#it was not 1 am when I started

[chainoftalent]

Tbh Ive been rereading all your posts and I’ve just been seeing how much your writing style has improved over the last year. I especially love your version of pre-game shuichi and how well characterized he is. However if I had to say one thing that’s been scratching my mind has been how Kokichi views his beloveds. Specifically I’m referring to how it seems he cares equally for each member but then sometimes the specific darling (the reader I think) is referred to as his “partner in crime”. Now I know this goes against kind of his whole leader gimmick, but I’m wondering if there ever is a reality where one specific member is his romantically involved partner while the others are platonic. Like he still loves them don’t get me wrong but also part of me would like to know what a Kokichi experiencing romantic interest/infatuation for the first time would be like. How would he balance it out with being a leader and process how different his feeling are from his other family members, how would he show he likes them? There’s so much potential to me Idk just a thought but I’d like to hear your thoughts.

love ur work<3

Very good question, the short answer is that the idea of a monogamous or romantically inclined kokichi is just unfathomable to me /j

More Romantic Orientated Yan Kokichi

Oh god this got long

The long answer is it's definitely possible, I personally see Kokichi as very aro/ace and that tends to color things but the aro is definitely more of my own stuff going on. I think he would straight up not recognize it's romantic, he sees them, his heart pounds, his hands get a bit sweaty and he's just like "hm, i seem to be poisoned"

He's going to rant about how weird his new future DICE member is to dice though, about how they make him feel even weirder then normal and make him feel heated and he wants to touch them but like, not tackle hugging or climbing on them like a jungle gym but like, soft, so he's probably been poisoned or dying or something.

Then once the other DICE members have proceeded to immediately launch into mocking Kokichi about his cruuuuush does he realize ah, this is that romance thingie people keep talking about... he hates it.

Honestly might be more avoidant of them then usual, this is new, and not a fun new, it's throwing things off and making it harder to plan and he doesn't like it. He spends more time observing at first then normal, maybe even tries to spend extra time away to try and ditch the crush part and go back to more familiar territory, plus what if it only lasts as long as the crush lasts??? Then what??? He needs more data.

I do think he would keep the obsession even if the crush faded though they'd probably bump down a few spots in the dice subconscious tier list of obsession for the record. Going from like, a full ten of his obsession down to like, a seven.

Once Kokichi has come to terms that he is in fact, having a crush, the obsession is only getting stronger, and that this might actually be something okay and useful. He's all in on recruitment, but he's trying to frame himself more as a knight in shining armor kind of thing, but like, ironically. He will push a pie in their face and laugh one moment and then the next moment dramatically save them from being bumped by some kids balloon, complete with fake dying and how worthy it is to martyr for the cause bleeeeh.

He's not actually trying to actually be a knight in shining armor, he's making a gag about the whole concept while still trying to link the two in his love interests mind. He's not your Lancelot, he's your Don Quixote, he WILL duel a windmill for your honor. He's trying to play into romantic archetypes like that but twisting them around into something original and humorous. His own spin on things while he tries and finds out his own niche and philosophy. Gives a lot more gifts and tries to show off more a someone who can be a provider, acting extra sweet in front of others, though a majority are also just pranks.

Do not trust any chocolates he gives you, they probably have something weird in them. He gives a candy apple and then it's secretly an onion not an apple, gremlin. He is finding out what accent they think is sexy, learning to mimic it, and then using it whisper "hey little mama let me whisper in your ear" and then stick his tongue in their ear. GREMLIN.

If they aren't the type to naturally give Kokichi the attention and reactions he desires, he's definitely shifting into tugging pigtails mode. His bullying gets louder and more physical, basically forcing them to shut him up, or fight back. Any time he can get them to basically push him away, or talk to him he's on cloud nine. He probably also flirts a lot more brazenly and less jokingly, he is standing on a table as he bickers just so he can be at head height so when they lean in to argue more with him he can be like "mmm you know you've got a pretty way to shut me up right now if you wanted~"

To him if he's tugging pigtails it's very much a game of trying to fluster and react, wanting to pull you into his whirlwind through your emotions, he'll never make the first move and kiss because that's boring. He'll flirt and tease and offer, but he wants them to make the first move, to give into their emotions and just be unable to hold back kissing him.

Either way I think he'd also just be a bit quieter? Like with other's he's nonstop but he pauses with a love interest to just kinda, take a moment to mentally snapshot their smile, the way their jaw clenches, just, taking it in quietly so he doesn't lose it too soon, though it always wears off quickly.

I also feel like if he wanted to be romantically involved with someone he wouldn't relax any on like the manipulating and isolating them to ensure they turn to him for help with anything. Especially if they already have partners, if they have partners he's latching onto them harder then they latch onto their interest lmao so they can keep an eye on things and find an excuse for why he should break them up for their own good.

Like if it was platonic he'd do background checks, break into the partners phone, somewhat more normal controlling stuff, but if he's romantically interested he WILL stalk them in all reaches of life to a point he might know more about them then his ACTUAL crush and if he can't find any dirt he will actively try and make dirt by trying to get someone to seduce them and then take blackmail pictures. He will Reynolds Pamphlet their asses.

However, some miracle he's juuuust sane enough to pull back on like, a potential kidnapping. He knows logically how damaging that could be and could result in a lot of uncomfy feelings of not knowing if they actually like him, or are trying to appease him which he doesn't want for them. If he wants to date he wants to know it was at least mostly your own will or else he feels skeevy.

The idea of someone he's trying to gently break down and build back up kissing him in a desperate attempt to win favor? Gross as hell, skeeves him out. He cares too deeply for his obsessions and them being comfortable and happy for that to fly. So if he's from the start romantically interested himself? He's doing everything to avoid that kind of dynamic and situation. If he grabbed someone platonic and now they get along great and it's been three years and they confess then he'd consider it, but he needs them to want him or else he just feels like he's taking advantage of something he can't take back.

So the odds get a lot lower, trying to focus more on wooing and luring them to come willingly and then locking the doors behind them then just stuffing them into the trunk of the clown car. He'll still do it if he feels it's for their safety or he's really getting tired of getting nowhere, it's just a lot longer until it reaches that point, plus he isn't getting bored of the game easily because its NEW, he just unlocked a bonus mode! a secret level! he can't rage quit so soon! Though in say, a killing game kind of situation, they would be nabbed near immediately.

Once they're actually dating he's actually a rather loving partner, in his own way. He does a lot of casual gestures, and only half of them are pranks in disguises! Lots of nicknames, and teasing all "you liiiike me thats so embarassiiing for you." Very clingy, he is hanging off their arm talking about how he's their eye candy. He's also physical in a bit of a different way, his touch is more slow, more soft, more like he's thinking or pondering about how soft the skin is, or wanting to just, slow down a bit for a moment, he will gently trace their arm, marveling on the little details, wanting to just, breathe and learn all about it, then a few minutes later he bites because he needed everyone to know it was his and he had a case of cuteness aggression. Balance in all things.

It's weird to say he slows down but I think he kinda does, he wants to savor it, not eat it as fast possible. He's still rushing around and pulling them into wild escapades and pushing their comfort zones, but he's also very much down for just, sitting with them. He never thought he could like a quiet moment so much until he's sitting there reading quietly with them asleep against his shoulder.

He feels a contentment that's rare for him, as while he adores all the other members they also wind up his energy pretty inherently. A partner winds it down though, makes him want to stay in one place, and he marvels at that. Taking lots of naps with them or just laying on their lap getting his head pet. It's cute.

He's very protective of them but also wanting to push them further and more, which can lead to his behavior shifting between overprotective to maybe should be a little more protective, his sense of scale for danger is weird and it makes him coddle his partner in ways that seem completely incompatible with the way he just lets them faceplant.

As for balancing DICE and his partner, I think after a few weeks of just pining he adapts pretty quickly, it's just obsession Plus after all. No reason to reinvent the wheel. They might get some special privilege like first pick of snack because of dating rights, but they do also have to do chores as well and they couldn't get away with being mean to the other members outside of the usual banter of DICE.

He's also not shy about his partner to DICE, while it's HIS partner they're still a member after all! So the usual lack of boundaries between members isn't super reduced, he's more then happy to cuddle his partner on the couch and then have all of dice converge for a giant cuddle pile, the ideal honestly, though he might pretend to act aghast and say they've been cheated on if they find their partner just casually chilling in a cuddle pile without him, but it's all in good humor, he's glad they're getting along!

For anything more adult, to be super brief he wouldn't engage as he is so so so ace in my eyes the idea wouldn't even cross his mind, but he would be willing to help them out if asked.

So in the end Kokichi does act differently, but it's more in his methods then in his results, and while they would be on some level his favorite DICE member, that doesn't actually impact the other DICE members beyond him maybe giving his partner the more fun chores and extra candy. It's like being beaten out by a 3% affection difference, basically unnoticeable unless you're paying extra attention.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The Murderbot TV show is finally here!

[queenoftheantz]

cant stop thinking about the guy who came up to me at the comic festival this weekend, looked through my dungeon meshi stuff, then when he didnt recognize the winged lion told me he stopped reading because the world building wasn't solid enough.

The world building wasn't solid enough. In dungeon meshi.

[starlingfawn]

through starless sky to blackest ground

[aquanutart]

THEY'RE BACK!!!! my childhood manga!!!

[remcadll]

DIY workout equipment

[r-aindr0p]

the possibility of throuple rugjamidia has captivated me

Ok ok wait though I have to share the vision I have with these 3 !! Been thinking about how Jamil did "quit" his job as a treasure guardian for a life of peace but he still can't chill in his pond for five minutes because of the other two idiots, they just keep coming back....

This is only part one ! Part two is still cooking in the microwave

Hopefully he'll get the blue thing back on his feet and have them go away once and for all (lmao no)

[arttsuka]

Based on somewhat real events

I spent way too much time drawing this...

But yeah, Ford finally saying thank you

A continuation (kinda)

[aphelionatseven]

(1, 2, 3 LET'S GO BITCH!) stay here, honey, i don't want to share

delicate — taylor swift

( hey queen here yet againnn y'all know the drill , chat : @drivestraight , eat them alive . this is propaganda !! go read it!! )

[inkskinned]

i'm still trying to piece together the truth of it. when you left, you said: feel free to spin this narrative however you want. i have no idea if you were being cruel or if you just genuinely don't remember what you've done to me.

it's hard because i'd done so much of the work for you. i had seen the parts that flaked off, the rust underneath. i started separating you into two people - the one i loved, and the one who hurt me. i had this fantasy version of you - my partner - and then i had this stranger, a third person who would show up randomly to shatter me. i am deliriously glad i'm no longer with "the stranger". i miss the gentle (unreal?) "other" you terribly.

at first, i was so strict about my boundaries. i remember telling you to get the fuck out of my house if you were going to talk to me like that. by the end: i would justify your behavior for you, accepting even your mistreatment as "my fault" in the grand scheme. i look back on the person i was before you - smart, independent, confident - and i feel a strange sense of detachment. i don't even recognize me.

even in one of our last conversations, you said: if you want a partner that always talks warmly to you, find someone else. there was a time that a comment like that would have made me leave. and instead, somehow, i just placidly accepted that kind of thing. you were literally telling me that i wasn't allowed to have a reaction to your cruelty - and i just took it, because you'd so fully turned things around on me.

when people are faced with irrationality, a rational brain tries to make sense of it. this is the trap. they're lovely in the morning, gentle and blue-eyed and sweet. like nothing even happened, they breeze around the house and kiss you on the mouth. but at night; who is that? they snap almost randomly; flying into an impotent rage about just-about-anything. it just doesn't make sense. so the problem must be me, and my brain, and how i think.

the traumatized brain just wants peace. so maybe i'm misremembering. maybe you were just having a bad day. maybe it's actually me.

you eventually would fully turn on me and start implying that i am the bad actor in our relationship. that's what happens, right? that's literally in the playbook. you went to therapy for all of a month, told her a half-truth, co-opted therapyspeak. you figured out how to reframe your actions as "seeking peace." any time i stood my ground, i was "gaslighting." when i asked you to be more gentle, you said i was "tone policing." you said, randomly, i had emotionally manipulated you - i still have no idea what that's even specifically referring to. maybe my consistent requests for calmness and empathy?

and while i literally know better, and i'm sitting here, trained by you, thinking: wait, fuck. was i actually the person you made me out to be?

and the thing that scares me is that i literally do not know if you ever actually saw what you were doing to me. when you'd tell me how you remember arguments, you'd always summarize them in a way where you come off as gentle and easy: "i was trying to set an important boundary." what had actually happened was 15 minutes of you shouting at me i know you did something shady, just admit it already. eventually you'd say my reaction to your shouting (when i finally reacted, which usually happened around hour three) was inevitably "disappointing" and "another way i'm silencing your feelings."

how many times did i ask you - beg you - to just take accountability? looking back, i don't think i ever heard you say: you're right. the way i talked to you was wrong of me.

i am trying to tie together the two people into a full version of you in my head. yes, you made my coffee and made me laugh and spent hours on the phone with me. and yes - you would scream at me until i had to run away and hide behind something.

i wish i did have a narrative i could pull out and shape to my whim. i wish i did have some semblance of reality. instead i just stand here, strange and vibrating, wondering: what the fuck just happened?

[marenwithanm]

Chapter 4 part 33! Mini flash back featuring the goat, the old man ❤️

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Old man: Oh, hello there young one!

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Old man: Don't be afraid. Please, come sit.

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Old man: Are you all on your lonesome? You know, it's dangerous to go alone!

[hyacinthsdiamonds]

Sorry, I've got "he knew him as Uncle Michael before he saw and understood his place in F1 history, and now he just broke his Uncle Michael's record of most consecutive days leading the F1 championship" in my eye -

[mik3stuff]

ngl I love this in fandoms when a small fraction of the queer community simply decides that "we have too few transfem characters, what to do? hm I know! let's take that male character with extreme loser vibes and wet cat core and headcanon her as transfem! just for fun!" and then someone takes it to analyze and- wait, why does this headcanon actually even make sense…?

[kuulpenguin]

Iruma saving Clara from the nightmares <3

[pup-pee]

i am never shading on my phone again it sucks

[mischiefprincess]

 "I thought we could unite our kingdoms one day. Bring about an alliance, bring about a permanent peace... through you."

How

How?

HOW????????

What did Odin have in mind when he took Loki? How was he going to forge that alliance? Through marriage? Was he going to tell Laufey that the son he thought to be dead this whole time was actually alive and well and living as the second prince of Asgard? And then he'd offer to marry Loki to someone in Jotunheim so he could take Laufey's throne?

Laufey had already rejected Loki as a newborn, why on earth would he want to have his son back especially when he was basically Odin's puppet? And another thing, would the Jotuns accept Loki as their ruler? He's a runt and grew up in Asgard being raised by Odin, a man they no doubt hate with their entire souls, what made Odin think that his plan would work?

Not to mention the fact that Loki himself would probaly go fucking INSANE once he realized that his purpose in life was to be Odin's puppet in that frozen wasteland while Thor was destined to sit on the golden and glorious throne of Asgard

"But those plans no longer matter"

When

When did they stop mattering?

When did Odin realize that what he had in mind when he adopted Loki would never work out? When did he start seeing Loki as his son instead of the political pawn he was initially?

In WML Loki says that Odin didn't like to send him very often in missions throughout the nine realms, I know the book is it's own universe but maybe that's how things were in the movie timeline too, Odin didn't want to have Loki deeply involved in the politics of the nine realms and decided to just confine him to the palace

"So I'm no more than another stolen relic, locked up here until you might have use of me?"

This could indicate that Loki was in fact trapped inside the palace at least to some level, only allowed to leave and travel through the nine realms when Odin approved it unlike Thor who was probably free to come and go as he pleased, so Loki had only the company of his mother (bc he didn't have friends of his own) while being desperate to have his father's attention and approval, desperate to have a chance to prove that he could be just as competent as Thor (if not more) as a ruler and still being treated as some kind of possession instead of a person

This is tragic but so delicious at the same time, and I know this makes more sense for movie Loki bc series Loki is very different from the original canon, I kinda miss the hungry look he had in Thor 1 tho, that boy who was just standing in corners, lonely and rejected, with so many storms inside himself that barely anyone could notice bc he kept them hidden under a facade of calmness and politeness, that stiff posture of someone always living under pressure, the neutral expression in his face and the ocasional picking of the hands that betrayed how nervous he truly was, being silent and only speaking to people when he was spoken to, the layers and more layers of clothing, covering everything from neck to toes, the submissive and kinda fearful look in his eyes whenever his father spoke to him (until of course the Jotunheim incident), the curly hair severely straightened so he could appear more collected and calm, so many things about him fascinate me, I could talk about it for hours...

How I wish we could go back to the 2011-2013 Loki era omg there's so much potential and things to explore there, take me back to those simpler days