#rant to delete later

[fortheloveofsolas]

Why do they make working in childcare impossibly hard. WHY tf do we have parent teacher interviews for BABIES?! Why do we analyse our analysis in obs? We include the child's voice on the program, Ma'am my children don't talk, they're BABIES!!! Is it not enough that your child was happy, fed and slept well but I have to write what they learnt even though they are always learning? Whether i get time to do the program or let them free play

Why do we do weekly programs and monthly Onservations PLUS a same monthly follow up per child? You know we don't get to leave the floor to write them so either we get into shit because we didn't have time to write them or we write them on our breaks or at home when not being paid and on our own time.

I can wipe their bum but can't check their hair for nits?

I'm responsible for your child losing their dummy/drink bottle/sock/shoe/special toy but i didnt misplace it?

I'm certified in cpr and first aid and can give medication and I take care of all their needs but have to HAND WRITE a head count because we went outside then back inside in case i lose a child?

I have to do a checklist to prove I mopped the room. Another checklist for nappies another checklist for yard checks, cot checks, sleep checks, cleaning checklist - i get it but it's a shit ton of paper on top of writing what the children did today plus that weekly program but the programs have to be child-lead (based on children's interest) which they can't talk anyway. Instead of being with your child im on the ipad.ill get in trouble for being on the ipad and not with your child but I'll also get in trouble if the ipad stuff isn't done ?? The only free time I get is when they're asleep. BUT I need to clean the room, write I cleaned the room, clean up lunch that's all over the floor, write the day story link it to the program, write feedback for the program, do obs and OH they're awake already and all I did was clean lunch, mop and start the day story

No, i don't know where your child's sock is, they took it off and I started late and it was already gone. The sock is also unlabelled AND they were wearing odd socks today or you can't remember what it looks like anyway

[bixels]

This is about the new Pixar movie but I’m complaining about a lot of the animation “community” at large, and not at all an equivalently serious comparison, but online animation fans who shit talk Pixar’s latest art styles have the same kind of mindset as anti-vaxxers who will make shit up to justify an opinion and then launch into full conspiracy theory mode whenever someone with actual professional experience speaks up.

Just say you don’t like how it looks, don’t pull buzzwords like “pipeline optimization” and “homogenization” out because you ‘thought about it really hard’ for a couple minutes. Brother, you are a 3D Blender hobbyist. Watching a lot of cartoons and making PS1 low-poly models of your OCs doesn’t suddenly make you a media theorist or an industry expert.

[froggerland]

"One morning this sadness will fossilize / and I will forget how to cry"

This song snippet has been stuck in my head all afternoon and compelled me to draw nedward trying to hold everything together while crozier is in rehab (yeah I'm on a ambient candle lighting kick I can't help it)

I need to step up my steven universe tears game but here's a version of him crying <3

(+ short vent/rant about my relationship to "sopping wet kitten Edward Little" bc my mind won't won't let me rest)

I kinda hate feeding the "wet sopping loser Edward Little" agenda (I've seen so many posts criticizing how some parts of the fandom oversimplify him and his character and boil him down to "useless pathetic wet cat who cant do anything right" and a part of me is scared that I've been (perceived to be) part of that bc I've produced my fair share of "nedward looking pathetic" art but I get that he's more complex than that!!! He is stuck in a situation that ANYONE would crumble in, his superior is an alcoholic who treats him like an errands boy but hes bound by the chain of command. Much more eloquent ppl have pointed out his wins and accomplishments on and off screen. Also I haven't seen anyone mentioning this but I think a lot of it is also just mcnultys looks. Those big brown eyes and eyelashes, the lips.. He can look sooooo pathetic and sad and beaten up on a level not many actors can imo. Anyways I hope this will shut the voices (in my head) up and won't cause any drama plssss)

(That being said tho I still love the memes don't get me wrong. Also yeah he's just fun to draw like this (sad/wet/pathetic))

[rebornofstars]

really whats interesting to me is that if u stay involved in a fandom long enough u get an evolution of scrolling from: ooh! - ooh! - ooh! - OH i didn't realise this was a trope - ooh! - OH - ooh! - ooh!!

to smth more like: read that - read that - oh LOOK it's my mutual - omg that one looks SO GOOD i love the trope subversion - wrote that - read that - oh my friends have been screaming about this one - wrote that - oh LOOK it's my mutual - read that - FRESH MEAT LETS GO SAY HELLO and its

SO beautiful and joyous. being a member of a community is fun!!!!! being so familiar with a tiny corner of the internet is fascinating!!!!! seeing the connections between yourself and other people is crazy cool!!!! we're all here on the web page together!!!! i see you and i love you!!!!!!

[goatgoesmbe]

..a rant(?)

Personally, it's obvious to me that COD is a military propaganda, and said fiction doesn't affect my reality, as in- i still hate the fuckin system

..so when i see a bunch of people on Tiktok enlisting just because of COD? Im.. 🧍 sigh.. ok

I'm not kidding when i say fuck the military irl and fuck military men in fiction

[ozzgin]

I erased the names because I'd rather not bring other people into this drama, but at the very core it is indeed the case, anon.

I have been notified through a mutual's post and later by an anonymous ask that a popular writer in the yandere sphere has problematic views. Said writer has since blocked me, so I thank them for cooperating. Now, listen, I don't like calling people out and I despise petty conflict, but I do have a Balkan temper and some things upset me to the point where I'm not ashamed of speaking up.

This person is openly admitting to and explicitly warning that they do not condone LGBTQ+ content, as well as fat and/or POC readers. The fact that these paragraphs exist for everyone to read is frankly insane to me, and I feel sorry for everyone who interacted with their content who isn't short, petite, pale-skinned and submissive. It's one thing to only write within your comfort zone, but there's a much more diplomatic language to use if that's the case.

If I sat across from someone who told me "we respect everyone as human beings, but that doesn't mean we condone their actions", and said actions were literally just existing while being queer, I would drop the table on their head. It is what it is, I said what I said. You are free to disagree with me, but I will not change my mind.

Image source here

[lumidotexe]

niche interest

[bakdbfi]

I'm gonna talk about whb!Mc/Ra-on but It's just me trying to make them make sense for me. I'm not a doctor. This is everywhere

With the small scrapes of MC's childhood came out.

Mc is extremely dissociative

Mc doesn't feel like they have a real personality and that might be a trauma response

They lost their parents at an extremely young age and would be a complete recluse if it wasn't for minhyeok constantly dragging them out of his room. They are still mourning them to the point that every year they get driven to the cemetery to take care of their graves. They still won't step foot into the family house after the incident basically living with the Kim family. Wouldn't you think they would have a bigger reaction to ppyong telling them he visited the grave?

But no they push on as if it means nothing to them because it was a traumatic experience and they just got themselves thrown into an active warzone in the span of a couple days. maybe the lack of reaction is more of a defense mechanism. They've only known the devils for a little bit at this point, I wouldn't be too interested in being openly vulnerable either.

Dissociation can be triggered by constant disturbing experiences and in one day

They saw their closest friend get killed

Was almost murder by Gabriel

Finding out angels & demonsapparently exist

Satan pops out of nowhere and almost immediately tries to fuck them.

They make a deal with Satan to bring minhyeok back to life

Now they have to help with a war , break all the pacts they so say have and pick a king to rule over all of hell

In order to stay alive in hell they have to constantly be fucking someone and drink their best friends cum.

I'm surprised becoming dissociative is all that happened. They also have been experiencing intense flashbacks on multiple occasions not being able to tell if they're real or not. They obviously don't have emotional healthy reactions. All key symptoms of a dissociative disorder

Unhealthy attachment to Minhyeok

Ra-on has stated in both events and in the main story line that minhyeok is extremely important to them.

They are childhood best friends and started living together soon after the death of their parents.

Both Minhyeok and Minseok have told ppyong that mc was constantly bullied and socially ostracized unlike minhyeok who is revealed to be extremely popular amongst others. He has other friends besides Ra-on, he keeps getting hit on by both men and women, and has a lot of active activities.

Minhyeok takes care of ra-on like a mother would while at their lowest point and ra-on hates themselves for it. They have become completely dependent on him for almost everything, they have no one else besides minhyeok and that's a bad relationship to have. Neither can fully understand or see how toxic this way of thinking is for the both of them besides the fact that Ra-on could never believe minhyeok could have a crush on him.

He's the only reason why mc goes to hell and the only reason they are interested in returning to Earth . Even when they're about to die or sleeping with the devils they somehow always go back to thinking about Minhyeok. It's understandable to the extent that he's all they have, the only person still there for them but still unhealthy in the long run.

Sex and stuff

Mc to me feels like someone who's special interest is sex

I have a hard time believing they were ever with anyone before Satan with the backstory PB has provided but they have an extreme knowledge in sexual concepts and devices.

They watched porn, read books about BDSM, and are always open to talk about it, but shows a lot of hesitation in the actual act.

Sex is a very taboo subject in most countries and hell is the complete opposite of that. Sex is not only a popular part of the history, it's also extremely encouraged. Most devils are already horny on-site especially if Ra-on is around (some even openly have boners around them and try to seduce them )

Ra-on is not used to all this positive attention being completely on them maybe even forcing themselves to become even lewder and indulge in kinks they normally would never do to keep this attention on them. That could also be the reason why they never seem to bother when demons call them Solomon because it's a positive relation in most eyes. They are experiencing things they could never pull off on earth with the status they have up there and they are thriving off of it, feeling wanted and needed in a way they've never experienced before.

That's all I got. I didn't expect it to be this long.

[strangegrapefruit]

Alright. I need people to understand that cc creators can't please every one of you with the things they create. If someone creates something a certain way, then that's what it is

You might think that edit you're asking for is such a small thing, it really might be, but accepting your suggestion leads to other people also asking us to make changes & I think we're missing the point here. It's not a commission where you can get exactly what you want. It's a thing some dude made for his own characters the way he envisioned it & that's what you get. That's how my cc works

The reason I learned how to use blender in the first place was so I could edit things the way I wanted them. A creator doesn't have to make a new separate version of their cc because you don't like that 1 decorative ring on it, or because you want it for a different cas category. It takes one minute to edit it yourself

[ladykyriaa]

Actually yknow what sit down.

Im not done talking about how the animation team deliberately put THIS SCENE

Into the OP

Out of all the scenes (yes even the frog scenes) this is honestly my favourite because of how raw and vulnerable it looks

How they're always visualizing Maomao as Jinshi's source of light to his otherwise bleak life.

Look at this tiny little baby and tell me he doesn't deserve all the good things coming his way.

He YEARNS for her.

That's not the only thing though. Considering how he grew up, there's probably a part of him that's always scared that she's going to somehow be taken away from him

That's probably how jinshi actually feels with Maomao. Comfortable that he's able to show the not so perfect eunuch that everyone knows him as, but a child who's barely grown up and anxious that his favourite is going to be taken away again. So YES THIS SCENE MEANS A LOT TO ME

[thebibliosphere]

Whenever I get a particularly nasty message, I always check to see if they're following me first. Nine times out of ten, they're not. But they're also, unfortunately, the same people who feel entitled to send me multiple messages in a row, most of them heavily steeped in the language of moralization and purity.

Like whenever I talk about painkillers or pain management, I always get a handful of well-meaning people who are maybe new to my blog or are just young, asking me if I've tried diet/exercise/meditation, etc.

Sometimes I'll respond to them. Other times I'll just ignore them because I get those kinds of messages so often it's like white noise, and maybe part of me hopes if they stick around on my blog, they'll learn it through exposure via my incessant bitching.

When you see me responding to someone offering that kind of advice, it's either because I'm at my fucking limit or because I'm hoping it's a teachable moment and an otherwise seemingly nice person might unlearn some harmful biases.

The people who don't follow me are not interested in any kind of conversation on the subject. They do, however, feel the most qualified to tell me, someone they didn't know existed until one of my posts crossed their dash, how to manage my life, everything I'm doing wrong, and why I'm a bad person.

And for them, my disability is proof that I am a bad person because they view health as a moral issue.

If you're sick, it's because you don't exercise enough, don't eat the right foods, don't pray enough, don't do enough. They genuinely believe that if they say and do all the right things, like a Good Person, they'll never get sick.

It's their security blanket against the harsh reality that anyone is one bad day away from disability. One faulty gene, one bad infection, one bad accident away from a life-long diagnosis. And if they do get sick, it's a test. A challenge to be overcome with Willpower as they learn the True Meaning of Life.

It can never just be a simple fact of life that sickness happens. That disability exists without a moral reason.

And it's suffocating.

Day in, day out. Folks who don't know me from fucking Eve telling me I'm being punished. Not always as outright as that. They don't always use that word. But sometimes I appreciate it when they do because at least then they're being honest. They're not couching it in the softer language of leftist circles. Not hiding it behind concern.

Because the truth is, there are just as many folks who think they're liberal and enlightened who'd be happy if disabled people just stopped existing. They don't like thinking about us because it makes them think about themselves. About their own fragility and mortality, and they hate that. They hate that there's something they can't control with their thoughts and actions. That they can't moralize their way out of.

Honestly, it's a relief when people are just cunts about it because I can hit the block button, safe in the knowledge that they were never the kind of person who would see me as a person. But when it's some 20yo kid with their pronouns, orientation, and "ACAB" in their profile spouting the same kind of moralization, sometimes even with the language of eugenics, it feels like such a betrayal. Like a loss.

And perhaps if I wasn't multiply disabled, I'd have the energy to pull them back. To tell them why they're wrong and hope like hell they realize what they're doing is harmful. But then, if I wasn't disabled, they wouldn't be messaging me, so I wouldn't be dealing with it.

I wouldn't be expected to use my existence as a teachable moment to spoon-feed them compassion. But I am, and I do. When I can. Not always with the grace that's warranted. Not always with the thought and compassion I ought to. (And I don't; I acknowledge that. I'm prone to anger and off-the-cuff remarks that are hurtful too. Though I try to keep most of it to myself or save it for therapy.)

Basically, if you've made it this far through the TED talk, don't be fucking cunts to disabled people. Don't tell chronically ill people to try yoga. Don't moralize pain relief. Suffering is not noble.

You need to kill the cop and the priest in your head telling you otherwise.

And also if you're the nice people sending me nice messages. Thank you. It helps cushion all of *gestures* this.

[bixels]

Always an experience watching the leftism leave FNAF fans when someone mentions that Scott Cawthon financially backed fascist politicians.

The switch from posting hardline leftist tweets about boycotts and signal boosts and critical takedowns of politicians and celebrities to ‘ohhh, well. everyone makes mistakes. who can blame him, listen he. he donated money to gay charities too. that makes it ok! a millionaire in his forties is allowed to have political beliefs. does it even matter? just let it go!’ is whiplash inducing. The antivaxxer celebrities have got to go, but this one horror dev who quietly handed wads of cash to antivax lawmakers? He’s chill, he can stay.

The charity thing is so funny too because suddenly utilitarian positive-negative point counting is the way to go. Maybe an abacus would help calculate the net good of donating to the Trevor Project minus donating thousands of dollars to Mitch McConnell and Donald Trump. -10 points if I push a kid in a lake but +11 points if I help an old lady across the street, so I’m chill. You can’t judge me. Hey, maybe. Just don’t push a kid in the lake period. How fucking low is the bar when we’re excusing maxing out the possible dollar amount of donations to Mitch fucking McConnell. That should be like. Default you’re a bad person.

[worrynoodle]

Getting real frustrated with the demonization (excuse the pun) of sex in this fandom.

Sex is not dirty. It's not inherently disgusting, immoral, wrong, or somehow impure.

Aziraphale and Crowley are not lesser if they do it or have done it. And fans are not wrong or impure for wanting that for them.

I understand if you don't like it, I understand that some people are sex-repulsed, I get that, but no one owes you censorship because of that. Fic writers can write what they want and you can ignore it, no one is forcing you to read smut that's what tags and content warnings are for. Neil can write what he wants, and if that is intimate scenes between them, that's up to him. You can fast forward.

Your personal grievances with sex are not the entire fandoms responsibility to mitigate, its something you need to handle on your own. And we aren't somehow deviants if we read/write more or less of it in fics.

I'm saying this in the most loving, big sibling way I can: sex is not wrong. I have my own issues with it, I grew up in an Christian household where anything sexual was absolutely wrong, sex before marriage was wrong, any other type of sex other than basically procreation was wrong. And I've worked to undo that unhealthy mindset on my own. And I think some people have kind of redirected that same mindset into demonizing sex in other ways.

I'm rambling. Sex isn't wrong. And aziraphale and crowley can fuck all they want in any form of media whether it be art or fics or TV.

[illustrationismyhaven]

Every day I miss him..........

[iwanderbecauseimlost]

if i absolutely HAVE to state a fault of Rings of Power, it'd probably be that it's more catering towards people who already have some knowledge of Tolkien's legendarium outside of the Lord of the Rings. I watched the first episode before I read The Silmarillion, so I was pretty confused. After I read it though, it became extremely enjoyable.

But even then, I feel like you'd only be so clueless if you have only watched Peter Jackson's movies. I just wasn't paying a lot of attention while reading The Lord of the Rings.

That also can't be considered a fault, as my friend @cleftones so rightly pointed out, because it would motivate people to read Tolkien's other works as well, meaning it increases people in the fandom.

So all the purists, who think this show is a desecration of Tolkien's works, is it really? Or do you just not understand it, because your pea brain is unable to comprehend anything beyond Peter Jackson's movies? They are obviously a work of art, but imagine adapting something that isn't even written as a novel series, like The Lord of the Rings is, and creating a wonderful show out of it! Could you even write a synopsis for the events in Second Age Arda? I know I definitely could not.

That aside, does the idea of equality and representation not sound great to you? Elves don't just have to be white people, they can be brown, black, hispanic, everything! I personally, as a brown person, find that extremely exciting. If you don't, I think that is something you personally need to work on, don't you?

If even that isn't the problem, and you just dislike the changes they've made to the story, then you must be a real hot thing at parties. How fun. You can't comprehend people having different ideas? This isn't natural law, it's a story. Have you never read an alternate universe fanfic? Or one with OCs?

It takes skill to be able to create something that so perfectly ties in with an already existing world. It all takes skill. Could you pull off something like The Rings of Power cast, crew, writers, etc. are doing?

Think about it.