#it gets weird and uncomfortable and fetishistic even

[antirepurp]

there's something in that one smurf forums thread where a grown man writes misery porn about baby smurfs that feels to me like one of those things every writer needs to experience but im not sure what im gaining from being exposed to it

[temptresstitania]

if it doesn't sound fetishistic to say you're attracted to people with long hair or freckles or wide hips or dark brown eyes that look almost black, then it shouldn't sound fetishistic to say you're attracted to fat people. If it's not inherently a fetish to say you like people with sculpted backs or toned arms or six packs or small breasts or a coke bottle figure, then why would it be fetishistic to like a soft face with a double chin, or a round stomach, or big legs rippling with cellulite or stretch marks on rolls. you can find a fat person attractive. you can love the way their cheeks press up to meet the corners of their eyes, or the way their arms look, or the way their love handles spill out of their clothes. you can just. like fat people. you can say you like fat people. do you ever think how strange it is? how someone may think you're some sort of "perverse" weirdo for just...liking a body? how strange it is to put these precursory disclaimers of "not to be weird, but", "I don't mean it in that way, but", "I'm not a chubby chaser, but", or "I know it's kind of problematic, but..." could you imagine if it was any other body?

"not to sound like a muscle gain fetishist, but I love women with athletic bodies. It might sound weird, but I love short kings. I don't mean it in a weird way, but I love girls with hip dips."

It would seem strange. unnecessary. one may even assume there is some sort of guilt or fear you're hiding because it's normal to have things you like. it's normal to find certain things cute, hot, sexy.

you can sexually desire fat people and enjoy that they are fat. you can do that.

also, if you genuinely have a fetish (or deep sexual attraction if u for whatever reason are uncomfortable with the word fetish) for something that is found on larger bodies (bellies, fupas, thighs, underarms with fat/breast tissue in them, sagging breasts, big arms with skin that wobbles, cankles), or for a bigger body in and of itself (because I know some of y'all still want to sever yourselves from this), there is nothing wrong with that. people have fetishes for hands and teeth and earlobes and kneecaps and butts and shoulders and calves. what makes their thing any more acceptable than yours? there is nothing wrong with being aroused by bigger bodies.

please do not add tags and reblog this with "except when such and such is involved". I am not bringing those situations up for a reason. do not attempt to pivot this post into a thinkpiece on the objectification and/or abuse of fat bodies, ESPECIALLY if you yourself are not fat.

this is coming from the perspective of a Black person. Namely, a Black Nigerian-American person. Where I come from, there is a cultural, pre-colonial practice of gaining weight (and yes, particularly getting fat) to accentuate beauty. my body was handed down to me lovingly by my ancestors. i love my fat.

and if you love it too, that's okay. ♡

[whereserpentswalk]

You're a cyborg. You didn't choose to be a cyborg. You were so badly injured it was either giving up most of your humanity or dying.

It's pretty extreme. You've lost almost everything. You don't have any of your original body parts left below your neck. You don't even eat or sleep anymore. It's uncomfortable, it feels a lot different to exist in this body then it did you old one, just moving or having things touch you feels so much different. You don't feel like you look like yourself, you don't want people to look at you and see the body you're in now, you want them to look at you and see the body that you once had. You hate the fact that people will see you and see a cyborg before they see anything about you that you'd like them to think of you as. When you walk outside you're in a body that is so hard to hurt, but it feels like you're walking with an open wound, like you are an open wound.

The process was long, and it was strange how you were seen differently throughout it. At your weakest and least built up, you were treated with so much sympathy and warmth. But now that you're fully built up, and all the dying parts have been cut out of your body, people have lost all that sympathy. They don't expect you to still be fragile, to still be grieving what you lost. But at the same time they treated your body as a tragedy in a different way then how you ever could, like you're just a sad reflection of your former self, like you'll never be the person you once were. It's like all your relatives treat your worst anxieties as a sad truth. A freind posted a picture of you celebrating your birthday with them, and someone commented on how sad it is to see someone so young in a body like yourse. And it was literally a happy day for you, and there's something so disturbing about seeing people sad for you when you were having a good time.

People also just don't see you as safe the same way you once were. Even your progressive human freinds, who post things like "no body is broken" don't see you as being as in need of kindness or respect. They just think of you as less of a person. You've literally had someone with an ally shirt answer questions about your needs as a cyborg for you. You've had so many people touch your body without asking, because they don't see it as a person's body, they just see it as a peice of machinery. Just seeing how people touch your limbs is bad, but you once had someone grab your crotch and when you told her she was assaulting you she said it was ok because you don't have reproductive organs. And you understand that she didn't mean to assault you, but it just felt like you were assaulted, and then forced to confront the fact that you're missing those body parts now. Everyone is willing to fight for your humanity on a philosophical level, nobody is willing to treat you like a human.

You tend to hang out more with robots and cyborgs. Your city has a lot of them, which probably makes you safer then most cyborgs. Robots are more likely to be allies but it's not always the case, radroids exist of course, but even a lot of accepting robots think of cyborgs are being "robot-lite" rather then their own thing. Robots and cyborgs are also your only options for dating, a human would either be a fetishist or be afraid of you, and your body is more equipped to be intimate with machines then it is to be intimate with humans. You could even see yourself dating someone whose a bodyless AI. Still, right now you can't imagine someone loving a body like yourse, you're not sure if you could bring yourself to do it.

Your new roommate is a cyborg. More then that, she's somebody who chose to be a cyborg. It's weird to see her excited about getting a body that's less like the one you used to have and more like your own. Seeing her euphoria over becoming more and more like a machine makes you feel weirdly mournful. Like, one part of you wishes you could stop her, wishes she won't lose what you did lose. Part of you is disturbed when she's so excited about these things, disturbed at her choosing to have those healthy muscular arms cut off and replaced with arms like yours. To have her lungs replaced to never take a breath again, and be happy about it, while you feel as if you're always drowning a bit. But at the same time, seeing her so happy about getting a body like yourse makes you like your own a bit more. Seeing her euphoria makes it rub off on you a bit. You can start to think that if she can be happy like this then so can you.

There are things they never tell you about having a body like yourse. They didn't tell you how much different time feels when you can't sleep. They don't tell you how weird it is to touch where your skin meets metal. They don't tell you what it's it's like to constantly have fans cooling off your insides, and how you feel this heat inside you constantly burning.

Sometimes you think about remodeling your form. If you try to look more human you might be treated a bit better, but physically you'll be less capable and comfortable, and people who think you're trying to trick them might be a danger. Also you don't want the approval of anyone who sees your personhood as conditional. You also could get more creative with it, it sounds better, like, it will give you more euphoria mabye. Or mabye you'll just give yourself retractable spikes to stop people from touching you when you don't want them to. You know some people will be afraid of you, and you certainly know that the fear from rich human women is something that can ruin a cyborgs life. You know if you kill I'm self defense, they'll call you a murderer. At this point you can't care anymore, at this point you'd rather your body be your own then anyone else's.

[sleepyhouse2art]

when i see cute little reminders on social media to "take your meds" i feel so hateful. the commodification of mental illness and its growing popularity as a sort of astrological shorthand for an actual personality by mostly healthy people is mad depressing and annoying

dont tell me to take my meds, you creepy weird motherfuckers! the only people allowed to say that shit to me are my doctor & my husband & my friends. do you think i want to be treated like a baby because i have mental illness? why do YOU seem to want to be treated like a baby? youre on paxil sharon

like my mental illness makes people watch me and check on me and not trust my perception of reality or my memory of things. sometimes i do get straight up treated like a kid by people. if i remember an event differently, i am always wrong. its really frustrating

so no, i don't find it very nice when people infantalize me and i don't like watching people needlessly infantalize themselves. it is mad creepy. it feels like observing a diaper fetishist or something. the whole thing gives me the heebie jeebies

i wonder if it is life being so hard and mean that motivates people to adopt the "sick role"? i understand wanting care but i genuinely think people are hamstringing themselves by pathologizing normal feelings and behaviors because it's making them think they're sick when they really aren't that sick. often people aren't even sick at all and instead just going through the human experience, which is fraught and difficult all on its own without any augmentation by a brain on the fritz, no mental illness needed.

nobody should want to be a patient. its nothing to aspire to. there's no joy in it. it is uncomfortable and the medicine is not safe. i have to take it but it's not like i want to and i feel sour when somebody reminds me. please don't remind me of my shit when it already dominates like my whole life

no, sharon, i do not need a bedazzled pill basket. no, sharon, i do not want "peer support", you are creepy. i hate to inform you that you are not a tubercular 18th beauty languishing in a gorgeous sickbed. you are in a fandom that prizes sickness and this is shameful to me.

your sickness makes you binge watch tv and eat bonbons and passively ideate about scratching your thigh up with a pin. i know pain is relative but like, i used to store my own blood in ziploc bags to protect my home and every painting in my house has told me to kill myself. i have not left my house in over a year. i am on three antipsychotics right now and i am still having frequent hallucinations and they scare me so bad i can't help but react sometimes and that scares my husband and makes him want me to go somewhere just like everybody else wants me to. im trying to stay OUT of the fucking hospital, not WANTING TO GO. im terrified of being raped and killed and i know it will happen to me next time i go. everyone says no, but they don't have my knowledge.

what im saying is this stuff fucks my life up. i cannot live normally. i cant even really take care of myself on my own if im telling the truth. i know im sick. i get reminded all the time. i don't need validation. i wouldn't touch a psych or a therapist or a pharmacy with a fucking ten foot pole if i had the choice. i know im kind of going off rn but who the fuck would want to be a consumer of this boring, tedious, control-abdicating, bad for your body bullshit? i do not understand people like this. i want to be free. be free, sharon!! and stop telling me to take my fucking meds!!!!

[chaifootsteps]

i struggle between the idea of "verosika, vortex, fizz, asmodeus, and other characters act ooc towards stolas when the story needs it for the sake of making him look better",

and,

"these characters do not know the horror stolas is capable of, are not aware that stolas called blitz, knowing he was bleeding and running for his life, just to make the arrangement he explicitly set up as "favors for favors", and they probably will never know, or any of the other geninuely terrible things he did," and both feel true, even if theyre technically contradicting each other. it feels weird to say characters can act out of character without certain information to alter how they act, but.. i mean, sometimes its just comical.

is there not something inherently fucked up about knowing asmodeus, king of consent, is chill with stolas, because oz doesnt know that stolass spent an entire season pushing boundaries, belittling blitz in a fetishistic way, and coerced him into fucking monthly for something he needed no matter what for his business?

these characters dont have to know exactly what happened, but what i do know is that their attitude would more then likely change if they learned the truth. i wish stolas's line of, "why would i allow everyone to see how much i like you?" actually meant something, because who knows that stolas likes blitz besides the people in ozzie, ozzie himself, fizz, stella, octavia, and.. that's it. verosika doesnt even know, she just assumes stolas hates blitz too. it doesnt really feel like it matters that they know, because despite them seemingly being important characters within hell, they barely have an effect on it. but it doesnt matter anyway- because mammons special episode just confirmed out right that no one there actually gives a shit about class difference! so whatre we even doing here when the shows premise was built on the basis of how supposedly taboo is it for a goetia and imp to fuck?!

if these characters knew about their deal, then yeah, the show would be holding him accountable. because the world would be naturally reacting to his actions, since rape is.. looked down upon in lust, but ok in pride i guess because of velvettes lust potion? idk :/ like let's just say for the sake of this example that only shitty people that happen to be imps, and sinners, are okay with that stuff. most imps and hellhounds seem like well rounded, average people, just with a little extra sprinkling of edgy.

i just cant help but to think; what if the story actually took advantage of hells disgust for relationships with upper and lower class demons? instead of just dropping it so ozzie and fizz could have their public "i love you so much and i dont care what anyone else thinks of it!" moment?

what if blitz got caught with the book instead of being given the crystal, and started a whole political scandal throughout hell when he gets arrested, (a good way to re-implement that stupid ass concept of prisons in hell,) but threw stolas under the bus with him by confessing (in an uncomfortable graphic detail, because i think blitz is one of those people who would make everyone feel uncomfortable when things suck for him,) that he was sleeping with stolas for the book? so that way he'd be in deep shit too.

i dont think its unrealistic either- news reporters swarmed stolas with a crowd when he got his shit rocked by striker, so hes definitely important, even if we dont know what that ugly ass dry walmart rotisserie chicken even does for his job.

i'd love to see a montage of characters like stella, verosika, fizz and oz, even fucking wally wackford; reading the news paper that morning, or watching news on the TV, only to see: "BREAKING NEWS! GOETIA PRINCE STOLAS CAUGHT HAVING SEX WITH AN IMP AND ILLEGALLY HANDING OUT TRANSPORTATION TO THE HUMAN REALM!"

if that happened, then i'd be fine with stolas being a petty bitch. because he'd have practically nothing at that point, besides his daughter and his big rich house, if they dont take it from him in this scenario bojack horseman style.

its weird, gross, and unsatisfying that they set up these big stakes with big potential consequences, but the only actual consequence is stolas getting his feelings hurt, so he can feel justified into "succumbing" into thinking what blitz had was a romance, or even a relationship at all.

It's mind-bogglingly frustrating. None of these characters have any idea how terribly Stolas treats Blitzo, and that's exactly the way Viv intends to keep it.

Hell, Blitzo was there for all of it and she very pointedly never allows him to bring it up.

[wolfertinger]

his whole “im just drawing authentic queer representation” defense rings hollow. hes not making representation. hes making fetish art that happens to use trans bodies as the template. and worse, hes doing it while trying to claim some moral high ground. acting like hes the sole pioneer of trans inclusivity when his work reeks of the same objectification and chaser behavior that actual trans people have been calling out for years.

the way he portrays transfem characters is downright gross. theres nothing inherently wrong with trans women having a dominant personality, but when every transfem character is reduced to being nothing more than a hypersexualized, aggressive top with a huge dick, it stops being representation and starts looking exactly like the kind of fetishization that trans women constantly have to deal with from cis people. theres never any nuance. never any exploration of their identities outside of how they perform in pornographic dynamics. and, of course, he doesnt even try to depict a non-feminine transfem character, because in his world, GNC only seems to apply when its about making transmascs as conventionally desirable to cis men as possible.

thats the real issue. hes not just making whatever art he wants in his own space. hes positioning himself as some kind of authority on trans representation while churning out content that reinforces the exact same hypersexualized stereotypes that trans people have been fighting against forever. and because his audience is mostly younger and less experienced in recognizing fetishization, they eat it up as if its some revolutionary thing. meanwhile, anyone who does call it out gets labeled as a bigot or a prude. as if theres no middle ground between accepting his weird chaser-tier nonsense and being some pearl-clutching conservative.

its not even just the art. its the way he carries himself. the smugness, the arrogance, the complete refusal to acknowledge that maybe, just maybe, the trans people feeling uncomfortable with his work have a point. if he just admitted he was making fetish art and stopped pretending it was some grand act of visibility, people would probably still side-eye him, but at least he wouldnt be this insufferable hypocrite trying to guilt-trip people into supporting his work.

at the end of the day, people can draw whatever they want. but when you build a brand on being the ultimate trans representation artist while simultaneously playing into the same harmful tropes that cis fetishists love, then yeah, people are going to call you out. and he deserves it.

.

[queenvhagar]

So I start reading Sarah Hess’s interviews and she’s just downright… gross? Disturbing?

She defended adding in the Aegon rape storyline and said that there are probably a ton of guys who have done that, that doesn’t make them evil people.

I have been choosing to ignore that whole plot since it wasn’t in the books. But why would someone actually say that? Just straight up disturbing.

She also was the one who came up with the Larys / Alicent SA scene.

Just wtf??? None of it was in the books so I don’t understand why she added it into the show. It’s like she has weird fantasies and is getting to put them to light on tv

It's so weird because like. Sure. Rape culture is so normalized and so many guys out there have done harmful things without even thinking about it. And I guess we could do a story where it's delicately explored and there's a meaningful story that actually explores how women deal with this kind of thing... but like it is so clear that the intention was to make Aegon irredeemably evil and show Alicent's reaction to the scene. So why would SH even say that this thing about comparisons to real life abusers if this was the purpose of including this in story? Like why excuse IRL abusers while at the same time obviously using the same exact thing to try to make Aegon irredeemably evil? It makes no sense.

And the Larys scene is gross and unnecessary in sooooo many ways. It became a meme because it was so out of pocket and unneeded. Like imagine making a disabled character a sex abuser with a kink based on his own disability? And then making it happen to a character already shown to have been groomed by an older man that told her not to tell anyone they were meeting in secret and then later shown to be maritally raped by him against her will as she disassociates... and now this character also deserves to be knocked down a peg and shown looking shamed and uncomfortable as she's made to reveal her feet to a sex abuser foot fetishist with a foot disability? Like what in the actual hell? The victim blaming misogyny and the ableism at play is absolute disgusting and it just became a meme by the general audience because it served its intended shock value.

People out here defending her and saying her critics are unfairly misogynistic against her... yeah no sorry. She's just kinda got some messed up stuff going on and made the writing worse by putting it on our screens (and don't worry there is equal hate for Ryan Condal going on, all the criticism is NOT just focused on her).

[wanderingmind867]

So, uh...fairly oddparents is still a franchise, huh? You know... I never really got into it very much. I remember parts (when you grow up in the 2010s and you only had two kid's tv channels to watch, you get fragments of said 2010s and 2000s shows drilled in there), but I actually remember something far weirder. And it actually makes me have some bizarre questions regarding Butch Hartman and/or his hiring practices. Because dear gods, that show had a lot of almost fetishistic content.

And listen. I would know. Let me tell you an embarrassing story. When I was a kid, I would rub myself in my genitals whenever I got aroused or excited. Yep, I was masturbating before puberty. It got really awkward when puberty hit and I began having to deal with semen, though. That experience put me off the experience for good. Until I discovered erotica websites and fetishistic fanfiction, and then the problematic masturbation problem hit me as an adult. This is all the backstory that led up to me overanalyzing my sexuality, just so you know. It was all of this stuff.

Anyways...as someone who practically masturbated before puberty, I know weird stuff that would set my brain off. It's transformation based things or hypnosis based things or many other things i feel too uncomfortable to share. But kid's tv shows of all stripes used these theme way too often. Mind control, transformation of a character, even worse things i will not discuss, etc. It was a mess. And this is why I remember that stupid show of Butch Hartman's. Some innocent episodes stand out, but so do the ones that my brain was weird about. And no, I will not revisit his show to relive that. Nothing is worth that awkwardness.

So, to recap: I was a weird kid. I find it weird how much fetish style fiction was in 2000s and at least early 2010s kid's tv. It was like William Moulton Marston's Wonder Woman, except maybe unintentionally. And Marston's Wonder Woman still had more story than sexual stuff. These shows often just seemed to pick a story of a dubious nature and milk it for 22 minutes. Bizarre. Truly bizarre.

[theangryman]

Honestly speaking-is it bad if I think that autogynephiles are just really weird people? Men dressing up as women and getting sexual pleasure from it is pretty dang uncomfortable for me and I genuinely don't think that I could ever trust a man (or a trans woman though I don't think they're men) if they did it.

I'm not a radfem and I don't like them just to be clear (too misandrist for me and I'm female lol)

tbh i’m team “it’s okay to be icked by other people’s sexual fetishes” because it’s not even a moral thing unless it’s being made external i guess

idk feet are weird and icky and gross and i don’t trust anyone who’s into them lol. i don’t want people to tell me they are into them. if they tell me that unprompted that’s kinda fucking weird

like i’m not going to go out of my way to find foot fetishists and tell them i think it’s gross, but if someone was like straight “hi i’m into feet” i’d tell them to fuck off for being weird

i have had uncomfortable experiences with men who were projected their own fetishization of transness on me so i get it

[decepti-thots]

for so long I have felt like a weirdo for thinking that the jro pregnancy stuff is deeply unhorny. but I am going to say it now: it's only horny in the way that the alien franchise is horny: there are definitely people who are horny about it, but it's primarily about the non-sexy aspects of pregnancy. i get that it's a funny joke but a non-insignificant people genuinely act like it's "the writer's barely disguised fetish". birth is weird and scary and fascinating, even more so in robots. im probably more defensive about this than I should be but it's kind of upsetting to me that this is where the discussion always ends

I'll put this under a cut so as not to spam anyone's dash bc yeah I went off on this ask haha (positive).

I actually felt so insane about this very topic I ran a damn poll on my NSFW sideblog and the thing is: the majority of folks voting agreed no, it's not inherently, textually horny. (I would know; I know horny when I see it, ffs!) Which vindicated me! Because I agree it's so ridiculous a thing to unironically, sincerely insist is super horny, given the text, lmao.

Like, it's extremely obsessed with pregnancy, but this is not the same as 'a fetish', and tbqh I think the 'fetish' joke just shields any actually interesting discussion of what it's doing. I think the Alien comparison here is actually really telling; it's absolutely a visceral thing, a thing concerned with the body and how it functions, sometimes against our will. And it's not unconnected to sexuality or eroticism in how those things are discussed more broadly, in the sense it's talking about a thing that intersects with those elements in the abstract, but it's not. Like. It's not a "fetish" thing, and if the characters it involved weren't referred to as 'he' in text I think less people would be calling it that, and actually it kinda sucks that every time I bring it up I have to block people who see 'pregnancy mentioned' on my completely sfw posts as an excuse to go off on their personal fetishes in detail, or their desire to speculate on the imagined fetishes of the writer in equally graphic detail. (BTW, it's genuinely uncomfortable seeing people obsessively speculate on the imagined fetishes of a creator, I think. We should all do that a little less in public.)

I mean not to be a total killjoy or anything but like... treating pregnancy in itself, even in the most abstract way, as inherently fetishistic and inappropriate (the people reblogging my innocuous posts about pregnancy metaphors with fucking trigger warnings! 'mpreg trigger warning' being a normalized way to tag pictures that are just Trans Dude Who Is Pregnant!) is uh. I mean we live in a world where pregnant people are often massively marginalized by society period, and seen as somehow inappropriate for public life, and especially anyone who is remotely GNC. Like the idea that something is inherently obscene about a pregnant person is, shall we say, not apolitical. It is in fact a thing that people actually have to fight against in real life. I mean. Fandom doing this to a text that in fact is most notable for treating pregnancy weirdly neutrally in these terms is... frustrating! I think we all lose out when we refuse to engage with weird, funny texts that have things to say about these topics that fall outside our expected frameworks, like, say, 'this is A Fetish TM'. That's limiting! If we want to talk about what IDW1 phase two does with gender, we cannot do that properly if every time we talk about MTMTE we get weird about it doing sexless genderfree pregnancy metaphors, and instead make them funny mpreg jokes, tbh! IDK! Seems counter intuitive! And I genuinely think MTMTE/LL's bizarre approach to the thing is so interesting precisely because it's so odd and offputting. What if we actually examined it. I think we can find some good stuff in there, frankly.

And truly the especially frustrating thing is that the comic itself, for all it is objectively weird and hilarious and 'why the fuck is this even HERE' about it... is just never that. Like. I posted those excerpts because it IS weird and it IS wild and it IS quite funny in its way! It's alien robot body horror in a kids' cartoon franchise turned to an unexpected end! But you know what it actually manages, somehow, to never be? One: weird and misogynist about pregnancy. Two: weird and transphobic about it involving vaguely, ostensibly 'male' characters. Make all the mpreg jokes you want I guess, but MTMTE is many bizarre things but it never gives one single shit about the gender binary, and tbh I think it's genuinely kind of embarrassing the fandom saw a comic that did insane robot body horror pregnancy shit and was like. Okay well. But the mpreg tho.

Like. I've joked for years that I want to do a transmasc read of the pregnancy stuff Roberts did in TF seriously, same as I think a transmasc read of how Alien presents fears around "male pregnancy" in a trans context would be great. And for all my jokes, I genuinely would, actually. I think it's legit very interesting how Roberts manages to divorce the presentation of horror of pregnancy from gender in a way that mitigates the gendered subtext somewhat and gets at the loss of autonomy in a broader sense.

anyway it truly sucks that fandom is so fucking shitty about this. to give a little extra context, i talk about a particular transmasc humanformer AU sometimes that involves pregnancy and. i have had to Delete Some Fucking Asks about that thing, which. well that happens in normal regular real life and people talk about it like a fanfic trope (derogatory). so. i am a little sensitive to people getting Like This about the topic, aha.

sorry i went off on one anon, can you tell. i also find this frustrating. i relate. i am totally with you. god it would be so much less interesting to read it as horny so like, why is this the ONLY MODE we seem to have tbh

[anonymousredactedconfessions]

i can help out (‧_‧) (or the POC listener that mentioned it a while ago can come back if they want to but the response to them was pretty fucked so i get if they don't want to)! Here's the ask from the POC (half-Japanese) listener: https://www.tumblr.com/anonymousredactedconfessions/741246869478506496/i-dont-know-if-this-is-me-taking-birds-of-a

The gist being that the co-host and Erik's bff Seph mentioned in an episode that white people should be able to crack racist jokes/jokes about race however they want and that she has been really fetishistic about Asians multiple times. So the original person who brought it up was weirded out by microaggressions. then they have a best friend they have brought onto the podcast who they have stated is a Trump supporter. And OP was weirded out by them platforming him (they didn't talk about politics when he was on the podcast). i'm not going to tell POC if they are allowed to be uncomfortable with those things or not.

i haven't seen the episode where Seph says white people should be able to crack whatever POC jokes they want, but there's over a hundred episodes and that anon was even specific about what movie Seph started the discussion off of. i have heard Seph say 1 little uncomfortable thing about an Asian anime character once that felt a little...off? and i do remember both of them saying that the friend they brought on is a heavy conservative (and how multiple friends of theirs are). It doesn't seem like Erik has said anything himself (lmao please nobody come and prove me wrong) but his friends seem to make OP (and the other recent anon?) nervous he shares their ways of thinking (birds of a feather like OP wondered) since they are his best friends since they were kids/teenagers.

.

[triplexdoublex]

Megan's whole "I wouldn't sleep with a bisexual woman because men are impure" thing is such a classic example of fetishising lesbians and it's so blatant like, as a lesbian it makes me extremely uncomfortable girl get the fuck away I *promise* none of us want your weird fetishist ass

Yup, she even said in that same article that she would only be with lesbian because they’ve never been with men , which is a WILD assumption because sometimes people don’t figure out or become comfortable in their sexuality until later in life and have already experienced the opposite sex

[smalltimidbean]

I'm putting this under cut for my own comfort, but be aware that I will be discussing certain types of art and how it is fetishised, to put it in the most blunt way jkgsdfl

Here's an unrelated thought I have no conclusion to, but it's been rattling around in my head for a sec

So in this post, Fiend was actually going to eat that anon - I had three drafts before the final one (One being Fiend spits up sunglasses, with the implication they ate the anon. Two being they had the anon in their mouth before Bean finds them like 'what do you have???' and Fiend swallows like a naughty dog eating plastic, and three being Fiend had the anon partly in their mouth (as punishment I guess??) and they got startled by Bean, making them swallow involuntarily) (should also probably be noted that the anon would have been fine in all variants, they respawn kdfgkga), and two of them were partly drawn before I decided against it

Mainly bc I didn't know what to cw tag that as (it's not cannibalism since Fiend is not an anon creature, and vice versa) - or rather, there was a tag I could have used (starts with v ends with ore), but that specific type of art is rather... Notorious, and I did not want to imply anything sexual, even if it would have never been my intention to do so

Although that being said, I am aware there is a SFW community where it is non-sexual, and no judgement either way, but there is kind of a reputation, y'know? And regardless of artist intentions, it can still be misconstrued - intentionally or not

And I suppose the more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable with the idea I was - not with the idea that Fiend can/has/probably will eat people, but the actual depiction of it on screen, and I am unsure as to why

Maybe it is the fear of my intention being lost, and it does end up being seen as something fetishistic. Maybe I am frightened to (unintentionally) push people away by drawing something 'weird' (negative), or the opposite, and I draw people in with an expectation or assumption, or they try to push my boundaries with seemingly 'innocent' questions, but when I feel uncomfortable, I'm the bad guy bc 'it was just a question'

If you cannot tell, I have had issues with fetishmining - or people pushing their kinks onto me, simply bc I draw fat people or some other thing that is commonly fetishised - before, and I am worried it will happen again (there are spaces to get your rocks off, here is not one of them kjdfkl)

That all also being said, again no judgement, and I don't mind people who are into that stuff following me (and I know there is, I have checked on blogs/in likes and found it jkdfslk), and no one (recently) has been like super uncomfortably weird about the things I draw

So I don't know! Like I said, there is no conclusion to this ramble - besides, maybe I will leave Fiend's taste in people (pun intended) implied and off-screen for now

[firespirited]

A Different Man (streaming on Prime or Apple) blew me away. It's superb writing, it takes the cripple pity, the cripple inspiration porn and the transformation trope and the makeover movie ... and quickly references it all while tossing it away in a slightly surreal and disturbing film that's also darkly funny.

I'd put it in the thriller genre, possibly horror even though blood is confined to one or two gruesome minutes. The tension is ramped up to 11 throughout.

Sebastian Stan is unrecognizable and not because of the prosthetic face: he plays a swagless, rizz-less, nervy guy who descends into his own personal social nightmare after a gory experimental medical procedure gives him a normal face and his crush writes a somewhat exploitative play about him. He is so uncomfortable and awkward - it's hard to watch.

It's so meta: every question that came to me, as a disabled person used to disability-in-media tropes got answered by the story* so that was wild!

Is it gawking? yes the story's going to examine that. Is it rude to reference Beauty and the Beast? hmm let's sit and stew with those words. Is it fetishistic? hoo, let's go there.

*except the penultimate twist which stretched believability IMHO (Ableist physios are a dime a dozen though so that part tracks). This film doesn't quite land the ending.

----------------------------

I'm not going to try and describe what it might do for an able-bodied audience, I'm going to guess that it's clever enough to resonate even if you've never been obviously disabled or fat or weird. This script manages to find heart even for the monstrously self-absorbed playwright.

What it did for me was point a mirror at my mannerisms and the way you do constant risk assessment about stuff other people find mundane.

It also shone a light at intra community resentments (let's be honest, that personal resentment) towards the inspirational crips and those who appear to be thriving because they "just" got over the social anxiety or aren't in constant pain. The way we rank disabilities between ourselves as if you could possibly rank how much they affect your life.

But there's also the weird splitting we do: the imagined better self, the disabled self we despise and pity but that same disabled self we get really protective about. That is not the Me at the core of myself and yet it is the full material reality of Me and you have to love the full Me even though I sure don't love it all.

The film even roasts the platitudes about self-confidence. *Chef's kiss*

----------------------------

Adam Pearson plays Oswald, that asshole that's so nice and so effortlessly cool that they become your nemesis, even their niceness shows you up - it's so wrong to hate him on so many levels, part of the horror is realizing you're a vindictive dickhead and squirming about it LMAO. He channelled being slightly ominous while being nothing but kind so well.

9/10 Slow burn heart filled story which ramps up to a white knuckle ride with some very juicy thoughts about identity. Highly recommended, cringe is part of the experience.

[lovetogether]

dni’s to us are important nd we’ve always held disdain for people who mock them, nonetheless we do not put one up on our blog at all times as this place is a small personal space. We do think it’s normal to ask boundaries and signal that you do not want certain people near you, if anything to show others not in those groups that you also reject them. Anyway here’s our dni

Proship of any kind

People who sexualize age regressing

Fat fetishists who are skinny

Just any objectification of a group you yourself are not part of

Singlets who are weird in anyway about plurality (DID/OSDD). If you’re a singlet nd are too interested in the topics of our community we may feel discomfort around you.

Singlets who pick favorite alters/don’t interact with certain alters/only interact with introjects.

Weird about introjects in any way.

As for media: if you’re into the podcast tma we won’t follow back/interact, you can stay. SP is a hard block, fan of adachi from persona four, any weirdness about Goro Akechi, Nagito Komeada, Ryoji Mochizuki, or Dale Cooper, those are us! Act as such when interacting with us. Shipping Dale with any teen characters. Mocking of the character Dougie Jones.

And general junk uhm, we don’t like constant image spam at us, we’re fine with like spam - we even encourage it among mutuals ! We’re paranoid schizophrenic and may occasionally post about paranoia, we let all our alters talk on here, if you’re weird to our alter Song we hard block, we’re uncomfortable with most joke hate @ characters we like. We will tag anything if asked but if it’s a main interest of ours we’d prefer people just unfollow. Uhmmm we’re a sensitive soul who loves to talk in depth and get a little wild, heh, don’t be a stranger.

[bug-the-chicken-nug]

Not me starting to unironically care about like the concept of Fleshed Out Cardin

Like in my mind he's kind of like a Jaune foil

The Winchesters are another pretty successful Hunter family, Cardin is a middle child of a big family and has five siblings.

I do imagine they're lowkey kind of washed up in terms of actual Hunter accolades, with more recent generations being like, decent but sort of just coasting off of past ancestor rep, and Cardin's family is upper-middle-class more because there's still some old money left.

But they actually believed in Cardin and supported him, with their flaws being that they were both too indulgent and unable to be sufficiently attentive, resulting in an arrogant, entitled guy who has an excessive need for attention and control.

Honestly I don't even imagine his parents as being overtly terrible or malicious in any obvious way, at worst they're like subconsciously racist centrists who can't spend time with their kids a ton, so the guilt causes them to overcompensate, and they also tended to show favoritism towards Cardin that wasn't really on purpose either.

Cardin then just picked up most of his more overt racism from just exposure to bad crowds and bad media, and what limited corrections and interventions occured were always too little, too late.

It was just that he was the most promising as the next potential Big Name Hunter of the family, giving him a further inflated ego and actually starting to diminish his work ethic when he realized he could just brute force and manipulate his way through anything challenging.

In the semi-headcanon/semi-AU I'm envisioning here, I imagine Beacon then put up enough of a genuine challenge that all of this caught up to him, he started to struggle, and doubled down on his biggest flaws as a way of trying to reassert a feeling of power and competence.

I then imagine that of he remained relevant you could do something with like

Him being humbled and somewhat humiliated after the Jaune stuff, then seeing Velvet fight and begrudgingly being impressed, then he goes for the standard "I guess you're pretty good... For a Faunus..." type thing and just. Genuinely doesn't understand why Velvet takes this so awkwardly and uncomfortably.

And nobody is really in a position to willingly and eloquently explain it without just making him get irritated and defensive because it's too hard to admit he's in the wrong, so this just kind of awkwardly lingers with him feeling kind of "unfairly targeted" for a while (oh the irony)

And then the Vytal Festival happens and he and his team just barely win against some other team lead by someone with a family of moderate Hunter-world importance, who trash talked him about how washed up the Winchesters are for a bit, then begrudgingly admits "I guess you're pretty good... For a Winchester,"

And when Cardin feels how this backhanded shit actually just makes him dislike them even more, once he's done being pissed, that's when he has the "Oohhhh..." moment and truly realizes why his "compliment" towards Velvet was so shitty.

Yes, still kind of a self-centered path to finally Getting It, but feels a hell of a lot more natural than someone patiently going out of their way to explain this stuff to him like it's a Saturday morning cartoon, because he sure as hell isn't going to seek out and listen to a professor.

Cue a string of Thee World's Most Awkward Attempts to arrange both the time and courage to apologize to Velvet (let's just ignore the fall of beacon here since it doesn't tonally jive with what I'm going for)

Which like

I don't actually envision this AU as Holybun, but I *do* think it would be hilarious if this starts to make people THINK Cardin now has a weird and possibly fetishistic thing for Velvet.