#unprepared and unsupported

[kasstanie]

Saw a take the other day about how Alicent raised rapists and that's why she's bad. Genuinely insane what some people think.

it makes me literally sick to think about alicent's relationship to her children. like. they are all she has. she loves them more than anything and hates them just as much. each of them is a shackle around her neck. they are her babies even though she was a baby herself, forced to be their mother. she'll pick up a knife for them. they are her living prison. everything she ever does is for them. their very existence makes her sick. she understands them and yet doesn't know them at all. they are her future. they stole her past.

she was 15 years old tethered to a rotting body of a man entirely against her will, watching each of her children invade her body as a result of martial rape. how were they ever supposed to have a normal relationship!!!!!!!

[lorelaiagreste]

— Gabriel Agreste Character Analysis (part. 1) —

The big question(s) people often ask is “what went wrong?”/“how could Gabriel become so evil?”

While we still don’t have enough information on him to fully understand his intentions, we can assume a few things based on previous episodes: starting all the way back in season 5.

1) His Past

We’re going to start with this because it is possibly one of the most important parts of Gabriel’s life. He was born Gabi Grassette to Johnny and Gabrielle Grassette, a lower class family who owns a french fry shop in Lille. His parents aren’t married either, as mentioned in Werepapas. It is possible, although Gabrielle and Johnny truly love eachother a lot, that the pregnancy was an accident (maybe they weren’t ready to be parents yet). By this assumption, it is possible that they were also young when they gave birth to him. Maybe the fact that they were unprepared affected their parenting skills. Also, based on previous episodes, we know that they weren’t bad people or parents necessarily, but again, this stuff still could’ve affected Gabriel. We also know that Gabrielle and especially Johnny are passionate about their fry business: in Werepapas, Johnny mentions that his ancestors sold fries too. When Gabriel first told his parents he wanted to be a fashion designer, it might’ve angered or offended either of his parents, and this unsupportive behavior could’ve been a reason he left them behind. I seriously doubt Gabrielle was unsupportive though, it was most likely Johnny. Even when he moved out, Gabriel still remained kind according to Andre, and he even made him his first suit to impress the woman Andre had a crush on (Audrey). Maybe this is how Gabriel was discovered by her later on?? Things really started to change when he met Emilie, though, and that’ll be in the second part!!

Thanks for reading! Let me know if I left anything out. 💗

[your-queer-dad]

Hello dad

I've been really stressed lately and I need reassurance. Very soon I'm leaving home and leaving my unsupportive family because I am actively unsafe here but I feel unprepared. I have to leave quickly because of people threatening me and it's not given me time to get ready.

I've arranged a place to stay for a month without rent to give me hopefully enough time to find a job, but it might not work out and I might become homeless. I've never been on my own before, I've never had any job besides taking care of the horses here at home, and I've never lived in a big city before. I'm terrified.

I so desperately want to live. I want to make it. I want to get on hrt and become the woman I know I can be. I want to have a good life but it feels like I'm starting from the very bottom. No family, no friends, no job, no money, and no stable place to stay. I need some assurance I'm doing the right thing and not just getting myself into an equally bad situation just in a different place or just someone to tell me it's going to be okay. Thank you.

Hey kiddo, I promise you you're doing the right thing. You deserve the life of your dreams, to transition and be happy and to be safe and to be proud and openly yourself without the fear of getting hurt. Sometimes you need to work from the bottom to be able to climb up. I'm so so proud of you and I promise everything is gonna be okay.

- dad x

[babii-demi-demon]

Beluga babii Part Two

Ezili

Triggers for Anxiety:

♡》loud, sudden noises

♡》overly bright or harsh lighting

♡》crowded spaces

♡》sudden changes in routine

♡》being rushed

♡》conflict or raised voices

♡》feeling ignored or left out

♡》being alone for long periods

♡》overstimulation

♡》onfamiliar environments

♡》unpleasant textures

♡》lack of comfort items

♡》unpleasant smells

♡》feeling unsupported or unheard

♡》rapid transitions between activities

♡》social expectations or pressure

♡》fear of disappointing Daddii

♡》physical discomfort

♡》sensory overload from media

♡》feeling unprepared or uncertain

Favourite TV/Movie/Anime Characters:

♡》dory from finding nemo and finding dory

♡》pingu from pingu

♡》ariel from the little mermaid

♡》bluey from bluey

♡》totoro from my neighbour totoro

♡》squishy from monster's university

♡》winnie the pooh from winnie the pooh

♡》elmo from sesame street

♡》flounder from the little mermaid

♡》marlin from finding nemo

♡》peppa pig from peppa pig

♡》moana from moana

♡》oswald from oswald the octopus

♡》puffin from puffin rock

♡》nemo from finding nemo

♡》spongebob squarepants from spongebob squarepants

♡》bubbles from the powerpuff girls

♡》oona from bubble guppies

♡》whale from the snorks

♡》paddington bear from the adventures of paddington

♡》boo from monsters, inc.

♡》minnie mouse from mickey mouse clubhouse

♡》sandy cheeks from spongebob squarepants

♡》piplup from pokémon

♡》moomin from moomins

♡》dug from up

♡》ponyo from ponyo

♡》kipper from kipper the dog

♡》littlefoot from the land before time

♡》togepi from pokémon

♡》eeyore from winnie the pooh

♡》snorkmaiden from moomins

♡》paddington bear from the original paddington bear

♡》whale from octonauts

♡》piglet from winnie the pooh

♡》rosie from rosie’s rules

♡》peach from finding nemo

♡》pua from moana

♡》tigger from winnie the pooh

♡》dumbo from dumbo

♡》rilakkuma from rilakkuma and kaoru

♡》maui from moana

Favourite Types of Stuffiis:

♡》beluga whale stuffiis

♡》octopus stuffiis

♡》seal stuffiis

♡》dolphin stuffiis

♡》turtle stuffiis

♡》penguin stuffiis

♡》narwhal stuffiis

♡》starfish stuffiis

♡》crab stuffiis

♡》jellyfish stuffiis

♡》orca whale stuffiis

♡》fish-shaped stuffiis

♡》polar bear stuffiis

♡》sea otter stuffiis

♡》whale shark stuffiis

♡》mermaid stuffiis

♡》seahorse stuffiis

♡》frog stuffiis

♡》snail stuffiis

♡》coral reef stuffii set

Favourite Toys:

♡》water beads

♡》bath toys

♡》bubble machines

♡》ocean-themed sensory bottles

♡》sand play sets

♡》stacking cups

♡》shell collection kits

♡》toy boats

♡》ocean-themed puzzles

♡》toy fish tanks

♡》musical toy seahorses

♡》glow-in-the-dark stars

♡》ocean-themed finger puppets

♡》toy submarines

♡》mermaid dolls

♡》squishy sea creatures

♡》bubble wands

♡》underwater viewers

♡》scented slime

♡》toy crabs with moving claws

Bath Time Preferences:

♡》warm water

♡》ocean-themed bath toys

♡》bubbles

♡》gentle bath music

♡》bath crayons

♡》scented bath bombs (ocean or lavender)

♡》soft, fluffy towels

♡》glow-in-the-dark bath toys

♡》bath foam and shaving cream play

♡》sea creature sponges

♡》coloured bath tablets

♡》bath time story

♡》soft, hooded towels

♡》gentle, tear-free shampoo

♡》floating lights

♡》soft bristle brushes

Favourite Seasons:

Winter:

♡》the cold, crisp air and the peacefulness

♡》the imagery of snow and ice

♡》winter brings a sense of calm, with soft snowflakes and gentle winds creating a cosy, quiet atmosphere

Fall/Autumn:

♡》she enjoys the cosy, comforting feel of fall

♡》the cooler weather, soft sweaters, and warm tones of the leaves create a safe, secure environment

♡》she enjoys the calm, reflective mood that autumn brings, which aligns with her desire for cosy moments and soft, warm textures

Spring:

♡》spring is a time of renewal and soft breezes, which she enjoys

♡》the gentle warmth of the season and the blooming flowers make her feel refreshed

♡》spring brings a sense of lightness and new beginnings

Summer (Beach Days):

♡》while she prefers cooler seasons, she does love summer for its connection to the ocean

♡》beach days with the sun shining on the water, gentle waves, and the soft sand beneath her feet are some of her favourite experiences

♡》she enjoys the ocean breeze and the calmness that the water brings

Favourite Places Indoors:

♡》Daddii's lap

♡》in bed with Daddii

♡》cozy blanket forts

♡》bathtubs

♡》reading nooks

♡》window seats

♡》soft play mat

♡》couch with soft blankiis

♡》sensory areas

♡》under the table

♡》stuffii pile

♡》art areas

♡》dimly lit room with fairy lights

Nature Connections:

♡》ocean and waves

♡》rain

♡》snow and ice

♡》waterfalls

♡》tide pools

♡》calm lakes

♡》sandy beaches

♡》rocky shores

♡》forests

♡》gentle breeze

♡》starry nights

♡》soft grass

♡》underwater exploration

♡》sunrises and sunsets

♡》tropical islands

Things That Make Her Laugh:

♡》silly faces

♡》bubbles popping

♡》light, gentle tickles

♡》funny animal videos

♡》playful splashing

♡》peek-a-boo

♡》whale sounds

♡》silly songs

♡》stuffii conversations (when Daddii makes her plushies talk to each other in silly voices or act out funny situations)

♡》being chased playfully

♡》bubble machine

♡》puppets or finger puppets

♡》pop-up toys

♡》silly dancing

♡》blowing raspberries

♡》squeaky toys

♡》silly stories

♡》wobbly jelly or pudding

♡》playful animal impressions

Preferred Art Styles:

♡》watercolor

♡》pastel art

♡》cartoon-style art

♡》nature sketches

♡》collage art

♡》soft digital art

♡》impressionism

♡》fantasy art

♡》colouring books

♡》sea life illustrations

♡》minimalist art

♡》glow-in-the-dark art

Soothing Sounds for Sleep:

♡》ocean waves

♡》whale songs

♡》rainfall

♡》soft wind chimes

♡》distant thunder

♡》gentle waterfall

♡》crackling fireplace

♡》soft lullabies

♡》birdsong at dawn

♡》underwater bubbles

♡》rustling leaves

♡》stream or river flowing

♡》sea breeze

♡》soft humming

♡》wind blowing through trees

Daily Affirmations:

♡》i am safe, loved, and cared for

♡》i am calm, and i can handle anything

♡》i am connected to the ocean, and it helps me stay grounded

♡》i am enough just as i am

♡》i am loved for who i am inside and out

♡》i am free to be playful and happy

♡》i am surrounded by peace, and i bring peace to others

♡》i am strong and capable, like the ocean

♡》i deserve kindness and understanding

♡》i am safe in my Daddii's care

♡》i can be gentle with myself, just like i am with others

♡》i am full of wonder, and every day is a new adventure

♡》i trust myself, and i trust the world around me

♡》i am important, and my feelings matter

♡》i am connected to nature, and it brings me peace

Travel Dreams:

♡》visit all aquariums possible

♡》pretty, not overly populated beaches

♡》stay at a cosy cabin by the lake

♡》explore tide pools

♡》visit an arctic-themed park

♡》stay in an underwater hotel

♡》go on a dolphin-watching tour

♡》visit all the rainforests

♡stay at a beachside cottage

♡》lots of waterfalls

♡》visit a sea turtle sanctuary

♡》boat ride on a calm river

♡》explore ice caves

♡》snorkeling in a coral reef

♡》visit a beluga whale sanctuary

♡》relax at a hot springs

♡》stargazing in a quiet desert

♡》visit a frozen lake

♡》boat ride and swim in a bioluminescent bay

♡》visit an island with puffins

♡》swim in a saltwater lagoon

♡》explore a sea cave

♡》picnic in a meadow

♡》visit a marine biology centre

♡》stay at a treehouse in the forest

♡》whale watching in the arctic

♡》exploring a hidden beach

♡》visit flower gardens

♡》sail on a calm lake at sunset

Special Occasions:

♡》birthday celebrations

♡》Daddii (caregiver) appreciation day

♡》ocean day

♡》snow day

♡》whale watching day

♡》stuffii's birthdays

♡》underwater adventure day

♡》seasonal celebrations

♡》cuddle day

♡》first snowfall celebration

♡》whale song appreciation day

♡》rainy day cosy time

♡》favourite shows or movies marathon day

♡》sensory play day

Things That Make Her Feel Brave:

♡》Daddii

♡》holding her favourite stuffiis

♡》Daddii's encouraging words

♡》wearing a special outfit

♡》soft hand holding with Daddii

♡》listening to calming music

♡》Dadii's presence

♡》favourite blankiis

♡》repeating or hearing Daddii repeat a special affirmation

♡》taking deep breaths with Daddii

♡》Daddii's hugs

♡》small achievements

♡》favourite stories of brave characters

♡》having a safe space to retreat to

♡》gentle encouragement from Daddii

[hailhydrasheads]

Negative enneagram test

Type 6

Enneagram Type 6, often referred to as "The Loyalist" or "The Skeptic," is characterized by a strong need for security and a tendency to be cautious and vigilant. While this personality type possesses many strengths such as loyalty, responsibility, and a commitment to preparedness, the negative aspects of their nature can create challenges in both their personal lives and relationships. Their negative aspects tend to take the following forms:

Anxiety and Worry: Tendency to be anxious and anticipate potential dangers or problems.

Overthinking: Constantly analyzing situations and seeking reassurance to alleviate anxiety.

Doubt and Indecision: Struggling with making decisions due to fear of making the wrong choice.

Fear of Abandonment: Worrying about being left alone or unsupported by those they trust.

Questioning Authority: Tendency to question authority and seek evidence to confirm trustworthiness.

Projecting Worst-Case Scenarios: Imagining negative outcomes and dwelling on them.

Attachment to Security: Craving security and seeking out dependable sources of safety.

Fear of Betrayal: Being cautious about who to trust and fearing betrayal by others.

Seeking Reassurance: Constantly seeking validation and reassurance from others.

Overdependence on Others: Relying heavily on others for guidance and decision-making.

Skepticism: Tendency to doubt intentions and motives, leading to suspicion.

Resistance to Change: Discomfort with sudden changes and a preference for the familiar.

Catastrophizing: Magnifying small problems into significant threats.

Defensive Pessimism: Adopting a pessimistic mindset to brace for potential disappointments.

Fear of Isolation: Anxiety about being left out or disconnected from social groups.

Avoiding Taking a Stand: Hesitation to express personal opinions to avoid conflict or rejection.

Creating Conflict to Avoid Conflict: Engaging in arguments as a way to avoid deeper issues.

Overprotectiveness: Being overly protective of loved ones due to fear of harm.

Excessive Planning: Planning excessively to control potential uncertainties.

Second-Guessing: Doubting their own abilities and questioning their decisions.

Negative Self-Talk: Self-critical and self-doubting internal dialogue.

Difficulty Letting Go of Worries: Struggling to let go of worries and relax.

Fear of Being Unprepared: Anxiety about being caught off-guard or unprepared.

Seeking External Validation: Relying on others to validate their choices and actions.

Avoiding Taking Risks: Preferring to stay within their comfort zone to avoid potential pitfalls.

Type 8

Enneagram Type 8, often referred to as "The Challenger" or "The Protector," is characterized by a strong desire for control, independence, and a fear of vulnerability. While this personality type possesses many strengths such as leadership qualities, assertiveness, and a protective nature, the negative aspects of their nature can create challenges in both their personal lives and relationships. Their negative aspects tend to take the following forms:

Dominance: Tendency to dominate situations and people, seeking control.

Anger and Aggression: Struggling with anger management and expressing anger assertively.

Resistance to Vulnerability: Reluctance to show vulnerability or admit weaknesses.

Intimidation Tactics: Using forceful language and behavior to assert dominance.

Fear of Weakness: Deep fear of being perceived as weak or vulnerable.

Desire for Control: Craving control over situations and people to prevent being manipulated.

Impulsiveness: Reacting quickly and aggressively in challenging situations.

Avoiding Dependence: Aversion to depending on others or showing emotional need.

Difficulty Receiving Help: Struggle to accept help or support from others.

Confrontational Behavior: Tendency to confront conflicts head-on, sometimes causing tension.

Boundaries Can Be Overbearing: Strong boundaries can sometimes come off as domineering.

Fearing Betrayal: Worrying about being taken advantage of or betrayed.

Stubbornness: Refusing to back down, even when presented with evidence.

Neglecting Others' Feelings: Prioritizing their own needs and views over others'.

Repressing Vulnerable Emotions: Suppressing feelings of fear or hurt to maintain strength.

Pushing Others Away: Using intimidation to keep distance from emotional involvement.

Impatience: Difficulty tolerating delays or obstacles to their goals.

Risk of Isolation: Fear of being controlled can lead to isolation and strained relationships.

Difficulty Admitting Mistakes: Reluctance to acknowledge errors due to fear of losing control.

Overwhelming Presence: Intense presence can be overwhelming for more sensitive individuals.

Overemphasis on Independence: Valuing independence to the point of neglecting collaboration.

Resistance to Authority: Challenging authority figures to assert their own power.

Masking Vulnerability with Anger: Using anger as a defense mechanism to hide vulnerability.

Conflict-Seeking: Sometimes engaging in conflict to establish dominance or prove strength.

Stole from: @burnedbxnesrumlow

Tagging: @stripesofbrooklyn @smertzimy @zemothethirteenth @manymusesbym @born-to-be-mischievous @winterexinferna @tormentedsoldier @thesexyidiot

[prof-o-possum]

June 3rd- Queer Youth Suicide

Another heavy post, but one that is incredibly close to my heart.

Content Warnings: homophobia, transphobia, bullying, violence, conversion therapy, suicide.

This is Leelah Alcorn, a trans girl from Ohio.

On December 28th, 2014, Leelah wrote a suicide note set to be queued on Tumblr and published after her death. It's devastating. Please be gentle with your heart and do not read her note unprepared.

"My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year," she wrote. "I want someone to look at that number and say 'that’s fucked up' and fix it. Fix society. Please."

Leelah died after stepping in front of a truck on a highway near her home. She was 17.

Leelah's parents were unsupportive of their daughter, sending her to Christian conversion therapy after she came out to them. They also removed her from school and severely restricted her internet access.

According to the Human Rights Campaign, nearly 80% of LGBTQ+ teens report feeling depressed. 

The CDC reports that in 2023, 41% of LGBTQ+ youth seriously considered attempting suicide in the past year.

One in five – 20% -- did attempt suicide.

This is Nex Benedict, a non-binary student from Oklahoma. 

On February 6, 2024, Nex was viciously beaten by fellow students in a violent encounter in the women’s bathroom in their high school.

Nex died on February 7th of what was eventually ruled a suicide. They were 16 years old. 

Distressingly, Nex was not alone in experiencing queerphobic bullying and violence in their school.

A 2019 Nationwide study of LGBTQ+ Youth in High Schools by GLSEN reports

81.8% of LGBTQ+ students felt unsafe in school because of at least one of their actual or perceived personal characteristics. 

68.0% of LGBTQ+ students felt unsafe at school because of their SOGIE (sexual orientation, gender identity and/or gender expression) characteristics—

50.6% because of their sexual orientation,

43.2% because of their gender expression, and 

40.3% because of their gender.

Of students surveyed during the 2021-2022 academic year:

83.1% experienced in-person harassment or assault based on personal characteristics, including sexual orientation, gender expression, gender, religion, actual or perceived race or ethnicity, and actual or perceived disability. 

76.1% experienced in-person verbal harassment specifically based on sexual orientation, gender expression, and gender at some point in the past year.

12.5% were physically assaulted (e.g., punched, kicked, injured with a weapon) in the past year based on their sexual orientation, gender expression or gender.

Data suggests that LGBTQ+ youth experience violence and bullying nearly twice as much as children who are or are presumed to be heterosexual.

[cambodiavisa1]

Avoid These Cambodia Visa Mistakes When Submitting Your Cambodia Visa Application Online

Planning a trip to Cambodia is exciting, but the process of securing your travel documents can sometimes be tricky. One of the most convenient ways to apply is through the Cambodia visa application online, which allows travelers to complete the process from anywhere. However, there are common Cambodia visa mistakes that can lead to delays, rejections, or even being denied entry upon arrival.

To ensure your journey goes smoothly, it's important to understand the most frequent pitfalls and how to avoid them when using the Cambodia visa application online platform.

1. Incorrect or Incomplete Information

One of the most common Cambodia visa mistakes is entering incorrect personal information such as your passport number, full name, or date of birth. Even small typos can result in processing delays or visa rejection. Double-check every field before submitting the form. Make sure the details match your passport exactly—this includes spelling and punctuation.

Incomplete applications can also be problematic. Skipping mandatory fields or leaving out essential travel information may lead to rejection or requests for additional documentation, slowing down the process.

2. Uploading the Wrong Photo or Document Format

When completing your Cambodia visa application online, you’ll need to upload a recent passport-style photo and a scanned copy of your passport. Many applicants make the mistake of uploading images that don’t meet the required specifications.

Avoid uploading blurry, low-resolution, or improperly sized photos. Ensure that your passport scan is clear and shows all important details. Documents that are too dark, cropped incorrectly, or saved in unsupported formats may be rejected.

3. Using an Expired or Near-Expired Passport

Always check your passport’s expiration date before applying. One of the major Cambodia visa mistakes travelers make is submitting an application with a passport that is about to expire.

To be safe, your passport should be valid for at least six months from your intended date of entry into Cambodia. Failing to meet this requirement may cause your application to be denied, or worse, result in entry refusal at the border.

4. Selecting the Wrong Visa Type

Another common issue during the Cambodia visa application online process is choosing the wrong visa category. Cambodia offers different visa types depending on the purpose of your visit—tourism, business, and more.

Selecting the incorrect visa type can lead to complications when entering the country. For instance, using a tourist visa for business meetings may raise red flags with immigration authorities. Take the time to understand which visa suits your travel needs before applying.

5. Overlooking Entry Requirements and Restrictions

Travelers sometimes assume that a visa guarantees automatic entry into Cambodia. This is one of the lesser-known but serious Cambodia visa mistakes.

Even with a valid visa, entry is at the discretion of border officials. If your documentation is incomplete, you appear unprepared, or your answers during immigration questioning are inconsistent, you may be denied entry. It's vital to have printed copies of your visa, travel itinerary, accommodation details, and return ticket when arriving in Cambodia.

6. Applying Too Late

Processing times can vary, and waiting until the last minute to start your Cambodia visa application online can be risky. Unexpected delays can leave you stressed or even force you to reschedule your trip.

To avoid this, apply well in advance of your departure date. This gives you ample time to fix any errors or resubmit documents if needed.

7. Failing to Save or Print Your Visa

Once your visa is approved, don’t forget to download and print it. Failing to bring a physical copy when entering Cambodia is one of the easiest Cambodia visa mistakes to make—but one that can have serious consequences.

Immigration officers typically request a printed copy at the point of entry. If you only have a digital version on your phone, it may not be accepted, especially in locations with limited internet or technical resources.

Final Thoughts

Submitting your Cambodia visa application online is a convenient way to prepare for your trip, but only if you approach it carefully. Avoiding these common Cambodia visa mistakes can save you time, money, and unnecessary stress.

By double-checking your information, preparing your documents correctly, applying early, and bringing the right paperwork with you, you'll ensure a smooth and hassle-free entry into Cambodia. A little preparation now can lead to a more enjoyable and worry-free travel experience later.

[wisteria-tarot]

please can u do reading on youtuber lilee nelson? im rather concerned that shes never got her full privacy that she deserves after being exploited from a young age, im curious what her thoughts are on child youtubers and if she feels its bit much or is it that she still enjoys doing youtube or does she just want to do her own things away from her family?

could be wrong ofc but idk i think the nenfam is chaotic and toxic af and they dont seem to respect a siblings personal space let alone try to be normal about their behaviour on camera. i bet she likes having her own apartment though her siblings are always around her like flies it seems lmao

Disclaimer: This reading is only for entertainment. Take it with a grain of salt. These are my personal interpretations of the cards with a sprinkle of intuition. Tarot is not set in stone it is not the end all be all of someones life.

What her thoughts are on child youtubers.

10 of wands (rx), king of cups (rx), 8 of wands, 5 of wands, 7 of cups:

She likely feels that the responsibilities placed on them are too much, and that they might be emotionally unprepared or unsupported in such a high-pressure environment. She worries about the rapid pace and the conflict or competition they face. She might also feel that there’s a lot of confusion and a lack of clarity in how these children navigate the platform, which can add to the stress.

Does she feel like it's a bit much or does she still enjoy doing youtube?

7 of wands (rx), 2 of swords, ace of cups (rx), 8 of swords, page of swords (rx):

She seems to be feeling emotionally drained and conflicted about YouTube. She might still be doing it, but there’s a lack of emotional fulfillment and a sense of being trapped or mentally overwhelmed. She might also be torn between continuing or stepping back—she’s feeling like the effort required is becoming too much or is not yielding the rewards she hopes for.

Does she just want to do her own things away from her family?

9 of swords (rx), 6 of swords, the emperor (rx), the hierophant (rx), queen of pentacles:

She seems to be desiring a sense of emotional independence and distance from her family. She’s been feeling overwhelmed by family dynamics and may be seeking a way to break free from restrictive or oppressive influences. At the same time, she’s not looking to stray too far from stability or security, she still values her independence and desires to create a secure life for herself, but on her own terms.

[alliance00]

6 Signs You Should Change Your Nursing Placement Agency

Choosing the right nursing placement agency is essential for career advancement, job satisfaction, and balance at work and home. Most agencies provide a client-centric experience but could sometimes make nurses feel dissatisfied or overloaded by the sheer number of placements available. Consider changing your nursing placement agency if you have experienced any of the following signs.

1. Lack of Communication and Support

Poor communication is one of the greatest warning signals one can get at work. If your nursing placement agency has poor communication with you while you email, call, or send messages to them, it is best to think of using other options. Effective communication is paramount in a smooth working relationship, especially if working in a fast-paced and hot environment like healthcare. If your agency doesn't keep you on time and doesn't timely communicate with you on where to go, what to do, and what you should do, it certainly makes you feel alone and unsupported. A reliable agency should be in regular contact with an employee and keep him up-to-date about specific assignments and shifts, as well as any changes in those schedules.

2. Unclear or Unreasonable Expectations

If you find your nursing placement agency not having clear or realistic expectations, that might be yet one more reason for shifting agencies. This situation can manifest itself in a variety of ways—for example, requesting shifts at the very last moment, unreliable assignments, or unclear instructions about job characteristics. You might be asked to take on jobs that don't match your skill level or comfort zone but with no training to prepare you or any preparation for it, leading to burnout and discontentment. A good agency should detail the jobs properly, expectations, and compensation so that you will never find yourself unprepared or ill-equipped for the job.

3. Inconsistent or Low Pay Rates

Pay is a fundamental factor considered in any nursing job. Salary fluctuations—inconsistent pay or lower-than-promised pay from a nursing placement agency—are a great concern. Some agencies delay their payment; they do not provide benefits or give less payment than discussed. Always check that the agency provides a clear process of payment. If your current agency fails to abide by its pay structure or is not consistent in this area, consider looking for a better agency.

4. Limited Job Opportunities

It really means that if your nursing placement agency is not able to provide enough job opportunities to you or does not give much choice of assignments available, then this is not the right agency for your career advancement. Nurses are required in all healthcare settings; hence, it is expected of any credible agency to provide permanent-to-temporary as well as contract placement options to the nurses. Definitely, this poses a lack of availability or ever-continuous delays in placement opportunities could just mean that the agency is not as connected or resourceful as it should be.

5. Disregard for Work-Life Balance

Nursing can be quite a tough profession, and a proper healthy work-life balance is essential for long-term job satisfaction. If your nursing placement agency is not keeping such a balance or forcing you to accept too many shifts without rest, it can cause burnout. Sometimes, a good agency also respects personal time for the nurse and keeps a feasible working schedule. If you are feeling completely weighed down and have no time for yourself, family, or relaxation, then perhaps it is time for you to search for another agency, one that really cares about your welfare and encourages a vital work-life balance.

6. Poor Reputation or Negative Reviews

Reputation is everything when it comes to recruitment agencies in nursing. If you've received or heard negative feedback about your agency from other healthcare practitioners, there might be something wrong. Poor reviews regarding an agency, such as inconsistent placements, lack of professionalism, and unresolved complaints, not to mention, must not be disregarded but searched for agencies that really have a solid reputation in this area of providing good quality placements, well-respected nurses, and high standards of professionalism.

Conclusion

Selecting the appropriate nursing placement agency can greatly affect both your personal and professional lives. In case you notice some of the symptoms named above, it is often a good idea to check out other nursing placement agencies that would fit you better. Remember that good agencies should have frequent communication, offer fair compensation, plenty of opportunities, and balance in work and life. And finally, if it is indeed going to be best for you, do not hesitate to make that change. Looking for top-tier nursing placements? Contact Alliance Recruitment Agency! Offering expert staffing services worldwide, specializing in connecting skilled nurses with healthcare providers. The seamless recruitment process ensures the perfect match, empowering healthcare teams and driving business growth. Build a stronger workforce today! Contact us now.

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Breaking Barriers: Supporting Youth Mental Health in Schools

Introduction: Why Mental Health in Schools Matters

Imagine a high school student sitting at their desk, trying to focus as waves of anxiety crash over them. They’re not alone. Recent studies reveal that nearly 1 in 5 students experiences mental health challenges such as anxiety or depression, with these issues worsening in the wake of the pandemic (Centers for Disease Control and Prevention [CDC], 2022).

Schools are more than academic institutions—they are environments where students develop socially and emotionally. Yet many educational systems fail to address the pressing issue of mental health. This blog explores systemic barriers, highlights potential solutions, and emphasizes the importance of creating supportive school environments, especially for marginalized populations.

The Impact of Mental Health on Education

Mental health challenges are deeply intertwined with a student’s ability to succeed in school, both academically and socially.

Academic Consequences:

Students with untreated mental health challenges often experience difficulty concentrating, increased absenteeism, and declining grades.

Statistic: Over 50% of students with significant mental health challenges drop out of high school (National Alliance on Mental Illness [NAMI], 2023).

Social Consequences:

Anxiety and depression strain peer relationships, leading to isolation and low self-esteem.

Marginalized groups, such as Indigenous youth, face compounded struggles due to systemic inequities and cultural disconnection (Sabzalian, 2018).

Sabzalian’s (2018) concept of "survivance" captures the resilience of Indigenous students navigating educational systems that often fail to support their cultural identities. For these students, the mental health crisis exacerbates feelings of exclusion, making targeted interventions crucial.

Barriers to Addressing Mental Health in Schools

Despite the growing awareness of youth mental health, several systemic barriers prevent schools from offering effective support:

1. Resource Limitations:

Many schools lack funding to hire counselors, psychologists, and other professionals.

Statistic: Only 22% of schools meet the recommended student-to-counselor ratio of 250:1 (American School Counselor Association [ASCA], 2023).

2. Cultural Insensitivity:

Indigenous and marginalized students often encounter mental health programs that fail to address their unique cultural needs, limiting the effectiveness of these initiatives (Sabzalian, 2018).

3. Stigma Surrounding Mental Health:

Cultural stigma, especially in underserved communities, discourages students from seeking help and families from discussing mental health challenges.

4. Insufficient Training for Educators:

Teachers are often unprepared to recognize signs of mental health struggles, leaving many students unsupported.

These barriers demand systemic reform to ensure schools are prepared to address the diverse needs of their students.

Real Stories: The Power of Sharing Experiences

To understand the real-world impact of these barriers, the PBS documentary "Kids in Crisis: You’re Not Alone" provides a powerful lens. Through the journeys of four teens, this documentary highlights the struggles of youth dealing with anxiety, depression, and systemic challenges in seeking help.

Their stories emphasize the urgent need for schools to provide culturally relevant, accessible, and stigma-free mental health support.

Solutions: What Schools Can Do

There are actionable steps schools can take to better support students’ mental health:

1. Expand Access to Mental Health Professionals:

Schools must hire more counselors, social workers, and psychologists to meet recommended ratios and provide consistent support.

2. Integrate Mental Health Literacy into Curricula:

Embedding mental health education normalizes discussions and empowers students to seek help when needed.

3. Provide Culturally Relevant Support Systems:

Schools should adopt frameworks that respect and reflect the cultural identities of students.

Example: Sabzalian (2018) highlights the need for incorporating Indigenous perspectives into school programs.

4. Foster Creativity and Play:

Drawing from Aronstein & Finke (2018), schools can integrate creative approaches to reduce stress and foster engagement, making classrooms more inclusive and supportive.

5. Train Educators to Recognize Early Signs of Mental Health Struggles:

Professional development programs can equip teachers with the skills to identify and respond to students’ needs effectively.

Call to Action: Together, We Can Make a Difference

Mental health is as essential as academic success. Schools, families, and communities must work together to create environments where every student feels supported.

What You Can Do:

Advocate for policies that fund mental health programs in schools.

Support local organizations that offer culturally relevant resources.

Start conversations to reduce stigma and encourage open discussions about mental health.

By addressing these challenges, we can ensure that schools become places where students can thrive academically, socially, and emotionally.

References

Sabzalian, L. (2018). Chapter 2: Indigenous children’s survivance in public school.

Aronstein, S., & Finke, P. (2018). Discipline and pleasure: The pedagogical work of Disneyland.

National Alliance on Mental Illness. (2023). Mental health facts: Children and teens. Retrieved from https://www.nami.org

Centers for Disease Control and Prevention. (2022). Youth risk behavior survey data summary & trends report. Retrieved from https://www.cdc.gov

American School Counselor Association. (2023). The role of school counselors in supporting mental health. Retrieved from https://www.schoolcounselor.org

PBS. (2023). Kids in crisis: You’re not alone. Retrieved from https://www.pbs.org/show/kids-crisis-youre-not-alone/

Miller, A. L. (2019). Adolescent mental health in the classroom: A case study. The Journal of Adolescent Health, 64(3), 334-340.

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Using AI to Help Reduce the Caregiver Burnout

One question that frequently arises is, “Can AI truly revolutionize caregiving, and can it help reduce caregiver burnout?” Caregivers play a holistic role, offering physical, emotional, and sometimes financial support to those who rely on them. They navigate complex medical systems, provide companionship, and ensure the dignity of those under their care, all while juggling their own lives. According to the AARP, over 41 million Americans engage in this every day, translating to an economic value of $470 billion in unpaid labor annually. Given these challenges, leveraging AI to reduce caregiver burnout could significantly enhance their well-being and improve the quality of care they provide.

It is not just the financial strain, caregiving can take a huge emotional toll too, with 40-70% experiencing depression. Yet, only a fraction of the caregivers feel truly supported by family or friends. The physical and emotional stress of the role can also lead to caregiver burden and burnout. Thus, it is crucial that they have access to all the resources that aid in reducing caregiver burnout.

Challenges faced by caregivers

Juggling caregiving, work, and personal life all at once can feel overwhelming. Many caregivers often feel drained and overlooked. On top of that, the lack of resources and a solid support network only makes their challenges harder to manage, leaving them feeling even more isolated. Leveraging AI to reduce caregiver burnout can be a game changer in this context, providing essential support and relieving some of the pressure. Challenges of caregiving could involve:

◆ Managing multiple tasks 

Caregivers often juggle a wide range of responsibilities, from administering medication to planning meals and managing doctor’s appointments. These tasks can be time-consuming and stressful, especially when caregivers are balancing their own personal and professional lives.

◆ Monitoring loved one’s health

Caregivers need to keep a constant watch over vital signs, medication adherence, and daily activities, which becomes even harder when they can’t be physically present. This lack of real-time information increases anxiety and fear of emergencies.

◆ Emotional burden

Caregivers frequently face emotional exhaustion, often feeling isolated and unsupported. The constant pressure to be “strong” for their loved one can lead to burnout, depression, and feelings of neglect, as they rarely get time to focus on their own well-being.

◆ Lack of support and resources

Many caregivers lack access to strong support networks or resources. The absence of a community where they can share experiences, learn from others, or get advice leaves them feeling isolated and unprepared to handle the complexities of caregiving.

◆ Reactive, not proactive care

Without technology in caregiving, caregivers often find themselves reacting to health crises as they happen. This leads to stress and potential health risks for their loved ones, as emerging issues go unnoticed until they become more serious. Proactive management and reducing caregiver burnout are difficult without the right data and insights.

Reducing Caregiver Burnout with AI Tools

AI-powered tools can contribute to caregiver stress relief by providing comprehensive support, addressing various needs such as:

Personalized task management: Custom schedules with reminders for medications, appointments, and meal preparation are made possible with technology in caregiving.

Research assistance: Caregivers can find information on specific conditions like incontinence or memory loss.

Emotional support: Chatbots offer companionship, mental breaks, and access to peer support groups.

Educational resources: AI curates videos and articles on caregiving techniques, like safe patient transfer or managing wandering in the elderly.

Proactive care: Real-time monitoring and alerts from wearables detect health risks and trigger early interventions.

Enhanced communication: Generative AI and chatbots provide translation tools, improving communication for those with language or speech barriers.

Care plan organization: The latest AI tech can assist in tracking complex care plans, medication schedules, and therapy appointments.

Creative activity prompts: AI suggests engaging activities, like music therapy or personalized storytelling.

Emergency response: AI-integrated smart devices detect falls or emergencies and notify caregivers or emergency services.

Community building: AI for caregiver support can help choose and access support groups, local resources, and online communities.

Meal and exercise planning: Personalized meal plans and fitness routines based on medical needs and preferences can be generated by incorporating technology in caregiving.

Financial and legal support: AI brings significant caregiver stress relief with financial planning, respite care coordination, and legal guidance.

Summing Up

AI tools present a valuable opportunity to alleviate caregiver burnout by addressing the various challenges these individuals encounter. By automating routine tasks and providing consistent support, AI caregivers can significantly lighten the burdens placed on caregivers. Leveraging AI to reduce caregiver burnout empowers caregivers to manage their responsibilities more effectively while fostering connections with support networks and communities, ultimately enhancing the quality of care for seniors.

As the need for caregiving continues to rise, leveraging AI technologies such as CareFlick’s YANA can enhance the quality of care and improve the well-being of caregivers themselves. Ultimately, embracing AI tools for caregivers can create a more balanced and rewarding experience for all involved.

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Lack of Onboarding and Training — The Effect on Employees

Effective onboarding and training programs are critical for setting employees up for success in any organization. However, when these processes are overlooked or insufficient, the negative impact on employees can be significant. At Masters in Minds, we believe that well-structured onboarding and continuous training are essential to fostering employee engagement, boosting productivity, and driving long-term organizational success.

The Importance of Onboarding and Training

Onboarding is the process of integrating new hires into an organization, providing them with the knowledge, tools, and support they need to thrive in their roles. Training goes hand-in-hand, ensuring employees continually develop their skills and remain aligned with the company’s goals and values. Without these crucial steps, employees are often left feeling lost, undervalued, and unprepared, which can lead to frustration and disengagement.

The Impact of Inadequate Onboarding and Training

1.Low Employee Engagement: Employees who don’t receive proper onboarding are more likely to feel disconnected from the organization. Without a clear understanding of their role and expectations, they may struggle to engage with their work, leading to decreased productivity and enthusiasm.

2. High Turnover Rates: Without adequate onboarding and training, employees are more likely to leave the organization early. Feeling unsupported and unprepared, they may seek opportunities where they can feel more confident and capable.

3.Decreased Productivity: Employees who aren’t properly trained can struggle with tasks and processes, resulting in lower productivity and more frequent errors. This not only affects their performance but also the efficiency of the entire team.

4.Poor Workplace Culture: Inadequate onboarding and training can lead to a culture of uncertainty, confusion, and frustration. Employees who feel unsupported are less likely to collaborate effectively and may contribute to a negative workplace atmosphere.

The Benefits of Strong Onboarding and Training

1.Boosted Confidence: A well-structured onboarding program helps new employees understand their role, the company culture, and their place within the organization. This builds confidence from day one, empowering them to contribute effectively.

2.Improved Retention: Employees who receive proper training are more likely to stay with the organization long-term. They feel more valued, capable, and invested in their roles, reducing turnover.

3.Enhanced Skill Development: Continuous training allows employees to grow in their careers, expanding their skill sets and remaining competitive in a rapidly changing business landscape.

4.Stronger Team Dynamics: Proper onboarding fosters a sense of belonging and collaboration among team members, encouraging a more positive and cohesive work environment.

Conclusion:

Neglecting onboarding and training programs can have serious repercussions on employee satisfaction, performance, and retention. At Masters in Minds, we understand the importance of providing employees with the right support and training to ensure their success. By investing in these foundational processes, businesses can create a more engaged, productive, and loyal workforce, leading to greater organizational success.

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Common Pitfalls in Digital Transformation

While digital transformation offers numerous benefits, businesses often encounter challenges along the way. Some common pitfalls include:

Lack of Clear Strategy  Jumping into digital initiatives without a defined strategy can lead to wasted resources and fragmented efforts. It’s important to have a roadmap that aligns with overall business goals.

Resistance to Change  Employees may resist new technologies or processes, particularly if they feel unprepared or unsupported. Investing in training and creating a culture of openness can help ease this transition.

Overemphasis on Technology  While technology is a critical part of digital transformation, it’s only one piece of the puzzle. Businesses that focus solely on tools without addressing underlying processes or cultural shifts may struggle to achieve lasting results.

Failure to Measure Success  Digital transformation efforts should be continually measured and evaluated. Failing to set KPIs or assess progress can result in missed opportunities for adjustment and improvement.

Implementing Digital Transformation: A Phased Approach

For many businesses, digital transformation can seem overwhelming. A phased approach can help break down the process into manageable steps:

Start Small  Begin by focusing on one area of the business that could benefit from digital transformation. This allows the company to test new technologies and processes before scaling them across the organization.

Monitor Results  Track the success of each phase, using KPIs to measure the impact of new initiatives. This helps identify areas for improvement and ensures that the transformation is delivering measurable benefits.

Scale Gradually  Once a successful framework is established, businesses can expand digital transformation efforts to other areas of the company. Scaling should be done gradually to ensure that systems remain integrated and operations continue to run smoothly.

Review and Adapt  As Michael Shvartsman advises, digital transformation is an ongoing process. Regularly reviewing the effectiveness of new systems and technologies is critical to staying ahead in a constantly evolving market.

Digital transformation is a powerful strategy for businesses looking to enhance efficiency, improve customer experiences, and stay competitive. By following a structured approach — defining goals, assessing capabilities, developing a roadmap, and fostering a culture of innovation — businesses can successfully navigate the complexities of digital transformation.

Michael Shvartsman, a leader in business strategy and philanthropy, stresses the significance of customer-centricity in digital transformation efforts. “Technology has to serve the customer. Businesses should always ask themselves how a new digital tool or platform improves the customer experience. If the technology doesn’t enhance that, it’s not worth pursuing.”

When asked about the challenges businesses face during digital transformation, Michael Shvartsman points to the importance of cultural change. “The biggest hurdle is often not the technology itself but the organizational mindset. Leadership must foster an environment where innovation is encouraged and employees feel empowered to adapt to new ways of working.”

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Character:

NEGATIVE ENNEAGRAM TEST

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Type 6 and Type 8

Enneagram Type 6, often referred to as "The Loyalist" or "The Skeptic," is characterized by a strong need for security and a tendency to be cautious and vigilant. While this personality type possesses many strengths such as loyalty, responsibility, and a commitment to preparedness, the negative aspects of their nature can create challenges in both their personal lives and relationships. Their negative aspects tend to take the following forms:

Anxiety and Worry: Tendency to be anxious and anticipate potential dangers or problems.

Overthinking: Constantly analyzing situations and seeking reassurance to alleviate anxiety.

Doubt and Indecision: Struggling with making decisions due to fear of making the wrong choice.

Fear of Abandonment: Worrying about being left alone or unsupported by those they trust.

Questioning Authority: Tendency to question authority and seek evidence to confirm trustworthiness.

Projecting Worst-Case Scenarios: Imagining negative outcomes and dwelling on them.

Attachment to Security: Craving security and seeking out dependable sources of safety.

Fear of Betrayal: Being cautious about who to trust and fearing betrayal by others.

Seeking Reassurance: Constantly seeking validation and reassurance from others.

Overdependence on Others: Relying heavily on others for guidance and decision-making.

Skepticism: Tendency to doubt intentions and motives, leading to suspicion.

Resistance to Change: Discomfort with sudden changes and a preference for the familiar.

Catastrophizing: Magnifying small problems into significant threats.

Defensive Pessimism: Adopting a pessimistic mindset to brace for potential disappointments.

Fear of Isolation: Anxiety about being left out or disconnected from social groups.

Avoiding Taking a Stand: Hesitation to express personal opinions to avoid conflict or rejection.

Creating Conflict to Avoid Conflict: Engaging in arguments as a way to avoid deeper issues.

Overprotectiveness: Being overly protective of loved ones due to fear of harm.

Excessive Planning: Planning excessively to control potential uncertainties.

Second-Guessing: Doubting their own abilities and questioning their decisions.

Negative Self-Talk: Self-critical and self-doubting internal dialogue.

Difficulty Letting Go of Worries: Struggling to let go of worries and relax.

Fear of Being Unprepared: Anxiety about being caught off-guard or unprepared.

Seeking External Validation: Relying on others to validate their choices and actions.

Avoiding Taking Risks: Preferring to stay within their comfort zone to avoid potential pitfalls.

Enneagram Type 8, often referred to as "The Challenger" or "The Protector," is characterized by a strong desire for control, independence, and a fear of vulnerability. While this personality type possesses many strengths such as leadership qualities, assertiveness, and a protective nature, the negative aspects of their nature can create challenges in both their personal lives and relationships. Their negative aspects tend to take the following forms:

Dominance: Tendency to dominate situations and people, seeking control.

Anger and Aggression: Struggling with anger management and expressing anger assertively.

Resistance to Vulnerability: Reluctance to show vulnerability or admit weaknesses.

Intimidation Tactics: Using forceful language and behavior to assert dominance.

Fear of Weakness: Deep fear of being perceived as weak or vulnerable.

Desire for Control: Craving control over situations and people to prevent being manipulated.

Impulsiveness: Reacting quickly and aggressively in challenging situations.

Avoiding Dependence: Aversion to depending on others or showing emotional need.

Difficulty Receiving Help: Struggle to accept help or support from others.

Confrontational Behavior: Tendency to confront conflicts head-on, sometimes causing tension.

Boundaries Can Be Overbearing: Strong boundaries can sometimes come off as domineering.

Fearing Betrayal: Worrying about being taken advantage of or betrayed.

Stubbornness: Refusing to back down, even when presented with evidence.

Neglecting Others' Feelings: Prioritizing their own needs and views over others'.

Repressing Vulnerable Emotions: Suppressing feelings of fear or hurt to maintain strength.

Pushing Others Away: Using intimidation to keep distance from emotional involvement.

Impatience: Difficulty tolerating delays or obstacles to their goals.

Risk of Isolation: Fear of being controlled can lead to isolation and strained relationships.

Difficulty Admitting Mistakes: Reluctance to acknowledge errors due to fear of losing control.

Overwhelming Presence: Intense presence can be overwhelming for more sensitive individuals.

Overemphasis on Independence: Valuing independence to the point of neglecting collaboration.

Resistance to Authority: Challenging authority figures to assert their own power.

Masking Vulnerability with Anger: Using anger as a defense mechanism to hide vulnerability.

Conflict-Seeking: Sometimes engaging in conflict to establish dominance or prove strength.

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If you're new, this all starts with Touch Starved - Echo! You can read this little chunk as a standalone, or head back to the beginning for the full experience!

Well, would you look at that. I miscalculated. Okay, now there'll be only one more chapter to finish this bit off. Again, not sorry, though. There’s some serious cuteness with Wrecker in this one that I felt like my earlier writing with him just didn’t quite capture.

Also, this chapter deals briefly (it'll be more prominent in the next one) with some heavy subject matter regarding SA and victim blaming. There’s a happy ending coming, but far too often that’s not the case. Friendly reminder that being attacked is never your fault, and asking for help is the bravest, hardest thing to do, but it’s so, so important. Be kind to yourselves.

Febuwhump Day 2 Ch 3 - continuation to Flinching

Flinching – Med OC&TBB

Warnings: Reference to attempted SA, reference to physical assault, reference to victim blaming - aside from a couple paragraphs here and there, this one's much fluffier than the others

WC: 2,629

It was a strange thing. The cot in the medbay was no different from the ones in the bunk room: same too-thin mattress, same flat, unsupportive pillow, same scratchy blanket, but there was still that unshakable sense of ‘this isn’t my bed’ teasing those very first hints of awareness slowly dragging me from the edge of sleep. Something about that subconscious understanding seemed to make me even more reluctant to wake, savoring those fleeting moments of comfort from the gentle intimacy of feeling safe enough for this ultimate show of vulnerability to another.

Because I did feel safe. Nestled in those military issue sheets rich with that familiar scent of someone I could so nearly remember even in the haze of sleep, I felt no lingering fear of who else might be nearby, no dread of being found unprepared nor worry that there was some terrible danger lurking just beyond closed eyelids. Still, there was something… some quiet sound easing me from that treasured safety… a voice whispering my name.

“…hmm.” The nearly whimpered grumble caught in my throat before noting the feeling of that warm touch carefully shifting against my shoulder.

“I know, but you’ve got to get up.” I knew that deep, smoky voice, mind seamlessly matching it to the comforting scent surrounding me, and that moment of recognition was enough to rid me of any nagging need to respond. He was safe, and he was near me, so there was nothing worth worrying over enough to even bother opening my eyes.

“Come on, Doc; need you to wake up.” My body rocked softly beneath the gentle movement of his hand, succeeding only in drawing the beginnings of a frown to my face, knees tucking absently to my chest as though I might hide from him with such a minimal gesture, but the movement came up short, blocked by something warm. My eyes opened just enough to confirm Hunter was sitting on the edge of the bed mere inches away from me.

The shuffle of limbs was a subconscious thing, body shifting forward beneath that driving need for closeness. Arms unfolding from where they’d been tucked against my chest, I vaguely felt myself reach for him, hands slipping around his waist with just enough force to drag me against him, torso absently curling around his hips before letting my head sink back down with a contented huff of breath. The nearby sounds of barely restrained laughter were a distant concern, unimportant as I eagerly felt myself drifting again.

“Doc,” Even his voice lit beneath a breathy chuckle, stealing himself for a moment before shaking me with slightly more force. A frustrated moan broke through drawn lips, arms tightening stubbornly before forcing my eyes into a reluctant squint.

“H’nter… hmm?” The nearly senseless mumble earned fresh snickers that helped pull me closer toward some degree of true awareness.

“We’re almost to Kamino. Figured you’d want to get dressed.”

“K’mino?” Confusion dripped from uncooperative lips. Kamino should still be a full day and a half out.

“Mhmm – you were pretty out of it for a while.” He replied, humor softening the teasing lilt of his voice. Finally, my mind began to catch up to what lay before me: to the tautness of his lips as he tried to fight back a grin at how I clung to him; to the less restrained smiles on Wrecker and Echo’s faces where they stood leaning against Tech’s bunk; the slight hitch to Crosshair’s brow as he watched with that silent judgement that would have brought a deep blush to anyone with even a fleeting breadth of shame to be found for such things, but I merely let out a quiet groan, arms slipping carelessly from Hunter’s waist as I rolled begrudgingly onto my back.

“Kriff… ‘m sorry; didn’t mean to hog your bed.” His hand shifted to rest lightly in my hair before musing it just long enough to earn a heatless glare from me.

“As soon as Echo suggested it, I knew I wasn’t getting it back this trip – it’s fine.” He dismissed lightly. Arms stretching over my head, I arched my back with a deep, leisurely inhale, willing away some of that lingering drowsiness from the limbs.

“How long before we land?” There was still a slight mumble to my words, but only just.

“Long enough to clean up if you’re quick.” He replied as he pushed himself off the bed. A sigh escaped me with the weight of what those words really meant. Just a few fleeting moments before I had to report that Master-Sergeant to the proper channels – before I had to present the pictures of my body to strangers showing those sickening bruises marring skin meant only for the gentle caress of a lover. I’d have to recount each aspect of our interactions leading to his attempted assault for them to determine if I’d in any way contributed to my own suffering; if I’d unintentionally invited his advance thus somehow earning the blame and judgement more so than the man himself.

“You’ve been asleep for a while. Think you can eat something, first?” There was a deep concern underlying words that wanted to be an order. Dragging my hand roughly over my face, fingers just tangling into hopelessly disheveled hair, I shook my head, stealing one more controlled breath before answering.

“Maybe after.” I didn’t look at him as the whisper escaped me in something too close to a plea. I heard his slow sigh, and felt my teeth catch the inner flesh of my lip to keep from giving into that desire to simply sink further into his mattress in some vain hope to disappear.

“Alright.” He agreed quietly. Brows drawing together, I finally pushed myself up, legs dragging over the edge of the bed, and I tried not to notice their gazes wonder over the residual hints of sickly yellow marking flesh so near to being fully healed from the second skin of bacta I’d been lathered in. Hunter’s hand automatically settled against my shoulder blade, anticipating the way my head swam in those first few seconds.

“I’m fine.” I mumbled without looking at him, but, when I pushed myself to my feet, the way the room spun made my jaw lock against a shuttered breath, and I found myself grateful for how quickly his other hand settled around my arm. Teeth grinding as the episode slowly quelled, gaze pointedly locked on the flooring beneath us, I gave a little nod and he hesitantly released me.

“I think a couple hours in the sonic sounds like a pretty good idea.” I said through a loose smile that I knew fell frightfully short of fooling any of them. “Let me take care of washing your sheets when we land – as a thank you.” I added, glancing up to where the Sergeant still hovered nearby. The deadpan look he shot me drew a chuckle from me. It was quiet, but it was earnest, and I let it grant me some glimmer of strength as I started toward the refresher.

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During the few times I’d found myself on Kamino with my previous squad, I’d become used to shinies ducking out of the way in a show of reverence; respect. With Clone Force 99, they still shuffled out of the way, but it was from a resentful fear instead of the awe the elite commandos surrounding me deserved, and I couldn’t help the distain I felt from each sneered glare as we passed by. Despite their claims that such things no longer bothered them, those men were supposed to be their brothers. I don’t think I’d ever find myself truly believing that such mistreatment could ever be overlooked.

In that moment, however, I knew that the passing stares meant nothing to Hunter or the others, marching strides moving with dangerous intent as they escorted me through the maze of hallways. They’d fallen into the defensive pattern so naturally, I’d barely noticed until seeing a flash of confusion in the brief glance of one of the nearby regs. It felt like I was headed to my own execution, dread redoubling with each step. I hated it – hated the anxiety that sent my heart racing; hated the darkness drowning us in that wretched silence; hated the expectation that this was the appropriate emotion given what had happened, and I eagerly leaned into any whisper of blatant rebellion from that norm that I could find.

“You guys wanna lighten up a bit? Someone’s going to think you’re taking me to the brig.” Hunter glanced over his shoulder, almost surprised to find the textbook formation surrounding me. The way his helmet tilted forward held an abashed hesitation before consciously loosening his shoulders and falling back to walk beside me instead.

“Beware the dangerous medic-gone-rogue formerly of the elite Clone Force 99, whose devious plot to overthrow the GAR was discovered in the nick of time by the squad’s own brilliant pilot, Tech. After a grizzly battle full of death-defying feats, the evil medic was successfully subdued and brought to a swift justice.” The others stopped halfway through the overplayed narration, and even those emotionless buckets couldn’t hide the matching, deadpan looks. The teasing chuckle just picked up by my mic was the perfect balm for the tension reverberating between them.

“If Tech gets to be the one who found yuh out, I wanna be the one to bring yuh in!” Wrecker suddenly added, and I had barely a moment’s warning before he darted forward to throw me over his shoulder, wrenching a squeal of laughter from me.

“No! You can be my secret partner! No one would expect it!” Hunter’s head dropped hopelessly into his hand as his brother gasped in excitement at my words. Needing no further encouragement, Wrecker hoisted me up to sit hazardously atop his shoulder, and I had to cling to his helmet to keep from falling backwards until he locked a hand around my shins to steady me, body seizing in barely silenced giggles.

“Join us, Echo! They’d be no match with you by our side!” I called, hands motioning eagerly toward him, but he merely stared at me with the same exasperation as Hunter.

“We’d be unstoppable!” Wrecker goaded, but I’d already turned my attention to the final member, letting myself fall back to drape down the massive clone’s shoulder to face Crosshair. The sharp set of his shoulders and slight tilt of his bucket was all the answer I needed.

“Wrecker, I… I don’t think we can count of Crosshair joining us, either.” The façade of sorrow was lost amidst the relentless laughter breaking my words.

“Enough, you two.” Hunter nearly groaned. Still laughing, I tried to pull myself upright, but, between the still present ache and uncontrollable giggles, I only made it halfway before collapsing again.

“I… I can’t.” I admitted, beaming smile still evident in the words. The force of Crosshair’s helm falling against his gloved palm gave a notable click before he stepped forward and, hand slipping quickly beneath my back, shoved me upright so Wrecker could help me slide back down to the pristine floors.

“You done?” The Sergeant asked, but I could just catch the faintest smirk in his voice. I quickly snapped up into a salute.

“Yes, sir! All of my schemes have been unveiled, and I’ve seen the error of my ways! I ask only that all punishment befalls me, and Wrecker be spared.” He didn’t move, and I pushed my helmet up just enough to let him see the glee in my eyes and the coy smile still toying with my lips. His heavy sigh rang clearly through the comms as he turned and continued the trek through the unending halls. I shot Wrecker a toothy grin before settling my helmet back in place and following him.

What mirth my antics had brought vanished the instant we reached the final hallway, body coming to a sharp halt. It had been easy to briefly forget the impeding trial, but, with just a few fleeting meters to go, it was suddenly far too real. The others waited in perfect silence for several seconds, but even the heavy weight of their gaze meant nothing amidst the panic threatening to burst through my chest. Echo was the first to move, treading softly to my side.

“Are you okay?” Part of me wanted to laugh at the futility in whispering over an open mic, but I couldn’t quite manage that.

“Mhm.” I hummed quickly, mind straining to control my breath lest that tremble steal through me before even reaching the door.

“It’s okay not to be.” He added, voice dropping until it was only just audible through my helm’s speakers. With a stillness, I didn’t think myself capable of in that moment, I turned to look at him, grateful for the darkness of the visor shielding him from the despair I knew filled my eyes.

“No, it’s not.” His shoulders sank at my words, “not yet,” but he said nothing more as I gently reached forward to slip my hand around his, fingers tightening for just a beat before releasing him and forcing myself to continue forward.

The door opened just before I’d reached it, and I was shocked to see the telltale orange embellished armor of Commander Cody step out before me. Without missing a beat, I quickly fell into a proper salute.

“At ease.” He dismissed quickly, attention resting on me only briefly before turning to look over the squad following at my heels.

“Just her.” Those words threatened to rip that fleeting sliver of control from me, ice flooding my veins.

“What?” Hunter asked, taken aback, “No – we’re staying with her.” I couldn’t even bring myself to look at him, knowing the futility of his retort.

“Not for this.” There was a quiet apology in Cody’s voice that finally broke me, body yielding beneath the fine tremor, and I felt the slew of curses burn atop my tongue.

“Why?!” He nearly barked.

“Because you and your squad aren’t going to like what she needs to say, and this is going to be hard enough on her without you lot making it worse.” Again, I found myself mentally remarking on the uselessness of whispering into an open mic, as though that might prevent my speakers from repeating his words even as they rang clearly through everyone else’s, and I scowled at the simple knowledge that I was fixating on that because it was safer than trying to come to terms with the fact that I would be facing this nightmare alone. The Commander remained perfectly still; attention locked on the seething man behind me.

“Hunter, I’ll be here the entire time… Nothing’s going to happen to her.” There was no point to dragging this out, but I knew what haunted even the thought of us being apart so soon after what that man had done, and I needed to do something to at least try to make this easier on them. I couldn’t bring myself to speak, but, turning just enough to see him, I managed to raise my hand to settle lightly around Hunter’s arm. He let his gaze fall almost reluctantly to watch my head bob in a small nod, and I felt him deflate beneath touch. He looked pointedly to the commander for several tense seconds before turning to me once more.

“We’ll be in the barracks when you’re done.” He whispered, and the regret in his words threatened to ruin me. With a final nod, I let my hand fall back to my side.

“I’ll escort her myself.” Cody promised before guiding me those final steps to the door.

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