#ive been genuinely trying to make something for it for so long but i just keep forgetting
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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!
Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!
Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.
I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!
#im so frustrated that banner has been gone#and people think the comic is over because of that#which is reasonable to think#but it... idk#its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long#let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated#every day there is something new with them its so exhausting#this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration#i feel like they're not just being unhelpful#at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books#i can't make my links too big so no one can find me#people dont even know i have a patreon#i can't make any announcements on the comic#and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized#and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest#and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job#and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done#cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them#I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj#i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out#text post#update
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I WANTED TO EXPERIMENT A LITTLE!! (With my lineart and posing, cause they aren't my strong suits, while I paid less attention to my coloring cause that's usually what I focus on)
BEAT THEIR ASS TORIEL!!!

Toriel!! I love her alot... even if I don't talk or draw her much she's one of my all time favourites
Oh yeah I really wanted to make an animatic about her.. n the fallen kids but I realized something.. I have SO much trouble with making animatics cause I always lose motivation and want to jump from project to project SO OFTEN that i feel trapped whenever I try take something to big on.... so I'm going to stop forcing myself to make animatics for now cause I literally have 6 unfinished projects...
4 are forgettable au...
1 was about sans
And the other was about alphys
So I'm going to stick to like easier things for me to accomplish, like most people do, and occasionally do animatic things because gosh it's so hard idk how people do it 😭
ANYWAY ENJOY THIS!!
Oh yeah by the way this was for something me and my friend were talking abt

Bonus for those who want the pose ref
#toriel#utdr#undertale#undertale fanart#my art#forgettable au#mentioned#ive been genuinely trying to make something for it for so long but i just keep forgetting#i know i should before at least school starts at the end of the month because i barely have time to draw otherwise#by the way yeah im still working on the headcanons thing!#just at a slower pace bc those didnt really get much attention and all..#oh yeah next im drawing something deltarune#either kris or noelle#or forgettable au?#toriel fanart
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i feel very unloved and left out. i wish i had a big friend group like everyone else... but i always stick out like a sore thumb whenever im amongst a group. if only the antipsychotics could make my weird, unlikeable aura go away
#i think its just my autism. ive been diagnosed since i was a kid and when i was young it was a huge mocking point#i guess i have felt othered inherently for as long as i can remember#nowadays autism is a bit of a buzzword and sometimes it gets watered down online but its something i still genuinely struggle to deal with#especially when it comes to finding people that are like me and want to associate with me#to a lot of people i just come off as unsettling or too much and theres no sweet spot it seems#god. so much social trauma that im trying to get over. i have never had a loving group of friends that didn't make fun of me/let me unmask#i dont know who i am when im not trying to please other people#i just want to be weird and awkward and people dont reprimand me for it like im a bad dog. i just wanna be the silly little guy that i am#trying to be myself... trying not to feel so ashamed of how unsocialized i have become in my isolation as well#i hope one day i am surrounded by so much love and i never feel suspicious or undeserving of it#thats all i really want. a place to belong.. a found family i guess. people who genuinely celebrate me and dont make me feel othered#i have to make it mine dont i... but thats scary and hard... like most things#honey's words
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i cant even like post about the horrors that are going on currently because im gonna get too mad but oh my god. like i would give her really good credit for writing a character like marius that has 0 self awareness about his insanely disgusting behavior bc like. that CAN work. you can make the reader feel disgust and see things through the eyes of someone who is horrible while not romanticizing the behavior. clearly anne did not get the memo for this one.
#twist rambles#vc posting#like i get now why the blog i was going thru the liveblog of to decide if i wanted to commit to the bit was so so glad to be done w this#book bc this is like. i genuinely cannot express how mad i am reading this lmao. quite honestly i thought mer.rick was bad and thats nothin#compared to this. i know the next one will also be rough but oh my god. oh my god. why did i commit to this. i really may have to start my#silly notes project sooner > later because i need to actually enjoy something because like. i just. god. i cannot really clearly get into#why this pisses me off without going into insane (and prob triggering) depth w mar.ius as a character but like. my godddd oh we are in hell#like i remember when i was reading the wit.cher books i was like wow the SA is really excessive. dont like that and how it keeps happening#to minors. this book makes that seem like a cakewalk w nothing wrong. this makes tva which had like... i think 10 sex scenes before pg 100#and all of them were horrific to read seem like just fine and dandy. i need anne to explode#you can tell im suffering bc i weirdly dont like posting abt the positives bc these books DO have them dont get me wrong but i dont normall#have as much 2 say when im like oh this is fun im enjoying this. and i dont really want to get any of my mutuals into the books im gonna be#honest bc theyre bad. but you can tell when im posting a lot that im in the TRENCHES. which is why ive been posting a billion times today#abt this bc its like... interesting? but also i have a lot to say. and there just rly isnt much positive abt this book in particular#nor the last one to be fair but this is like easily the most miserable ive been. with tva i could at least go yeah maybe its just anne#trying to depict an absuive relationship w the rose tinted glasses that arm.and has bc of how long hes been abused. but w this its just lik#mar.ius being like yeah im such a good guy while hes going after like his 4th minor. im so sick of itttt im so sick of it.#good lord sorry my tags have been so long today but thats bc i think im done ranting in the main post and then get another thing im mad abt#that i need to add. like idk i think while these books infuriate me at points at least i have shit to say abt it yk#anyways good god. i have to wrap up this chapter.
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Love not having my asks up. Love only letting people I personally follow message me. Like if you got something to say to me you're gonna have to ask me take a step outside.
#dude like i am literally so fucking happy to interact with my moots and get likes and see people engaging with me i love it#but like i cannot tell you what this bpd and this no medicine and this online culture and this fucking state of the world has done to me#i am literally so fucking sensitive i will bash my brains out for thinking i personally made someone upset and i will think about it#ill think about it for DAYS#i have been so committed to being a better person and thinking I was genuinely someone who needed to change#and who couldn't be trusted and genuinely wasnt getting help from the people they asked it from and people not believing me#that i ALWAYS take the criticism to heart i ALWAYS think about oh my god they were right i do have a childrens show top post i am a child#and it will haunt me forever like jesus christ am i being inclusive enough to everyone even if theyre childish but also theyre allowed to be#and am i being too harsh on people who are just enjoung their life or am i being reactionary is this a learning opportunity and i think#i think circles around it#and i just want to be good to people i just so desperately do not want to do something to cause discomfort without good cause#i want to be a good person so fucking bad and i just forget that great people have emotions thoughts and anger and jealousy and lonliness#and i just have a very long past of trying so hard to explain and trying so hard to listen and doing things so fast to try and#keep up with a world that didnt want me there to begin with#ive loved so hard and its been rejected so violently it felt deserved#and i do and say things ill change my mind about later constantly#but i try so hard to make sure the things i know are semi permanent arent as bad as they could be the things i say that someone remembers#the things i talk about and how i talk about and who can over hear that has a lot more weight in it than most people think#and i just have such a fragile heart from trying to listen so closely and getting so frightened at every little sound so i can be prepared#everything feels like hammers and i really want to limit the amount i feel in the back of my head if i can#🫠🔨 but heres to trying anyway#social anxiety#socially anxious#agoraphobia#actually agoraphobic#bpd#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#bpd vent#agoraphobic
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okay word vomit to end the day :3
dont read it, this is mine >:[
#bllleegh its gonna be a long one#shush this is my internet diary to embarrass myself and say everything that comes to mind because it never gets read anyway :3#from the beginning i feel like i was always very very clear with how i felt. not as clear as now but yk still relatively#and again i never expected to become so attached and honestly#this is all my fault. i got too close and now i feel like this which i can 100% take responsibility for#but what i didnt make clear at all was how unworthy i felt of everythinf#every little message or piece of attention or even recognizing that i was there felt like a stab in the back#not in a bad way but in a ‘im getting my hopes up and its never attainable i need to stop but i cant’ way#so instead of dealing with that feeling i did the stupidest thing i couldve done and now im gonna continue to regret it#so every day since ive been wondering over and over what would’ve happened if i didnt make that decision#i thought if i forced myself away from that feeling that it would go away#so even though i wasnt happy i forced myself to do something i never wanted to do in the first place#and i hated every moment of it because all that was left was that feeling of you#one of the last things you said still kinda haunts me to this day#it was like being relieved that i wss entertaining someone else while you worried about me#that stung but you werent wrong#i wasnt there when i should have been not only bevause i was trying to get rid of feelings and because i was going through a bad time#but obviously i chose to run away and not confront my problems which is another regret#i didnt want to be weird by having feelings and i didnt want that to ruin everything. but i also didnt want to confide in you about what was#happening for fear of you seeing me different#then everything was quiet for months. i tried distracting myself and doing everything to stop thinking of you but obviously that didnt work#so now i was just stuck being unhappy without you knowing that you hate me#there was one week where it got so bad i couldnt even eat. i just had to speak to you again#so i did and now we’re here#i dont want to mess up again and i dont want to do more things i regret but i dont think im ever gonna win in this#i basically put all my cards down on the table face up and i still dont know what you have. its still a mystery to me why you were pissed#when i got that thing. and now the mystery is why we’re still even here#clearly you dont trust me and you dont love me and i dont think that this will ever change but idk why you want to keep me around#i’ll stick around forever and take whatever it is you give me but im genuinely confused.#if you dont trust me thennn why ? i’ll continue to keep making a fool of myself for you because its what i love doing
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vent cw and self harm mention in the tags
i hate this goddmn hellpit of a world and i particularly hate men. like jesus fucking christ they ALL REALLY think they are just. better than me.
#even when. or actually particularly when they don't understand why im doing something#i want to rip my hair out and set things on fire and .#i feel really really fuckinh stressed im under enormous pressure and i have very little support on a personal level.#its this inescapable fucking thing.#this volunteer work im doing. im disabled and im working for free and everyone is telling me how i fucked up by trying to make sure#that we werent doing illegal shit.#as a registered entity.#like. fuck all of these people genuinely.#its making me doubt myself somewhat but also like#i spoke up about these concerns and none of them had a serious answer for me that would actually be reliable long term.#and its a long term project.#and then they bailed on it on top of that#i hate these people. i really really hate them.#deeply hypocritical confused unserious attitudes. deeply unhelpful and completely unaware of it. they make me sick.#i mean they are making me sick in real life i am suffering because of the lack of support and the bullshit they keep repeating to me#and how they portrayed this volunteer work when they were leaving their positions#so now others are less likely to take the positions because they talked shit about it#and i don't want to aggravate myself by getting into arguments with them but god i hope that one day they fucking understand.#how thoughtless and careless they'd been.#im having such a bad time and im fighting so hard. i don't know how im going to get through this.#my personal life is falling apart i don't have the energy to clean my home or take care of myself#ive noticed self harming inclinations popping up lately.#like this is really not good.#but if i don't pull through then they'll all blame me forever and i cant handle having to move away.#this is my home.#i already have a hard time going outside i don't want to be known as the person who fucked up the [community project that was forced on us]#fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. i need this to be over with. please i need this to be over sooner than i expect. i need this to end favorably#not just for my sake but because its a genuinely important project. i believe in it and its important to me personally too#i cant explain that without saying more than im comfortable with but yeah#god like i finally want to live and now im having to go through this? why? am i bad? or the world is bad.
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#like i definitely need therapy lol#not that i havent tried in the past nothings just worked/stuck like the therapists werent a good fit for me perhaps#so im trying to reach out again because holy shit#i want to a) get out of my phd and b) have normal fucking friendships#but its so hard right now when anxious thoughts take over SO much some days like i know i cannot do this on my own#i have good friends i know who will hear me out#but man its the same thing over and over again with me but in a new font sometimes i swear#and my friends dont need to hear all those anxious depressive thoughts lol like#once in a while sure esp my closer friends but all the time? nawr#i have been trying to journal but man the emotions just bubble up and i dont feel better until ive like said things out loud#so honestly just having someone to rant about the same issues over and over again might be nice lol .#but i need to find a therapist that fits which is the hardest part#i do think ive made small strides on my own which is nice#but the emotions are just so loud and genuinely affect my day to day like its so hard battling things on my own#im at the point now where im like this cant go on for much longer somethings gotta change#if i want to have a phd in the next year and if i want to maintain friendships normally#and esp if i wanna stay roommates with this girlie cuz holy shit its been a lot harder than i expected maybe#i dont think i can do it on my own without major reprecussions#bro its also been like so long#i feel like ive always had some human i was extremely fond of for the past ?? years albeit most of them were like fake right like in the kp#*kpop world so it was fine when it becomes a real person it is absolutely terrible let me tell u .#but its also been a habit like i didnt realize how terrible my thoughts w ys were until now cuz they really wernet normal thoughts at all#like i want to break free of having these kind of attachments to people in a way cuz the only way i feel like ive been able to deal with bi#feelings is by transferring them to a new subject which isnt what i want anymore#like i just want it all to stop!#i also feel like mentally ive gotten worse ?? than before ?? in some ways like#i dont know if i want to make new friends and connections anymore#the same way i was trying so hard in the previous year which is worse bc now my efforts are like#SOLELY on this one girl in a way which is NOT. GOOD.#ive been trying to have conversations with the third roommate but i have to force myself?
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I... don't really understand what the neogender coiner [that is the coiner, right] is saying either. Honestly, for years I tried to explain the concept that you can have an autonomous gender identity that isn't inherently xenogender, but I don't think I ever did that good of a job :/ words are hard for me including right now where I'm about to be a huge nerd about gender umbrellas
I [badly, I'd imagine, I don't really remember lol] explained a few years ago that kenochoric is a neogender [gender that is New] but it isn't inherently xenogender. This is true! It is a "newer" gender, so it does fit under neogender, but it isn't innately xenoine, just like it isn't masculine, feminine, outherine, or whatever inherently. It inspired some more neogender umbrellas that are autonomous to themselves, and it felt sooo good. I love that neogender umbrellas caught on in concept, it makes me feel so much more seen and understood as a person! I saw people relate to the same feeling I was having, and it made me feel less alone. Like I wasn't just... being weird, or something. Neogender, in the way I saw it being used at the time, was just Any Gender That Is Kinda New. But honestly, beyond neogender, beyond anything else, it's just.... a gender, yannow? And an umbrella term. Neogender was just my way of still trying to tie it into MOGAI in some sense.
BUT. That's not to say that these things Can't be xenic, or outherine, or anything else, for other people; gender is weird and incredibly personal for everyone. I used to consider my kenosity masculine. Now, I consider it a fully standalone thing alongside being a man and a woman. Part of why the community started to be harder for me over time was that I felt like I had to battle technicalities and a bunch of arguing over veeeery specific definitions for something that.. well, for me, has always been its own standalone thing that's not easy to explain. That's just how gender is for me, I guess! It's a weird vibe, it's a personal identity, not something I can perfectly write down and explain all the perfect reasons why it's this and not that. It's like trying to fight a dictionary definition with your personal experiences, and I guess for me, defining gender identity on its own is hard enough
I'd get people saying, well, isn't this thing you coined to not be a xenogender a xenogender for this technical, by-the-books reason? And it felt demoralizing because I was coining... the thing that I am. The personal experience I go through and live through, and I know what I am and am not! It felt frustrating to have that questioned because it doesn't fit with someone else's idea of what the thing I made should be. I don't know why I'm not xenoine, or xenogender, in the same way that I don't know why I'm not agender or something. I'm just not. Some people just aren't. Some terms just aren't. Saying "well it TECHNICALLY falls under this so it is!" flies in the face of the entire concept of personal identity. It's how you run into exclusionism in the first place; how is gendervoid different from agender? How is gendernull different? How are bi, pan, ply, omni all different? Does it really matter, do we need to come up with totally different definitions to justify it? I think the answer is simple: people are what they say they are, and the terms they create to describe themselves are better explained by those people's lived experiences and autonomy than by a technicality, than by making things "fit better" or "make better sense" to others
Then I saw people take this and run with it, twist it into it being "only its own thing! can't be anything else for other people!" and that's equally disastrous. Neogender isn't a "better" term and MOGAI encompasses a looooot more genders than just neogenders. Besides, xenogender IS a neogender! I always saw xenogender as one of many umbrella terms under the label, they're all huddled around in their little orbs and sometimes they can bleed into each other for certain people. They're self contained on their own, you don't have to be x to be y, but you can be both, you can be multiple, you can be all or none! Maybe I sound pretentious or just stupid, but I really do think people need to relax on hard-cut definitions a little bit. Neogender versus xenogender shouldn't be so based on technicalities and excluding this or that, it should be based on what people's experiences are... you know? Sorry I have no idea if this makes any sense it's 4 AM here LOL!!
for the kenochoric asker, as a fellow kenic individual:
kenochoric is a neogender, which is not considered under xenogender. they may overlap, and may go hand in hand even, but the rule of thumb is that xenos =/= neos.
i'm pretty sure you can be outherine in any capacity and fit any neogender, considering the concept of neogenders is, simply put, that they're New Genders (you can read more here), while xenogender is understood as "an umbrella term for non-binary gender identities that cannot be fully described through their relation to concepts typically used to describe gender such as male, female, woman, man, masculinity, femininity, androgyny, neutrality, agenrinity, or outherinity." (from here)
in practice, xenogenders have been expanded to function alongside neogenders, but xeninity is meant to "fill the gap" of gender experiences. neogenders, on the other hand, are their standalone, new thing. "future" genders, if you will (/lh /silly). all this to say, your kenochoric identity can exist on itself alongside your outherine identity no problem in the slightest, no contradiction even. ofc you can do whatever you want forever, but yeah !
just wanted to add some to the conversation, since i'm very interested in kenochoric and it's a neoumbrella i treasure !! hope this made sense hahah
Xenogenders are neogenders. So are any terms that have been coined from 2000 and onward. The coiner themselves said so. Unless I'm reading it wrong which is likely, because the definition is really hard to read and understand for me.
What I don't agree with is the coiner claiming "MOGAI" genders only fall under neogenders. MOGAI, I thought, was coined to include as many queer identities as possible. Because of that, the definition for neogender is insinuating that MOGAI was coined as a way to exclude people. MOGAI doesn't mean identities coined recently. It's literally for marginalized identities, so nonbinary (not a neogender) would fall under it. That bothers me a lot!
But yes, kenochoric and outherine can exist alongside each other. That can happen with just about any gender.
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#is this worded well? i don't know. i'm trying my best sorry if this is hard to read :<#also it's been a while since i've brushed up on terminology so sorry if im using xenoine / xenic / etc wrong#i tried to explain it Logically at the time and tried to work out a definition of xenogender that made people happy but like#i'm not xenogender. so it felt... disingenuous to try to change someone else's label to make mine fit#i think sometimes things are just kinda contradictory and weird and while it can be#frustrating. annoying. strange. like ill fully admit i know its annoying as hell i didnt just let kenochoric be a xenogender#it confuses the hell out of people even now i can see that#but idk. i didnt know what else to do#i was trying to justify how i felt and how personally connected i was to something on its own using long explanations and redefinitions#when ultimately. i dont know. how could someone who isnt xenogender know WHY theyre not. idk#all i knew is i wanted comfort within the label#and it clearly caught on with a lot of people who didnt feel connected to xenogender either#and made their own umbrellas.#i dont know what this means or what this fix is#and i feel kinda bad for doing what i did even though it was good for ME#but i guess whats done is done now#and maybe its a good thing#if it caught on it has to be for a real genuine reason... right?#i dont know. i feel like the more i write the more confusing i get#its been a while since ive talked about mogai and i think thats obvious in this reblog HAH
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okay ive got to get this post out before april fools day so everyone knows this is important and serious information. i believe ive solved a mystery that i might have been the only person on earth who ever cared about and im taking you with me on this journey
For the uninitiated (aka people who have never looked at my blog in their whole life). there is this character called bido from fullmetal alchemist. hes greeds friend and goon and he shows up in like 5 chapters. he looks like this
and if youve never seen him before you are going to be baffled to find out that a large percentage of people who even bother remembering him seem to genuinely believe that he is a young child. and this goes beyond your regular fandom infantilization. i have had people comment on my very own posts, telling me "but wait, i thought bido was a kid".
for years i did not know how this misconception was even possible (look at him), let alone get so widespread, but that might be because the chiefest example of it exists... in the scanlation thats up on most "read free manga" websites. Aka; the one most people these days are reading. perhaps this is the mother of all other bido-child-takes. we may not ever know.
but either way, that scanlation team apparently decided at some point in their workflow, that not ONLY was bido a kid, but it made sense to have an ACTUAL kid* (*15-year-old) call him one. which at that point just feels like rubbing salt in the wound like come on
anyway the first time i checked the original dialogue to compare, i didnt know much japanese, but i was still pretty confident there was zero basis for the mistranslation. this scenes official translation makes no reference to bidos age, and aside from the obvious factor of "are you fucking serious just look at him", there was an ACTUAL reference to his age in the japanese dialogue of an earlier chapter; alphonse calls him "ojisan". which... surely the scanlation team would have seen. if they were translating the manga. but i guess it would be easy to forget a chapter you read that long ago if you arent similarly enamored of every detail regarding one of the least present background characters
Still. it seems like such a weird and out of nowhere choice to make and there didnt seem to be any reason for it. even replacing dialogue with lord of the rings quotes has a clear and almost understandable motivation (hubristically riding the coattails of sam and frodos legendary romance). so WHY did they just suddenly up and decide this bald middle aged man was some kind of precocious Crime Baby.
well in the past couple years i have learned a little bit more japanese. & since last night i think i have found the answer.
heres the original dialogue again, and then here it is simplified for one of the official video games.
"ビドーとやらが言ってた事も", aka, "and the stuff we heard bido say".
"言ってた事も", pronounced "いってたことも", aka "itteta koto mo".
Except. if you arent reading too closely, or your image quality sucks, and you mistake the と (to) for a ど (do).
言ってたこども*..............
*translators note: koto mo means "and stuff". kodomo means child.
i cannot stress this enough. the kanji for "koto" is right there on the page. this mistake would only happen if somebody was ONLY looking at the furigana and not even doing a good job of that. how did they get it this wrong. how did nobody second guess it. i know that scanlators are mostly a bunch of hobbyists trying their best and i do not mean to disparage them as a collective. its just , that i think these specific ones should maybe be pelted with an assortment of overripe fruits for a little while, for giving me this hyperspecific grievance to suffer.
At least maybe now that ive solved the riddle the truth will prevail in time. tell your friends, or something
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Dude I got u for bg3 requests-
So like imagine a tav that can draw and they’re just sketching whatever and astarion comes up behind them like “lol who’s that twink do u have a crush or something?” And everyone loses it cuz it’s him.
I’ve seen some like these where they’re all angsty and some fluff but I think everyone would lose their shit. Specifically picturing Gale choking in the background because astarion is making fun of tavs dreamy portraits of himself.
Ive never done an ask before idk how these work I give u full creative liberty 😚
Summary: Reader likes drawing Astarion, who is oblivious to the fact that it's him! Campmates lose it and try to play matchmaker a little bit.
Genre: Pure tooth rotting fluff
Warnings: Astarion things
Credits: All characters are from Bg3, Vampire fang divider- animatedglittergraphics-n-more on tumblr, Blood divider- strangergraphics on tumblr
A/n: Ahhh! I'm so excited to be your first ever request! I hope this is to your liking and I apologize for it taking me so long to get around to it
Thank you so much for requesting!!
During the long trip to Baldur's Gate, finding ways to keep your mind occupied when you stopped became a necessity. Thankfully, pretty early into your travels you managed to get your hands on a (mostly) empty drawing journal after finding it abandoned along with some helpful supplies. It didn't take long for you to find that you had some sort of muscle memory for drawing, even if you couldn't consciously remember ever being an artist, your brain seemed to. You started out just drawing what you saw. Flowers, buildings, landscapes, etc. But pretty soon you drifted to drawing your campmates as well. At first it was a little mix of everyone, but as your trip carried on you couldn't help but be drawn (hehe) to a certain fluffy haired rogue. As your mind lingered on him more and more, so did your pencil. You had filled numerous pages with sketches and doodles of him. Sometimes he'd catch you staring at him while trying to get a good reference, and he'd of course smirk and say something like "Enjoying the scenery, darling?" To which you would flush red and bury your face back into your sketches.
Every now and then, someone would glance over your shoulder to see what you were scribbling (usually Karlach) and tease you for how full your sketchbook had gotten with just him. You didn't mind them watching you draw, sometimes it felt nice to have someone admiring your skills.
This however, was not one of those times.
"My, who is that handsome devil?" Astarion's voice rings out from behind you. You squeeze your eyes shut as you realize you've been caught and curse yourself for not hearing him sneak up behind you. Astarion is now leaning against your shoulder, studying the pictures in front of him. "Now darling, I know I say this about every gorgeous stranger but would." He lazily flips the page and lets out a little giggle "And you would too by the looks of it," He returns back to your current page and sits beside you. "So, will you tell me the story or will you make me beg? You know I'm an expert on romance." It's only then do you realize he genuinely doesn't realize that you are drawing him. You thought before he was just being smug, but it does make sense. When was the last time he saw himself? 300 years ago? Surely the memory is a bit fuzzy. You try to act as nonchalant as possible as you mutter "Mm...Maybe some other time..." Astarion scoffs and you pray to any god willing to listen to help you out. Your prayer is answered when Gale makes the call for dinner being done. You quickly shove the book into your pocket and (perhaps a bit too swiftly) walked over to the fire.
The topic is seemingly dropped by Astarion until Shadowheart remarks that "Your face is redder than Karlach's," Astarion is quick to interject. "I caught them drawing some shirtless man and they're being a big baby about it." He rolls his eyes dramatically before adding "Trust me darling, I've seen worse." Gale chokes on his stew, Halsin's brows raise and Shadowheart lets out a small gasp. The camp is deadly quiet, save for Astarion making snarky comments about how the man looks like something a 13 year old would find incredibly romantic. Karlach is the one to break the silence, "Fangs, do you really not know who that is?" He raises a brow "Of course not. What, is he famous or something?" Lae'zel lets out a scoff. "Chk. It is a wonder how you survive being so clueless. That is you, you k'chakhi."
The silence, once again, is incredibly loud. This time though, Astarion has seemingly lost his witty remarks. You have long since had your head down, afraid to see his face. He, however, is more confused than anything. After a moment he speaks again, "Is it really?" They all give some form of approval, a nod, a grunt, etc. He is quiet again, but only because he is taking a moment to grin. "Well no wonder there are so many! Obviously it's me. No face other than mine fit to take up so much space in our dear Tav's book. Let me see another, I haven't beheld my beauty in so long!"
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Hey I absolutely LOVE you…….(r) writing style. Do/Can you make a fic about what makes BatBoys feel like “home” with reader? Like relationship wise. If this doesn’t make sense I’m sorry, this m first time making a request 😭✌️. Ty's!
No it makes sense! Thank you for the request!

Like Home
Summary: How you're the batboys home.
Warnings: tooth rotting fluff
Bruce Wayne:
To Bruce Wayne, home isn't a place. Its you.
Typically Bruce is wary of genuine, committed relationships, his kids definitely warned him about people dating him just for his money, but when he met you, right off the bat you were so different.
From the moment you rushed to pay for dinner before Bruce could was the moment he knew he wanted you.
Home to Bruce is waking up in the morning with you still fast asleep in his arms, lips parted slightly as soft snores escape your lips. Home to him is holding you from behind as you cook breakfast for everyone instead of Alfred.
Home to him is holding you close as he- (we won't finish that sentence)
you, and all the things you do, big or small, mean the world to him, and he wants things to stay like this forever…
Dick Grayson:
Home to Dick Grayson is freedom, or it was until he met you.
He had bumped into you in a coffee shop and you were in a pretty heated argument with one of the other patrons there, defending an elderly lady who was only just trying to buy coffee.
When the guy had raised his hand to you, Dick was about to step in and stop the fight, only to see you deflect the blow, twist the mans wrist and pin him to the wall within seconds.
After that he had to ask for your number.
Then on patrol the following evening, a new hero arrived in gotham, someone oddly familiar to him.
You and Dick started working together on patrol, and in person too, since you had been one of the new interns at Wayne Enterprises, so it was a good excuse to see you more often. Though you both had no idea about each others identities until one really rough battle… and to make a long story short you ended up in his apartment, kissing him when you had accidentally knocked his mask off.
“Dick!?”
You ended up revealing yourself that night, too, and after that, you and Dick started dating. Being with you, fighting alongside you, and cherishing freedom quickly changed to cherishing you, wanting you to be his forever. You became something he wanted to come back to alive every night… and that was good enough for him.
Jason Todd:
You had always been his home. From the moment you met Jason as kids, he always loved you, cared for you, and you did the same.
When he died you were broken, you mourned for who knows how long, and everyone knew that your spark had died along with Jason.
When he came back, you were stunned.
You had just gotten home from work, and noticed your living room window wide open, and in the room itself stood a large man.
You wasted no time in attacking. Jason and you trained together as kids, and after his death you continued training under Bruce and Dick, so you liked to think you were pretty good.
But for some reason your intruder wasnt hitting you back.
He only fell to his knees and he hugged your waist tightly.
“I’m home- im home- im so sorry-” He whispered, and you froze.
“Jason…?”
“Im home baby, im not leavin’ you again”
you both cried, for a while probably, but despite the tears, the trauma he revealed to you, you did nothing but comfort and love him, and hold him close as he cried into your chest about how much he missed you.
he found his home in you a long time ago… “If only i hadnt been so reckless, i would have never lost you-”
“you didnt lose me Jason, ive been here, waiting for the time i could see you again… it came alot sooner… Screw you Thalia Al Ghul, and thank you for bringing my Jason back to me”
Tim Drake:
You had Tim had been dating for a few years at this point, it had been more on the arranged side, Your father and Bruce were really close friends, and they had agreed after finding out that you and Tim were the same age and both single, that you two had to at least meet, and talk and get to know each other.
You agreed, Tim was more reluctant.
Turns out you and him were already friends. You had been close in High School, though you both never revealed much about your family lives, so being rich in Gotham kind of flew under the radar.
You and Tim both laughed about it over lunch, though in that time you really started to get to know each other. Had you always been so beautiful?
After a little bit, he asked you out officially. You said yes, and your relationship evolved into something he couldn't ever give up. Similar to Bruce, he found comfort in the littlest things. The way you held him ran your fingers through his hair and made his shoulders sag in relaxation. That was home to him.
Damian Wayne:
Damian Wayne hated you.
he despised you, and you had no idea why.
You were Alfred’s niece, and after your parents had died you had come to gotham to stay with Alfred since he had become your legal guardian.
You tried to mind your own business, you helped alfred clean, became a maid of sorts to earn your keep, even though Bruce, more than once assured you that you didnt need to worry. You still did.
Damian took advantage of that and took advantage of the whole maid aspect, you did a lot for that guy and yet, he despised you.
Then he found out that you had been asked out on a date by someone from Gotham Academy, a school you both went too.
“You’re not allowed.”
Damian stated as he walked up to you in the manor, and you looked over from where you were cleaning. “Huh?” You questioned, unsure as to what he was talking about.
“Your not allowed to go on a date with that child. Your my girlfriend now.” Damian stated, and your eyes went wide.
You kinda… just couldnt say no.
after that Damian started treating you a lot nicer, he did a lot of small things for you, payed attention to the things you looked at or liked, and more often then not, the same item would be on your bed.
he found comfort in the things you did for him, and you had no idea, but he treated you like dog shit because of his fat crush on you.
what… The… fuck.
Tag list:
All: @only-my-unexistent-fiances @francesfarhadi
Batfam:
Bruce Wayne: @ilaiise
Dick Grayson: @ilaiise
Jason Todd: @ilaiise
Tim Drake: @ilaiise
Damian Wayne: @ilaiise
#fanfiction#batfam x reader#batfam fanfic#batfam#bruce wayne x reader#dick grayson x reader#jason todd x reader#tim drake x reader#damian wayne x reader#damian wayne#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake
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hi!!! im sorry i dont request often, but ive been so in love with ur fics... my atj obsession is coming back full force and you write dave soooo well <33
maybe a fic where reader isn't exactly popular (pretty and maybe has a few close friends) and has a big crush on dave? like she can't understand how he's 'invisible to girls', cause she stares at him in whatever classes they both have, and she stands at her locker for forever just staring longingly at him and he never notices. maybe her best friend tries to convince her to talk to him eventually ..
was thinking it could be sfw and maybe fluffy (maybe a little angsty if you want) idk!!! thank you for considering it if you do, and im excited for what other work you have lined up ❤️
𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧
Dave Lizewski x f!reader
Summary: in which Dave doesn't notice any of your signals
Warnings: fluff, pre relationship, idiots in love, no use of y/n
A/N: SO SO SO SORRY, I know it's been forever since you sent this request, but I only just got around to doing something. I kind of lost count of how many times I started and deleted this fic. If you read this, I appreciate you not giving up on me, and thank you so much for the message, it was very very kind and I can only thank you for those sweet words. I hope you can enjoy this, darling (and I'm sorry if I deviated a little from the request)
You always looked at him.
Sometimes subtly, when he walked down the school hallway with that casual stride, balancing his backpack on one shoulder, his headphones hanging around his neck, his brown curls falling slightly over his forehead. Other times, you didn’t even try to hide it, like when he laughed at something stupid during lunch and his blue eyes sparkled behind his glasses, or when you saw him from afar during gym class, not understanding how no one else noticed how good he looked in that blue shirt.
It was a mystery to you. How was it possible that no girl at school looked at Dave Lizewski? How was it possible that no one saw what you saw?
"You should just tell him you like him and get it over with," your friend casually remarked, while you checked your phone for the thousandth time, waiting for Dave’s reply.
You pretended not to hear, but the heat on your face gave you away.
That was it. You liked him. More than you should like a friend you only exchanged messages with and talked to when you bumped into each other in the hallways. More than you should like someone who, probably, didn’t see any of it.
So, when Dave suggested you two go to the movies together to watch a Batman re-release, you tried not to overthink it.
But that became impossible when you found yourself standing in front of the mirror for too long, adjusting your top, letting your hair down and tying it up three times before deciding which way looked the least intentional. Your hands were a little sweaty, and you rolled your eyes at yourself when you realized you had chosen that specific perfume, the one that always made someone comment on how good you smelled.
It was just Dave.
Just Dave, who got adorably awkward when you accidentally complimented him. Just Dave, who laughed at your bad jokes and sent stupid memes in the middle of the night. Just Dave, who—when he met you in front of the theater—stopped mid-sentence as he looked at you, blinked a few times, and without even trying to hide it, gave you that quick once-over from head to toe before clearing his throat and adjusting his glasses.
"You look… uh, different today."
You raised an eyebrow, holding back a smile. "Different how?"
Dave opened and closed his mouth once, clearly trying to choose his words. His curls fell slightly over his forehead as he tilted his head to the side, and he made that unconscious motion of pushing his glasses up his nose.
"Pretty."
It was a bit hesitant, but genuine enough to make the heat rise to your cheeks.
"I’m always pretty," you joked, trying to keep your composure.
Dave smiled that awkward smile, scratching the back of his neck. "Yeah… I know."
And then, as if realizing he was giving too much away, he pointed toward the theater doors. "We should go in."
He was right. But as you passed through the ticket booth and grabbed your tickets, you could still feel his gaze on you from time to time.
The theater was packed, and the tight seats meant you were close enough that when he moved, his knee brushed against yours.
The room darkened, and soon the movie started. You tried to focus on the screen, but it wasn’t easy when every little movement of his caught your attention. The way he leaned over to grab more popcorn and, in the process, his fingers brushed against yours, his warm skin against yours in a fleeting touch that left an uncomfortable awareness in its wake. As if, somehow, that brief contact was more significant than it should have been.
He didn’t seem to notice. He just stayed there, leaning on the armrest, relaxed, his eyes lit up by the glow of the screen. Every now and then, he’d bite his lower lip without realizing it, an unconscious habit of concentration that made something twist in your stomach. His jaw looked more defined like that, and you felt an annoying urge to look longer than you should.
And then he leaned in.
You felt it before you saw it. The movement beside you, the sudden warmth of his presence getting closer, and then his warm breath grazing your skin as he whispered:
"Did you know Christian Bale almost lost the role because they thought he was too skinny?"
It sent an immediate shiver down your spine.
Maybe it was the fact that his voice came out lower than necessary, raspy on purpose or by accident. Or maybe it was because he was close, close in a way that didn’t seem normal for two friends watching a movie. His face was almost touching yours, and your mind made a stupid connection, the kind that should’ve been ignored: if you turned your head just a little, if you leaned an inch in the wrong direction, his lips would touch yours.
You swallowed hard.
"Is that true?" Your voice came out lower than you intended, and he chuckled softly, as if he noticed.
"He gained like 100 pounds of muscle in six months."
"Is that even possible?" You forced yourself to keep your eyes on the screen, as if ignoring the proximity would be enough to not feel every detail of it.
"If you’re Batman, it is."
The reply came in an almost playful whisper, and then he pulled back as if nothing had happened, leaning back into his seat.
Unlike you, who stayed there, absorbing the fact that your heart was beating way too fast for something that was supposedly nothing.
But it wasn’t just that.
His fingers were still close to yours on the armrest between the seats, so close that if either of you moved, the touches would repeat. You noticed when he grabbed more popcorn and his knuckles brushed lightly against your skin. Maybe you were imagining things, but he didn’t seem in such a hurry to move his hand away this time.
The movie went on, and by this point, you couldn’t tell if you were following the story or just the small details about him. The way he shifted in his seat, the subtle movement of his chest rising and falling with his breath, the warmth radiating from him so close to you.
His voice came low, breaking the comfortable silence between you.
"Did your soda run out?"
You blinked, needing a second to process the question, before realizing that yes, the cup of soda next to you was empty.
"Yeah."
"Then have some of mine. You must be thirsty after all that popcorn."
It wasn’t a big deal. It shouldn’t have been. But when he tilted the cup toward you, you hesitated for a moment. Your eyes met his, and Dave smiled slightly, waiting for you to take the cup.
So you took it.
You brought the straw to your mouth and drank, feeling the cold soda running down your throat. But that wasn’t all you felt. Dave was watching. Not just casually. He didn’t look away the next second, didn’t glance at the screen as if nothing had happened. He was watching.
When you lowered the cup and handed it back to him, your fingers touched for a moment. Warm, slightly sticky from the popcorn salt, but still soft. Dave blinked a few times, as if processing something, and then drank from the same straw without a second thought.
The rest of the movie went on like that. Little moments that made it seem like you were something more. You whispered that you wanted to try the chocolate he bought, and he offered it, holding the candy near your mouth almost casually. Later, he made a comment about some scene, and you replied softly, leaning your face closer to his than necessary. It was all a silent game that neither of you seemed willing to admit you were playing.
But then the movie ended.
You needed to go to the bathroom, and Dave murmured that he’d wait outside. You nodded, adjusted your jacket, and walked away, trying to ignore the silly feeling that you were leaving something behind.
It was when you came back that you felt something strange.
There he was, standing near the theater exit, and right in front of him was a girl. You didn’t know her, but you recognized that smile. A sugary smile, a deliberate lean of her body toward him. She laughed softly, playing with her hair, saying something that made Dave furrow his brows, confused. And then you understood.
She was flirting with him.
And he had no idea.
Your body froze mid-step. It was stupid, but for a moment, you felt a strange weight in your chest. What would happen if, suddenly, someone started seeing in him what you saw? If someone looked at him and saw exactly what you saw? If someone fell for Dave Lizewski the way you were falling for him?
Your stomach churned.
That’s when he looked at you.
His face lit up in the same second, and he smiled—that genuine, easy smile he didn’t give to the girl in front of him. He muttered something quickly to her, nothing rude, just a hurried goodbye, and then started walking toward you.
And you, who still felt the heaviness in your chest, didn’t know what to do when he stopped beside you and asked, as if nothing had happened:
"Let's go?”
You could still feel the warmth of the movie theater on your skin, the memory of your fingers brushing against the popcorn, the brief touch of your hands, the low sound of his voice, raspy and almost lazy, echoing in your ear. It was absurd how every detail seemed amplified now, as if the simple fact of being alone on this walk made everything feel more real.
Dave adjusted the collar of his jacket, shoving his hands into his pockets, and took two quick steps to align himself beside you. He always did that—making sure you walked together, close, your shoulders almost touching with every movement. He glanced at you, looking like he wanted to say something, but then changed his mind and just let out a short sigh.
You bit your lip. You couldn’t get the image of the girl at the theater out of your mind. Or the way she looked at him, or the casual way Dave stood there, listening, completely unaware.
"She was pretty."
The words came out suddenly, and Dave turned his head toward you, slightly confused. "What?"
"The girl at the theater." You shrugged, kicking a small pebble on the path. "She was pretty."
He was silent for a moment, as if trying to figure out where you were going with this. Then he shrugged. "Yeah."
It was a small, indifferent sound. But for some reason, it annoyed you.
You huffed, crossing your arms, and looked at him. "And she was flirting with you."
Dave furrowed his brows, laughing lightly, as if that were absurd. "No, she wasn’t."
"Yes, she was."
"No, she wasn’t."
You stopped abruptly on the sidewalk, forcing him to stop too, his eyes widening slightly at your sudden hesitation. The cold wind passed between you, but all you felt was the heat rising to your face.
"You’re too much of an idiot to notice."
His smile faltered a little, and Dave opened his mouth, as if to retort, but couldn’t find the words.
"I’m not an idiot." He sounded slightly offended, furrowing his brows in a way that only made him seem more naive.
"Yes, you are."
"No, I’m not."
"Then tell me," you challenged, tilting your head to the side, crossing your arms as you stared at him. "If a girl were flirting with you, would you notice?"
Dave let out a nasal laugh, shaking his head. "Obviously."
"No, you wouldn’t."
"I would."
"You wouldn’t."
He rolled his eyes, sighing in an exaggerated way. "Okay, then. How are you so sure about that?"
And that’s when it happened.
You didn’t think much. You just looked at him, at his messy curls and blue eyes behind his glasses, at the face you knew so well and at the answer that had been begging to come out for a long time.
"Because I’ve been giving you every possible sign, and you haven’t noticed."
The silence that followed your confession wasn’t empty.
It was heavy, loaded with something indescribable, something that tightened your chest and made the air feel denser around you.
Dave stood in front of you, his face partially lit by the nearest streetlight, his hair casting shadows over his eyes. But even with the poor lighting, you could see it.
The shock.
His lips parted, as if he were about to say something, but nothing came out. His gaze fixed on yours, unblinking, and the expression that took over his face was a mix of disbelief and something deeper—something you couldn’t name.
You swallowed hard, feeling your heart hammering against your ribcage, the pulse vibrating in every extremity of your body. Your hands were cold, but the heat rising to your face was almost unbearable.
You had said it.
You had said it out loud.
And now there was no turning back.
Nervousness washed over you like a wave, sweeping away any trace of courage that remained. Your chest rose and fell in an uneven rhythm, and your fingers moved slightly, restless, before you finally let out the breath you hadn’t realized you were holding.
"I like you, Dave."
Your voice came out shakier than you wanted, but it was too late to fix it.
Dave blinked, as if the words had just hit him with full force.
"I’ve liked you for a while. A long time." You forced a short laugh, looking at the ground for a second before meeting his eyes again. "But you never noticed."
He wet his lips, looking away, at anything that wasn’t you, as if he were trying to organize his thoughts.
His mouth opened and closed again, without a single word coming out.
"Dave," you called, and he finally looked at you again.
His eyes were intense now, as if they were trying to absorb every detail of you, every tiny movement.
You felt the hesitation in the air.
The weight of what had just happened.
But then, he did something unexpected.
With an almost hesitant movement, Dave slowly raised his hand, as if testing his own limits, as if he still couldn’t believe he could touch you. His fingers brushed against the sleeve of your jacket before finally holding your forearm, the touch light, uncertain, but real.
"I’m an idiot."
His voice came out low, almost a whisper, and the way he said it made your chest tighten in a strange way.
You opened your mouth to say something, but he continued:
"I—" Dave took a deep breath, his eyes locking onto yours again, so close now that you could feel the warmth of his breath against your skin. "I didn’t notice because..." He swallowed hard, his fingers tightening slightly on your arm. "Because I never thought it was possible."
Your heart stopped for a second.
His eyes were locked on yours, and there was something so genuine there, something so true, that you felt your throat close up.
"I never thought you could like me."
The confession was soft, said with a half-smile that didn’t match the uncertainty shining in his eyes.
And in that moment, you realized.
You realized he wasn’t hesitating because he didn’t feel the same.
He was hesitating because he had always felt it.
Because he had always wanted it, but never thought he was allowed to want it.
You felt your breathing quicken, and the distance between you seemed smaller now, your bodies leaning in an almost imperceptible way, as if drawn to each other.
Dave blinked a few times, as if he were still trying to understand the reality of the situation. As if he were trying to memorize this moment, to store it somewhere safe inside himself.
And then, he laughed.
Soft, almost disbelieving.
"Shit." He ran a hand through his hair, messing it up even more, and shook his head. "I really am an idiot."
You let out a weak laugh, the nervousness still pulsing inside you, but now mixed with something else.
Something warm.
Something good.
Dave lowered his head for a moment, biting his lip before looking at you again, and then he did it again—that subtle movement of leaning closer. Not enough to break the last barrier between you, but enough for you to feel his warmth in the air, for every cell in your body to be aware of his presence.
"Tell me it’s not too late for me to notice now."
His tone was soft, but his eyes were intense, blue and fixed on you as if nothing else in the world existed.
And the answer came before you could even think.
"Of course it’s not."
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hey junie :) this is based off an actual experience of mine: osc gets worried about reader losing a lot of blood, her period lasting almost two weeks. he finds her weak, almost passed out and has to take her to the er where she gets blood transfusions and they cuddle in the hospital bed
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let’s get colour back in your face 🤍

Oscar Piastri x PCOS!reader
summary: reader loses too much blood during a long period flare-up and ends up in the hospital.
warnings: pcos struggles, heavy period bleeding, near-fainting, hospital visit, blood transfusion
A/N: (another old req) i was gonna write more about the transfusion itself but i’m squeamish as FUCK. so no thanks 🤗 i hate that this is what u have to deal with but i do hope u have a genuinely lovely support system to help u thru it. it’s what u deserve, hun :) love u, 🧸❤️
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you’ve always been good at pretending.
shrugging it off when it drags longer than it should. telling yourself it’s fine even when it’s not. one week turns into nine days, then ten, then twelve. you bleed through pads in an hour. your skin goes pale, lips dry, eyes tired.
but you keep going. brushing your teeth, making the bed, replying to texts like nothing’s wrong. oscar’s been at the sim all morning, and you didn’t want to bother him. you told him you were tired. you told him you’d rest.
you didn’t tell him you hadn’t stood up in hours because your legs were shaking too badly.
you didn’t tell him the room spun when you tried to walk to the bathroom.
you didn’t tell him how you blacked out on the floor for a second and came to with your heart pounding in your ears.
he calls before he gets home. you barely answer. your voice is slow, breath shallow.
“you okay, baby?”
“mhm.”
he knows you’re not.
he’s home ten minutes later. he finds you curled on the couch, skin too white, lips almost blue, a blanket pulled halfway over your legs, eyes glassy and barely open.
“hey,” he says softly, kneeling beside you. “what’s going on?”
you blink. “dizzy.”
“how long?”
“since this morning. maybe yesterday.”
he runs his hand gently over your forehead. your skin is clammy. cold sweat and warmth all mixed together. his voice is too calm when he says, “you’re bleeding too much, aren’t you?”
you nod slowly, like you’re ashamed.
“okay,” he says. “that’s it. we’re going.”
“no—”
“yes.”
you try to argue but he’s already scooping you up, already grabbing your bag with one arm, already texting someone on the way out the door. the car ride is blurry. you think he holds your hand the whole way.
the hospital is cold and bright and too loud. you don’t remember much—just that they take you back fast, someone says the word “anemic,” someone else says “transfusion.” oscar never lets go of your hand.
they give you fluids. blood. oxygen.
you sleep through most of it. your body heavy, but finally still. and when you wake up, you’re in a hospital bed with warm blankets pulled around you and oscar tucked beside you—legs awkwardly bent to fit on the tiny mattress, one arm wrapped under your neck.
he’s half-asleep but stirs when you shift.
“hey,” he murmurs, brushing his fingers over your temple. “you’re okay.”
you don’t even speak. you just curl closer to him, pressing your face into his chest. he holds you tighter.
“you scared the shit out of me,” he says, voice shaking just a little. “don’t ever do that again.”
you mumble something about not wanting to worry him.
“you worrying me is never worse than you almost passing out in the living room alone,” he says gently. “i want you to tell me, every time. even when it’s bad. especially when it’s bad.”
you nod against him.
he kisses the top of your head. “i love you, y’know.”
you hum. “i love you too.”
and even in a stiff hospital bed, in a gown that itches and an IV in your arm, it’s the safest you’ve felt in days.
THE END :>
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၇୧ ENHYPEN AS YOUR BOYFRIEND ˖ ་.

CONTENT — wc • 1.4k fem!reader. lowercased intended. established relationship, boyfriend enhypen 𐔌͡ㅤׅㅤㅤ✿ written with love by autum!
秋のメモ… ︵ ︵ ིྀ first enhypen story on this blog!!, likes and reblogs are always appreciated!, hope you enjoy!!
ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི 、HEESEUNG
˖ ་. AFFECTION : heeseung would be a playful blend of playful and romantic, he’d would often tease you with his little remarks, laughing when you get flustered, but he’d also know when to shift into his serious, caring side. when you’re upset, he’d hold you close and he would always try to make you feel better “im here for you baby, always. don’t forget that”
˖ ་. ACTS OF LOVE : he’s the type to know the smallest details about you, your favorite snacks, the way you like your coffee, or the littlest things that make you happy. everyday you always find a handwritten note tucked in your bag that always reads “good luck today!, you’re amazing baby, I love you!”
˖ ་. MUSIC BONDING : late at night, he’d pull out his guitar and start playing softly. “wanna hear something ive been working on pretty?” he’d ask, singing lyrics that seemed to be written just for you. those private concerts would make you feel like the most special person in the world.
ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི 、JAY
˖ ་. PROTECTIVE : jay would always make sure you’re safe, whenever it’s walking you home or ensuring you’re eating well. “text me when you get there okay princess?, i just want to make sure you’re alright” he’d say, his voice filled with genuine concern
˖ ་. FOOD ENTHUSIAST : jay would thrive in the kitchen, cooking you your favorite meals and teaching you some of his family’s recipes. “no, no like this princess” he’d say, guiding your hands as you tried to cut the vegetables. even when the dish doesn’t turn out as perfectly as you wanted he’d laugh and say, “baby.. it’s the effort that counts yeah?”
˖ ་. THOUGHTFUL : you always find small or even big thoughts gifts waiting for you, like roses on your doorstep, taking you out to dinner, or even having a playlist full of songs that reminded him of you. he would also have a beautiful journal with a heartfelt note inside. “i saw this princess and i thought of you” he explained, smiling warmly.
ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི 、JAKE
˖ ་. GOLDEN RETRIEVER ENERGY : jake would bring you so much positivity and support into your life. “pretty, you know you’re incredible, right?” he’d say, his eyes sparkling with pride, whenever you accomplish something, or every time you talked. jake was so in love with you, and would do anything for you.
˖ ་. CLINGY : jake always wanted to be near you at all times and was always ready for whenever you two cuddled after a long day. “c’mere pretty girl, you look like you need a hug” he’d say, pulling you into his arms and holding you tightly. whenever it’s holding hands while walking or resting his head on your shoulder, he would constantly seek that physical connection
˖ ་. BEING TOGETHER : jake wants to be with you all the time, which makes him plan adventures or little dates just to be with you, like midnight drives to watch the stars or little picnic at the park when it’s nice outside. “you know pretty, life is much more fun when we’re just together?” he’d say , snapping a photo of you to capture the memory’s
ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི 、SUNGHOON
˖ ་. COOL BUT SOFT : at first, sunghoon might seem reserved and quiet but that’s really not him, as he opens up, you’d see his sweet and thoughtful side of him. “i-i .. wasn’t staring m i was just.. you look nice today baby..” he’d say as he looked away, as he got caught staring at you.
˖ ་. SUBTLE AFFECTION : sunghoon would sometimes quietly show his love in actions rather than words. lending his jacket without being asked knowing that your cold, or fixing something you mentioned in passing would be his way saying “i care about you” sunghoon is always listening, even if you don’t realize.
˖ ་. ICE SKATING DATES : a trip to the ice skating rink will always be a regular date for you two. he’d patiently teach you blow to skate , even if your paranoid ever 2 minutes about falling, or him not holding you tightly. “baby.., don’t worry i got you okay, im not going to let go” he’d say, smiling as you nervously wobbled on the ice.
ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི 、SUNOO
˖ ་. SUNSHINE IN HUMAN FORM : sunoo would always know how to cheer you up and make you feel better. “don’t be sad.., your to beautiful for that, let me make you feel better beautiful.” flashing his pretty smile at you and pulling you into a big hug, just trying to make you feel better.
˖ ་. AESTHETIC: he’d take you out to the most beautiful cafes and parks that he would find, always ensuring every date or outing you two go on it felt magical and you had the most wonderful time. “this place is so pretty.., just like you beautiful” he’d say, as you smack his arm playfully calling him cheesy for his words.
˖ ་. GREAT LISTENER: sunoo would be the person that you could always go and talk to, you go to him when you need advice, your sad, you need someone to talk to, or when you just want to be near him. “go on beautiful, im listening.” he’d say holding your hand and offering advice that made you feel comfortable and understood
ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི 、JUNGWON
˖ ་. NATURAL LEADER : jungwon would naturally take care of you, always making sure you’re healthy and safe, you always come first before anything and everything. “have you eaten something today baby? no?, let me order something for you” he’d say, his concern evident in his tone.
˖ ་. PLAYFUL : jungwon would always love to tease you in a lighthearted way, always aiming to make you laugh, and of course you always did. “oh?, you think your funnier then me baby?, that’s cute.. i guess we’re going to have to see who’s more funny yeah?” he’d say with a cheeky grin.
˖ ་. DATES : he’d always enjoy spending quiet nights with you. it could be such as building blankets forts together or cooking meals together, whatever it was it would build your bond closer. “did i ever tell you, these are my favorite dates” he admitted, holding your hand as you two continue to watch the movie together.
ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི 、NIKI
˖ ་. PLAYFUL AND FUN : you always had fun around niki, he would always bring out his endless energy and laughter to your relationship. “you’re so bad at this game, it’s almost impressive baby” he tease, but you and him both know he’d always let you win in the end, just to see you smile.
˖ ་. GAMING BUDDY : playing video games together would always be a regular occurrence. “you wanna team up or battle baby?, either way you’re going down” he’d joke with you, loving ever moment of your competitive side.
˖ ་. SOFT SIDE : despite his playful side and always teasing you, he would also have a tender side that he would let out when he’s see something is wrong. “hey baby.., are you okay?, you know you can talk to me about anything” he’d say softly, his usual energy shifting into genuine care whenever you needed it.

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cw: pretty vanilla, fingering (r!receiving), oral (r!receiving), praise kink, make up sex, idk what else
a/n: yall i thought i would be done this on tuesday. ive been so busy this week w work and life ive barely had time to write. this one’s a bit short but i had to get this idea down. i might improve it some time in the future. not proofreading and i kind of dont like it but thats ok. also requests are open as always. AND THANK YOU FOR SM SUPPORT ON YOU ARE SUCH A NERD! I GENUINELY WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT. xx.
you and your ex broke up two weeks ago, a huge fight blew up between the two of you which is why abby is at the door of your apartment, backpack slung over her shoulder, to collect the rest of her things. when you answer the door, you see abby’s gaze rake over your body.
“seriously abs?” you scoff at her, looking down at your abby’s baggy t-shirt, “do i get my shirt back?” she asks as she rolls her eyes at you, gesturing to the band tee. “oh. uh. yeah. i guess” you respond in a quiet tone.
“do you want a drink or something?” you offer and abby shakes her head, her blonde braid moving along with. the braid she would only take out at home when she was with you. the braid you used to tug on when she was drunk off your pussy to see her half-lidded blue eyes. you lick your bottom lip at the thought before shaking it away.
“are you gonna let me come in?” abby asks in a slightly annoyed tone. you get out of the doorway and allow her to come into the apartment. “most of your stuff is on the couch,” you mumble as you point over to the piles of things you threw onto the couch in a blind rage the night she left.
“aw how sweet of you to put everything on the couch for me.” abby says sarcastically, resulting in an eye roll from you. “just take your shit and go.” you grab a couple boxes and put them on the coffee table. you watch as she starts packing away her clothes into the boxes, standing awkwardly. “so this is it then?” you ask,
“what do you mean?”
“all it took was a fight.”
abby walks over to you, crossing her arms and resting her weight on her hip, “you were the one who told me to get out and never talk to you again, if i remember correctly.”
“because i was mad. i didnt actually expect you to go.” you look up to her eyes, trying to find any trace of resentment, but you find none. instead you still find love, “why are you looking at me like that?” she puts her hands on your waist, instinctively your own arms wrap around her neck. “im not looking at you like anything.”
“you are.” you play with her braid, “you’re looking at me like you still care.” she leans in and kisses you, catching you by surprise. the kiss is full of longing and desire. the way she holds you makes you feel as though a fire is stirring within you. she pulls away and sighs, walking back to the couch and sitting down.
“youre so confusing. i mean you tell me to go then dont want me to go? then you dont even text me for two weeks and when you finally do its because you want my stuff out of the apartment.” you nod, knowing you’re in the wrong here. “but i still care about you y/n.” abby leans back on the couch, practically beckoning you to come and sit on her lap.
you make your way over to the couch, sitting in silence as the both of you look at each other, tension growing in the air. “im sorry. i shouldn’t have told you to go.” you apologize, breaking the silence. “i shouldn’t have left.” her voice is softer than before, her hand find its way to your knee and her thumb brushes soothingly along your skin. the apology hangs over the two of you, and once again your eyes meet. abby’s eyes have a look of desire in them, one you know all too well. that’s all it takes for you to climb over and straddle her.
her hands find your hips immediately, “i’ve missed you, ya know.” you say gently, “prove it.” your hands hold her face and you kiss her again, sensually and slowly. abby’s hands run up your back to your hair trying to deepen the kiss. you part you lips and your tongue meets hers. you almost moan at the familiar taste, but you pull away instead, “does that prove it?” she lowers you onto the couch so you’re below her, “haven’t proved it quite yet.” she murmurs as she captures your lips once more. her hands slide up under your shirt as your tongues dance together, palming and squeezing your breasts, the simple action resulting in arousal shooting down to your core. she captures your moans with her mouth, before planting kisses down your neck, suckling the sweet skin.
moments later both your clothes are on the floor as abby kisses your inner thighs, “abs please” you beg, “i need you.” she looks up at you, “mm look at you begging for me, so needy, huh?” she goes back to sucking and kissing your thighs and you push her head towards your soaked pussy, “abbyyyy please.” you beg, “hm? what do you need pretty girl? need me to eat your pussy?” she nudges your clit with her nose eliciting a needy whine from you. “fuck, just eat me out already! please!” your begs are desperate now, your aching cunt waiting for attention. she pulls your legs over her shoulders and laps your slick, the sensation drawing a shiver from you. your hands clutch her hair as she begins sucking your clit, “fuck abby yeah” the moan is involuntary and in response you feel the vibration of her own.
youre a complete mess under her by the time the knot in your stomach snaps, your release dripping out of you pussy and onto your thighs. abby just keeps going, lewd sounds leaving you and echoing around your living room. she slips her fingers into you and curls them, your back arches as she repeatedly hits your g-spot, “so fuckin pretty when you’re falling apart baby” she murmurs softly. she uses her thumb on your clit and it’s like you’re on top of the world, your cries are becoming pornographic at this point and it’s just egging her on, “yeah, you like my fingers filling you dont you?” she nips your hip, “mmhh yeahhh. fuck baby ‘m gonna cum!” she keeps hitting your g-spot and the pressure building up inside of you reaches its peak, you feel your legs shaking as you cum on her fingers, “youre doing so good for me baby.” she lets you ride out your high on her before sliding her fingers out, “fuck i missed you so much abby” you say, she kisses you, “i missed you too”
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