#im going to try and repaint some of them !!

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

Brb gotta just yell into the void

[mittch22]

Prison in the world of Cars

So Im currently in the process of writing chapter 8 of Behind Blue Eyes and said chapters' content has got me thinking about the various minutiae of prison systems within this universe. Here is my take on it.

Speed restrictors - In order to prevent any kind of escape attempt, speed restrictors would be fitted to inmates with a high flight risk to prevent any speed being reached above about thirty miles per hour. In some cases, it could be deemed necessary to decrease speed potential even further for the most dangerous offenders. But the use of these devices comes with a significant quantity of government regulation to prevent their misuse. The fitting of restrictors can cause engine issues in the long run and shouldn't be used without prior approval from a court.

Parking boots - Wheel cuffs. I needn't say much more than that. No moving for you! They can be used on both front wheels, both back wheels or all four wheels depending on requirement. But one or three parking boots should never be utilised as this can cause serious damage to the detainee if they were to try and drive.

Extension restraints - For particulary strong and violent offenders, axle extension restraints can be applied. Parking boots are the go-to for prisoner transport, which are heavy and cumbersome. But for strong vehicles who want to get a few punches in, the use of parking boots can be particularly hazardous to police officers. So these restraints can be utilised to prevent any damage to other vehicles or property that could be caused by the detainee.

Deep tread tyres - It would be damaging to a vehicle to force them to roll around on tyres with deliberately low pressure. So to increase drag for inmates, a thicker tyre tread is used. This has the added bonus of reducing the amount of replacements required during sentence duration, thus cutting down on costs. Although the tyres used increase the vehicles ability to grip into the floor and push or pull, the officers that respond to any issues with the prisoners within their care are usually able to subue them rapidly and effectively. Prison tyres are ugly and not comfortable to drive on.

Chemically engineered paint - With technological advancements and genius chemical engineering, the paint used on inmates is very specific and can be picked up from quite a distance away with the use of police scanners. It holds its own unique chemical formula that lights up like a christmas tree when scanned with the appropriate digital equipment. The colour is also utilised as a tell-tale sign as it is a highly distinctive and vibrant orange; the only orange paint of its kind. This paint can only be purchased for prisons, by prisons. To be in possession of this paint without the appropriate licensing carries both a hefty fine and a prison sentence. So if an unlicensed vehicle is caught with it, they will very quickly be wearing it. The chemical does, however, hold the unfortunate capacity to seep into and embed itself into the surface of metal through layers of paint, meaning that, even if a vehicle is released and repainted (repainted on the offenders dime might I add), they will still be picked up on police scanners. This leads them to be regularly stopped and questioned by police officers. This can be incredibly irritating to both parties, however it does allow officers to keep an eye on offenders that are on probation. Vehicles that are permitted to be external to the prison whilst on remand are sprayed with just the traceable chemical component of the paint, which is invisible to the naked eye. A small stencil is utilised in the form of the sigil of the police force that made the arrest. This makes them traceable to police, but prevents civilians from seeing that said vehicle could be facing criminal charges. For those that can afford the expensive procedure, this chemical is removeable by removing all layers of paint and primer and grinding down the surface layer of the bare metal. This can be painful, so a general anaesthetic is provided.

Fuel quantity control - As previously displayed in the first cars movie, fuel quantity is important when you want to try and escape from the cruel clutches of community service. The same principal can apply in prisons. Fuel intake is heavily regulated and no inmate is usually permitted any more than 1/8 to 1/6 of a tank at any time. There are exceptions to this in regards to specific jobs that inmates perform as some will require larger quantities to perform their duties. Which is usually met with seething envy.

GPS locators - This method is even more heavily restricted than the use of speed restrictors as it violates multiple data protection laws and vehicle rights legislation. However, in the correct circumstances, it can be very useful. This is only ever used for vehicles that are both incredibly dangerous and have a high flight risk.

Remote engine inhibition - A vehicles engine can be shut down at the push of a button after modifications to the programming of the ECU have been made. This method of inmate control is incredibly new and still in its theoretical stages and thus it is still being debated whether or not it is viable and vehmane. Considering its highly intrusive nature and possibly damaging consequences to both the escapee and the general public, if it were ever to pass into legislation, its useage would be very rare indeed.

Medical care - Each vehicle within the prison system must have a three monthly check up with a desigated mechanic and all new inmates must be checked once a week for the duration of three months. Considering high depression rates within prison systems, a lot of vehicles, especially first time offenders, will stop consuming oil due to stress. This can lead to sickness and fever/overheating, which causes severe issues in the long run.

Not all of the above restraint/tracking methods will be used in all cases as it will depend highly on sentencing requirements for specific individuals and the type of prison that they end up in.

I might update this at a later date if I think of anything else to add. But so far, this is all I've got.

In a nutshell, its INSANELY difficult for any vehicle to escape a prison. So Miles Axelrod is pretty fucked.

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - May 8

Midnights anon, champagne problems anon (new), numb anon (new), Home Depot Anon (new), situationship anon (new), galaxy anon

Midnights anon

Ask 1:

yes! You're growing up and it's supposed to feel scary and exciting at the same time! But even as it all happens, make sure to take time to enjoy it. take pictures, write down fun moments, take time to just be a kids and not only think about your future. Do silly things like go to an amusement park on a school day or get ice cream at 9 in the morning. Enjoy your life, because you SHOULD, you know?

I'm so glad you're feeling excited about the future. <3

Ask 2 and 3:

I think what you said about putting on music and drawing is such a good idea though. Because remember in your first ask, you DO have good times. Thigs CAN be better. And I promise, you're not bad at everything. But it's during those in-between times, when you feel down, that you need to use those strategies like music or drawing, to help you feel your feelings instead of avoid them. What if during the good times, you also write down the good things? That way, when you're feeling low, you can read what you wrote and try to focus on that?

Sending so much love <3

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champagne problems anon

hi cas this may be like a champagne problems kind of ask so uh bear with me

me and my older sibling have shared a room ever since i was born. i have never not shared a room with him. we don’t NOT get along but we do have a lot of fights about everything

this year he’s graduating, and i thought that meant that he was going to move out but he’s going to a local college and therefore will be living at home

i was kind of looking forward to having my own room. i’ve basically had no privacy in my room for my entire life and even though im graduating in a few years i was just really looking forward to that

i’m not going to tell him to leave or anything, it logistically and financially makes no sense for him to move out but yeah idk

and it seems whenever i talk to this about my friends they just approach it in a weird way. they are all only children or their parents have enough money so they don’t have to share rooms at all

i sort of feel mad at him. like i feel as if he should’ve gotten better grades so he could go to a better nom local college, and i know it’s not his fault but im still mad

HI i just sent an ask about sharing a room with my brother but i have some things to add im so sorry :’)

he won’t let me repaint the walls (we picked it out when i was 8) and he is very untighty with all of his stuff and i have a problem with things not looking neat like it gets under my nails so badly but he refuses to do anything about it

also he just like… throws his clothes all across the floor, right now as i’m typing his staring at a pair of his jeans that have been on the floor for 2 days (i also can’t touch his dirty clothes, otherwise my hands feel dirty for a long time after)

also a few years ago him and my parents used to get into SCREAMING matches and because he was always in his bed, so i got very used to just leaving the room and blasting my music through my headphones

he also almost hits me a lot when he’s frustrated and he can’t hit hard but it is still kind of scary

yeah idk i know he doesn’t want to go to a local college either but he’s just such a handful and im just so tired of basically having no space to myself or no privacy

also i want to just like tear down all the decorations in our room so bad and just like restart but i can’t do that either

oh one final thing we also share a bunk bed and it’s SUCH a hassle and i want to get rid of it SO badly

Hi!

I don't think this is silly at all! All teenagers want their own space. It's frustrating to not have that. Like yeah, sometimes it's not possible, but it doesn;t make it suck less. And with what you added about how your brother acts...the fact that he hits you is actually unsafe, and if he's legally an adult, your parents could get in HUGE trouble for this.

Have you told your parents about these concerns? Even if there's not an extra room in the house, they should still be the ones telling your brother to cut the shit. Him being a slob is one thing, but hurting you is not okay, and imo if it was my kid acting like that I'd tell them either they act safely or they get their own place. I know it sounds drastic but like...safety is a big line to cross.

<3

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numb anon

Hey Cas

I really need some advice, its serious. This is mental health related so. Fair warning.

Basically, I think I need help. I've never been diagnosed with anything because I've never really told anyone so I dont know what specifically is going on but this is where im at: (redacted)

Hi! It definitely sounds like you're NOT faking it, and you're NOT being childish! you need someone to talk to, and that's okay! Do you have an adult in your life that you trust to listen and not judge? Parents, family, family friend, teacher, coach, doctor...you don't necessarily have to say 'I need help.' You can just say 'I need someone to talk to.' And then, it might be a good idea to write what you want to say first, just like your wrote to me! That way you have your feelings down, and you just need to hand them what you wrote. Less pressure in the moment, you know?

But you deserve to have someone listen to you and help you through these feelings <3

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Home Depot Anon

hey cas! I don't know if you've read my first ask yet, but I'm the one who wrote to you about coming to terms with the fact I might actually be a lesbian instead of bi

I just wanted to update and tell you that I kind of came out to my friend today! (She was also the one i talked to when I started questioning if I was bi) We were just at the bus stop, and she was talking about some gorgeous guy she had seen in a Home Depot, where I was like "yeah, I get it haha" where she just responded in the most casual and gentle way something along the lines of "do you tho?" and i just- i felt so seen and validated, and i just started talking about how i had actually been kind of struggling with accepting the fact i might be a comphet lesbian and it just felt so good to get off my chest! She also told me that she was pretty sure she was bi too, ever since she had seen Anna Kendrick in Pitch Perfect when she was seven, and it was just so nice

Anyway sorry for rambling I just wanted to update you :)

Hi! I think I originally answered your ask here. Which....is probably not helpful/more confusing now, ngl.

Honestly, I think whatever YOU feel about your identity is what you should go with, and that's the only thing that matters. Nobody else's opinion- mine, your friends, the people who wrote that document- matters as much as yours. If you feel good identifying as a lesbian, that's what you should do <3

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situationship anon

Hi Cas! I love your writing. It always makes me smile. I’ve seen a lot of posts asking you for advice and finally worked up the courage to do so myself.

Can you be Aromatic but still want love/ like romantic things? I’ve been thinking about this for a while and am just don’t know. I just don’t understand why love can’t just be love. Why do some things have to be “romantic” and only for relationships? I keep finding myself in situations where my closest friends ask if I like them and tell me we have fallen into a situationship, but after some thought I realize I only love them platonically. I’m just confused because I apparently don’t see love the way others do and it always leads me to getting hurt or making the people I love uncomfortable😢

And advice?

Hi!

I mean the only reason some things are seen as romantic and others aren't is because of social norms. But fuck social norms. If you and your best friend want to go see a movie and then go have a candle-lit dinner, fucking go for it! Nothing is or isn't romantic unless people decide it is, you know? I think the problem here is that the people you're talking to THINK you have romantic intent, but you don't. But yeah, you can be aro and still like long walks on the beach!

Also remember that aromanticism is a spectrum. It could be that you only like romantic things in certain circumstances or with certain people, and that's still super valid! I think the only problem here is maybe both you AND your friends need to work on communicating like "hey, we're doing these things, but our relationship is this." For example, "Hey, we're going stargazing together, but we're still just friends." And that's totally fine!

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galaxy anon

Hi Cas! It's Galaxy anon!

I took your advice and spoke to my friend and she apologised and said that she didn't mean for it to come across like that, so thank you for helping me to sort that out!

I just wanted to rant for a moment (so sorry lol) but I'm sad because I'm about to have a Leaver's Day where I have to say goodbye to all my friends before we split up to go and do different things before uni. I've still got my exams to do, and I'll get to see them during that period, but not nearly as much as I have been up until now.

I guess I'm just upset that this part of my life is ending, you know? And, like, I'm really nostalgic, and it doesn't really feel like I've achieved anything so far. I can remember when I was younger and I used to think about how cool it would be to be a teenager, but now I don't really know what I'm doing with my life.

I really thought I'd have formed a band or something by this point, but so far, I've been too anxious to really do anything.

And I'm getting these huge, really unpredictable mood swings too. I get that they're sort of part of puberty, but it's not like puberty's all that new to me, and these mood swings are. They're honestly kind of scary because I keep snapping at people when I don't mean to, or I have weeks on end where I have no motivation to do anything and it feels like a huge task just to get out of bed.

But then I go through another (usually shorter) period of time where I'm fine again, so it kind of feels like maybe I'm just being dramatic, you know?

And I STILL can't talk to my parents about it either. I don't even really know why anymore. I guess I just don't want them to look at me differently?

AND I have to start my exams like next week too. I'm just so done with everything. All I want to do is curl up in bed and have a nice, long nap, but then I've got to study and do my chores and text my friends (who I love, but talking to people is just so DRAINING omg) and then it feels like I don't have enough time to recover from how tired I am at the end of the week.

I just need a week in between each week so that I can actually relax.

Anyway, sorry for the rant. I hope you're doing alright!

Hi!

Everything you're feeling right now is SO valid, and SO normal. You're going through a huge change in your life--one of the biggest changes in your life so far, maybe! It's natural to feel sadness, excitement, nostalgia, regret, exhaustion. And because of all of that, yeah, mood swings aren't a shock! You have a lot of emotions, and not a lot of places to put them!

Here's the thing, though. You're going to have SO many other amazing times in your life. I won't lie--none of them will be quite like this. You'll miss this time for many reasons, but you also WONT miss this time for just as many reasons. So I know it's difficult, but try to look at this as something exciting. For me (and most people) University was TEN times better than High School. It's scary and overwhelming, but you're going to have an amazing time. Enjoy this time now, make the most of this summer by seeing friends and relaxing, and try to embrace what comes next. It'll be amazing, I promise <3

[thebrokenmechanicalpencil]

Burn off some steam.

(@quibble-auk I just needed some fluff from the stuff we are planning, maybe some more brotherly moments to make the whole thing hurt even worse. I love it all by the way. Maybe the dialogue in this isn't too hard to read-)

Comet could smell that the twins were tense. Not literally but anyone who grew up among the two terrors would know.

Comet yawned again forking through his datapad of information from Prowl, not really reading it. No his optics were on his crimson and gold brothers.

Sideswipe hadn’t been able to sit still, he got up constantly. His knee jumped with tension, he hadn’t touched his newest datapad in ages. Which is what both he and Sideswipe were supposed to be doing. Preparing for the meetings with their respective superiors, Sideswipe noting the newest tactics witnessed while escorting the latest bug out of a movable medical facility. He was not doing that. Comet huffed softly as Sideswipe stood again, snatching up a rag to rub at his armor, again. Sunstreaker snarled at the sudden movement, slamming his paintbrush down in frustration. “Can you not stop moving for five minutes??”

Comet glanced at the work on Sunstreaker’s canvas, it was rough and the mental block the golden artist was going through was obvious in the half repainted subject. Sunstreaker had been staring at the work for an hour, remixing colors and growling under his breath when the shades didn’t match what was in his mind. It didn’t help that the mech was constantly being distracted by Sideswipes nervous antics.

“Nope.” Sideswipe popped the p without even looking up from his arm. Sunstreaker glared hard as his temper flared.

Cometeater sighed deeply, and stood. He stretched with a yawn, his back snapping and gaining annoyed looks from both of his brothers. Comet glanced surprised at the way Sideswipe huffed at the noise, now rubbing a little too hard on his red plating. Sunstreaker stood sharply snatching the rag, “You're gonna make it fraggin threadbare, then it won't be worth slag.” Sideswipe snarled, trying to get back the innocent piece of cloth. “Im not in the mood for your bitching Sunstreaker-”

Comet furrowed his brows at the short fused display. The aggravation was thick in the air now, the twins looked as if they were about to lock horns.

Ah. Now that's an idea.

Cometeater smiled to himself as he skirted past the almost tussling siblings.  He started to snatch up the used cubes around their room, the liquid inside long since drained during their late night working on reports. Comet had a couple in each hand as he passed the now still brothers. Both stopped inches from each other’s faces. “What are you doing?”  “Now of all times you decide to clean up the place, Comet??” Cometeater elected to ignore the annoyed growls as he quickly nabbed the empty cube beside Sunstreaker’s open paints.

Making a show of not touching his brother’s things. 

Then proceeded to click the paints shut. 

Both twins had relaxed from their aggression, now looking more confused than annoyed. Well Sunstreaker huffed protectively over his art supplies, but Comet paid it no mind,

With a flourish and one final turn Comet left.

He slipped from the hab-suit with a handful of cubes and only had to wait a moment before his older brothers followed him out. Comet smirked to himself over the quick footsteps to catch up with him, either brother on either side of him in seconds. 

Neither said a word as they trailed him through the bustling base of operations. Some gave the trio a wave or a nod but none tried to stop and speak with them, it was high noon and most if not all of the bots had places to be. Thankfully. Comet’s plan needed the twins to hold off on an outburst for at least a couple more minutes.

They entered the mess hall and the twins could only continue in their shadowing of the smaller mech as they went. Comet ended at their destination with a satisfied huff, and threw the cubes in the recycling unit. One by one of course. He tossed them at a slight distance, as the twins stared.

Sideswipe stole a cube and made a shot with a bored expression as Sunstreaker’s optic twitched, “You made us walk all through the base during rush hour, just for you to do that, really??” The annoyance was resurfacing with the ease of a diver. Sideswipe threw the last cube with a frown. “Back off Sunny we needed to get out of the room anyway, your mood was fragging clogging the air.”

Comet quickly turned on his heel as the twins began to argue. Sideswipe stopped mid insult and looked after the green mech, his eyebrows raising, “He left us.” Sunstreaker only groaned, “Why does he always have to be so weird.” 

But they took after him without another word.

So they went. Through the mass of bots once more, dodging machinery and officers with ease. Both twins felt their frustration mounting as they lost sight of their younger sibling more than a couple times in the crowds. “When I get him I’m tying that little slagger to the ceiling by his tail,” Sunstreaker grunted as they once more stopped to try and catch sight of Comet. “We're gonna have to glue him.” Sideswipe said with an amused huff.

By the time the two mechs found Cometeater again he was on the sparring grounds, sitting like the smug fragger he was. 

“Wow, you two are bad at this.” Comet baited leaning back smirking like a devil. Sunstreaker raised a brow at his choice of destination.

“What are you up to?” Sideswipe felt an odd old exhilaration starting as Comet stood, his tail forming in a long braid of flesh behind him, head lowered.

“I’m planning on beating your aft?” Comet smirked, his body language purposely cocky. “Oh really?” Sideswipe felt old programming rev to life at the posture of the other, catching on in an instant. Sunstreaker only rolled his optics, though the idea of burning off some steam did intrigue him. That would involve a good fight though.

“Comet please, if we wanted to get all scratched up we’d go on a drive.” But Sunstreaker felt his stance widening, his center of gravity lowering. 

Comet was a fast opponent though, Sunny would give him that.

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His leg gave out from under him at a sharp snap of Comet’s tail, who was gone before Sideswipe could even land a hit in return. The rush of trying to catch the green alien had burned up any of his earlier frustrations though, Sunstreaker only grinned. Comet danced away with a chuckle as Sideswipe pursued, trying to pin the smaller mech. Sideswipe laughed when the mech slid sharply between his legs. They traded light blows, Comet dodging and running off before either of them could grab him. He landed with a sharp thud on Sideswipes back to escape Sunstreaker who was grinning maniacally at the rush. He crawled high onto the large mech effectively using his brother as a shield. “Thats not fraggin fair!” No malice colored Sideswipes tone however as he could only laugh. Sunstreaker snatched the youngest out of the air as he jumped, only to be kicked in the face, landing hard on his back. He smirked, rubbing his jaw as he sat up, catching Sideswipe lock his horns with Comet, who’s small underdeveloped rack hardly caught the larger. Let alone overpower them. A nervous smile etched itself onto Comet’s face when he realised his mistake, “Hi Sides.”

“Sup Com.” Sideswipe tossed the younger mech with a sharp snap of his head, sending Comet sprawling. 

Cometeater grunted as the air was knocked from his lungs,  though the fast pace of his heart and the fun of their game numbed any and all discomfort it might have caused. He didn’t get a chance to get up before a pair of shadows loomed. A large servo pinned him with ease as Cometeater tried to catch his breath grinning brightly at Sideswipe. The red mech was crouched over him, looking bright and the happiest he’d seen him in days. Comet’s smile grew at the sight. Sideswipe laughed, shaking his helm at the expression, “You creepy fragger.” 

Sideswipe got up and offered a hand with a bright smile, “You just gonna stay down there?” Comet huffed, took his hand and was easily hauled up.

Sunstreaker had a warmth in his optics as he lightly shoved down Comet’s helm, brotherly affection bubbling from the gesture. “You sneaky fragger.” Comet only smiled, and shook himself off. Sunstreaker groaned at the shower of dust now coating them both, Sideswipe smirked and turned for the base.

“You know that just means he’s gonna pin you down and make you green again right?” Comet stiffened as the servo returned to his helm and began to steer them back towards the base.  Sunstreaker had a malicious grin as the younger mech began to make his case that he was fine, and no wash racks were needed.

[hsslilly-blog]

been thinking about my bratz doll post. im going to start sharing my doll customising journey here so i get motivated enough to get back into it lol. the last time i posted about it was back in february i think? anyway

my plan is to make three custom dolls. claire (hwu mc), blair (hss mc) and addison (hwu). i also hope to make a bianca custom doll as i’ve found the perfect base doll for her, but she wasn’t in my original plans.

here’s my progress so far. all the pictures are going to be terrible btw:

blair stewart

outfit: their outfit is pretty much complete. the only thing missing is their sweater and their hairband. and i really really want to find/make a tie for them. i dislike the fact the skirt is a VERY grayish dark blue (in the picture it looks straight up gray) and i’ve thought about dyeing it blue but i’m afraid to ruin it and end up with nothing. so i’m keeping it as is for the time being. the boots are a perfect match. i plan on painting the gray details on the purse and making it completely white. but it’s very cute, it looks a lot like the one from this post.

the doll: this is a 2015 fashionista barbie doll that was WAY overpriced when i got her. i really like her hair colour though… it’s not exactly copper, it’s a very nice shade of pinkish orange. the picture does it no justice, but it looks a lot like the shade of orange i used to use for blair’s hair in my early 2021 drawings of them. the only issue with this doll: she has flat feet. which sucks. but she’s plastic so we just need to throw her in boiling water and mold it to my liking. medieval torture style.

my plan: i plan on repainting her face. i like this screening, but it looks… weird. im going to give her blair’s heterochromia + their scar and i plan on giving her less eyebrows. blair doesn’t have much of those. as for the hair, it still has some remains of box glue so i need to get rid of that before anything else. i plan on cutting it shoulder length and flipping the ends. i don’t know how i’m doing blair’s hairstyle though (the hair part/bangs) because this doll’s rooting is really weird. but we’ll see.

what do we think. hairstyle ofc not 100% blair compliant but gives me a general idea of what to do. there’s a really cool way of doing the bump/beehive-like/teased crown i sometimes draw them in, so i might try it if the doll has enough hair. also i realized just now how the eyes in this sculpt are very far apart. lol. i think it fits blair.

addison sinclair

outfit: and nothing for her!! i have her jacket and her boots (which have not been painted yet) and that’s it. addison has been the reason of my restless nights. i just can’t find a cropped top that looks like hers!!!! i didn’t think it would be so hard to find a blue/grayish/jeans-like cropped top but my god!! and the worst part of it all: i found a dress online that is a perfect match to hers but it’s been OUT OF STOCK since february!! here it is:

it’s not a Perfect Match, but i can work around it. it’s more than close enough to me. i’ve been checking the website every week but they haven’t restocked it yet and i fear they aren’t going to do so anytime soon. atp i think i’ll just sew it myself. i just need to find a similiar fabric to her dress. as for the socks… i have some white doll socks and i’m going to dye them purple. no bracelets yet.

the doll: i cannot for the life of me tell you which doll this is. she looks like a ~2012 barbie doll but i can’t figure out which one. and i don’t think these are the original clothes. the ad said she’s a fashionista but i don’t believe this. she does have articulated legs, but she doesn’t Look Like a fashionista. i think she’s from the early i can be line before they started using rubber legs. anyway. i fell in love with her hair. it’s perfect for addi.

my plan: i plan on repainting her eyes. here’s the thing guys. i’m a brown eyed addison truther. sorry that’s just who i am. i also want to close her mouth LOL. give her addison’s red lipstick and thin the eyebrows. as for the hair i think it’s perfect as is. i’m probably just going to style it better.

i plan on closing her mouth w/ apoxie paste or like. makeup clay (is that what it’s called?). her lips are going to be smaller too but i got lazy with the drawing.

claire swanson

outfit: isn’t she pretty!!!! i’m still having issues with her casual outfit but her formal outfit/the red dress i always draw her in is done. besides the shoes. i don’t like these open toed heels with this dress. for her Signature Look i have this cute red top which is a great match but i can’t find any shorts that match hers/the top. so far i have a miniskirt and these.. jean shorts. not my favourite. i have to paint the heels white but i found these gold hoops!!! w for me. no bracelets yet.

the doll: this is a 2011 glitz barbie doll and she’s been my holy grail for years now. the blue variant is so so so pretty. i never thought i’d find her since 1. it’s an old barbie doll and 2. i live in brazil. and then…. i found a listing online IN BOX!!! i got the purple variant but the screening is basically the same. i think her makeup is stronger though? but maybe it’s just a stock image thing. anyway i’m obsessed with the hair colour. this was such a great period for barbie if you were into almost-white-platinum-blonde hair. barbie bleach era.

my plan: i didn’t want to touch this doll but she is missing… claire-ness. i plan on repainting the eyes, giving her claire’s beauty mark and her red lipstick. the hair is perfect and honestly. such great box hair. like 13 year old box hair.

it’s not visible on the first picture and i edited out here, but she two black spots in her nose. otherwise she’s fine.

alright. my main issue at the moment is that i can’t seem to find any 100% acetone nail polish remover so i can get started on the repaints. they don’t sell these here anymore. so i’ve been looking for SOMETHING that can clean off the screening of the dolls. so far, no luck. which is why i got demotivated back in february. also something i probably should have mentioned: i have terrible motor skills so repainting these dolls is going to be so much fun!

setting some goals for the time being: 1. paint the accessories that need to be painted and 2. style blair’s hair. okay! that’s it!

[poppyseedgirly]

poppet reminds me of myself often, she’s the most timid cat i’ve ever met, but the bravest too, my little sister is having a sleepover, pops sits outside the door listening to the new voices, curious girl, but i know she’d bolt if that door were to open, today was my first day off in five days, sometimes i need to keep the momentum up so i stay busy, restful too, i’ve been playing undertale again, second play through, pacifist again, and im reminded it’s such a special game to me, you don’t have to hurt anybody if you choose not too, i meet erin for brunch, it feels nice to catch up and spend time with a friend, blueberry latte, my total is 23.70, my angel number, i run some errands, i get gas for my car, the temperature is supposed to drop in the next few days, into the negatives, i feel productive and brave filling up the tank, these are simple tasks but everything i do feels like a win when i do it, i work a little bit on candles, candles are a beautiful process to me and my mind and hands, a ritual of heating the wax, demolding and prepping the molds, carving little bits and pieces to make a perfect slug dog, the waiting time while the wax cools, it’s nice to make something, i want to draw and paint again, painting paintings, i’ve been so digital with my work which is fine.. but i want to hold it, touch it, paintings, maybe.. i’ll find a way to have a show this year, maybe that’s what i need, i update my calendar for the week, liv is out for a vacation so im getting some floral days in, and it’s time to clean and repaint the window displays for valentine’s day which im excited for, i trained a new cashier the other day, she did well, it was busy, debbie says im the best trainer and she learned the most from me, she goes on and on about me to customers and calls me beautiful miss allison, i pull my glasses on to my head, my eyes feel heavy in the mornings, i joke ive seen enough when i take off my glasses, mark tells me hes never seen my eyes without them before and that they are so pretty, he has 12 cats and a cowboy bebop tattoo, kathleen shows me her embroidery book, im sitting with poppet in my lap now, we watched the new episode of severance, it was really good and made me anxious in a good way, we are moving my grandmother into a new assisted living home, her mind continues to go, she thought it was 1963, she keeps speaking about a road and a river and crossing it and why we are all here, sometimes i can piece together what she’s trying to mean, sometimes it feels like a beautiful metaphor, both make sense to me

[otteroflore]

ngl, i am kind of sad about the fact i managed to tank my youtube views

previous videos vs 12 days videos OTL

i mean its not that surprising, many are simpler videos but i had hoped doing a whole series would make people interested.

but idk, im still learning about this whole algorithm thing. now that im putting more effort into my videos i feel like i should at least try and... market? idk, make people interested as best i can.

I didn't understand why this oned did so well (highest views at 47k):

I figured, okay. Obviously things with brand names do better. Takara MLP is pretty unknown so it must just be the MLP. Theres a sculpting and 3D modeling portion. I did a fast and punchy intro. What can I learn from this?

This one got 1k views, showing that brand name probably brought a lot of SEO to the first one. Otherwise it contained similar art.

This one was a little high concept, but has 11k views. Is it because of the "My Little Pony" SEO or is it because its a 3D print?

tbf I believe this thumbnail carried this one, but it at least had a brand name. even though it didnt match like... anything else on my channel, people like repaints.

but then this one... kind of stumped me? it has <1k views. I felt like the overlap between Littlest Pet Shop, My Little Pony, doll repaints and such would be stronger. I guess since LPS is its own youtube niche, youtube didn't know who to throw it at?

It's this weird area where like. I'm not saying my videos are perfect, or they deserve millions of views. buttttt. some of them are pretty good, even if they have some minor issues with like. the camera focusing and audio, which I've steadily been improving over time.

Here's the thing: there are lots and lots of channels which make great art and just haven't grasped the YT algorithm. But I will say I have noticed Youtube pushing smaller channels like my own out to more people, videos with views <1k, so that does give me hope that YT sees promise in smaller channels.

its weird cause like. I feel like artists are told they shouldn't care about this stuff... unless they're like making a living but then, how do you go from making no money to making money without thinking about it? I would like to make some money from YT/art, even if I don't make a living, but also I like when. people see my art. which im proud of. its why i put it online! hell, I can watch my own videos to see myself painting and be like :) heheh thats nice.

Hopefully once I do my 3D prints videos and im doing IRL type stuff again youtube will like that better...?

[medicalunprofessional]

I just saw that insane Sasha Nein art you did, where he’s smoking and his mom is in it. I have to say that was some of the COOLEST ART I HAVE EVER SEEN ON THIS SITE, EVER. And I saw that you said you draw on your phone?!?! I’m actually begging you to tell me what app you use pLEASE (also I have always wanted to know how to render but I don’t even know how to start is there any in progress shots you can show so I have something to go on ;U; ty)

GYAHHHHH THANKSS YOUI wwhhh… I had written more in response to this but… Tumblr crashed and deleted it so… Im trying to remember all the points i went over haha… But… Yes… I do draw on the phone with my fingers. The key? Ibispaint… Its really good. You just gotta believe in yourself…. Its rlly not that hard :)

But… On rendering, i feel like everyone renders differently… It really depends on yout artstyle… But i will gladly go over my process (again(thanks tumblr)). Ill be using a different piece as an example (the one of sasha? I didnt render that in my normal way. Just kinda Drew Shapes) -

So i always.. sketch it out. Roughly. Get the details down, yes, but this part will pretty much be invisible, so it doesnt have to be perfect. (yees there was gonna be red string but i didnt like it so. Goodbye red strintg.. Sorry boyd) In this piece (and some others) i redid the sketch a few times to get everything placed and sized how i like it…

After this..? I just put in the colors under the sketch. Here, id like to get them relatively like how i want them to be (though sometimes ill just put in a single color and choose the colors WHILE im rendering)… Its Good To Keep Them Messy I Think

And then… I put all the layers into a folder and render it all on a new layer…. Its that simple… Some people will do it on a bunch of layers to keep all the different elements separate, but i feel its confusing and youll get tripped up in all the layers… I simply use one. Sometimes ill make a new layer if im not feeling confident about a detail, but, usually, its just one. The colors i laid down? im simply colorpicking those and making them more defined, usually blockier.. And dont worry! Its easy to move things around, having to repaint some stuff isnt as bad as you think (ESPECIALLY if you dont use lineart. I hate lineart sometimes😌)

And its done after i get alll the details i want in (sometimes, you dont need to detail everything. Focus on whats important! If you like..). Well, the drawing part is, atleast. I usually run it over with some special brushes i made to make it look more scratched up and dirty. Then i do some chromatic abberation shenanigans! And some noise. Then… Its done :)

Though… if there is one thing i must say…… You can wiggle around the hue and saturation a little while rendering it makes it more interesting and flavorful… You can wiggle it around ALOT to make things look holographic…. Oh! and keep it simple… And also desaturating colors a lot combined with the context of other colors around them can do some crazy stuff… I can make orange look like green 🕴️ (Okay that was . More than one thing. And?)

But really..:: Do what YOU want. Its your art :) I cant tell you what to do! Do all of these things. Do none of these things. Just do what YOU want to. Nothing I or ANYONE says dictates what you must do or what is correct in your expressions.

Yay!

[cpunkwitch]

answering my own questions

[pt: answering my own questions]

dont really get sent anything and not many people sent in the questions when the games were posted and reblogged, and i wanted to talk about stuff, so here we are.

this might end up being a multiple part post series?

ask game one (link)

(if comfortable) tell us about your condition? as much info as youre comfy with sharing.

i have a defect in the base of my spine, since i was born its caused me chronic pain all throughout my development and in recent years its only gotten worse, twisting my spine, headaches, jaw issues etc. i've also got highly suspected rheumatoid arthritis, fibromyalgia and ive been diagnosed with a pretty bad case of anemia so bad that everytime a doctor looks at my results after bloodwork they give me a pained look and say "heyy...did you know your iron is low? like...really really low?". that and a hand full of other things, vitamin deficiencies, etc. i dont mind talking more about this

2. do you know about the spoon theory? if yes, what do you think of it?

i'll be honest, the majority of my knowledge of spoon theory off the top of my head is that "drawer with limited supply of spoons" is the disabled way of saying i only have so much motivation and energy (phys, as "battery" usually refers to social and emotional) in me. i've read up on it ages ago but would not be able to put into better words what i still remember about spoon theory (esp since we had a different host back then), i like that its just so much quicker and easier to convey my amount of ability to do things for the day by saying whether or not i have the spoons for it.

i do like to joke that my drawer is always stocked with knives and forks for the ablests, but sometimes that requires spoons to handle too. /silly

3. do you have mobility aids? if yes, which ones? if no, do you want any in the future?

i've mention how i really wish i could have a wheelchair if i were in a different situation, i dont know if i'll ever get one and i almost cried when my brother responded to my joke of "would you make on for me?" with an "i would if i could", i really would like a wheelchair of some kind in the future if the world were more accessible and i were in a safer place. right now though, i've just got my cane that still needs repainting. i guess my moms back brace counts too, i take it with me to work sometimes.

4. how did you find out about cripplepunk? what drew you to the community and movement?

i dont exactly remember but i've known about it for years. i (prev host) might have come across it looking up different punk aesthetics, though im not completely sure why it showed up in a punk aesthetic list, possibly because its punk and people misinterpreted it? my first glimpse was seeing patches on jackets, spiked customized aids, cripples/phys disabled people in your classic punk attire (piercings, dyed spiked mohawks, ripped jeans and fingerless gloves) and i loved it. im a sucker for self expression through appearance and customizing things and then when i found out it was a whole community for support and centered around being physically disabled in general and slowly came to terms with my own disabled body and started accepting myself, i kinda fell in love with cripplepunk in the "this feels like home" sense.

i could probably ramble way more but i'll stop there.

5. if you deal with any kind of pain, what's your method of pain management?

i use hot packs, ice packs, voltaren cream, sometimes i take a cbd gummy, i do little stretches when i remember them, i take walks and hot baths/showers, im trying to go back to the chiropractor and my favourite instructors in rehab (theyre trans friendly and complimented my cane when i first came in with it i love them so much), and i take whatever meds i can, normally anti-inflammatory like ibuprofen but because i cant swallow pills i either take liquid (yeah, childs liquid meds works, the couple hours of mild relief is still worth it) or powdered tylenol or something. the hot/cold stuff depends on the pain and where on my body the pain is.

6. do you stand or sit in the shower or do you prefer baths/find bathing easier rather than showers?

i take baths for my muscles and during the damn monthly ouch in order to relax my body. i take showers just for my shoulders and when im feeling icky and wanna rinse off or something, i take showers on a "regular" basis and i normally stand because the only way i sit is if im crouched in the tub and if i do that i get extra dizzy standing up to get out when i turn the water off. thankfully im no longer near passing out when i take a shower but i still have to sit on the floor matt after because my legs demand rest. i gotta be careful with hot water cuz not only will it make me overheat quickly (i will not realize if in standing in blood-boiling hot water and turning myself into a cooked lobster until after im out) but it can also cause me to literally fall asleep in the bath which can go wrong.

7. do you have a sort of comfort item or safety blanket that helps you feel better, especially on the worst days?

a couple things. a few of them are stuffies/plushies, or music, games or books to help me keep my mind off it i suppose.

8. name 3 things you hate about hospitals/doctors/nurses/the medical system

a) a lot of them refuse to take people seriously or actually listen. sure maybe theyre tired or heard the same shtick before and wanna make sure this person isnt just a drug user trying to pity their way into getting more, but even then all matters a patient presents them with should still be taken seriously and never brushed off or mocked.

b) the fact that the er, the place you take a ticket and wait, is called the Emergency Room, when its normally scheduled appointments and people taken in by the ambulance that are top priority. sure its called the er because most visits through the er are rushed "emergency" last minute visits, people going there because they couldnt schedule an appointment and needed to see someone on that day, but still it feels wrong to call it the emergency room when its really just a waiting room and regardless of the visit they arent actually treated as emergencies. the whole system of just going to see a doctor feels messed up and most of the time you end up just going to see a nurse, get a check up and leave when they tell you what they got after a talk and examination or they schedule to see you again when a doctor is available. because of this i tend to prefer walk in clinics.

c) the fact that they charge to damn much, no matter if youre insured, it still charges so much. no matter what they do. and yeah, healthcare in canada is free to an extent if youre insured but a lot of times they charge more than your insurance can cover and not everyone can get/has insurance. not to mention the medical debt so many people have in america. i get that staff and hospitals need pay and funding but the government should have that covered and not have the patients charged so much for getting help. i almost got charged over 3k just for my short visit to the ward because there was an issue with my insurance and thats a whole angry story for another time.

9. whats an accessibility tool you wish was more accessible/that you had access to?

one of them is aac, the one i have on my phone i have to disconnect my phone to and has a limited amount of phrases i can pick from. id like it better if the app or just aac programs in general when directly to your device speaker by default, had more options for more ease conversing and none of them were behind a damn pay wall, in-app purchase or otherwise. i rarely use it for several reasons but i'd love if i could use it more with less limitations.

also wheelchair ramps. i dont have a wheelchair ramp but i wish people stopped walking on them when theyre clearly able-bodied, i wished my parents taught me and my siblings what the ramps were for and not to run up and down them as well as other parents to their kids because those things are supposed to be clear for a wheelchair user. i also think the corners should be rounded for ease of turning and that wheelchair accessible paths in general should be firm to the ground (not a wimpy matt on the sand that flips over and gets buried on the beach unmaintained), maintained and cleaned regularly, not have any gaps (ive seen so many of the small ones installed in doorways that have a height gap above the ground which causes trouble getting the wheelchair on the ramp let alone through the damn door) and not have railings made of metal if theyre outside (they can often reflect light into peoples eyes and get too hot to touch in the sun both of which are not good issues to have no matter how small they seem.)

those are at least the first to come to mind.

10. whats the worst accessability cockblock you've seen ableds do/make?

theres quite a few i've seen but atm nothing significant comes to mind other than overpricing mobility aids or placing paywalls in front of aids in general.

however there was the few times in more than one school i went to you had to go to the office, provide a 'valid' reason and ask them for a key to the elevator, otherwise they make you take the stairs. i know they do it because they dont want able-bodied kids messing with it n shit but its stupid, it should be accessible to everyone regardless. thank fuck both collages ive been to so far give free elevator use to any staff or student but in the schools i went to i was only allowed have the access key because i couldnt walk up the steps on my sprained/twisted ankle and i had to give it back at the end of every day. the last school even limited my use to just the morning or 1-2 periods that i had on the second floor. nevermind if my locker was up there.

11. whats an accessibility tool youre very thankful for?

screen readers. my little brother uses/used em more than me and i dont use them too often but im glad they exist in general i used them when i was younger and my english teachers gave us work on the computer, i used it like an audiobook and it helped me majorly. i hate that people dont always provide translations to things and make things harder on screen readers by using coloured, tiny, non-serif font-ed or 'quirked' text but ever since i was a kid i was just as happy they existed as i was about braille.

12. name 3 things you like about hospitals/docs/nurses/the medical system

a) that there are some people there who are actually hoping, willing and ready to listen and help others.

b) that they provide things for kids like toys in the waiting room, people who specialize in caring for kids in the hospital, some doctors even have their office decorated. one doctor i went to had her entire office winnie the pooh themed and it helped me out a lot when i got blood work done n stuff, it was really comforting to stare at pooh bear instead of the sharp pokey in my arm.

c) that things are usually kept quiet with low voices, as it reduces risk of overstimulation as well as avoids hurting anyones head and protects privacy of those talking about whats going on. voices are usually only raised to a normal talking level when in the privacy of a nurse or doctor office and its something i dont see really acknowledged anywhere.

13. do you have any favourite disability rep? (media or character)

not picking from my own sources, when it comes to physical disability rep, its hard for me to pick something that involves a realistic character because most of them arent very well portrayed or i cant personally relate to. i can list Freddy freeman as one, hes a crutch user and how the shazam movie portrayed him does well in expressing what ableism can be like for some visibly disabled kids in school. i could probably list some shows that handle disability well through other means if i thought of them, i know theres a few that handle it through super heros being disabled (the one spider-person who's got both a wheelchair and a cane from the recent spiderverse movie for example) or non-human characters having differences that are implied to be disabilities, and i adore that creativity, especially with showing disabled super heros as it tells disabled kids theyre still strong, not broken, they can still be cool and do great things just like able-bodied people. hard for me to name specific things off the top of my head though, guess i like specific tropes around disability rep more than anything. it helps normalize disability and thats what really makes me happy with it. (thats a big reason why i made @/your-fave-is-crippled)

14. least favourite/worst disability rep?

not phys disabled but sia's fucked up movie right off the bat still angers me. i cant name any specifics once again, normally if theres some rep that i dont like i purposely forget they exist to begin with, they arent worth remembering if they arent gonna do it right, y'know? id rather forget and move on than linger and rage about it if i can help it.

15. list some creators (youtubers/bloggers etc) that are disabled and/or cater to a disabled audience that you enjoy? (if any)

@crippled-pvp, @cripple-culture-is are a couple blogs i follow that i enjoy seeing on my dash (sorry if you dont want to be tagged!)

there was a deaf/hoh girl i used to frequent the content of as she talks a lot about signing and i really enjoyed her videos, shes such a sweet person but i never remembered her name nor any of the other creators i watched/followed. no one else comes to mind atm

16. favourite aspect about the general disabled community?

i like that there are people with advice at the ready, whatever question you have or info you need etc, theres always going to be someone with the words you need. i just like how helpful people can be in general in this community and how easily support is accessed through the community.

17. least favourite aspect about the general disabled community?

the fact that theres in-fighting, fake claiming, judgment, quick assumptions, and general internalized ableism still going on when we're supposed to be a community helping each other out not tearing each other down. im not just talking about the fight over "inclusion vs exclusion" on cripplepunk and other sub/separate communities in the disability community.

18. favourite aspect about cripplepunk?

i think my answer to "what drew you to cripplepunk" also answers this.

19. least favourite aspect about cripplepunk?

honestly? none. i hate the people forcing themselves into a space not meant to include them nor benefits them in the first place. i cant actually think of an issue i have with the cpunk community, only issues with people outside being upset over how "exclusive" it is because they want in.

20. free space:

feel free to ask me about any of my answers! i'll make a second post for the second ask game some other time. its currently 11pm and i have to get up early for morning classes yuck

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[pinkandgreenarepurpleandyellow]

Re-made my pants-leg project

so long story short, it turns out that Im a genius who had forgotten that acrylic paint doesn't actually survive laundry washes, so my very best spring break attempts were tragically ruined and I was very very sad. Fortunately, I got a kick in the pants to do the redesigns that I had wanted to do for some time, so I'm taking this as a net win.

(1st pic - og design. 2nd pic - og design post-laundry incident. 3rd pic - new design.) (Notes on the ruined version: I'm torn between grief and hysterical laughter every time I look at J-Dog's mask. It's just little eyes and vague pink. He stare.)

Some close-ups and details I'm obnoxiously proud of:

I actually did the LA thing! (I could not put the little HU into the barrel because I don't have any brushes that tiny) I was a tad short on black paint and couldn't keep re-mixing the charcoal grey, so the little grey outline around the LA symbol is missing. The buildings turned out pretty ok though.

I liked the og version, so I tried to change minimal stuff here. I did however have a breakdown trying to mix the right shade of grey. You do not know true hatred until you're mixing the grey and it's just too light or too dark to blend correctly.

Patch notes: It looks a little lopsided in the picture, but the mask is actually round, the jeans just bend there cause J3T's mask is right on the knee and creasing does not help things look perfectly straight. The Butterly has more detailing (and is a tad more accurate re both where the swirls and spirals go and the newly added skull). If you look closely, the skull has tiny teeth and outlines for eye sockets and the holes at the nose area.

I spent 3 whole days on J-dog's mask once again. If y'all can't tell, I took my failures very personally, and spent far too much time trying (and even semi-succeeding) to replicate the dollar bill designs on the mask and get the fire right. Note the detailing of/around the pyramid and the tiny eye-like blob in the top triangle. I unfortunately could not write 'Hollywood Undead' under it in the green circle (again, no brushes that small), but it's a lot more detailing than last time.

This one required the most reworking tbh because of how much paint had cracked and smudged off. It probably says something about me that I'm firmly convinced I went wrong somewhere on the spacing of the eyes but can't actually tell you what. On the plus side, a lot more detailing of rust and damage sprinkled around the cross and over the bridge of the nose. The eyes have been repainted again to still have the little mesh outline in them.

Anyways I think I just enjoy suffering. I slept 5 hours and should probably be packing.

[braveandsnipe]

this is the last post im going to make about geats buckles and suits. i was just thinking about it on my walk today, so yeah (this is kind of messy lol)

it bothers me to no end how across the entire show we only see 5 raise buckles and id core matches, particularly since it's established every id core has a buckle that matches it. to me, it just feels odd.. like out of those 100+ id cores, the only buckles that cycle through the game just happen to be the most compatible with the 4 main characters, okay 🤪

honestly, i don't think they needed to give everyone a buckle, since some of those characters were only in like 2 episodes, but for characters like daichi and sae who we introduced as players who've played before, i wish they at least would've gotten their own unique buckles. even sara, though she wasn't a rider for that long, would've been cool to see what a complete form for her would have look like.

and i don't necessarily think this would be impossible to achieve given most rider series within the past 5+ years have had on average 6-8 riders. and for the most part, those riders feel complete / not designed with easy replication in mind. like even if they repainted some stuff from past suits they're no longer using, at least it would feel like something unique within the show.

on the whole, i get what they were trying to do with the geats suits– making them simple (aside from the helmets) to make the mix and match gimmick easier to execute– but even with the (full) armors they just feel lacking to me. while the armor parts themselves are cohesive, it just feels like "stuff on top of stuff" rather than feeling like an intentionally cohesive design. (i don't even know if that made sense oml sorry)

this seems like such an innocuous thing to obsess over, but i just have a lot of feelings and thoughts on suits and transformation devices/gimmicks. i blame revice (because wdym wizard doesn't get a remix for 😔).

[umhuhwellthen]

One of Chizu's peers:

Norie

CLICK FOR BETTER QUALITY holy shit

She's a Prussian cat and Miss Mommy issues herself (joking) (im sorry)(all of the neko ninja need therapy but Norie especially)

Putting my ramblings under readmore, I don't usually go for angst, i like hurt/comfort tho and shitty parents getting what they deserve and was/is in the bnha and dp phandoms so sibling relations and family dynamics analysis are always fun

Norie makes me insane fr fr. She has different outcomes for what her fate can be. If Lady Fuwa is defeated and exiled away from the city, she could follow her. Because she is nothing but loyal to her. And she knows that may not be the best decision, but damnit that's her mom okay? And she wasn't very good but couldn't she have been? She liked them well enough (when they acted like she wanted), couldn't that grow into genuine family love? And maybe, yes, maybe Norie can get Lady Fuwa on the road to redemption. For this one ninja(daughter) that stayed by her side through all of her faults. Or maybe she doesn't. Maybe she continues to be callous and cruel even though Norie has abandoned everything she has ever known for her. And Norie accepts what the other ninja have been saying to her, and gives up on Fuwa. Leaves. She can't go back to Neo Edo. The other Neko Ninja do not trust her or see her as family for choosing Fuwa. Nor would she want to, with all the memories there. She sets out on her own path. Alone, but free. Or if Lady Fuwa gets exiled but Norie is kept from following her or Lady Fuwa gets straight up killed (either by Chizu or another Neko Ninja). Then she just has to live. Live without the one person she cared about(that didn't care about her, never did) and judged all her selfworth by. Where is she supposed to go from there? With living with comrades that were wary and distrusting (with sisters worried and hurt and trying to help themselves and her from healing from all Fuwa put them through). With Chizu (the favorite, the sister she could never match up against. Who she betrayed without a second thought and who came back for her. She hated her. She admired her).

Good lead into design details of Mitsuki, Hinata and Norie. Notice they're all wearing face masks. All Neko Ninja must wear the masks, from the youngest trainees to the senior members. Unless their mission requires them not to(Chizu). That's a hard habit to break. They also still wear parts of the Neko Ninja uniform. The orphan kittens too. And some of it is just practicality, why throw away well made goods?(Remember when Chizu picked up the kunai lol) They've repainted some of the armor pieces for personalization, to reclaim them. But some of it is to represent how they're still under Fuwa's hold, the shadow they fall under. This is most explicit in Norie, her outfit is literally just the Neko Ninja uniform but without the hood and chest plate, and an alternate style top. The inclusion of the uniform is to show that they're healing from their experiences. But those experiences still haunt them. And it will take time to heal. Some more than others. But they've all taken steps in the right direction.

Also hair too, under Lady Fuwa they'd keep short, low maintenance styles or not grow it out at all, but after Fuwa's final defeat they'd start growing it out. Hence why I draw most of them with hair, it's growth(and to differentiate them more). Itsumi keeps it short out of choice now, but maaaaaaybe she'll grow out a tuft of bangs (maybe just like a certain samurai and ninja, hm?), but Norie is keeping it short out of habit, she's still not comfortable with expressing herself (let alone who she really is and what she really wants), hasn't picked out any personal clothes like the others. Hard to develop opinions on clothes when all your outfits have been decided for you years in advance.

[meganwasbored]

The Dragon Prince Thoughts Season 4 Episodes 1 and 2

ok so i read ttm and dear callum (and cried over both of them but that’s not important) and by my understanding that’s the only thing i had to read to understand what’s happening so i think i’m good

Episode 1

-“rebirthday” oh this is gonna hurt

-if dark magic eventually makes your hair turn white then why isn’t viren’s hair also white also he’s old

-bruh what is this sparkly place and why did it turn viren into a game piece

-just callum being in the same room with the mirror is making me uncomfortable

-relieved to know that callum is still just as much of a dork as he used to be

-NEW SPELL IN THE FIRST THREE MINUTES

-just thinking about all the new spells were gonna be seeing makes me so excited

-soren is also exactly the same

-crow master finally getting the appreciation he deserves

-callum being excited about his amazon package, he is all of us

-LOOK AT HIM

-ezran literally arranged bait his own dramatic entrance

-WHY IS THIS BAKER SO IMPORTANT HES A BAKER WHY IS HE HERE AND WHY DOES HE GET AN OFFICIAL TITLE

-RAYLA would’ve thought the dragon queen joke was funny

-callum literally wasn’t even out of the room yet soren i know you’re smarter than this

-soren this isn’t 2016

-LITERALLY EVERY BAD THING EVER IS YOUR FAULT VIREN LOOK WHAT YOU DID TO YOUR DAUGHTER

-it probably would’ve been smart for janai to mention to amaya that flame ribbons are used in sunfire elf dances at some point before this so her girlfriend doesn’t think she’s getting attacked with fire whips

-callum standing there waiting for soren in this specific spot implies that soren does lunges on this same route every day

-CALLUM IS THE SAME HEIGHT AS SOREN NOW LOOK AT HOW MY BOY HAS GROWN

-just imagine being one of those dancers i would be so confused

-i couldn’t care less about viren’s life i just care about claudia’s feelings

-corvus knows all he has to do is mention callum’s latest hyperfixation and it’ll buy them hours to think of a story

-soren acting like he didn’t know callum could fly

-amaya attacking the proposal dancers and callum almost zapping everyone at his surprise party, like aunt like nephew

-imagine waking up to find out you’ve been dead for two years and in order to stay not dead you have to free a magical being from his ancient prison and you have less than 30 days to do it and then your daughter brings out her boyfriend who’s an elf (and you were trying to kill all elves last time you were alive)

-do you ever see a sad scene coming and you just have to pause it and prepare yourself for a second because the second i saw callum on that balcony i knew

-you can tell just from this thirty seconds that ezran has been callum’s therapist for to last two years

-🎶it’s my party and i’ll cry if i want to🎵

Episode 2

-are they really expecting the staff to still be there?

-ezran literally never questions any of callum’s dorkiness he’s always just like “you do you big bro”

-ZYM HAS GROWN SO MUCH OMG

-also ibis going from “powerful sky mage” to “dragonsitter” is so funny to me like there are so many more important things for him to do but nope he’s here trying to convince the prince to eat his vegetables

-also i’m pretty sure i’ve said this before i’m gonna ask again, are the runes for the wing spell tattooed on ibis’s arms or does he just like regularly repaint them? or after you do the spell once are they just there permanently? and if that’s so does callum also have the runes on his arms? he has to in some way because he just did the wing spell last episode

-THATS WHAT IM SAYING

-can’t tell if viren is acting like this to terry because he is an elf or just because he’s his daughter’s boyfriend

-why did karim look at gren and amaya? does this dude really think amaya is cheating on his sister with her best friend? has he not heard of lesbians?

-i love him

-viren stop being so dramatic and just admit you’re out of shape

-at least he’s self aware

-woah this took a whole different path than i thought it would

-i thought karim was about to be homophobic but turns out he’s just racist

-we all know dark magic is wrong but claudia just looks so cool doing it i don’t know whether to scold her or applaud

-just to be clear viren accepting that he’s nothing but crap doesn’t make me hate him any less

-someone who knows sign language please translate these conversations i’m clueless over here

-HERE SHE ISSSSSS

[perceivemeig]

Big mad that cis and trans guys my age and double my age all suck to a degree, I am truly gonna be leaning hard into trying to find girlfriends and/or much more femme aligned nb people because like i am so angry. Past week has just been me asking them in my head:

-Why do you always claim you wanna fuck me for days and instead of jerking off anytime in the usually 5 days prior to seeing me, jerk off the night before or morning of you see me and desensitize yourself and need to turn on porn while we're together?

-Why go out with me and have no experience with trans guys, but then feel me up and try to finger me in your car and then stop abruptly despite me being into it and not respond to my texts?

-Why go out for a typical date with me and not make a real move except for a kiss at the end of the date (worst kiss ive ever had) then proceed to text me after with your horned up intentions you never followed through on and with no energy being put into figuring out how to meet somewhere private to get your dick wet?

-Why say you can host and your partner is cool with it and then invite me over to fuck in your GARAGE? And then say its because you had your house repainted? Just wait until the paint is dry to invite me ,like youre very obviously trying to hide me.

-Why not JUST TELL ME IF YOU THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO FUCK ME BUT CHANGED YOUR MIND??? JUST FUCKING DO IT PUSSY BOYS LIKE HAVE SOME BALLS

-Why am I the one planning all of these meetups, paying for shit and taking control?? like I always thought I was a switch but maybe I need to just switch to identifiying as a dom because everyone im pursuing and being asked out by is so fucking helpless without being told what to do and how to do it and are insufferable complainers who are, surprise, the cause of their own problems and can't admit it.

[just4jinx]

hii omg your room getting repainted sounds like a hassle, so exhausting 😓😓 fingers crossed it's finished soon

i’ll have to try that drink sometime, it sounds yummyyy! i'll check if they have it at the local market when i go out again. if not, i'll try to find the fruit instead :D

and i'm feeling a bit better today, thank youu. i just got home from the gym and im sooo hungry omg. no wonder though since i forgot to eat before going.. lowkey got scared for a sec while lifting weights LMAO

i'll just cook dinner now, then maybe study. but what about you? how's your day been aside from the room situation?? and i hope you get some real rest soon, sounds like you really need it!! pls don't forget to eat and stay hydrated too <33

hi!! ive been the worst with replying and im really sorry :( my siblings traveled across the country this morning to surprise me for my bday tomorrow.. im so incredibly shocked oh my god. i havent seen them in forever. and if you end up trying the drink or the fruit id love to know what you think!

im glad you feel better! what did you end up eating for dinner?? and make sure to look after yourself today too! <3

my day yesterday went okay, i was so busy but i feel like i can finally relax for a few days now. i ate some mac and cheese earlier and will probably order takeaway food for everyone tonight! how are you feeling though? what have you been up to?? <33

[ap0stle]

going through some of my basement stuff and taking psychic damage <3 just rambling abt organizing

im probably going to throw away a lot more than i had planned. ive been collecting every birthday / holiday card ive received since i was like... idk, 13? and im like. idk. ill probably keep the ones from my grandparents. i have a LOT of empty sketchbooks, the shitty kind i got as gifts where the paper feels awful and smears really bad. ill never use them. there's a lot of stuff i could sell for a few bucks.

a lot of art stuff i think ill get rid off. ill keep the things that arent broken or dried out. keeping all my old paintings. lots of clothes to go through, most likely going to donate or sell. ought to sell my old hot topic shirts lol. i need to wash them all bc they stink like basement. vacuum seal all the stuff i plan on keeping, stuff that still fits. ill probably save that for last.

stuffed animals to get rid of. im keeping a lot of junk though. i bought a toy carousel with the intent to repaint it and i still want to- i took the whole thing apart, washed it, its been sitting in a box disassembled. definitely keeping all of my craft junk, like all the screws and bolts and stuff. i dont want to get rid of everything because someday ill have a place to actually put them where theyre not just taking up space.

i have 2 boxes that are semi-full, separated cleaning and kitchen stuff from the last move + misc stuff that i dont really care if its not organized. its stuff that i definitely need to keep, no need to yes/no them. theres room for more stuff so when i go through everything else i can fill the space. loooots to throw away.

i think the clothes and art stuff is the biggest annoyance. books and sketchbooks are already boxed up but ill probably move them to waterproof totes. i should get my mugs out of the kitchen too. idk what happened to the pots and pans from the last move but idrc. they had to have their own box anyway.

there's also electronics, like. my old laptop, lots of cords and stuff. old guitar hero controller. instruments. my ukes. keyboard. mic. boom pole. bulky stuff that i cant just neatly box up in an existing box.

ill be glad when i throw away the garbage + get my clothes condensed. i want to take up as little space as possible.

i dont want to go thru my room yet but ill probably at least clean out my closet. i have a lotnof stupid stuff i dont really want to throw away bc its like. it meant something to me before, i dont wanna throw it out just bc someone else thinks its stupid. my mom threw away a lot of my stuff without my permission forever ago so im trying to keep it all together and prioritize.

end goal = everything i dont mess with will be cleaned out or boxed up so that it's ready to go at any time. theyll still sit in the basement until i live somewhere i can move them to, which will be a long time. essentials will be separate. i want to be able to come home someday for the Actual move and not have to do any more packing, just pick stuff up and go. ohhhh it sucks