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💙🩵Floral Legacy Challenge Pt. 5🩵💙
🪻let's find where Bella's loneliness will take her...🪻
Meet Ember Black: cute bartender who's just Bella's type
(Now what could possibly come of this??)
#ts4 gameplay#ts4 legacy#the sims 4#simblr#floral legacy challenge#ts4 floral legacy challenge#ts4 vanilla#ts4 screenshots#the sims 4 legacy#gen 1#gen 1 bluebell#bluebell generation#new simblr#trying to learn how to edit photos#inspired by all the awesome folks on this site#it's a start maybe??#expect mixed results to come#as I decide my style and what I like#sim: bella rosewood
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Finally managed to record a bit of David at curtain call 😍
Brilliant seeing this incredible production once again - and getting to see what's different and what isn't 🥹🥰
(Please don't repost ☺️)
#david tennant#west end macbeth#macbeth#Completely failed to record my own videos at the Donmar#since I couldn't get myself to just hold up a camera in their faces rather than joining in on the clapping#so also didn't record the whole thing this time but at least a bit of it ❤️#and ah the handle is from twitter 🙈#also I really need to learn to make better gifs and/or video edits because the quality definitely looks better on my phone than this 🙈#Edit: Looks like he has tried not to kick as high this week from what I have seen 🥺#I hope that's just random and not because they saw the photos and videos and were like maybe try not to show too much#Because my main reason for uploading this was just that he's absolutely adorable and such a delight to watch 🥹#and it's not like there's actually anything to see besides the shorts and his knees which are on full display throughout anyway#and will probably be on display for the filmed version as well#So hope it's just that either I haven't seen any videos from the same angle or it's just random how he ends up doing it#please keep up with the cute twirl and kick DT ❤️
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Another mini update because I think I deserve to talk about this:

I am changing game plans! I'm not sure if I've mentioned this but... The shell stitch is such a yarn eater. I have four rows of shells, but you actually don't see that there are about eight rows in this because there are intermittently small ones to set up the space for all the shells. These four rows have basically eaten up ninety percent of my skein of 210 yards (192 meters). My question is: should I make one more shell stitch row before transitioning into double crochet, or is four sufficient?
My new plan now is something like this: shell stitch four rows, double crochet until I reach the center of the tallit. The middle will be a few more rows of shells, then back to double crochet until I make it to the other side. I genuinely can't think of a worse idea that thirty-three inches (eighty-four centimeters) of solid white in shell stitch.
(Do note that my camera has completely altered the colors. It does this automatically and I hate it so much. These colors are so much richer and more interesting than how this camera decided to mess with it)
#jumblr#jew by choice#jewish conversion#tallit#personal thoughts tag#shalom crafts#long post#i am unironically trying*not* to be upset about how my phone's camera ALWAYS edits the colors of photos in such an ugly way#it's so... washed out and sad. a photo is supposed to look BETTER than how real life does#i think what upsets me about this is that this is my art that i have spent months on and the colors are super important to me#ANYWAY. i've been stagnant with this project partially because i didn't want to do shell stitch for thirty-three inches straight#while crochet is faster than knit at almost everything... it's still slow-going#i know it can sound pretentious to be like 'this is ~MY ART~'#but honestly i think you need to learn to develop a bit of an ego when you're an artist to counteract the imposter syndrome and stagnation#because i wouldn't have done the shell stitch if i didn't have the ego to be like 'if i cant do it the way i want it can just be ripped out#and me saying i think i deserve to talk about this is because i really like this craft and i've been working kind of sort of hard on it!!!#i think other crocheters know the sheer headache it is to work something this size (51 inches by 71 inches will be the final size)
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the only good thing about making character refs is that it you literally can’t perfectionism about it or it won’t get done. the bad thing about making character refs is A AAAAA AAAAAAAA AUGH OW OW OW AAAAAAA A A AAAAA A A A A A AaAA
#rambles#anyways!#FINALLY GOT TABLET REPLACED I HAVE PROCREATE BACK <3 ALTHOUGH I DID LOSE. EVERYTHING. I HAD NOT SAVED AS A PHOTO.#it was mostly sketches or random edits or vent art or whatnot that was never gonna see the light of day anyways but s t i l l#anyways.i was doing. so well at prepping for artfight this year and the universe said no actually you’re gonna learn to use a slightly#different device and redo everything AND miss almost two weeks of work and practice in JUNE#it should not be possible to forget how to do something after such little time ahhghjf#although i will be taking a moment to celebrate that my tablet did not randomly turn on when my parents were trying to fix it because it di#break HALFWAY THROUGH MAKING PRIDE ART. I DONT KNOW HOW I WAS GONNA EXPLAIN THAT.
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it's really a shame I have to sell 40+ of my life hours every week for poverty wages instead of spending all my time and energy on dozens of creative and technical pursuits with unlimited resources
#nerd alert#lets see if i can list all the hobbies i wish i could be doing instead of working#drawing. both traditional and digital. painting mostly acrylic but id like to get good at watercolors. drawing/writing comics#writing in general. fiction nonfiction poetry lyrics whatever. composing music. music production. singing. practicing piano and guitar#performing someday maybe!#sculpting too. i always forget bc i never do it bc i am never in a place to justify buying clay. i should just get some#i think im fairly good at it tbh. anyway.#knitting. sewing. mending and modding clothes in general. embroidery. id like to learn to crochet at some point#photography and scrapbooking sound appealing. photo editing.#web design. game design. 3d modeling. these are all things i dont really know how to do much of but id like to#animation. voice acting. regular acting. honestly a lot of stuff in the filmmaking process sounds fascinating id like to try some of it#tarot reading. is that a hobby? im gonna say yes. jewelry making.#lots of these ive only dabbled in and some i havent even done that but would like to. but i have no time and or money to get into them.#i would hardly call myself a master at any of these. jack of all trades as it were. and thats fine im fine w that#but given the time and resources i think i could make so many different diverse perfectly average to good things#that people could enjoy in passing or say 'oh how neat :)' about
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so i googled 'marker art landscape tutorial' and this video got me started. i like warm colours (and my marker collection is limited) so i chose this reference pic.
#i made a art#my stuff#marker art#sunset#🌅#i mainly do photo edits but I've been wanting to try my hand at irl stuff for a while#i used to doodle a lot growing up but it was always abstract and i want to learn#how to make art that looks like a real thing#bought a bunch of markers at OW for 50c sale but i know I'm gonna need dozens more#right now my palette is restricted to sunset bc all i have are yellows and a pink and green and blue and gray#and thee lightest pink ever and shade '0' which is white ink that does Not show up on white paper so#gonna have to figure out what the point of that one is#artists on tumblr#btw: that sketchbook is smaller than my palm. all i have are a variety of mini sketchbooks#bc they're cute and cheap and teen me used retail therapy to try and combat depression emptiness and misery#and crushing loneliness and yet. never arted in them. glad i didn't throw them out though.#10-15yrs later they've come in handy. at last! XD
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today was the day we finalized the migration of essential software at work from some old and busted shit that was ready to die at any time, to the new cloud version of the same software that we are no longer responsible for maintaining. which is good because no one was actually maintaining ours. it's just been slowly crufting into unusability for a decade. so anyway they set aside an hour for a teams meeting where they'd walk us through the different interface and how to go through normal processes.
"it's not that big a change," they said. "it's all the same stuff, it just looks a little different," they said.
they did not account for the fact that the primary user of this software is someone who doesn't actually know how it works or what it's doing. they learned how to do their job entirely through rote memorization. they know which buttons they are supposed to press in which order, and that is the full extent of what they know. they also did not account for the fact that this person's processes were learned thirdhand from other people who were not using this software normally to begin with.
it's like. imagine if someone had only ever used tumblr in the app. and you try to get them to use it in a desktop browser, but they cannot figure out how to post. and you go through explaining where the button is and how to format text and add tags, even though you could have sworn it was all the same in the app. but then they're like, "okay, but what's the phone number" and you're like "what" and they're like "the phone number to call to make a post?" and it turns out somehow they still had the ability to post by calling a phone number, and every time they posted on the app they called the post in first and then edited the audio post to transcribe it into text before screenshotting the text for a photo post. and nothing you can say to them will make them understand that none of that is necessary or correct. they shouldn't have even been able to do some of that. they can just type into the post box now, like a civilized person. "okay," they say, "but what is the phone number, though? because when i made my account my friend gave me this checklist and the first thing on it is to call the number."
so anyway we were on that teams call for almost three hours and they still don't have a handle on the new software
#original#boring work stuff#i am looking forward to being out of town during the week they have to do the actual complicated stuff lmfao
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Yandere who breaks into your home and just won't leave.
Tw. Stalking, Yandere, nsfw themes, blackmail
You came back one day from work, tired as hell, only to find some strange man sitting on your couch with some boxes scattered around him. You threatened to call the cops, to scream and get him out, but he remained strangely calm if not a little boyishly eager.
"H-heh, I knew you'd be kind of upset. Don't worry, I already paid your rent for the next few months. T-took a bit of time to scrape together, but you're worth it babe."
When you then persisted on throwing him out, he simply took out a folder with shaking hands and showed you a mile wide stack of compromising photos that he'd somehow taken while you were completely unaware.
"Don't worry. I won't release them unless you make me."
So now you lived with your stalker now turned roommate.
It was strange. You couldn't kick him out, so you were forced to tolerate him. At first, you thought you could just wait until he left so you could hastily change the locks, but he just never left. He worked on his computer saying he had a remote job, and all of the groceries were delivered to the door. You didn't even have a chance to try and stop him.
He would creep his way into your bed at night, cook you breakfast, and act like nothing was wrong.
Yandere who likes to take photos of you openly now.
He snaps his camera at you while you brush your teeth or put on shoes. Every angle of you has been painstakingly catalogued and printed out in the albums now scattered on every table. He especially liked having pictures of the two of you together.
"Hehe, I used to have to edit myself in..."
You really didn't like mulling over what that could've possibly meant, so you just chose to gloss over it.
Yandere who likes to bathe and pamper you. It's so domestic that it's almost sickening. He makes homemade soaps to lather your skin in, and he's not half bad at making scrubs either. He learns how to do your hair in every style you like, and if you like getting your nails done, he learns that too. You asked him if it was to help save you money, but his reply was... less than ideal.
"I just don't want anyone else to touch you," He said sheepishly as he stashed the strands of your hair to use for god knows what.
Yandere who doesn't stop you from going out and living your life, but the second you get home, he's all over you. he's like your second skin, and even though you try to push him off, he just keeps nuzzling into your neck and practically humping your leg.
"C'mon! I was so good today... I cleaned and everything! At least kiss me!"
He becomes more and more comfortable in your apartment, and you slowly start to live with it as well. After all, a clean home, good food, rent paid and he pampers you like crazy: It's not exactly the worst deal in the world. Plus, he hasn't actually made any moves on you yet. No, most days he sits there smiling at you with a dopey grin and an obvious, untouched bulge in his sweatpants. He never touches himself around you, so at least he had the decency to not do that.
All in all, he's not the worst thing that could've broken into your home. Sure, it's not what you'd ever have wanted, but your starting to grow fond of this strange intruder. After all, it's hard to not be just a little bit endeared when he's snuggling up close and seeking your warmth like it was the only thing on the planet that mattered.
#yandere x reader#tw yandere#yandere#x reader#yandere male#yandere x you#yandere concept#yandere drabble#yandere imagines#yandere stalker#yandere boyfriend
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You spent your childhood drifting through foster homes, with nothing but a worn photo of two little girls and a note on the back: Your sisters, Alexia and Alba. You never imagined that at 25, after starting a new job, you'd meet them, through your boss who was your sister's girlfriend.
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You’re two months in, and you’re still not sure how Olga Rios manages to be everywhere at once.
She’s answering emails while editing a reel. She’s sketching out a content calendar with one hand and handing you a matcha latte with the other because she remembers that you don’t do coffee, and that still surprises you a little.
Her loft-office smells like lavender and old books, even though the work is anything but quiet. There’s a gentle hum of creativity in the air half Spotify playlists, half the occasional bark from her dog, Nala, who has her own Instagram account with better engagement than most influencers you know.
You sit across from her at a wide wooden table covered in sticky notes, open laptops, two ring lights, and exactly one succulent that’s definitely fake but somehow not thriving. She’s got that kind of energy, Olga. She makes things grow, unless you're fake.
“You’re getting faster,” she says without looking up from her screen. Her voice is warm, honeyed, soft in the way that makes you want to lean closer, like she’s letting you in on something. “The captions today? I liked them. You’re starting to sound less like a brand, and more like a human. That’s good.”
You try not to grin too much, but it’s hard not to. Praise from Olga is never handed out like candy it’s measured, genuine, and usually comes with a Post-it note suggestion five minutes later, but when she says something’s good, she means it.
You glance at your own screen three drafts open, analytics humming in a separate tab. You're starting to notice patterns, pick up her shorthand, even anticipate when she’s about to say, “We can do better.” You’re getting the rhythm now. It feels like learning a dance. Awkward at first, but now... now you’re finding your footing.
“Do you ever sleep?” you ask, half-joking, because she’s been up since six and somehow still looks like she floated here on a sunbeam.
She laughs, a soft, melodic thing that fills the loft. “Only when a campaign’s not launching. So… not often. But I love this. I love seeing things come to life.” She sips her tea, eyes crinkling at the corners. “And I think you’re going to be really good at this.” Something about the way she says it makes your heart lift. A couple of month in, and you’re already certain, this isn’t just an internship. This is the beginning of something.
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It’s a quiet afternoon, the kind that settles like soft dust. The usual buzz of Olga’s workspace is muted no clients calling, no urgent edits, just the rhythmic clack of keys and the occasional sigh from Nala, curled up under the table like she owns the place.
You’re working side by side on a campaign for a small bookstore that’s trying to grow its online presence. Olga is fine-tuning the carousel post for tomorrow, and you’re adjusting the tone of the captions trying to thread that fine line between charming and trying-too-hard. It’s nice. Peaceful, even.
Olga breaks the silence without looking away from her screen. “Do you have anyone in your family who loves books like this?”
You pause. The cursor blinks in front of you. The question is soft, casual, not meant to dig but it hits something that feels like hollow wood. “I…” You swallow. “I don’t know.”
Olga looks up immediately.
You don’t say anything else at first. The words stall. It’s not that you haven’t talked about it before it’s just that people usually don’t ask, not really.
She tilts her head slightly, brows gently furrowed. Her voice lowers. “Hey. You okay?”
You nod automatically, out of habit. But then, without quite meaning to, you add, “I didn’t grow up with a family. I was left at a children’s home when I was a baby.”
The air in the room shifts not heavier, exactly, just… slower. Softer.
Olga doesn’t gasp, or overreact, or flood you with sympathy that feels too bright and uncomfortable. She just sets her phone down and gives you her full attention.
“I’m sorry,” she says. Quiet. Real.
You shrug, though it feels awkward. “It’s fine. I mean, it’s just… how it was. I don't really think about it much now. I just… didn’t have anyone to ask questions like that about.”
Olga nods slowly, like she’s letting your words settle inside her before responding. Then, gently “Well, just so you know any time you want to say, ‘My 'mentor' once told me this,’ you can go ahead and start with me.”
You let out a soft laugh, surprised.
She smiles, warm and a little wistful. “I know it’s not the same. But you’re not on your own here, okay? Not while you’re working with me.”
For a moment, you’re not thinking about metrics or content calendars or trending audios. You’re just sitting across from someone who sees you not just as an assistant or intern, but as a person.
The knock on the door is light but confident. You barely register it at first lost in the middle of scheduling posts for a new client who sells handmade ceramic earrings until Olga perks up with that unmistakable sparkle in her eyes.
She glances at the clock, then at you. “That’ll be Alexia.”
You blink. “Alexia…?”
Before she can answer, the door swings open and there she is.
Alexia Putellas. That Alexia Putellas.
Even if you don’t follow football religiously, her face is familiar. The captain, the icon, the Ballon d'Or winner. The kind of person whose highlight reels show up on your feed whether you asked for them or not. And now she’s in Olga’s office, wearing a simple hoodie, black joggers, and the kind of calm confidence that doesn't need to shout to be heard.
She smiles when she sees Olga, and everything about Olga posture, eyes, even the way she exhales shifts in the softest way. Like a house when someone finally comes home.
Olga stands, brushing a strand of hair from her face. “Ale, this is the one I’ve been telling you about.”
You freeze. Alexia’s gaze lands on you, kind and curious. “So you’re the apprentice,” she says, her accent smooth but clear, the kind that could make any sentence feel like a secret. “Olga’s been bragging.”
You blink again. “She—she has?”
Olga shrugs like it’s nothing. “Only a little. Maybe a lot.”
Alexia steps forward and offers her hand. “It’s really nice to meet you. I’ve heard you’re doing great work.”
You shake her hand her grip is strong, grounded and try not to look like you’re meeting a living legend, because you are. But she’s also incredibly down-to-earth, her presence somehow both intimidating and totally easy to be around.
Olga comes around the desk and gently bumps Alexia’s shoulder with hers. “She only comes here to raid my snack drawer and steal my playlists,” she says, teasing.
Alexia grins. “Also because I love you.”
There’s a beat of warmth between them that you feel rather than see, like watching sunlight fall through a window. “Do you want me to go?” you ask, half-joking.
Olga laughs. “No way. Ale's just here to say hi before training. You’re family now. Might as well meet the boss.”
Alexia raises an eyebrow. “I’m the boss?”
Olga winks. “In football, yes. In here, you just eat all my almonds.”
You watch them and feel something shift inside you again like the quiet redefinition of what ‘family’ might look like. Not always blood. Sometimes it's someone who believes in you. Someone who shares their space with you. Someone who brings light with them, just by walking through the door.
You glance at your screen, then back at the two of them.
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You invite Olga over to work because it feels normal now. Familiar. Safe, even.
It’s late almost midnight. You’ve both been bouncing between drafts for a new campaign and clips from a client shoot. Nala is curled up on your bed, half-snoring, and there’s the comfort of shared silence between you, broken only by the occasional sound of keys or a soft “Wait, this transition’s better” from Olga.
She gets up to stretch, as she often does when she’s been sitting too long. Paces a little. You barely notice her eyes scanning your bookshelf until you hear her voice. Low. Surprised. “…Wait. What?”
You glance over. She’s holding the small, slightly curled photo that’s been with you for as long as you can remember. You’ve had it since before you could read. Two little girls. One smiling, the other not so much.
You never knew their names. Never knew why the photo was with your things. It was just… always there. Something old, something yours, but now Olga is frozen, staring at it. “Why do you have this?” she asks, but the softness in her voice is already cracking.
You sit up straighter. “What do you mean?”
She turns the frame toward you, her eyes sharp now. “This is Alexia. And her sister Alba. This photo’s from when they were kids. I’ve never seen this before, how do you have this?.”
Your mouth opens slowly. “What?”
She steps closer. “Don’t play dumb.”
You shake your head, heart beginning to pound. “I’m not. I didn’t know who they were. I’ve had that photo since I was dropped off at the home. It was in a box with my baby things, I never even knew there names.”
Olga stares at you like she doesn’t believe you.
“I swear,” you say, voice trembling now. “I never knew. I didn’t know.”
But she isn’t hearing you. Not fully. Her jaw clenches. “So you mean to tell me this is just some random coincidence? You had a photo of my girlfriend and her sister, and you never knew?”
“I didn’t know!” you say louder now, trying to push through the panic rising in your chest. “Olga, I didn’t. They were just two girls in a picture I’ve had it since I was a baby! One of my foster parents told me they were my sisters once but I could never see the resemblance but I, I don't know I just could never throw it away, it was left with me for a reason, I couldn't-”
“You expect me to believe that?” she snaps interrupting, eyes suddenly fierce. “You knew who Alexia was. Everyone does. You had the photo, you applied for this job, and you never once thought to say a word.”
Your breath catches. “I didn’t even connect them to say something. Please why would I lie to you?”
But she’s shaking her head, stepping back, betrayal flashing in her eyes. “I trusted you. I let you into my space. My life. And now I find this?”
She turns, grabs the frame, and holds it tightly like she’s afraid it might disappear. You stand, reaching toward her helplessly. “Please, Olga. I’m not using you. I didn’t know. I swear to you.”
But her voice cuts through the air like glass. “Don’t say another word.”
She storms toward the door. “Olga—please!”
Her hand is on the knob already. “Do not tell anyone about this. Not Alexia. Not anyone. I mean it.” And just like that, she’s gone door slamming behind her, the photo still clutched in her hand.
You stand frozen in your tiny apartment, the silence left in her wake louder than anything you've ever heard.
You don’t remember sitting down. Just that suddenly you’re on the floor, legs folded awkwardly beneath you, and the room feels too still.
The candle you lit earlier is still flickering on the desk, scenting the air with warm vanilla, like any normal night, but everything has changed.
The photo’s gone. She took it.
You wrap your arms around yourself, unsure if you’re cold or just empty. Your hands are shaking. Your chest feels tight, like someone filled it with wet sand. You can’t stop replaying the last ten minutes Olga’s face, the anger, the betrayal in her voice. The way she looked at you like you were a stranger. Worse—like a lie.
“I didn’t know,” you whisper, to no one. Your own voice sounds small, cracked open. “I didn’t know.” But the silence doesn’t answer. It just presses in around you.
You don’t know how that photo ended up with your baby things. You never questioned it. It was just… part of the mystery of you. You’d imagined a hundred stories for it as a kid. A fantasy life you were left out of. Two unknown little girls you'd prop up when you had tea parties alone, two faces you talked to when no one else would listen but it never felt real. Not like this.
You wipe at your face and realise you’ve been crying without noticing, not loudly, just slow, quiet tears that slip out like steam from a cracked mug.
You try to work. To check a calendar, finish a caption, edit a reel, but everything blurs. Your fingers hover over the keys, useless. More tears come. Not steady, but suddenly rising without warning like waves. You press your hand to your mouth, like that might stop the sob that’s already too far out to swallow back.
You don’t know what hurts more: the fear that she won’t believe you or the feeling that she already doesn’t, and underneath that, a newer, stranger thought creeps in:
What if the photo really does mean something? What if you're connected to them in some way you never imagined?
You don’t know how to hold that. You don’t even know if you want to.
The night stretches long and quiet. You cry again, not always with sound. Sometimes just with breath that shakes too hard, or thoughts that spiral too fast. You think about messaging Olga. You almost do, but what would you say that you haven’t already begged her to believe?
Eventually, curled in bed, your chest aching and eyes sore, the exhaustion takes over.
You fall asleep and as your breathing evens out in the dark, the photo lives somewhere else now, in her hands.
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You shouldn’t go in to work, you know that.
You didn’t sleep more than a couple of hours, and when you looked in the mirror this morning, your reflection startled you, pale, red-eyed, shadows under your eyes like bruises that haven’t fully bloomed. You look like someone who’s been crying on and off for eight hours, because you have, but not going in make it look like you had something to hide, and you loved your job.
So you pull yourself together barely. Tie your hair back. Splash water on your face. Avoid your own eyes as you grab your bag and head out the door.
The walk to Olga’s office feels longer than usual. Everything’s sharp, the sound of your own footsteps, the brightness of the morning, the hum of people who don’t know your world just came apart. You keep your head down.
When you get there, the door is already unlocked, she was here already, you step inside slowly. Olga’s at her desk. Laptop open, headphones around her neck, Nala curled up on the rug at her feet. She looks up instinctively when you enter.
For a moment, nothing moves, then her eyes scan your face and she sees it. The red around your eyes. The way your shoulders hang. The hollow tiredness you didn’t have to fake.
Her mouth parts slightly, like she might say something, but she doesn’t. Instead, she looks back down at her screen.
You nod stiffly, not that she’s looking, and cross the room to your usual seat. Every movement feels brittle. Too careful. You place your laptop on the table as quietly as you can, like noise might crack what’s left between you.
You don’t speak. Neither does she.
The silence is different today. Not the peaceful kind. It’s tight. Pressurised. You can feel her not looking at you, can feel her tension radiating from behind her screen like heat.
Your stomach twists. You open your laptop. Try to focus on the client folder. Everything blurs.
You can’t stop thinking about the way she stormed out. The photo in her hand. The fear in her eyes. The disbelief in her voice.
And now, she’s right there but she may as well be a hundred miles away. You steal a glance at her. She’s typing something. Her jaw is tight. Her ponytail is a little messy, like she didn’t sleep well either.
You want to say something. Apologise again. Explain again. Beg if you have to, but the air around her says not to.
So you sit in the quiet. Trying to work. Trying not to cry. Trying not to lose the one place that ever felt like it might become home.
You’re halfway through pretending to work when the door clicks open behind you. Your heart stops, you know that sound now. You know who it is before she says a word.
“Hola,” Alexia calls out gently, cheerful but quiet, as if she’s stepping into a place where someone might be asleep or upset.
You stay frozen for a half second too long, then shift your body slightly in your chair. Not enough to seem rude, but just enough to make your back the most visible part of you.
Don’t make eye contact. Don’t breathe too loudly. Don’t be more than necessary.
Olga looks up, and the change in her voice is immediate.
“Ale…”
Alexia steps in fully now, holding a brown paper bag and a takeaway cup tray. “You were tossing all night,” she says softly, “so I figured you could use some sugar and espresso.” She walks over, places the treats beside Olga with care. “I got that oat milk one you like. And a croissant, because I know you never remember to eat when you’re stressed.”
Her voice is so easy. So full of quiet affection. It makes your throat tighten. Olga stares at the bag for a moment before letting out a breath you didn’t know she was holding. She smiles, faint but real, and says, “Thanks.”
Alexia leans down and kisses her cheek. It’s a small, domestic gesture. One that would’ve felt sweet yesterday.
Now it’s a stone in your stomach.
They talk for a minute, low and warm too low for you to hear clearly. It sounds like a small exchange about sleep, and schedules, and if Olga’s eaten yet. You keep your eyes fixed on your screen, even though the words are swimming and nothing’s going in.
Then Alexia shifts, you feel her glance in your direction. “Hey,” she says kindly, and you can hear the smile in her voice. “Nice to see you again.”
You muster every scrap of civility you can find and turn your head slightly, just enough to meet her eyes for a breath of a second.
You smile a tiny, exhausted curve of your mouth and lift your hand in a half-wave.
She nods back, just as polite. Just as unaware. “Bueno,” she says, brushing her hand against Olga’s arm. “I’ll leave you both to it.”
Olga doesn’t look at you as Alexia turns to go. She just murmurs a soft, “Thank you,”
"How do you take your coffee?" Alexia stops at your desk, she swallow as you look up at her, Olga watching intently.
"I um. I don't drink coffee"
"How come? Don't like it?"
"No.. I um, I can't have caffeine at all.. I um, its complicated but I have a heart condition so I-"
"My papa was the same," she nodded and your heart pulled, Olga must of sensed it and she spoke
"Amor, Y/N and I are very busy"
Alexia held her hands up, bid you both a goodbye, Olga eyed you before she watches her leave.
The door clicks shut. You exhale through your nose, slow and quiet.
Olga says nothing. She unwraps the croissant with deliberate care, and takes a small bite, her eyes still on the table, on her work, on anywhere but you and the silence that follows is full of everything neither of you are ready to say.
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Olga doesn’t go straight home after work, she drives in silence. No music. No podcast. Just the low hum of the road beneath her tires and the sound of her own pulse in her ears.
She should’ve gone home, she doesn’t go to the flat she shares with Alexia, or to a café to decompress, or even to the beach where she sometimes walks when her mind needs quiet.
She drives, to a quiet cul-de-sac on the outskirts of Mollet, where the streetlights buzz low and orange, and the houses are tucked behind tired gardens and climbing vines. She parks without turning off the engine at first. Just sits there, heart tapping a steady, uneven rhythm behind her ribs.
Eli’s car is in the driveway. She’s home. Alone. Just like Olga knew she would be. Olga takes the photo from the glove compartment. It’s still in its cracked, worn frame. She hasn’t looked at it since that night in the apartment. She doesn’t need to. She remembers it perfectly.
She breathes in. Breathes out. Kills the engine.
Then knocks on the door, it opens almost immediately, Eli answers the door in slippers and a cardigan.
“Olga?” Eli’s face brightens with warm surprise. “Qué haces aquí, cariño? Alexia isn’t with you?”
“No,” Olga says quietly. “She’s at home.”
Eli frowns a little. “Is everything alright?”
“I just…” Olga hesitates, standing just beyond the threshold. Then says, “Can I come in?”
Eli steps aside, instantly serious. “Of course, hija. You’re always welcome.”
The house smells the same as always lavender, old wood, something faintly sweet in the kitchen. A candle flickers on the sideboard. Family photos line the shelves, birthdays, holidays, the girls growing older in frames that haven’t moved in years.
They sit in the living room. Olga perches on the edge of the couch, she doesn’t take off her coat, her fingers are tight around something in her bag. Eli watches her closely now, concern pinching the corners of her mouth.
“I have to ask you something,” Olga says, voice steady but low. “And if it’s nothing then we never have to talk about it again. I’ll forget it. We’ll both forget it.”
Eli nods, cautious. “Okay…” Eli’s brow furrows. “What is it?”
Olga doesn’t speak. She just reaches into her bag and pulls out the frame. Holds it gently in both hands and turns it around. Eli’s breath stops halfway through her chest. The change in her is instant so small and devastating you’d miss it if you weren’t looking for it. Her hands freeze on her knees. Her face goes white, then pale-blue cold, like all the warmth was drained out in an instant.
Her lips part, but no sound comes. The silence says everything. Olga watches her. Doesn’t blink. Eli’s hand, which had been loosely curled around her teacup, goes limp. Her entire face drains of colour not just pale, but hollow, like a piece of her just dropped through the floor.
Olga doesn’t move. She watches the shift. The silence that thickens around it.
“Where.. Where did you get this?”
Olga doesn’t answer, she just says, “You know who this has come from don’t you”
“I’ve not seen that in twenty five years,” Her voice catches, “After.. After” Olga nods once, jaw tight. Her throat burns with questions, but she asks none of them and still, Eli presses gently, almost begging, “Olga. Please. Where did this come from?”
“It’s true isn’t it,” Olga whispers. “You have another daughter”
Eli closes her eyes. A beat. A breath and then, very softly, very brokenly, “Yes” Olga’s throat tightens. Eli’s voice is barely there. “We left that with her”
“I don’t understand how you could do it!” Eli sits frozen on the couch, hands clasped tightly in her lap. She looks older than she did twenty minutes ago. Like every word being spoken is peeling something back she’s kept buried too long. “You gave up your own daughter,” Olga spits, gesturing wildly to the photo still lying on the coffee table like it’s cursed. “And just carried on like she didn’t exist? How?”
“I didn’t carry on,” Eli says, voice low and shaking. “Don’t you dare think it didn’t break me.”
“Then why?” Olga demands. “Why didn’t you fight for her? Why didn’t you tell anyone?” Olga’s voice cracks, sharp with disbelief, her hands clenched at her sides. She’s standing now, breath short, pacing Eli’s living room like she’s trying to outrun what she just heard. She hadn’t planned to stay only to ask one question, but the answer shattered everything.
Eli is curled forward on the couch, her hands white-knuckled in her lap, her eyes wide and shining. “You don’t understand what it was like,” she says quietly, pleading. “She was born with a heart condition. We didn’t know what it was at first, she was so small always struggling to breathe. She couldn’t even cry properly with out her lips turning blue.”
Olga stares at her, hollowed out. “So you gave her away.”
“I thought she’d get help,” Eli whispers. “We couldn’t afford the surgeries. We didn’t have insurance or savings, I wasn’t working at the time. My parents wouldn’t help. We thought… we thought someone else could save her. I loved her enough to let her go.”
Olga’s breath catches, just for a second, because she knows Eli means that. And still, it’s not enough. “She grew up in multiple children’s home,” she says bitterly. “With no one.” Eli flinches like she’s been slapped. “You’re the one who taught Alexia how to be gentle,” Olga says, voice shaking. “You tell everyone family is everything. You cry at Christmas commercials, for God’s sake. And now I find out that there was another child and you just… gave her up?”
Eli’s eyes are glassy. Her face is pale. “You think that was easy for me?” she says, hoarse. “You think I didn’t wake up every night for years hearing her cry even though I hadn’t seen her since she was—”
“Don’t,” Olga snaps, tears brimming. “Don’t make yourself the victim in this. I think about her alone every night now,” Olga goes on, tears clinging to her lashes. “I see her sitting in that place, wondering why no one ever came back for her. Why her parents the people who are meant to love her unconditionally let her go.”
“Stop,” Eli whispers. “Please, stop.”
Olga stares at her, breathing hard, voice strangled. “And you never told Alexia. Or Alba.”
Eli looks down at the floor like it might save her. “They were so young they didn’t need to know, have that burden.”
“You gave up your baby,” Olga says, gesturing to the photo on the table between them. “You let her disappear into the system, and you never looked for her. Never even told your daughters they had a sister.”
“I didn’t let her disappear,” Eli says, voice shaking. “She was born sick. Her heart Olga, she needed something me and her father couldn’t give her! We did what we thought was best for her!”
Olga stops in her tracks, eyes wide with pain. “So you just gave her away and pretended she never existed?”
“She would’ve died if I’d kept her!” Eli cries. “We couldn’t afford treatment we thought a hospital might place her with someone who could help. It wasn’t abandonment, it was the only mercy I had left to give her.”
Olga’s voice rises. “And you’ve told no one. For twenty-five years. No one.”
Eli’s hands shake now. “Because I didn’t want this. This moment. This shame. This wreckage.”
“Well, it’s here now,” Olga whispers. “She grew up in a children’s home, Eli. Alone. She had no one, she doesn’t understand the meaning of family, I don’t even think she’s ever felt what it’s like to be loved. Do you understand that?”
Eli explodes raw, desperate. “Leave it alone!” The words come like a slap, louder than anything yet. “Just—shut up!” she screams. “You don’t understand what it cost me! You don’t get to stand there judging when you weren’t there!”
The front door slams open. “What the hell is going on?” Alba’s voice slices through the room like lightning. She’s standing in the doorway, flushed from running, alarmed and out of breath. “I could hear you both shouting from the street.” She looks from Eli, who is crumbling in her chair, to Olga, who’s barely holding herself upright. “What the hell is going on?”
Olga turns away, shoulders hunched, face blotched with tears. She’s trying to breathe, but she can’t steady herself. She just shakes her head, mutely.
Eli goes silent, too. Like she forgot anyone else existed. Her face folds in on itself caught red-handed by her own daughter. “Why were you yelling at her?” Alba asks, stepping in, confused and suddenly afraid. “What did she do?”
“She didn’t do anything,” Eli croaks out, broken.
“Then what—?” Alba’s voice wavers. “Why is everyone crying?” No one answers.
Olga breathes in sharply through her nose, sinks onto the armrest of the sofa, her shoulders shaking, barely holding in the sobs now.
Alba doesn’t understand what this is, what it means but something in her bones tells her exactly what to do. She pulls her phone from her pocket, thumb trembling as she finds her sister’s name. She steps back into the hallway and presses the call.
Alexia answers almost instantly. “Albs?”
Her voice is warm, calm, but Alba’s isn’t.
“Ale,” she says quickly, “you need to come to mamá’s. Now.”
“What’s wrong?”
“I—I don’t know, but Olga’s here, and she’s crying, and mamá’s… something’s wrong. I think it’s big mamá was screaming at her I heard her from the street”
There’s a pause. Then, “I’m on my way,” Alexia says, sharp and sure. Alba hangs up, heart pounding, and returns to the living room where the air feels too heavy to breathe. Olga is quiet now, face buried in her hands. Eli sits motionless and Alba stands between them, caught in the middle of a secret she doesn’t yet understand only knowing that whatever it is, her sister will make sense of it.
The knock is soft, but the tension in the room makes it sound like thunder. Alba leaps to open the door, her heart in her throat. Alexia steps inside, face creased with concern, eyes sharp, already scanning the room like something in her gut told her this wasn’t just a misunderstanding.
She’s still in joggers and a hoodie, her hair tied back loosely, eyes sharp and searching. She takes one look at her sister and then scans the room freezes when she sees her mother, crumpled on the sofa. Her gaze lands first on her mother, who’s slumped on the sofa, visibly shaken, hands clasped tightly in her lap like she’s bracing for something else to hit. Then her eyes flick to Olga standing stiff and silent by the window, her back half-turned, her coat still on.
“Olga?” Alexia says gently, walking toward her. Olga doesn't turn. Her arms are crossed tight, like she's holding herself together by sheer will.
“What happened?” Alexia asks again, slower now, as her eyes dart back to her mother. “Is someone hurt? What—?”
She steps closer, reaches out, instinctively placing her hand on Olga’s arm but Olga flinches. Not dramatically. Just enough and then she pulls away. Alexia’s breath catches. She stares at her, confused hurt.
“Olga…” No response.
Alexia’s eyes flick between them again her partner and her mother, both visibly wrecked.
“Will someone please tell me what’s going on?” she says, louder now, tension rising in her voice. “Mamá? Olga? Talk to me.” Still, no one speaks.
Olga finally moves. Slowly, she reaches for the door, her hand trembling just slightly. “I need some air,” she mutters, almost to herself.
Eli rises instinctively. “Olga please, wait—”
Olga stops, her hand still on the doorknob. She turns slowly and what’s on her face is something Alexia’s never seen before. Grief. Betrayal. Disgust. “I can’t even look at you right now,” Olga says, her voice hollow, strained. Her eyes fixed on Eli, who seems to shrink under the weight of it. “You are not the person I thought you were.”
Alexia’s breath hitches, heart pounding. She looks at her mother, sees the quiet devastation spreading across her face, and she’s suddenly terrified. “Wait—Olga, please—just… what happened?” Alexia pleads, reaching after her again, but the door opens and Olga is gone.
Silence crashes back in. Alexia stands frozen, her hand still in the air, her heart breaking without knowing why. She turns to her mother. “Mamá,” she says, voice trembling. “What did you do?”
Eli doesn’t answer, she sinks down slowly, like the weight of those words took her legs out from under her. She covers her mouth with her hands, eyes spilling over with silent tears.
And Alexia stuck between the two most important women in her life—feels the walls close in, a thousand questions pressing against her chest. Alba looks at her sister, whose hands are balled into fists at her sides. Alexia is staring at the door, stunned, shaken, she’s never seen Olga like that. Never seen her walk away and whatever happened here, whatever broke her, Alexia knows it isn’t just something they can fix. It’s something that changed everything.
The cool night air hits Olga’s face like a slap sharp and biting. She walks until the porch ends, then stops, clutching the railing with both hands, trying to breathe past the chaos inside her.
She hears the door creak open behind her, soft footsteps following.
“Olga,” Eli calls gently. “Please. Just come inside. Let’s talk, mi amor.” Olga doesn’t turn. Her knuckles are white on the railing. A long silence stretches between them.
Then quietly, without venom, only pain Olga speaks. “Please tell me… their father at least knew.”
Eli stands still behind her, silence falling heavy again. Then a nod.
“Yes,” Eli whispers. “He knew.”
Olga finally turns, slow and rigid, her eyes burning. “And he still let her go?”
Eli’s voice cracks. “He didn’t want to. God, Olga, he held her all night the day she was born. He cried like I’d never seen before, he just he knew we couldn’t give to her what she needed. We didn’t have the money, or the support. We thought it was the only way she had a chance. Giving her up broke him Olga, he was never the same after that day, his spirit, his health, everything”
Olga presses her lips together, shaking her head, tears gathering again. “They lost him when they were barely out of childhood, god Alba was a child” she says hoarsely. Eli nods, tears now running freely. Olga blinks through the tears. “So you gave away your baby and because of that, you think it eventually killed your husband.”
Eli swallows a sob, covering her mouth, Olga turns away again, shoulders rising and falling, behind her, Eli stands on the threshold exposed, crumbling and inside the house, through the windows, Alexia is still watching, not understanding everything, but beginning to feel how deep this fracture runs.
The living room is too quiet when they step back inside. Eli gently closes the door behind Olga, whose eyes are red and raw. She doesn’t move far from the entryway. Her arms are crossed tightly again, a self-made cage.
Alexia is still standing, tense, waiting. Alba sits curled up in the corner of the sofa, chewing the inside of her cheek, a nervous habit from childhood.
Eli breathes in deep like the confession she’s about to make might crush her lungs if she doesn’t hold herself steady. “Sit down,” she says softly, looking to both daughters.
Alexia hesitates. “Mamá, what is this?”
“Please,” Eli says. “Just… sit.” Reluctantly, Alexia lowers herself onto the arm of the sofa, her eyes locked on Olga on the way she trembles. She’s crying again, and that frightens her more than anything. Eli moves to stand in front of them, hands clasped like she’s in church, waiting to confess. “I never thought I’d have to say this out loud,” she begins, voice shaking. “I thought I had buried it deep enough that none of you would ever know.”
Alba shifts uncomfortably. “What do you mean?”
Eli’s lips tremble, but she goes on. “You had a sister. A younger one, she was born 3 years after you Alba”
The silence detonates. Alba blinks. “What? You… you’re joking, right?” she asks, glancing at Alexia and then back to Eli. “Is this some weird joke or—?”
“No,” Eli says. “It’s not a joke.”
Alba’s face falls. “No. No, that can’t be true. I don’t remember—”
“You wouldn’t,” Eli cuts in gently. “You were just a toddler, Alba. We, your father and I, gave her up. She was born with a heart condition. We couldn’t afford the care she needed. We thought it was the only way she’d survive.”
Alba stares at her, blinking hard like the words won’t compute. “No,” she whispers again. “No. That’s not—you wouldn’t do that. You’re not like that.”
“I did,” Eli says, her voice cracking. “We made the only choice we thought we had.”
Alba suddenly covers her mouth, her eyes wide and brimming with tears. She makes a small, broken sound as if something inside her just split clean down the middle.
Alexia, meanwhile, is still too still, she stares at her mother, jaw tight, eyes sharp with disbelief. “You lied to us,” she says, flat and cold. “Our whole lives.”
Eli looks up, stricken. “Alexia—”
“You let us grow up thinking we were the only ones. Thinking that Dad died with no secrets. That we came from love. From honesty.”
“You did,” Eli pleads. “I loved you every day of your lives.”
Alexia stands suddenly, shaking her head. “But not her.”
“No,” Eli whispers, ashamed. “Not like I should have.”
Alba sobs now, curling into herself on the sofa, shaking. Olga breaks down again. She tries to wipe her face but can’t stop the tears. “I didn’t want this,” she says hoarsely. “I didn’t want to be the one who broke you. I’m so sorry.”
Alexia looks at her, confused, wounded. “You knew?”
Olga opens her mouth, but no sound comes out. “I found out by accident,” she finally manages. “I-I—God, Alexia, I didn’t want to know.”
Alexia’s eyes narrow slightly, not in cruelty but in disbelief. She looks like someone just pulled the rug from beneath her entire identity.
And still, Alba cries softly in the corner, whispering, “A little sister... we had a little sister…” And across from her, Olga thinks of you. Alone in your apartment. Crying into the quiet, not knowing that the truth is finally breaking wide open—and that it’s going to change everything.
The room feels heavy, thick with silence and unsaid things. Alba sits on the sofa, knees pulled close to her chest, eyes fixed on the floor. She doesn’t cry anymore just quiet. Unreachable, curled inward, eyes fixed on the floor, refusing comfort when Olga cautiously reaches out.
“No,” Alba murmurs, voice barely audible. “Not now.” Olga pulls back, defeated, sitting down quietly a few feet away.
Alexia, however, is a storm, pacing, fists clenched, voice rising, “How could you know and say nothing?” she snaps at Olga, eyes burning. “You found out and just kept it to yourself? Do you have any idea how long we lived in the dark? How much this changes everything?”
Olga meets her gaze, her own eyes shining with tears. “I didn’t want to say anything until I was sure. Until I spoke to Eli and confirmed it. Like you, I had a hard time believing it myself.”
Eli steps forward, voice pleading. “Alexia, please. Olga didn’t keep this from you to hurt you—”
Alexia was now directing her frustration at her mother, firing questions at Eli with a mix of desperation and anger.
“Why didn’t you tell us? How could you keep this from us for so long? Why didn’t you try harder? What about Dad, did he know everything? Did you ever try to find her again? What—what was her name?”
Eli swallows, unable to meet any of Alexia’s eyes. “I—I don’t know,” she admits finally. “We… we thought it was better to keep it quiet. We gave her a name but the home just called her ‘Baby Girl.’ It’s probably been changed”
Alexia stops pacing, stunned by the silence, the gaps in answers.
Eli has tears pooling again. Alexia looks at Olga, whose face is streaked with fresh tears. Then Alba remains silent, distant, lost somewhere inside herself. The room is fractured everyone aching, separated by secrets and grief, caught in a web of loss no one can untangle yet, and Alexia can’t see her family healing from this.
The room is heavy with silence. Alba hasn’t moved from her place on the sofa, arms wrapped tightly around herself. She’s staring into some unseen distance, tears dried on her cheeks, her expression blank.
Alexia still stands, breath shallow, torn between betrayal and sorrow.
Then, quietly, she moves.
She walks over and sits down beside Olga, not saying a word. The weight of her presence is everything and nothing at all. Her shoulder barely brushes Olga’s. The contact is light, but to Olga, it’s enough to keep her breathing.
“I need to see her,” Alexia says suddenly, softly. “I need to know she was real.”
Her voice cracks on the last word. Eli blinks, startled. “What?”
“A photo,” Alexia says, turning slowly to her mother. “Do you have one? Anything?”
Eli stares at her daughters one silent and broken, the other just barely holding herself together then nods. She disappears into the hallway. For a long while, the only sounds are Alba’s sniffles and the soft creak of the floorboards as Eli moves in the other room. Then she returns. In her arms is an old, battered shoebox edges torn, the lid soft with age.
She kneels in front of the girls and opens it slowly, like unsealing a grave.
Inside theres a small bundle of ultrasound scans, worn at the corners, black-and-white ghosts of a baby not yet born. A tiny, creased hospital card with faded blue ink: "Baby Girl Putellas Segura." Her weight. Her length. The time she arrived. A white card stamped with one perfect footprint and one tiny handprint, pink and curled like a blossom. And then the photos.
There aren’t many. The first few show Eli and her husband in the hospital room, holding a swaddled newborn between them. They're smiling, tentatively, cautiously, but with something fragile and full in their eyes.
In the next few, the smiles are gone. Eli looks down at the baby with red-rimmed eyes. Her husband kisses the baby’s forehead, his face twisted into something halfway between a smile and a sob.
In the last photo, Eli is no longer holding the baby. She is standing by the hospital bed, arms wrapped tightly around herself. Her husband has one hand on her back, but his other is empty. They both look like people trying to memorise the little girl on the bed before it’s taken away.
No one speaks. Olga covers her mouth with her hand, tears falling silently, the pain was radiating from the photos.
Alexia reaches forward, touching the photo gently with her fingertips, like she’s afraid it might disappear. “She looks like, us,” she whispers. “Her nose. The shape of her eyes.”
Eli nods, wiping her face. “I only looked at these once,” she says. “Then I put them in a box. I never looked at them again. I couldn’t.”
Alexia glances at her mother eyes still confused, still hurt but quieter now. “She was real,” she says, mostly to herself. “She was ours.” next to her, Olga presses her hand against her chest, trying to breathe through the ache.
Alexia holds the photo delicately, as though it might crumble if she breathes too hard. Her thumb hovers over the image her parents, younger and terrified, their arms newly empty.
She glances sideways. Alba hasn’t moved. She’s still curled in on herself, her chin on her knees, her arms wrapped tight like a shield. Her eyes are open but empty, staring into the middle of the floor, if she’s heard anything, it’s impossible to tell.
“Alba…” Alexia says softly. No response, she turns more fully, holding the photo just a little closer in Alba’s direction. “Do you want to see her?” Her voice is quiet, careful. Not pushing. Just offering.
Alba doesn’t answer. For a long moment, she doesn’t even blink, but then her eyes flicker, just barely, toward the photo in Alexia’s hand. She doesn’t reach for it. Doesn’t move, but that one glance is enough to crack something.
Alexia sees it. She leans a little closer. “She looks like you,” she whispers. “When you were little.”
Alba’s lower lip trembles. Her breath shudders out of her like it physically hurts to take in air. “Why didn’t she get to stay?” she says finally, voice fragile and small.
Eli’s breath catches in her throat. She opens her mouth to answer but no words come. Olga whispers for her, “She was sick, your parents did what they thought was best for her”
Alba turns slowly toward the photo, then reaches out, her hand trembling as she takes it. She looks at it for a long time and then, in a barely-there voice that cracks in the middle, she whispers, “She had Papa's chin.”
It breaks Eli. She covers her mouth, sobbing quietly, and Olga gently moves to wrap her arm around her. Alba doesn’t cry. She just keeps looking, at the baby, at the past, at the sister she never got to love. 🧑🧑🧒🧒
You sit on the floor of your apartment, your laptop closed on the coffee table, long forgotten. The untouched sandwich from earlier is still in its wrapper, resting near your elbow. You haven’t moved much since you got home. Haven’t wanted to.
The apartment feels emptier than usual. Not just quiet but hollow. Like something inside you cracked open when Olga left, and now the silence has a place to live.
You’ve replayed that moment over and over. The look in her eyes when she saw the photo. The way she snapped. The disbelief. The accusation.
You’d tried to speak, to explain, but she wouldn’t let you. Wouldn’t hear you. She thought you’d used her. That you’d known. That the photo meant something you’d kept hidden, but you hadn’t known. You still don’t know.
That picture had always been a strange little mystery to you. Left in the file the home had when you were a baby. Just two smiling girls, a sense of something warm and long-lost. You’d stared at it often growing up. Not because you knew who they were but because they felt like a possibility. Like maybe, once, someone had loved you and now that photo’s gone. Torn out of your hands and taken into someone else’s truth.
You wipe at your eyes again, but they won’t stop watering. Your throat aches from holding back sobs that keep forcing their way through.
You don’t know what’s happening.
You don’t know what to do.
You just keep sitting there, waiting for a knock that might never come. A message. A clue. Something, but there’s nothing. Just the faint hum of your fridge and the quiet ache in your chest.
It’s almost midnight by the time you stop pacing your apartment. Your hands shake as you hold the phone. You scroll past a few names none feel right. Not now. Not after everything.
Then your thumb hovers over hers. Patri 💕
You haven’t told anyone about her. Not even Olga. It was easier that way kept things uncomplicated. Casual. Hidden, but now… nothing feels simple or safe.
You press call.
She picks up quickly. “Hey,” she says, voice warm and soft.“Everything okay, you never call this late?”
You don’t answer right away. Your throat’s too tight. “Can you come over?” you manage. “Please?”
She hears it. Whatever's in your voice. “I’m on my way.”
You don’t move from your spot near the window until you hear her knock. When you open the door, she doesn’t ask questions. She just sees your face red-eyed, exhausted, cracked wide open and steps in with arms that don’t hesitate.
You fall into her without a word. Her hand runs gently down your back, grounding you.
Minutes pass before you pull away, wiping your face with your sleeve. “I’m sorry,” you whisper. “I just… I didn’t know who else to call.”
Patri nods, patient. “You can always call me. You know that.”
You sit on the couch. She sits beside you, close but not crowding you. Waiting. You breathe in deep. Out. And then, “I think…” You pause, heart hammering. “I think Alexia Putellas is my sister.”
Silence. Patri doesn’t laugh. Doesn’t flinch. Her brow furrows, but her eyes stay soft.
You look down at your hands. “There was this photo. Two girls. I had it my whole life it was left with me when I was dropped off at the children's home. I never knew who they were” You shake your head, tears rising again. “Olga saw it and lost it. Thought I’d known all along it was Alexia and her sister. Took the photo. Stormed out. She hasn’t answered my messages. I don’t know what’s happening. I don’t even know if I’m going crazy.”
Patri takes your hand in both of hers. “You’re not crazy,” she says softly. “And even if it sounds impossible… it might not be.”
“I don’t want anything from them,” you say quickly. “I didn’t even know. I just… I want to understand. Why I was left. Who I was before I was just… no one.”
You’re crying again, but you don’t try to stop it now, Patri squeezes your hand, steady and sure, you don’t say anything, but when you lean your head on her shoulder, it’s the first moment you’ve felt even a little less alone.
Patri’s fingers thread gently through yours, her thumb brushing your knuckles. Your eyes are swollen, throat raw, barely holding it together. Then, in the quiet, she leans a little closer. Her voice barely above a whisper, warm and solid against the chaos inside you. “You’re not no one to me.”
It stops your breath, you lift your head just slightly, eyes meeting hers. There’s no pity in her face. No fear. Just quiet certainty.
“You hear me?” she says again, firmer now. “You’re not nothing. I don’t care if you don’t know who you were before. I care who you are now and I see you.”
Your eyes fill again, but this time, the tears feel different. Not jagged or spiralling just full.
You nod. A small one. But it’s real. “Thank you,” you manage, your voice breaking.
Patri leans in, gently presses her lips to your forehead. “We’ll figure this out,” she says. “Together. Okay?” And in that moment, just for a heartbeat, you believe her. 🧑🧑🧒🧒
The sun creeps in slowly through your curtains, tracing thin golden lines across the floor. You barely slept, but with Patri beside you, the night didn’t feel quite as endless. She stirs first, brushing a strand of hair from your face. You open your eyes to find her watching you, soft and steady.
“Come on,” she says gently. “I’m taking you to breakfast before we face the world.”
You want to protest, you don’t look like yourself, your stomach is a knot, and the idea of being in public right now feels impossible but she’s already pulling the covers back and reaching for your pre hung up work clothes like it’s not up for debate.
So you let her.
The café is small, tucked on a quiet corner near the training grounds and your office with Olga. No jerseys, no fans. Just warmth, fresh bread, and the clink of mugs being set on tables.
You sit across from her, both of you nursing hot drinks. Patri tears a croissant in half and sets one piece on your plate without asking after you said you didn't want anything.
“You don’t have to talk,” she says, watching you. “Just eat something. One small normal thing before everything gets… complicated again.”
You nod, barely able to hold her gaze, but grateful, after a few bites that were dry, tasteless in your mouth, you whisper, “What if she never forgives me?”
Patri doesn’t hesitate. “Then she doesn’t deserve to be in your life." You blink at her. “She’s hurt,” Patri adds, softening. “I get that, but if she can’t believe you, if she won’t even try to, then that’s on her. Not you.”
You glance down at your coffee. “It just… it meant something working with her, i thought I finally had… something that made sense.”
Patri reaches across the table, hooks her pinky around yours. “You do,” she says. “You have me and I’m not going anywhere.”
You nod, holding onto that, even if everything else is spinning, this feels real. When you check the time, you realise it's almost time to head in. Patri downs the rest of her coffee and stands.
She pulls you up with her, smooths your jacket at the shoulders, and presses a quick kiss to your temple. “You’ve got this,” she whispers. “Text me when you’re done. No matter how it goes.”
You nod. She squeezes your hand once before heading toward the training facility down the block. You turn toward the office. Stomach heavy. Heart heavier but not quite as alone.
You step away from the café, the last of Patri’s warmth still clinging to your jacket like a hug that hasn't fully let go. The morning air is cool, quiet. You take a breath, try to let the calm hold for just a second longer. Then you see her, Olga, she’s over the road, leaning against the side of a closed bookstore, arms crossed tight, shoulders hunched like she hasn’t slept either. You freeze mid-step, her eyes are on you, it hits you like a punch. She saw. She was watching, maybe the whole time.
You don’t know what she saw exactly, but in your gut it doesn’t matter whatever flicker of healing you’d just started to believe in crumbles under your feet.
She looks up, your eyes meet, her expression doesn’t shift. No relief. No kindness. No fury either just something unreadable, and somehow that’s worse.
You almost step toward her, almost say her name, but the shame wraps around your ribs like wire. The same helpless, spiralling thought churns, I’ve made it worse.
You lower your eyes, quicken your pace, and cross the street without another glance back, by the time you reach the office door, your hands are shaking again.
The walls have started to ease back up, the ache in your chest back in full force and the photo, the truth, all of it… still just out of reach.
The office is cold when you step in, or maybe it’s just you. Either way, you don’t take off your coat.
You slide into your desk, boot up your laptop, and stare at the screen without seeing a word. You hear her before you see her, the soft click of the door, the measured steps. She moves past without a glance. You hold your breath.
She settles into her chair, the rustle of fabric as she crosses one leg over the other, her keys clinking gently on her desk. Then after what feels like an entire hour folded into thirty seconds "How did you meet Patri?"
Her voice is calm, almost too calm, you glance over. She’s not looking at you, her fingers are gently tapping her mug, as though it’s just any other morning.
You swallow. “I, um…” Your throat is dry. “I met her in a bar. A few weeks ago. After work.”
You watch her profile, trying to read her, but she gives you nothing.
“She didn’t know who I was,” you add. “To you. I didn’t tell her. At first”
Silence, you brace for something accusation, coldness, anything, but all she says is, “Do you love her?”
The question stuns you, not because you hadn’t thought about it, but because you never expected her to ask. “I don’t know,” you say honestly. “Maybe. It’s a bit early for that yet. We've not even had sex”
Another beat of silence. Then Olga nods, just once, like she’s filing it away somewhere.
You sit there, confused, the tension still knotted in your chest, but she doesn’t push. Doesn’t snap, just sips from her mug and opens her inbox like this conversation never happened and somehow… that quiet is the most painful sound of all.
The silence between you stretches thin but neither of you moves.
You pretend to work, Olga pretends not to notice your shaking hands. Then she speaks, her voice soft. Measured. “I spoke to Alexia’s mami.”
You freeze, your cursor blinks on the screen, forgotten.
You turn slowly, but she’s not looking at you. Her eyes are locked on the mug in her hands, fingers curling tight around the ceramic like she needs to anchor herself to something.
Your voice barely makes it out. “You did?”
She nods once. “Yeah.”
You wait. The silence stretches again, heavy with everything she hasn’t said yet. “I showed her the photo,” Olga continues, still soft. “The one you had. She went pale. I didn’t even have to ask anything. I knew just by her reaction to the photo.”
A breath shudders out of you. “I didn’t know,” you whisper. “Olga, I swear to you—”
“I know,” she cuts in.
Your eyes snap to hers, she's finally looking at you and in that look is a whole storm grief, disbelief, pain, exhaustion.
“You were just a baby,” she says quietly. “Left with a photo and nothing else.”
You blink back fresh tears. “Then it’s true.”
Olga nods, slowly. “They gave you up, because of your heart, because they couldn’t afford the care you needed. Your—” She pauses, breath catching. “—your father… he knew. He died when Alexia and Alba were teenagers.”
You cover your mouth with your hand, the ache in your chest pulsing to life again.
“They loved you,” Olga says. “You were their baby. I saw the pictures. The scans. A card with your footprints. They held you. Smiled with you.” She swallows hard, and now it’s her turn to look away. “But they left the hospital without you because they thought that would give you the best chance in life.”
The room is still. The weight of twenty-five years settling over your shoulders like fog.
You whisper, “What was my name?”
Olga’s voice trembles. “They didn't get to name you.”
You close your eyes, it doesn’t feel real and yet it explains everything.
Olga stands. You watch her cross the room slowly, quietly, something reverent in the way she moves as if she’s carrying something sacred and she is.
She reaches into her bag, then gently places the photo frame down on your desk in front of you. The same one that had once been your only clue to anything real. It feels heavier now.
“They know,” she says, barely above a whisper. “Alexia. Alba.”
You stare at the photo. Two little girls. You touch the glass. Your fingers don’t shake this time, but your breath catches.
“I didn’t want to say anything until I was sure,” Olga continues. “Until I had the truth.”
“And now they know.” You say it aloud. Like you’re testing it. Like it might disappear.
Olga nods.
“They didn’t before?” you ask.
She shakes her head slowly. “They had no idea. Eli kept it from them all this time.”
You stare at her. “What did they say?”
Her lips press together for a moment. “Alba was… broken. She didn’t believe it at first, then she just went quiet, typically her.”
Your chest tightens.
“And Alexia…” Olga’s voice trails off, her gaze dropping. “She was angry. Confused. At Eli. At me.”
You wince. “At you?”
Olga meets your eyes. “She didn’t understand why I didn’t tell her soon as I found the picture. Why I didn’t come to her the second I suspected.”
You nod slowly, taking that in.
“I told her I needed to be sure,” Olga says softly. “I owed that to everyone.”
Something cracks in your chest at that. You look down at the photo again, then whisper, “Do they… want to see me?”
There’s a pause and then “Yes,” Olga says. “They do.”
You look up at her. You nod, blinking fast. You stare down at the photo. Your throat tightens as you try to find the words that don’t sound like a betrayal of how much this means, how much it changes. You swallow hard, your voice barely there. “I need time.”
Olga doesn’t speak, so you glance up half-expecting disappointment, or worse, pity, but there’s none, she just nods. “Of course,” she says gently.
“I just…” you start, then stop. Try again. “It’s a lot. I’m still trying to believe it’s real.”
Her eyes soften, her shoulders releasing tension you didn’t realise she’d been holding. “You don’t owe anyone speed,” she says, and again, that name hits different. Warmer now. Anchoring.
You nod slowly.
Olga walks back to her desk, sits quietly, like she’s giving you both physical and emotional space. No pushing. No pressure.
Just… waiting.
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Patri’s apartment smells faintly of rosemary and whatever candle she always has burning. It’s quiet except for the soft sound of her socks on the wood floors and the occasional clink of mugs as she makes tea without asking like she already knows you won’t have the appetite for anything more.
You’re curled on her couch, legs pulled to your chest, the familiar soft throw blanket wrapped tight around you. The photo’s not in your bag anymore, but it may as well be it’s burned into your thoughts.
Patri walks over, hands you a mug you barely manage to hold, then settles beside you without touching close enough to feel, but not crowding.
You stare down at the tea. “I have family.”
The words barely leave your mouth. They feel surreal still, like you’re saying them for someone else. Patri doesn’t speak. She waits.
You exhale shakily. “People I’m related to. By blood. I’ve never had that before, never even let myself imagine what it could be like.”
She glances at you, softly, kindly.
You keep going, voice fragile. “They want to meet me. Alexia. Alba. My sisters.” You taste the word, and it stings and warms at the same time. “But I don’t know if I can do it.”
Patri tilts her head. “Why?”
You blink hard. “Because I’m not who they think they lost. I grew up different to them. I have… pieces, but they don’t fit right. What if I’m a disappointment? What if they only want who I could’ve been, not who I actually am?”
The tears come quick this time. Quiet and raw.
“I don’t know how to be someone’s sister. I don’t even know how to be someone’s daughter.”
Patri shifts closer, gently, until your knee brushes hers. She doesn't reach for your hand just gives you space to fall apart without pressure.
When you finally look up at her, eyes glassy, voice cracking, you whisper, “What if I ruin it just by showing up?”
She leans forward then, soft but certain. “Baby,” she says slow, “You ruin nothing by existing. If anything, you’re the one thing that might put something broken back together.”
You don’t reply, but you lean against her, and when she wraps her arms around you, you let yourself fall into the quiet. Not healed. Not ready, but no longer alone.
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The bedroom is dim, lit only by the soft glow of the city outside filtering through sheer curtains. Alexia is already in bed, lying on her side, scrolling idly through her phone. Her hair’s a little damp from the shower, and the covers are pulled up around her shoulders like she’s cocooning herself from the day.
Olga steps in quietly, brushing her teeth finished, sleep tugging at her limbs but her thoughts too loud for rest.
She climbs into bed slowly, careful not to disturb the peace too much.
Alexia hums, sensing something. “Everything okay?”
Olga hesitates, settles on her side to face her, elbow bent, cheek resting against her hand. “I need to tell you something,” she says softly. "It's been eating me all day and I just need to off load it to someone"
Alexia’s eyes flick up from her phone. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing’s wrong,” Olga assures quickly. “Just… weird and you have to promise not to freak out.”
Alexia raises a brow. “That’s never a comforting preface.”
Olga gives her a tired, warning look. “I’m serious. No confronting anyone. No speeches. Just… listen.”
Alexia sets her phone down. She shifts onto her back, sighs dramatically. “Fine. I solemnly swear. Go.”
Olga stares at the ceiling for a second. Then “My assistant, the one you met at the office… she’s the girl Patri’s been seeing.”
Alexia blinks. “Wait. What?”
“Shh,” Olga hushes quickly, placing a hand gently on Alexia’s arm. “You promised. No freaking out.”
Alexia sits up a little against the headboard, clearly working through it. “Wait. Your assistant is Patri’s girl? She's the one who everyone’s been speculating about in the locker room for weeks?”
Olga nods slowly. “Yeah. I saw them this morning. Having breakfast together. Just… looked like a date.”
Alexia stares at her, mouth open slightly. “And you’re just telling me this now?”
Olga shrugs. “I didn’t know until today. I wasn’t spying. I was just... walking. Processing.”
Alexia laughs once, disbelieving. “Dios. Patri and your assistant. That’s… wow.” She pauses. Then narrows her eyes. “Is she even Patri’s type?”
Olga gives her a flat look. “You’ve met her once, and all you said was she seemed ‘too polite.’”
Alexia shrugs, but she’s smiling now. “Polite and dating Patri? That girl must have hidden layers.”
Olga hums. She rests her head on Alexia’s shoulder, a little quieter again.
After a beat, Alexia asks, “Is that all? Or is there a reason you brought it up now?”
Olga closes her eyes. “There’s more to it… just not for tonight.”
Alexia tilts her head, trying to read her. “Okay…”
Olga squeezes her hand gently. “Just don’t mention anything at training. Let Patri have her privacy.”
Alexia rolls her eyes. “You act like I’m the drama.”
Olga just smiles, eyes still closed. “You’re the captain and the drama.”
Alexia laughs softly and presses a kiss to Olga’s forehead. “Fine. I’ll behave.”
But even as they settle into silence, you linger in Alexia’s thoughts just a little longer than before.
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You’re mid-call, headset on, trying to sound confident while walking a particularly demanding client through a social rollout calendar. Your laptop is open, filled with colour-coded chaos, and you’re scribbling notes on a pad beside you.
Patri is lounging, because that’s the only word for it, in the visitor’s chair next to your desk. She’s got one ankle lazily hooked over her knee, phone in hand, sunglasses perched on her nose even though you’re indoors. She hasn’t said a word in ten minutes, just keeping you company like some smirking silent bodyguard.
You flick your eyes toward her for a second and she just wiggles her eyebrows. You try not to laugh but the door clicks open.
Olga strides in, crisp and purposeful, folders tucked under her arm and a cappuccino in hand. She looks up, clearly expecting her usual quiet workspace and then spots Patri.
She stops Patri glances up from her phone, sees her, and grins “Hola, jefa.”
Olga narrows her eyes. “Patri.”
You freeze mid-sentence on your call. “—Yes, we’ll have the draft by Friday, absolutely. Thank you, I’ll follow up with the design team. Okay. Bye now.”
You click off and rip off the headset, slowly swivelling toward Olga
“Hey,” you say, cautiously.
Olga looks between the two of you, arms crossed, brow lifted in that unimpressed way that’s both maternal and mildly terrifying. “You know this isn’t a café, right?” she says to Patri, deadpan.
Patri shrugs, completely unbothered. “Had the morning off. Thought I’d escort your best employee through their incredibly stressful workday.”
Olga glances at you, unamused. “Is that true?”
You give her a tight, sheepish smile. “I didn’t know she was coming.”
Patri snorts, Olga sets her folders down on her desk, sipping her coffee. “Well, now that you’re here, maybe you’d like to help sort through thirty Instagram DMs from a dog food sponsor who doesn’t understand what a brand kit is.”
Patri puts a hand to her heart, mock-wounded. “That sounds horrifying.”
Olga deadpans, “Welcome to my life.”
You try not to smile but fail miserably, and Olga catches it her expression softening just for a second.
“Fifteen more minutes,” she says to Patri. “Then she’s mine again.”
Patri gives you a wink. “I’ll take what I can get.”
Olga rolls her eyes and turns back to her desk, but not before you catch the tiniest smirk twitch at the corner of her mouth.
The office quiets again after Patri leaves she kisses your temple before she goes, murmuring something only for you, and you hold onto the warmth of it like a tether. But it fades fast once the door closes behind her.
Olga doesn’t look at you right away. She’s working or pretending to. You sit for a while. Typing. Staring. Breathing. Trying to decide if the knot in your chest will ever untangle itself.
You think about the photo. About the scans in the box. About Eli’s face when she realised who you were. About Olga saying your sisters know now. That they want to meet you.
You think about what you said to Patri and then, softly, “Olga?”
She looks up immediately, her eyes are calm, steady gentle in the way only someone who’s known heartbreak can manage.
You clear your throat. Your hands tremble a little in your lap. “I think…” You hesitate, then push through. “I want to meet them.”
Olga doesn't move for a second. Then she slowly exhales, and something loosens in her shoulders. Not relief something quieter. Respect, maybe. Care. “Okay,” she says, her voice low, warm. “I’ll let them know.”
You nod, once. It still scares you. You’re still not sure who you’ll be to them or who they’ll be to you. Sisters. Strangers. Something in between, but you’re ready to try and maybe, for now, that’s enough.
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The home Olga and Alexia share is quiet and vast, tucked away, the kind of place with balconies full of trailing plants and old tiled floors. Olga brings you up the driveway, but she doesn’t say much. Just walks beside you, shoulder brushing yours once or twice, letting the silence be whatever you need it to be.
You stop in front of the door, your hands are cold, you didn’t realise you were shaking until you saw the key tremble in Olga’s hand. She glances at you. “They’re all here.”
You nod once. Like if you say anything, you’ll turn around and run Olga squeezes your shoulder gently. Then opens the door.
The flat smells like coffee and lavender. Eli’s sitting at the dining table. She rises when she sees you, hands twitching like she wants to reach for you but she doesn’t. Not yet. Behind her, Alba leans in a doorway, arms folded tight, guarded and uncertain. Her expression is blank but her eyes are anything but, and then there’s Alexia.
She’s sitting on the sofa. Casual, almost too casual hoodie sleeves pushed up, hair tied back, one leg bouncing anxiously. She stands up when you come in, and for a second, nobody breathes.
This is it. You’ve imagined this moment so many times and never, not once, like this.
Alexia speaks first. “Hi.” Just that. One syllable, but her voice is soft.
You nod. “Hi.”
Olga touches your back gently, guiding you toward the sofa. You perch on the edge, knees close together, hands tight in your lap.
Alba stays back.
Alesia sits back down and studies you like she’s trying to make sense of what’s right in front of her and still can’t believe it. “I didn’t know,” she says. “Until last week, I didn’t know.”
“I didn’t either,” you whisper.
You look at her really look at her. She’s familiar in ways that don’t make sense. The shape of her nose. The arch of her brow. The curve of her mouth when she frowns like yours in the mirror.
Eli clears her throat. “This is yours,” she says quietly, and sets the shoebox down on the table in front of you.
You don’t open it yet. You’re too afraid of what it is will make real, and you really didn't want to cry in front of these people.
Instead, you look at Alexia again and then to Alba, whose jaw is clenched, whose arms are still crossed like armour.
“I’m not here to take anything,” you say, your voice shaking. “I’m not trying to force myself into your lives. I don’t even know how to do this. I just… I wanted to meet you.”
Alba looks away, Alexia doesn’t, she leans forward and when she speaks again, it’s quieter. “I don’t know how to do this either,” she says. “But I want to try.”
Your breath hitches. You nod. Once and when she reaches out, you let her take your hand and time passes in silence, Olga offers you a drink, and the only noise is clanking of glasses in the kitchen,
Alexia hasn’t let go of your hand even when Olga puts your drink on the coffee table in front of you.
It rests between hers, light but sure, a quiet anchor as you sit across from her on the low coffee table. She doesn’t look like a football legend right now. She looks like someone trying not to break apart a thousand different ways.
Olga sits beside you right beside you. So close her thigh presses against yours, one of her hands resting on your back as if she’s afraid you might suddenly vanish.
You feel both of them, like weights you can lean on. Eli sits a few feet away, silent, hands clasped in her lap. Her eyes are rimmed with red, lips pressed in a line. Alba leans against the far wall, arms still crossed, distant but listening.
The shoebox sits unopened on the table. Alexia breaks the silence first.
“So…” she starts, glancing between you and Olga, “You work for my girlfriend. That’s wild.”
You blink, a little startled by the shift but you’re grateful for comfortable small talk. It’s a rope thrown into the storm. You nod. “Yeah. Almost three months now.”
Olga leans in just enough for her temple to graze your shoulder. “She’s brilliant,” she murmurs. “Takes her job too seriously, though.”
You roll your eyes, a small smile tugging at your lips despite everything. “Says the woman who once scheduled tweets from the bathtub.”
Alexia barks a laugh genuine, caught off guard. “She would.”
“She did,” "I did" you and Olga say in unison, and for a beat, it feels like a normal moment between friends.
Then silence creeps in again, you fiddle with the hem of your sleeve.
“You guys are close,” Alexia says softly, looking between you and Olga.
You nod. “She’s been… I don’t even know what I’d call it. Kind. Patient. The first person who made me feel like I wasn’t just… passing through.”
You feel Olga’s fingers tighten briefly at your back. A silent I’m still here. Alexia’s expression softens. “I get that,” she murmurs.
You look at her carefully. “Is that why you’re… so good to Alba?”
She looks over at her little sister still silent, still watching and her whole face changes. It’s not obvious, not loud, but it’s there the sharp tenderness, the unspoken devotion.
“She’s mine,” Alexia says simply. “Always has been.”
You nod slowly, your throat tightens, and suddenly you can’t speak Olga shifts beside you, gently leaning into your side, just enough to steady you.
You don’t say anything more, neither does Alexia, not right away, but something’s changing in the room. Not resolved not fixed but thawing.
Across the space, Alba watches it all with unreadable eyes and Eli quiet and still presses a hand to her mouth, as if afraid her emotions might spill out and ruin this fragile moment.
You look at your sister, she smiles at you. Small. Real and you smile back.
It’s quiet again now, not the awkward kind it’s something else. Something rawer.
You feel Olga still beside you, warm and steady. Alexia hasn’t moved far either, perched on the sofa her fingers tap silently against her knee, like she wants to speak but knows this moment isn’t hers.
You’re looking at Eli. She hasn’t looked at you once. Not really. Not since you walked through the door. She sits rigid in her chair, her body folded in on itself like she’s trying to be smaller, her hands twist in her lap, restless and unanchored. Her lips are pressed together like she’s keeping a dam sealed with sheer will.
You watch the way her thumbs rub over one another.
You do that.
You watch the way her brow creases when she’s thinking too loud to speak.
You do that too.
It strikes you all at once not in your chest but in your gut, like something old and invisible pulling taut.
You’re hers you always have been, your voice, when it breaks the silence, surprises even you. Soft. Uncertain. “You look like you need a hug.”
Her head lifts, slowly, slowly, she meets your eyes.
Everything in her face is shaking. Guilt. Hope. Fear. Regret. Love, too but buried beneath years of silence and sorrow.
Her mouth parts, but no words come out, the others don’t move. Not Alba. Not Alexia. Not even Olga.
You don’t push her, you just let the words sit in the space between you Eli swallows. Her eyes fill before a single tear escapes. Her hands go still and then quietly, brokenly “I do”
You stand placing your bag down, she seems surprised by your action but she stands and when you take steps forward she meets you halfway.
She hugs you like she’s terrified you’ll disappear again, her arms wrap around you, trembling, and your face presses into her shoulder. You breathe her in lavender and something warm beneath it. Something familiar you didn’t even know you missed.
Her whole body shudders as she quietly cries, you don’t say anything, you just hold her back, you don’t know what you’re forgiving. There was nothing to forgive for you, you don’t know what still needs to be mended, but in this moment, you’re not lost. You’re held.
The security buzzer goes, you swallow as you and Eli pull away at the same time, "I'll get it that, that'll be" Olga stops herself she knew Patri was coming for you, but she didn't know whether you wanted everyone knowing.
You nod with a little smile, you look to Alexia, "I take it you know"
She nods, "She talks about you a lot, I just didn't know, you were, you, until yesterday"
Patri’s car pulls up as the door is opened just as the sky softens into twilight you stand near the door, jacket pulled around your shoulders, feeling the air shift as the visit comes to a close.
Olga helps you gather your things gentle, wordless, still keeping close like she’s afraid too much space might crack something in you. Alexia lingers near Patri's car they have a quiet conversation you don't catch, her arms folded but her expression soft, uncertain when it turns back to you. Alba follows behind at a distance, watching still wary, still processing, but here that was something.
Eli hasn’t said much since the hug. She’s been quieter than ever, her movements slowed like the emotion has worn her thin, but she’s remained close, watching you with eyes too full for casual conversation.
You hold the letter in your hand for a long time before you finally turn to her.
It’s folded neatly. Ink smudged in one corner from where your hand trembled. You hadn’t planned to give it to her but there were too many things you couldn’t get out in front of everyone. Things too complicated. Too raw. And you wrote it for that circumstance.
You step closer. Offer it with both hands. She looks down at the paper like it might burn her fingers.
You speak quietly, for her only. “I didn’t know how to say it all. So I wrote it instead.”
Eli’s hand reaches out slowly, like she’s afraid if she moves too fast you’ll vanish again. She takes the letter her fingers press around it like it’s fragile like you are.
She nods, eyes shining, lips parting but she doesn’t speak. Just holds it close to her chest.
"Ready to go babe?" Patri smiles, "Pina and her sister are already there"
You nod and turn, your eyes meet Alexia’s, she gives you the faintest smile, then steps aside to let you go. Olga brushes her hand over your back as you move past her, a silent I’m proud of yo and as you walk around Patri's car to get in, Alba finally looks up.
She doesn’t say anything but for the first time, she doesn’t look away.
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The front door clicked shut behind you, and with it goes the last of the tension you carried into this house hours ago. The echo of your presence lingers in the room, the kind that doesn’t fade easily. The kind that changes things.
Eli stands where you left her, still holding the letter like it’s made of glass.
Her eyes don’t lift from it Alexia gently steps toward her. “Mami?" but Eli barely hears. Her lips move, soundless.
“I can’t,” she whispers finally. “I can’t read it. I don’t know if I can take what it says.”
Olga watches her closely, her fingers curled around the hem of her jumper, but she doesn’t interrupt. She’s already said what she needed to say today.
Alba, who hasn’t said a word in what feels like forever, finally pushes off the arm of the couch. Her voice is soft, a little raspy.
“Do you want me to read it to you?”
Eli looks up, startled, Alba doesn’t smile. Doesn’t flinch. She just holds out her hand. Eli hesitates for a moment, eyes searching her daughter’s face. And then, wordlessly, she presses the letter into her youngest’s palm.
Alba walks to the center of the room and sits down on the couch, tucking one leg beneath her. She opens the paper carefully, smoothing the creases with tender fingers.
She clears her throat as everyone takes a seat and begins.
I don't even know where to start with this I feel for years of my life I always wanted this moment, the opportunity to have my say, so this probably won't flow or make much sense but I'm going to vulnerably honest and true to myself.
I never blamed you, growing up I never resented you, disliked you, or hated you for the decision you made. I would always wonder what I did wrong. Why I wasn't good enough. The reason you couldn't keep me and love me like parents should, I was always focused on me and my short comings, I never spoke or thought negatively for the decision you made.
I saw everyday the pain giving a child up caused, I heard my carers talk of the despair and sheer pain they would witness when children were removed from the care of their parents. I would hope you didn't ever have to feel that because it wasn't a choice you had made but I understand the gravity of the decision that was made to leave me at the hospital for you and your husband.
I obviously now know the reason for your decision, and I think it's important for you to know, I did get that help I needed and that you may be interested in the journey that took. I had five surgeries before my second birthday, to try and mend the heart I have, I spent the first three years of my life living in the hospital you left me at, before I was discharged to my first foster family but I had very complex medical needs and they couldn't deal with that so I was moved on. I moved I think 5 times before I was 10 and deemed fit enough to live in a communal home where I stayed until I was 12 but then I needed to move again due to my age to what they call a half way house until I was 18.
Tangent lol, back to the heart, its never going to be a fully working healthy heart, I can't eat certain foods I can't have certain drinks and I work everyday to just be the healthiest I can be to give my heart the best chance of being able to sustain me and make the need for a transplant stayed off for as long as possible. That's a case of when and not if.
Olga explained to me of the passing of your husband, I am truly sorry for you Alexia and Alba's loss, I couldn't begin to imagine the pain it caused to loose such a big part of your lives.
I'm not here to ask anything from any of you, I don't know what any of us want from what we've learned, or what any of us expect to happen.
I just hope that this doesn't affect the relationship you have with your daughters because even before I learned what I know now, from the stories I heard from Olga you sounded like such a warm loving tight nit family. It may not be my place to say but I hope it doesn't change what they think and see of you, you are still the mother they know and love that hasn't changed because they learned of me. You are still that same person, and if anything it just shows what strength you have to make the hardest decision a parent can make along with your husband and carry on and raise two amazing people.
I hope you can begin to heal and most of all forgive yourself for the decision you made all those years ago.
You made the right decision, for me and for your family.
I wouldn't be here today without the decision and sacrifice you made so,
Thank You
🧑🧑🧒🧒
You’re not expecting her.
The quiet of the office is a comfort today, Olga’s out in meetings, the afternoon sun is casting soft shadows across your desk, and the rhythm of your tasks is keeping your mind anchored. Or at leas distracted.
Then the bell above the door chimes, you glance up.
Alba lingers awkwardly by the entrance, her eyes scanning the space like she might still change her mind. She’s dressed simply jeans, oversized tee, hair up in a messy knot and something about her posture makes her look younger than she is. Vulnerable.
You stand slowly, heart thudding. “Hey…”
Alba walks in a few paces, stopping near the front counter. Her hands are shoved deep in her pockets. “I know Olga’s not here,” she says quickly, like a disclaimer. “I waited. I didn’t want to… ambush or anything.”
You nod, unsure what to say yet. She’s clearly nervous, more than you thought she would be from the stories you'd heard of her from Olga.
“I just…” She exhales through her nose, avoiding your eyes. “I wanted to talk. To you. If that’s okay.”
You gesture gently toward the small seating area. “Of course.”
You both sit, but she perches on the edge of the chair, like she’s ready to bolt. She doesn’t look at you, not directly, but her voice is soft and unfiltered. “I don’t know how to do this,” she admits. “I’ve been all messed up since we found out. It’s like everything I ever knew just cracked and now I keep wondering what it means. For me. For us.”
You nod, letting her speak without interruption.
“I guess I just…” She finally glances at you. Her eyes are rimmed red. “I want to get to know you, because out of anyone it's really not your fault, but I don’t know where to start.”
Your voice is quiet but steady. “Maybe we don’t have to know. Maybe we just try.” Alba blinks. You smile, just a little. “We could… start with dinner? No pressure. No heavy talks unless you want to. Just two people who might be something to each other, seeing what that feels like.”
Alba gives the tiniest laugh, almost a scoff at herself. “I haven’t felt this nervous about dinner since my first crush in high school.”
You grin. “Should I be flattered or terrified?”
She laughs again, fuller this time. “Maybe both.”
You reach for your notebook, tearing off a corner and scribbling. You hand it to her a small list of places you can eat in the city and your phone number"
“Pick one. You text me when you're ready. No pressure. Just… dinner.”
Alba looks at the paper in her hands like it’s more than just ink and names. She nods slowly. “Okay,” she says, quieter now. “Okay.” She stands after a moment, lingers at the door again like she’s debating something. Then she turns back. “Thank you. For not making it harder.”
You offer her a warm, careful smile. “We’ve both had hard. I’d rather try something else.”
She nods and then she’s gone.
🧑🧑🧒🧒
The restaurant is quiet and tucked away one of those cozy little places with exposed brick, warm lighting, and waitstaff that treat you like family. You’re early. You’d rather wait than arrive to faces you’re not quite sure how to greet yet, but you don’t wait long.
Alba arrives first.
She spots you at the table and offers a small, shy smile as she slides into the seat across from you. She’s dressed casually, but there's something softer in her eyes than the last time less guarded.
You’re about to say something when you hear a familiar voice at the hostess stand. “Alba!”
Alexia. Your heart stutters. You weren’t expecting her. Alba glances at you, a half-smile creeping in. “I may have… invited someone.”
Alexia arrives at the table with a warm grin and no hesitation at all as she kisses both your cheeks like she’s always done it. “Hi,” she says, taking the seat beside you. “I figured, three sisters is better than two, no?”
It’s strange how easy the word sisters rolls out of her mouth. You blink at her, then at Alba, then you smile. “Yeah. I guess it is.”
The conversation starts simple, menus, drinks, Alexia teasing Alba about how she always orders the same pasta everywhere she goes. You laugh when Alexia makes a terrible pun in Spanish that Alba groans at. You’re hesitant at first, still watching the way they interact like a spectator, until Alba nudges your arm and mimics your confused face when you try to translate the joke. You burst out laughing.
It surprises even you.
A bottle of wine appears. Glasses are poured. Somewhere between the bread basket and the main course, something shifts. It’s light, natural, unforced.
You find yourself talking, not deeply, not yet, but honestly. Sharing silly work stories, how you met Patri—
“Okay, wait,” Alba cuts in, grinning now, fork paused mid-air. “You’re the secret girl Patri’s been sneaking around with all this time?”
Your face heats instantly. “It wasn’t sneaking,” you say through a laugh. “She just wasn't exactly wanting it announcing it to the locker room.”
Alexia shakes her head, amused. “Patri is awful at subtle. She was glowing at training after she met you. G-L-O-W-I-N-G.”
You laugh, covering your face for a second. “Oh god.”
Alba leans in slightly, her tone playful but with an edge of sincerity. “Just so you know… if she hurts you, I’ll kick her ass.”
You snort into your wine.
Alexia raises a brow. “Alba, Patri is my teammate.”
Alba shrugs, utterly unbothered. “Don’t care. I like her, but blood is blood.”
You’re laughing now, genuinely, shaking your head. “I’ll be sure to tell her she’s been warned.”
Alba points at you with her fork. “Do that. I want her scared.”
Alexia mutters something about drama queen, and Alba throws a breadstick at her. It misses, barely.
You’re still smiling, Alba leans back in her seat, glass in hand, her grin a little wicked.
“So…” she begins slowly, eyeing you over the rim of her glass, “how’s the sex with Patri?”
Alexia nearly chokes on her wine.
You blink, stunned, heat rushing to your cheeks. “Alba!”
“What?” she laughs. “I’m curious!”
Alexia looks horrified. “You can’t ask her that!”
“I just did,” Alba smirks.
You’re giggling now, one hand covering your face as you try to recover. “God, okay, um… we haven’t… actually done that yet.”
Alba’s face flickers with surprise. “Really?”
You nod, a little shy but honest. “Yeah. She’s been… really respectful. Which is kind of adorable.”
Alexia leans back, visibly relaxing. “That’s sweet. Patri’s always been a softie underneath the sarcasm.”
You bite your lip, then laugh quietly. “It is sweet. But sometimes I just… want to be disrespected, you know?”
There’s a moment of silence, Alexia’s eyes go wide, Alba hollers with laughter and you shrink back slightly, eyes darting between them realising who they are to you as your face burns. “Oh my God wait. I can’t talk like that in front of you, can I?”
Alexia makes a strangled noise, waving her hand like she needs to shut her ears. “No. You absolutely cannot. Your my baby sister”
Alba wipes a tear from her eye. “Too late.”
You all dissolve into laughter, the kind that makes your ribs hurt. The kind that breaks through walls you didn’t even realise were still up. You glance at them Alexia still slightly horrified, Alba grinning like she won the lottery.
Alexia rests her chin in her hand, watching the two of you with a soft, content look on her face. “You know,” she says, her voice quieter now, “I really didn’t know what to expect when I found out. I was angry. Hurt. But right now?” She looks between you both. “This feels right.”
You meet her gaze. “It does.”
Alba’s smile isn’t wide, but it’s real. There’s still so much to say, still so much to feel, still so much to learn, but for now, there’s wine, warmth, and the first real night where you don’t feel like a stranger.
Just a sister.
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learning to be loved after forgetting what it feels like to be safe.
🥕 bae-sically fake. yoon jeonghan
a mylovesstuffs production...

“one hundred days for what?” / “for me to woo you.”
synopsis. you swear when you made up your fake relationship, you didn't know that someone worked at the coffee shop with the same name or that your family would go to check it out. now everyone thinks you guys are actually together, and, well, pretending to be fake partners has never been so complicated. jeonghan plays along, and even offers you a deal—100 days to let him try and woo your closed-off heart.
pairing. yoon jeonghan x fem!reader
genre/s. fake dating au, modern au, bit of social media au (?), romance, comedy, slice of life, slow burn, emotional healing
status. upcoming [estimated: ~ 40k words]
content warnings. mentions of past emotional abuse/manipulation, toxic ex, grooming mentioned [non-graphic but explicit reference], cheating and infidelity [past, non-graphic], mentions of underage grooming [girls legal but barely, predatory behavior], emotional trauma and flashbacks, ptsd-like emotional responses, manipulation disguised as affection [past], reference to stalking/following for confirmation of infidelity, heartbreak and betrayal, gaslighting implications [in past relationship], alcohol consumption, mild cursing/swearing, themes of grief and emotional vulnerability, soft romantic tension, no smut [so far; not written yet], emotionally guarded reader, indirect trauma references, workplace sexism [called out], fluffy but with realistic emotional baggage
will probably contain. fake dating, post-breakup healing, unexpected kindness, strangers-to-partners dynamic, deal-making [100 days to woo], soft and lover man!jeonghan, smart man!jeonghan protective best friends [celeste, seungkwan], healthy family, intense ex-relationship trauma, food symbolism [carrots, broccoli, lunches], slow emotional thawing, nice gestures [flowers, notes, meals], respect and gentle persistence, found family warmth, strong parent-daughter bond, work-life struggles, empowering ceo, flirtation, unspoken yearning, realistic emotional pacing [will be updated as chapters go on]
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last updated: 18.06.2025
querencia (spanish) /keh-REN-syah/ n. a place where one feels most at home; a source of strength and calm; a person or space where the soul feels safe without needing validation — often found not in places, but in people. “that name wasn’t meant to be a turning point, but somehow, it became hers — and he, her place.”
✦ in fiction we trust. love, celeste ˶ᵔ⤙ᵔ˶ so this fic is probably gonna be a long one [lmao oops] so i decided to split it into chapters. i’ve been wanting to explore some heavier themes for a while now [i promise, i kept it light], and this fic kind of became that space for me. despite the emotional grooming, infidelity, gaslighting, workplace sexism, and all that heavy stuff this fic touches on — one of the things i love most is that the reader has a genuinely healthy family. like actual supportive, emotionally present parents. and that’s something we don’t get to write often, so it means a lot to me. also the contrast between the two men… yeah. we’re gonna talk about that. and of course, we’ve got found family energy with the besties, so please look forward to their scenes too. also yes... i may or may not have written myself into the fic. yes it was intentional. yes i’m having fun with it 🤭
anyway that’s it for now. this fic went through a lot with me—emotionally and creatively—so i really hope you enjoy it and give it some love 🤍
ⓒ ! masterlist banner + dividers made by me. edits = google doc ss. photos from pinterest (ctto), prompt from my how do you fake it series ♡
started: 18.06.2025 — completed: dd.mm.yyyy
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Utterly perverted Mark headcannons :P
Warnings: Mdni🔞, mark being kinda gross & a freak, reader is afab, mentions of piv, mentions of mark being stalkerish, sneaking pictures of you and stealing your underwear
A/N: it took me forever but when I asked about writing something filthy abt Mark this is what I meant 💀💀 anyways I have another fic I started first before this except I still have to edit it but it shouldn’t be long before that comes out too
- Perverted!Mark who ever since he met you was weirdly obsessed and in love with you. He just hid it very well.
- He started by getting know literally everything about you. Stalking you and your family’s social medias and taking notes on things you like to do or wear or who you hang out with.
- He loves male manipulator music. His favorite band is freaking Weezer.
- Perverted!Mark loves to steal your panties when he comes over too. Specifically, used ones. He’s likes them so much because they smell like you :)
- It’s also as close as he can get to your pussy..for now at least.
- He’s so disgusting but he just can’t help jerking off with them… he’ll wrap it around and just rub one out, cum in them and letting it dry on the soft fabric. Then he’ll sneak them into your drawer and prays you wear them without noticing.
- He loves when you wear tanks too ughhhh your cleavage is so hot. He always has to limit how long he’ll look or he’ll start sporting a boner. Sometimes it happens anyways
- It also happens of you lean on him or if he has a good view of your ass somehow. Bonus points if he can see your pussy print.
- He also goes through your journals and diaries. All personal things. That’s how he learned you were secretly crushing on him (and also very confused about some of his behaviors but he ignored that)
- He started to do nice things for you a lot more. Like sometimes he’d give you water bottles when you got thirsty (and he’d lick where your mouth was when you weren’t looking)
- Perverted!Mark let you cuddle with him more often too (just be careful of his hard on or he’d accidentally cum or something)
- If you fell asleep he’s totally taking a picture of your boobs too. And your lips.
- When you finally asked him to be your boyfriend he was estatic! He knew you’d ask him.
- Perverted!Mark made excuses when one week in you went through his phone and just saw multiple photos of you in them. He said it was because he loved you! And you’re just so pretty and it’s not like he was sharing them!
- He made it up to you by peppering your face with kisses and you just couldn’t stay mad at him after that
- And when you finally started letting him be intimate with you? Oh, he was in heaven. He got to do things with you that he thought were things he could do in his dreams
- He loved to give you creampies and sometimes he’d pretend you weren’t on birth control so he could act like he was getting you knocked up.
-He has multiple pictures on his grimy phone of his cum is oozing out of you, pussy full and all glistening like that who wouldn’t take a picture or two or 50?
- And this boy loves to spit in your mouth. In bed, he was crazy
- Even though you guys we’re together he’d still love to try and sneak peeks of you when you’re changing or in the shower
- This boy was obsessed with you through and through and maybe you started to notice he was being a little weird sometimes he was still kind and seemed loyal enough
#mark grayson x you#mark grayson smut#mark grayson x reader smut#invincible mark grayson#mark grayson x reader#mark grayson#invincible x reader smut#invincible smut#invincible headcanons
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lmao a $42 tutorial to make CC...
ANYHOO:
Requirements You will need: Sims 4 Studio Photoshop (however you choose to acquire it), or an alternative DDS Plugin (unless you choose to save files as PNGs) Blender (any version between 2.76 and 4.3 - I use 3.3) The Basics
Recolours and Textures
The easiest thing to start with is a recolour. If you have some knowledge of photo editing software, this should be fairly straightforward, but if you’re new to it, the following tutorial covers it well: Recolouring Tutorial - Softpine
If you’re feeling confident with your recolours, but want to add a little extra to your textures, it’s worth checking out specular and normal files.
Speculars are my favourite thing for elevating CC (by that I mean covering it in glitter and sequins). This tutorial covers the basics:
Speculars - Teanmoon
Normal maps (bumpmaps) are a little different. They can give a 3d texture to an item without altering the mesh (within reason). Teanmoon also has a tutorial on that:
The Bump Map - Teanmoon
If you’re feeling extra (I know I often do), you can use emission maps to make your item glow and/or flash/twinkle.
Get to know emission the map - S4S
Meshing
Meshing is a little more complicated (or perhaps not, depending on what your strengths are. I recommend starting with the Blender Donut Tutorial (pick the one that matches your Blender version) to familiarise yourself with Blender. I didn’t do this. I went in raw from using Milkshape for over a decade (don’t start me on Milkshape lol) I would have learned faster if I did…
Once you’ve navigated the majestic plate of donuts, you might be ready for a touch of frankenmeshing! This tutorial covers the basics really well, as well as a touch of texturing:
How to Make CC Clothing for The Sims 4 - Powluna
@joliebean also has some great tutorials covering some of the more technical details.
Going forward:
So you’re feeling confident and want to mesh from scratch! There are 3980193890381 CC creators and a limited pool of meshes to frankenmesh, so you may want to create something new. Trust me, start with earrings and work your way down from there.
For the alpha girlies:
Start to Finish Marvelous Designer Tutorial by owlplumbob
I'm also happy to answer any questions people might have as they're starting out. I don't know everything, nor am I one of the top-tier CC creating girlies by a long shot, but I'll do what I can and try to sign post if I don't know.
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𝓽hings to do instead of scrolling ౨ৎ

summer is here, school is over and you have way too much free time on your hands. so unless you want to spend your whole days with your eyes locked on a screen, here's an in- depth guide on what to do this summer, or whenever!!
learn a new language - trust me, speaking more than one language is a skill that everyone should have, and it always comes in handy. you can watch tv shows, movies or youtube videos in your target language, read beginner books, use apps (not duolingo though.. ) and even just listen to music!! just expose yourself to the language as much as you can, even better if you know anyone you can have conversations with. you could also learn sign language!!
journal or scrapbook - writing down your feelings really helps understanding your own self more. you can try doing shadow work to really dive deep, or just write whatever you feel in that moment. it doesn't have to become a chore, and remember, write for yourself and not as if someone else was going to read!! as for scrapbooking, just print out some nice photos and decorate the pages with stickers, drawings, fun colored paper.. whatever you want, just be creative!!
make art - it doesn't have to look perfect, remember that all art is beautiful in its own way. even if you think you're not good at it, just create, it will help you feel better & you'll also get better with time!! you can draw, paint, sculpt, do pottery, etc. you don't have to follow any guidelines, just buy a random sketchbook, bring out your inner child and do whatever you feel like doing
learn how to play an instrument - this can be a bit expensive, but if you have any instrument in your house that you've never used, it might be a great time to start learning it!! you don't necessarily need to take classes, you can easily find tutorials on youtube, even though it might be harder to learn by yourself. but making music is a really fun activity & good for the soul
reading and writing - i will never recommend reading enough !! everyone should read. it helps you learn new things, understand different perspectives, expand your vocabulary, and so much more. i know books can be expensive, but you can always try to buy them at flea markets, or ask a friend/family member to lend you some. and just in case, there are always some sites where you can read books online for free, like zlibrary!! you can read before going to bed instead of staying on your phone (which is sooo bad for your sleep), at the beach while tanning or outside while getting some fresh air. and if reading books inspires you, you can try to write something!! i'm not saying you have to write a 600 page book, but you can try to write small stories, or poetry, and who knows, someday you might actually write a book! if you want to get published, there are some small literary magazines you can find on social media that publish the works of small writers, it can be a great way to start. you can also always post your works here on tumblr, substack, or any social media platform!! you could also try to write the story for a movie and start screenwriting, if you're into cinematography
research interesting topics - now that school isn't forcing you to study things that maybe you don't care about, you can study whatever you want !! remember, knowledge is power, and with the internet, you basically have the world in your hands. you can watch a youtube video, read a book, or simply research on websites (make sure they're reliable though). you can also take online courses!! i might make a post on ideas for what to research??
start a new hobby - your life can't only be made of school/work, sleep, and a screen. you need hobbies that you actually like and that make you feel good. some of these can be: baking and cooking, crocheting, knitting, embroidery, jewelry making, nail art, makeup, photography, editing, blogging/vlogging, coloring, candle making, soap making, perfume making, modeling, origami, sewing, making diy stuff, chess, puzzles, acting, singing, flower arranging, meditating, lego building, trying new hairstyles or outfits, doing animations, discovering new music, sudoku, the things i previously wrote, and probably a million other activities i can't think of right now
stay active - moving you body is good for both your physical and mental health, i'm sure we all know that. you can go on walks or runs in the nature with your headpones on, or do any sport that you like- some ideas: swimming, dancing (ballet, hip hop, modern, ecc) , tennis, martial arts (judo, karate, taekwondo, ecc), volleyball, basketball, athletics, gymnastics, football, archery, fencing, table tennis, boxing, surfing, rowing, hockey, horseback riding, softball, golf, biking, figure skating, rollerblading, skating.. you don't need to do it competitively (unless you want to), as long as you're having fun and moving your body. you can also do workouts, like yoga or pilates, at home or outdoors, or go hiking.
watch movies, tv shows, or documentaries - it can always be a good learning experience, or just something fun and relaxing that isn't mindlessly scrolling. a bonus: after you've watched something, write a very long, detailed and in-depth review in your journal. you can also post it wherever you want (like letterboxd, to fight all the one liners)
hang out - with friends, family, or even by yourself !! (i know, i know, it can be scary). you can do anything, as long as you're with the right people everything is fun, but here's some ideas: have a picnic, go to the beach, go to a water park, have a baking contest, do temporary tattoos, go to a concert, go out to eat, do a one day trip, go on a road trip, take a walk in the nature, go hiking, go to a trampoline park, go to an amusement park, visit a museum, go thrifting or shopping, have a board games night, try out a new cute cafe or bakery, do an escape room, have a karaoke night, have a movie marathon, and so much more!!
i hope this helped!! ♡
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They're done! I really want to try and make prints again as it's been years and I've never felt like I was very good at making whole posters. Dipping my toe back in with these silly chibis of each Papa with every Ghoul they've had. Perhaps they can also work as a guide for those wanting to learn all the characters? I added in a fair amount of little references with the Ghoul's poses so it'll be interesting to see what you guys figure out and notice!
The prints are on pre-order and won't ship out until November. I've put up 25 of each to start with but if they get low on stock I'll keep adding more until I have them printed and then it'll be a set amount in stock.
Also a reminder about the stickers of every Ghost Papa and Ghoul that I made earlier this year that are also available as customisable badges! Thank you so much to everyone who already bought them and got Etsy to list them as a 'bestseller' for a while. They're still up and in stock.
EDIT: someone informed me Delta was not in Secondo's era so sorry little water ghoul but he got edited out of that drawing.
Characters featured on the prints and are also available on stickers and badges: Papa Emeritus I / Primo, Papa Emeritus II / Secondo, Papa Emerirus III / Terzo, Papa Emeritus IV / Cardinal Copia, Aether, Air, Alpha / Fire, Aurora, Chain / Water, Cirrus, Cowbell, Cumulus, Delta, Dewdrop / Sodo, Earth, Ifrit, Ivy, Lake, Mist, Mountain, Omega / Quintessence, Pebble, Phantom, Phil / Special Ghoul, Rain, Sunshine, Swiss, Zephy.
I can’t link to my Etsy without risking Tumblr hiding the post from tag search results, but the link is in my pinned post, my carrd, I’m emptymasks on Etsy. Reblogs help support artists more than likes ❤️
[ID: Four landscape drawings, one for each of Ghost's Papas and the Ghouls that were in the band with them while they were the lead singer. Each Papa is in the center with each of their ghouls standings to their sides. Every character has their name written above or below them, on brightly coloured backgrounds for each Papa's robe colour. Also, individual pixel art chibi drawings of 69 characters from various European musicals (listed above) that are available as stickers. These drawings are also available as badges where they are placed inside circles to show what they will look like as physical button badges, some of them with plain colour backgrounds and some with 1-3 different pride flags as examples of how you can customise the backgrounds.]
For those who want to know what the little references in the prints are and don't want to guess, they're under the cut:
Omega can be a stompy boy when he's playing guitar, Alpha likes to throw up peace signs, Air is very found of the rock horns hand symbol, there's one close-up photo of Lake out there where you can clearly see his black sclera contacts and he's doing double 'horns' hand symbol, Mountain infamously takes his shoes off when playing the drums and leaves them on the stage at the site of his drumkit, Dewdrop likes to like.. most things including his guitar and his picks and sometimes his own hand, Pebble liked to hand out his drumsticks at the end of shows by dropkicking them into the crowd, Omega wore a flower tucked into his guitar strap during one show and Terzo constantly flirts with him more than other ghouls, Delta is suspected to be the ghoul that attempted to kick an audience member off stage when they climbed onstage and attempted to kiss Terzo, Zephyr was the only band member and only keyboardist who sat down while playing, the special ghoul played by Tobias wore a nametag 'Phil' in an interview, Swiss constantly is showing all his teethies with his smiles and always wiggling and moving around, Aether and Dewdrop often interact with Dew teasing/bothering Aether, Dew and Rain also often interact with Dew constantly reaching to grab his neck and attempt to kiss him, aaaand I think that's everything I intentionally included other than just generally tried to get the poses and expressions to match the personality we've seen from each ghoul.
#the band ghost#fanart#ghost bc#terzo#secondo#primo#copia#papa emeritus#omega ghoul#dewdrop ghoul#swiss ghoul#cirrus ghoul#cumulus ghoul#terzomega#rain ghoul#dewaether#dewdrop x rain#zephyr ghoul#myart#mine#phantom ghoul#aurora ghoul#lake ghoul#river ghoul#chain ghoul#alpha ghoul#air ghoul#ivy ghoul#pebble ghoul#special ghoul
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Self promo for my newest card game, Jewel Thief; but you can play it for free! First, though, let's cover the basics...
TL;DR - Its a 4+ player competetive card-matching game with four rule variants; buy it here or look for the orange text in this post to learn how to play it with a regular deck

"What is Jewel Thief?"
It's a card matching game with a villain; one player tries to match jewels in a 36 card grid while their opponent, the titular Jewel Thief, periodically steals cards from the board. You can check out its page on The Game Crafter for more information, but it'll spoil the rest of this post

"What makes it special?"
The game's turn structure would theorettically allow you, perhaps via some kind of infinite cloning machine, to play a round of Jewel Thief til the heat death of the universe. While I wouldnt recommend that, its lack of a player cap (and ease of set-up; seriously, all you do is put cards on a table) makes it a good party game choice.
But that's not all!
There are three extra rule variants that drastically alter the gameplay while keeping card matching and stealing as main mechanics. I believe the cards are versatile enough to allow for many custom games, too

"Okay, but why should I buy a silly game from some bug nerd?"
First off, ouch. Second off, that's the best part; you dont have to buy it to play it! Jewel Thief can be played with a standard 52 card deck. Here's how:
Step 1. Remove the 10s, Jacks, Queens, Kings and Jokers
Step 2. Download the free rules from the shop page
Step 3. Play the game, matching cards based on their values. You'll need to designate a value as the Diamond jewel for game 4
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That's it for my little self-promo. If you dont buy the game, I hope you'll at least give it a try and consider supporting my future projects.
I also post art and photography, which you can find under the bugbeast art and bugbeast photos tags. I hope you check them out
Thank you for your time <3
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Edit (Mar. 25, 2024) : Thank you to everyone who liked and reblogged this; if you play the game I encourage you to share your thoughts in the comments and/or reblogs (even if you hated it). Feel free to share any custom games or house rules you come up with, too. I'd love to try them!
Edit (Aug. 10, 2024) : Final edit most likely; gonna blaze this one more time for good luck then maybe start work on a postmortem for the project, maybe give a little backstory for anyone who cares. Life is a little rough right now, but fate willing, I'll be able to work on/post about my future projects, including the future of Jewel Thief itself
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communication is key - pt.2
jason todd x fem!reader

word count: 4.9k (yikes) warnings: implied sexual content, a little bit of angst, jason panics a tad
Clearly Jason didn't learn from leaving his comm behind in your apartment - not when he leaves you behind in the Cave.
Part I

“We really don’t have to go and see it, you know? Like it’s really not that cool, it’s actually just a cave.”
Jason’s words do nothing to deter you as you tug insistently at his hand in yours, digging your heels into the floorboards in a feeble attempt to drag him to… well, you’re not sure. Admittedly, it’s your first time in Wayne Manor, but you can’t imagine the entrance to the Batcave is in his childhood bedroom. Naturally, Jason doesn’t move an inch, just staring down at you with a playfully irked look and a sadistic twinkle in his eye.
“Jay, come on, you told me we can only stay here until 10,” you plead, eliciting nothing more than a quirk of his brow, “It’s 9 now! I want to have a proper look.”
You had been desperate to see the Manor, and it had taken months of begging on your hands and knees to get him to finally take you. Unsurprisingly, he was still set firmly on the fact that you would not be meeting his family, especially after your shenanigans on the comms, and that had served as his excuse for the 3 months since. You were nothing if not determined, however – it was part of what he loved so much about you in the first place.
You’d set it up perfectly. There wasn’t a length you hadn’t gone to in an attempt to get exactly what you wanted. Jason’s favourite meal cooked and ready on the table as soon as he got home from Dick’s after going over a case, a new special edition copy of Wuthering Heights stashed on the bookshelf, you’d worn the sweatpants and vest combination that you knew drove him crazy without coming across as trying too hard.
He'd not even made it through the front door before he said it, barely even batting an eye.
“Nice try, but I’m not taking you to the Manor.”
Your jaw had flung open. It was almost offensive, just how quickly he could see through your efforts.
It hadn’t been enough to phase you, however, and you were prepared to go to the extreme. Every advance he’d tried to make that evening, whether it be a delicate kiss behind your ear or a hand pawing at your hip, you’d ignored pointedly. It was modern torture, as he would skim a hand up and down your thigh on the couch and you could do nothing but stay statuesque, staring forward at the TV without any indication that you had even noticed. Fuck the stupid sweatpants and vest combination.
He'd been smug at the start, the corner of his lip twitching as he’d felt your entire body tense, desperate to not give in to his ministrations. Jason wasn’t famed for his patience however, and it wasn’t long until he was huffing and puffing and practically whining for you to pay attention to him. He’d finally given in when he’d grabbed a handful of your ass and you’d done nothing other than stare at him; he’d scrunched his face together and slammed it down against your shoulder in defeat.
“Fine, fine, I’ll take you to see the fuckin’ manor.”
It hadn’t taken long for things to get, ah, heated after that. Yes, technically, it was blackmail – but you couldn’t spend so much time around the notorious Red Hood and not pick up a few quirks here and there.
The Manor was more beautiful than you ever could’ve imagined from the photos, with its sprawling hallways, crafted arches and crooning gargoyles. It was plain to see that it was cared for meticulously, every room garnished with lavish decorations – but that it was also lived in, from the odd sock sticking out of someone’s bedroom door to the worn oak flooring from years of people’s feet trapsing back and forth. It’s almost difficult to imagine Jason spending such a significant part of his upbringing here, that the maze of twists and turns could ever be committed to memory.
He'd postponed as much as he could, claiming he was waiting for the perfect time, and finally it had arrived. Bruce was away on business, having taken Alfred to accompany him, and the rest were out of the house until patrol this evening – Dick was working, Steph and Cass had gone to the cinema, Tim and Duke were occupied with God knows what at Tim’s apartment, and Damian was with Jon. The Manor was completely empty when you’d arrived, just as Jason had anticipated.
Which is how you end up where you are now, dropping to your knees with hands clasped together, begging Jason to take you to the Batcave as he tries his best to remain stoic. In a flash, he crouches to hoist you upwards, prompting you to let out a scream as he jostles you over his shoulder, relenting, and grumbles softly as he marches towards an old Grandfather clock.
“I just don’t get it,” he sighs, fiddling with the face of the clock until you can hear a soft click, and feel a rush of frigid air that makes your hair stand on end. He sets you down steadily, offering his hand out once again for you to take.
“You don’t get it because it’s normal to you,” you huff, making a start towards the cavernous stairway, “Most people don’t have a giant, military grade bunker underneath their childhood home.”
Jason continues to protest as you make your way down, but you’re too awestruck to even acknowledge whatever his complaint may be. It’s positively sublime, with its craggy ceiling that stretches out into the blackness further than your eyes can make out. The various cars, bikes and even the Batmobile lay dormant in a circle in the corner, only exacerbating the giddy feeling growing in your stomach.
You almost slip over when you see the dinosaur.
Jason seems to tense behind you, “Be careful, it won’t recognise you, so you have to move really slowly. Its eyesight is pretty bad.”
You can feel the blood drain out of every limb as you turn to face Jason in absolute horror. It’s frantic, as your hands grapple to cling onto his jacket, feeling as though your brain has just been tossed into a blender. It seems like a major oversight, failing to mention the live dinosaur that guarded –
You can hear a low, breathy chuckle from above you.
“You’re a dick!” You practically scream, slamming your hands against his chest in an act of defiance. He doesn’t falter, obviously, and instead just allows his laughs to ring out louder as they echo around the cave.
“Aww baby,” he coos, and there’s a shit-eating grin lining his lips, “I didn’t think you were so gullible.”
You offer him little more than a deadpan look, “Of everything I’ve learnt since we’ve been together, a live dinosaur is not out of the realm of possibility.”
With a hefty sigh, Jason commences his tour, showing you round every nook and cranny of the place. It’s fascinating, the technology lying dormant underground that you’re fairly certain could change the world given the opportunity. It seems such a leap from your own life, almost incomprehensible, especially as Jason lists off different features of the Cave with a dry tone and the heavy implication that it doesn’t impress him much. You’re reminded once again of how far-removed Jason’s life is from your own when he leaves the bubble of your apartment, the altered world he occupies on a day-to-day basis.
You noticed that he skirts away from the corner where various suits stand displayed up against the walls; you know better than to question why.
Eventually, he comes to a halt in front of the computer, stretching his arms out and beckoning you in with an impatient huff. You oblige, happily, and Jason tucks his head atop yours. The two of you remain there for a few moments, basking in the silence and bliss of each other’s company. Despite being in such an alien environment, the thrumming of his heartbeat is enough to remind you that home carves out a place in the shape of Jason Todd, wherever you may be.
“We’ve still got half an hour to kill,” Jay hums, and you can hear the mischief creeping into his tone, “Want to watch videos of everyone failing dramatically on the Batcomputer?”
“I can’t believe it’s called the fucking Batcomputer.”
“So fucking stupid.”
Jason releases you to begin fiddling with the controls as you glance around awkwardly, still struggling to fully comprehend the surroundings.
As he cues the video up, starting with a thumbnail of Tim, well, screaming as he seems to be falling from the top of a building, Jason turns to look at you with a sharkish smirk, “I’m gonna go get us some snacks. Don’t touch anything.”
He disappears quickly up the steps, taking them two at a time, and you realise as soon as he’s gone that its easier said than done. You take the opportunity to leer over the giant keyboard, inspecting all of the various buttons and their vague, nonsensical organising system.
It’s all very serene until the bats start to shriek behind you.
It sends you lurching forward in a panic, arms stuck out in front of you out of instinct, a pathetic attempt to try and cushion your fall. The screech of metal on metal is almost instant as you make contact with various buttons, and you can see the metal shields beginning to lock down on the side of the cave that backs into the Manor. It’s fight or flight that kicks in, as you attempt to sprint your way up the stairs before the metal gate can crash down over the doorway. It’s futile really, there would be no point in a security system that gave the perpetrator plenty of time to get in or out.
Your phone begins to ring as soon as the juddering of metal silences.
“Baby – and I mean this with all the love in the world – what the fuck did you press?” Jason’s voice is stern and swift, and it’s enough to make your own catch in your throat a little. It’s clearly concern that marks his words, but it does little to lessen their severity.
“Jay, I don’t… I don’t know…” You huff out, frustrated, “The bats… they scared me and then… Am I gonna be trapped in here?” Your voice begins to wobble, and you can practically feel Jason softening through the screen.
“No, baby, it’s – fine. But Bruce is the only one with clearance to take the Cave out of lockdown. Shit. I’m gonna have to –”
“What the fuck was that?” A voice rings out behind you, causing you to jump embarrassingly high.
Jason’s fury is instantaneous, “No, no, there’s no fucking way. Absolutely not. Are you fucking kidding me?”
It’s only when you spin on your heel that you see them, pooling in from the other entrance to the Cave.
It’s every single one of Jason’s siblings, likely filing in for the nightly patrol.
Dick’s face is the only one that lights up in visible recognition, the others staring at you either like you’ve come from another planet, or that they’re ready to jump you for being some rogue civilian intruding on their lair.
Naturally, Dick is the one to approach you first, calling out your name in confusion, “What are you doing here? Where’s Jason?”
“Are you shitting me?”
“That’s her!”
“Wow, Jason’s punching, seriously.”
“I’m not incorrect in believing that is the name of Todd’s partner?”
“All of you,” Jason’s voice isn’t even on speaker, but it bellows through the phone loud and clear enough to silence everyone, “I am warning you. Fuck off. Leave her alone.”
Dick pays no mind to Jason’s words as he wraps you in a welcoming hug, almost lifting you off the ground with the sheer force of it. You can vaguely hear the incessant shouting echoing out from your phone, clutched in a hand that remains pinned at your sides, and it’s enough to spark laughter in the other Bats that seem to have planted themselves in the general vicinity.
“Is it alright if I speak to him?” Dick questions kindly, “I might be able to help with whatever has happened to get us all trapped in here.”
You hesitate slightly, not sure who you’d be betraying more if you handed your phone over: Dick by exposing him to the wrath of your boyfriend, or Jason by forcing him to talk to his brother. Eventually, you sigh, planting your phone in Dick’s open hand with a wince, mentally preparing yourself for the tirade that is sure to follow.
“Hellooo? Little Wing?”
Unintelligible shouting bleeds out of the phone, Dick lifting it away from his ear ever so slightly with a shudder.
“No, I didn’t steal it from her. She gave it to me.”
More shouting.
“Jay, can you just tell me what happened?”
That quietens Jason a little, and you can envision his icy, biting words.
“Shit. We’re gonna have to call Bruce.”
“I KNOW, DICKHEAD!” – you can hear that one. More rumbling follows.
“Okay, okay, I’m putting you on speaker.”
Dick pulls the phone down in front of him, pausing slightly to give the rest of the brood a sympathetic smile before he presses the button.
“I swear to God if any of you go anywhere near her. Don’t even talk to her. If I find out you looked at her – I promise you, you will not be able to run quick enough to get away.”
It’s Steph that marches forward with a huff, attempting to snatch the phone out of Dick’s hand, “Stop being such a bitch, Jason. You’re not going to kill us because we talked to your girlfriend.”
“We should have been allowed to interrogate her long ago, Todd, for security purposes, of course.” It’s Damian that pipes up next, seeming to appear out of the shadows to grasp at the phone Dick seems to be struggling to hold onto.
Within seconds, it turns into all out warfare. Every single one of them, bar Duke and Cass who stand off to the side offering you very understanding smiles, is wrapped in a tangle of flailing limbs – and you can still hear Jason yelling out from the phone itself, taking the time to threaten each of his siblings personally. It’s absolute unbridled chaos; you can barely make out who is where in the blur of colours scrapping around in a heap. It derails so quickly when you spot a hand that you suspect belongs to Damian sticking up proudly from amongst the rabble, phone clawed between his fingers. Tim sends a well-placed punch to the crook of his arm.
The phone falls. It shatters.
Before even a second can pass, you hear the ear-splitting clang from the top of the stairs, and you wouldn’t be surprised if Jason tore through the metal with his bare hands with the force of the impact. Seconds later, phones begin to ring in quick succession: first Dick, then Cass, then Tim… none of them answer. Dick is the only one to even glance down at his screen, typing out a quick text before shoving it back in his pocket.
You take the moment to stare longingly towards the doorway at the top of the stairs. In spite of the egregiousness of the situation, you can feel the worry for your boyfriend threatening to overflow in your throat. You know deep down he doesn’t believe that his siblings would ever do anything to harm you (even if it is out of fear for their own lives), but you know him, you know he must be terrified right now. And with your phone now a destroyed mess on the ground, there’s little you can do to soothe it. It makes your ribs feel as though they are collapsing in on your heart.
When you turn back to face the rest of the Bats, the grins that mark their faces are downright evil.

“So, what do you guys like, do together?” Steph pipes up from her place in the semi-circle, raising an eyebrow inquisitively.
It’s, quite frankly, a strange set up; you sit in the chair at the Batcomputer as the rag-tag group of vigilantes are scattered across the floor around you, legs crossed and slumped over enraptured by your every word. It had been at least an hour since your interrogation had started by all other than Dick, who had stepped to the side initially to call in a few favours for the Gotham patrol while everyone was incapacitated. It had started with all the basic questions about you: where you’re from, what you do for work, your parents’ names, your blood type, your weapon of choice. You steel yourself, knowing that the prying into your relationship was now only just commencing.
“Uhm… what do you mean what do we do together?”
“Spar?”
“Firing range?”
“No, it’s probably intel collection, right?”
You have to hide behind your hands to stifle a giggle, “No, we don’t really do any of those things. We, well, we have dinner together most nights. We watch films together. We both get on with our work at the dining table, sometimes. Occasionally, when Jason has the night off, we’ll go out on a date –”
You’re cut off by the roaring laughter that seems to overcome every single person sat in front of you, even Dick fighting a small smile.
“That’s all so like, normal,” Tim steadies himself with a hand on the ground, “I didn’t think he was capable of normal.”
The questions flow thick and fast after that, a torrent of voices calling out constantly like a gaggle of school children.
“What’s his favourite meal?”
“Lasagna.”
“Where does he keep his suit?”
“Lock box. Under the bed.”
“What colour is his toothbrush?”
“Red, obviously.”
“What’s the address of your apartment?”
You falter slightly at that one, pausing to throw everyone a sheepish grin. It strikes you all at once, the honesty of their questions – how little they really know about their brother outside of his vigilantism. Dick is the only one who seems to nod in recognition, the only one who’s known Jason long enough to have had a glimpse between the crack in his armour.
“You guys don’t know where he lives? Aren’t you all detectives?” You question, not meaning to come across rude, just genuinely surprised.
A few of them bite out a laugh at that, a few of them glower at you, but it’s Dick that speaks for the group earnestly, “Jason has put a lot of effort in to ensure he can only be found when he wants to be. Trust me, it’s not through lack of trying.”
The silence lingers briefly, hanging heavy in the air thick enough to cut with a knife.
“What do you do…” There’s a hesitation in Tim’s voice as it creeps out with all the wariness of someone reaching out to pet a rabid dog, “…when he gets, you know, angry? Aggressive?”
That throws you for a loop, and it takes you more than a few seconds to recollect yourself. It’s not that you didn’t know what Jason was capable of, you were under no illusion that the blood he came home stained with was the result of more than superficial spats. You know that he’s a deadly force to be reckoned with, that most consider him to be a hurricane striking through the land, as destructive as he is untameable. It wasn’t a part of him you would ever try to deny, not at the cost of removing such a big chunk of what made him the man that you love.
But, thus far, he had spared you from seeing it with your own eyes.
Sure, you had arguments, like every couple did. Angry words thrown back and forth to be regretted later on when you ultimately both skulked into bed together, tired of the hostility. On the few and far in-between occasions that it had gotten overly antagonistic, Jason would remove himself. Often without a word, he would pick himself up from wherever he was perched and walk out the front door. The first time he’d done it, you’d panicked, fearing that he was leaving you, but you’d soon realised that it was more akin to a self-sacrificing act of chivalry – the need to spare you from his wrath at his own expense.
“He doesn’t,” you start slowly, well aware of the eager eyes boring into every part of you, “He’s… that’s not who he is. Not to me.”
“And you accept the burden that accompanies a man like Todd?” There’s a snideness in Damian’s words that even in the past hour or so you’d come to realise were just a part of his nature, but it doesn’t stop the flash of red that clouds your vision.
“He’s not a burden,” you bite, relishing somewhat in the way they all seem to recoil in surprise, “Nothing about him is a burden. He’s the sum of many parts, and, yes, many of those parts are complicated, but that doesn’t make him a liability.”
The guilt settles in your stomach straight away, as you scan round at their dejected faces: yes, they could be cruel in their admonishments of Jason, his methods and who he is, but it strikes you like an arrow when you realise that they are a family. His family. They just want him to be a part of it.
They snap their heads up as you continue, clearly not expecting the words that follow, “He’s not perfect. But he’s healing – and it’s not an easy process. He’s hurt, and he’s scared but I know that he cares for you. It will take time, but he will come home if he believes that you will have him.”
It shocks you when Dick yanks you up out of the chair into an embrace, much more tender than the one he’d given you earlier. You could be wrong, but you’re fairly certain you can feel a wetness where his eyes meet your shoulder. He whispers in your ear, just low enough that only you can hear it, “Thank you. They needed to hear that. I think we’ve all needed to hear it for a while.”
When he pulls away, you turn around to stare at them all, shoulders hunched low as though they’re about to melt into superhero-shaped puddles on the floor. It breaks you to see them so miserable. Even though you’ve only known them for a few hours, they seem to have weaselled their way into the Jason shaped hole in your heart. You clasp your hands together, startling them from their various trances, and do your utmost to plaster an optimistic smile across your face.
“Right, well, Jason promised me some seriously epic fails, and I plan on cashing in on that if anyone wants to join me?”

It’s another hour until the telltale scraping of the metal barriers ascending into the ceiling echoes out across the Cave, causing everyone’s raucous giggles at CCTV footage of Bruce slipping in a puddle to soften to a murmur.
The thundering of Jason’s feet clambering down the stairs sends a jolt through your entire body, and you’re up on your feet by the time he crashes into you at breakneck speed. The feeling of his arms engulfing you is sickeningly familiar, even as you try to recover from having the wind knocked out of you. It’s hard not to get choked up as he whispers sweet nothings to you in his frantic low timbre, begging to know if you’re okay. You can only seem to respond by nodding or shaking your head into the crook of his neck. You’re not sure who the embrace is to comfort more – him or you.
You can feel the shadow that creeps up over both of you, and you’re startled but unsurprised when you lift your eyes up from Jason to meet those of Bruce Wayne, clad in a pristine business suit, staring down back at you. He doesn’t say anything, only offering an appreciative nod and a small smile. Unsure what to do, you nod back – both of you seeming to realise that an introduction between the two of you tonight would be far too much for Jason to handle. You focus your attention back to your boyfriend, who has turned to face his siblings with a blazing expression.
“I told you all. I warned you to stay away from her and you break her phone and –”
“We didn’t do anything!”
“It was an accident, Jay.”
“Maybe if your fat ass hadn’t gone to get snacks –”
Jason begins to lurch forward at that one, “I am going to hurt you so bad that you –”
You stop him with a delicate hand on his chest, prompting his face to snap down towards your own, “Jay, it’s okay. They asked me some questions. We watched some videos. They were lovely.”
“They didn’t make you uncomfortable? If they forced you to say anything, baby, I swear to God,” there’s a strain in his voice, and you can tell the evening has taken a toll on him. The way his fingers are twitching at his side, his lip rolling between his teeth; it feels as though you’re being hollowed, to see just how anxious the whole experience has left him.
“Sweetheart,” it’s barely audible, a promise shared just between the two of you, “It’s okay. I’m okay. You’re okay.”
Out of your peripheral, you can see the rest of the Bats beaming with pride at your defence of their actions as Bruce does the round to check on them. They’re clearly uninterested in whatever it is the man has to say to them, instead focussing in on the exchange between you and Jason. They look grateful, you think, and you find yourself hoping that it’s not too long before you get to see them again.
A British voice calls out from beside you, and you find yourself face to face with who could only be the infamous Alfred Pennyworth, pressing a soothing hand onto Jason’s shoulder. “Nobody would think it amiss if you went home for this evening, Master Jason, it seems that some home comfort would do you good in your current state.”
It seems to ease Jason a tad, as he rolls some of the tension out of his neck and shoulders. His gaze seems to linger on Bruce for a second too long, and Alfred picks up on it as you do.
“He knows you are thankful, but I shall pass it onto him, nonetheless. Go home, my boy.”
Wordlessly, you slip your hand into Jason’s and begin to guide him up the stairs. You pause at the top to offer a small wave to the rest of the family loitering below, and they all (even Damian) seem to return it fervently. Vaguely, you can make out Jason muttering some kind of profanity under his breath, but he makes no effort to make it particularly discernible.
By the time you make it to Jason’s old beamer parked out front, he seems to have settled a little, the weight that the Manor seems to place on his shoulders no longer leaving him buckled underneath it. You slip into the car without a sound, but he’s on you as soon as the slam of the door shutting rings out.
“Promise me,” it’s deadly serious as he says it, “Promise me they didn’t do anything.”
“I promise, Jay,” you stretch out a hand to cradle his jaw, relishing as he leans into the touch, “I actually had quite a nice time.”
His eyebrow quirks at that, and he scoffs, turning the key in the ignition, “I find that hard to believe.”
You move to rest your hand at the nape of his neck, curling your fingers into the short strands, “We can talk about it tomorrow, let’s just get home, yeah?”
He mumbles some kind of agreement before bringing your hand to his lips, pressing a chaste kiss to your knuckles as the car starts to move, “I love you, Princess.”
“I love you too, Jay,” you sigh, content, allowing your eyes to flutter shut as you lean back into the headrest, “Absolutely starving though. Waiter went to get snacks and didn’t come back for hours – the customer service was terrible.”
“Is that right, is it?” You can feel the tension beginning to bleed out of him, his voice regaining some of its playful charm you adore so, “I heard the waiter was a little preoccupied.”
“Oh, that’s true,” you pause with a grin, before adding, “I heard he fell down a manhole.”
The groan Jason lets out sounds almost painful, and he brings a hand up to pinch his brow, “Seriously? Of every video, they showed you that one.”
“First time I’ve seen you in action, I must say it was very impressive.”
“Are you going to keep chatting shit or put in the address for Bat Burger?” To most it would sound vicious, but you can hear the affection underpinning his words.
“Yeah, yeah, whatever. Do you think they have an option to avoid parked cars? You seem to enjoy crashing into them quite a lot.”
“This is why I never wanted you to fuckin’ meet them.”

The holy trinity of Jason Todd behaviour: crack a joke, have a panic attack, eat a burger
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