#transition diary

[sayheyjrey]

This is your reminder that transitioning after 30 isn't too late. It's never. EVER. Too late.

If you do this for *you*, then don't listen to what anyone else has to say. They don't know your joy. Don't let them have it.

Transitioning saved my life. And it continues to do so every single day. I don't regret not starting earlier - I'm just thankful I started period.

Now I get to live my life.

[bogkeep]

me: hmmm what if i shaved the beard and left the moustache just to see what i'd look like

achievement pop-up: CONGRATULATIONS! YOU'VE UNLOCKED MANHOOD CLICHÉ #2823

me: what

achievement pop-up: STARING INTO THE MIRROR WITH DAWNING HORROR THAT YOU LOOK LIKE YOUR FATHER

me: oh god

[downloadspiral]

Transition diary: Part 1

Decided to document my transition (ftm) on here a bit as I'm a few weeks on T now! So here we go:

I'm one month on T (12,5mg cream) and these are the noticable changes that have happened so far:

•voice/singing: my voice feels a bit scratchy (esp when i try to talk more loudly) and voice drop has definitely set in (i can reach lower notes more easily when singing and maintaining voice control has gotten a bit trickier)

•face shape: people have told me that my facial features have started to look a bit sharper! I can see it too, esp in photos, but it's veeery minimal

•bottom growth: the hypersensitivity is REAL. it's borderline painful (especially in the morning?? hello morning wood!) but not unbearable - this feeling usually wears off throughout the first few hours of the day. Besides that: when horny, you can def see the growth as well (very minimally but still! my clit is def turning into a cock which is pretty exciting)

•body odor: it's so different already??? i swear my pussy smells like a brand new motherfucker. Kinda sweeter maybe? That's the most interesting/'weird' change for me so far because I feel like I smell like a completely different person and I still gotta get used to my own scent, which is a strange experience.

Conclusion: So many changes have happened already! All pretty minor, but I totally didn't expect that so many areas would be affected as quickly as they are! Totally stoked about it.

[lamuya]

[mxshr0mz]

transition diary

day 1:

voice: my voice sounds deeper than usual! it's a little scratchy.

body hair growth: idk what to say. i have a mustache,stomach hair,leg air, arm(pit) hair, and its growing nice.

hair: ive cut my hair recently and im getting it shorter soon! :)

idk how to so these sorry😭 have a good day!

[tgirlfluid]

WTF would make a gay man in his 60's suddenly want to transition? Does that fact that I have so many trans friends, and find transmen sexy, mean that I'm trans too?

After I asked myself that question recently, a light went on in my head. I've ALWAYS been attracted to androgyny. I love men who are femme, and women who are butch. So this isn't a recent thing. And that made me start to connect the dots that led me to think that I WAS trans.

I realize now that I always was more female than male, at least psychologically. Growing up, I hated being around aggressive, loud boys. I didn't want to play rough sports. As an adult, I found it much easier to talk to women than to men, and relate to them.

My therapist recently asked me what words popped into my head when I was asked to define the word 'female'. The first one was 'soft.' Then I listed a bunch more: caring, nurturing, empathetic. And these are all positive traits that I value. But when he asked me the same thing about the word 'male,' it took a more negative turn: I listed hard, aggressive, insensitive as male traits that came to mind.

What about the physical side of being male vs. female? Do I hate the physical aspects of maleness, like having muscles and body hair? I find them attractive on other men, but I don't particularly care either way about having them on my own body.

At the same time, I've long fantasized about being in a female body. Especially having breasts and being able to breastfeed. I think being pregnant would be an amazing experience. I've even had fantasies about having my penis and balls removed.

When I thought about all this, it finally struck me that deep down, I had a strong desire to be a woman. I don't hate my male body (although I've always hated being overweight) and don't feel 'trapped' in my present body. But I really want to start on HRT to see if it will make me a happier person, if it will confirm my belief that I should have been a woman all along.

I plan to start a diary on this blog to describe my transition. I'm super excited about transitioning and can't stop thinking about it. It just feels RIGHT. So, I'm going to trust my instincts and go forward with it.

Stay tuned!

[bettercallgenderclinic]

i’m two months on t!!!

changes i’ve noticed:

sweaty holy crap

i stink

i enjoy doing weights more now. not sure if that means anything i just really like lifting now and i’ve noticed that i’m building a lot more muscle

unreasonably horny

bottom growth is bottom growing. still not NEARLY as major as most other guys but hey, i’m still only two months in lol

self-injecting has gotten a lot easier, too. the hardest part is sticking the needle in tbh, it doesn’t even hurt that much lol

i haven’t noticed much else but i’m really excited to see what the next month holds :3

[beans-tour-diary]

Day 146

My dearest readers, this one will not be for the ones, who don't like thinking about naked people. (yes, I'm talking to you, the one person I know in real life who sees my posts) 👀

Two weeks after I started t I felt the second brain growing between my legs. The one that makes you think about that one hot cosplayer you saw last weekend uncontrollably. And I knew I had to get some toys to keep it busy.

I looked into toys specifically for people with bottom growth and read some top lists of other ftm people. Air suction interested me even before, but it seems like it's also perfect for that little t bean. Important was the size of the nozzle, which is made with mostly cis women in mind. This article didn't just offer measurements but pictures with objects for size reference!

I followed the advice of this author and finally spent some money. The package arrived yesterday. I heard so much about other peoples' experiences but I was still completely overwhelmed. This thing just sucked/blew my brains out.

It took me some tries to get it to do its thing right, but when it did, there was no doubt that this was it's purpose. I don't have that much growth yet, but that doesn't really matter. As long as it fits, it will work. My dear ftm friends, don't underestimate trying out new stuff on your new body. Just enjoy yourself.

Sadly my body seemed to think, that I want to check if all my funny female organs still work and decided to demonstrate it's abilities by bleeding... Something I really didn't miss. Luckily my brain was still gone when I noticed, so it didn't annoy me as much as it would have. Still, just don't? Imagine I need that blood for something else!

[strawbrieeeee]

After one year and four months with estrogen, I think I'm finally starting to fall into the second panel more often than not. Still need laser hair removal, still want to grow my hair out more (a lot more), but over time all of the little changes have just become more noticeable I guess lol. I still have a ways to go, but the meat suit I inhabit is no longer the same one I had two years ago, and I'm so so glad that I'm finally able to see it.

Ya see the difference? 🤭 💕

It's less of a "I look wrong" now and more of a "oh I need to clean myself up" lol it gets better.

Promise ❤️

[downloadspiral]

Transition Diary: 8 months on T

It's been a while since I gave an update on my transition, so it's about time for a new one! You can find my last post I made after 5 months on T here.

My voice deepening more and more is definitely amongst my favorite changes! Especially when singing, crying, laughing, etc. I sound soo much like a man (or sometimes pubescent boy, haha) now.

My leg hair has become so long it's actually starting to curl now! And my pubic hair pattern is becoming very masculine (also, special shoutout to my ass hair! <3).

Even my beard (just a 'stache so far) has been getting more noticable!! I dye it darker for more visibility, but I clearly see that my natural hair is becoming more and more every time I dye it (like every few weeks).

Now to the biggest change since last time!! My body composition!! There has been sooo much going on there!! My boobs have become much smaller! My arms, back, shoulders and neck are broader!! And I'm having a suspiciously easy time making gains at the gym... And my hand veins seem to be getting more prominent (VERY noticable when I work out, but also when I'm chilling).

Also, my facial features are sharpening in some, and broadening in other areas. I'm not too sure how noticable the changes in my facial structure are to others, as I still have my pre-transition face 'saved' as 'my face' in my mind so whenever I pull out the front camera I get hella surprised (and excited) about what I'm seeing.

Before I finish this post, I also want to adress a change I am NOT experiencing: increased sex drive. This could be a side effect from antidepressants/relationships being hard - but I feel like I am very much in control of my libido, unlike what other trans mascs have reported.

[lamuya]

Part 15 of my transition diary (also available in French)

[will0wisps]

i think i have boobs now

[paperw0rmz]

Okay so I started minoxidil a little over two weeks ago and here are things ive noticed so far:

Shit is dry as fuck lotion and baby oil are heaven

if applies on face it makes me break out just a LITTLE more than I usually do, but I have a history with BAD cystic acne so this can change and or improve.

No real noticeable hair growth yet, I think it has made the hair already there start to grow longer, and maybe some start of new growth.

i feel like I look like I have more facial hair tho, but I dont.

[bettercallgenderclinic]

i am now one month on t!

i haven't noticed any drastic changes, but there are a couple of small things that i have noticed:

i've had a good amount of growth in (jack black voice) THE NETHER. i don't mind this whatsoever considering a major part of me starting t was because i wanted this effect

i smell different in ways that i didn't expect. all stank has been increased by like 50% so i've definitely had to start reapplying deodorant more often and showering more thoroughly

and a couple of things that might just be coincidences:

i've been overheating more often, but i've had this issue in the past and it is getting warmer outside so this could definitely be entirely coincidental

my chest feels way less full/perky now but that might just be my cycles cycling. either way i am completely fine with this because it makes taping way easier

i've also started self-injecting. it was really hard the first time and i definitely have a STRONG vasovagal response but i lowkey think it's less scary this way.

excited to see what comes next for me!

[lubedupweirdo]

One month on T: I smell like dog urine. I don't mean my pee smells like dog pee, I mean when I get comfy nakey in bed, I go, "whose intact dog marked the next room?" Why do I smell slightly of dog pee? Other people agree I smell like dog, but they're trying to be nice about it. "You have the corn chip smell they get when they've been playing outside." No. I smell like a horny male dog. I'm not even horny because I injured my clit in an unrelated leaf blower accident last week and getting hard kinda hurts.

[beans-tour-diary]

Day 362

It's been a wild few weeks!

I've been having crazy voice breaks. Talking a bit louder than normal sounds like a rollercoaster. It's very exciting but also a bit annoying, because after talking for 2 hours straight my throat starts hurting. But I love talking!!

My facial hair is also slowly making progress. The peach fuzz on my cheeks is way longer and my moustache gets darker and darker.

I'm not really close with other trans masc people in real life, so I went looking for discord servers to chat about transitioning stuff. I found a few, but they are all pretty small. On my search I stumbled over a few general trans servers, one of them seemingly entirely inhabited by chasers 🥲

Also: I went to my first gaming/anime/nerd convention! It was not that big but soo cool. Probably the perfect size for me, because I could look at everything multiple times before I got tired and wanted to leave. Maybe I'll actually make a cosplay for my next con.

my con companions