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just got everything i ever wanted. now what
#hurgh#how do i hold this…in both of my hands….#what do i aim for now…#basically i scored a much higher paying role with the title i wanted at a FAANG and i just learned that it’s gonna be fully remote too#i can go anywhere and i can afford it too#and I’ve just been sitting here dumbstruck these past few days like. I’ve wanted this all of my twenties and now it’s here and I don’t even#know where to go next#physically and mentally#like oh…im free…#now what#🥹#my whole life family's controlled where i went and who i saw and what i did and now the cage is open and i'm like...#wait...where do i go...what do i do...#woof
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My blog has become infested with angst goblins, and they must be fed with some hypothetical scenarios!🙏💚
#grey art#fan art#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin hotel#Hazbin hotel comic#JESUS WEPT THIS FUCKING THING WAS A BEAST#BUT I LOVE IT!#hazbin charlie#hazbin alastor#Alastor#charlie morningstar#angst#hurt/comfort#whump art#I know what you people are I’m one of you!#I heard your cries for more angst and I aim to please!#also good excuse to use clip studio more#I only bust that out for something special#now let’s do something else! like eat!
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aaaaaaah
"everything is so awful and if I touch anything it will be all directly my fault if it gets worse" pjo hermes
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"if you are aware of anything and then let it happen your inaction is as good as your approval" toa apollo
neither of them are healthy 😅😅😅
#chronic inaction vs intense responsibility complex. fight!!!#apollo gets... better. in that he decides to aim higher and expand that energy towards everyone#so of course ESPECIALLY towards the SUPREME GOD KING who decides to micromanage everything they've got in charge#hermes is... hermes. at least he's doing SOMETHING now. granted not anything *good* but... baby steps#insane trauma cannot be overcome in a day. I'll take what I can get#toa apollo#pjo hermes#pjo apollo#toa hermes#trials of apollo#toa#the trials of apollo#pjo hoo toa#percy jackson and the olympians
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It's a time-honoured tradition- every time Sam comes across Izzy (and Ed) in their travels, he asks Izzy to marry him. And every time, Izzy turns him down.
At this point, Sam is asking more for the sake of it than any belief Izzy will ever say yes, a remnant of childhood dedication touched with 30 years of heartbreak and regret- though even now, a small part of him still holds out hope. Sam's promises have only got more extravagant over the years, from a job as his first mate, to a captaincy, a fleet at his command, a whole fucking island if that's what Izzy wants- but he knows it isn't though, not really. If Izzy was ever going to agree to marry him, to leave his life and go with Sam, it wouldn't be for anything Sam could offer him. Izzy never did care for flashy shows of wealth, for a ship or to be captain. The only thing that ever mattered to him was loyalty given, and loyalty shown in return.
It all comes to a head after Stede left and came back, after Izzy lost a toe, lost his leg. Sam hasn't seen him since before things with Ed started to really slide off the rails, before stress permanently set into the lines of Izzy’s face. So, when he sees a dishevelled man with a hoof for a leg in a no-name port, he doesn't even consider the idea that he might know him. It's only when he turns towards him, and Sam catches a glance at those oh too familiar tattoos, he realises this is Izzy, his Izzy, that stands before him.
Knowing Izzy's discomfort with pity, he doesn't treat him any differently than he would in years gone by, positioning himself in Izzy's line of sight before approaching and sweeping him up into a bone crushing hug.
“Israel-goddamn-Hands!” he exclaims, as Izzy grumbles back a begrudging “Samuel-fucking-Bellamy”, a tradition almost as old as their friendship itself. Izzy might not hug him back, but he can’t keep the corner of his mouth from twitching, just for a second.
(If Sam holds Izzy a little tighter and a little longer than usual, well. That's his business)
By the time Sam lets go, most of the crew has appeared in the town square, drawn in by the commotion. They may have given Izzy his leg and welcomed him as one of them, but still there’s an underlying tension, with nobody quite ready to set aside everything that happened before the Kraken. Seeing him cosying up to an unknown man sets everyone on edge, unsure whether to come to their first mate’s aid, or to assume that they've been betrayed once again.
When Ed sees that the yelling was Sam, his hand goes tense where it's held in Stede's. He knows the routine, has seen it more times than he can count, but as he watches them part he realises that this is the first time in a long time he's unsure of what Izzy's response will be.
Knowing that something’s different, knowing that Izzy's feeling vulnerable already, Sam doesn't go for the same flashy proposal he’s been giving for years. He doesn't promise Izzy the world, he doesn't cause a scene (or, any more of a scene than he already has, anyway). He looks at the fractured man in front of him, takes his face in his hands, and says the exact same thing to him he said when they were little more than boys. “Israel, I have to ask you. I know what you'll say, but I have to try. Come with me. Marry me and sail away with me. I'll keep you safe”
And Izzy… hesitates. He glances over at Ed, at Stede, and says to Sam “...We’re staying in port for a week. Ask me again then”
That's the moment Sam knows there is something deeply, horribly, wrong. He's not just looking at an Izzy who got seriously injured in a fight and is struggling to cope, this is something so much bigger than that- and that Ed has something to do with it. Izzy wouldn't even be considering leaving if he didn't. Whether it was negligence or something more sinister, Sam doesn't yet know, but he intends to find out.
#i feel like the little paragraph about the crew is real clunky and out of place but i wanted some kind of establishment of where those#dynamics are at. its important that the crew is something for izzy to consider in his decision; but also that their relationship isnt so#solid he would stay for them alone; yknow?#im sorta aiming for a s2e5 era but like. early in those themes. he cant be all sorted yet i need him to be struggling#anyway this is part of a much larger scenario in my head that im never ever doing anything with but i wrote THIS bit in a daze in like. jun#and i got thinking about it again and i think?? it holds its own as a 'hey think about THIS' snippet. idk you decide#youre welcome to interpret this as solo bellhands but in my head it Has morphed into sam/izzy/ed/stede#because i cant not put edizzy in things any more. izzy has two hands#i also think the comedy potential of one of your boyfriends HATING your other boyfriend is gold. 10/10 dynamic#stede is mostly along for the ride in this but also i think they need him#aaaaand. the sam/ed bracket i think can only be closed in exceptional circumstances. i think they 'hate' each other too much#...which is WHY someones getting kidnapped!!! yay#anyway its all irrelevant because ill never write it out. i can do silly chill things but thatll require work#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands#israel hands#sam bellamy#bellhands#i wanna also say. the general concept of repeated sam proposals has been floating around my head forever#it used to be a more silly thing like i referenced at the start but. s2 gave me angsty feelings i guess#i cant not have izzy have feelings for ed right now which inherently adds layers to Any bellhands scenarios i think.#but yeah. its a Classic Bellhands vibe for me. sam seeing izzy at sea or on shore and asking him to marry him (again)#i like to do this with jackie too. i think i just want that man to be obnoxiously desired#(theres also layers of my personal hornigold era lore built into this but i hope it holds up without u knowing it. tldr. sam lost izzy by#being an idiot n fumbling the bag. thats what matters. izzy went with ed and sams been trying to fix it ever since)#i probably should have readmore'd this but i didnt think it was Quite long enough. or had a good break point. sorry <3
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The Owl House
#myart#what do you mean it's been two years already?!#i miss this show...#BUT MY AIM IS GETTING BETTER#sorry I had to xD#the owl house#toh#the owl house fanart#luz noceda#king clawthorne#the collector toh#willow park#gus porter#hunter deamonne#darius deamonne#emira blight#amity blight#edric blight#hooty toh#lilith clawthorne#edalyn clawthorne#raine whispers#vee noceda#camila noceda#oof i'm never drawing something with this many characters in it EVER again#having said that it was really fun drawing everyone!#these characters mean a lot to me :)#i remember watching the first episode like it was yesterday...#btw hooty was an absolute nigthmare to draw lmao#ok i have to go now Byeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
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... peace on planet bottom, then there's whatever this is
#i am wondering about the chocolate roses#was the first half of the crew working on those roses on valentines day#and now the second half of the crew is making them on white day?#no... that's not logical... maybe they were all working on them around the same time#but the images of their activities is only released to us on these specific holidays#did eiden pull a 'when i worked briefly as a cake decorator they taught me how to make these cool choco roses'?#and everyone in the clan got a Aha! moment and wanted to make their own roses. in some grand cake for eiden??#they are all doing edible arts and crafts. idk how they were separated by sex position but sometimes things work out that way. i guess.#[side eyes the strange dimensional portal that segregates them.] this portal can only induce pain (in me)#but maybe... the rose dante is holding away from blade is his PERFECTED sample?#and he's seen how blade has been steadily adding things to the roses. glitter. inedible things. strange divots and patterns#blade has the ABILITY to make perfect identical roses like a production line. but will he do it? no. not cute#every rose should have some personality. a little flair. a little lumpy petal here and there#and dante is all NO . you may perceive this lesser specimen (Rose B) as a distraction. but my true aim is preserve the integrity of Rose A#the bottoms were making their roses in the daytime. the tops are partying at night. what does this mean#will they all welcome eiden home at midnight (he was out on some bland social gathering with aster and huffy nobles?)???? WITH ROSE CAKE?#but quincy has meat. why he got meat? to keep morale high? because he's not a fan of sweets? because his creature friends preFER meat?#well. meat and cake. not a bad way to party the night away#but the... wine? champagne? pls dont tell me theyve been drinking. do not give the tops alcohol. BAD things will happen#so many stressed eiden dolls.... i wish him peace... maybe one day he can lie peacefully on a bed of roses and not be set on fire#he would have to risk it during a daytime bottoms outing. apparently (and even then the risk is still not nonexistent)#(mostly because edmond+food creates an uncharacteristic uptick in disasters. plus the puppy exuberance. plus rei . just rei)#(once again i feel sorry for oli. is he the only one with a metaphorical eiden doll fire extinguisher? we should do a plot twist.#make OLI the one to accidentally set eiden doll on fire. and garu extinguishes it. enrich their experiences with novelty and unlikely stats#this image was brought to my attention by a puppy hellbent on showing me yakumo's distressed expression#can't say i'm displeased with it
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ancient josuyasu doodle (circa 536 a.d)
#im just gonna start posting old unpublished shit cause i think i used to draw pretty decently#now... thats the thing *now* im not so sure#but maybe this will stir something within me#maybe it'll inspire me#maybe it'll help me blow off some steam#i wanna ink this... if i ever find the original again... else im just gonna do the lineart digitally#i dont mean to sound... idk... but fr seeing the state of the world#seeing how an entire population can be massacred without the international~community~ batting an eye... it put many things into perspective#one thing is how *banal* my whole art felt#i wish i could do more political stuff... thats what im aiming for if i can#but now... after a year i think differently. I still think my whole portfolio is a bit dumb#but it is in not *banal*#it's not entirely *banal* i have tried and made sure it was never *just* some anime guys and nothing behind#if anyone... just one person ever catched that... then im happy. And i know for sure many did#so thank you#idk exactly what this rant is#but thank you for linking what i do#and ill keep trying despite everything and ill keep on trying harder and trying to make more and better art#even if its banal even if its political even if only i see through it#now the actual tags so this has any visibility at all#josuyasu#jojo#jojo's bizarre adventure#nijimura okuyasu#okuyasu nijimura#josuke higashikata#higashikata josuke
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starscream has normal reactions

no starscream shall escape being haunted by bumblebee and vice versa. primus said thou shalt be married !!!
#bee: YOU SHOT ME WHILE I WAS LYING ON THE GROUND HELPLESS POINTBLANK NO HESITATION NO CONCERN JUST RAGE J-#starscream: yea & it was in the face#bee all a sudden all hoity toity abt dark subjects after detailing them grossly: ok bro we get it -_-#hes not even that grossed out by the getting shot in the face part. hes just pretnding to be bcs#hes actually just mad abt getting his lecture discarded & interrupted with another detail he was getting to#until starscream's RUDE interjection >:[ !!#bee thinks hes normal then thinks rumble body combusting right in front of his mother's eyes is the funniest fcking story ever#to tell to children#bumblebee the type of mom who tells her child's deepest traumas as funny stories to pass the time with strangers#well it's better than boring the company ok! stop being upset ! dont interrupt mother >:[ !!!!#it's lowkey funny that starscream shot him in the face like he rlly hated his yapping that much im crying#didnt shoot the spark just aimed for that big mouth while it was shut for once#bitchy on bitchy crime#also unrelated but i love skybound cliffjumper he is so fking ugly my baby old man 💛#skybound starscream: at least i managed to solve one problem ! time to go create 5 million more now !#idw bee: what the fuck bro#skybound starscream : ?????#ravage: fix me bro#skybound starscream: !??!?!?!??? WHAT THE HELL ARE yOU DOING HERE#idw bee: shut up & fix ravage >:[#ravage: yea meow yea#transformers#maccadam#bumblebee#starscream#starbee#transformers skybound#transformers idw
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Have you made any art of orcas? I can't seem to find any with Tumblr's broken tag search, so I figured I'd ask in case you haven't. Thank you, and I love all your art! It always puts a smile on my face when I see it. c: ❤️
I have! I was a couple years ago, I also can't find the original post. Broken website lol ;w; So here's a re-upload of The Whale because I am quite fond of this guy !!

[ID: a digital illustration of an orca facing to the right on a simple ocean background. Sunlight is filtering in from above, and there are small fish surrounding it. End.]
#orca#whale#whales#cetaceans#marine mammals#lots of whales and such in this upcoming creature mail series but this fella isnt one of them alas#aiming to get through some of the backlog of years of creatures and upload more designs to the ko-fi sticker shop and perhaps gallery#i need a better place to archive these drawings#theres too many of them now for the sad search and loading functions of any of the websites i use normally#maybe ill finally set up a creature club bestiary site so yall can search and browse through the hundreds of animals#will be fun to get an accurate count of how many ive drawn#it should be close to 500 by now.#once my dad asked me what i was gonna do when i ran out of animals to draw and i was like.#i could spend the rest of my life drawing beetles alone and not even come close lmao#anyway thank you for the sweet ask!!!
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question for my Christian mutuals:
I saw someone reply to a question of "what's your opinion on Baptist beliefs?" with "well I'm not Baptist so obviously I believe they're wrong in some capacity" which is puzzling to me because I have never thought of it like that. yes I think some denominations or even specific churches within denominations have incorrect beliefs but "I'm not [denomination] ergo I think they're wrong" doesn't make sense to me personally
not trying to start beef btw I'm just asking if this is a direct "I'm not this which means I think they're wrong" thing for others or not, I'm just curious about what different people think about this
#possibly I Don't think like that Because I'm specifically nondenominational#it's giving ''pick a denomination'' <- joke aimed at Gracie#Lu rambles#faith tag#uhh what are the big tags. I don't go to the larger Tumblr Christian community it gets weird in there sometimes#chrumblr#christianity#like I even have some quibbles with the worship style and certain lower-priority doctrines of the church I go to now#but because it's such low priority stuff (NOT in any way about salvation or important doctrine just different styles of#thought and approaching things that I think aren't really... perhaps the best)#so I don't really... care enough. it's such little minor quibbles. do people think you have to agree on EVERYTHING your (Protestant)#denomination thinks in order to be part of that denomination?????
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if i got the chance to interview oliver stark about 911, you bet your ass i wouldn’t waste a single question over something like ‘will tommy be jealous of buck and eddie’s friendship?’ after we have seen multiple times he isn’t, and most recently in the new episode. not to mention we’ve seen even eddie isn’t jealous of buck and tommy’s relationship, and we were shown that yet again in the premiere. there are so many more interesting things you could ask about buck’s actual relationship and that story, or even buck and eddie. but no.
#this isn’t aimed at that one interviewer but it’s just something i keep seeing#from people who clearly are holding out hope for buddie and will ask whatever they want to shoehorn it into buck’s relationship with someon#else#it’s just so boring and honestly predictable#you could ask ANYTHING???? and you choose…. that#i had to conduct a proper interview as preparation for my dissertation and i had to plan out questions properly that were fully relevant to#what i was investigating#there was so much consideration given to the questions#and once again for another research project where i had to#the questions were wittled down so much and tested and everything#obviously psychology and journalism are different but i just feel whatever we’re doing right now with interviews is just sad#911#911 discourse#fandom wank#911 spoilers
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where’s my eremin edit to i love you, im sorry
#‘i told the truth but you didn’t like you went home’ = table scene#‘now you go alone charm all the people you train for you mean well but aim low’ = eren going undercover#‘trust me i know it’s always about me’ = when hange confronts eren in the cell#‘i’ll be on a boat you’re on a plane’ = do i need to explain this one#‘i push my luck and it shows’ = eren rushing off#‘thankfull you dont send someone to kill me’ when that cow thing grabbed armin#YOU WERE THE BEST BUT YOU WERE THE WORST AS SICK AS IT SOUNDS I LOVED YOU FIRST (armin)#I WAS A DICK IT IS WHAT IT IS A HABIT TO KICK THE AGE OLD CURSE (eren)#I TEND TO LAUGH WHENEVER IM SAD (when sasha died) STARE AT THE CRASH IT ACTUALLY WORKS MAKING AMENDS THIS SHIT NEVER ENDS IM WRONG AGAIN#(still eren)#anyway i’ve though it over many times#do yall see the vision#alsooo eren to whose afraid of little old me btw. if u even care#eren jaeger#eren yeager#armin artlert#eremin#attack on titan#aot#WAIT ‘send someone to kill me’ could be mikas a tho
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hiyaaa friendz (ʃƪ^∇^) it is the weekend !!! YIPPEE ❤︎
#what’s everyone up toooo !#tis spring so i think i am going to do a little spring cleaning#irl + online !! so hm .. must catch up on everything i said i would LOL brain has been so zapped but now i am feeling ready to yap ଘ(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵#i have been sooo busy this week so i am sorry for very slow replies + not a lot of activity >__<#i kinda wanna do a fun little ask game / event for you guyzzzz :3 i have an idea but let me cook !!#going to do a couple of things to help kickstart my creativity + scare away this writers block ^o^ wish me luck !!!#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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Streetcleaners when they learn how to aim up
#according to my friend they DO aim upwards on brutal difficulty. what.#also hi yes first post in a few months shhh#I don’t make dedicated blogs for fandoms whoever follows me is now on the choo choo train of my next hyperfixation#ultrakill#ultrakill streetcleaner#doodle
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I'm reading A Lonely Place of Dying and Alfred latching immediately onto Tim is NASTY work. Tim shows up and is like "I never aimed to be Robin! I mean I did karate my whole life to emulate Robin and just so happen to have sought you out and grabbed this costume in my size out from that case and really you should be calling me Robin just for now and let me come with you as Robin but I never dreamed it would specifically be ME being Robin. You have a lovely house and home btw :) Now go back to being 10." And Dick's understandably like "No I am a grown man now who are you" and Bruce is not here for this one, but later on is like "You aren't Robin, you're some kid dressed up like my dead son." But Alfred?
IMMEDIATELY Alfred is implying Dick was trying to subtly ask Tim to be Robin (simply not true in in NTT 61, when the implication is made, although he changes his mind in Batman 442) and that Bruce should be grateful for this young man's profound bravery and immense natural skill and maybe show him a few pointers or something idk we'll see :) Like let's be clear, the idea that Tim didn't want to be Robin is simply not part of this story outside of like two lines of dialogue where he's like "oh I didn't consider it could be me!" after which he immediately goes "Wow so you ARE gonna let me be Robin right?" the second he sees the opportunity. The guy essentially makes himself Robin once Dick makes it clear he isn't gonna be. Dick tells Tim nobody should be at first (until he changes his mind) but is ignored because Tim doesn't get why and goes with what he understands, his own stance.
I'm of the opinion that the whole "Tim understands that being Robin is an arduous task full of suffering from the start and chooses to bravely yet sadly martyr himself for the cause" thing I see sometimes is strongly disproven, at least in the beginning of his Robin career, by his "Batman NEEDS a Robin (to love and care for and to watch out for him in return :) )" line of reasoning, his subsequent willingness for Anybody to be Robin whether or not it was him (unless he was consciously okay with other children suffering for his benefit which I find really hard to believe,) and his active glee at anything involving being Robin and persistent smiling pursuit of Doing So against Batman's strong disapproval, because he hasn't officially said no (he did several times, but you can't blame a kid for being excited.) Like, I think he said he never dreamed of being Robin just because having a kid come in begging to replace Batman's dead son because it was a personal aspiration would be extraordinarily rude and arrogant and they wanted people to like this one. He was NOT in any way adverse they just couldn't make him THAT presumptuous, and he is by nature of what he's doing already moderately so.
But say it was true, that Tim was actively opposed to being Robin? Alfred would be pushing this shit HARD onto this thirteen year old kid like what the fuck bro. And "From what Master Richard said, he follows your orders." is HEINOUS but let's not get into that.
#of all the robins so far Bruce has foisted Robin on Tim is by far the least Foisted#“Even if he's right I dont want another Robin” vs “He doesn't want me but he hasn't told me no yet :)”#“You can't kill batman or nightwing!” “Or Robin?? :D”#bro is literally “And Bumblebee!”#tim says he never wanted it for himself but he actively seeks out being Robin so I think that's like “oh i never imagined”#^I've finished reading through and other dialogue directly confirms this#“yeah it hasn't occurred to be that I could ever be Robin but yk just in case-ies I've been actively preparing to be Robin half my life”#I considered the “being robin is a burden” angle to that line but if that IS what he's saying#it would be pretty fucked up that he'd be okay with anyone being Robin him or not. Like he doesn't come into this AIMING to be Robin#because he's never thought about it#and he clearly has no sense of why Dick is saying no so I can't fully buy into that#I guess the best answer rlly is him being like “oh little old me being robin? :o well gosh golly im doing that now”#i mean the actual best answer is “whoops fuck actually people want Robin back in the story egg on our face with that one”#but yk. in universe#“if they think they can kill Robin with no repercussions who will they hunt down next!”#I mean. They can do that. It becomes a major issue that they can in fact do that with no repercussions. They would be right because its tru#In his first story Tim is ALREADY hyping up the cops as an impregnable force. This is subtle Chuck Dixon foreshadowing#tim drake#batman#dc comics#alfred pennyworth
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I honestly find the whole "Megumi is in love with Tsumiki" tasteless, even if meant as a joke.
#truthfully i feel like it's because some people can't fathom the idea that blood related or not#people can love their siblings and have close relationships without feeling anything romantic#and that some of you clearly just want to jump on the megumi hate train#because there are siblings in the manga they are close that i don't see get the same treatment#I'm (not) sorry but not all the sibling relationships in jjk or anywhere are incestuous#or even meant to be implied#now if you think that alright but to me i don't see it i don't see megumi being in love with his sister#'but when todo asked----' AH!! I could go on a rant about that#but that still proves nothing#believe or not when you have a good influence in your household that will show you the kind of person you want in your life#have loving parents who are in a good marriage? you grow up and that's what you aim for#an older sibling who is kind? you recognize that as something good so that's what you look for in a partner#that doesn't mean you want to fuck your sibling#like do you expect people who have good relationships with their siblings to want to always be with them THAT WAY?#that's weird...#just kiya's thoughts#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro tsumiki#tsumiki fushiguro
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