#this is dangerously catered content. for ME. SPECIFICALLY

[alilaro]

not me getting into the Baldurs Gate fandom just so I can romance the silly little vampire twink

[assortedshrift]

Captivated by the twst yandereverse au!!

Help! I’ve been sucked back into yandere twst content, specifically the yandereverse au written by @thatnonameuser. Just checked back into The Red King holds a Bleeding Head after being off tumblr for a while and chapters 9 and 10 totally blindsided me. I very much recommend their series to any yandere enjoyers!!

Some thoughts I had while reading the last two chapters (major spoilers)

ch9

Darling being considered an insult in Heartslabyul is one of those worldbuilding tidbits that I love to see. It makes sense that Heartslabyul, and probably Rose Queendom, would stereotype darlings as disorderly and in need of constant correction. 

Like oh, darlings are just naturally less disciplined than yanderes, so calling a misbehaving yandere ‘darling’ implies they’re no better than the people they are supposed to be managing.

Also imagine being a darling and hearing your friend/SO call another person darling with the same tone of someone saying a slur. Idk why but it's super funny to me.

Also again, from the flashbacks I'm guessing that the King of Hearts probably took advantage of this to some extent and played off any disobedience as being ditzy and unorganized. But not too often though, or the Queen goes from “oh you silly darling” to “this leash is for your own sake”.

(omg coming back to this because just remembered that Crewel is from the Queendom of Roses and mr “whips are great accessories” definitely made a fashion line of darling-safe collars and leashes)

Also Trey was so unsubtle with the desserts. Clover, please, you can't say your pro darlings rights while watching them eat food that you drugged!

Trey’s parents definitely taught him how to mix drugs into baked sweets and he definitely got a lot of practice with his darling brother and sister. I bet that at some point the siblings have/will catch on to the scheme but like, what can you do about it? 

*annoyed sigh* Big bro Trey noticed me stressing out over my entrance exam so I’m probably gonna get the sedative brownies tonight.

And after Riddle’s overblot he might even consider branching out to some of the dorm members once in a while. ADeuce being yandere in this au makes them like 63% more feral and I would definitely be tempted to sedate them once in a while.

Speaking of our besties, I really like how Grim, Ace, and Deuce are being portrayed. Yes they're yanderes in a society that promotes violence for the sake of love. But they're still single braincelled goofs who just want to hang out with you. 

Ch 10

The MOMENT the author mentioned a metallic scent I KNEW that wasn't normal pet food!!! And Grim eating it… oof!! If he wasn't just as enthusiastic about eating everything including literal grass I would be a bit more scared!

Gotta admit I was feeling stressed out when reader shouted at ADeuce. Like, we know that this is a school for magical villainous yanderes, I just knew someone was gonna overhear. In a way it's probably a good thing that we were almost immediately confronted by Cater who kinda owes us after the overblot, that could have gone a lot worse.

Additionally, I like how Cater’s canon aversion to his sisters is incorporated into this verse while also doing a bit of worldbuilding in how a family in a yandere society would act. Honestly I’m a sucker for worldbuilding.

Riddle was sweet here, But this section also caused the greatest dissonance between me and the reader-character. I would absolutely be salty about the fact that Riddle shouted our darling status like that. Dude put us in serious danger and I’d want to hold it over his head. Going forward, every time he tries to lecture us about safety I’d say “Well it would be a lot safer if SOMEONE hadn't announced my status to the whole world,” which is definitely a bad idea that would build up to a yandere-style meltdown later. TLDR reader probably made the right call in how they responded to Riddle asking for forgiveness.

I know that as the audience we have access to knowledge that the reader-character dosent, but I was low-key cringing (in a fun way) during the interaction with Trey. 

“... have you met your darling, Trey?”

“Yes, I think I already have.”

YeS, i ThInK i AlReAdY hAvE. Trey you mischievous rat (affectionate).

Oh hey, its Che'nya!

Dang, your really gonna narc on Trey like that huh?

The execution was a harsh reminder that we can't treat our friends here like we would in the normal world. A straightforward bitch-fest resulting in a couple of body bags is horrifying, but Chenya did us a solid, even if his reason was almost as horrifying as the murders. 

But now that I know he's stalking us I can imagine the reader (if she becomes desensitized) could get used to an invisible companion she can (sort-of) let her guard down around and complain to him about the NRA boy’s ghoulish acts. 

Speaking of, I wonder if the original Cheshire Cat intended for a scenario like that with Winston, but was thwarted when their snooping was discovered and the Queen decided to go full mask off.

[thedoubteriswise]

I keep seeing complaints that people responding against anti-voting propaganda content are being "condescending" and "patronizing" and therefore are hurting their own cause. to a certain extent, I understand the point being made; it's true that people don't respond well to being insulted or feeling like they're being insulted. I've made this point many times before myself. but some of the takes I'm seeing have me at the end of my fucking rope, so I'm just going to reiterate three points that are less about this specific conversation and more about political debates in general:

refusing to consider the meat of someone's valid argument purely because you don't like the tone they're taking while making it is shitty behavior, and it's a great way to end up with factually wrong opinions. we've had a whole conversation about this in recent years; it was pretty hard to miss.

saying or implying that someone is a bad person (or annoying, or cringey, or whatever) instead of addressing the meat of their argument is an ad hominem attack. it's a logical fallacy. there are plenty of times where it doesn't matter and it's not that deep, we can make jokes, fine. but when forming your actual real opinions, it's critical that you agree or disagree with an idea, not with the people who are having it.

I've seen plenty of posts that took a hostile tone. I've also seen plenty that didn't, yet were still described as being patronizing. at this point, I'm not sure how people can phrase their arguments without being accused of condescension, because part of the problem with this topic (and many others, to be fair) is that people who need to hear corrections to their own thinking have gotten extremely attached to a specific way of conceptualizing how american politics work that isn't reflective of reality, or have linked their identity to engaging with politics in a specific way that has been sold to them as "radical." we've got a lot of people more interested in maintaining a sense of identity or catering to their own moral scrupulosity than in getting real world results that would actually line up with their stated values.

I do think that some people's frustration in combating this comes out at condescension. that's unfortunate, and I agree that it can be counterproductive. but I think there is also a strong element of people hearing that their political strategy is ineffective, dangerous, and poorly considered, and experiencing that as an attack to their identity, moral beliefs, or in-group. this is an extremely common phenomenon; a great recent example of it is conservatives who resisted mask and vaccine requirements - the things they were saying and doing were materially harmful to themselves and others, but telling them that was attacking something they had folded into their identity, so they pushed back even as they personally suffered the consequences of that decision.

my point is, if you have a negative response to hearing that your choice not to vote and to keep publicly discouraging voting is irresponsible and going to have undesirable results, it might be because the person saying so is being a dick about it, or that they generally suck as a person. I truly can't dispute this, the world is full of assholes. But a) does that make their argument factually wrong? what evidence do you have of this? does it hold up against the point they're making? And b) are they really being a dick, or are they simply challenging something that feels personal to you?

[sweet-honey-fruit]

Trigger warning for mentions of underaged reader, incest, sa, and grooming. Nothing explicit, it’s just a conversation being discussed.

My thoughts might be chaotic. Disclaimer, I’m a firm believer that censorship in media is a bad thing. It can feed into the decline of media literacy, as well as block proper representation/awareness of situations.

With that being said, there are just some downright disgusting things that should not be touched on in a specific manner and it’s becoming a problem on Tumblr, specifically the Hoyoverse side of things.

There should be NO REASON as to why my tag searches/feed are covered with “underaged reader gets sa’ed and groomed by their uncle/brother.” No reason at all. Thats gross. Thats disgusting. Especially when there are other canon minor characters involved.

“If you dont like it, dont read/block.” And I do. But there's more to this issue than what can simply be ignored.

When it comes to writing dark topics, it’s more to bring awareness and evoke a negative emotion from its audience to get them to go against the topic that is written. THAT is not the goal with these fanfics. It’s obvious fetish content, and all it is doing is normalizing and creating a polluted pool of freaks within its community. It’s not warning anyone of anything, its goal is to not stir up attention for a topic. Its pure purpose is to turn on and cater to those who fantasize about that stuff daily. It’s obvious in the way it’s written.

I also dont understand how that shit is pushed SO HEAVILY on Tumblr’s algorithm. No amount of filtered tags or blocks can get rid of these vile fanfics being put onto my dash. So many of them aren't properly warned, and are using everday tags.

There are sick people who are reading these fics that want to do what is written. And that's dangerous. I've seen comments that say “This is so good! I wish my brother would do this to me.” WHY ARE WE CATERING TO THESE PEOPLE?? Why are we fueling this disgusting taboo? Writing about these topics in this way does nothing but stir up fantasies that should not be encouraged.

If you write fanfics like these to get people going, seek therapy. If you also write these fics and publically post them to “cope”, also seek therapy because that is not healthy.

If you write or support these creators, please block/unfollow me. I do not want this kind of people within my community.

[jungkoode]

personally i think if you have to explain your work to your readers through author notes you're a bad writer, but that’s just me

And to be honest, that’s a totally valid approach. I really think it is. Because at the end of the day, what constitutes “good writing” for you might be entirely different from what I personally consider good writing—and that’s okay. That diversity of perspective is what makes literature and art so dynamic.

In my case, good writing is about meeting the criteria that I hold for myself. It’s entirely personal, and I don’t expect everyone to agree with it. I also don’t try to cater to everyone’s tastes—because that would be an impossible feat. I write for a specific type of reader, the one who resonates with emotional complexity, introspection, and psychological depth, and who appreciates being gently guided through that space.

For some readers, good writing means not having to process the trauma of every character on the page. And that’s completely fair. It’s not a failure of critical thinking or emotional intelligence—it’s just that a lot of people are already carrying so much. Reading, for many, is about regulation. Escapism. Comfort. Or just… a break. And when a story requires emotional labor on top of an already difficult day or life experience, that can be overwhelming. I don’t think that makes anyone shallow or reductive. I think it makes them human.

But the type of stories I’m drawn to, and the ones I write, are rarely easy. I write stories that are deliberately hard, often messy, often layered with things that require time to unpack.

So when I include author notes, it’s not because I think my readers are incapable of getting it on their own. It’s because I know what kind of emotional terrain I’m asking them to walk through, and I want to be there with them while they do it. I want to explain—not everything, and not to spoil—but enough to ease the weight a bit. Enough to say, “this is what I was thinking when I wrote this scene,” or “here’s the emotional thread you might want to pay attention to.”

Because frustration—narrative frustration—is a powerful literary tool. But it’s also a dangerous one. And if it’s not handled with care, it can turn condescending. It can turn into antagonism.

I never want that. I never want my readers to feel like I’m being intentionally obtuse, or that I’m keeping meaning from them just to prove a point. I want them to know I trust them—but I also want to be kind. My author notes are a way of doing that. They let me say, “I see how hard this chapter is going to hit. Here’s a little context so you don’t feel lost.”

I think that’s emotionally responsible, especially when dealing with content that’s this heavy.

So yes—does it limit interpretative freedom? In some ways, absolutely. But it also invites the reader to interpret from a place of clarity, not confusion. It gives them the option to walk alongside me rather than scramble behind. And I think people feel a connection. Not because they agree with every choice I make, but because they can feel the intent behind it. They can feel that I’m writing from truth. My truth.

At the end of the day, I’m just writing what I would want to read. And I’m incredibly picky. I write in a way that would make me give a story five stars. That’s the only metric I trust.

So if someone doesn’t like my method, that’s completely okay. I’m not here to change anyone’s mind. I’m just doing what feels true to me—as a writer, as a person, and as someone who cares deeply about the emotional experience of the stories I put into the world.

When it comes to the way I use author notes—placing them before the chapter, gently guiding interpretation—I’ll admit it’s not something I see often. But the response to it has been overwhelmingly positive, and it’s made me wonder: maybe the traditional model, where stories are expected to stand entirely on their own and authorial intent is left unspoken, isn’t always the best fit. Maybe there’s space for a different kind of reading experience. One where a reader feels more immersed, more connected, even more emotionally available to the narrative, simply because they were given a glimpse into the writer’s thoughts before stepping in. Maybe weaving intention into the threshold of a chapter isn’t a crutch—but a bridge.

I don’t claim to have the answer. But I believe it’s a question worth asking.

And if the continued engagement with my work is any indication, there are many readers who resonate with that approach—who welcome the clarity, the connection, and the care it’s built upon.

[butmakeitgayblog]

Just to throw in a couple points real quick (because I can never keep an opinion to myself 😔 sorry), I personally kind of dislike the idea of a male and female gaze — not because I disagree with the concept of fetishism and objectification existing, they ABSOLUTELY do, but because of what people, particularly online, have come to accept they mean.

There has recently been discourse surrounding Love Lies Bleeding, a film created almost solely by queer women, “catering to the male gaze” which… I’m sure I don’t need to explain how silly that is lmao. I think this new wave of leftists clutching their pearls over literally any sign of sexual attraction and considering it to be synonymous with objectification has distorted people’s views of what these terms actually mean and have resulted in their gross misuse. Not to make this about me 💅🏻 but I see a lot of this similar discourse about trans people BY CIS PEOPLE whom are trying to be good allies by basically claiming that any sign of sexual attraction towards a trans person’s body is inherently fetishistic which I can’t lie… I kind of consider to be transphobic itself lol? You’re allowed to be sexually attracted to trans people and express that, no matter how their bodies look! The point at which it becomes fetishistic relies primarily on the WAY you express that and the language used — and I think that can apply to queer people in general too. I personally (and others may feel differently!) have zero issue with cis people enjoying trans NSFW content, and I also have no problem with straight women enjoying MLM content; because most of the time, I can tell from the LANGUAGE they use whether or not they are fetishising.

Point being, fetishism and objectification can go ALL ways and I don’t think people need to give excuses as to why they enjoy a certain type of content as long as it isn’t actively harming anyone. But I obviously can’t speak for everyone (especially queer women, I only identified as one for a year or two when I was a preteen lol) and people’s experiences tend to shape their opinions on these things 😅

Right and that's why I firmly stand behind my initial post about how it's no one's job to police people for what kind of content they consume! Because we don't know their motivations for how ot why they personally are interacting/consuming the work. It's incredibly easy to write off all enjoyment of a specific brand of content as fetishizing or sexualization when in reality, for the consumer it isn't that at all. My only point on the last ask was that sometimes, sometimes, it's easy to actually be doing exactly that (fetishizing etc) and not realizing it.

Intentions matter absolutely, but they're not the be-all-end-all of reality. It's like if I as a white person were to say something racist without realizing it was racist. That doesn't negate the racism, and it doesn't absolve me of my culpability, because my ignorance to my actions doesn't supercede my impact. You can be guilty of something without knowing that you are, and that's something you as person have to evaluate and confront on a personal basis. That was my only point in relation to what that anon said.

Again to reiterate, that is NOT saying that everyone who prefers queer work to straight work is guilty of that, because they're not. Full stop. And that alone is why I don't think anyone has or should have the authority to pass judgment on who can and can't consume certain kinds of media. Because, like you said, then you start wading into the murky waters of painting everyone with a broad brush, throwing accusations around that are universally damning despite not actually being universally true. And considering we're living in a period where puritan anti-sex brainrot is on the rise (alongside a deeply unsettling culture of condemnation over every little thing), opening that door can become very dangerous very fast. We're seeing it already.

I will tack on just as a thought regarding the trans character issue, I think that's kind of a perfect example of all these ideas aligning. Just in the most bare bones way of putting it: there is nothing inherently fetishizing about a cis person enjoying work including trans characters. There's nothing inherently fetishizing about a cis person enjoying, specifically, smut involving trans characters. There is nothing inherently fetishizing about a cis person preferring trans character stories over other kinds of media. However, if all they as a cis person consume is extremely sexualized renditions of trans characters, if their only interest in trans characters is porn - generally mostly devoid of complex storylines that create a fully rounded character -, then yeah I do think that's something they on an individual basis need to evaluate about themselves, because it's the difference between having a sexual attraction to a subsection of people versus seeing those same people as purely sexual objects. Does that make sense?

Same can be true for any other queer content being consumed by people that aren't historically the target audience.

But again, it's not really anyone else's place to make that call for anyone else.

[sinistarz]

I am so sorry you are dealing with a weirdo. Please know what you meant was obvious.

Its no big deal but thanks mate. I just remembered the block button exists and I should go back to using it liberally LMAO

Its not that I don't think kids should have internet access. I just think the abundance of so many websites having such a young age limit is a horribly harmful thing. Think about it. Tumblr. Twitter. Youtube. Tiktok. Etcetera. Because of such a young userbase you have kids oversharing incredibly personal information. Interacting with spaces that do not cater to them whatsoever and becoming manipulated into harmful mindsets about crap that doesn't matter in the long run. Adult content creators have nowhere to fucking go anymore dude. Like I know I laugh and poke fun at the horny crowd but truth be told, it sucks. Nobody has a platform anymore. Its getting harder for adults to assure minors don't interact with them. Its getting harder for mature content creators to even have a platform because websites like the one I listed will ban so much as mentions of words like sex and kill and death and gay and queer and etc. And have content that nulls their mind like those videos with a billion things going on and some nonsense being talked about in the foreground. And then kids on these damn websites grow up thinking those are bad words or gay is a slur and get manipulated into thinking talking about their name and age and where they live on the public internet is a completely okay thing that will have no repercussions at all. Do they not teach online safety in school anymore or something. And because these fucking websites now rely on the engagement of children, they've shaped and catered themselves to the younger audience specifically and now labeled almost everything as a violation of timmy the toddlers privacy because it shows a nipple or a skirt that shows too much knee or a mention of sex and violence and I'm fucking tired. Everybody preaches on and on that "limiting children from posting on social media" is harmful to them but its literally the fucking opposite. Its the fucking opposite. In becoming more "child friendly" these websites have literally become more harmful and dangerous to children AND adults and its impossible for me to point this out without people claiming I'm preaching censorship. I am literally preaching the fucking opposite for the love of God

[envihellbender]

Sherlock and Moriarty should rub their bellies together

Rating: Explicit

Fandom: Sherlock Holmes ACD

Characters: Jim Moriarty, Sebastian Moran, Sherlock Holmes, John Watson

Content: feedee/feeder relationships, weight gain competition, extreme gaining, immobility, johnlock ACD, mormor ACD

Summary: Moriarty invites Sherlock to dinner in order to regale him with an extremely tempting offer.

—

“Are you sure this is a good idea, love?” John said discreetly as he walked into the Glass Gate beside Sherlock who leaned on his modified, reinforced walker that was fitted with a platform for his gut. It was an exclusive ‘All You Can Eat’ buffet that catered to a very specific market. It became immediately obvious to John what that clientele was when they entered - it seemed many of the customers were at varying stages of obesity, particularly immobile obesity. Apart from the wait staff and the carers, Sherlock may have been one of the smaller attendees. John could see the frown on Sherlock’s plump lips, he clearly did not approve of that. John stroked Sherlock’s black curls causing them to turn into a small smile and focus on the matter at hand.

“Probably not, but I believe we won’t be in any danger. I think most likely scenario is we will leave annoyed- ah, yes,” Sherlock said to a waitress who approached them both. “The other members of our party have already arrived it-”

“Right this way, it’s Mister Moran’s usual table, Sir,” the woman interrupted with a thick East London accent. Sherlock cast a look to John, he expected this introduction. It was immediately obvious the woman knew Sebastian intimately. They followed her to a side room that had a more intimate and hedonistic feel to it. As soon as they entered there was a loud noise like meat slapping against slabs of meat and a familiar high pitched giggle. Sure enough, their the bloated hog of crime was.

“Locket! You actually showed,” Jim Moriarty laughed spraying food over his chest and hitting Sherlock’s front as he spoke. Sebastian Moran sat next to Moriarty, despite his muscular frame and height he seemed almost small next to the enormous pile of adipose next to him, very unsatisfied by the meeting. He had a scowl on his soft lips and his bright green eyes were narrowed. When he looked at Sherlock’s walker however he gave a small smirk, Moriarty was sat in his specially made wheelchair showing he was far heavier.

“Yes, well, you gave me little choice,” Sherlock wheezed dismissively. John stood next to him, he leant on his walking stick but didn’t wish to sit in case he was needed. He rested one hand on Sherlock’s shoulder protectively, Moriarty didn’t even glance towards John but Moran stared intently and suspiciously.

“Oh, yeah. The little threat we made to your doctor,” Moriarty giggled. “Anyway, what’s the craic, eh?” He asked, eating another from his large pile of cheeseburgers and shoving it into his mouth. Moran barked at a waiter to bring more, John politely asked for a menu, causing Moran to roll his eyes.

“I am fine thank you, why am I here?” Sherlock pushed. When the waiter came back he turned to him. “I’d like an extra large portion of everything, please,” he added cordially. Moran snorted and folded his arms as he slouched in his chair.

“I thought you might be interested in a little competition,” Moriarty hummed, one of his hands began shaking his gut. Sherlock’s cheeks turned pink as he felt Moriarty’s stomach rubbing against his, the soft adipose pushing against Sherlock’s girth. He let out a small gasp causing a state from John and Moran, John frowned at Moriarty in disapproval and Moran nearly hissed possessively in disgust. Sherlock wanted to kick Moriarty away, but against his better judgement he began rubbing his stomach against Moriarty’s. Both of them rubbing their soft bellies together was oddly intimate and hidden, not that they would ever admit it.

“A contest. Curious. What kind?” Sherlock asked tilting his head into his fat neck.

“Who can become the fattest.” Moriarty continued stuffing his face, not bothering to stop to speak and thus making a mess over his newly tailored bespoke shirt.

“Hm. That is … Not uninteresting.” Sherlock sighed and rubbed his gut as his food was placed in front of him as he sat comfortably in his gigantic reinforced chair. “And how would a winner be chosen?”

“I was thinking we have monthly check-ins where we’re both weighed and the amount we’ve gained is compared.” Moriarty said calmly, as if he hadn’t pushed his gut into Sherlock’s, almost causing him to let out a small moan.

“You are currently heavier I believe, that would be an unfair starting point.” Sherlock grew flustered but his it well, he had one hand gripping his top roll and another beginning to make a start on his food with as much dignity as he could muster.

“Fine, fine. If you’re gonna be a baby, based on how much we’ve gained.”

“Hm. Why? What do you gai-” Sherlock scowled as he saw Moriarty grin from the almost uttered accidental pun. “How does me getting larger benefit you?”

“I gain loads and seeing a pretty boy getting fatter, duh,” Moriarty snorted. “What a stupid question.”

“That can’t be all it is.” Sherlock was incredulous but he actually believed him, it was frustrating. He couldn’t see anything else this meeting could be about.

“Well, since I’m going to keep getting fatter for as long as feels good … You don’t have to decide now. But the longer you take the bigger I get and the more of a challenge it’s gonna be for you, little Locket.” Moriarty shrugged, smirking as Moran gave a small irritated huff. He began shaking his belly, causing Sherlock’s cheeks to grow pink as he felt their fat rippling together. “Seb, try some of the chicken wings, they’re delicious.”

“I- I will consider it,” Sherlock conceded, trying to ignore the growing wetness in his cunt. He had to admit, becoming fatter than Moriarty was a rather exciting prospect.

[an-aura-about-you]

I Was a Queer Salvation Army Bell Ringer

Part 5: The Ethical Toll

Content Warning: This one touches on morality, Christianity, briefly but not graphically on Palestine, and transphobia. Also it's another super long one.

So this is gonna be the last part of this series, and that was how it was planned from the beginning. In this segment, I'm going to briefly touch on the moral problems that came up during my time working as a bell ringer.

Right off the bat, I thought this wouldn't bother me so much. Yes, the Salvation Army isn't a good organization, but bad money spends just as well as good money. From the outset, I would make jokes about being an evil backstabbing minion, how I was going to work a shift at the evil job.

(Which, if we really stop and think about my morality, all jobs are evil, but that's a whole big discussion that really merits a post separate from this one.)

But all it took was one shift for me to start seeing some conflicts with my own morality.

First there's touching on some stuff that I brought up about my boss. Going into a show that had an entry fee without paying using the name of the Salvation Army was indeed her idea, but I still did it. This isn't the first time I've done something like this, but the last time I did I was employed directly by the show. Specifically, I was part of the staff catering the show, so I already had access to the show that way. The best argument I can provide on the other side is that establishments that have Salvation Army bell ringers in front of them are ones that choose to partner with the Salvation Army. Also I want to clarify that this is not a performance show but an expo where merchants have set up to sell, and I got in without paying the $5 entry fee. But when I say that, is this just me rationalizing the bad thing I did? No matter what, I did what I did, and I can't take it back now.

After that, my boss brought me back to the office and gave me a bag of plums and apples. I already felt a little guilty taking food from her, though this also got into a weird spot because it sounded very much like no one else wanted to take them. The fact that they were Red Delicious apples made it easy to see why, but I had already accepted it before I realized I wasn't going to eat those apples, either. I did eat one of the plums and gave the rest of the plums to my sibling, but the apples got cut and dried for potpourri. Apples that theoretically could have gone to someone hungry. But they didn't because, based on the limited context I was given, the hungry also didn't want the apples. If you've followed me for any significant amount of time, you know I love food and feel very strongly about food. I think that people should not only have food to not be hungry, they should have food that tastes good to them. I did try to eat one of the Red Delicious apples, and it was one of the worst food experiences I've had recently. Like I can think of a number of things that would be actively dangerous for me to eat that are more appealing than another bite of one of those Red Delicious apples. And while I know they could stave off hunger, for fuck's sake I would rather buy a hungry person a bag of Granny Smith apples just so they don't have to suffer the Red Delicious apples. (Now's a great time to remind you it's never a bad idea to make a cash donation to your local food bank.)

One moment that nearly broke me was a young person putting a couple of coins into the kettle only for the person with them, presumably a guardian, telling me their ward is on SSI and learning how to give. I'm surprised I didn't quit then and there. I wanted to take the person by their shoulders and tell them, "Don't! Don't give me your money! It's not worth your limited income to give it to the Salvation Army! It's early enough in the day that it won't even go to them but it'll go to me! I do not want your money!" And this is either more rationalization or a worthwhile talking point, I'm not sure, but there is still the matter of choice and the dignity of choice. If this person genuinely wants to put their money in the Salvation Army kettle, then it doesn't particularly matter where the money comes from or how much of a percent of their income it is. Because the people who want to give will give whether I'm standing there or not, which I've seen on my breaks as the kettle is attached to the stand by padlock and stays out there even if I walk away from it. Still, it felt very much like the Biblical story of the Widow's Mite. And I guess this means I'm gonna segue into that for a bit.

The Widow's Mite is a story in the Gospels of the Christian Bible. The Gospels recount the life and teachings of the Christ. Since I was raised Catholic, it's a story I'm very familiar with, but I didn't have any particular recollection of anyone giving me the full context of the story until recently. It wasn't until a youtuber I enjoy, Laura Crone, talked about her own faith and this story in particular. (Relevant timestamp link to the video where this happens here. Hope you're ready for a ride because this happens in the middle of a Swan Princess movie marathon.) Rather than provide the part of the Bible that is considered the story of the Widow's Mite, I am going to give you that and the story right before it so it is in its proper context. Also, Laura goes through the whole story in her video and it's well worth a watch, particularly if you are like me and left Christianity out of an initial realization that you no longer believe what they teach that has evolved into disgust at what the Church does in the name of what is supposed to be holy. But for completeness, here it is:

Then, within the hearing of all the people, [Jesus] said to [his] disciples, "Be on guard against the scribes, who like to go around in long robes and love greetings in marketplaces, seats of honor in synagogues, and places of honor at banquets. They devour the houses of widows and, as a pretext, recite lengthy prayers. They will receive a very severe condemnation." When he looked up he saw some wealthy people putting their offerings into the treasury and he noticed a poor widow putting in two small coins. He said, "I tell you truly, this poor widow put in more than all the rest; for those others have all made offerings from their surplus wealth, but she, from her poverty, has offered her whole livelihood." -Luke Chapter 20, verses 45-47 and Chapter 21, verses 1-4

Now. There's more context, of course there is, a lot of it historical with a lot of baggage to unpack. But right now, I am looking as simply as I can at the narrative that Christianity presents to me. And even without the same background, hopefully this is enough for someone reading this to understand why in that moment I felt like a devourer of widows' houses.

And the wild thing about this is people thanked me to my face about it, many if not all of them thinking I was a volunteer. I brought up to a coworker at my regular job that I got this job as a bell ringer and I had done it before as a paid position, and they were surprised by this and felt it was inherently dishonest. And looking back, yeah, it kinda is in a lying by omission sort of way. I didn't correct people who made the assumption I was volunteering nor did I tell them the way to differentiate a volunteer from a paid employee. (Which isn't all that meaningful anyway. The difference is volunteers get cheap plastic aprons and paid employees get cloth ones, but if there aren't enough cloth aprons to go around a paid employee might wear a plastic apron.) I even said, "Thank you for your service," to a firefighter and without missing a beat he said, "Thank you for yours." It is easily the most I've ever been regularly thanked while on the job. More than in 10 years of food service, 2 years in child care, and 2 years of customer service. It felt very weird because the Salvation Army hiring bell ringers is no secret to anyone who was looking for a seasonal job at the time. It wasn't hidden away but an easy to find result on my job finding app.

The same day I received the donation from the person on SSI, a young child also gave me a Starbucks giftcard on behalf of their family. It's clear what this is saying: thank you for what you're doing. I told the child that I didn't think I could accept this, and that's probably true regardless of whether I was a volunteer or a paid employee. The child just insisted that his family had tons of them. So there I was conveniently handed a multilayered ethics problem, and I basically chose the wrong choice on each step. First I pocketed the card because the rules I was given didn't actually specify anything about giftcards. I didn't want to get into that with the driver checking my kettle and didn't even know if the Salvation Army accepted giftcards from businesses like that. But then came the matter of what to do with it. Since I've worked in giftcards before, I knew this is what's called a closed giftcard, meaning it could only be spent at Starbucks. The reason why this is is because Starbucks already has the money, in this case $5. They would have that money whether I used the card or not, and in fact would profit from me not using the card since it means there's no loss of product. By this point, I had heard of their reaction to their employees standing up for Palestine, though the version I heard was less charitable than that. In any case, I certainly didn't agree with the official stance Starbucks had then or has now. But dammit, they already had the $5. I decided to get a hot chocolate from there that very night and rid myself of the card, telling myself it would be the last time I ever go to Starbucks. And so far that's been the case. (Now's a great time to give to a charity helping the Palestinian people. I like Doctors Without Borders myself and have given to them in the past.)

All in all, I'm not happy with myself and things I allowed myself to do while working for the Salvation Army. I'm not particularly worried about admitting what I did because $10.50 of questionable moral acts is ultimately a drop in the bucket, one I can outweigh monetarily by giving to the places I suggested above and vow not to repeat in the future. And I think the best place to start is not working for the Salvation Army anymore.

There are two more interactions I want to share, one that was rather uncomfortable and one that was the best interaction I had in this entire experience. I'll do them in that order so I can end this on a happier note.

First, while I didn't officially encounter any transphobia on the job, I did encounter some from a coworker I spoke with off the clock. I had offered to give her and her daughter a ride home after our shift, because I had nothing better to do and the means to help, so why not? As we made our way there, I made polite conversation with them both, and that spurred my coworker to talk about "boys using the girls' bathrooms," and her apparent conviction that schools here were teaching these things as being all right to the kids. Which, this is Arkansas. Not to dox myself, but it doesn't take very much to find a person here who says queer people deserve to die. 90% of the voting population voted for Trump in the last presidential election. I highly fucking doubt that the schools here are teaching this as any official curriculum. So I thought fuck it, I'm technically the person in power here and outed myself as nonbinary. This ultimately did little, but I will say at least she didn't spew any vitriol about me specifically to my face. And I engaged with my own thoughts as calmly as one can, in particular the helpful idea my dad has about the whole bathroom matter. (There really should just be two bathrooms regardless of gender: one that is all stalls for people who need the stall and one that is all urinals for people who can use the urinals. It's one of the best things Dad's said about all this.) This did seem to help the matter, especially when I expressed my own thought that I don't care about anyone's genitals in the bathroom because I'm just there to pee. Nothing was resolved, but I knew nothing would be, and my coworker even agreed with the thought that a stalls-only bathroom would not be a bad idea. In spite of this, when the two found they were locked out of their home, I offered to stay in case they needed any further assistance. They told me no, and my coworker even gave me a hug. Overall, it was very confusing.

It was sometime after that interaction that I decided the physical toll and moral dilemmas simply weren't worth what money I would make from doing that anymore, so I texted my boss to tell her I would not be available for the last two days I would have been scheduled. And that was it.

Now for the best interaction I ever had on the job, short and sweet and regretful in that I couldn't express my true thoughts. While doing my usual greetings and well-wishes to passersby, a gentleman stopped in front of my kettle. He didn't give anything but instead said, "Hail Satan!" stuck out his tongue, and threw up the horns. Thank goodness I was wearing a facemask otherwise he would have seen my huge smile. I was so tempted to do the same in return and held back by some miracle of professional decorum. But if that gent is reading this now, know that you said that to a pantheist witch who was absolutely gleeful about it.

[themaladaptivewriter12]

Asks and Requests

Asks

My asks will mostly be an “ask me anything” type ask box. Ask me or my Twst OC about anything, how we are doing, thoughts about the game, Twisted Wonderland if anyone needs specifics, stuff like that. 

And if you have something that could be a “request,” but just want a short answer, feel free to drop it as an ask!

Requests

Overview

For starters, this blog does have some NSFW content, so I'd like anyone who is under the age of 18 to please not participate in anything NSFW, asks, requests etc. As for now, I will only write my Twst OC x canon characters, or canon characters x canon characters, platonic and or romantic.

The characters that I will ship Mirai with are: Cater, Ace, Leona, Jack, Azul, Jade, Kalim, Epel, Idia, and Sebek.

I can and or will write canon x canon i.e. Ace x Deuce and or Cater x Trey.

I will write Crewel, but he will be strictly platonic.

And if that goes to plan, and depending how confident I am with my writing, then and only then will I open up requests outside of my OC. (With rules, of course!)

Formatting

Be specific and follow the rules. For example, don't just write, "I want a fluff fic with Leona." That's too vague.

Instead, write, "Can I get a fluff fic between Leona and Mirai", or "Can I get a hurt/comfort fic between Leona and Ruggie after Leona's Overblot."

Make sure it's thorough and easy to understand. Nothing too overly complicated, but simple. I don't mind a bit of research, but if it isn't something easy to find, it's a no.

If it gets too specific, where there is no freedom for me to write, it's a no.

What I will write:

Fluff

Hurt/Comfort

Hurt/no comfort

Some NSFW/Smut. Keep it clean. (See below for detail)

Violence (See below for detail)

Mental illness (see below for detail)

Poetry (please ask, I love poetry)

AUs (but this depends on the AU)

Incorrect quotes, imagines, headcannons

I don't mind polyamorous relationships, but it depends on the characters involved.

What I will not write.

I don't mind some violence/canon typical violence, topics of bullying, but I will not do all out blood, gore, and violence (i.e. murder between canon characters, torture, severe bullying)

I don't mind topics of mental illness, referencing depression, self harm (like scars), suicidal depression, since my OC has a background of a few of those topics, but I will not write out the act (i.e. i will not write out self harm, or anyone unaliving themselves) and I will always put out a warning just in case and I'll try to keep it vague.

I will not write Yandere, I am really uncomfortable with that trope. Other tropes I don't like are: bullies to lovers, miscommunication, cheating, pregnancy/surprise pregnancy, abuse between characters.

I don't mind Smut, I might actually have several written already, but if it just gets dangerous/nasty, it's a straight no.

I will not write r*pe, SA, discrimination (unless canon typical i.e. Fae/human, but I will not make the narrative worse than what is canon), racism, and anything else that could be labeled as Dead Dove: Do not eat.

Crossovers of any kind, Songfics, villainization of canon character (i.e. making Leona, Vil, Trey, Riddle, Malleus, disgustingly mean just to have a villain in the story), character hate.

Match-ups, anything Canon x Reader or Canon x Yuu, Gender swapping for canon charters, but I don't mind making Mi-Mi female, I don't want to offend anyone.

All in all, keep it nice, keep it clean. Anything hateful, against the rules, will result in the ask/request being deleted, and if need be, you will be blocked.

Also, be nice. Don't demand anything, I will not respond. Sleepy has a fragile heart, so don't make Sleepy cry. I don't need you to be overly nice, but a "hello, how are you" would be nice. Don't request/ask starting with "I want", "Give me", etc. I'll take " Can I get," but "May I" is better.

And more importantly, give me time to write. Don blow up my asks/requests wondering where your work is. I'm human, and I have my own life, so please be patient.

[mobiusonajetski]

We need to bring the word squick back as a common fandom term.

"A squick is an old fandom term for something that makes you supremely uncomfortable and you absolutely do not want to read it. It can be a trope, a ship, a concept, or just an event that happens within a fic or in canon." – What's a Squick

I've been quietly reading fic again for the last five years (I think. 2020 was a blur). And I'm now active in fandom and actually creating work again. Before 2020, I hadn't been in fandom circles for 15 years. So I'm coming at fandom from a unique perspective.

I think the decline of the term squick is a major loss, because it's a live and let live term. It frees us from making moral or value judgments on someone else's preferences or art. And you don't have to twist yourself into knots justifying why something squicks you out:

"…the beauty of squick was that (at least in my experience) no explanation was necessary. Not only was it not necessary, it was rarely asked for. A squick is a squick, and there doesn’t have to be any rhyme or reason. In fact, why would you have a rational, bullet-pointed, well-thought-out argument as to why something squicked you out? Very often it’s a visceral reaction, and if you don’t like the thing, you’re likely not going to sit and do deep meditation on why not.

Squicks were respected by fandom. You don’t like the thing, okay, we will tag the thing appropriately, you do not have to read the thing, no judgments on either side. There was no fandom policing, only respect." – How was squick used?

A squick is not the same as a trigger, as the post I just quoted goes on to detail. I've been squicked by mistagged fics before – I can shake that off. I was also triggered by a piece of fiction once – a published book. Not PTSD, it was a mental health crisis thing. While I'm annoyed by mistagged fics (and that's a different topic entirely), I don't think my reaction to these works is anyone's fault. It's the result of being human and having to pass through a world where there's pain and also beauty. What's that Princess Bride quotation? "Life is pain, highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something."

Because most of my aversions are squicks, it's why I haven't gone so far as to install a script to filter out my dislikes on Ao3 (Also I prefer to read fic on my phone!). They're my "I'd rather not" list, and occasionally I'll try to read something by an author I trust containing a squick that I would normally avoid. But mostly I use the exclusion filters on Ao3. They're really bloody good.

Embracing that you have squicks means letting go of resentment. It means you no longer have to write posts on here about how you hate X ship and dress it up as meta. That ship squicks you. End of sentence.

Of course, that's not to say shipping wars are a new thing, that older fandom would never…! Walking through the debris of an older fandom and noticing how many fics have been deleted and writers have moved away is always painful. In 2003 discovering what was left after The Ray Wars was heartbreaking for me!

Understanding we all have squicks also helps us avoid the dangerous trend that fanfiction and fanworks are "content" and that it should always cater to us on a personal level. I've written blog content for a living. I structured it to sell a product or service at the end, and to be found on search engines. Content on social media exists to sell you a product, a service – or to keep you scrolling. It's designed to pull in a specific demographic, though it might have a "everyman" feel to it.

Fan fiction and other fan works are not content. No one is selling you anything (though commissioning your favourite artist is always nice to do if you're able!). Fan works are creative expression first and foremost, a dialogue with the canon, and as such they're not meant to appeal to everybody that comes across them. Acknowledging your own squicks is a great way to understand that not all fanworks are for you, and there's room for everyone and every taste at the fandom table.

I promised myself I'd keep this short but I need to end with this: recognising our squicks and learning to let go of judging fanwork from a moral standpoint is crucial for the upcoming battle. There's a lot of attempted book banning and suppression of pornography ahead of us. Deciding to ban one book or flavour of porn based on our morals or tastes feels justified until you realise it will never end there. They're coming for us all.

[goodbye-gordon-archive]

I know im participating in a fandom by having this blog and posting things but like

i genuinely dont think fandoms should exist

[magicmountainenjoyer]

This says a lot of what’s been going through my mind here, but I’ll also be adding some of my own stuff here if that’s alright, specifically extrapolating on the “content creators are human. We should treat them as such” section.

I definitely don’t think Skizz is specifically a transphobe, but I also don’t think he’s thought about it much. I don’t think he’s had to think about things much.

He’s a cishet white man in America who managed to work his way up to the middle class. He spent decades in the corporate world and, from what I’ve gathered from him talking about his job, a big part of his role at the company he worked for was a social one. Being a manager means you have to mediate conflicts and enforce avoidance of “divisive” topics, regardless of whether or not those topics should be divisive in the first place. Between this and the fact that he's a very late gen Xer, a generation that firmly pushed the idea that silence and neutrality were necessary to keep the peace and that peace should be kept at all cost, I'm really not surprised he worded his response the way he did, both on the stream and in his comment.

He's in a group that hasn't directly faced what intolerance can do. He hasn't been forced to consider what might be growing in silence under his nose. He's still under the impression that a motto of "live and let live" is enough while not understanding that one of the sides in the matter wants the other to cease to exist just because they're different. He mistakenly believes that keeping quiet and telling others to do the same is the way to keep everyone happy.

I don't think this makes him a bad person. I think it makes him someone who hasn't had to consider his community in this way before. I think it makes him someone who has had a level of innate privilege his entire life just because he exists in a way that society has deemed correct. He doesn't understand that there's genuine danger for queer people in the world, especially right now, and that being silent on that threat is being complicit with it. Because he's never had to really consider it.

I don't think Skizz is a bad person in the slightest. I do believe him when he wrote in his comment that he believes in trans rights. I don't think he's necessarily transphobic or bigoted in his approach. But I do think that he needs to reconsider his approach and decide something for himself.

He needs to know what his priority is. Will he prioritize his queer audience, or will he prioritize not rocking the boat. Will he decide to cater to the loud minority that gets uncomfortable when you firmly declare that human beings deserve rights and respect, or will he decide to make an attempt to create and foster an environment that supports the existence of those different from themselves.

Whatever choices he makes will take time, and we as an audience have to understand that. He needs to make a choice, and those aren't quick, especially when content creation is his full time career now.

I'm in no way trying to defend his stance or response or anything, but I don't think unintentionally saying or doing something bad makes you a bad person or irredeemable in that sense. What matters most is how you react to it and whether or not you're willing to learn and grow. That's where Skizz is right now.

As a trans member of the audience, I was watching the stream live when that donation message came through, and while I dislike the way the anonymous donor phrased it, hearing Skizz's response hurt. Call me parasocial, you'd be right, but Impulse and Skizz filled a void for me because I did not have a great childhood and I had an even worse father figure, so hearing him call the existence of people like me political and divisive hurt. It hurt so much. And even though it hurts I also can't stop myself from thinking about it, from checking his tag on tumblr, from reading comments on posts, reading the comments on the VOD in question.

I tried watching the phasmobros stream earlier because I still love his content, because I still love Impulse's content, but it still hurt. The REPO stream didn't feel much better, either.

I really hope Skizz learns not to conflate silence with peace.

Actually, I'm still going.

TL;DR

Two days is nothing in real life time.

Content creators are human. We should treat them as such.

Equating morality to the content people consume is not a "one-size-fits-all" strategy.

This is in no way equivalent to what happened with Iskall.

Do I agree with Skizz having mods that support MAGA? No, not at all. I think he deserves the benefit of the doubt, at the very least.

Two days is nothing in real life time.

I think people are jumping the gun with the current information we have. I think Skizz hasn't had the chance to really do anything yet. Hell, I don't think ANY of the Hermits have had the chance to do anything yet, let alone think. I feel like we've been spoiled with in-real time updates. I don't think it's fair to expect Skizz, or anyone for that matter, to reply or act right this second or else.

Content creators are human. We should treat them as such.

TL;DR: This man has just bumped headfirst into the Paradox of Tolerance. Give him a second.

Generally the definition of tolerance has been maintaining a neutral opinion. This was especially the case with Gen X/Millennials. We have different opinions and we work together anyway. I probably don't have to inform you that's much harder to do in the present, if I'm putting it lightly.

I don't think Skizz is transphobic. I don't think he looked at his mods and decided to hire two of them because they're MAGA. Don't get me wrong; I am not defending having mods that are MAGA. I think that five years ago, he needed people to moderate his chat and he thought those mods did fine. This circles back to the definition of tolerance.

Right now, Skizz is facing the paradox of tolerance. It's up to him what he does with it. And honestly, this might be the first time he's having to think about this. He's a white cis man, which means he occupies a position of incredible privilege (that is not a moral judgment).

And you know what? Trans rights are divisive and the fact they're divisive sucks. I'm saying this as a trans person. You post something about trans rights and you have people fighting on your post in 0.2 seconds with increasing levels of hostility. I don't blame anyone for not knowing how to deal with that on livestream, or wanting to maintain neutrality, as much as it disappoints me.

In the wider scheme of things, Skizz is new to being a full-time content creator. He's probably never dealt with a situation like this before.

I feel like people were quick to assume malice or hostility. So I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt and I hope other people are, too. I also don't think this is the cardinal sin that some people are treating it as.

Equating morality to the content people consume is not a "one-size-fits-all" strategy.

I'm already seeing posts encouraging people to boycott his content and heavily implying that someone is a bad person if they don't. You've probably heard of the situation with J.K. Rowling. The reason people are calling for a complete boycott is because any support or money actively enables her transphobic actions and platform.

Separating content from content creator is complicated. I acknowledge that. But applying the morality = content consumption runs the danger of turning into "I am a good person because I only consume pure content™ and this person is bad because they consume the bad content." I don't think that's the way we should be judging people.

This is in no way equivalent to what happened with Iskall.

If this situation is a 10, then what happened with Iskall is a 120. Iskall's situation had tangible victims and was happening over an extended period of time.

Do I agree with Skizz having mods that support MAGA? No, not at all. I think he deserves the benefit of the doubt, at the very least.

[twisted-wonderland-shenanigans]

Helloooo!

I don't really know how this thing work, because this is my first time and all.

But maybe heartslabyul people with a easy to forget Yuu?

Like Yuu could forget that they haven't eat yet and stuff, and could go on for hours before feeling hungry.

Yuu is pretty much dumb?? I wouldn't say dumb but more of a himbo? They can comfort you in their own way

Maybe you could call me

☕ Anon?

Or

Cafe anon ?

Is that how you do it???

Thank you to you this message, because you reply to this message!

- New Anon

Hi there, Cafe / ☕️ Anon! Thank you so much for sending in this ask. I know it can be a little intimidating and confusing if you don't do it often, so I appreciate it! And yes, this is how you can tag yourself as anon when you're still shy, though I've also seen some content creators dub anons based on the topic of the ask they sent in, so I guess it's whatever makes you comfortable!

I know I had done an "easily forgetful Yuu" in this post here, though it was more generalized rather than dorm specific. I can go a little deeper though, since I'll be focusing only on a handful of characters! Since you didn't specify any pronouns, I'll be using they/them for now so please keep that in mind if you want to send any future asks! >w<

I hope you enjoy this! I'll go ahead and say this now, but I imagined Kronk while I was writing this, and it made me happy~ ÚvÙ

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It was Ace and Deuce who realized early on how forgetful Yuu was, having to remind them why the four of them were prancing around an abandoned mineshaft dodging and not just having a midnight field trip. Despite being oblivious to the danger they were all in (especially when Deuce practically threw them onto his back and kicking away a giant centipede trying to bite them, or when Ace had to yank them back from falling into a large hole in the floor), Yuu somehow managed to stay calm enough to create a plan to beat the sludge phantom monster. As soon as the four retrieved the mage stone and destroyed the phantom, Yuu was so proud of their friends that they couldn’t resist reaching out to pet them while saying, “Good boys!”--much to the embarrassment and confusion of the monster trio.

As the days passed, Yuu and Grim spent the majority of their free time hanging out at Heartslabyul, getting to know everyone–including Riddle–very well. It was almost uncanny how easily Yuu was able to calm others down before trouble could start, whipping up spinach cream puffs with Trey and fawning over every animal in the dorm. So cheerful and content even with the visits with the researchers, it was hard to imagine the human ever getting angry–a little upset and pouty, but they would always bounce back with a smile.

“Totes a himbo,” Cater commented, adding a few hashtags to his latest post.

“What’s a himbo?” Deuce asked.

“It’s someone who’s big and strong yet oblivious or dumb,” Ace explained, smirking as he added, “Just like you!”

“Oi! I’m not stupid, Ace!”

“If the horseshoe fits!”

“Guys, take it easy,” Trey said. Thinking for a moment, he said, “It doesn’t exactly sound like a nice word to describe them…even if they are a little oblivious and forgetful.”

“It’s fine, really!” Cater said. “Himbos are described as being attractive but not quite so smart. Those tend to be pretty popular characters in media. See? As NRC’s only human rez, Magicam has been blowing up with likes and comments. Everyone loves Yuu!”

“Wow. Wait…what’s with the video of Yuu in a frilly apron and oven mitts?”

“Oh, that? I caught Yuu trying to open a box of treats for the lil’ hedgehog they were watching, and they forgot to take off the oven mitts. See the lil’ guy in the apron pocket? Totes adorable~!”

It was at that moment that Yuu came in, looking worse for wear as Riddle followed after them with a concerned expression. “Dude! What the hell happened to you?” Ace asked in shock.

“Huh? What do you mean?” Yuu asked, looking confused.

“I found them on campus near the forest,” Riddle said with an exasperated sigh, the faun pulling out the first aid kit and guiding Yuu to a stool. “They were attempting to climb a tree. Fortunately, they landed on a bush from a high point, so they didn’t get severely injured…as you can see, unfortunately, it was a thorned berry bush.”

“A baby bird fell out of the tree-ow!” they yelped, wincing when Riddle began plucking the thorns out of their clothes and skin with tweezers. “The little guy’s mom was worried, so I carried her baby up to her-ouch!-nest.”

“Jeez, did you slip off a branch or something?”

“Well…after I got it back in the nest, I…kinda forgot that I was standing on a branch and walked off.”

“...you…walked off the branch…”

“Yeah?”

“...how the hell have you not broken a leg?”

Yuu shrugged, wincing as Riddle began cleaning the scrapes and spots the thorns had been. “Aaaand…check!” Cater said, having taken another picture of Yuu’s messy self and typing away. “Ridiculously nic and oblivious. That’s our Yuu-bo!”

/—-----/

“Dinner’s ready!”

“Sweet! Breakfast for dinner? What’s the occasion?”

“I figured I’d do something nice and easy to make for everyone as a treat for helping me when I got hurt earlier,” Yuu explained, twirling the spatula in their hand before scooping up another pancake and flipping it onto a plate atop a stack of fluffy goodness. “Plus, Trey’s been working hard to feed us, so I wanted to help out!”

“Whoaaa, look at this spread!” Grim said, already drooling as he sniffed. “Eggs, bacon, sausages…oooh! These waffles have a heart stamped in the middle!”

“Oh yeah! I wanted to try out the new waffle iron one of Cater’s fans sent, and it works really well! It makes it easy to make a breakfast buffet.”

“I’m pretty sure the fans wanted you to have it anyway,” Trey uttered with a wry smile. Aloud, he said, “Thanks for making dinner, Yuu, but why don’t I take over? You’re still recovering from the fall.”

“I’ve got it, thanks! You already do a lot for everyone, so it’s your turn to relax.”

“Well…if you say so. Is this what you made for breakfast this morning?”

“...this morning?” Yuu repeated, expression going blank. “Oh…I think I forgot to eat breakfast this morning. Oops!”

Just then, a long, loud gurgling growl erupted from Yuu’s stomach, the room falling silent as everyone stared at them. It was Deuce who spoke as he asked, “Yuu…when was the last time you ate?”

Thinking for a moment, Yuu admitted, “Since…last night…I think? I remember feeding Grim, but…I got distracted and forgot to get a plate for myself.”

“Seriously? How in Twisted Wonderland are you still functioning on an empty tank!?” Ace said.

“I got so busy that I forgot I was even hungry! Let me just finish up this batch of pancakes and I’ll get some food, okay?”

“Nope. Not good enough,” Trey said.

Before Yuu could respond, the mixing bowl and spatula was plucked out of their hands by Trey while two of Cater’s clones appeared on either side of them. Led to a chair that was pulled out by a third clone, while the original hippogryph finished stacking a plate full of food before sliding it in front of them. “There we go! Make sure you eat every bite now, okay, Yuu-bo~?”

“Wha-? But what about the pancakes and waffles?” Yuu asked, looking concerned. “I gotta finish them–”

“I’ve got it taken care of,” Trey said, the pans sizzling as he added several more strips of bacon and poured the batter on the griddle. “Just sit there and I’ll finish the rest. We don’t want you passing out on us just because your blood sugar is low, got it?”

“Trey is correct,” Riddle chimed in. “Given your status as a critically endangered species, if word reaches the research institutions, they may suspect the school for neglecting your health and may seek to relocate you for closer monitoring.” His stern gaze softened as he said, “We also worry about you as fellow students…and your friends. We can only do so much, so please…don’t forget to take care of yourself.”

For a moment Yuu sat there in stunned silence, seeing their friends nod in agreement. Then…they smiled, looking misty-eyed as they sniffled. “Thanks guys…that means a lot. I’ll do my best to take care of myself!”

/—----/

After that day, Yuu did their best to remember to eat, the Heartslabyul students making sure to remind or invite them over for a meal. Slowly this began to trickle into the other dorms, some of the other students inviting them to sit for a meal as well. Even Grim and the Ramshackle ghosts chipped in, either packing extra lunches or helping them clean up and reminding them to eat whenever they get preoccupied. While Yuu was still forgetful at times, they had nothing to worry about so long as their friends were by their side.

[help-i-need-a-cool-username]

Its the end of the year! Which means its time to post the

Tags That Made Me Smile 2022

The following are a collective list of tags, author notes, and fic names that i saw on ao3 and tumblr that made me either laugh or smile. Ive separated them by fandom but a good amount arent actually fandom specific. Ive added the character names or fandom at the end like {name} to clarify who the tag is talking about

[2021's list]

Author Specific / Non-Specific

i saw canon; acknowledged it; And promply burned it in a dirty trash can thanks; Have this instead

Give me pain I need to feel something

this is self projection thank you coming to my ted talk

Whats that?? Overused tropes that everyone has seen before????? Pfffffffft. This fic is literally just a big mess of "how can I cater to myself and myself only"

you ever just look at your life and wonder how you got here; bc that's what this fic is for me

Don't underestimate me I DO NOT know how long this fan-fic will be

can you tell my target audience is myself

this is content specifically catered to me and no one else

these characters are my landlords and i pay them rent

P O L Y A M O R Y   I S   M Y   P O L Y J A M O R Y

cheek kiss warning

kidnapping isn’t sexy don’t do it

i've never read the archie comics but that's not gonna stop me {archie sonic}

not me writing a whole fic for a ship only i care about; that like maybe two other people ship; rowing this boat is hard but someone has to do it {scourge x fleetway sonic}

ankles don't heal this fast but fuck it i do what i want

no beta we die like men; or rather we drown like the sad shipper with a pool noodle we are

I'm afraid of the Danimals mascot and you should be too

if you're getting flood warnings, don't worry. It's just MY TEARS!

me at every character: anxiety be upon ye

Me (Grabs canon and runs a marathon with it)

Quote: Do you think God stays in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he's created (Spy Kids) {tmnt crossover}

Alternate Universe - Monty Python and the Holy Grail

contains dangerous amount of bed based snuggling

(kind of its a very short very homosexual fight scene); and then they kiss.

Hostage situation takes a romantic turn???? Not clickbait????

enemies to frenemies

Improper Use of Pool Noodles

stone cold stoicism meeting determined stupidity

Star Wars

Kanan Jarrus: The Daddening

platonic love is what healed his lonely existence {din djarin}

when in doubt: road trip with the besties {din, boba, fennec}

Soul Eater

found family at its finest {kid, liz, patty}

The Witcher

wife (platonic) {yennskier}

at first I was like haha geralt and Istredd should kiss as a joke…. but bro I don’t think it’s a joke anymore….

Sonic the Hedgehog

Movie!Super Sonic is made out of LOVE no one touch me

Sonics gay awakening I guess

sonic movie 2 made me make an ao3 account lol

Sonic was made to love people

Two Bros Chillin’ in an ER Five Feet Apart ‘cause they’re not gay {sonic x shadow}

the most dangerous thing is to love {shadow}

Trapped in a small box with just enough room to face some feelings {sonic x shadow}

the R in rivalry stand for romance {sonic x shadow}

The L in Rivalry Stands For 'Love' {sonic x shadow}

A Largely Platonic Cave

i love boom!shadow so naturally i made him even more insufferable

Sad-ow

Wachowskis holdin it down in the bg; Absolute champs

I love how Shadow is just so mindbogglingly utterly done with reality

Knuckles is a guardian of all things great and small

“Would you kiss a worm?" “If he was cute as fuck? Yeah.” {wade x stone}

"What is this made of, bendable titanium?!" "INCORRECT. IT IS MADE OF THE FRUSTRATIONS OF MOTHERS EVERYWHERE." {team dark}

featuring a scourge that trips far too much because it's my fic and I said so {scourge x fleetway sonic}

no thoughts just soft hedgehog moments

listen if im going to die at the hands of injured lancelot shit i might as well take advantage of it

Everyone has a crush on Lancelot and I'll die on this hill

fairy Lancelot Fairy Lancelot FAIRY LANCELOT!!!

TMNT

Slow Burn; mostly on april's end of things; casey and donnie are basically on fire right off the bat {tmnt 2012}

Rise!Donnie and 2012!Casey be out there committing arson together for their first date >.>

Please enjoy Casey, the fool, realizing his feelings for Donnie, another fool {tmnt 2012}

Draxum and Splinter are the turtles' dads (it's a reluctant partnership)

just two absolute powerhouses holding each other gently {raph x mona}

“There’s nothing wrong with the way you love, Dee. Goodnight.” {rottmnt}

Wondering what to do when the apocalypse happens? Easy: fly across the country and get Vegas-married. That's definetley an appropriate reaction that won't involve your complicated feelings towards your roommate at all {hypno x warren}

Look rise are weapons of war 12 were accidents and I play with that HARD in this fic

"GET IN THE TURTLE TANK BITCHES WE GOING TO FAMILY THERAPY" {rottmnt}

Donatello is now Dad-Atello {rottmnt}

The other [Casey] is out on a beach in Tahiti; It's what he deserves after surviving the Krang {rottmnt}

Leo is now actively being hunted for sport; (the only sport Donnie is good at) {rottmnt}

These turtles can fit so much trauma

2018 Karai lives because fuck Nick; Casey x Donnie x April are a healthy ship and also fuck nick again

I cant be the only one pissed by Leo's and Karais 'love interest plot'; Leonardo's weird feelings were simply gender envy...Yes that is canon now {tmnt 2012}

What happens when two "dudes" call each other 'girlfriend'; Transgender activities, that's what! {tmnt 2012}

splinter is twice divorced and never married {rottmnt}

Papatello / Dadatello {rottmnt}

draxum's gone from dadxum to grand-dadxum good for him

HOLY FUCKING SHIT YES YES YES YES; GRANDPA BARRY COMING IN CLUTCH

draxum just be like gramps still got it; and by 'it' i mean a complete lack of forethought for care when creating random children

Puts the Bi in Bitchless {rottmnt leo}

its because ninja turtles

feral mamatello {rottmnt}

Marvel

it's the anguish, the self flagellation, the audacity to love the man who annihilate ur nation and killed ur mother; your m o t h e r {black panther}

[edenfenixblogs]

You know? I actually (conditionally) accept this apology from Drawfee, assuming they actually come through on their promise to avoid antisemitism in the chat.

I don’t and never expected them to police people saying “free Palestine” (even though many, many people add an implicit “from Jews” to the end of that thought). I never expected them to prevent the spamming of Palestinian flags and watermelons. I know that will be something that occurs in the chat. I can live with that. That’s just what being online means these days.

But if they allow things like “IsraHell” and “IsNOTreal,” that’s crossing the line into indigenous erasure and hate speech. If they allow blanket statements about Israeli human beings who are not politicians, that’s dangerous rhetoric. I’ve always said that I trust that they all WANT to get it right. And if they do a decent enough job at actually trying to do so, I can maybe get past the hurt they caused one day.

This already makes me feel less sick every time I look at the Drawtectives posters on my wall. So that’s nice.

I think the words and actions against me specifically still hurt a little bit too much for me to engage for right now. And from their statement, it seems like they don’t really care about losing some Jewish fans, let alone one particular fan that they feel is responsible for causing them distress. That’s fine. They’ve got hundreds of thousands of other fans who make my support not really matter in the long run.

I just hope ALL creators know that individual humans who like their content and engage with them DO NOT have that many people in their corner basically ever. And especially at a time when Jews and Arabs and Muslims are all facing increased hatred, they should be responsible and respectful in how they deal with any interactions involving those groups and their concerns.

It is not entitled in a parasocial way to expect creators to address sensitive affairs with concern. It would be entitled to expect them to cater to you specifically or your own individual needs. But that is not and has never been what I’m doing with this blog or any other online presence. I just want to help keep the world safe for Jewish people. And that is not a goal that is individual enough to me and my life that it is out of line to bring up to a creator or group of creators when their actions impact the larger community.

We’ll see how it goes. They clearly had some discussions that led to this statement. I can only hope that the intent behind it is real and stems from a desire to do better and not just a desire to stop hearing about antisemitism. The livestream will tell us everything we need to know, but until then (despite everything) I really am rooting for Drawfee. I hope they live up to their own ideals here, because they have great ideals. And I really hope the community can be safe for people like me.

Well Drawfee is officially no longer safe media for me :(

Karina liked multiple tweets conflating a PSA for antisemitism with Israeli propaganda and claiming that Israel planned its assault to coincide with the superbowl…

Julia liked posts claiming that the war isn’t a war. Nobody has liked anything about antisemitism or even acknowledging Jews are in danger right now.

TBH I’m devastated.

I have Drawfee art all over my home. I was actually gonna become a patron this year. I’d literally been saving to make it feasible. This is crushing. I feel sick.