#misc selfships

[knockedoutkatz]

Coping with da flu by drawing myself getting manhandled by giant robots

[echoes-lighthouse]

Previous Selfships Through The Years

I got some hatemail so I'm taking that as an invitation to be even more self-indulgent than usual ^-^ As I've mentioned on this blog, I've been a selfshipper for basically as long as I've been a reader/writer, so this is a look backwards at some of my strongest early selfships! Because I just started drawing a few years ago, none of these made their way into art until this very moment.

Age 6: Sparr, from the Droon books. He's a villain who's very dangerous and his little fins behind his ears flash different colours when he feels strong emotions and he was trying to kidnap the princess and I was simply head over heels. Many of my early journals are fictional entries about running away with Sparr and living with him in his silly eight-wheeled yellow car. I wrote this story over and over again, page after page. I wrote about how happy we were together and that I would never go home again. My parents drew me birthday cards with Sparr on them.

Age 8: A fiery redhead from a mystery book series! My journal entries about her were some of the things that later clued me in that I was gay. I wrote several journals about how much I wanted to kiss her and live in her world. I even told people in my class that I wanted to date her, which made them tease me a lot. But I didn't give up on her!

Age 12: The absolute turning point for me, the age where I really started to feel 'wrong' compared to my peers, and I fell in love with the Joker as my saviour from the social norms I didn't feel capable of upholding. I had just found out about fanfiction at age 11 and I started writing all kinds of self-insert fics with The Joker where I was a daughter of a Gotham businessman. I never published any of them, or read anyone else's fics at the time because The Joker felt too personal for me, but it was a defining experience for me: finding comfort in fandom and specifically selfshipping during the first wave of mental health struggles that would carry me through my teenage years.

Age 15: Demon!Dean Winchester, Supernatural. By this point I was fully into online fandom spaces and had fallen out of selfshipping because it wasn't very popular: but I went through a phase where I would write all my favourite characters as demons because all I really wanted was more of demon!dean and I didn't feel able to acknowledge how much I really wanted to write about him because, again, it felt too personal to really share. Looking back, it was definitely a selfship that I was just too nervous to explore at the time.

[fairycourts]

SPRINGTIME WITH TARTAGZEA ✧ zebra + tartaglia ✧

fresh flowers throughout the house, trips to the local market, warm naps under the afternoon sun, picking the season's first strawberries, picnic dates, bright laughter while running through fields.

"ajax, the sunlight makes your eyes look extra blue."

"oh really? is that why you've been staring, pretty girl?"

"y-you're just very handsome, okay?"

"aww, you're blushing! don't turn away sweetheart, c'mon. you're adorable; let me kiss you."

[familial-fos]

happy mother's day to all mom f/os and all mom selfshippers (whether you have a kid f/o or an actual irl kid)!!

proship dni

[tartagliove]

AFTERNOON AT A CAT CAFE 14 days of cupid's arrow ✧ day four ✧ tartaglia x zebra

sweet treats and sweeter laughter, golden afternoon sun, soft fur and cozy cuddles, not-so-secretly snapped photos, dozens of sleepy cats, sharing spoonfuls of dessert, kisses stolen outside to end the date.

tartaglia: enjoying the view?

zebra: yes, the cat has very pretty eyes. i wasn't looking at you at all!

tartaglia: why don't you show me the last photo you took, hm?

zebra: nonono, that's for my eyes only– give it back, ajax!

tartaglia: aww, no need to be so flustered, pretty girl. i took some photos of you too; i was just better about not getting caught.

[nicksies1]

More skatercat stuff because I loveee them !!!!

This obsession with them is insane😢😢 /pos

Infected design credits to: fandomwierdo on twt!!

[knockedoutkatz]

I feel like it's more fitting if I used my actual sona than my tfsona

source

[ferretpajamapants]

made my headache worse by staying on my screen longer to do this doodle about.. my headache

now a nap is calling me, peace

[familial-fos]

happy valentine's day to all my non-romantic self shippers!!! reminder that valentine's day doesn't have to be about romantic love, it can be about any kind of love! what are you doing with your familial and/or platonic f/os today?

proship please dni

[tartagliove]

LANTERN RITE CELEBRATION IN SUMERU starring ✧ zeno (cyno x zebra)

a surprise celebration, the scent of spices from home, a gifted qipao, tears of gratitude and long hugs, plump dumplings with imperfect folds, citrusy spray of peeled tangerines, lit sparklers burning in the night, a quiet walk to light lanterns in remembrance.

it's the first year that I won't be able to go home to see my family around the winter holidays, so I start to feel especially homesick when the Lantern Rite Festival is approaching. I end up telling this to Cyno—who I've started to become closer with lately—while we're both doing our own research in the library. he nods as he listens and looks oddly contemplative the rest of the day, but I don't think much of it.

on the day of Lantern Rite, Nilou delivers me a note from Cyno, inviting me to his home to spend time with our friends. I nearly decide to not go, but being surrounded by friends might make me forget about missing my family.

the sun is setting by the time I arrive at his home. the air carries a hint of star anise and other spices that remind me of my mother's cooking. when Cyno opens the door, I'm hit with scents of traditional Liyue dishes, but that is forgotten when I take in what Cyno is wearing. he's dressed in purples and gold—his usual colors—but he's wearing a qipao. his hair is half up in a knot, held up with a ribbon. he's handsome, but I won't admit that—at least, not to his face, and not anytime soon.

he holds out his hands, a slip of red between his fingers. "happy Lantern Rite," he says. "this is for you."

tears start to well in my eyes but I laugh, accepting the red envelope with a bow. "I haven't received one of these in years! Cyno, what is all of this?"

Nilou appears behind him, dressed in a qipao herself, and when she sees me crying, she throws herself at me in a hug. "he spent days preparing this for you! we all wanted to make sure you still got to celebrate the holiday. now come, you have to get changed!"

she pulls me inside, and all I can do is give Cyno a teary-eyed smile and mouth a "thank you," before a pink qipao is thrusted into my arms. I find out later that all my friends bought clothes from Dori, but Cyno was the one who picked mine out.

when I'm changed, I step outside to greet everyone else—Alhaitham, Tighnari, Kaveh, and Collei are there as well. we spend a while making dumplings, where I get involved in a debate about how to make the best folds, and though our dumplings are all a bit misshapen and overfilled, they're the best thing I've tasted in a long time.

there are other traditional Liyue dishes and snacks that they've made or purchased beforehand. we end dinner by eating oranges, to usher in wealth in the new year.

after dinner, we go outside and light sparklers, waving them around in the air. Nilou chases Kaveh around with hers, making the rest of us laugh.

Cyno ends up asking me if I'd like to take a walk with him, so we step away, talking as we end up finding a nice spot on the Divine Tree, overlooking much of Sumeru. he pulls out two lanterns from beneath a nearby bench that he had prepared in advance. we light them, both of us quiet and contemplative. they float away when we release them, drifting up and up, light growing smaller, until they are indistinguishable among the stars.

"thank you, Cyno." my eyes are getting teary again as I turn to him, but my heart feels like it's overflowing with the love I've been shown today.

he smiles, then, soft and small but genuinely happy. "I didn't want you to be alone today. I hope this helped bring a bit of home to you."

I throw my arms around him, tears starting to fall. he hesitates, then wraps his arms around me, warm and strong against my back. he lets me cry until my tears stop, releasing me when I finally pull away.

we walk back to his home, where I'm surrounded by friends and warmth all night long.

[800lbs]

>be me >love a character >go a long time without experiencing source media >think about them constantly >internal concept of them starts to decay >"dang i don't even like them that much anymore" >view source media >internal concept of them resets >fall in love all over again

[jils-things]

promo post! (i moved blogs!!)

💚 hi hello! i'm jil (19, she/her), i recently moved blogs and wanted to start brand new! my now old blog is @aqqleshiqqing, it will now act as an archived blog - but you can still visit it if you want to! i'm a yumeship artist and sometimes writer. i'm a huge fan of making deep lore, so expect a lot of me rambling too

💚 my main rom faves are red (pkmn: sm) and ste.ven stone (pkmn: r/s/e + oras. more on the manga), not really okay sharing both at the moment. my other fave is tom from edd.sworld, i'm a bit inactive with him, but i still care about him a lot! (okay with sharing too :]) i have many more faves, but they're at the back for the most part.

💚 i have a special fondness for a lot of my familials from the same media, expect me to talk about them a lot too!

💚 it's still a fresh blog, so i might be queueing up some old posts made by me and others just to fill the void

💚 i'm currently very invested in all things poke.mon related (including poke.spe and (fri.day night fun.kin') poke.pasta (lullaby + perd.ition mods) so do expect majority of that~ but i am a very big fan of video games as well :]

💚 my blog MAY contain a lot of capitalized texts (me talking, im usually very "loud"), horror, violence, and suggestive humor. i tag for the last category.

💚 don't follow if you're a: pro/com.shipper, a minor (+16 only, but current minor mutuals are okay. new ageless/minor followers will be blocked on sight), not supporting of yumeship/oc x canon content (because that is 99% of what i do here.)

💚 i take art commissions as well (will be linked on pinned soon, still working on it!)

that's about it for now, looking forward to say hi again~

[knockedoutkatz]

Happy birthday 2 me ^.^

(pics I took 4 it under da cut)

[xiaoomf]

twitter changed me now im way too anxious to do anything on tumblr again😭😭😭

[echoes-lighthouse]

My Selfships And Polyamory

Because I'm poly and so are most of my selfships! Just wanted to chat about that because I feel like I mostly talk about my relationships with my f/os and don't always include to what degree they're open/closed.

Tate- we're definitely primary partners, but both have secondary relationships with other ghosts in the house that are kind of nebulously romantic/platonic (both with Nora, me with Moira).

Grell- monogamous in action, but we hype each other's crushes up and try to manipulate situations to get each other trapped with object of affection. It just never actually works out.

Toshinori- monogamous in like 90% of universes but there's a little wiggle room for other teachers to get in there and form a triad.

Shigaraki- monogamous, actually!

Toga- closed polycule with the League of Villains, some of us seek casual partners outside as well but it's strictly one nights unless they get accepted into the group.

Jester- open poly relationship -- we've both had additional romantic relationships, and weren't originally primary partners, but we've nested together now <3

Dirk- both of us have too much damn baggage to be pursuing relationships. Might be poly in the future in the pity quadrants, but I think we're good and settled for the hate quadrants.

Most of my Hazbin/Hellaverse selfships are actually secondary or non-romantic relationships: all of the characters have more primary relationships, with the exception of my selfship with Emberlynn, which is open but in a college experimentation kind of way.

Ms Frizzle- romantically monogamous, and have settled down into general monogamy in 90% of cases. We both still occasionally do club/play nights, but it's rarer.

Zero- Exactly the same as Val, ironically enough: when we got together two decades ago, there was a lot more focus on the open elements of our relationship, but now we're staying home more often.

Death- I don't think we originally considered ourselves as primary/committed partners, but neither of us have really been doing relationships outside of each other, either. I fell for her pretty hard, to the exclusion of a lot of things in my life. But we don't see each other super often!!!!

[tartagliove]

ICE SKATING AND SNOW SHENANIGANS twelve days of selfshipmas ✧ day three ✧ tartaglia x zebra

hot chocolate cupped in cold hands, trees dusted in white, holding hands on the ice, laughter and near-falls, playfighting in the snow, making little snow animals, pink cheeks and noses.

tartaglia: you've gotten a lot better at this!

zebra: we've been skating so much recently. i think i’m so good that i can beat you in a race next time.

tartaglia: i wouldn't go that far. i've been skating since-

zebra: since you could walk, yeah yeah. i just think you're scared of losing.

tartaglia: oh those are fighting words, sweetheart. why are you backing up like that, hm?

zebra: ajax, no, i don't like the look on your face. don't you dare!