#self-reflection i think NOT
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god can i just talk about this stupid man.
like he's so fucking self obsessed that he was driven to commit a whole series of murders because he thinks he only lost a game instead of the fact that he was rejected for being a deeply dishonest human being.
like he'd literally convince himself that he was fired for no good reason at all. it's not HIS fault, it's the fault of his stupid client who clearly doesn't know better.
it's perfectly rational to imagine that every human being has a couple of shortcomings, but kristoph gavin is a highly irrational man.
he aggressively denies that anything could be wrong with him and that's... an incredibly grandiose and egotistical way to view oneself, but i also suspect it's more rooted in the idea that he KNOWS his own character flaws full well and is too terrified to face them. he's actually so incredibly insecure and lacking that it's driving him to literal neuroticism and paranoia because he wants so badly to be everything he says he is.
he knows he'll never actually compare, and just spends his life trying to convince everyone into believing what he says he is. he's terrified that people will see the real him, and zak pretty much realized that fear when he rejected him.
what a sad way to live your life. i wonder what led him to become THAT insecure.
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you always land on all fours
#umineko#umineko spoilers#ikuko hachijo#ikukos turn for a more serious piece... the old man has reigned for too long#now. INCREDIBLY LONG INCOHERENT TAGS RANT INCOMING FAIR WARNING HAS BEEN GIVEN:#it makes me so so sad how little discussion there is about specifically ikuko because imho she fits so neatly into a lot of the more#overarching Big Themes of the game in a way that i have not ever really seen people take notice of or point out in a meaningful way#like even just off of the top of my head. the significance of names and what it means to go by a name that's Not Yours (she has like 4+)#what it Means to be a witch how it represents a person's deepest insecurities and flaws & how its at its core a coping mechanism#the fact that it takes two to create a universe and trying to do it on your own anyways has the capacity to bring you intense misery#^ (how she's shown to be extremely dismissive of her own work and skill until a collaborator comes into her life and helps/encourages her)#and even the family/patriarchy/misogyny stuff that is so prevalent in the rest of the game comes back around to her. even her Only Friend#(young&stupid atp to be fair) remarks that shes Weird for being unmarried + the little she does say about her past invites the question of#to what extent her self-image stems from her family deeming her a freak outcast & effectively disowning her while celebrating her brothers#and i have lot in my mind about the witch thing specifically because i think her particular situation is very reflective of what umineko's#entire magic system and fantasy facet as a whole is meant to represent for an individual. from what little we see of (what is presumably)#her Real personality she is shown to be deeply self conscious in a way that is JARRINGLY diametrically opposed to both 1.) what we see in#featherine and 2.) what we see when she is acting as a Public Figure. because both of the above are very much purposeful acts that she is#putting on in order to obfuscate her true self. and i have always been very resolute & adamant about not totally equating her to featherine#not only because im very firmly in the camp of “featherine is the avatar of the Pen Name & tohya is part of her too” but also very much b/c#i feel very strongly that the stark differences between the two are very centrally relevant to her character & her psyche. as is the case#with most other witches featherine's personality traits serve to reveal/magnify a lot of ikukos inner workings by playing on her#insecurities/reversing them e.g. ikuko being very quick to downplay her skill/achievements becomes featherine being the COMPLETE opposite#to the point where she barely registers even other witches as living beings rather than just fun touys. BUT even though i do champion the#ikuko/featherine separation so hard i ALSO think it is purposefully relevant that at first glance the line between them seems so blurry#her introduction implying a more nebulous separation between her reality/fantasy counterpart is i think is an intentional move on her part#like it is part of the front she is putting up when acting as the Author. as opposed to Ikuko the person who we (in a way ironically very#similar to the way that the Real Battler is presumably only shown during the boatscene) only very briefly get to see take up screentime#which even on a meta level lines up very well with her apparent underlying nature as a like. extremely private largely reserved/shy person#hit tag limit but if by some miracle anyone is still reading this thank you... please see ikuko with the love she deserves... ok ily byeee
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You're a god. You have a new body. A better body. It's you. This is you.
It's wearing a mask.
#legit do NOT know how to tag this. but i think it needs SOMETHING#angst? unreality??? glitching???#Having to confront that you are no longer a human being and a body was chosen for you that supposedly reflects your inner self#and it's wearing a mask?????????????#idkkkk#angst cw#unreality cw#repetition cw#?????#maybe???#creepy??????#my art#click clack#NOT putting it in the ggg tag. sorry
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Hm
I think.
Ralsei is Kris’s desires to be a monster so badly personified and his light world counterpart is Kris’s red horns from their childhood that Toriel said went missing . . . ?
#bc thinking abt ralsei being inspired by toby fox self insert for his older brother’s game#i think kris and asriel rlly reflective of toby irl relationship w his brother……..#and also everyone recently chapters keep mentioning in game how similar ralsei looks to asriel#and toriel#so.. kris wanting to look.#like their family….#That’s just my game theory#deltarune spoilers#utdr spoilers#dr spoilers#nok talks#deltarune
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okay pff yeag whatever dude(loses concept of self as time crumples itself in on me, reducing me to nothing but to an idea of a martyr and i am praised and loved but not my own)
og art from 2020 + alt sketch under the cut

might still do something with this concept later but for now. it is a weirdly cropped sketch
#the caption is about mama mary#something about the concept of time warping reflections of the self until you are only specks of glass#idk im catholic shit happens#oh right phil redraw forgot about him#crazy how far my art has come but if i think about it too hard i think ill stop breathing#philza fanart#philza#technoblade#technoblade fanart#dsmpblr#dsmp#emerald duo#emerald duo fanart#thinking about that one emduo fic that had them going gods of the univserse eldritch horrors on the dsmp#techno was the blood god but phil literally created the Universe and tubbo was like. and hes your SIDEKICK?? and they were like. yeah#also THEYRE SILLLY I LOVE THEM#redmayart
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-Shirley Jones-Luke
#fall in love#love poem#lovers#poetry#poets on tumblr#emotions#feelings#literature#love#love quotes#healingjourney#healing#self awareness#self healing#letting go#self reflection#healing journey#lost love#self love#love and deepspace#relationship#i love you#longing#take care of yourselves#self care#rest#change#think#peace#moving on
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I love how the general consensus in Scum Villain ABO fics is that whatever Shen Jiu's secondary gender was, he was lying about it.
Omega? Obviously he's going to cover that up. Potential weakness! Probably related to past traumatic experiences! No one can know! He's going to pretend to be either a Beta or an Alpha instead.
Alpha? Hates it and everyone else and has no interest in playing the type. Hides it less because of how other people might respond and more because he's having some kind of complicated dysphoria about it.
Beta? I've never see it but I bet he'd disguise that as well. He's totally an Alpha, don't ask questions, fuck off and don't violate the mile-wide personal space bubble.
Whatever Shen Jiu is, we all know he'd be wildly uncomfortable with it.
#svsss#shen qingqiu#shen jiu#scum villain's self saving system#scum villain#I think that might reflect the source of a lot of the character's contrariness#he's actually more comfortable in some ways with being misunderstood#even if it's in unflattering or outright criminal ways#because at least if he's being misunderstood then he's not truly being perceived
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self reflection
#inanimate insanity#ii#ii paintbrush#i just have to wonder how much theyve reflected on how theyve snapped at others#how they might feel silly or too aggressive. or how they feel about it at all#i just wanted to illustrate them lying on the floor and just… thinking#self improvement type beat
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npcs somewhere in the capital, circa 1920
Andrey is an owner of an edgy underground club and architecture is his hobby whereas Peter is an artist the Kains commission frequently and alcohol is his hobby.
#let me set some context#maria introduces daniil to the stamatins#daniil knows of andrey we're keeping them knowing each other from uni in this au and daniil's got a bit of a crush#i am also inspired by peter's too-forward a first line to daniil in game where it goes like#'i see the reflection of my epiphanies in your eyes' and daniil turns into an instant muse for peter the moment they meet#maria is all too pleased by it and peter keeps daniil around for peter's inspiration#my art#fanart#pathologic#pathologic classic hd#andrey stamatin#peter stamatin#maria kaina#daniil dankovsky#you'd think daniil's into the artsy types but no#unfortunately it had to be the broad‚ quick-witted‚ self-sacrificing ones#edit: i was thinking of forgoing using speakeasy for what andrey's got going on but it's not really a usamerican thing it's just a word#a word used to call 'don't speak about this in public' sort of establishment
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The Master about the Doctor when they're not around: *heart eyes, but with panic in his voice as he thinks about the Doctor possibly dying* A cosmos without the Doctor scarcely bears thinking about...
The Master to the Doctor's face: *points a weapon at them* Killing you once was never enough for me, Doctor. How, how gratifying to do it three times over.....
And it's in the same fucking story.
#oh dearie me#master sweetie i think we need to do some self reflection#doctor who#dw#dr who#classic who#the master#the doctor#thoschei#ainley master#tremas master#fifth doctor#first doctor#second doctor#third doctor#the five doctors#doctor/master#doctor x master
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I may just be insane about this but does this feel like foreshadowing to anyone else. In this scene we see her trying to replicate the skill of someone else (her mother) and failing to achieve the same results that they would. That feels really specific and it's driving me insane.
Like, we see this come back again in the aftermath of the trial. Diana has repeatedly voiced her admiration for Wolfgang's ability to speak and inspire those around him in the darkest of times, saying she wished she could do the same. We see her pour her heart out and give her own speech to inspire the others-- except the reaction that she receives is cold and miserable, far from the newly kindled warmth and hope Wolfgang was able to create every time.
Diana is a chameleon. Her whole thing is to reflect, to replicate and to adapt. Do you think that this small scene where she tries to make a butterfly out of her hairclips-- a butterfly, an animal associated with transformation and change-- and the end result looking nothing like what she wanted it to be is a metaphor for her future character arc? She has declared that she wants to follow in Wolfgang's footsteps, wants to become something new, but do you think that by the end she ends up being the furthest thing from him? Do you think that by the end she will be left distorted, fundamentally wrong? Do you think that if she could see what she will become in the future, the only emotion that she can muster is horror as she gazes at a stranger that's supposed to be herself? That by the end, she won't be able to recognise herself, because there's no "her" left anymore?
#project eden's garden#p:eg#p:eg spoilers#diana venicia#wolfgang akire#it makes me think of her in the imitation artwork#the way she is more “normal” than everyone else. that she's smiley and friendly and colourful but her eyes are completely vacant. glassy#everyone else's ranges from horrifying to morbidly cryptic to depressing yet they all feel infinitely more “real” than she does#they say the eyes are the window to the soul yet hers are mirrors that only reflect the people in her sight#and in one you can see her face. expression hardened and determined with purple eyes similar to wolfgang.#and then the one where you see diana look at her imitation self covering her mouth in horror at what she sees when she looks into its eyes#and it's so unbelievably similar to when she watched wolfgang get electrocuted to death#and it feels to me like it's emphasising how his death will be her spiral into losing herself entirely failing to be like him#which makes sense. because she has an idealised image of who wolfgang was#wolfgang was someone who was also scared. who also struggled. who had his own insecurities and fears and secrets#wolfgang had parts about himself he hated and tried to be a better person than he thought he was presently#and he has an idealised image of his own mum. dedicated his life to be like HER#she chases after an idealised picture modelled after another idealised picture unaware that the standard she's pursuing never existed#diana corruption arc i can feel it#i can see her character going downhill mentally from here and honestly i'd love that but i would be upset cuz she deserves better#but i feel like her story will be one of transformation gone horribly wrong#which makes her such an interesting antagonist and contrast to how damon's development will likely go#anywho just rambling here in the tags don't mind me much#i just really like diana and i don't rant about her enough XD#momento rambles
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The General's Daughter
@g-backto505
#pretty sure marcus only fights with the other gladiators like#once#but i think we can all just pretend its totally normal occurance!! and his daughter is very concerned!!#Are the emperors actually inviting Marcus to fight cause they wanna watch him or so they can watchhis daughter who comes to watch her fathe#WHO KNOWSSS#I think its a little different from my previous drawing of Geta but I think people will get the vague idea! what do you think?#the battle between trying to be historically/ architecturally correct and at the same time reminding myself that it can just look niceASKDK#dont get me wrong i think this is neat#my art#gladiator 2#gladiator ii#emperor geta#emperor geta x reader#geta x reader#would yall be interested in like#commissions?? of this 'painterly' style (plus like the style of the other geta drawing) ???#self inserts slash Ocs are a bit of my jam and jelly#yall like that?#when i used the blue because it was reflecting off of *insert reasoning*#thankyou because i was color picking screenshots from the first Gladiator JASDNA
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my fav parts of the epilogue:
knives in sex bob-omb! the keyboard really adds something to that track!
ACTUAL STUNT DOUBLE RAMONA
todd and roxie!! mlm wlw solidarity
barista lucas. flashy ass. /pos
wallace and his bf w the SPARKS!!!
ramona's blonde and teal hair
HEY GORDON WHAT DID YOU MEAN BY "THE REAL GAME"? IS THAT A HINT AT A POSSIBLE S2?
#EDIT: NOOO STOP REBLOGGING THIS WITH THE TYPOOOO#overall I LOVED IT I LOVED IT I LOVED IT#it's not at all what i thought it was gonna be. it took a risk and it SERIOUSLY PAID OFF#i like to think scott goes thru all his necessary self reflection and introspection between the end and the epilogue#oh my goddd#scott pilgrim anime#scott pilgrim takes off#scott pilgrim#spto spoilers#spto liveblogging#spto#peeb post#1k
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"i think mark is the hottest character in severance" "i think devon is hotter" "i want to suck helly's face" SHUT UP EVERYONE!!! LET'S GIVE IT UP FOR THE LUMON HEADQUARTERS BUILDING!!!!
the real life location is the Bell Labs Holmdel Complex btw, it used to be owned by Bell Labs and now it's used by a lot of smaller businesses and stuff.
#it also doesn't help that the lumon is listening shorts gave the building the same thoughts that i think buildings have#like it probably feels good af for there to be the *right* number of people inside a building#the shot of helly walking around at night in the lumon building is the one that made me go 'i have to fuck this building'#severance#architecture#yap#i also have Thoughts about this building#the way that the aboveground portion is made of glass and can seem transparent like how Lumon tries to frame themselves#-as a transparent good guy company#but the glass really consists of mirrors that simply reflect yourself in the mirror#also mirrors. you looking at yourself in a mirror. the self#maybe a reach but i like it when the themes connect to the visuals
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Assisting Acquaintance Acquired.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen ning#wei wuxian#Ignore how Wen Ning's hair looks here because I messed it up. Let's pretend he just sported a different hair style for a brief moment.#I am not exactly great at consistency but I am trying very hard to work on that (immediately messes up again).#Absolutely *love* how Wen Ning clearly remembers and admires WWX...who does *not* recognize him.#This is the best day for Wen Ning and it means *nothing* to WWX. A painful one-sided crush made worse.#It is bittersweet to realize that we care about someone more than they care about us. Sometime we pour love into a relationship-#-with someone who just can't reciprocate. It isn't always a conscious things either. Some people just aren't aware we care.#And painfully - so painfully - You can't make them aware. No act of kindness or gift or self sacrifice will make someone care about you.#You can martyr yourself for someone and they will continue on unchanged.#I think a lot about the parallels between WN and LWJ. Not foils - just reflections. A theme repeated.#People who give so much of themselves to someone who doesn't have the capacity to give any part of themself away.#I will die on the hill of 'Wen Ning would be the love triangle romance if that trope wasn't being avoided'.#And to be honest - thank the stars above that is the case. I do not know any good love triangles in media.#We are skipping some of the sad Jiang Cheng content because I really want to finish season 2 before May.#Sorry JC emo moment lovers...I'll deliver another time.
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EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK, EVIL MARK!!! I want to be coherent about this season but please picture me foaming at the mouth and running on the walls. S2 being what if Mark's just like his Dad? Insanity. I love this show. Anyways, AU where an Evil!Mark tries to make Our!Mark worse, and Our!Mark tries to make the other better. Something something confronting your idea of the worst version of oneself. Plus, tweaked black and yellow costume because I saw it and immediately went murder hornet lookin' ass and knew I had to draw it. Evil ass Mark. Horrible. I think he should be dragged kicking and screaming into redemption.
#mark and the fact he is fighting for this fucking life to avoid the Many Bad Endings???? im pacing. getting out the red string.#when the season is about who you are and what you could become. when trying to be good is an active choice and a struggle.#RAHHHHHHHHHHH#chewing on the bars of my enclosure...when every mark is evil OUR mark is the outlier. the exception. the OTHER. RAHHHH#dog poetry being mark poetry because how often can you kick a dog before it starts snarling before you raise your hand?#how often can you beat it before it rips into you without mercy? when it bites not at your hand but at your neck?#when does violence for survival and violence for vengeance start and end? when your opponent is down and you keep drawing blood?#circling and pacing and losing my mind over this btw if you care#anyways self vs self gets me going crazy. did you know i loved the end of atsv? because it shows.#i think o!mark would lose his fucking mind at what evil wasp looking mark has done + this mf wasp would LOATHE mark's kindness#they both see the other as the WORST version of themselves and they can't stand it. They can't shatter the mirror but they think they can--#--change the reflection.#evil mark seeing mark and seeing what he USED to be#mark seeing what he COULD be#CAN U SEE THE VISION??????#digital art#invincible rotating in my mind#invincible fanart#fanart#mark my beloved#mark grayson fanart#mark grayson#invincible s2#invincible show#mark like hello this is my secret twin and he is NOTHING like me hahahaha anyways wanna debate about having mORALS and LIFE#mark grayson vs the urge not to accept every responsibility as his own#he's batman coded that way#ok im done yapping#if this happened in the comics in any way shape or form dont tell me JACK SHIT or i will PUMMEL YOU with my SHOES
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