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The Fall dir. Tarsem Singh
#incredible film#not only for the visuals but the softness#i did not see that coming#alexandria is the CUTEST i was dying last night when i watched it#shoutout to that gaga fan who recommended me to watch it bc of an edit i made#it was on my list but i don't really have a list u know...#i will be posting more edits bc i made many of this film. i have a different one as my phone's bg#tarsem singh#the fall#alexandria the fall#catinca untaru#roy walker#rude surname...#lee pace#the fall 2006
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today's "it's so over" "we're so back" cycle has been "i have wasted the past, like, 10 years of my life" vs "well what the fuck was i meant to be doing anyway"
#personal#like literally nobody had a hand on the ball during my most important developmental years#knowing that those developmental years are basically behind me is rough#and im kinda just sitting here frustrated that i wasn't really raised i just had my needs provided for#but at the same time like. with those being the circumstances. its kind of normal for me to be a nothingburger of a person#like yeah of course im socially underdeveloped. teen years in a baptist church and tumblr dot com#my parents beign preoccupied w their dying parents and never really dealing with their own shit upbringings#so even if they were paying attention. the guidance they provided wouldn't have been. like. GOOD#main uni years happened during the height of covid#rawdogging some retrospectively very obvious undiagnosed mental issues#i was never turning out okay lmao#i know it's never too late to start it's just v frustrating turning 25 in a few months and having barely lived a year of it#like that is a LOT of lost time to make up for and it's not like all this shit left me well-equipped enough to know where to start#and i just do not have a lot of people in my life to talk to about this#i got like 1 non-tumblr friend i'd feel okay talking to about that sort of thing and when i do it never makes me feel better#mostly just well-intentioned ''have u considered getting over it'' type shit#i NEED to have a real social life and hobbies and to do that I NEED to move out so i NEED to get a job#and i am qualified for nothing yippeeeee!! every job listing i am woefully unequipped to handle#either bc i am unqualified or bc i would be fucking shaking any time anyone interacted w me#would genuinely give anything to back in time 10 years. i'd suffer through high school again i don't care i am just desperately unhappy
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what if #6 for the spotify ask game?
hi em! number 6 is quite fun in my opinion :3
so because of one very specific submas animatic, I could not get Ingo Pokemon Arceus/Pokemon B/W out of my head. so I don't think you go here but I could not stop myself <3 I hope you enjoy anyway! (1063 words)
Ingo stretches his legs as he sits in the grass. Akari is perched on her heels beside him, staring off into the distance, squinting against the sun. Ingo runs his hand through the fescue sticking up beside him—he’s tired, warm from sitting in the sun, fighting sleep with every ounce of his body. He hadn’t been getting a lot of that lately, dealing with the Sneasel kits. From her place beside him, Akari hums, her eyebrows furrowing.
“Anything?” Ingo asks. Akari hums again, sounding frustrated.
“Nothing yet,” she says. “We’ll know it as soon as we see it.”
“And what exactly is it?” Ingo asks, more out of curiosity than anything else.
`“It,” Akari emphasizes, trying a sigh to keep the budding disappointment out of her voice. “Is a time dilation. It looks like someone took a huge dome and smacked it over a big piece of the landscape.”
Ingo hums, mouth twisting to the side as his eyes flick tiredly over the landscape. Like… like…
There’s a shimmer, meters off in the distance. Like a mirage, dancing over a wide patch of grass, disrupting a group of sleeping caterpie. Ingo watches them worm away.
“Like that?” he asks. Akari blinks, confused, her eyes following his gesture out into the field. There’s a brief pause, where the air seems to still around them, not by nature of the wind stopping, but as if time itself had begun to bend. Akari takes in a sharp, short breath.
“Yes,” she gasps. Then she grabs Ingo’s wrist, and tugs.
It takes a moment, far longer than Akari yanking him forward, for Ingo to get his feet properly under him. He stumbles down the hill, towed by the child in front of him. This sudden burst of energy seems to travel through them like a rogue static shock, bouncing up his held arm and through his chest, giving him enough startle forward, matching Akari’s pace before she can latch onto him again.
He balances himself as they reach the bottom of the hill, straightening his hat and coat as they wade through the ankle-deep grass. Ingo’s frown only deepens in concern as they continue toward the mirage of light in front of them, still a distance off despite the gap Akari is trying to rapidly close. He feels the air catch in his lungs as he tries his best to keep up.
“What is a time dilation, Akari?”
She throws her voice back at him, trying to catch her breath.
“It’s like—time changes in this one area, and pokemon like you’ve never seen flock to it. Like they were pulled out of some other place. Just like—”
Just like us.
Ingo stumbles, hand clasping Akari’s shoulder as he rightens.
“Right,” he murmurs.
Up close, the distortion of the ground around the purple-white swirls of air seems to come in and out of focus. He can’t see past the field’s reflective surface, but the air feels heavy, like liquid, like water, when he tries to press his hand through. Next to him, Akari takes his hand.
“I thought, maybe…” she starts, looking at him. Ingo swallows. “But maybe it’s a stupid idea.”
“You think it might jog my memory, right?”
Akari blinks, stammering:
“Or, maybe, like, maybe, at least, maybe fill in some gaps! Not… not necessarily fix anything. Just maybe make something… clearer. Like stilling the water, y’know?”
Ingo sighs, smiling ever so. It’s honestly not a bad idea.
As he presses through the glassy surface, Akari at his hip, it gives to a churning sensation through his stomach and a lightheadedness in his head. He stumbles as they righten on solid, hazy ground.
The air around them feels much thicker than it is. Akari was right—the field ahead of them is full of pokemon from outside of Hisui—shapes Ingo barely recognizes, and some that aren’t familiar at all. The ground is littered in shards of pottery, or glass, all smooth and colorful as they crouch behind a sizeable rock outcrop. Ingo feels… mostly himself, as of current, but there’s something on the edge of his mind that tugs, that he can’t quite place. He frowns against it, and Akari gives his shoulder a nudge.
“Anything?” she asks. He hums quietly.
“I don’t know.”
She hums back.
“Okay—keep chasing that feeling,” she says, straightening. She peers around the side of the rock, eyeing the field ahead of her. Ingo blinks, startled all at once by Akari’s sudden movement.
“Wait—”
Before he can grab onto Akari’s sleeve, she bolts from beside him, and, at the same time, Ingo feels a sudden, violent wave of nausea pass over him. The world swims hazy grey, like the stone behind him, except the stone is gone, and the floor is solid under his back instead, and the floor is floor, not soft field grass. And light is bright, but not sun-bright, and certainly not the purpled fuzz of daylight through the dilation. Fluorescent bright. He tries to stand, but his strength escapes him, pain finding purchase at the base of his skull. There’s a voice calling out to him, far from his reach, far from the lungs that try unsuccessfully to breathe air and call back out. He tries anyway, even as the memory of a place he should know blurs at the edges.
Maybe he’s not lying down on the floor. Maybe he’s moving. Maybe he’s rocking, synced in time with the motion of the floor under him. Maybe he’s upright, sitting, standing, but the world around him looks like it’s through foggy glass. Like a dream he can’t quite hold onto properly, like an event misremembered. He tries to grab at the semblance of anything, of the memory he’s being forced to recollect, and it tastes so familiar. But it’s so far away.
He can’t remember any of the faces he’s trying to see, even this close. Even the one he’s supposed to remember. The one he knows is like his own.
Ingo forces his legs under him, even as the world bends. The edges of memory become the concrete sensations of rock and grass and the sound of Akari’s delight. And the violent spin of Ingo’s head as he stands upright.
The mirage flickers around him and through him as he stumbles backward out of the dome. As his feet hit the solid, familiar earth of the field behind them, Ingo collapses.
(send me a number between 1-100 and I'll try to write you a fic!)
#warden ingo#pokemon ingo#pokemon akari#trainer akari#pokemon arceus#pokemon arceus fic#pokemon fic#pokemon legends arceus#fics#text#asks#em-mermaid#i crumple to the ground so pathetically#i REALLY care about them. ingo and akari#they could be such good friends to meeeee#man... being grabbed from another universe having no idea what's going on... that could be them to me#playing fast and loose with the ideas of the rift KJHSDKFJH#i had this idea for a long time so i finally put it into words#there will probably be a longer fic for this! eventually. it's on my list HEHE#along with everything else LMAO#anyway em i know you don't go here but HERE U GO!! LMAOO#spotify wrapped asks 2024
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some sketches
based on @theicarusconstellation's writing

I keep thinking of details I left out and stuff I need to fix but if I let myself do that I'm going to go insane so we're leaving it at this

Also some Sirius because they're a fucking king and we love them (I very strongly hc them as genderqueer and using any pronouns, but specifically he/they/she/it)
The dress was a bit of a failure but hey it looks like fabric at least I think maybe
#fanart#marauders era#fanart of fanfiction#Sirius#A form of jegulus#Not sure if reg being an animagus is widely accepted Canon but I fucking accept it it's mine now and i will die on this hill#I DO however know that Sirius is generally accepted to have tattoos but unfortunately I'm shit at coming up with tat designs#I don't think there's a generally accepted list of what tattoos they have but if there is I would love to hear it#If not ig I'll just make something up#She probably has like. At least one wolf and dog one somewhere#Then definitely canis major#Idk how sappy they are but I want them to be one of those people who gets their friend group to draw hearts or stars and gets those tattooe#Also skeleton designs v much. I want them to have a cat skeleton on their hip in that curling position#Like the floaty cat#Maybe with a moon or star in the center#No real reason I just think he'd look fuckin awesome with it#He also probably has a really cool stylized semicolon on his wrist#I can't give him a koi/sun one cause that's mine and it doesn't fit then anyways#But definitely the top piece is the full moon symbolizing Remus#The bottom idk about but like maybe a squished up dog? Not like disproportionate I'm sure I could figure something out#Honestly they probably also have tats for each of their friends#I'm thinking a stylized deer under a full moon with the rat on it's head#or just prongs and moony w/ little bro between them#Brainstorming idk#If u read all that congrats I don't know why or what you got from it#Welcome to the live stream of my consciousness (you're missing not strong enough fucking BLARING in the background of all my thoughts)
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there are two moments that are too anticlimactic that are driving me up the FUCKING WALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bc other than that the fic is READY TO POST. BUT THOSE TWO MOMENTS. GOD
#and they're Important Moments so i can't just say fuck it and post it anyways#fic: loves like a kicked dog#i also need a synonym for the word caught. but besides that the fic is FUCKING READY. ITS SO CLOSE. I FEEL INSANE#also i kind of don't know if i'm being too heavy-handed with this one Moment of Realization that amber has#or if i'm crazy for expecting ppl to pick up what im putting down without the heavy-handedness#it's not even like overly heavy-handed it's just DIRECTLY stating the conclusion amber comes to. BUT THAT FEELS HEAVY-HANDED TO ME#bc 'show don't tell' has drilled a hole in my skull#wait fuck okay there's also a fourth thing. which is just. amber listing [redacted] and i needed a second thing#bc my current second thing is way too long-winded and has zero flow and distracts from the focus and is just not what i want#u know what fuck it. here's the sentence (w semicolons as stand-ins for commas):#He had to have a hell of a lot more experience with this—parties that went too far at Quantico; the literal heroin withdrawal Charlie'd let#slip during a drunken night on Amber's couch; years of holding her hair back and calming her down.#like okay first off. 'had to have a hell of a lot' say that five times fast. stupid ass tongue twister. gotta fix that#two. i feel like the 2nd example i give w the heroin withdrawal distracts from the charliebriggs focus that the examples r supposed to have#bc they're supposed to highlight their history in comparison to amber's lack thereof#i also jsut feel like it's too wordy but i already kinda said that#(side note. i feel like there is no way that charlie doesn't eventually tell amber about whistler. but that's like in a world where#amber doesn't go to fucking jail lmao. but with that being said i feel like there just isn't room to explore that headcanon in this fic)#SO. i need a second example. maybe something that is also quantico-centric like the first one is#wait actually yes def quantico-centric. bc then it's about IMAGINED scenarios between charlie and briggs#also briggs wasn't even actually there for any of the times charlie threw up. which they did just to fuck with me bc they hate me#she was ALONE for it and MISERABLE :( anyways. my jeff beefstin (beef w jeff eastin) aside#i also don't know if the end of this one scene gets across what it needs to or if the Moment (bc trust it is a Moment) it ends on#needs to be continued to be explored for like a few sentences after. or maybe the impact alone is enough and everyone will pick up#what im putting down bc im sooo beautiful and smart and cool#so basically. just those four things (two moments that r too anticlimactic; a synonym for caught; and a 2nd cb quantico moment)#and then the fic is FUCKING DONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna post tonight rawrrrrrrrrr
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thank you for bearing with my purgatory posting and i'm also glad to see i'm not the only one who still has this fungus eating away at my brain matter. seeing other purgatory posting in the tag makes me feel better lmfao.
i'm not done btw, posting will (probably) continue as i revisit vods. wanted to extend a thanks in the interim, since i know how contentious the event was in the moment. i kinda thought the general consensus was most people hated thinking about it, but there's been a weird amount of engagement and yknow other people talking. makes me happy to know i'm not alone here!
#qsmp#qsmp purgatory#shut up vic#block game brainrot#it also provides me the opportunity to get a new perspective on some moments as well#like watching the jaiden spawnkilling thing the first time i missed some nuance in bbh's tone when he offered to walk her to her body#rewatching i heard them :D#i'll probably rewatch his conversation with slime from the same day at some point to refresh my perspective on that#but i think i'll wait on that; that convo makes me super biased lmfao#i'm aware of my biases at least :D and dw i won't bring old discourse back#tbh i never rly posted discourse much to begin with? just that one list and analysis of time stamps LMFAO#but yea i won't be bringing that back to the tag even if it's back in my brain#i PINKY SWEAR; i'm not one to start fights on posts or blogs that aren't mine#i block and then if i REALLY have something to say i shittalk them into my bathroom mirror#bc i know neither of us are gonna snitch >:D#long tags#it's also nice to look at with the benefit of hindsight and reflection#bc i know everything that happened; i was there watching it live#bolas are unreliable narrators#i'll probably see about going through some of the other team's povs as well just to see#it's interesting is all! and i finally have the time to sink my teeth into it properly#since we aren't having to keep up with like six streams a day#it's been so long sinve this server took a proper breather i'm appreciating it for all it's worth#((yes i wish the circumstances were better but they aren't; we take what we can get lmao))#ok anyway love u byeeeeeeee purgatory posting will probably continue#i'll tag as appropriately as i can; lmk if there are further tags i should add#i prefer people don't block Me if they hate these; i'll make u a tag to block if u ask i promise <3
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Summer camps and similar very intense for 2 weeks and then suddenly finished activities are so tragic because you'll form one of the deepest connections of your life and then you never see those people again
#like sometimes you get lucky and manage to keep in touch with a few of those people#sometimes you get VERY lucky especially when its something you do every year and you manage to keep most of the group#but generally its just you spend a week or two 100% of the time with the same people#you feel like its impossible you just met them a week ago#you promise you will keep in touch!! we have to keep meeting#and you do a couple times you manage to get 4-5 people together#but it will never be the same theres so many people missing#then slowly this stops#the groupchat hasnt been active for a while so i ended up not doing anything for my birthday.#well now its exam season so we will do something after that! sure!! ........silence#seeing groupchats where the last thing we talked about was this theoretical meeting is heartbreaking#and slowly the groupchat goes lower and lower on the list and you dont want to be weird and say smth#and slowly when you no longer see it because its so far down you stop thinking about it so often#and then those friends who meant the world to you for a couple weeks are just a distant memory#you dont think about them that much sometimes someone will go on one and you'll be like oh i used to love those!!#and you'll think about your friends who you don't even know if youll recognise if you met them in the street#and think we should really meet again and dont even pretend like you're going to text them#because no one has said anything in that groupchat for years and you dont even know if some of them have forgotten you#sorry im just getting emotional lol#anyways candela see u tomorrooow this wont happen to at least uus💛💛💛💛💛💛#mine
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i might not finish it but here is the boy again!!
#my art#oc art#oc#digital art#artists on tumblr#my oc art#rkgk#doodle#chibi art#chibi#ah. him and his silly evil poses.#i tried coloring it you know and it looked really bad so idk if i'll finish it...atleast ill try again once tmrw but IDK#and ahh hhhh i want to draw fanart again cause my other acc is SOOOO dead rn....that is next on my list to do...!! maybe arknights fanart??#i don't know!!! i don't know what i was doing from jan-march how was i drawing sm fanart!!!!!! where did that motivation and drive come fro#i want it back wtf!!!!!! anyways.#if you read all of this have a wonderful day. im wishing peace and happiness and such for u
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I feel like there are roughly two kinds of "painfully weird kid" that you can be during your K-12 school years. the first is your "I am trying so hard to be normal but I just cannot seem to hit the mark. there's just something wrong with me and I don't know how to fix it" and the second is the category I was in, which is your "everyone around me is so incredibly weird but they obviously can't help it so I will just have to accept this."
#being a deeply weird kid in school was definitely an experience#i feel like it's also heightened when you attend a private catholic school#there are just so many more layers of 'oh wow so this is...a thing' to deal with#like i honestly think the shit that private catholic schools do to a kid's head is worse for the normal kids#i was already at a point where i just accepted that my personal perspective of the world was radically different#and you really weren't going to convince me to start loving denim or perfume or makeup#so trying to get me to feel a bunch of religious guilt was also not going to work#i just added it to the long list of things that are important to most ppl that i just don't give a shit about and moved on#honestly being autistic in a private catholic school put me in a much better spot than a normal catholic student#the teachers would say something absolutely batshit insane#like telling us that 'mentally disabled' kids get a free pass to heaven because they have no original sin just like animals#(if u know ur catholic shit u can imagine the multiple layers of 'but wait!' involved in this statement but anyway)#and your normal catholic student would be like 'what?! for real! oh my gosh...but are you sure? oh you are. well...i guess it's true then..#whereas i would be sitting there like 'wow that is...a wild thing to believe. also u were staring at me for that whole speech so...'#like yeah i did get involved in the heated debates because it was hella fun#but in hindsight it would be really fucked up to be an actual catholic kid in that school because jesus christ...#a lot of our teachers even had strong disagreements over belief shit and would make us all take sides#so it wasn't even like unanimous weird stuff pumped at us. it was like conflicting weird stuff#one intense divide i recall was the simple but highly controversial 'do animals go to heaven?' debate#most said 'yes' with or without conditions#one teacher said 'yes and also disabled kids' which was fucked up and definitely directed at me whenever i was in the room#like some kind of fucked up 'it's okay because you'll get a better life in the afterlife sweetie' kind of thing#while others were like 'ANIMALS? in my heaven? I think not! what did they even do to earn it?! nothing!'#students tended to also be very invested and distressed by the thought of no family pets in heaven#but also very conflicted based on the facts being presented by both sides and also which teacher was their favorite so...
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Just when you think we're done with fic links, you remember that I'm nearly two days late in publishing the first few pieces of my own homemade fictober prompt list!
That said, here's Day One, for the prompt 'name.' Some light stizzy, with implied ftm Izzy (am I working through feelings via fic about how long it took me to finally find all the names I actually want to use for myself and how one of them is in fact. fucking. I can't even type it out but if you've checked my description in recent days you've probably noticed the change and Understand my faffing about here ANYWAY SORRY LINK INCOMING)
#text post#im not gonna make a fictober tag for these bc like. it's my own list im the only one doing it lmaooooo#plus I usually post fic late enough that I think anyone it might irritate to see more than one link post in a row won't be awake & scrollin#also i just don't want to have to try and remember one quite frankly tho that said if someone really does want a tag to blacklist these#I genuinely would have no problem making one up and remembering it for u so u can blacklist lol just lemme know#I need to finish the last few lines of today's prompt fill and then should try and start tomorrow's bc tomorrow is uh.#less than an hour away as I type lmao
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#man i can't believe my dad is looking for all these cool colleges for my brother#he's not even doing any research because he already knows a lot bc my sis studied the same thing#but like. im so offended lol he didn't let me go because he said college is a waste kuch padhai toh hoti nahi hai#dekh liya teri behen ki harkate ek aur beti nahi bigadne dunga#and for my brother no restrictions#fuck you#i should've picked science im an idiot#well i did not pick science bc im an idiot and didn't understand anything in 10th grade but still#and the audacity of him to tell ME to talk to admissions office everywhere#i remember i made such a good comprehensive list of so many colleges#i made columns and everything writing everything down comparing it#and he didn't even LOOK at the paper he said you'll stay home and that's final#i fought and i cried and i begged but nope he was unmoved said you don't even have to do ca if u don't want to#do bcom from a local college then shadi kar lena I don't mind#when he knows i could never do that. local colleges here suck their degrees mean nothing#and obviously i wasn't going to just play dice with my future like that he had traumatized me enough to ensure that#i would never rely on marriage on a man for my living my mom had been grilling into my head since i was like 11#that you have to be really rich and independent okay you can never rely on men and i didn't even understand anything at that time i just#said yes okay. wow is that why im. bisexual (we're just saying that atp when i know men make me sick)#i hadn't even grown up even a little and my mom was like men all suck never trust them lol. well i took your advice mom#let's see how u react when u find out#🤣🤣🤣#ugh it's 11:30 am and i am already bitter and resentful okay okay this stops now#just few more months and then I'll be happy#also fun fact the college he asked me to look up. it's so famous for drugs and fuckboys and sex and everything lol#the asshole fuckboy guy i met on bumble last year who i stupidly lost my first boy kiss too. he was from there#and the stories he told me. my brother if he goes here well nice. one more asshole emotionally unavailable fuckbky in the making#he'll become im so sure
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#hehe I really do wanna go through all their songs and lyrically pick out the ones that talk abt happiness but I was like damn that's a lot#Of songs and i don't wanna miss one so I decided to do this tierlist to kinda have that list in front of me LOL#I only put songs here that I felt like I listened to enough to rank so it's not their whole discography#(Like i need more time for sungjins album to marinate before making actual decisions abt it)#also to be continued by denimalz wasn't on this tierlist and thats genuinely like skdjdj a+/s tier song for me its so fucking gooood#it was hard chz I like diff songs for diff reasons some r more strong lyrically others musically some r so good at both it's so hard#kept changing my mind lol and feel like it could change depending on my mood#letting go reboot F tier only cuz I feel very 'looking at how they massacred my child' abt it#letting go is like the first d6 song I liked even b4 I stanned them and to this day I feel like it does so much so well I nvr understood wh#the reboot version 😭😭 i do like the new bridge but I also really really like youngks rap bridge 😔😔#just felt like all the correct musical decisions were taken out in the reboot ahh like there was so much like#song starts bare ish but then u start layering instruments it helps build it up to the climax so well but they take all of that out w the#reboot 😭😭#anyhows. now that i have a list i will do what I intended to do and compile the songs that talk abt happiness in some way or another#certain songs also surprised me for how high I put em like what is.. for instance#also ONE ?? I didn't know i felt S tier abt it lol but I guess I do.#rambles
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You Really Got Me Now



pairing: eddie munson x fem!reader
word count: 5.2k words
description: your best friend and roommate eddie is pissing you off, per usual. his way of making you feel heard is not very conventional.
warnings: 18+ content, MDNI, no use of y/n, roommate au, lowkey pwp, best friend!eddie, reader and eddie are both in their 30s, a bit of force proximity, reader is awkward as fuck (she just like me), reader hasn't gotten dick lately, mentions of voyeurism (eddie and reader have listened to each other having sex), kind of dom!eddie, fingering, oral (f receiving), multiple orgasms, unprotected p in v, lots and lots of dirty talk, eddie cums in reader.... annoying ass neighbors?
authors note: yeah i don't know. i'm just horny for this man. all of the time. thanks to lindsey @amanitacowboy who CONSISTENTLY feeds into my delusions. love u.
how to help palestine ~ dividers by @cafekitsune
He pissed you off for the fourth time today.
You had spent most of your day doing yard work, trying to ensure the home you two shared did not look overgrown for your snooty neighbors. They already hated that there was an unmarried couple living next to them. Even worse they were not even a couple.
Eddie and you had been friends for over a decade. When you two could not find someone to settle down with once you both turned 30, you decided to rent a house together. You were sick of living at home with your parents and everyone else around you was in love. Steve had Kira, Robin had Vicki, and well… you had Eddie. Eddie had you. But not in a romantic sense.��
That’s what you two told yourselves, at least.
Made crystal clear years ago, you and Eddie knew your friendship meant more than some knee jerk desires. You had kissed once, and you would be lying if you said you did not enjoy it. He was tentative, kissing you like he was trying to melt all your worries away. At the time, it was a desperate attempt to distract your mind from a shitty break up and Eddie had gotten a bit too high.
That next morning, you sat down with him and discussed boundaries. No kissing, no sex. That was the hard line, and for years, you two had kept that promise to yourselves.
There had been moments. An evening out with friends where you two would dance all night together and when you parted to go to your separate rooms, you would linger in the hallway just staring at each other. No one ever caved because you both knew you would regret it in the morning. Or the tense nights where one of you said something to rub the other person the wrong way. Sometimes it would turn into you two apologizing in the dimly lit kitchen, hugging and swaying near the flickering oven lightbulb.
Today was going to be one of those days for sure. Everything he did rubbed you the wrong way.
He had not done the dishes last night, deciding to stay up late and drink himself into a deep slumber. When you woke up, wrapped in your falling-apart-at-the-seams robe and saw the dishes, you wanted to throw an empty beer bottle at him. But you didn’t. You just did them and didn’t say a word.
Then there was leaving his wet clothes in the washing machine. The moment your nose got a whiff of the despicable scent of molding clothes, you slammed the top down and groaned his name. He was not even in the house, deciding as soon as he woke up that he needed to go get a pack of cigarettes from the gas station.
Then there was him being adamant about washing his van with the hose you were trying to use to water the dying plants in the flower beds surrounding your front door. You just grit your teeth, jerking your head into a nod when he asked for it.
Now here he is, making you mad again as you sweat all of your body weight over some weeds.
“I’m having some of the guys over tonight for some burgers-” “No.”
He narrows his eyes at you, swatting a gnat away from his face as you place your hands on your hips.
“Why not?”
You had a list. A big long list. The house was a disaster. The neighbors called a noise complaint last time. The grill needed propane.
This was the tipping point. “Eddie, I’m gonna fuckin’ kill you in our front yard,” You blow up, throwing off your gardening gloves, “You haven’t done shit for this house in months. I am like your own little personal housewife. I am the only person in this house that keeps it nice and clean. I haven’t had a night out in months because I am using my weekends to keep up with this shithole. I haven’t had a guy over in over a year, for fucks sake! No guy wants to fuck a girl who lives with a shitty roommate who can’t even clean. I need… I need your help.”
His demeanor shifts, his shoulders slumping a bit. You did not mean for the word vomit to come out like that. You sounded vicious, but all of it needed to come out at sometime.
“Sweetheart-” But you do not want his excuses. You wave him off, storming towards the front door and swinging open the glass door, letting it shut behind you. You needed cold A/C on your face. You were about to pass out from anger and heatstroke. Damn Indiana summers.
Eddie launches the door open, practically chasing you down to the kitchen. You stand under a vent, tilting your face directly towards the line of air.
“What do you need my help with?” He asks, a slight arrogance in his tone.
You don’t even look at him. You just hum as the cold air caresses your face. “The dishes. The laundry. Fuckin’ clean a toilet-”
“And what about guys not coming over?”
You finally tilt your head over at him, confused. “Huh?”
He looks at you with this fire in his eyes that you have almost never seen before. Maybe once or twice when one of his ex girlfriend’s said something based. He did not seem angry, per se, but he seemed agitated.
He crosses his arms over his chest, covering the Metallica logo on the front of his black tank top. His arms are toned and sprawling with randomly harsh lined tattoos. You had to thank Steve for the toned muscles as he was forcing Eddie to lift weights with him twice a week. You are definitely seeing the results.
“You said no guy wants to fuck a girl who lives with a shitty roommate,” He states plainly, leaning against the kitchen island, “How am I supposed to help you with that?”
It’s like he’s trying to hint at something. Eddie was notorious for not saying what he really wanted to say, just simply talking around the subject.
“Let me have a night off where I’m not cleaning up after you. Maybe I can bring a guy home.”
He cocks his head to the side, pursing his lips as his eyes take you in your sweaty clothing. You had sweat dripping into places you never knew you even had. You felt better being in the air conditioning, but that did not disguise the already stained areas of the front of your oversized t-shirt and biker shorts.
“You don’t need me to… do anything else?”
Will this be fifth time Eddie Munson pisses you off today?
“Say what you need to say, Munson,” You warn, annoyed by the creeping smile on his face.
You watch as he uncrosses his arms, leaning forward towards you. “Do you need me to fuck you, princess? Is that what this is?”
Your jaw hits the floor at his offer.
“What? H-how are you getting that from this-” “You just need a good fuck to release all this tension. It’s written all over you.”
He has never been this bold before. It’s blowing your mind. He has never propositioned sex to you, ever. Maybe jokingly. Wait, last week he did suggest it to get rid of your period cramps-
“You have to be kiddin’ me, Munson.”
He shakes his head, dipping his head down to meet your eyes, “I’m deadly serious, princess.”
“You’re just sayin’ this to piss me off even more-”
He presses his pointer finger to your lips, shushing you immediately, “All this talk and I’m not hearing a no.”
You swat his hand away, groaning in annoyance. You gave Eddie props, he was very convincing when he wanted to be. But you knew better.
But then again, it had been a year since a guy pleased you.
“Eddie, you know the promise we made all those years ago. No kissing. No sex,” You lean further away, your back arching over the counter. “You can’t just propose this because I am angry at you and want you to take some accountability.”
“I’m not proposing this because I wanna weasel my way out of trouble. I’m doing it because you have been so tense these last couple months, I feel like I am walking on eggshells,” He explains, tossing his hands in the air dramatically, “Just let me get it out of your system. I know it’s been a year or so.”
“How do you know?”
You were trying to find a way out. The deepest darkest secret you held in the very depths of your heart was that you did have feelings for Eddie. You have since high school. But Eddie was occupied in every place in life and you got the permanent label as friend before you even had a chance. He dated around and you were stuck secretly obsessing over him, which- whatever. It was fine.
All his passes at you were just normal at this point. You never gave them a second thought. You were idle in the idea that it was just jokes and that he never meant it. Even when he said he would give you head to make you feel better when the last guy you dated broke up with you. Or when he told you that he liked the way your hands felt pressed against his bare chest when you helped him apply sunscreen. Or when-
Wait... Did friends usually say that to each other?
“How do I know what?” He asks, his voice wavering a bit.
You huff, “How do you know it’s been a year?”
A mischievous smile spreads across his lips, “Because the last time I heard you through the wall moaning and begging, was about March of last year. It’s currently June.”
The heat rises back to your cheeks as you stare at him wide eyed. You did not realize he was even home when you last had someone over, let alone knew he heard it all.
“Eddie! You sick bastard! You listened?!”
You go to smack his chest but he snatches your hand away, the darkness in his eyes only hinting at his intentions.
“How can I not? You were so loud for that guy,” He almost looks jealous. Almost.
“I-“
“Just begging for him to let you cum. Did you, sweetheart? Did you cum for that slimeball?”
Your mouth opens slightly, realizing his hand is still wrapped around your wrist. No ease in the tension around it, just white-knuckling it.
“I don’t remember-“
“Those moans sounded too good to be true, princess. But what do I know,” He sits back against the counter again, pulling your body closer as he does, “You’ve never cum for me. Maybe you actually do sound like that.”
You really should not. You should just yank your arm away from him and mark this down as Eddie just being a perv again. But something inside you, the tension, the annoyance, the desire, is starting to burn a pit in your stomach.
“I can.”
He raises his eyebrows, pulling your wrist and hand up to his shoulder so you rest it there. You grip onto his bare shoulder, while his arm snakes around your waist.
“You can what?”
Your mouth goes dry, unsure if you can actually mutter the words. You usually had no filter with Eddie, but right now you felt like your voice completely cut out. He looks down at you, his head tilted in curiosity. “Say it, sweetheart. You can what?”
You grit your teeth, finally submitting.
“I could cum for you.”
He arrogantly smirks, his fingers sneaking up under your shirt, “Yeah, princess? You wanna cum for me?”
Coming from his lips, it’s like melted butter. It seems so natural, his voice dropping as he speaks such absurd things to you. You smack your lips together, almost like you are contemplating giving in. But your mind is already made up.
Before you can even give him a taste of his own medicine, your mind slips.
“If only you make me scream like those other girls.”
Fuck. Why did you say that?
His mouth only widens, shocked at the statement. “So you were listening to me, huh? You called me a sick bastard mere moments ago when you were doing the same thing!”
Your fingers pinch his earlobe, making him flinch a bit. “Eddie, you cannot help but be loud! Neither can they!”
Your defense is weak, but you try to sound convincing.
“Well they are screaming for a reason, sweetheart.”
You dismiss the comment for a minute, really trying to mull this idea over. Would this cost you his friendship? Was it all really worth it?
Your nails trail down and dig into his shoulder blade, warningly. “Do you seriously want to do this?”
He shrugs, casually, like this is the most normal conversation you two have ever had. “I’ve been trying to figure out a way to get you in my bed for years. Seems like I just gotta get you all angry and hot for you to even think about it.”
The revelation deflates you a bit. You mentally slap yourself, thinking back to all the times Eddie has offered you ‘time’ with him in bed. You always took his passes as jokes, because that’s just Eddie. He’s never been serious a day in his life.
You press your body into him more, your nose getting closer to his, “You’ve wanted this for years?”
He nudges your nose with his, playfully, “Don’t act all surprised.”
The tension is at an all time high. The moment your eyes drop to his lips, you cannot peel them away from them. You have been close to him like this before, but never with explicit intentions. Maybe just to tease him or pester him. One time to inspect a possible bug that flew into his eye.
Eddie was your friend. Best friend.
Why was he looking different?
He notes the way you are silent, observing the way his lips curl upward into a toothless grin.
He shifts down, capturing your lips in a hesitant kiss, testing the waters. When the softness of his lips makes impact on your slightly dry lips, you feel self-conscious for a beat.
That was until you felt Eddie’s other hand sneak around your waist and pull you even closer. It’s the quiet reassurance you did not even know you needed.
You lean into it, practically falling into his chest completely. The kiss only progresses from there. Your hand cradles his neck as his hands sneak down from your waist to your ass. You had seen Eddie kiss before, but having it be done to you is a completely different experience. He’s hungry for it, but he’s also so tender and calculated with the movements.
The groping turns into him leveraging you upward onto the countertop. He slots himself between your legs, feeling up your thighs as his tongue slips past your lips. He’s good at stimulating you in every way, your body riddled with goosebumps. You cannot help the groans leaving your throat.
“God, you’re so hot,” He grumbles between kisses. You giggle into his mouth which makes him shake his head and pull away.
You hold his face close to yours, smiling up at his lust-blown eyes. “Never thought I’d hear you say that. Well… in this situation at least.”
“Can you just shush and let me make you feel good?” His lips trail down from your cheek peppering wet kisses to your neck, “Lemme make it up to you, sweetheart. Been a bad friend. Bad roommate.”
You roll your eyes for two reasons. One, he’s a dork. Two, his lips feel way too good on your throat.
“Make it up to me by being a good lover.”
He barks a laugh, almost too loud for the joke. “Oh, you want me to make love to you?”
“Can you just keep kissin’-”
His lips touch your collarbones and suddenly your body stiffens. You look down at his sinful expression, his lips dragging lower over your chest. His hand returns to the hem of your shirt, slowly tugging it over your head. Your ratty old sports bra was the least sexy thing you could be wearing, but Eddie eyes you like you are in lacey red lingerie with his name stitched into it. You take it upon yourself to peel the sweaty bra off, luckily the only scent you smell when you lift your arms is your antiperspirant.
“You are more perfect than I imagined,” Eddie mumbles, his hands reaching out to cup your boobs. His hands still adorned with his gaudy rings. Makes the sight even more breathtaking.
You roll your eyes, not believing him, “You’ve seen me in a bathing-”
His head dips down, catching your nipple in his mouth. The action silences you and instead of continuing your nervous babbling, you moan out his name. He rolls your pebbled nipple between his teeth while hissing in satisfaction. You can not stop yourself from raking your fingers through his curls.
He pulls away from your chest, pressing a quick kiss to your other tit, “I can’t do this if you continue to give me grief.”
The dig makes you blush. You were always awful when it came to dirty talk. Making it awkward was, unfortunately, your specialty. You nod sheepishly, untangling your fingers from his deep chocolate brown hair.
“I’ll shut up.”
He shakes his head, his lips finding the spot right below your ear. You can feel the smirk on his face, "No, don’t shut up. Just keep making those other pretty sounds for me, sweetheart.”
His thumbs hook around the elastic waistband of your shorts, tugging them down. You lift your hips, using his shoulders to balance yourself. You don’t expect him to have you completely naked on your kitchen counter, but the moment your underwear peel away from your cunt, you realize that the wetness between your legs is not just sweat.
He pulls away from your neck to look at your bare body before him and the groan he lets out makes your pussy clench around nothing. His hand skips down your body, eventually groping your hips.
“Eddie,” You hum, tilting his chin up so his eyes meet yours, “I’m very naked and you are not.”
He smiles wickedly, shaking his head, “‘Cause I ain’t fuckin’ you here, sweetheart. This is just a really good place for me to get on my knees and devour you.”
You swallow hard, watching him drop to one knee, making him eye level with your glistening cunt, “And look at how beautiful and wet she is for me. This all for me, sweet girl?”
“You’re not the only one who’s been wanting this for a while,” You admit, your eyes drooping to watch his mouth move across your inner thighs. You are a bit self-conscious, not having prepared your pussy for this kind of activity, but Eddie does not seem to mind. He admires you like a piece of art at a museum.
He flicks his tongue out of his mouth, unhurriedly moving up your slit. Once he has his first taste, that smile returns, “Mmm, there’s that confession I’ve been waiting for.”
Your mind draws a blank as he dives back in, pressing his tongue between your pussy lips. He has never looked so happy doing a task in his life, his beautifully straight teeth bared as his tongue swirls around your clit. His grip only tightens on your thighs ensuring you do not move them together. He needs you nice and wide open while he tongue fucks you.
He becomes more eager with his movements the moment you try to brace yourself on the edge of the counter. His fingers hook down into your flesh, dragging you to the edge of the surface. He does not miss a beat while he suckles on your clit, wrapping his plump pink lips around it and slurping it like a straw.
The knot in your stomach is tightening as you study his actions. Somehow it is like he knows your body better than you do.
The instant he sinks his pointer and middle finger into your soaked cunt, it is game over. Your body reacts before your mind does, vibrating against his mouth and fingers. He does not slow down when you clench around him, instead, he increases his speed and ministrations.
“Jesus, fuck, Eddie,” you whimper, surrendering to the climax. You squeeze your eyes shut, letting your mouth hang ajar as random moans escape you. Your nerve endings have never felt so electrified in your life.
Once you feel a slight come down, Eddie comes back up for air. His lips are shiny with his own saliva and whatever escaped you when you came.
You drop your head back, hitting the upper cabinet.
“You didn’t even have to beg for the first one,” He grunts, getting back to his feet. He locks his arm around your knees and drags your upper half into his other arm, “But the second one, you have to ask for permission, ‘kay?”
His lips are pressed to your temple, kissing you gingerly.
“You want me to beg, Eds?”
He chuckles darkly, carrying you princess-style across the house and to the living room. He could take you to bed, but he is not sure if that feels too intimate. You just want him inside you, not caring much where he decides to do it.
You bounce on the worn-down couch as he drops you down, your bare ass immediately sticking to the leather. His discards his tank top and practically jumps on top of you, his hips resting between your legs. You greedily tug at his basketball shorts, begging to reveal the length behind the tented fabric.
“Mmm, eager, are we?”
You had seen Eddie’s ass plenty of times. His shirtless frame. But never his dick. His tight pants left little to the imagination most times. But up close, pressed against your palm, you cannot help but gasp about how big he is.
He grabs your wrist firmly, his curls dropping down his shoulders as he shakes his head, “Wanna hear you beg.”
It spills right out of your desperate mouth. “Please, Eddie.”
“Please what?”
“Let me see your cock,” Your eyes reflecting faux innocence, “Please?”
He cannot help but giggle, assisting you in getting his shorts down his tattooed legs. You had been next to him for the big one on his right thigh, an ode to his favorite Metallica album. You did not completely understand the concept, but the black ink littering his body only added to his appeal.
His cock is even better than your mind had mocked up before. Long, slightly curved to the left, and not too thick that he may split you in half.
You truly cannot fathom the fact that this is happening. He is willingly showing you his dick and smiling at you while you gawk.
He is naked above you, and God is he breathtaking. The mop of curls, the broadness of his shoulders, his very slight tummy from all the beer he drinks, the works of art littering his pale skin.
Your eyes finally make their way back up to his, only to note the serious look he’s giving you.
“What?”
His lips twitch, “Just can’t believe I finally get to do this. And that it’s real and it’s not all in my head.”
Your heart stutters.
You lick your lips, searching every crevice of your mind for a response. He realizes that you are trying to muddle up a reply and that he has broken your brain temporarily. So instead of letting you counter his statement, he captures your lips in a bruising kiss.
He wastes no time after that, grabbing his dick and pushing it between your slick folds. You groan into his mouth, your pussy still very sensitive from the first orgasm he gave you. Your hand snakes around the back of his neck, holding his face close to yours.
“Eddie-“
He pushes into you before you can say anything else, a hiss whistling between his clenched teeth.
“God damn,” He throws his head back, shaking your hand away from his neck, “You’re fuckin’ tight, princess.”
The moan that leaves your throat is a whole octave lower than your actual voice. Eddie looks down at you, the widest smile painted across his face. You feel his hips inch closer and closer to you and you realize he is not fully inside you yet.
You take a breath, trying to relax your muscles, “Please, please, please.”
He snaps his hips forward, a dark guttural chuckle taunting you. “There she is. Beggin’.”
Eddie had changed into a completely different person. Sure, he was always picking on you, but this was a stark contrast from your silly best friend. The man above you, slowly rocking his hips inside you, was feral. His confidence only burning brighter the more you whimper for him.
“Please, faster.”
The wet squelching noise that emits between your bodies is borderline embarrassing. You had never heard such a sound with any other man. Eddie loves it, though. The idea that you were just gushing for him is enough to send him into overdrive.
“Yeah? You want me to go faster,” He pushes your thighs apart, spreading you wider. He wants to look at how beautiful your pussy looks stuffed full of him. “Look at that.”
You shift yourself up on your elbows, looking down at the sight he cannot peel his eyes away from. “Jesus, I cannot believe…”
You drift off, watching Eddie slowly retreat back only to sharply snap forward. Your jaw goes slack as he drives himself into you, disappearing over and over again.
Eddie‘s eyes are now on you, watching your tits jiggle every time his cock pierces your squishy walls.
“You really needed this, huh, princess?”
You watch as he reaches down between your bodies, swiping your clit with his thumb.
Your eyes roll back, unable to hold yourself together, “I really did, oh my god.”
Your legs stiffen and Eddie’s hands loosen up, letting you squirm and adjust yourself. Your hips burn and your mind is mush. Eddie’s erratic movements against your swollen bud and his rapidly moving hips are overstimulating, you cannot help but lock your legs around him.
“Yeah, I can fucking feel you clenching around me,” He babbles, licking his lips, “You just take my cock so well, don’t you? Just fuckin’ made for me.”
He does not stop talking as you grunt your response. You have never seen the man so driven to get something done in your life. He wants to cum, but he wants to feel you fall apart on him even more. His words are just pouring out of him.
“Yeah? You want me to make you mine, huh? Gonna make this pussy somethin’ only I can have.“
Your eyes fly open in shock, his words ringing in your ears. You feel his dick twitch inside you, hitting the same perfect spot over and over again. “Please, please.”
“Fuck, say it, baby. Say that you’re mine.”
He is so desperate, his usual calm, cool, collected voice faltering.
“I’m yours, Eddie.”
His thumb presses hard down on your clit, causing your hips to shift upward. The nerve endings that were ablaze before are now imploding.
The vibration of your body catches him off guard at first, so he locks his hands on your hips. You lurch your body into a crescent shape as he continues to chase his high. A final scream rips through your body, chanting his name.
Every snap forward was another word slipping from his practically drooling mouth. He fucked his cum deep inside you, his words bouncing off the walls.
“Yes.” “The.” “Fuck.” “You.” “Are.”
Your body goes completely limp under him the moment your high dissipates. He is panting like he just ran 10 miles as he slowly drifts to his side, positioning his nude body between your body and the back couch cushions. When his cock leaves your cunt, he dribbles cum over your mound and lower tummy. You glance down at your body, completely blissed out.
You have never felt more appreciated in your life.
He lays his head right on your shoulder, fanning your sweaty body with his warm breath. He does not say anything, just settles next you, throwing his arm over your midsection.
You swallow, trying to regain your composure. You thought after doing something like this with Eddie, you would feel some guilt. Regret, maybe. But none of those emotions spring up.
You felt relaxed and at peace. Like you walked off the edge of a cliff and instead of landing on a rocky bottom, you landed on a sea of fluffy pillows. It was a relief.
Your eyes fall onto his lazily smirking face, “I did really need that.”
He hums his response at first, before clearing his throat. “Yeah, I could tell. I can read you pretty well, huh?”
That’s the understatement of the century. He can read you perfectly.
You start to reflect on every word that spilled from his lips during the entire interaction, and suddenly your stomach is in knots. You start to wonder if he really did feel those things, or if he was just lost in the moment. You almost don’t ask in fear that he will tell you something you didn’t want to hear.
“Did you mean everything you said,” You press, your hand absentmindedly tucking some of his hair behind of his ear. His fingers dance across your flesh, eventually swirling around your collarbones.
“Yeah, ‘course.”
He says it so simply. You wanted to believe it was that easy, but there is logistical things that needed to be discussed. Feelings and thoughts that needed further explanation.
Eddie can see that your mind is racing. Your expression gives you away every time. His mouth slowly opens to further elaborate on his response, but before he can get out a word, there’s a pounding at your front door.
It is so sudden and loud, you both sit up from the couch.
“Mr. Munson! You left your hose on! There’s a drought-”
You tune out the rest of the rant from your elderly neighbor because Eddie starts chuckling and rubbing his eyes. He looks down at you as the rant starts to get louder, pressing a chaste kiss on your lips before grabbing his boxers off the floor.
“You stay there, beautiful. I’ll deal with this.”
You do as he says, the bliss he left you in after the kiss enough to hold you over until he comes crawling back on top of you. He stumbles back into his boxers, going to the front door and cracking it so he can get eyes on your neighbor.
“Yeah, my fault, Mr. O’Connell. Had to comfort my lady because she cut herself on the shovel. I’ll be right out to shut off that hose and save the rainforest or whatever.”
You hear a scoff from behind the door, the older gentleman taken off guard. “Oh, so she’s your lady now?”
You can hear the smile that spreads across his face. “Always has been, sir.”
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They literally just had a conversation about ice cube trays and whether or not they were clean (they decided they were not i think?) and did NOT ask me anything. Do i not exist to you people
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#the ice cube trays were clean btw just the water wasn't good at the time#which is why they were empty#this and also some things in the freezer that need moved and NOBODY has asked me to move them and i literally could#like#augh. god. i exist!!! i live here! i know things!!! i'm awake!!!!!!#i'm not SUPER annoyed by it but i Could Be if i think about it too much#which i mean. i probably will.#anyways this has annoyed me into deciding *i* will deal with the freezer stuff when i wake up if nobody else has by that point#just ... a constant list of things that's just gonna keep getting longer.#cause i don't want to ... ugh words tonight#i don't want to add the stress of because like. listen.#i get angry a LOT and it's not really warranted most of the time. i do not want to subject people to that.#and also just ... everythiiiing everything about the way i hear him act has been bugging me this week and its only MOSTLY because it's#almost (or is by now?) shark week and i always get pissed at everything right before then.#the other part is that he reminds me of the father unit who ALREADY bugs me just. in general so. yippee i guess.#its like 'hey u should communicate if u have a problem :)' and then i go 'ok i will :)' LYING because i do NOT want to make this situation#exponentially worse. cause thats how it would go. i dont need to feel even LESS wanted in my own home lol
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#so. been going on facebook marketplace adventures as of late right#and y'know. u see cool motorcycles and odd funny listings#but i saw a cheap (for the area) listing 4 an apartment like. studio#and then i got like. Hit. with a Wave shdkfhgkg.#i'm a bit afraid to say i felt sad because it feels a little silly and yada yada yeah i know whatever i'm gonna make what i want Happen but#i think for now i'm allowed to just feel sad that i don't have anyone around to be excited about that with. does that make sense?#like i thought of living with a friend. or friends. just people i love. and i'd like that so bad and it just made me really sad that i can't#really. know exactly when that might happen.#like. i used to plan excessively just so that me and people not in my life anymore who i loved dearly might have a shot at leaving our#Situations at home. and it gave me something to live for at one point. holding out for that y'know. that one day i might be happy bc i'd#be surrounded with the people i loved#make a Home. idk. it's been weighing on me for a while but just went unnamed for so long. i needa sit with it for a minute#sap says
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¥ ( muse of your choice HUHUHU — but also muse that’ll give her best ratings ✌️ )
Looks: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Personality: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
Attraction: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 |
10 Would they date them: yes | no
Favorite thing about them: Ah.... How to say this... I feel a bit embarrassed right now.. My favorite thing about Princess Peach is that she treats everyone so kindly, it makes me think that even someone gloomy like myself could be cured by her cheering... If only I could greet her one day, that would be a drea― gha! I mean uhhh, yeah.... Just― forget that, alright?
Least favorite thing about them: I don't know Princess Peach personally, and I don't think it could be considered as something I dislike but― she seems to work so hard.. no, It's not that I dislike seeing her work, I mean it in the sense that I think it would be nice if she took more breaks- but then again, I suppose the role of a king or a queen is something that a real ruler would not abandon so easily..
#soverina#;m.andricardo#/I don't really have mandri on my muse list anymore as main to be 100% honest BUT#/i think out of everyone (bc i wanted to add a new one besides s.aito) he would prob be the one to admire her the most#/i also thought o.beron but his reasoning is that she looks like a fairy tale's princess and he just loooooves stories#so he's like uwaaaaah let's have some tea sometime; okay~ ? <3<3#/BUT ALSO 'muse that’ll give her best ratings ✌️' SO REAL QUEEN!!#/ALSO HIIIII N.ITA !!!!! THANK U SM FOR SENDING THIS IN!!#/i wanted to like ur s.tarter call but im a coward who s.ucks at threads so i was like -SWEATS-#/but know im always politely staring from here#m.anny always has that reminder glued on the back of his head that he left his kingdom all for a glorious quest of revenge that never#-came true#so he always sorts of look up to other rulers like; wow they are so talented-
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