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i just have this sick deep desire to be loved and cared for, its some crazy shit tbh. some diabolical stuff
#im saying this dumb on purpose but i rlly do just#fantasize abt being a Specific type of person#idek how to explain it#i want . to b. cared for at my core#and i am loved!!! i do not live a loveless life#its just different in my head#i want Me! Me REAL ME real me inside me to be cared for#the little helpless part of me that cant help being the way it is#the worst of me#is that selfish. maybe#im thinking abt my hs bestie that i reunited with today as i type this#i just want to tell her everything i hope she wants to tell me everything#i hope u will still love me too#minnie post
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i don't want a nonchalant relationship; i want to be obsessed over. i want to be the only thing on her mind all day long, i want her to put me above all else, i want her to love me endlessly and hopelessly, and i want to show her that very same obsession.
#this would fix me#i am nothing in my soul if not obsessive#and maybe a lil selfish too. just need someone all to myself#wlw post#lesbianism#lesbian#sapphic#wlw yearning#wuh luh wuh#wlw#princess thoughts#obsessive love#i wish i was your girl#lesbian yearning#yearnposting
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If I hear one more time how Buck is making his emotions about himself
#BOBBY DIED#maybe he should be making his grief about himself!!!#I know buck is not perfect#and he’s made mistakes#and he’s complicated#I have had problems with eddies character#but im so over this#buck is too much buck is too emotional buck is too selfish thing#anyway I need to get my thoughts in order im just ranting ato#atp#bucktommy#911 abc#evan buckley#911 spoilers#oli posts
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TUMBLR LEGWND ITSDEIFNITLEY ALSO DRAWS SANDERS SIDES?!?!???
i dabble
#sanders sides#remus sanders#janus sanders#id in alt text#definitely art#(patton voice) now what did we learn#sigh. don't rewatch selfishness v selflessness + the redux and working through intrusive thoughts first thing in the morning#i couldnt find a good reference for their bottom halves and i didnt want to spend too long looking for one. so i improvised#i designed a more flashy cane for janus i just didn't want to draw it. maybe he was focused more on mobility than style. who knows#i didn't want to shade this. or like. put too much effort into this because it was a warmup#so if you see imperfections. n. nuh uh. no you don't
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finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using
#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for?#open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer)#maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel#once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs#i respected their commitment to the theme#but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities#dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton#ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered#i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it#aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment#honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet#letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already.#really i've put off my responsibilities long enough#(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings)#(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time)#(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.)#(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)
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Made in the Image of Bill
Closeups of the quality gets roasted (just like bills family) ->


#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#silas birchtree#silas birchtree fanart#gf bill cipher#bill cipher fanart#bill cipher#BRO I LOVE SILASSO MUCH YAYAYAYAYAYAYAHAHAHAGDGAHAVAAAA#YAYSGDHSHSGAHAAHAHAHA#ROTTING CORPSE#I LOVE IT SO MUCH#HOT TAKE MAYBE BUT THIS IS A BETTER VERSION OF MICHEAL AFTON#I LOVE THSI SO MUCH BROO#BILL#PEAKED HERE#BILL LITERALLY PEAKED WITH SILAS LMAO#also I love this his name means forest so it’s like a birch forest#Minecraft reference oh my gooodd#ANYWYAS#YES#ILL STAND BY THIS AND DIE ON THIS HILL#I FULLY THINK THAT#like bro bill went absolutely crazy#and indulged in every selfish thing he wanted to#HE WAS COPING AHAHAA#like#I just know everytime he reminded his multiple wives that he was the local epic god he would secretly mope about his family#idk maybe the his traumatic backstory beans on my mind too much and now I’m trying to include it into the narrative of EVERYTHING HES DONE#the book of bill#book of bill
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i dont think sae would ever fall out of love with you once he gets serious. neither time nor routine could ever dull his affections, because loving you meant clawing his own chest open to get to the battered and vulnerable heart he'd kept hidden behind walls of sea-rotted boards for years. he fought for that softness, for the ease and surety of having a love that's returned, brittle edges and all. there's no way in hell his heart would ever stop bleeding with want and pure affection for you. that's just not how he's built
to begin, being in a relationship with him isn't easy. he knows this. he's made you cry enough times in the beginning to carve a resolve to never make you cry ever again for the rest of your lives together now. sae will always be grateful for your patience and persistence, for not giving up on the two of you (on him) when he already had so many times. for all his effortless cool and nonchalance, he's a messy adult with even messier feelings and a tongue sharp enough to keep almost everyone right where he wants them: at arm's length. his words cut like burred steel and the hurt that comes with them always fade into scars people resent him for, but the fact that you still persevered and met him where he stood, even when he refused to meet you halfway, means so much to him. he'd never be able to put into words even if he tried, so he shows it by doing his best to be a better man for you every day instead
he loves your routine. loves the life the two of you have begun building together. loves the simple reassurance of being able to kiss you goodbye in the morning and kiss you hello in the evening. loves the press of your body against when he goes to sleep and the warmth of breath against his collarbone when he wakes up. loves brushing his teeth next to you and running his fingers through your bedhead to try and tame it. loves having you sit with him in the kitchen while he fixes a quick snack for both of you. loves when you're chatty. loves when you're quiet. loves you when you're sweet on him. loves you when you're pissed to hell. loves when you're all cleaned up and gorgeous, dressed like you're his to show off and adore. loves when you've got sauce stains on your shirt and dressed for a night-in of crappy reality tv and gossip where you talk and he just listens
he loves that simple life. even when you stress him out with your antics sometimes and your own messy feelings make you listen to your insecurities instead of him, he wouldn't trade it for the world. not when you've looked at him and all his mess and decided he was still worth the effort. you've met him where he refused to budge so many times, so he has no problem pushing against his own anxieties and fears to find you when you get too lost in your own head
he's come so far from who he was in the beginning of your relationship and he's proud of that. sae's still a little difficult sometimes, especially when it comes to your health and comfort (two things he refuses to compromise on; he wants a future with you and won't let anything, not even your self-destructive habits, get in the way of that), but he doesn't hide from you anymore. when you've seen the worst of him and still offered the best you could in return, how can he ever do anything but love you forever?
#yelle.txt#i have a genuine fever rn so im coping with the sae loverboy agenda#ive said it before and ill say it again: sae's the type to love once and for forever#once he falls for you. that's it. You're it for him#love him with all his mess and he'll love you with all of yours#his love starts off conditional bc i think he is inherently a bit selfish like that#but over time he learns to be selfless with love. in love. learns to love you without expecting anything in return#it's a bit of a rollercoaster but hes the kind of guy to have one great love for life#bit toxic at first bc. poor communication skills + shitty defense mechanisms on his part#and you yourself arent some perfect saint. you have your things youre going through#but it works out#love's funny like that#and sae will always be so thankful that it did#even thinks that maybe all the luck he's never had as a child was saved just for the privilege of being able to have you#man hes so whipped its crazy#bllk.txt#itoshi sae#bllk x reader#itoshi sae x reader
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When they break up Regulus obliviates James so he forgets everything of their relationship, the moments they shared and the love they fostered and grew. James goes on life with a missing piece of his soul and he doesn't really understand it. That is until on his last night at Hogwarts he stumbles upon the mirror of erised and he can't for the life of him work out why when he looks through it he sees Regulus Black of all people standing next to him, smiling like he's never seen before, and looking at him like he's hung every star in the sky.
More than anything he can't work out why waves of grief pass over him the longer he looks at it and why he feels like he's missing something he can't ever remember having in the first place
#i dont even like the headcannon that reg obliviates james i can't see him ever doing that#like im sorry i love reg but that boy is selfish when it comes to james and he would never want him to forget him#the only comfort he has is that somewhere out there james loved him maybe not now but he did and they both experienced it#but... yknow angst#jegulus#regulus black#james potter#the marauders
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two sides of the same coin
#itadori yuuji#ryomen sukuna#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#my art#jujutsu kaisen fanart#brainrot incoming (pls don’t mind me)#one thing sukuna and yuuji have in common is that they’re both absolutely miserable#sukuna is utterly selfish and yet it only made him hollow inside and now he’s just killing time waiting for death to come#yuuji is completely selfless and yet it’s only made him suffer and bc of that he’s been constantly trying to check out of life#and I think the funniest but also the most painful thing about these two is that…#despite that they’re vastly opposite they might be the only people that can understand each other the most#imagine them having a heart to heart lol maybe then they would realise some things about themselves
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I think the two most obvious foils for Ludinus Da'leth across all of Critical Role are Essek and Keyleth, which is both fascinating given how different those two characters are from each other (Essek being a foil in terms of isolation, single-mindedness, harm in the name of ambition, knowledge, and other such wizard themes; Keyleth being a foil in terms of people who have lost something at a young age to the gods and bear resentment for it, political leadership, belief that the world belongs to mortalkind, and longevity) but also it's extremely funny that they both are the partners of Liam's character.
#i could write like a longer piece about it but that kind of sums it up#like. hm. how do i put it.#the thing about essek is like. he like ludinus made some IMMENSELY selfish and harmful choices#but the timeline was SHORT all things considered. ludinus didn't REALLY get going until hundreds of years post-calamity#and he expresses NO regret whereas the vibe with essek in 2x97 is that he's kind of hated himself ever since#and you know. maybe if someone had intervened with ludinus 400 years earlier he'd have done the same. but who would. does he have friends.#the thing about essek haters who aren't just angry shippers is that they all ascribe to ontological evil and yet don't ascribe it to ludinu#meanwhile keyleth is just like...the scope of her pain is somehow both smaller and larger#and yet she's able to see herself as part of a whole and not the center of the world#the fact that power and long life was much more naturally given or earned by her rather than seized is also i think part of it#but keyleth's speech this past episode in particular...it's a direct rebuttal of ludinus's dumb speech in 51#this can be your world without having to kill anyone if you're willing to work and grow and compromise and grieve#cr spoilers#critical role#ludinus da'leth#essek thelyss#keyleth
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The idea of poseidon only helping percy because he saw athena not helping annabeth is so funny because it shows how messy the Greek gods are like wdym you have a millennium old beef with your niece and the only reason you saved your kid it's so you can say you're better parent than her???
#im sorry to everyone who thinks poseidon did it because he loves percy (maybe he does) but i promise you he was putting his interests first#greek gods are the selfish mfs out there and athena proved that for us they dont care that much#also as i said before even if he did that to prove to percy he doesnt need to do all of that to have his love poseidon still needs to prove-#himself a lot more and it just makes sense for greek gods to be this messy#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo tv show#poseidon#athena
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So you guys ever heard of Will Wood? Yeah me neither.
It was a whole new sound and now it's in Lego form! I finally made another Lego Will Wood set after a year and 5 days! This probably took like a few weeks to make however i am a professional procrastinator so whoops!
More photos and a whole lot of text under the funny line!
Wow look at those guys go! I had a lot of fun designing this though unfortunately i don't really think this set could exist in the real world without some real major changes like most of these parts just straight up exist (no brick modified 1x2 with masonry profile in very light gray!?! what ever shall we do!?) however Studio 2.0 does a button that converts most of the non-existent pieces into real pieces
and it allows you to see how much the set would cost and let me tell you this thing would cost a pretty penny at $1095 dollars and 74 cents. Yowzers that's def a lot of money. My guess is that the minifigures are mostly responsible the huge price. (41 dollars for some olive green pants with black boots!?) Also the fact this set is made up with about 2987 pieces. That also might be partly why.
Anyway here's some more stuff
You can see the top two images as tiny photos in the Better than the Alternative room. Originally the third image would also be included but I thought that one brick with the screaming old man was really funny so Normal Will got left behind. Originally the therapy scene from the Love Me Normally music video would've been part of the main build but I couldn't really find a good spot to put it in so it was scrapped.
i dont remember why Memento Mori Will is sideways. I know it was an intentional choice.
I could only find one version of the night mic logo so I decided to recreate it but really quickly i decided to put my own spin on it instead of trying to make an accurate version. Since it's Lego and stuff I tried censoring it a bit but y'know uhhhh
yeah
I also had the idea to include the documentary crew from the Real Will Wood movie but I had the idea like realllyyyy late so I didn't really have a spot for them so I just opted to include Chris Dunne on the Love me normally section
actually typing this out i probably could've included them in like the hallway on the first floor but oh well
okay heres the characters okay im too lazy to write anymore ok buh byeeee
next post will have some wip photos n stufffffff ok weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
#evilyodaartcool#will wood#the normal album#will wood and the tapeworms#wwattw#lego#lego moc#digital lego#studio 2.0#weee tags#chris dunne#mario conte#mike bottiglieri#vater boris#matt berger#okay buh byeeeeeeeeee#maybe ill do something selfish or eial themed next i dunno#maybe different bands? i got like 3 based off that colorful tie band but they all suck so i never posted em
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69. Panorama — Cool Cool, Jeremy Lister, bergie
Our eyes, they need some new direction There's somethin' lost with our connection And we can't seem to shake this scene This same routine is killin' me This town, it needs a restoration A little sparkly decoration These glossy lives and half-ass smiles keep movin' by By, by, by
Xisuma’s Season 8 has made me certifiably insane and I’m so glad this drawing challenge lets me out of my enclosure to share some of my insanity with yall— dbhc flavored, because of course! <3 This song is actually such a bop, highly recommend it!! It’s pretty early on in dbhc Xisuma’s playlist, representing the uh… Introduction/ Entering The Scene of a certain someone, and it foreshadows the horrific vibes of Xisuma’s season to come. I am so so so normal about this song, I’m positive it would be higher on the list had I found it a little earlier in the year
Although I will say, I was actually really excited to see this song rank at 69 because I knew people would request this number LMAO plus I’ve been drawing so much Xisuma lately so i was super excited to be able to draw and post some of my brainrot finally >:]
#dbhc#dbhc art#xisumavoid#xisuma#hermitcraft season 8#Evil Xisuma#dbhc xisuma#Dbhc Android 24#grgrgrgrrrrrr#for now#um don’t ask about these two I might explode on the spot#ignore the fact also that evil x is in shadow the whole time so you can’t see any of his features DTHJDGGHKCGHN#Definitely a coincidence not purposeful at all mhm#maybe once I finish destruction I can post a little more xisuma playlist art#art escapades#hermitcraft dbh au#hermitcraft 8#Spotify wrapped drawing challenge#dbhc music#if you see xisuma echoing evil x calling him selfish and full of ego no you don’t#This one is definitely looser in sketch form than some of the others but I’m honestly congratulating myself for that DFBJDGHNK#I gotta stop taking forever on these things /silly#dbhc s8
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"yandere evil cycle Clara" this "yandere evil cycle Clara" that, yes i agree, its drawn very well and is very Aesthetic and im so excited to see where this is going but i have a Question-
why is Iruma blushing through most of this chapter-
either Clara's subtly put a charm spell on him (though wouldn't it affect Azz too in that case?) or, he's somehow kinda into this.
i know the first option is more likely but the idea of Iruma thinking the evil cycles are hot is so fucking funny. could you imagine.
#mairimashita! iruma kun#like that'd be CRAZY#...would kind of explain why Iruma's fake evil cycle acts a lil flirty though#like. its a ''hes doing what he thinks is attractive'' kind of thing#would he have reacted like this to Azz's evil cycle too is the question... now im thinking maybe there's a reason Iruma didn't get to see i#THINKING ABOUT IT. ISN'T THIS THE FIRST TIME HE'S /REALLY/ SEEN SOMEONE IN AN EVIL CYCLE#im not counting those who returned to origins in that#cause the difference in those situations was Iruma was actually in danger around Origins people. he trusts Clara and Azz#the thing that's killing me is that it wouldn't even be out of character for Iruma to think its attractive#especially since the story's been making Iruma more ''demonic'' in making him more greedy#since he started off as way too selfless and all that#and the whole underlying arc for Iruma specifically is that like. ''sometimes indulging and being selfish is a good thing''#so it wouldn't even be that WEIRD for this to be a Thing#...also i just really want a Love Trio Polyam development please upgrade from soulmates to ''soulmates who are lovers'' RIGHT NOW
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For this week's Off Topic Tuesday: my shameless plug for Tidal.
I've seen posts circulating Tumblr complaining that Spotify has too much of a monopoly on music streaming, and it does! Part of the reason I switched to Tidal was because I do like to avoid supporting businesses I think have too much of a monopoly in favor of supporting "underdogs".
Another reason I switched to Tidal was because Spotify was having too many scandals for my taste in the content they platform (like allowing Andrew Tate's podcasts on how to traffic women, or Joe Rogan's COVID misinformation podcasts).
And also, as the linked article points out, Tidal has higher quality audio, and also pays artists better than Spotify.
The drawback is that Tidal doesn't have quite as much content as Spotify, for example Tidal is mostly music focused and has very few podcasts or audio books. For me this hasn't been an issue though, I just switched to using Pocket Casts for podcasts, and I'm not much of an audio book person in the first place (but I also know there's better alternatives than Spotify for listening to audio books, some are even through your library and support your local library!).
So if you're looking for an alternative to Spotify, I would humbly like to suggest checking out Tidal.
#btw no I am not getting paid to do this#I just want more people to use Tidal#because if maybe it gets more popular they might start hosting more content like podcasts#always when I shamelessly plug something there is some selfish motivation like that#Off Topic Tuesday#Off Topic#Not blog related#not blog theme
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The Selfish Shellfish AU - Masterpost
Hi! I’m Shanklin Pinington!
Are you sick of sad stories that make you cry over Stan?
Then what you need is the Selfish Shellfish AU! The Selfish Shellfish AU won’t give you stangst. I repeat it won’t give you stangst.
(It gives you stangst.)
The AU
a short summary *
(* = silly stuff that has little to do with the actual AU)
miscellaneous asks
they never visited, oh no why did they never visit?
some thoughts on Filbrick
the adults messed up, now what?
the Stan-o-War
flawed characters and how this AU came to be
what about Gideon?
gleeful about Mrs. Gleeful *
okay, but who killed Filbrick? - read the tags and find out
the ides of march *
happy end in weirdmageddon?
Stan & Ford & much more
emotionless Stan? *
relativity falls meet the shellfishies - now with more Dipper!
dreamscapers
chilling with the multibear
Grunkle Stan and the little shellfish
Stan explodes - with extra sound *
Stan explodes - and he really should
Fiddleford & Stan - or I made myself sad over robots
some fiddlestan
Ford's robot trauma
the one where Stan is mean to Ford
crimes with little Wendy, Soos & Stan
an unsend letter from Stan
Mullet Stan's brilliant advice
Grunkle Dipper and a smol lesson in manliness
the Comfort Anon Saga, aka ENTER SOOS
comfort anon gets jail time *
SOOS! - or the op accidentally writes a fic
roadtrip with Soos but this time there's a Shanklin in a Fez
MORE SOOS!
Stan adopting Shermie, what?
custody problems
Shermie & Stan - or drop the fic anon!
drop it anon! *
the drabble has been dropped! - and now I'm crying
sesame street to the rescue
sesame street but as a drabble!
more Shermie headcanons - and I make myself cry :/
loss of innocence - more anon drabbles
dark wizard detective Ford
old Ford the kidnapper?
-> anon's evil response
-> it continues with experiments
-> they're alive THEY'RE ALIVE
a graveyard reunion [different AU than above]
acab granny
enter the granny - in the reblog part
the great boomer brawl
Shankford
promo pics *
the adventures of the Selfish Shellfish and the Impossible Possum part 1 2 *
fishing for an AU name
anon is way too good at this
op gets bullied into fishing *
op admits defeat *
a fishy selfie *
anon drops an angsty fish drabble
The Sad Selfish Shellfish and the Curious Case of the Deadbeaten Dad * - or we finally have a name!
we have a name, time to celebrate *
recs from the void
a song - something stupid and pretentious *
a song - see that no one's there *
a fic - with 5 parts even *
a song - when it happened to me *
you've come to shake my hand - two song recs but with a little bit extra Fiddleford and Soos
THERE ARE FICS! by
@emiliens
part one and part two
how I killed my father
little selfish cleaner shrimp
-> the great kidnapping *
-> meme meme meme *
-> the rescue mission *
-> songs recs *
@otsalezu
sneak peak
Disclaimer: I only ever meant to post this little AU idea to get it out of my system so it can haunt someone else for once. Turns out I only managed to succeed in one of my goals.
There is no fixed plot I have in mind, just a lot of different ideas and sometimes incoherent thoughts. If you like something you read, you are more than welcome to cherry pick it and make up your own story. Have fun!
#Selfish Shellfish AU#gravity falls#relativity falls#stanley pines#stangst#tw child abuse#tw death#but like it's filbrick? do we really care if he gets murdered a little?#on accident - maybe#who knows what happened#not me
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