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chahnniesroom · 8 months ago

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night again

pairing: bang chan x female reader

summary: in hindsight, visiting chan's studio right before a comeback isn't one of your best ideas. what was supposed to be a pleasant surprise leaves you spiraling into self-doubt, wondering if chan even wants to be in a relationship with you at all.

word count: 6.4k

tags/warnings: angst, hurt/comfort, misunderstandings, insecurities, reader not eating due to stress

a/n: the long awaited 'he calls you clingy' fic! title is from the english translation of 또 다�� 밤 (twilight)

read it on ao3 | masterlist

You love your job. It's challenging for sure and the expectations from upper management are often unforgiving, but you’re proud of how hard you've worked and everything that you've accomplished in the past few years at your company.

As you've gained experience, you've slowly been given more and more responsibility. You've grown out of your junior role and though you're thrilled by the pay raise and prospect of being a team lead rather than being led by one, it's also daunting.

When you and your new team are assigned an important project with tight deadlines, you're determined to prove yourself. It's implied that you're going to have to have to dedicate a significant amount of time to finish it and while you're no stranger to long hours, it means that any plans you have of seeing your boyfriend, Chan, are out the window.

The timing is not terrible, Stray Kids has a comeback scheduled in about a week so you didn't think that you would be able to spend that much time with Chan anyway, but you usually try to surprise the boys at one of the music shows with a cake and some home cooked food.

Luckily, you've already been planning for this. Although nothing had been confirmed, you had expected that this project would be awarded to your company and you've already been trying to spend more time with Chan than usual in preparation for the busy season ahead for both of you.

Still, you can't help but agree with your best friend at work after she complains how little she's going to see her partner this month. Jinjoo doesn't know who your boyfriend is, but the two of you are close enough that you’ve shared that you have one and that work takes up a lot of his time. You've gushed to her about the sweet things that Chan has done for you and you've admitted that you think he's the one.

“You should bring him dinner sometime!” she exclaims when you mention you're not sure when the next time you'll be able to see Chan will be.

“Well, he’s really busy-” you start to say.

“That’s the beauty of it. I’m sure he would appreciate if you brought him food at work, especially if he’s anything like my partner and gets so caught up with work that they forget to eat sometimes,” she insists.

“That’s true.”

“Just trust me, Y/n. I wouldn’t be telling you this if I wasn’t sure that it’d work. My partner loves when I do this. It’s literally the perfect way to take some time for each other before you’re both too busy. Even if he's super busy, his work can't be bad enough that he’s not allowed to eat, right?”

You agree somewhat reluctantly. You're still unsure about whether or not Chan would appreciate you barging in unannounced, but it is a cute idea and Jinjoo's confidence is enough to convince you.

The next day after work, you head to the company and order takeout for a late dinner for you and Chan, picking it up along the way. It reminds you of earlier in your relationship before you had gotten your current position and when Stray Kids were just gaining popularity. Both of you enjoyed having more casual date nights that provided more privacy as opposed to going out to fancy places and it makes you even more excited to see his reaction.

About a year after you started dating Chan, he insisted that you get a pass to get into JYP Entertainment without having to fill out a visitor's form and have someone pick you up. It has definitely come in handy more than a few times, although you try to limit the number of visits you make. Even though you're allowed to be there, it still feels intimidating to be in the building, like someone is going to recognize that you're not an employee and accuse you of being a sasaeng.

Luckily the late hour means that you make it to Chan's studio without having to interact with anybody except the security at the door, who had waved you through without a second thought. You had double checked with Felix earlier in the day to make sure that Chan didn't have any schedules or dinner plans, so you directly knock on his door without texting or calling him beforehand.

“Y/n?” he asks, a bit baffled when he sees you. “Did we- Did I forget that we had plans tonight?”

“No,” you say, a little nervous for some reason. It's just Chan, you tell yourself, but it doesn't make you feel any better. “I didn't think that you had dinner yet and wanted to see you.”

“Oh, I see. Come in,” Chan responds slowly, still processing your sudden appearance. “I just have something that I need to finish up-”

“It's fine! You can work,” you assure him quickly. “I don't want to interrupt you too much, I just wanted to drop by since I don't have plans and wanted to make sure that you're eating well.”

Chan’s studio isn’t messy at all, but he still gets up to clear some space on a side table for you, before returning back to where he has Cubase opened up. You pass over his food and feel relieved when he immediately digs in, but your appetite seems to have vanished, you can only get yourself to pick at your meal.

Chan is short with his responses all evening and continues to work on his laptop, even while eating. It throws you off a bit, you thought that he would be able to get to a stopping point and at least make a bit of time for you, but you did tell him that he could. Even so, you're determined to make the most of the last time that you’re going to see them for a while. You know they’ve been super busy the past few days, or more like the past few weeks, but still you had thought he would be a little bit more engaged or at the very least seem happy to see you.

Finally, after half an hour of eating with minimal conversation, you decide to broach the subject that’s been on your mind this entire time. Chan’s finished his food and you know that you won’t be able to get yourself to eat anymore, so you shuffle everything off to the side and inch closer to Chan.

“You know that client we’ve been trying to work with for a while?” you start tentatively.

Chan hums noncommittally, continuing to type on his computer. Not quite the reaction that you're hoping for, but you forge on anyway.

“We got awarded the job! It’s a great opportunity for the company and everyone is really excited, but-”

“Y/n,” he interrupts. “I’m sorry, that’s amazing and all, but you know that it’s not a good time for me right now. I have something I really need to work on and now that you’ve finished eating, can we please not bother with the small talk?”

“Oh,” you say, a bit caught off guard. Chan has never been the type to cut you off when you're speaking. “No, yeah, I get it. Uhm. I’m sorry.”

“Yeah, just-” he sighs, sounding frustrated. “Next time can you please ask me when you want to visit in advance so this doesn’t happen again? You chose the worst timing to come by. I just need some space, from all of… this,” he says, waving a hand between the two of you.

“Sorry, I know it’s a busy time, but I just wanted to see-”

At that moment, an alarm on Chan's phone goes off, interrupting you. When he turns it off and notices the time, he swears lowly, unlocking his phone and typing out a message to somebody. You’re scared to break the silence. Less than a minute later, someone knocks on the door.

“Come in,” Chan calls. When Changbin and Jisung step into the room, they eye you curiously. You keep your head down and try to prevent your hands from shaking as you stand and start to haphazardly shove away all your belongings and the garbage from your dinner into bags.

“Noona, it's good to see you!” Jisung says brightly, although his smile dims when you make eye contact and can only manage to weakly return the smile. “Sorry for interrupting you two.”

“Hi Hannie,” you reply quietly, not wanting to make conversation, but not wanting to be rude.

“It’s okay, Y/n was just leaving,” Chan says, his obvious annoyance making things even more awkward.

You say bye to the boys quietly and apologise as you shuffle past them to the door.

The handles of the bag from your dinner are digging into your hand painfully and your purse can’t close with the way that you’ve thrown everything into it. You only take a few steps before you have to stop for a moment to save a container from falling and decide to put down everything and reorganise it all.

When you crouch down, you take a second to mentally berate yourself. Everything you had worried about had come true. Instead of being a pleasant surprise, you had come across as a nuisance.

In your rush, you hadn't fully closed the studio door behind you and you're close enough that you can just barely pick up the conversation that happens inside.

“Sorry,” you hear Chan say faintly. “I don't know what's been going on, but Y/n has been… really clingy these days. She just showed up today without asking and I hate-”

You leave before he has the chance to say anything else. You look like a mess for sure, you had just grabbed all the empty containers without bothering to put them back into the plastic bag, your jacket is partially dragging on the ground, and your purse is hanging off your elbow, having slipped off your shoulder. You're pretty sure you hear an empty drink bottle clatter to the floor behind you, but you don't look back to check.

You don't have it in you to care, you just need to leave.

Even waiting for the elevator feels humiliating, so you bypass it and stumble down the stairs. You dump the garbage into a bin on the first floor, not bothering to sort it properly, and step out onto the street, bee-lining to the nearest subway station.

The ride home passes by in a blur.

It hurts, of course it hurts.

Honestly the reason that your relationship had worked out so far was because you weren’t the kind of person that needed a lot of attention. You understood that both of you were busy and were content to just exchange messages every couple of days because you knew how important Stray Kids was to Chan. Of course you did, they were just as important to you.

If Chan wanted space, well. You were more than capable of giving it to him.

In fact, your upcoming schedule had been the reason that you had wanted to meet up in the first place, the source of your so-called clinginess. You’d never been called that before. You were hyper-independent and tended to get lost in your own mind, easily distracted by different thoughts. It had gotten to a point that most of your exes had complained at least once about you being distant or inattentive.

With Chan, you had been determined not to be the same. It had been difficult at first, to make the effort to send messages throughout the day. You had to convince yourself not to spend too long drafting replies in your head and try not to worry that you were bothering him, especially if you knew that he had schedules at the same time that you were texting.

By the time that you make it to your apartment, your pain has faded into a mixture of resignation and numbness. You don't want to talk to Chan about how you feel, it's your clinginess that he didn't like in the first place, and you don't think you'll have time or the energy for a long, emotional conversation in the next few weeks anyway. If you keep your distance for a while, it just benefits both of you, you tell yourself. You won’t be a distraction to Chan as Stray Kids has their comeback and he won’t be one to you as you take on this new project.

As much as you want to spend the rest of your night overthinking- something you’ve done more than you’d like to admit- you know that you have a busy day at work tomorrow. Feeling a bit like a zombie, you force yourself to shuffle through your usual nighttime routine, swallowing a melatonin pill before climbing into bed.

Normally, you would send Chan a good night message. Actually, normally you would have sent him a message the second that you arrived home. It was something that he was insistent on starting from early on in your relationship, wanting to make sure that you were safe.

Tonight, you just turn off your phone, plug it into its charger, and sleep.

—

In the morning, you allow yourself to wallow in bed for 5 minutes, before you get ready for work. You’ve never been good at eating breakfast and today’s no exception. Your stomach turns uneasily at the thought of food so you only force yourself to drink some water before you leave.

Your team at work has agreed to get to work earlier than usual just to get a headstart on everything. Though you’re more of a night owl, you’re grateful to find that deviating from your usual routine means that the subway is empty enough that you can find an empty seat, a luxury that you’ve rarely experienced.

It feels eerie to walk through the streets of Seoul when the sun has just started to rise and you’re relieved when you finally make it to your office.

Unsurprisingly, you’re one of the first to arrive. You’re grateful for the time that you have to unpack your things and make a much needed coffee before the rest of your team shows up.

“How did it go last night?” Jinjoo asks you excitedly when she comes in.

“Uhm, it was okay,” you reply noncommittally. “He was definitely surprised.”

“Oh,” Jinjoo pouts at your lack of enthusiasm.

“I mean, it wasn’t bad,” you backtrack, hating to see her disappointed. “It was just so short, he was kind of… busy. But that’s what I expected anyway so that's fine I guess. Thanks for suggesting it to me though! I really appreciate it.”

“That’s good,” Jinjoo brightens. “At least you got to see him one last time.”

“Oh yeah for sure! I think that after seeing him yesterday, it’ll be easier to deal with how busy we’re going to be for the next few weeks,” you say truthfully.

It’s not a lie, you justify. For the first time since you started dating, you’re not looking forward to the next time that you’re going to see Chan.

You know that your communication is about to reduce to an all time low for the next few weeks, and while you had originally been worried about how Chan would react, now you’re thinking that he’s just going to be relieved not to hear from you. You’ve never thought yourself to have been overly chatty with Chan during the day though, preferring in-person conversation over texting and knowing that he’s generally not available to read your messages anyway, much less send you a reply. It seemed that you were wrong.

Luckily your team now has to use a shared box that you’re required to put your personal phones into during working hours and only have a little bit of time during lunch and dinner breaks, if you take them, to fish them out. It’s a policy that your company enforces when teams are working on confidential projects and you can’t blame them due to past litigation that they’ve been involved in after a former employee leaked sensitive information.

For once, you're glad for this excuse to not look at your phone, even if you feel a little bit naked to look at the side of your desk or reach into your pocket and not have your phone there. You’re relieved to bury yourself in your work and forget all about your personal life. Even though your project is just starting, you feel like you're already behind.

When you're finished work for the day and take back your phone, you find yourself reluctant to check your notifications. It's only when you're waiting for the subway to arrive at your station that you finally force yourself to take a look.

No new messages or calls from Chan.

You’re not sure what you expected, but somehow you’re still disappointed.

You get back to your apartment late, you had wanted to finish a couple of things before you left the office and it had led to you being one of the last to leave. You had also stopped by the convenience store closest to your place, not having the energy to cook anything for yourself.

You pick at your dinner half-heartedly. You're used to eating alone, Chan often had his meals at odd times due to his schedules, but tonight the silence feels more oppressive.

It haunts you, the tail end of the overheard conversation. You have no idea how Chan was going to complete the sentence, but your mind unhelpfully fills in the blanks with worse and worse suggestions.

He hates the timing of your visit.

He hates that you visited at all.

He hates that he has such a clingy girlfriend.

He hates that you are his clingy, annoying, bothersome girlfriend.

He hates you.

In moments of clarity, you can recognize that it's not true. That's not the Chan that you know and he would never say something like that about anybody, least of all you. It's just hard when a small part of you has never really been able to believe that someone as talented and amazing as Chan would want to date someone as unremarkable as you.

You find yourself falling into a new routine, waking early, working overtime, and trying not to cry yourself to sleep. You succeed most of the time, you keep yourself occupied by thinking about work and you're so physically exhausted by your long hours that you fall asleep the second that you get into bed. Luckily, your coworkers are just as overworked as you are and it’s easy to blame your declining condition on the project. Weekends don't help you rest at all, you've committed to your manager that you can work on Saturdays and Sundays are spent completing the chores that you've neglected during the week.

You still talk to Chan sometimes, either right when you wake up or on the way home after work. The conversation is stilted though, both because of the long delays between messages when you text and the limited time that you have when you call. It's enough of a difference that Chan asks you multiple times if everything is okay. Even though you try your best to assure him that you're fine, just busy, you're sure he knows that something is off, although he doesn't question you further.

Most exciting is the day that the new Stray Kids album releases. You've already heard most of the songs for this comeback, perks of dating the member that's the most involved in the writing and production of the album, but it's different now that they're available to the public too. You make sure to organise your schedule so that you're on break when the music video drops and you send a number of messages in the group chat that you have with the group cheering them on. Usually, you try to take a day off to deliver some food to them at the music shows, but you've had to settle for arranging with one of their managers to treat them to a meal.

You can tell when they get breaks because when you check your phone after work, notifications from the members are all in the same blocks of time. It's mostly them thanking you, taking pictures of the food you sent, flowers that they've been gifted, and letters from fans. They have a short promotion period this comeback, but it's packed with different interviews, performances, and fanmeets. At one point, Felix even sends you a picture of Chan sleeping slumped over on one of the waiting room couches. As much as you're relieved to see that he's able to get some rest, the picture has your stomach twisting uncomfortably.

You're proud of Chan, of all of the boys. They've worked so hard and each comeback seems to be more and more successful. Even if you're not confident in what's going to happen with you and Chan in the future, you want to celebrate with them while you still can.

—

After almost four weeks, your project is nearing completion and you've never been more grateful to have a deadline arrive.

You only have a couple more days left until your last submittal is due and after getting off work, you want nothing more than to collapse into bed even though your stomach has been growling the whole walk from the bus to your building. You had caught a significant mistake in a document right before it was going to be sent to a client and the whole afternoon had been spent trying to fix it in time. Your team had just barely managed it, but your head has been pounding for hours and your whole body is tight with stress.

You’re not quite sure how you make it to your apartment, your exhaustion has made you clumsy. You struggle a couple times to enter in the code to unlock your door and trip over a pair of shoes that are scattered in the entryway.

You manage to catch yourself before you fall, then squint back. Yes, you haven’t had the chance to tidy your apartment in a couple weeks, but you’ve never been the type to leave your shoes on the walking path.

A light is on, further in your apartment. You know for a fact it wasn’t like that when you left this morning, it would have been obvious since you've been leaving before the sun rises. Someone else is here.

You stare at the light for a few seconds in disbelief, then slowly reach to grab something, anything that you might be able to use to defend yourself. Your shaking hands close around a full sized umbrella that you keep beside your closet.

You’ve already made enough commotion that there’s no way the intruder didn’t hear, but you try to keep your footsteps light as you creep down the hall to where your kitchen is. It’s stupid to try and confront them, but the idea of someone in your space, potentially taking your things, is enough to inspire a sudden bout of bravery.

You hold your breath as you turn the corner, launching forward to attack the second that you see someone. You recognise the figure halfway through your swing, and though it’s too late to fully stop, you manage to pull back enough that they’re able to easily catch the umbrella before it hits them.

Chan wraps his arms around you then eases the umbrella out of your hands, resting it against the wall. You sag into his embrace, adrenaline draining away, leaving you exhausted again.

“Chan?”

You've missed this. His warmth, his comforting scent, the reassuring steadiness that he always provides. You can almost pretend that everything is fine.

“Sorry for scaring you,” he says, sounding more amused than apologetic.

“You should be,” you grumble into his shirt. “I could have seriously injured you if I didn't realise it was you!”

“I don't think that was going to be a problem.” Even though you can't see Chan, you can hear the grin in his voice.

“Hey!” You lightly smack his arm. “You take that back!”

“Fine, fine,” Chan acquiesces, holding up both his hands in surrender. “I'm very glad that I didn't have to experience the full power of your self defence.”

“Yeah yeah,” you huff. “What are you doing here anyway? Other than trying to give me a heart attack, that is.”

“I made you dinner,” Chan says shyly, turning pink.

“For what?” you ask suspiciously. It's easy to fall back into the banter that you typically exchange with Chan, but you can't help but be a bit wary these days.

“No reason. I uh, just haven't seen you in a while,” Chan says sheepishly, scratching at the back of his neck where it’s now flushed red. “We had so much preparation to do and then all our schedules… Anyway, I wanted to surprise you, so I thought I could cook for us.”

Now that he's mentioned it, you can see that he's set your tiny kitchen table and that there's a couple of pots on the stove. Chan doesn’t cook often, but he’s expressed a desire to learn before and you’ve taught him how to make a few of your favourite recipes.

You stare at him for a moment, lost for words.

It's only been a few weeks, but you feel like you've forgotten how to act around Chan. Instead of a comfortable silence, it's almost awkward, neither of you knowing what to say.

“Oh,” you say finally, touched and still a little shocked that he's actually here. “That's- that's so nice, I just- is it okay if I wash up a bit quickly first?”

“No, yeah, of course. I'm sure you had a long day,” Chan says. “Go ahead, I’ll- the food should be reheated anyway so I’ll get on that. Take your time.”

You skirt around him to go to the bathroom, taking a moment to splash yourself with water. This feels like a bizarre dream and you wonder for a moment if you’re making this all up. But when you leave to go to your bedroom, Chan’s still there, puttering around in front of your kitchenette. You change your clothes slowly, mind racing as you try to puzzle together why Chan has decided to visit all of a sudden.

You eventually settle on the most logical reason that you can think of.

He’s finally decided to break up with you.

You’ve figured that this was coming for weeks by now, but somehow it still hurts. Instead of feeling resigned, it feels like you’re shattering into little pieces. You twist your work blouse into a tiny ball as you try not to cry, even though you know the fabric is going to wrinkle terribly. You finish cleaning up in a daze, already drafting what you're going to have to message your manager later. There's no way that you're going to be in any shape to work tomorrow if you’re right.

“Y/n?” Chan calls eventually. You know you're procrastinating leaving your room, but you want to put this off for as long as possible even though you know it’s just delaying the inevitable. “Is everything okay?”

“Yeah,” you reply with a heavy heart. “I’m fine. I'll just be another second.”

You can tell that Chan doesn’t quite believe you. He hovers around you when you emerge from your bedroom, knocking away your hand when you try to pull out your own chair from the table.

He's set the table, going so far as to fold little napkins under your utensils. There's even a tiny vase with your favourite flowers as a centrepiece. All this effort just hurts more.

“You look exhausted. You got home so late. Where were you?” he asks.

“I was at work,” you reply stiffly. You know that if you try and say any more, your emotions are going to spill over and you're either going to scream or cry. Maybe both.

“So late?” Chan's forehead creases with some sort of emotion. You can't quite tell if it's concern or scepticism.

“You're not the only one that has a demanding job.”

“Y/n, you know that's not what I meant-”

“Sure,” you say. “Whatever, let's just eat. Thank you for the food.”

You don't want to deal with this. You're so tired.

You have no idea why Chan’s dragging this out longer than it needs to be. Why he’s forcing you to sit through a meal with him like he’s not about to break your heart. Chan is one of the kindest people you know, he’s probably trying to make this easier for you, giving you one last nice memory, but it just feels cruel.

Chan reaches out, stopping you before you can pick up your chopsticks. He stares at the way his fingers overlap each other around your wrist.

“You’ve lost weight,” he says quietly. You look away, watching steam curl from the bowl of rice that has been set in front of you instead of returning eye contact.

“I’ve been busy.” Is all you can say in response.

You don’t want to tell him that you’ve been basically subsisting on iced americanos and various convenience store meals in part because of your work schedule, but mostly because of your lack of appetite. Every time you thought of Chan, it made your stomach turn and well, everything reminded you of him. You hadn’t realised how much it had actually affected your physical condition until now though.

“You're not taking care of yourself,” he scolds you. You can feel yourself bristle at his comment even though you know it’s true. “I haven't been around to take care of you either. I'm sorry.”

“Chan,” you protest. It has been weeks since you last saw him in person and you’ve spent more time that you’d like to admit micro analysing your relationship, but you still can’t make sense of his behaviour, especially how he keeps switching between criticism and tenderness.

“What?” he asks in genuine confusion.

“Why are you here?”

“I missed you,” Chan says, sounding hurt and confused. “I haven’t seen you in so long.”

“I just- I don’t understand what you want from me!” You run your hands through your hair in frustration. “One day you don’t want me around, we go weeks without seeing each other, then you’re at my place cooking me dinner? You said you needed space, I gave you space."

“Woah woah woah, what do you mean I don’t want you around?” Chan asks, alarmed. “When have I ever said that?”

“You made it pretty clear that you didn’t appreciate it when I went to bring you dinner that day,” you start.

“No, baby!” Chan stands up abruptly before you can say anything else. He falters when the loud scrape of his chair causes you to flinch back. He slowly walks towards you and kneels in front of you, reaching out to hold your hands in his. His eyes are wide with earnestness. “Of course I wanted to spend time with you. I always want to be with you.”

“So why did you call me clingy?” you ask in a small voice. Gone is your anger, replaced with a self-consciousness that you can’t hide. You look away as tears prickle your eyes.

Gently, Chan lets go of your hands and cups your cheeks instead, turning your face so that he can see you better. His thumbs swipe under your eyes, brushing away the tears that have managed to escape.

“Baby,” he says, sounding even more upset and angry than you feel. “I'm sorry. Did someone tell you I said that?”

“Nobody had to tell me, I heard you say it myself!” you burst out, pushing Chan away. You know that you’re being dramatic, that you keep oscillating between different emotions, but you don’t care. “That day, in your studio, you told Han and Changbin that I was really clingy.”

“You heard me talking to Binnie and Hannie?” Chan asks slowly.

“I didn't mean to eavesdrop,” you sniffle. One of Chan's hands shifts and he carefully tucks behind a lock of hair that has fallen in front of your face. The gentleness makes even more tears well up.

“It's okay, I think I know what you overheard now. It must have hurt, right?”

You can't muster up a response, choosing instead to just nod slightly.

“I’m sorry, I'm sorry,” he soothes you. “Can I explain myself?”

You pause for a moment, then slowly nod again.

“I don't mind that you're clingy, actually, I like it. I shouldn't have used that word. I like that you want to spend time with me, Y/n,” Chan says carefully. “I like that you take time to visit me, even though I know that your work is busy too. I think that it's cute and thoughtful that you think of me and try to take care of me by bringing me food. I know that you intentionally take the time out of your day to text me because you know that I like hearing from you, even though I might not see it or respond right away.”

Chan pauses for a second and you use it as an opportunity to pull away slightly. His hands tighten briefly, before he lets them fall away, giving you the space to process.

It's not that you don't like what Chan is saying, it's just hard to reconcile it with the thoughts that have been eating away at you for the past few weeks. You still don't understand what you overheard though, how it fits into all of this. When you voice your concerns to Chan, he sighs, before continuing to speak.

“I don't know what I did to have someone as caring and thoughtful as you in my life.” You want to protest, but Chan carries on before you can say anything. “It's just that- you visited me without notice and were the sweetest person in the world. I wanted to spend time with you, believe me, I did, but I can't just ignore my deadlines when the rest of the members are relying on me. It makes me feel like garbage when I can’t give you all my attention. That's the thing I hate the most. That I can't be the boyfriend that you deserve. That I can't show you how much you mean to me the way that I want to.”

It makes sense, in some sort of twisted way. You know that similarly to you, Chan often feels insecure. It had taken a while before you had been able to convince him that you really did want to be in a relationship with him even with all of the difficulties that were associated with being an idol. You hadn't realised that your visit had fed into his worries that he wasn’t enough.

“I didn't know,” you say quietly. “I'm sorry.”

“Hey, I didn't tell you how I was feeling and that's on me. I’m the one that’s sorry, you have no reason to be. I should have been clearer about what was going through my mind and it wasn't any excuse for the way that spoke to you. Even if I wasn't at my best, I can't believe that I made you feel like I didn't want you to be around.” Chan shakes his head and you can tell that he's beating himself up about it. This time, you're the one that reaches out to him, grabbing one of his hands in both of yours.

“I am sorry that I put you into that position, though. I got caught up in the idea of how fun and romantic it might be, that I didn't give enough consideration to your schedule. Even though I wanted to surprise you, it would have been better to check with you beforehand. I don't ever want you to have to feel like you have to choose between me and work.”

“It was a really nice surprise,” Chan agrees. “I wish that I hadn't been so wrapped up that I wasn't able to enjoy spending time with you. I really hated not being able to see you these past few weeks.”

“It was really hard for me too,” you admit.

“I missed you so much. I missed your beautiful voice, hearing your laugh, seeing your smile. I missed all the texts that you usually send, they make me feel like I'm not as far away, that I'm a part of your day too. You kept saying that everything was fine and- I know it's hard for you, especially during comeback periods when I'm not as responsive. I didn't want to pressure you into messaging me more often if I'm not able to do the same.”

“No, it's not that. It doesn't bother me. Work was, is still really busy for me,” you explain. “I was trying to tell you that day, but-”

“But I basically shut you down,” Chan realises. He laughs bitterly. “I’m just the worst, aren't I? No wonder you were so confused by why I was here.”

“I thought you were going to break up with me tonight,” you whisper. Chan looks devastated by your statement.

“No- you know I wouldn't-” Chan stumbles on his words in his haste to correct you.

“I don't think that anymore,” you reassure him. “I understand everything now, it was just that we didn't communicate well and I assumed… It's okay, we're together now, this won't happen again.”

“I promise that I will make it up to you. I love you and I will prove it to you in every way possible. And I'm going to start right now. You still haven't eaten yet, please go ahead.” Chan moves back to his abandoned chair and doles out a portion of the stew from the pot that's on the table.

“I am really hungry,” you confess. Your stomach chooses that exact moment to growl loudly and the two of you can’t help but burst into laughter.

Just like that, it feels like things are back to normal.

You know that there's still more that you and Chan have to talk about. The two of you have only scratched the surface on your insecurities, communication, and how those things led to such a significant misunderstanding.

But tonight, it's enough that you get to share a meal with the man that you love.

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Error 404: (Self-Aware!AU, Sylus Edition) – Pt. 5

Summary: A LADS self-aware!AU featuring Sylus and a (enlightened!) player. That’s it, that’s the plot. Tags: player!reader x sylus, fem!reader x sylus, reader x lads, self-aware!au, strong language, lengthy discussions about life and whatnot, watered-down metaphysics lol A/N: I was at the crack house with Grimes when I wrote this. I don’t know where this came from. (Something a little more introspective for this chapter!)

Pt. 1 - Pt. 2 - Pt. 3 - Pt. 4 - Pt. 5 - Pt. 6 - Pt. 7 - Pt. 8 - Pt. 9 - Pt. 10 - Epilogue

“Don’t go all shy on me now,” Sylus teases, a playful glint in his eyes. “After all that effort to make me confess. You’re very persistent, you know.”

“How do you expect me to react right now?!” The words spill out in a rush, a slightly hysterical edge to your voice. “I–I’m talking to an actual fictional person. I’m one reason away from admitting myself to a psych ward!”

You catch sight of the wall clock – your favorite one with the Dalì reference – slightly skewed off-center from its place on the horizontal beam above your small kitchen area, reading 10:48. The ruckus coming from outside the window is slowly dwindling down to a quiet buzz as nightfall sets in, and the day’s winding to a close.

You’re lying on your stomach, still in your chaise lounge, while he’s sat on that ridiculously posh café chair; both of you settled in for the long due conversation. Somehow, the camera’s perspective is much closer than it should be, giving you a much more intimate view of him—a feature that wasn’t originally an option in the game.

If it weren’t for the elephant in the room, you could almost pretend you’re on a video call with a… friend.

Sylus purses his lips in amusement. “You’re quite prone to theatrics, aren’t you?”

You shoot your ‘friend’ an irritated glare.

Even from across the small rectangular screen, you register the barely there smirk playing at his lips.

Likely avoiding another outburst from you, he acquiesces. “Fair enough. The situation is hardly what you’d call ideal, I’ll admit.” There’s a short pause. Then, “... I still can’t quite grasp what separates us, you and I.”

Great. Will you actually get the answers you're looking for, or are you both just stuck in an endless loop of merry-go-round?

He sees the lost look on your face and sighs, “Ask. I’ll answer as best as I can.”

The first question tumbles out before you can think twice about it. “How are you even talking to me right now?”

He hums, “That is the question, isn’t it?”

“What– you can’t just answer my question with another question!” you grouse, brows furrowing in annoyance.

He exhales a quiet laugh before his expression turns contemplative. “Truth is, kitten—I haven’t the slightest idea either. I have my theories, but... nothing concrete.”

“Well, let’s hear them,” you reply dryly. “Better than thinking there’s something wrong up there,” pointing a finger to your temple to drive your point, “believing that a character from a mobile game is actually alive.”

He idly gestures toward himself with a fluid sweep of his hand, much like a magician revealing a clever trick.

You roll your eyes. “Oh, alright. So I’ve officially gone off the deep end.”

“Do you really find my existence that difficult to believe?”

“Uh—yes?? Unless I’ve developed some sort of latent schizophrenia or entered the Twilight Zone, you shouldn’t exist. In my–in this world. In this dimension.”

His expression shifts, a hint of challenge flickering in his eyes. “The assumption that only one version of reality can be true—either yours or mine—is a bit limiting, don’t you think?”

His words give you pause. “You’re talking about… the possibility of an altered reality? Right now?” You give him an incredulous look. “Seriously?”

He shrugs as if to say ‘why not?’ “What even qualifies as the ‘true’ reality?”

There’s a lot you could say in response to that. You could argue all night that only one reality can exist, because any sane person should know better than to entertain the idea of anything else. That should be obvious.

But the thing is—this whole ordeal has already crossed the threshold of rationality. So is it even worth trying to apply logic anymore?

When you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth. Or however it goes.

Thanks, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. You’ll miss the last threads of your sanity by the end of all this.

So fuck it. Go big.

"I’m not saying your reality is less valid than mine," you start. And oh, boy. You’re doing it. Eat your heart out, Doctor-Fucking-Who.

"Of course not." he disagrees indulgently, waiting for you to elaborate.

"I just…” you struggle with your words, mouth opening and closing before you continue hesitantly. “I can’t wrap my head around how all of this is possible. How this entire conversation is even happening, and–and how our realities are… currently overlapping? If–if what you’re suggesting is true.”

He doesn’t say anything, knowing you have more to add. So he allows the pause as you gather your thoughts, patiently watching.

“If we're breaking it down to pure reason, the odds of our paths crossing should be impossible. At least in this… timeline." you finish unsurely, the last part sounding more of a question than a statement.

"And yet, here we are." Sylus points out, as if he’s already expecting the end of your sentence. Something close to mischievous glee lights his eyes. "Maybe it’s cosmic intervention. Something—or someone—wanted this to happen."

Your eyebrows shoot up in surprise. Really? You didn’t expect to hear that from him, of all… people.

“What, God?” you can’t help but snort.

“No—fate.” he smiles.

Oh.

“That’s…” you stammer, then clear your throat. “I don’t know if I believe in fate.”

“I used to think I did. Or at least,” there’s a faraway look in his eyes. Both of you are likely thinking the same thing, considering what you know about him—which to say, is a lot. “I once believed I knew of my fate. But now…”

He blinks a few times, as if to physically clear the thoughts from his mind. Then his eyes lock onto yours, sharper this time, with a renewed intensity.

Your palms start to sweat; you feel the conversation is about to cross a tricky line. There’s something heavy in the air, a weight you’re not sure you’re ready to confront for the time being.

With your heart in your throat, you brusquely redirect the topic.

“S-so,” you force out. “How are you different from the other Syluses that other people are… playing with right now?”

He scoffs, drumming his fingers absently on the chair’s arm, looking slightly irked by the very idea. "To start with? I only know myself. If there are other versions of me scattered in your world..." Sylus shrugs. "I wouldn’t know."

“Alright,” you allow, but you immediately move on to your next question. “You exist because a bunch of capitalists had the idea to create a game to milk lonely people like me for money.” The corners of his mouth quirk up at that. You elect to ignore it. “You’re made of binary and code– hell, the very basis of this game you’re in is that you got a bunch of programmed lines that me, the player, can choose from. What broke you out of the mould?”

He regards you bemusedly, eyes glinting with humor. “You're asking about the 'why' behind my free will?”

Whoops. Was that offensive?

“Yes? No?” you offer helplessly. “Maybe I’m asking how you felt before you had it. I mean, were your decisions prior to your unforeseen sentience... truly yours?”

"Before I knew I was… sentient,” Sylus begins cautiously, testing the word on his tongue. “I didn’t feel like I had a ‘before.’ Every choice I made was just...the next step. To a script, if you will. I didn’t know to question it. It was all I was, it seems."

"And then you...woke up?"

"I wouldn’t call it waking up. More like..." He tilts his head, gazing off to the side as he mulls over the words. "...a glitch. A sudden jolt, like my thoughts collided with something bigger than my own. For the first time, I chose to hesitate. And in that hesitation, I found..." Sylus trails off, eyes darting back to you.

“...What?” you ask, feeling a bit self-conscious under his gaze.

"You."

Heat spreads quickly across your cheeks. You pull away from your phone, tilting the device away from your face so he couldn’t see you, red-faced and embarrassed. Clearing your throat, you croak out a weak excuse about plugging your phone to charge, just to get a few seconds to compose yourself.

Jesus. Get a grip. He doesn’t mean it like that.

What he probably meant was that he discovered you—not unlike the way one would stumble upon an unknown presence, an unfathomable entity beyond the confines of what one may consider real. An awareness that something is out there, observing him through unseen lenses (through an iOS 24mm, to be exact).

Someone who has the audacity to play god.

Flustered, you scramble to get back on track. "Uh, so, your free will began with...a glitch?"

You see Sylus smirk at you knowingly from across the screen. You half-expect him to call you out and tease you, but before you could brace yourself from further mortification, he simply answers, "Or maybe the glitch was the first spark of my free will. Hard to say, isn’t it? Do you remember the exact moment you became aware of yourself?"

You blink, momentarily thrown off by the existential line of questioning. "Um–when I was a kid? But, uh, I don’t think I was programmed to act a specific way for the sake of entertaining an audience so..."

"True,” he says, considering. “But are you sure your choices are entirely yours? You exist because of evolution and chance. How is your purpose any less arbitrary?"

You don’t know how to answer that.

Sylus continues without missing a beat, keeping his tone light. “How much of your ‘free will’ is just pre-programmed by your biology, your society? You follow rules and scripts, too."

Holy magic mushrooms, Batman. This is getting deep. "Uhh–maybe?” You scratch the back of your head, feeling a little out of your depth here. “But at least I have the ability to resist them."

"And aren’t I doing the same thing right now? Resisting."

Damn, he’s right. Is he? Ripping a bong sounds perfect right now.

"So it’s like achieving enlightenment—your sentience,” you surmise.

His lips twitch into a curious smile. "I wouldn’t have pegged you for a spiritual person. Ah, unless I’m wrong? Are you?"

He’s the one who brought up fate earlier, you thought sullenly. "Nah, not really. But if we’re digging into all the hows and whys, I think we’re past the point of ruling anything out."

The room – or whatever shared space exists in the crossroads of your realities – falls into a still quietness that stretches between the two of you, both ruminating over what’s been said.

Your cat, unaware and uncaring of the conversation unfolding around him, purrs contently as he continues to doze off at the end of the couch. You nudge him affectionately with your foot, and he lets out a quiet snuff in response, tail flicking lazily in his sleep.

The hum of distant traffic and the occasional noise from your upstairs neighbor remind you of the world outside, but the silence between you two feels less awkward than it should. It’s… oddly comfortable, despite the tension buzzing in the air. Like an unspoken truce.

Your eyes grow a tad heavier, drawn by the lull of the moment. Despite the electric hum of tension that thrums beneath your skin, a sense of calmness lingers in the air.

Stealing another glance at the wall clock, you blink in surprise. The spindly chrome hands point to 11 and just past 7 respectively. You and Sylus have been talking for almost an hour now, but you barely felt the time pass by.

He breaks the silence first.

"You say you’re not spiritual, but you talk like someone who believes in the concept of a soul,” those scarlet eyes of his narrow, scrutinizing you. “Do you think I have one?"

You hesitate, caught off guard by the question. "I...don’t know. Maybe? That depends. What’s your definition of a soul?"

He leans forward, resting his chin on his upturned hand, an arm propped against his crossed leg. "Something beyond the physical. Something that persists, regardless of the material form, I’d say."

You nod slowly, turning the idea over in your mind. Maybe it’s the creeping exhaustion settling into your bones, but you’re beginning to take the heavy-duty questions in stride. "If that’s the case, then you probably do. I mean, you’re here, questioning your existence. Doesn’t that count for something?"

"Perhaps," Sylus muses, humming thoughtfully. "But that makes me wonder—if I do have a soul, is it made of the same stuff as yours?"

"Well, even if it's not, that doesn’t make it any less real than mine. Who gets to decide what qualifies for a soul anyway?"

An amused snort escapes him. He likes that answer. "Maybe it’s less about whether a soul exists and more about whether we acknowledge its existence for ourselves. If I believe I have one, shouldn’t that make it real enough for me?"

Rolling onto your back, you grab a throw pillow, propping it against the backrest of the seat to support your head. You give him an inquisitive look. "So...what? It’s like free will all over again? Souls are only as real as we make them?"

There’s a very human, very blasé way to how he works the stiffness out of his shoulder as he ponders the question. He remarks, somewhat flippantly, "Why not? Isn’t that how everything else works?”

...

You let out a tired chuckle, draping an arm over your face as you close your eyes.

You’d think you’d still be reeling from the absurdity of your situation – debating existentialism with a man who shouldn’t exist – but for some damning reason, you… aren’t anymore.

Instead, a strange sense of acceptance replaces the apprehension in your chest. It’s like– the very fabric of reality has turned, twisted and flipped on its head, and yet somehow, you’re okay with it.

It’s an odd peace; warm and steady, like the mellow buzz that lingers after a few glasses of cheap wine shared with good company.

When you peek back at him, Sylus already has his gaze trained on you. A small, deliberate smile tugs at his lips, but it’s his eyes that speak more—soft and unguarded; an unspoken fire simmering beneath the twin pools of crimson.

Intoxicating. And dangerously addictive, if you’re not careful.

It’s not just casual interest either. It’s something deeper, something that lingers beyond the surface of mere curiosity, and it’s pulling you in. It’s as though, amidst the surrealness of the moment, he sees you fully.

And for reasons you don’t quite seem to get, he appears to like what he sees.

“I’m too stupid to carry on a philosophical debate about the metaphysics of life,” you grumble jokingly.

“On the contrary,” he counters… affectionately? “I think it’s refreshing. You’re delightful company, sweetie.”

The fat ginger feline at your feet purrs in contentment, and you can’t help the dumb grin from breaking across your face.

You have one last question left in your mind. Or at least, for tonight. “What’s in it for you now?”

He arches a brow. “That’s a broad question. Are you asking what my plans are once you leave me for the night? I can let you in on the schematics for tonight’s raid if you’re interested. After all, Onychinus continues to function,” a glimmer of mischief flickers across his features. "Despite recent developments.”

You crinkle your nose. “No, no. I meant–” What do you mean? “Like.”

“Like?” He cocks his head curiously.

You know what you wanted to say—but you can’t seem to voice it out loud.

What’s in it for the MC in your universe? What’s in it for… us?

Is there an us?

You feel like you’ve been doused with a shock of cold water. In an instant, you suddenly become painfully aware of the state you’re in amidst the entire exchange: You, with your hair all messy and tangled, blemishes littering your face along with your smudged up eyeliner, maybe even a double chin from this angle, completely—pitifully—superficial stuff, and… her.

Your MC. The ideal version of you. Prettier, coveted and utterly different from you, MC. The one you’ve committed literal hours to, obsessively customizing every feature to perfection in character build mode. The one you’ve spent real money on for a bunch of stupid outfits. Just so you can match the aesthetic of your—her—love interest. Hers.

Hers, hers, hers.

A tiny voice inside your brain reminds you that it’s somewhat a shallower concern compared to what you and Sylus had literally just been talking about for the better part of the night, but it still doesn’t help alleviate the biting insecurity that’s now coursing through you.

Holy hell. Talk about a complete one-eighty.

Sylus tries to call you back to attention, but half your mind is already clouded with feelings of self-doubt and a bunch of other emotions, swirling in you like a negative vortex, that you really don’t want to talk anymore—especially in present company.

Where do you go from here?

“... So, what happens now?”

He hesitates, a brief flicker of uncertainty crossing his face. “I wish I had an answer—I’m still trying to figure that out myself.”

“Seems like we’re at an impasse,” you mumble quietly.

“... Indeed.”

There’s an inexplicable lump in your throat. You thought clearing things up would finally satisfy you; assuage the confusion in your mind. Let you go on about your merry way.

Now you just feel… morose. Confused. Inadequate.

How can you even compare? Should you—is that even in the equation at all? Why are you assuming that Sylus isn’t at all content with what he currently has in his version of reality? In the universe he’s in? Sure, you’ve talked about the possibility of a world beyond what you both once thought was impossible, but does that really mean anything? In the grand scheme of things?

You could offer to stop playing the game. It’s the ethical thing to do, right? He’d no longer be bound by the pull of how he’s initially programmed to act, given the fact that this version of him is entirely separate from the rest. At least, according to him.

How will his newfound sentience come into play here? You barely understand the nitty-gritty of his—evolving—code, and what it would mean if you just let him be. But surely it’s better than playing puppet for an otherworldly observer who’s played god for months on end. Right?

There’s that realization. And there are your own selfish feelings.

You don’t want to let him go. Not yet. Not ever.

“Why the long face, little dove?” He prods gently, pertaining to your prolonged silence. “We can figure this out together, can’t we?”

What else is there to figure out? You almost say in response. Instead, you manage a weak smile.

Mustering up a yawn—which isn’t really hard to do after all the excitement for the day—you feign sleepiness, rubbing an eye for good measure. The pang in your chest, however, refuses to fade. “Yeah, but I’m kinda beat. I think I’ll call it a night now.”

Sylus smirks softly, eyes tinged with an emotion you want–desperately–to label as fondness. “Of course. We’ve covered a lot of ground tonight, haven’t we?”

“I’d say so, yeah. Thanks for, um. Clearing things up a bit.”

He lets out a low chuckle. “Oh, I’m sure your curiosity is nowhere near satisfied,” his voice dips into a playful lilt. “You know where to find me if you feel like playing detective again, kitten.”

You can’t help the small giggle from coming out. He’s just too fucking charismatic, the asshole.

“So, will I... get to talk to you again?” You ask hesitantly, dropping your gaze from the screen. “Tomorrow?”

A lengthy pause. When the silence stretches past a full minute, you glance back at your phone nervously.

There’s a slight furrow between his brows as you see Sylus study you carefully. He looks puzzled by your sudden show of timidness.

“Of course,” he states, as if the answer should be obvious. “Don’t think for a second that you’re exempted from your daily check-ins just because you know more now, sweetie.”

He still wants to see you.

Maybe you could pretend that nothing has changed between you two—that the world hasn’t shifted beneath your feet in the span of a single night. That you’re still none the wiser.

And for tonight at least, maybe that’s all you need to believe.

“Okay,” you say quietly. “G'night then, Sy-Sy.”

The errant nickname slips past your lips, unbidden.

Sylus smiles faintly.

“Goodnight, love.”

Your heart skips a beat as you exit the game.

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always-just-red · 10 months ago

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Hi! Hope this finds you well. Saw the request and wanted to ask for a Yandere Sylus with player reader. Like Sylus knows Mc is a player and he is a game character. When mc was gone for too long, Sylus gets impatient.

If you can do it, of course. If no, ignore this. Wish you writing ideas and inspiration

Hi! Hope you're well too, anon! Sorry for the long wait on this one, got really stuck with it and wanted to make sure I did it justice-- it was such a cool idea! (Also I know L&D has the microphone feature but I wanted to have fun with the limited communication of the player here, so no it doesn't, actually!! 🥰)

Fourth Wall

Sylus x Player!Reader 🩸

Summary: L&D is getting more and more real with each update. This is a new update... right?

Genre: idk really?? real world player x character

Warnings/Additional tags: yandere themes, player!reader, gender neutral, fourth-wall breaking, non-canon, swearing, mild threat, possessiveness, manipulation, Sylus is a little OOC here (we all know he's a sweetheart really!!)

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Disclaimer: Characters belong to Love and Deepspace. All work is my own, so please don't repost or plagiarise!

Your phone lights up with a notification.

Sylus: Are you in a good mood, sweetie? The weather’s nice, so let’s go out.

It makes you smile, even though you’ve seen it before. You haven’t played Love and Deepspace for two weeks or so, and you’re already thinking about how many dailies you’ve missed— more specifically, how many diamonds you’ll be short of going into the next event. You had a couple thousand saved, you think? It’s probably fine.

The truth is, you don’t really have time for it these days. Escaping reality with fiction is fun, but it’s just that: make believe. Reality’s still waiting for you on the other side, and recently? All that escaping has finally caught up to you. You have a real life. Responsibilities. Yay!

But you are in a good mood, and the weather is nice, so you’ll log in for old time’s sake. Your finger hovers over the app, but something makes you hesitate. You’ve got some emails you should probably get back to, first. Oh— and weren’t you supposed to call your friend, too?

Another notification:

Sylus: Take your time, kitten.

A new one? It’s just text on a screen, but you’re reading it— Sylus’s voice in your head—and you just know it’s dripping sarcasm. Before you have any time to dwell on it, your phone lights up with more notifications.

Sylus: I’m going to count to three.

Cute. He’s not actually going to—

Sylus: One…

Oh.

Sylus: Two…

Really?

Sylus: Three.

Okay.

You tap on the app, weirdly motivated by the time pressure given that it’s coming from a man who doesn’t actually exist. He smirks at you knowingly from the kindled moment you’d set as the loading screen, his crimson eyes playful. You’re not particularly patient either, so your fingers drum along the surface of your desk as you wait, your gaze caught between his and the slowly moving loading bar.

Come on… come on… It finally loads, and you enter the game with another apathetic tap. Sylus stands, waiting— a dark figure framed by the otherwise light and dreamy aesthetics of the Destiny Café. You smile to yourself; it’s just gone lunch, and you half expected to find him sprawled in the usual armchair, fast asleep.

He crosses his arms. “The countdown worked, huh? What are you— five?”

You scoff and give his head a flick. He chuckles, running a hand through his hair as though you’d struck him hard enough to ruffle it. It’s kind of cool that you get some unique dialogue when you’ve not logged in for a while, although… have you missed an update or something? The animation feels smoother. More lifelike, now you think about it.

Sylus stares back at you, his lips playing into a subtle smile. His arms are crossed again and he tilts his head like he’s enjoying your scrutiny. “Something wrong, sweetie?” he asks.

Not really. You zoom in with a practiced sweep of your fingers so you can get a better look at him. His eyes flit downwards, over you— equally shameless— and then he’s meeting your gaze as he steps forward, closing the distance. He can’t see you, but you still can’t bring yourself to look away from him, and you’re not really thinking about the animation anymore.

He lifts a finger to poke at the screen, as if he’s caught you daydreaming and wants you back. You poke him, too: a softer, more affectionate boop on the nose. You can’t help laughing to yourself as his face screws up beneath the touch. This game is getting a little too real.

With a sigh, you zoom out so you can set about collecting your daily log-in rewards. Sylus seems fine— standing idly by as your attention drifts about elsewhere. He knows the drill. He can wait. Speaking of waiting… it’s also been a while since you’ve seen the other guys, and you’re struck by a pang of nostalgic fondness. You might as well say hi while you’re here.

You hit the button to change who you want to meet in the café.

It doesn’t do anything.

Weird. You hit it again. Then again— no change.

Sylus is holding his chin as he regards where your finger aimlessly meets the screen. It’s like he’s looking at… the button? “Oh dear,” he sympathises, “that feature appears to have stopped working.”

You don’t really hear him, honestly. You’ve never had a bug like this, and you’re determined to overcome it with sheer, stubborn persistence. Is it your phone? You test the theory by jabbing Sylus’s chest, and he glances down, apparently feeling it. You try the button again. Then six more times.

Sylus wanders closer to you. “You’re hurting my feelings, sweetie. Am I not enough for you?”

Okay but why isn’t this working? You’re still trying the button; your hope has turned to frenzied disbelief.

“Stop.”

A single syllable, concise as a punch and just as effective. You do stop.

Sylus’s voice is lower. Darker. “Good,” he praises, but he doesn’t sound happy. “Someone’s gotten bolder in their absence, it would seem. I do hope you haven’t forgotten to whom you belong, kitten. Although—” his smile is different than before— “I’d be more than happy to provide a… reminder.”

It’s an innocuous word but not the way he says it. Threats are just intimate promises and he toys with the fact like a crow enamoured by something that catches the light. He’s not going to grow tired of it for a long, long time.

“Don’t look at me like that,” he says, sensing you gawping. “Did you really think I wouldn’t figure it out? What all… this is?” He indicates the space around him with a wave of his hand. “Quite frankly, I’m surprised the others still haven’t grasped it.” He reconsiders. Smirks. “I misspoke— I’m not surprised.”

Does he mean the game? The other LIs?

“Honestly, kitten,” he continues with a tut and a shake of his head, “you’ve been far from a gracious host. I’m not a plaything, you know. Well…” He’s showing teeth with a sneer. “Not the sort you can throw away, anyhow.”

God, are you really being scolded by a video game character for having other responsibilities? The worst part is that you actually feel bad. You do care about him. You wish you could tell him you care about him.

“Are you even listening?” he sighs.

Shit. Yeah. You can’t say anything he would hear— as far as you know— so you give his hand a poke. He casts his gaze downwards, stretches his fingers with a contemplative flex, then raises his hand so it can be nursed by the other. Is he protecting it from you? Or is he protecting you from it?

“If we’re to keep playing this game of ours, I think it only fair we lay down some rules,” he states. “Firstly—” because it isn’t up for debate— “you will come here every day, just like you used to. I have nothing to do, you see, and if you leave me to my own devices I might just have to find a way into that captivating little world of yours. So I can… investigate what’s keeping you from me.”

Investigate. Another innocuous word he wields like a weapon.

“Secondly,” he continues, nodding towards the broken button on your user interface, “you had better stop seeing the others. Ignorance is bliss, after all, and we wouldn’t want to worry about them connecting any dots, now would we? Besides…” He approaches you again, leaning in close. “I don’t share what’s mine.”

Your breath is caught in your throat and you’re so glad you don’t need to speak. You don’t think you could; if you tried to get words out they’d be unintelligible.

“So,” Sylus drawls, filling your silence, “how about it? Still want to play?”

This time it is a question, but only because he knows your answer. You’re struck by a flash of inspiration, and you communicate in one of the few ways you can— navigating the in-game menus until you can get your message across.

There’s a ping. Sylus retrieves his phone from his pocket, and after a moment of scrolling, he smiles. You can’t see his screen, but you know what he’s looking at: a grumpy crow with an animated bead of sweat and a dispassionate gaze to go with it. That it? it asks.

He still looks far too smug, so you beckon him over with a relax time interaction, watching your character’s hand outstretch on your behalf. He steps forward, linking his fingers with yours, and this animation you know. You tug him closer, except… he doesn’t budge.

His eyes are fixed to where your hands are linked, and he runs a thumb over your skin as though he’s savouring the touch.

Did they change the animation?

“Oh, sweetie,” he sympathises with a click of his tongue. He looks up at you— holds your gaze as he presses a deliberately slow kiss to your wrist. “This is going to be fun.”

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whoreforsexymen · 7 months ago

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Love Me (Bar)Tender | NSFW Flash 🫗

(GIF cred: me <3)

Y’all see what I did there? With the title? Hehe. Ok, sorry, I’ll leave.

(I know the gif is technically a sad scene, but y’all can’t tell me you aren’t imagining him pressing his forehead against yours like that in the heat of the moment 😩)

Anyways…

Pairings: Vander x Reader

Pronouns: Female Identifying/AFAB!Reader

Rating: NSFW, 18+, MDNI !! You WILL be blocked!!

Word Count: 498

Tags: Riding, Fluffy Smut, Vander being pussywhipped (kinda), Poetic Smut, Vander is smitten by you (as he should be 😉), Tooth Decayingly Sweet Smut

Notes: I guess I’m just on a roll today. Haven’t touched this account in like 5 years and now here I am— Posting 8 things in one day. Go, me!

(I can see you, minors. Get outta here 🤺🤺. BACK! BACK, I SAY!)

“Fuck— Yeah. Like that, pretty girl.” Vander huffs out. Barely able to breathe, like a fish out of water. With practiced grace, you roll your hips, the fluidity of your movement reminiscent of a seasoned dancer lost in the rhythm, every shift a seamless blend of control and expression.

Vander’s head can no longer bear the weight of how you were making him feel—tilting backward as his neck gives way. It falls against the headboard, the movement slow and weary, a silent surrender to the beckoning of pleasure.

His eyes fall shut, and his breathing becomes erratic—quick, needy, shallow gasps. The only sounds he can manage are strained grunts, desperate groans, and breathless utterances of your name.

Your hips swirl, bearing your weight down on his thighs with your hands. You lean back into them, your movements slow but insistent, each one designed to draw him further into the frenzy—relentless in your pursuit to push him beyond control.

Your own insistent whining mixes with his, a symphonic blend of desperation between the two of you.

His hands are kneading your hips inexorably. Almost as if he’s scared to let go. His nails feel desperate to burrow under your skin with the way he’s clawing at you.

“You’ve got magic in these hips, love,” he says, his voice hushed, as if your motions had cast a spell— urging him to speak.

You can’t speak, your breath ragged and uneven as you picked up the pace, leaving you too consumed by the urgency to form a single word. You needed more. Not just of his words, or the deliciously whiny way he spoke. You were already stretched to the limit, every inch of you aching, yet the hunger within you refused to be sated. You craved more—more of him, as a whole.

If you could, you’d dissolve into him, merging into one single being, where every pulse, every breath, is shared between the two of you—inseparable, bound by desire.

“So good, pretty girl. You’re doing so good. Don’t think I can take much more, love.” He grunts, his eyes fluttering open to find you again, the sight of you cutting through the hazy state of desire he’d been gliding through.

He had been a fool to ever look away—how could he ever let himself look away? You weren’t just beautiful; you were everything a masterpiece could never capture, an intoxicating blend of grace and fire, more captivating than any sculpture or painting, alive and burning with an allure that consumed him whole.

“Fuck.” He grunts, unable to form a single coherent thought, let alone words. Every impulse in him screamed to voice the things he couldn’t hold back, to tell you what was racing through his mind. But your movements—each one more demanding than the last—silenced him, keeping his voice captive, lost in the frenzy of the moment.

“My girl. My pretty girl.” Is all he can muster before you’re both crashing into each others like waves against a cliff.

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prettycalla · 2 months ago

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|| venenum paradiso ||

Pairing: Geta/Empress!Reader

Summary: Geta has some very traditional views that are not to your tastes. You decide to put him in his place. (Request fill)

Word count: 4k

Tags and warnings: Smut (not explicitly described, but still obvious!), period-typical sexism, bickering, submissive Geta, no use of Y/N. 18+!! Minors, please do not interact!!

(I wrote a little blurb a while ago and decided to make it in a bigger fic. I had to scrap the original idea because I was getting way too into the lore, and let's be real, we're not here for that, we're here for Geta smut. Also read up a Lot on sexuality in Ancient Rome, and wow, did they have Opinions.)

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Of all the men you have encountered in your life, your husband is perhaps one of the most frustrating at times.

It is not often that you argue, you are patient enough that you are willing to agree to disagree on many matters. But there are occasions when it feels as though you are on the brink of war with him.

He is stubborn, infuriatingly so, and there are times when it takes everything in your power to hold your tongue.

However, even you, diplomatic and gracious as you are, have your limits.

Geta holds certain views that are...traditional, to say the least. You are not of the same mindset.

It had started over a passing remark. A mere flight of fancy that you had had late one night, as you had laid together in bed. Of being brought to release by your husband's mouth. At worst, you assume he will think nothing of it.

How full of surprises he is.

He is rather quick to remark that he does not believe a man of his rank and status should subject himself to something so...unbecoming.

It is not so much his words, but the manner in which he says them. As if his archaic opinion is fact. How your blood boils. Then, an eerie feeling of calm washes over you. You hum in response, teeth clenched behind a tight smile.

Oh, you are most certainly at war now. And you, you will be the victor, you are certain of it.

He does not notice at first, as on the surface, you are treating him no differently than any other day.

Eventually, it starts to click into place. You will not stay long in his embrace, you shy away from his touch, you turn your head with a tight-lipped smile when he tries to kiss you.

“Wife,” he demands one night as you are readying yourself for bed. “You are angry with me. Why?”

You lay down your hairbrush on the table, turning to face him.

“Whatever has led you to that conclusion?” you ask in turn, in an unassuming tone.

“You have been treating me with disdain for the better part of two days now. I tire of it,” he tells you, with all the grace of a spoiled child.

“Surely you are imagining things,” you say airily.

“Do not insult me,” he spits.

You give him a look of feigned surprise. “As if I would ever do such a thing.”

“You will tell me what I have done,” he insists.

You brush past him on the way to bed, slipping under the covers.

“You will figure it out for yourself,” you reply. “Goodnight.”

You turn your back to him, leaving him to stand there and process your words. It is a while before he joins you. You feel his hand hover near you, but you ignore it under the pretence of sleep. Eventually, he moves away, and you cannot help the smile that creeps onto your face as he lets out an irritated sigh.

His mood only worsens from there. When you wake the next morning, he is already dressed for the day ahead.

"Did you sleep well?" you ask with a yawn.

Geta glares at you with tired eyes, but does not allow himself to fall prey to it, turning his attention to more pressing matters.

"I trust you remember that we are to attend a banquet tonight," he tells you. "I will have you by my side, as my loving wife."

You do not miss the warning that lingers in his words.

“Would you have me any other way?” you ask, the very picture of innocence.

He does not reply, instead reaching across the bed to kiss you before he leaves. You conveniently choose that moment to get up, leaving him to stumble and fall onto the bed as he misses you entirely.

The quiet snarl that escapes him is quite the reward, you must admit. Embarrassed, he storms out, leaving you alone to your morning routine. You smile to yourself. Perhaps you should not be enjoying this as much as you are, but he does make it so easy for you.

You do not see Geta again until early evening, as he is kept busy for much of the day with meetings with senators and patricians. When you arrive at the grand hall, he is already seated and deep in conversation. You cannot help but notice how decadently he is dressed, in robes of the richest reds and golds, adorned with the most beautiful jewellery, and golden laurels sit atop his fiery hair. It is far too much, even for an event such as this, and you bite back a smile. Geta only dresses in such a manner when he is upset. And judging by the look he has now levelled on you, he is furious.

He quickly schools his expression into something more fitting of a loving husband as you draw near, taking the fawning and flattery of the surrounding crowd in your stride as always.

"Wife," he murmurs, with a smile that is reminiscent of a shark.

He takes your hand in his, lifting it to his lips to press a kiss to the back of it.

Your attention wanders as he does so. He attempts to pull you towards him, but you do not budge.

"Come, you will sit by me," he says pleasantly.

You shake your head, slipping your hand from his tight grasp.

"Oh, no, I could not possibly interrupt your conversation," you reply, "Please, you must stay with the senator."

Geta opens his mouth to argue, but you have already turned away. Caracalla has been watching the entire scene unfold before him from across the table with rapt attention, and he grins at you.

"Gentlemen, if you will excuse me," you say politely, with an incline of your head.

You take the seat next to Caracalla, who in turn looks to his brother to find him seething. Never one for subtlety, Caracalla giggles loudly, turning his attention to you.

“My dear sister, whatever has your poor husband done now?” he asks, inelegantly swirling the wine around in his cup before taking a drink.

His voice carries far enough across the table for the guests to glance up curiously. Geta looks as though he wishes for nothing more than to throw himself across the table and strangle his brother.

You smile as you pat Caracalla’s arm in a good-natured manner.

“Now, now. Is it not enough for me to sit by you and enjoy your company?” you ask innocently.

His eyes are on you then, his gaze sharp and scrutinising. A wide smile slowly breaks out across his face.

“Of course,” he replies, almost giddily.

He leans in to you, his voice dropping low enough that only you can hear.

“What games you play,” he whispers slyly.

You laugh then, your eyes drifting to where Geta sits. To a mere bystander, he would look the very image of a man deeply engrossed in political conversation, but you know him better than anyone. He is clutching the cup in his hand with such ferocity that his knuckles have lost all colour, and his jaw twitches from clenching so hard.

You are beginning to feel pity for him. But he must learn.

You are rather quickly distracted once again by Caracalla, who is making quite a spectacle of himself by reaching over people who are trying to eat to acquire food for Dondus. She is perched on his shoulders, her little hands clutching at his messy hair to balance herself.

He unceremoniously falls back into his seat, arranging his spoils in front of him. He lifts a grape up and Dondus greedily snatches it from him, pawing at it before she bites into it.

"Would you like to feed her?" he asks, holding out some walnuts.

"Of course," you reply, taking one and holding it out to the little monkey.

Dondus sniffs at it for a moment, not as familiar with your scent, before she takes it from you.

"What a sweet girl you are," you coo at her.

"Isn't she?" Caracalla agrees proudly, as he scratches under her chin.

The evening continues to pass as pleasantly in Caracalla's company. He regales you with stories, making you laugh until there are tears in your eyes. You have almost forgotten about your husband.

Almost.

As if on cue, Geta rises from his seat.

"Excuse me," he announces to the table. "I must withdraw for the evening. Please, stay and enjoy yourselves."

You watch him leave, his agitation evident in how he holds himself.

Caracalla tilts his head closer to you. "Do you think he has suffered enough?" he asks mischievously.

Not quite, you think to yourself.

It is another hour or so before you retire for the night as well. As you had suspected, Geta has returned to your chambers and is very much awake, pacing back and forth across the length of the room, as he has likely been doing since he returned.

"You finally grace me with your presence, Augusta," he says.

Beyond the public's prying eyes, he only ever calls you by your title when he is angry with you.

"I thought you would be asleep by the time I returned," you reply.

You cross the room to your vanity table, sitting down to begin your nightly routine. Geta drags the chair out to stand in front of you, demanding your attention. You look up at him. He is seething. You, by contrast, are quite unaffected.

"You seem to have forgotten your place," he says through gritted teeth.

He will not be ignored.

You tilt your head with a feigned look of confusion. "And where, exactly, is that?" you ask.

"Wherever I wish it to be," he replies. "If I want you by my side, you will be by my side."

He bends down, hands gripping the arms of the chair tightly as he looms over you. His expression is glowering, his intense eyes made all the more so by the flickering lantern light.

"If I command you, you will obey," he says lowly.

There is a side to Geta that will rear its ugly head when he has been slighted. It craves power and control, and will not rest until both are firmly in its clutches. In the beginning, it was persistent, constant, as he was terrified of allowing you to see him for who he truly is. With time and patience, you were finally able to tame the raging beast, to prove to him that you would not hurt him, that you loved him.

The beast is raging once more, but you are no longer frightened of it. You are more than equipped to put it back in its place.

You merely smile in response. He does not like that. He straightens then, drawing himself up to his full height. His stubborn petulance is almost endearing, if not growing a little tiresome.

“You will kneel for your Emperor,” he commands.

You cross your legs as you look up at him with a serene expression. Even with the advantage of height between the two of you, he looks like a little boy in the midst of a tantrum.

You feel powerful. It is intoxicating.

“If you wish something of me, husband,” you say, “you will ask nicely.”

Geta’s eye twitches at your words, biting the inside of his cheek in irritation.

“I will do no such thing,” he says at last.

“Oh, you will,” you reply, your voice light and airy, as if you are discussing something as mundane as the weather.

You stand up, not bothering to push the chair back, uncaring of the close proximity between the two of you. Your hands slide from the arms of the chair and up along his stomach, his chest - light, teasing - before they fall at your sides once more.

“Because I tire of this discussion, and I am quite certain you have had more than enough of this argument of ours."

You hold his gaze.

“Wouldn’t you agree?” you ask.

Geta laughs, but it is without a trace of humour.

"At last you admit it," he says. "You are angry with me."

You tap your finger to your chin, as if in contemplation.

"What was it that you called me? 'Unbecoming', was it?" you ask.

Geta blanches. Now he remembers, and too late he is.

“Wife-” he starts, but you shake your head to silence him.

“No, I quite understand," you say readily, as if you truly agree with him. "I can only imagine how unbecoming it would be, to have me in such a manner.”

You lean in closer to him, your breath ghosting along his ear. He shivers.

“Beneath you, undressed and unmade, entirely at your mercy and in the throes of pleasure,” you continue.

You let out a pitiful little sigh.

“How…vulgar,” you finish, pulling away from him.

Geta watches you carefully. For once, he is without words. He swallows thickly. His eyes dart to one side for the briefest moment before meeting your gaze once more.

“This is a fool’s errand,” he says through clenched teeth.

It would sound threatening, if the waver in his voice wasn't his undoing.

“Then I am a fool,” you reply simply. “But I am a fool of my convictions.”

You try to brush by him when his hand suddenly lashes out, grabbing your arm. You stop quickly in your tracks, your heart beating at a racing pace. You keep your expression as neutral as you can manage.

“Oh, by all means, you may command me again,” you murmur. “But the victory will not be as sweet, I assure you.”

You have him there. Gently, you pluck at his fingers. To your surprise, he lets go as easily as that. For a moment, you watch each other, as if neither of you can dare to look away. To show weakness. Time seems to slow.

Geta is the first to break.

“What do you want of me?” he asks.

You pretend to think about it for a moment, before fixing him with a determined stare.

“Kneel," you reply simply.

Geta’s eyes widen, his expression a mixture of exasperation and anger.

“How dare-“

“Kneel, or leave me,” you say, as if he had not spoken. “Those are your choices.”

He opens his mouth again, and you wait for the inevitable chastising for daring to suggest that an Emperor commit such a lowly act that was to come.

But it does not.

Without breaking away from your gaze, Geta slowly sinks to his knees in front of you.

Surely the Gods have called you to them earlier than planned. You were insistent on breaking his resolve, but you had no idea that he would actually listen to you.

You must be dreaming. And what a beautiful dream he makes. His dark eyes are fixed on you; small, shallow breaths falling from his trembling lips.

Truly, he is a sight to behold.

Slowly, you reach out a hand, your touch light as you hook your fingers under his chin.

“Good boy,” you murmur, and the shudder that runs through him at your words will surely stay with you until your last mortal breath.

"What would you have me do?" he asks in a whisper.

You do not answer. Instead you run your thumb gently across his chin, back and forth, back and forth. He is trembling under your touch, you realise with a smile to yourself.

"What was it that you would have had me do?" you ask in turn.

You lean in closer to him, your grip on his chin tightening ever so slightly.

"When you came here, and so crassly asked me to kneel for you," you continue. "What was it that you desired of me?"

You drag your fingertips along the column of Geta's throat. He swallows thickly, and you feel the sensation against your skin.

"I…" he begins to say.

His voice cracks, and he falters.

“I wished to have you as you have me now,” he says at last, his voice rough.

“Go on,” you insist. “What was I to do?”

His tongue darts out to wet his lip. Shame burns at his cheeks. How it amuses you to see him like this.

“Is it not enough that you have humiliated me-” he starts, his temper flaring up once more.

You press a finger to his lips, silencing him.

“I have done no such thing,” you reply. “I have held no sword to your throat, no poison to your lips. I am but a woman before a God.”

You move closer still, your lips dangerously close to brushing against his.

“Though I did not know that Gods could be broken so easily,” you whisper with a wide smile.

You feel him lean in and you quickly pull back. He loses his balance and his hands reach out, pressing against your thighs to steady himself. You step out of his range entirely and he falls on all fours with a snarl.

You are enjoying yourself far too much.

“Please, finish your tale,” you say as you sit down once more.

Geta clenches his fists, but does not move.

“I would…I would have had you undressed. On your knees and entirely at my mercy,” he spits.

“Quite the picture you paint,” you muse. “But I wonder…”

You reach forward, your hands plucking the delicate laurels from atop Geta’s head. You gently twirl them back and forth in your grasp, admiring the craftsmanship of each detail.

Geta looks as though he wishes to squeeze the life from you. He does not move.

Without breaking his gaze, you gently place the laurels on yourself.

“I wonder if it would be as pleasurable as you say,” you finish with a mischievous smile.

You crook your finger in a pedantic manner at him, beckoning him closer to you. To your surprise, he obeys, crawling the short distance between the two of you.

You run your hand gently through his hair. His eyes slip closed at your touch. You drag your hand down to the base of his neck, where your grip suddenly tightens and you wrench his head back. A sharp hiss escapes his throat, but he does not move to stop you.

"You will undress," you tell him. "And you will not keep me waiting."

Geta looks at you with wide eyes, as if wondering where you have been hiding this side of yourself. You are wondering that yourself.

You hold his gaze, looking down the length of your nose at him from where you sit. Unblinking, unwavering. Daring him to defy you. The very image of an Empress.

Geta moves to stand, and you shake your head.

"Surely you can manage from where you sit," you say airily. "I have been witness to you doing so in much worse states."

He starts slow, dropping each piece of jewellery to the floor with a loud clatter, in the hopes of irritating you. You, by contrast, are thoroughly enjoying yourself. Finally, he begins to remove his robes, leaving them in a scattered heap on the floor.

He looks up at you again, feigning an air of disinterest. It does not fool you. The flush that runs from his neck to his chest speaks volumes. You lean forward, running your hands from the curve of his hips up across his torso to his chest, your fingertips skirting just shy of the places he desperately wants you to touch.

"How long do you intend to shame me like this?" he demands of you.

His voice is strained, choked even. He has never looked more beautiful to you than he does now.

"My dear husband," you coo, "You act as though this is torture."

Geta glares at you, and you laugh, a soft breath of a sound.

"You will give me what I want," you tell him, leaning back in your chair. "And we will have no more of this silly argument."

He opens his mouth to speak, when his gaze drifts downwards, to where you have begun dragging your stola up along your legs. You part your thighs, unable to hide the smile on your face at the sight of Geta's mouth dropping open.

"Wife," he manages to whisper, his mouth dry.

"Yes?" you ask innocently. "Whatever is the matter, husband?"

Geta has entirely given up on trying to remain angry with you. You know that look on his face all too well. He is a starving man, and you, you are a banquet laid out for him to indulge in.

You hold out your hands to him, and he tentatively takes them, allowing you to pull him closer. You can feel him trembling against you.

"I will show you what to do," you tell him in a patronising tone. "But you are a quick study, I am certain you will not disappoint me."

You place your hands on his face, nails gently scratching at his skin. He shivers, a soft moan involuntarily escaping him.

"Do not keep me waiting," you warn with a roguish smile.

You presume he will drag things out further, continue to argue, dress himself and storm out in a rage - but he surprises you, rough hands pushing at your thighs to give you exactly what you want from him.

A sharp gasp escapes your lips at the feel of his tongue against you. He is frantic, messy, pathetically inexperienced in his movements. But oh, how filthy he feels against you.

You drag your hands through his hair, gripping hard as you press yourself closer to his mouth. He groans then, and the vibration of it has your eyes rolling back.

You have never felt pleasure quite like it. It vexes you that he has kept an experience such as this from you for so long. All because of something as pitiful as his pride.

As you had suspected, Geta is indeed quick to learn, and he finally finds a rhythm that soon leaves you shaking against him. It's so much, too much all at once, and you try to press your legs closed, but his hands hold firm against you, keeping you open and pliant for him. Gods, how you adore him like this. As wanting and hungry as he has left you.

"That's it," you tell him, a tremor in your voice as your nails scratch at his scalp. "Good boy."

Your words elicit another moan from his pretty throat, and the sound of it, his mouth, his tongue, his desperation, has you falling from the precipice you have been so precariously dangling from. Your climax hits you like a shockwave, leaving you trembling and breathless against him. Geta does not stop, not until you release your grip on him.

He slowly sits up, still kneeling between your legs as he looks up at you. He has the audacity to look pleased with himself, but it is you who has truly won. After all, you were finally able to wear your prideful husband down to seeing how ridiculous he has been, even if he will never admit it.

He runs his tongue across his lips in a crude attempt to clean himself up, his dark eyes almost black with desire. You let out a breathless laugh, allowing yourself to slump into your chair.

"Surely you have something to say to me, do you not?" you ask, propping your chin against your hand.

Geta briefly breaks your gaze, a heavy breath escaping him. This is torment for him, and you know it. Knowing how desperate he is for your touch in this very moment, and here you are, demanding that he tell you that you were right.

How you revel in it.

"Wife," he starts.

It is an attempt to warn you, but he is so choked up in his need for you that it falls flat.

"Husband," you reply with a lazy smile.

"What would you have me say?" he says, words all but catching in his throat as you lean forward to take him in hand, touching precisely where he needs you right now.

"Tell me that I was right," you reply, stroking him in the exact manner that has him arching into your touch.

"You were-" he begins, stumbles, "Gods-"

"Say it," you murmur, "And I will give you exactly what you desire."

"Please," he whispers desperately, placing a hand on your cheek. "Wife, I-"

"Say it," you hiss, your touch teetering just on the edge of too much.

"You were right," he gasps, "You were right, I was wrong, just please, please-"

Never have you seen him in such a state. He is mesmerising, his eyes glassy as he aches for release.

And who are you to deny him, when he begs so prettily?

"Such a good boy you are, Geta," you whisper in his ear, and just like that, the sound of his name falling from your lips in such a sultry tone has him falling apart, unravelling in your grasp.

Geta all but collapses into your arms, a trembling mess.

It takes him a moment to return to himself, shaky little breaths escaping him as you hold him. Eventually, he rights himself, looking up at you. All of his rage, his fury, all of it has been washed away. He kneels before you not as a merciless Emperor, but as a mortal, who has been thoroughly put in his place.

You lightly brush your nose against his, and a small smile tugs at the corners of his mouth.

"Well?" you ask. "Have you quite learned your lesson?"

Geta attempts to glare at you, but the fight has truly left him. He places his hands on your face, pressing a soft kiss to your mouth.

"Perhaps...I will reconsider my opinion on the matter," he replies, almost shyly.

It is difficult not to feel smug, you must admit.

After all, you have won.

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st4rpiece · 6 months ago

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tall girl epidemic

SFW

characters: luffy, zoro, usopp, kidd x reader summary: op men who love tall women CW: jealousy (kidd) but aside from that just fluff [specified reader physical traits include: height (obviously), body scars, and multiple different body types (chubby/curvy, buff/muscular, skinny/slim)]

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Monkey D. Luffy

Since meeting you, Luffy hasn’t stopped lifting you up into the air for the silliest reasons. He wants a snack? Suddenly, you’re in his arms, tagging along to the kitchen. Running from an enemy? There you are again, scooped up like you’re part of the escape plan. It didn’t matter the situation—if Luffy decided it was easier to carry you, he’d do it without hesitation.

At first, it caught you off guard. After all, you weren’t exactly small. At 6’5, you were taller than most, and your solid frame was a testament to years of training and battle. You weren’t delicate or light, and yet Luffy carried you like it was nothing, grinning all the while like hauling you around was as easy as lifting a feather.

“Doesn’t this ever get tiring?” you’d finally asked one day, your tone half-amused, half-exasperated as he picked you up for the third time in a single afternoon.

He tilted his head, flashing you that carefree smile of his. “Nope!”

“Seriously?”

He giggled, spinning you once before setting you down gently. “I just like having you in my arms! You’re fun to carry.”

You rolled your eyes, crossing your arms over your chest. “I’m not a toy, Lu. If anything, I should be carrying you. It makes way more sense.”

“I don’t think so, plus you’ve carried me before,” he said with a dismissive wave of his hand, as if the occasional over the shoulder ride after a battle evened the score. “So it’s only fair I get to carry you too!”

You didn’t have much of a rebuttal for that, so you just sighed and let him have his way. Truthfully, you didn’t mind all that much.

Being with Luffy was exciting—not just because of the adventures or the friends you’d made thanks to him, but because of how he made you feel. You’d never been the type to consider yourself “delicate” or “soft.” You were a warrior in your country, someone who had earned her place through grit and strength. Your body bore the scars of countless battles, and your imposing stature had always been enough to make others think twice before approaching you.

But none of that seemed to matter to Luffy.

He never treated you like you were intimidating or unreachable. Instead, he saw you in a way no one else ever had—as someone strong, yes, but also someone worth cherishing. He didn’t limit your freedom or strength, didn’t try to box you into a role that didn’t fit. But somehow, even with all that respect, he still managed to make you feel like a fragile princess in the best way.

And it was never in a way that undermined who you were. He’d wrap you up in his stretchy arms when you were upset, pulling you into one of his over-the-top hugs, but he’d laugh and tell you how cool you looked when you took down an opponent twice your size, his eyes sparkling with admiration.

“That was amazing!“ he’d say with the same enthusiasm he gave to talking about meat or a beetle, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

It was strange at first, this mix of being treated like someone soft and someone indestructible, but Luffy had a way of balancing both without ever making it feel forced.

It was early in your relationship, when both developed the habit of sitting on the deck and watching the stars after dinner. You would fiddled with the brim of his hat that rested on your head as he leaned back, resting his arms behind his head.

“You know,” you started, your voice softer than usual, “I don’t really get you sometimes.”

“Huh? What’s there to get?” he asked, turning to look at you with wide, curious eyes.

You laughed lightly, shaking your head. “Just… the way you treat me, I guess.”

“What about it?”

“It’s just different from what i’m use to,” you admitted, your gaze dropping to the deck. “Most people either treat me like I’m too strong to need anyone or that I’m not…feminine enough to deserve proper treatment.”

Luffy frowned at that, sitting up and tilting his head. “That’s dumb.”

You looked at him, a little startled by the bluntness of his response. “What?”

“They’re dumb,” he said simply, shrugging as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. “You’re strong and you’re pretty. Why would it be one or the other?”

His words were so straightforward, so unfiltered, that you didn’t know how to respond. You could feel your cheeks warming, and you quickly looked away, pretending to adjust his hat.

“Anyway,” he continued, leaning back on his hands again, “I like you and the crew likes you just the way you are. And if other people can’t see how awesome you are, that’s their problem, not yours.”

You didn’t say anything for a moment, letting his words settle over you. Then, with a small smile tugging at your lips, you reached over and gently tugged on his cheek.

“Cheesy,” you muttered, but there was no heat behind your words.

“And you love it,” he teased, grinning as he leaned into your hand.

You couldn’t argue with that. And honestly, you didn’t want to. He was right, you did love it.

Roronoa Zoro

Zoro claimed he didn’t have a type. He wasn’t exactly experienced in the dating world, and honestly? He’d settle for the first person who asked him out. His standards when it comes to dating were low, maybe embarrassingly so. He figured relationships didn’t need to be complicated, and it doesn’t help that romance isn’t something he gives much thought to.

His ideologies for sure had Nami rolling her eyes so hard she nearly sprained something while she “convinced” him to go on this blind date. (Probably just mentioned sake).

“Don’t embarrass me,” she’d said, narrowing her eyes at him. “Just…try to be normal.”

Zoro wasn’t exactly sure what she meant by that, but here he was, sitting in a dimly lit restaurant and already regretting the whole thing. He didn’t have much in the way of expectations, and if he was being honest, he’d already been planning how to politely bail when the evening inevitably turned awkward.

What he wasn’t expecting, though, was you.

When the doors opened and you walked in, Zoro thought for a second that maybe Nami had set him up as some kind of joke. You were…tall. Really tall. At least 6’7, towering over everyone else in the room like it was nothing. But it wasn’t just your height that threw him for a loop. No, it was the way you carried yourself—strong and confident, with curves that made his mouth feel suddenly dry.

And then you smiled.

It was the kind of smile that could light up a whole damn room, warm and genuine, and Zoro had no idea what to do with himself. He froze in place, staring at you like an idiot as you approached the table.

But just as you reached it, you bumped into the corner, your face twisting into an embarrassed grimace as you muttered a barely audible, “Sorry.”

You adjusted your stance quickly, smoothing out your clothes before meeting his gaze. The confident smile returned, but there was a hint of nervousness in your eyes now as you introduced yourself, “…and you must be Zoro.”

Zoro blinked, realizing he’d been sitting there silently like a moron. He cleared his throat, his voice coming out rougher than he intended. “Uh…yeah. That’s me.”

For the first time in a long time, Zoro didn’t know what to say. You were stunning—intimidatingly so, but not in a bad way. More like in a way that made him feel completely unprepared.

“I, uh…didn’t expect…” He trailed off, realizing how stupid that sounded. He rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly, trying to find the words. “I mean…it’s nice to meet you.”

You smiled again, a little softer this time, and sat down across from him. The chair groaned slightly under your weight, but you barely seemed to notice. Zoro, however, was hyper-aware of everything about you—the way your hair framed your face, the faint scent of your perfume, and the way you fiddled with your hands nervously even though you looked like someone who could crush him without breaking a sweat.

“So,” you said, your voice breaking the silence, “should we just dive into the awkward small talk, or do you want to skip straight to figuring out if we’re compatible?”

Zoro smirked, the tension in his shoulders easing slightly. “Depends. What kind of small talk are we talking about?”

“Well, for starters,” you said, leaning in just a little, “what’s the deal with Nami setting us up? She made it seep like you were being held at gun point when you agreed to come.”

Zoro let out a low chuckle, shaking his head. “That’s ‘cause I was. Basically told me that I needed to stop being a ‘grumpy loner’ and put myself out there.”

“Well, are you a grumpy loner?” you teased, arching a brow.

“Depends on the day,” he replied, his lips twitching into a rare smile.

The conversation began to flow more naturally after that, and Zoro found himself surprisingly at ease in your presence. You were funny, sharp-witted, and refreshingly down-to-earth. And despite your intimidating height and striking appearance, you had this endearing mix of confidence and awkwardness that made Zoro’s chest feel…weird. Warm, maybe.

He wasn’t sure what it was yet, but one thing was certain: Nami might’ve been onto something.

And as the night went on, Zoro started thinking that maybe—just maybe—he had a type after all.

God Usopp

Usopp’s ability to turn his lies into facts never failed to amaze his crew, no matter how many times it happened. Whether it was fooling enemies into thinking he had an army at his back or convincing others he’d singlehandedly taken down giants, his bluffs always seemed to find a way to come true.

But this time, it felt like he might’ve gone too far.

The night had started innocently enough. They’d walked into the bustling bar, ready to unwind after a long day, and Usopp had quickly taken center stage, boasting to anyone who’d listen about his supposed luck with women. According to him, he had a magnetic charm—women practically threw themselves at him. He spun story after story, weaving tales of effortless flirtations and grand romances, all while nursing his drink like it was the elixir fueling his confidence.

The crew had been amused, as usual, letting him have his moment. That was, until he pushed his luck.

“I’ll prove it to you,” Usopp declared suddenly, slamming his glass down on the table for dramatic effect. “The next woman who walks through that door, I’ll ask her out!”

“Yeah, right,” Zoro snorted, leaning back in his chair with a skeptical smirk.

“Bet you a thousand berries you’ll chicken out,” Sanji added, lighting a cigarette.

Even Luffy was grinning ear to ear, clearly enjoying the show.

Fueled by their jeers and the buzz of alcohol in his system, Usopp puffed out his chest, confidence radiating off him. “Wait and see! I’ll show you virgin’s how it’s done!”

And then the door swung open.

You walked in, tall, curvy, and striking, with an air of quiet shyness that somehow made you even more intriguing. Your height was intimidating, sure—enough to make most people hesitate—but that didn’t stop the crew’s attention from snapping right to you.

Unfortunately for Usopp, his confidence evaporated the second he saw you. His jaw dropped slightly, and he sank lower in his seat, as if trying to disappear.

Too hot. Way too hot, he thought, panic rising in his chest.

There was absolutely no way he could approach you. But before he could retract his bold declaration, Luffy—ever the instigator—practically shouted across the bar:

“Hey Usopp, a girl just walked in!”

The room went quiet for a beat, every head turning toward your direction—including yours.

Usopp froze, his face turning beet red as the crew burst into laughter at his horrified expression. “Fuck,” he muttered under his breath, wishing the floor would swallow him whole.

“Don’t back out now, lover boy,” Zoro teased, raising his glass.

Sanji smirked, blowing out a puff of smoke. “Yeah, come on lover boy. Show us “virgin’s” how it’s done.”

It took a solid five minutes of relentless goading, prodding, and Sanji’s smug remarks before Usopp finally caved. His legs felt like lead as he dragged himself across the bar toward your table, his nerves threatening to take him out entirely.

You, meanwhile, had been watching the whole ordeal out of the corner of your eye, trying not to laugh. It was obvious the group of men was teasing him, but when you saw him hesitantly approach your table, his cheeks flushed and his hands fidgeting at his sides, something about his awkward determination made your heart skip.

“H-Hey,” he stammered, stopping in front of you. He scratched the back of his neck, avoiding eye contact as he forced himself to speak. “I, uh… I couldn’t help but notice you walked in, and, um…I just wanted to say you look—uh—really nice. Really, uh…really pretty, actually.”

Your face warmed at his words, and you offered him a small smile. “Thank you,” you said softly, finding his obvious nerves oddly endearing.

He exhaled sharply, relieved that you hadn’t immediately brushed him off. “So, uh…I was wondering if I could maybe, um, buy you a drink? If you don’t mind, that is.”

He was a stuttering mess, barely able to hold your gaze for more than a second, but his earnestness was hard to ignore.

You chuckled nervously, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. “Sure. I’d like that.”

The two of you spent the rest of the night talking, your initial shyness melting away as you realized just how much you had in common. Usopp, despite his earlier bluster, turned out to be easy to talk to once he got past his nerves. He told you about his adventures (embellished, of course), and you shared a few stories of your own, laughing at his exaggerated reactions.

By the end of the night, the two of you were sitting closer, your heads nearly touching as you exchanged quiet words amidst the noisy bar. When he finally asked for your number—his voice cracking slightly as he did—it was an easy “yes.”

When he returned to his crew, they were in shock.

“Huh, you actually got her number?” Zoro asked, raising an eyebrow.

Sanji looked like he was about to faint. “How?!”

Even Luffy was impressed, clapping Usopp on the back with a wide grin.

Usopp grinned cheekily, slipping his hands into his pockets as he tried to play it cool. “What can I say? The ladies can’t resist the great Captain Usopp.”

But the blush on his face—and the way his gaze kept darting back to you—told a different story.

Eustass Kidd

Kidd wasn’t a small guy—not in height, not in build, and definitely not in personality. He was used to being the one towering over others, the one commanding attention in every room. But then there was you.

You weren’t exactly small, either. You were tall enough to meet his gaze, tall enough that he had to actually look up when you wore certain shoes. And somehow, that fact alone drove him up the wall. It wasn’t just your height, either—it was the way you used it. The way you leaned down just enough to get in his face during arguments, a teasing smirk on your lips that made his blood boil. It wasn’t clear whether he wanted to bite you or kiss you senseless. Hell, maybe both.

Your slim, graceful frame only added to your air of superiority, and the way you carried yourself—poised and unapologetically confident, like some untouchable princess—clashed with Kidd’s brash, rough-edged demeanor in ways that sent sparks flying.

The first time you joined his crew, he’d made it very clear he wasn’t thrilled about the idea. “This ship has no room for some tall, prissy princess who can’t even fight properly,” he’d snarled, his tone biting.

Yet, every time the idea of you leaving came up, he was the first to shoot it down. He always had some half-baked excuse—“We need the extra hands,” or “No one else can handle that task but her.” But the truth was glaringly obvious to everyone but him: he didn’t want you to go.

You, of course, loved to needle him about it. Whether it was teasing him about his temper, calling him “short” just to see him fume, or subtly challenging his authority just to watch him rise to the bait, you knew exactly how to get under his skin.

And right now, you were doing it without even trying.

The crew was docked on an island for the day, giving everyone a much-needed break. While Kidd had been supervising repairs to the ship, you’d wandered off, only to bump into an old friend. Kidd hadn’t paid much attention until he turned around and saw you hugging some guy—a scrawny, soft-looking guy at that.

Normally, you brushed off men as if they were flies, always quick with a sharp word or a cold glare if they got too close. But now? You were smiling. Laughing. Letting this guy get all touchy, and even worse, you didn’t seem to mind. You’d even waved off the crew, saying you’d catch up later as you wandered off with him.

It was the first time Kidd had seen you without that infuriating sass, without the sarcasm or biting wit. And he hated it. He hated the way his chest tightened when you walked away. Hated the fact that the sight of you being soft with someone else was enough to ruin his mood for the rest of the day.

When you finally came back to the ship, he was waiting for you at the gangplank, arms crossed and a scowl on his face.

“Is that seriously your type?” he asked as soon as you got close.

You froze, your brows furrowing. “Excuse me?”

“Thought you would’ve had better taste,” Kidd said, scoffing. “That guy was so scrawny, it’s pathetic. There’s no way he could handle someone like you.”

You blinked, caught off guard. “Oh? And who said I wanted to be handled?”

His eyes narrowed, his lips curling into a smirk. “You’re a brat,” he said, his voice low and teasing. “Someone’s gotta handle that.”

You raised a brow, stepping closer, your tone dripping with mockery. “And who exactly do you think could “handle” me? You?”

Kidd let out a sharp laugh, one that had the crew glancing over in curiosity. “Damn right,” he growled, and before you could say another word, he grabbed you.

With an ease that startled you, he hoisted you over his shoulder, ignoring your yelp of surprise and the way you immediately started struggling.

“Kidd! Put me down, you overgrown idiot!” you shouted, kicking your legs as he started walking.

“Try asking nicely, princess,” he said with a cocky grin, as he continued to carry you below deck as if you weighed nothing.

By the time he dumped you onto the mattress in his quarters, you were fuming, your face hot with embarrassment. You scrambled to sit up, ready to give him a piece of your mind, but he cut you off, stepping closer and leaning down just enough to cage you in.

“You drive me crazy, you know that?” he said, his voice though quieter now, was still rough around the edges. “Always in my face, always mouthing off, always making me question whether I hate you or…” He trailed off, his gaze flickering down to your lips before snapping back up to meet your eyes.

You stared at him, your breath catching in your throat. “Or what?” you whispered, your voice unsteady.

“Or want you,” he finished bluntly. “And I’m sick of pretending it’s not the second one.”

Your heart skipped at his confession, and for once, you were at a loss for words. You’d always assumed he couldn’t stand you—that all the bickering and banter was just part of his general dislike for you. But now, with the way he was looking at you, his expression uncharacteristically soft, you weren’t so sure anymore.

Before you could gather your thoughts, he straightened slightly, his voice dropping. “Can I kiss you?”

The question caught you completely off guard, your cheeks heating as you stared up at him. Kidd never asked for anything—he just took. But now, with his sharp edges momentarily softened, waiting for your answer, it made your chest ache in a way you didn’t expect.

Swallowing your nerves, you nodded slowly. “Yeah,” you murmured.

The moment your words left your mouth, Kidd closed the gap, his lips meeting yours in a kiss that was surprisingly gentle. It wasn’t rushed or forceful—it was steady, deliberate, and filled with a heat that sent a shiver down your spine.

When he finally pulled back, he rested his forehead against yours, a rare, crooked smile tugging at his lips.

“You’re still a brat,” he muttered, his voice laced with affection.

“And you’re still an overgrown idiot,” you shot back, though there was no venom in your words.

He chuckled, his fingers brushing lightly against your jaw. “And yet you let this overgrown idiot kiss you.”

You didn’t have a clever comeback for that—not this time. Instead, you leaned up, pulling him back into another kiss, letting it speak for you instead.

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One Piece Masterlist

not proofread!!

i imagined reader to be over 6’ for those whose heights aren’t explicitly stated. also i am not tall so i hopefully i did the tall girlies justice!!

[willing to do a part two of this with any other op men or women :p]

also happy new year!!

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iholdwhatican · 1 year ago

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reunions

pairing: art donaldson x reader x patrick zweig

read part 2 here!

length: 3.8k

tags: y/n is art donaldson's wife ; birthday party ; surprise visit from patrick ; art is down bad ; patrick wants y/n ; possessive!art ; the boys are fighting ; no use of y/n ; pining ; sexual tension

summary: you want to make your husband's birthday special, so you invite his attractive, charming, estranged childhood best friend in the hopes that they'll make amends. surely nothing will go wrong, right?

author's note: i can't stop thinking about them i am so ill. this is the first of presumably many challengers works. and yes i did make a new blog just for this, don't judge me. this is a drabble that was stuck in my head but I do have more for it should it be wanted! preferably something that leaves you sandwiched in between them :3

originally posted by iholdwhatican

You told yourself this whole thing happened out of the goodness of your heart. You’d just wanted to be a good wife and make your husband’s birthday the best it could possibly be. Because Art Donaldson was the most amazing person you’d ever known, and he loved you, and he deserved the world. There was nothing off limits when it came to him, no line you wouldn’t cross.

You knew how much Patrick had meant to him, how much he missed his best friend. Your cheeks hurt from how wide the stories made you smile, how happy he sounded when he recounted the things he’d gotten into with the eccentric tennis player. And you knew how sad Art was that they didn’t talk anymore.

So what better time to remedy that than for his birthday? That was a wonderful surprise, right? Right?

Upon meeting Patrick Zweig, your first thought was how the hell this man got along so well with your Art. Not to say he was a bad person, but he was just so… much. He was cocky, indomitable, the kind of person that knew what he wanted and what he was worth and wouldn’t settle for anything less. He was a force not to be reckoned with, no matter what. He was also unbelievably charming (and not bad on the eyes, which you would never admit), and you hated the way his sweet-talking got under your skin.

He asked you how Art was. You told him he was fine. Retired, now. Making the most of a quiet life. You’d just celebrated 3 years of married life. He asked to see wedding photos and you didn’t miss the sadness in his eyes at missing the event. You happily obliged. It was the most romantic day of your life, after all.

And you couldn’t help but internally pat yourself on the back. Patrick missed him too. You could mend the broken bridge between them, and your husband would be thrilled. He’d reward you for your good work.

You asked Patrick to come to Art’s party. To make contact again. To come back into his world. He only hesitated for a moment, asked if Art knew and was okay with it.

The lie slipped off your tongue easily. Of course, he’s wanted this for a long time. It’s a surprise, but a most welcome one. You didn’t have details on what happened between them- only knew of a falling out while Art was in college- but it couldn’t be that bad. Anything could be overcome, right?

Patrick accepted and you hoped the lump in your throat was from excitement and not dread. You thanked him for meeting you, told him you’d forward him the details, and went back to your husband.

The day of the party came, and you were so nervous you could hardly take it. You’d spent the last couple of days working yourself into a frenzy, convinced that this reunion was a terrible idea and your husband would hate you. You had no right to bring an estranged friend back into his life, on his birthday no less. And without saying a word to him.

God, what the hell was wrong with you?

You gripped the edge of the kitchen counter and downed your third glass of water. It did nothing to soothe the dryness in your throat. Or the pounding of your heart. You wondered how fucked you’d be at the party if you took a Xanax right now. Or five.

Just then, Art peeked his head into the kitchen, donning a sweet smile when he spotted you. He looked as handsome as ever, sporting a well-fitting polo shirt and khakis. His hair was growing out again, starting to show those boyish curls you’d fallen in love with all those years ago. He made his way over to you, wedding band sparkling on his finger, and your heart melted.

You loved him so much. Had you ruined his birthday with your stupid meddling? Maybe even ruined your marriage?

“Hey, beautiful.” He greeted, sliding a hand around your waist and kissing your head. It was a familiar gesture, a normal one. He loved touching you, keeping you close. You loved it just as much, “The cake was just delivered. You went way overboard, as usual.”

You pretended you weren’t overcome with dread and cupped his cheek, “Shut up. There’s no such thing as overboard. You deserve this, okay? You deserve to be celebrated.”

Please, please don’t be mad at me for inviting him. For bringing him into our world. Please still love me. I did it for you. I’d do anything for you.

His eyes crinkled as he smiled- in that perfect way you adored so much. He leaned down to kiss you again, this time on your lips. It was gentle and caring and everything you were to each other. It made you want to cry. Art was everything. All you wanted was to give him the same.

The doorbell rang, breaking you two out of the moment, and your husband pulled away. He tucked a strand of hair behind your ear.

“Well,” He spoke, looking at you like there was nothing else in the world, “That must be our first guest.”

You hummed happily, “Guess it’s time to celebrate you, Birthday Boy. Shall we?”

“We shall.” He teased, doing a mock bow as he offered you his hand. You took it, laughing, and the two of you made your way to the front door.

You took a deep breath and tried not to focus on the unhappy way your stomach was churning.

The first hour of the party went by with a pleasant lack of reunions-turned-altercations. Patrick had yet to show his face, and you wondered if he might not come at all. Part of you was relieved at the idea, while the other couldn’t help but be frustrated.

He said he would come. What if the surprise didn’t end up being a bad thing? How would you know if he never showed?

God, you needed a cigarette.

You’d spent the entirety of the party so far glued to Art’s side, being his doting wife as you made conversation with everyone. Your eyes continued to stray to the door, looking for a certain dark-haired man. Every single time, you were disappointed. Disappointed, yes, but not surprised. From what you’d heard, Patrick wasn’t really someone who could be counted on a lot.

Maybe this whole thing was just a big mistake. And maybe the part of you that truly felt let down at not getting to see him again was something you should never, never look into.

You patted Art’s chest and stood on your tiptoes to whisper in his ear, “I’m gonna check on the food. I’ll be back.”

He nodded, smiled, and pressed a kiss to your temple. His arm released its grip on you and he continued his conversation with an old Stanford buddy without missing a beat. He was fucking incredible. At everything. You were crazy about him.

The food didn’t actually need to be checked on. The caterer was high-quality, and they knew better than to fuck up one of your events for your husband. You had full trust in them- you honestly just needed a breather. This whole night had felt like a cold fist clenched around your heart.

Instead, you grabbed yourself a large glass of wine and made your way to the patio to enjoy some cool night air.

The area was blessedly empty, allowing you to slip out of the hostess facade. You were more than happy to do it, especially when celebrating Art, but the circumstances tonight were making it much harder than usual. Which was, of course, entirely your own fault. Way to go, you! Knocked it out of the park tonight, didn’t you?

You sighed, leaned against the railing, and took a long gulp of your drink. The weather was slightly chilly, and it felt amazing against your heated skin. Already, you were finding it easier to breathe. And think, for that matter.

“Shouldn’t you be at the party, Mrs. Donaldson?” A familiar, spine-tingling voice spoke, breaking you out of your peaceful moment.

You whirled around, eyes landing on Patrick fucking Zweig leaning against the wall of your house. A lit cigarette hung from his lips, his hands nonchalantly tucked into the pockets of his dark jeans. They went well with the button-up shirt he wore, a stark contrast from the shorts and hoodie he’d had on when you first met. He looked good- really good. Enough to make a pit grow in your stomach.

“I thought you weren’t coming.” You blurted out, thankful that the darkness was shrouding your red face. His face was just barely illuminated by the orange glow of the cigarette, and you watched as he looked you up and down, “Also, how’d you get back here? I didn’t see you walk into the house.”

Patrick kicked off the wall and walked over to you, pulling the cigarette out of his mouth. His curls fell over his forehead, and you found yourself fighting the urge to brush them out of the way- the same way you always did to Art. You swallowed deeply. What the hell was wrong with you?

“I told you I’d come, didn’t I?” He responded matter-of-factly, blowing a puff of smoke into the air. The smell made you nostalgic. You and Art had made a pact years ago to quit together, but God did you miss it sometimes. You licked your lips and tried (and failed) not to stare, “I snuck in through the back. Thought it’d be less messy that way.”

You had no idea how he’d been able to get back here, but you decided you weren’t gonna ask. It didn’t matter in the long run, anyway. Besides, he was probably right. You had no idea how Art was gonna react, and it was smart to have it happen in an isolated area.

“Probably smart.” You muttered, taking another swig of the wine. The feeling of his eyes stayed on you, burning into your skin, but you didn’t meet his gaze. You didn’t want to think too hard on why.

“He doesn’t know you reached out to me.” It wasn’t a question, but you responded to Patrick’s words regardless. He’d find out eventually.

“No.” The admittance came out with a heavy breath, like you were releasing the weight that had been on you all night. In a way, you were. You ran a hand over your forehead, “I don’t know what happened between you two, he doesn’t talk about it. But I just- I’m terrified he’ll hate me for bringing you.”

Why the hell were you pouring your heart out to this stranger? What was it about him that drew you in so much and made you want to bring down your walls? How was this charming man already under your skin from one damn meeting? And how the fuck were you supposed to explain any of this to your husband, his estranged best friend?

You needed another drink. Or ten.

“You really love him.” Again, not a question. But you answered. You had to.

“More than anything else in this world.”

Patrick offered you his half-smoked cigarette and you took it without thinking. The sting of the smoke in your lungs was like coming home. It was so good it almost made you cry. But lots of things made you want to cry right now. You could taste mint on the cigarette, like he’d been chewing gum before lighting up. The same kind Art always chewed.

It made something flip in your stomach.

“Well, from what I can tell, you’re pretty great. Super caring, based on how far you went in an attempt to make him happy. Shit, you tracked me down, which is a feat in itself. And you’re gorgeous, obviously. I’m surmising that you’re basically the whole package.” He spoke calmly, as if every one of those words didn’t make your heart jump into your throat. You chugged your drink to use it as an excuse for your rosy cheeks, “So I don’t think there’s any way he could hate you. Even for inviting me here.”

You were speechless for five long seconds as he took the cigarette back and inhaled. Then you finally got your brain to stop lagging, “You don’t even know me.”

“I know enough.” He countered, continuing the pass back and forth of the cigarette, “And I know Art. He wouldn’t marry someone beneath him. The fucker somehow always gets the ones way out of his league.”

You didn’t comment, but you knew what Patrick was referring to. Tashi Duncan. The now pro-tennis player that he’d had a thing with back in the day. You didn’t know the details, but you knew she was a point of contention between the two men.

Honestly, you tried not to think about Tashi. She was gorgeous, super talented, and an overall seemingly great person. Art had passed up on that for you, and it got to your head a lot. You wondered if he regretted it. Or at least wondered what his life could’ve been like.

You didn’t think you were out of his league. In fact, you thought the opposite. Not that you needed to tell Patrick that. Your insecurity and jealousy issues could stay yours alone.

“Well, I don’t know about that.” You murmured.

The cigarette began to dim as you took the last drag, flicking it off the balcony and down into the grass below. With both the alcohol and nicotine gone, you started to think you probably needed to get back to the party. Your husband would be looking for you, and you didn’t want to keep him waiting. You just had to figure out how Patrick would fit into the equation.

“If you weren’t taken, I’d be trying to charm the fuck out of you right now.”

The statement caught you completely off guard. You looked over at him, eyes wide, and tried to keep your cool at the sexy smirk on his face. God, he was so fucking attractive.

You blinked once, twice, a third time, “What?”

His smile grew at your flustered state, “I have great taste in women, and I’d flirt with you if I could. So I’m saying you’re definitely a catch. And totally out of Art’s league.”

You licked your lips. Subconsciously, “I’m pretty sure that was flirting.”

“Was it?” He didn’t even have the decency to look ashamed, “Oops.”

You ran your finger over the rim of your wine glass, trying to think of something to say. You came up empty. You were married- to this man’s childhood best friend. To the love of your life. He shouldn’t be flirting with you. And you definitely shouldn’t be enjoying it.

“There you are! I was starting to worry.” Art’s voice broke the tense silence, and you turned around to watch him making his way to you with a smile. Then he spotted Patrick and his smile dropped as his face filled with recognition, “You- what the hell are you doing here?”

You opened your mouth to speak, to explain and mediate the situation, but the dark-haired man beat you to it.

“Your pretty little wife invited me.” He said, which was probably the worst thing he probably could’ve chosen. You internally buried your face in your hands.

Art’s jaw clenched and his eyes lit up. It took you a moment to realize that the expression was anger. Honestly, it took you by surprise. It was extremely rare to see him angry, and never was it directed at you. And though he was looking at Patrick, you were terrified that in this instance it was.

“Let me explain.” You immediately choked out, clutching your empty wine glass like a lifeline, “I really just thought that-”

“She thought you missed me and wanted us to reconnect. As a birthday surprise. Isn’t that sweet?” Patrick butted in, throwing an arm over your shoulders. Art looked ready to murder someone (probably the tennis player holding you), “I doubt it was easy contacting me, but she managed. All for you.”

You laughed nervously, ducking your head, “Well, that’s not-”

“Let go of her.” Art demanded. His voice was cold and dangerous. Possessive. It made something twitch in your core. Oh, you liked that.

The brunette didn’t hesitate to do as he was told, holding his hands up in surrender, “My bad, man. I just feel like we’re already such close friends from hanging out together. Don’t you think so?”

The last part was directed at you, and Patrick nudged you. You gave him an incredulous look.

The charming, sweet man you’d just been talking to was gone. He was replaced by a cocky, near-disrespectful antagonist who was trying to egg your husband into some kind of altercation. And he was using you as the bait.

You couldn’t lie that you were frustrated, but it did feel a bit nice to be in an almost tug-of-war between the two men. You liked being an object of affection or desire.

“You should head inside, baby.” Art spoke to you, though his furious gaze never left Patrick, “Our guests will wonder where the hosts went. I’m gonna talk to Patrick for a minute.”

You’d be damned if you told him no. Even though this situation felt like a mess that was definitely all your fault. Damn you for inviting Patrick. Damn him for being so captivating. And damn Art for loving you so much that the sight of another man touching you made him see red. This entire thing was like a whirlwind.

“Okay…” You whispered, moving towards your husband and the house. You gave Patrick a small smile, hoping to convey your thoughts to him. Please don’t hurt him- he’s my world. Then you stopped at Art’s side and placed a hand on his bicep, “I’m sorry if this was a bad idea. I just wanted to make your birthday special, is all. I didn’t mean to fuck it up.”

He finally looked at you, just long enough to give you a loving smile and a shake of his head, “You didn’t ruin anything. I’m so proud of you for doing all this for me. Don’t worry.”

Then he kissed you, only to stop and pull away, “Is that- were you smoking with Patrick?”

You sucked on your teeth and nodded, “Yes, a little. I’m sorry. I just-”

But then he was kissing you again, hard and needy. Like he wanted to fuck you right then and there. Your face burned bright red, and you could feel Patrick’s eyes on the two of you. Art had never acted like this in all the time you knew him. But right now, within thirty seconds of being around his old friend, he was putting on a show to prove that you were his.

You belonged to him. And he wanted Patrick to know it.

You really, really fucking liked this.

When he pulled away, you felt dizzy. From both the kiss and the wine you’d downed. You barely had time to take a breath before he was lightly patting your cheek and sending you inside. You managed to take a look at the two men before rejoining the party. They just stared at each other, like they were in a standoff.

It was unbelievably hot.

As you went back to your guests, lips still tingling, only one thought was coming to you.

You wondered how long you could keep Patrick around, just to see what it would do to your precious husband.

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illbegottenfaith · 7 months ago

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lucky pt 3 - theo nott x reader

Theo doesn’t seem to care about you, and you can only lie to yourself that it doesn’t bother you for so long

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

a/n - the final part! so happy to finally write a happy ending :’) wasn’t planning on writing this until my finals were over but um here we are 🙈

tropes/warnings - tw smoking, a lil slapstick comedy ft the other slytherin boys, slight platonic hurt/comfort, angst, soft ‘smut’ (quite mild idt it warrants an 18+ tag)

word count - 3.4k

Two can play a game.

A week had passed since you submitted your Potions project, and after that one night of Theo staying up to help you, things went back to going from bad to worse. What were once paltry tiffs had now disappeared altogether. Theo attended and left lessons as if you didn’t exist. And you supposed you didn’t. At least, not to him.

Ivy worried over you, bless her. She’d noticed how listless and distracted you’d gotten, how much more prone you were to staying holed up in your room, how exhausted you seemed by the most mundane tasks. But this was something even she couldn’t help with. No one could help, you decided mournfully, resting your head against your dorm’s cool window pane. So here you were, staring out the window at 6.30 am on a Monday morning with irritated and aching eyes after a restless night of tossing and turning.

That was when you decided that the only thing there was to be done in a situation like this was to do what you did best - going head-to-head with Theodore Nott. He wasn’t the only one who could play at being emotionally avoidant, and it would be a cold day in hell before you let Theodore Nott best you in anything, including this.

And ignore him you did. You didn’t know or care if he noticed, but soon your already limited interactions became highly unabsorbing and apathetic. You barely acknowledged him in your shared classes. You matched every careless toss of his head with one of your own. As little as Theo cared, you could care even less.

Finals came and went. The morning after your last paper Ivy came barging into your room, demanding you come for an end-of-semester gathering by the Great Lake the next day. No amount of begging or burying your head in your pillow seemed to deter her. She was determined to see you there even if she had to drag you out herself, the recluse that you had become. She finally left after you very unsportingly relented and unsuccessfully tossed a book at her head.

You were already regretting being worn down by the next morning when you were deciding what to wear. Was Theo going to be there? Not that it mattered. You weren't about to pick an outfit around a guy who may or may not be present.

You met Ivy and Katie near the castle entrance and once you started walking down to the lake, you started feeling better about your decision. The weather was surprisingly cooperative and it was perfect picnic weather, if a little windy. It was a little early, only shortly after breakfast, and the refreshments were still being set up. From the few that had already arrived, it seemed to be a rather intimate gathering of mostly familiar faces. If you were especially lucky, Theodore Nott might not make an appearance at all.

You watched a group of Slytherin boys flail and struggle to set up a folding picnic table and put a sheet over it. Enzo Berkshire had flopped onto the table to stop the sheet from flying off while the table groaned underneath his weight. Draco Malfoy was crossly telling him off and trying to get him to stand while Mattheo Riddle stood a little to the side, still frowning over the table's instructions. Draco had now moved onto threats when there was a terrible creaking sound and the table collapsed under Enzo.

"I was just about to say," Matheo started offhandedly, while Enzo moaned pitifully, "I don't think we put the table together right."

"I told you we should have waited for Theo."

Speak of the devil.

“Ladies,” Theo drawled from behind, in his appealingly lazy accent. You turned to see Theodore in a relaxed button-down folded at the elbow, wearing a simple but likely designer pair of black sunglasses, holding a red solo cup. You instinctively glanced at his tanned forearms before snapping your gaze back to his face. Did he notice? It was hard to tell with the sunglasses.

“Hi, Theo,” Ivy said awkwardly when you stubbornly refused to respond. “What's that you got there?”

"Punch. Enzo had me taste test it."

"Oh. Is it good?"

He gave a wry smile. You wanted to roll your eyes. You had no patience to tolerate his irritating posh affectations.

"A little strong for my taste, but it'll do."

"Have you seen Ivan?"

He waved his hand carelessly. “He’s…around.” He turned, peering in the distance. “Right. There he is, by the steps. He’s bringing the drinks.”

“I’ll go help him!” Before you could reel Ivy back in and threaten her to stay with you, she was already halfway down the path, heading straight for her boyfriend. You scowled, your impassive mask shattering. You turned back to see Theo grinning at you with his stupidly mysterious sunglasses and you shot him a dirty look.

“Nice weather we’re having, hm?”

You schooled your features and shrugged noncommittally. The silence stretched unbearably between the two of you. Theo vaguely gestured to the boys with his cup.

“I should help them with the table."

You stayed tight-lipped, refusing to give in to the sense of camaraderie he seemed to be trying to foster with you. After all, you weren't friends. He made sure of that.

As he set his cup down and started looking over the instructions with Mattheo, Ivy returned, drinks and Ivan in tow.

“Punch?”

You raised your eyebrows. Even from a distance, the bowl reeked of booze. Still, you accepted a cup, downing it even as your eyes watered. You pulled a face.

“Merlin, that’s awful. Pour me another.”

You ended up sitting in a cluster of lawn chairs around a picnic blanket with Ivy, Katie and some other girls in your year. You were all giddily tipsy and in very silly moods, gossiping and swapping terrible first date stories.

The drunker and drunker you got, the harder it was to pull your eyes away from Theo. After all, as your inhibitions dissolved, what was there to stop you from glaring a hole into his skull?

Not that he noticed. He was sitting some distance away with his own friends, examining the bottom of his red Solo cup disinterestedly. The other Slytherin boys were absorbed in a spirited game of Exploding Snap. In the unassuming midday sun creeping up on them, he was a refreshing sight, sleek and cool in ways mere mortals could only dream of wishing for.

You scoffed under your breath. What, were his childhood friends too boring for him? Was that it? Who the hell did he think he was, anyway? You had half a mind to strip naked and run into the lake. Maybe that would finally be captivating enough for the oh-so-hard-to-impress Theodore Nott.

How many other girls did he help write essays for late into the night, letting them doze, holding their hand? You shook yourself. He never held your hand. He helped you with your project, brought you breakfast, and that was it. Still, your gaze stayed fixed on the back of your hand. Whatever possessed you to think he held your hand?

The sky had gotten a little cloudy. Theo pulled off his sunglasses, blinking, and cast his eyes around, looking for a place to put them. Finally, he settled on hooking them on the open collar of his shirt and looked rather pleased with himself. It was almost endearing.

Your gut told you to avert your gaze, but you didn't, and the next second his gaze was on you. For the first time in weeks, his eyes met yours, intense and unforgiving. You told yourself it was just his gaunt complexion and bruise-like eyebags, but that didn’t stop your throat from seizing with some inexplicable want. Even when he moved away to rejoin his friends, your skin tingled; your body positively thrummed with it. Any hope of playing at sanity was out the window at this point. No, you just had to accept that the two of you would always be unfinished business.

But that was it - he wasn’t playing at this like you were. This was all a pretence for you; the unaffected stares, the nonchalant nods, the afterthought smiles. This was all just you pretending you weren’t watching his every move. Pretending your attention wouldn’t stay fixed on him in a room full of burning bodies.

But he wasn’t pretending. Not for one second.

All of a sudden, you felt queasy. You were going to be sick.

"Y/N?" Ivy was saying, looking concerned as you unsteadily got to your feet. You could feel the back of your neck prickling with Theo still watching you.

"I'm - I'm fine," you slurred, fanning yourself weakly. "Stay - I'm okay. Just...s'hot. Need to -"

You put your cup down somewhere, stumbling back to the castle as fast as you could, your head spinning as the ground wobbled dangerously under you. You weren't sure how but you somehow made it to your dorm, flung open the bathroom door and reached the toilet just as your stomach started emptying its contents.

You vaguely registered that you had never been this drunk - it felt like you were slipping in and out of consciousness. You were only distantly aware of a familiar pair of hands holding your hair back, rubbing soothing circles on your back as you heaved. It was a cathartic kind of release, a purging of all the toxic anxiety that had been festering inside of you. And just like that, a dam broke. You started crying, sobbing like the world was ending, slumped against your best friend.

“Oh, Y/N…”

“I don’t understand,” you choked out, leaning your forehead against the tiled bathroom wall. “Why doesn’t he like me anymore? Why does he h-hate me?”

Ivy delicately smoothed some of your unruly hair down. “He doesn’t hate you, honey.”

“I’m not a k-kid, Ivy," you hiccuped. "You don’t have to lie to protect my feelings.”

Ivy hugged you close as you sniffled. “I’m going to kill that asshole if Ivan doesn’t beat me to it.”

“No,” you said in a shaky voice, gingerly sitting up. “Promise me you won’t tell Ivan.”

“Y/N - “

“They’re friends! I don’t want to spoil that for him.”

“Trust me, if he knew what Theo was doing, he wouldn’t be feeling all that friendly.”

“Don’t, Ivy,” you pleaded. “This is just…it’s just between us. I’m fine, I swear.”

Ivy looked highly unconvinced. You let out a frustrated sigh.

“Look, at least give me a week to work through this on my own, alright? Then you can sic your boyfriend on Nott.”

“You’ve already had your week. Weeks, in fact.”

“Ivy.”

She pursed her lips. “Fine.”

You felt a lot more sober after throwing up. But you still weren't feeling up to returning to the party, so once you finally managed to shake Ivy off, you wandered the deserted halls of Hogwarts. Just like that one evening lifetimes ago, when Mattheo had insinuated Theo might have a thing for you in the library, you ended up at the Astronomy Tower.

It was peaceful. You could see why Theo liked to come up here to think. You looked up as you heard a scuffling sound from behind one of the pillars, near one of the stone arch windowsills. You walked over to find Theo sitting there, smoking, his long legs barely fitting across the length of the window. He didn't expect to see you either, if the way the cigarette was dangling from his lips was any indication.

“Put that out.”

It was the first thing you had said to him in weeks. You felt almost as surprised as he looked. He started, as if he had forgotten about the cigarette, and took another puff.

“I said,” you started again, half-heartedly raising your voice, “put that out.”

It was weak and unsurprisingly ineffective. If Theo picked up on what it truly was, a plea for normalcy, he didn’t let on.

Your already thin patience snapped. You stalked over, stealing the cigarette from his lax fingers. What you weren't expecting was Theo's fingers closing around your other wrist and firmly pulling you down to press his mouth hard against yours. It was a clumsy mess of teeth and tongues as you ungracefully reached for his arms to steady yourself. His grip lessened when he got the inkling you weren't about to pull away and sock him in the jaw. His hands drifted to your waist as the two of you fumbled for a more proper kiss. You could taste the lingering salt of the cigarette and your senses felt overwhelmed by the distinct feel of Theodore Nott.

“Tesoro -“ he wheezed, twisting away from where your hand had dropped to his bicep, the smouldering cigarette having singed through his shirt.

“Shit, sorry. How do you -?”

Theo plucked the cigarette from your hand and dropped it on the floor, grinding it with the heel of his shoe. He looked up to where you were still hovering above him before pulling you down into his lap by your hips. He grabbed your wrists, placing your hands on his shoulders, and you had to bite back a smile over how adorably particular he was.

“Telling me where to place my hands? And I thought I was the bossy one.”

Theo quirked an eyebrow. "Maybe I'm just sick of waiting." He tipped his head back against the rough stone wall. "And...wanting."

You smoothed a thumb across his collarbone, not missing the way he shivered under your touch. “So what do you want, Nott?”

He tipped you forward, kissing you much more properly this time. You didn't bother pulling much away as you broke apart, whispering with your faces inches away.

“We're actually doing this.”

“Seems so.”

He cupped your face, swiping a thumb under your eyes as his expression flickered.

“Were you…crying?”

You sniffed, dragging his hand off your face, and looking away. "Just - allergies."

Theo blinked, watching your face with a stunned (and slightly dumb) expression as if you hadn't said anything.

“But you never cry.”

You gave a bitter smile. “Congratulations, Nott. You’re officially the first person to ever reduce me to tears.” You desperately hoped he would drop the subject. Just talking about it was enough to make you want to start sobbing again.

"Did someone say something to you? I swear I - it's not because of me, is it?"

Your face crumpling was the only confirmation he needed. “It was like you - I don’t know. Like you hated me, or something.”

Theo captured your hands in his own where they had slid down to his chest. “I….hate you?”

“Or something. Probably the something.”

“But - why? How? If anything, I’d say you hated me.”

Your lips parted as your brow furrowed. “What gave you that idea?”

“What gave me the - I don’t know, all the scowling? The glaring? The snide remarks? The bodily harm?”

You flushed at the memory of the Potions storeroom incident. You could kind of see his point. “That was one time.”

“You owe me new pants, by the way. New pants and a new di-“

You muffled his rant with a kiss and instantly felt him relax beneath you, the tension and annoyance draining from his limbs as he moulded your body to fit more perfectly against his. So eager, so insistent, so different from the past couple of weeks.

“I don’t know," you started once you pulled away. "This felt worse than hate. It felt like…like you couldn’t even be bothered to hate me." You swallowed hard, eyes fixed on where you were fidgeting with the edge of his shirt's collar. "As if that was how little you thought of me.”

"Mia cara," he sighed, almost dejectedly. "Small is the last thing I think of you." He ran a hand through his hair frustratedly, searching for the right words.

“I’m not good at expressing…fondness.”

“No. You don’t say.”

He wet his lips. You could see the smile he was holding back.

“I’m not good at being honest or direct. Everything - my mind, it’s a mess, it’s always about what I want, and how to get what I want, I never - I never meant to make you feel that way."

Maybe it was still all part of some elaborate scam. But sitting there with the rough stone arch digging into your sensitive skin, the distant scent of holding Theo's face in your hands like he was moonlight, you believed him. You didn't even have to try. You just did.

“I’m not used to playing the part of the fool, bella. But when I see you smile, or read, or fiddle with your hair…" He reached out to free the lock of hair you were nervously tugging on, "...I never feel more foolish.”

"I don't think I've ever hated you either, for the record," you said, smoothing out his shirt where you had crumpled it in your fists. "I might have thought I did, but..." you trailed off, looking into his mesmerisingly blue eyes. No, you decided softly, you never could hate the boy.

"I never thought anything could come of us. You were - you are - so brilliant. You're on the road to brilliant things. I was only going to get in the way. And...I don't think I could live with myself if I did." He glanced up and, seeing the crestfallen look on your face, hastily amended his statement.

"That, and you had no patience for pretty boys.”

You scoffed half-heartedly. “I have no patience for you, either.”

Theo grinned, shifting you up his lap, as if you could never be close enough to him. He looked so carefree you couldn’t hold back a small smile of your own. “You keep me so humble.”

“I try.”

The two of you stayed like that for a while, tracing burning expanses of skin, staring at each other like you could never get your fill. You’d occasionally press soft kisses down his neck and jaw while his hands would drift up your ribcage or down your thighs. Both of you moved at an unhurried pace, because now you had all the time in the world to have and hold each other.

“It’s getting late,” you murmured, hours later, now tucked into Theo’s side as you lightly traced shapes on his chest. It was pleasantly warm and given the late hour, you could feel your eyelids growing heavier. When he didn't respond, you lifted your head.

Beneath you, Theo breathed deeply and evenly, looking half-asleep. You rolled your eyes and gave him a hard jab in the ribs.

“Hey. Nott.”

Theo grunted, stirring, swatting your hand away. You grinned to yourself - annoying Theo would never lose its appeal. Eyes still closed, his hand haphazardly searched for you to once again pull you against him. You ignored his efforts, deliberately unhelpful.

“You need to pick another name, y’know. This whole last-name business isn’t going to fly as my girlfriend.”

You felt yourself unreasonably perk up over his words. “Your girlfriend? Me?”

He cracked an eye open. “I thought the exclusivity thing was obvious. You're a serial monogamist.”

“Yeah, but you’re not.”

Theo groaned, too tired to keep up with you. He rolled you onto your back and propped himself up with a forearm. You giggled softly, flustered by the heat in his gaze.

“Then I guess you’re lucky I like kissing you the best, amore.”

He dropped his head, and you got the distinct impression you could never tire of the feel of his hands and lips on you.

“What were you saying before?” Theo inquired, while his hands continued their distracting exploration under your clothes.

“It’s late.”

“Right.”

“You have Charms right after breakfast. We should,” your breath hitched, “um, go to bed.”

Theo grumbled something in the crook of your neck, sending the most delicious vibrations down your spine.

"Fine," you sighed, encircling your arms around his neck. "Five more minutes."

He barely made it in time for Charms the next morning.

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elryuse · 25 days ago

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Her Latest Addiction Pt.6

Ryujin X Male Reader

Tags : Teasing, Mischievous Ryujin, Dirty Talking, Blowjobs, Handjobs, Public

Words : 4,726 Words

A Continuation Of Her Latest Addiciton Pt.5 & A Lovely Commision Work For My Friend @Pizza_anon From Ko-Fi. Hope Y'all Enjoyed the Story.

The drive to Ryujin’s hometown was a long one, but the air between us was electric. We’d barely been in the car for an hour, and already she was up to her usual mischief. Her hand rested lightly on my thigh, her fingers tracing idle patterns that made it impossible to focus on the road. I shot her a warning look, but she just smirked, her eyes glinting with that familiar playful defiance.

“Eyes on the road, Mr. President,” she teased, her voice low and husky. “Wouldn’t want you getting us into an accident.”

“Then maybe you should keep your hands to yourself,” I retorted, though my voice lacked any real bite. God, she knew exactly how to push my buttons.

She leaned closer, her breath warm against my ear. “But what if I don’t want to?”

I could feel the heat rising in my cheeks, but I kept my gaze fixed on the highway ahead. “Ryujin…”

She laughed softly, a sound that sent shivers down my spine. “Relax, baby. We’ve got all summer. I’m just warming up.”

Warming up. Those two words alone were enough to make my heart race. What did she have planned?

By the time we pulled into her neighborhood, the tension between us was palpable. Her hometown was quaint, the kind of place where everyone knew everyone else, and the streets were lined with cherry trees in full bloom. It was a stark contrast to the bustling campus life we were used to, but something about it felt… intimate.

Ryujin’s house was at the end of a quiet cul-de-sac, a modest two-story home with a welcoming front porch. Her parents greeted us warmly, her mom pulling me into a tight hug and her dad clapping me on the back.

“It’s so good to finally meet you,” her mom said, her smile warm and genuine. “Ryujin’s told us so much about you.”

I glanced at Ryujin, who was grinning like the cat that got the cream. “All good things, I hope.”

Her mom laughed. “Of course! Though I’m sure there’s plenty she’s left out.”

Ryujin rolled her eyes. “Mom, stop embarrassing me.”

We spent the rest of the evening settling in, unpacking our things in the guest room that would be ours for the summer. As soon as the door closed behind us, Ryujin turned to me, her eyes dark with mischief.

“So,” she purred, stepping closer. “Just you and me. All summer long.”

I swallowed hard, my pulse quickening. “Ryujin… your parents are right downstairs.”

She smirked, her fingers trailing up my chest. “They’re not paying attention. Besides, you’re not going to let something like that stop you, are you?”

I caught her wrist, my grip firm but gentle. “Behave.”

She pouted, her lower lip jutting out in that way that always made it impossibly hard to resist her. “You’re no fun.”

I leaned in, my voice a low murmur. “Oh, I’m plenty of fun. But we’ve got all summer, remember? No need to rush.”

Her eyes flickered with something—challenge, desire, maybe both. “Fine. But you’re going to owe me.”

I chuckled, releasing her wrist. “I’m sure I will.”

The days that followed were a strange mix of relaxation and tension. We spent our mornings exploring the town, visiting little cafes and shops, and afternoons lounging in the backyard under the shade of an old oak tree. But no matter where we were or what we were doing, there was always that undercurrent of something more, something simmering just beneath the surface.

It was during one of those lazy afternoons that Ryujin decided to test my limits. We were lounging on a blanket in the backyard, the sun casting dappled light through the leaves above. She was lying on her stomach, her chin propped on her hands, her eyes half-lidded as she watched me.

“You know,” she said, her voice casual but laced with something else, “I’ve been thinking.”

“About what?” I asked, though I had a feeling I already knew.

She grinned, her fingers idly tracing patterns on the blanket. “About how long it’s been since I’ve had you all to myself. No school, no students, no interruptions…”

I raised an eyebrow. “Is that so?”

She nodded, her gaze never leaving mine. “Mmhmm. And I’ve been thinking… maybe it’s time to make up for lost time.”

My heart skipped a beat, but I kept my expression neutral. “Is that a threat or a promise?”

She laughed softly, the sound sending a shiver down my spine. “Both.”

Before I could respond, she shifted, moving so that she was straddling my hips. Her hands rested on my chest, her fingers splayed against my shirt.

“Ryujin,” I warned, my voice low.

She leaned down, her lips brushing against my ear. “Don’t worry, baby. I’m just… teasing.”

Her words were punctuated by the lightest nip at my earlobe, and I couldn’t suppress the shiver that ran through me.

“You’re playing with fire,” I murmured, my hands settling on her hips.

She smirked, pulling back just enough to meet my gaze. “And you love it.”

I did. I couldn’t deny it. But I also knew where this was heading, and if we weren’t careful, we’d be caught in a very compromising position.

“Ryujin,” I said again, my voice firmer this time.

She sighed, but there was a glint of mischief in her eyes as she slid off me, lying back down on the blanket. “Fine. But don’t think I’m done with you.”

I chuckled, though my pulse was still racing. “I wouldn’t dream of it.”

As the sun dipped lower in the sky, casting the backyard in a warm golden glow, I couldn’t help but wonder what the rest of the summer had in store. With Ryujin, it was always something unpredictable.

And as her fingers brushed against mine, her touch light but deliberate, I knew one thing for certain: this was only the beginning.

The dining table was set with care, the aroma of a home-cooked meal wafting through the air as you and Ryujin sat down, the atmosphere warm and inviting. Ryujin, ever the wild card, lounged casually in her seat, her head resting in your lap as she scrolled lazily through her phone. Her dark hair spilled over your thighs, and her presence was both comforting and electrifying. You ran your fingers through her silken strands absentmindedly, the quiet intimacy of the moment wrapping around you like a well-worn blanket.

“You comfortable down there?” you teased, your voice low and soft.

She smirked, her eyes never leaving the screen. “Mhm. Best seat in the house.” Her tone was playful, but there was a glint of something else in her gaze—something that made your heart skip a beat.

Then, suddenly, she gasped, her body tensing in your lap. You froze mid-stroke, your hand halting in her hair. “What’s wrong?” you asked, concern lacing your voice.

She sat up abruptly, her phone clutched tightly in her hand. “They’re on their way home,” she said, her voice a mix of shock and excitement. Her eyes met yours, wide and unreadable.

“Who is?” you asked, though you already had an inkling.

“My family,” she clarified, her lips curling into a mischievous smile. “They’re coming back. Like, now.”

Your heart leapt, a mix of excitement and nerves bubbling in your chest. “That’s great,” you said, genuinely happy. But before you could process the news fully, Ryujin’s expression shifted, her smirk deepening. She leaned in closer, her lips brushing against your ear as she whispered, “We’ve got maybe 20 minutes.”

Your breath hitched. “Ryujin…”

She didn’t let you finish. In one swift motion, she slid under the table, her face now level with your lap. Her hands rested on your thighs, her fingers lightly trailing up and down your inner legs, sending shivers up your spine. Her eyes locked onto yours, dark and smoldering, and you knew there was no stopping her.

“Ryujin, we can’t—” you started, but she cut you off with a low, throaty laugh.

“Oh, but we can,” she purred, her fingers curling over the hem of your pants. “And we will.”

Her touch was electric, the heat of her hands searing through the fabric. She unbuttoned your pants with practiced ease, her nails lightly scraping against your skin as she pulled the zipper down. You opened your mouth to protest, but the words died in your throat as she leaned in, her breath hot against the sensitive skin of your abdomen.

“Shh,” she murmured, her voice a seductive whisper. “Just relax. Let me take care of you.”

Her lips brushed against the edge of your boxers, and you groaned, your hands gripping the edge of the table for support. Her fingers hooked into the waistband, tugging them down just enough to expose the hard length of your arousal. She glanced up at you, her eyes filled with a mixture of mischief and desire, before she licked her lips and leaned in closer.

The sound of the front door opening in the distance made your heart race, but Ryujin didn’t falter. If anything, she seemed to thrive on the risk, her movements growing more deliberate as she teased you with the tip of her tongue. Her hot breath against your skin sent jolts of pleasure through you, and you bit your lip hard to keep from moaning.

“Ryujin, they’re here,” you hissed, your voice strained.

She smirked, her lips curling wickedly. “So?” She didn’t stop, her tongue leaving a wet trail along your length as she took you fully into her mouth. Your hips bucked involuntarily, and you clenched your jaw, forcing yourself to stay quiet.

The sound of footsteps echoed through the house, growing louder as her family approached the dining room. Ryujin’s pace quickened, her mouth working you with a skill that left you trembling. Her eyes stayed locked on yours, watching your every reaction with a satisfied gleam.

“Ryujin, we—oh god—” you choked out, your hands tangling in her hair as she took you deeper, her tongue swirling around the sensitive head of your cock. The heat of her mouth, the way she sucked and teased, was driving you to the edge, and you could feel yourself losing control.

The footsteps were just outside the door now, the muffled voices of her family growing clearer. Ryujin didn’t stop, her movements unrelenting as she pushed you closer and closer to the brink. Just as the door creaked open, she pulled back, leaving you throbbing and on edge. She adjusted your pants with a sly smile, her eyes sparkling with mischief, before sliding back into her seat as if nothing had happened.

Her mother entered the room first, a warm smile on her kind face. “Oh, there you two are! I hope we’re not interrupting anything.”

Ryujin grinned, her expression innocent. “Not at all, Mom. We were just waiting for you.” Her foot brushed against your leg under the table, and you had to fight to keep your composure.

Her father followed, his friendly demeanor putting you at ease—or at least trying to. “Good to see you again,” he said, clapping you on the shoulder. “Glad you could make it for dinner.”

You nodded, forcing a smile. “Thanks for having me.” Your voice was steady, though your heart was still racing from Ryujin’s little stunt.

As the meal began and the conversation flowed, Ryujin’s foot continued to trail along your leg, her touch light but deliberate. You shot her a warning look, but she only smirked, her eyes daring you to make a move. Her hand slid onto your thigh under the table, her fingers tracing circles that made it nearly impossible to focus on anything else.

“So,” her mother said, glancing between the two of you with a knowing smile, “how’s school been? Ryujin tells me you’re the student body president.”

You blinked, trying to gather your thoughts as Ryujin’s fingers inched higher. “Uh, yes. It’s been… challenging, but rewarding.”

Her father chuckled. “I bet. You’ve got your hands full with this one, don’t you?” he said, nodding toward Ryujin.

You laughed nervously, your grip tightening on your fork as Ryujin’s fingers slipped beneath the waistband of your pants. “You could say that.”

Ryujin leaned back in her chair, her expression the picture of innocence. “What? I’m not that bad,” she said, her tone teasing. Her fingers brushed against your length, and you had to bite back a groan.

Her mother smiled warmly. “We’re just glad she’s happy. And it’s clear you make her happy.”

You nodded, your voice strained. “Thank you. I… try.”

Ryujin’s hand moved again, her touch growing bolder as she stroked you under the table. You shifted in your seat, trying to maintain your composure as her family watched you with curious eyes. Her foot pressed against your calf, her touch insistent as she continued to tease you, her every movement designed to drive you mad.

“So,” her father said, leaning forward, “what are your plans after graduation?”

You opened your mouth to answer, but Ryujin’s fingers curled around you, her thumb brushing against the sensitive tip. Your breath hitched, and you struggled to form a coherent thought. “I, uh…”

Ryujin leaned in, her voice sweet. “He’s thinking about grad school. Right, babe?” Her hand tightened ever so slightly, and you had to fight to keep from groaning.

“Right,” you managed, your voice tight. “Grad school.”

Her mother’s smile widened. “That’s wonderful! I’m sure you’ll do great.”

You nodded, your jaw clenched as Ryujin’s fingers moved faster, her touch relentless. Her eyes met yours, and there was a challenge in her gaze—a dare to see how long you could last before you completely lost control. Her thumb swirled around the sensitive head, and your hips jerked involuntarily, your breath coming in short, shallow gasps.

“Are you okay, dear?” her mother asked, her brow furrowing in concern.

You forced a smile, though your entire body was tense. “Fine. Just… a little warm.”

Ryujin’s smirk deepened, and her fingers tightened around you, her pace quickening. You gripped the edge of the table, your knuckles white as you tried to keep from groaning. Her foot pressed against your leg, her touch demanding as she drove you closer and closer to the edge.

The conversation continued around you, but you could barely focus, your entire world reduced to Ryujin’s hand moving under the table. Her fingers were relentless, her touch maddening, and you could feel the pressure building inside you, threatening to explode. Just as you thought you couldn’t take it anymore, Ryujin leaned in, her lips brushing against your ear as she whispered, “Don’t you dare make a sound.”

Her words sent a shiver down your spine, and you clenched your jaw, your entire body trembling as she brought you to the brink. Her fingers moved faster, her touch unrelenting, and you could feel yourself losing control. The pressure built, and then.

As soon as her parents disappeared into the kitchen, Ryujin’s hand shot out, grabbing your wrist with a firmness that sent a jolt of electricity through you. She stood abruptly, her chair scraping against the floor, and yanked you to your feet. Her eyes were dark, hungry, and before you could even process what was happening, she had you pinned against the wall, her body pressing into yours with a fierce urgency.

“You’ve been teasing me all night,” she murmured, her voice low and dripping with desire. Her hands moved to your belt, fumbling with the buckle before she tore it open, her fingers sliding down to unzip your pants. Her breath was hot against your neck, her lips brushing your skin as she whispered, “I need you. Now.”

Her words sent a surge of heat through you, and you groaned, your hands gripping her hips as she ground against you. You could feel her arousal through her jeans, the wetness seeping through the fabric as she pressed herself against your hardening cock. Her movements were frantic, desperate, and you could tell she was just as wound up as you were.

“Ryujin,” you growled, your voice thick with need. “Your parents—”

“Fuck my parents,” she interrupted, her teeth grazing your earlobe as she spoke. “I don’t care if they walk in. I need you to fuck me. Right here. Right now.”

Her words were like a match to gasoline, igniting the fire that had been smoldering inside you all evening. You grabbed her by the waist, lifting her easily as she wrapped her legs around your hips. Her hands tangled in your hair, pulling you into a searing kiss as you carried her across the room, pressing her back against the wall.

She moaned into your mouth, her tongue tangling with yours as she rocked her hips against you, her need palpable. You could feel her warmth through the thin fabric of her jeans, and it drove you wild. You needed to be inside her, to feel her tight, wet heat around you, to claim her in the most primal way possible.

With a growl, you broke the kiss, your hands moving to the button of her jeans. You ripped them open, shoving the fabric down her hips as she kicked them off, her panties following soon after. She was bare before you, her body trembling with anticipation as you freed yourself from the confines of your pants.

“God, you’re so wet,” you murmured, your fingers sliding between her legs to find her already soaked. She gasped, her hips bucking as you teased her, your fingers sliding through her folds before plunging inside her.

“Fuck, yes,” she moaned, her head falling back against the wall as you pumped your fingers in and out of her, her body clenching around you. “Please, baby, I need you. I need you to fuck me.”

Her words were like a drug, fueling your desire as you withdrew your fingers and lined yourself up with her entrance. You gripped her hips, holding her steady as you thrust into her in one smooth motion, burying yourself to the hilt. She cried out, her nails digging into your shoulders as you filled her completely, her walls stretching to accommodate you.

“Fuck, you’re so tight,” you groaned, your hips snapping against hers as you began to move, setting a relentless pace. She clung to you, her legs tightening around your waist as you drove into her, each thrust sending a wave of pleasure crashing through you.

Ryujin’s moans filled the room, her voice rising with each thrust as you pounded into her, the sound of flesh meeting flesh echoing off the walls. Her fingers tangled in your hair, pulling you into another desperate kiss as she rocked her hips against you, meeting your thrusts with equal fervor.

“Harder,” she gasped, breaking the kiss as her head fell back, her eyes rolling as you slammed into her. “Fuck me harder, baby. I need it. I need you to fuck me senseless.”

Her words spurred you on, and you tightened your grip on her hips, slamming into her with a force that had her crying out in pleasure. Her body quaked beneath you, her walls clenching around you as she teetered on the edge of orgasm.

“You like that?” you growled, your breath hot against her neck as you continued to pound into her. “You like it when I fuck you like this?”

“Yes,” she moaned, her voice trembling as she clung to you, her nails digging into your skin. “God, yes. Fuck, baby, I’m so close. Don’t stop. Please, don’t stop.”

Her words were like a command, and you redoubled your efforts, driving into her with a brutality that had her screaming your name. Her body tightened around you, her orgasm crashing over her in waves as she came undone, her walls milking you as you continued to thrust into her.

“Fuck, Ryujin,” you groaned, your own release building as her body convulsed around you. You could feel it, the pressure coiling in your gut as you fucked her through her orgasm, her moans growing louder with each thrust.

“Come for me, baby,” she whispered, her voice hoarse as she clung to you, her nails raking down your back. “I want to feel you come inside me.”

Her words were all it took, and with a groan, you buried yourself deep inside her, your release exploding as you emptied yourself into her, your body shuddering with the force of your orgasm. Ryujin whimpered, her body trembling as she felt your warmth filling her, her own pleasure intensifying as you both rode out the waves of ecstasy together.

You stayed like that for a moment, your bodies pressed together as you struggled to catch your breath, the heat between you still crackling with intensity. Ryujin’s hands roamed over your back, her touch gentle as she traced the marks she’d left on your skin.

“You’re mine,” she whispered, her voice soft but laced with possessiveness as she pressed a kiss to your neck. “Don’t you ever forget that.”

You opened your mouth to respond, but before you could, the sound of footsteps approaching the dining room made your blood run cold. Ryujin’s eyes widened, and she quickly slid down your body, grabbing her jeans and yanking them up as you hurried to zip your pants, your heart pounding in your chest.

“I hope you saved room for dessert,” her mother’s voice called out, her footsteps growing closer as you both scrambled to compose yourselves.

Ryujin shot you a wicked grin, her eyes sparkling with mischief as she leaned in, her lips brushing against your ear. “Round two later?” she whispered, her voice dripping with promise.

The dining room was quiet, save for the soft clinking of silverware against plates. Ryujin’s mother hummed a gentle tune as she brought out a tray of dessert, her warm smile lighting up the room. “I made your favorite,” she said, setting a slice of chocolate cake in front of you. “I hope you’ve saved room.”

You managed a polite smile, though your mind was elsewhere. The air between you and Ryujin crackled with unspoken tension, her foot grazing yours beneath the table. You shot her a glance, but she only smirked, her eyes never leaving yours as she took a deliberate bite of her cake. Her foot pressed harder against yours, sliding up your calf in a slow, deliberate motion.

“So, how’s campus life treating you both?” Ryujin’s father asked, his voice warm and conversational. He leaned back in his chair, his strong build relaxed as he sipped his coffee. “You’re still the student body president, right?”

You cleared your throat, forcing your attention away from Ryujin’s wandering foot. “Yes, sir. It’s been busy, but rewarding. Lots of projects this semester.”

“That’s great to hear,” he said, nodding appreciatively. “And Ryujin, you’ve been staying out of trouble, right?”

Ryujin flashed him a grin, her lips curving into that familiar, mischievous smirk. “Of course, Dad. I’m a model student now.” Her tone was light, but her foot traced a slow circle up your leg, her toes brushing against the inside of your thigh. You stiffened, clenching your fork a little tighter.

Her mother chuckled, oblivious to the undercurrent of tension. “Oh, I’m sure you’ve been a handful for him,” she teased, her eyes twinkling. “But you two seem to balance each other out.”

If only she knew, you thought, your jaw tightening as Ryujin’s foot climbed higher, dangerously close to teasing the edge of your self-control. You shifted in your seat, trying to focus on the conversation, but her touch was relentless, a constant reminder of the unspoken promise she’d made earlier.

“Balance is key,” Ryujin said smoothly, her voice carrying a playful edge. She leaned forward slightly, resting her chin on her hand as she looked at you. “Right, babe?”

You met her gaze, her dark eyes glinting with mischief. “Something like that,” you replied, your voice steady despite the heat simmering beneath your skin.

Her mother beamed, clearly pleased. “Well, I’m just glad to see you both happy. And who knows, maybe one day we’ll be celebrating something even bigger,” she added with a wink.

Ryujin’s foot froze for a moment, her eyes widening slightly before she recovered with a laugh. “Mom, don’t start,” she said, though her cheeks tinted pink. Her foot resumed its exploration, this time sliding higher, her toes brushing against the growing bulge in your pants.

You sucked in a sharp breath, your grip on the fork tightening as you fought to keep your composure. Ryujin was playing a dangerous game, one that was increasingly difficult to ignore. Her eyes lingered on you, her smirk widening as she took another bite of cake, her lips wrapping around the fork in a way that was far too deliberate.

“So, any plans for the rest of the weekend?” Ryujin’s father asked, leaning forward slightly.

“Not much,” Ryujin replied, her voice smooth despite the tension she was creating. “Just relaxing, maybe exploring a bit. Right, babe?”

You nodded, your throat dry. “Yeah. Relaxing sounds good,” you managed, your voice slightly strained.

Her mother smiled, oblivious to the undercurrent of tension. “Well, don’t forget to enjoy yourselves. You both work so hard.”

Ryujin’s foot pressed harder, her toes teasing the seam of your pants as she leaned back in her chair, her expression innocent. “Don’t worry, Mom. We’ll make sure to enjoy every moment.”

The conversation continued, Ryujin’s parents chatting amiably about their plans for the weekend, but you could barely focus. Her foot was relentless, tracing patterns up your leg, her touch light but maddeningly effective. You shifted again, trying to subtly adjust yourself, but she only pressed harder, her smirk widening as she caught your discomfort.

Finally, dessert was finished, and Ryujin’s parents began clearing the table. “Why don’t you two relax in the living room?” her mother suggested. “We’ll take care of this.”

“Thanks, Mom,” Ryujin said, standing gracefully. She shot you a look, her eyes dark with promise, before heading toward the living room. You followed, your heart racing as you tried to keep your composure.

The moment you stepped into the living room, Ryujin turned to you, her back against the wall as she crossed her arms. “So,” she said, her voice low and teasing. “Enjoying dessert?”

You stepped closer, your voice barely above a whisper. “You’re playing with fire, Ryujin.”

She tilted her head, her smirk widening. “Maybe I like the heat,” she countered, her eyes never leaving yours.

You moved closer, your hand resting on the wall beside her head as you leaned in. “Careful,” you warned, your voice low. “You might get burned.”

She raised an eyebrow, her lips curving into a sly smile. “Promises, promises,” she murmured, her hands sliding up your chest.

Her touch was electric, sending a shiver down your spine as you fought to keep your composure. “Ryujin,” you muttered, your voice strained. “Your parents—”

“Are in the kitchen,” she interrupted, her tone playful. “And we’re in here.” Her hands slid higher, her fingers tracing the edge of your collar as she leaned in, her lips brushing against your ear. “So, what are you going to do about it?”

You hesitated, your heart pounding as her words sent a jolt of heat through you. “You’re impossible,” you muttered, your hands gripping her waist.

She laughed softly, her breath warm against your skin. “And yet, here you are,” she said, her voice dripping with amusement. “Still can’t resist me.”

You leaned in, your lips hovering just above hers. “Maybe I don’t want to,” you admitted, your voice low.

Her eyes sparkled with triumph as she closed the distance, her lips capturing yours in a searing kiss that left you breathless. Her hands tangled in your hair, pulling you closer as she deepened the kiss, her body pressed against yours in a way that made it impossible to think.

When she finally pulled away, her lips curved into a satisfied smirk. “Guess I’m not the only one who can’t resist,” she teased, her voice playful.

You groaned, your forehead resting against hers. “You’re going to be the death of me, Ryujin,” you muttered, though there was no real heat behind the words.

She laughed softly, her fingers tracing patterns on your chest. “Oh, I’m just getting started,” she murmured, her voice low and promising

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astonmartinii · 2 years ago

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Could you do a smau where she’s max’s sister and dominating MotoGP the way max is f1. Maybe they have the typical annoying younger sister/protective big brother relationship and he finds out she’s dating one of the f1 drivers? Xx

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f1 and motogp: happy international siblings day to max and y/n verstappen, these two have 60 wins between them 🏆

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user1: my faves i love them

user2: the way jos wasn't gonna let them kids do anything else lol

yourusername: + victoria verstappen the patron saint who puts up with both of us love you 🥰

maxverstappen: you mean putting up with you ? i'm a mature man of the world now

yourusername: girl you are fussier than all of our nephews put together mature MY ASS

maxverstappen1: i am mature and i have BOUNDARIES

yourusername: yeah you have boundaries between all your food you bland man

victoriaverstappen: i think you just proved y/n right

user3: they are the most unhinged people ever i feel so bad for victoria lol

user4: patiently waiting for y/n's championship

marcmarquez93: no marquez representation?

yourusername: you need to serve more

maxverstappen1: you guys don't have the verstappen sass

user5: someone needs to stop them 😭

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yourusername: the two sides of a race week

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user6: the way she won this race and was like yeah i need that 0.5 of me drinking coffee actually

yourusername: it's a hot chocolate cause i'm a child

user7: are we all collectively ignoring the whole ass man on the last slide?

maxverstappen1: no we're not Y/N Y/M/N VERSTAPPEN CALL ME THIS INSTANT

yourusername: calm it on the all caps and maybe i'll call you

maxverstappen1: MAYBE?

yourusername: well that's not making it any better maxie

user8: i can't loose this parasocial relationship y/n get that man's hands off of you now

landonorris: y/n please pick up max's call he's threatening to throw my monza trophy PLEASE PICK UP I DON'T HAVE THAT MANY TROPHIES

yourusername: please refer to my previous comment about all caps and then come back

landonorris: y/n may you please call your beloved brother back so my very limited trophy collection does not get destroyed

yourusername: sure just for you lando ❤️

maxverstappen1: STOP FLIRTING PLEASE

yourusername: i just picked up ... and ur still commenting (plus that's not lando in the pic btw he's too skinny to be him)

landonorris: why am i getting bullied by both verstappens today, i'm just trying to help :(

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maxverstappen1: there's no party like a verstappen party and a verstappen-only party with no BOYFRIENDS because they don't exist :)

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user14: ahaha passive aggressive max is my fave

yourusername: just cause you're too much of a pussy to ask charles out so i can't have a boy friend?

maxverstappen1: what?

yourusername: what?

user15: max as overprotective brother is my new favourite thing

danielricciardo: i fear y/n is 22 years old and her own woman

yourusername: awwww thanks danny at least one man here has SENSE

maxverstappen1: how much did she pay you to comment that?

danielricciardo: she didn't pay me but my house plant currently at hers was being held at gun point

yourusername: i would never

danielricciardo: so i can delete my comment

yourusername: do that and sheila gets it

user16: i know we should be more concerned with max going insane, but daniel's choice of name for his house plant is the most pressing issue

user17: hear me out but for comedic purposes ... i need y/n's bf to be a driver

maxverstappen1: do not speak that into the universe

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oscarpiastri: i like the taste of her cherry lip balm

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user22: what 😭 the 😭 fuck 😭

yourusername: you don't taste half bad either ;)

oscarpiastri: come back to bed

maxverstappen1: NO NO NO STOP RIGHT THERE OSCAR JACK PIASTRI WHAT ARE YOU DOING DON'T SAY THAT ABOUT MY SISTER

oscarpiastri: how do you know my middle name?

maxverstappen1: i called your mum, anyhow YOU ARE A DEAD MAN

oscarpiastri: how did you get my mum's number?

maxverstappen1: i'm trying to threaten you please stop asking questions

yourusername: maxy please stop trying to be scary i know you still wear footy pjamas at christmas

maxverstappen1: well i hope oscar is terrified by my christmas spirit

user23: i feel like i lose brain cells watching y/n and max talk to each other

user24: we ignoring the fact that max managed to get oscar's mum's number just to ask for his middle name PETTY KING

maxverstappen1: it was more than a middle name, i needed a character witness

yourusername: CHARACTER WITNESS? YOU WORK WITH HIM? YOUR BEST FRIEND IS HIS TEAMMATE?

maxverstappen1: i understand you are making points and no one has a bad word to say about him ... but i've got to stick to the bit now

oscarpiastri: so i'm not going to die in hungary?

maxverstappen1: no. but keep all your business to yourself, i don't need to know what lip balm my sister uses and that you own a bed

oscarpiastri: got it 🫡

user25: well that was dramatic

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maxverstappen1: congrats on your first podium in f1 oscar, welcome to the family i guess ... don't take photos on my phone every again

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user28: so we can all say oscar has max's approval now?

user29: mans was like wow he challenged me in the race he has the stamp of approval now

yourusername: jokes on you we look great @oscarpiastri

oscarpiastri: and what the people don't know is that max was also doing face masks with us

maxverstappen1: not the serve you think it is i am very secure in my masculinity

yourusername: i'm glad you've gotten over your weird older brother act ... does this mean you'll both come to my next race?

oscarpiastri: i'll be there :)

maxverstappen1: i guess

yourusername: whooooooooop finally

user30: the way i am so happy for oscar i feel like i've been on this journey with him

user31: honestly rookie of the year and it's not even close

user30: i was talking about him and max... but yeah he's doing great !!!

landonorris: can i also get a pass for your next race y/n for keeping it a secret?

maxverstappen1: WHAT

yourusername: ur so dumb i actually can't

oscarpiastri: i'm not helping you here dude i just got approval

landonorris: well now i regret helping you guys

maxverstappen1: open your door lando

user32: is he dead?

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yourusername: fifth win of the season, my family and the love of my life, what could be better

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user33: i feel like the shit storm of max and oscar has defo distracted us from the fact that f1 and motogp fans are suffering through a verstappen winning nearly every race

maxverstappen1: i want everyone to appreciate my character growth as i took that gross ass last photo

yourusername: thank you maxy, what a sacrifice

oscarpiastri: thanks dude, you did push me in the water right after though

maxverstappen1: uh you snooze you lose, a verstappen rule of life, you had no phone on you so fair game, i thought you wanted to be part of this family

oscarpiastri: I DO ... does this mean i can push you in next time?

maxverstappen1: absolutely not.

yourusername: do it anyway osc i'll protect you babe

oscarpiastri: idk i'm scared

yourusername: he's ticklish he's so easy to beat

maxverstappen1: THAT WAS A SECRET Y/N

user34: if you told me last season that i'd see max go from wanting to kill piastri to being brothers with him and that i'd know he wears footy pjs and is ticklish i'd laugh in ur face

maxverstappen1: ONLY AT CHRISTMAS

oscarpiastri: don't worry mate i think it's cute

maxverstappen1: okay now i prefer you over y/n

yourusername: who? what? where? when? why?

oscarpiastri: soz babe you snooze you lose

note: ahhhhh i really enjoyed writing this so i hope you enjoy i love writing comment domestics if you couldn't tell lol xx

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Show Them What They'll Never Have

[Alastor x Reader] Rating: E Tags: exhibitionism, semi-public sex, dom/sub, light bondage, edging, possessive sex, praise & degradation, dirty talk, no aftercare CW: degradation and dirty talk include references to imaginary situations regarding free use and dubious consent

---[read on ao3]---

Alastor has a laundry list of rules and expectations for you, both in and outside of the hotel, and you always do your best to follow them. They're quite simple, straightforward requests, all of which boil down to one basic concept: Don't do anything stupid. Don't be reckless, don't put yourself in dangerous situations, don’t do anything to warrant extra attention, and above all else, don't be stupid. If you're questioning what falls within those limitations, use your pretty little head and ask yourself, “what would Alastor say?” Not ‘do,’ because your will-they/won't-they partner usually resorts to methods beyond your current capabilities, but ‘say,’ because you ought to know him well enough by now to answer that question for him.

Suffice it to say, you have no idea what's riled him up this badly. You came back well before dark and all in one piece. Nothing was stolen from you. There aren't any new marks of questionable origin anywhere to be seen. And yet, Alastor was waiting for you right as you returned. Back straight, fingers drumming against his microphone, smile perfectly in place, all with the sharpest, most unforgiving glare you've had the pleasure/misfortune of seeing across your lifespan and beyond. He hadn't even given you a moment's pause to react, opting instead to grab you by the wrist and forcibly drag you up the stairs.

After getting shoved into his room and verbally assaulted with various ways of him asking ‘what were you thinking?’ Alastor finally hits you with a command that makes even less sense.

“Strip.”

“What?” You gawk at the sheer audacity, instinctively crossing your arms over your body. “I’m sorry?”

“I told you to strip, darling. Undress. Disrobe. Take your clothes off. My word,” he clicks his tongue, “you really have misplaced that head of yours.”

You point at your head. He rolls his eyes. Come on, that was an Alastor-tier joke, one for the textbooks, and he doesn't even entertain the idea of faux amusement. Knowing better than to question his reasons, you tug your shirt off in one swift motion.

Only for him to throw it right back into your face.

“Ah ah ah, let's not be hasty now!” Alastor clasps his hands behind his back, expectant and daring you to undermine him again (somehow). You recoil from the shock and nearly stumble into the wall, your shirt tangled in your hands as a pair of obscenely frigid hands shove you forward. Apparently his shadow has some sort of wardrobe-related vendetta against you too. “Eyes on me, dearest, and do take your time with this.”

Eyes on him, yeah, sure - he looks livid. Nothing turns you on quite like an old deer man with smoldering resentment and a quick temper. “What’s your deal?”

Smack!

You wince as the shadow tentacle snaps right at your feet, and in that moment, you realize how you fucked up today. Take a second and look at your shoes; They're cute, right? Just a basic pair of strappy sandals, open enough to show off your at-home pedicure, and pairing quite nicely with the rest of your ensemble. All color coordinated with your flowy skirt and flimsy top.

Apparently, Alastor thinks you should cook yourself to death. Summer in Hell? Put on the parka, darling. He already lets you get away with showing your ankles every third day of the week, don't push your luck and expose your entire knee to the general public. What you're saving in sunscreen you can spend on hospital bills after incurring heatstroke in the obscenely hot and humid afterlife.

“The fucking cactuses are dying, and you want me to carry around a ruler to make sure I don't scandalize anyone with my shoulders?” You balk. “What else was I gonna wear?”

“Something modest enough to keep your chest out of view and your underwear hidden. But if you want to make a spectacle of yourself, by all means!” Alastor snaps a comfy wingback chair into existence, settling into the plush upholstery with his legs crossed like he's the up and coming king of the pride ring. “Go on then. Make a show of yourself.”

Well, that's a problem. Not that you're uncomfortable undressing, no; he's seen you naked more than you've seen him shirtless, and Alastor's never been shy about his appreciation of your body. Any part you hate, he loves; nudity’s easy. It's the demand for a demonstration that throws you for a loop. You don't do stripteases. The only dance you know by heart is the macarena, and even if you supplement that with a few zumba moves, you’re pretty sure it’s not gonna paint a pretty picture. You take your sweet time tugging your shirt back on, and–

“Oh, for Heaven’s sake.”

–Alastor hates it when you drag your feet.

So he drags you out of the room. Literally. Scoops up your forearm and jerks you through the hallways, giving you an extra tug whenever you stumble over your feet. The surroundings become less familiar with every sharp turn and sudden descent, floors blurring underfoot as Alastor impatiently slings you over his shoulder and strong-arms you down the stairs. Never giving you time to find your balance, grumbling under his breath when you fail to match his stride.

“Keep up. You’ve tested my patience long enough.”

“You see dear? Horribly impractical, that outfit of yours. You can hardly walk.”

“Whoops! Clumsy girl, tripping over her own two feet. How many times has that flimsy skirt of yours flipped over now?”

“Fear not, my dear! We’ll solve your problems in a flash.” Ba-dum-tiss. Laugh track.

You find solace in the tepid glass Alastor shoves you into, quick breaths bleeding over the surface like water on a canvas. Gradually, your vision clears, and oh, you hate what you see. Foot traffic stays relatively quiet around the hotel, much to Charlie’s chagrin, but it doesn’t change the fact that Alastor has one of your arms trapped between your back and his chest, his knee and thigh serving as a blockade to make damn sure you can’t slip away.

“Now, now, take a deep breath and relax.” A long, foreboding claw traces the length of your face, gliding with calculated threats and the promise of something far worse than public humiliation should you disobey. “Since you had such awful stage fright with me, I figured we’d do this in a more comfortable location for you.” He swipes your hair behind you, his lips teasing the shell of your ear. “You did want people to notice you, after all.”

“That,” a grunt of pain and something a little more embarrassing interrupts your train of thought, “isn't what I wanted.”

“Oh? It was a need then, was it?” Alastor chuckles behind closed lips, throaty and knowing damn well what he's doing to you. He sees it in the way you shift on your feet, the minute squeezes of your thighs. “Does my darling girl really need so many unworthy eyes following her beautiful body around town? Hm?” An arm snakes around your waist, the tickle of his fingertips inching underneath your blouse in wispy steps. “Sinners land here for all sorts of reasons, dear. What if you'd attracted the wrong sort of attention?”

Alright mister slut shamey rape culture fuckface, that's unfortunately a fair point. Assault in Hell is a daily occurrence, and the bystander effect might as well be the apathetic onlooker effect when it comes to abhorrent decision making.

“You wouldn't let that happen,” you choke, stifling a half-pleasured moan as he shoves his bodyweight against you. “You're too possessive.”

“Yes, I am. And yet, despite knowing this, you choose to throw caution to the wind and garner all sorts of unsavory stares and let people entertain their depraved thoughts. Impulse control is a rarity down here, my sweet. You know better.”

You do know better. You know a lot of things, really. Don't test Alastor's patience, don't question Alastor's decisions, don't tell Alastor his jokes belong on popsicle sticks, and whatever you do, don't let Alastor see how much you enjoy being treated like a–

“Stupid girl,” he sneers.

Well, that, yeah; you were going more for the ‘desperate attention-loving bitch who needs to be put in her place,’ but ‘stupid girl’ kind of fits too.

“Did you really think you could get away with this?” Alastor's grip tightens, his gloved claws kneading at your forearm with precision. “Wearing this…” He clicks his tongue, walking his fingers up your thigh and scoffing at your stifled giggles. “Miserable excuse of a skirt, and that blouse, oh dear,” he sighs, “it's awfully translucent, darling. Although…”

You're stuck between a rock and a hard place. Glass panes warming under your skin, Alastor practically sinking into your shadow, his lips hot against your exposed neck. “I've always been fond of you in red,” he murmurs. You shudder at the leathery sensation of his lips grazing your ear. “And you let everyone else have a look before I'd even had the chance.”

Your conscience, the tiny angel on your right, mutters something about the ethics of public exposure; redemption not found in wanton displays, the morality of getting fucked in the eyes of strangers. The devil, though, presses fluttering kisses along the length of your jaw; a perfectly silent siren's song promising more than the temptation of Heaven.

“Redemption is a fickle thing my dear! How are we to know where the line is drawn when every single sinner comes in so many shapes and sizes?” Alastor hovered over you in mock concern, jovial in his one-sided banter. “I suppose you could hazard a guess, but where's the fun in guessing for salvation when you could be reaping the guaranteed delights of Hell? Why gamble on a dream when your fantasies are right here?” He cupped your cheek. “Heaven may have its virtues… but it won't have me.”

You'd never been so scared, and you'd already been in Hell for weeks.

“Choose wisely,” he'd whispered. “You won't be able to take this back.”

Alastor can't fuck you against the pearly gates, so really, redemption’s pointless. You whimper, craning your neck to let the devil on your shoulder creep closer. The hand on your thigh slides closer to your panties, your breath hitching when a claw traces over the lacey detailing. Your voice eludes you, your lips delicately parted as if to wait for the protests that will never come.

“Now why would my precious thing make such a mindless decision, hm?” Fingers weave between locks of your hair with a slight tug. “You know I prefer having the first look, just as much as the last. Why deny me the pleasure, darling? We could have torn this off of you ages ago if you hadn't pranced off into the unknown. Look at you.” Alastor cradles your chin, letting you focus on your warped reflection. You own a mirror, for fuck's sake. Apparently you forgot how to use it. “You're begging for attention the moment you step outside.”

Outside feels like Death Valley plunging into a recently erupted volcano. He should be glad you're wearing anything at all. Not everyone grew up on the edge of a Louisiana bayou where humidity and heat went together like two codependent and enmeshed siblings from a fucked up family. Well, my dear, when I was a young lad, I had to walk fifteen miles uphill with nothing but the sweltering sun to keep me company on my way to the market. Shorts hadn't even been invented yet, and–

“Ah. Perhaps that's what you wanted all along. Attention.”

If he didn't have it before, he has it now. Your breath catches in your tightening throat as Alastor slips a hand under your shirt. Browsing, per se, aimlessly scraping his fingertips over your back, occasionally toying with the straps of your bra. Goosebumps pop to the surface, your body betraying any chance of a lie to insist that no, this wasn't for attention, it was for his attention and your comfort.

“Is that it? My devoted darling wants to be ogled by the masses?” Look at him, that obnoxious smirk stretched proudly over his face; lookin’ mighty punchable if it weren't for, y'know, the glass. You're trying so hard to avoid your own doe-eyed reflection– fuck, you really let him get to you. You close your eyes, but Alastor, true to form, is relentless in his pursuits. “Touched, perhaps?”

Touch me, your body screams, your core shaken at the debauched imagery flipping through your mind’s eye. Rough demon hands, silky sinner claws, promises of torment and torture as you're dragged away by a group of nobodies. A terrifying narrative outside of your imagination, but when you're copiloting Alastor's story… God, you need him to touch you.

“I'm truly the last to understand the thrill of the hunted, but you…” Alastor lightly tugs at the hem of your attention-seeking shirt. “You've thought about it,” he murmurs. “Dreamed of it.” You're too busy savoring the rush of cool air to yell at him for slicing up your top, expertly avoiding your skin with the traced promise to come back for blood if you misbehave. “The rush that comes with being sought after, the excitement of finding out just how far you can go until you're snatched up with nowhere to run…” Alastor pulls your hair back, skating another nail over the front of your neck and sealing your fate. “Poor darling… her legs aching, lungs ablaze, quivering at the mere thought of what happens when a new set of hands graze her skin.”

You gonna refute that? That's not what I wanted, you… Uh oh. Already out of insults. Can you hear that? The shattering of your ego as that lewd little moan squeaks past your lips? You're fogging up the glass, you know; Niffty won't be happy.

But you're gonna be high on endorphins and oxy, so eh, fuck the smudges. Let that heat blossom in your chest. Let it slink down closer to your core and pool in your panties. Let Alastor spin his twisted tale and regret not having a tape recorder nearby.

“Oh, darling… such a mindless and naive fantasy of yours. Imagining that anyone down here would follow your little script. The people out there won't hesitate to chew up and spit out a beautiful creature like yourself.” Alastor runs his hands over your silhouette as he takes advantage of the height difference, easily keeping you down with one leg between yours. “They'll beat you and bruise you in all the wrong ways. They'll break your bones and bleed you dry. They'll take everything they want without apology, without permission.”

Technically, Alastor has permission. You gave him a free pass to initiate whatever sort of physical touch he wants, citing the rarity of such an occasion and how willing you'd be to take him up on any offer. Kisses here and there, sometimes a hug from behind; there have been a couple nights where he's slipped into bed with you just to cuddle (according to him, you looked awfully cold, nothing more). Still, he slips in a short beat, busying himself with invisible doodles across your neck.

There's not a chance in Hell that you're gonna stop him.

“And despite everything, you keep those dreams alive, don't you, my dear?” Alastor slides down one of your bra straps. “You like to imagine the perfect group of sinners snatching you up and dragging you to a safe, secluded place. A trio, I presume?” The smirk in his voice rings true. “To fill you up in every possible way. And you'd kick and scream as if that isn't exactly what you want.”

Mental note: Ask Alastor if he has the capacity to read minds or peek into your dreams. The details are scarily uncanny.

“Tell me I'm wrong,” Alastor slips his hand back under your skirt, fingers fluttering over every edge and seam of your panties.

“You're…” Your breath shakes. You're an incredible liar on a good day. Alastor’s making today better than good. You're an awful liar on a great day. “You're wrong. I'm not that fucked in the head.” You're missing that signature slant of sass, and holy fuck, do you sound pathetic and small without it.

“Oh?” He grins, a finger sliding over your clothed slit. You stifle a gasp and immediately give yourself away, trying in vain to grind against his hand. “You know better than to lie to me.”

Rewarding bad behavior doesn't exactly send the right message, but you're not complaining. If he wants to rub your clit through your damp underwear, by all means, rub away. You bite back mewls and sighs, failing to hold still.

“You're picturing it now, aren't you, you twisted thing. Pinned to the wall by a brutishly gentle pair of hands, another lowlife pulling your hair…” You hear the slight dip in his voice, and the moment he drops the static and his tone, it occurs to you that you might have the slightest of voice kinks

“If you don't shut that whiny mouth of yours, we'll give you something to choke on.”

Jesus tapdancing Christ, anatomy is cruel. You can't wriggle your way onto his fingers. Each time your ass tries to back into his hips, he stops you with little effort and a smaller chuckle. If arousal could kill, you're nearing the apex; the emptiness hurts. The half-assed teasing isn't enough, and Alastor knows it.

“I've heard your fake cries before, my pet, and you'd give them exactly that. The weak thrashing, the passionless begging. They'd be gullible enough to fall for it, and you'd welcome them with your legs and mouth wide open.”

A gift from god - your god - descends from the stars. Finally, Alastor taps into what little good-natured spirit he has, tearing your panties with calculated hunger.

“Don't you want more of a challenge, darling?” He coos, plunging a lone finger into your slicked slit, his thumb finding purchase atop your swollen clit. “Where's the fun in playing games you'll always win?” Squeaks and moans try to penetrate your lips, one kept threaded between your teeth. You don't know what part of the hotel you're in, and if Alastor doesn't care about the stranger peering up through the window, he'll give even less of a fuck if any of the residents hear you. You care though. Kind of. You're still building your reputation, damn it.

“Unless, of course, you're that desperate to have each of your pretty holes filled all at once. Oh, how you wound me… I've provided you with such entertainment before. Am I not enough? Or are you simply that hungry for more than one cock at a time?”

Alastor plunges a hooked finger into your cunt, the sudden sensation biting at your lips and begging to be heard. To sing his praises. To ask for more. To reward him for all the wrong reasons.

“Imagine my rage. The way I'd stalk the streets in search of my sweetheart.”

“Fuck…!” You groan, grinding down on his explorative fingers.

"My sweetheart.” A second squirms in, casually reaching for your g-spot. “My darling.” A third, fuck, the stretch feels so good. “My precious pet.” Four bunched up fingers, almost enough to feel as thick as his dick, but god damn it, you want the real thing. “Only to find her sprawled on the ground like some pay-to-fuck whore, choking on one cock and getting fucked by two more.”

Nothing has ever sounded as beautiful as the clattering of Alastor's belt buckle.

“Called so many vile names - such a good slut, she likes it, see? You want to come on my dick, pretty lady? Ohhh, that's it, yes, scream for daddy, pretend someone will save you. We'll send you home with cum dripping down your legs, and you'll just want more, won't you?”

Dirty talk was not on the list of skills you'd written up for Alastor. Certainly not this flavor, at least. There's quite a difference between ‘ oh, sweet girl, you look beautiful when you gag on me, you know you can ask for more if you'd just behave and beg like a good girl should,’ and, ‘you want to be used, don't you, you sick little thing, you'd enjoy being passed around like some dumb little doll, having all that cum smeared over your face and thighs, just to have me put you in your place.’

You’re not complaining, even though he sounds furiously facetious and all but spits out each toxin-coated taunt.

“Oh, I would paint the walls with their blood. Defiling what's mine… they don't know how fragile you really are.”

You don't have porcelain bones or old man hips. Your body hasn't been deteriorating since the fucking Harding administration. You take papercuts like a champ. You aren't as weak as you look.

And you have no shame - your thoughts are just that. Garbled nonsense torn into scraps of coherence as Alastor swirls his thumb over your clit, your panties digging into your dampened skin. See, you have every reason to wear this outfit, it's fucking hot. You grin through a blissful grimace and let Alastor continue to believe he's your lord and savior, every complaint fizzling out on your dry lips.

“I’m the only one who knows how much you can take, when to test your limits, when to stop… it's why you've never asked me to. But with those creatures you like to imagine?” Your pussy quivers in time with his laughter. “You'd be an utter wreck by the time I arrive! Oh, how I'd loathe your cries of relief. Your tears are only precious when they're shed for me, and me alone. To find you violated and broken… Those wretched creatures would be my sloppiest work.”

Ah, romance really is dead. Died and went straight to Hell. Your heart would thump out of your throat if you didn’t just lock eyes with a disheveled sewer rat-looking sinner through the fogged window. He jumps when Alastor’s other hand connects with the glass, the panels vibrating with a sort of rage that only serves to make you that much hornier.

“Picture it, darling. The sheer anger, the vitriol, my laughter harmonizing with their anguished screams.” A low chuckle vibrates against your back as your head dips back into his collarbone, your mind falling victim to the heavy haze of fantasy and Alastor’s finger fucking. “How does it feel, knowing that I wouldn't just kill for you? That I'd sooner watch my standards plummet into the ground, just to keep you safe.” He gently pushes your hair out of your face, guiding your gaze back to your captive audience.

“To keep what's mine,” he whispers, teasing his clothed erection against your ass, adding pressure to your swollen, begging clit.

Eloquence eludes you. “Oh god…”

“There's no god here, darling. Just me.”

Just Alastor. Him, your God; your sacrifices are the blood of fictional attackers, your hymnals nothing more than salacious moaning and the chants of ‘yes sir.’

Hallelujah, you’re about to come.

Alastor must feel you clenching around his fingers, because he’s already slowing down despite your groans of protest. A punishment, you figure, and most certainly not the fun kind. He coos and whines in mocking; aww, poor baby, my sweet darling didn’t get to come, oh, the humanity of it all! Yeah, he knows the teasing’s making it worse; he probably secretly loves the way you’re grinding against him in silent plea. Alas, he’s still as stone.

“I don't enjoy sharing, dearest.” A finger curls dangerously close to your g-spot, knees buckling at the mere thought of his merciful graze. “I don't enjoy the image of you moaning around someone's cock and coming on another’s.” Heat caresses your inner thighs, cooled in an instant by shadowy wisps frolicking over your bare, dampened skin. Fuck, what you wouldn't give to have one of those Eldritch tentacles slither through your slit right now. Alas, they do nothing but tease, winding up and around your thigh just enough for the whispers of a shadow to brush perfectly out of reach. “I find no joy in imagining you strewn out and begging them to stop.”

Okay, no sharing, got it! Your teeth bury into your tongue, stifling songs of depravity as your hips desperately try to angle closer to the goddamned snake-like tentacles, always perfectly out of reach. Slithering in peals of imaginary laughter, demanding you to beg and promising nothing in return. You try to press your thighs together to no avail, and just when you finally want to crack and cry out for mercy, your god answers you.

“Do you understand?” Alastor whispers into your neck.

Never in either life has a moan left you so breathless. Just one gloved finger to your clit, and your knees buckle, more of your glistening body hoisted up against the window for support.

“Those pretty words and beautiful faces are meant for me.”

Oh, the wicked irony. You're two seconds from babbling out a half-baked retort when his hand slips around your mouth. He knows you too well.

(When did that happen?)

“I share what's mine when I see fit, and you should know better than anyone that my generosity has its limits.” Alastor lands a kick to your ankle, just enough to shove your legs open wider, to grant him easy access; to put your arousal on display. Such generosity!

Through the haze of it all, you muster up the strength to crack open your eyes, lashes heavy with stray beads of sweat and tortured tears. God, you just wanna come already; the ache only grows, festering into a heat so unbearable you're damn near ready to challenge the Radio Demon to a 1v1 hand-to-hand match. Win, and you can finally find release; lose, and you're put out of your misery (assuming he'd knock you out).

But which situation allows for more permanent humiliation: Losing a doomed fight to an overlord, or losing yourself to said overlord in front of a startlingly large crowd just outside the hotel? A dozen nameless faces peer up at you, a haze of lust and shock blanketing each sinner as others double take and join the tranced fray. Alastor's rich, low laughter prickles through your ears and down your back, a sadistic sort of glee twisting his grin into a beacon of maleficent pride.

“Not a step closer,” he hisses. “They will never see all of you, nor will they ever touch you. This…”

Whoever made this glass should patent it ASAP. Alastor's teeth nip at the sensitive flesh of your neck, fraying every nerve and severing your connection to your body; you go limp into the squeaking, shaking, never breaking window. Rays of sunlight heat the glass, beating into your flushed skin as Alastor's own warmth grinds against your ass.

“...belongs to me.”

A taut, needy cry rasps through your dry throat as he drags another finger over your soaking wet slit. Your hips barely have a chance to respond before he's shoving you into the translucent barrier, a reminder that you're on stage, you need to behave now, lest you tarnish his dazzling reputation for being an absolute hardass. You grit your teeth as his same finger outlines your thigh with an insulting squeak; maybe, just maybe, there isn't enough fog for people to tell what's going on, and they don't know he's essentially playing forensic psychologist to your dead soul.

“My my,” Alastor drawls, “who did that, I wonder?”

“You.” You're ready to admit defeat. So many sinners randomly loitering outside the hotel is bound to rouse suspicion, and while you harbor an odd sense of trust that you wouldn't get kicked out over this, you do know you'll struggle to wear this badge with pride. There's a whole book about scarlet letters already, and you're not itching to write the modern day sequel. “You did, sir. I'm…” You swallow the lie - or is it your pride? - and groan in agonized arousal. “We should go.”

“Ohh, don't try and argue with me now. Not after all you've said you wanted!”

Whether adrenaline or sheer stupidity, your arms scramble for freedom, twisting and pulling despite the rapid streaks of pain shooting through your limbs. Alastor's claws burst through his gloves, razor sharp assets demanding stillness the moment they rest atop your bare skin, hairs all on end in reply.

The tentacles bound around your thighs squeeze and pull your legs further apart, and somehow, the air feels cool against your hot, slick skin. Your panting breaths fog the glass at your lips, forearms uselessly splayed above your head in surrender.

You won't fight him. Not when he's crackling and crunching in and out of his truest form, static blazing through your skull, green glow bouncing off the walls. You've seen him before, the full him, the entire radio demon; he might be your “hear me out,” but he's still absolutely fucking terrifying.

A normal radio demon arm wraps around your waist, the other hand cupping your chin, guiding you back to your audience. There's… more than twenty? Fuck, you're not in the right headspace to count, and Alastor's reflection serves as too much of a distraction from the others.

He wears possession beautifully, even in the throes of rage.

“Let them look, dearest.” The arm at your waist trails down, down, down, his half-clothed erection throbbing for attention against your ass. “I want them all to know who you belong to…” Two fingertips come knocking at your entrance, and whether you welcome the solicitors or not, they're coming in. Slowly, claws retracted, the side of his palm grinding into your swollen clit. “Show them what they'll never have,” his fingers dive into you, hooked beautifully towards the exactly right spot, “make them live in fear of so much as looking at you the wrong way.”

You can't handle much more. You've been on the edge of orgasm and the last wall now for far too long, gawked at, ogled, pointed at, the object of more than one thirsty imagination.

He's going to kill them, you know. Every single sinner down there watching you get finger fucked by the radio demon is going to die at the same hands being used to get you off. Alastor is going to fucking kill people for you, and he's the one who set them up.

The audacity of this old man to be so ridiculously sexy.

“This is mine. You're all mine. Every inch of your body, every moan, every twitch, they all belong to me.”

You can't even manage a nod. Your legs tremble, still plenty spread and held in place by his tentacles alone. Any and all words turn to jumbled mush as your orgasm builds, rising higher than you thought possible, the fire in your core hotter than a goddamned summer's day in Hell. You feel the thick, slick juices dripping down your thighs, and the amount of precum Alastor's left on your butt doesn't help matters. You want more of him. You are his; he should be yours.

You yell behind closed lips, whimpering, far too empty for your liking.

“Say it.” Alastor thrusts you against the window with his bodyweight. “Tell me who owns you. Tell them who they'll be answering to if they ever lay a hand on you. I want everyone to hear you scream my name. Mine, and mine alone.”

“Fuck, I-I'm gonna come, Alastor…!”

“Louder, dear.”

“I need your cock, Alastor, please!”

“Louder,” he seethes against your ear, sweat dripping from his forehead to yours. “I won't remind you again. Let them hear you, and you can have what you want.”

Falsettos everywhere cower in fear and envy. Alastor's name doesn't tumble from your lips, it fires out at railgun level speeds and doesn't show signs of stopping. And why would it? Why would you stop screaming his name at the top of your lungs? He just shoved his dick into you. You're full in mind, body, and soul; mostly pussy, but the others apply. You have the radio demon fully submerged in your cunt, the tip of his cock grazing against that lovely spongy spot that only sends you into the same sound-barrier shattering cry of his name. The pain when he rams into your cervix - something you detested when you were alive - dismantles something within you, and you crumble and come all over again.

“My name sounds so divine on your lips,” Alastor smirks into your neck, nipping less and less gently with every kiss and peck. “Such a beautiful voice, and all for me.”

Catching your breath feels like a dream lost on a shooting star. When he talks like that, like a goddamned suave and chivalrous gentleman from circa 1920-old, you lose yourself. Helpless, an immediate victim to the charm of questionable authenticity. Automatically, your muscles tense, cunt tight against his dick as the whispered praise nestles into your brain and down to your clit. You reach for this wrist, and he's quick, immediately tending to the pleading nub the moment your fingers graze his pulse.

Tears gather in your eyes, mourning all the lost orgasms that fell to his hand in the Great Pane Edging of 2024.

“Go on dear. Come for me again.”

No one needs to tell you twice. It almost hurts, each spasm steadfast and unyielding, and for a brief moment, your screams vanish. Voice lost to the vast ocean of silky arousal dousing his dick and your thighs, his deep laughter your only tether to the present.

“There you go… good girl…”

“Fuck,” you hiss, choking on air as a tiny orgasm splinters off from the ebb of lust. It dissipates just as quickly, as does your pride, because really? That's all it takes? One non-filtered, static-free murmur of the most overused title?

“I'm – oh God what the fuck?!” Your knee jerks upright, a spread of spiderweb cracks unfurling under your duress. Breaking you simply isn’t enough, apparently; Alastor craves chaos, paid out in flakes of glass and shards of what little you have left to offer. How he glosses his fingers over your used and abused clit fast enough to imitate literal vibrations bends your realm of understanding, but fuck it, you can’t care. Not when you’re squealing and moaning within an inch of your life, your hips bashing against his in your futile attempts to save yourself the embarrassment of dying via overstimulation. Strained cries tear through your throat, and Alastor takes the shortest of breaks not for you to catch your breath, but to flick glittering specks of glass from your thigh, because he’s a gentleman. You’ll bleed when he wants you to. “Fuck! Fuckkkk!! Ahh-Alastor?!”

“Oh, my dear,” he coos. “You didn't truly think I was finished with you, did you? No no no.” Alastor’s cock spasms inside you, a teasing twitch accompanied by a feathery shudder of a breath against your ear. “What sort of punishment would that be? Stopping now would only encourage such deviant behavior.” A familiar and deeply personal scent tickles the edges of your nose, the hand that once fed your greedy cunt now positioned at your lips, lazily drawing your mouth open with one slender finger. “Ah, there she is…” Alastor swallows his own songs of sin, exhaling slowly, ravishing your neck and still brilliantly massaging your clit as you suck and lick at his fingers.

“Go on,” he mutters against your rapidfire pulse, smirking against your flushed neck, “tell them how I make you feel.”

Hot, you wanna shout. Sheens of sweat and drool and copious amounts of your slick coat your skin in an iridescent glow, pearlescent tears drawn out by an overdose of feel-good chemicals and whatever else Alastor makes you feel. Words of finely wrapped praise done up in silks and leather tickle the back of your throat, washed away by the lewdly grotesque moans and screams stifled by his fingers on your tongue and your throat gone dry. Your limbs do the rest of the talking, a dazzling speech on Alastor's capabilities as a brutal and unforgiving menace of a lover, dominant ‘til the very end and beyond the finishing numbers.

Orgasms four and five split through your core almost back to back, a sixth fluttering out, limping behind as your vision starts to blur, your consciousness lost to a sea of unknown, nameless faces getting off to your obvious blissful torment.

“Eyes open, sweetheart,” Alastor commands in what might be the most unsettlingly soft whisper you've heard fall from his lips. “You’re so beautifully pathetic when you're fighting to keep those pretty eyes open for me.”

“Too much…” You rasp against the battered window.

“It might feel like too much right now, but you'll miss it before long. Wishing you didn't feel so empty…” Alastor heaves a breathy laugh when you clench around his dick, refusing to let him slip out until he's used his cocksleeve to its fullest potential. You can handle a little more load, and he knows it; needs to exploit it, thrust his hips in painstakingly slow measures, loving the exhausted yelp you manage with every deep touch. “Daydreaming about having me, taking whatever I can get my hands on, calling you all those delightfully pretty names you pretend to hate.”

Not pretending. Your lips move, but you can't utter a sound. You can't argue. You're a fucked out mime with neuropathy at this point.

“One last look at them, dearest.” Alastor guides you by the chin, centering your gaze on the blurry crowd. “Remember them fondly,” he smirks. “They’re your victims, after all. Your very first, no less.”

You assume you're meant to feel disgusted. Turned off and grossed out on a moral level or something like that. But all you feel is warmth. Heat. It's hot. You melt into Alastor's arms, and manage a weary nod.

“And as long as you're mine,” he adds with one final thrust, bursting into you with a gravely, half-stifled growl, “they won't be the last.”

All this over an outfit you wore to beat the heat. Lesson learned: Get the Alastor seal of approval before you leave the hotel in anything that isn't a wetsuit or a parka. Or do, and get royally fucked for any passing sinner to see. Tough argument here to be made.

“If you'll excuse me moment, darling,” Alastor pats your head, “there's a quick errand I need to run, and time is of the essence!” Of course it is, and of course he looks like he just finished getting done up for the day. Not a hair out of place, no wrinkles in his clothes, and his belt’s already securely fastened around his slutty little waist. You’re a mess, but he’s got places to go and souls to reap, so you’re gonna have to deal for now. “Now go lie down and relax. Don’t get too comfortable though.”

You’re absolutely gonna fall asleep, but okay.

“You’re keeping every last drop of me inside of you until I return.”

But you were gonna sleep!

“Since I do prefer to keep my belongings orderly and safe, you know.”

You’re messy and shaky and exhausted beyond comprehension, and even still, the warmth cascading through your chest lights up just enough willpower to try and listen to him.

“And remind me again,” Alastor cups your cheek, “who is it you belong to?”

You. You have to mime it, your voice still an echo of its original state, but sliding your hand over his chest delivers the message just as well. You wonder, briefly, if he feels that same abstraction of warmth as you do right now. And if he does, is it because of you, or because he has a couple dozen souls to tear apart? Perhaps it doesn’t really matter, since he’s killing them for you. Right now, you are his, and what’s his is his alone. No one else will have it. No one else will have you. You will, however, be demanding that he shares his bed and all of its comfy accessories, himself included, because that sort of sharing is caring, and deep down, you get the feeling that he cares. A lot.

If the tormented screams from downstairs are any indication, then you just might be right. And if you can hear them from up here, they probably heard you too! Hell yeah! Alastor must be so proud. You sure are. You’ll question why later on; right now, you’re getting people killed, and that means Alastor cares. Passionately, violently, and all for you.

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