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I WASNT DONE SPEAKING!!!!!!
that picture of the cigarette from above being lit from a light down below, it brought me back to the whole thing of self inflicted torment. victor franksteinâs whooolleee torment was completely and 100% self inflicted and you canât tell me otherwise, but that was my one of my main arguments for frankenstein not being a modern prometheus tale â so maybe itâs like victor was never supposed to be prometheus but humanity. humanityâs ever growing lust of knowledge and power toppling over to the point that the fruits of their own labor kill them, their subordinates, if you will. just as prometheus, a fucking TITAN, was brought down by the gods, his subordinates, gods came from titans after all. but victor believes himself to be prometheus, he believes he brought this knowledge upon the world that god was punishing him for discovering, but god would be victorâs higher up, while prometheus was the higher up, nobody could tell him what to do. victor believes himself to have gone through hell to get this knowledge, when really he was just some social recluse holed up in his room with books, he was so creep digging up body parts in the middle of the night and no one wanted to be his friend bc his house probably smelled like dead people. prometheus went to literal hell and brought up fire to the humans, bestowing upon them a gift that could breed more life and aid in creation and the building of humanity and just as easily destroy it all. victor brought a pile of body parts to life using a lightning storm and a basic knowledge of human anatomy, could that aid in the creation of building humanity? yea, actually and it could destroy humanity so hard bc of all the soldiers that we could make for wars, but then were not even fighting our own wars anymore and at some point ever soldier in everywhere would just be these monsters and it would all be pointless is then war would stop forever ev and humanity would be unified but then there would be discrimination against real man versus man made man and then that would bc the new war and then humanity could end bc of thatâŚâŚ i keep talking myself back into frankenstein being promethean⌠but itâs different than when other people say bc they explain it wrong they believe this fact for the wrong reasons theyâre just regurgitating bullshit to sound smart and iâm left trying to untangle this matted mess of misinformation just to make sure iâm not the crazy one, IM STILL SANE!!!!!!
#this is basically a continuation of the tags from the post right before this one#the one thatâs a picture of like basically what has been described in the notes to be a grunge depiction of the creation of adam#rant#biggggg time rant#i think i need âbig time rantâ tattooed on my forehead just so people know what theyâre getting into when they bring up topics im obsessed#ith#did i mention that i kind of think i have ocd?
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Their Favorite Underwear (On You) â⥠LADS Headcanons
ââĄSummary: They certainly have interesting preferences, that's for sure. ââĄTags: NSFW, suggestive, sex implied, afab!reader, no pronouns used, fingering, panty sniffing/licking ââĄA/N: done staring at this I'm throwing it out into the wild â⥠masterlist
â⥠Caleb
Calebâs favorite pair of underwear on you is somewhat an innocent pick. A worn out pair of cotton panties youâve had since high school.Â
They have some kind of patternâeither horizontal stripes, flowers, a repeating print of the cookie monsterâdoesnât matter, he loves it all.Â
They remind him of simpler timesâlaundry day when you were youngerâand how theyâd get caught up in his own load by accident. Youâd flush bright red when he stopped by your door to drop them off, but heâd just throw his head back with a laugh and tell you it's fine.
Heâs never told you how close he came to pocketing them instead.
In the present, heâs found himself on laundry duty again. The colonel is dumping your basket of dirty clothes into the washer when a familiar pair of cotton panties fall in.Â
He doesnât even bother looking around; Caleb reaches for them, breath hitching when he realizes theyâre the same pair from before. He canât believe you still have them. You really ought to buy some new clothesâŚ
Something darkâhotâcoils in his belly when he turns the gusset inside out and lifts the fabric to his trembling lips.Â
It smells divineâa little on the tangy side, but heâll make sure you drink more water from here on out.Â
Then his tongue finally laps at the inner lining, and Calebâs eyes practically roll into the back of his head.Â
His hips jerk against the washing machine just thinking about sinking his tongue into your actualâ
Your voice abruptly floats down the hall, some question he can barely hear, and Caleb tells you heâll be right there.
Perhaps he will pocket these for later, after allâŚ
â⥠Xavier
Xavierâs favorite pair of underwear on youâŚis actually his own.
His boxer briefs are basically yours at this point.Â
When you sleep over and need a change of clothes, he just lets you borrow his; which is how you end up in an oversized shirt and boxer briefs in the first place.
Seeing you in his clothes is a thrill of its own, but seeing you in his underwear?
Itâs an entirely new level of intimacy that has his ears burning red and his slow heart skipping a beat.
You wouldnât wear just anyoneâs underwear to bed, youâre wearing his.
He gets oddly clingy when you do, sliding in behind you in bed and nuzzling your shoulder as you scroll through your phone.Â
You make some comment about a post you saw, but heâs hardly listening. Instead, his hand is sliding down your hip, stroking the fabric of his underwear and the heat of your skin. It brings a soft smile to his lips.
Xavier canât help but think the slit of his boxer briefs is silly on you, sliding his fingers inside to gently stroke your pubes. Itâs usually innocent, he just likes the texture.
But the hitch of your breath darkens his gaze, and Xavier gently coaxes you to continue scrolling as his hand sinks lowerâŚ
He hums in response to your little moan, fingers curling up into your slick heat. His other hand reaches around to take the phone out of your faltering grip and slams it against the nightstand.Â
Xavierâs selfish, he admitsâhe doesnât want you distracted by anything else while youâre wearing his clothes, his underwearâŚ
You need to borrow another pair of boxer briefs by the time heâs done with you.
â⥠Zayne
Zayneâs favorite pair of underwear on you is not one you expectedâthongs. Heâs secretly crazy for them. Well, that might be an overstatementâbut he enjoys the sight of you in them very much.
Youâre surprised to learn about Zayneâs preference, though he doesnât readily disclose it at first. You have to feign trouble picking between two sets of underwear first, and shove your phone into his face for an opinion.Â
â...The one on the right.â The cool response is only betrayed by a fervent blush on his cheeks.
He likes slipping his fingers under the thin string, teasing and tugging. It leaves very little to the imagination; straight to the point.
Your order comes in, and Zayne secretly watches you slide them up your legs as you both get ready for a banquet. Itâs all his mind keeps wandering back to throughout the night.Â
Not only are you wearing underwear he picked out, but youâre wearing them to mingle with his colleagues. A rather distracting thought, isnât it?
At one point during the night, you bend over to grab something, and the lack of a panty line reminds Zayne all over again what youâre sporting underneath.
He approaches calmly, interrupting a conversation with his colleagues by wrapping an arm around your waist.Â
His excuse to leave early is well thought outâyou suspect heâs had it in mind since arrivingâbut youâre barely listening when his hand wanders low.
It slides down your backside, and he absently thumbs the string of your thong through the fabric of your dress.Â
âŚThe car ride home is a short one, to say the least.
â⥠Sylus
If you asked Sylus, heâd say he prefers you in no underwear at all.Â
But, if he had to choose, heâs rather fond of a simple red lace. Comfortable, practical, sexy.Â
Not to mention, red is absolutely your color. The fact that itâs his too is merely aâŚhappy coincidence.Â
When heâs stocking up your closet in the N109 zone, Sylus makes sure to order only the best luxury brands exclusively in various shades of red.
The idea of you sauntering around base in his color is enough to make him purr at the sight of you, even when your underwear isnât visible.
He makes a game out of guessing what pair you have on; is it the scarlet one with bows? Or perhaps the strappy maroon?Â
Sylus finds out at dinner; youâre laughing at some ridiculous story when you uncross your legs, and thereâs a flash of vermilion underneath your skirt.Â
The one with heart cutouts? My my, you only wear that one when you want somethingâŚ
His eyes roam you up and down as you continue your story, but you stumble over your words when a swirling red mist drags your chair closer to his.
You were quite bold for wearing such a bright color in public, and if anyone other than him was to catch sight of itâŚ
Well, we canât have that, can we?
Your breath hitches when his hand roams your thigh, smug eyes never leaving yours. His calloused fingers ghost the hem of your skirt, and your words trail off in anticipation of whatâs to come next.
Sylus grips the fabric and tugs your skirtâŚdown.Â
Your face burns as he leans back with a chuckle, âYou were saying?
â⥠Rafayel
Rafayelâs favorite pair of underwear? Brazilian panties, next question.
They sit high above your hip bones while accentuating the curve of your tummy; absolutely divine.
Of course, you look divine in everything; hell, youâd look perfect in only a seashell to cover your modesty. But something about the aesthetic of these panties, specifically, gets him insanely hot and bothered.
He brings you back gifts from his trip overseas, but he flushes and fervently denies having anything to do with the three pairs of panties tucked behind the body lotions and skincare.
Rafayel quickly changes his tune when you suggest modelling them for him, though.
Thatâs how you end up changing into them right then and there, a minty lace pair with a little satin rose sewn to the front. You rejoin Rafayel, whoâs been waiting patiently on his bed.
Rafayel canât speak, only tugs the back of your thigh closer as he swallows thickly.Â
Your pubes peek out the sides due to the nature of the design, and you make an offhand comment about shaving the next time you wear them. Rafayel immediately shakes his headâas if offendedâand grips the sides of your hips, thumbs hiking the side wings further up.Â
He flushes, and his nostrils flare right before he lowers his head to lick a stripe up your lace front.
His tongue burns through the fabric, and the Lemurian lets out a shuddering breath against your stomach. You barely register the chill down your spine when he licks you again, this time his teeth catching on the waistband.
You never get to try the other two pairs on for himâŚ
#love and deepspace#lads#lnds#zayne x reader#sylus x reader#xavier x reader#rafayel x reader#caleb x reader#sylus x you#zayne x you#xavier x you#caleb x you#rafayel x you#lads rafayel#lads sylus#lads zayne#lads caleb#lads xavier#lnds rafayel#lnds sylus#lnds xavier#lnds zayne#lnds caleb#love and deepspace rafayel#love and deepspace xavier#love and deepspace caleb#love and deepspace sylus#love and deepspace zayne#love and deepspace x reader
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across stardust - one (j.yh)
summary: you and yunho have worked together for years, idol and makeup artist, but until today you've never touched him skin to skin. when the world tilts on its head from just a brush of his cheek, you realize he's so much more than a crush, he's your soulmate. one | two (section 1) (section 2) | series masterlist đread on ao3 ⨠across stardust pinterest board
note:Â please enjoy this truly self indulgent romance. will be four five parts total, and i'll post each as soon as they are ready to go. happy comeback week, and i hope everyone enjoys this đ
tags/warnings: idol!yunho, makeup artist!reader, fem!reader, soulmates au, soulmate identifying marks, soulmate tattoos, tattoed!reader, a lot of fluff and tenderness, love at first touch, shared feelings/emotions/physical sensations, anxiety/stress over what to do, reader's family isn't the best, kq is not the best company for the purposes of this fic!, light smut including - heavy makeouts/grinding, hand kink, size kink, phone sex, sexting, fingering, jacking off, dirty talk, praise, use of good girl, use of pet names like baby/jagiya/sweetheart. basically this fic is an excuse for me to write star-crossed desperate love so i would say it's the literal opposite of a slow burn lmao
pairings:Â yunho x reader
genre: fantasy, romance, smut || soulmates au
word count:Â 17.9k
Itâs eleven in the morning when your day starts, hiding in the green room of a concert venue in Berlin, and the day feels lost already. With Eunji and Dahan ill that only leaves you and Iseul to handle makeup for all eight members and with how exhausted you are from yet another night of little sleep, you donât know how youâll be able to keep up. Youâre trying to stay awake, but while the members are all out on stage learning their marks and rehearsing the improvisational moments for this tour stop, the green room is quiet and you keep nodding off.Â
âBad night?â Iseulâs voice startles you out of one of your dips into sleep and your body jerks up right.Â
âFuck,â You breathe, âhey,âÂ
âHere,â She pushes a bright can into your hands, an energy drink, âyou need this.âÂ
âI need to be sedated,â You grumble, taking it from her, âthe time difference is never this hard,âÂ
âMm,â She shrugs, âitâs unpredictable,âÂ
âYeah,â You sigh, âI guess.âÂ
The thumping music outside as they run through another track is starting to give you a migraine. You take a long sip of the drink and then leave the can on the table in front of you, choosing instead to hide your face in the sleeves of your sweatshirt and let out another long sigh.Â
âGirl,â Iseul nudges you, âyou look like shit. Your station looks like shit.âÂ
âThank you?âÂ
âIn thirty minutes weâre going to be busier than weâve been since that Inkigayo stage for Answer,â She points out and you grimace at the reference. Back then it really was just a skeleton staff and one of the makeup artists quit on the spot, too stressed to continue the work and walking out in the middle of doing Yeosangâs foundation.Â
What a mess those old days used to be. Nostalgia sometimes makes you forget how late those nights were and just how impossibly tired you had been. This feels too reminiscent of that for sure.Â
Iseul taps your shoulder to get you to lift your face as she continues, âI know youâre tired, but I canât do this shit on my own. I need you.âÂ
âOkay,â You breathe, scrubbing your hands over your face to jolt yourself awake as best you can, âyouâre right, Iâm sorry,âÂ
âDonât be sorry,â She gives you a sympathetic smile, âI get it.âÂ
This tiredness feels different though, so deeply ingrained in your body. Somethingâs been keeping your adrenaline running like a long, drawn out anxiety attack and you canât understand it. Youâve been on tour before, youâve been on planes, youâve had long days, and youâve worked with this exact group for years. Thereâs nothing on paper that should be making you so anxious, but the threads of it are humming in the deep back of your brain even now.Â
âCome on,â Iseul prompts again, pulling you to your feet, âletâs get you in gear.âÂ
âRight,â You take another long sip of your energy drink and pray it starts kicking in soon and that the effects wonât make you feel crazier, âletâs do this.âÂ
She helps you put your station together with ease and then pull yourself together. Within those precious thirty minutes of calm before the storm youâve downed two cans of pure caffeine, assembled your station and strapped on your brush belt, and tried to make yourself some form of presentable by slicking your hair back into a smooth knot and adding a coat of lip balm.Â
As always, the boys have used the ladder game to determine hair and makeup order which means those at the bottom of the list have more time to relax fresh-faced on the couches before getting poked and prodded and wrapped up like presents for thousands of screaming fans. With only you and Iseul available itâs about to be a race against the clock to get them ready.Â
Their managers hustle them from the stage to the back rooms where the rest of the staff waits, and the members gather around you and Iseul and your makeshift makeup stations.Â
âAlright,â Iseul says as the members quiet down, âweâre down some staff as you know,âÂ
They nod attentively and you trade a close lipped smile with Hongjoong.Â
âWeâre just going to do the best we can as quickly as we can,â She explains, looking down at their names on a slip of paper, âWooyoung, Yeosang, Jongho, San,â she recites, âyouâre with me in that order.âÂ
You run through the names on your slip, âHongjoong, Seonghwa, Mingi, Yunho, that leaves you with me.âÂ
Iseul nods as you finish your words, âPlease be ready to slot in when the person in front of you is finished, and then you can go directly to wardrobe for your soundcheck outfits,âÂ
âWeâve got it,â Hongjoong nods, âand if thereâs anything you both need,âÂ
âWeâll be fine,â Iseul assures him, âbut itâs definitely going to be cutting it close,âÂ
âWe should get started,â You cut in, âif youâre ready?âÂ
Hongjoong jumps to your chair immediately and Wooyoung steps to Iseulâs, and before you know it youâre off.Â
The room is alight with activity while you both work, only you donât have a relaxed pace and only two members to perfect. Youâre used to working with Wooyoung and Seonghwa, theyâve been your assigned members for as long as youâve worked with Ateez, but when staff shortages or timing gets tight, it can be a bit of a free for all.Â
You stay focused and execute each memberâs makeup like a well rehearsed dance, and you do your best to ignore the buzzing anxiety in your veins. For a little while, you handle it like a professional.Â
When Yunho finally settles into your chair, about a single second after Mingi leaves it, the exhaustion careens back into you sideways. It takes you a minute to prep your tools this time, and youâre pretty sure that without the artificial pick me up of the energy drinks youâd be passing out on the spot.Â
You steady your hands against the vanity in front of you and take a deep breath, and when you look up you catch Yunhoâs eyes in the mirror, a tiny crease of concern between his brows.Â
âYou okay?â He checks.Â
You give him a smile, albeit a tired one, âThe jet lag is really hitting this time,â you explain, âbut Iâm fine,âÂ
He looks sympathetic immediately, âSame for me, I feel like Iâm barely sleeping,âÂ
âThatâs not good,â You tell him as you prep your stainless steel palette, âyou have a long night ahead,âÂ
âIâll sleep tonight,â He says, âIâm sure,âÂ
âAfter dancing for three hours Iâd hope so,â You smile and pick up your first set of tools before turning towards him.Â
âDo you have anything you could take?â He asks, studying your face, âA sleep aid?âÂ
âI usually donât like to,â You admit, âI always feel groggy the next day,âÂ
âAnd we have another show,â He finishes for you, his lips coming together in a thin line as he thinks.Â
Thereâs nothing really for him to do, but itâs kind of him anyway to be so concerned. They always are, this rare group of eight idols who remember staff birthdays, bring coffee on the early morning schedules, and always, always take extra time to clean up after themselves so itâs not left to anyone else.Â
You take a step closer towards him and glance over his bare face and then it occurs to you, âYou know whatâs funny?âÂ
âHmm?â He tilts his face up to you.Â
âI donât think Iâve ever done your makeup before,â You smile, itâs a ridiculous thought.Â
âNo way,â He blinks, thinking back, âitâs been⌠forever, are you sure?âÂ
You nod, âYouâre usually with Eunji,â you tell him, âand even when weâve swapped around, I donât think so. I think youâre the only member Iâve never done,âÂ
âWow,â He laughs, eyes bright, âwell, I guess thereâs a first time for everything.âÂ
âIs there anything,â You start to ask him if thereâs anything he prefers, anything special about his makeup that he gets done with Eunji that he asks for, but Iseul catches you idle as she pats foundation onto Sanâs forehead and answers for you.Â
âHis skin gets dry,â She jumps in, âdonât use too much powder,âÂ
Yunho grins, a laugh on his lips at the directness of her words.Â
âAnd donât use that oil,â Iseul adds, âthat primer oil you like, heâll break out by tomorrow,âÂ
âThank you, Iseul,â Yunho says, and you watch Sanâs face as he stifles a chuckle.Â
âNoted,â You smile, and you swap out two of the products in your hands before taking up your position by his side again.Â
Youâve gotten used to working with idols, to working with Ateez and with Yunho specifically, and yet when you get this close a little flutter of nerves rocks through your belly. Heâs handsome, and if youâre being honest heâs just your type. Maybe itâs the exhaustion, or this weird feeling in your chest that youâve been dealing with all week, but for the first time in a long time you think about what it would be like to kiss his lips.Â
âHow do you want me?â He asks, breaking your thoughts, and you have to shake off the impending blush at the way his words make you feel. You have work to do, and you had gotten over your silly little crush on him years ago, you need to get a grip.Â
You recover fairly smoothly though with a quick smile, âRight,â heâs never worked with you before, and heâs looking to you for direction, âhead back a bit, please, and eyes closed,âÂ
âAlright,â He follows your instructions to the letter.Â
âOkay,â You tell him, âprimer first. Let me know if anything bothers you,âÂ
âMhm,â He hums and stays relaxed.Â
He has the loveliest eyelashes, thatâs the thought that echoes through your brain as you start working on him, and you wish it never occurred to you at all because you keep glancing up at his closed eyes. He lets you work, he knows youâre exhausted so he doesnât push you for conversation, and youâre strangely grateful. You know heâs chatty sometimes in the chair, an extrovert through and through and always keeping Eunji company or talking with the member beside him, but right now he keeps still and gives you respite on a hard day.Â
Youâre patting foundation into his skin with a large paddle brush when Iseul interrupts your thoughts, âDo you have that eggplant liner?âÂ
âCheck my table,â You offer, but with how sluggish your brain is feeling thereâs no way you remember a single thing on your station without looking.
âMm,â She pivots around and pokes through the products and tools behind you, and you glance over as San opens his eyes to watch Iseul rifle through things.Â
âDamn,â She mutters, âhow much time do we have?âÂ
âUm,â You glance down at your watch, âtwenty?âÂ
âPerfect,â She scoots behind you and disappears into the hall, no doubt to find your traveling makeup case and the liner.Â
You sigh, chewing the inside of your lip at the idea that you only have twenty more minutes, but you really donât want to rush and have his makeup melt off on-stage.Â
âYouâre fine,â San assures, his body angled towards you and Yunho now while he waits, âdonât worry about the clock,â
Yunho hums his agreement from below you, âPlenty of time,â
You refocus on Yunhoâs skin and notice a long black and white hair from the paddle brush affixed to his cheek, mixed in with the foundation. You take the brush again, wiping off any excess foundation and checking to see if more fibers are loose, and then you work the brush against his cheek in an attempt to free the loose hair but it isnât coming off easily. Every attempt you make just slides the hair into a different spot on his cheek and covers it with more foundation.Â
âUm,â You usually donât like to do this, but you might have to, âcan I justâŚâ
His eyes open but his expression stays smooth, âCan you?âÂ
âSorry,â You shake your head, âdo you mind if I touch you?âÂ
âYou already are,â He smiles, a small, amused crease between his brows youâll have to pat out momentarily.Â
You tuck your brush away and gesture with your hand, âYou just have a hair,âÂ
âOh,â He laughs, âof course, yeah,âÂ
Youâre just supposed to touch his cheek, brush away the hair with the pad of your finger and then get back to work, thatâs all it is, so youâre completely unprepared for the feeling that rockets through your chest when your skin finally touches his.Â
Yunho gasps softly as your fingers brush over his cheek, his eyes blowing wide and his expression blanking, and itâs the only indication you have that he feels something too. A tightness wrenches in your chest, like someone pressed something hot and hard directly into your breastbone and your stomach does a somersault. Your ears are ringing, and youâre pretty sure your heart is about to beat out of your chest now that itâs started up again.Â
The tattoo on your chest feels warm beneath your blouse.Â
âYou,â Yunho manages, his voice shaky and you know for sure he felt it too.Â
You rock back a step, âI donât understand,âÂ
âShit,â Someone else says, and then you realize that itâs San and youâre not alone with the only other person in the entire world, youâre in the middle of work in front of at least one other person and itâs only your existence that just got tilted on its axis. Yours and maybe Yunhoâs.Â
âOh,â You glance to the side, taking in Sanâs wide eyed expression, âoh my God,âÂ
âIâm not insane, am I?â Yunho smiles, his focus entirely on you, and you think you might just pass out, âYou felt that?âÂ
Thereâs a noise in the hall and San scrambles up to his feet, âIseul,â he says heading for the door, âdo you need help looking?âÂ
Heâs covering for you both, but thoughts are slow to form and all you can manage is blinking at the man in your chair.Â
âYou did, right?â He asks again, eyes soft and hopeful, and then his fingers brush over the center of his chest. Squarely over his breastbone.
Heâs yours.Â
You want to reach out and yank up his shirt, check the tattoo over his heart to see if itâs the same looping knot shape as yours, but you donât need to see it to know for sure. Itâs him.Â
San says something about forgetting the liner altogether, a little louder so you both know the room is going to get crowded again, and you shake your head to jolt yourself out of your paralyzed position.Â
âYou didnât?â His hand falls.Â
âI did,â You rush to correct, âIâm, I donât know,âÂ
He nods, wetting his lips and shifting in his chair. He moves to reach for you, but reason and sense click back into place immediately and you realize that no matter what your tattoo feels like and no matter what this means, youâre at work and about to have a very private moment in a very public place if youâre not careful.Â
You shake your head with a glance at his hand and jerk your head towards the door, âLater,âÂ
âRight,â He leans back from you, âof course, right,âÂ
Footsteps to your right draw your attention and Iseul is huffing, checking her own watch, âWeâll do brown,âÂ
âThatâll be fine,â San assures her, but his eyes are glued on the pair of you.Â
Iseul moves to step around you again and realizes youâre just standing there, âWhatâs with you?âÂ
âSorry,â You manage, blinking hard and refocusing, âI just got dizzy,âÂ
Itâs not entirely a lie, given that you felt the entire earth shift under your feet thirty seconds ago and your life is completely changed. Dizzy is the least of how youâre feeling.Â
Yunhoâs expression shifts immediately, concern across his face, and he curls his fingers into his palms to keep himself from reaching out again, from being too familiar.Â
âOh,â Her eyebrows raise high, âdo you need me to finish Yunho?â
âN-no,â You take a breath, âjust give me one second,âÂ
âAre you sure youâre alright?â Yunho asks, and in the back of your brain you wonder if his voice has always sounded this good.Â
âHere,â San cuts in smoothly, cracking the seal on a fresh water bottle and passing it over to you, âdo you need to sit a minute?âÂ
Sanâs hand rests on your upper back between your shoulders as you take a long sip of water, the cold shocking your brain back to reality in exactly the way you need.Â
âThank you,â You tell him honestly, âI think Iâm okay, just a headrush,âÂ
San nods, and when you refocus your eyes on Yunho, you almost laugh. His gaze is squarely on Sanâs hand where it sits on your back, and you watch the fast, silent exchange between the two men when San drops his hand and Yunho realizes his own reaction. He blushes, ears running red and he dips his head to avoid both your eyes.Â
âIseul,â San steps around you both and distracts your friend, âready to wrap?âÂ
âYeah,â She agrees, âletâs finish up. Youâre sure youâre okay, y/n?âÂ
âMhm,â You hardly trust your own voice, but you nod anyway, âIâm good now.âÂ
Yunho tilts his face back up as you step close, and the tension between you is so palpable and so familiar that you can hardly breathe. Your tattoo feels warm and heavy and something tells you that his does too, you can see it in the tenderness of his brown eyes.Â
âDizzy?â He asks quietly, keeping his words just for you.Â
You shake your head, âNo,â
âThatâs good,â He murmurs, but he lets whatever words he wants to say rest on his tongue.Â
Your tattoo throbs and you donât dare touch his bare skin again.Â
His makeup takes fifteen more minutes and his eyes donât stray from your face the entire time. You barely finish on time, and wardrobe is standing by to get them into their first outfits of the night, so when you put the final touches on heâs already being pulled out of the chair before you have a chance to say anything.Â
You want to corner him and ask him exactly when heâll have time to talk later, but despite working together for the last few years, you and Yunho arenât that close. Youâre friendly, but youâre not familiar enough to casually ask what heâs doing later and not have it seem strange. While friendships between staff members and idols are not discouraged, even between the opposite sex, being overly familiar or suggestive would certainly leave a question in everyoneâs minds, and you donât want to draw attention to yourself that quickly.Â
This is between you and Yunho, no one else. You donât want an audience for this.Â
So he goes, pulled away by wardrobe and his other members, fitted quickly into his Soundcheck outfit. He has his game face on, so do all the members, and you watch him disappear down the hall without a second glance back at you.Â
You collapse into the couch and press your eyes closed, focusing on the singular feeling of heat and soreness from your chest.
A soulmate.Â
The tattoo on your chest was one you barely looked at anymore, too focused on living your life to sit in the mirror and wonder about the person who would be your other half, the person that would slot into the gaps in your spirit with a simple brush of skin on skin. But now, it aches. It pulses to remind you that itâs real and that youâve found him.Â
Everything in your life is about to change. Has already changed.
On the couch you donât sleep as much as you disassociate, still stunned, your buzzing brain filtering out everything Iseul says as she cleans up around you and preps both of your brush belts for touch ups. Thereâs such a small amount of time between Soundcheck and the concert that you barely get to process, you just exist, playing the moment you touched him over again and again in your mind. Despite how utterly changed you feel, the world is just continuing on around you like a regular day.
Once again, you and Yunho miss each other for every brief moment between Soundcheck and stage.
The shift happens in the wings, in the underbelly of the stage where you and the other staff members for hair, makeup, and wardrobe wait for any last minute quick fixes. The eight of them are almost ready, pumping themselves up between rows of technical equipment and stage scaffolding.Â
Thereâs so much commotion around you and yet your eyes are drawn to him like a magnet, the feelings you once had for him coming back to you full force in a blurry torrent.Â
He shifts, stretches, swallows hard, and then looks up directly into your eyes. Thereâs a question in them that you canât read, but you manage to smile.Â
His shoulders relax just a little.Â
You raise your fist, giving him the gesture for âfightingâ and he returns it with a wide grin.Â
âAlright,â Hongjoongâs voice cuts through, the final step of their pre-show ritual as the concert hall starts to roar, âhuddle up.âÂ
The eight of them circle up with each other, one leg in and one out.Â
âWeâve practiced hard,â Hongjoong starts, patting his members on the back, âlet that practice pay off, and have fun out there,âÂ
âOkay!â San hypes them up, getting the tension high.Â
âLetâs give it our all,â Hongjoong continues, a wide smile on his face, âfighting!â
They echo it back, and a tense feeling starts to roll in your gut.Â
âAlright, one,â Hongjoong starts the count and you feel the tension in your own body rising, enough to make you take a soft step back from the group, âtwo,âÂ
On three they chorus it, moving their feet in a synchronized step, âEight makes one team! Fighting!âÂ
They break apart, clapping each other on the back, and your eyes meet Yunhoâs for one more fast second before heâs jogging after the rest of the members and finding his mark on the stage risers.Â
You feel the sensation of his eyes on you even after heâs gone. You have the length of four songs and their opening ments before members start swapping out on stage for makeup touch-ups and technical adjustments. The sound of the audience is intense, the start of the first song keying up, and you stumble back from your post to get a breath of air away from it all.Â
Thereâs a bathroom along the hallway two doors down from the green room thatâs meant for staff and you blissfully find it empty. With shaking hands you flip the lock and sink down into a crouch, your back braced against the wall as you breathe through the sudden wave of feelings filling your chest.Â
Adrenaline, thatâs what the bitter taste on your tongue is.Â
Your heart is thumping, double time like youâre running a marathon, and then you realize it. You can feel him, even now with the bond between you unfulfilled you can feel his emotions coming to you like a wave. Adrenaline, anxiety, euphoria, exhaustion, it all roils through you and you brace your hands on the wall to get your composure back.Â
They say the first time you feel your soulmate link it takes you by surprise, but this is an intensity you couldnât have imagined. Itâs all encompassing and honestly terrifying, and youâre struggling to understand which parts of you are you and which are him. You canât conceive of how an accepted bond would make this feeling stronger when it already feels like your emotions and his are knit together so tightly.Â
Anxiety strikes down the link and you realize itâs not stage fright, itâs for you. He can feel your panic and your fear just like you can feel every ounce of his performance and if you donât get yourself in check youâre going to be distracting him even more than you already are.Â
You yank yourself up off the floor and collapse against the sink, turning on the cold water tap and taking slow and steadying breaths. In through the nose, out through the mouth. Counting slowly, relaxing your body with every pulse of oxygen through your system. You hope he can feel it, but you have no idea how this all really works. Youâll have to call your sister when this is all said and done, find out what she felt when she met her wife, but right now in this bathroom in Berlin you have to do this by yourself.Â
You hear the pulse of another song thrumming through the stadium as they keep performing, and you feel the thundering beat of his heart in your chest, but you breathe into it this time and try to keep yourself calm for his sake. You splash cold water on your face, keep breathing low and slow, and eventually you pull yourself back up to standing tall to look at yourself in the mirror.Â
You look the same as you did a few hours ago, before him, but the warmth in your chest is still present and you wonder if that will ever go away or if thatâs just a permanent part of the link.Â
With shaky hands you unbutton your blouse and pull your bralette down in the center to reveal what you already know is there. Your breath catches in your throat at the sight.Â
The tattoo nestled at the base of your sternum is the only one you were born with. Every other line of ink on your body was put there with intention, but this one youâve had for as long as you can remember. The maedeup knot is small, but intricate, and until this moment it had always been colorless. Loops of black and gray twining together to make a rounded diamond, unbroken with no beginning or end to the threads.Â
Now the ink has changed, a deep red against your skin that makes the knotted josephin soulmark look even more traditional, but the skin is slightly inflamed, tender to the touch as you brush your fingertips along it. It feels like a fresh mark, not something youâve had since birth, but considering how itâs changed, maybe it is new. A soulmark shifting color is common, you know that, but it still stands out so starkly against your skin and your other black tattoos. You canât look away from it.Â
A pounding on the bathroom door makes you jump and you fix your shirt, covering the mark back up and buttoning it away. You wonder if Yunhoâs mark is the exact same like other couples you know and if it too turned red, if itâs warm to the touch, if he felt you brush against your mark through the link.Â
ây/n?â A voice comes through the door and you shut off the tap.Â
âComing!â You wipe the excess water on your hands onto your jeans and take one last, fast look to make sure your mark isnât visible, before opening the bathroom door.Â
Wonshik, one of their many managers, is waiting for you on the other side. His eyes narrow when he sees you, âAre you ill?âÂ
âNo,â You assure him.Â
âYouâre sure?â He presses, âWe canât afford to lose any more staff or risk getting the members sick if you are,âÂ
âI know, Wonshik,â You nod, âI promise Iâm just tired, jet-lagged. I was putting cold water on my face, thatâs all. Iâm not sick,âÂ
He exhales in relief, his expression softening, âThank God,â he says, âI can only take so many surprises.âÂ
A little sickness is nothing compared to a staff member and an idol under a dating ban being soulmarked, but you hold your tongue.Â
âTheyâre about to come off,â He says, âIseul was looking for you, she seems like she might start climbing the walls if you donât get back to help her,âÂ
âNo, of course,â You start back towards the side stage entrance, âI lost track of time, but it wonât happen again,âÂ
âMake sure you sleep tonight,â He adds, following you closely, âno sleep means no immune system, and no immune system means sick.âÂ
âDonât worry,â You promise, winding your way through the dark backstage, âyou wonât lose me,âÂ
âI better not,â He sighs, and then Iseul comes into sight.Â
âThere you are!â She hisses low under her breath, âI was about to have a panic attack,âÂ
âIâm sorry, Iâm here, Iâm good,â In the commotion, your brain starts to ease into normalcy. Youâre used to this pace, the speed of lightning fast makeup touch-ups and assisting wardrobe when things start to go awry with their quick changes. The audience feels none of this, they just see smooth change-outs on stage and cool idols in new clothes, but backstage is a wild flurry and it always puts you on an entirely different plane of focus.Â
âHere we go,â A stage director starts, gathering everyoneâs attention, âfour minutes⌠startingâŚâÂ
The stage goes dark and in the venue a video starts to play to the crowd to fill the space between costume changes. You prep your hands, making sure your kit is ready to go and you see the wardrobe specialists out of the corner of your eye readying themselves to help facilitate the quick change.Â
Suddenly theyâre here, and the stage director interrupts once more, âNow, four minutes people, letâs go.âÂ
âMingi,â He gets to you first and he crouches down to drop his face to your height, âstay still one second,âÂ
He says nothing, but he nods as you pat powder across his forehead and the bridge of his nose, checking him over for any other defects. He looks good and you nod, âGo, go,âÂ
Mingi peels off to the left of you and you hear the sound of fabric swishing as he and Wooyoung rip off the top layer of their outfits behind the privacy screens and trade garments with the wardrobe team. Itâs a fast shuffle, but you stay focused on whoâs in front of you.Â
âSeonghwa,â You wave to him, pulling blotting tissues out of the pack on your belt, âhere,âÂ
He knows this drill well, youâre used to working with him and you have a clean routine down. He blots the sweat off his brow himself and starts to unbutton his jacket while you shift focus to Yunho.Â
For a split second you almost forget what happened earlier in the buzz of backstage, but the minute your eyes hold on his awareness floods you.Â
âHey,â You say, but thereâs a time clock shout behind you and you beckon him down, âcome here, let me fix things,â
He drops down to your height just like Mingi did and stays steady while you work, but his eyes flick up, âYouâre okay?âÂ
âIâm good,â You nod, âdonât worry,âÂ
His expression clears a little and you guess you have your answer about the feeling of the link going both ways.Â
Hongjoong clears his throat behind you both, âWeâre short on time,âÂ
âAm I good?â Yunho checks.Â
Your eyes flick over him fast, âYep,âÂ
Heâs out of your eyeline a split second later, and youâre grateful for the distraction of both Hongjoong and Seonghwa, otherwise youâre sure youâd dwell a little bit too long on the fact that Yunhoâs half naked next to you, privacy screen or no.Â
âOne minute,â The stage director announces, âeveryoneâs doing great,âÂ
The boys are almost done, flying through the last of their zips and getting their hair smoothed down by that team as they finish. You put the last pat of powder on Seonghwaâs nose and give him a nod before heâs gone too, dropping his jacket as he goes and giving you all a quick flash of his bare back.Â
You turn back towards the group as they prepare and your eyes zero in on Yunho again. His expression is serious, itâs his game face before he gets back out on stage, and you watch as he corrects the placement of his in-ears and ensures that his mic pack is secured. He runs through his pre-stage ritual and you canât help but be a captive audience.Â
âGood work,â The stage director says as Seonghwa rejoins the eight, fully dressed and ready for stage, âfifteen seconds for act two,âÂ
The crowd heats up again as the video starts to fade, and the members do their final checks. Yunho doesnât look back at you once, his eyes forward and focused as he and the other members find their places on the rising platform that will take them back out to the main stage.Â
You can see him a little though, in the low light in his white trousers and blue satin shirt. He lifts his hand, adjusting his microphone once again, and then as he drops it back to his side he lets his fingers skim over the familiar hollow of his chest.Â
Your mark warms, you feel it as if it were your chest he brushed his fingers over, and your breath stops.Â
The platform rises, the crowd roars, and your heart starts beating to a new rhythm.Â
He really is yours.Â
It turns out that later means much later.Â
You manage to get out of dinner with some of the other staff members, but that just leaves you anxious and alone in a hotel room trying and failing to eat room service. Iseul would be back soon to take up her place in the other bed, and youâre starting to realize that you donât have Yunhoâs number.Â
Now that emotions are a little smoother, you canât feel him. Or maybe you can, but itâs so faint that youâre not sure. All you know is that heâs definitely in the hotel, but thatâs partially the solid feeling of your link with him and partially the YouTube live being broadcast from Seonghwaâs room where all of the members are.Â
You put the live on and watch, feeling strangely disconnected from the men on screen. Youâve known them for years, but suddenly with this new truth everything feels foreign and confusing.Â
You should call your sister, but itâs only six in the morning in Korea and even though this is an emergency of life altering and epic proportions, you canât bring yourself to wake her on a Saturday.Â
You try your best to eat the pasta you ordered and watch as the live eventually ends. Your phone dings and for a split second you think it will be him, but itâs just Iseul telling you sheâs heading back to the hotel.Â
A soft knock at the door makes your stomach lurch.Â
Youâre frozen.Â
Thereâs another knock, a little firmer this time but then you feel the warm touch against your mark and youâre on your feet, your hand on the door handle before you can think.Â
He looks tired, thatâs your first thought. His face is bare again, and his eyes are rimmed in a little bit of red like he just removed the dayâs stage makeup. Despite all that, he smiles when he sees you and sighs, leaning against the door frame, âYouâre awake,â he says.Â
âI waited,â You manage.Â
He grimaces, âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to,â his eyes flick behind you into the room and he swallows, âare you alone?âÂ
âYes,â You nod, âbut not for long, Iseulâs on her way,âÂ
He nods, âCome to my room?âÂ
âAre you sure?â Your eyes widen.Â
âWe need to talk,â He nods, âcan you get away for a little while?âÂ
Iseul will probably expect you to be asleep, but you canât let this go until morning. If youâre ever going to sleep you need to talk to him now.Â
âIâll think of something,â You tell him, âwhat room?âÂ
â2606,â He answers, reaching into his pockets and producing an envelope from the front desk, âtake this,âÂ
He passes you one of his room keys and you nod, âIâll be up in five minutes, but you should go,âÂ
âOkay,â He breathes and neither one of you makes a single move to step away from the door until a sound down the hallway pushes you into it.Â
â2606,â You repeat and he nods, swiftly moving down the hall before anyone can see him standing at your door.Â
You have no idea what youâre going to tell Iseul that would make sense, but you donât care. You stack up your room service for collection, kick on a pair of slippers, and give yourself the fastest look in the mirror ever on your way out the door. You want to be gone before she gets back, the idea of facing her and lying ten times more difficult than an empty text.Â
No problem - I canât sleep, Iâm just going to walk a bit. Donât wait up.
You donât stick around to see if sheâll believe it.Â
You try to seem casual when walking to Yunhoâs room, like it's yours. You donât want anyone to give you a second glance and wonder where youâre going, so you keep your head up, smile at anyone you pass, and when his door comes into view you scan the card like itâs any other day.Â
When the heavy door shuts behind you, you sigh.Â
âGod, finally,â His voice startles you, and you look up to see him pacing, âIâve been going insane all day,âÂ
Your shoulders drop, you arenât alone, âMe too,â
He runs a hand through his black hair and finally stops pacing, but doesnât come any closer, âSo, this is real?âÂ
âIt feels pretty real,âÂ
âHow did we never feel it?â He manages, âIâve known you for years,âÂ
âWeâve never touched until today,â You tell him, and that has to be the reason, itâs the only thing that makes sense. Youâve been turning it over in your mind all night, and with the exception of bumping into him last week in the hall, itâs all been polite bows and waves.Â
âHow is that even possible,â He breathes, âteam dinners? Holiday parties? Work?âÂ
âSkin to skin,â You murmur, âI think thatâs what it was,âÂ
âI had no idea,â He swallows, gesturing in the negative space between your bodies, âI always liked you, but I thought it was just, you know, a crush,âÂ
âYou what?â Your eyebrows raise.Â
âWell,â He backtracks, ânot like that, itâs not like Iâve been holding a candle.âÂ
Your face stays neutral, but he grimaces at his own words.Â
âIâm fucking this up,â He takes a deep breath, âIâm sorry, Iâm really nervous.âÂ
Your stomach warms, âYunho, itâs okay, honestly,âÂ
âI just meant Iâve always liked you, I thought about asking you out when our contracts loosened up if you were still single.â He clarifies and then you watch his face blanch, âYou are single, arenât you?âÂ
âYes,â You nod, âwe donât have to worry about that,âÂ
He nods and you see him searching for the next thing to say, the right thing.Â
âYour mark,â You cut in, taking a few steps further into the room, âdid it change?âÂ
âCompletely,â He nods, âdid yours?âÂ
âYeah,â You wonder the right way to ask him if you can see.Â
âDoes it feel,â He starts.
âWarm?âÂ
âYes,â He nods, âand tender?âÂ
âLike a fresh tattoo,â You take another step in.Â
âIâve never gotten a tattoo,â He confesses, âbut Iâll take your word for it,âÂ
âCan I,â The words are stuck on your tongue, âmaybe this is weird, but I mean, I guess weâre soulmates,âÂ
âYou want to see it?â He surmises.Â
âOnly if youâre comfortable,âÂ
His lips quirk, âIâm comfortable,â
Heat twists in your gut and you wonder if he can feel that too. If he does he doesnât say it, but you watch as he pulls the black t-shirt off over his head.Â
Youâve never seen his chest. Any inch of his skin except for his neck and arms really, and you guess that was part of keeping his soulmark covered. Idols always do, even when theyâre in the most inconvenient locations, thereâs always makeup or flesh colored tape or editing to take care of it. The idea that someone could replicate it and try to fake a connection is far too real for someone famous.Â
He drops his shirt onto the bed and pink tinges his cheeks as he gestures towards it, âWell,âÂ
Your mouth drops, itâs the exact same, down to the size and the placement and every little loop and you stumble forwards to get a better look, âYunho,âÂ
âYeah?âÂ
âHas yours always been red?â You reach out, your fingertips hovering just over it.Â
He shakes his head, âNot before today,âÂ
âMineâs the same,â You tell him, your eyes glued to his sternum, âjust the same,âÂ
You know every centimeter of this tattoo. Youâve studied it a thousand times in the mirror, tracing over every curve with your eyes, trying to find the place where the cord starts and ends. He sucks in a sharp breath as your fingers brush gently along his mark, and you feel the ghost of the sensation against your own.Â
âI canât believe we never knew,â You murmur, sliding your finger along each rounded edge.Â
âYou feel that?â He asks, âRight?âÂ
Youâre nodding and moving to tug off your sweater before you can even think it through. He starts to shake his head, to say that you donât have to, but youâre already tossing the sweater next to his discarded shirt and tugging down the front band of your bralette so he can see the whole mark.Â
His eyes flick over you fast, but with the matching mark in front of him he doesnât focus on anything else, âItâs exactly the same,âÂ
âI know,â You reach for his hand, but the minute more of your skin connects with his you feel your chest throb and you drop it like it burns you.Â
He winces, touching his chest again, âIs it supposed to hurt?âÂ
âIn the beginning,â You nod, âI think?âÂ
âDoes it always feel like that?âÂ
âIâm not sure,â You admit, âI was going to call my sister and ask, but itâs too early at home,âÂ
He smiles, âYour sister found her soulmate?âÂ
âIn highschool,â You smile back, âtheyâve been bonded together since they were eighteen,âÂ
âOlder or younger?â He asks, and you realize just how little you know about each other despite how long youâve worked alongside him.Â
âYounger,â You say. Â
âI have a little brother,â He replies, âbut heâs still in school,âÂ
You nod, painfully aware that this is such a strange conversation to have with your shirts off just standing in the middle of a hotel room, but somehow itâs easier than any date youâve ever had.Â
Your eyes flick from his eyes to his mark and he reaches out a hand again, âCan I?âÂ
Your heart quickens and you nod.Â
His fingertips graze over the edge of your mark, mimicking your touch from before, sliding along the edges of the tattoo. His eyes widen and you know heâs feeling the sensation in his own mark, a mirror image of each other.Â
âThis doesnât hurt,â He observes, letting his fingers linger.Â
âI think we have to get used to each other,â You remember that fact from somewhere, âthe link has been dormant for a long time, I think it takes a minute to get used to having it,âÂ
âMakes sense,â He murmurs, his eyes still squarely on your mark, âIâll be honest though, I still really want to touch you,âÂ
âYeah?â Your voice is thready.Â
His fingers fall away and he nods, âDonât you?âÂ
âYes,â You agree, painfully quickly.Â
He swallows tightly and takes the smallest step forwards, before offering out his hand, palm up and waiting for you.
Your eyes flick from his face down to his outstretched hand, and you reach for him slowly. You let your fingertips skate over the skin of his palm, down each digit, ghost the pads of your fingertips together. Itâs warm, sharp and dizzying even just to brush against each other.Â
You wonder what more will feel like.Â
âCan I try something?â He murmurs, his voice nearly a whisper even though youâre all alone.Â
You nod.Â
He wets his lips unconsciously and moves a little closer, your bodies now only inches apart. Anxiety, anticipation, thrill, it all runs through your gut like a whirling wind and you shiver at the torrent of his emotions, a grin breaking out over your face.Â
His smile mirrors yours, âYour heartâs beating a mile a minute,âÂ
âYou can feel that?âÂ
âYeah,â He breathes, grin widening, âthis is crazy,âÂ
You laugh, a little nervous, a little elated, and he finally reaches out his hands.Â
He takes a steadying breath, and then his fingertips brush along your jaw.Â
You suck in a sharp gasp at the sensation, electric and hot, the feeling rocketing through your entire body. You tilt your face up to his as he continues his gentle touches, your eyes watching him as he studies you. His plush lips are parted, brown eyes wide with awe as he grows a little bolder to brush over your cheeks, down your throat, and back up to your jawline.Â
âFeel alright?â He murmurs.Â
You nod into his touch and he starts to lift off but you reach for him, âDonât stop,âÂ
Your hands land safely on his hips, still covered by his sweatpants and you watch him swallow again at the sudden contact, his Adamâs apple bobbing in his throat. Warmth fills the bond, no doubt the first threads of his arousal, and you wonder if he can feel your own. If he can sense how much heâs affecting you with just his fingertips on your face.Â
His hands settle back on your skin, this time smoothing across you with his palms, one hand cupping your cheek and the other sliding over your shoulder and down your bare back.Â
You can barely breathe, the room so silent and around you, like the only thing in the universe that exists is the two of you orbiting each other, standing at the precipice of something so catastrophic and wonderful.Â
Your hands adjust, resting on his taut abdomen as you move a little closer together, and his eyes flutter shut as he breathes through the sensation of your hands on him properly for the first time.Â
âYouâre so warm,â You murmur, your hands softly tracing his abdominal muscles, instinct guiding you to touch more of him, seek out every inch of him as you unconsciously make a map of his body in your mind.Â
He hums pleasantly, eyes reopening, âSo are you,âÂ
He feels so right, so essential under your touch.Â
Yunho wets his lips softly with his tongue, and a nervous thrill passes through your belly. His eyes flick over you, the pad of his thumb sweeping a line over your lips. You suppress a needy sound, still trying to keep your head amidst the thrumming emotions and steady thumps of your heart.Â
He doesnât stop, just stroking your skin slowly, fingers on your back pressing just a little as he sighs.Â
âYunho,â You shiver.Â
âCold?â He gravitates a little closer.Â
âN-no,â Your body is all but pressed flush against him now, and you have to lean your face up even more just to see him as he stands tall over you.Â
âIâŚâ He starts to say something but lets the words die off, like heâs thinking something through, but then he sighs, âforget it,âÂ
His lips are on yours.Â
Yunho lifts you, wrapping his arms around your back and tugging you up into his embrace. You gasp against his mouth, finding his shoulders to hold onto as one of his arms bands around your lower back.Â
The kiss is shattering, the world tilting once again, a new frequency humming between your two bodies. Itâs hot, your skin buzzing from the contact, but the way you move together is fluid and easy. Your legs part naturally, settling around his hips and his free hand finds your plush thigh as he tugs you into place, slotting your bodies together like they were always meant to be.Â
âIâm sorry,â He mumbles against your lips when he draws in a quick breath, but he doesnât stop kissing you. His nose nuzzles against yours, and his lips part at the same moment yours do, tongues meeting in the space between your mouths to flick against each other.Â
âDonât,â You push closer to him, fingers knotting into the back of his hair as you kiss him back.Â
He hums, the hand on your thigh sliding up to cup your ass and you shiver as his wide hand stretches across your backside, squeezing your pillowy flesh.Â
A tiny whimper does leave you then, liquid heat spreading through your body, the combined sensation of both your arousals giving you a headrush.Â
âSo beautiful,â He sighs between kisses, âyouâre so beautiful,âÂ
âYunho,â Your voice is thready, his name a stretched out sound.Â
He holds you close, nearly stumbling as he moves. You blink your eyes open just as he spins you both, pushing you up against the hotel wall and pinning you in place with the weight of his body. You should slow things down, but nothing in your life has ever felt this good and you find yourself diving back to meet his kiss again.Â
 His arm slides out from behind your back as he pushes closer, your body fully supported by the flat of the wall behind you and his hips under yours and one hand firmly anchored on your ass. With his arm free he cups your cheek, a pleased sound on his lips as he dips you back into the wall and deepens the kiss.Â
Heat blooms through you, your kisses getting needier, artless and desperate just to get a little closer together. The kind of kissing that sounds as messy as it is, tiny pants and moans muffled between you, skin on skin, tongue on tongue.Â
âGod,â He shudders, his lips breaking away, but his eyes only flick over you for a second before he dives back in. This time his lips travel, hot kisses across your jaw and back to the hollow of your ear, down your throat as he holds you a little higher on the wall for the right access.Â
You grip his shoulders with one hand and lock your fingers in his mess of black hair with the other, your head falling back against the wall. He pants against your throat, a soft groan as he kisses, and your stomach tightens pleasantly.Â
âY-Yunho,â You gasp, arousal rolling through you, and unconsciously you rock your hips, desperately seeking some kind of friction.Â
He hums low in his throat, kissing back up your neck fast to get to your lips again and his hand slides off your cheek as he crowds you tighter, bracing himself against the wall above your head. His abdomen presses against your core, and even through layers of fabric you feel his heat. Hungrily, you roll your hips again and catch a little pressure, moaning in earnest against his mouth.Â
Yunho makes a tight sound and then he breaks the kiss, his forehead pressing hard against yours as he takes in slow breaths, his body all but trembling with need as he holds you.Â
âWe need to slow down,â He manages.Â
You canât find words, not yet, but you nod against him.Â
âYou deserve better,â He says, âdates, presents,âÂ
You laugh softly, your hand in his hair softening from a grip to a gentle hold, carding through the long locks at the base of his neck, âI donât need all that,â Â
He smiles wide, brushing off your words, âStill,â He sighs, still recovering from the heated make out, âI think I have more self control than fulfilling our bond by fucking you into the wall,âÂ
Reality bleeds back in at that. Soulmarks were just that, indicator marks. A way to find your person amidst a sea of thousands, if not millions. All the shared sensation and emotion a precursor to something more permanent and binding, something only sealed together by sex.Â
You lift your head up, and he leans back to mirror you.Â
âI lost my head there,â You admit, warm blush in your cheeks, âI didnât know it would feel like this,âÂ
He smiles, and you take in his expression. His hair is a mess, mussed and disheveled and his face is pink from his nose down to the dark, well-kissed curve of his lips. His bare chest is flushed bright pink and his eyes are bright and warm. You fight the urge to kiss him again.Â
âMe either,â He shakes his head, âitâs incredible,âÂ
âOverwhelming,â You nod, exhaling softly.Â
He makes a soft sound to agree and then starts to push back from the wall gingerly, letting you slowly unwrap your legs from his waist and ease down to the floor.Â
He lets you go when youâre steady on your feet and clears his throat, adjusting the waistband of his sweatpants and running a hand through his tangled locks. Heâs hard, that much is obvious from the distinct outline of his cock through the gray fabric, but you do your best to look away and not think about how thick and heavy it looked just from kissing you.Â
âJesus,â He adjusts his sweats again, âsorry,âÂ
âItâs fine,â You cup your own cheeks with cool fingers, âI promise youâre not the only one,âÂ
His eyes hold yours for a lengthy beat and then he swallows, taking a wide step back and nodding, âRight,â he shakes his head, âweâre supposed to be slowing down.âÂ
âSlow,â You lean against the wall behind you, crossing your arms over your chest and trying to steady your thumping heart.Â
âIâm going over here,â He grins and walks to the far wall by the door to the bathroom, leaning back and crossing his own arms, âwe really should talk,âÂ
A pulse of anxiety flickers through you, and you realize just how quickly you went from his hotel room door to nearly falling into bed. Heâs handsome, a kind man, your once upon a time crush, and certainly fated to be a good match for you, but that doesnât mean you should throw out good sense and rush things. No matter how much your impulses were screaming at you to do just that.
You try to ignore the fact that thereâs a bed between you, and you nod, âYouâre right,â you finally say, âwe barely know each other,âÂ
Yunhoâs smile fades just a bit, âI wouldnât say that,âÂ
âWeâre coworkers,â The words tumble out, âI know what weâre both feeling, but,âÂ
His brow furrows as he thinks through your words and he shakes his head, ây/n,â he cuts you off, âdo you believe in soulmates?âÂ
âYes, of course,â Even if you hadnât before, the way youâre feeling now would be enough to dispel any skeptic.Â
He takes in a quick breath, the sound sharp as he draws it through his teeth and he cocks his head slightly to the side, âYouâre scared,â he massages the top of his sternum with his fingers, and you recognize your own chest is tight with anxiety, âI can feel it, talk to me.âÂ
The instant vulnerability of the bond is startling, and you can feel your own expression crumble. Itâs suddenly a bit like being an ant caught under a magnifying glass, too much sharp attention all at once and you swallow tightly, eyes flicking away from his tender gaze.Â
ây/n,â He murmurs, âIâm not pushing for more, not tonight,âÂ
âYeah,â Your voice is soft, too quiet for your own liking. Something about the way he sees you so clearly and so quickly makes you feel exposed, nervous and strangely childlike.Â
âHey,â He breaks through your little thought spiral, âlook at me,â
You straighten up again, finding his eyes.Â
âIâm just happy I found you,â He tells you, and you feel the truth of it in your gut, âwe can figure everything else out together, and at our own pace, okay?âÂ
Relief spreads through you, the knot in your chest loosening, âPromise?âÂ
âPromise,â He nods, raising one hand with his pinky extended, âI just want us to try,âÂ
You nod, extending your own pinky to seal it, âMe too.âÂ
He smiles at that, âBarely know each other,â he scolds softly, âIâm offended.âÂ
âOh yeah?â Tension bleeds out of your shoulders.Â
âMhm,â His expression is full of cheek, âIâm the one with a crush, remember? I notice things,âÂ
Your stomach flips pleasantly and your arms relax from their tight position crossed over your chest, âWhat things?âÂ
âLetâs see,â He starts, and for a brief moment you think maybe heâs bluffing, but the moment he starts you melt and he holds your gaze as he warmly recites all the little things heâs noticed about you over the years.Â
âYou only wear silver jewelry,â he notes first, nodding towards you.Â
Your tight hands uncurl.Â
âYou have a ridiculous sweet tooth,â The more he talks the more he relaxes against the far wall, âand you start getting flushed after the second shot of soju, you really are a lightweight,âÂ
âYou always pick a Big Bang song for karaoke, and youâre late to work every Monday,â He laughs a little at that and keeps going, âyou donât wear a lot of color but when you do itâs red. Weâre both from Gwangju but you moved to Seoul when you were five,âÂ
Your heart starts to beat a little faster, warmth filling you again and you donât know if itâs your affection or his anymore, but it hardly matters.Â
âUm,â He takes a deep breath and glances away for a moment and then catches more threads from his memory, âyouâre a Sagittarius, youâre a runner, and the last book I saw you reading was Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982. I bought it, but I havenât had a chance to read it just yet,âÂ
âYunho,â You find yourself smiling, a hand over your surprised lips.Â
âIâm just saying,â He shrugs a little, âwe arenât strangers. I know this is scary and fast and going to change the rest of our lives,âÂ
Elation, pure joy, spills over unfettered from his side of your new emotional tether.Â
âBut I like you,â He confesses, âI have for a while, and this,â he brushes his fingers along his soulmark, âjust changes the timeline.âÂ
Heâs yours.Â
You push off the wall, crossing the room and all but leap back into his embrace, your arms looping around his shoulders again as you push up on tiptoe to kiss his lips.Â
âThis is real,â You murmur.Â
âYes,â He cups your cheeks, nodding as he pecks your lips again.Â
âYouâre mine,âÂ
âYes,â He grins.Â
âOh, this is crazy,â You laugh, forehead against his again.Â
âWeâll go slow,â He assures you again, âweâll figure it out together,âÂ
âTogether,â You nod.Â
He dips low once more, this kiss more tender, and he separates you both before things can heat up again. âHmm,â He glances across the bed and makes a small face at the time displayed on the digital clock, âdid you eat?âÂ
âI tried to,â You confess, âI was nervous,âÂ
âYou need to eat,â He snaps up his black shirt from the bed and slips it back on, and your chest warms. Itâs strangely domestic, strangely commonplace like youâve been in this position a thousand times before.Â
Yunho adjusts his shirt and then kisses your hair as he passes by you, padding over to the hotel microwave and searching through the assorted snacks and instant meals, âItâs too late for room service,âÂ
âIâm okay,â You pull your own sweater back on and sit on the edge of his bed.Â
ây/n,â He glances back, a softly scolding tone.Â
âReally, you need to sleep,â You offer.Â
He dismisses that thought, âBut Iâm hungry, eat with me?âÂ
You concede, and while he starts whipping up two servings of ramen, you wonder if this is what heâs going to be like. It makes sense, heâs always been a caretaking kind of person, but having it so tenderly directed at you feels right.Â
âWhen we get home,â He says as he pours in the spice packets, âIâll take you somewhere nice,âÂ
âThis is nice,â You smile.Â
ây/n,â He sets the ramen on a side table and sits next to you, âthis is cup noodle from a hotel microwave,â
âThe company is nice,â You take the ramen happily though, and tuck into the warm meal.
âIt is,â
âMm, you know,â You slurp back some noodles and softly clear your throat, âyou werenât the only one with a crush,âÂ
He freezes, letting his noodles drop back into his cup, âWhat?âÂ
âIâve always liked you,â Your own confession feels easier after his, âI put it aside since we work together, but I guess, I mean, what Iâm trying to say is that we both felt it before the mark, youâre not alone in that.âÂ
 âI had no idea,âÂ
âIâm very professional,â You tease him lightly.Â
He nudges you and tucks back into his noodles, âHow long?âÂ
âHmm,â You get more comfortable, crossing your legs and scooting back a little onto the mattress, âI thought you were cute when we first met,âÂ
âGod,â He groans, âwe were such kids,âÂ
You nod, swallowing another bite, âMhm, you had that blonde hair,âÂ
He laughs.Â
âI remember thinking, âthat oneâs troubleâ,â You confess.Â
âMe?â His eyebrows perk up, âIâm perfectly nice,âÂ
âTrouble as in youâre my type,â You roll your eyes, âbut I donât think the crush properly came until later. Youâve always made me laugh, and when I realized how I was feeling I just did my best to keep some distance,âÂ
He nods, face getting a little serious, âI know what you mean,âÂ
That knowledge leaves you both a little quiet. The late hour, the adrenaline come down, all of it barrels into you at the same moment as the next anxious thought. How in the world were you both going to navigate this with a contract as tight as theirs and the public eye always watching?Â
âYunho,â You murmur, the last of your noodles left to go cold as you sit with that thought, âAre we going to be able to figure this out?âÂ
âFigure what out?â He looks genuinely confused by your question, âUs?âÂ
âYouâre an idol,â You nod towards him, âIâm staff,âÂ
He rests a hand on your knee, âWeâll be fine,âÂ
âArenât your contracts,â You trail off, letting him fill in the blanks.Â
âTheyâre strict, yes,â He nods, âyear seven,âÂ
Dating, romance, even the perception of it was more than discouraged by companies in this industry, their artists contractually obligated to be single and available and dedicated only to their fans. Five years would have been the industry standard to prevent any idol from being caught out with a partner, let alone a potential soulmarked one, but seven is excessive.Â
You blanch, âThatâs almost two years away,âÂ
âWe will find a way,â He says, âweâre not the first people in the industry this has happened to,âÂ
âReally?â You perk up, âWho?âÂ
He falls short, âWell, I donât know exactly, but itâs bound to have happened.âÂ
âAnd then ruined their careers,â You groan, flopping back flat on the mattress and covering your face with a hand, âwhich is why weâve never heard of them,âÂ
Yunho laughs, earnestly laughs, and takes the half empty ramen cup out of your hand to discard, âMaybe, but for now, letâs just stay positive. Get to know eachother better,âÂ
You nod.Â
âNothing can change the fact that we found each other,â He points out, dropping down onto his side on the bed next to you, âand Iâm okay with that.âÂ
âSo we just lie to everyone?â You chew at the inside of your lip, staring up at the white ceiling.Â
âHey,â Yunhoâs fingers tuck under your chin and draw your eyes to him, âI know youâre anxious,âÂ
You sigh, letting his softness calm you again.Â
âI know,â He repeats, âI am too, but we donât have to decide anything tonight. Weâre both tired and itâs been an emotional day,âÂ
âOkay,â You nod, âokay, yes, youâre right,âÂ
His thumb strokes over your cheek again, and you watch him exhale and sink further into your touch, âWill you stay tonight?âÂ
That wakes you up.Â
Your eyebrows raise, âStay?âÂ
âJust to sleep,â He assures you, âI just⌠I donât want to be without you yet,âÂ
âI need to get back before Iseul wakes up if we do that,â You note with a grimace.Â
âWhat time?â He glances back to the clock.Â
âSeven,â You say, âher alarm is set for seven-thirty,âÂ
âWe can do that,â He grabs his phone off the side table and sets an alarm, âweâll get up,âÂ
The pull between your bodies is so strong youâre fairly sure you would have stayed no matter the consequences, but you nod, âThen Iâll stay,âÂ
He grins and pushes himself off the bed, âIâve got clothes, if you want to get comfortable,âÂ
âSure,â you sit up and wait for him to find things in his still packed suitcase.Â
âUm,â He pulls a pair of black sweatpants from the bag, âthese should work, and if you get cold,âÂ
You smile as he grabs a gray hoodie and comes back to you.Â
As you start to pull off your sweater again, he turns around and leaves his back to you, âSorry,âÂ
âThanks,â You chuckle, making short work of changing. Youâre swimming in his clothes, but his sweatshirt smells like him and you just want to bury your face into it, âyou can turn around now,âÂ
His shoulders relax as he turns back, and you watch his lips part as he takes you in.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âYou look cute,â He clears his throat, shrugging off his reaction.Â
You smile and ease back onto the bed, âOh, I get it,â you laugh, âis your guy brain on fire because Iâm wearing your clothes? Is this some kind of⌠you won the competition, ownership thing?âÂ
He scoffs and rolls his eyes, kneeling on the bed to shuffle closer, âNo competition when youâre literally fated for me,âÂ
âRight,â You let the word drag out on your tongue to tease him.Â
âBut I like taking care of you already, and now youâre warm and comfortable,â He collapses next to you onto the mattress with a sigh, âand I know I donât own you, but you are mine, just like Iâm yours now. I wonât apologize for liking you in my clothes or in my bed, for liking when you look like my girlfriend,âÂ
Warmth blooms in your cheeks and you duck your face into the sheets.Â
âNow come get under the covers,â He maneuvers the duvet, âitâs late, you were dead on your feet today,âÂ
His voice is so warm and familiar, and you slide into the covers beside him.Â
In bed you keep a little distance, and despite the number of times both of you say that you should go to sleep, your conversation is almost impossible to stop. Yunho holds your hand in the middle space of the mattress between your bodies, and in the dim lighting of the hotel room you whisper thought after thought back and forth. A million things coming to mind you need to tell each other so suddenly now that youâve found each other.Â
As you talk his fingers travel, restlessly stroking your skin, up and down your arm and tapping out patterns. When his palm slides back and forth over the sharp lines of the tattoos on your upper arm, and you feel the question slipping out of your lips and revealing more about yourself than you intended before you can catch it.Â
âYour parents,â You blurt out, âwill they be happy?â Heâs spoken about them so much over the past hour that you canât help but ask him that question point blank.Â
âSo happy,â He responds with ease, a laugh on his lips, âthey always worried me being an idol meant Iâd never be able to find the one and settle down, theyâre going to love this story,âÂ
You smile at the easy way he calls you âthe oneâ, but the question you really asked still remains unanswered and you exhale softly, âBut,â you manage, âwill they be happy with me?âÂ
Yunho stills, reaching across the bed to hook his finger under your chin and draw your eyes up to his again, âVery happy,â he says, âjust like I am.âÂ
Your muscles relax, his words a soothing balm, and you adjust your position on the pillow beneath you, âJust checking,âÂ
âMhm,â He studies your face, âjagi, why wouldnât they be happy with you?âÂ
The endearment slips off his lips with ease, and a burst of warmth spreads through you. Youâve never needed pet names and softness like this from a partner, but from him it makes your heart quicken.Â
The momentary elation fades though, and his question comes back into your mind. You take a deep breath, you owe it to him to tell him now, âMy family wonât be happy,âÂ
âWith me?â His eyebrows raise.Â
âItâs me,â You shake your head, âmy parents have difficult ideals, and Iâve never pleased them. It wouldnât matter who you were, they⌠theyâll find a way to not be happy for me.â
His eyes soften, and his thumb strokes along your jaw, âIâm sorry,âÂ
âIt is what it is,âÂ
âAre your parents soulmates?â He asks softly.Â
You shake your head, âNo, they donât really believe in soulmarks,âÂ
You watch his eyes widen in surprise.Â
âUnless,â You canât stop yourself from rolling your eyes, âthe match is âfortuitousâ,âÂ
âFor status?â He surmises.Â
âStatus, money,â You shrug, âconnection. But I think I could marry the next president and theyâd still find a way to be disappointed in me,âÂ
His jaw flexes tense for just a moment, before his expression smooths over again.Â
âAnyway,â You clear the bad thoughts away as quickly as they came, âmy sister and I never went along like they wanted, like my cousins and the rest of my family, so we are the great disappointments. Itâs not⌠itâs fine, but, I guess you should know before we, you know,âÂ
He smiles, a bit of amusement in his expression that you canât place, âDid you think having bad parents would scare me off?âÂ
âIt could,âÂ
âNo,â He slides a hand under your side and tugs you across the mattress to press a fast kiss to your lips, âit never could.âÂ
âBut Iâm,â You start, all the reasons why a partner might care ringing in your ears.Â
âBeautiful?â He cuts you off, âJust my type? If itâs anything else I donât want to hear you say it,âÂ
Your stomach flip flops hard and you push lightly against his chest to get him to stop.Â
âThe thing is,â He brushes your hair back from your cheek, âmy parents are soulmates. I grew up in a house full of a lot of love, even when they were being strict and scolding us.âÂ
Your smile at his warm expression.Â
âSo I know theyâll love you,â He explains, âthey know what this feels like, what it means. I have plenty of family for us both,âÂ
Your throat constricts, tears threatening for a moment.Â
âYour sister, though,â He grounds you out of the bad thoughts without even thinking, âyou two are close?âÂ
âVery,â
âIâd like to meet her,â He smiles.Â
âYou two would get along great, my sister and her wife both, actually,âÂ
Yunho nods, listening attentively, âDo they have kids?âÂ
âNot yet,â You groan, âbut Iâm dying to be an auntie,âÂ
His thumb drags a comforting line across your cheekbone, his expression warm and affectionate, âCute,âÂ
You sink into the pillows, a yawn creeping up to your lips, âSheâs going to lose her mind when I call her,â Â
âYeah?âÂ
âMm,â You huff a laugh, âshe thought that when I started working here I should have found an inconspicuous way to bump into all of you to test possible bonds. Sheâs going to be riding the âI told you soâ train.âÂ
âSheâs funny,â He smirks.Â
âVery,â You sigh, unconsciously cuddling into his warmth.Â
âHas it been a while since youâve seen her?â He asks softly, adjusting his arms around you so that youâre cradled against his chest with the pillows at your back.Â
âMhm,â You yawn again, the warmth of his body settling the last of the adrenaline inside you, âa while,âÂ
âLetâs find a day off after the tour,â He tucks the duvet around you.Â
âYeah?â Your eyes feel heavy.Â
âYeah,â He kisses your forehead.Â
âYunho,â You yawn again, dipping your forehead into his chest, âGod, Iâm so tired again,âÂ
âMhm,â He yawns too, âme too, jagi,âÂ
You hum softly, fingers slipping under the edge of his shirt just to feel a little skin, âI like that,â you murmur, âI like you,âÂ
âI like you too,â He chuckles, ânow go to sleep,âÂ
A piece of you wants to protest, wants more time cocooned in this day with him, but something about his body feels so right. After a week of sleeping poorly, your body tight and anxious and heart fluttering for no reason at all, when he touches you, your mind goes blissfully blank.Â
Your muscles relax, your breath dropping low and soft in your chest.Â
Nuzzled against his tattoo, you drift.
Youâre supposed to wake up to an alarm. Early enough that you could slip back into your hotel room and your own bed to yawn and stretch next to Iseul and make her believe you were there the whole night. Thatâs what was supposed to happen.Â
Instead, you wake to the heavy sound of a hotel door and Seonghwaâs voice, Yunho jolting awake beside you.Â
âOh my god,â Seonghwa says for what sounds like the third time to your fuzzy sleep-addled brain, âoh my god?âÂ
âHyung,â Yunho pushes himself up, his arms unwinding from around you, âhey, donât freak out,âÂ
âDonât freak out,â Seonghwaâs eyes blow wide, âare you fucking kidding me? Hongjoong is going to kill you,â
âYou donât understand,â Sleep is still heavy on him and he shakes his head to try to pull himself away.Â
âI understand plenty,â Seonghwa counters, âhow long have you been lying to us?âÂ
His reaction surprises you, and you ease yourself up to sit next to Yunho. Youâre not sure what to say or not say, you donât know what theyâve discussed in the past when it comes to dating and relationships, but by Seonghwaâs outburst you can guess itâs honesty at a minimum.Â
Yunhoâs face falls, âNo, itâs not that,âÂ
âI can tell you what it looks like,â Seonghwa lowers his voice to what amounts to a stage whisper.Â
âHyung,â Yunho rubs his eyes, running a hand through his mop of black hair.Â
âIt looks like youâve been sneaking around,â He continues, âhow long have you two been fucking?âÂ
âHey,â Yunhoâs voice sharpens, and his hand crosses your body to anchor on your opposite thigh.Â
Seonghwaâs eyes track it and he shakes his head, âThis is so stupid,â he steps back in surprise, âyouâre both being so, incredibly stupid.âÂ
Yunho gives you a squeeze and opens his mouth to reply but Seonghwa keeps going.Â
âNaive is what it is,âÂ
Irritation bubbles in your gut and you canât stop yourself, âSeonghwa, will you shut up for one second?âÂ
He stops in his tracks, mouth falling open, âWhat?âÂ
âCan you please,â You hold his gaze, âplease, just listen to Yunho for a minute before you jump to conclusions.âÂ
He shifts, taking a step back and crossing his arms, and then he looks to Yunho.Â
Yunho finds your eyes quickly, silently asking, and you give him a nod.Â
âOkay,â Yunho runs a hand through his hair again, âIâll just say it.âÂ
Seonghwa waits, his expression completely neutral except for the irritated corner of his lips.
ây/n is my soulmate,â Yunho squeezes your thigh again and you slip your hand into his to twine your fingers together, âwe didnât know, but now we do.âÂ
Seonghwaâs brows go high, shock filling his features.Â
âWeâre not hiding,â You add, âwe just⌠itâs just,âÂ
âHow long?â Seonghwa manages.Â
âSoundcheck yesterday,â Yunho says, âwe havenât known long enough to lie, hyung.âÂ
âYouâre sure?â He looks between you both, and you know what heâs thinking. How could it be possible to know each other for years and not know.Â
âWeâre sure,â You answer confidently, calmly, âI swear,âÂ
âItâs real,â Yunhoâs thumb strokes across knuckles, âitâs very real.âÂ
Seonghwa swallows, taking in the news and sinks back against the hotel dresser, âWell, fuck,âÂ
âYeah,â Yunho laughs.Â
âYou were off timing yesterday,â Seonghwa points out, âand distracted,âÂ
âIt wasnât that bad,â Yunho grimaces.Â
âNo, but,â He shrugs, âI know you and youâre never off time.âÂ
âIt wasnât easy to focus on the show yesterday,â Yunho admits.Â
âIâm sorry,â You nudge him with your shoulder, knowing a huge portion of that must have been the panic flooding his side of the link.Â
He shakes his head, âThereâs nothing to be sorry for,â
When you look back up, Seonghwa is smiling and he sighs, âOh, youâve both got it bad.âÂ
âObviously,â You hide your face in your sweatshirt sleeve.Â
âSo, whatâs the plan?â Seonghwa asks, âBecause you canât act like this around anyone else,âÂ
Your mouth feels dry.Â
âWe donât know,â Yunho answers, âwe have to figure that out, for now I think we just try to keep things normal.âÂ
Seonghwa nods and then leans forward, âListen, I know youâre not asking for my advice,âÂ
You both wait.Â
âBut you're my brother,â Seonghwa says unequivocally, âso Iâm going to give you some anyway.âÂ
Yunho nods.Â
âYou wear your heart on your sleeve,â Seonghwa points out, âand Iâm sure it will be hard to act like acquaintances in front of everyone, but you have to do it, at least until you make a plan.âÂ
âYeah,â Yunhoâs cheeks are a little pink and he squeezes your hand.Â
âNo one fires the idol for things like this,â He reminds you both, âso for her sake, put it away for today.âÂ
âHeâs right,â You nod, âtoday we go back to coworkers,âÂ
Yunho draws your clasped hands up and kisses your fingers, âOkay,âÂ
âYouâre lucky I offered to check on you,â Seonghwa sighs heavily, âif any of the managers came in,âÂ
âCheck on me?â Yunho perks up at that, âHwa, why,âÂ
Things come into focus for you at that moment, how bright the hotel room is with sunlight, how well rested you really feel. You twist in the bed and look at the digital clock, âOh no,âÂ
âYou were late,â Seonghwa explains, âwe figured you overslept, I offered to use the spare key to get you up.âÂ
âFuck,â Yunho curses.Â
You both slept straight through Yunhoâs alarm.Â
âIseul is going to fucking kill me,â You roll out of bed, your hands breaking apart as you scramble for you phone, âwhat the hell am I going to tell her?âÂ
Your phone reads nine-thirty. In thirty minutes youâre supposed to be packed into a van and on the way to the venue and when you look at the collection of notifications your stomach churns.Â
Three calls from Iseul, and a lengthy string of text messages.Â
Did you already get up and get ready?
Your work bag is still hereâŚ
Not funny, girl, where are you?
Did you make it back last night?Â
Can you answer me??Â
Iâm getting worried. I havenât heard anything - You havenât even read these?Â
You better not be dead in a ditch, Iâll kill you myself.Â
âFuck, fuck, fuck,â Your hands are trembling as you tap out the fastest reply - Alive, be right there.
Yunhoâs a whirlwind behind you, stripping out of his sleep clothes and yanking on whatever outfit is at the top of his suitcase, âItâs fine, itâs going to be fine,âÂ
âSure,â You search the floor for your jeans and dart into the bathroom, âmy best friend is going to murder me though,âÂ
You change at lightning speed, swapping his sweats for your jeans and then tying up your hair into a messy bun before pushing back out into the main room.Â
âEveryoneâs downstairs,â Seonghwa offers, âyou shouldnât run into anyone on the way back to your room.âÂ
âGood, okay, good,â Your heart is pounding, âwhereâs my room key?âÂ
âHere,â Yunho darts forwards and finds the little envelope, passing it to you, âtake a breath,âÂ
âI have to go,â You manage, âI have to think of something,âÂ
âDonât kiss and tell,â Seonghwa offers and heâs being funny but itâs vaguely helpful.Â
âWait,â Yunho grabs your hand and tugs you back, snapping your phone out of your hand.Â
âYunho, I donât,â You start to say but he waves you off.Â
He types fast, adding himself as a contact in Kakao Talk, âMy number,â he explains.Â
Seonghwa huffs a laugh.Â
You take the phone back and tuck it into your pocket, âIâll message you later,âÂ
âGood,â He dips forwards and presses one warm, tender kiss to your lips, ânow get out of here,âÂ
You kiss him back, just once and fast, a little shred of self indulgence before you have to act like heâs just another guy, and then youâre darting out of the room, shouting back a thank you at Seonghwa as you go.Â
You navigate the halls fast, and opt to take the stairs to get down one floor faster and more inconspicuously. You take a deep breath when you get to your hotel door, and then you dive.Â
âSo you are alive,â Iseulâs waiting, just like you thought she might be. Sheâs sitting on your still made bed, her phone in her hands and a tense expression on her face, âI was just about to tell the managers you were missing,âÂ
âIâm so sorry, seriously, I didnât mean to worry you,â You take a few steps into the room.Â
Her eyes flick over you, and you realize at the moment her eyes widen that youâre still wearing Yunhoâs hoodie, your sweater still discarded on his bedroom floor.Â
âYou hooked up with someone?â Her voice spikes, âAre you kidding me?âÂ
Thankfully the hoodie is plain, just a heather gray with no identifying attributes that scream his name, but youâre still swimming in it and itâs clear youâre rumpled from bed.Â
âListen,â You hold up your hands, âI didnât mean to not text you, I just fell asleep,âÂ
âWith some guy?â She stands.Â
âYes,â You settle on some version of the truth.Â
âWho?â She flounders, âWeâre supposed to text each other,âÂ
And you always did, when either one of you went home with someone there was always a little preemptive safety report. A name, an address, a shared location, something so that you werenât completely alone in the world with a strange guy.Â
âIâm sorry,â You say again.Â
She studies you, and itâs like sheâs looking through you.Â
âOh my god,â Her eyes widen, âwe know him.âÂ
âIseul,â Your cheeks heat.Â
She points at you, âIâm right!âÂ
âItâs not a big deal,â You skirt around her words.Â
âThe only reason you wouldnât text me is if you were with someone we both know,â She narrows her eyes, âso give it up.âÂ
âI canât,â You press, âleave it,âÂ
âWhy are you being so weird?âÂ
âIseul,â You sigh, avoiding her gaze, âI just woke up in a panic, and I have like fifteen minutes to get showered, can you give me the third degree later?âÂ
âIâm not letting this go,âÂ
âYeah,â You pull off Yunhoâs sweatshirt and head to the bathroom, âI know, but we have work.âÂ
âWork with a coworker you slept with,â She stands in the doorway while you start the shower, and you realize her tone isnât so much as angry anymore but probing.Â
âI didnât sleep with him,â You groan, âwell, I guess I did, but we didnât have sex, okay?âÂ
âThatâs awfully cozy for a one night stand,â She crosses her arms, âunless youâre seeing someone? Are you seeing someone?âÂ
âNo,â You test the water heat and unbutton your jeans, âI swear Iâll explain another time, but can you just drop it for today? Or do you want to stand here and watch me shower?âÂ
âFine,â She concedes, âyou will tell me?âÂ
âI swear,â You nod, âI want to tell you, but Iâm not ready yet, okay?âÂ
Her eyes soften up at that, âAre you okay?âÂ
âYeah,â You nod, âbut Iâm having big feelings about it and I need to work it out,â
âOh,â In all the years youâve known her, sheâs never seen you in love or even close, and she just blinks, âgot it,âÂ
âCan I shower now?â You gesture towards the running water.Â
âYeah,â She steps back, âyeah, but Iâm still mad you didnât text me.âÂ
âOkay,âÂ
âAnd Iâm still going to guess who it is,â She smirks.Â
âFine,âÂ
Her smile widens and she rolls her eyes, âI bet itâs one of the BB guys, isnât it? You always like a dancer,âÂ
She turns the corner before she can watch you blushing harder, so nearly on the money with her guess, but you put it all out of your mind for now and focus on your day. Youâre late, and itâs about to be another long one. Youâll have time for everything else later, if you can just keep your cool.Â
Work is bizarre to say the least. You and Yunho both do an excellent job of not looking at each other except for when heâs in your makeup chair, and youâre getting better and better at ignoring both Sanâs and Seonghwaâs nervous glances.Â
This time you start the makeup early, less time pressure with the schedule adjustments, and the night goes off without a hitch. Soundcheck to stage to VIP benefits, itâs a whirlwind and youâre grateful for the distractions everywhere you look.Â
You can still feel him, emotions from his side of the link ebbing and flowing throughout the day, but the sharp intensity of yesterday has dulled a bit after your night together. In quiet moments you find yourself thinking about his lips, or the way his hands held you as you tumbled into sleep, but you push it down and stay professional.Â
As the show ends, Iseul ropes you into team dinner, desperate to observe who you interact with and how, still on her quest to find your mystery bed partner, but the boys arenât there and so thereâs nothing for her to really see.Â
Later, with Iseul passed out from one too many shots of soju, you slip back into Yunhoâs hoodie and cuddle into the warmth of your own bed. You need more sleep, you know that, but your brain isnât cooperating. You toss and turn in the sheets, body feeling like a taut cord, and all you can think of is him.Â
You miss him.Â
Itâs not even two days of having him in your life like this and you feel nervous and achy without him. Thereâs no way youâll survive two years of this.Â
Over an hour passes as you sigh, changing positions again and again, and then your phone finally buzzes. You scramble to see if itâs a message from him, nearly dropping your phone in the process.Â
Canât sleep? - He must be feeling your restlessness.Â
Not at all - You reply, chest feeling warm at the contact.Â
Little bubbles pop up immediately to indicate heâs typing and then another message pops on your screen - Youâd think after last night weâd both be exhausted.
So youâre as awake as I am?Â
Just canât relax. I liked having you here last night. - He confesses.Â
You roll over in the bedding onto your front and push the pillow under your chest before you keep texting - I liked it too. Iâd come up except Iseul wouldnât lay off guessing who I was with this morning.Â
Oh? Did she guess correctly? - You can practically see the smirk on his face.Â
Nope - You tease back.Â
Was she upset? - He asks.Â
At first, but I told her I would tell her soon I just needed some time - You reply.Â
Thatâs good, honest. - His message makes you smile.Â
How was Seonghwa? - You tap out.Â
FineâŚ. stressing and acting like a hyung, you know - He says.Â
You smile and type out another message - Is he keeping this to himself for now?
Yes - Yunhoâs message comes in, and then another - For now, he knows we need to decide things first.Â
Thatâs good - You send back.Â
Things lull for a moment, and you try to think of something more to say, but Yunho swoops in with a question that makes you bite your lip to keep from laughing - Who did Iseul guess you were with? Was I even on the list?
I thought youâd be happy she didnât guess - You reply.Â
Bubbles appear immediately, then another message - Iâm a little offended, Iâm the obvious choice.
Whyâs that? - You tease him.Â
You feel something warm in your chest, and his next message flies back - I thought I was your type?Â
You stifle another laugh - You are, sheâs not very observant.
So who did she guess?Â
Your belly flip flops and you hide your face in the pillow for a moment. His obvious jealousy, even just to tease you, is making your heart quicken and you canât stop yourself from making it harder on him.Â
You take a breath and reply - About half the BB crew and a few of your managers.
The replies donât come for a moment, and you nervously refresh the chat.Â
Finally a message comes in - Iâm trying to think of something funny to say, but Iâm actually just irrationally jealous.Â
She was just teasing, no need to be jealous - You smile into your hand.Â
Doesnât matter - He says - Now Iâm just here alone wondering which of our coworkers Iseul thinks you have chemistry with
He is jealous. You swallow hard, trying to ignore the swooping sensation in your belly and press your legs a little tighter together. If you close your eyes you can feel the echo of his hands on you from last night, and all you want in the world is for him to come down here and kiss you hard like that again.Â
With a slow exhale you return to your phone - Donât be jealous, Yunho. We both know Iâm yours.
Yeah? - His reply comes after a beat - No need to be jealous then.
Exactly - You reply.Â
I bet you like it a little though - His message flies in as yours sends.
You feel warm all over and you run a nervous hand through your hair before replying - No, I donât.Â
Jagi, you forget I can feel how worked up youâre getting.Â
Your stomach clenches, drops and twists. Heâs going to be the death of you and youâre still just flirting. Â
You work up the courage and finally send your reply - Youâre the one that pinned me to the wall last night.Â
Iâve been thinking about that all day - The message reply is fast.Â
You smile and bite your lip, snuggling further into the mattress and trying to ignore the growing pulse between your thighs - You did seem distracted during rehearsals.
You feel warmth in your chest, and you know exactly how much your flirting is affecting him. Another text pings through and you shiver when you read it - How could I not be distracted with you there? All I could think about was the way you said my name last night.Â
Your thighs press together - Yunho?
Yes, jagi?
Or more whiny, was it? Yunho-ya? - You type it out fully, emphasizing the extended sound, knowing exactly what he wants to hear from the way he gripped you last night.Â
The room is suddenly hot, and your heart beats faster to sync with his.Â
It takes a moment for him to respond, bubbles popping up and then receding again and you wonder how heâs lying in bed. If heâs hard already, if heâs palming himself? You wonder if he sleeps naked when heâs alone and youre core clenches, arousal pooling in your gut and you know he can feel the threads of it. When he finally presses send on his message you have to cover your mouth to keep quiet.Â
Feeling needy? Are you squirming around in that hotel bed wishing for me, sweetheart?
You feel that message from your top to your toes and you steal a fast glance at the bed next to you. Iseul is sound asleep, turned away from you and snoring softly, and you let out a relieved, shuddering breath.Â
You could pump the brakes here, tease him and find a way to say goodnight, but you simply canât. Need and arousal overwhelms you and you tap back your reply fast - Iâve been aching all day.
Do you have headphones?Â
The question catches you off guard, but you write back - Yes, airpods.
Put them in - He says, and you swallow tightly, reaching for the little headphone case on your bedside table.Â
Your fingers are shaking as you take them out of the case and put them in, making sure theyâre connected before you reply - Done.Â
His call lights up your phone, ringing in your headphones and you swipe to answer with a panicked glance at the bed next to you, but Iseul sleeps on, none the wiser.Â
ây/n?â His voice is so rich and quiet, a little raspy edge after singing all night and you nearly moan.Â
âHi,â You whisper as soft as you can, âI canât,âÂ
âDonât talk,â He soothes you, âdonât wake Iseul up, Iâll talk to you and you can text me back, okay?âÂ
You minimize the call and open your chat back up, sending him a quick emoji to acknowledge his words.Â
âPerfect,â He laughs softly, âthis is way easier than texting. Listen, I know we said slow, but Iâd love to help you relax if you want that. If not, I can just say goodnight, itâs up to you.âÂ
You exhale softly, a needy thrill in your gut - Letâs relax together.Â
âOh,â He sighs pleasantly, âyes, Iâd love that.âÂ
You want me? - You ask.Â
âYou can feel how much I do,â He responds, âIâm sitting here convincing myself not to come downstairs and get my hands on you.âÂ
You hum softly, shifting in the sheets and relaxing deeper into the pillows.Â
You hear his own breath, the way he parts his lips with a wet sound, âCan you tell me what position youâre in?âÂ
You tap out the reply - Lying on my front, on my stomach.Â
âHmm,â He sounds pleased, âI bet you look so cute, all twisted up in the sheets and blushing,âÂ
I was tossing and turning.Â
âI bet you were,â He groans a little, âI tried everything. I hit the gym, cold shower, did some deep breathing, but you have me so keyed up I canât sleep,âÂ
You send him another emoji, the blushing face.Â
He laughs, the rumble of it too deep and warm in your ear with your headphones in.Â
You tap out another message - What position are you in? Trying to picture it.Â
You hear him shift around in the sheets, âIâm on my back,âÂ
Wearing?Â
He chuckles, âArenât I supposed to be the one asking what youâre wearing?âÂ
I asked you first.
âFair,â He shifts again, and you picture him restless on his back in the bed you shared the night before, âjust boxers,âÂ
A heavy sigh passes through your lips.Â
âAnd you?âÂ
You wish it were sexier all of a sudden, but that just wouldnât be practical in a room with your friend so you tell him honestly - Pajamas, the button down kind, theyâre gray.Â
âGod, youâre adorable,â The covers on his end shift again, âwish you were up here with me.âÂ
Me tooÂ
âThis is probably better,â He says though, âI donât think I could hold myself back for another night.âÂ
Me either - You confess.Â
ây/n,â His voice warms, low in his chest, âjagiya, can I help you? Can I tell you what I want you to do?âÂ
Your hands are shaking and you type the reply so fast thereâs a typo that you have to fix - Pfease - Please.
He chuckles, âAlright, get comfortable, just listen to my voice, okay?âÂ
You message him one last thought - What about you?
âIâm⌠Iâm, uh,â He lets out a shaky breath, âIâm already stroking for you,âÂ
You press your lips together to keep from making a sound, dropping your forehead to the pillow in front of you.Â
Thatâs so hot - You text him quickly when you hear him say your name, probably a little nervous he came on too strong.Â
He hums, âGood,â he says, âthen donât worry about me, just listen to my voice.âÂ
You set your phone to the side, snuggling into the mattress and the pillows just like he asked for, sparing one more glance at Iseul to confirm sheâs still completely out of it.Â
âComfy?â He asks when you stop shifting around.Â
âMhm,â You murmur in a whisper.Â
âGood,â He sighs, ânow slip one of your hands under your cute little pajamas, between your thighs.âÂ
You slide your arm down, tucking it under your body and into your sleep pants.Â
âUnder your panties too,â He says, his voice a little husky.Â
âMhm,â You murmur again, following his words.Â
âTease a little for me,â He instructs you, ânot too fast, just your fingertips on the outside,âÂ
You breathe low and slow, gently passing the pads of your fingers over your slit, just barely ghosting against the hard nub of your clit.Â
âI bet you look so pretty right now,â He groans a little and you hear the sound of sheets, âyou make the cutest faces when youâre feeling good,âÂ
You make the tiniest noise of acknowledgement, fingers still brushing your cunt.Â
âCanât wait to see you fall apart for real,â He confesses, a strain in his tone as he sighs, and you picture him. His long legs spread wide in the bed, stretching from corner to corner, his boxer briefs pushed down and his hand fisting his cock.Â
Youâre going to lose it when you finally get to touch him again.Â
âYou can touch now,â He murmurs, getting your attention back, âare you wet?âÂ
You push your fingers through your folds and sigh when you feel just how slick and swollen you are. With your other hand you find the phone nearby and tap out a quick message - So wet
âThatâs good, thatâs so good,âÂ
Your fingers start to circle on your oversensitive nub and thereâs no way he wonât have you coming in five minutes or less with it feeling this good and his heavy breath in your ear.Â
âR-rub your clit for me,â He pants and your eyes roll, you can hear the sounds of the sheets rhythmically swishing as he pumps his cock harder, âget your fingers nice and wet,âÂ
You whimper into the pillow, biting down hard on your cheek to keep yourself in check.Â
âOh, fuck,â He groans, âsound so pretty,âÂ
You rub harder, faster, your legs stretching wide under the downy comforter to give you better access.Â
âBaby,â He gets your attention with that, âpush two fingers inside yourself, imagine Iâm there with you,âÂ
You shift, hand slipping lower and body arching to slide your middle and ring finger as deep as theyâll go. You stay mostly quiet this time, but your breathing is heavy and youâre sure he can hear it.Â
âClose your eyes,â He murmurs, âpicture my fingers,âÂ
You gasp softly.Â
âGrind,â He tells you, âgrind your pussy on my palm and feel my fingers fucking you,âÂ
You bite back a moan, only the slip of a soft sound into the microphone as you start to rock, rolling your hips and working your clit against your hand as you sink into his fantasy. You always took him for soft, the romantic type whoâd blush at saying the word âpussyâ let alone talking you through whatâs bound to be the headiest orgasm of your life, but youâve never been so happy to be wrong.Â
âYes,â Yunho moans and you shudder, âI can hear you moving, youâre doing so good,âÂ
Pleasurable stars burst behind your eyes and you grind harder into your slick palm.Â
âSo good,â He groans and you hear him roll in the bedding, his voice changing to something lower and breathier, and then the rhythmic rock of sheets from his side of the phone tells you all you need to know. You can almost see it, Yunho braced on his forearms, hips thrusting to drive his cock in and out of his hot fist, his face buried in the pillow you slept on the night before.Â
Heat melts through you, your body alight, and you grapple to find the phone again - Close
âAlready?â He says in a flushed exhale, âYouâre so hot, thatâs so hot,âÂ
You need him to talk to you, you need him to tell you what to do, and you whimper into the bedding as you work your body faster up to the peak.Â
âYou gonna come for me?â He murmurs, âYeah? Hmm?âÂ
You drop the phone and press a hand over your lips, stifling the threat of a real moan.Â
âLet go,â His voice is so low in your ear you can practically feel the warmth of his breath on your skin, âcome for me,âÂ
Your legs are trembling, knees digging into the mattress and sweat gathered on your brow, and you feel the pressure start to crack open inside you, âComing,â you whimper into your fingers so he knows, and then it breaks.Â
âGod, good girl, yes,â He groans, âIâm coming with you, fuck,âÂ
Your body curls into itself as you release, locking up in pleasure as you feel wave after wave of heat. You bite down on your knuckle to keep from making a sound, silently falling apart, dimly aware somewhere in your gut that half the heat you felt was his, that part of that pleasure was his own.Â
Yunho moans in your ear as you ride the sensations, panting and cursing and you canât wait to feel him pulsing inside you while he sounds this good.Â
Youâre not sure how long it takes you to recover, but when your brain starts to connect again you realize youâre panting against the cool flat of the mattress and both your phone and pillow are nowhere to be found. You swallow hard and pop your head up, but Iseul hasnât moved an inch and you thank god for her liberal use of melatonin while traveling.Â
In your ear you register the sound of Yunhoâs breath and the end of a sentence, âstill there?âÂ
He must have been talking, and you try to focus in on the sound of him now as you slip your hand out from between your sticky thighs.Â
He exhales slowly and you hear him shifting around, ây/n, baby, are you there?âÂ
 âUh-huh,â You manage.Â
âSleepy?â He murmurs, misreading your sound, âThatâs okay,âÂ
You make a tiny noise of protest and search the bed for your phone.Â
âBaby?â Heâs confused and you grin at his sleepy sated tone.Â
Sliding off the bed onto nearly boneless legs, you find your pillow off to the side and your phone underneath. You snap it up and send a message quickly - Wait
âWait?â He breathes, âSure, Iâm not going anywhere, Iâm here,âÂ
You tiptoe to the bathroom as quietly as you can and then shut yourself behind the heavy door, flicking on the light and collapsing to sit on the closed toilet lid.Â
You disconnect your earbuds and bring your phone to your ear, âHey,âÂ
âHey,â He murmurs, âyou okay?âÂ
âYeah,â You smile, still a little breathless, âHiding in the bathroom for a sec so I could actually talk to you,âÂ
He hums, a quiet, lazy laugh, âAh,âÂ
âAre you okay?â You find yourself asking, a little nervous tumble in your gut.Â
âMe?â He says, âIâm incredible, youâre incredible,âÂ
âYeah?â You draw your knees up, wrapping your arms around yourself and smiling into the phone.Â
âThat wasnât too much, was it?â He checks, but you still hear the sound of him calling you âgood girlâ and you shiver.Â
âNot too much,â You sigh into the phone.Â
âGood,â He hums, âI thought so, I was trying to pay attention to how you were feeling, but it was a little,â
âHard to focus?â You offer and he laughs.Â
âYeah,â He sighs again, heavy and sated.Â
âI canât wait for this tour to be over,â You confess, âI just want to be with you,âÂ
You feel a pang in your chest and listen as Yunho rolls in the sheets, âI know, I want that too,âÂ
A little lump forms in your throat and you breathe through it, âYunho,âÂ
âYeah, baby?âÂ
âHave you ever felt like this before?â Your thundering heart has started to slow, and you let your eyes close as you murmur the question.Â
âNever,â He murmurs, âbut I felt this way before we touched,âÂ
You feel his tenderness wrap around your heart as if he were in the room with you, and with a small smile you whisper, âI thought you said you werenât holding a candle?âÂ
âI lied,â He says softly, âitâs been you for a long time,âÂ
He doesnât say it, not in so many words, but you feel the way he loves you through the link in a wave. Itâs as good as any confession to you, just as honest if not more so.Â
âI wish I could come upstairs,â You manage, tears pricking your eyes.Â
You hear him swallow and breathe a slow breath through his nose, âSoon, I promise. Weâre going to do this right,âÂ
âI know,âÂ
âAre your headphones still in?â He asks
âNo, but I can switch back,âÂ
âPut them back in and go get back in bed,â He softly instructs, âitâs late, but Iâll stay with you until you fall asleep, okay?âÂ
âOkay,â You swap back over to your earbuds and adjust them.Â
âGet back to bed,â You can hear the smile in his voice.Â
âYunho,â You interrupt him, âthank you for staying with me,âÂ
âAlways,â He says, and for the first time in your life when someone says theyâll be there, you believe it.Â
âIâm going back out,â Your voice drops to a whisper, âgood night,âÂ
âMhm,â He listens as you slip back into bed, âjust get comfortable, just breathe. Iâm right here with you, jagiya, Iâll be right here.âÂ
He murmurs to you softly until your mind is sinking into darkness, body finally unspooling and letting you drop off into sleep. Itâs not the same as his arms around you, but it settles you more than any meditation, his voice a steady whisper through your dreams.Â
In the morning when you wake the call is still connected and the first sound you hear is his slow breath and the steady beat of his heart.
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GUESS NO ONE EVER TAUGHT YOU HOW TO BE A REAL MAN...ăoâ [2]
KANG DAE HO x FEM!READER
Wylcome back sigmas.. or idk.. help
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mmm red light green light,blood, a lot of blood, uh period ahh period uh, 'IVE PLAYED THESE GAMES BEFORE' ahh gi hun, but has gore and a lot of death, spoilers, lots of hand holdinh between TWO players (guess who)
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Heyy wassup my peeparoo's, i hope yer liking this series fic or whatevs you call it! Ilysm and ty for liking the last post! THAT WAS THE FASTEST LIKES IVE EVER RECEIVED( *ăťĎăť)ă TYSMM
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"That is correct." The square says. 'Hope this'll be fun, whatsoever.' I say in my thought's, focusing on the rushing things that came on my mind.
"...cool i guess, free money from playing kiddie games." I put yet again, both of my hands in my pocket's. But suddenly, a voice of an old woman was heard.
"Good heavens- excuse me." The voice echoed through the room.
A faint sound of a slap, a slap on a cloth was heard as it soon was followed by words. "You idiot-!" The old woman says.
"Mom! Wha- what are you doing here..?" The familliar voice that was heard earlier said.
"Thats what i wanted to ask you! What are you doing here!?" The old woman's voice said angrily.
"Embarassing? If you know what was embarassing, you wouldn't be here!" The old woman continued, i guess the son spoke in a whisper before that then.
"No- we wont, come on! Your leaving." The old woman said again, it appears to be that my calculations were correct, never mind im sounding like a nerd.
'Wow, family drama in such place like this is crazy, haha.' I say in my thoughts.
"Why would you bring a naive old woman here?! Will you take responsibilit if my mom collapses!? HAH?" The familliar male's voice earlier yelled out.
"yong sik- ill stay and do this, you go home.." the old woman said, now that you knew that player's name.
"Stop it! Im already here, i cant just leave!" Yong sik continues.
"But you promised me! You promised never to gamble again!" The old woman continues(i love this diva sm)
SKIPPING TO.. TAKE PICCIES.
As you were standing in line, looking at the players taking their pics as a woman on the speakers had announced something.
"Damn.. this is taking long, my feet are gonna be sore-" i sighed, but the speakers interrupt me.
"The first game will begin momentarily."
Now the line being done, you took a step as it said to you.. "smile." Yeah sure, smile for the picture or cheese?
(The picture is what i potray the reader as! But you can potray the reader however you like, or being yourself! The reader can be any race, weight, or bodyshape! As long as your enjoying it :). )
Music plays as you stood infront of the camera.
"Yeah i wont.. smile." You say, because your smile scared alot of children last time you approached them, yeesh.
You walked out of the photo booth or something ... i really dont know what its called.
The speaker spoke again.
"After having your picture taken, follow the staff's instructions and proceed to the game site." The speaker says as you slowly went up the stairs...
â âoă..ăoâ â
"Welcome to the first game, all players please wait a moment on the field." The speaker says as you stepped out, there was sand in the ground, the walls were painted like landscapes, and there was a huge hole above all of this.
But the strange thing you noticed is that..
There was a weird doll that represented a figure of a child, it wore yellow and had pigtails, "yeesh that give's me the chills." You said as the sun went to blind your eyes.
The door behind you closed, basically the door was shut behind you, automatically..
"The game is Red light, Green light." It announced.
I prepared myself as i stretched my arm's "first game, easy enough." You say with confidence as you looked at the front.
"Hey! Dont get too cocky missy." Someone said right behind you, ew.
"Nah, id win." You said, your back still facing the man that said you were too cocky, well it was a sheer boost of confidence.
"Cross the finish line in five minutes without getting caught. If you do you pass." The speaker says but suddenly- someone went upfront, it was the familliar voice that you heard earlier. "Everyone! Everyone! Pay attention!" The familliar figure waved and put his hand to deliver attention to him, wow main character energy that much.
"Listen carefully! This is not just a game! If you lose the game, you DIE!" He yelled out.
"Dying from a kid's game? Sounds awfully fake." You said, fixing your hair as strands went up to your face, looking at the.. crazy? You wouldnt call him that, Man.
"That sounds sketchy,"
"Fake"
"Hes crazy."
People spoke, as you laughed a little.
"Hey! What are you talking about?" A random woman says. "Were going to die playin' red light, green light?" The random woman questioned.
The familliar figure responded. "Of course! If they catch you moving, they will kill you! They will shoot from somewhere!" The man says.
"Sounds weird enough." You said, letting out a sigh as you moved your head again, looking at your left, you noticed... player 388 yet again. His head was tilted slightly as he listened to the man's words. Huh, cute- wait. Your only here for money not for love.
"Oh hey its you agai-" you spoke out, but the familliar figure that was in the front spoke again.
"Stay on your toes!" The familliar figure yelled out.
"Ehem, as i was saying, hello... player 388." You greeted him as he glanced at you, his lips were parted as he waved a little bit.
"Ah.. hello again uhm, player 238." He says flashing a small grin, but the familliar figure spoke again.
"If you get caught, YOU DIE! That doll's eyes are motion detectors!" The familliar figure says."Stay on your toes!"
"Well, no time for chatting i guess." I say as i spoke to player 288, he nods as we both stood silent, the tension was akward even if there were multiple people surrounding us.
"What the hell are you talking about???" A random man says. "I think he's trying to scare us so he can win the prize money!"
"Thats right!"
"I agree!"
Multiple people agreed on the man's words as we both still stood akwardly with each other.
"Dont pull any tricks, asshole!" Another guy says.
"You have to believe me!" The familliar figure says. The figure rotate's its head as the weird doll starts to move, its right hand started to raise and cover its eye. You took a deep breath and released it.
"Do not be alarmed or panic! No matter what happens, do not panic and start running!" The figure says.
"Let the game begin."
An alarm suddenly ticks as the doll finally spoke.
"Green light, red light."
You moved, and finally stop, looking at the man that did a gesture that made his arms go down.
"Freeze!" The man yelled, you focused on not moving as your feet began digging in the sand. The sun literally is interfering with this.
The doll rotated its head as its eyes began to weirdly move. 'Ew.... creppy ass doll.' You said, looking at the doll while you spoke in your thoughts.
"Well done! You just need to stay calm like this! We just have to move and stop at the same time!" The man yelled.
"Green light...." you moved fastly as you halted, the man speaking yet again.
"Freeze!" He yelled.
'Being in a jumper while being under the sun, too much coverage, but gotta handle it.' You say in your thoughts yet again.
"Dont move! Stay still! Just relax!" The man yelled.
"Green light.." you ran slowly.
"Red light." The doll chanted.
It repeated again as you took some steps, you really wished there was an AC inside this room, well.. you never experienced it anyway except when going to stores and such.
"Freeze!" The man repeatedly yelled again.
'This is getting boring not gonna lie..' you say in your thoughts again.
The doll moved its head again as you repeated it, repeat repeat repeat, even hid words were repeated.
You freezed yet again, the air hitting you lightly.
But suddenly, you heard a gunshot.
Shit.
A loud thud echoed through as you stood, now static as a heavy boulder. Then, there was a scream that followed now, people we're moving. Scarlet red coated the back of your jumper as you still stood. Not flinching from the sound at all.
Screams and gunshots continued, more blood soon dripped in the ground, wow you already got stained by someone's blood. Thats that for not knowing what will happen, also maybe consequences in the first round: getting stained by someones blood.
'Just dont move and we'll be good.' The gunshot's were still going as the man yelled again. "Freeze!" One more gunshot followed it.
"You can move forward while the tagger shouts, 'red light green light. If your movement is detected afterward, you will get eliminated."
The doll rotated its head again as you still stood.
It rotated its head for two times untill the familliar voice finally spoke again.
"You'll also die if you donr make it there in time! That doll is a motion detector! But it can't detect motion thats not visible to it!" The man signals its hand open and closed as he continues with his words. "Get behind someone bigger than you! Like your following the leader! Were running out of time! We've got to move!" You moved behind a.. familliar back with that signature small ponytail of their's.
Player 388. Huh this must be a coincidence that your almost being close to him and such.
You suddenly stumbled as you put your hand behind him.
"...sorry." you said, gripping his jumper a little to be a gesture of an apology, you noticed his hand slightly shaking, that made you feel slightly worried.
"No-nono.. its fine.. miss." He said, you can tell he was anxious suddenly.
Two gunshots were soon followed again as the doll moved its head again, getting your grip out of 388's jumper, he suddenly held your hand and ran, then stopped. His hand felt callused compared to yours, his was warm, yours was.. cold.
You were still behind him as you gulped some air.
Now, a line was now formed by individual players. Yet you still focused on.. the game and this feeling i guess.
"Do not move! Freeze!" The familliar man yelled out, but then suddenly, three thuds were heard as it was one gunshot, and the other two were shot at the same time.
The doll moved its head again and his grip on your hand tightened, running, and then stop.
One gunshot followed as he still kept you behind him, wow dude you guys arent even dating or in a relationship yet, get a gripđđ
As i was saying, it repeated again, the sound of the sand below crunching as there were another gunshot.
"Hey- 388, why are you holding my hand-" you questioned but he doesnt respond. He still kept holding it as you both halted again one gunshot. Two gunshot.
You two were almost near the finish line as you noticed someone stumble, now shot.
"It wasnt me. She pushed me i didnt move! It was her i didnt move!" The random man said.
A gunshot was soon followed as the familliar man cheered. "Your almost there! You can do it!"
You two were a step ahead on getting to the finish line.
You two both fell inside the finish line as you both grunted, now you were heaving, breathing for air.
"Im sorry uh- miss, i didnt mean to hold your hand." He said, holding a hand out for you to grab.
You held his hand and stood up, dusting the jumper.
"... thanks for shielding me though, i should be the one to apologize for-" he cut's you out.
"No, no its fine." He spoke. You noticed that there was three people running up to the finish line, the one in middle being injured.
The three of them ran, and now arrived at the finish line.
"By the way miss.. whats your name?" The man behind you spoke.
"I think you already heard it being announced but.. [nam-]" there was a gunshot followed as the man died inside the finish line.
You didnt speak after that, knowing it was a time to not speak.
"...[name]. It is.. im- im kang dae ho." He introduce's himself.
The sky suddenly darkens as you both look up, there was sound building up from the other players as it closed slowly.
"Players, its now time to go back to the quarters." The speaker had announced.
â âoă..ăoâ â
Now you and dae ho were facing each other even in opposite bunk beds, the silence filling both of your eardrums.
"That was..." you said.
"Not great." He said.
Both of you had said it in unison.
The door buzzed open as the pink guards showed up, walking a little bit.
You hid behind your bunk bed in instinct as they approached.
"Congratulations for making it through the first game. Here are the results of the first game." The square said.
The tv immedietly turned on, showing numbers that dropped down. "Out of 456 players, 91 players have been eliminated. 365 players have completed the first game." The square announces.
"Congratulations again for making it through the first game." The square announces.
"Sir please dont kill us!" The familliar old woman's voice begged. "Please dont kill ud im begging you! As for my son's debt, i will do whatever it takes to pay you back! Please forgive us!"
It followed other players begging for their lives, kneeling down, crying. Both you and dae ho didnt mind all of them but just exchanged eye glance's.
"We are not trying to harm you. We are presenting you an opportunity." The square says.
"Clause three of the consent forms!" The familliar man yelled out. " 'the games may be terminated upon a majority vote.' Correct?"
"That is correct." The square answered. Both you and dae ho's head were now turned into the direction of the familliar man, looking at him.
"Then let us vote right now." The man says.
"Of course. We respect your right and freedom of choice." The square continues. "But first, let me announce the prize amount thats been accumalated. "
The square clicks on the remote as the piggy bank slowly goes below along with music and sound effects.
I looked from the side of the bunk bed and stared at the won falling from a tube inside the piggy bank.
"The number of players that were eliminated were 91. Therefore,accumalates to 9.1 billion won." The square says. "If you quit the game now, the 365 of you can equally divide 9.1 billion won and leave with your share.
"How much is that?" The old bitc-man says.
"each person's share would be 24,931,500 won." The square says.
Voice's build up yet again as they all had different answers.
"Thats not enough.."
"We almost died for that.."
Well, it was true. You needed more won. Still too minimum.
"Million? You said 45.6 billion!" A purple haired guy said. Oh you definately could recognize the dude.
"The rule is that, a hundred million won will be accumalated for each eliminated player." The square says.
You perked up from his words that soon followed another. "If you play the next game and more players get eliminated, the prize amount will increase accordingly." The square spoke.
"How much will it be if you survive untill the end?" The annoying- i mean old man spoke.
"as i already told you, the total amount of prize money for all 456 players is 45.6 billion won. Those who make it through all six games, will equally divide the 45.6 billion won." The square answered.
"So if your the only one to survive, you get 45.6 billion?" A random man spoke.
"That is correct." The square answered.
Murmurs start building up again as you noticed dae ho fidgeting with his fingers, signalling him with your hand to ask if he was okay, he nods and gives you a thumbs up.
"So we can take a vote again and decide to leave after the next game?" A random man had spoke.
"As promised in the consent form, you can take a vote for each game and decide to leave with the prize money accumulated to that point. We alwaye prioritize your voluntary participation.. Now, lets begin the vote." The square spoke.
You gestured dae ho to stand up and he does so, walking down to go with the fewer people below.
Both of you were standing behind the several players as you sighed.
"If you wish to continue the game, press the O button, if you wish to end them, press the X button." The square has said as you looked at the ground. "The vote will be held in reverse order of your player numbers, player 456." The man had called out, everyone's attention went to him as you gulped, thinking about what to vote.
You needed the money because it wasnt enough.
"Its all pointless!" Your thoughts had been interrupted as a strange woman that was on the top bunks spoke. "Talk about getting creep's again.." you said.
"You didnt decide when to come into this world, and you cant decide when you leave it either. When and where you die, were already decided by the gods the moment you were born. No matter how hard you try, you CAN never escape it." The woman said.
a button was soon followed as you looked at the flat screen tv, one X. "Once you finish voting, put the patch you are given on the right side of your chest, put the patch you are given on the right side of your chest, and stand on the side you have chosen." The square announces.
A few votes followed as it called dae ho, looking at dae ho who was walking torwards the button, the O went up by one.
After few people again, it was finally your turn. "Player 238." It had announced. The X and O's side turns their face on you as you walked, thinking about the buttons that was plastered on the voting, you finally were infront of it.
You pressed.. O.
After you pressed it, they gave you a blue patch and went to the blue side, the counter went up by one yet again.
Several votes followed as the score is now 87 to 93. Looking at the screen above, someone had spoken up yet again.
"Wait a minute everyone! Wait! You cant do this." The familliar voice had spoken again, looking into the direction of that player, you already knew who it was.
"Come to your senses! Dont you see? These arent all games, we will die if we keep playing! We have to get out of here now." The man had interrupted the voting process.
"Who do you think you are?!"
"Im super man." I answered. It was that annoying old man again.
"Why do you keep egging people on like that? You scared us by saying they'd shoot us before the game even began!" Wow ferocious debate mister.
"Thats right! He was going one abour how we'd die, and i almost did because i got so nervous!" A woman had spoken up, it was followed by a man. "How did you know they were going to shoot us? Are you one of them?" The man had spoken, and that annoying voice came up again.
'Fucking hell this debate makes my head hurts..' i say in my mind, as i went to rub my temples.
"Are you conning us all by pretending to be a player? Who is this guy?!" The old man shoved the man. "Did you plant him to mess with our hands?!" The old man said.
"Thats uncalled for! We wouldn't won the game and survived if it weren't for him!" The guy who seemed to be his bestfriend defended him.
He was correct afterall, but you just needed more money to pay half of the debt.
"And you! I saw how scared you were, and your legs were shaking!" The bff man yelled.
"You should thank him, not treat him like a fraud!" The man yellled. "And who the hell are youuu? Are you conspiring with him?" Another guy said. "Older than you, what are you going to do? Huh? Huh?" It was followed by an old woman's voice gesturinh for them to stop.
"Please dont do this, listen- none of us would be alive if it weren't for this gentleman! So enough with the greed- lets put our live's first and get out of this place- okay?" The old woman cried out.
"Thats right!"
"Lets get all out of here!"
"No we have to keep playing!"
The arguments were cut off as it was followed by the familliar man's voice.
"I have played these games before! I have done this before! I know about the first game because i had played it before! I played the games three years ago! And everyone who was with me.. died here!" The man had said, as voices build up yet again, theyre so noisy...
"They all did?"
"All of them?"
"Really, no way. If they all did, how did you survive alone? Wait. Are you saying you were the sole winner?" A man had said. "Thats right. I was the final winner." The familliar man answered. They were gossiping again soon after. "If we continue the games, every single person here... just like all the people back then, will die in the end." You can hear pain in his last few words. You felt bad but, you still needed the money.
"Bullshit." The old man interrupted again."if you were the sole winner it means you eon 45.6 billion won. If you really did, why would you even come back here?"
"Thats right! Hes lying!"
"Cut the crap!"
"Hes a total nutcase!"
"If someone like you can win, so can i!"
"If you really won it actually works better for us. You can give us some tips, on how to beat these game's." The familliar purple haired dude said, now you do recognize him.
"Thats right! We have a previous winner with us, so what do we have to worry about? Come on lets do this!"
"Come on!"
"Yeah!"
"Lets make some money!"
"Lets do this!"
"Lets do it!"
"Lets try!"
You just stood there processing what happened as every word of them came to a blur, but the square spoke again.
"From here on, we will not tolerate actions that disrupt the voting process. Now, lets resume the vote."
Few votes afterward, it all led to a tie. People cheered for the tie.
"Lastly, player 001." They all looked into the direction of the man.
"Everyone say O!"
"O!"
"X!"
They all cheered as the man went to the voting podium.
All of them were now focused on the man, so were you.
The vote had clicked as the O... won.
Half of the people in O cheered as you covered your ears, now.. all the people retreated to their quarters. You noticed dae ho and ran up to him.
"Hey, dae ho!" You said, he noticed you as you followed him, going to your bunk bed as the opposite of him.
You sat down in the bunk bed and looked at hid patch, you werent alone anyways.
"Hey dae ho.. do you have a reason on why you voted O?" You asked, looking at him. "Yeah.. i do." He said quietly.

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just a proper written fic for the one i posted abt earlier! not a part 2, which i will be writing soon :3
tag: @msilwrites <3
Itâs been a month since Johnny had gotten shot in the head, and as his spouse you were the first one to receive the news of his accident. When you arrived at the hospital, to see Johnny still there and alive, well barely, it felt like your heart sunk to the deepest pit in your stomach.
Recovery wasn't quick, that's for sure. As of now, Johnny is still going through physical therapy, medication, all of that. His speech was apparently affected by the injury as well, soâŚhim not talking as much wasn't that strange, right?
Whatever it takes for him to recover, I guess. You remained positive, hoping that Johnny will make a full recovery soon. After all, you researched that younger people like Johnny have a better chance of recovery.
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Dinner hasn't been this quiet in like whatâŚ3 years?
Johnnyâs has been staring at his plate full of food for the past 10 minutes now, you're not exactly sure if calling his attention is the right thing to do. He was unresponsive, despite you trying to initiate a conversation.
With a sigh, you continue eating anyway. The food was getting cold. âJohnny will get better soon. This is fine, you can wait. You will wait.â You think, the words flooding your mind.
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Shit. Johnny was gone, where the hell could he possibly be? He never wanders off, even before he got shot! You've been scrambling around the house for a good half an hour now, practically turning it upside down. It was no use, maybe you could find him outside..
Hurriedly, you put on your coat and scurry away into the city in hopes to find Johnny mindlessly going around.
The park, not there. The restaurant you two always used to go to, not there either. Where can he be? Youâve basically toured the whole place! There were swirls of worry forming in your heart, making it beat faster.
You weren't looking at where you were going from how much you were panicking, shock when you collided with what felt like a wall basically. You look up, realizing that it was Simon you bumped into.
This was good! Maybe he saw Johnny, maybe he was with him even! Hope fills inside you, spreading throughout your body.
âSimon! Oh, it's so good to see youâhave you seen Johnny? Iâve been looking everywhere for him!â You ask, clearly exhausted judging by the beads of sweat running down your forehead and the way you panted.
But you don't miss the way Simonâs eyebrow raises, eyes peering at you. âWhat do you mean, love? It's Johnnyâs death anniversary today.â He replies, seeing your gaze move from his eyes to the bouquet of flowers in his hands.
You blinked multiple times, waiting for Simon to hopefully say it was a joke. You even make the effort to check your phone that it wasn't April Fools. Trying to speak was impossible as you felt your words get stuck in your throat, it wasn't difficult for Simon to notice.
âTake a deep breath, alright? Take your time.â Simon attempts to soothe, placing a hand on your back and patting it rhythmically.
Once you got a hold of yourself, your voice still shakes as you respond. âJohnny isâŚwhat? Are you kidding me right now, Simon? T-this really isn't funny..â
Denial. Simon isn't surprised, he's seen go down before. It's better to approach the situation gently, to not startle you as much.
âI'm not lying, Y/N. Iâd never lie about something so sensitive like this, I am telling the truth.â He tells, his voice firm yet reliable. He was going to be your rock, it's the mission Johnny had left for him to do.
âJohnny is goneâŚâ You mumble under your breath, repeating the words as if you were in some sort of twisted trance. But some kind of realization dawns on you, you look up at Simon with eyes widened in horror.
âWho the fuck was I living with this past year?â
And even Simon couldn't answer that.
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black honey | emily prentiss x reader
summary: after a small slip-up, the team finds out about your and emily's relationship.
tags: fluff, fem!bau!reader x unit chief!emily, kissing, relationship reveal, boss/employee relationship, reader wears lipstick, no use of y/n, second person
word count: ~900
a/n: regular text size and capitalization under the cut. set during evolution, but no spoilers, really! also, let's pretend hr isn't a thing!!
cross-posted on ao3
It was a slow, paperwork-filled day at the BAU. The team had just wrapped up an out-of-state case, and you were honestly thankful for the monotony of the day so far. You ached, however, to see your girlfriend.
Sure, the two of you had been working alongside each other for basically the whole case, but you barely got any alone time.
You ruminated on the thought for a bit, reapplying your lipstick mindlessly, but soon pushed the thought aside. You went back to scribbling away in your file, when your phone chimed suddenly.
Emily: Come see me.
She must have read your mind.
You looked up, seeing her office door ajar, and made your way up after closing the file.
When you entered, she was at her desk, typing on her laptop. You took a moment to admire her, the light from the window illuminating those features you loved so much.
âAm I in trouble, boss?â You joked after closing the door. She looked up from her laptop, closing it, and pushing her chair back. A smile tugged at the corners of her mouth as she stood up, making her way to the front of her desk.
Leaning against the desk in that way that always makes you swoon, Emily motioned for you to come over. When you were close enough, she took your hand in hers. She brought it up to her lips, kissing gently at your skin.
Remembering where you were, your eyes darted to the windows overlooking the bullpen, only to see that the blinds were closed.
Oh.
She had a plan.
âI missed you,â she said, a small twinkle of mischief in her eyes.
âMe too, Em.â
Her hands fell to your waist, and she pulled you closer. âSo, do something about it.â
With that, you closed the gap between the two of you. You captured her lips, and she immediately returned the kiss with a surprising fervour. You let yourselves get lost in it, tongues dancing together slowly. You let your hands wander upwards, entwining them in her silver locks.
You let out a small whimper, causing Emily to pull back reluctantly. You looked at her, all wide eyes and pouty lips.
âNone of that, sweetheart,â she replied to your little display, âI just donât want to get too carried away, is all.â
You rolled your eyes. âSays the person who started it.â
Before she could reply, there was a knock at the door. The two of you separated quickly before she called for them to come in.
âHey, guys,â JJ said from the doorway, âweâve got a case.â
âWeâll be right there,â Emily replied.
Thankfully, JJ didnât seem to pick up on anything, and she left with a nod. You went to follow her when Emily grabbed your wrist, turning you around.
âIâm not done with you,â she whispered, causing a chill to run up your spine.
Like nothing had happened, she exited the office, leaving you flustered at her words.
*ŕŠâŠâ§âË
When you entered the briefing room, Emily was already seated at the round table, chatting quietly with JJ. You took your seat next to her, purposely avoiding her gaze so as not to let that all too familiar heat creep up your cheeks. Tara and Luke greeted you quickly before returning to their own conversation.
Not too long after, Garcia entered, coffee in hand. As she made her way up to the front of the room to get set up, she stopped for a moment.
She cocked her head to the side. âEmily, I like your lipstick!â
You froze. Your lipstick.
âWhââ Emily started, Penelope interrupting her.
âYou donât usually wear lipstick,â she said, âis it new? It looks like that Clinique oneâŚBlack Honey! Is that what youâre wearing?â
Before Emily could answer, Garcia continued, âHuh, thatâs what you usually wear,â she remarked, her focus now shifting to you. You could see the gears turning behind her eyes. Tara and JJ were both holding back smiles, eyes flitting back and forth between you and Emily.
âOh, my god!â Penelope all but shrieked. âYou two?!â
You finally looked at Emily, whose eyes were already on you. Catâs out of the bag, her expression read. You let your head fall to your hands with a sigh, knowing what was coming, and Emily placed her hand on your back gently.
âWhen? How long? How?!â Garcia questioned.
âAm I missing something?â Luke chimed in.
Garcia spun to him. âMissing something? Theyâre dating!â
At that moment, Rossi walked in. âWhoâsââ he started, but then he saw Emily rubbing your back, ââoh.â He smiled, taking a seat.
âYou knew, didnât you?â She accused Rossi.
He shook his head, holding up his hands. âNot at all,â he said, âbut I canât say Iâm surprised.â
You swear you could sense him winking at the two of you, but you didnât dare look up.
âWell, I am! Whatâ?â Before Garcia could continue herâvery enthusiasticâinterrogation, JJ stopped her.
âI think youâre scaring her, Penelope,â JJ warned, trying not to laugh at the situation.
âOkay, okay,â she rescinded.
You finally looked up, immediately regretting your decision as you locked eyes with your colleague.
âYou guys have to tell me everything later,â she said quickly, âand I mean everything.â
You looked around the room, expecting someone to come to your defence. You were met, however, with some not-so-apologetic looks and a few shoulder shrugs. You shook your head, looking over to an unphased Emily.
âThey were gonna find out some time, babeâ she offered, patting you gently on the back.
You were never going to hear the end of this.
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Hi, I was so excited when I saw there is still someone writing for Kuroshitsuji and, more specifically, for Undertaker (â  â ââ âżâ ââ  â )â ⥠since your fixed post said you're accepting requests, I hope you don't mind if I send one. @yaboisbullshit wrote something that won't leave my mind (I hope they don't mind that I have tagged them, I'm new on Tumblr and don't know the proper etiquette âĽâ ďšâ âĽ). Anyway they wrote about a scene in "Who framed Roger Rabbit" in which we have, basically, Jessica Rabbit simping over Roger Rabbit and I would love to see Undertaker, Sebastian and Ciel's reaction to some girl who is basically a Mary Sue (beautiful, smart, maybe a noble) who's Undertaker's partner and a total simp (â  â ęâ á´â ęâ ) like, he's just eating his biscuits and she's giving him heart eyes lol. Anyway, sorry for the long ask and thanks a lot for your writing, whether you do my request or not (â âżâ ^â âżâ ^â )
and i would love to write it!
Undertaker's Not so Secret Admirer

Synopsis: The Undertaker's shop is filled with odd visits, but he never expected one such as this.
It started as a normal day in the Undertakers shop, slow as usual for the small funeral parlor.
A certain earl makes his way down the streets of the late 18th-century England, a black clad butler by his side and a mission underway. The earl strides himself with purposeful intent and a will that cannot be stopped by many, but as Ciel entered the familiar establishment that day-he stops in his tracks at the sight that he catches before his eyes.
A young woman with a bright aura sits by herself at the center of the parlor on a plush couch in the center of the parlor, giving a giddy wave to the Phantomhive boy.
Not only had Ciel never seen anyone besides his own company adorning the parlor, he also had never seen the parlor fit for human company in such a way.
Ciel gives his butler companion a puzzled look, though receiving nothing but silence from the female counterpart.
The two boys stand in the doorway in stunned silence before the younger boy decides to take charge, yelling into the darkness, "Undertaker...!"
The man in question bursts through the side door, holding a platter of tea and cookies which was obviously prepared in advance.
"Phantomhive, perfect timin', make 'rself at home." He states with a mischievous grin glittering his lips.
The earl seats himself with his butler near and watching. Ciel notices that on the opposite side of the couch, the woman has now adorned a doding expression at the sight of the funeral parlors owner.
She sits with her legs crossed and her palms holding her chin, heart eyes practically bearing through her head. Meanwhile, The Undertaker giggles as he seats himself opposite to them. The young earl starts to feel as if he is witnessing a game that he was not invited to play.
The Undertaker, on the other hand, seems to be more than entertained by these ongoing events.
"I apologize for interrupting you while you have guests, however, I have some business to di-" Ciel starts, however he is quickly interrupted by the sounds of the seemingly love-struck young woman sitting across from him.
Practically squealing in her seat from excitement, the young woman seems to be giddy to speak to The Undertaker and at the notice of his silence, the mystery woman jumps up from her seat and slams her hands on the table.
"Oh gosh, i'm sorry! I've just been so excited to meet you...!" She is now leaning over the coffee table, practically soaking in the rest of personally space that Undertaker has to spare.
The Undertaker bursts into laughter at the sentiment.
"Oh god, I've just heard so much about you. They said you were good looking, but I could've never imagined how right they were," she continues, voice growing more and more smitten as she trails off.
The Undertaker cannot seem to stop his fit of laughter now.
"Actually, young master, I believe we shall leave The Undertaker to this company. It would simply be improper to do otherwise..." the butler spoke, silently guiding his master up from his seat. The earl mutters some very confused phrases on his way up out the door.
The Undertaker tilts his hat towards the earl on his way out and he watched as the young woman seats herself once again. She tries to hide her flushed expression, sipping from her tea cup once again.
The Undertaker clicks his tongue several times as he raises from his seat and heads towards the door which had been left agape. "Ahaha.. Oh dear," He says, wiping a stray tear from his eye from giggling too much.
The Undertaker leans his back against the door, closing the remaining gap between you and the outside world.
"Now, if you planned on coming here to present such a hilarious show such as that one in hopes that I would tell you about myself.. you could have just asked." His voice lowers more and more as he goes on and begins to slowly creep towards where you stay seated.
The sudden realization that all of his attention was now placed on you had you blushing profusely. You attempted to cover your face with your gloved hands, however your sense told you that he already knew how flustered you were.
You let out a nervous giggle as The Undertaker approaches you, placing one hand behind you on the back of the couch and the other on the arm of it- you were essentially trapped.
"So, my dear, what is it that you wanted to know...?"
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â [the perfect host]
featuring: s. geto, s. gojo
cw: smut, implied threesome, cunnulingus, implied m/m, phone sex (?), daddy kink (ofc), established relationship (reader & gojo), fingering, fem reader, chubby reader, getting âcaughtâ masturbating, use of the word cunt (sorry lol), aftercare, not proofread fr, anything else i forgot lolz, pet names (mama, baby, pretty, sweetheart, love). wc: n/a.
notes: this is actually a fic my friend wrote (never published) & i re did it with two diff characters & finished it for her cause she never did⌠so if yall like it GO TO HER BLOG ILL TAG HER. this wasnât my og idea i just wrote the smut and tweaked & added. but enjoy pls, sorry i havenât posted in so long life has beat me up. @nvmjccnluv !!!
âso explain to me why iâm watching her again, she seems completely capable of staying in your apartment alone yknow.â suguru questions over the phone. itâs not that he hates you, but what if he was busy? he wasnât, but gojo didnât need to know that, he didnât even ask to be fair. quickly dropping you off after handing the long haired man a small bag of your things.
on the other end of the phone gojo lets out a huff of laughter. âhad a few things to finish up, she gets too lonely when i leave her at home so i didnât want her getting into things. you know how it is.â
âi actually donât, but okay man.â
âanyway, she doesnât like many people but she didnât seem to mind you the last time we hung out, you seemed like a safe option.â gojo continues, sounding a bit strained.
âokay, whatever, fine.â
âwhereâs she at anyways? if she was with you she wouldâve jumped your bones to get to the phone.â
walking toward the the closed door in the hallway, geto chuckles before reassuring his friend. ârelax dude, sheâs in the room taking a na- holy shit.â
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âwhat happened??â
the dark haired man places his ear on the door to make sure heâs not hallucinating, not saying that heâs hoping to be.
muffled moans greet his ears, but not muffled enough evidently. no, you wanted him to hear. he would have to pass by your room anyways, given that you two would be sharing a wall for the night. but him being on the phone with your boyfriend was just a coincidence, an extremely embarrassing one.
he listens to your soft whines and high pitched whimpers for what feels like days, though its hasnât even been half a minute, paying no mind to the man yelling at him on the phone.
âSUGURU? ANSWER ME! IS SHE OKAY? I SWEAR IF SOMETHING HAPPE-â at this point geto tries to think as hard as possible to come up with a lie that wonât get him killed by his friend.
snapping out of his daze, he finally gets enough courage to respond, âyeah um iâm pretty sure, maybe iâm wrong, i think sheâs uh masturbating.â
âoh, oh okayâ suguru can basically hear a smirk he knows all to well forming on gojos mouth. âdonât be a rude host, go help her out man.â
what the fuck is he talking about help you out? he canât be understanding that this is his girlfriend heâs talking about, right? on top of that, shouldnât he be asking you for consent as well.
âare you insane man? i know youâre into all that weird shit, but her? sheâd probably kill me before i even got close to the bed and throw my dead body out of my own apartment.â as nice as it sounds he didnât know if youâd be okay with any of this. he wasnât going to just walk straight in, right?
thereâs a loud howl that comes directly from the other end of the phone. âare you really being this much of a pussy right now? iâm giving you full permission to go help my girl out, and you wanna whine about how she might kill y-â
âshut the hell up man, i didnât say anything about being a pussy.â
âalright, then there shouldnât be an issue with you helping her out. donât sit up on your high horse and act like you havenât thought about it before, i know just how those perverted thoughts of yours work, donât you rememb-â
âokay okay shut up satoru, im going.â
pushing open the door, the first thing geto notices is your hand rubbing lightly between your soft thighs and how your wetness soaks the bed, clear evidence of how needy you were. how long have you been at it?
gojo can hear you so clearly over the phone, he might as well be in the room with you, âshit, is that her pussy iâm hearing? whats it look like?â he questions, but unfortunately for him he receives no answer.
suguru is too busy enjoying the view and listening to the pathetic little sounds coming from your cunt. his sweatpants are slowly starting to fit a little tighter than before, but he doesnât make any movements yet, just in case you donât wanna play this little game.
almost immediately your soft eyes flutter open and lock into his, and he swears he just came in his pants.
âsugi, please, it hurts so much,â you whine out to him, desperate for his veiny hands on you. your own hand never seems to falter though, only moving in more erratic circles around your sensitive clit; while your other hand is busy touching your nipples, trying to get the most stimulation possible.
knowing that you were just as needy for him as he was for you made the manâs confidence peak. he gives you a light smile as he walks closer to the bed, softly sitting down next to you. he leans over you a bit, close enough to where you can smell the minty, almost overpowering, scent of his shampoo. half his hair loosely tied up in a bun, the other half falling past his shoulders as he looks down at you.
âsomething wrong, pretty? those fingers not doing enough for you, right? donât âcha wanna wait for your boyfriend to come back so he can help you out, heâs on the phone you know.â
his soft hands begin to work at your thighs, but it seems like itâll never be any more than that. continuing for a little longer, he presses the speaker button on his phone, handing it over to you as you pull away from your core.
âcan you hear me, sweetheart?â gojo asks, now finally getting some time to speak to you after being ignored for so long. âi gave sugi permission to help you out, okay? does that sound alright to you?â he utilizes the small nickname youâd given his friend, innocently coercing you to be good.
you give a small âmmmâ in agreement. then, opening your legs, you grab at suguruâs hand and place it between your thighs, just barely touching your cunt.
gojo continues, smiling to himself on the other side of the device. ââkay. iâm gonna talk you through it, just so i know youâre treating my girl right. take two of your fingers and stuff it inside of her, sheâll clench up at first but just keep working at it and sheâll open up, okay? maybe if you do good, you can have something too.â
geto lets out an annoyed breath, short, but just long enough for gojo to catch it. he knows what that means. whatâs even stopping him from fucking you in first place? itâs not like gojo would know. but as he looks into your pleading eyes he realizes heâd do anything to make sure youâre content and happy.. even if that means listening to satoruâs perverted requests.
his fingers slide down to rub at your clit just a bit, before burying his pointer and ring finger deep into your cunt, you clench so tight around him, it makes him feel like heâs dreaming the way your teeth suck at your bottom lip attempting to hide your whines.
âcmon pretty, open up for me. promise iâll make you feel good, okay?â
a throaty whimper slides from between your lips as getoâs fingers work you open. ââs good sugi, please like that more.â you scoot down a little more, chasing his fingers to get even just a little more stimulation.
ânext youâre gonna press on her clit, just a little though sheâs a sensitive little thing.â gojo groans out, itâs obvious heâs taken a break from his work to focus on⌠other things.
âyeah yeah, i know how to use my fingers, asshole.â suguru voices, clearly annoyed. although, he still abides by the instructions and moves his thumb to press on your clit just a tiny bit. your back arches away from his fingers almost immediately, like a natural instinct, he grabs your plush hips with his other hand, pulling you back down. ânuh uh, câmere sweet girl, you wanted my help youâre gonna get it.â
his delicate fingers curve upward into you and you feel as if youâre floating on cloud nine, the way he flicks them at just the right speed while managing to hold you down and deepen his movements. itâs all too much for him you.
the sound of gojoâs voice breaks geto out of his daze, âfuck, i gotta go suguru. i know youâll take care of her. iâm gonna have to cut this shit short, iâll try to come back later tonight instead of tomorrow morning. love you guys, love you baby, be good for sugi okay?â getoâs eyes immediately flicker to yours, and you see just a little bit of what you think could be fear, or excitement, in his eyes.
âbye daddy, love you too.â you whine out, hearing a quick click before the call ends.
âdaddy?â he questions. âknew he was into some shit, didnât know you were too, sweet girl. youâre too pretty and innocent, or at least you put up a good act.â his fingers slide out of you as he snickers, not ignoring the way you pout at the loss of stimuli.
ânah, not gonna leave you here all needy donât worry mama, just gonna do it my way, that sound good to you?â geto grabs you by your hips as you choke out a small âyeaâ, pushing you closer to the headboard of the bed. he fully removes his hair tie and throws all of it up into a bun, swiftly grabbing your underwear and pulling it off.
you look down at him as he crawls closer to you on his stomach, wrapping his arms around your thighs and closing them around his head. you feel his fingers spread your cunt apart, licking a long stripe onto you. your body tenses up, and on instinct your hand finds its way into suguruâs hair, tugging lightly. his head perks up at you, smiling, but eventually just deciding to leave you be.
his tongue swipes over your clit, taking small breaths occasionally as he tastes your cunt. neither one of you know who this is really for at this point. heâs supposed to be âhelping youâ but with the tent growing in his sweats he might as well be doing this for his own pleasure instead. you continue to take harsh pulls at his dark strands, so unfamiliar to you. mostly with satoru you opted for scratching at his shoulders or gripping at the sheets due to the length he kept his hair, but this, this was something you could get used to.
âsugi please, m so close, want it so bad, need you to make me cum.â you cry out, loving the way his nose rubs against your clit as he licks.
he doesnât say anything, he canât really, but you know he understands. he grips your thighs tighter, licking the same way as before, occasionally sucking at your clit, and before you know it youâre squirming all over his face as that familiar feeling rushes over you.
the only thing that suguru could make out of your cries were âthank youâ, âso goodâ, and âdaddyâ? he wasnât sure if you were calling him daddy or if you wanted gojo, but at this point it didnât really matter to him. he pleased you and thatâs all he needed to make him feel better.
as he lifted his head up from your pussy he could already tell how tired you were getting, he immediately grabbed you a change of clothes that gojo had packed and cleaned you up with a wet washcloth. âeverything okay, mama? need anything?â your eyes strain open and you smile at the man standing above you, âiâm okay, thank you for your help. will you stay?â you could tell that he genuinely cared for you, and was worried he had done something wrong by the tone in his voice. him staying was more for him rather than yourself, not that you were complaining.
he pulled off his shirt as he crawled into bed next to you. grabbing his phone from the bedside table he saw that gojo had sent him a message.
âiâll take care of you both when iâm back, cause iâm betting you didnât take anything for yourself. see you both soon ;)â
suguru chuckled to himself at the message from his friend, looking down at you peacefully sleeping on his chest. maybe he could get used to something like this? but for now, heâs content.
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apollo, who?
prompt: beach day | pairing: steddie | wc: 1.5k | rating: teen & up | tags: eddie munson pov, athletic steve, post-canon fix it, pining, reciprocated crushes | written for @pearynice for the @strangerthingswritersguild April Fools exchange! đâď¸đ
There are three absolute truths when it comes to Steve Harrington:Â
The first is that Steve is a gifted athlete.Â
The second is that Steve was born to thrive in the summertime.Â
And the third, much to Eddie Munsonâs chagrin and horror, is that the combination of the first two truths will be his undoing. In public, no less, because the universe has apparently concocted a plan to let Eddie live but to make him suffer nonetheless.Â
Unloading the van had been easy enoughâ Steve grabbing the cooler stacked to the brim with soda, water, and snacks and Eddie watching as heâd trekked through the sand to where Robin and Nancy set up their chairs and beach umbrella. Most of the kids were long gone already, staking their claim with blankets and towels a few feet away from Robin and Nancy, leaving Eddie to snag the sunblock heâs basically been made to swear a blood oath to Wayne that heâll apply generously over his scars.Â
He leans back over the passenger seat to grab it from the center console, along with his walkman and sunglasses, and when he turns back around, he stops dead.Â
Steveâs shirtless.
In the span of ten seconds, Steveâs already shirtless on the beach, nothing but swim trunks hanging from his hips, and Eddie realizes heâs underestimated how fucking beautiful this sight might be.Â
The edge of Lake Michigan laps at the rippled sands as Steve reels back and tosses a football that Eddieâs pretty sure materialized out of nowhere to Lucas a few yards down the shore. All of his freckles and moles and scars out on full display, the sun beats down on his tanned skin and uncharacteristically messy hair that Eddieâs watched slowly morph from chestnut to ash brown over the course of the season.Â
As Eddie applies his stupid sunblock, he lets himself stare unnoticed. Lucas throws what Eddie assumes is a good pass if Steveâs celebratory, âGreat spiral!â means anything and when he puts on his sunglasses, itâs more to shield the blinding light of Steveâs smile than the sun. Maybe itâs cliche, maybe itâs overdone and contrived, but Eddie canât stop himself from comparing Steve to a Greek fucking God.Â
Apollo, who?Â
El appears next to Steve and Eddie continues to watchâ about three layers of sunblock in at this point because heâs lost trackâ as Steve demonstrates something. Holding the football in one hand, he points at the laces and seems to check in with El for understanding before handing it over to her and adjusting her grip slightly. When she attempts to throw it to Lucas, it falls short and lands in the sand just a few feet away from where she and Steve stand.Â
Eddieâs chest fucking swells as Steve trots over to grab it and simply hands it to her again, smile in place to counteract Elâs pout. Three or four tries later, the ball flies straight enough for Lucas to catch it and Jesus H. Christ, Steve cheers like she scored a touchdown, or whatever the fuck itâs called.Â
He canât leave the side of the van. If he makes his way down to the beach, itâll be all over for him. Heâll have to hide in the water the entire time, and now thereâs too much sunblock on his face to blame the inevitable flush on sunburn. Itâs fine, he can hang back. Everyone looks preoccupied anyways and with any luck, no one will notice heâs not enjoying the surf and sand with everyone else until itâs time to leaveâÂ
âEddie!âÂ
Right, he thinks to himself. I have no luck.Â
Steve waves at him to come join, turning that sunshine smile directly at him and itâs a direct hit. Apparently, even on the opposite side of the sands, heâs still a goner.Â
âEddie! Câmon, whatâre you waiting for?â He calls out again, both hands resting on his hips.Â
It does nothing to quell his urge to stare at places friends arenât supposed to stare at. As far as he knows, the only person to have picked up on his unfortunate crush is Nancy, whoâd seemed to understand the importance of discretion and hasnât said a word. If he can leave this beach day with his secret intact, heâll chalk it up as a success.Â
âIâm cominâ, Iâm cominâ!âÂ
With a deep breath, he locks and slams the passenger door to the van and walks out onto the hot sand, barefoot with his sneakers in one hand, SPF 70 in the other, and sunglasses hung over his nose. Distantly, he recognizes the grittiness of the sand beneath his toes and the earthy scent of the freshwater stretching out for miles in front of him but more acutely, he just keeps his eyes on Steve.Â
Please let these glasses be tinted, he thinks.Â
âFinally, what the hell were you doing up there?â Steve asks when he makes it down the narrow path lines with tall grass.Â
âAw, did you miss me, Big Boy?â Eddie drones with a smirk. If he just acts normal, no one will know the difference. Itâs not like Steve ever flirts backâ
âAnd if I did?âÂ
He hasn't planned for that response. All heâs prepared for is a gentle eye roll, maybe a flustered laugh or furrowed brow, and now Steveâs shirtless, sun-baked, sweat dripping from his temple and suggesting he missed him.Â
What the fuck.Â
âHeads-up!â Lucas yells and Steve turns just in time to take two steps backward and catch the football coming in their direction.Â
Thereâs no way for Lucas to have known heâd just saved Eddie from something horrendously embarrassing, but heâll find a way to thank him all the same.Â
âEver throw a football?â Steve holds the oblong ball in one hand, wiggling it at shoulder height with a grin. âI taught El how to throw a spiral, so I think I can teach you, too.âÂ
Okay, actually, heâs still being subjected to something humiliating.Â
âSports have never really been myââ
âDonât start with that, câmere. Itâs easy.â Steve gestures with a nod of his head for Eddie to join him further out on the beach and like a satellite to its orbit, he follows.Â
It takes way more attempts than it did Elâ something Max was all too quick to point out loudlyâ but he does eventually throw something that Steve considers a spiral. Maybe it wouldâve taken fewer tries if Steve hadnât insisted on standing directly behind him, adjusting his stance and grip with his chest damn near pressed against Eddieâs back.Â
Of all the unfair cards life has dealt him, this has to be the worst. More than once, he makes eye contact with Nancy who raises an eyebrow and smirks before returning her attention to whatever she and Robin are talking about.Â
Probably him. Him and Steve and his dumb, dumb, dumb crush thatâs ruining his life. Itâs fine.Â
When he finally throws the ball at an acceptable angle, Steve claps him on the shoulder and stands next to him, effectively draping an arm over both shoulders.Â
âSee? That wasnât so bad, was it?â
He swallows and turns, breath catching his throat. All of the sun has brought Steveâs freckles to the forefront, a shade darker than usual with new tiny pinpricks of color appearing along his nose with a faint pink hue along his cheekbones.Â
If they werenât in public, heâd do something very, very stupid. Instead, he clears his throat subtly and finds words.Â
âSure, yeah, Iâm a regular sports guy now, Steve. Guess Iâve gotta find something to teach you, huh? Yâknow, return the favor?âÂ
âIâve always wanted to learn guitar. You can show me the basics some time. Or uh,â Steve grins and lowers his voice. âIâm sure there are some other things we can learn together.âÂ
Eddieâs fully lost track of how many times heâs been caught off-guard so far today, but this one takes the cake. Steveâs fucking flirting with him. Actually flirting with him. Beating him over the goddamn head with it, really.Â
âYeah! Yeah, uh, yeah,â he repeats, smooth. âTo both, I mean. Yeah, to both.âÂ
Steve squeezes his shoulder and unravels his arm with a hopeful expression.Â
âWeâll talk more when we arenât surrounded by nosy shits, especially those two,â Steve nods at Robin and Nancy who wave with their fingers. âIn the meantime, race you to the water?âÂ
âWhat is it with you jocks?â
He barely has time to get the question out before Steve takes off, plunging into the water a solid foot before Eddie even reaches the shore.Â
âThatâs cheating, Harrington!â He bellows, running through the sand to join him, heart thundering between his ribs and head still spinning from what just happened.Â
âSounds like what Iâd expect from someone who just lost,â Steve shoots back, taking a breath and submerging himself before popping back up.Â
Hair slicked back with the freshwater of Lake Michigan, Eddie watches as Steve runs both hands through it, then down his face and back into the lake. Water droplets glisten off his skin and Eddie wades a little closer, finding Steveâs hands once theyâre submerged enough to disguise it.Â
âOh, contraire,â Eddie muses. âI feel like I just won.â
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The (crappy) art of Freakycare
Much like I did in my initial 'final farewell' post (which turned out to not be final post at all because so much shit happened afterwards), I want to focus this post on an aspect that other people have not talked about - the art itself on the new freakycare blog. A lot of other people have talked about how KC refuses to take any accountability and trying to shed culpability, her refusal to acknowledge or apologize to any victims (Emsody being the only one who received so much as a 'sorry' from KC, has since been redacted with the removal of the post from the main blog), or the fact that she has very openly gone all in to publicly post her secret canon material (and pathetically begging proshippers to interact with every post, hungry for attention).
Before we continue I would like to link the donation/commission links of some of the affected victims of KC and her associates: Commission Jeremy Donate to Chaosblast Donate to Toynbeck Donate to Aobasgirlfriend
As well as the response of people KC directly groomed/victimized in light of the new blog (more may be added in the future):
Chaosblast's response (archive) Imani's response (archive) Maddie's response (archive) Fink's response (archive)
And, to any KC bootlicker supporters being like 'errm you wouldn't have found the freakycare blog unless you were looking for it, checkmate antis' I'll copy/paste what I replied to one who was harassing an anticare poster:
Related accounts get recommended to people due to tumblr's algorithm, don't be stupid now. If people follow interact with sparklecare and related tags/blogs, freakycare will come up too because a lot of you goons who post with freakycare tags also have posts on your blogs tagged with sparklecare AND cometcare (some even posting freakycare with those two aforementioned tags in the same post). If the same person is posting with the same art style and the same characters no shit the algorithm will show people. If people had to go out of there way to find it, it is unlikely it would've been found instantly by people. Also peep you, this supposedly anti harassment pro shipper going out of their way to harass and bother this person who's explicitly tagged their post as anticare. Hm! Curious! Maybe you should heed your own mantra and block/move on and curate your own experience by muting tags! But you guys are all hypocrites so who's shocked.
Without further ado, let's talk about how the quality of KC's art has taken a significant dip, especially comparing it to the initial Cometcare, which Freakycare directly parallels. I will not be going for the content itself, I'm sure I would be a broken record saying 'sexual harassment and covert incest is not cute or funny at all, and 'the way it's framed as a normal light hearted thing is abhorrent' over and over. Considering the first 'arc' is also called 'coming out' I think directly comparing being incestual to coming out as queer is quite frankly incredibly insulting.
Rushed art
We'll start with the most basic observation - the art is very rushed. There a distinct lack of care when comes to various aspects of the art that is most evidently seen in the inconsistency in how the frills on Ally's dress lines up between panels, nor how the bow does not connect properly. They are inconsistent and change wildly between panels that are right next to each other. It looks terrible.
Missing features
In various panels very basic assets of the character's design are just not there, such as Ally missing a star on her cheek so she has 3 instead of 4, the sleeves missing their frill lines, and Sly constantly missing the glasses' temples. Below you will also see Ally's whiskers disappearing periodically.
Copy/Paste job
It is actually not uncommon for artists to use the same panel with minor altercations between panels. HOWEVER, this is something that was not in the original Cometcare, as KC used to redraw the same pose entirely between asks. In Freakycare, however, this copy/pasting of panels is used extensively. Much less effort and in some cases, the erasing of the previous panel hasn't been done properly so there's distinct leftovers between them in the lineart.
Imprecise lineart
The lineart often doesn't connect properly or overshoots where it should stop. This also leads to things like weird dents in Ally's facial stars patterns.
Bad anatomy
Anatomy is of course subjective depending on style, but at the very least one would hope for consistency, or things making sense connecting to the body wise.
Cometcare VS Freakycare
Cometcare first, and then Freakycare second. I don't think it's controversial to say I think the art in Freakycare is worse in every single way. The shapes are much wobblier looking, the anatomy is worse, the character figures look stiffer, the speech bubble placement is less cohesive, etc.
In conclusion, this is quite literally slop. It is sloppy, rushed, and little care has been put into the art. I feel even if you are a proshipper incest lover, your standards should 100% be higher - this is the garbage you settle for? I guess quality doesn't matter when to someone who enjoys this content, the mere notion of incest being present is like having keys jangled in front of one's face to entertain them. It is no exaggeration to say not a single panel has any care put into it. KC is capable of better art, she just doesn't have a reason to try anymore. KC thoroughly rinsed money out of her former fanbase through patreon, and the merch drops - anyone left doesn't care.
KC gave up working on Sparklecare, and turned her back on the people who loyally enjoyed what came before for this. It is sad that the instant gratification from people who clap like seals for anything 'problematic' has caused KC's art and writing to degrade significantly. KC does not care what people think or believe, and that 100% extends to the victims of her and her associates. KC feels no remorse for doing things such as retraumatizing a fellow victim of incest in Imani, or triggering her partner so bad new alters of a traumagenic system were created to cope in Chaos, or willfully ignoring those who have reached out about her groomer pals. To KC, her fictional animals matter more than the real people she has hurt.
In addition I would argue this outright unsafe for KC to be doing, considering her family home living situation. Being back publicly to do so has further put a spotlight on her, and her actions.
Look who's in the likes, Woofles who groomed a 15 year old and is a self admitted pedophile/zoophile. Jk-tech too, who you may remember actively defended Oddballs, the real CSEM trafficking site. This is the type of person KC wants to cater to now.
And the greatest irony of all of course, is how page 161 from Sparklecare V2 directly calls out behaviour like KC's.
If you want something like Sparklecare or Cometcare to fill the void and not support KC, there's always the various projects by former fans.
In the future a few month down the line when more former fan projects are out I may make a second/continuation post promoting them.
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Hi there! I saw your requests open and I was willing to shoot my shot (fr none of my req gets taken butttt) I was wondering if you could make an Iwaizumi x Reader fluff where basically
Iwaizumi has secretly liked the reader for a long time. Though he wrongly assumes she likes Oikawa because she's often with him (oikawa knows that she likes iwa), but gets quiet and makes excuses when Iwaizumi is around. This is because she gets shy and flustered around himâa stark contrast to her normally outgoing personality (shes basically an extrovert).
On Valentine's Day, she asks Oikawa to deliver a Valentine's gift and a love letter to Iwaizumi, explaining in the letter why she couldn't confess in person: she's too shy and flustered around him, but when Iwaizumi overheard that the reader was calling for oikawa, he assumed that she was going to confess to him instead of iwa and bros just pouty and cute.
Pls pls pure fluff, no angst im basically allergic to it, Thank youâĽď¸âĽď¸
OH WE'RE SO BACK!!! first lil one shot post hiatus. Thank you for the request, love! It was much appreciated and got me back in my groove. I'd like to issue my formal apology- you said no angst. Here is my thing. I also am allergic to angst. However, in my head, no man has ever yearned as hard as Iwazumi can yearn. So there's so much yearning in the beginning but I try to make up for it !!

Yearning
Hajime Iwaizumi X Reader



Tags: Hajime X fem!reader (reader is described wearing a skirt and referred to with she/her pronouns), Fluff, yearning
Word count: 2.7k
Songs I thought about while writing this: "Be Your Boy" by Medium Build, "Chateau (Fell Alright)" by Djo, "Let You Break My Heart Again" by Laufey, "Angel of Small Death and the Codeine Scene" by Hozier

If Iwaizumi never loved again, it would be your fault.Â
That is what he told himself while staring at his ceiling at 2 a.m., bouncing a volleyball between his hands and the ceiling of his room- a noticeable wear in the tile from the continuous anxious habit heâs displaying right now.Â
Really, it wasnât your fault at all. But it was always easier for him to shift the blame a little. If he can convince himself that youâre in the wrong, then he wonât feel like such an absolute loser for being this in love with you. But he was- he was so far in love with you it was sick. He loved the little details the most- the way your hair moves when itâs windy, the way your nailbeds were a little pushed back during the weeks of big tests because you get nervous and fidget with your fingers, the way that when you laugh at Oikawa you get a little dimple in your left cheek that resembles the moon on a clear night- bright, glowing and giving him reminders that if you look for it, love can exist.Â
Oikawa. Right.Â
You loved Oikawa. Or thatâs what he was pretty sure of at least. And to be fair, Iwazumi is used to girls liking Oikawa more. Heâs the prettier one of the two boys. Oikawa had more muscle, he was taller by two inches. Iwazumi was still lanky, not as charming. It made sense to him a beautiful girl like you would like Oikawa more. Itâs practically fated.Â
But he loved you. He loved you even though he knew that you werenât his and probably never could be. He loved you even though you always kept some kind of distance between the two of you- which he will never understand but will always respect. He loved you when you drew little flowers in your notes during math because you hated math. He loved when you came to volleyball matches and sat front and center of the cheer section, he could always hear your cheering.Â
To Iwazumi, there was no way he could ever love again because you were always going to be the girl he wanted but couldnât have and no one will ever be you.Â
<3 <3 <3
Iwazumi was always at school before Oikawa, but always met Oikawa at his locker to give him notes from science the day before. Oikawa wasnât good at science and always asked Iwazumi for notes, Iwazumi just got proactive.Â
Heâs leaning against Oikawaâs locker when he sees you. To him, youâre radiant, practically glowing. He watches the way your school uniformâs skirt moves in soft, subtle movements as you walk. He notices how you have a little bear keychain on your phone, with your fingers so daintily wrapped around. He notices how your eyelashes are curled up a little.Â
and then it happens.Â
You look at him.Â
Iwazumi can feel his whole body get warmer, his face turning a soft pink. It feels like heâs floating when you look at him. Your lips, the soft and sweet lips he has definitely never thought about kissing, turn up into a soft smile. It feels like time stops moving when he sees you. The rest of the world fades as you look at each other, smiling in really cheesy grins. He falls harder.Â
And then heâs snapped back to reality when you break the gaze, stand on your toes, and turn to whisper something in the ear of the person next to you.Â
Oikawa.Â
Iwazumi could throw up. He let himself pretend he didnât know you were both neighbors for a brief second when he got to hold your eye contact.Â
Oikawa says something with one of his stupid grins, which makes you smile wider than the smile you gave Iwazumi before you left his side to talk to a group of classmates.Â
âDonât go busting a nut over eye contact, Iwa-chanâ Oikawa said in a teasing tone when he got closer.Â
âThatâs gross,â Iwazumi muttered under his breath, heâs never done something so perverted thinking of you- youâre pure, so beautiful, he worships the ground you walk on. Youâre not an object of fantasy. âStop calling me that, weâre grown.âÂ
âWe are not grown, we are 18. Iâll just call you Mr.Iwa-Chan then.â Oikawa says with a content smile, happily taking copies of the science notes from Iwazumiâs hand and opening his locker. âSheâs not scary, you know. Sheâs just shy.âÂ
Iwazumi bites the inside of his cheek to hold back from saying something unjustifiably rude. He doesnât know why Oikawa likes to rub his relationship with her in his face. âI donât like her, stop acting like I do.â
âyouâre a bad liar,â Oikawa says, closing his locker. âSheâs not dating anyone.âÂ
Iwazumi blinks- Oikawa has his normal smug grin on his face, making it hard to tell if heâs serious or playing some sick game with him. But either way, Iwazumi is almost entirely convinced you could never like him. You clearly liked Oikawa.Â
âI donât want to talk about this.â Iwazumi moves his gaze away from Oikawa to look at you in the school courtyard. You so freely talk to classmates, laughing and smiling. You draw people in so naturally, youâre the sun of the school. It makes him disgustingly smitten to see you smile. It also makes him frustrated- you talk to everyone in class but him. He doesnât get it.Â
âwhy not, Iwa? Because I know her, and I know you have more of a shot than you think.âÂ
Iwazumi is more confused than he started this conversation. Which pisses him off. He doesnât want to hear Oikawa out anymore. So he picks up his bag, throws it over his shoulder, and leaves after stealing one more glance at you.Â
Later that day, after daydreaming about you all day in class, Iwazumi was hoping for alone time with his thoughts of you as he contemplated the comment Oikawa made earlier that morning. He was sitting below a tree outside the practice gym, eyes watching the clouds when he was so rudely interrupted by the asshole himself. He was about to open his mouth to say something bitter and sarcastic, but he stopped.
But his face immediately softened when saw you approaching, your cheeks pink and your smile soft- god, youâre like the definition of ethereal to Iwazumi.Â
âY/N-â He said your name soft and gentle, like it was a prayer on his lips, genuinely surprised and thankful you were here. He was going to a shrine after school to thank the gods for blessing him with your presence.Â
âAwe, what about me, your best friend, Iwa-Chan?â Iwazumi was pulled from this softened gaze directed at you to glare at Oikawa.Â
He was about to say something sarcastic and witty, but he watched you sit on the on the soft grass, your own gaze lingering on him long enough it made Iwazumiâs ears turn red.Â
âOikawa-â He said flatly, but not hostile, almost holding his tongue. He didnât want you to find him rude. Or maybe he would be okay with it if it meant you thought about him at all.Â
âY/N-chan and I are sitting with you so you donât look like a total loser out here alone. Not a cool look to sit alone, Iwa.âÂ
âThat doesnât matter to me,â Iwazumi said, almost stammering. His eyes stayed fixed on the subtle swaying of grass, focused on counting every blade because if he didnât he wouldnât be able to keep his eyes off you.Â
âY/N-chan wanted to tell you she liked your essay.âÂ
Iwazumiâs eyes shoot up, immediately finding yours. You looked at him, nodding softly, confirming what Oikawa said. Your eyes linger on his for just a moment before you look away, looking at a small patch of seeding dandelions.Â
âif you blow them and make a wish, itâs good luck.âÂ
The words fell from Iwazumiâs mouth before he could realize what he said. He couldnât help it- You were sitting on your knees, he could smell your sweet shampoo and really notice the way you have long bottom lashes. So close he could almost touch you. His brain turned off and his heart took over.Â
You looked at him with wide eyes and a blush- heâd sell his car, his parentâs house, anything to see you blush like that again. But you quickly looked at Oikawa who gave you an almost pitiful and begging look. It made Iwazumi want to kill him.Â
Oikawa sighs, âWelp, lunch is almost over, Y/N-chan and I are going inside. Have fun being a weirdo outsideâÂ
Iwazumi watches you get up and follow Oikawa inside, the further you get from Iwazumi, the more you relax and come back to life- smiling wider, and talking more. It makes him want to jump the school fence, transfer schools, and never look back.Â
But he doesnât do that. He simply comes to school the next morning- and is quickly given a gross reminder of what day it is when three love letters fall out of his locker. None are from you- theyâre from random underclassmen girls he really couldnât care about. How could he ever look at another girl when he watches you walk through the courtyard? He watches you laugh and smile at peers, making small conversations, politely rejecting boyâs advances.Â
And then it happens. He watches you spot Oikawa, your whole face lights up as you call out for him. Heâs sick to his stomach. He watches you hand him something in a little pink heart-shaped box. He watches Oikawa look at it, sees Oikawa smile, and wrap his arms around your shoulders.Â
You both look so happy that it kills Iwazumi and fills him with a great sense of guilt to be so mad at two people he loves. Heâs not even mad at you, really, heâs mad at himself.
 Oikawa turns towards Iwazumi to walk his way, making short eye contact. But Iwazumi simply turns and walks off, dropping the science notes Oikawa wanted on the floor and heading straight to the gym. Classes be damned.Â
Oikawa finds Iwazumi at lunchtime later. Oikawa seems more pissed than Iwazumi- he has that glare he only gets during particularly difficult matches. Iwazumi is sitting on the floor bouncing a volleyball against the wall- a nervous habit. Oikawa stands there for a moment- that pink heart-shaped box in his hands. Oikawa doesnât immediately say anything, waiting for Iwazumi to look at him but he never does.
âYou skipped class.â
Iwazumi just grunts, uninterested.Â
âYouâre acting like a dick, Iwazumi.âÂ
Iwazumi pauses, the ball falling to the ground rather than back into Iwazumiâs hands.Â
âYou knew I liked her.âÂ
Oikawa sighed, sitting down next to Iwazumi on the floor. âI still know that.âÂ
âFriends donât do what you did.â Iwazumi glared at him, his voice cold.
âAnd what do you think it is I did?â Oikawa asks, picking the ball up from the floor, placing the pink heart box on the ground and tossing it at Iwazumi.Â
Iwazumi blinks, wondering just how far Oikawa plans to take this game, Iwazumi catches the ball, holding it in his hands,âShe confessed this morning. I saw it. You didnât reject her,â he throws the ball back to Oikawa with a decent amount of force. âFriends donât date their friendâs crush.âÂ
Oikawa catches the ball, it makes a loud thump in his hands. âThatâs where youâre wrong. Iâve tried to tell you-âÂ
Iwazumi stands up and balls his fists, âThen why does she talk to the entire class but me? Why wonât she sit next to me? Why canât I get her to smile as wide as she does when she sees you?âÂ
Oikawa shakes his head softly and sits the ball down. He stands up, leaving the pink heart box on the ground at Iwazumiâs feet.Â
âLook in the box,â is all Oikawa can say before he leaves Iwazumi alone in the gym again.Â
The doors to the gym creak before crashing closed, the sound echoing. Iwazumi stares at the box, it has your handwriting. He loves your handwriting- but he stares a little harder. Itâs his name. You wrote his name. If he had any less restraint heâd get it tattoed on his own chest so he could look at it every morning.Â
He picks up the box and opens it- a small note falling out.Â
âIwazumi,
I am so sorry for the way I run from you.Â
Every time you smile at me or try to talk to me I get this really intense feeling in my chest.Â
It feels like my heart is beating so fast that I canât think straight and I panic and run off. You make me so nervous that I canât think straight.Â
I guess what Iâm trying to make clear is I really, really like you.Â
But I want to try and talk to you. I want to know you, Iwazumi.
Iâd like to see you at lunch today if youâd be interested. Iâll be at the tree again.Â
The one you like to have lunch at.Â
-Y/N <3â
Iwazumi feels sick. He had a chance and heâs about to blow it. He practically sprints across the gym and out the back door- there are only a few moments left at lunch and heâs worried you already gave up.Â
He sees you standing there, and itâs like his world stops spinning again. You look absolutely divine- he notices how you fidget with the hem of your skirt when youâre nervous. It makes him smile and his face softens.Â
You look at him, both of your eyes meeting. You stand up straighter, your face getting more pink with blush. He adores that blush. He practically runs over to you, his strides long. Before you can even attempt to find words, his hands are holding your face and heâs pressing a kiss to your lips.Â
He didnât think about it. When he imagined kissing you, specifically your first kiss with him, he imagined it being pefect. He imagines heâd be a gentleman, ask you first. But he didnât think today. He just knew you liked him, and he knew you didnât have words, and honestly neither did he.Â
The kiss is gentle, he holds back every single urge he has to kiss you deeper or move his hands to the back your neck or your waist. He doesnât want to scare you. He wants you to understand how heâs longed for you. How heâs yearned for you. He wants you to feel it in the way he kisses firmly but gently.Â
He pulls back and looks into your eyes- both of your faces red. He watches you try to say something but struggle to find the words.Â
âDonât say anything. Just let me look at you like this.â His voice is a whisper, his lips brushing against yours when he talks.
And so you donât say anything. And he looks at you, he holds your face in his hands, pressing his forehead to yours, and looks at you. He notices that you curl your eyelashes before school. He can smell your strawberry and cream-scented perfume. Your skin is soft, it makes him want to go to the shrine again tonight and pray to thank the gods for giving them the gift that is you.Â
âIwazumi-âÂ
He pulls back a little when he hears your voice soft on your lips. Heâd live life happy to never hear a single thing again if it meant he can always recall the sound of his name coming from you. He nods softly, assuring you heâs listening and you have his full attention, you can take all the time you need. He watches you take a deep breath to reassure yourself.Â
âwalk me home after school today.âÂ
âIâll walk you home every day.â Iwazumi responds quickly, âIâll walk you home every day. Iâll walk you to class. You can study with me whenever you want. Iâll buy you every treat you could want, Iâll take you to dinner whenever you ask. Iâll bend over backward if you ask me to, Y/N. Please, give me a chance. I want to be yours-âÂ
Iwazumi blushes harder when you surprise him by pressing a small kiss to his cheek. He touches the spot gently where you kissed him, looking at you as you smile up at him.Â
Yea, Iwazumi will never love anyone else and itâs your fault. Heâs smitten.Â

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Olâ College Try (18+) Pt. 2
Part 1 HERE
Warnings: smut, strap sucking (slight mention gagging), mention of oral sex (r receiving), strap on sex (r receiving), language
WC: 2.6k
A/N: if you saw this posted before⌠no you didnât 𫣠Iâm reposting it because tumblr didnât want to tag it⌠anyways enjoy
The two of you continued to âpracticeâ, not finding much success in terms of getting you to reach orgasm without the help from Jessieâs fingers or mouth after the fact. You tried using a vibrator, it just got in the way most of the time, frustrating you more when the thrust from Jessieâs hips would bump it from your hand. The two of you had tried using the toy not attached to the harness, Jessieâs hand and arm doing the work, still no luck. Jessieâs persistence never wavered, she offered often to try it and you usually accepted, it was hot watching her fuck you, your body just wasnât on the same page.
âWould you maybe want to try a different position?â Jessie says as she was kneeled between your thighs as you laid back on the bed, the toy resting on your stomach as once again you had been unable to finish with the new toy. The two of you had stuck with missionary for the most part, or some variation of it, thinking it would be the easiest, as it was what most people considered the basic position.
âIâve uh, Iâve read that sometimes the girl, or I guess, you, since weâre both girls, if youâre in control it can feel better.â Jessie looks down toward your stomach where the toy rested, aggressively avoiding eye contact with you.
You feel a smirk grow on your face placing her chin between your thumb and index finger and you pull her face up to see sheâs sporting a blush. âYouâve been doing research?â You genuinely are asking but your tone comes out as if youâre teasing her.
âStop.â She shakes her head away from your grip, shying into her own chest. âItâs not funny.â
âNo, Jessie, I wasnât making fun of you.â She doesnât budge at your words. âBabe, come on, Iâm not making fun of you.â You sit up to pull her into your chest. âIf anything, itâs sort of hot that you bothered researching for me.â
âI just want to make you feel good. Itâs pissing me off that Iâm not good at this!â Perfectionist, that was one way to describe Jessie, thatâs what made her such a good student, itâs also what made her so good on the football pitch, she worked until she could do something right and then worked harder to make it perfect.
âBabe,â you grab her hands holding them in yours. âI love you, and I love that you want me to feel good, but how many times do I have to tell you, you are what makes me feel good, not some silicone tube.â You gesture to her waist. âYou make me feel plenty good without it.â
âWell I want to make you feel good with it too.â Jessie huffs, pulling back from you and sliding off the bed. She undoes the strap with much more grace than the first few times, letting it drop with a thud to the ground. She throws on her shirt before following it with her shorts. âIâm going to make lunch.â She mumbles before walking out of the door, closing it with a little bit of aggression behind her.
Shocked by the way she got up and left, you stare at the closed door for a moment before looking down at your stomach where traces of lube covered your stomach. You roll your eyes, a little annoyed by Jessieâs outburst, frustrated that she up and left you still naked in the bed. Sitting up you slide off the bed and make your way into the bathroom, cleaning yourself up with a washcloth before changing into some comfortable clothing. Jessie turns to look at you as the bedroom door opens and you step out, her expression filled with guilt.
You look at her before diverting your eyes to the floor and making your way to the couch. Itâs not long until you feel familiar arms wrap around your shoulders, Jessie leaning over the back of the couch to hug you from behind.
âIâm sorry. I shouldnât have walked away.â She says before planting a kiss on your cheek. âThat wasnât nice of me to leave you.â
âThank you.â
âI love you.â
âI love you.â You turn to give her a quick peck. âAnd Jess, I wasnât making fun of you, and also I think the new positions thing is a good idea.â You add quickly muttering.
You see her eyes light up slightly before she tries to hide her eagerness. âOkay, next time weâll try it.â
That next time, came the following day. You couldnât lie you had thought about it all night, more than youâd like to admit. The idea of Jessie putting you in different positions, her strong arms moving you around, molding you exactly how she wanted. The first few times the two of you had tried the toy, Jessie had been timid, worried about hurting you more than anything but as you continued to practice, Jessie became more comfortable, the force behind her thrusts growing, the speed increasing. You knew once the two of you started trying new positions sheâd be enamored and likely start to get rougher with you and you couldnât wait.
You wanted it to feel good, but more than that you wanted to make Jessie feel good, you wanted her to feel satisfied with her performance, you wanted to get the cocky little ego she had back. You loved seeing the smirk on her face after sheâd make you fall apart. She still had half a smirk when sheâd get you off with her fingers or mouth after trying with the strap but you could tell it was bothering her.
âGo put it on.â You gently pushed Jessie off of you, her head resting on your thigh. Jessie had insisted on making you cum with her mouth first. She had been sick of leaving you disappointed, despite telling her multiple times you werenât disappointed. She was determined to get you to cum on her strap. Giving her a head start on your pleasure by having you already sensitive after your first orgasm was part of her research. It would maybe make the second one easier.
You watch as she walks over to the bag in the corner of her bedroom, grabbing out the harness and toy. She no longer hid away while putting it on, she knew you liked watching, almost making it into a show for you.
Usually youâd lay down, awaiting her to come over to the bed. This time when she came over you sat up, putting your hands out on her shoulders. âLay down.â She had her ideas about what she wanted to try, but so did you.
âWhat?â
âLay down.â You moved to the side of the bed, leaving Jessie space to lay down. Jessie looks at you for a second, blinking twice before climbing on the bed and laying down. Smiling down at Jessie you swing one thigh over her stomach straddling her waist.
âOh.â You watch as the realization hits Jessie on why you had asked her to lay down. Her hands come to rest on your thighs, giving them an appreciative squeeze.
âYeah baby, new positions and all, right?â You smirk down at her grinding your core down into her stomach slightly, letting your arousal dip onto her skin.
You lean down bringing your lips to Jessieâs, kissing her hard, your hands on her chest squeezing slightly. Her hands begin to run up and down your thighs, trailing around to your ass, giving you a hard squeeze. Her hands begin to aid in the grinding motion you had already started, pulling you and pushing you ever so slightly while rolling her own hips up.
You pull back after a couple minutes, lifting yourself up onto your knees to slide back closer to where the harness sat across Jessieâs hips. You hold the toy flush to Jessieâs stomach before sliding yourself even further back straddling her thighs. You look at her, then down to the toy in front of you, then back up to her before you shift again, moving to sit between her legs.
Leaning over the toy you open your mouth, letting a drop of saliva fall onto the toy. You follow down the drop of spit, bringing your lips to kiss the tip of the toy before looking up at Jessie. Lips parted slightly and eyebrows raised Jessie looked surprised by your actions. âCan I?â You ask, looking down at the toy again.
Nodding wordlessly Jessie gives you permission.
You stick your tongue out, swirling it around the tip of the toy. You watch as Jessieâs eyebrows raise at your actions. The silicone slides easily over your tongue, your lips coming to wrap around the tip. Slowly sinking down you take more of the toy into your mouth, for a moment closing your eyes, only focusing on breathing through your nose.
When you open your eyes and look up to Jessie sheâs got her bottom lip between her teeth. You can practically see the lust and attraction in Jessieâs face, the way sheâs looking down at you, a mix of a smirk and surprise. âThatâs, you look so hot.â she stutters out as her hand comes to the top of your head, not pushing you down but just resting her hand on the back of your head.
You let her revel in the visual that you were providing her for a few more moments, working up and down the toy, coating it in your saliva. Feeling a rush of confidence you try to move your mouth further down, accidentally pushing yourself too far, gagging on the tip of the toy and immediately pulling off coughing slightly.
âAre you okay?â Jessie says, sitting up abruptly, her hand now holding tight into your hair holding you up and away from the strap.
âYeah.â You wipe your chin that had become covered in your own spit. You feel your cheeks start to heat up feeling embarrassed as you look at Jessieâs face that was full of concern. âSorry, I thought maybe youâd like watching.â
âI did, that was very hot.â Jessie says her hands coming to cup your face, she slowly pulls you up from between her legs so your back straddling her waist, she meets you halfway kissing you passionately.
âIâd take it you didnât come across that in your researching?â You tease Jessie when she breaks the kiss.
âShut up.â She playfully rolls her eyes. You give her one more quick kiss before your hand finds the strap between your bodies. You lift yourself up again, moving now so you hover over the tip of the toy. Jessieâs hand comes to grab the base holding it before running the head through your folds a few times. âReady?â She says as she lets the tip rest against your entrance.
âYeah, but I got it, you just lay back.â Your hand meets hers taking the toy from her grip. She lets go, reluctantly, and you slowly sink down. You let out a moan of appreciation at the feeling. It was similar to when Jessie had been on top, but something about this felt more filling. It was more sensitive, still feeling the effects of Jessieâs skillful tongue. You donât immediately start moving, instead leaning down to kiss Jessieâs cheek before moving your mouth to her ear. âJust enjoy the show baby.â
Your hands come to her chest, supporting yourself as you begin to lift up, starting slowly letting yourself get used to the feeling, getting used to the movement. âOh fuck.â You whine at the feeling of fullness as your hips meet Jessieâs again.
âYou look so beautiful baby.â Jessie says, looking up at you, her hands come up, each wrapping around your breast. She has a dumbfounded look on her face as she watches you, part of her gaze made you feel confident, she was looking up in awe at you. The other part of your brain wanted to shy away from the intensity of her eyes. âSo sexy riding me.â She emphasizes her words with a squeeze to each side, her thumbs caressing your nipples letting them harden under her touch.
You shake your head at her action. âNo baby, youâre just enjoying the view.â You say taking her hands off your chest and pinning them on the bed beside her head. You keep your hands on hers, keeping her on the bed with your weight. It takes a few seconds but you quickly become comfortable riding her in this new position. You love watching her as her eyes trail down to your chest, bouncing more with the new leaned over angle.
After just a few thrusts at the new angle you can tell it feels different, it feels better, the way the toy was rubbing inside of you was pleasant. âFuck, this feels good babe.â
âYeah?â You begin to see a small sliver of cockiness showing through as she smiles up at you.
âYeah.â You let out a deep moan after responding. âYour dick feels so good Jess.â Jessie groans at your words. The longer you move up and down, the more comfortable you become, starting to speed up. The sound of your skin slapping together echoing the room, accompanied by whines of pleasure from your own mouth.
That is until you accidentally lift yourself up too far, the head of the toy falling out and flat onto Jessieâs stomach. Not realizing quick enough when you go to lower yourself youâre met with the disappointing feeling of emptiness. You let out a noise of frustration before lifting yourself up again.
âSorry.â You mutter, your hand blindly reaching between your legs for the toy, fumbling around for a moment you feel the slight embarrassment creeping back in from earlier. âThis is harder than it looks.â
âItâs fine baby, here, let me help.â Jessie brings a hand onto your thigh, helping to support some of your weight while her other moves to the toy, teasing you with it before she places the head at your entrance. âThere.â You sink down onto her again, feeling relieved at the sudden full feeling.
You feel her suddenly thrust her hips up slowly, in time with your own movements. âJess.â You say trying to warn her, she was supposed to be watching.
âI want to fuck you, please?â She begs looking up at you with pleading eyes.
You debate making her wait longer, but the wide eyed stare you were receiving always made you weak. You couldnât turn her down especially when all she wanted to do was bring you pleasure. You nod down at her âOkay baby, go ahead.â
Jessie wastes no time thrusting her hips upward, jolting your body and making a surprised scream fall from your lips. She meets each of your bounces with a thrust of her own, giving it more force. She continues thrusting up into you, her speed increasing. âFuck, babe, so good.â
Her hands come around to your back now, wrapping them around you, she pulls you down so your chest is against hers. Youâre now unable to move yourself but Jessie continues to bounce her hips up into you. Digging her feet into the mattress, Jessie angles her hips giving her more leverage to fuck into you. The sound of her thighs slapping your own fills the room.
Thatâs when you start feeling it build. The all too familiar tightness in your core. You tuck your head into Jessieâs shoulder, panting into her ear. âJess, Jess please.â
One of her hands now gripped your ass, moving your hips with her strength to meet her equally powerful thrusts but leaving you completely out of control. âWhat baby?â She says breathlessly into your ear as her other hand comes between your bodies, her finger tips finding your clit.
âDonât stop, Iâm gonna cum.â You bite down on her shoulder as your legs begin to shake and the feeling of pleasure washes over your body. Itâs a different sensation, one that feels deeper, more intense as you feel yourself tighten around the strap.
Jessie keeps thrusting, her grip on you is tight as she helps you through the overwhelming feeling. She praises you, planting hot, open mouthed kisses on your neck. When your whines begin to die down, Jessie slows, giving you a few more long thrusts before just grinding up into you.
âFuck.â You whisper, finally feeling your brain come down from floating in the clouds. Bringing your hands to Jessieâs hips should stall her grinding motion.
âYou alright?â Jessie murmurs into your neck where her head still remains.
âYeah.â You let out a small laugh. âYeah Iâm good, Iâm really good.â Pulling your head out from the crook of her neck you look up to see the cocky smile you had been missing. âWhat?â
âNothing.â Jessie says defensively before biting back her smirk. You bring your head back into her neck. Your lips plant soft kisses along her neck and collarbone, showing her your affection. She traces soft lines along your back with her fingers and the two of you lay for a couple minutes, just the feeling of each other and the sounds of your breathing.
âWell I think your research was right.â You admit when you finally press yourself up, the toy is still deep inside of you.
âYeah I think it was.â Cocky smile still perched on Jessieâs lips and she looks at you.
âYou want to show me what else you learned from your research?â
âIâd love to.â Jessie gives you a kiss on the lips, letting it linger for a moment as she pulls your bottom lip between her teeth, giving it a slight bite before releasing it. Her hands find your hips and give a quick pat. âGet up and get on your hands and knees.â
#jessie fleming#jflem#jessie fleming x reader#jessie fleming imagine#woso x reader#woso imagine#jessie fleming blurb#canwnt x reader#jessie fleming smut
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Clearing the air on the âBychance vs Byler Civil Warâ
Bylers vs Bychancers? More like Bylers & Bychancers vs The Miscommunication Trope ( something like that ).
Why this is what i think is actually going on:Â Â
This is NOT Mileven vs Byler 2.0 at all because bychance has not ONCE been proposed as a replacement for Byler, at least not from myself or @cypherheartnokey which are ( as far as im aware ) the main people theorizing about it right now. I personally donât even see it as a real ship, but thatâs just me.Â
HOW THIS WHOLE THING STARTED ( as far as i know )
So a few days ago, i made this post:
I used the Byler tag and have continued to do so bc skeptic ( and even full on anti-bychance ) Bylers were my intended TARGET AUDIENCE for this. I knew there was a risk I would get some hate for taking it seriously since Bychance was never supposed to be more than just a silly and fun crackship that the fandom made up. (đim not even gonna pretend I don't go into laughing fits over how absolutely bonkers I sound to myself most days. cypherheartnokey and others --you pookies know who you are <3-- who See The Things Im Seeing keep me sane istg my ride or die fr )Â
It was just supposed to be a fun writing exercise to see if my current ideas held up under scrutiny from bylers. To test myself, basically.Â
MY INITIAL ASSUMPTIONÂ
Before I posted, I thought the risk of getting dogpiled on & getting called 'delusional' & whatever else was worth it bc, to my surprise, my earlier Bychance analyses had been well receivedâeven though some of the Bylers engaging with them donât really think Bychance will happen, they still think the theories about it are entertaining and fun to read and offer input on. This has led to some interesting conversations about Mike and Willâs arcs, and itâs been nice through this content drought.Â
However, what i did NOT anticipate was to cause a âship warâ--I really didnât think this would cause harm and that anyone would stoop so low as to send death threats over differing opinions on hypothetical ships that may or may not even happen in the show & even if they do, nothing guarantees theyâll happen in a way weâre perfectly happy with, letâs please be real about our expectations here since we have 0 control over the creative direction the duffers will actually take.Â
All we can hope for is that us Bylers truly are amongst their intended target audience and that the show delivers a satisfying closure. Â
MY INTENTIONS & WHY I WILL CONTINUE TO USE THE BYLER TAG ( with discretion )
Using the Byler tag allows like-minded Bylers to find my theoriesâwithout the tag, it'd be harder for them to find them.Â
However, I WILL be extra thoughtful with my use of the tag going forward, and make sure I'm using it when the conversation centers Byler/Mike/Will and other themes pertaining to Byler.
MY CURRENT STANCE
for anyone receiving death threats or insults on behalf of âbychance shippersâ, you DO NOT deserve that. Please report and block, if possible. these people are saboteurs, and just want to stir drama without caring about the harm they cause to the community. In fact, they probably enjoy it tbh.Â
i do also have to say that i am no authority here and cannot be tone policing other bychancers. i also canât pretend i am entirely neutral in this scenario since from what I've observed, my bychance mutuals and anons are REACTING to hate weâre getting from bylers. And whereas I'm aware that type of hate is only coming from a handful of people in the community, not all of us will be patient and graceful at all times, weâre human after all.
I dont care if a mileven calls me delusional, i laugh. But when bylers i have admired and learned from for years call one of us stupid for thinking/suspecting X theory might be hinted at and getting stomped on for trying to bring the conversation to the table, yeah I can't guarantee that's not gonna trigger a defense mechanism over time.
Do you personally have to like Bychance or agree? Absolutely not, nobody is saying that. And good faith critiques of the theory are always welcomed and I actually encourage it in my space as long as we keep it civil and follow fandom etiquette, since it keeps fandom alive. Â
FINAL THOUGHTSÂ
The very message of the show weâre discussing is to choose love in the face of fear, and to not let it drive our choices and unawarely continue to feed the cycle of abuse and trauma. Let's do our best to not keep repeating, amongst each other, what we have already been subjected to by the most hateful parts of the ST fandom.Â
i'm here to learn and have fun, not to cause wars, discourse or division--bychance as a theory is just the jumpstart and can change over time and maybe even become something else entirely. the goal is just to open the door for those curious enough to investigate, share and discuss any findings. Whether or not you go in, it's up to you. Just don't be mean to the ones that do.
#bychance#byler#mike wheeler#will byers#byler analysis#byler theory#byler evidence#byler is endgame#chancegate#stranger things 5#st5#byler endgame
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I donât know man, I figured I would ask you personally about this because Iâve gotten two asks now that were quite rude about it, saying I shouldnât âcopyâ fics or steal your prompts. But I made a post saying that I had a horrible dark fic idea inspired by your âhole in the earthâ fic. I didnât go into much detail about it in the post but in the tags all I said was that I was thinking about a sort of aftermath situation of it, if John died and the Reader character went insane, trigger warning for child death in the idea I was having. Basically in no way actually copying your fic, just inspired by your work. The lobotomy, if I were to even actually write it, probably wouldnât even be mentioned and more focus on Stockholme syndrome and kidnapping. Sorry this is long but Iâm just kinda annoyed by the anons Iâm getting, does this bother you? Seem too close to your work for comfort? Would you call it âcopyingâ? - @cobwebs-in-autumn
Okay, well I didn't want to make this public, and you blocked me, and I'm tired of people walking all over me when it comes to stealing my work, I'm going to explain the situation here and set boundaries right now. Again. Because I'm so sick and fucking tired of dealing with this.
First off, I would like to say don't harass this person. Don't send anon messages, or hate, or comment on their posts, or anything. I'm only bringing this out because you guys need to learn to respect writers. I've deleted two accounts because of shit like this and I'm NOT letting it get to me a third time.
Anyway, so I get sent this anon message. The fic they're referring to is one that isn't posted on tumblr, but is here on AO3. It's a very dark fic, basically where Price kidnaps a wife, and when she doesn't act the way he wants her to, he has her lobotomized so that she's more "docile." It's a horror fic. This person then decided that they wanted to write a continuation of the fic, therefore stealing my idea without my permission. (no matter how much they want to claim they were only inspired, a continuation without permission is still stealing!!)
Now, many of you had kindly pointed out to this person that the idea was very similar to mine. And they very much admitted in this anon ask that it was an aftermath situation of MY fic. But this seemed to annoy them.
"Iâm just kinda annoyed by the anons Iâm getting"
(you know what else is annoying? people copying or "finishing" your works without permission!!)
So, I then went to this person in dm's to tell them, yeah no, I'm not cool with this at all.
because frankly, why the fuck would i be cool with that lmao. I was pretty short with my messages, but I was being firm. Like I've done this shit before, I'm not doing it again.
They do not respond to the message, and instead, ignore me and reblog their post with this.
Which is fucking amazing actually. So insanely disrespectful that I couldn't help but laugh because how do you see someone saying "Hey, this makes me uncomfortable and you're stealing my idea" and you go and post that? "I feel this is far enough" But you're not going to talk it out to the writer you claim to respect so much?
Anyway so I point this out in the dms because that's just insanely disrespectful.
And I also commented because I was getting anxious that people were going to start pushing them to write the idea that was pretty much mine lmao.
Eventually they responded with this:
Which is also just fucking insane. Basically gaslighting me saying "oh I'll just write something similar but not" (Not to mention the fact their new idea sounds like early's fic anyway lol) But no apology, just fucking clout chasing using my name and idea, for whatever reason. So I sent them a rather rambling response about how that this still isn't okay, I still never received an apology from them, or anything of the like.
And I'm sure you guys saw some of my posts because I was upset. (the misgendering and the incorrectly correcting my name, and saying how i'm not at all okay with people using my works as inspiration). This has happened to me so so so often (and many other writers!) and I'm sick of it. It's annoying. This person has written so many other works and ideas that were their own and that's what I love about fandom- but this? Yeah.
So I waited for a response from them. Clicked on our messages and oh?
Everything's gone. weird. maybe send another message.
oh!
maybe it's tumblr. logged out. logged back in. no history with them in my dm's period. (mind, I can still message everyone else just fine!)
So yeah. This is bullshit, and I'm sick of it. Private conversations do not help. I'm tired of trying to protect people who are wronging me for the sake of their feelings when they so obviously trample and disregard mine. Especially with these answers to your asks here:
This is so frustrating.
Writing continuations of someone's work is never okay. Writing ideas based off of their work without asking them is never okay. And to block me when I point out my discomfort just because you're (assumingely) upset i didn't take your side? And STILL keeping the post up? (at least at the time I'm posting this) Yeah, sorry, I'm tired of letting this shit slide and keeping this quiet. I tried to reach out in DM's to resolve it quietly and that didn't work.
Respect your writers. This is a community. Ask people. If you like my idea so much, then maybe comment or tell me in my asks instead of ripping me off. I'm literally always so happy to talk about my ideas and "what if's" and I'm sure many other writers are too! We literally scream it from the rooftops!
But no, you'd rather steal my shit for clout instead.
again: do not fucking dogpile on this person. just block and move on. unfortunately this isn't their main account, so they're gonna be able to see my shit no matter what I do, but oh well. maybe at least we can all learn that this is not cool at all.
anons are off for now, and any stupid asks will just be blocked/deleted.
#ilium revelation#i feel like people are baiting me into deleting my blog atp lmao#not gonna happen because no offense but no one can write my ideas better than me#pale fucking immitations
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Alright not to like liveblog my breakdown on main but yesterday was a really bad day after a really bad, like, 4 months, and I've hit a bit of a breaking point and one of the only things in my life that can give is running @mdzsartreblogs , @tgcfartreblogs , @svsssartreblogs , @erhaartreblogs , @tykartreblogs , and @cnovelartreblogs , so that is what has to give. It's been a 99-out-of-100 days thankless job. A small number of people do say thank you and yall I appreciate you so much (HUGE shout-out to the artist I met at Flamecon who gifted me a zine when I said I ran these blogs, @bonesblubs you rock) but I have never done an act of fandom labor simultaneously this labor intensive yet this invisible before and, uh. It sucks. I spend an hour or more a day on this every day, if it's under 2k hours since I started the first of these in September 2020 I'd be shocked. And I do it because I love it but doing it means I don't have time or energy to do other things I love. And I really don't want to just quit, but I can't keep this up.
In a last-ditch effort to try not to just give up, I'm making the following changes:
1. Only watching one tag per fandom for the MXTX fandoms. I am going to check *only* #tgcf, #svsss, and #mdzs. Artwork posted to any other tag, I will not see unless a mutual reblogs it.
2. Reduced tagging (even more). I'm only going to tag characters and maybe overarching au type (eg, "modern au," "fantasy au"). I'll no longer tag creatures. I will continue to tag the same common trigger warnings I already tag.
3. If a work's appearance doesn't make it obvious what it is AND the tags aren't clear, I'm not going to reblog. I can't keep spending 5 minutes or more trying to figure out what I'm even looking at, scared that if I guess wrong the artist will get mad at me for mistagging their work. If I do reblog, I'll tag only the artist name and/or whatever else I can identify for sure.
4. I am no longer going to follow #link click. The fandom is just too big. I've started dreading checking it. If I was more into it and less busy I would make another spin off just for it but neither of those is true. (The art is so good, I hate to do this, but. If you love link click, highly recommend the main tag, lots of great stuff there.)
5. I will no longer tag any non-cnovel content in the art/post. Like, if someone draws, idek, Xie Lian and Marinette from Ladybug, I'm not gonna put any tags for Marinette, just for Xie Lian.
6. Basically if I run into something hard to tag or confusing or unclear, my new policy is I'm not gonna fricken bother.
I think those are everything but idefk, I cried for 3 hours last night and got 4 hours of sleep so I'm mostly fueled by exhaustion and desperation right now and my memory is even more fried than usual.
How artists can help. This is obviously all optional. You do you. But since some people might want to know what would make my life easier, I'm sharing. I'm not claiming I feel entitled to dictate how people fandom or anything like that.
1. Put the tags for the character(s) and ship(s) early in the tag list.
2. If you make art for a fandom that isn't one of the big ones (right now the only big danmei fandoms on tumblr as far as I can tell are the MXTX fandoms and maybe 2ha) I am begging you to use my tracked tag #cnovelartreblogs
3. Do mdzs art? Tag #mdzs. Do tgcf art? Tag #tgcf. Do svsss art? Tag #svsss.
4. Not only artists, but everyone, *please* stop tagging fandoms not discussed and/or depicted in your post. It's gotten to be stupid common for people to blanket the danmei fandom tags with posts only about one fandon (like, svsss-only works also being tagged mdzs and tgcf and 2ha for some damn reason). This isn't about just my sideblogs tbh this is just fandom etiquette that seems to have been forgotten or never learned by many. Tagging unrelated fandoms isn't "reach," it's annoying. People go into the #mdzs tag to see mdzs, not whatever not-mdzs stuff people have decided to tag for ~reach~, and seeing the same post in 8 tags, none of which it's related to, is so damn irritating, and makes scrolling the tags looking for content that IS relevant take that much longer. Knock it off.
Okay. I think that's as much as I'm prepared to meltdown where everyone can see. Thanks in advance everyone for your understanding, and apologies to everyone about to see this 8 times as I reblog it to each sideblog.
At least I'm not tagging it to everywhere. đ¤Łđ¤Łđ¤Ł
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uhm... so basically this post was originally an ask but tumblr deleted it...đ ANYWAYS! the original ask was from @soobinsonly1bf and the prompt was one-sided window sex! (thank u em ur my saviourâŚ)
â exposed | sub choi soobin
tags: window sex, public fondling, lingerie, handjob (soob receiving), amab reader (no pronouns, only genitalia), anal sex, perv soob, exhibitionism

âiâll be relying on you! thank you!â the faint voice of your friend blares on the other end before you hang up. an overseas venture of one of your good friends had suddenly left you in charge of their clothing store. it was flattering that they thought you were responsible enough to look after their shop, but it also meant you had to take a few days off your calendar just to monitor the store.
first things first, you should check up on the shop and make sure everythingâs in place, good thing the storeâs closed today, otherwise you might be rushing around already. the clothing store was situated in the middle of a very busy shopping centre, with many bustling shoppers roaming around.
light fixture, check, working ventilation, check, air conditioning, check, needy boyfriend spamming your dms? not check.
you rolled your eyes in amusement as your dms lit up for the fifth time. what a clingy man he was. you text back and you could almost hear his whining from behind the screen.
âwhere are you?â
âmy friends store, rememberâ
âcan i comeâ
the text flashed up in the dim store and you took a second to consider if it was a good idea or not to bring your oversized baby over to the store. actually whatever, bringing your boyfriend over was always a good idea because he was your boyfriend!
âim sharing my locationâ
it doesnt take long until you see the tall figure of your boyfriend peeking out from the locked door, he sticks his face right up to the glass door, his eyes squinting as if trying to see into the dark store. you surprise him by opening the door, causing him to nearly trip forward. thankfully catching himself just before he embarrassed himself not only in front of you but also the other shoppers.
âwhat are you doing? youâre so goofy.â you close and lock the door again when he comes in, he looks around the store, in awe.
âwoah, all the windows are one-sided.â
you shrug, some stores were just like that. you didnât pay it any mind as you continued to do your check-up on the store. soobin did his mini check-up on the store too, which was really just him roaming around and browsing the racks of clothing.
âthey have lingerie.â
his voice rang out from the other side of the store, and at first you just roll your eyes at him. what a pervert, of course the first thing he does is oogle at the storeâs extensive collection of sexy clothing.
âwhat? you wanna try it on?â you just joke without a thought, hands busy setting up a shelf of socks. when there was no reply for a while, you take a concerned glance over his direction, only to see him intensely staring at a white lacy panty. blush on his cheeks.
he didnât even notice you making your way to his direction, until you were right in front of him, he seems to startle back to lifeâ shoving the panty roughly back into the rackâ failing miserably as the clothing misses and falls flat to the floor. he looks guilty and embarrassed, a sheepish smile on his face, eyes wide.
you slowly pick up the item. holding it up and observing it, before your eyes rake up his body and to his eyes.
âput it on.â
his breath hitches at your change of tone, eyes glancing down to the lingerie and then at you. you beckon the item closer until he takes it into his shaky hands, stepping back, towards the changing roomâ
âno, here. put it on here.â
you stop him, finger pointing at where you stood. he nervously shuffles, glancing repeatedly down at the panty and then at you.
âweâre⌠in publicâ he stammers, you turn your head to the large window expanse, just outside was a bustling crowd of shoppers, some taking a look at the closed store. their laughter and chatting muffled.
âitâs one-sided, remember. give them a show.â
you smirk at him, and he gulps down his nervousness. slowly, a tenacious hand comes up and he unbuttons his shirt. his eyes keeps shifting up to your gaze, and then the window as he exposed his chest. then came his pants, when he lowered down to his boxers, you whistled. he was hard, precum wetting the fabric and outlining the clear figure of his cock. he shyly kicks his remaining pants off, it takes a little more mental preparation before he makes progress on his boxers. your eyes eat his body up hungrily, devouring the way his lean body shifted, nervous sweat running down his chest. the way his exposed dick twitched as it hit the cool air. he slips on the lacy panty, precum immediately wetting the fabric.
âiâm done.â he nervously mumbled, feeling more exposed with the panty on. you lick your lips habitually, hands coming up to stroke his sides. you take him by the waist, pressing his back to your chest as you walk him up to the window. he immediately freezes, shoulders bunched as his big eyes glance at the faces of each passerby. two high school girls had walked up and started to check themselves out in the window.
you could feel his fear as you fondle him through the fabric, his body was trembling, hands sweaty and stomach stiff. you lick a strip of his nape up to his ear. âlook soobin, theyâre staring at you.â
a low whimper trembles out from his lips, and his legs nearly give out under him if it werent for you holding him up. you stroke up from his chest down to his stomach and navel, playing with the band of his panty. causing his whole body to shiver.
snap.
he jolts, breath quickening when he realises one of the girls had taken a photo. your hand shoves down into his underwear and grasps his cock, the other hand sliding behind and playing with the rim of his hole, sliding a finger in and you realise he was already loose. he moans out loudly this time, before quickly biting his lips in realisation, they couldnât see, but it didnât mean they couldnât hear.
âdid you already prepare yourself?â
you raise an eyebrow, he nods.
âwhat a slut. did you come here expecting something?â
he nods again, biting down on his lips. you undo your belt, letting your hard cock slap onto his back. he glances behind to look at you with desperate eyes, your hand slips away from his hole, coming up to move his head back to the front, forcing him to look at the innocent faces of the two girls while he commits this sinful act. another moan slips out when you start to languidly stroke his cock, your thumb and index finger kneading at his pink nipple.
another snap.
this time the two girls aimed it lower, as if they were photographing soobinâs exposed cock. his gaze travels down on his body and the view was downright sinful. your long fingers grasped at his cock, playing with his length while the other tweaked at his nipple. you slip your length into his hole, fitting snugly. he jerks, pressing his ass back into your length, desperately rutting against you. he looks down again and eyes the red head of his cock, contrasting with the white panty, while just above it was two innocent friends enjoying their day out, having no idea what devious act was being committed right in front of their eyes. his breath hitches and his stomach clenches.
without warning you start to thrust in and out of him, he moans as his grip on the glass slips, relying on you to keep him upright. you pull him so his back was flush with your chest, before suddenly hoisting his legs and holding him up by his thighs, his knees leaned on the glass, forcing him to spread wide apart, hard cock flopping up and down with the motion. his crotch was right by the camera of their phone, and he shivers at the thought of the capabilities of the apple camera, if just by chance, the phone captures something out of the ordinary behind the glass. would they recognize him? his abdomen tightens.
âcoming! please iâm coming!â he couldnât help the intensity in his breathy voice and you speed up your pace, your fingers digging into his thighs, and for a moment the only thing you could hear in the store was the wet slapping of skin and the breathy cute moans of soobin. âare you going to come in front of everyone soobin?â
he groans lowly, ass squeezing hard on your cock as he comes onto the window. you come soon after, groaning as the warm substance fills his stomach and encases your dick. the two girls giggle to each other, talking about who knows what before they walked away. he gasps out, legs still trembling at his intense orgasm, mind fucked out as you pull out, dragging him away from the window. his tall figure slumped over yours as you situate him onto a chair. you take some nearby tissues, wiping yourself and him to the best of your ability.
âoh my godâŚâ he breathes out after a bit. you help him slip off the item of lingerie, youâll apologise to your friend later⌠for now youâll buy this underwear, he did look awfully pretty in it. you just chuckle at him, a knowing smile.
âgood?â
âamazing.â he looked like he meant it very much.
âgreat, because you better clean that window up.â
he jumps up, taking a cleaning cloth- âwith! your clothes onâ you interrupt him, chuckling at his sheepish smile as he quickly step into his pants and shirt.
âwhat should we do with that panty?â
âwanna put it back on?â
âno!- well, not now!â
âso thatâs a maybe?â
he gives you a sneaky look. such a perverted guy, you thought.
âmaybe.â
#ask â#fic â#soobin hard thoughts#sub soobin#sub!soobin#sub soobin x reader#sub idol#sub! idol#soobin hard hours#soobin x reader#dom reader#dom!reader#dom reader x soobin#sub soobin x dom reader#choi soobin#soobie boobie#soobin smut#txt smut#soobin x male reader#kpop x male reader#kpop x reader#kpop x y/n#kpop x you#soobin x y/n#soobin x you
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