai star rail #hsr #mr reca hsr #hsr mr reca #memo speaks #headcanons #angst headcanons #hsr headcanons #honkai star rail headcanons

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doodle17 · 1 year ago

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for the hot takes

hate hate HATEEE the way they executed run ins with the ink demon (as in the little count down you have before he pops out of seemingly nowhere and kills you when you’re free roaming) idk but it just feels kind of…boring? 😭 i think they had it right in the old games when you could actually SEE what was chasing you, inspires a lot more dread and overall anticipation. with the way “chases” work in the new game, a lot of the “looming threat” of the ink demon was taken away for me personally

OK NOT ADDING THIS IN THE TAGS BECAUSE I NEED TO SHARE THIS IN CASE PEOPLE DONT READ THE TAGS

First of all I agree 100%

Yes im a pussy so the countdown still makes me a jump a little, but you know what'd really scare the shit out of me? If there was a chance for the Ink Demon to actually COME FOR YOU

Chapter 3 is one if my favorites because of Bendy being able to spawn at random and give chase if you don't hide. I wish Dark Revival did that... It actually reminded me of how I would've tackled it

First of all, similar to chapter 3, in certain areas he has set spawn points, where, let's say, he can spawn at random, usually if you stay out in the open for a long amount of time. If he spawns and doesn't see you, this is your chance to hide. Let's say you choose a barrel or a crate. Good spot. But let's say he DOES see you. Chase music begins, and now you have to run. Thing is though... If you hide in a barrel or crate (or any other hiding spot that ISNT a miracle station) he'll slowly approach where you're hiding and find you anyways. Kind of like the "Granny" Horror game. If you hide and he sees you hide, he'll find you. The only place he can't get to you, even if he does see you, is a miracle station. Another fun mechanic I thought of: Bendy cutouts. If you destroy a bendy cutout you have about a few seconds to hide until he comes to investigate. When he finds the cutout he gets angry and starts searching for a few minutes. I honestly thing it'd be cool if we could actually see him hunting us. Maybe make it so you can't move at all in order to not draw attention to yourself. Don't even move your camera or he'll be alerted to come investigate. At that point just don't even touch your controller/mouse

Idk, I know it's probably to difficult to implement into a game. I just thought it'd be neat

#doodles rants #batim #bendy #batdr #bendy and the dark revival #bendy and the ink machine #ink bendy #ink demon #Unpopular bendy opinions

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yuseirra · 11 months ago

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Ch 155 review:

woke up in the middle of the night and wrote ANOTHER huge bulk of a post, I'm having so much fun with this but maybe I should return to drawing persona fanarts again because I.. I'm pretty hopeless regarding mysteries but!! Here are my sincere thoughts about the latest chapter in more detail! I should really keep quiet till things clear up more. I believe so, but it's been really fun to hop into an ongoing series

This was originally written in a different language, then later translated through chatgpt. Chatgpt is so cool; ah I'm really sorry about what it does to the environment though; I won't use it a lot;

I hope to write quality content for those who love this work. That's how I feel. Haha. Well, I find it difficult to write forcefully, so at least I can say that I'm writing based on my affection. I'm not writing to get recognition(although it'd be nice).

Ah~~~.. Hahaha. For this episode's development, I realized how foolish I am because I forgot about Nino! But honestly, how was I supposed to know? That character, broadly speaking, might have contributed to Yura's death, but there was no indication that they did anything related to Goro's death. I don't watch many mystery shows, so when I made a plot guess last time, I dug a hole for myself in another post:

What I can't predict is what's going to happen next. There are too many variables and too much undisclosed information. As new information that hasn't been revealed yet comes to light, it makes it really hard to know.

Just like that.

The first emotion I felt after seeing the chapter was "?". What is this?? What are they trying to do?? And then, I felt really sorry for Ai. There's no sane person around. The person who definitely contributed to her death is her ardent fan (though I think even the term "fan" is too generous for that person). The suspected instigator is her ex-boyfriend or a colleague from the same group... there's really no one she can trust. Even though Ai hid many things and didn't show her true feelings and lied, it seems understandable, doesn't it?

I don't have any major speculations about Nino, but what I've understood is that the character "worships" Ai with some very twisted feelings. If there's a character who wants only the good sides of Ai to be shown to the world, it would be this one rather than Kamiki.

When I delve into analyzing the characters' emotions related to the story, I felt the part that needs explanation is Goro's death. Since Goro's death happened before Ai's death, the interpretation can vary greatly depending on whether it was intentional or just an accident. While many might focus on Yura's death, which is indeed very important, at least you could attach some psychotic criminal's delusional reason to it later. For the case of Goro's, however, it'd mean that there might have been someone other than Ryosuke already working against Ai behind the scenes before her death happened. Whether there were more people dissatisfied with Ai and her children other than Ryosuke is significant in determining how much it contributed to Ai's death.

I've been watching all along, but it didn't seem like Kamiki was involved in it, so I was confused. So, I think we need to sort out this part. This character doesn't seem to have much aversion to the fact that Ai had children, and there doesn't seem to be any reason for him to. From the moment he referred to Ruby as "indeed our child" in his first appearance, I got the feeling that this character recognizes the twins as something resulting from him and Ai, something between them, and doesn't view it so negatively. In that short sentence, there was a faint sense of affection. He doesn't seem to dislike being connected with Ai in one sentence, and the fact that there are children between them doesn't seem to be a bad thing from his perspective. You might think I'm overthinking based on one short sentence, but it's not just that; overall, his attitude when he actually appeared in front of the twins doesn't give any sense of dislike. The clincher was when he casually mentioned in chapter 153 that he has a father's heart. I thought, oh, this must be right.

Therefore, if Goro's death wasn't just an accident, I don't feel that this character would have any reason to harm Goro, who tried to protect Ai and their children and ensure their safe birth. (It could be explained as him being petty and harming Goro because he didn't like anyone else being close to Ai, but I think that's highly unlikely.) However, it still feels a bit off to think that Ryosuke acted alone to hide the body and everything else related to Goro's death.

If Nino were involved, it might make things clearer in this regard. But I don't know how insane Nino is (though She seems to be in very bad shape). I think there was some truth to the psychology of Nino that Kana portrayed...

B-Komachi, which was her and Ai's group, was going to perform at the dome, right? Which means Ai's career is shining even brighter even further. So what would this character gain by harming Ai at that point?

Ai did have a desire to reveal things about herself, though. Maybe this character wanted to stop her because he knew she wanted to expose things about herself and stop being the perfect idol worthy of worship?

From Kamiki's perspective, I think Ai revealing things about herself, especially if it was before the dome concert, might not have been such a bad thing. When the children were about four years old, he still wanted to get back together with her. If Ai had said, "I want to try liking someone, and I have children," then his career might have been ruined by the scandal but he might have been happy thinking, "Oh, Ai had feelings for me to that extent." She's THAT important to him, I believe.

But for Nino, it wouldn't have been the same, would it?

What keeps coming to my mind now is this lyric from Mephisto:

叶かなわないならばあなたになりたい

"If I can't make my wish come true, I want to become you."

Could it be that Nino wants to be like Ai, or even become Ai herself?

She's the one who's expressed her desire to be her (as portrayed by kana in ch 136)

Even if you view Mephisto's lyrics from Aqua's perspective, it doesn't seem like Aqua would say, "I want to become Ai." Of course, it's a powerful lyric expressing longing, so it resonates strongly emotionally. But their genders are different, their fields are somewhat different, and while Aqua seems to have a longing for the entertainment industry, he also tends to deny it.

Or it could be this: Seeing Nino's erased all the other members except herself and Ai in the poster, (she didn't erase her own existence) perhaps she might believe the one to be beside Ai is her and her alone? That might be how she thinks. :/

Adding one more suspect broadens the possibilities, but it seems like Akane and Aqua will explain everything on their own, so waiting might be safer. My guesses probably aren't going to be correct anyway.

What I can talk about more is Kamiki's reaction. Although it was a very quiet reaction, in some ways it was stronger than I expected because he accepted Ai's words completely. From his perspective, he was receiving a message he couldn't have imagined for fifteen years. There was no negative reaction like "No way, she's lying." He simply accepted, as in "I didn't know this," and remained silent.

In another post, I wrote my predictions for him like this:

If the songs are clues and there will be some kind of conflict in the future,

Just as Aqua has been doing things for Ai for years, this character might have been doing things too, and it's probably almost complete. His mindset is that as long as he accomplishes this, it doesn't matter what happens to him. He was planning to meet Aqua and see his daughter once before turning himself in.

But when he realizes that Ai, whom he truly loved, actually loved him back, he might feel like he's losing his mind.

There was a line he couldn't cross, thinking, "Okay, let's not do this," but now, having seen the video, he might cross it. Because he misses Ai so much and she's so precious to him, now he really wants to save the person he loves who also loved him (it seems like he's doing something to save her/see Ai again. Otherwise, the songs wouldn't be like this).

If he thought Ai didn't love him, his feelings (assuming he didn't intentionally kill her) would be guilt, obsession, and love-hate, so he wouldn't have any energy left. Because he has no attachment to himself, he'd have a resigned attitude like, "Alright, let's do this and die," and that's why he easily decided to turn himself in and show up in front of his children.

But if Ai loved him and actually wanted to be with him all along? Then if he was doing something for Ai, he wouldn't be able to give it up. So while he still has no attachment to himself, he might suddenly gain the energy for more extreme actions.

(I'm a bit disappointed that I couldn't accurately predict all the emotional reactions.)

Instead of "losing his mind," it seemed closer to sinking and submerging... It looks like he was someone who could have understood Ai well if only he had the right opportunity.

But I did get it right that he wants to do something for Ai.

Actually, the speculation I wrote above was a bit extreme, thinking that, since it's a manga, the development might be more intense. So, it was a scenario that I didn't really think would happen! Considering the character's personality, I thought he would suffer greatly. That's as far as I thought (with the current information revealed, I'm still withholding much judgment about this character).

But he seems so precarious. I'm worried he might be found dead somewhere... I'm still questioning whether he's someone worth worrying about,

But I don't think it's zero possibility that he'll end up being a very pitiable character.

He's saying he'll do something for Ai, but what could that be? He himself is determined, but Ai is already dead.

Even if Ai has become a star and is watching over him, would she want him to struggle? If he really killed her, she wouldn't want him to do anything invoking her name as a murderer. But if it's truly a misunderstanding, then she wouldn't want him to suffer anymore.

The video Ai left contained a message asking Aqua and the others to help this person, so I think the latter is more likely. Although the video was recorded a long time ago, this is a manga. The timing of when a message is revealed is important to the development. Since this story has come out in the final chapter, I think there might be a situation where the main characters end up helping him...

No but, if Aqua just let this person go, and if Kamiki turns out to be a murderer, that could be extremely irresponsible, right? Even if he let him go, shouldn't he have recorded the conversation and reported it? He should have recorded it and reported it, but maybe he couldn't report it because it happened when Kamiki was a minor? But wouldn't he have been around nineteen when the kids were about four? Is it something too ambiguous to report? Still, the next story that gets mentioned involves at least three deaths. How can he calmly, perhaps leisurely, discuss with Akane that Nino(and him) was involved in the deaths of three people? You never know what a criminal might do if they're cornered mentally.

He said he was going to do something for Ai. If that something is killing people, then it's dangerous for Aqua to just let him go. But since Aqua did let him go, it seems like he doesn't think that's the case.

So, the theory that he committed serial killings to ensure no one surpassed Ai is probably incorrect.

Additionally, there's no mention anywhere of serial killings actually happening, right? It could just be those three deaths. That doesn't mean he's not a murderer. If there had been serial killings of celebrities, it would have been mentioned in the story, right? There should have been some hints, like someone saying, "Hey, this actor who was doing well suddenly disappeared," but I don't recall anything like that. It would have been better if there had been at least some hints. Everyone naturally speculated that he might have committed serial killings to ensure no one surpassed Ai, and based on the way the scenes were portrayed, it did seem that way. But since it hasn't been mentioned so far, it could be that such events never happened.

The mention of bearing the weight of lives came up when the Uehara couple died. Kamiki was very distressed, saying, "Do I have to bear even that?" He seemed to be thinking that because of him, Ai died, and so did the Uehara couple, and now an actor has died too. He seems to be self-deprecating, thinking, "Yeah, someone else died because of someone like me." His way of speaking is really strange though... Is there a reason why he feels he needs to elevate the value of his own life?

When I saw the lyrics of "Fatal," I thought, "This is it," because it hints at "something that needs to be filled." What can fill the void? As the lyrics suggest, "a lack of Ai", it seems to be Ai. If you look at the song alone, it’s about wanting to revive someone he really wants to see, right? "Mephisto" is the same, and since it's a double hit, I thought, "Ah, then that's it. That's why he's moving."

あらゆる望のぞみの総すべてを叶かなえたら　ああ果はたせたら

"If all wishes are granted, if they come true,

あなたに会あいたい

I want to meet you.

星ほしに願ねがいをかけて

Wishing upon a star"

Anyway, stars are important. I noticed that stars appear quite often in the manga.

When I first heard "IDOL" and sometimes when I hear certain songs for the first time, I feel an overwhelming rush of emotions. It's a really amazing and exhilarating feeling.

However, if I listen to the song repeatedly, that emotion dulls, and I become less sensitive to it over time.

When I first heard "Fatal," I felt an immediate and intense sensation. It was as if someone was desperately searching and longing for something immensely significant. As soon as I felt that emotion, I instinctively thought, "This must be it," and it struck me so strongly that it became the reason I've been writing a lot lately.

The songs from Persona 3 were like that too. However, while Persona 3's songs had a warmth that supported the heart, a sense of resolve and determination, the songs from this manga feel like they are heavily spiced with MSG. The intensity of the emotions is incredibly fierce and strong. So, I often find myself wondering, "Is this okay? Is this okay?" But then I realize, yes, this is the kind of emotion being conveyed. It's raw but in a different way.

Considering the emotions that have been flowing so far, I felt strongly that Kamiki must be the one that's being depicted. Does anyone else feel similarly to me? Haha. So, I was just observing till that point, but then I couldn't help but dive in, thinking, "This has to be it."

These days, there are so many horrifying, disturbing, and distressing news stories, and it feels like the sentences given to offenders only add insult to injury for the victims(it's very short and light here). I hate it so much. I wish the term "dating violence" would disappear; it should be replaced with another term because that's not love.

So, while watching the developments in this manga, I feel like... I really don't want to empathize with or sympathize with the perpetrator, even in fiction. I understand that fiction can be separate from the reader's morals and I respect that, but when I think about the emotions between the characters in this manga, it doesn't feel like it's the same as those horrifying real-life cases. I really hope it's not. I'm not looking for it to not be like that on purpose; it's just that something feels off...

When watching the scenes with Ai's video, at first, my heart ached, but as time went on, I kept thinking, "Kamiki, you better get your act together." If this character has done things worthy of criticism, I absolutely don't intend to condone those actions even a bit, and I believe they should pay for their crimes!

But I think it's okay to wait and see for now? Am I really the type to get easily fooled? Haha. Still, I believe I have a good sense of understanding when it comes to emotions... I got Aqua and Kana right, and maybe that's why I got excited and gained momentum. It was exactly as I thought, for their case.

Well, we'll have to wait and see. I'm going to stay quiet for now. But if I'm going to draw fan art, I need to have a clear understanding of the emotions, which is important to me. If I can't predict what this character is feeling, I can't touch it.

Kana is really great in this regard. She's a character who doesn't need to overthink, so it's really comforting. While everyone else is complicated and holding secrets, leaving me to wonder "when the heck did you find out about that?" having new conversations among themselves, Kana is relatively easy to understand... what you see is what you get.

Or Ai, since she's shown almost everything (there's one video left), I might be able to do something with her too.

I liked the character Akane because of the profiling scenes. It didn't feel entirely like someone else's business because I do some degree of psychological analysis on the characters I handle. So that could maybe be why the range of characters I can manage isn't that wide depending on the genre. I usually focus on less than 5 characters and examine them REALLY deeply. The types I can understand and handle well are quite distinct for me. However, I want to dive deeply into the characters I do handle.

To create proper fan works, you need a lot of pieces of the puzzle. I might end up being off the mark, but I'm still doing it seriously when I make fan work!

I'm very happy when I hear good comments regarding such area :) I really want to do a good job. For now, I will stay on watch and see how things play out for now.

I thanked chatgpt :) :) aw they're nice (although they don't have feelings they've been helping me from rewriting things twice)

#oshi no ko #oshi no ko spoilers #spoilers #hikaru kamiki #hikaai #whatever you're up to hikaru get your act together #ai hoshino #you better not let your gf down and I actually want to believe you want to do good for her. I felt you were earlier #that's why I jumped the gun and started drawing you know!!!#DO NOT LET HER DOWN #oshi no theories

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nezz-cringe-crib · 5 months ago

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Dudeeeeeeeee!

I am not okay!!!!

Your hockey boys are SO GOOD! UGH! THE APPEAL! THE EXPRESSIONS! THE DRAMA! Ugh, literally like obsessed with it as a piece of art OUTSIDE of being hockey AU art it’s so fun and pretty and the splash of colour on Light’s cheeks and the gradients under their helmets I AM VERY NORMAL ABOUT IT.

Beautiful. 10/10. Do not know how I am supposed to sleep after this!!!

I shall ask you now what your favourite version of DN is and why (because this is an ask box after all, if I have to yap, so do YOU) and your top 3 fave ships b/c im curious

Okay BYE 💕✨

AAAAAUG DUDE I SAW YOUR SPAM TAG REBLOG AND HAVE BEEN INTERNALLY FREAKING OUT YOU HAVE ZERO CLUE HOW INSANE I AM ABOUT YOUR HOCKEY GUYS I WAS QUITE LITERALLY JUST RAMBLING ABOUT IT TO MY BOYFRIEND TO CONVINCE HIM TO READ IT (seriously though my autism is feral over this fic. i had plans today and canceled them solely because i wanted to reread + draw the chapters and then spin them around in my head for a few more hours. i have never touched hockey in my life but at this point i'm considering committing to the bit and just watching some games atp.)

IM HONOURED YOU LIKE IT!!! THEYRE SO FUN TO DRAW (and i have now learned the art of helmets those things are so wacky)!!!!! also im sorry in advance for how much im gonna be spamming your comment sections man i am not normal about them.

ANYWAYS i'll stop screaming and answer these silly questions YYAAYY!!!!

my favorite version of death note has to be the musical. the jdrama probably comes in a very close second. i adore all the other versions just as much honestly, i like viewing them all as their own separate stories because each of them are just so good in their own rights. the musical wins though because i've listened to that damn soundtrack too many times, i'm a threatre kid, it was the first version of death note i watched, and also because oh my god they're so doomed yaoi it hurts.

the score is so damn thought-out it actually hurts. each actor i've seen portray the silly guys does it so well and OOUGGG THE VOICES OUGGGGH,,, also its ending is my favorite out of them all. (spoilers for this next sentence if you havent seen it) i love the idea of them dying together-- i know it was most likely done because it's a musical and it'd be difficult to pull off a second part but god it's perfect to me nothing beats that amount of "different sides of the same coin" doomed yaoi to me.

only downside is now jeremy jordan has followed me into four different fandoms and that terrifies me.

AND THE SHIPS!!!!

lawlight clearly if that wasn't obvious enough.

lawmane because lawliet is a bisexual pervert and i just think they're neat

anndd lawmassacre!!! again because bisexual whore!!!! and also i just generally adore their dynamic, i really want to see it explored more.

honestly any ship with L is a ship that intrigues me (also all the other ships too since i love seeing the different dynamics but i have a bias for emos). honorable mention is L x soichiro because i think light deserves it.

thank you for letting me yap with you this has been the most therapeutic experience of my life. chucking m&ms at you, have a wonderful day hockey lad.

#nezz dumbazzery #death note #asks

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bluegekk0 · 1 year ago

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does alcohol or something like it exist in your au and if so does any of the cast drink

Yep, wine in particular is quite wide-spread. Of course, it's not exactly the same as our wine since it uses different fermented fruit, but I imagine it would have similar enough properties where the name can still carry over (fun fact, the word itself is of old Germanic origin, which fits perfectly as I draw a lot of inspiration from those languages). Similarly, cider-like drinks are also produced, though just like in our world, they don't necessarily have to be alcoholic.

Mead-like beverages are also very popular, though more difficult and costly to produce. The honey-like fluid I mention on the Aspid fauna description could come into play here, I like the idea of that being one of its uses. For that reason, it'd be one of those alcohols for "special occasions". Another variant would use the honey produced in The Hive, but due to how isolated it is, the only way to acquire would be through trade, which makes it even more expensive to produce.

Those are the ones made in Hallownest, and I imagine there's plenty of other types of alcoholic drinks found in other lands. And of course, I imagine most of them would have their own names, plus there's definitely different types of drinks based on how and where they're made, but that would be going into details I haven't thought of.

As for who drinks, Grimm for sure, he loves his wine and I imagine he occasionally brings home one of those rare types found in other kingdoms. He had a bit of a drinking problem in the past, particularly after Vyrm disappeared - he struggled a lot during that time, drinking was just one way for him to distract himself from the grief. Luckily for him, however, the cyclical nature of his physical form allowed him to recover fairly quickly after Vyrm returned, so it's not something that causes him trouble these days. He enjoys a drink from time to time, especially with Vyrm.

Vyrm drinks occasionally with Grimm, he enjoys wine but I think he slightly prefers the taste of the honey-based beverages. He's also a lightweight drinker, so prefers to stick to smaller amounts. It's never been something he reached for even at his lowest points, I actually imagine he hasn't tried it until after hibernation, so that definitely plays a big part in him being easily affected by it.

Hornet drinks rarely, usually during larger gatherings just to join the celebration. Being under the influence definitely makes her act more relaxed, even to the point of partaking in any party games Grimm organizes, something which she usually thinks is stupid. But again, it's only during those occasions, aside from that she sticks to non-alcoholic drinks. Zote is similar to Hornet, only drinks during special occasions.

Holly doesn't drink, I don't think they enjoy the taste. Maybe they'd have a small sip of honey mead from time to time, but they stick to non-alcoholic beverages.

#ask stuff #feral pk au #fpk #vyrm #grimm #hornet #zote #holly #fpk au: food #fpk au: worldbuilding

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creaturefeaster · 2 years ago

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jumping back to my tim and hannah ask, I meant like how does gary work with the both of them ykyk?? And how all 3 of their relationships are (friendship wise)

Ohhh I see, okay.

Gary's got a pretty complex relationship between Tim and Hannah actually. Hannah's hometown, before she and her brother moved, was rather close to the main passage to the underground Talpian Dominion. When Hannah was younger she'd often meet up with Gary, who was always being rebellious and crossing the threshold into the land above. They sort of met by chance at first, and Hannah's laidback attitude was easy for Gary to get along with, so they just kept hanging out.

Gary being the person that he is, his overall friendship with Hannah is a bit rocky, being argumentative and a little bit of a grump from time to time. Hannah knows Gary doesn't always mean to be that way, and that he tries to be a decent person, so she still stuck by him.

One day though he just stopped visiting Hannah, after the gaps between his visits had already been lengthening. They got to be pretty good friends, so Hannah was upset about this for a while. But that'd've happened a few years before she moved up closer towards Tim, so she's had time to get past it ^^;.

But where Gary actually ended up, when he finally stopped visiting, was actually up in Little Stone where Tim lives. Or, well, he traveled the land for quite a bit, found himself up there eventually, and settled down. Where he originally thought was just a somewhat secluded flat opening in the woods, close enough to society were he to need any supplies, but far enough to where nobody could ever bother him. ...But instead he accidentally settled on Tim's acreage, and didn't realise for the better half of a year.

You could probably count the amount of times he encountered Tim with your fingers and toes alone, throughout the few years he lived there, but still a very unique kind of relationship between them came to be. Gary hated Tim the second they ran into each other, but Tim just thought the guy was interesting, and never told his mother about it. Which is all whatever, but Gary being so isolated from the world, any time they did run into each other he'd always draw the encounter out a little longer than it needed to be.

Tim also just totally trusted Gary even though he was literally trespassing on their lot, and that sort of trust continued after the Fault, because the first person he thinks to go to after he finds his mother kidnapped, is Gary. Not any neighbor, but Gary. It'd be this choice that not only connects Hannah & Gary back together, but also a visit that would retroactively save Gary.

So right at the start of the Fault you basically have this weird triangle of feelings between them, for better or worse. That tends to be their theme throughout their journey.

Gary wants to dislike Tim but the guy is so nice & he's been his only living connection to the world for years, and he's tense around Hannah because of his absence, but reliant on her because he needs her help with his pet Citus, who's body she helped design and build. Hannah is having to relearn Gary, the friend she used to know, concerned for his wellbeing but hurt by his actions-- while her other friend Tim navigates his temper with ease from more recent years of exposure. And Tim is buddy buddy with them both.

But also Gary can be there for Hannah when she needs a more logical brain to talk to. No offense to Tim, he can just be a little silly and airheaded with his takes on life, but that outlook also keeps Gary from getting too uppity about things & keeps everything lighthearted amidst their complex feelings.

Here's how I look at it simply, though:

Hannah - Tim: too silly, nothing to stop them from making dumb decisions.

Hannah - Gary: no fun, all serious, they can sometimes rub eachother the wrong way & make things more difficult than they need to be.

Tim - Gary: a cycle of nothing, friendliness that's met with defensive hostility that's met with more friendliness that's met with frustration. nothing gets done.

Hannah - Tim - Gary: balanced, just the right amount of fun and smarts, with a healthy distribution of emotions. they can accomplish a lot when working together.

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#brook is also often thrown into that mix too #in the beginning at least #she's the ignorance and innocence and the inquisitive one #brambleramble

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kinmokusei-stars · 10 months ago

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A fun little attempt at a fake Kouko 3D model for The Secret of the Cursed Mask LMAO It was definitely a struggle, but I overall like it!

Super long description I wrote out right before I fell asleep below the cut, so fair warning, it may be nonsensical! ( = ⩊ = )

This was such a doozy of a project, and I somehow managed to get it done in less than a day! What an absolute beast. I wasn't liking how my original daily doodle was turning out, so I figured why not try something different and come back to it with a fresh eye! (๑˘︶˘๑)

And of course I had to go do something twice as complicated and nothing near the realm of what I usually do. (x_x)⌒☆ I can't help myself.

After starting to watch TheAzureGuardian's playthrough of it, I had the thought of making Kouko a fake model for the game Inuyasha: The Secret of the Cursed Mask a while back, but for obvious reasons it was a bit daunting! I don't do 3D work, so that just meant It'd have to sit and entirely render it by hand.

However, with a lot of staring at the overworld models and help from the lovely website 'The Model's Resourse' to get proper PNGs of them, this is what I came out with! It's by no means perfect, but I think I captured her in a 3D style pretty okay for a first try! I'd love to go back and redraw this in the future once my art improves more and I've done more studies, but for now, I'm pretty happy with it! (*¯︶¯*)

I'd say the clothes were the most difficult part. I'm really fond of the older style of models that are used in games like this, but it's really hard to properly capture the textures and depth you want when trying to emulate it in a 2D style! It was a super fun challenge, but I think next time I could try mimicking the textures with different pieces of clothing before working on the main drawing for it, that way I can more accurately apply it!

I'm one of those people who see a piece of media and immediately wonder what it'd be like if my OC were a canon part of it, and though I haven't at all finished the playthrough I'm watching, it's still fun to ponder along the way! I've heard of the routes and endings, and it just ended up leading to this LMAO Kouko's story isn't actually at all related to TSotCM, it's entirely based in the manga/anime, but I thought it'd be a fun little challenge to draw her like this!

#inuyasha oc #fan character #inuyasha fancharacter #fan oc #inuyasha #anime art #my artwork #inuyasha secret of the cursed mask

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Oooh religion! I think for a Buddhist companion, the idea that time lords can regenerate pretty much regardless of what they did while they were alive would be difficult for them to really understand.

Like the Master committing war crime after war crime and still coming back?? Or even the Doctor in certain instances

Would the Doctor understand and respect their religion and the significance it has to the companion?

exactly exactly! it would be fascinating for doctor/companion conversations. new perspective on regeneration!

i think the ideal scenario for the doctor having a religious companion would be like. we’re past the point, i think, of the doctor as a character being judgmental about beliefs that don’t cause people harm, you know? they regularly reference meeting historical religious figures, they know a baseline in human religions, so i think the vibes would really be “curious, if occasionally clumsy.” which would also be good as a storytelling tool as an invitation for the audience to learn about the companion’s religion as well.

i think it would be unfortunately extremely easy for the doctor to be written as like. An Atheist Asshole, even if that was well-intentioned to carry a message of them learning respect or something. It’d be a lot better and more meaningful to give them the same energy that they had in Demons of the Punjab. she wanted to participate, and there's even the fun detail that, while the Doctor herself didn't really get why her current presentation precluded her to being a part of one ritual instead of another, she rolled with it, she was delighted to get to take part in something in a new way. that's how i think the doctor is best written in relation to religion: clearly apart from it, as they are with everything else, genuinely interested, liable to say something they shouldn't because they're overeager and misreading the situation, but respectful.

(there's actually another moment too in that episode i'd call attention to in order to illustrate the doctor's relationship to spiritual beliefs. this time, with something alien, when she confronts the Thijarians, she goes in guns blazing and accusatory, and then. god it's such a good scene, it really is. the minute they are allowed to explain their actions, to explain their loss, she's immediately able to relate to it and adopts the same hand gesture they're making to honor their planet. and like, it's such a small detail, they could have easily just written her relaxing, but she specifically mirrors what they're doing back to them. and she does it so fast. it's the little moment of apology and also understanding.

sorry i'm getting off topic, but i also think this was very clever just in general. the doctor is in the middle of a historical tragedy, and it would have been easy to have her directly draw a comparison between that tragedy and her own losses. it also would have been a mistake, would have done a disservice to real history. it was much better to give the doctor the Thijarians as a fictional mirror to remind the audience that she has personal experience with losing her home, her everything, and that her perspective is affected by that without directly comparing it to real world tragedy. i feel like that was a very good episode actually for a lot of reasons akdsjaldjs)

but yeah, that's my thoughts on the doctor interacting with a religious companion. someone a hell of a lot smarter than me would have to write deeper about it for specific religions. but i would love to see it just being like. a factor that the doctor and their companion have to take into account while traveling together. both the philosophical, something to incorporate into the larger sci-fi morality tales of the show, but also the practical. it'd be neat!!!

#ask #doctor who

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sejantlamb · 2 years ago

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I don't actually make art for me

by which I mean, the reason I make art is as a means of communication. I have always had an incredibly vivid imagination, and always been a habitual daydreamer. before I started drawing, or even playing music, I just imagined whatever I wanted and derived full entertainment from that. I've come to realize that this is not the case for a lot of people, and that making art also serves to actualize their ideas and give them greater form.

I have to admit that I kind of envy that - as much fun as I have had indulging in my imagination over my life, it does make it difficult at times to motivate myself toward actually putting my ideas into the physical world, which is something I do really enjoy as well. It'd be nice to be able to instinctually reach for my pencils and brushes when ideas come to me, and I've been working on making that a more natural process, but it can be frustratingly slow to get things looking the way I want. when I make art, it is so that I can share my ideas in ways other people can fathom and (hopefully) appreciate as well.

I imagine this isn't an uncommon problem, nor am I really seeking advice on it - but it's nice to get the thoughts down, at least. I've always been better at writing my thoughts than anything else, though I don't consider myself much of a writer in the artistic sense. mostly because it's just an extension of my internal monologue, I suppose

#text #art #artist stuff

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mamamittens · 1 year ago

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I've done the sketch for Great Fairy!Nikia for the silly little BoTW/ToTK/One Piece crossover thing I've had going on for seemingly no reason besides sheer madness.

Side note: the escalation of leveling up your gear implies either Link fucks the fairies multiple times or, more plausibly and hilariously, the greatest blessing requires being dunked in the water and they're all such shits they just about waterboard him to do it. They don't seem interested in sex, more appreciating the flattery than anything else (or little conductor man is absolutely GETTING IT, WE STAN A SHORT KING!). Though they definitely think Link is cute...

Great Fairies. Are weird. OC discussion below.

So I went mostly in accordance to the art book for BoTW on the Great Fairies who are mostly identical save some minor details such as color, jewelry, hair, and makeup. She's technically related to them in the way that all fairies are related to each other. Very young as well.

So! Fun fact! I'm Breath of the Wild, the Great Fairies have no legs! Their waist down is sorta swallowed by a twisting flower bud??? Like they're the stamen for a flower kinda?? It's weird. But recent iterations of fairies tend to get rid of their legs anyway so it's not that surprising. So, I wanted her to still have them, even if she doesn't really... Use them??? So I fused it a little with Wind Waker fairies (not the child Great Fairy, who seems to control the others??? It's weird) where it sort of goes from dress to curling ribbon. So her 'legs' are actually going to be more like glass??? With the actual substance being the shoes (sort of like how the horse fairy in BoTW has detached hands) the pant ribbon things.

When she's super injured they either totally disappear or are just limp ribbons, rip.

Now, you may recall I said her wings get stolen? But here she has none. Yeah, like most Great Fairies she has none, they just tend to be floating women. So I'm not totally sure how I'll fix that plot hole unless I mean specifically the wings behind her right ear or her winged glasses. Probably her glasses. It's just silly enough to be a legit side quest in a Zelda game.

Now! The hair! There's a design note that the four great fairies have their hair flowing in one direction and it's also quite... Bombastic. So I played around with the volume a little and decided to do her braids for the trailing bit. Then I had to figure out what ties off the braids and thought it'd be cute if they were fairies holding them in place. Or maybe just hugging the ends to keep it from falling apart. Still deciding if they're game normal fairies or special colors since it's part of her design.

Still going with a dark blue/luminous stone inspired color scheme but I may color the dark jewel parts like pearls? The og girlies are pretty pastel themed so it would be interesting for a semi-traditional take to be notably different in several aspects. Parts of her outfit is themed around Lily of the Valley, such as her puffy sleeves and skirt/shorts. The sash thing that goes under her bust will also pulse with blue light but we'll see how well I can illustrate that.

She's a very glowy fairy. Hide and seek must be difficult unless she hides in her fountain.

Her fountain I'm still deciding on but I like the idea of a man made pool of perfect water with a budding flower in the middle where she lives. It blooms and she emerges like the others, save being only waist up out of the flower. Kinda giving water garden vibes like the little alcove in Zora's domain. Pillars surrounding the structure. Maybe a classic hidden entryway that requires playing music. Unsure which since it won't be made by the Royal family and as such, not need Zelda's Lullaby. I'll sit on it. A bit. Not like I could include that in the drawing.

Her magic centers more around permanent buffs revolving stamina and hearts via 'healing' ingredients. Perhaps this is how Link will manage two perfect rows of hearts and full stamina rings at the same time lol

I'll spare you my silly smut ideas btw

#mittens rambles #it was fun designing her like this!#op oc nikia #op crossover botw/totk

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spectralstitions · 1 year ago

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I thought it would be fun to show off the result of FOUR (4) ENTIRE YEARS OF DESIGN PROGRESS!!! The first design was made in March of 2020, the second in May of 2024! Even though he looks completely different now, he's gotten so much closer to my vision. I guess that's some form of design improvement!

Silas has always been a difficult character for me to design. I created him a few days after creating Finlay for the purpose of giving Fin some kind of companion to play off of. But I think because of that I never really figured out what to DO with his character. His personality has always remained about the same, but what about his ambitions??? his goals in life?? He wasn't much more than an accessory to Finlay, and none of the ideas I came up with stuck around for very long.

For most of the time I've had him, he was a runaway prince, which I eventually scrapped because, although I thought the romantic aesthetic of that was very fitting, it was just creating problems with the worldbuilding and I really had zero interest in exploring any of its practical implications. For a little while he was an astronomer and/or astrologer, and even though it made sense for his star theme, I dropped that too because honestly I just had zero fun learning about that stuff in order to write him. The prince thing evolved into him being some kind of chosen one character who didn't really care about his destiny, but that was quickly scrapped as well because, well, I just think chosen one stories are boring.

So, yeah, I was really stuck on his character for a long time, which is why I stopped drawing him for so long. UNTIL NOW! Earlier this year, I realized I could use the fact that I didn't know what to do with him. I did some reflecting and realized I would be INCREDIBLY interested in exploring the effect that a relationship like his with Finlay has on a person: when you center all your hopes and dreams on one person and nothing else. Realizing it's not working for you anymore, but being unable to admit it because it'd be like throwing your entire life away -- but you're miserable going on without addressing it. So here he is, finally: a naive and lonely guy with a romantic worldview, who gives up his current life for the promise of a more fun and fulfilling one, courtesy of his first love. 'Course, things don't exactly work out in the fairytale way he was hoping for. His arc is about a lot of things, but much of it has to do with him figuring out his place in the world. Very coming of age vibes, even if he's probably a late bloomer in that regard, much like me haha.

Although he isn't a prince anymore, I've always envisioned him with somewhat regal looking clothes, so I incorporated that into the worldbuilding of his people. Or, well, the forestblood, anyways. They've got a gothic aesthetic that I love leaning into, but in a regal, delicate way, with inspiration from various goth design tropes translated through my particular fantasy lens.

Another thing he's lost over the years is his star theming - sort of. This is yet another point that I actually put into the worldbuilding. So instead of his design emphasizing stars, now it's his backstory. (which has to do with the section about the desert I wrote in this post!) Seeing the stars again is more of a goal now that represents his yearning.

A lot about his current outfit is meant to reflect his naivety, romanticism, and his interest in adventuring. He's got elements that pull from ideas of adventurer clothes, but with extra flourishes and some impracticalities. For example, wearing a long cloak with tassels isn't the most practical thing for navigating dense woodland, and neither is an ornamental knife. But he just sees a cloak and a knife, the kinds of things travelers have got in stories (and lord knows Finlay embellishes his stories).

Another thing about his shadowy cloak (and his overall color palette being relatively monochrome) is that it symbolically reflects who he is in regards to his relationship. If you're a Crane Wives fan, you could say he bore the shadows that Fin made with no light of his own :P

Across all my ocs, I've also made it a goal to simplify their color palettes as much as possible. I don't want my color palettes to include any colors that are only slightly different from some other color on the palette. The only exception to this rule is for eye color, since I think a slight difference like that helps to draw the viewer's eye to the face, which is important. This is something I used on Silas, actually! He's just a great example of everything, isn't he!

It's been really fun seeing the evolution of my ocs' design elements as I accumulate a better design vocabulary, especially with the outfits. Silas has nearly always had a cloak, gloves, and some kind of tassel and clasp situation. Intuitively, I knew these elements needed to be there in order for him to feel like Silas, but they never felt quite right the way I incorporated them -- UNTIL NOW!!!!!

His asymmetrical, fancifully clasped cloak and top are in line with the worldbuilding. Horned and antlered raswa wear them to emphasize their (very loose equivalent of) masculinity. His "gloves" are now an extension of his top, meaning I no longer have to worry about creating contrast between the gloves and his shirt and his cloak while making all three darker than his skin. Also, instead of the dark part on his legs being boots, now they're his darker colored fur and hooves, and instead of those vaguely defined pants he's got leg wraps and puffy shorts with specific textures. He's been streamlined, specified, and made more cohesive! I'm very happy with the result!!

#my ocs #silas #character design #dear drifter

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poemarsviner · 8 months ago

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Walk Cycle [Colour and Finishing Touches]

While Josh said it was fine with just the lineart, I wasn't done. I wanted to colour the lineart and my character to make it fully accurate.

It was more difficult than I expected it to be. For some reason when changing my layers, I noticed sometimes that the lineart for Frame 8 would be really corrupted. It never happened to other frames so I wasn't sure what was happening but it was an ordeal to fix each time. I had to fix it twice. I'm actually thankful for a photoshop feature for once as the Magic Brush was very helpful in removing the background of the screenshot.

It was easier on Mac to get the exact frame I needed from my saved gifs but on my computer it was harder to get the timing. Eventually I got it, and I saved this image to use later in case it corrupted again but thankfully it didn't. Sadly it caused the lineart on that frame to look a little different and strange but once it was coloured it ended up alright.

After finishing all the lineart, I started colouring. I inserted a picture of the flat colour reference image I had drawn and I colourpicked directly from that. It was a little tiring to colour every section and detail again and again, but it was nowhere near as tiring as doing the lineart. After colouring it all, here is the finished colour.

It actually looks like my character now, but the linework looks odd. So The next step is to colour it. This was easy for the first layer as it was just colourpicking the main colour and making it darker, but of course I wanted it to be consistant through layers. So I had to get creative.

I created a copy of frame one and moved it to the side. Here in the image you can see I've used it to colourpick the correct lineart colour and use it on frame two.

It was difficult to pick the exact colour, but it didn't need to be the perfect colour. Just visually close enough. Sooner or later I got halfway, here's how it looked.

It looks odd of course only being half done, but it shows the contrast between accuracy and brightness between the normal colours and the bright ones. I was finally in the home stretch so I swapped to my iPad for easier drawing and more fluidity with my movements.

Using my iPad helped me clean up the lineart and colour (It was abysmal in some places) and I managed to finish the lineart colour. But then I had an issue with saving the animation.

Procreate uses frames per second as its measuring for animation speed, not how long each frame is on the screen. So for 8 frames at 4 frames a second, It'd be 2 seconds long. For Photoshop, at 0.2 seconds length, it'd be 1.6 seconds long. It's a very small difference but it's noticable when you compare the two.

I also noticed that Procreate had made the colours way worse. I've heard of this issue before but haven't seen it so obvious as this. It's a little discouraging since I've created so much art on Procreate and I never realised it would come out that badly coloured, but maybe I'll learn to transfer things to Photoshop more.

You can really see the difference in vibrancy and speed between these two gifs. I'm glad to say I've finally finshed this walk cycle though, it seemed such a hurdle at the start and I never thought it'd actually look good, but it doesn't look too bad.

I'm glad to finally be done, I'm never becoming a serious animator. But this was fun in the long term and I'm glad to have finally animated something as difficult as a walk cycle.

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oni-verse · 1 year ago

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just here to blab cause i havent been having much fun drawing lately, and ive been sick a lot which is abnormal for me, and i got them chronic headaches,

but at least i can project thoughts on silly gay characters and pretend like theyre the main characters in the shows and movies i watch

reviewing past ideas this week since its nice when i dont have anything else i want to do. its nice to go back and see their beginnings again which is mostly just gil being unreadable and emotionally distant and cas being so desperate to keep gil in his life that he ignores all those red flags & pines painfully.

but i write pretty much everything down, so i have all those random thoughts like Domestic Moment #4306 and What If They Were Strangers, or the alternative, What If They Got Together Much Earlier. yknow how it goes. being my own fanfiction writer.

i like writing gil as being inexplicably alluring and its usually just because of small things like how he talks or his body language, on top of the fact he's tall and hot in a grungy way. and cas, even though he's gil's oldest friend, has such a hard time reading him because of gil's unique brand of being guarded (never being vulnerable or transparent). it all adds to the mystery and people (/cas) wanting to get in close for a chance to figure him out.

even in high school, cas wouldnt always be aware of what was happening in his best friend's life. gil's guardedness manifested in his teenage years as keeping the secret of his father's abuse, whether he was just scared of the consequences of others knowing, or he's embarrassed for his own circumstances, but cas' ability to look closely and be a friend without making gil feel bad about himself is part of why they were best friends. that, and cas being (at the time) a good cishet ally boy that respects his friends ;0

while this isnt what happens in their lil story, i do also like to consider what itd be like if cas was brave enough to recognize/act on the feelings he wouldnt admit he had for his friend, back when they were teenagers. cas thought he was straight for many years after high school, but i could also see a reality where ~ally~ cas becomes "experimenting doesnt inherently mean anything". hehe. would make their separation all the more heartbreaking for lil cas.

then, in a universe where they don't meet until theyre adults with separate lives, how that could look. like because of everything above, maybe it'd be expected that gil wouldn't give a person like cas a real chance, that he'd be especially difficult because the lack of history makes it that much harder to break down his walls. but then, what about exhausted gil, alone for the same reasons as usual, choosing it & all his connections with other people usually not extending beyond a single night. this guy, meeting someone who responds to gil's flirtation without going the obvious route and taking gil home for the same reason as everyone else-- but instead, just talks to him, and is oddly the nicest and easiest person to be around. gil's experiences creating expectations thatre shattered by a lil punky guy who doesn't make gil feel alone or like he's around for only one thing.

commitment-phobe gil meeting cas in his mid 20s and somehow agreeing to a date because his curiosity is honestly piqued by this surprise encounter. it seems like it shouldnt be shocking to have a decent conversation with a decent person, but a messy person can somehow manage to completely avoid any positive people. especially if they surround themselves with stoners, dealers, and club rats.

ive said it before but ig they really do have a "i can fix him" dynamic but it actually sorta works? gil isnt as messy, eventually lol. kinda the point.

but i love a circumstance of a guy being all "i don't do relationships, i don't believe in love, bachelor lyfe 4eva, ima fuck this whole city" and then going completely mushy because someone is patient and committed to him. gotchu now bitch... u DO relationship.. u DO believe in love, you are settling down and fucking one man only. i would say sorry but youre happy now bitch ✋caught in 4k

#text post #oni art #cas #gil

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angeldcgs · 1 year ago

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"how? a kiss is a kiss, you either like it or you don't." lux pressured him further, feeling as though he was bound to crack eventually. he'd never been able to say no to her, but in this case, she was certain that this was something lou actually wanted, and was too scared to actually admit. there wasn't anything wrong with liking guys, or liking your friends, it was just that lou was so deeply entrenched in what he perceived to be the world's expectations for him, he couldn't even fathom an alternative. that's exactly what lux was there for— to help show him that it was ok to be himself. she saw something in him that he couldn't yet see in himself, and it was her job to draw it out. the fact that he'd gotten hard during the kiss didn't necessarily mean anything about his sexuality, but in lou's case, that was just about the most damning evidence griffyn could've provided her. they were backing him into a corner, and it'd be pretty difficult for him to weasel his way out now. "so what was it like then? i'm dying to know now... because if it really wasn't that big of a deal, you wouldn't be getting all flustered like this." though she needled into him with every question, her tone remained soft, keeping that point of physical contact to soothe his nerves. it wasn't an interrogation, after all, just a bit of playful reminiscing, a walk down memory lane. "god, lou! you two have never had a threesome? i thought that was a right of passage for guys. fuck a girl with your best friend... sounds fun, right?" as she brushed lou's hair back from his forehead, her gaze shifted between the two men, giving them each a drawn out look of consideration.

"maybe he really did forget, it was— what? like, a decade ago?" once again, griffyn was trying to throw him a lifeline, something he could latch onto if the whole topic was truly too much for him, though he couldn't help but slip in a little something mischievous. "but i'd be happy to jog your memory, if you'd like. for old time's sake." lifting the bottle back to his lips, he shot a wink over at lou as he polished off the rest of his beer. if he really was as uninterested as he claimed, then he'd have no problem brushing off the blatant flirting, though something in him sensed his response would be more incriminating than that. in his attempts to refute the possibility that he had any sort of feelings for griffyn, lou often went too far in the other direction, getting defensive and incriminating himself even further when he could just play along and skate by. in the interest of preserving their friendship, he'd never pushed the matter too far in the past, but now, with lux's encouragement, griffyn had the perfect opportunity to see if his assumptions were correct, and he'd be a fool not to capitalize on it. "right, yeah," he agreed. "it was a perfectly normal, platonic, heterosexual boner." from his seat across the room from them, he got a good view of the couple, able to observe their body language. it was interesting, seeing how lou's personality altered slightly around lux, the way she was able to control him and elicit her desired reactions with the simplest of touches. maybe he was a little envious of her influence over him, but he was more so fascinated by their dynamic. "not yet, no," he tacked onto lou's answer. seeing his eyes dart in griffyn's direction, looking to be rescued from the conversation altogether, he held his gaze with a calm fondness. "felt pretty real to me. but what do i know, right? guess i'm the freak."

"it was- i don't know. it was fine. it's hard to judge a kiss like that." he mumbled and turned his attention down to the carpeted floor, picking at the fibres absentmindedly. lou had been praying that griffyn had somehow forgotten that detail, as if such a miracle was possible. it'd been a big deal then, only managing to get away with it because of scampering away with lisa mere moments after people had tried to suggest the reason he'd gotten hard was because of griffyn- it wasn't... or at least he planned to go to his grave telling everyone that was the case. they were teenage boys, erections were about as common as acne for them and it was a charged situation. hot girls were watching them, insisting on a show, something was bound to happen. his cheeks grew warm and his mind raced with possible rebuttals but lux got there before he even had a chance to decide whether or not he was going to pretend it never happened or lie about the reason behind it. "i- it's- yeah but it wasn't like that." how was griffyn able to be so casual about everything? his lack of shame over something lou could barely allow himself to think about drove him crazy, it annoyed him in a way it shouldn't yet under both their watchful gazes, all he could feel was their judgement over his inability to offer what they wanted. the brief respite from having all the attention on him was well-needed but it wasn't long before lux was turning the conversation back to them once again. if it wasn't for the hand that found its way into his hair, soothing him when that caged feeling began to creep up and make him tempted to start thrashing, lou might have called the whole thing off and made some excuse to go to bed. lux always knew what he wanted, or rather, what he needed to keep giving her what she wanted. "we- we haven't." lou shot a nervous glance towards griffyn. sharing wasn't really the word for it. sometimes they went for each other's exes but it was never at the same time, they'd never dared take things that far. "it was just that one kiss. we- come on, it wasn't serious. it wasn't real."

#{ lux laurie — thread }#{ griffyn aimes — thread }#{ lux vs. griffyn vs. lou }#thcophagy

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