#sickposting

[3liza]

I bought some foot brace things to stretch my joints out and do some opposite pressure on the inexorable process of developing horrible bunions (you can't win this one, human feet just can't take the pressure, but you can stave it off for a long time) and I'm looking at these gross blue nylon and Velcro shits that are like physically spreading my toes using little miniaturized bondage straps etc and getting mad that it's now impossible to buy any modern medical assistive device that isn't profoundly desexed. they definitely do this on purpose, if you need a wrap or a brace or a sling etc it's going to look like a piece of really ugly sports equipment or a child's Velcro shoe. god forbid you want your cane to look dapper or formal. god forbid you want a """"waist trainer"""" that doesn't look like a sausage casing (just get a corset seriously). or a sling that isn't scratchy shitty nylon. I could write a big post about the distancing of disability from aesthetics and the insistence that all imperfect function is temporary and therefore investiture in beautiful medical items is eccentric. you can get nice looking canes if you really look but certainly not in a hospital or medical supply store, your insurance won't pay for a chestnut piece with a brass handle. the bunion straps that could be so interesting in leather or even canvas are reduced to fuzzy rustling clown shoes. extremely annoying. and infantilizing frankly. and just ugly

[67ssam]

i’m really starting to like destiel.

[isuggestforcefem]

Please my dear molecule… save me, dear molecule!

[sentient-softdrink]

🏴‍☠️Evilguy follow

"Oooh~ but what if it's the evil amulet" HA! I'm ALREADY evil, so it wouldn't work even if it is. I just wanna see what it does

🏳️‍⚧️Evilgirl follow

So, I figured out what it does-

[solreefs]

I fucking WISH ibuprofen worked instantly I’d be so powerful

[redeyye]

90's david hyde pierce is on my shortlist of celebrity crushes

[srebrnastal]

Listen, I think I have a fever and I feel terrible, so what if.

Levi x Moblit

But like, Levi has feelings for Erwin, and Moblit has feelings for Hange, but they both know they won't be loved by them in the way they want to be, so they keep it to themselves. But SOMEHOW (maybe during their time at the bar, when tipsy Moblit gets too talkative) they find out about their unrequited loves and how much it hurts them to be around the person they love but can't hug them, touch them, tell them they love them, and... I don't know, after a while their sad confessions turn into something more physical, but it's a substitute. Not in a, y'know, sexual way, just… closeness. Closeness, touch, words, time spent together, during which they close their eyes and think about someone else. It's quiet and shy, immersing oneself in fantasy with every tender gesture and word. It's comforting to have someone who understands and to allow someone to be understood in this difficult situation. It feels good to be able to pretend that you are the only one for someone so dear to you. But both of them know deep down that it's not right.

And maybe, at the end of the day, they'll end it without regret, not bringing it up again, just sweet memories of pretend affection.

Or maybe, at some point, Levi will discover that his thoughts don't wander to Erwin when Moblit embraces him, and Moblit will discover that Levi's closeness doesn't make him think of Hange.

Maybe, at some point, they'll realize that they're thinking about each other, not about the people they love who will never be theirs. Something is changing, something is growing. It's a little different and uncertain. It's still quiet and shy.

But now it's also genuine.

[iluvgargoyles]

being severely chronically ill is like you wake up every day feeling like rust cohle at the very end of true detective but then your friend texts being like "I made cupcakes" and you have to say "yay!" so you say "yay!" and the world is relentlessly moving around you and you are still

[walnutsupreme]

i shouldn’t be allowed to track medicine while i’m sick

[jeezlouiseoncheese]

Click! Goes the tape recorder, waiting for its regurgitated meal as eagerly as a starved dog.

Chomp! Goes the tape recorder, much, much later, deciding it likes its meat better fresh.

Ow! Goes Ink5oul, who did not agree to be eaten but is being eaten anyway.

[3liza]

i need to get up and do chores but ive posted on here before about my pet theory that autism and ADHD also have two primary subtypes on the adrenergic axis and most autists will have either primarily adrenaline-seeking or adrenaline-avoidant behaviors depending on what they're lacking, with a mixture of upregulating or downregulating behaviors that address self-regulation of minor states. prior to the DSM-5 the split of ADHD into the separate ADD and ADHD subtypes with or without hyperactivity was maybe a more helpful taxonomy in some sense. i remember in the 90s that it was a pretty big deal to differentiate between the disruptive, class clown, hyperactive kids and the morose, withdrawn, sluggish kids for this reason.

there's been a lot of cortisol testing of autistic people and they kept finding contradictory cortisol levels in their subjects until recently one paper i read proposed that rather than autists universally being all high or all low, it seemed to be the case that having normal cortisol fluctuations over the day was a sign of being non-autistic, and the autism biomarker was instead that autists tended to produce the wrong amount of cortisol either for our internal clocks, or for the environment, and that we were usually running on either too much (agitation, overstimulation) or too little (fatigue, dissociation).

how much of this is a direct result of PTSD, or even more interestingly, a cause of PTSD, is one of the interesting factors

[lexidius]

>be me, autistic and adhd

>minecraft on phone in bed while sick

>hyperfocus kicks in while building

>feel a coughing fit coming on

>step outside my base to go spit in the grass

>wait why am i still in bed

>what the fuck

>brain makes dialtone noises

>so confused my coughing fit stops

>realization

>nearly threw snotty phlegm all over my screen

[bloodstained-butterfly]

can i fall over and die pls

[each-dustbin1]

List of somewhat niche non-fighting games I heavily enjoy on Steam

Roguelikes:

Streets of Rogue (genuine top 5 game for me)

Death Road to Canada (maybe not top 5, but very good)

Gnosia (pretty weak payoff though, hopefully the anime fixes my issues with the plot and characters)

Visual Novels:

Game of Fourtune (technically have it on itch.io though. Has some noticeable issues, but overall i'd say it's pretty good)

Methods: The Detective Competition (I have many an issue with the story as a whole once you complete it, but man is it a fun ride with a super unique artstyle. I love their other games as well)

The Zodiac Trials (various ups and downs over the course of the game, and it quite frankly does NOT stick the ending, but if you're willing to let some things slide, you'll enjoy all the places it takes you)

Head AS Code (One of the most competent indie death game visual novels from a writing standpoint, potentially the best, it pulls off all of its twists well and is an excellent purchase for any Zero Escape enjoyers)

RPGs:

Why Am I Dead At Sea (short, cheap game with a story that I think hits its points well. Has a nice soundtrack, a nice artstyle, and is a good grab if you want a short time killer. Also it apparently was an inspiration for Dance of Cards so extra credit there)

Dance of Cards (AHHHHHHHHH I FUCKING LOVE DANCE OF CARDS AHHHHHHHHHHHHH)

Jimmy and the Pulsating Mass (the odd name hooked me during an RPGmaker game sale and I played the ever-loving shit out of it. Utterly fantastic in its execution)

Wooden Ocean (you know those people who claim that "there will never be another game like X"? I've never really believed any of it until I stumbled into Wooden Ocean, I truly do believe there will never be another Wooden Ocean. Chances are, no matter what I say, there's nothing I could say to convince you to play it, and in a way that kind of just makes it better. Wooden Ocean has hooked its fleshy claws into my brain and rewired my neural pathways in ways I can not comprehend, Wooden Ocean is a piece of art that cannot be recreated, it will never be recreated. Become romantic.)

Shadows over Loathing (Shadows over Loathing is very funny, I like that)

Miscellaneous

Bokura (very enjoyable co-op game that likes to personally fuck with you when it sees fit, heavily recommend with a friend or partner)

[marlinspirkhall]

last night, in my feverish state, I was craving a deep fried pickle

This morning my brother woke me up and said "Sorry to wake you up so early but it's important you eat this before it goes cold"

I was like "how did you know I wanted a deep fried pickle?!"

“Well, you mentioned before that you missed the deep fried pickles from your work.”

“Yeah but that was months ago”

[blukutz]

im so miserable