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You just know a ship is taking over your life when you have a.) a folder dedicated to content of them, b.) piles of WIP projects (art and writing) that just grow rather than shrink, c.) a 50+ page google doc with nothing but concepts and ideas yet to be made and finalized (with cooperation with a fren, shout outs to u pare), d.) a pinterest mood board full of things that remind you of them / board of inspiration, e.) urges to learn new skills or polish old skills (3d animation and model editing, plush making, sticker making) just for more content of them, and f.) a playlist of songs that just scream "made for them".......... man what is happening to me.....
Anyways, something I made for a playlist I'm curating. I can't decide which one I like more so I'm putting both. I'll reblog this once I finish curating the playlist with a link to it because it only has two songs as of now HAHAHAHAHAAHHA
#cheken's nonsense#cheken scratch#one day i'll finish my backlogs#one day......#making this was a confusing process#messing around layers go brrr#giovanni#rocket boss giovanni#rocket leader giovanni#ghetsis#plasma leader ghetsis#plasma boss ghetsis#terribledadshipping#gioghet#pokemon#my art
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dazai making up a whole language with fyodor that no one else can understand is amazing but imagine him using codes that, very objectively speaking, you could crack, it's just that no normal person would ever make the insane leaps in logic that it requires. except for someone familiar with dazai's weird thinking patterns, that is.
i just love the idea of dazai's unhinged antics being dialed up to an eleven when he was in the port mafia, and oda being the only one who simply wouldn't bat an eye at it but chuuya was the only one who would actually get it.
like imagine ango at the end of the jailbreak, his boss saying he should allow himself to sigh and lean back and maybe indulge himself, pat him on the shoulder, tell him what he pulled off reading heart rates wasn't easy and he should be proud for being able to keep up with such a plan
but ango i-drank-with-teenage-dazai-and-also-had-the-records-for-every-soukoku-mission sakaguchi can only remember the time dazai was like using greek sign language through his breathing patterns to communicate from a submarine from beneath the pacific ocean or something, and chuuya could not fathom how no one else could understand him.
and that was the day mori signed off on skk being exclusive partners because every subordinate in the room was crying tears of blood by the time chuuya finished explaining which blood pressure level was warning them about a bomb, which blinking sequence was him conveying the vault password and which series of inhales was just him calling mori a bitch.
(ango also pointedly did not want to think about how smug dazai had looked after the mission when mori confirmed skk would only be each others' partners for efficiency and to maintain everyone else's sanity
or about how when he called chuuya to tell him about dazai's prison break scheme he could only get like 3 out of 276 steps into the plan before chuuya rolled his eyes, said "got it" then hung up and pulled the whole thing off without a hitch.)
#listen soukoku having telepathy that they insist isn't telepathy it's just using common sense#while everyone else sobs in the corner#is a flavour of pm era skk I adore#like yes technically chuuya can in fact explain the play-by-play#process of understanding dazai's codes#it's just that no one else is going to immediately make the same far fetched connections#UGH the latest chapter of chuuya watching dazai flop and roll around on the ground like a fish while he brainstorms#not an ounce of curprise or confusion#like he's seen this a thousand times before#and even spotting his worries and dazai actually openly musing about his ideas and expressing emotions so vividly#they KNOW each other your honor#soukoku#dazai osamu#nakahara chuuya#the sigma show#bsd#my post
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Pt. 2 of this (back by popular demand).
When Jason wakes the following morning he feels gross. His face is tacky and he’s smushed in an uncomfortable position where he feels like he’s rolled to the edge of his bed.
When he blinks up at Bruce, the events of the day before come crashing back with alarming clarity. He goes rigid and Bruce immediately opens his eyes to check on him, pulling back slightly to give him space.
And that makes Jason’s chest hurt. Because everything that had made him uncomfortable Bruce had fixed. Because Jason had been telling Bruce what he didn’t like about him the whole time.
Jason had started to like Batman. He’d gotten dry reports about life in the alley from the guy but he’d also gotten questions about what more could be done to help out alley kids. He’d taken all of Jason’s brash criticism and actually tried to fix things. Jason had started to really like the guy.
And to now be faced with the fact that it was Bruce, the guy who read like, an actual newspaper in the morning and asked about his interests like he was having teeth pulled, it still couldn’t quite compute.
Bruce couldn’t seem to figure out if Jason was comfortable on the cot, so Jason solved his problem for him by tucking his face back into his shoulder. He knew they would have to talk about it. How Jason had been kidnapped and watched his- watched Bruce get shot and then cried about it. But that conversation was going to be exhausting, and his body wasn’t sending him into a panic being this close to Bruce, so he was going to enjoy it while it lasted.
Bruce seemed to get the message and started running his fingers through Jason’s hair again.
When Alfred came down with breakfast for the both of them, Jason knew his time was up. That they’d have to talk about it all. He wasn’t sure what they would do now that he knew, send him away? Or no, they’d need to make sure he never told anyone. Never let him leave?
Before Jason could spin out too badly, Bruce started explaining how he’d wanted to protect Jason by not telling him about his nightlife. How it was a dangerous secret to know since it could put people in danger.
Jason scoffed at that since he’d been abducted for his connections to Bruce Wayne, like that was any safer.
Bruce paled pretty quick at that but had that look on his face that said he was determined to get through this. Jason wondered which he actually preferred more, conversations or going to the dentist.
But Bruce continued to explain that he’d had concerns over Jason’s ability to trust adults and was entirely out of his depth on how to begin to repair that trust. That he thought Jason needed someone to talk to that would try and resolve his problems. And Batman could do what Bruce couldn’t. He had been scared Jason would run if he couldn’t convince him it would be safe, and that scared Bruce most of all.
And Jason had to acknowledge that Bruce wasn’t entirely wrong. He probably would have run if Batman hadn’t been checking up on him, at least in the beginning. Because Bruce didn’t make any sense. He wasn’t like any of the other adults Jason knew. His body wouldn’t calm down even if he knew he was safe, and he probably would have run from that feeling.
Most importantly, Bruce apologizes. For keeping secrets and also for getting shot in front of him in a “sorry you had to see that” sort of way.
And yeah, Jason could’ve done without watching the guy that’s almost his Dad get shot in front of him, but it wasn’t really anyone’s fault.
And Jason, like a dork, apologizes for crying on him and not being able to handle it.
That makes Bruce’s face do something complicated that Jason had a hard time reading.
Bruce tells him that it isn’t actually normal to not react to someone being shot in front of you. Especially for a child, crying is a very normal response and nothing to be ashamed of.
Jason comes to an odd realization that he isn’t the first kid to know Bruce’s identity. He remembers talk in the alley of Robin, the flashy distraction to Batman’s silent stalker approach.
He asks Bruce if Robin was Dick Grayson, his ward. The supposed “brother” he had yet to meet. He wasn’t sure what Bruce was waiting for there, but he supposed if the man wasn’t even sure if Jason actually wanted to stay that it would be fair that he was cautious about introducing him to everyone.
Bruce’s face shuts down almost entirely at the mention of Dick. He seems to catch himself pretty quick though and picks a spot over Jason’s shoulder as he starts to explain the last time he talked to Dick outside of mask business. How scared he had been his- his ward would be hurt. How he’d fired him from being Robin. How he’d gone off to Bludhaven to be Nightwing. That Bruce hadn’t seen him since he left.
Jason takes in as much of it as he can. He can’t quite process what it would mean to be a vigilante, to be Robin. He still feels dazed from yesterday and the environment of the cave is strange and foreign.
He asks what the plans for the day are and Bruce huffs. Says that he’s on strict orders from Alfred for bed rest. That there will be conversations, a debrief, about what had happened, but that can wait a few days. They will also have to talk about formalizing Jason’s living situation here and registering him for school. All sorts of things, if Jason would like to stay.
And Jason does.
Later, Alfred comes in to re-wrap Bruce’s bandages and move him upstairs. Jason hovers awkwardly, wanting to help but not knowing what to do. Alfred gently directs him in helping get Bruce back to the living room. He says they can move him to his bedroom later but it’ll be easier on his mobility if he stays on the first floor for a while.
Alfred also informs them he had taken the liberty to inform Dick, Barbara, and Clark of the incident, so there will be patrol while Bruce’s shoulder is healing. Bruce goes rigid at this information.
Alfred asks if Jason will accompany him to the kitchen and help carry out their lunch.
When they’re alone, Alfred apologizes for keeping their identities from Jason, and how happy he is the boy is safe. He’d been so concerned yesterday at the car but hadn’t had time to do more than bug the vehicle.
They talk for a bit about identities and Jason accepts that it was kept from him, but now that he knows, he’ll stay in the loop.
Alfred also asks if he wouldn’t mind helping keep an eye on Bruce and make sure he doesn’t try and sneak back down to the cave without medical clearance. If he’d be alright to watch a movie in the living room with him, or a board game maybe.
Jason recognizes the ploy for what it is and plays along, grateful he doesn’t have to go worry by himself in his room or in the library.
When they bring the food out to the living room, Alfred shows Jason their selection of movies and makes sure they’re settled in before going off to take care of dishes.
Jason and Bruce start out sitting on opposite ends of the couch, but by the end of the second movie, Jason is stretched out in a way where they’re almost touching, a pile of pillows separating them.
Jason falls asleep during the third movie.
Dick arrives at the manor halfway through the fourth.
Pt. 1 Pt. 2 Pt. 3 Pt. 4 Pt. 5 (sold separately)
#batman#jason todd#bruce wayne#dick grayson#alfred pennyworth#i think bruce deserves to solve exactly one thing at a time and in the process make something else more difficult#like buddy you should've told dick he had a brother even if you haven't formally taken him in yet#idk the fucking timeline for this - is it summer? maybe bc otherwise jason's ass would have to be in school#i am so fucking serious jason should absolutely cry if bruce is shot bc idc if he's been on the streets that is traumatic af and hes like 1#12? idk their ages. and he's not robin. should he even be? how did people know jason should be randsom'd to bruce?#look i never intended to expand this so excuse the plot holes#also get ready for dick! he's not going to be happy! and jason thinks he chose to leave! roll for confusion! and miscommunication!#bc bruce only knows how to be open on opiates! thank god alfred has him on the good stuff#batfam#batfamily#yes jason will be robin but should he be??
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DPxDC: Jarro Adopts an Alien
Ok, so Danny has a space obsession and a protection obsession (I headcanon that as a halfa, Danny has two obsessions like all Halfas do which makes them unique to other ghosts.) and so while he can get his fill protecting people in Amity, he struggles with his space obsession. Sure, he can look up everything he can about space and the stars on the internet. He can stay up until 2 am looking at the stars (who needs sleep? He’s a ghost, he can go days, or even weeks without sleep if he wants, same with a lack of air or food.) but it’s just not enough. He craves to learn more, see more. Just as Dani gets that itch to travel, Danny wonders. What would it be like to see the stars up close? Are they really as hot as a dragons fire breath? Hotter!? Or maybe they are so hot they are cold. What does it look like to see plasma dancing across the surface, or touch the gasses of Jupiter? Does Pluto have ice caves like the far frozen? How many planets are actually out there? What about Mars. There’s a whole species living there with a language and culture Danny can’t even fathom! Oh what he wouldn’t give to talk with martian manhunter or Superman.
And what’s stopping him from exploring this? He can fly. He doesn’t need air. He can go intangible if it gets too hot and he’s practically immune to the cold. He wants to touch a space rock! See if they are smooth because there is no wind or earth to rub against them and erode the surface. He wants to see what planets they come from. What minerals they might have. He wants to know if there are currents in space. All of these things are right there just above the atmosphere. Surely it couldn’t hurt to take a quick peek. So he does. During a particularly bad day Danny flies as fast as he can until the earth’s gravity looses its effects. Until his hair is floating as of it’s in water even more than normal. Until he can feel when breathing no longer became a choice (still not necessary though). And it…was beautiful. To be surrounded by space. To see the earth like this. Pictures just didn’t do it Justice. He flew across the solar system and as he passed planets, he longed to fly through them. To search every crevice and learn their secrets. But he had a bigger prize in mind at the moment. The crown jewel of their universe. The closest star he could find. The sun.
Danny was mesmerized. The plasma really did dance across the surface. Like a never ending performance of science and beauty. There were sparks that few in arcs. Danny flew down and played in them, making a game to see how many he could fly under. His ghost core purred in delight. His obsession had never been more satisfied. He spent hours out there. Just exploring what his solar system had to offer. So when he returned? He couldn’t just forget. Pictures and online science theories had nothing on the real thing. He wanted to explore some more. So he did. Every night he would go out and explore the cosmos. Flying from planet to planet. (Either the Martians were still around and Danny made friends with them, even learning their language, or he just looks at their ruins to learn as much as he can). And with both obsessions now being filled, Danny is more settled. More confident. And he can focus better. Everyone notices the change, even his teachers. They just think that he’s paying more attention to his education now. He’s even better during his ghost fights.
But Danny can fly awfully fast. And he soaks up information even faster. Soon his trips take longer and longer as he flies further out. Sometimes he can barely make it back in time for school. And he can't go every night. Sometimes the ghosts won’t wait for daytime so he has to make sure the town will be safe in his absence. Although he’s been able to take more trips ever since Valerie joined the vigilante ranks. But still, he’s getting farther and farther from earth each night. Until one day he’s visited every planet, every star, every comet or debris in their solar system. Which would be fine. He could deal with that if that was all there was. But it wasn’t. Danny saw the stars just out of reach. He saw places the Milky Way was leaning towards. He saw just the barest hints of new solar systems with new planets and stars. And he knew of legends from lanterns that they had posted online. Heard tales from some scientists that have made better telescopes. And his core itches. It aches to know more. See more. Yet he can't go further. And this puts him in a sort of depression. Suddenly he’s back to his old self. Lagging behind. Distracted. Zoning out. Crashing into a few more buildings during ghost attacks. Yet he tries so hard to be satisfied with what he has. He can still fulfill his obsession…it’s just more like chewing on a granola bar rather than eating a decent meal. He’s almost becoming lethargic.
So one day he goes to Frostbite to see if there’s anything he can do to lessen the effects. But the yeti just takes one look at him and gives him the infimap. And suddenly Danny is in a whole new universe in seconds. The planets are purple. The stars are blue. He’s pretty sure there are furry blob-like creatures living on one of those planets. And suddenly he gets that itch, but holding the infimap, he knows he had time, so he lets himself go.
And for a while it’s good. great even. Since he can’t keep asking the yetis for the infimap, he goes over to Wulf to see if he’s up for an adventure. Most of the time he is and they go exploring the galaxies together. And then Wulf had the genius idea of teaching Danny how to make portals. It took a long time but soon, he could concentrate the surrounding ectoplasm enough to weaken it and pull. It took a while since Danny didn’t have ecto claws and would have to use his pure will. But this would allow him to follow his obsession anytime, anywhere. So it was only a matter of time. And once he figured it out? It was like something was unlocked. Danny had never before understood how Ellie could travel so much. But now he did. That feeling when you discover something new. When you add to your reservoir of knowledge. When the patterns in the universe just click. There is nothing Danny could compare it to. And to explore that whenever he wanted? It was so freeing. While Wulf sometimes still joined Danny’s adventures, Danny did most of his explorations by himself.
He meets various planets and aliens. So many different cultures. He learns thousands of languages. Tries all kinds of foods (and it’s a good thing his ghost self has an iron stomach and he’s basically poison resistant.) even found a whole comet where blood blossoms grew. (Which he most definitely avoided). And wasn’t that fascinating? To find out they were from space.
And then during his travels one day he met a space alien starfish.
It was actually a funny story. A meteor shower was about to attack a planet of talking blue monkey creatures with 4 arms. Danny immediately started diverting them and was soon joined by some lantern corps (which his inner fanboy wanted to talk to so bad.). And a tiny starfish in a…Robin uniform? Oh and the starfish could apparently do martial arts which was interesting to watch him karate chop a meteor. He could also talk directly into Danny’s head which the halfa found more interesting. So they got to talking and apparently his name was Jarro. He seemed to be helping the lantern corps as a ‘proxy from earth’ to make better use of his skills.
Danny would run into Jarro a few more times. Sometimes he was with Lanterns and sometimes he would just be exploring the galaxies. They started forming a pretty strong friendship and Danny would start seeking out the starfish alien to travel with him. He knew all kinds of space facts. Apparently he had an eidetic memory. When they explored, sometimes Jarro would just stick to part of Danny. Wrapped around his arm, his waist, sometimes just sticking to his back like a strange backpack. But they always had fun.
So Danny was happy. He could fulfill both obsessions and got a space pal. Everything was great!
Until the GIW caught him.
It would probably be the worst day of his life. There was an explosion in the lab. Something set up by them after they realized Danny frequented that place often. So they set a trap and blew it up. Thankfully, Jazz was at college during this but both his parents were home. When the explosion went off, Danny had tried putting a Barrier around them all. It took everything he had to maintain it. That’s how they found out he was phantom. Danny had a few moments where his parents said they accepted him but he couldn’t hold the barrier for long. His parents said that they loved him and then everything went green. He woke up in a lab, tired and injured. His only saving grace being that he remained in phantom form. And he was determined to remain so.
Danny’s time at the GIW was a haze but eventually, he managed to escape. Bleeding, and tired, and still recovering from the burns in the explosion, Danny made a portal straight to Amity. Only when he got there, it was a ghost town. Streets were empty, buildings were boarded up. Even the Nasty Burger was deserted. As for his house, there was nothing but a crater left and some scattered debris. Danny looked everywhere but there was no one. No Jazz. No Sam. No Tucker. No one. and he was tired. And everything hurt, and he needed a friend. Someone he could trust. So in a daze he made a portal and tried to just project safe. Safe safe safe. Somewhere he knew he would be protected. And so Jarro got a surprise when his space buddy suddenly popped out of a green portal, bleeding green and clearly passed out. He didn't know what to do. He didn’t know how to help him. But Jarro knew someone who would.
So with a speed never before seen from a tiny starfish, he flew to earth. Bringing his friend straight to his father. Because surely batman could help!
And with his appearance, the green blood, the knowledge of space facts. The lack of wanting to talk about where he came from (and the nightmares crying out for his parents). This is how the bats became convinced that Jarro brought them an injured alien.
#Dpxdc#dcxdp#Kizzer55555 ideas#Danny has space and protection obsession.#Danny can make portals.#Good parents Fenton. But they die. (Sorry.)#Danny and Jarro are space brothers#The bats think Danny is an alien. Danny is unaware of this. Actually Danny is unconscious. He’s not aware of anything.#Danny is very confused why he wakes up in a mansion with a billionaire.#Amity Parkers have slowly been moving away because of ghost attacks. But at the time it was manageable.#When the Fentons house exploded and caused the first casualties everyone evacuated. Making Amity basically get shut down.#Amity becomes a literal ghost town.#Jazz Sam and Tucker think Danny died in the explosion.#Jazz was actually there. She got caught in the edge of the portal explosion which wasn’t as powerful as the core of the blast.#Instead of killing her it changed her into a halfa. So now she has to figure out new ghost powers while processing the death of her family.#(She is put into foster care where she meets a certain speedster that also has red hair.)#Ellie learns of Amity but keeps traveling. She hates staying in one place and focusing on her obsession helps her grieve.#(Her other obsession is family.)#Jazz has never met Ellie.
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it might be an awkward question but-
HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO DRAW SO MUCH?? how do you get so many beautiful ideas? how do you keep yourself motivated? tell me your secret I will sell you my soul
🩵 🫴 take it.
Why thank you 🫳🩵
Ah the question ever
Truthful and simple answer is that there’s no secret
This might seem contradictory considering how much I post, but I genuinely am not as motivated or as inspired as I seem to be
I struggle a lot with ideas and motivation and that is a problem I have on a daily basis that’s been happening for years (I have SO many wips that I never shared)
It’s not about the struggle, it’s about how I curated my art to that struggle
I’m at a constant threat to experience burnout (certified chronic pain and chronic fatigue haver), so to combat that, I take measures to make sure I don’t burn myself out and actually reserve the very little energy I have to continue doing artworks/comics
To give you a specific example, if you notice with my comics, they’re always sketchy and are never colored, that’s not because I don’t want to make colored comics, but because of knowledge from previous experiences that if I actually forced myself to make colored comics, I’d immediately plunge to burnout and would probably not be able to draw for a few weeks after because of it (in fact the last time I made a colored comic was here, which is a rare occasion even then btw, and that comic caused me to experience a near burnout)
Which was extremely frustrating to me at some point might I add, because before 2021, I had no problem making so many colored comics and artworks at a short span of time, I actually had motivation before (something that is lost to me now), so you can imagine how genuinely frustrating it is, it even made me feel like I’m not a “real” artist
(The concept of what is considered a “real artist” is bullshit btw, someone who draws stickmen everyday is as much of a real artist as someone who makes diverse fully colored artworks with backgrounds and everything, as long as you use your creativity and turn it to something meaningful, you’re already a real artist, regardless of skill or the extent of which you are able to conceive with your art)
That being said, it’s all about finding your own footing and workflow, what works best for you? What doesn’t?
Some things that you’d love for them to work (in my case making colored comics) might not work in reality, life is disappointing like that, so it’s also about acceptance
Acceptance of yourself as you are, maybe it’s not what you truly strive for, maybe you wish you could do more, but sometimes taking a step back and looking into yourself to see if you can actually achieve what you want with the resources you have could be life saving
So when it comes to motivation? Find your workflow, what are the things that you know could make you lose your motivation? On the other hand, what are the things that preserve your motivation?
Not only that, but time management is also a contributing factor
Of course, my own way to preserve my motivation/energy is as follows:
1- never force myself to finish artworks/comics if I feel like I can’t (even if I really really want to), I save them up for later when my motivation for them kicks back in
2-let perfectionism go, if I keep fretting over whether every line in an artwork looks good I’ll never accomplish anything but destroy my mental health (certified perfectionist speaking btw)
3-comics stay as sketches, as much as I want to make beautifully colored comics, I know this will only contribute to my burnout, so keeping it real with myself and what I can accomplish with my own resources (energy, time, health, etc) is important
4-making multiple sketches in a day then choosing what fancies my brain that day, or getting back to older sketches I already made before (sometimes months before) to see if my brain has the itch to work on any of them, by doing that, then I’m giving myself actual diversity in choices to choose from, which helps me feel like I don’t have to be forced to work on anything new, or something that I don’t wanna work on
For clarification, I’m talking actual sketches, not cleaned up ones, if you make clean sketches you won’t be able to make multiple ones in the same day
Here’s an example of what I mean by sketches
5-stop beating myself up over things I can’t control, if I keep being harsh on myself over the fact I couldn’t finish an artwork or the fact I’m not satisfied with it, it’ll only contribute to make me feel bad about myself and that would only contribute to me losing even more motivation which contributes to beating myself up and so the self torture cycle goes on, myself deserves to be pat on the back gently and be told “it’s ok, you’ll get there in time”
6-teach myself that it’s ok to lose motivation, there are times in which I do not open my art app for weeks, instead of hating myself for it, I tell myself “you need time, you’re tired and you need the break”, and it’s true, if you lost motivation, it’s most likely due to something else contributing to it
So i just ask myself what’s up, sometimes, I’m overworked in other life aspects, other times I’m in too much pain, so instead of forcing myself through my demotivation, I take care of these factors demotivating me so I’d feel comfortable enough to be able to work on artworks again
If I couldn’t identify a factor contributing to my loss of motivation, then I take it as my own brain telling me that it needs the break, it needs the dopamine if doing something different and I do that, whether by watching my favorite shows, playing my favorite games, trying a different hobby like writing or reading, etc
7- work on my own time, sometimes I do finish artworks quickly, and I do have the capacity to do so, but I’ve noticed that my loss of motivation became less of an issue when I gave myself the actual time to work on artworks, sometimes, a simple artwork that I could finish in 20 minutes takes me weeks to finish, not because I can’t finish it earlier, but because I intentionally worked slowly on it as I’m working on other artworks just as slow, that way, I don’t overwhelm myself and I’m making progress on multiple artworks/comics at the same time, and seeing such progress gives me even more motivation
Cough, anyway, got lost in talking about motivation ghcchch
As for your other question about how I get my ideas, it’s usually something I saw that inspired me, whether an artwork, something irl, etc
Or even sometimes, my own artworks inspire ideas for comics, so I’d draw something, then ask myself (asking yourself questions is such a great helper when it comes to coming up with ideas) why is the character doing this? How did they get there? Etc
That helps me come up with answers which are then answered via comics or multiple different artworks
For example, this comic, what inspired it was me asking myself one simple question, “what would happen if Murder actually asked Nightmare for a visit home for once, instead of running away like he always does?”, and that immediately got me to work on the comic
Of course, it doesn’t mean I always am on the ready for an idea, in fact, a lot of the time my mind is blank, nothing up there to help me, which is why I turn to mindlessly sketching sometimes
I just open a canvas and start sketching, what? I don’t know, I’m just gonna sketch something, could be a character, environment, scribbles, meaningless lines etc, it’s my iwn version of a warm up, and it helps a lot with making my brain get into the zone
That’s all I can think of off the top of my head
Enjoy a look into my brain chhcchch
#ngl sometimes I wanna stream my art process from the beginning somewhere#just so you guys would see how much I struggle behind the scenes chchchhc#i know I make it look easy af#but I promise you if you see what I go through you’ll be even more confused by the frequency of which I post chhcchhv#anothers ask
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[through gritted teeth] the dark path was such a fun read guys
↑ other things i find interesting: the first two as a doctor/master parallel + the third included because despite his declaration that he is no longer koschei but the master, the book continues to refer to him as koschei.
#doctor who#thoschei#the dark path#best enemies#koschei oakdown#hiding these in the tags:#i like to think that him being called koschei after his proclaimed transformation into the master is symbolic#of him not quite casting off that old name and identity yet#in the eyes of the doctor absolutely but also to an extent for him#he is yet to fully become the master in more than name#i also would like to note the fact that the master is much happier at the concept of complete order—for me personally#that mirrors the fact the master feels wildly out of control/confused most of the time#and that perhaps making the world around him ordered will cause everything to make sense#i think though that this thought process changes/degrades over time as the master fails over and over again#ok thats all bye
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i’ve been attempting to understand for a while why i hate so much that a video of the january 6th insurrection was used in star trek, and aside from how much it confuses the timeline (eugenics wars in the 90s, nuclear winter in the early 21st century, but somehow all sorted out by 2016 and trump was elected president?), i think i’ve found part of my problem with it.
it just seems like an easy cop out to get ‘progressive points’, a quick way for the writers to show you where they stand, without even an attempt to fit it into the timeline in a way that makes sense.
my main issue is that star trek has, of course, always dealt with complicated issues, but it used to be so much more thought out. there used to be metaphors, allegories, explanations that actually made sense (though sometimes it wasn’t spelled out for you) . The Cloud Minders, Let That Be Your Last Battlefield (tos) and The High Ground (tng) are just a few episodes off the top of my head, that deal with similar, difficult, situations. Even episodes like A Private Little War, which clearly hasn’t aged well, was very obviously an allegory for proxy wars, a very real and pertinent issue at the time it came out.
but the thing is, you have to think between the lines to understand them, none of them are so heavy handed as to just directly show a video of a historical event just to say “hey guys this is bad”, like it was only put there to prove the point that the show runners don’t support that.
one issue this brings up for me is, while trying to find others that agree with me on this i just keep coming across the sentiment “politics shouldn’t be in star trek”. if you’ve managed to miss the politics this whole time then i regret to inform you that your skull may be made of lead.
it’s hard to discuss real opinions on a show when so much of the criticism is flooded with “it’s too woke!! why is there politics in star trek!!!”
star trek has always been an overwhelmingly progressive show, (accounting for the fact that it started in the 60s of course) but unfortunately a lot of people have managed to miss that, a lot of the progressive points have ‘aged out’ of the show, and no longer make the point they used to as clearly as they would have had you watched them when they came out. now it seems that writers are overcompensating to drive home the point that it’s a progressive show.
to people who missed how progressive it already was, this makes it look unnecessarily ‘woke’ and like it came out of nowhere, for the rest of us who were paying attention, it seems very heavy handed and like they’re trying too hard to achieve something that old trek did effortlessly.
#star trek#star trek tos#tos#star trek tng#tng#i’m sure i’m not allowed to tag snw on this one#they’ll hate me for this for sure#so much of modern media is just spelling it out for those who refuse to understand and it’s disappointing#can we make good things with good stories for people capable of understanding them#and if you don’t get it you can watch spongebob or something#i mean private little war was pretty heavy handed for old trek#‘amerind’ come on#like this show used to be leftist space utopia#now the best we get is ‘hey guys trump bad’#like thanks i guess#one reblog of this has confused the hell out of me#i think they misunderstood but i do not want to explain#they’re like mad at me for saying i don’t understand? and like ‘it’s not bad just because you don’t understand try to understand maybe’#like that’s not even remotely what i said plus the ENTIRE post is me explaining my process if trying to understand#maybe try reading
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Thinking bout that specific behaviour where someone eats somethign and starts to make a "this is yucky" face and the mom of the group naturally reaches out ezpecting a spitout
#specifically i am imagining olivine doing this.#idk how much younger his siblings are#imagining that oli got the ultrastrict treatment as the firstborn#then his siblings afterward get a bit more leniency and are... allowed to reject food or be picky or whatever#but if he had to take care of baby aged kids or.idk. picky eaters or smth#and he got used to BEING the hand that offers the 'out' to a sibling eating a yucky thing#i didn't notice this behaviour until i watched my friends with young kids#because. i'm not used to seeing my friends do that behaviour. yet. here they are#the toddler makes a scrunched disgusted face#and the parent immediately sticks out their hand. ready to accept the bolus of rejected toddler food#armed with a nearby napkin#it's a strange behaviour. never really thought about it until i saw it in action.#i guess the baby CAN't grab the napkin and spit food out politely into it (on their own hgahaha...)#is there any way to force the kid to just eat the thing? like. if you don't offer your hand or a napkin or whatever and they just concede?#that doesn't sound like child behaviour. that kid (if not heavily traumatised in a specific way) will probably find a way to spit it out#yucky is yucky. this is how old time baby survive. by gettinb rid of the yuck#anyway i'm imagining olivine and garu at the dinner table#garu is eating something he doesn't LOVE... >︿<and it shows on his face#olivine mindlessly offers his hand in front of garu's face#but garu is an i-wont-waste-food kinda wolf so he won't actually spit it out#he's just makin the face before he inevitably swallows his food (bc what's the point of concealing emotion)#but for a moment. before either of them can process what is happening#oli has his palm extended in front of garu's mouth. garu's face is scrunched up as he tries to endure the yucky taste#garu is confused as to what oli is doing because no one has demonstrated this gesture to him in this specific situation#does. does oli want garu to share his food? but... he's chewing it. should garu grab some off his plate and offer it now?#oli might be sleep deprived or something before he realises and withdraws his hand like haha! oops! sorry;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;muscle memory;;;
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Don't question what logical loops I had to leap through to make this happen, Shockwave's already doing that for y'all :)
do you think in universes where empurata exists that shockwave can remember the feeling of having a face? of remembering seeing from two eyes instead of one? does his head burn in pain as a twitch of non-existant lips spark incomplete pathways through his brain, does he miss the sensation of teeth and tongue beneath those twitching lips, heavy against the bottom of the mouth he no longer has?
:) Big Boobie Decepticons :)
#shockwave#tfp shockwave#breakdown#tfp breakdown#transformers#tfp#maccadam#fanart#making a joke post only to caption it with heavy shit? hip hip hooray!#another edition of 'putting shockwave into situations that utterly confound him'#this being 'breakdown lives' edition or at least 'breakdown lives long enough to see shockwave'#this is a high effort shitpost i used to cope with the fact i have no puter only laptop so i do art instead#which is an oldie from when i still had school so it's ONLY purpose is to art#because it can't do anything else atm#the text in shockwave's colour is a modified 'why are we here' copypasta#having to deal with the chicanery of breakdown's bodacious chassis chat#i'd say that the confusion alone if not the irritation would be logical enough reason for the processor to run wild#even if he calls it illogical in the process#i don't know the size difference between shockwave and breakdown#i just know that starscream is about the same heightish as shockwave give or take a stiletto#and breakdown's taller than screamer so... head taller (if measuring from head because wow shoulders) breakdown#which is funny to me because breakdown's an apc and shockwave's a tank damn these proportions are wacky 😫
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I stumbled my way through some pseudo-milestone social and personal stuff today and you know what? it was incredibly nice and a good experience and I'm proud of myself, actually. needless to say my nervous system in the immediate aftermath is also humming at at a pitch that could break glass and kill dolphins, and I feel faintly like three day old sunkissed roadkill, but sometimes you just have to tank that shit because that seems to happen whether what's going on is good or bad lmao
#my brain goes 'never met a stimuli that didn't make me long to return to the form of a jellyfish' no matter what#it just needs some time to process. and is extremely dramatic about it every time lol. getting a failing grade in being conscious#something that is possible to achieve and normal to dread if you just work hard and believe in yourself etc.#a reader may perhaps extrapolate some things from the ease and instinctiveness with which I understand lucanis dellamorte#and his problems with feelings of confusion fear overwhelm or ambivalence#even towards positive things happening in his life lmao#you know. it's a hell of a thing to be born with this nervous system but I guess someone had to be so let's make the best of it I guess#I think it did help a bit that I forgot to be nervous on the bus there because I got caught in an amazing drama-chasing wikiwalk#through the personal lives of the norwegian artistic elite of the 1800s. bjørnstjerne bjørnson was one of The messiest people#who have ever lived or written poems god bless. and his daughter bergljiot was one of the most hard core#(she held her father at gunpoint with his own weapon and threatened to shoot him if he didn't stop cheating on their mum#like he'd promised so many times. worrying behaviour. undeniably kind of badass. life before no fault divorce was Bad actually)#it felt like every new name I clicked to follow the trail of hot goss had me gasping like 'nO! no TELL me he didn't... but of course#of course he did *morbid glee*'#lots of people dying dramatically of tuberculosis at 23 and that kind of stuff peppered in too it was delicious#also for possibly the first time I had the instinct to reach out to someone to help me process after and it really did help to do it#which again. as small steps go. it does not a moon landing make but it remains a step taken#now I intend to play ds3 and let my brain stay on an elevator music channel until it's ready to actually be of use again#I may be a while
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if your response to an aromantic person challenging assumptions and norms about relationships and standing firm on the fact that no actions or degrees of affection/commitment/intensity of feelings etc are inherently romantic and the only people who get to define a relationship are the people in it is to get so mad you feel the need to pitch a fit at them about how guess ALL WORDS ARE MEANINGLESS and there’s NO POINT in even having words like romantic and platonic WHY BOTHER (implying also that they’re being stupid and ridiculous in the process) then there’s some things you clearly need to work on and unpack and you need to do that in a way that sucks less.
#gav gab#I’m aromantic AND defining my relationships#as explicitly and strictly platonic#is very important to me#and nobody - including other aros btw! - get to take that away from me#or minimize it#part of aromanticism to me is being allowed to give no quarter to romance in my life#even in the ‘fuck labels/Lines So Blurred Blah Blah/romantic and platonic is a fake binary’ sense#like nah sorry#being able to say no this is explicitly and specifically and wholly not romance and never will be#is critical to my sense of self and my relationships as an aro person#if that makes you uncomfortable or confused#given how important intimacy and affection and closeness are to me#interpersonally and creatively in my work#please feel free to not take that out on me and process it in your own time#aro blogging
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Dear TGCF fandom: I'm gonna need someone to explain to me the Immortal Brocade subplot like I was 5, because I don't think I'm understanding it at all. Thank you.
#the only part I could process#is that Ling Wen made it#and that's it#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#heaven official's blessing#ling wen#pls help#the fanfics just make it more confusing
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at least she got to keep 15’s clothes on
#she’s still in the regeneration process it seems like so maybe the clothes will change but#so far it seems like we’re getting billiedoctor in 15’s fit#i was sad when we didn’t get that for 13 -> 14#so hey ermmm. Win#doctor who#15th doctor#16th doctor#?#maybe ?#dw spoilers#doctor who spoilers#i’m half asleep while making thisnpost so excerji#ehm excuse. any confusing ramblings in the tags idk#ok i’m going to sleep goodgnitht
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You know, I can't ever get over the scene where V and Urizen merge. And it's not what you're thinking. It's not cause I was shell-shocked by it (I had it spoiled before playing tee-hee). It's not cause V and Urizen are (basically) never gonna show up again- IT'S BECAUSE VERGIL LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING NURSING HOME PATIENT THAT IS SUFFERING MEMORY LOSS.
THIS IS THE FACE OF A MAN WHO IS CONFUSED AND UNSURE OF WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. Vergil was out here thinking he was gonna die but fate said, for the 8000nth time, "Fuck you bitch; live goddamnit~✨!"
Tell me I'm not the only one who just dies laughing every time I see this.
"What- Where am I? Huh, our house looks a lot different than I remember... Why do I remember being dressed like an emo stripper- what is happening---- Oh hey, Dante and *probably* Dante's son." (100% believe that Vergil thought Nero was Dante's)
MASTER LIST FOR TUMBLR
#I'm not nuts am I?#Like he looks so confused and like it makes me laugh#He's so adorably stupid looking here#I mean-#he is processing 2 different sets of memories right now and is fully himself for the first time in 20+ years so... Guess I'd be confused to#lmfao#okay ill shut up now#✨ Vergil appreciation post ✨#devil may cry 5#dmc 5#dmc#devil may cry#Devil may cry Vergil#Vergil#Vergil devil may cry#dmc Vergil#Vergil dmc#Also I love the last phot with his partially agape lips--#My reaction:#“Come here and kiss me on my hot mouth. I'm feeling ✨romantical✨”#Okay I'll stop lmfaooo
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#fallen london#sunless sea#saw a bit of confusion about some sequencer things and i knew with sudden and horrid clarity what i must do#experienced ego death in the process of making this and woke up in 2012 tumblr#[high terror music starts playing]
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i think i should draw ragatha ocd more actually
#and pomni ocd but rn im thinking about moral ocd#which i dont think is a big theme for pomni#pointing at ragatha. you.#im extremely tired i stayed up way later than intended doing compulsions for 1-2 hrs wo realizing until after#so i should make it her problem again.....#ragatha ocd wont happen tonight if i get any ideas thouhhh im tired#which i say that a lot but im disoriented levels of tired rn so definitely nothing happening#gonna watch silly videos on yt or smth then fall asleep and think abt this in more detaail in the morning...#ok actually thinking and i think these two could have fascinating conversations around these things bc their themes are so different#both engage in compulsory behavior but for different reasons so it still confuses the other#even though they sorta? understand and comprehend the thought process and dont think too much of it...#maybe itd be good for them to talk about these things honestly#tbqh i started feeling a little guilty abt posting ragatha ocd stuff bc i was like ohhhh am i doing it cus it got notes so its disingenuous#and evil actually and i should STOP drawing it because you are trying to MANUFACTURE SUCCESS and thats EVIL#(despite it being smth i genuinely enjoy depicting bc its deeply cathartic#and also on some level i like the idea of depicting ocd in a way i dont see it depicted often...#AND i very genuinely think it fits ragatha)#which honestly its a really funny reason to start getting nervous about depicting characters having ocd#given uh. well. gestures LMAOOOO#ok goodnight. unless im lying and post again. but for now goodnight
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