#insta-distraction

[not-a-kaleshi-saanp]

When it's exam season and that one insta notification keeps bothering you:

kya karu kya na karu ye kaisi mushkil haye~~

[ashoss]

could you do steph brown with high fashion?

back on my grind

[emioliravioli]

women in suits women in suits women in suits women in suits women in suits women in suits women

[ohmigoshiloveu]

Okay so like. I still haven't managed to get myself to finish episode 9, so I don't fully know how Theo's glow up finishes, but regardless I fucking love relistening to Emizel's section of episode 1 and like. Fuck man Theo does a lot of growing. Like he's a little bit pathetic at the beginning of the series. He's so, so brave during the alleyway fight, but he sounds shaky and scared and like a sopping wet pathetic baby the entire time. Charlie specifically describes him as not very alert, not a great fighter, and gives him this little moment where it takes him a second to manage to crush a soda can. He botches the check to beat Emizel in Smash Bros so there's a chance he sucks at the related skills (dexterity and computers I think?), but also after he loses Charlie specifically has him sound super frustrated and conclude that he should've 'stayed in his lane'. When Emizel says 'We'll do what we do best,' and Theo immediately responds with 'drink soda?' so fast that the other players notice it. Charlie might've had that as a predetermined character thing. Theo drinks soda. There's not much else to him.

Which creates this interesting dynamic between him and Emizel, because Emizel is so much better at him at all of these skills that the people around them (a FUCKING GANG) value. Emizel's perceptive, and agile, and strong, and a great fucking fighter irl and in videogames AND he always sounds badass. He's the top dog, the apex predator in their social circle. And I think that colors their relationship a lot? Like Theo has to look up to Emizel. I bet that Theo's looked up to Emizel since they first met, maybe Emizel came crashing into his life doing something epic and Theo thought it was the greatest shit ever.

On the flip side, I was getting a few hints of resentment? Hear me out! It's that 'should have just stayed in my lane' line. He's painfully aware how great Emizel is, compared to how much he's (from his perspective!) just a one trick pony. He's here to drink soda and say funny things, that's all most people want from him and he fucks up whenever he tries to do anything else!

And later in the segment Theo snarkily brings up a medicine check that Emizel had just fucked up in like this super backhanded, super passive aggressive way. That could be him wanting to rub Emizel's one singular fuck up in his face (especially because Theo was having a Moment about how he feels like people only see him as the soda guy, so any feelings of inadequacy would've been dialed up to eleven, so if there was any time for him to resent Emizel it'd be then), but it could also be that he was frustrated with Emizel being an ass (Emizel had just guessed that Theo's dream was to be a nurse, which was flat out wrong, and that's literally what set up the backhanded comment. Theo was saying something like 'thank fuck you don't wanna be a nurse cuz you sure fucked up with nursing that guy earlier.' It could also be that Emizel literally almost forgot Theo's name. Theo literally gave him the 'th' sound, it might've just been a bit Charlie was doing or it could've been Theo being AWARE that Emizel almost forgot his name. Or! It could be that in this moment, where Theo was confiding in Emizel about feeling like being the soda guy was all anyone ever saw in him, Emizel said something to the affect of 'well yeah Soda's the fun one.' Emizel doesn't think before he speaks and literally has a 1 in empathy. Just because he loves Theo doesn't mean he's not gonna blunder into being a complete and utter asshole to him. I'd hazard to say Emizel accidentally being an ass to people he cares about is a running theme).

But also all of that might come down to Charlie still getting the character down. Or, because I've theorized before that Theo might not've been supposed to survive the first Gabriel fight, the little hints of bitterness might've been intentional (even if they were completely improvved and Charlie didn't mean to add that to Theo's character) because Charlie was trying to shove as much character into this character before he was gone, but once it became clear that Theo was going to stick around longer he dropped it. As far as I remember, that bitterness is completely gone in all later interactions we see with Theo. OR! It could be that the bitterness drops because they've both got bigger fish to fry from that point onward, what with Theo's Shilo Incident TM, Emizel's vampirism, the Weylin twins. He doesn't have time to be bitter, he's too busy worrying about losing a cornerstone of his identity or helping his best friend adjust to being a fucking vampire now. And then after he learns to live without soda that basically negates his feelings of inadequacy- like, getting over the idea that he's nothing if he's not the soda guy would be required for him to give up on being the soda guy. And then Emizel would drift back into JUST being a guy to aspire to instead of also being a reminder of Theo's short comings, and then drift even further down into being 'guy who is actually going through it and has to overcome his own demons just like I had to overcome mine'. Like, I think we got to watch Theo slowly start to take Emizel off this pedestal in real time (he still definitely thinks Emizel's hot shit tho. Emizel's his boy, after all.)

Regardless, even if Theo did resent Emizel a little in the beginning, it's so fucking clearly overshadowed by how much he fucking loved him. And like, how could he not? Imagine you're Theo, critically low self esteem, and the literal coolest guy you know fucking LOVES you. Like, Emizel keeps consistently going out of his way to pull Theo up to his level and to treat him as an equal (mostly. Sometimes protectiveness bleeds through, like in his hypothetical fang scenario in ep 1 where he predicts there being five Fangs to fight and he says he can take three and Theo can take two (which in itself is still incredibly kind to Theo. Like, boy, you thought Theo was gonna be able to take out two whole guys? Hell no.) But that could also be chalked up to Emizel just being a cocky ass who wants to show off). Like dude, c'mon. Emizel might be a reminder of everything that Theo's not, but he's also probably Theo's biggest cheerleader. He wholeheartedly thought he was being supportive when he said he thought Theo'd make a great nurse! In all seriousness, though, even if it ultimately discourages him, Theo playing that Smash game against Emizel was at least a little bit of proof of him decidedly not 'staying in his lane,' and Emizel seems to inspire that! Later in that segment he challenges Theo to see which of them can break one of the Fangs kneecaps first! I bet Emizel challenged him to stupid competitions a lot, and that got Theo fired up and competitive in return!

And even when Emizel's not building Theo up, he's still giving Theo special attention, or readily receiving any attention Theo gives him. If nothing else, even at his lowest points that might've made Theo feel cool by association.

On Emizel's part, I think he's like, possibly completely oblivious to any turmoil Theo's going through? Like he thinks Theo's the shit and genuinely sees him as an equal. I'm 99% sure that Theo being his right hand man happened because Theo would've put himself into the role (in episode one before he gets all of his character development he's pretty much always looking to Emizel for what to do, and still more or less does whatever he says up to where I'm at in the series, with refusing to leave the alleyway being the only exception I remember). I think if Theo'd had higher self esteem or been less eager to defer to Emizel, Emizel would've happily gone about his business slotting Theo into more of a partner role. He tells Theo to run from that alleyway because Theo'd taken a fucking devastating hit and Emizel was sure he could handle himself, not because he knows Theo sucks at fighting. He tries to turn Theo into a cool vampire. He convinces Shilo that Theo'll be a valuable asset to raiding the Weylin warehouse and they take Theo with them instead of having him stay behind with the car like Grefgore, despite Theo being the one who actually knows how to drive. He tells Theo about being a vampire even though he keeps it a secret from everyone else, confides in Theo that 'yeah he might absolutely be susceptible to going into a frenzy like Shilo did.'

When you get down to it, Emizel pretty much tells Theo everything he would think is relevant, with two notable exceptions. Maybe three if you count him not telling Theo he has nine lives like a cat but tbh I think he might've just forgot. Or maybe he gets to it later, or maybe he did tell him and I forgot! idk man! But! Those other two things. First off, he like. Pointedly does not tell Theo that he's a prince. Like when they were doing the recap on the way to the Weylin warehouse, there's like. Charlie gives Condi an opening to say it, a little 'is there anything else?' and Emizel just. Doesn't. And the second one is that (at least where I'm at) Emizel never comes clean about bloodbonding Theo. Maybe it just hasn't come up yet, but still. It fits a pattern of Emizel not wanting to admit something that makes him, like, ABOVE Theo somehow. He sees Theo as an equal, and a precious one at that, he doesn't want things to get weird between them because he's literal royalty, and he doesn't want Theo's life to literally revolve around him like it would under a level three blood bond- and doesn't want to admit that he even considered it, even if he did it without really understanding what it was.

And Emizel backing off from ghoulifying Theo after Arthur explains what it actually entails kinda leads into a far more headcanon-y relationship analysis thing so um. Feel free to skip the next paragraph.

So! Like. Why the fuck was Emizel so attached to Theo being Soda. Like he gets over it decently quick, cuz that's his buddy and it's what Theo wants, so like. Whatever. But like, if I'm right about Theo always looking up to Emizel from the moment they met, there might've been some wiggle room between when they first became friends and when Theo became Soda. And like, before Theo became Soda, being Emizel's buddy would probably be the only thing he'd feel he had going for him? Which would've made it even harder for Emizel to get them both on equal footing, and I think that's just... really unappealing to him. Like! Don't get me wrong, I'm sure Emizel loves having people kiss up to him and respect him and blah blah blah, I just think Theo being his boy and Emizel treating him like a partner go hand in hand. Either they weren't best friends yet or Emizel was just. Kind of uncomfortable and eager to push Theo into growing into something more than a hypeman. And then the soda incident occurs, and it gives Theo SOMETHING to define himself by, something people like him and know him for that's got nothing to do with Emizel, and maybe the initial soda incident was bad, but having that sense of identity and falling into what kind've feels like a class clown kinda role might've helped get Theo over his self esteem issues long enough for Emizel to go 'oh you're actually super cool. sweet.' and then blah blah blah they get super close like they are in canon. And then whenever Theo seems like he's backsliding into what he was before the soda incident, Emizel tries to course correct not because he doesn't think Theo's any fun without soda, but because he's made the mental connection that Soda without soda turns into less of a best friend and more of a follower, which as stated before he probably really doesn't want from Theo specifically. but idk. pure conjecture here.

Anyways, above all else, Theo's important to Emizel. I really, really like the idea that Theo was supposed to be like a brother to him (which. Again pointing at my 'Theo was supposed to die in episode 1' theory, can you IMAGINE the angst Emizel could've had about that? Lose one brother and then someone else claiming to be your brother shows up? It would've felt like some hellish, not-worth-it trade. Like a betrayal, like accepting Shilo might mean replacing Theo, and how could he ever?)

And Emizel's important to Theo! But unlike Emizel (who I'm 99% sure is gonna have some kinda moment with Theo but I genuinely cannot see him loving Theo in any other way than the way he does now), Theo has the bonus of having his view of Emizel have a clear trajectory to evolve over the course of the campaign. Like I said, he seems to be getting more confidence in himself and like, not gonna get into the stuff I've had spoiled beyond episode 9 but it seems like Theo's gonna get a lot more comfortable being a proper leader and not just a number two. He's gonna have an easier time seeing Emizel as an equal, and I think that's fucking awesome!

I could be completely off base, but if I never watch another episode then I'll never be proven wrong. So. Ya know.

[internationalteaparty]

Deb's last show is live after oscars and idk which year its supposed to be but if its right after oscars 2025 it means you see cynthiana perform + hand kiss then afterward you see deborah vance (a woman) profess her love for her head writer (a woman) and stand her ground and im

[twstgo]

jamil standee here to witness the passage of time add another year to my life

[razmerry]

1 straight shot of the horrors at midnight is not what I ordered but alas in this economy…..

[thevampirecrow]

you know it's bad when you're wanting to make a new set of ocs and a new world setting and an entire new thing. HELP. i want to write mt sci fi thing and i do love it but i also need surreal dream fantasy okay i can have both

[syoish]

sorry if this is annoying.. I suspect you may be getting a lot of asks about it, but I'm a fan or your merfic and I'm wondering if we can expect a new chapter anytime soon? no rush whatsoever- please, the creative juices flow when they flow, and don't when they don't, I'm just wondering if there'll be a date of any sort? If not, don't worry about it!

Thanks so much for the message! It's lovely to hear from people who like that fic <3

As far as updates go:

Soon? Sadly, no.

Eventually? Thankfully, yes!

Nerdy and I FULLY intend to finish that fic (and we have the rest of it plotted out) we've both just fallen out of Omori recently. She's been obsessing over that magical girl... thing, and I got really into Attack on Titan. Between our different hyperfixations, her wrapping up university, and the two of us getting busy with personal life stuff (she's moving in with me hehe~ so we've been busy setting up our love nes- *gets shot by Nerdy* setting up our HOUSE).

All in all though, I'm doing the bulk of the writing for that fic and my adhd doesn't let me write shit unless I'm SUPER inspired, which doesn't happen without a hyperfixation.

I love that story. Nerdy loves that story. The story deserves the ending we have planned for it, I just need to take a break to get lost in Attack on Titan for a while.

Hearing that people care about an ending does really help with motivation though, so please stay tuned and fear not - the mermussy will return!!!

[teamdays]

also i havent been very active as of late regardless because um. idk. bored. but le therapist has recommended to try and do a socmed detox until my next appointment in like 2 weeks so im going to try my best to be Offline until then. byebyeeee 🦭

[pirunika]

collecting the yellow eyed girlies ✧*｡ am i missing anyone

[dollar-store-sparklez]

i miss dominion smp :(

[yoohyeon]

I miss you all and I wanna come back, but the minute I’m back here I sigh and close the app I just can’t 😭 but I hope you all know :

[eowylesbian]

instagram is down and my addiction is Showing

[sleaze4sleaze]

Can I share a funny insta reel? I was cracking up before the sadness hit

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[yuu-kumeii]

Yuu yuu darling I'm coming with OC ramble

Idk what man I'll give to Koizumi 🧍🏻‍♀️like I wanted to do a cute sketch type of thing and I was like..... Which of all the men that are in this universe I'll give to her

And now I'm STUCK cuz I already choose Tendou to be her bestie and I don't know which couple dynamic I want to shoooow

I'm whining as if I don't have anything more important to do buy AnYwaY

Hope you're having a good day/night 💙💙

OMG NAT HIII 💞💞💞 🥺

OC RAMBLES GIMME— 🤲

Honestly same with the nothing better to do thing like I never have anything to do 💀 everyone's like 'omg I'm so busy with uni/my hobbies/my partner' while I'm like 'I...did stuff today :)'

Okokokokok ANYWS choosing a mans is so hard I get it 😩😩😩 like I was lucky with getting Yuna a mans bc Kuroo just manifested right before my eyes on the sketch and I decided to roll with it 💃💃💃

But like idk either mannn 😔😔😔 Like I legit thought she was already with Tsum tsum 😭 BC IMAGINE OK KOIZUMI 'MASTER PHOTOGRAPER' AND MIYA 'PLS LOOK AT MY STOLEN HANDSOME FACE' ATSUMU 🥺🥺🥺 I'm getting ahead of myself but like AAAAA— OR like best friends to lovers with Tendou idk 💆‍♀️💆‍♀️💆‍♀️ finding solace in the one person you hold close to the point where you can't imagine them with anyone else 🥺🥺🥺 BUT I do have like so many ideas for her dynamics esp with photography like 💞💞💞 the polaroids, the videos she'd have of just everyone and their shenanigans, OH OH Imagine her going through the pics with her mans and him going "Oh wow so you DID get my good side :)" 😭😭😭 So many ways to do this omg 💃 And YES PLS GO MAKE A CUTE SKETCH I'LL BE HERE IF YOU NEED HELP 💅💅💅