#im supposed to be updating my af stuff

[yellow-sword]

I don't like eggs benedict ALSO OMGGG HIIIII WHO'S READY FOR ART FIGHT?

[alchemiclee]

my dad swears we have the fastest internet my isp offers (I looked it up and its 1GB, while the slowest is 300mps) but when I test my speed, it's on average 3-5mps. P A I N.

[kkazutorass]

TC UPDATE

< After so long a update finally i’m sorry, I feel like my feelings for my TC arn’t as strong as it used to be. Like im still nervous around him ( like i can’t hold eye contact / look up at him ) but I can speak confidently, I just don’t think i’m into him like before. But the feelings are still there a bit whenever he gives me validation, so i’ll say some things that has happened with him things I remember >

A = ME

D = TC

F = OTHER FEMALE CLASSMATE

so firstly one of my friends found this ball and we were all going back to class ( the whole class after doing something ) and my TC ( d ) wanted to hold onto the ball incase it was someone else’s and my friend who found it was saying not fair because he took it yk, then D was like “come get it off me then?” he was talking to all of us and lowkey I was like I should because this is my chance but I didn’t of course because I was nervous AF which was my fault 😭

and today so he was like ‘how are you’ to all of us waiting in-front of the door to open it and no one said anything LOL i was gonna say something but TBH i don’t know why i didn’t < actually I have a feeling he didn’t say how are you he said something else but i can’t remember because if he said how are you i’m pretty sure i would’ve replied ) . Anyways so he opened the door and i think he was gonna go first because i could tell he was pushing his body to go first but i went in first not knowing then i saw how he was suppose to come in first so i said “Oh sorry sir” then he said “You should be A” I DONT KNOW WHY I FOUND THAT SO— AHHH okay anyways my friend was asking if he graded our paper yet, then he said no and was laughing and saying he will do it soon then i was like “You need a better schedule” then he agreed with me 😭 i don’t know why i feel like i’m mean to him but in a nice way

I have a feeling he thinks I don’t like him because when he comes i don’t use my body language you know look him in the eye and stuff Or he thinks i’m good at my work so he doesn’t feel the need to help me? Unless I ask because he goes to other people without them asking but i’m pretty sure it’s just his way of checking up he actually does do it to me sometimes especially after i ask for help he comes to me often maybe knowing i actually do need help

i kept this in my drafts for a while but idk whenever he comes and he tries to help me ( d ) i’m like i don’t need help idk why i do that like it’s my chance bc some lessons he dosent even come to help i shouldve let him help instead of saying no

and i’m so annoyed with the boys in my class because i think they like him that’s why they annoy him so he goes to them for most of the lesson i wish the boys in my class were just quiet and didn’t need help so d wouldn’t have to keep going to them multiple times and he always goes to f my classmate everytime she’s very pretty like i think most guys in my class like her looks wise but i could tell she likes d a lot and he always goes to her and helps her without her asking like she dosent need to ask and he will ALWAYS go to her every lesson and laugh and stuff ( she dosent just ask about the work ) she’s lucky i don’t even want a relationship with d like that ( bc if i’m being realistic it just can’t happen ) so i just want to be close with him friends wise

[an0nymousghost]

simblr asks v2

here are my answers! find the questions here.

i wrote soo much ahaha. like however much you think i wrote, i wrote more than that. imo everything i write is gold though

1. are you going to buy the new pack (cottage living) when it comes out? no, it looks really nice but i legit never ever buy packs at launch, especially cause this one is a expansion and it will probably go on sale at some point

2. do you p*rate your dlc or buy it legitimately? buy it legitimately 👌

3. what’s your favorite world? brindleton bay, it gives like seaside cottage vibes. willow creek is good but it’s boring. 

4. if you use a queue, how many posts per day do you set it as? 3 or 4. i used to do like 12 lmaoo what even was wrong with me

5. do you watch sims on youtube? yes, i watch mainly malixa, oshinsims, and msgryphi

6. what are your thoughts on the most recent pack? (dream home decorator) those sectional couches look good! but honestly im kinda annoyed because now it’s even harder to have all the items filled in when i place lots from the gallery. like i’m just saying like a lot of builds will use that pack probably and if i don’t get it then i can’t really use builds/save files 

7. how many packs/kits do you own? lemme count

expansion: all - 10/10 game: 5/10 stuff: 9/18 kits: none xo

24/38 - 63%

8. what’s your origin id? is it the same as your url? 🤗 it’s in my title, it’s celeschul. it doesn’t look that nice in my title but i use celeschul in my package files and i’m guessing people search things like, “celeschul penny hair” or something like that in order to find my cc- so i keep it in there so the search results are easier. i do want to change it though..

but no it’s also not the same! well i mean it’s the username i use for cc. my origin id used to be an0nymousghost but i changed it. i wonder if anyone’s taken that one?

9. is your simblr your sideblog or main blog? main blog ✌️ my old blog @stardze​ is a main blog as well.

my old old simblr was a sideblog but it had like 1 follower and it literally a bot so i don’t think that counts. i have a multifandom sideblog though 

10. do you have a cc finds blog? i wish. i was thinking bout it earlier and that would be sooo neat but sometimes i download stuff that doesn’t have a tumblr post attached to it, and also it’s stressful to keep up with so nah

11. are you wcif friendly? yes sir. in fact i bring the trouble of wcifs onto myself but doing them even when nobody asked.

12. what’s your favorite sized household to play with? (ex. 1 sim, 4 sims) gonna have to think on this one, honestly 1 sim is really fun and stuff goes by so fast. doing stuff with astrid when she was on her own, it was much more efficient. 

for families, i haven’t done that in a while actually. 5, 2 parents and 3 kids is cute tho. why did i write this this is honestly such a hard question

13. if you have c&d, do you play with pets? i feel like i haven’t played with cats and dogs in forever. honestly i just have no paitence. noelle fae was supposed to get a cat (there’s a food bowl + cat bed in her house) but when summer vacation started, the amount of time i spent playing ts4 decreased a lot. (this doesn’t really make sense, i have a lot more time. honestly it just has to do with my recent obsession with a certain anime/manga and some other personal thing)

i did random nightmares in may though and i had pets frequently. g5 didn’t because sofia scarlett lived in an apartment, but g2/3/4 had cici, and g1 had all the cats. but that was back in march so it’s been a while.

14. what lifespan do you use? i really want to do aging off but then i feel like it drags on. but aging legit stresses me out, sometimes i just want to sit down and do some cas stuff but i only have 2 hours in real time and there’s like 4 days left till one of my sims’ birthdays. 

15. if you own a lot of packs, how many of them have you actually played through? just so everyone is aware this question was made for me

i feel like eps require a specific save made for testing them out, but the only save i’ve ever made for an ep is noelle fae’s get famous save. 

that is literally a lie - i made a save for island living with one of my 100bc kids, maisie acapella. i did actually post it on tumblr BUT then i deleted all the posts BUT i reblogged them on my alt account BUT i privated my alt account so i honestly forgot about it

i have never played through discover university or watched anyone do it on youtube, i’ve read gerbits’ story about it so i think i’m pretty qualified. i’ve always wanted to do one with periwinkle acapella but i never got around to it

another ep i know nothing about is get to work

i tried doing a eco life playthrough but i hadn’t watched any videos and i was like..what is going on. so i quit lolx d ;;;;; i mentioned it but the whimsy stories legacy was the first time i had played with the eco lifestyle features so technically i think i know what im doing

i got outdoor retreat literally on monday of this week so i haven’t played through it yet. 

jungle adventure i still don’t know what’s going on. i remember last year before i bought the pack i was brainstorming, and wanted to do a ja playthrough with luna and cedar, who are a couple who i did a random legacy with and it was all queued to post when i deleted everything (if you’re wondering why, it’s because my queue was literally 200+ posts). except this time i didn’t save them to my sideblog so i lost them. 

i still havent had a restaurant in dine out 

also never did the vet thing from cats and dogs

i have no idea what that rock climbing thing is from snowy escape but i did most of the other stuff because rn g5

city living i did through psc stage 5 and also it was the first pack i bought anyways

the rest of them are either stuff packs or i ended up playing them through casual gameplay (seasons, parenthood)

16. what do you do as you play sims? (ex. listen to music) i listen to music most of the time, or listen to commentary youtube videos because i am an alpha chad. i also used to talk with my friends on voice call but i don’t do that anymore 🥲

17. which sims challenges have you tried? random legacy, whimsy stories, perfect sim challenge, 100 baby, legacy (just the plain get-to-10-gens one), random nightmares, berry zodiac, astrology legacy, apocalypse

i feel like im forgetting some.. honestly most of the stuff i did before simblr was either 100 baby (i love that challenge) or random saves that lasted for 2 seconds. 

18. do you like the new(ish) hair swatches? nah. 

i do appreciate that most cc hairs have a true (ish) black, thank god! and the fact that the hair update is what inspired me to update and fix a bunch of hairs with different issues is pretty nice. but will i use them? no. 

plus it takes up like 5 gb? depending on how many packs you have.

19. post the latest screenshot you took 📸

i live in cas

20. what is the cc/ingame hair that looks the most like your own? i think that dream home decorator side part hair looks a lot like my hair. honestly i havent see much like my hair but that one is kinda-? close

21. who is your favorite sim of yours and what is their story? noelle and alari fae i think! 

link to post

noelle is blonde and has blue-grey eyes. she wears purple contacts pretty often though (because she wants to 😌)

alari has light brown hair that is kinda curly, and she’s got pretty vibrant blue eyes. 

they’re sisters, alari is 3 years older than noelle. noelle was 19 and alari was 22 when they got spotted

they worked as models when they were young adults. their jobs involved dyeing their hair blue/pink, and they would model like clothes and stuff. anyways, they were pretty successful. like not ultra famous but they had enough money to not work for the rest of their lives. 

their modeling group was made of 4 girls, the others were named paisley autumn and they were green and red, respectively. some things are: 

paisley and alari started dating during this 

autumn was a single mother to a little girl named destiny

noelle dated many people during this but never ended up finding the one <3

when their contract ended after like 6 years, paisley and alari went to go live together and noelle decided to get into acting. so thats when get famous playthrough started!

there’s more but basically they’re like oc’s with sims on the side. xoxo

22. if you use cc, are there any cc creators that you have like ALL of their items? this is such a good question! i hoard hair very heavily (my folder is 11gb) i so i have like 97% from most of the popular hair creators. 

i think i had legitimately EVERYTHING from simstrouble though, i went through multiple times to check and i also have all of her retired stuff. 

i have everything from ridgeport i think-? because of the fact that she uploaded all her stuff in one big zip. 

i think that’s it.. for a long time i also had everything by clumsyalienn, but then i ended up deleting it and only keeping my faves. 

and looking at my collection, maybe ah00b? i might be missing a couple but i at least have like 99%.

23. what’s one pack you think is underrated? dine out, it’s laggy af yes but it’s such a nice thing for my sims to do. 

24. what are your favorite sims stories/legacies? melons by gerbits always and forever

this question was inspired by this ask anyways so 

25. if you could change one small thing about ts4, what would it be? most of my suggestions are pretty complex but literally just - when you add tray files, they appear at the top. my life would be so much easier

this took me literal hours to answer

[lansizhuis]

WEILAN FIC REC

It's as the title says - the five times Shen Wei did a horny grip™ because let it be known that while Zhao Yunlan is explicitly shamelessly thirsty, Shen Wei is equally as thirsty but in a more lowkey manner. Oh, and of course, WeiLan as lesbians can't be passed up for this.(gift fic for taki who introduced the weilan lesbian agenda to me!)Hello! I finally had some time (spoiler: I actually didn’t but I can always have time for my dads) to properly make a compilation of WeiLan fanfic recommendations. I included some CN ones bc I absolutely love them to bits and pieces and some WeiLan derivatives bc why not. 

Please click the kudos and leave a comment on the authors’ works to thank them and show your appreciation! <3 This will be updated periodically.

bc I’m shameless - imma shove my own weilan fics here

Title: Uhaw Summary: Shen Wei felt a smile on his face despite the seriousness of the situation. “Your loyalty will forever remain divided.” // “My loyalty is with you.” Zhao Yunlan declared. “Always has been, always will be.” [WEILAN MAFIA/GANGSTER AU 1/1] Notes: i was horny for weilan being horny for each other and being a power couple with some plot thrown in the mix im not sorry

Title: Devour Your God Summary: "The beast inside him howls and the inhumane thunderous chanting resounds in the beautiful ghost king. You remember don’t you? The more beautiful the ghost...the more terrifying."

[a look through shen wei's eyes as he goes through kunlun's multiple reincarnations until zhao yunlan; novel-compliant and shen san extra hints but should be spoiler free 1/1] Notes: sometimes we’re also sad in our weilan lives but do know they get their happy ending anyway

Title: Earlier On Summary: Zhao Yunlan starts remembering his life as Kunlun months after he first entered the world and his only clue resides on that creature (because his adult brain is now telling his baby brain that that wasn't a human) robed in white with a golden mask peering down on his crib. Notes: [novel-verse gift fic for orro AKA babey zhao yunlan having adult brain/memories who’s everyone’s source of headache]

Title: Five Times Shen Wei Did A Horny Grip Summary: It's as the title says - the five times Shen Wei did a horny grip™ because let it be known that while Zhao Yunlan is explicitly shamelessly thirsty, Shen Wei is equally as thirsty but in a more lowkey manner. Oh, and of course, WeiLan as lesbians can't be passed up for this. Notes: (gift fic for taki who introduced the weilan lesbian agenda to me!)

Title: Some Things Stay The Same and Some Don't  Summary: “Xiao Wei,” Zhao Yunlan called in a serious voice making Shen Wei stiffen in attention, “Your boobs are actually big, aren’t they?” Shen Wei almost slipped from her position at the unexpected - or well, this is Zhao Yunlan so perhaps ‘expected’ should be the term - comment. “Yunlan, honestly!” “No really, it’s bigger than mine.” “Everyone’s bigger than your tiny mangoes, stupid owner.” Da Qing laughed from the kitchen. “I think even Lin Jing and Lao Chu have bigger ones compared to you.” Notes: lesbian!weilans part 2 for emmy featuring the primordial gods, shen wei + mama zhao interaction, and kunlun taking in 2 ghost queens instead of just one

Title: Repercussions of Meddling Summary: “You know what the diviner’s instructions were, right? Gather the hallows and let fate run its course or else there can be dire consequences.” Zhao Yunlan clenched his fist as he recalls Shen Wei’s hardships paralleled with Ye Zun’s loss of sanity, the ghost lovers’ fate in an effort to protect him, the brewing war as the vision the hallows have given him on their deaths, and an ever burning flame on his soul as he watched Shen Wei disappear stay clear.“There can’t be anything more dire than that future.” The two leaders looked at each other meaningfully. “And if the bulk of the repercussions on you twisting the timeline falls on you?” Zhao Yunlan huffed in amusement and flipped his long hair to his back. “If I'm the one who has to pay then so be it.” Notes: aka ye zun is a bad influence to shen wei and add that in for 10,000 years where they're both awake, alive, and together waiting for a certain someone's reappearance in their lives --- THIS CAN GET DARK; drama canon divergence au where zhao yunlan as kunlun ends up saving ye zun in the past and meddling with time 

Title: A Path Back Home Summary: The Dixing kingdom's delegation set off for a peace treaty with the kingdom of Haixing as new tides of the world was coming. For some, this was a turning point for the three kingdoms. For Ye Zun and his father, this was a chance to bring back their two other family members home with them. The past retains its stories and secrets, the present shakes the foundations of everyone's belief, and the future is a path back home. (read a/n before reading!) Notes: weilan royalty a/b/o au aka the most self-indulgent fic (it wasn’t supposed to be multi-chap but brain said ‘world building’ and now i suffer)

Title: where everything converges Summary: collection for weilan week prompts - day 1: beginnings (SID+SW meets the youngest primordial god) day 3: au (tgcf au of god!ZYL and ghost king!SW) day 7: anniversary (there will come a day where SW wakes up to the 5,000 years and 1 day of being with ZYL)

Title: in all worlds and in all timelines Summary: collection of weilan prompts (do send some and i’ll see if i can write it!)

Title: The Power of Words Summary: “You have lived for as long as I have and so you must know that words have power. The likes of old sayings and proverbs hold a decree to them the longer it’s passed around from one breathing soul to another. They become entities and binding spells on their own through time.”

“What has that got to do with anything right now? Ghost Slayer, you are already treading a dangerous path with the choices you have made the past months. Do I still need to remind you of this?” the spirit asked.

The black robed creature acted as if he didn’t hear his companion and spoke once more. “I suppose it doesn’t matter right as of this moment,” he crossed his legs and continued, “Let me tell you a story; a secret.” Notes: it was supposed to be a oneshot but my need for novel shen wei characterization bled through so now it’s a 3shot *sigh* 

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Title:  狗在江湖 Notes: this is a mix of novel and drama elements AND it’s a/b/o AND it has 30 chapters so obv i cried

Title: Sweet Dreams Summary:  朱白ABO，架空末世微悬疑。 Notes: okay so it was weird for me at first bc they were using zhubai’s names until i realized they were pertaining to weilan derivative in general AND OKAY LISTEN - the plot??? THE PLOT??? GLORIOUS

Title: 我说所有的酒都不如你 Summary: 这大概是一个东江二哈狼和东江气死猫你追我跑你继续追我假装跑你拼命追我跑不动了的爱情故事（。 Notes: 2Luo aka Luo Fusheng x Luo Fei weilan derivative and this is legit my favorite derivative fic!!! they mixed both dramas and fed me sentinel + guide trope AND THEN WOW PLOT

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Title:  Black Cloak Reversed Summary:  Chief Zhao is a little too friendly with the Black-Cloaked Envoy. The members of the SID worry that he's being emotionally disloyal to Professor Shen. Notes: drama; zhao yunlan is a filthy, thirsty man and SID mourns over this fact

Title:  my heart broke loose on the wind Summary:  If Yunlan is going to learn how to make actual food that requires more effort than just boiling water and putting hot water into stuff, he’s going to have to take all the notes. “Right,” he says to himself. “How hard can it be?” He watches all twenty-two minutes and fourteen seconds of Chef Shen's video without fast-forwarding. When it comes to an end, he clicks on the replay button. He ends up taking zero notes, and the only thing he manages to learn from the whole exercise is that Chef Shen -Shen Wei- is really fucking beautiful when he smiles. Notes: au; alternative summary - ye zun: how thirsty are you for my bro zhao yunlan: thirsty? pls im a paragon of all things holy, i am a kind and generous citizen of the world, i am - ye zun: i can help you get in his pants  zhao yunlan: - thirsty af; i am very thirsty 

Title:  when we reunite, the world will tilt on its axis Summary:  Zhao Yunlan tries to figure out how he should approach the matter of young Shen Wei. Notes: drama; babey!shen wei who's so earnest and genuinely in-love ahhh im soft

Title:  Wild Thing, Stop Your Teasing Summary: Shen Wei’s eyelid twitch as Yunlan unwraps another lollipop, closes his spit-shiny lips around the spherical head while looking at Shen Wei under dark eyes and thick lashes. Fists clenched on his pant leg, Shen Wei swallows and tamps down the urge to grab Yunlan across the table. Notes: drama; when you think zhao yunlan's thirst has a limit - he goes an open his mouth but hey shen wei's head over heels thousands of years ago already anyway

Title:  Tease the Wild Thing Summary: Yunlan's POV from shaenanigans' awesome fic ''Wild Thing, Stop your Teasing''. Yeah, it's the one with the lollipops, and the porn with feels. You know. The Good Stuff. Notes: more weilan smut after the one above?? SIGN ME TF UP

Title:  without complexities or pride Summary:  “Kunlun Hall’s rules do not apply to you,” Yunlan says simply, moving to steep some tea for Shen Wei. “You are the Black Cloak Envoy. Lord Kunlun holds you in high regard.” “And you hold him in high regard,” Shen Wei adds before he’s able to stop himself. Shen Wei can hear the wretched jealousy in his own voice, and no doubt Yunlan can as well, because Yunlan’s smile turns sly, and his eyes are very knowing when he says, “In a way, I suppose I do.” Notes: (Or, the Not-Exactly-A-Courtesan!Yunlan fic.) >> im crying bc YES

Title:  Every ridge hand-picked by the late sun’s slant light Summary:  Zhao Yunlan gets up to greet this man, his destiny – who is currently scowling behind his fancy embroidered mask – and smiles as filthily as he can make it. Whatever else they might be to each other, Shen Wei has been taunting him for weeks. Zhao Yunlan is going to take him home and fuck him until he cries and he wants Shen Wei to know that. “Long time, no see,” he says. The Black Cloaked Envoy blanches. Notes: when i say i thirst for weilan papapa where shen wei loses his self control - I MEAN IT

Title:  that's where you belong Summary:  First of all, how dare Shen Wei. Second of all, Zhao Yunlan has been looking forward to this for like, as long as he's been aware that Shen Wei is an alpha. Third of all -- Notes: im crying bc all i ever wanted was for novel weilan's characterization bc i know their papapa would be the hottest with that and i have been fed with this need and even partnered w/ a/b/o trope /SOBS

Title:  Just Cared Too Much Summary:  Zhao Yun Lan found out his father was dead while he was pouring concrete down the throat of a backstabbing dickbag. “Chief, I'm sorry, the Boss is gone. Shot to the head, on his way to meet the Russians.” Notes: i was dying to have a mafia au and this appeared THANK YOU; and def one of the other things that pushed me to finish my own mafia au for weilan lol

Title:  家教 - or - Domestic Education Summary:  Shen Wei is the Ghost King, born out of the unyielding chaos of entropy that had consumed the underworld before the creation of the wheel of reincarnation. He's the cosmic guardian of death and all her darlings, and the universe through the lens of his eye is rife with demons, hungry ghosts, and shadows creeping out of their places. So there is absolutely no way he is getting sick. Notes: im novel verse trash and we get that PLUS mama!zhao uhh hell yes???

Title:  Sarva Summary:  Or, 一切. At work, in public, Shen Wei is meticulously, seamlessly polite. In bed, he's something else. Notes:  this was the first weilan smut i read AND ALL THE YES BC SHEN WEI LOSING IT FOR ZHAO YUNLAN IS MY KINK

Title:  Future Forged Summary: Masquerading as Kunlun, Zhao Yunlan sets out on a mission to recover the stolen Hallows alongside the young Shen Wei. Along the way, he discovers new abilities, forges new bonds, unearths old histories, and learns that the universe goes beyond his wildest imagination. Notes: lol way better take on what happened during that time travel thing than what the drama had

Title:  who you allow Summary: But then Zhao Yunlan goes and gets a haircut, and Shen Wei. Pouts. For like three days. Notes: for the record - i, too, believe shen wei will pout bc of this

Title:  Significant Other Colour Summary: Collars are so old-fashioned and Zhao Yunlan can’t help but feel that there’s an ulterior motive hiding behind Shen Wei’s innocently widened eyes. Notes: tfw i've tried to bury my needs on acknowledging how shen wei canonically wants to lock up zhao yunlan and then this fic hits me - author pls let me love you (for y'all heed the warnings)

Title:  Afterimage Summary:  Zhu Yi Long is an awkward turtle. Now he has to deal with letting Shen Wei and Ye Zun go. Notes:  okay so im not really into fics on real people but this was done so well? it explores the effects of zhu yilong's method acting and sets straight that zhubai and weilan are not one and the same at the end of the day

Title:  Twill Seeker Summary: The young master has a thing for the butler. The butler is at the end of his rope. Notes: if anyone comes after me and my apparent need for butler shen wei and young master zhao yunlan, hide me

Title:  When You're Old, You Want To Celebrate Birthdays At Home Summary: Shen Wei comes home to a surprise. Notes: me, wiping a tear: oh look, a ye zun characterization i actually like even if he's mentioned only

Title:  do nothing day Summary:  “The stress of work is exhausting me and my wife is scolding me now,” Zhao Yunlan pretends to whine, hiding his face in the blankets. “You’ve seen who I work with, those stubborn kids who cause me nothing but trouble. You’re supposed to be on my side, meant to pity me when the world turns against me. I deserve this day off and I reserve the right to do as I please. And if I want to be a slug in the bed then that’s what I’m going to do.” Notes: "It’s so gentle that Shen Wei almost can’t stand it, the way Zhao Yunlan lets him do as he likes, just receiving whatever Shen Wei wants to give him. And there’s so much that Shen Wei wants to lavish onto his Zhao Yunlan." -- dont bother for the ambulance i know im DOA

Title:  Heat and Desire Summary: Five times Zhao Yunlan had an oral fixation and one time Shen Wei did something about it. Notes: "You tease me, Zhao Yunlan," Shen Wei whispers, his breath tickling against Zhao Yunlan’s ear. "You tease me and you tease me and you seem to think that I won't do anything about it." -- me, choking: IM FINE

Title:  Just A Phone Call Away Summary:  Chief Zhao gets hurt on a case and nobody wants to be the one to call Professor Shen and tell him.... Notes: SID family + shen wei's first reaction to the call??? sign me up

Title:  Never Losing You Summary:  Yunlan can't open his eyes, can't shut his mouth. Needy, keening noises pour out of his throat completely out of his control. Shen Wei's closed fist is around him, pumping fast and tight in rhythm to his fucking, making him see stars exploding behind closed eyelids, thoroughly engulfed by the incredible sensations racketing up and down his spine originating from where they're so deliciously joined. Shen Wei's other hand cradles his jaw, careful, reverent, but also serves to ground Yunlan to the bed so Shen Wei can fuck him harder, deeper. Notes: i can never have enough weilan papapa bc if canon doesn't give me the explicit juicy details then im turning to fic writers with metaphorical gold payment

Title:  third time's the charm Summary: “I’m what Da Qing likes to describe as ‘especially tenacious’ when I’m in heat, even more so when I have a specific Alpha in mind,” Yunlan tells him, casual. (Or, three times Shen Wei helps Zhao Yunlan through his heat.) Notes: me, looking through the window with a faraway look: a/b/o universe makes me weak even if it's not even explicit

Title: this secret language that we speak Summary: "If you don't want to do this any more," says Shen Wei, "you get off the couch, and we'll do whatever you want. Do you understand?" Zhao Yunlan is so hot he thinks he's going to light the couch on fire. He swallows and nods."I didn't hear you," says Shen Wei, implacable as death. "Do you understand?" Zhao Yunlan has to clear his throat, and when he manages to speak, his voice is gravelled with arousal. "Yeah. I do." "Good," says Shen Wei. Notes: i cried 69 times bc my horny ass is fed and jfc domineering shen wei??? *cries for the 70th time*

Title: Shen Wei Summary: Shen Wei loves Zhao Yunlan, and there is only so long he can feign otherwise. Notes: [Zhao Yunlan gives a small shrug, uninvested in the argument. “All right. And where do you belong?” Shen Wei freezes, flashes of memory assaulting him, of Kunlun’s skin hot against his, of promises moaned against each other’s necks. Inside you is all he can think.] BINCH I DIED AT THIS PART

Title: Sweet Dreams Are Made Of This Summary: Zhao Yunlan jerks back to the waking world gasping and screaming and drowning in the anguish that comes with being lit on eternal consuming fire. The unmistakable rich copper taste of blood fills his mouth and he opens tear-filled bloodshot eyes that he was sure melted a long time ago with the rest of his physical body. He sees faces crowding around him in varying degrees of worry, but the pain blinds him from putting names to the faces. His throat feels raw, as if he'd been screaming for centuries and realizes on the next breath that he's been screaming a name. Shen Wei's name. Notes: drama-verse but a hopeful one TYL im here for the whole the last episode didn’t happen bc we can use the plot that the drama threw away lol

Title: Aftermath Summary: The fallout after the dust has settled. Notes: a look on what happened after the 4th extra in the novel; s o f t

Title: The world that we'll invent Summary: Shen Wei's self-control continues to be tested. Notes: [Nothing in Shen Wei's long existence has prepared him for the problem that is Zhao Yunlan.] >> honestly this is the summary of weilan in general 

Title: Quiet Heart, Hollow Body Summary: It has been ten thousand years since Shen Wei met Kunlun, but he could never forget the one who first saw beyond the mask of the Black Cloaked Envoy to the person beneath. Notes: im novel bias for so many reasons but this was absolutely amazing as a drama setting bc it /is/ closer to the novel setting bc shen wei was actually awake those 10,000 years so that desperation and intensity of novel!sw is closer here - really great read

last updated: March 2, 2020

[arigatouiris]

revenge is a fool’s game // arthur morgan — [03]

pairing: arthur morgan x female!reader

word count: 1895

warnings: strong violence, emotional distress, mentions of torture, rape and sexual abuse, explicit sexual references, a whole lotta angst, cowboy stuff;

notes: i am so so sorry for the late af update!! things got carried away at work and i was trying to finish my peter parker story (sighhhh). anyway, this is a short chapter, but do expect an update pretty soon~

not following a taglist for this, i can’t seem to keep track of people who ask so just check on my masterlist~ 

masterlist in bio~

Chapter Three: Ain’t No Foolin’ John Marston

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(y/n) woke up, just before day break, and panicked. She looked around inside her tent, and breathed slowly before realizing she was actually panting. Her hair was a mess—and she was glad she had cut it to a boy’s regular messy cut, but she wasn’t wearing her bandages. 

Without her bandages, her breasts would pop out. She was big enough to alert the people around her that she wasn’t a boy but a boy in disguise. Without question, she quickly took her shirt off and began to tie the bandages around her chest, tightly. Each time, she felt she tied a bit too tighter—forever compressing her chest to one without breasts.

She hated that she had to do this; she hated living in disguise. She would normally love scents and everything that came with being a woman, but now—now things were different and unforgiving. Her long hair that she had adored once before was trimmed away, and her cheeks were unmoisturized beyond control what used to be soft and smooth. She missed being a woman, but now she had no choice.

After tying the bandages around her, she put her shirt back on. Through the tiny holes in her bottle green tent, she observed that it was breaking day. She had a tiny mirror using which she fixed her hair—and turned into a boy again.

Through Dutch Van der Linde, she would find Colm o’Driscoll, and through Colm she would find a slight bit of redemption. Colm was someone she would take vengeance for herself. He had nothing to do with her brother, but had done something terrible to her. Words and lies were carved carefully to sting her in such a fashion that the sting would never heal, and what remained was a ghost of a person with an inability to move on from the pain caused. She had a plan, and no sympathy and no compassion came close to bringing her down from what she saw needed to be done.

“Riley!” 

She heard Susan Grimshaw’s voice call from outside. Her heart sometimes ached when she heard her brother’s name, but she was her brother now. 

“Come out here and gimme a hand, boy.” She didn’t sound mean, she sounded nice, as a matter of fact.

Riley stepped out of the small tent, looking timid. He blinked a couple of times and noticed Mrs. Grimshaw smiling at him. The smile reminded him of his own mother’s, but Riley tried not to think of anything regarding his past (her past).

“The horses need feedin’, boy. Here,” Susan motioned toward the stack of hay. “Take this to them horses over there. Make yerself useful here and you’ll belong quite alright.” Susan smiled and Riley nodded.

“My,” Susan sighed and said softly. “I sometimes forget ya can’t talk. Poor soul.”

The only reason (y/n) chose to leave Riley dumb was because her voice was far too feminine to hide. She was always told that she had a beautiful voice when she sang, but it sounded too much like a woman for a man.

While Riley was moving one haystack after another toward the horses, he observed that there were eyes on him. He paused for a second and noticed a boy watching his every move—unashamedly, not looking away even after Riley caught him doing so. The boy’s name, he could recall, was John Marston. He was around fifteen years of age, and far too aggressive for his own good. Riley watched him staring at him for a brief while before tilting his head a bit and getting back to work. It had been close to a few days since Riley joined the Van der Linde gang, and while even Arthur stayed out of insulting the boy, Riley noticed John’s hesitance in talking to him.

“Give him some time,” Hosea had said, when he first observed this behavior. “The boy’s got a nasty past.”

Nasty past, (y/n) thought before piling the hay carefully in the stack where it was supposed to go. I understand nasty pasts.

A moment later, Hosea approached Riley and grabbed the boy’s arm. Riley’s face turned pink—(y/n) still not used to being touched so freely by a man twice her age, but tried hard not to show any signs of discomfort.

“Need to talk to ya, son.” Hosea’s tone scared Riley. Instantly, he knew that it was something related to the confession he had made about the o’Driscolls.

Riley blinked at Hosea, while being led inside the white tent. Arthur was standing by the entrance, no expression on his face. Arthur noticed Riley and gave him a small nod, I think he understands that I’m a member here now, she told herself. He hated me before, she thought before blinking a couple of times. Arthur grunted once before straightening his posture. Dutch was entering the tent.

“So, son,” Dutch said before continuing, “You hate Colm,”

Riley didn’t nod. She didn’t hate Colm, it wasn’t hate. It was hard to explain without telling them some part of the story, and that was what he didn’t want to share.

“And you want him dead.” Dutch stated facts.

Riley blinked.

“The thing is, we don’t like him all that much either,” Hosea said, in a calculative manner.

“We’re teamed up wit’ em right now,” Arthur said, sighing. “Dutch and Colm had a… what ya call, a ‘partnership’ o’ sorts.”

Riley didn’t understand. He made a face, which conveyed his exact emotions.

“See Colm’s got a brother, Wyatt.”

(y/n)’s blood boiled. Oh, I know Wyatt o’Driscoll damn well, she thought before frowning. Hosea noticed the sudden change in Riley’s face, but chose not to comment on it. There were some stories each of them carried, with no want or need to divulge them. What he wanted to comment on was the fact that Riley’s wish to murder Colm intersected with their own wish to end their partnership.

“Wyatt’s got his eyes set on Dutch,” Hosea said, sighing bitterly. “Wyatt is plannin’ on handing Dutch over to the authorities for the bounty.”

“Let him try! I can rip his head off his skull and still make him see the end of it.” Dutch said, sarcastically, with a weird grin on his face.

What Riley didn’t understand was why they were telling him this. He knew that Dutch didn’t like Colm, and he knew that they felt the same way about all of the o’Driscolls, so why were they telling him this plan?

“We kill Wyatt first.” Dutch said.

(y/n)’s heart picked up pace. Wyatt was fourth in her list, ending his life meant getting closer to Colm. She nodded once before taking her notebook once.

Wyatt has this horse he loves. We get to his horse and we get to him. He’s a dumbass with very little that he cares about.

Hosea laughed as he read out Riley’s note. “This is why we needed you, boy! Somethin’ tells me you’ve been on the insides of the o’Driscolls’ party!”

It’s the other way around, Hosea, (y/n) thought bitterly, forcefully blinking tears away. Arthur watched the boy, before noticing the sun fall on the boy’s shirt. There was a dark patch in his chest, which looked almost made up. It was like he was wearing another shirt inside the one that he could see. Arthur blinked before clearing his throat and looking away, it wasn’t his business.

“Alright. We get to his horse. Can you identify his horse, boy?”

Riley nodded.

“Dutch,” Arthur said, before looking at Riley. “How can we know we can trust ‘im?”

Riley’s heart dropped. This was one question that he was hoping no one would ask. It was a good question, she had to admit, because how can anyone be sure that Riley himself wasn’t an o’Driscoll?

“Actually, that’s a great point. What if Colm sent you here and if this is all a trap?” Dutch spoke out loud.

Riley’s eyes filled with tears. He wrote in his notebook.

I had a sister. Colm and his brother raped her every night after saving her life one day. They raped her and ruined her life. She is no woman no more. I’m doing this for her. And I’m doing this for myself.

I’m doing this for you, brother. Rebecca’s voice was for herself only.

“I.. I’m sorry to hear that, son.” Dutch said, sympathetically.

Hosea patted the boy’s shoulder before saying, “You don’t have to say anything more than that, Riley.”

Arthur, on the other hand, was the most shocked. He didn’t once think Riley could have gone through so much. After having cared for Mary so much, he understood so much about how hard women had it for themselves. Their torture would always, always exceed the pain that anyone can give to a man. Women were strong, and hurting them came easy.

Rape, Arthur thought, was unforgivable.

He watched Riley get back to his chores, sad face and sadder eyes, and a soft spot bore in his heart for the boy. To lose a sister the way he had, must have taken more than just anger for him to come huntin’ after them o’Driscolls, Arthur thought.

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That evening, Riley sat alone by the fire. He was thinking about what he had shared with Hosea, Dutch and Arthur, and he wondered if it was the right thing to have done. They wouldn’t have trusted me, (y/n) thought. Arthur is suspicious of anyone new, she sighed. A moment later, she felt someone sit beside her.

It was John. He had a scowl on his face, and his hair was a mess. From the past few days, she’s noticed that John was what they’d call, ‘a problem child’. He was naughty and barely did any chore around the camp. Susan would have to scream at him repeatedly to have him eat.

“I know you’re a girl.” John said, glaring at Riley.

Her blood froze. She suddenly felt very exposed, but this was a fifteen year old child and this old jibe was thrown off the window by Arthur the first time it had happened. Riley turned to look at John and glared back, trying hard to keep the glare on and not let the fear show.

“You’ve got breasts, and you ain’t got no penis.” John said, softly.

Riley shook his head and turned away, red faced—but in front of the fire, one couldn’t tell. She hoped John wouldn’t be able to hear her rapidly beating heart.

“They might think I’m some stupid hillbilly,” John said, “But I ain’t gonna ever call a woman a man.”

Riley took out his notebook and hoped John could read.

Go away, John. I don’t have to prove shit to you.

“Alright, ma’am. I know no one ain’t gonna believe me, but I know yer secret. Riley or if that’s what your name is. You ain’t a man. Yer a lady. A lady dressed like a hillbilly. Don’t know why an’ I don’t care. But you ain’t foolin’ me.” John said, before getting up and walking away.

Riley waited for a moment. He hoped no one heard this conversation, and he hoped no one cared for John’s words. Because of the way he behaves, no one took him seriously. However, John’s hunch, if it was a hunch, was right. Riley was no man.

(y/n) was scared for her life now.

[the--blackdahlia]

This Life Chapter 17

Title: This Life Chapter 17

Summary:  Dean Winchester is the Vice President of the motorcycle club The Hunters. After almost 7 years in prison, he's free. But things have changed and Dean has to figure out how to put things back together.

Warnings: Language

AN: Thank you love @sams-serialkiller-fetish . The song for this chapter is Summertime Blues by Joan Jett.

“What are we still doing here?” Ruby asked the morning after the funeral. They were all gathered back at the garage, trying to figure out what to do. “We buried Benny. We should be heading back to California.”

“That requires having to go near Horsemen territory. And we kinda just killed one of their members.” Andy told her. “We’re just gonna stay here for a little bit and figure things out.”

“That’s why I’ve called in some reinforcements.” Meg said.

“Who?” Cas asked. That’s when a yellow AMC Germlin pulled into the lot.

“A friend.” Meg said. “She’s a genius. She can help us keep track of the Horsemen.” A redhead got out of the car with a smile on her face.

“‘Sup bitches.” She laughed.

“Guys, this is Charlie.” Meg introduced her. “She can hack anything.”

“So can Ash.” Cas said, crossing his arms. “You’re just bringing another person into the crossfire.”

“I laugh in the face of danger.” Charlie said, smiling. Cas just rolled his eyes and headed over to where Caleb and Jim were. “Is he always this friendly?”

“Trust me, the Hunters aren’t exactly a warm and loving bunch.” Gabriel sighed.

“One of them was.” Ruby added.

“And Sam’s not too bad.” Lucifer said with a shrug.

“Sam is one of us. Not one of them.” Gabriel pointed out. “So of course he’s awesome.”

“Guys, let’s face it,” Andy said, looking at all of them, even Charlie. “Sam might be one of us, but his true home and family is here in Wolfpine.” He motioned over to where Sam was perched on a stool, watching Dean tune up Baby. “And I have a feeling, he won’t be going back to California with us.”

“So, do I get to meet this mysterious Sam?” Charlie asked.

“Of course sweetheart.” Meg said. “I’ll go introduce you to anyone and then we’ll get you set up.” She led Charlie away from the other Wayward Sons.

“I wonder what she’s supposed to be doing here?” Andy asked, looking at Ruby and the brothers. “I guess we’ll find out.” He said when no one answered him. He made his way over to where Meg was introducing Charlie to some of the Hunters, ready to find out.

****

Charlie was set up in the office by Ellen, typing a mile a minute and looking at reports. Ellen was impressed to say the least. Charlie was a woman on a mission obviously.

“You need a job?” Ellen asked. “I’ve got about fifteen years of files that need typed up and organized right. I’m no computer expert and Jo’s not that fast of a typer.” Charlie laughed some.

“Maybe when I settle down and decide I don’t want to be a grey hat anymore.” Charlie told her. She had a beautiful Blueberry iBook and a Wifi card. So Ellen assumed that she was doing something to make some money. “I heard someone say that they were sending me help?”

“Um, I’m not sure.” Ellen told her. “What do you need help with?”

“Nothing. That’s why I’m confused.” Charlie told her. That’s when a bright orange El Camino pulled into the lot, Lynyrd Skynyrd blaring from it. The engine was cut and music stopped as Ash climbed out of the car.

“Relax everyone, I’m here.” Ash said. Caleb laughed and Cas wenet over to talk to him. A few minutes later, Ash was walking into the office with Ellen and Charlie. “Who’s this?”

“Charlie.” Charlie said to him. “And I don’t need your help.”

“Tracking the Horsemen can be a tough challenge. And I did go to MIT.” Ash said, flipping his hair back.

“MIT? That’s cool. I went to Cornell.” Charlie told him. “And I think I can manage just fine.” Ash flopped down on the dirty old couch that set in the office and got his own laptop out.

“You might be able to handle it just fine, but I want to help anyway.” Ash said. Ellen laughed a little.

“I’m just gonna go find Bobby. It’s getting a little too crowded in here for me.” With that, Ellen left, leaving Ash and Charlie to stare each other down while typing away.

“Watchya lookin’ at over there?” Ash asked, glancing at Charlie.

“Things and stuff.” She said. “You?”

“Updating my stock portfolio.” He said with sarcasm seething.

“Well, if this a competition, may the best woman win.” Charlie said.

“Oh I intend to…” Ash realized what Charlie had said and glared and started in on his search. He was going to win.

****

“Why is Ash here?” Sam asked, looking to where they had set Charlie up. Dean looked over and shrugged, not sure why he was here.

“I called him.” Cas said. “I’d rather have someone from our team working on this. I just don’t trust some of those Wayward Sons.”

“I saw the way you’ve been looking at Meg.” Jim teased. Cas’s face turned red.

“I have not…” Cas said. Bobby laughed.

“Guess Cassie boy isn’t as much as monk as he wants us all to believe.” Caleb announced.

“You guys are all assholes.” Cas said, rolling his eyes. “Anyway, I wanted a backup in case this Charlie isn’t as good as Meg said she is. And I trust Ash more than I trust Charlie.” There was a motorcycle pulling into the lot. Gordon got off his bike and headed to them.

“Hey guys.” He said.

“Hi Gordon.” Bobby said. “What can I do for you?”

“Bike’s making weird noises. Can you check it out for me?” He asked.

“On it.” Dean said, heading over to Gordon’s bike. Gordon looked at Sam and his eyes widened slightly before he plastered a smile on his face.

“Hey Sammy.” Gordon said. Sam frowned more than he already was.

“Hi Gordon.” He grumbled.

“Okay then. Uh, point me in the way of the bathroom?” Gordon asked. Sam motioned to where the bathrooms were and let Gordon on his way. Gordon made his way in and shut the door. He thought Azazel was going to kill the crown prince. Alastair had sent him there to scope out the situation. He noticed Benny wasn’t standing around with them like he used to. So that was one down.

He looked around the small bathroom, wondering what he was supposed to do next. He looked at the sink, ready to splash his face to get his head around everything, when he saw a bracelet laying there. A bracelet he had seen before. It belonged to Sam. An exchange gift when he gave Dean an amulet that was supposed to protect him on runs. Sam had lost it once when Gordon was over and he thought the kid was going to have a panic attack until they found it.

It was perfect.

Gordon pocketed the bracelet. He wasn’t sure why he did, but it seemed right. He gave himself another minute before he headed back out. Dean was wiping grease off his hands talking to Caleb. He looked up at Gordon.

“Just a couple loose wires.” Dean told him. Gordon nodded.

“Don’t have a job for me, do you?” Gordon asked.

“No man. Sorry.” Caleb said. Gordon nodded again and went back to his bike.

“Well, thanks for the fix.” Gordon said, starting up his bike and driving off. Dean looked at the others.

“Something doesn’t sit me right with him.” He said. Sam nodded in agreement. He looked around.

“Anyone seen my bracelet?” He asked.

“Sorry man, I haven’t.” Cas said. “It’ll show up though.”

****

Gordon made it out of Wolfpine and headed to New Mexico. He stopped close to the state line where Alastair was waiting for him. The Horsemen looked like he was ready to fight. Gordon just hoped it wasn’t with him.

“What did you find out?” Alastair asked.

“Everyone was there except for Benny Lafitte.” Gordon reported. “Even Sam.”

“Damn it.” Alastair sighed. “Azazel was a capable leader, but he let his emotions get the best of him.”

“I snagged this.” Gordon said, handing Alastair Sam’s bracelet. “It’s Sam’s. I don’t know if it will do any good or not…”

“I actually think I have a plan.” Alastair said, smirking. “Good job Gordon. You’re definitely a Horsemen.”

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Oh the procrastination...

Anonymous said:

just wanted to thank you for all the time + effort you're putting into clean ui. i can't imagine how much it takes to do something so massive and literally every update you post is so exciting.

Thank you! 

dreadpirate said:

Hi GCP, do you have plans on integrating Chris Hatch's More CAS Columns to Clean UI at some point (uploaded on MTS, /m/showthread(.)php?t=623172)? Would be great if there are or there are similar efforts in the pipeline. :D

vegan-kaktus said:

Hi! First of all, I'm super suuuper excited for your clean UI! Secondly, I saw you included the widescreen fix by Chris Hatch in your mod and just thought I'd let you know that he released an ever better version of it over at mts! modthesims(.)info/showthread(.)php?t=623172 :-D

Yes I plan to integrate that mod... too bad I worked on including the widescreen mod just before that, but at least we wil lhave more columns!

Anonymous said:

hi! i have a question about the skylines. if im in lot view and go outside of the "border", the skyline disappears. is this supposed to happen or have i done something wrong?

Sounds like this will help you.

Anonymous said:

hello! i have a question for you. do you use mod that makes your sims visit other sims houses? i tried downloading it but there are multiple files and i dont know which one to use. instructions are confusing :( please help if you can!

Hi! I use that mod, but it must have been two years since I really played the game, so I can’t help you with that to be honest! I mean, it also depends on how you want to play it.

Anonymous said:

Hi! I remember viewing a tutorial a long time ago about how to get nice-looking beaches with more sand in hood view, I think it was from criquette (but not sure). Do you know WCIF it?

It’s indeed by criquette. You can find the tutorial here.

Anonymous said:

Not a question but for everyone who wants a new ui experience while waiting for Clean UI, i recommend: -HD UI MTS -Dreams of Blue Glass ui MTS(There's the black glass one but is bootleg af) 

You mean this one? Yes, that’s already cleaner than the original and should still support all expansion packs. Anonymous said:

Hi! I saw your lovely new city skylines and I was wondering if you might be willing to make a themed recolor for historical players using the 3to2 conversions of the roaring heights buildings and/or dicreasy's victorian hood deco buildings? Or maybe an apocalypse version with evanesco's 'ghost town' deco? Sorry to ask so soon, I love your creations!

Hi! That sounds interesting, but HoodPlanner and Clean UI are my last two projects. But with my city skyline it has never been easier to create a custom skyline!

Anonymous said:

What are your thoughts on Chyna getting inducted into the WWE Hall of Fame alongside DX?

I had to chuckle at this question, because I have zero knowledge of WWE. I just love that reaction gif.

sims-2love said:

Hey! I need your help, please! :( I'm trying to download your SEASONAL FIELDS, but seems there is a problem with SimFileShare. When I try to download I get the message: SimFileShare is currently experiencing downtime while we backup and move the site to new hosting. We'll be back soon! :(((( Can you please upload your SEASONAL FIELDS somehow so I can download? Thanks <3

I didn’t want to reupload my stuff since I believe SFS should be up soon, but this is an expection. Have fun!

[worrben]

WooHoo I'm Back

Hey, so basically, I forgot I had Tumblr? And well,,, here we are I suppose?

Anyway just wanted to post a life update sort of thing because doing this on Tumblr works a lot better than say... Instagram. I mean everyone I know follows me there and hardly anyone I actually speak to follows me here? And it's not like anyone actually reads these lmao.

Welp, I got my hair cut and dyed (Its purple,,, which is so very lovely :000)

We had to get rid of two pets due to my mothers horrible allergies and such (Still miss you dearly Sabrina and Cicero)

Started Good Omens (episode 5 b a b e y), and boy am I in love with Crowley,,, and I just adore the name Aziraphale?? Like o o f

July 1st is when I head off for Falls Creek and I'm both excited AF and worried,,, like I hope I don't do the same thing I did last year where I was too caught up with my past relationship to thoroughly enjoy camp? And I want to be more outgoing! And actually do stuff this year!

Uhhh,,, oh! I actually passed freshman year? Which im still surprised by? Like I'm so flipping dumb I s w e a r,,,,

And until I think of more that's all? There isn't any actual big news to be honest... Besides the fact that I'm genuinely happy? I'm slowly getting better and better and I've been working on my problems and trying to overcome them and I'm just... Yeah I'm good

[64-bitsims]

Okay so I’ve been trying to find a job and been having no luck bc small town/no jobs/no reliable transportation of my own and i literally would have to get two minimum wage jobs to pay off my student loans/bills bc capitalist america woohoo.

So my mom knows this girl who works at one of the agencies and I’ve gone to a few interviews... but like.... this girl doesnt respond to my emails or talk to me directly, only through my mom. Its fucking weird and I don’t want to go through her for this reason-- for example, I went to an interview i really wanted the job for and I tried to get in touch w her to get an update (since the interview was in december and they werent selecting anyone until jan) through both the entire building email and her personal business email both multiple times and she never responded. This wasn’t the first time she didn’t respond to me, and the only time she did follow she told my mom but not me that I wasn’t selected. So I’m at the level of just saying fuck this bitch bc that seems disrespectful and weird af to me, but anyways. I’ll call her C just to make following this easier.

They had a one day opening for a receptionist at a shop nearby and C messaged my mom (not me personally) to ask if i wanted it. I agree because I need the fucking money and I cant say no to a job to my mom bc shes already on my back, plus C wont have the chance to ghost me after an interview this time like all of the other times. C told her that I just needed to bring in my IDs and my bank info if I wanted to set up direct deposit (which Im not worried about bc its one day and i have one of those online bank apps so I just take the pic of my check and it automatically deposits) either today or tomorrow bc I’d be working friday. So I go in to give C my IDs etc, and the girl who ended up helping me (who wasn’t C even though she was supposed to do it bc thats what they do there, you work with one person so they get all the bonuses and stuff the company offers for placements.) she wouldn’t come out of her office to do it, so this receptionist had to do it and had no idea who i was or what i was there for.

So the receptionist takes my IDs and makes copies or whatever for their information and has me watch this training video on safety, then she says “do you have time to do a drug test today.” So i pause and responded, “my mom has a lot of things on today, she brought me here while she was doing other errands so I’d need to ask if we could stop somewhere to do that. I wasn’t told that I needed to get that done so I wasn’t prepared to do so.” (here most companies make you go to an urgent care to get it done and my mom was going into town so it wouldnt be impossible, but i was supposed to babysit for her while she went so we’d have to restructure the day-- not a big deal but i never agree to anything without talking to her first bc she can be a kraken.) The girl helping me said, “well you just have to get it done before we can set up your direct deposit,” and i said oh well I just want the paper check anyways bc my bank is through an app and id just take the pic of the check to deposit it. she looked at me weird and said “you have to have direct deposit set up within two weeks of starting work” and i was like ?????? I’m only working for a day??????????? and then she realized what I was there for and like... because C has this issue with talking to me herself for whatever fucking reason this other girl seriously thought i was trying to get out of taking a drug test or some shit, and you could tell that was what she was thinking.. And then to top it off when I left she said “have a good day tomorrow” so I had to go look at the messages my mom sent me between her and C to make sure it was FRIDAY LIKE THEY SAID ORIGINALLY and not tomorrow... like i fucking hated C before this but she seriously made me look like a druggie fool to this rando because she a) wouldnt come out and do her job herself and b) didnt tell this girl I was coming in and what i needed and that she was going to happen to be busy at that point so she’d have to do it.

like. maybe im making a big deal about it but i was livid lol. 0/10 would not use again.

[myescapediary]

Month Update:

Ok so update about JZ, we don't speak at all anymore. I was cool w J and hung out couple times and spoke daily, even ft at times. He came on our “anniversary” and got me a spooky basket, that let me say I fell in love with because it was so thoughtful. Okay so fast foward to halloweekend, I was supposed to hang with Mel her cousins, libi and tagged J along. The night didn’t go as planned, me libi and J ended up in jersey city. However, the boys were nearby and ended up tagging along with us. J got mad af and we argued and every since, shit changed.. Ok, we moved past that after we spoke and we were cool but he was very distant.

On Nov 11th, towards the night he called me on ft and started to tell me about some girl he met and been talking to. Mind you, he will always pl=rank me to get a reaction out of me. So there goes me not believing him fully, he's talking about her and just describing her and stuff, as he's speaking I honestly don't know how to feel, i'm in disbelief. He then tells me that she knows about me and how that no matter what he wants me to be apart of his life and that she understands that which is very fucking unrealistic like cmon now. Anyways, i'm like yeah sure bcs like I said i still didn't believe him. Towards the end of the call he tells me how he's going out and he's going to be with her so he will talk to me the following day and i didn't care much bcs I was going out too. 

Mind you, I don't even want to go out but im like let me go to clear my mind and not overthink at home. I'm out with Alexis and his boys, drinking and trying to avoid my sadness. It's almost time to leave, I check my socials and I see him post her on his snapchat and instagram... people are texting me and showing me at that point i start crying in the fucking bar like a dumb bitch so I tell alexis we had to go. I'm hysterically crying as we walk to the car and i'm just in disbelieve and in so much pain and anger. So I text him a paragraph on how we cant be friends and he automatically calls me and is texting me to pick up. 

The following day, i decide to say that one of my friends sent that message to not show I care and we move past it, but mind you im hurt af and crying all day lmao! So whatever, he's very distant and I seen him post a snap obv him out w her at bdubs and so I text him how I felt and expressed all my thoughts. The conversations turns into an argument ofc, we then talk on the phone the following day and agree to be friends.. we continue to text. 

It's now friday the 18th,  and I wanted to see him so we make plans to out that night to ashford, he picks me up and i saw him texting leo lmao. Did phase me so it killed my mood so i was quite as we drove there, you can feel the tension and the awkwardness between us. He's on his phone more than usual when were out and it bothered me and all i was thinking was her. So he then keeps looking at me and it's making me mad and I wanted to just cry and tell him i want to get back with him when i really don't but i can't stand the fact he's willing to try with someone else. So, I then ask him for us to go home, we get to the car and I asked him where does she think hes at and he laughs and said tbh she thinks i'm out with Carlos, that made me so angry and upset i laughed turned to the window and started to hold my tears. He then asks me why im acting like that and why are we talking about her when we were supposed to just enjoy the night together but I just can't. So I started telling him off to leave me alone and that us friends is not a good ide and he then gets upset and starts arguing with me but i'm not even saying anything i'm just mad and still in disbelief. I then get home and i'm just crying ofc. I text him and tell him that i'm sorry the night ended the way it did but I just can't. He still avoid the no longer friends part and tells me i won't happen again and i told him to not worry about it and that i don't want to know about her and that that's it. He then texts me today, nov 20th acting like everything is ok and asking how i'm feelin, he then takes hours to reply, i replied 6:42pm and it's now 9:41pm and no response.. I am lost of words,. 

Nov 20th, 2022

9;41pm 

[introvertedaces]

Thoughts on 19 days update,,

First of all, I wanna apologize for not actively updating on my thoughts. So, I'm gonna post on both the recent chapters! (Yay /nervously finger guns/)

Please read all the way!

Chapter 240 & 241

Guanshan admitted that He Tian, Jian Yi, and Zheng Xi are his friends! My heartue can't handle this. I mean, for someone like GS to openly admit to his father or parents (in general) that he has friends seems kinda huge to me. Cause like... I don't think he actually considered the people he was with before as friends. It seems more like an acquaintance thing. (Maybe except the botak guy.)

Botak means bald BTW. HAHAHAHHA.

_(:з」∠)_

I know this was supposed to be sad and emotional, hits you in the feel and stuff but fuck. "who can hold up the sky like father"

WHEN I FIRST READ IT I'M LIKE:

Yah mean this ah Mo Guanshan? HAHAHAHAHA FUCK ME SORRY I TOOK IT LITERALLY. LIKE HOLD UP THE SKY?

"I'm holding the sky, everyone, please take this chance to evacuate!!!"

"Someone please carry that stupid dog off of the damn road!"

"YOU MOTHERFUCKS WHICH PART OF MY INSTRUCTIONS DID YOU NOT UNDERSTAND!?"

Sorry not sorry

_(:з」∠)_

How to be a worried boyfriend step 1:

Reject offers from em bitches.

Step 2:

Be subtle about who your boyfriend is.

Step 3:

Accidentally makes it obvious who your boyfriend is. "A little short tempered."

He Tian hasn't used up all the gay in his system.

Okay She Li is kinda handsome. Like. Okay.. Very handsome. How dare he be an asshole yet have such good looks. 凸(-_-)凸

I mean honestly.

Heart eyes motherfuckers

_(:з」∠)_

XIXI SAVAGE. SAVAGE SHOULD BE YOUR MIDDLE NAME. On a side note, their relationship is so cute even my ice cold heart can't handle it.

Okay it's like 1.19am here and IM SLEEPY AF SORRY I CAN SAY MUCH ABOUT THE NEWEST CHAPTER. I DEADASS FALL. ASLRRP. YYPING.

Okay I need my sleep.

\( ö )/

See ya on the next update!

[takisouba-works-blog]

FAQ

1. What tablet and software program you use? - I use an ASUS Transformer Mini T102HA mainly if i am away, but at home, i prefer using my Wacom Intuos Draw because it obviously has better accuracy and input and the grip is much more comfortable. The unnatural feeling of drawing is worn off a bit.

2. Sexuality? - I am cis male, unfortunately straight but is kinda bi-curious (tbh idk xD)

3. What brushes do you use?

this one’s for sketching

this one’s for painting obviously lol

and here’s for my flats

4. Art requests? - Depends on my mood

5. When did you start drawing and how did you get into it? - I started drawing when I was like a child and I kinda took it seriously when I was 14 (Early 2017) Summer time specifically.

6. What happened to your old name, TonzuStark? - Actually I have decided to put up Takisouba as my name instead of TonzuStark because it was way too unoriginal (every bit of the name is stolen ugh) and so to be original and to give myself a real brand, i used takisouba instead. It sounds cute and all + i love yakisoba. Plus i was in my Japanese era quite that time so a lot has influenced me, including my favorite artists on Twitter.

7. Who are your favorite artists? - Actually people who inspired me are seen very evidently on my works. Those are Kuya Japh (Japhers), Elentori, Nanban319, Daisuke Richard and Zukich.

8. Do you sell prints? Yes i do sell prints on my RedBubble! I'm kinda annoyed though I can't change it forever ugh, i'm stuck with tonzustark.

9. Artist email? - takisouba@yahoo.com - this email is supposed to handle commission requests, business inquiries and such.

10. Do you do commissions, how's your system? Yes i do digital art commissions! My payment method is PayPal and the process of stuff is that I sketch for you, if approved, you'll pay the whole price, i'll finish the piece and send it afterwards, 

11. Have you gone to an art school before? - no not yet, i'm self taught (which is so hard tbh i slack off a lot)

12. Are you Filipino and how old are you? - i'm 15 when i wrote this and yes, i'm from Manila.

13. Why are you dumb? - tbh im uncultured af idk how the world of artists work i just draw and stuff 

14. Much more proper art portfolio please? - here's my Instagram

15. Any process videos? - none yet so far my pc is garbage

xx this shall be updated soon

[jeonbase]

are you following any good yk fics right now? im always looking for updating ones to follow but im so darn picky, i have such a hard time finding ones that i really get into. ty for your hard work!

aah thank you 💖

i don’t really read uncompleted works that often, i’m also quite picky with what i read so usually i like to wait until it’s completed so i know what i’m going to be reading but also because i like to read chaptered/series stuff all in one go so i add it to my read later list or leave it open in a tab and read it all when it completes but occasionally i’ll find a chaptered fic or series that captures my attention and i’ll read it as it updates (like i did with RTT series and what i do with CMB and others)

as for the ones that i am reading: 

moonflower by xiajin

“of course it is!” she says cheerily, and jungkook can hear his dad’s voice yelling in the background too. probably scolding junghyun. “does it look like it’s about to fall in on itself?”

jungkook eyes a piece of broken brick on the floor. “well, yeah.”

“then that’s it! oh, don’t worry about what it looks like, baby. they put a glamour over the front to make sure no one would pay attention to it - it’s got some serious security measures. all you have to do is walk in!”

that makes more logical sense, jungkook supposes. “if i die, mom, just know that it’s your fault.”

(au, fluff, plant boy kook, necromancer yoongi, friends to lovers, slow burn)

note: aaah i’m really loving this so far

color me blue by xiajin

yoongi wonders exactly what in the world went through his head when he decided that he wanted kids. like, what. what.

(domestic au, fluff)

do it like me by xiajin

min yoongi the cop… gets feelings for local housekeeper aka neighbor who’s cute af

(au, jeongguk centric, fluff, cop!yoongi, housekeeper!jeongguk, social anxiety, implied/referenced incest, child abuse, hints of a character with obsessive compulsive disorder, ptsd)

how to be a heartbreaker by namoo

Jungkook has four easy rules to follow but Yoongi only has one heart.

(au, explicit, smut, heartbreak, top!yoongi, bottom!jeongguk)

engrained in decaying brain by baekhyun (baruna)

Yoongi says, “Wow, you are… annoying.”

“Thank you.” The human-named-Jungkook says, curling a lip confidently. He looks Yoongi up and down appreciably, gaze hooded with intent. It’s totally obnoxious, and Yoongi ignores him in favor of inspecting the dimly lit laboratory. A pause. “So, you a new student here or something?”

(au, vampire!yoongi, streampunk au, explicit content, murder, top!yoongi, bottom!jeongguk)

these last two are fics that i’ve been meaning to actually start reading and keep up with updates but i haven’t had time:   

falling petals by colorfulhedgehog (drama20geek12)

Every flower shop needs a cat.(or Yoongi finds a cat-hybrid)

(au, florist!yoongi, cat!jeongguk, light angst, past abuse, hurt/comfort)

note: sigh y isn’t cat/kitten!jeongguk appreciated more

bloodsuckers and mutts by night1black2

In a world where both werewolves and vampires live, it’s obvious they won’t get along. However life has other plans for these two and they just might have to do exactly what they despise: work together.

(au, vampires, werewolves, abo verse, forced/arranged marriage, one sided yoongi/jimin, dom!yoongi, top!yoongi, bottom!jeongguk)

[21ate]

im debating this bc 1.20 does seem really cool but the biggest bummer is that netherite is gonna be harder to get

like idk ik the netherite armor trim is gonna be found in basically every chest in bastion remnants so at least that part wont be a rarity, but man i havent even found a bastion in the world im Currently playing ;_; mining for ancient debris and turning the scraps into ingots is already annoying enough, now ur telling me i gotta wander around Hell itself to find a bastion with an armor trim just to upgrade my armor to netherite???????

tbh i do understand why this decision was made (netherite is strong af and isnt supposed to be easy to obtain) but i wish they had just implemented the armor trim mechanics at the same time as the netherite update. at least then i wouldnt feel like im being stolen from >_>

HOWEVER...cherry blossom biome. archeology. sniffers...next update has a lot of other cool stuff id enjoy

if ur interested in joining my server lmk what you think???

i still want to do that minecraft server but im wondering if i should do it now or just wait until 1.20 comes out

[svtbiasrekt]

Being Married to Jeonghan...

ok so imagine being married to Jeonghan

I imagine him to be a super dorky husband

and a lil cringey too lol

like he’d wake you up in the mornings with a kiss

or a boop on the cheek

he’ll keep poking you until you wake up annoyed and you’re like “ughhh jeonghan let me sleep” 

and he’s like “good morning lol” and plants a kiss on your cheek 

aaaaand he’s already made your morning

the two of you would probably make breakfast together since its kinda your thing

like you would alternate days on who gets to pick the meal for breakfast

“i want pancakes”

“nooo jeonghan its my turn to pick we’re having waffles”

*pouts*

he ends up loving the waffles and wants to make them everyday and it starts to get old and you’re like wHY 

anyways

you two would always reserve weekends for dates

you two do all sorts of things

like go to art museums or gardens or parks

or the typical movie and dinner

but its always an adventure with jeonghan

like when you went to the garden for a date

it was his idea to take aesthetic pictures of each other

and boy did those photos look amazing

you two looked beautiful among all the flowers

and for your birthday

Jeonghan pretended to forget and you being your naive self really thought he did lol

but before you could get all sad and stuff jeonghan surprises you and hands you a collage of all the aesthetic pictures the two of you took that day.

you cried i mean i would too because its freaking jeonghan being a sweetheart

and as he hugged your crying form he did that classic jeonghan smile and it was so pure

sometimes you two would get into deep late night talks

and it was really comforting to know that you both could rely on each other to be shoulders to cry on

one night the deep talk somehow got to the topic of kids

jeonghan admitted he kind of felt scared about being a father

and you’re like don’t you have a bunch of kids already aka 17

he’s like “yeah but that’s different”

“what about Chan?”

“true but you know like a kid from me and you”

cue a blush from you

he blushes a lil omg so cute

and you’re like “i guess we’ll have some whenever we’re both ready”

and he’s like “are you ready?”

“...yes”

“whoa really????”

“yeah and I think you’ll be an amazing father. You’re just underestimating yourself.”

he thinks for a bit and he’s like “sure why not lol”

that was an aju nice night

soon you figure out you’re in fact pregnant

jeonghan kind of fangirls

“OIWEFSNKNRGJ IM GONNA BE A DAD”

“YOU WERE TERRIFIED TO BE ONE LIKE TWO MONTHS AGO”

now that you’re pregnant jeonghan is more protective of you

he tries to look out for you as much as possible making sure you’re safe and well

sometimes he’d make the members look out for you

one time you went to victoria’s secret cause you thought you grew a little bigger

and you saw the best sight ever

chan awkwardly standing and being surrounded by all these bras and panties and a blush spreading across his face

you burst out laughing in the store and everyone stared and once they saw who you were laughing at they stared at chan

chan: i uh um *runs out store*

you tell jeonghan what happened and he dies laughing too but remembers to remind chan not to be awkward and that he is always his first baby

a few months later you find out the baby’s gender

its a girl!!!

both of you freaked out in happiness

jeonghan wanted to go baby shopping after that appointment

you guys ended up buying a bunch of cute smol baby clothes

and a crib

you two basically bought an entire nursery

jeonghan suggested the nursery be painted rose quartz and serenity

and you’re like hell yeah

and that nursery is the most aesthetically pleasing nursery ever omg

then the baby shower came

all the seventeen members were invited of course

they made the event fun and there was even a karaoke machine with all of their songs

 you’re like i love this song

ahem

so they brought gifts

Seungcheol bought a car seat. what a responsible dad

josh got a smol seventeen onesie aww

jun got a mini version of that carrot costume he wore on ofd omg

soonyoung got a cute lil hamster plushie with 10:10 eyes and said its supposed to remind the baby about her fav uncle

wonwoo got a smol version of that plushie with glasses that was supposed to be him in aju nice era and said that the baby will end up liking this gift over soonyoung’s

jihoon got a soft blanket with seventeen’s logo on it with a matching bib along with a seventeen poster to hang up in the nursery

seokmin got a bunch of baby toys so the baby would never be bored and stay happy like him :)

mingyu brought a bongbong plushie that was probably about the same size as the baby once she was born! 

minghao bought a mini kermit like that keychain he has along with a smol baby sized sunglasses. he told jeonghan to make sure she dabs in them

Seungkwan got a baby t shirt that said “seungkwan stan”

hansol got a stitch stuffed toy

chan got a onesie that said “jeonghan’s baby” to clarify that he is not his baby when in fact his own daughter is

you gushed at all the gifts so much that your hormonal ass started crying

“aww dont cry (y/n)!” said jeonghan as he hugged you

the members copied jeonghan and you all ended up in a giant group hug

you were so thankful though 

then the day finally came

your water breaks!!

you’re like uhhh whAT DO I DO

so you scream for your husband

“y/n what happened?”

“uhhh my water just broke???”

“oh. OH!”

you two make it to the hospital and you felt like you were dying

so you decided to take it out on jeonghan

you squeezed his hand so hard you were surprised when it was still attached to his arm afterwards

anyways your daughter finally arrives!!!

yay!!!

and jeonghan is smiling but tears are flowing down his face

it was a beautiful sight

a tiredly attractive crying smiling jeonghan holding his tiny newborn daughter for the first time

you cried too

then the baby cried

but omg you both fell in love with your daughter

you two agreed on naming her (d/n)

and seventeen fanboyed when they saw her for the first time

jeonghan was so protective omg he would make sure they were holding her right 

the nurse took a family photo and even one including seventeen

those two pictures are framed in (d/n)’s room!

when you both came home jeonghan didn’t expect to lose so much sleep

he’s normally sleepy af and he’s even tireder with his beautiful daughter screaming at 3 am

he’s a secret gentleman so he tells you to go back to sleep when she starts crying

just because you two are parents doesn’t mean everything you used to do is on hold.

you started continuing date nights after (d/n) was a few months old and trusted seventeen to babysit her

you and jeonghan always took family photos

and the both of you were obsessed with your daughter

matching family outfits happened often

one date you two decided to go to the aesthetic garden and recreate the aesthetic pictures except this time you each held (d/n)

and for jeonghan’s birthday you gave him a collage similar to the one he made you except it included the updated pictures with (d/n)

he was so happy omg

overall a happy marriage

you two ended up having another kid and it was a girl this time too!

the both of you watched them grow up 

aww

and as time passed, you and jeonghan loved each other more and more each day

honestly jeonghan is the cutest husband

and funnest

god i love him