#transition experience

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Transition Diary: 8 months on T

It's been a while since I gave an update on my transition, so it's about time for a new one! You can find my last post I made after 5 months on T here.

My voice deepening more and more is definitely amongst my favorite changes! Especially when singing, crying, laughing, etc. I sound soo much like a man (or sometimes pubescent boy, haha) now.

My leg hair has become so long it's actually starting to curl now! And my pubic hair pattern is becoming very masculine (also, special shoutout to my ass hair! <3).

Even my beard (just a 'stache so far) has been getting more noticable!! I dye it darker for more visibility, but I clearly see that my natural hair is becoming more and more every time I dye it (like every few weeks).

Now to the biggest change since last time!! My body composition!! There has been sooo much going on there!! My boobs have become much smaller! My arms, back, shoulders and neck are broader!! And I'm having a suspiciously easy time making gains at the gym... And my hand veins seem to be getting more prominent (VERY noticable when I work out, but also when I'm chilling).

Also, my facial features are sharpening in some, and broadening in other areas. I'm not too sure how noticable the changes in my facial structure are to others, as I still have my pre-transition face 'saved' as 'my face' in my mind so whenever I pull out the front camera I get hella surprised (and excited) about what I'm seeing.

Before I finish this post, I also want to adress a change I am NOT experiencing: increased sex drive. This could be a side effect from antidepressants/relationships being hard - but I feel like I am very much in control of my libido, unlike what other trans mascs have reported.

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Day 490

I just saw a post about crying on testosterone and thought I'd share my experience so far.

I don't think it's exactly harder to cry, just different. I have bawled my eyes out just a few months ago, pretty similar to how I did before hrt. Sometimes I feel like crying, but my previous standard light crying with wet sobbs has been replaced with dry sobbing and yowling.

I personally don't feel like I lost a way to express emotions, it's just very different and sometimes confusing to figure out how it works now.

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[rivetgoth]

It's honestly crazy that discussion around testosterone HRT skews so much towards the beginning stages of it (to the point that you have dozens of guys thinking their transition is "failed" if they don't pass by like a year in lol) and what the initial changes of the first couple of months to years look like, like the classic laundry list of those early basic changes like bottom growth, voice drop, etc, when IMO literally none of that compares remotely to the depth and intensity of the long term total masculinization you start to experience like 3-5+ years in.

[blakelovely3]

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[hinamie]

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[chrissy-kaos]

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[our-queer-experience]

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Transition Diary Part #3

(Find the previous part here: https://www.tumblr.com/fl4mb0y4nt/740718631232651264/transition-diary-2?source=share)

It's now been over 3 months since I started testosterone! As of last month, I switched from T lotion to shots, and I wanna comment on this experience before coming to the physical changes.

Firstly, where I live, you don't self-inject, but a doctor will give you the shot every 2-3 months, which is a nice long time span where you don't have to think about taking your T.

Generally, the shots take like 2 minutes to inject, which is much longer than the usual quick vaccine and might feel unusual to some - I personally didn't mind this. Also, they go into your butt which is fun.

However, after the shot (not during), my booty HURT. The pain had me hold my left ass cheek in public. It only fully faded for me after like 3 days, but only the first 45-ish mins where that tough to bear. This still won't make me switch back to lotion/gel because the pros outweigh the cons for me.

Now to the physical changes.

Body hair: They are sprouting! Arms, legs, ass, pubic area, stomach, happy trail, even face! It's not that visible to most yet (I started with extremely light natural body hair), but I can see a major difference for myself. Love!

Voice: This was kinda bizarre (and amazing). I was just living my life as suddenly, from one minute to the next, my voice dropped big time. Also my laugh suddenly sounded so different! This gave my a huge hit of euphoria. Sadly, my old, more female sounding voice is still coming through most of the time, but I'm stoked that the change is still much more noticeable now (not just to me but also to others).

Fat redistribution: I don't know how much of this is related to T but I'm definitely more hungry now, and therefore, I am obviously gaining weight AND my previously very defined waist is getting more square. This doesn't only have it's benefits though - most of my pants don't fit me anymore and I desperately have to get new ones (which is sad because I really liked my pants, but good because, well ... self-explanatory).

Body odor: My (more 'manly') scent has gotten even stronger and I feel like my natural scent comes back quicker after showering. But I don't necessarily feel like I sweat easier or more than before.

Bottom growth: is still going on (tho not as uncomfortably sensitive anymore).

Period: I'm now taking a pill that stopped my period (and beneficially serves as birth control) as I couldn't wait any longer for T to do the trick.

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Day 560

I have my official name change appointment this week. Changing both name and gender entry will cost me 60€. I also have a new testo prescription I have to get, that will also cost me 10€.

I know 70€ isn't much compared to how difficult and expensive things are in other countries, but it's interesting to see how even here, where we have healthcare and new laws, I'll have to spend 70€ to be myself. It's also a one time thing. I only need a new prescription every 6 months, so that's pretty chill. It just happened to fall on the same month as the legal change stuff. But I'll also have to get a new ID, drivers license and other stuff that's not going to be cheap.

I'll probably write an email to all my university lecturers, telling them about the legal name change and also again about my pronouns, since some people still don't get it.

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Some comments from an interesting Reddit thread I came across

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[getmichellealter]

Since I didn’t start posting here until after I had started to dye my hair blonde I figured you guys may enjoy seeing a comparison of what I looked like before vs now 😊

[blakelovely3]

Hope you’re hungry 🤤