#vent...

[fandomsfuckoff]

this specific post and its comments live in my head and charges me

such a fucking double whammy because i like both midwest emo and metal and i fucking love fishing (with my bare hands tho because mom won't let me have fishing gear-)

this shit has been happening to me since middle school. just because i look kinda pretty, take care of myself, have basic life skills , do art , go to therapy and am kinda responsible people expect i'm a completely different type of guy than i am.

then they're mad that i'm not living up to something they just made up about me! i'm gay! bisexual with a male lean on account of csa trauma! i don't take care of myself just because i want women, i do it because men need the same skills women need in order to survive! i'm not willing to be treated as feminine in any way! i don't like bringing up my past as a "girl" or talking about periods! i'm not a strong shoulder to cry on - i have strong shoulders to carry my own burdens-.

holy shit shut the fuck up quit being desperate . i'm a queer man! i'm queer and male ! these aren't contradictory labels stop it stop it i don't need a "nice woman" to fix me i need to be left alone !

[lulufuntes]

Dream I had...

Most people voted for this on my first poll *Do not judge me😅*

I had a dream I told a friend about.

My dream was this:

"My best friend and her mom (along with my mom) were at the mall on either a random day or holiday. As we were walking around, my friend's mom and my mom went inside a Pandora store. My friend had either a smile (or a smirk; do not remember) on her face. Both my best friend and our moms gifted me a Pandora bracelet and charm.

After that… her (my friend's) mom pulled me aside, wanting to talk to me in private. She asked me how I really was doing (like, mentally). She saw that I was shaking like a leaf. Does this mean I am always going to be like this… Always have desire to see her (my friend's mom) again but fear…?

I… my response in the dream was: “W-Would you be mad if I said that I just want to see you again without a restriction…?” Her mom looked at me with a smile on her face but I looked away… She then led me to a bench to talk (my friend and my mom were shopping like as if nothing happened). I ended up crying and admitted the truth… about everything I felt after a lot of trauma… but her mom still had a smile on her face and she hugged me. I wanted to pull away but…. I did not. I could not, for some reason.

There was another part of the dream that happened a bit more recently where I invited both of them over to my house, we had lunch or something. My mom stepped out of the house for… something. Leaving me with her and her mom. And, here is the crazy thing: I saw that her mom had white angel wings and looked fairly young.

She had a smile on her face and she told both of us, “Love you.”

When I woke up in the morning (a week ago), I was like, “God… what are You trying to tell me? And why with my friend's mom…?"

That dream, I can vividly remember even though I do not know what it means.

I just hope this dream does not mean that I will permanently fear the ones I love...

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

ok yknow what? I really dont like when Apollo's Dodgeball of Prophecy predicts irl bad shit happening.

I feel deeply weird about it all. both like I'm not taking actual GENOCIDE seriously by involving it in my fandom bs, and just... really, REALLY WEIRD (I dont have a better word for it) abt the fact that my convoluted Supernatural Postcanon S16-18 Infinite Crossover Mythfuckery somehow made this genuinely sickening, disheartening irl development make SENSE

....and even worse that I'm kinda vaguely maybe sorta totally using the emotions im getting from it (NOT the thing itself) as fic/novel fuel. like thats fucked up, right? I know authors use fanfic and original writing to process their actual emotions, and that's kinda what creative expression is FOR but... eeeeesh.

(Also no, I have no idea how to briefly give the fic/mythfuckery context for any of this, its so complicated and weird, it cites Homeric Hymns and Ovid and Shakespeare and W.B. Yeats all at once)

[vexwerewolf]

I genuinely think there was no greater insight into the modern Christian mindset than when the Pope said he very much hoped Hell was empty and he was absolutely hounded by both Catholics and Protestants outraged at the idea of a man who wanted a place of infinite suffering to have nobody in it.

[orion-archives]

"I want to be a dragon."

[golden-letters]

bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

[zemfruit]

i feel so completely directionless

[vilea777]

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

[oshidorifuufu]

*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately

*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it

[spaciebabie]

trauma therapy has been swell

[rafeandonlyrafe]

well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[basyacriptid]

its just one of those days

[futuristic-koala]

[jingerpi]

"reblog to give a trans woman soup"

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"trans women experience misogyny because they're women"

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