#just...the contrast ehehe

[earthscaled]

Idk why, but i just have so much fun pairing up more magically/ supernatural inclined humans with transformers.

Probably cause i really love fantasy and find it interesting playing around with how this very technologically centered species (who yet at the same time still have these very spiritual roots, with literal physical souls) react and contrast with more magical organic concepts.

Anyone else think this is interesting?

[crythartic]

Every now and then I find an artwork that I just can't help but adore. I absolutely adore your Chara drawing. I'm also an artist myself, though I'm unsure how to draw the stuff that I actually like. Do you perhaps have any tips or advice, some resources I could take a look at...? I mean it's fine if you don't, I know not everyone is able to always explain their artistic process, but I still have to ask, heh.

thank you so much!!! im really glad you liked that drawing. and its no trouble at all, artists should try to help each other out ehehe. you're right that it might be difficult to explain my resources, but maybe since you specifically asked abt the chara one i can explain the process.

this piece i drew it like its most traditional to, the last pieces (the p5 ones and kris) were all sketched out and rendered heavily using lasso fill. this time i just started sketching some charas to take a break from another drawing.. as u can see i had two doodles originally but i felt like i wanted the viewers eye to travel through more focal points, so i started rearranging the composition. i wanted a mix of cuteness with underlying intensity/terror, so i already knew the geno chara would be a bit more "faded out". thats all i did for composition.

now in terms of the actual drawing and coloring process, i always do a mix of lineart and lineless (for this both the lineart and coloring layer are at some point merged so i can "sculpt" and shape the forms and colors easier). this is a lot of trial and error to see what parts really do require lines and make it more eyecatching, especially if you are strategic with the line weight. with lineart you run into the possibility of making a drawing more detailed than you had envisioned, lately ive been trying to go for "less is more", so i forewent a lot of the details and instead i REALLY focused on making these doodles as "shaped" as possible, for better examples of this id cite my previous two drawings because the lasso tool lets me explore that more (less constrictive than simply drawing the shapes yourself).

and the colors? with chara its easy, they have a very restrictive palette so after i lay down the colors i try and find a color for the lines which plays off of said colors (blue seemed interesting this time). thats also a thing with me, i like when the color contrast isnt subtle, i go a bit crazier sometimes (feel free to check my older art out on insta, those deltarune ones are the best example of this). to explore color in a piece, layer effects are your best friend, and tonal/color editing settings. i cited this example on an insta story some weeks ago for my last drawing with how i left it originally and what i modified once i came back after a bit:

the decisions you make in regards to what focal points and colors you use genuinely and solely depends on your artstyle and what you like to draw. but experimenting is always fun, and id say necessary :]

i think this is good for now, if you have more questions feel free to ask!

[cheschesterpossum]

Idk if I'm overthinking this but I noticed your y/n just having a mouth while being eyeless while SG y/n having eyes but being mouthless

ehehe you're not overthinking anon, it's exactly what their design are like^^

I made SG!y/n mouthless but have eyes just because I think it'll be a neat contrast to OG!y/n aside from their clothes colors got inverted.

Tbf i did try to think of some symbolic explanation for this but gave up.

[tteokdoroki]

hi hi !! :3 first off ur new theme is soo so cute!! n for your valentines event i wanted to send in one for satoru + an amusement park date as the gift !! you can make it sweet or spicy but i don’t have a specific kink in mind for it so that’s free range for ya ehehe

��� 𝜗𝜚 ˚⟡. — SATORU GOJO. swipe spicy: high on you.

about. boom, it’s a match! satoru gojo has always come up with creative ways to celebrate the most romantic day of the year. this time, he decides to make things a little naughtier atop a ferris wheel ride ( 1.4K ).

warnings. minors, blank and ageless blogs do not interact! nsfw, smut, established relationships, fingering, public sex, exhibitionism, also ik ferris wheels don’t exist at amusement parks shuddap!! fem!reader.

・:〃⤥ bumble date, swipe right event !

every valentine’s day you’ve spent with satoru has been unique. different. 

for your first, he’d filled every corner of your apartment with every type of flower he could possible find because he wasn’t sure what type was your favourite (he was too nervous to ask). for the second, he’d rented out an entire aquarium for you to walk through and dragging him through each exhibition with pure unfiltered joy. for the Valentine’s Day that he had proposed — your third or fourth, satoru had rented a plane that carried the message ‘will you marry me?’ to fly over your rooftop dinner date. you’d said yes, of course, and every day with satoru since had been a wild ride. 

even now, years into your life together, he remained just as crafty and as adventurous as satoru’s gojo had always been. 

“s-satoru!” you squeal needily, tucking your face into your lover’s shoulder in a weak attempt to muffle your weak cries and trembling voice. “‘toru please. n-not here. n-not now,” you add when his slender and inquisitive fingers dip past the waistband of your jeans and the scalloped edge of your cotton panties. he’s been like this all day, feeling you up in line for different rides, licking the sugar from your fingers outside overpriced concessions stands dotted across the amusement park he'd taken you to. and now, satoru’s ravenousness has come to a head — with him trying to finger fuck you at the top of the ferris wheel. “p-people are around!” 

while typically a romantic spot to watch the world go by, the white haired man has his heart set on making you squirm and cry at the highest peak of the ride. “that’s what makes this all the more fun, right baby?” his digits flex under the rough denim of your jeans in an attempt to get a feel for your wetness all while  gojo whispers sinful words against the shell of your ear — hot breath cascading down the back of your neck and sending shivers down your spine. “relax for me, we’re too high up for anyone to notice. let me make you feel good, yeah?”

your hips buck down against your lover’s hand for a taste of friction — chasing the blistering hot sensation that spreads through your lower tummy once his fingertips come into contact with your swelling, pulsating clit. the very notion of your body succumbing to a few of gojo’s simple touches has him chuckling breathily in your ear, his voice an octave lower than usual. you can’t help the instinctual response of your quivering, a stream of wetness gathering in the seat of your underwear too. 

“do you think i can make you cum by the time we reach the top?” satoru mumbles huskily, lowering his head to your neck so that he can place hot, sloppy kisses to your exposed skin — contrasting with the night air. tufts of white hair tickle at your jaw, sending you into a fit of shakes and shivers that make your cart of the ferris wheel rock back and forth. “don’t answer that, i know i can.” he’s cocky when he teases you and has every right to be, your thighs twitch apart instinctively to make space for satoru’s hand between them. 

he skilfully massages your pretty little pussy even from underneath tight denim jeans, circling in your entrance as it dribbles sweet salacious nectar for him. so much so, that you might soil the fabric of your clothes. if your arousal seeps through, would you drip and gush on all those people below? the thought crosses your might and only serves to turn you on even more — evident in the way you clench around nothing as gojo plays with your empty hole. 

“m-mph, satoru,” you hiccup, only tilting your head to face his. your noses nudge slightly, lips ghosting over one another’s while your hot breath mingles. to anyone else — you appear a couple in love, innocently kissing, enjoying a date to the amusement park, and a ride to the top of the ferris wheel. but you’re far from that, and you know it, two delightfully sinful individuals who can’t keep their hands off of one another. “m-more!” 

gojo obliges, and you thank whatever diety is up above for blessing him with such magical fingers. two of them slide past your entrance without resistance, stretching your gooey and sensitive walls around their length easily. “hm? what’s the matter, baby?” comes the silver haired man’s lazy response, a sleazy smirk spreading across his plush pink lips at the sound of you squelching around him already. you shake your head at his question, eyes screwed shut since you’re too far gone with the pleasure to answer coherently.  

from your side, gojo uses his free hand to keep you nice and spread for him — sapphire eyes glowing in the dark night whilst remaining trained on the way your hips jut down to push back against his fingers inside of you. “god you’re so fuckin’ wet. you really like this, huh? all tbose unsuspecting people below…having no idea that i’m fucking your pussy open right above their heads,” he purrs hungrily and curls his fingers, instantly finding your g-spot because he’s mapped out every inch of your sopping walls and knows them off by heart. “taste yourself for me.” 

your lips part on command and tongue rolls out of your mouth to make room for the fingers that have been inside you — sucking on them diligently when satoru presses down on the palette of your tongue. he gets off to the way you taste yourself, moaning around him nastily. you should feel shame and humiliation for acting like this in public, all desperate and needy, but you’re as ravenous and as depraved as satoru is. it’s what makes you a match made in heaven. 

with his fingers now tainted with a crude mix of your saliva and arousal, satoru returns them to your temperate and sopping mound — stuffing you full of him once more. he’s knuckle deep in your cunt before you can even moan his name, stroking your insides into the shape of him while you drool syrupy evidence of your arousal into the seat of his palm. 

“we’re almost to the top, brace yourself, pretty girl. i gotta see you cum. it’ll give me the prettiest view.” satoru coos to you patronisingly, making sure to grind his wrist against your puffy clit — refusing to let it go unattended. “can you do that for me?” 

everything is so sticky and hot, especially with all of the layers of clothes in the way — shielding your dirty act from any onlookers on the ground or in the carts below you. strings of your slick tie satoru’s fingers to your honeyed sex and glue this thumb to your sensitive nub, tucked away between your puffy pussy lips. you claw at the silver haired man’s arm trapped in the middle of your quivering thighs band writhe around in the cart so much so that it creaks with the weight.

you whimper into the cool night air, but satoru lights your body on fire from the inside out — your gut lurching and twisting with an unbearable sense of yearning. “‘m close… think i’m gonna—“ you begin to stutter, bleating like a lamb being sent to the slaughter. you remain at the mercy of your boyfriend’s fast paced fingers, pumping in and out of you with no regard to the painful stack of ecstasy building up inside of you. “please, i can’t hold it, ‘toru,” 

“you don’t have to,” your lover tsks in reply, never slowing the speed of his digits stroking at your ribbed walls, slipping and sliding against pleasure spots only he knows exist. “why don’t you let go for me, yeah? there you go. that’s it… just like that and all for me,” satoru’s mouth find yours in the final stretch, sloppy praises whispered against your kiss swollen lips while he rubs over your luscious and equally swollen folds like his life depends on it. “let the people down there know how fuckin’ good i finger fuck this sweet pussy. cum for me baby, i know you can do it.” 

each syllable, each impassioned word that escapes him and that he pours into you drags you by the ankle towards your high — and you don’t even try to fight it. once you reach the very top of the ferris wheel, your peak reaches a crescendo. satoru flings himself over you, arm arm wrapped around your shoulders to keep you in place in the cart as your orgasm crashes over you in drowning waves. you slip beneath the surface of pleasure, your cunt rushing like a river while you cum all over satoru’s masterful hand with a muffled cry of his name. 

“satoru!” 

“shh, quiet…that’s my girl, my sweet sweet girl.” he sighs dreamily, fucking you with your fingers throughout your high — only pulling out of your greedy cunt to slap down on it, dragging more spurts of arousal out of you. you squirt through your jeans, onto the metal seat in your ferris wheel cart and all over satoru. who happily praises you through it all. “i bet you’re just drippin’ on all those nasty strangers below. i’m sure they’d love it.” 

catching your breath, you tuck your face into satoru’s neck while you come down from your high (and literally too — your cart begins to make its descent back town from the top of the ferris wheel). “y-you’re sick.”

satoru smiles, slow and sexy. “but you love me,” 

“mhm, sure,” you quip, somehow finding the energy to pull away from your debauched lover to shift to your knees in front of him — the cool metal digging into your knees. “maybe i love you just a little.” 

“only a little? then why are you on your knees for me?” he asks, spreading his legs to make room for you between them. 

“it’s your turn, i want to see if i can make you come before we get to the bottom of the wheel.” you say breathlessly and with mirthy eyes, teeth descending on gojo’s zipper while you bat your eyelashes up at him. 

celebrating valentine’s day with satoru was always…unique. different…but you’d be lying if you said you failed to enjoy his unconventional methods of gift giving with the person you loved most. 

꒰ end. — all rights reserved © tteokdoroki 2024. do not copy, repost, translate & recommend elsewhere.

[wanderingchocolateeclair]

actor au lore,,, maybe,,,,? (i NEED edgejeanist content if its not too much, ive been looking thru your acc to find but it seems like i cant so i gotta ask this even though im BAD at socializing so yeah!) /nf

Sure!!!!! Sorry it took me a while to get to this ask, but here's some actor au stuffs :]!! It may not be specifically edgejeanist I got a little carried away but eheh

In short, this actor au is just your generic actor au, all the characters are actors that play the roles of the characters in mha!

Though! In my actor au, all my OTHER aus are canonical movies/series/etc that they have all filmed, in addition to the main mha universe! Which causes actor au to kinda go hand in hand with any other, as it is very fun to imagine behind-the-scenes types of scenarios with all my various aus.

Of course, its mostly just my usual set of favourite characters here, but there are more in the au! All characters are in this au, naturally.

I also use my own headcanon names for Ecto, Snipe + Uwabami here, since we just. dont. have names for them ;-;

I'll drop some more info (as well as typed out versions of what is written in the images) under the cut:

Kamihara Shinya (Edgeshot):

Age: 34

Often does action + fantasy roles

Generally a really versatile actor but does good serious roles the best

Loves goofing around with his co-workers

His favourite roles/films (aus) are: Pirate, Fantasy, Neon Souls

He breaks character quite often. He simply gets The Giggles easily

^ in relation to this point, it took them a Lot of takes to get the Kamino Pizza scene right

Recently announced his engagement to Tsunagu!

He was asked to play Edgeshot because it was a small role that would fit into his schedule at the time but he really loved playing the character so was incredibly happy when he was asked to come back a couple of seasons later

There are so many compilations and edits of his characters since they’re usually the “stoic and mysterious types” and he finds them very amusing

He has won quite a few awards for his performances

Gets very excited to play roles that let him flirt and romance his own partner. Incredibly so.

When he acts out scenes where he has to yell or be angry, it has often scared the shit out of the others - which is rather effective!

Hakamata Tsunagu (Best Jeanist):

Age: 36

Often does Sci-fi + Historical Romance

Plays a real good charming lead or mysterious side character

Is very silly + has such a contrasting personality to the majority of his roles

His favourite roles: Fallen Deities, Neon Souls, Circus of Death

He is awfully clumsy and trips or breaks props all the time

He does Not like denim all because of being stuck in Best Jeanist's outfit for so long - being clad in denim from head to toe was not all that comfortable

Engaged to Shinya. They announced it on social media during the promotion of one of their movies, and it trended for so long and boosted the anticipation for the movie (not their intention, but hey they'll take it)

He models a lot for different fashion shows

When playing as Best Jeanist, he grew very close with Bakugou and ended up taking him under his wing in real life, becoming like an uncle figure to him and often showing up to his acting gigs to cheer him on

Despite how it may seem, he gets incredibly flustered very easily and intimate scenes or romance scenes in any of his roles make him turn red. They end up having to take breaks in filming because his ears turn red uncontrollably

He is very popular and a large portion of his fans send him handmade crafts and things for him to wear on screen in interviews or q&a sessions

Very emotive eyes. Just a look with his eyes in some scenes is enough to show a lot, he is very skilled as an actor :]

Maijima Higari (Power Loader):

Age: 41

Often does Sci-fi + Fantasy

Does real good 'secretive characters'

Is a nightmare for the hair department

(^ gets shit stuck in his hair constantly and will often get stuck on props on set. It's worse if he wears wigs, those just get stuck and fall off)

Favourites: Space Rangers, Pirate, Radioactive

Forgets his lines an awful lot, despite having a great memory for everything trivial

He memorises his co-stars' favourite drinks and yet not his own lines

Married to Ecto's actor!

Hatsume is their adopted daughter, and was Incredibly Excited to work on set for her role in the main mha series

They have a couple of other kids who show up and get to act in some of their movies with them!

Is actually a rather well-known and very skilled actor, who was cast as Powerloader because the director thought it would be fun to give him a small role cameo. The fans really liked it, and he really enjoys being in the background for small roles anyway.

He has this Very Specific and Unexpected skill of being able to absolutely NAIL screams. Despite being quite a reserved guy + playing pretty generally calm or quiet characters, if you need a scream recorded or a screaming scene, he's the guy.

Like. Angry screaming, grief-stricken wailing, comedic terror, etc. He's just Really Good at it.

Maijima Akira (Ectoplasm) [<- hc name for him bc we don't have a canon one]:

Age: 42

Often does Drama + Supernatural Fantasy

Does real good serious or theatrical roles

Lost his legs in a car accident and continued to act afterwards after a while of rest

He gets to keep the cool custom prosthetics that he wears in all the roles he does

Favourites: Masquerade, Broken Dollhouse, Regal

He is almost always snoozing on set

(^ very much dad-sitting-in-front-of-the-tv style)

He and Higari are married!

Much like Higari, he is a well-known and talented actor who got cast as a background character as Ectoplasm as a fun cameo, however he did not expect to have as much time on screen as he did.

For some reason, most of the roles he plays in require him to wear interesting facial prosthetics and makeup, cgi and motion-capture

He gets asked to play villainous or villainous-looking characters very often. He just gives off that vibe.

Still insists on doing as many stunts as he can himself, as long as he can, and used to do all of his stunts himself before his accident

He trained in a couple martial arts and also used to dance!

Yamada Hizashi (Present Mic):

Age: 31

Often plays good fun-lighthearted roles

Really hits the strong tragic and serious roles too

Speaks so many languages

Favourites: Fairground, Fantasy, Masquerade

Turns everything into a musical number when he is off set

When waiting for the cameras to start rolling, he will often drag the others into dancing or singing their lines for fun

He is married to Aizawa :)

Much like his character, he likes doing things in the media such as showing up on radio shows and podcasts and making cameos on random shows on tv

He can do VERY impressive and accurate impressions and often uses this to goof around with his co-stars characters on set.

Similarly, much like Higari, he can absolutely NAIL vocal acts like screaming, yelling and wailing or anything of the sorts.

He plays a lot of comedic characters, but some of his favourites are the ones that are actually very serious or dark characters, requiring a lot of emotion and genuine feeling.

But he does love playing Present Mic. A lot. Since he is the most like him irl lol

Eri's actor happens to be their daughter irl and she was very excited to play Eri

Has his own record label that he publishes music under

Aizawa Shouta (Eraserhead):

Age: 31

Often plays stoic + mysterious roles

Is an absolute sweetheart

(^ loves to give advice to the kids and younger actors and cheers them up to calm their nerves)

Is allergic to cats, despite loving them so much

Favourites: Trapped, Roleswap, Corrupt Horrors

Is always running about 5 minutes late

Theres no explanation for this, but some people suspect that his watch or clock is set wrong

Married to Yamada :]

He has absolutely awful eyesight but doesn't like wearing glasses so he wears contacts most of the time

After shooting for mha, he would normally buy food and drinks for all the kids acting the kids in class 1-A and they nicknamed him dadzawa irl

Shinsou is his biological son and the other cast members would always joke about how similar they look

Hated how scruffy he had to look as Eraserhead, as he takes a lot of pride in maintaining his hair and beard

Still won't show Eri the scene where he cuts his own leg off

Sam Ueno (Snipe) [Another with a hc name + age( + face hc) too]:

Age: 40

Plays really good parental roles (is a single dad)

He brings his kid to set very often and the others love to see her, she likes watching the behind the scenes

Used to be a theatre actor

Is really good with accents + does Voice Acting for quite a few shows

Favourites: Winged Warriors, Pirate, Broken Dollhouse

Constantly sneaking snacks on set and can be seen eating different snacks Every Single Time Somehow

He went to the same acting school as Ecto, and they even did their first acting gig together!

He loves cowboys and was overjoyed when he got asked to play as Snipe. Could regularly be seen just sitting in his little coat just watching the others and cheering them on in their scenes

Has directed films before too and won an award for a film that he directed for

Is very good at close-up magic? Just pulls out tricks at random intervals on set

Tatsuma Ryuko (Ryukyu):

Age: 26

Often plays in Action + Thriller

Is a real sucker for a good romance role and will watch romcoms in her spare time

Really likes to sneak in Easter Eggs to her roles for her fans to find

There are blogs and social media pages dedicated to finding and listing them all

Favourites: Space Rangers, Forest Keepers, Regal

She takes an absurd amount of coffee breaks

She is dating Uwabami's actor + Rumi

Absolutely LOVES the fact that she gets to play a whole ass dragon. She LOVES it.

The sharp teeth prosthetics that she got for playing Ryukyu made it so that it was very hard for her to take snack breaks during filming, so often they would try to shoot her scenes all together so she can take them out and eat

Her and Shinya act a lot like those annoying siblings that go around pranking their co-stars constantly

She will often be seen napping around set also

Usagiyama Rumi (Miruko):

Age: 27

Often plays in Action + Drama

Is actually very squeamish and doesn't like horror movies all that much

Has won quite a few awards for her previous roles

Favourites: Radioactive, Fallen Deities, Fantasy

She loves to do her own stunts and is a trained martial artist!

She is dating Ryuko + Uwabami's actor

She enjoys attending the fashion shows that Yumie models for and can often be seen with Ryuko in the audience cheering her on

She finds the edits of her characters very very fun, and actually asks her fans to tag her in fanart they make of her characters

She is allergic to carrots and so in the photoshoots of her as Miruko (referring to a couple of hori sketches) she uses prop plastic carrots

Is a very good singer and has played in a few musicals with her singing as characters

Shimizu Yumie (Uwabami) [yet another hc name + age]:

Age: 30

Often does Supernatural Fantasy + Historical Drama

Loves comedy a lot + makes her way into blooper reels a Lot.

Has a lot of animals and often brings her pets to set for the others to play with

They love this.

Favourites: Supernatural Beings, Pirate, Masquerade

She forgets her lines quite a bit

She is dating Ryuko + Rumi

Previously dated Midnight's actor, but the two of them ended things on good terms and often act on the same sets together

Models a lot and has a rather lengthy list of popular looks from red-carpet events

She absolutely LOVES whenever she gets to wear prosthetic fangs, she runs around set and shows them off

Uwabami was a very small cameo role that she played while filming for something else

Her and Tsunagu have a very fun besties/sibling-like relationship that makes shooting scenes together quite difficult since they just chat or make each other laugh very easily

Anyway, yeah that's all I got for now!!! I hope you enjoy these lil bits n bobs about my actor au!

I'd love to do some more for other characters and some fun scenes at some point, but for now this is all I could conjure up lol

Having this au be a very involved au that interacts with every other au I have, including most importantly the canon universe, is a very fun thing.

Thank you for asking!! It makes me so incredibly happy to see someone even remotely interested and asking about one of my aus! I love talking about them :D

[nouverx]

Hello! I just want to say I love how round you draw Alastor. It gives him a slightly different vibe but you still make it undeniably him. I especially love it when his roundness is contrasted with his bloody personality. All so very good!

Hello!! Thank you so much! :D I always love when artists give a character their own little design quirks that makes their artstyle recognizable! I really wanted Alastor to feel like my own Alastor eheh

I also realized I never draw his neck lolol

[etherfabric]

Which part of you wants to be felt? + Affirmations

Choose a pile by which picture you resonate with the most.

If your mind is too busy to clearly decide, take a few deep breaths, and use the finger of your non-dominant hand to hover over the images. One will give off the most subtle yet prominent signals, like tingles, a magnetic pull, or temperature. This is your pile. Multiples are also possible.

You have free will. I merely provide my perspective in these readings. Sometimes the Universe lines you up with something that doesn't resonate with your truth, so you have contrast to find out what does.

Pile 1

Death, Wheel of Fortune

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The part of you that wants to be felt is your optimism. This feels to you like putting a boulder on a butterfly - dooming it from the beginning. You lost all trust in your right and ability to imagine good scenarios. Anytime one creeps up to you, you swat it away like an insect carrying a disease. True, you had to face some dark truths about the world and yourself - but don't forget why you started this process: You wanted to be happy and healthy again.

This means recalibrating your focus on what is good and fun. Things that make you glad to be alive. Even if you will fear losing them all over again. But if the past taught you one thing, it should be your ability to stand up and rebuild, right? You and your skills are the secret ingredient. You can afford risks. You are abundant in your ability to find the next good thing. Looking back at all you lost, doesn't it make sense? Didn't it make room for all this, that is so much more you? Whatever loss you will have to face in the future will just be the predecessor of an even further upgrade. Don't wait for guarantees. Seize what you have now, and trust in divine timings. You will get your fill. But you have to give access to your cup first.

Your affirmation is:

I am aware that being happy means I am on the right path.

Pile 2

5 of Wands rx, The Fool rx

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The part of you that wants to be felt is your willingness towards repair after conflict. I know there have been countless occassions where you were the "stupid" one to extend a peaceful hand first, only for it to be slapped away, or used to pull you down even further. No one deserves that, you included. While we can't expect a foolproof (eheh, because of the Fool, get it? ...sorry) guarantee to always have the right timing with our peace offers, it's still worth a try. I feel this resentment towards yourself for being even able to do that. "Not this idiot again getting us hurt even further after a fight." But this idiot is exactly the one who will bring you closer to those who actually just had a bad day when they hurt you. Who truly wished things would have been different. And are probably desperate to reconnect, but just don't know where to even begin. You do. Dare to risk it again.

It might bring up old pain that feels unbearable, but remind yourself (if you can) that you are much more powerful than in the past, where those low blows were truly devastating. They will never feel nice, but if you let them be a reason to never get close to someone again, you run the risk of being lonelier than you'd realistically have to be. The malicious intent you feel might be a remnant from unprocessed hurt, instead of a reliable source of purely present information. Let the dust settle and reassess the situation. If in the calm, this still feels like war, and you worked through your shadow to see clearer, then by all means, please leave. But don't destroy something good because it touched a sore spot.

Your affirmation is:

My capability to show my true feelings is always a step towards love and life.

Pile 3

The Star, 2 of Swords rx

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The part of you that wants to be felt is your faith, to be more precise, your confidence in being worthy of having faith. You are still on the fence with a lot of big and small things regarding it. You feel like you just started consciously allowing yourself to even entertain that dimension of existence, that there might be more than the eye can see, that science and logic don't paint the whole picture. Even reading that sentence felt kind of... wrong, right? That's actually super normal. This image of sudden enlightenment, never waivering in one's beliefs and always flowing on a cloud of omniscience and serenity is a product sold to us. To keep us discouraged from our inner strength and voice, and assign our own power to supposedly better people than us. "I am having doubts, I feel kinda silly doing this sometimes, I forget a lot of the practices, I do it haphazardly, I don't cleanse/pray/meditate/worship/offer/affirm enough, or do it the wrong way..." And then we feel guilty when we turn towards our faith in times of desperation and hopelessness, despite our "lousy performance".

Pardon my french, but cut that shit out. You are worthy. You are a spiritual being, point blank, whether you are in a ceremonial robe humming psalms or sitting on your toilet watching TikTok. Performance doesn't determine relevance. Performance or lack thereof will never be able to erase the deep truth you already tapped into. You discovered your spiritual side, but not in lieu to your physical, logical self - no one wants you to abandon or replace anything. It's an addition for the spaces 3D can't fill. The times you turn towards it are exactly the times you should. Give yourself grace and patience to let this gigantic new dimension unfold in its own time for you. It's a lot, and that's the beauty of it. Now, with this, there will always be something new to learn and explore!

Your affirmation is:

There is no way to get my life wrong. My connection to source is eternal.

Pile 4

5 of Pentacles rx, Temperance

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The part of you that wants to be felt is your relief. When I tap into your energy, it matches the archetype of a man on his porch with a shotgun in his lap. He is already falling asleep in his rocking chair, because there is no actual danger present that would cut the lulling sound of crickets, but then this thing inside his head goes off and he jolts awake to point the weapon at the dark. There hasn't been an intruder or dangerous animal in years, but he is so afraid of it happening again, that he ruins his own divinely orchestrated time for recuperation.

Yes, the horrors of the past were real, but you can wait forever to feel relaxed now that it's over, if you don't loosen your grip on your defenses (which are, quite frankly, premature offenses a lot of the times). It will feel terribly vulnerable and like the dumbest thing you could ever do, but your body needs your help. It. Is. Tired. Being scared is hard work. I know I am being the opposite of original here with my suggestions, and I invite you to moan your annoyance clearly, and roll your eyes at me with vigor when I say: Deep breath in, hold it for as long as you can, and exhale slowly. Repeat until you feel different. It might take a while, depending from how high of an adrenaline level you have to climb down, but golly, you need it. Don't be surprised if a pocket of fear comes up to be felt, the up and down is the way it goes towards equilibrium. Just keep breathing, dear. Your body knows the rest.

Your affirmation is:

I have the power to create peace within myself.

[lovelynim]

End of the semester

Genshin Impact - Kaveh x Alhaitham

A/N: Hello from the past! I want to thank @xsezzie for sponsoring this one fic and for being extremely patient with me throughout the process - as you, who is reading this, may already imagine why!

It was a pleasure working with these two cuties, even more because I had to chance to write for baby alhaitham ehehe

Summary: Kaveh invites Alhaitham over his place to work on a project for some extra credits by the end of the semester. It can't be that hard to get to work with his junior, right?

Word count: 1891 words

Kaveh let out an unamused sigh, resting his chin on top of his knuckles. “Can you stop doing that?” He muttered, jabbing his junior’s side while furrowing his brows. Alhaitham squealed in surprise, nearly flipping the whole table before him, and Kaveh couldn’t help but to think that this was the first time he clearly heard Alhaitham’s voice during that afternoon.

It should have been about two or three hours since they started working on their project for the presentations of the end of the semester in the Akademiya and it annoyed Kaveh to the core that Alhaitham simply refused to speak.

At first, inviting his cute little junior to join him in his project didn’t sound like a bad idea. All his interactions with Alhaitham throughout the semester were limited to small talks at the hallways or at the library - and there was something about that quiet, shy guy that drew Kaveh’s attention to him. Maybe, this was the chance he was waiting for all this time, right?

Wrong.

Ever since Alhaitham arrived at Kaveh’s place, the guy seemed to get even more nervous than he usually was.

“How are you?”

“...Fine.”

“Would you like something to eat?”

“...No.”

“Do you want to take a break?”

“...No.”

Agh, that guy!

The short talk was driving Kaveh up the wall, no matter what he tried, he couldn’t initiate a conversation with his junior. Just like the talk, Kaveh’s patience was also running short. And to make matters worse, they were also having little to no progress in their project as well, with barely a page written after hours of work - or attempts of working, to be precise.

Kaveh, at some point, just leaned over his sketches, pressing his forehead on the wooden table and watching Alhaitham with the corner of his eye. What’s wrong with that guy, anyway?

Alhaitham was clearly tense about this whole setting as well, fidgeting with his pen and pretending to write over and over - did he even notice Kaveh had already figured him out by that time? Still, he insisted on feigning effort, in making up excuses to avoid talking to his senior.

Could it be, Kaveh wondered, that Alhaitham actually disliked him? And he was being a jerk instead of the nice, cool senior he dreamed to be?!

Well, the only way to figure this out was talking things through with Alhaitham, which would set him back to 0 progress - after all, this was the main issue: his inability to start a conversation with Alhaitham.

Out of ideas, running out of patience and tired of the same dry, meaningless answers, Kaveh channeled all his inner rage and bubbling insecurities to the tip of his fingers. Then, he delivered his blow: a precise, “lethal” poke, right in the middle of Alhaitham’s side - which brings us back to the present.

As that surprised, panicked squeal left Alhaitham’s lips, the junior student’s first reaction was to cover his lips with one hand, leaning away from Kaveh while widening his eyes in shock. 

“Can you stop doing that?” Kaveh groaned, unamused.

“D-doing what, senior?” Alhaitham mumbled from behind his hand, barely standing to make his eye contact with Kaveh last for more than 5 seconds. His cheeks slowly began to heat up, contrasting the color of his grayish hair. “I’m n-not doing anything, I swe-”

“And that’s the problem!” Kaveh quickly sat back up, slamming his hands flat against the table. “Why won’t you talk to me?!”

Alhaitham curled up slightly, holding his hands close to his chest while his body prepared itself to run away. He looked at Kaveh from head to toe, making his senior wonder what kind of thoughts could be passing through his head.

“I… I’m talking to you, thought,” he spoke sheepishly and Kaveh could literally feel something inside him snap after hearing that comment.

He poked Alhaitham again, this time on the middle of his chest, and began to tower over him. Alhaitham, his oh-so-cute junior, was really getting on his nerves today. “What. Is. Your. Problem?!” Kaveh groaned, making Alhaitham jolt slightly with each time his finger came into contact with his chest.

“S-senior, cahalm down!” Alhaitham’s eyes darted back and forth between his senior’s hand and face, his hands aimlessly trying to defend himself.

“I’ve been nothing but nice to you, why are you so tense all the ti-”

“Ah!

“...me.” Kaveh stopped - no, “froze” was a better way to describe it - in his tracks. “D-did you just laugh?”

“...No?” Alhaitham muttered, blinking a few times in confusion as that frustrated face suddenly softened, almost as if Kaveh forgot the reason he was getting angry in the first place. “C-can… we go back to the project, s-senior Kaveh?”

“Sure,” Kaveh muttered, that brief sound still resonating inside his head. As he pulled his hand back, coughing to clear up his throat, his mind drifted to somewhere else, trying to figure out what just happened.

The first, and most obvious hypothesis, came up seconds later and his eyes already began to spark with mischief. “So, have you found any good reference material so far?” Kaveh muttered, his hand sneaking under the table.

“N-not yet, sehEHE-” Alhaitham nearly jumped off his chair when Kaveh lightly pinched his side. The blushing on his cheeks worsened, but acknowledging it - that it tickled - sounded like a terrible idea at the point. “Ahem, not yet, seniohor…”

Kaveh narrowed his eyes. Yeah, he was definitely ticklish, though, but the type that would play tough? He didn’t expect that. Still, it was pretty cute to watch him try to act cool… 

“Hmm, maybe if we look a little more thoroughly, we might find something interesting…” Kaveh smiled, poking Alhaitham’s side again and, this time, tracing a little circle with his index finger just below his junior’s rib, “just like I did now.”

Alhaitham’s hands trembled on top of the table, the pen nearly breaking inside his grip that only grew tighter. Alhaitham could feel a drop of sweat sliding down his temper and Kaveh’s predatory gaze on him. This was bad. “S-senior, cohould you stop that?” He muttered, trying to gently push Kaveh’s hand away with his elbow.

“But aren’t you still nervous, ‘Haitham?” Kaveh cooed teasingly. “I thought we should take a little break to… ease the tension.”

“N-nohoh neehed, sehehenior,” Alhaitham gritted his teeth, battling against the urge to laugh while the corners of his lips were already pulling up. “I-I’m f-pfft… f-fihine.”

Kaveh grinned, this was probably the first time he has heard his junior… giggle. It was weird, now that he thought about it, how Alhaitham was always so quiet around him - short talks, avoiding eye contact, barely making any noise… What was his deal, after all? Still, he wasn’t going to let go of this chance, not when he was so close to breaking the ice between them. 

“Are you suuure you are fine, ‘Haitham? Look at how hard you’re clenching your hands… you are definitely way too tense. Your face will end up covered in wrinkles when you get older if you are always so nervous, don’t you know that?”

He could almost see how Alhaitham’s muscles contracted and tensed under the tip of his finger, how his skin was prickling with goosebumps and heard how his breathing hitched after each poke. “Sehenior, w-wehe need to fihihinish our projehect!”

“Not now, ‘Haitham’,” Kaveh grinned. Having collected enough data to support his “thesis”, it was time to put all that knowledge into practice. “We need to work on all this tension first.”

Those words sat inside Alhaitham’s mind like a rock thrown in the middle of a peaceful lake. It didn’t take Alhaitham more than seconds to realize the actual meaning behind that excuse and to understand what Kaveh planned to do - still, it was too late.

“N-no, sehenior, tha-aHAHA”, Alhaitham giggled, caught off guard by his own voice when Kaveh tickled both his sides at once. Before he could think of a way to defend himself, his senior already had him trapped against his own chair, with his hands palming and squeezing his sides and stomach.

“How did I not know you are ticklish, ‘Haitham?” Kaveh chuckled along, pinpointing one sensitive spot after the other, managing to avoid Alhaitham’s hands over and over, not allowing the other to stop him in his tracks. “Were you hiding such a cool detail from me? Why? Aren’t we friends?”

If he wasn’t busy laughing and trying to find a way out of this awful situation, Alhaitham would be cringing at those words. Of all the people inside the Akademiya, why did it have to be Kaveh the one to be messing with him?

His little heart beat faster and faster, his cheeks flushing with embarrassment caused by many different reasons at once. “S-sehehenior!! Stohohop it, this ihis not fuhuhunny!”

“Oh, but I’m having lots of fun, ‘Haitham, and aren’t you smiling just as much?” Kaveh teased, his hands clawing their way up from Alhaitham’s waist up to his ribs, making the junior’s laugh rise a pitch. “W-woah, you’re really ticklish here ~”

“W-wahAHAhait, plehehease!” Alhaitham whined, pressing his arms desperately tight against his body. He leaned forward, trying to to curl up in a vain attempt to stop that madding feeling. Alhaitham closed his eyes shut while a wide smile spreaded over his face. “I-it tihihickles too bahahad thehehere!!”

Gulp.

Kaveh wasn’t sure what kind of gear began to turn inside his head at that moment, but seeing Alhaitham smile and laugh - all because of him - made him feel… weird. Fuzzy and warm, as some would call it. 

He felt some faint heat reaching his own cheeks while pushing Alhaitham back into his seat, preventing his junior from falling to the ground. “Is that so? Maybe I just figured out how to… make you less tense, right?”

“N-NOHOhoh!! Thahat’s not ihihihit!” Alhaitham shook his head, throwing it back in a fit of laughter after Kaveh managed to sneak his hands under his arms. It tickled more than he expected it to - it was much, much worse! “SehHEHEnior- ahAHAH, stahAHAHap it!”

It took Kaveh a few seconds to process what Alhaitham was saying. All he could focus on was how cute he looked, how adorable the sound of his laughter was and how seeing him like that made him spin. Of course, that also meant it took him a while to actually stop the tickling.

Once he withdrew his hands, Alhaitham’s body went limp against the chair. His head hung on top of the back rest and Kaveh was thankful that they didn’t make eye contact at that moment - this should give him plenty of time to get rid of his own blushing.

“So, caham, are you still nervous, ‘Haitham?” Kaveh smiled, reaching out and nudging Alhaitham’s cheek, playfully poking near the corner of his lips.

The only answer that came from Alhaitham was a tired, embarrassed groan. He pushed Kaveh’s hand away from his face, sitting back up and crossing his arms, “you’re the worst, senior,” he mumbled, crossing his arms and looking away while his cheeks still beamed up in that adorable shade of pink.

“Heh,” Kaveh chuckled, “you’re so cute, ‘Haitham,” he added, making his junior puff out his cheeks slightly. “Well, let’s get back to work, then. You already made us waste enough time ~”

[luckyarchivist]

Ais and Honesty

Another loresheet snippet i'm (minorly) expanding on and (majorly) looking to see what people think about it! It was just a small thing I noticed, having to collect all of these lines and shit, and that's that a lot of Ais's lines have to do with honesty.

Not just this line, of course. In the Red Spring post about the Amaryllis District, he says, "This district is the worst and only place to be honest in Eridia." And then he says this about Vere:

Not only that, but when Ais tells the MC to reconsider the Seaspring, and that he himself doesn't think drinking is worth it unless their curse is killing them, MC says, "You could've sold me if you were less honest. You're a shit salesman."

Honestly (ehehe) even when playing the demo the first time, I was struck by how open Ais is about things—his frankness actually moved my interest in him above Leander, my previous #1 . Honesty is a core value for me IRL, so something tickled me about the violent mindfreak demon bluntly telling you he ditched you because he was lonely. He might kill me, but at least he won't lie to me~ Dream man for sure.

IDK what all this talking is culminating in, I just thought it was really interesting. It's cool to see a positive, “good” trait like honesty be shown in the recurring behavior of a morally dubious character, cos I think it adds texture (which the love interests HAVE to have for dating them to be interesting all the way through). It makes me wonder if his route will focus on how honest you and Ais can be with each other about the things that matter—or, perhaps, the consequences of that honesty.

And, now that I'm getting ready to post this: I wonder if each of the other characters' (including the DLC characters') has a recurring trait that can be so succinctly summarized, one that offers them texture simply by contrasting their baseline image? And if so, what are they, or what will they be? Interested to hear y'all's thoughts if you have any!

[frownyalfred]

PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT THATS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS EVER WHEN THAT HAPPENS TOO EARLY AND THE ALPHA JUST HAS TO ACCEPT IT!! EHEHE. OH, GOD, lex with the beginnings of his baby bump just sat on top of dan and absolutely tormenting him with how much fun he's having,,,, clark and bruce in the nest nearby unbothered and happy until poor dan starts actually getting frustrated. cmon guys let lex have his fun!!!! i think there could definitely be some really fun teasing dialogue between the couples here that showcases the fading of boundaries in this relationship and just how comfortable they are interacting while lex and dan are having sex, or even outright stating the way these long drawn out frustration scents are messing with bruce and clark too, and that not being a good idea when bruce is so early postpartum depending on when you have this set. this is so fun i would absolutely die for it. mean taunting playful lex when the thing goes down and dan hands throws his own medicine right back at him and makes the nest smell of pure alpha satisfaction

Yeah! And truly Lex left himself wide open for revenge because if he can keep enjoying himself over and over again….yeah. Trying to keep this somewhat sft! I can’t get thrown in tumblr jail again for posting about 🪢

Also I was 100% imagining superbat having some fun nearby at the same time so it’s really just hilarious contrast between the two couples

[strawberry-seal77]

I have FURRIFIED them >:3c

Extra thoughts under the cut !! Time spent: ~3 hours

First Kyoko. She's the strongest idea I had going into this piece (I actually didn't expect to draw anyone other than her, eheh). Though the idea was mainly just , cat furry.

The four face stripes are meant to kinda reflect her four hair tufts, the bits on top are like her antennae, and her hail takes on the role of her giant ponytail !! It even has a bow :3

Something that I find interesting when turning humans into furries, while keeping (most of) the outfit from their original designs, is making sure the colors work!

Kyoko's hair is red, so her fur is mainly red. That's because a full red doesn't look very good with her outfit (see below). It all just kinda merges together.

So, to add that contrast back in, she gets a red underside! And lower face. And fingers. dsbfhjdb

I had TONS of fun drawing Kyoko. :3

On to Sayaka! I'm not as happy with her, since I think I coulda shown the shape of the wing much more clearly (it currently looks like it ends at the hand, but the feathers that continue past are actually just folded back) BUT I'm still pretty satisfied with the rest!

Since she's bird, her resemblance to the magical girl outfit is a bit more abstract, which was really fun to do!

Her chest feathers and fur emulate the cape, the feathers on the wing emulate her arm sleeve things, I have no idea what's going on with the hand don't think about it too much, and the spots on her face could either be emulating where faces are lighter OR be kinda like tears :3 hehe

You may also notice that they both have thicker necks than in humans, this is on purpose! Animals are just cool like that.

I did Not know what I was doing with the background, but messing around enough seemed to do it! Reddish for Kyoko and blueish for Sayaka, of course.

I only thought about recording a speedpaint after I'd already laid out loose colors for Kyoko, so ALAS I did not record one. One day I'll actually remember.

[phxntomhives]

I'm resurrecting from the dead

Did you get the joke? No? Ok

Small analysis of this pic

But I'd like to remind you I am no expert on the topic, it's just my 2 cent lol

End of S4 spoilers + manga spoilers under the cut

I am quite confident this is dedicated to the midnight tea party of the anime right now. His identity has been revealed so what better way to celebrate than such a wonderful art?

The first thing I personally noted is the pose. Our dear yandere pose (I got Yuno war fleshbacks ngl) The smile, the hands, that eye. He has the full pack. We can all agree he goes a little insane when we talk about the Phantomhive... but yandere? I wouldn't say so (at least not yet, tho he may be on the correct road to become it). I guess he is dancing on the line between sanity and insanity and this is just the result of it.

Someone already said the liquid that is falling is tea. But I am also very much reminded of blood when looking at that color (and knowing his story, it also fits). Thought it may be just me. I would also like to point out how the tea is not just spilling over from the teapots, they are breaking. And Undertaker is just staring at the scene with insanity.

I am also going insane about all the hands: there is a right hand holding the sugar bowl. Then there is another right hand, holding a teacup which is also crumbling down. But that teacup is being "filled" of tea, that is dropping from above. Then there is also a left hand on the top, holding the teapot's handle (that is now detached from the main body). And there is a fourth hand, holding the dessert. So, here is my idea: the three hands that are holding the tea set represent 3 of the prefects: if I were to take a guess from here I would say that the broken teapot could be Herman Greenhill (the most broken one since he likely feels worst about the situation since he technically started everything). Then the sugar bowl could be Lawrence Bluewer: it is just being destroyed and has no power in the situation. The broken teacup is Edgar Redmond: he tried to hold it together but in the end he still lost control over the situation. Let me first go to the dessert now, I'll go to the other hand in a second.

The dessert. Listen, I am no expert in those but I know a strawberry when I see one. And I believe that is very much R!Ciel's favourite snack a strawberry cake. So listen, if we can discuss that the hand holding the teacup could be X or Y, here I am quite confident it is just R!Ciel. Not to mention that Undertaker is technically staring at him with the yandere look so it would make sense: he would be staring a Phantomhive AND an almost perfect Bizzare Doll he has created. I would go yandere too ngl. The dessert is being "watered" by the tea, which if I am correct and it does also symbolize blood, it could represent the idea/the begin of the blood transfution to keep R!Ciel alive. AND the dessert is being held by the last hand. Who were we missing of the P4 again? Violet. And who has casually the same blood type of R!Ciel? Violet. So I think this is him.

One last thing I noticed of the hands is that three of them are "in the dark" (both at the top and left one at the bottom: Lawrence, Greenhill and Redmond), while the one in the bottom right (Violet) is a little more illuminated than the others. Does this confirm/imply that Violet does already know a little more than the others? I'll let you make a decision I feel it may be just the light and I am becoming paranoid.

I absolutely LOVE how the background is the midnight flower glowing. It gives such a nice contrast in the picture. It also helps in making undertaker look even more ominous lolol. It's so bright and maybe it stands for everything pure you can think of. But Undertaker has turned his back to that light and is just enjoying the chaos. I am trying to find more stuff about the flower and its meaning let's see if I find something eheh

That is all thanks for bearing with me lol.

On a side note: did he always had that ring "tattoo" on his pinky? I am blind ✨✨

(I may check later for grammar mistaker I am tired now)

[ghoularaki]

Hi! I just wanted to say I adore your writing—BB is genuinely one of the best things I’ve ever read, and I’m completely obsessed with it. Your character work, especially with Erwin and Levi, is phenomenal.

I did have a little question/request: how tall is Y/N in comparison to Erwin and Levi? I imagine her being significantly shorter—especially next to Erwin—and that contrast just opens up so many delicious dynamics. If it’s something you’re into, I’d love to see some size kink woven into the story. Like, Erwin making teasing comments about how small Y/N is, maybe murmuring that he could break her in half with just one hand or how easily he could manhandle them. That casual dominance mixed with his sheer size? 🤌🤌

It would also be super hot to see little scenes where he effortlessly lifts Y/N without a second thought—like if they’re struggling to reach something, or if he just wants to move them around like a doll. Even something as subtle as his hands completely dwarfing theirs, like how Y/N is not being able to fully take him and him loving that… ugh, so good.

Maybe including a scene where Levi’s fingers curl tightly around Y/N’s wrist, his touch firm but deliberate, with his cold eyes locking onto theirs in a silent command—followed by his low, dangerous murmur of “So small”.

hihi!! thank you sm <3 i have grown so attached to bb! erwin and bb! levi

okay so ik that this is a reader insert so i try not to put too many descriptions of height/size and other things, but this is also super self-indulgent. so when writing i imagine my size when writing and i am considerable shorter than erwin and a small bit shorter than levi. if other readers are okay with it, i would totally be up for adding more size kink bc its my fave ehehe >:) i just want to try and be as inclusive as i can lol. writing size difference for erwin is easy since he's stupid tall, but with levi i feel like not a lot of ppl are indeed shorter than him lolol

but!! with levi, i think putting a strength kink could also work for your idea too. levi is very strong, like he's stronger than erwin, so i can definitely see him abusing that. i mean, he already has in the fic despite how much the reader targets him lmao. i can see more levi than erwin establish how much *stronger* he is. that if he wanted, he could break the reader in half with ease, squeezing your wrist as he forces you closer.

erwin would do as you said, lift you up and drag you around like a doll. if you struggled to grab something high up, he would crowd you just so you can *feel* how much bigger he is. erwin is also a very broader man so his shoulders would dwarf you too ehehe

[fluffydeoxys]

hi guess who's back again after reading your reply and also full of so many tears, like oh my god i can fill an entire lake?

ANYWAYS. yes. slight serious note- i do want to say that stories always take time to develop- first drafts are not something that everyone is proud of, ask any writer ever. seeing how you developed Zero and turned her into a character that you enjoy was very nice to see, AND I DO SEE THAT LITTLE NOTE ABOUT ZERO NOT BEING INTERESTING ON HER OWN. ARE WE LYING NOW? YOU LIAR? Zero is a character who stands GREAT on their own too. do not be mean to him, she means the world to me.

both the silhouette and overall vision you have created for Zero is the most interesting thing for me to look at all of the time because it's accurate- it makes sense, and GOD does that make my brain in particular very happy and silly and go "yippie yippie yippie". you are very careful about the details you jot down- which is likely a result of your perfectionism, but that shouldn't be overlooked. you care a lot about your story and the characters involved; not just Zero, but also the canon characters and how they intertwine with one another. its very admirable and should be appreciated.

sorry if this is like. a lot. i totally get what you mean about struggling to figure out details in stories and finding it hard to jot certain things down or work on other parts of the story. i personally like calling that the Writer Haze™, but regardless. what you have is very good, do not give up on it. but also give yourself a break if you need it !

- yours truly, 💀

Aw .. man seriously again, thank you. I know I'm repeating myself a bit ad nauseam here, but it seriously means a lot to me. As a person who struggles with self-worth and really wants to be or make something that means something to someone, it helps.

(Putting a line break because I ramble a fair bit. image above it though, as I think this is interesting enough)

That is very true! I think I have very unrealistic expectations of myself, especially considering I've never made a long-form character or concept, nor have I been truly invested in something so deeply or thoroughly before. It's a bit pathetic, but I guess I want to tell a story or show a character that people really like and find cool (not just a surface level thing, a thing with nuance and depth, something seriously compelling that makes someone think about things, feel something, connect with it) without all the.. me fumbling and failing through various drafts, haha. I'm not sure how I want to be perceived. I get nervous and then frustrated at myself for being so prone to emotion.

Eheh, sorry, self-deprecation is something of a bad habit that still kicks around in my head. I do think it's still somewhat true in the sense that Zero is decidedly not protagonist material, or if you had a story centring on her, I don't really know how it'd be interesting. He's more interesting (said hesitantly) when paired with other characters, because his strange, off-putting but gentle demeanour contrasts against the Madcom cast in various ways. But if the limelight was on them for too long, I think the story falls apart, to be honest. I would like this to be different, but it's a feeling I've never really been able to shake. I dooo think that maybe they could be an interesting focal point of an animation, though, for a few reasons. So I think that's something?

Thank you!! Really, I'm very glad to hear that because that's kind of what I aim for the most: coherence, next to it being interesting. I did the above image yesterday to better articulate some thoughts on Zero and like. I guess a visualisation of my process and how things end up forming a web of relations. Doesn't summarise or cover everything, but at least it's pretty apt!

I try to put a lot of effort and concern and thought into how the world, Nevada, is. I want Zero to feel, act and think like a character who could potentially, feasibly be canon, and be interesting. I try to consider and think about the interesting worldbuilding elements that Madcom has and try to play off them to create something interesting. Most of my interest centres around large "meta"-ish ideas like S3LF, narrative/fate, the Nowhere and the Other Place.

Hence why Zero is involved in many of these ideas. There are limitations, boundaries, and they can be pushed, pulled and broken in interesting ways.

I'm really glad that you enjoy what I've made for canon characters as well! I admit I feel like I neglect them more in favour of my own selfish fixations but I am happy and proud of what I have made so far. There's a certain uniquely satisfying feeling that comes from linking everything together into one big picture with many interlocking parts. Many pieces and things go back and forth between my Doc, Sanford and Deimos headcanons that make them feel almost 'alive' to me.

Many of my favourite stories/games masterfully intertwine the broad strokes of narrative themes with individual-scale writing and character interactions, relationships and worldbuilding, which has influenced what I like and how I think. Disco Elysium and Outer Wilds are my two biggest favourites. UTDR and Hollow Knight also shine through for me.

But well, my prattling aside. You're not being too much at all, it's very touching and kind and I sincerely appreciate the time, effort and thought you went to to think of me and my work. Hearing about how people think, feel and get inspired by what I do is a reason why I make things. What you've said is appreciated and treasured by me.

Thank you, for once this is something I genuinely don't want to give up on, and I want to see it through to the end, and beyond. I generally take breaks by focusing on other aspects, writing something different, or working on another character and I find that tends to work for me. Still a few unanswered questions for Zero but I'll get there, I hope. I just need to keep going.

I really appreciate your time and kindness once again, it means more than I could really put into words. You've been very kind and sweet to me, thank you <3 I hope you are having a nice day!

I'll put some zoomed in versions of the image here cus I think tumblr kinda scrunches up the quality. and my handwriting is. yeah. lawl

[jez-bez]

pirate!!

eeeeee!!! okay! so! this has been my baby for a while now! it's part of a fic universe that has two endings: the alternate happy ending that is posted on ao3 called 'until the very end, my love' - and the original 10k mcd ending that is safely stored away in my google docs (and the phayurain server, that I'm willing to share if people want to see, I just don't want to post it online because I'm sensitive around the subject.)

so me being me, I always hint to backstories in my fics. In the posted ao3 version, Phayu looks Rain over to memorize every detail of him and comes to the little scar on Rain's face that Phayu put there himself when they first met. Me being me, I couldn't resist writing said first meeting so, here's a snip!

“I bet you haven’t eaten in a few days,” Phayu doesn’t hide how his eyes travel over Rain’s slender body, “and by the looks of it you’ve been on the streets for a while, am I right?” “You must know what starvation feels like, which is why…” Saifah continues but falls silent when Phayu holds up his hand to him, signaling him to be quiet.  “I’m not starving,” Rain hisses, but another growl from his stomach gives him away. “Sure you’re not,” Phayu grins. “You just thought it was a fine day to rob three bigger guys of their last rations, didn’t you?” The frown on Rain’s face deepens and he purses his lips.  “Fuck. Off.”  The sharp edge of Phayu’s sword digs into Rain’s cheekbone. “I told you,” he says darkly. “I don’t like foulmouthed boys.” “Oh yeah?” Rain challenges and steps in closer too. “Do your worst, I don’t have anything to lose.” A thick drop of blood trails down his cheek from where Phayu’s sword has broken skin. The deep red is a stark contrast against his pale face and empty eyes.  Pai feels sorry for him. Not because he’s clearly been through some stuff, but because Phayu seems to be having way too much fun toying with him. If Pai didn’t know any better, he’d think this was some kind of intense foreplay between lovers, at least for Phayu. It’s a whole ‘nother story for Rain, whose entire appearance radiates exhaustion. “Ask me.” Phayu lowers his sword. “Nicely.” And oh– Pai recognizes that voice. Phayu is playing.  “C’mon, ask me.” His thumb comes up to the small cut on Rain’s cheekbone, wiping away the trail of blood. “‘Phayu, please let Rain have a bite’.”

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eheh so there's that. I'm unsure if I'll post it to ao3 when it's done. Maybe! Maybe as a second chapter to the existing fic, calling it a 'prequel' or smth but I'm not sure yet

but ye! my beloved pirates! I have sooooo many ideas for them. From playful sword fights to stowaway roleplay kjfwbejfkwbs fun! so fun!

[zoeysdamn]

||Avatar the last airbender tarot | The Hanged Man | Jet||

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[Other cards of the ATLA tarot can be found here and on my Instagram art account]

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It’s mainly the negative pattern (reverse) and sacrifice (upward) meaning of the card that I had in mind while drawing this one. We can all agree that Jet has very very questionable morals; but he’s not a full bad guy either, like most of the characters. I gave him this card because I thought it was fitting his redemption arc in Ba Sing Se and the whole Lake Laogai thing. As for the colors, the warm, autumn tones in his episode are a good contrast to Lake Laogai’s green and blue hues (and I’m a sucker for poetic parallelism eheh). Also I struggled so hard drawing this card just like the Hanged Man in the Witcher version *sob*