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genuinely fascinating to me how much trent reznor's works deal with constructed realities. both in terms of literally constructed as with the add violence/bleedthrough concept but also in terms of politically constructed as with the year zero concept of control of people within the state etc etc (obviously in a more liberal understanding of it than would make for GREAT media as opposed to just good but. you take what you can get.) and by genuinely fascinating i mean it makes me want to gnaw on drywall
#kris.txt#like whtever i know solipsism is an alienated mode of thought but the realization that there is#an overarching system#which in some ways has created your modes of thought and that you must start to examine#in order to break free from it#is genuinely just very good to me#n if it comes in the aesthetic trappings of solipsism slash realizing the world is an illusion or whatever#ill still take it as long as it bangs hard#and you know what. it does#nin
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one of the wild things about people’s stubborn insistence on misunderstanding The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas is that the narrator anticipates an audience that won’t engage with the text, just in the opposite direction. Throughout the story are little asides asking what the reader is willing to believe in. Can you believe in a utopia? What if I told you this? What about this? Can you believe in the festivals? The towers by the sea? Can we believe that they have no king? Can we believe that they are joyful? Does your utopia have technology, luxury, sex, temples, drugs? The story is consulting you as it’s being told, framed as a dialogue. It literally asks you directly: do you only believe joy is possible with suffering? And, implicitly, why?
the question isn’t just “what would you personally do about the kid.” It isn’t just an intricate trolley problem. It’s an interrogation of the limits of imagination. How do we make suffering compulsory? Why? What futures (or pasts) are we capable of imagining? How do we rationalize suffering as necessary? And so on. In all of the conversations I’ve seen or had about this story, no one has mentioned the fact that it’s actively breaking the fourth wall. The narrator is building a world in front of your eyes and challenging you to participate. “I would free the kid” and then what? What does the Omelas you’ve constructed look like, and why? And what does that say about the worlds you’re building in real life?
#ursula k le guin#omelas#There are so many ideas in this story that simply do not get engaged with!#I’ve heard it argued that a central element of anarchism#as a political philosophy#is the expansion of the imagination: what is truly possible if we forget the structures we are raised in?#if we forget what we have been told is or is not possible?#le guin wasn’t an anarchist but her work is heavily inspired by anarchist thought#Also the idea that the compassion of citizens of omelas is possible only because they are able to see themselves in relation and contrast t#the kid#very interesting stuff there#arguably a searing critique of moderate liberals#who feel compassion from on high but rationalize the ways in which those who suffer cosmically deserve it#in order to maintain structures of suffering#This short story is breaking the fourth wall Constantly to grab you by the collar and ask#what do you think is possible in the world and what do you think is good and what do you think is necessary#If you want to free the kid then what! What does that mean!#ALSO if omelas is a place being constructed as an idea#are the ones who walk away meant to be literally deserting a place#or are they rejecting an idea#hmmm much to think about
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es rarepair week 2024 day 1 | AU/future
lil ghostic au of mine!!! yuzuru and the rest of fine are long since trapped souls in an abandoned mansion of which rst come across while looking for shelter during a storm :] it doesnt um. particularly end well
#doodles#duck scribbles#es rarepair week 2024#midoyuzu#yuzumido#i Was gonna do the stardew au but then it made me kind of sad. actually this is even worse in that aspect but im in a mood#enstars#midori finds his diary of which details the life of and events leading to yuzuru and the rest of the residents' deaths and w it slowly#becomes able to see/interact with (to an extent) yuzurus spectre himself#midori takamine#yuzuru fushimi#ghostswere initially rather aggressively hospitable in order to keep lost strangers there to eventually die and become a lost soul like the#but most w time grew to just want to be freed and be able to pass on in peace. more hostile ghosts become vague wisps of what they were bef#ore once theyve lost their tether to humanity but those with a strong will still have more control and effect on their surroundings somewha#yuzuru specifically was determined to maintain the mansion and has for decades and maybe centuries kept it orderly hence the clarity of his#spirit!!! having been one of those hostile spirits himself before has moved on to gently guiding guests away from the more dangerous areas#and assisting them so as to ensure their safe leave#they look for a way to break the curse on the mansion together so as to free all their souls!! unfortunately for midori she fell in love w#someone who has long since died 👍#the lil ballroom scene was a funny thing i dreamed about a while ago actually. i like to think watarus ghost put on some music unprompted#oh and since the rest of rst is also there technically you can expect chiaki is Not having a very good time#ghostic au
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Deity Jester Wei Wuxian AU because I really like it I don't CARE if you guys have no taste (/silly). What a shit ending to that last one was though, I was obviously some form of deluded with that ending. Jesus CHRIST. When Wei Ying returns to Master, he is furious. He wants to kill him, to rip him apart slowly and remind him that although he may hold the key to controlling him, Wei Ying can still fight back. He already has, once. It was a minimal, small struggle, one that had seemed to tear him apart inside, but it was enough. A sign that he does not need to resign himself to being forced to complete Master's every whim and want. It's what fuels him to pulling the poor wood that hides a room off its metal bindings as he enters Master's space, feeling that familiar tug in his chest that usually signals a transformation, but he still can't free himself of this cage of flesh and blood so he can only growl in frustration. Master is lounging in that pathetic chair of his, obviously having been waiting for him to enter, lips pressed against that damn instrument and already playing the tune that leaves him feeling separate from his own body.
At first, he can ignore it, clinging to his body - it's so heavy to move it, so heavy in a way it hasn't been since the deaths of his mama and papa - and dragging himself forwards towards the man himself. But, there's something about this melody that feels different. It seems to echo, reverberating around the room and thudding into his mind every time it bounces off a surface; it hurts, every thud another rip in his control, until he can no longer keep himself in control. He doesn't even hear the orders that Master gives him, but can only watch and vaguely feel himself moving somewhere, doing something, but then it all goes dark. He can't think, can't move, can't open his eyes. He just. Exists. It feels almost similar to how he existed after being chased out of his home when his parents had died, hidden beneath a tree and clinging to his mama's cloak as it rotted in his hands. He wonders if this is what death is like.
Wei Ying's master, known to most as Wen Haoran, moves in to take the throne after he is sure that all other competition is gone. The monster took care of all of them, but the way it had refused to attack the children had him worried. However, they were dealt with, it was dealt with, and now he can easily take over command of the country. The commoners cannot do anything, and it is easy to pit the old court loyal to the previous crown against one another with carefully placed pieces of 'incriminating evidence' that ties all of them to him in some way or another. Rumours and whispers, letters and bribes, all linked back to him in some way or another, falsified to suit his purposes. The infighting weeds out the weak ones who come begging for his support a few weeks in, the strong ones who end up swarmed as more 'evidence' piles up against them, and the smart ones. The ones who merely pretend to bend to his will. They are dealt with swiftly, leaving his control of the throne secure.
History unfolds from that moment, time passing as Wen Haoran's rule marks the start of Wen control of the country, rules doling out to become more and more oppressive as time goes on. Nobody can explain how he gained the throne, can only speculate while he tucks away the ancient, mould-ridden text that holds a short, vague passage on the monster with the melody that summons it. While he doesn't want anyone else to learn about his methods for his takeover, he wishes to ensure that future generations of the Wen also have the knowledge in case they need to summon the monster. It's stupid enough, it won't even recognise them considering it didn't even know his name, so it can be utilised again as long as the melody is played by them. So, he creates an inner library, hidden within his chambers (the chambers of the ruler), that holds all of the secrets his family should need to know to keep control of this country, one that is finally taking shape to be a truly great place. It is a secret that is passed down from ruler to ruler at first, but one that fades with time, until eighty years have passed and Wen Haoran is long dead, with Wen Ruohan on the throne.
Wen Ruohan is unlike his ancestor in that he is outwardly cruel. He is power hungry, a maniac that cares not for appearances - the Wen have been on the throne for this long, their power is practically absolute, and everyone has grown complacent with the treatment doled out to everyone within the country. Whatever the Wen ask, you do, or you face certain death. Rumours flit around that they are using dark magic but honestly, none of the rulers are even aware of the secret room within their chambers and, even if they were, would not think to find any sort of magic present in their ancestor's work. Wen Ruohan is just evil alone, he does not need any cursed magic or object to taint his mind. A clear indicator of his cruelty is when he asks the prestigious families to send a son into the palace so they can learn their roles; they can do nothing but send them over despite their fear and mistrust of this tyrannical ruler with his equally fucked up sons.
It's not long before these boys from prominent families have different tasks doled out to them that seem to mock the individual family's greatest pride - Nie Mingjue is placed as a Duizhu (captain of a company), meaning he is working with woefully less soldiers than he usually would, an insult to his expertise of battle. Jiang Cheng is now a fisherman for the Wen, supplying them with the best fish - an insult to the family revered for their trade and control of the waterways. Jin Zixuan? A retainer for Wen Chao, who delights in ordering around a member of the family that poses the most threat with their almost natural talents of politicking and charming all those that cross them (well, until you talk to Jin Guangshan, of course). And Lan Wangji, the one to willingly go to the palace so that his brother could still be the heir of the Lan family, a scholar dedicated to documenting the illustrious history of the Wens and whatever strikes their fancy, spitting on the Lans' own well-documented, impressive history and their unparalleled scholarly arts.
Lan Wangji despises his place in the palace, forced to sit in the library every day and read through pages and pages of the Wens' lies, writing down everything that could be deemed even remotely important to the Wens so that he doesn't have to go back and read through them if he misses something. This task is not straightforward even with his length, because every time one of the royals ask him to research something else, he must stop his documentations of the Wen to learn everything about the subject asked until he has enough information written down to appease those that have asked for it. It's long and tedious enough already, and every time he has to pause, it adds more time to what he has to do. It gets worse when he realises that there is vagueness around the beginning of the rule of the Wen - something that Wen Ruohan will not tolerate if he is presented with it, forcing Lan Wangji to ask for more resources on that part of history.
Coincidentally, a servant stumbles across the secret library while cleaning the room, having done the impossible and accidentally knocked a statue resting against the untouched books in the study. They look inside, assuming this is just another part to the library of the study, and dust off all of the books - they notice two books in particular - small, handbound. 'The beginning of the Wens' and an unnamed, mould-covered book. They don't think much of it, just remembering that that blasted Lan was asking for more resources on the former subject and so grabbing that without much thought to go give it to the Lan, then grabbing the mould-covered book just because it will surely be a pain in the ass for the Lan to decipher. They leave the hidden library, being sure to reset everything after they're gone, and go to give the books to the Lan. They honestly assume that the other inner servants know about it, so they don't mention anything as they deliver the book to Lan Wangji, who practically glares down at it as he opens it for more bullshit to be delivered.
#deity jester wei wuxian au#honestly I didn't know I'd write this much for this hahaha#I sort of got distracted by Ancient Chinese military ranks#I didn't want to put Nie Mingjue too high up#having him as a Duizhu means that he's only really in charge of around 100 to 250 people#nothing compared to what he's used to within his own family#and he doesn't get to be involved in any battle strategies - which is for the best because he would totally ruin all of their plans#Jiang Cheng is basically just a fisherman#he's gone from dealing with complex trade routes to sitting around and grabbing fish all day#some people would enjoy that break - Jiang Cheng is not one of those people#Jin Zixuan may have the shortest end of the stick here because he basically has to follow Wen Chao around all day and follow orders#Lan Wangji is going stir crazy let him out of the library he will go fucking INSANE he neeeeds to be free let him out let him out let him-#I accidentally made myself like Wen Haoran because he's just a deceptive bastard who genuinely believes he's in the right#he doesn't want power he just has a fucked up sense of morality and thinks that commoners should not be chummy with the rich and respected#he thinks that he's making the country better through his wildly oppressive rules#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#mo dao zu shi#mxtx mdzs#mdzs au#mdzs#wei wuxian#wei ying#lan wangji#lan zhan#wangxian#nie mingjue#jiang cheng#jin zixuan#wen ruohan#wen chao
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Deltarune snuck back up on me and I just wanna say. I fucking. LOVE Susie Deltarune. I love her inherent, core design. I love how she's entirely free from us. I love how she doesn't take orders. I love how she's learned to ACT entirely free of us. I love that she hates Ralsei's philosophy of Darkners existing entirely for Lightners. I love that she teaches him to ACT (even if he doesn't want to). I love that she's learning healing magic and is, slowly, absorbing everyone's abilities to be a better Lightner. I love that she cares so much about shit being fair. I love that she pretended to be this big bully but the moment someone thought she was cool she melted. I love that she didn't bully Noelle over a fucking pencil.
What a great example of autonomy in video games. She really feels real, you know? She feels free in this game of text boxes and silly goofs. She's the greatest butch lesbian rep I've ever seen. She's not bound to anyone- she doesn't even follow the player's hand. She just loves everybody a lot, deep down, and she's not afraid to put her life on the line for someone who doesn't act like she's gonna put them six feet under, and that makes her a hero who keeps trucking right along on this path alongside the person we've enslaved.
#Deltarune#Video Games#Susie#Character Analysis#Falc talks#I can't accurately describe it I just. I love her so much#It would be SO easy to find her frustrating in any other context#A video game character that DOESN'T follow your orders all the time. Who constantly breaks free from the group. Who triggers long cutscenes#But it's so earnest and striking you just. You can't help but find it CHARMING#Fuck. God. Chapter three soon please.#It's the Miss Piggy Effect
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so how exactly did the evanuris bind themselves to high dragons to create the old gods. wiki says the source on this is solas during weisshaupt. i guess i need to play weisshaupt again .
#also the second sin was the evanuris trying to get the magisters sidereal to break them out of jail right. we can agree on that right#they spent thousands of years whispering to neromenians and tevinters in their dreams. dirthamen taught thalsian blood magic in order#to spread word about the old gods and encourage worship. the evanuris taught the ancient tevinters magic and helped them grow more powerful#all for the end goal of developing mages strong enough to free them from solas’s prison#we can agree on this right. i’m not crazy#god i need to finish that post digging into thalsian#eliasposts
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⌨️ Fears to Fathom?

THESE LOOK AMAZING.
Well, definitely not the price tag, but that's just because I'm stingy. These are incredibly cheap for standalone games. This still looks like a great series of games I'd love to play!
Alastor, I imagine, would like horror games, but definitely not the mainstream ones. He would have a distaste for the mascot horror genre specifically, and then the fact that horror games often rely on jumpscares. The fact that this series has the experience relying on true horror, things that inspire fear naturally, is something that would be a breath of fresh air for him.
Ask meme response.
#0rangesoda1012#I love indie games like these#That break away from the current standards in order to do something different#Even something as small as this is something I love#I am unlikely to play LA Noire but I am going to be downloading the free Fears to Fathom game tonight#and playing it sometime over the week#If you want to see my thoughts on it after I've actually played it#Just say so#I'll ensure to make a post when I'm done#mod answers#video game ask meme#ask meme response#hazbin hotel#alastor#alastor the radio demon#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin alastor#alastor blog#ask blog#alastor ask blog#roleplay blog
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Shadow Wolf Mask

dream lore in the tags if you're interested
#グウェンの日々の絵#Shadow void creature from my dream#We had to fight in my dream.#We did not want to fight but it was summoned under contract and as a shadow void spirit、it could not disobey orders#eventually i managed to defeat its summoner after much effort and difficult combat that tested the limits of my skill#and the wolf was free from the hostile order that she gave it#unfortunately it was still bound to form a barrier to me and had to stop me、if not by attacking me#we exchanged our last words.#I thanked it for its loyalty.#it thanked me for freedom.#I placed the tip of my blade on the mask#said a final goodbye#and drove my sword through the wolf's wooden mask#breaking the summoning seal on it#art#my art#daily art#traditional art#doodle#I did go back to this point later and changed my actions to let it join me#overriding its current contract#so in the end I had the mask as an artifact I could use to summon the shadow wolf's tail to envelop me in darkness#which let me phase through enemy attacks、I assume#I don't know how it functioned because my dream ended after I asked it to join me#But I know that I wore the mask on a belt over my lower back and that the shadow wolf's tail would come out of it#I slept for 18 hours if it wasn't obvious
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Every day I get closer to making an unhinged behemoth of a post listing all of the things about Kaeya and his possible connections to mythology & stuff that I notice but NOBODY ELSE SEEMS TO BRING UP IN THEIR THEORIES
(edit: OMG I reached the tag limit I'm so sorry)
#genshin impact#kaeya alberich#the unhinged behemoth of a post would also include all the reasons I DON'T think Kaeya is up to anything nefarious#if I see 1 more “kaeya will betray us” or “kaeya is allied with the abyss” theory ISTG I'm gonna break something#also WHY. WHY IS NOBODY AND I MEAN NOBODY MENTIONING THE POSSIBILITY THAT#EVEN IF KAEYA IS WORKING “WITH” THE ABYSS ORDER#IT'S AS A DOUBLE AGENT?!?!!?#LIKE HE'S GETTING INTEL FROM THEM FOR THE PURPOSE OF FEEDING IT TO THE KNIGHTS OR TO DILUC OR SOMETHING#AND HE'S ALSO STABBING THE ABYSS ORDER IN THE BACK#IT'S A SNEAKY TACTIC THAT'S NOT EXACTLY HONOURABLE AND PUTS HIM VERY MUCH IN HARM'S WAY BUT IT'S FOR THE SAKE OF KEEPING PEOPLE SAFE#HOW IS THAT NOT THE MOST KAEYA THING EVER?!?!?#WHY AM I SEEMINGLY THE ONLY ONE THINKING ABOUT THIS?!?!?!#I FEEL LIKE I'M TAKING CRAZY PILLS#also why is no one bringing up Kaeya's possible connections to king Arthur???#I mean HELLO?! secret possible royal lineage raised as a ward/foster child/adopted child of a noble family alongside an older brother?!!#and why aren't more people talking about Kaeya's connections to Lord Krishna???#again spirited away from his actual family to be raised in another family alongside an older brother figure who has less chill than him???#not to mention peacock feather imagery and being pitted against an evil uncle#if you believe that Clothar is Kaeya's uncle rather than a direct ancestor#there is so much more I could bring up and I'm not even an expert in any of this nor am I the best at research#but I should probably save those for an actual post#plus I don't want to flood these tags more than I have#I have so so so many things to say about Kaeya#he lives in my heart rent free he makes me feel and think so much he is truly the most beloved of all my beloveds#truly the blorbo of all time for me#if even 1 person expresses interest in all my theory-esque thoughts on Kaeya I will have won at life#this is an invitation guys please ask me to talk more about kaeya
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So the Seraphim only take orders from certain people they've been programmed to follow (namely the Vegapunks and the Gorosei), but also they do take orders from individuals who possess an authority chip. Between that and the knowledge that the Seraphim are cyborgs, it makes me wonder...
Like, do they have somekinda control chip installed somewhere in their bodies (brain, spine?) that acts as the thing that forces them to follow orders and not act (too much) on their own will? 'Cause would the existence of an authority chip, a thing that essentially "sends out orders", not also imply the existence of something that recieves the order (like other than their brain) and forcibly puts it into motion? Something similar to whatever visual scanner+database combo Vegapunk installed into Kuma that allowed him to instantly recognize certain people and whether or not they were enemies or allies to him (at least as far as the WG thinks)
'Cause if so, like. I wonder. Could you remove that chip and basically free the Seraphim from being just borderline-mindless flesh robots?
In that scenario... what would they become?
Because, like, we don't know how much Free Will the Seraphim even have, how developed their minds are? Are/would they be fully functional human beings (if immature because they're still kids) who have just had half their mind essentially turned off so they don't think about anything else except following orders? If you freed them from the WG's control would they be able to live and function freely just like Stussy's clone can? But when being under that kind of control is all they've ever known, would they know how to function? Like what do you do, where do you go, who do you become? Who are you to begin with, does that even matter? What about your relation to the person you were cloned from, what does that mean? Are you doomed (🐊🦩🦇) or expected (🦈🐻🐍🦅) to become just like the person you were cloned from? Do you even want that? What will having that kind of freedom to do and become whatever you want even mean to someone who has never known what it means to even want something for themselves?
(But also, depending on who you were cloned from, would people even trust you enough to allow you go free and live your own life, or would you be deemed a threat by simply existing because you are the clone of a horrible, heinous person?) (Of course, we know existing is not a crime, and no one is born into this world a criminal. But we also know the World of One Piece does not always think this kindly)
#Moon posting#OP Meta#Also how likely would it be for S-Croc to have removed his control chip on his own because he didn't want to take orders anymore#Like I doubt he'd try Brain Surgery on himself so it'd have to be like. Relatively accessible to him. Surely. Like somewhere on his spine#Probably not on the outside though ala Raimi Doc Ock. Like it'd still probably inside the flesh#I'm just saying if there was any particular Seraphim who'd seem The Most Likely to break free from the WG's control#I'm sorry if I'm incoherent I think I caught a cold lmao#Like I'm thinking about poor S-Bear and like. On one hand I'd love it if he could get along with Bonney and stuff#But also like S-Bear is not Kuma. He shouldn't even be considdered Bonney's (step) brother like they don't have to be family or anything#So imagine if people's expectations of what S-Bear should be like based on Kuma were projected onto the poor angel#Or the expectations of becoming Honorable Powerful Men was forced onto S-Hawk and S-Shark while knowing they don't compare to the OGs#Because they're ''just clones''. So they can only ever exist in the shadows of their DNA donors#Or the Naughty Boy Gang being doomed to become horrible nasty people who will massacre and oppress innocents for their own gains#I'm just. The Seraphim are so INTERESTING. I'm so curious about them
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hey splatoon fans who came across my stupid ramble post and are somehow still here
should i make a domestic au for these two enby canon-bot lovers
its gonna be like
really fluffy, really sweet, really cute
might be a bit angsty at times
might introduce 2 other characters in there (they're just normal inkfish lol)
might sometimes get writing help from yall (aka i will call upon you every 2 chapters maybe)
sorry for the shitty drawing btw i can definitely do better but apparently i regressed into my 2020-2021 artstyle for that /j
#side order#splatoon 3#splatoon#parallel canon#splatoon fanfiction#splatoon fandom#splatoon 3 side order#splatoon 3 expansion pass#fanfic#please please please#i will give you corokia fanart of your faves i find as payment for your service#might be called something like#“Canon Divergence” or another clever nod to breaking free from order idk
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my sillies
#fate grand order#agravain fgo#breaking into lasengle hq and freeing him from their basement. youre safe now my beautiful freak
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Congrats on YuseKeto mag cover!!!!!!!!! We are so winning this month!!!!!!


IDK WHAT I DID FOR ALL MY DREAMS TO SUDDENLY COME TRUE?????
the way i wouldve cried just for a spread and first natsunatsu then KETOSOTA and now yuseketo on COVERS???? the magazine gods really looked at fanta (and me) and said i choose tHEM!!!😍😍😍😍😍😍
now my hopes are going go get out of hand what fanta pairing are we going to get on a cover next??? it feels like anything could happen orz
#asks#shigezane#fantastics from exile tribe#fantastics#kimura keito#yagi yusei#jr exile#jpop#fanta mgz#fr what is happening what did i do to suddenly win all this good karma#i had barely dreamed of getting a yuseketo spread in a magazine bc how could i?? we needed a vivi sponsored sns battle to get yusereya#and we got sekatai spread and om suddenly like. what if we got sekatai cover. now it feels possible when i never wouldve thought so before#the world is our oyster👀👀👀👀#give us a leiyataso cover gimme gimme gimmeeee#a leyaketo cover????? now im going to get out of hand they cannot give me hopes like this give me the WORLD#aaaahhhhhh tonight i will sleep so soundly dreaming of how i will display them all on my shelf🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#ketosota and natsunatsu are in the mail and now i get to order yuseketo🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#(insane person that spends way too much money on jpn magazines)#(i am crazy but i am free)#(give me leyaketosota cover pspspspspsps)#today i am traveling for work and went to take a break in my hotel room and saw this and battery went ⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️
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Why can't I find the lore of Mikal and Kaden's parents? I know for damn sure I did not delete it.. I was going to use that to retcon the whole Mikal dying bit and add how he survives but still makes it a crucial turning point for Kaden (and subsequently Kaden and Kylo's relationship/Kylo himself.)
I hope it's in my external somewhere... I hope I didn't do the whole "post it directly to tumblr" without writing it up on a WordPad first.
#I want to work on lore but there's a lot. I would love to have my post about Mikal and Kaden’s parents as a nice little starting point.#You heard correct. I have lore for Mikal and Kaden’s parents and what led Kaden and Mikal to work for the first order#and then eventually in time flee the first order and 'switch sides'#It goes from a bad time line to a good time line.#one where eventually Ky is able to break free from the order.#with the help of Kaden and (sometimes) Mikal.#because we pretend we don't see the horrible end of TROS in this house. (Kylo dying)#and we DEFINITELY don't have none of THAT SHIP™ here. my canon is it plays out pretty much the same WITHOUT the bad ship.
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Second day of moving... done!!! And now all my furniture is in my new apartment!!! I still have a lot to do with rearranging things and sorting thru boxes and unpacking. And also going back to my old apartment to Finish packing and moving everything I didnt get to before. But it's already been pretty nice staying in the new apartment. I got the internet set up today, and it's working great! Also went to the grocery to pick up a few more essentials. Let the cats out finally, and they've been having A Time poking around and being SoScared. But they seem to be relaxing, bit by bit. Hoping they'll come sleep on my bed with me, rather than just coming and visiting.
Tomorrow, I wanna finish arranging my furniture and take a trip to my old apartment to do a carload of packing and moving boxes. Gotta pick up some more boxes first, but that's no big deal. Also wanna look for a new shower head while im there. Idk if I'll buy one yet, but I took my first shower at the new apartment today, and while I love the shower itself, I do NOT like the shower head. It's like... got a weird empty spot right in the middle??? It seems like a shower head for tall people. Not for me. But ive already been told that I can change out the shower head if I like, so I wanna see what stuff they've got at home depot...
I also wanna go bowling. It's been nearly a week. And ive been so busy and stressed. I deserve a bowling trip. Assuming my body doesnt hurt too much tomorrow for it 😂😂
#speculation nation#theres like a billion and one things to do with moving. while furniture moving is the most brutal and intensive thing#it is nowhere near the most time consuming of it all. assuming u have help for it and all.#in addition to all the stuff i listed up there. i also wanna thoroughly clean all of my furniture too#dust it. sanitize it. vacuum. carpet cleaner it (for the fabric things).#i let my apartment get to a pretty awful state before and it shows on my furniture.#already did some vacuuming for the worst of it. like the fuckin. spider egg sacks on the bottom of some furniture pieces...#no spider eggs on my furniture Now thank u... i will be vacuuming regularly and getting into all the nooks n crannies#oh yeah i also wanna vacuum my whole apartment. had to have ppl with shoes on in here for moving stuff#bc it rly isnt reasonable to ask them to take off their shoes in the middle of carrying furniture in#especially since theyre doing such a big favor for me. also foot safety with moving big things around lol#so i sucked it up. but i REALLY wanna keep my apartment shoes-free for the most part#so im gonna vacuum the floor too. maybe use the carpet cleaner on the most traveled areas. idk.#the thing about the carpet cleaner tho is that it's just the little hand-held brush thing. small area.#so anything i clean with it is very hands-on. which makes cleaning big areas Hard.#but it may be worth it for some things. at the very least im gonna carpet clean my rugs i brought over.#i did vacuum them but im gonna vacuum them again and then carpet clean them bc they got ROUGH back there#theyre the big rugs so i cant just toss them in the wash. but they got dust in them still. i saw it when i plopped them down.#winced at the lil cloud of dust that came off them. and that's AFTER i vacuumed them thoroughly back b4 moving tjem#*them. they r just so so dusty. everything in that apartment was.#but i can already feel the difference being here. with the dust. and the clarity of my brain.#still so tired so im not doing any brain stuffs tonight. but it has me hopeful for the future.#still got So Much to get done. but once things calm down... then yeah#i may be regaining my ability to write with relative ease. pls pls pls pls pls.#wouldnt it be crazy if the reason i went from writing 70k words in 3 weeks to like barely breaking 30k in a Year#is bc of the Fucking Dust. and a previously unidentified allergy. which would explain why my ability to focus on writing got worse and worse#shrug. im hopeful!! gonna try my best. still gotta get my apartment all in order first tho. 🙏🙏🙏
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the awesome meal i'm having in the back
#XDD#some bring whole delicacies from home or order from the foodcourt outside#but bruh i don't like eating when working for some reason#i always bring a humble snack#since today i had a 15 and a 30 break i brought a gluten free muffin and these cheese puffs#awesome and healthy#NFNJSNFHSNDBS
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