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turoce · 2 years ago

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SeahDaLune's 2019 art recap

(Note: this is a reupload of a thread i did on twitter a few years back. so these are really old.)

Since the decade of 2010 is almost over, I decided to make a thread of my best drawings from 2019! (Yes, 2019. I didn’t like the others, sooooo...)

January! I still lined my drawings with a pen back then... I would’ve lined my drawings now, but I’m now way too used at not lining XD The character I drew was a Pokémon FC called Sam, and was originally going to be one of the protagonists of an unmade comic.

February! I stopped lining my drawings starting from this one! Let’s just say I didn’t feel like erasing the lines that day. The character I drew here belongs to Sashley on YouTube! I remember being super proud of the fanart I made. I find it terrible TBH. [2023 note: wow, that's a name i haven't thought of in a while. does she still make animation memes? wait, she does still make animation memes.]

March! Nothing much to say, as nothing interesting happened that month. I remember being extremely busy with drawing someone’s OC for payment on DeviantArt though. This is one of the payments I drew! Still quite messy, even if it’s relevantly cleaner than the Sashley fanart.

April! This is where my coloring FINALLY starts looking better (If you just looked at one of my pre-May arts, you might see it) This character is actually a whale version of my OC, Yevi-Wii! Or maybe she’s a FC? I don’t know! I kinda want to redraw her soon. [2023 note: i never drew her ever again]

May! AKA my birth month! I drew a lot of my Deltarune AU characters on that month. This is one of the AU characters! He’s just a younger version of canon Seam. I should draw young Seam again.

June! I drew Ralsei a lot for some reason. I don’t think I knew how to draw goat bois back then. Not that I know how to now. This is one of the many Ralsei’s I drew! I, uh... don’t like it as much as I did then.

July! This is one of my top 3 favorites of 2019! The character here is Jevil! I used to like Jevil a lot. I like him now, just not as much as back then. I honestly like how happy he looks.

August! As I had just came back from America, my drawings were looking rusty. Thankfully, I managed to warm myself back. This is smol Muffet. She is very very smol. I now realize that I drew tons of child versions of Deltarune/Undertale characters.

September! As it was the month of Undertale’s anniversary, I drew something Undertale related! Yes, this is an Undertale character. I honestly cannot get enough of Undertale. Play Undertale. Praise Undertale. And don’t forget to pat the dog.

October! A month after that, is Deltarune’s anniversary! I drew Kris for this, as Kris is... very intriguing to me. I am rather proud of this one! I also love how it was captured by my phone too, as most of the time the drawing looks super crappy when taken picture.

November! Unfortunately, art block happened that month, so I couldn’t get anything properly done that month. So have a scribble of my BNHA OC, made on November.

December! The reason I have two here is because I couldn’t decide which one to choose! I modeled the clay figure after my camp friend J chan, who loved Todoroki! As for the drawing, it’s my OC Jei. He was originally an adopt I made, but I loved him so much so now he’s my son. [2023 note: i lost contact with J chan around 2020, when she deactivated her discord. that was my only form of contact with her so i basically lost her for good... though, i never talked to her much outside of camp after getting her discord so it was probably for the best. playground friends stay as playground memories, yaknow.]

And that’s the all the art highlights of 2019! (And the 2010s decade TBH) Thank you for supporting me on Twitter for the last 2 years! Mutuals, followers, or even the rando’s who retweeted my art! I appreciate all of what you did, as you helped me push my art to what it is now!

People I’d like to specially thank: [the many names that i either still talk to or have lost contact since] And many others I might have forgotten.

That’s all I have to say, so have a great New Years! And hope you have a great 2020s as well! Bye, 2010s! We will miss you!

#dalune recap 2019 #dalune recap #you can tell this was before the internet truely jaded me #because you could still see the light in my..... not eyes. but something like that in these words.

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ril-sillyart1st · 4 months ago

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I hope I'm doing this right!

All of my BATMM WIPs so far:

1. character design for the FF! AU - self explanatory title. 2. Humanized design - ermm I don't think I'll ever be finishing this one 3. Backstory - Blaze and just everyone in general backstories are in wip (including Crusher as well) 4. Drag race! - one of Crusher's race episodes without Blaze. (Doesn't have a full plot yet) 5. The Rollerskate Race! - same as the Drag race episode. 6. Valentine day card (drawing) - one of those "be my valentine" card thingy. 6. Chubby cheeks (drawing) - currently almost done with the line art 7. Flarelyn Family's house (drawing) - the house design is so hard to make. 8. Broomsom Taillights (Where the Flarelyn fam live/subdivision) 9. Smiley Smilers Funfetti - AN RAINGINE OC THAT LIVED IN AXLE CITY!?? 👀😱 (REAL! NOT CLICKBAIT!) 10. Tips for writing car character! (Book) - wip tips and tricks about writing sentient vehicles. 11. Dragon's castle (fanfic) - blasher fanfic that I just thought in my mind and now I'm working on it (not really right now) 12. why dis 🚛 look so mad 😭😭😭 (drawing) - still can't finish 13. stuck with each other again - an elevator blasher drawing for some meme. 14. Leader Clerrisstin - The Raingine god and leader themselves. (😱) 15. Onyx's and Mia's Toyhouse info 16. Your body, my Temple but Blasher meme - animation meme 17. That one seal meme but it's Blaze - that little animation gif that I have posted a few days ago. 18. Blaze and Crusher freaky time❗- freaky little NSFW animation 19. happy Crusher animation - self explanatory 20. bat candy oc (no name yet) - originally just some furry oc but then I thought I should make this into Smiley's fursona. 👀 21. what's lug nuts? comic (new version) - redrawing that little comic that I'm thinking of what episode would this be. 22. Fiar's human design 23. Reverse race! (episode) - another race episode but it's Darington's episode 24. Scarlett and her daughter design 25. Rusty Machines AU - one of my scrapped AUs that was inspired by those MLP infection AUs. 26. Candy AU - some AU idea that's also scrapped but came from a dream. 27. Onyx and Mia's anthro machines form

Aaannd more that idk yeah

Tags? No one! Cuz I don't do that so feel free to reblog this or whatever.

WIP Game:

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPS.

This is my second time making one of these, and in part it's to help me reorganise my thoughts and help me get back into writing. University has done a lot to weigh me down over the past two years, and so in some ways I'm hoping to get the chance to write at least a bit more often this year.

In order to best show just how much I am working on, I'm dividing this into old WIPs (from the last list) and new WIPs (which I started on since then). And remember, you can ask about any of these and I will share what I can!

The Old WIPs: 1: Sir Topham Hatt and his Engines (RWS) 2: Mixed-Traffic Engines (RWS) 3: Silent Engine Bert Again (RWS) 4: Edward; a Requiem in Steam (RWS) 5: Mavis the Quarry Engine (RWS) 6: History of the Sodor Highland Railway (RWS) 7: Five American Engines (RWS) 8: TATMR Horror Story (RWS) 9: The Reject Railway (RWS) 10: Tales From the Other Railway (RWS) 11: Tidmouth Train to Hell (RWS)

12: In Orwell's World (Voltron) 13: Pidge & Dr Strangelove (Voltron) 14: Keith and the Wolf (Voltron) 15: Grandma McClain and Adam Join the Voltron Crew (Voltron) 16: Planet Obscure (Voltron)

17: TDWT Rewrite (Total Drama) 18: Total Drama Grand Tour (Total Drama) 19: In the Hold (Total Drama)

20: BirdFlash story (DC) 21: Jingle Bells, Nightwing Noel (DC) 22: Red Hood Reading Club (DC) 23: Manor on the Hill (DC)

24: Malevolent Spirit (Saiki K) 25: Dark Reunion's Anti-Love Ray (Saiki K) 26: How to Win Over Saiki K, or a Rhapsody of a Man Not in Love (Saiki K) 27: Saiki K Europe Trip (Saiki K) 28: Kusuo's Christmas (Saiki K)

29: Jinrao (Naruto) 30: Obito, Father of the Jinchuuriki (Naruto) 31: Akatsuki Parents (Naruto) 32: Naruto & Nazis (Naruto) 33: Sakura Out-trains Everyone (Naruto) 34: Work Shouldn't Be This Hard! (Naruto) 35: Adoption Shouldn't Be This Hard! (Naruto) 36: Children Shouldn't Be This Hard! (Naruto) 37: KakaObi Regency Story Part 2 (Naruto) 38: The Club (Naruto) 39: Atomic (Naruto) 40: Only Love Can Hurt Like This (Naruto) 41: The Hidan Story (Naruto) 42: School Shenanigans (Naruto)

43: AssClass Yearbook (Assassination Classroom) 44: The Theoretical Sequel to 'The Informant' (Assassination Classroom)

45: Britain in the AtLA World (Avatar; The Last Airbender) 46: Fast Car (Avatar; The Last Airbender) 47: Kaoru and the German (Ouran High School Host Club) 48: Romantic Killer AU (Romantic Killer)

The New WIPs:

49: The Samhain Special (RWS) 50: The Tour (RWS) 51: Summer Blues (RWS) 52: May Love Guide You Home (RWS) 53: It Lives in the Hills (RWS) 54: Thomas & Friends Season 22 Rewrite (RWS) 55: It's Sodor, Uramichi Oniisan! (RWS, Life Lessons with Uramichi Oniisan)

56: Easter Egg Hunt! (Voltron) 57: An Idiot Sandwich (Voltron) 58: The Spirit of Easter (DC) 59: Izuku Midoriya & The Dark Knight (MHA, DC) 60: The Gilded Age (MHA) 61: The Bunny Suit (Assassination Classroom) 62: Karma's Trick (Assassination Classroom) 63: Three Stops to Your Heart (Naruto) 64: A Trip on the Flying Scotsman (Naruto) 65: The Happiest Family (Naruto)

66: They Say the Past Haunts You (One Piece) 67: Zoro & Luffy: Buddy Daddies (One Piece) 68: Thailand (One Piece) 68: Down the Aisle (Avatar; The Last Airbender) 70: Dormmates (Sasaki & Miyano) 71: Wisps of Time (The Galaxy Railways)

Ok, so the good news is that most of my fics are now quite happily in one place... but the less brilliant news is a lot of these are longer-term projects. Some of them I am further along with than others, but a good few of these are a long way off. If you want to read them, then make sure to ask about them to keep them fresh in my mind!

Now, as for who I'm tagging in: I'm going to drop ten names here, and offer that anyone else who wants to do the game can do it as if I recommended you (I am not putting 71 tumblrs in here, I'm pretty sure the site would hunt me down). You don't have to join the game yourself, but I personally enjoy it as a fun way to order my thoughts!

@mean-scarlet-deceiver, @angryskarloey, @joezworld, @septemberofgenders, @scottishproductions, @jobsoldbootlace, @anonymousboxcar, @transsexualunderground, @eeveeandme05 and @thefedoragirl

And yes, I am probably going to do this again if I get under 50 fics. This is turning more into an organisational exercise than an exercise in showing off what WIPs I have XD

#🍓 • ril reblogs! ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹#blaze and the monster machines #batmm #flarelyn family au #ff au #tag game

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satturn · 4 years ago

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it's been about a year since i started listening to rqg, so i thought i'd do a redraw of the first drawing i posted for it. this podcast and fandom is kind of the reason i got into digital drawing, and it's nice to see at least some improvement. making fanart every once in a while has meant a lot to me in the last year, so if you have ever interacted with my art, genuinely thank you <3

[ID: A digital drawing of Zolf Smith from Rusty Quill Gaming. He is shown from the shoulders up. He is a white dwarven man with short white hair and a long plaited beard. He is wearing a grey coat. He leans his head on his hand and looks exhausted and annoyed.]

#rqg #rusty quill gaming #zolf smith #i know fandom is always good and bad things but it's been very helpful and motivating during a very lonely year #and i cant even say how much working on the zine meant #it was kind of a lifeline during a really hard period #i'm being so genuine i'm gonna throw up now #zows draws

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figofswords · 5 years ago

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Art is a little rusty so to try and get myself back in shape here’s a redraw of my first ever digital piece circa 2018!

#I couldn’t decide between skull or no skull so you get BOTH #the adventure zone #taz #taz balance #lup #lup taz #lup taaco #taz lup #the zone cast #pen doodles

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stygianflood · 4 years ago

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Like the Shoreline and the Sea (Ethan x F!MC)

Summary- Ethan is asked out on a date right after Miami in Book 1. Ethan’s PoV

Genre, rating, words- Angst, teen, 2k

Open Heart fanfic tropes- birthday, office.

March Challenge Day 13 prompt Someday; April Challenge Day 9 prompt Smell of the Rain

A/N: nor’westers- violent thunderstorms in northern plains of India, before the onslaught of monsoon.

Title inspired by Leonard Cohen’s Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye.

‘This will improve our understanding of adiposity and sarcopenia in this population, help identify thresholds predictive of metabolic risk, and ultimately prevent or ameliorate… ’

Better prevent than ameliorate.

‘...ameliorate the long-term impacts on health and…’

Twenty five years should be long enough.

Hers is a singsong voice, the warm, trilling kind. Mellow sun dances on the frills of her dress. The yellow one.

The man at her side twirls her on the empty kerb. Dips and kisses her. Her laughter is all that is pure and golden.

A child follows them, embarrassed. She bends down to kiss him, and he is furious.

The scene shifts.

The child is on the front porch, eyes set somewhere beyond the wild bergamot bushes.

Tear tracks on pink cheeks mingle and dry with dust from his afternoon’s exploits. Something like a steely resolve troops in his eyes.

Ethan Ramsey has been staring at the same sentence for fifteen minutes now.

Whoever coined the term ‘nostalgia’ from the Homeric nostos and algos was speaking of anguish caused by an inability to return. But they failed to discern the inevitable tethering of reminiscence with habituality.

That is more or less the case with him. Louise Ramsey walked out on her husband, and eleven year old son some twenty five years ago right before his birthday. For a very long time now, home is not about apple crisps or kitchen gardens.

About this time every year, a crevice in his mind he likes to call the amygdala dwells on the same days.

Almost as a ritual.

He is a scientist. A rationalist. And like every year, he reminds himself there is work to do.

Unless there’s a knock at the most unpleasant hour.

He never returns to the article. Never manages a come in. The distraction walks in, messy hair knotted with a pencil. Probably because she has lost another hair tie.

He mustn’t be that aware.

But she talks too much.

‘Dr. Mukherjee.’ He sounds gruff. They’re supposed to be redrawing their boundaries, even if he is the only one making an effort. ‘I thought your shift ended-’

‘Two hours ago.’ Rigours of a sixteen hour shift mark her visage. Her smile is a little too conniving for his comfort. ‘I had work afterwards.’

She starts shuffling papers on his desk, permission be damned. He pinches the bridge of his nose, and manages an exasperated sigh. Since when have interns started walking into his office with… birthday cakes?

‘What do you think you’re- It’s not my-’

‘I heard rumours that Dr. Ramsey had to cancel a date.’ She sounds amused. He does not miss the split second glance she shoots his way before continuing. ‘On his birthday, too. Such a shame.’

He scoffs.

‘No one knows it’s my birthday.’

‘Oh, they do. They’re just too afraid to… ah, invoke the wrath of Dr. Ramsey.’

Of course, she is not one of them. She has absolutely no regard for the immutable drill he has observed for nearly four decades. And why must she, when her sole intent is to swivel the rusty axis of his life.

Ethan has never known the first shower of an Indian monsoon. It is sudden and torrential, just as it is feared and revered. It smells like summer, and mango blossoms.

Ethan has never known one until this year.

‘I’m thirty seven, Rookie,’ He manages weakly.

‘And I would’ve bought the candles accordingly if I knew that.’

The tealights she arranges look so much better, he thinks. The cake is a simple blue and white affair. Not the ones that have more icing than cake, he notes. Not the ones he disapproves of.

Happy Birthday, Dr. Terminator

‘I could’ve whipped something up without sugar,’ She rambles, suddenly starting to blush. ‘Or ordered one. But I only just came to know it’s your birthday. And there wasn’t a lot of-

‘Thank you, Apu.’ Tresses of warmth curl about his chest and the gravel of his voice.

Ethan has avoided birthday cakes for a decade now. Unless it’s Naveen’s birthday, he thinks with a pang.

In his time with Harper or his brief involvements in med-school, no one has ever convinced him to do birthdays. He checks himself. This is just an intern being kind.

But interns aren't kind to Dr. Ramsey, are they.

She assures him the photos are not for social media. They settle on the couch, it’s his first birthday cake in over a decade.

He is glad for an innocuous reason to look at her, laugh at jokes that in any other company would draw his scorn. She is oddly comforting. Unlike most interns who avoid his office at all costs, she moves about it as if she was meant to be here all along.

He must have stalled birthdays worth twenty years only to spend it on a couch with her.

The plates are disposable. It is nothing like the restaurants that come with his status, for there is an endearing simplicity about it.

It almost feels like… home.

He steals occasional glances at her. It has been four agonisingly long days after their return from Miami. And for all his attempts to redraw their boundaries, it has been a non-return of sorts.

Aparna drives him to distraction, flouts each and every one of his rules. Seeks him out in supply closets and muddled dreams. And every time he breaks her heart a little more, he finds himself floundering in his own squalor.

The German counterpart to the English ‘nostalgia’ is ‘sehnsucht’. Like ‘nostalgia’, it has the charm of what has been. But unlike it, it also has the enigma of what has never been. Miami will remain the swansong to an ideal that slipped through Ethan’s fingers.

A surge of anguish ripples through him as he realises all of this is his for the asking, and he will have none of it.

‘It wasn’t a date,’ He blurts out.

He wouldn’t tell her that if he wants her to move on. Not truly.

‘You don’t have to-’

‘She is Declan’s associate in Panacea. She suggested signing the contract with the Diagnostics Team over dinner tonight. So… just business.’

Claudette Wilson is the most promising young face of Panacea, and Ethan needed less than a minute to know why.

Sleek, dark hair styled at her nape played up her high cheekbones. The ruby of her pliant lips, almost risqué for a meeting such as this, always lingered a little longer on the rim of her coffee mug. Even the measured spoons of her laughter came with an all too enticing lilt.

Ethan has met the other type. Vacuous and synthetic. But the steely glint in her eyes came with a weighty intelligence. An unfaltering wit. And when a perfectly manicured hand brushed the contours of his cuff, he knew it was never meant to be just business.

She was irresistible. And so was he.

That afternoon, the bitterness in his mouth had nothing to do with coffee. He learnt he would refuse Claudette even if her pay checks did not come from Panacea.

Aparna falls silent, almost as if discerning in his words everything he left unsaid.

They have run out of jokes and topics for a harmless chat. He is getting terribly comfortable with her again, he realises alarmed. And she is fidgeting with the ring on her finger.

She’s nervous too. He knows. He could define every twitch and turn of those fingers.

Somewhere in their conversation they have edged so close that her knee juts into his thigh. The couch is surprisingly small for two people. Minutes pass, and despite himself, he does not want her to leave.

His fingers rest on her flustered hands, it’s a deep-rooted reflex. Looking down, she weaves his hand in both of her own. Even as the adrenaline surging in his blood incites him to flee, the delirious part of him emerges stronger and more naive.

He thinks she is leaning in. Soaking up the mayhem in his eyes. The slight movement causes wisps of errant hair to slip from the messy bun. There’s new growth around her brows, a faded scar on her forehead. But it’s her eyes that still hold sway over him.

They stroked him with a strange, silent awe on a balcony on the shores of the Atlantic.

She is nothing like interns that hover around him year after year. Sucking up for recommendations. Sometimes more. She can devour him, and just as easily cast him aside without batting an eye.

And yet she is here. Snuggled in his office while her friends call it a night with cheap beer and rowdy escapades.

But she is different tonight. The quiver in her eyes tentative, even wary.

His hand rises of its own accord, tucking strands of hair behind her ear. Inadvertently, it brushes her face, lingers a little longer against her cheek.

She caressed his face as the ocean crashed around him. It was like falling from the top of a precipice. Tumbling into the amorphous, a terrifying weightlessness. He waited.

‘It’s getting late.’

She smells like the hospital, muted shades of honeysuckle, and like herself.

The cool breeze hummed a steady rhyme against the tumble of her midnight blue dress. Bits of the moon bounced off the dark curtain of her hair, plunging into her eyes. Ethan had never seen such fathomless eyes.

‘I should go.’ She leans into his palm, eyes fluttering close.

‘You should.’

And then she caught him. It was the hollow of her neck. It was soft. Like the rest of her.

Neither of them move today, silently imploring the other to charge. Or retreat. The battle drum in his chest is a dull ache. Throbbing and inconsolable.

The ridges of her collarbone bore traces of his ruin. Traces she covered every morning and stripped every night, like the rites of a godless liturgy.

His free hand is still laced in hers, the other drawing her face nearer.

Her lips are inches from his own as he draws a languid finger across them. Her warm breath spills on his lips, warring and mingling with his own ragged ones.

Her mouth was stained with wine. Numbing and inciting. He was battered, and bruised. Marooned at her side. And she was warm. So warm.

His hand traced the pummelling of her heart, kneading the softness of her chest. Her tongue jousted with his own as the ocean lapped at its shore. Tireless and persevering.

She was wild. Like her Gangetic nor’westers on a sultry afternoon. He was bewitched. She was doing something good to him.

Suddenly the air around them is ripped by the sound of his phone.

It’s his father.

The two of them recoil to their own spaces, Ethan horrified that he let himself stray so far yet again. Silencing the still erring device, he faces Aparna bracing for another apology.

‘I know.’

Her smile is placid, all traces of vulnerability gone. He is vaguely aware of the gentle pressure on the hand still clasped in her own.

‘Happy Birthday, Ethan. I’ll see you tomorrow.’

She is gone before he can marshal his thoughts.

Ethan flops back into the couch, shivering and alone. The incandescent glow from the solitary lamp drenches the office in a soft, ethereal haze. She might not have been here at all but for the little things she scatters around him every time she forays into his life.

Today she leaves with him a caesura. It thwarts the cadence of a life he has been putting together since Miami.

After a minute, or perhaps a staggering nightmare, when he rises to pack the rest of the cake, he sees it.

She must have forgotten her hair tie was in her pocket after all.

It stares up at him from the floor, the silken, mute witness of his transgression. He gingerly picks it up, and turns it in his hand as though it houses some ancient sorcery.

Laying it on his desk, he considers texting her. But scarcely does he scroll down to her name when he stops himself. And pockets it.

Somewhere in the Atlantic, waves still crash upon the rocks, moistening, but never quite lingering.

The waves are relentless. Someday, the rocks crumble into fine sand.

Thank you for reading this! Let me know if you’d want to be added or removed.

#open heart #ethan ramsey x mc #choices monthly challenge #fics of the week #choices fic writers creations #openheartfanfics #choicesaprilchallenge2021 #cac2021

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fluffytimearts · 6 months ago

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one of us (as far as we know) in our group hasn't sent any rape, gore, or doxxing to Rusty, so unless you actually have proof of this, I'm gonna take that allegation with a grain of salt. "You were drawing that art with the goal to be mean and hurtful." Very ironic you say that since Rusty's comic is literally shitty drawings of other people in the LGBTQ+ community who Rusty deems "straight" or a "lost lesbian." But go off.

Second, when we redraw, we don't villainize but actually humanize them. Third, when did Micah draw any butches hyperfeminine? You must have the wrong account because Micah hasn't drawn any. "Lynching mob"—ah yes, critiquing a comic, telling what you can do to improve artistically and writing-wise, and making fun of her queerphobic logic is "harassment." But I suppose it's justifiable that one of the Leasebound fans literally sent us death threats, SA threats, and everything under the sun repeatedly as "normal" according to Rusty's logic. Checks notes Reaaal comparable there mhm /s.

When have we misgendered Rusty exactly? We also said "she/her." Unless you're talking about outsiders of the Leasebound hater fandom, it wasn't us. Besides, Rusty makes it a point to repeatedly misgender Micah as well as the others in our group, just like what the Leasebound fans are also doing. It's funny how you say "take responsibility" because Rusty does none of that. Ever. But twists it and justifies it as being the "wittle ol' victim" against a group of teenagers that is just dunkin' on a poor excuse of a shoujo. She doesn't read back in her own comic; she apparently seems to have no concept of how subtly racist she's being with her own Black characters and other POC characters since it is blatantly obvious how little research she has bothered to do on said groups she is featuring but using as "See? Even these other groups would agree with me." And might I remind you how she pretty much headcanoned a historic figure that made "Stone Butch Blues" to be "bisexual" in one of the streams of Radical Ramblings.

Yeah... How about you take your head out of your own ass, hun? The call is coming from inside the house.

Idk if anyone from rusty Fandom will see it , but at least you'll know that and BTW I was fucking 17 when it happened so yeah rusty as the habit to fucking make fun of minors and intrude spaces where they're by themselves cuz she can't handle being hateful and her actions having consequences .

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mcrmadness · 4 years ago

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Madness draws: Behind the Scenes of the latest Farin&Bela pencil drawing.

Aka the one that’s also my icon, even when that was a big risk to take because normally I start hating the photos I have once drawn, especially if I have failed miserably. This is how the drawing itself turned out:

ATTENTION: The original post about that drawing, with better image, behind this link.

This post is solely about the process itself with lots of pictures and also plenty of gifs, because I promised to do one if people would like to see that and I got some comments saying that they’re looking forward for that. So, here’s now that post!

For starters I have to apologize for the terrible quality that is the photos. I used my phone camera only and never thought about posting them, I just took them as a reference for myself and to show the progress to a friend and only after finishing the drawing I noticed that the angle of the camera causes a huge impact on the perspective of the drawing, so I sometimes might have done useless work when I thought some perspective was wrong when it was actually the photo that was wrong and not my work! I mean, take a look at these photos of the finished piece:

You see that? I realized this when I took maybe the second photo of the Farin sheet and looked at it and couldn’t believe my eyes because I didn’t remember drawing his torsto THAT small! And then I looked at the drawing and was like “wtf???” because it looked nothing like in the photo and then it hit me...

Also, another thing that I learn was that I might need to pay more attention to the perspective of the whole thing also because when I draw, I sit at the table so I am constantly seeing the drawing from my perspective instead of looking at it from above so that’s probably also going to affect the way I draw. I try to keep that in mind in the future so I can avoid redrawing things again and again just because my perspective is different than the reference photo’s.

Also the giant forehead of Farin’s in the photo on the right might have caused me to laugh a bit too much but anyway, let’s continue~ Or more like: let’s start for real this time.

Here’s the reference photo to y’all:

What I did in photoshop was to draw a line between them to see how I can divide the photo on two A4 papers. I had been thinking about this photo for some time already because it’s one of my favorites (but now I just feel cringy looking at it after I have drawn it... goddamnit!), and I got this idea that I could try drawing it on two papers in case I fuck up so I can start over or try again without having to do twice the work! Which was actually a good decision because this was the first version of Farin:

And it was awful. I also realized I had never drawn Farin’s face from he front. I have drawn him before from the side a few times but maybe once it came out actually good so that was why I decided to do the 2 paper method - because I knew it was not going to be an easy job! Bela is relatively easy to draw so I knew already that I would not have too many problems with that one.

I struggled with Farin’s eyes the most, at first.

It took me a while to figure out how to do that white line in his lower lid. Keep in mind that this was my first face portrait in over 10 years so I was very, very rusty and I just didn’t remember how to draw like anything anymore. (The photo is tilted because Bela’s face is a bit tilted and my hand can’t draw anything that is not straight [lol] so I have to rotate the photo in order to even draw the sketch of Bela’s eyes.)

So I took my sketchbook and tried to do some eyes...

I was still struggling so much here until I remembered about blending. And I didn’t have my hopes high but grabbed the eyeshadow applicators (my fave tool for blending) anyway, and switched to my other sketchbook in case the paper was the issue and:

Blending. It was all about blending! So with that in mind, I realized I can continue and I don’t need to do these in my old way, everything doesn’t have to have a lineart done but some of the job is done not with the pencils but with the eraser.

Anyhow, the previous Farin looked really bad and was too big as well so I just discarded that and started a new sheet because the old lines were not coming off properly anymore. I don’t remember if this is the old face or new but I think this might still be the old one:

Yes it definitely is the old because look at those lines! This is the new sheet:

And in the photo you can see one of my pencils - I use Derwent Graphic pencils, it’s a 12 pencil set with very soft pencils, starting with H, F and HB and ending to 9B. With this one I used F, HB, B, 2B, 5B, 7B and 9B. The white pencil is actually my new love aka the eraser pencil Koh-I-Noor Hardmuth. It’s amazing, I recommend! I just didn’t order 10 new ones this other day. I actually used about 1,5 full eraser pencils on this drawing alone so that’s why 10.

Here’s a “little” gif of the process on Farin:

I felt crazy when I went for the shirt, and I felt like I was going crazy MEANWHILE drawing it but in the end I did it and I’m super proud of it!

Below is the reference photo, it was pain in the ass to follow all those lines with my eyes and try to find what was I drawing and where was I but I think I did good. That was a fun challenge.

Okay so, when I was done with the new lineart, I decided to go for the shading and blending because that’s what really makes the drawings to pop. I started with the left (his right, my left) side of Farin’s face because I’m right-handed, and in the first photo I had done just the left (right) eye and mouth and nose, but in the second there’s also the other eye done already:

Keep in mind this was not the last time I drew the eyes. Not even close.

Something was off with the right (left) eye so I had to do that one again and I noticed that when you blend but haven’t erased and cleaned it yet, it looks like a black eye :DDD So here’s the before and after images of that cleaning. (Cleaning = I draw, blend, erase, draw and blend more when needed and then erase again, and repeat this as many times as I need until it starts to look ready to my eye.)

So here Farin was “finished” but if you still remember the final piece or compare it to it, you might notice it looks quite different. And you’re right. But more about that later, because at this point I started to work on Bela.

It actually started really well - I also had to do the whole lineart again because it did not match the size of “finished” Farin. I don’t remember if this is the first or second eye but when I had drawn his eye for the first time, I noticed it was not in line with Farin so I had to redraw it. A gif of the progress:

What’s that brown paper I’m using, you may ask? Well I noticed that people have some sort of paper on top of their art to keep it from smudging and I have no clue what that is so here’s my poor artist recommendation: baking paper! I tested it and it works (if you just remember to keep it under your hand, that is...) so that is, in fact, baking paper! :DD

I have drawn Bela’s face a few times before and he’s just so much easier to draw. In fact I used 4-5 days on Farin but I managed to start and finish (this version of) Bela just in one day. And that means that out of 12 hours (because I literally used the whole day for drawing) I used maybe like... 5h or something on Bela. That’s how much easier he really is to draw.

I don’t know wtf is wrong with Farin’s face but he’s extremely difficult to draw and I’m not the only one who has been saying this. I guess he just looks so regular but still unique enough to be difficult to draw. Bela then again has features that are very unique and very... caricature-like? I mean that just by drawing his nose or chin you can make a comic book Bela look exactly like himself, and with more realistic style his eyes already do a lot, but Farin’s really the opposite. My comic book version of Farin is literally the most basic version I can draw, it’s how I draw those characters and the only thing that makes him look himself is the hair, and his nose in a side profile. So I think that’s why it’s so difficult to draw him because he doesn’t look too regular but still regular enough to make is a very challenging task to do properly.

So yeah, the same day as I started working on Bela, I was also “finished” with the drawing:

Also look at how different it looks like from this perspective:

With the reference photo open in photoshop and I don’t understand how Bela looks more like himself in my drawing than in the photo. Also when I showed the WIP to my brother, he said that I somehow had succeeded at making Farin look more like Farin than what he does in the photo even. It’s weird.

But we were still far from finished. I was going to use the fixative on this soon but it just kept snowing the whole week so I couldn’t so every time I walked past the drawings, I stopped to fix this and that. For days I kept telling myself “I’m done, I can’t do more than this, I can’t do better than this.” and considered the drawing finished but still kept fixing things. Every time I was “done” with the other drawing, I saw something to fix in the other one and once that was done, I felt like the first one wasn’t as good and had to fix something from it too. And that led to a cycle where the other drawing was always better than the other and the worse one needed to be fixed. In the end I was hating the whole process and myself and my skills and I was already ready to abandon this whole thing and call it a day and never ever show it to anyone “because I cannot draw”. The photo above, here’s a list of things I redrew after that:

Bela’s eyes, the right (left) one at least twice.

Bela’s nose.

Bela’s mouth a couple of times.

Farin’s eyes x588045028520

And a list of things I kept fixing and fixing:

Bela’s chin.

Bela’s neck shadows.

Bela’s hairline.

Farin’s whole face was tilted so I tried to fix that.

Farin’s face was too wide, which meant also partially redrawing the ear.

Farin’s hair was too long and wide too.

Farin’s nose.

Farin’s mouth might be the only thing I drew only once and I’m actually still extremely proud of how it came to be. I did the lips solely with blending so that was super exciting to notice how I can use it for drawing and don’t need the pencils for everything!

During Bela’s eyes and nose and mouth especially I was hating myself so much and I felt like I was taking the risk of ruining the whole thing and a few times I was certain that was what I had just done too, until I somehow was able to save it again. But because of that, I wasn’t able to make Bela’s mouth any lighter anymore, the color wasn’t just coming off the paper so had to use what was there and make it look like it’s how it’s supposed to be, too.

Here’s a gif about those changes on Bela - the first one has the old eyes and nose, the others have minor changed on the nose and mouth:

(The blacks probably don’t get any blacker in reality, I did add more color to it all the time but mainly it’s just the lighting and my phone camera changing the brightness.)

I did the final details on his nose without even using the reference photo anymore. The photo didn’t seem to make any sense anymore at all so I was just using my mechanical pencil and the blending tool and eraser to make is look better. To my eye it looked more like a very flat nose with a big tip of the nose and he doesn’t have a flat nose and I tried to get rid of that illusion. I still feel like it makes him look bit weird but I’m not entirely sure how. Maybe it was because of my improvisation, idk...

So, Bela was then finally finished for the last time. In the Farin piece his left (right) eye had been bugging me the whole time and I didn’t want to touch it but still I felt like I have to do something about it because it was bugging me way too much. I then figured I could draw the eye line by line and take a photo of it each time to see if it looks right already or not, maybe I could then avoid doing all the phases before I was sure what to think about it. I mean, now the only way to see if it was correct was to draw e.g. an eye from start to finish, I couldn’t see from just the lineart or unblended eye if it was in the right spot etc. And here’s that progress on a gif:

The gif about only the eye would look so nice if Tumblr didn’t make the gifs so HUGE - this one is actually only 300px or 400px or something:

Apparently I also wasn’t happy with the other eye because:

But good thing is: I really enjoy drawing eyes. I love seeing them to “come alive”, my favorite part was to eraser a bit of the color on the iris to make them look like they are actually shiny! It feels like something so small to do and yet it makes a huge impact on the drawing!

And here’s yet another gif of the whole Farin sheet with all of the changes, including the last changes that made his head narrower, and less tilted and more in line. Look at the left side of his head especially to see that:

I can also see his nose changing between the first few photos. I keep forgetting about that but yeah, I also fixed that a little at some point.

And last but not least, the whole drawing in some sort of a timelapse gif:

Last two are the same but just a photo and the scan of the finished drawing. I still keep seeing things I would do differently but no can do, I already used fixative on it, also to keep myself from obsessing with it any more :D And to use it as a study of some sort. I have never been able to draw a perfect pencil drawing and this isn’t one either. I probably never can draw perfect drawings from references.

I do enjoy the whole shading and blending process, so much so that when I was editing these photos, I just wanted to start drawing something so bad but I also figured that I start to lose motivation when I get to the point where everything should be finished but I just can’t make it perfect. Like the current WIP I have, all I should do is to get the proportions and perspective and the lines of their faces correctly and I would be ready but it feels more like a superpower some people possess and I’m not one of those. I don’t know what is it but I just feel that I cannot see. I don’t know how to explain it, but I can’t see what I try to do and somehow keep drawing everything the wrong way. Just like in this post’s drawing too. There’s still things that are wrong and I know what it is but I don’t know how to solve it. My hands just don’t listen to me and they can’t do what I think they should. I also think the reason I cannot draw perfect copies of photos is because you can always see my “handprint” in them. If I copy a photo, it will look like a photo and not like a drawing made by me. So I believe that in my drawing there’s always a part of me visible and I’m not entirely sure if it’s a good thing or not. On bad days it’s not a good thing, obviously. On good days? Well I guess it’s good then because it just means I have my own style which I really should appreciate. But I wish I had my style only when I want it to be visible, but I can’t control it. Just like I cannot write text by hand that would look like it was written with a computer, so I guess I should just try to get used to it, no matter how much it’d bug me sometimes.

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