#it's real raw and uncensored

[prodigal-explorer]

i dont exactly consider myself a pro-shipper but i am VERY anti-censorship. i hate all censorship. absolutely nothing in media should be censored whatsoever, the only exception being media that is marketed towards children because it should be up to parents/guardians/trusted adults to decide what media children are ready to consume.

but when it comes to adults? hell no.

“but but but it’s a problematic ship!!! 🥺”

there are problematic romances in real life. there are abusive relationships and sexual assaults in real life. we cope with these things by reading and writing about them and realizing that we are not alone, we are not crazy, we are going through something real. media is meant to connect people, and with the influx of social media, people don’t connect with each other anymore and censoring stories about sensitive topics purely because they’re problematic is severing that connection even more.

“but but but it’s pedophilia! 🥺”

i am a victim of pedophilia. i know many people who are also victims. again, if we don’t tell these stories, then there will be kids who have nothing to connect to who think that what they’re going through is normal or that it’s something only they will understand. it doesn’t normalize anything. if you read about pedophilia and your first thought is “okay great, now i can be a pedo because i read about pedophilia!” then it’s not the story or the author’s fault. it’s the pedo’s fault because they’ve always been a pedo. they were just looking for something to twist into justifying their actions.

and also the example i just described is something that absolutely NEVER happens. it’s something that antis made up so they could spread their censorship bullshit.

we should read stuff we disagree with. we should read stuff that is disgusting and messy and horrible if we want to. because those are all stories about the human experience. and if we censor one thing, what’s to stop people from censoring everything?

do you antis know about the wales padlock act? in america in the 1920’s until i believe the 50’s or 60’s, there was a LAW that stated that people could be ARRESTED if the media they created had any form of “obscenity” in it including nudity, pedophilia, and oh, you know what else? homosexuality. transgender characters. in fact, a play called god of vengeance by sholem asch was forcibly closed down and all actors and producers were arrested for “obscenity” because it described a beautiful and loving homosexual relationship between two young women.

do you see now? do you get why censorship sucks? you can’t just have some censorship. anybody can view anything as obscenity. bigots will turn ANYTHING into obscenity and lump it in with all the “problematic” stuff y’all want to censor. lgbtq+, interracial romance, etc. it could all be lumped in there and censored too.

i would rather have a few stories in the world that i disagree with or a few stories that make me uncomfortable than absolutely no stories that depict the human experience in a raw, unfiltered, uncensored way because when you censor art, it immediately severs all human connection that could have been formed from it.

so yeah. antis get the fuck off my page unless you want to change. i hate you and all the censorship bullshit you stand for.

[enlitment]

N°2 for the book asks

Thanks for the ask kind anon and sorry for taking forever to answer! (this one was not easy!)

Top 5 books of all time?

In no particular order:

1. Alias Grace by Margaret Atwood

Set in an interesting historical period (Canada in the 1800s) + partially based on real events + focuses on women's issues + from a female perspective + includes complex, morally grey characters + unreliable narrator trope + criminal (sub)plot + weird historical psychoanalysis & psychiatry + some really great writing. Need I say more?

(Also the show is actually really good as well, if you don't feel like reading the book!)

2. The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

I mean, it's a classic for a reason. Gay yearning. Corruption. Murder. Beautiful descriptive prose. But hey, this is Tumblr, so I feel like I'm preaching to the choir here.

(Still need to get my hands on the uncensored version at some point!)

3. The World's Wife by Carol Ann Duffy

I've reread this one more times than I can count. Duffy draws on the classics (mostly Greek mythology, but also fairy tale characters and even Faust) but reimagines them through a more contemporary, as well as female perspective. That could go wrong really easily, but this book in fact does a stellar job in my opinion.

Just read Eurydice, my favourite (I don't think I've ever felt quite as represented by a poem before). Or Medusa. Or Pygmalion's Bride.

Or, you know, and poem that is not Mrs. Tiresias - I like to pretend that one is not there.

4. A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess

Very much my teenage obsession. It's a gripping read written from the point of view of a teenage criminal that speaks in a strange mix of English and Russian that is at first barely coherent. It's raw, it's brutal, but it also asks some very interesting questions about the nature of morality and free will in a way that does not feel forced.

Oh, and the movie's great as well. Possibly the best soundtrack of all time. So good and so problematic that it's been banned in the UK until the 2000s.

5. The Great Cat Massacre (and Other Episodes in French Cultural History) by Robert Darnton

A collection of essays focusing on the microhistory of 18th century France? It's a real mystery why I like it so much, huh.

It's actually a bit insane how much I owe to this book. It arguably helped to spark my Rousseau and Diderot (and, in general, enlightenment era) obsession. I also sneakily reapplied Darnton's argument to justify my thesis (it's totally necessary to study 18th-century mental health approaches, give me all the funds now, please! /s).

Darnton is not only a hilarious author, but you also get a sense that he truly cares about the people he writes about. If you get your hands on it, I recommend reading chapter 4 (includes police description of the key enlightenment figures, like V, Rousseau, and Diderot!) or chapter 6 (the Rousseau stan culture analysis).

Maybe skip the titular chapter, especially if you are fond of cats. I'm afraid the name is, in this case, quite literal.

[pickel182]

TitanHeart in This is a Gift, You Know

They may not be endgame, but they'll always have my lesbian heart! Here is a snippet from the chapter that inspired me to commission this art of Shadowheart and my plus-size OC Titania AKA Tav from @redreart (link at the bottom for the uncensored version)

Gale regarded her carefully. “Much as I hate to give Astarion of all people the benefit of doubt, literature on vampire spawn only suggests numbing and antiseptic properties of their saliva for the for the victi-" he cleared his throat after Tav raised a brow and corrected himself hurriedly, "-person being bitten, I mean. Nothing explicitly  aphrodisiacal." Wyll squinted. “That's... not a real word.” Gale gasped at the insult and two of them started wrestling around in the water as Shadowheart laughed.  Gods. Tav thought. She had suspected that the bite was at least somewhat responsible for her wanton behavior. She really was just depraved after all. She sank beneath the water both in defeat and to cool her blazing cheeks. Gale and Wyll made a truce and took Tav’s brooding as their cue to leave and let her wallow in watery shame, but Shadowheart stayed behind.  She swam over to Tav who welcomed the comfort of their closeness. “Let me look at that burn,” she said as she gestured for Tav to tilt her head back. 

Tav did as was instructed, and was rewarded with a rush of golden warmth seeping into the skin at her throat healing where the acid had left her flesh raw. Her skin tingled. She shivered from the residual magic, and as she met the other woman's gaze, perhaps something else.  “So you’re not sure how you feel about him, then?” The cleric queried, searching Tav’s dark eyes with her green ones.  Tav frowned in thought. “I like him more than is probably wise. Part of me wonders if it’s just because I like the attention. But I have to admit he’s useful to have around, and he makes me laugh as much as you do,” she said as she smiled and flicked water at Shadowheart, who swam closer before continuing her questions. “But you’re not sure if you’d feel the same way without the blood involved.” She searched Tav’s face for an answer.  Tav was unable to string together an answer, or to protest as the cleric closed some of the space between them and brushed the stray drops of water off of one cheek. “Do you trust me?” Shadowheart asked, her eyes focused intently on Tav’s.  Tav’s pulse started to pick up as she registered their closeness and the half-elf's intentions. She didn’t trust her voice in the moment. So she just nodded in reply.  The cleric trailed her fingers along the underside of Tav's jaw, whose eyes fluttered shut at the warm press of lips over hers. The kiss was slow and soft, before growing more insistent. Shadowheart pressed her body closer, winding her arms around Tav's shoulders and burying her hands in Tav’s wet hair. She pulled away and rested her forehead on Tav’s for a moment before separating from her entirely. It was a tender moment Tav didn't expect. This softer version of her usually prickly friend was almost a stranger to her, until the cleric's eyes lit with mischief.  Tav was frozen in place, unsure of how to feel, what to think, and what to do. Shadowheart  backed away before she even had time to consider reciprocating. She opened her mouth to speak but Shadowheart stopped her. “It doesn’t have to mean anything else, not just yet, or at all if you don’t want.” She grinned at Tav, a blush blooming across her cheeks as she continued. “You deserve to have some basis for comparison, for being touched and wanted by someone who isn’t also having you for supper.”  She turned away and called out over her shoulder, “Goodnight, Tav.” 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/51284056/chapters/129576736

This and more on Ao3 ♥️

[ask-theredcrown]

(A letter–with that same signature as always–awaits Narinder.)

(Because, God forbid they learn to let go of someone.)

"I once thought—and to some extent, still do—that I wanted your heart. You, in your entirety, raw and unfiltered. Pure, divinity, mortal and god."

"But. I don't want your heart—No, it was never about that."

I want to know how you look in a field of flowers."

"I want to know how you feel, as you watch the sun bleed into blue waters."

"Free from hunger."

"I want to love you forever."

"I want heaven."

"I want you to take me to heaven."

@askthe-littlepoet

With a rageful growl, after finishing to read the letter, Narinder holds it in the air while fire swallowed it entirely, leaving not even a trace of dust or ash behind.

"I'm tired of your words and your charm, little bird. Unless you show real, raw and uncensored devotion for me, nothing is happening."

"I will accept nothing less than your life on a stake as your lowest offering to me."

[trexalicious]

“Now that she wants to be American again instead of British aristocracy what she seems to forget is Americans want real, raw, uncensored. All of this even in the trailer is highly curated, produced, and out of touch."

[nightcrawlerzincorporated]

The Fandom Takes a Mental Health Day (Data)

Heyoooo! If you didn't know or don't remember, I created a survey collecting people's opinions on the episode Dennis Takes a Mental Health Day a few months back! I haven't been able to finish the results post for it yet, but some people were interested in seeing the raw data, so here it is!

Click here for raw uncensored spreadsheet action

Some things to look forward to when I finally finish the real results post: colorful graphs and charts, stats on how many people who ship macdennis liked vs disliked the episode, stats on how many people liked or disliked various things about the episode, and so much more! Coming to a Tumblr near you at some point

[pinkkop]

Day 45 - 15 Days BL Challenge (part 3)

Day 45 - Favourite BL that isn’t from the big four (Japan/Thailand/Taiwan/South Korea).

I feel like I'm almost cheating by choosing a BL from mainland China but honestly outside of the big four and China I haven't seen any really good BLs. Though I guess if we ignore bromance shows then there aren't a lot of good quality BLs out of mainland China either.

Anyways, from mainland China:

Blue Canvas of Youthful Days

It's absolutely brilliant! I love both pairings and I'm eating up the story. It feels raw and real in both plot and production.

I'm still not entirely sure how this got made and released since they tried and failed to release it on iQIYI first before it then months later finally got released on Gagaoolala.

It didn't quite stick the landing with it's ending but it's still a great show if you ask me.

Meet You at the Blossom

For some reason this year seems to be the return of BL from mainland China. Both Taiwan and Thailand had a hand in this one so maybe we'll get more in the future ... pretty please 🥺

This show was a journey in the best way possible and it was a joy to finally be able to watch an uncensored historical Chinese BL. The dynamic between the leads of a cat and dog pairing was so good and I would love to get a spin-off for the second pairing.

The original challenge is here, part two here and part three here.

This is the final day of part 3 of this challenge! Round of applause to me for finishing 45 days of prompts ... maybe I'll see you in a part 4 👀

[godzilla-reads]

💜 Content Warning: Everything by Akwaeke Emezi

Rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5

In their debut poetry collection, Akwaeke Emezi imagines a new depth of belonging, crafted of both divine and earthly materials.

I’ll start off by saying that my two favorite poems out of all these deeply personal poems were “Disclosure” and “when the hurricane comes the men protect their brothers”. These two stuck out to me the most because of how raw and uncensored they were. The poems in this book definitely contain content warnings for abuse, rape, self-harm, and suicide. I probably wouldn’t have understood the poems as well if I hadn’t read some of Emezi’s books, but you catch on real quick. Akwaeke Emezi is a gift.

[lilithlounge]

hi! i hope you’re doing well. i wanted to know more about this lilith placement. anything i hear is just work related problems :/

gemini lilith in the 6th house at 2 degrees.

sag sun opposite lilith

pisces moon square lilith

cap venus inconjunct lilith

aqua uranus square lilith

pisces mars quintile lilith (so many aspects i’m sorry)

No apologies needed 🖤 you’re always welcome here.

You have Lilith in Gemini in the 6th House at 2° and let me tell you, this is way more than just "work issues." Whoever reduced it to that was only seeing the surface. Lilith here wants freedom of thought and voice in everyday life not just at work but in how you organize your reality. She’s a whisper in your mind that says, I don’t want to be trapped doing what feels meaningless or robotic. You have a restless intelligence that needs to play, explore and question the rules of daily life whether that’s through work, wellness, routine or even just how you fold your laundry. Gemini is never happy being mute; Lilith in Gemini is furious when she’s silenced or forced into boring repetition.

Sagittarius Sun opposite Lilith is a major internal dialogue between your radiant, truth seeking self and Lilith’s wild voice. Sometimes you might feel torn between being a good person who stays optimistic and burning it all down because you’re tired of playing nice. Your journey involves learning to honor both. You are a bright light but you’re also someone who was born to question fake positivity and seek the blunt truth.

Pisces Moon square Lilith your emotions are oceanic and intuitive but Lilith squares it meaning sometimes your deep, empathic nature battles with the raw, uncensored Lilith instincts. You might feel guilty sometimes for your anger, your sharp wit or your need to cut ties with emotional drains. But healthy boundaries are a sacred act of love not cruelty. Learning to own your emotional instincts, even the messy ones is a huge theme for you.

Capricorn Venus inconjunct Lilith your love nature wants structure, commitment, something real. But Lilith’s independence can feel jarring to that part of you like, I want love but I refuse to be owned. The inconjunct means this isn’t a clean blend, you often have to work consciously to balance loyalty with personal freedom. You are not someone who will ever thrive in love by playing roles, you need relationships where you can be you not a polished statue.

Aquarius Uranus square Lilith change, electricity and revolution clashing with wild feminine, you were literally born to break old systems. There’s a streak of you that is allergic to anything oppressive, anything fake, anything outdated. It’s powerful but can feel isolating too because it means you often see the cracks in the world that others ignore.

Pisces Mars quintile Lilith is a soft aspect, creative and gifted. You have a natural artistry when it comes to channeling Lilith energy. You are insanely creative when you allow yourself to act on intuition, dance, write, move, love and fight from the gut. Lilith fuels your passions in a way that’s beautiful and original not only chaotic.

[fapellogirlsnet]

Fapello – The Hottest Video Platform Online That Everyone’s Talking About

In the ever-evolving world of online content, Fapello has quickly risen through the ranks to become one of the hottest video platforms on the internet. Whether you're a fan of viral moments, exclusive creator uploads, or trending video drops, Fapello is the go-to destination for anyone craving high-quality entertainment on demand.

What is Fapello?

Fapello is a sleek, modern video platform built for today's fast-paced content culture. Designed with user experience in mind, it delivers trending, uncensored, and creator-focused videos straight to your screen — all wrapped in a smooth, lightning-fast interface. Think of it as the place where YouTube meets after-hours content, curated for a bold, unfiltered audience.

Why Fapello is Blowing Up Right Now

Fapello isn’t just another platform trying to copy the big names — it’s carving out its own lane by focusing on what viewers actually want:

Exclusive Videos: Get early access to the most buzzworthy content from rising and established creators.

Unfiltered Creativity: Unlike other platforms that restrict and censor, Fapello champions creative freedom.

Aesthetic & Speed: Clean design, smooth navigation, and quick load times make for an addictive user experience.

Community-Driven: Fapello thrives on community feedback, ensuring that the content stays fresh, edgy, and in demand.

The Rise of Independent Creators

Fapello empowers creators to own their content and grow their fanbase without compromise. By offering a platform free of unnecessary restrictions, it has attracted a diverse range of influencers, adult stars, artists, and entertainers looking for a space that celebrates authenticity and originality.

For many, Fapello has become a launchpad for content that wouldn’t survive on traditional social media platforms. It’s raw. It’s real. And most importantly — it’s what fans want to see.

What Sets Fapello Apart From the Competition?

Let’s be honest — the content world is crowded. But here’s how Fapello stands out:

🔥 Bold Content: Not safe-for-work? No problem. Fapello doesn’t shy away from pushing boundaries.

🧠 Smart Discovery: AI-driven algorithms bring the right videos to the right audience, fast.

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Is Fapello Free?

Yes — the platform is free to explore. While some creators may offer premium or subscriber-only content, the majority of videos are accessible without payment. You can watch anonymously or create an account for full access to features like saving videos, commenting, and following creators.

What’s Next for Fapello?

The platform is growing at a wild pace. With constant updates, partnerships, and more high-profile creators joining daily, Fapello is shaping up to be the digital playground for content you can’t find anywhere else.

Expect more personalization, livestream features, mobile app expansion, and deeper creator monetization tools in the near future.

Final Thoughts

If you haven’t checked out Fapello yet, now’s the time. It’s bold, it’s addictive, and it’s changing the game for both viewers and creators alike. Whether you’re in the mood for spicy entertainment or looking to discover tomorrow’s viral stars, Fapello is the place where it’s all happening.

Fapello — Where the Internet Comes to Play.

[therealmofstarwars]

✨🪐 Commitment Needed for Star Wars Collab Fanfiction Server✨

🔥🔥 THE VENT STARTS NOW 🔥🔥

This sets the tone that the blog post is specifically meant for venting purposes without restraint. The fiery imagery and warning about explicit language lets readers know this is a space for free expression and cathartic release.

🔥🔥 VENTING ZONE AHEAD 🔥🔥

Extended revision disclaimer:

The following blog post is a raw, unfiltered venting session. Foul language, explicit rants, and incendiary opinions are absolutely guaranteed. If you're easily offended or prefer sunshine and rainbows, turn back now

This is a judgment-free zone for getting shit off my chest without censorship. It's cathartic expression at its most primal and uncensored. You've been warned - enter at your own risk!*

If you choose to proceed, buckle up and prepare for a profanity-laced, no-holds-barred venting extravaganza. This is the main event for when I'm fed up and need to blow off some serious steam.*

There will be fury. There will be rants. There will be all the curse words. But there are no limits or boundaries here - just pure, uninhibited venting in its natural state.

🔥 For Those Who Understand 🔥

To those getting it and allowing me this cathartic release - thank you. Your support and understanding is appreciated as I get this off my chest.*

🔥 For Those Who Don't 🔥

If you don't vibe with this energy, you had it coming. I'm an unapologetic Aries and I don't hold back when venting. Don't say you weren't warned!

🔥🔥 THE VENT STARTS NOW 🔥🔥

I'm not a role model, I don't plan to be. I'm just a 23-year-old college student and young adult trying to survive a quarter-life crisis over here.

Hey everyone, I have an important announcement regarding our Star Wars Collab Fanfiction server on Discord. I've noticed a frustrating pattern lately of members joining the server, being somewhat active for a little while, and then disappearing without any notice or commitment.

I clarify - I am banning lazy, annoying, uncommitted fake members who play the asshole card. It pisses me off when people make last-minute plans and can't make up their damn minds. Stop wasting my damn time! It's rude, frustrating, annoying and brings unnecessary stress.

Going forward, I want to be upfront - if you join this fanfiction server, I expect you to be an active, committed member. That doesn't mean you have to be online 24/7, but it does mean regularly participating in discussions, showing up to collaborate on writing projects, and letting us know if you'll be inactive for a period of time.

For the love of God, Buddha, Athena - stop wasting my damn time! This is the last straw. You are banned if you pissed me off. I am recruiting real Star Wars fanfiction writers who are actually intrigued to join and collaborate.

If you realize this server isn't for you after joining, that's totally fine! Just let me or a mod know so we can remove you properly. But joining, being a ghost for a few weeks, and then disappearing forever? That's not cool.

My goal is to build a tight-knit community of Star Wars fanfiction writers who actually want to be here and work together. Uncommitted members who just take up space aren't helping achieve that vision. I will post announcements, but I need committed fanfic writers who are actually intrigued to join and collaborate.

Sorry guys, we had to deal with this - it's not fun for us all. I'll post this on my Tumblr Star Wars fan blog, then take a break. I hope you guys are actually committed and genuinely intrigued. I have three members right now, I just want this growing server to meet an online community of other fans to collab on Star Wars fanfiction and make new online friends. I am tired of this bullshit, I just want peace, ugh.

I hope you all understand where I'm coming from with this. Let's work together to build an amazing Star Wars fanfiction community on Discord that people stick around and invest in!

#starwarsfanfic #starwarscollabfanfiction #discordserver #fanficserver #fanficcollab

[eternal--returned]

CYRINDA FOXE: I didn't want to go back to New York yet. I was kind of embarrassed and didn't want to face Andy Warhol and everybody. I had run out of money and had bleached my hair, which broke my hair off. I didn't like myself. So when I found out Leee had gotten everyone into the Beverly Hills Hotel, I thought, Well, I could hang out here for a while. So I went to the Beverly Hills Hotel and Iggy and the guys showed up and it was cool. Iggy and I always had a real brother-and-sister relationship, and I was convinced that Raw Power was his last stab at making it. We had a really long talk about it being his last chance to do something, and that he'd better get his shit together and not fuck it up. Then I went and crashed with that guy, what's his name? James Williamson. He had the hots for me big-time. What was I doing with that guy? He was so uncool. Yea, I slept with him, so people keep reminding me. But James wasn't from the same litter as Iggy, Ronnie, and Scotty. He was just some stray dog that found his way into the pack. James Williamson ruined the Stooges. They didn't need him. Somebody should have chewed his ass out. Left him to die.

Legs McNeil & Gillian McCain ֍ Please Kill Me: The Uncensored Oral History of Punk (1996)

[weirdguides]

A Comprehensive Guide to Navigating the Underground Sex Trade

Disclaimer: This narrative is a raw, uncensored exploration of the hidden world, designed to empower and safeguard women who choose to challenge societal norms and authority. It's a non-fictional, strategic guide that delves deep into the intricacies of survival and success in this illicit domain.

Chapter 1: Deciphering the Legal Maze

Unveiling the Legal Landscape: Before embarking on this journey, it's crucial to understand the laws that you seek to defy. Prostitution laws vary globally, from outright prohibition to decriminalization and even legalization in some jurisdictions. Research the specific statutes in your intended area of operation. Are sex workers, pimps, clients, or all three criminalized? This knowledge will shape your tactics.

Analyzing Enforcement Patterns: Law enforcement agencies differ in their approach to prostitution. Study the local police's tactics. Are they actively conducting sting operations and raids, or do they maintain a more passive presence? Identifying hot spots for police activity will help you steer clear of potential traps. Stay updated on the latest enforcement trends through discreet channels and underground networks.

Chapter 2: Choosing Your Path

Street Trade: Risks and Rewards: Streetwalking is a high-risk, high-reward strategy. If you choose this path, scout for less-traveled, dimly lit streets, avoiding popular red-light districts. Develop a keen sense of awareness, learning to identify potential clients and undercover police. Discretion is paramount; blend into the shadows and trust your instincts for survival. Traveling in small groups can increase safety but also increases potential to draw attention.

Brothels and Hidden Establishments: Operating from an established location offers a sense of security. Seek out illegal brothels or massage parlors that operate under the radar. These places often have connections and systems in place to ensure anonymity. However, be cautious, as they might be under surveillance or outright honeypots. Use aliases, and never disclose personal details, ensuring your identity remains protected.

The Escort Route: Disguise as Legitimacy: Becoming an escort allows for a more sophisticated facade. Create anonymous profiles on encrypted platforms catering to clients seeking discretion. Establish a reputation for yourself, but always prioritize safety. Thoroughly vet clients, and consider employing a trusted intermediary to arrange meetings, ensuring you remain one step removed from potential danger.

Chapter 3: Safeguarding Your Identity and Freedom

Anonymity as Armor: Protecting your true identity is a cornerstone of survival. Create and maintain a separate persona for this world. Never share personal information, and avoid carrying documents that can expose your real identity. Use encrypted communication tools, and frequently change your contact methods to prevent tracking.

Screening Clients: A Vital Practice: Your safety hinges on careful client selection. Always meet in public places for the initial encounter, and trust your instincts. Implement a rigorous screening process, including references from other sex workers or verification through discreet, trusted online communities. Be vigilant for signs of law enforcement or potential threats. Ask for an up to date STD test for your safety.

Communication Tactics: Encryption is your ally. Utilize secure messaging apps like signal and temporary phone or anonymous numbers to communicate with clients and colleagues. Regularly update your online presence, erasing any digital footprints that could compromise your identity. Maintain a network of trusted contacts, but exercise caution in sharing information, even within this circle.

Chapter 4: Evading Authority and Surveillance

Mastering Disguise: Your appearance is a powerful tool. Learn the art of disguise, adapting your look to blend into different environments. When not working, shed your trade persona, becoming a chameleon in plain sight. Invest in makeup, wigs, and accessories that aid in transforming your appearance, making it harder for anyone to recognize you.

Knowing Your Legal Rights: Understand your legal rights during police interactions. You have the right to remain silent, and sometimes, silence is your most potent defense. Familiarize yourself with local search and seizure laws to protect yourself from unlawful intrusions. Remember, the less you reveal, the more power you hold.

Confronting Raids and Arrest: Prepare for the worst-case scenario. If faced with a police raid, maintain your composure. Do not resist arrest, as it may escalate the situation. Document any rights violations and seek legal counsel experienced in defending sex workers' rights. Remember, knowledge of your rights is a powerful tool in navigating the justice system.

Chapter 5: Financial Sovereignty

Cash and Cryptocurrency: In the underground economy, cash is king. Set up multiple anonymous bank accounts if possible to deposit your earnings. Consider cryptocurrencies for added financial secrecy, but be careful, Cryptocurrency like Bitcoin isn't anonymous by default. While money laundering is illegal, exploring techniques to obscure the source of your income can reduce the risk of detection.

Evasive Financial Tactics: Tax evasion is a necessary skill. Maintain a low financial profile to avoid scrutiny from tax authorities. Structure your finances to minimize paper trails, and consider investing in assets that are difficult to trace, such as precious metals, cryptocurrencies or both.

Building a Safety Net: Prioritize saving a portion of your earnings. This nest egg will provide financial security, allowing you to exit the trade if needed. It also ensures a backup in case of legal complications, where you might need to pay for legal counsel or bail.

Chapter 6: Community and Self-Preservation

Building a Support Network: Navigating this world can be isolating. Cultivate a small, trusted circle of colleagues or friends who understand your lifestyle. Mutual support and information sharing can enhance your safety and provide emotional respite.

Self-Defense and Security: Invest in self-defense training to protect yourself physically. Learn to identify and handle dangerous situations, and always prioritize your safety above all else. Carry discreet self-defense tools, and remain vigilant, especially in unfamiliar territories.

Mental Resilience: Engaging in this profession can take a toll on your mental health. Develop coping mechanisms and seek support to process the emotional challenges. Remember, your well-being is paramount, and self-care is an act of resistance against a society that seeks to control and oppress.

Conclusion: The Underground Odyssey

Embarking on a journey into the underground sex trade is a bold defiance of societal norms and authority. This guide has unveiled strategies to minimize risks, but it's essential to acknowledge the inherent perils.

Weird Guides presents this information to empower individuals, especially women, to make informed choices and protect themselves from abuse and overzealous government intrusion. The choice to enter this realm is yours alone, but with knowledge and caution, you can navigate the shadows with resilience and autonomy.

In the dance between breaking free and staying hidden, remember that every step carries consequences. Stay informed, stay vigilant, and always trust your instincts in this complex and clandestine world.

[regarding-stories]

Raw and merciless: A Girl on the Shore

(Normally I would accompany a post by adding GIFs to break up text, but for media not that popular or that haven't been made into anime, that's hard to do.)

Trigger warning: Not so much for my post, but for the book itself. It contains very explicit (yet censored) allusions to sex acts, but beyond that it also features a lot of emotional cruelty, suffering, loss, and depression, and, to top it off, violence. This is not an easy book.

(Also, I'll completely spoil the story.)

"A Girl on the Shore" is a manga story contained in two volumes describing an unfolding "relationship" between Isobe and Koume, two students in the last year of middle school/junior high in a rural community. It's neither romantic nor wholesome in any way, it's probably best described as an unflattering portrayal of human nature, sexuality, emotionally damaged people, and relationships built between such people.

The art style itself is amazing in its detail. It has a very unfiltered view of people, portraying a wide range of body shapes and looks. People are not manga-cute or manga-attractive, they look like actual people. Koume is pretty in her own way but her freckles and face make her look, well, like a girl in middle school, still like a child in some ways. But she's just a stand-out character among many - you see weak jawlines and all the other features so rarely featured on average, doughy faces, different body shapes, and many adults look especially unflattering. But seldom does manga look this real.

In many manga, they have to tell you who is who by hairstyles and accessories, and tell you who is attractive and who is not because of the lack of visual detail. This manga may not be photo-realistic but it captures something about the faces and bodies of people that makes it easy to distinguish them and memorable and enables us to form our own impressions of them. Visually, it already is a work of art because of this, even if it decides to play the unflattering camera, hard.

But given the subject matter, this is not surprising. This is a story that looks at people when they don't want to be looked at, refusing to look away. We are basically uncensored observers to what goes down, directly to the actions, and indirectly pointed at the emotions behind them. There's a certain complicity in this closeness, and I was frankly surprised how immediate and unflinchingly the manga itself portrayed intercourse. Even though I had read a synopsis, I didn't expect this at all.

The basic plot is that Koume rejected Isobe's confession that happened after he moved to town and they were in the same class. Koume chased after older Misaki lately who has the reputation of a "player." Which is fully justified as we are told (but thankfully not shown) that Koume gave Misaki a blowjob only to be rejected by him a day after (which we are shown) in a way that was very humiliating and emotionally jarring, displaying the full extent to which he abused her feelings and hopes.

Koume then encounters Isobe again and decides to simply have sex with him at his home. (His parents are practically never home.) This develops into a "relationship" where both will have lots of intercourse with each other but she forbids him to kiss him, keeping that particular distance. Reading their post- or pre-coitus dialogues can be jarring, because they say such hurtful things to each other, often very casually, as if they meant nothing.

There is this odd emotional interplay between them that betrays that some love is still arising between them. While they often talk facing away from each other, you will find scenes where they obviously exchange a cuddle or sleep facing each other, portraying the gradual change between them. A relationship "designed" by Koume to be emotionless is anything but.

The cruel thing is how this plays out, though. Koume starts to look for ways for expressing her growing feelings to Isobe and trying to help him heal in her own, helpless, unexperienced ways. At the same time, Isobe deals with his feelings by starting to push Koume away, intensifying the sexual experience through crossing more and more boundaries, and ultimately pushing her out of his life.

We learn why Isobe is so broken. His brother committed suicide but it looked like an accident, and his family pretends that was the case, especially since Isobe deleted the suicide note he left. But this also means he carries this burden alone, increasingly isolated from and abandoned by his parents who brought him to this community, only to be shunned by not being part of it, his brother becoming a shut-in and committing suicide, and finally spiraling more and more himself without anybody intervening.

The violence of conformity turns into physical violence several times. "Baseball guy" (I forgot his name) basically wants to bully him away from Koume, which he has a longstanding crush on, but he also beats him up after Isobe provokes him. This all culminates in an escalation in front of the teachers as Isobe tries to pretend nothing happened where both fall down the central staircase of the school. But this is also an image for the violence inherent in the community itself, with its local bullies of all kinds who harass the outsiders.

Isobe in turn blames the bullies, and we never know if rightfully so, to have basically caused the death of his brother. (I question his ability to actually identify the actual bullies at that point of his mental unraveling.) His ultimate fate seems to be determined by his obsession with his brother. He concocts and carries out a plan where he traps two of the local bullies and beats the shit out of them after having used a taser on them, also leaving them to be found by the local police with the weed they had on them. The last thing we see of Isobe is that the police catches up with him, just as he seemingly seems to have found something to look forward to. He looks like he awaited them with some feeling of elation. It's a really odd scene which, I think, really calls Isobe's mental state into complete question.

There's also an odd love triangle in the mix, because Isobe found a memory card on the shoreline containng photos of an attractive girl taking pictures of herself. As Koume's feelings develop she tries to delete these pictures from his computer, only to lead to a threatening outburst from him to her. This unreal girl in turn becomes a thing of obsession, in spite of how unreal she is to them. He directs feelings to her, and Koume feels threatened by her, and yet we never meet her. She's an unreal ghost. Until the end.

Their mutual story ends with Koume encountering a seemingly happy Isobe, a quite shocking sight for the reader as well. He found the girl and asked her for her LINE, and is quite convinced she will go out with him. He's happily crushing on her, and he rejects Koume's confession as "too late." As Isobe is arrested shortly after we never learn his ultimate fate. We find however a two year older Koume who maybe manages to let down some of her emotional distance at the insistent probing of her boyfriend.

It all adds up to a story about broken people. There's ba"se"ball guy" and Koume's best friend, Keiko, IIRC. Keiko is naturally tall, with an elongated upper body, but in spite of standing out, she has heart set on "baseball guy" who is the shorty of the class, and he's suffering for it. Keiko knows he's in love with Koume but still forces a relationship on him, but in the final scene we learn he would basically still leave her at the drop of a hat if Koume said the word. This is the mildest kind of relationship we see.

We also see a lot of use and abuse. Koume uses Isobe, Isobe uses Koume. Misaki and his friends abuse young girls that they lure in, plying them with weed and alcohol and manipulating their desire to be cool and grownup. "Baseball" guy is friends with them, but they still tease him, putting in question what kind of relationship actually exists. He also uses them to threaten Isobe, maybe partially setting off his hatred for them. Koume in turn narrowly escapes date rape after feeling sick from alcohol, showing just how predatory Misaki is. A Misaki she only turned back to after not knowing how to deal with all the rejection from Isobe.

If you start to wish anything might work out for these people, you will suffer. But our protagonists are existing on a mental health spectrum, and they will act accordingly. In a sense their actions are predetermined by their traumas, not by themselves. And while Misaki and his gang set themselves up for being hated, there's really no elation at seeing them beat up - all it left me with was seeing how deeply Isobe by then had fucked up his own life for no gain at all. The violence he returns will not rectify anything, it's not some form of righteous punishment, as much triggered by trauma as it is, it's just more abuse.

The author's depiction of how trauma acts on us is, in my opinion, accurate. It falls in line with an increasing number of works of art that seem to express how people struggle with mental health issues in a culture (depicted as, how can I know?) unprepared to deal with it. I have said this many times when facing with the actions of some characters in Japanese manga and anime - these people belong in therapy (like here and here, for example). They just keep repeating futile defense mechanisms and perpetuate trauma.

In the end, do we really get an end to this story? Isobe goes from being used to running away from any kind of love to violence to living in full blown delusion. There could not have been a happy end in store for him. After all, how on Earth could the unnamed "girl on the shore" have dealt with his massive trauma should a relationship ensue? It's a moment of basking in momentary acceptance. But this won't cure long-standing mental illness. One thing going right will not cure depression. Isobe's trajectory is probably unchanged, and having a criminal record won't improve it. His rejection of Koume seems cruel, though some may feel it's justified by her actions. I think how you see this part is heavily dependent on which of the hurts on display relates most to your own experience. In this sense there's no right or wrong to the scene, it's just how it unfolds - and something rather logical for how Isobe seems to be put together.

The mystery unsolved in the series is Koume. Having your heart broken by somebody you have a crush on is hurtful. Having it done like Misaki does is a world of hurt. But Koume's actions betray deeper problems with life than we know reasons for. Isobe's story is played out for us, put in front of us. It's unclear why Koume has issues with distance and boundaries, why she is suddenly willing to drop all pretenses at dignity. Over the course of the story Koume changes, is changed by her feelings - she is trying to find ways to alleviate Isobe's problems but she can't get access to him. She's also a coward at times, writing letters and planning actions but not following through.

But I'm not sure it matters if she's a coward. Isobe started rejecting her before she could even act on her feelings. She's facing an increasing uphill struggle to express them when she has no experience expressing them. Maybe the kiss with her boyfriend is also a sign of normalization, a sign she can overcome a trauma. She tells him she likes, loves him. We have no way of telling how honest or close to her feelings that is. It's really hard to tell. But if she feels it and does it, she worked through something to get there, especially considering how things are left with Isobe at the end.

In a sense this is her story and yet we know so little about her inner world in comparison, she always seems to seek something from others. Isobe is put on a psychological display rack, yet when the story features Koume alone it's a bog-standard life, and people call her shallow all the time. But I think she's anything but.

Also, her willingness to show up with love for someone acting toward her like Isobe betrays her strange acceptance of suffering abuse for love. She's of course no innocent, she also enacts abuse on others. But there is something there. An attempt at a horse trade - "I let you and you love me. I give you and you love me." Maybe that's why Isobe calls her manipulative, but it points to a deep lack.

One of Koume's most revealing admissions is that she is willing "to become someone kind" for Isobe. She doesn't see herself as kind, her view of herself seems stark and a cynical kind of honest. In fact, there are strong implications that self worth is a massive problem to her, and hence how willing she is to cross boundaries - whether it's orally pleasing Misaki or when it comes to letting Isobe have his way with her in the later stages of their relationship.

Koume seems willing to relinquish all boundaries for love, revealing a desperate hunger and willingness to trade for what she wants deep down. It's never revealed why. It seems that by the end of the story she reestablished those boundaries to be taken down in a more healthy way. Through intimacy instead of thrilling boundary-crossing. But before she gets there we see her return to her abuser, and I think Isobe can be classified to some extent as such as well - not only due to his threatening her, but also due to his willingness to disrespect her boundaries. He's abusing her feelings to get a thrill, refusing to let them grow when he encounters his own.

There's almost nothing she would in turn not do if push comes to shove, at least for a chance of love. This is also why she doesn't give in to Misaki in the end. There's simply nothing there and she (probably) recognizes that it's delusional to think otherwise, she just didn't know what to do in general - with her feelings. She fell back into a pattern but she also breaks the pattern in time before greater harm ensues.

Maybe that's why she can smile in the end. It's hard to believe, and frankly the ending is rushed. When the story moved ahead two years and left Isobe behind, I was completely lost. The story speeds towards a conclusion in one chapter, and frankly, I'm left skeptical to believe what unfolds. Is Koume giving in to her boyfriend or is she overcoming a trauma? Is she telling him she loves him because she can now express her feelings in a more timely manner? Or is she again resorting to some lighter form of the same?

Of course she's also an abuser in the story. She refuses to kiss Isobe or express positive feelings towards him, and this in turn is part of what leads to all the boundary-crossing. There's no way for the affection part to grow because for a good while Koume tramples around on it. And then Isobe resorts to all kinds of fetishes, leading to a use/abuse relationship.

I came into this manga with a description that seriously included a description saying "friends with benefits." But this would be probably one of the most depressing friendships ever. When Koume actually wants to act like a friend towards Isobe, he pushes her out for good. When she starts to care about the burden he carries, he moves farther and farther away from her. When she says she's actually willing to listen, he begins to seriously withdraw. Yes, Koume has caught Isobe hurt. But it's Isobe who's unwilling to do get closer to anybody. What did he expect the kiss to do he was always begging for?

Isobe's rejection of Koume almost seems tit-for-tat, and her tears are genuine. It's odd that she says she wants the unhappy Isobe back, and in sense he was convenient to her. When Isobe calls her a manipulator, he's right. But that only describes the beginning of their relationship. When Koume started to attempt to bridge the gap, Isobe erected all the walls he could. If he accuses her of being too late... He gave her no chance to be in time. I think it's clear that she sees through part of his delusion, and rightfully so. But I also think that just loving Isobe probably wouldn't have healed him. The minute Isobe "smelled" love he was already withdrawing. Trying to reach someone is not manipulation, and the manipulation she might be guilty of is probably outweighed by her willingness to reconsider how she feels. But dropping her defenses just triggered his.

Of course I could be wrong and the way Koume treated Isobe initially was so emotionally jarring, it just kicked him down the stairs further. It's hard to say. I still think the way they react to love is the telling part. She's willing to change, he doubles down on his path into the abyss. The fact that she's imperfect, sometimes a coward, selfish... makes her human. She's not meant to be a perfect vessel of unconditional love. She's a person with lots of issues, and for that, she's probably doing fine - or rather, eventually, the best she can.

"A Girl on the Shore" is pretty raw, emotionally. It's cruel. Characters are mean to each other in pretty shocking ways, and the situation they find themselves in is also cruel. It's also, in my book, an unfinished story. It seems more interested in driving the train against the wall in the last few chapters than in giving us well-paced resolution. Then takes one on.

The reason I feel so ambiguous about the ending is not that I feel it doesn't fit. It just presents too few data points to tell what is what. If Koume really loves her boyfriend, we don't know. Should we just take it at face value? We missed two years, dropped one protagonist. We're reeling. And before you stop reeling, the story ends. In this sense, this is a problem of pace. And maybe the author simply sucks at writing "the happy part."

I'm not sure what the final chapter was meant to do or who it is for. It's like another story cut short, or a development rushed to present it, but it itself is packed in its own awkwardness it's unwilling to unpack properly, and to top it off, combined with "baseball guy's" ... "confession." It calls into question the ability to grow when it simultaneously reveals that after two years of being a couple nothing has grown between those two other characters deemed good enough to not throw it away on a whim. This weird juxtaposition increases the ambiguity I feel towards the end.

The ending feels so unfinished I looked for clues of Isobe in it. I even projected him into the kissing couple in the background, even though I know it's unlikely to have taken this turn. That's how much I felt the lack of resolution.

Where does that leave us? For its own imperfections, this manga is a work of art. It may not be a positive one, and where it is positive, it may unconvincing, but it is transmitting quite a bit of emotion, and creates quite a cast of realistic characters, even if they go through stereotypical actions and archetypical roles at times. It's an emotional drama and a psychological study, and I guess it doesn't really present us with a moral, more with an observation with very few filters in place. The reader is sometimes observer, sometimes voyeur, sometimes hoping for the characters. But in the end, you have to let it go. You can't solve it. Is that a message? It's at least... art.

[el-moscorrofio-y-el-mercachifle]

Hiiii, I really like it when you share with us the thoughts you have about ysblf! What did you think of that second "meeting" between Patricia and Daniel? The one where she goes to his apartment after calling him out on her cell phone and he told her to resign (and minutes later she finds Aura Maria with Mario). I always see people talking about their first "date", which was at her apartment, but in my opinion this second one was much more disturbing. This one had more blackmail, manipulation and ab\/s3 involved, which made everything sadder. Not to mention the way Daniel treated Patricia afterwards, due to her logical reaction, him sending her away soon after, had a strong impact on her (which makes me wonder about her backstory, and if this has happened before with other people

It really irritates me that they didn't give much insight into Patricia's past, I think that would explain a lot about her).

ps: sorry if I made any mistakes, I'm translating using Google Translate

Hiii! Thank you for the ask!! Don't worry about mistakes, this was very good!😊

Oh, that scene! It's definitely so, so ugly. I'd say is one of the ugliest because of the heavy themes. Fun act, I just rewatched the whole ysblf here in the US on the Peacock platform and it doesn't have the scene after, when they're on Daniel's bed and he's breathing heavily nd all that. Idk why's that, but I definitely want to rewatch the full uncensored versión again lster

The "date" escene is bad, but I don't think that anything there ((except the sexual harrassment, obviously)) makes me uncomfortable. Daniel quickly detected a golddigger with Princess delusions even though she's pretty pathetic, so he popped her bubble. She wasn't going there with a genuine desire of getting to know Daniel. She simply wanted a walking ATM, and Daniel knew that. She was just looking for a plan B in case her "relationship" with Mario didn't lead to economic comfort. (((You gotta be smart even to golddig, ppl lol)))

But THAT escene, when Patricia goes to Daniel's place to basically beg forgiveness, and Daniel takes advantage of it is so, so ugly, uncomfortable, and raw. We are presented a very human and vulnerable Patricia in a way that we didn't get to see much. We didn't see a walking comedy skit like she later became, but an actual woman who fell so hard that she's now having to accept being coerced into sexual favors because otherwise she'll be consumed by poverty. It's a very sad and human story. And yes, we know Patricia acted very wrongfully by damaging the computer, but that's nothing compared to what Daniel made her pay.

Daniel liked to humiliate people, especially those from whom he could get a reaction, like Armando and Patricia. Notice he barely ever bothers Mario, for example? Or Hugo? Sure, he gives poisoned comments to almost everyone, but you can tell he likes to particularly humiliates those who won't take it lightly and will break easily OR pretend to be more than they are ((ironic considering this dude conskders himself classy, rich, and smart and we know he isn't lmao)).

In any case, Patricia was the perfect target as she fits noth categories anyway, and he chose to humiliate her to the biggest degree in that scene when he sends her away. He is saying she is useless but for sex. That all she is and can ever be for a man like him is momentary fun. That all she prides herself in are mere facades and delusions and there is no value on her but her body. And of course, he's told her this before, but in this scene he actively demonstrates it.

The characters' backgrounds are somrthing that we really needed! Patricia is one of those characters that as the novela progresses it's easy to forget how real and human her problems are, and it's understandable the audience has that perception. The novela took her extreme poverty and made a joke out of it. But she really fell low due fully to her ego. She was coerced into sexual favors, and later basically sells herself to Nicolás for the money for her car. She goes so down to the point she doesn't eat for days. Her fridge is empty, she has no electricity some days, cold water. And sure, it's a grave that she keeps digging deeper and deeper with every idiotic decision; a hell of her own creation, but a hell none the less!

My guess for Patricia's past has always been that she was born into extravagabt luxury, not just money. Either her mother was similar to her in her grandiose and vain ways and instilled that mentality on Patricia, or maybe she died when Patricia was too little. Her dad definitely seems the kind to be trying to supply every single materia thing. Perhaps this was his way to fill the void that her mom left in her. They seem to get along, tho. We see her calling him all the time tk tell him good and bad things happenjng in her life, so we can say they're pretty close, but with firm boundaries from her dad's side. I imagine she lived on his expense for a long time and he's now done with it.

Thank you for the ask🥰🥰

[frankydink1992]

Baby Reindeer Review

Baby Reindeer is a true story about an aspiring comedian who is stalked by a mentally unwell woman.

That sentence doesn’t do it justice at all. From the opening scene I assumed I was in to watch a dark comedy of sorts, but it’s so much more than that. We get to know our main character, Don and his stalker Martha in the most unique way. The story is from Don’s point of view (because it’s based on real events that he went through) but he does an amazing job in picking apart Martha’s behaviour and trying to rationalise it based on his own personality and previous experiences. All this makes for some awkward and uncomfortable viewing and for that, I love it. It’s not very often I come across a piece of media that makes me feel like that. I had to keep reminding myself that these things did in fact really happen to someone, which makes the experience all the more impactful.

Baby Reindeer explores subjects such as stalking and mental illness, addiction and sexual assault. You should definitely bear these subjects in mind before you watch. One episode in particular has a specific content warning at the beginning, and that is not to be taken lightly. People who know me know I’m not easy to “bother”, but even I had a difficult time watching a few scenes. How raw and uncensored it was make it all the more likable for me.

All actors were top notch in this series, but I have to give extra credit to Richard Gadd (Don) and Jessica Gunning (Martha) for their performances. For Richard to write about and then act out the most difficult and stressful aspects of his life is incredibly courageous. 

It has come to my attention that the people of the internet have traced the real stalker: That’s pretty silly. Finding her was not the point of the series and, honestly, those people should be ashamed of themselves. A semi-theme of the series is, you don’t really know someone. So you shouldn’t target and seek out somebody you don’t know. Similarly, people are also speculating who the writer character (the real villain)  is in real life. Innocent people are being put under the microscope. Please enjoy the entertainment and don’t try to play detective!

My conclusion is that you should absolutely watch Baby Reindeer but be aware of the mature and possibly triggering content. I absolutely loved it all and was fully invested.