#xin bsd posting

[xinesthetic]

Saw someone mention Beast!Atsushi's collar on my timeline and got devasted by how pain is such an intricate part of his character and it has such a violently beautiful spin to it in the BEAST universe.

55 minutes explains it better than I can, but pain is consistantly so very important to the little tiger guy; pain is what makes him connect to others and understand them in ways other people might not (looking at you, Lucy Montgomery), it does shape him because that's all he knew, it is also something that makes him know he's alive and Wants to Live (Hi Shibusawa that is your doing), but--

-- but oh my god is BEAST fucking devastating in this regard. He doesn't just hate pain, he actively fears it, yet is constantly tormented by the aforementioned collar. Pain is quite literally all he knows most of the time, it's his ability limitator that quite literally keeps him from losing himself, and he's scared of the very safe net he has (if you can call it that).

Elise also tells him at the end of the book that he doesn't want to die, he just doesn't want to live, and that is potentially the saddest line I've seen Asagiri write because man. What the fuck.

[raytm]

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im in the process of moving this blog to another location to the carrd has been moved to that location for now ! thank you for letting me know i'll post the muse list attached so people can see if they're interested in still writing with me in the future <3

HSR: caelus, gepard. danmei muses: lan wangji, feng xin, luo binghe. genshin Impact: wriothesley, diluc ragnvindr, kaedehara kazuha. BSD: akutagawa, tetchō, ranpo, nikolai. fate: enkidu. chainsaw Man: aki hayakawa JJK: yuji itadori, yuta okkotsu, maki zenin, kento nanami, utahime iori & junpei yoshino.  MHA: hawks, shoto todoroki. demon slayer: sanemi ( also considering others maybe obanai or tanjiro idk ) jjba muses : caesar ( might also add others if the interest is there i love jjba ) league: zed.

[solifloris]

#. SELFSHIP INFO. ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

this is a general info post with a list of my selfships/fictional others, + misc favorite characters!! all selfship talk will be tagged with "selfship jar 🌹" plus the ship's designated tag. ♡

::: general info

tag: selfship jar 🌹

general vibes: cozy, comforting, soft and sweet 🥰

general song inspo: "luv note" by chloe moriondo

persona reference: (linked from my art blog) [n/a; tbp]

appearance notes: round goldrim glasses, long copper-brown hair, hairstyle in braids (usually), black/pastel blue/burgundy colored clothing. her original design includes blue highlights, but her selfship designs forgo them!

other notes: although it's technically basically just Me, i tend to not directly use my name or other aliases that i use actively online, since i get wayyy too shy about it >< so each of my selfships instead have kind of a stand-in name for "me", that relates to something personal about me! :>

::: MIKI HANAE (実喜, berry/happiness)

calmiki ✨ — caleb x miki; main l&ds selfship via @mikiquette — fearless (taylor swift), still here (adib sin)

mikie ✨ — kieran x miki; l&ds — fall (ben&ben)

mikken ✨ — kenma x miki; haikyuu — if only you knew (yayyoung)

togemi ✨ — toge x miki; jjk — dance with me (beabadoobee)

snowberry ✨ — cael x miki; lbc

starberry ✨ — alkaid x miki; lbc

::: MILA-KATE "MIKI" SUMMERS

berryflame ✨ — joshua x mila-kate; ff16 — until i found you (stephen sanchez)

nightberry ✨ — ellis x mila-kate; ikevil

mileon ✨ — leon x mila-kate; metaphor

::: KAIA MEI

kaivier ✨ — xavier x kaia; secondary l&ds selfship via @kaianqelic — intergalactic disco (interlunium)

kaiyin ✨ — ayn x kaia (lbc)

:: the following are characters that i dearly love and that bring me comfort, but i don't necessarily ship myself with them !!

— L&DS: Zayne, Luke, Jeremiah

— Haikyuu: Hinata Shoyo, Sugawara Koushi, Shirabu Kenjiro

— Tower of God: Khun A.A., Hockney, Yasratcha

— Blue Lock: Seishiro Nagi, Chigiri Hyoma

— BSD: Chuuya Nakahara, Nikolai Gogol, Atsushi Nakakjima

— BNHA: Amajiki Tamaki

— TGCF: Quan Yizhen, Feng Xin

— MDZS: Wei Wuxian

— R1999: Six (Atticus), J (Joe Brown), Getian

— MLQC: Gavin, Kiro

— Cybird: Luka Clemence, Elbert Greetia

— Homicipher: Mr. Chopped, Mr. Hood, Mr. Scarletella

— Mystic Messenger: Saeyoung Choi, Saeran Choi

on a related note; you can find my other fandoms and interests listed here !! ♡

[leaf-boi]

Welcome Post + Master list:

Asks/Requests: OPEN (03/06/2024)

About Me:

Heyy! I'm Leaf! I'm 18+ and I'm recently getting back into writing things. My pronouns are She/Her but I'm also not bothered at all. At University I study Psychology and Counselling! I love dinosaurs, and I have recently discovered I am not the best at writing full fics, and I seem to thrive in Oneshots! My favourite colour is also green.

Currently, my hyper fixations are on Call Of Duty and Heavens Official Blessing. My fav characters from COD are: Kyle Garrick (Gaz), Logan Walker, the rest of Task Force 141 and the rest of 'Ghosts' team (STALKER). Yes I absolutely analysed their character profiles and team profiles. Feng Xin and Mu Qing are my OTP ship and I will die on that ship.

I hate all of you who hated on COD Ghosts. :(

(All Banners used (unless mentioned otherwise) belong to cafekitsune)

*Fandoms I Will Write For:

DC/Batman series (Mostly BatFam though)

COD (Call of Duty) (Ghosts, MW)

TGCF (Heaven's Officials Blessing)

JJK (Jujutsu Kaisen)

Voltron

MDZS (Grandmaster Of Demonic Cultivation)

BSD (Bungo Stray Dogs)

SK8 The Infinity

VNC (Case Study of Vanitas)

Genshin Impact

Haikyuu

*What things I will write:

Ships between characters

Fluff

Angst

x readers (possibly if i get asks)

Platonic ships

*Things I Won't Write:

Smut (Not yet at least)

Ships with minors in (Minor x adult etc.)

Cheating fics

*Warnings:

Angst (a lot most likely)

Mental health

Violence

Weapons

Alcohol

Medical and Military Inaccuracies

*Subject to change

Socials:

A03: Leaf_boi Discord: iamleaf#6044

Masterlists:

TGCF (Heavens Official Blessing)

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[blue-thief]

Hi do you still have some headcanons for your bsd tgcf au you sparked some fireworks in my mind and now I need more if you have some :)

hi!! i'm flattered that you're interested in my au, but unfortunately, i never ended up making more beyond that original post lol. it gained really slow traction at first so i didn't think anyone cared

however, if you're interested, i DO have some notes on an old bsd/tgcf crossover. i won't be able to write it anymore though bc my writing process has changed a LOT since then

• 2 ½ centuries after the canon events of tgcf

• (random note: pei xiu and shi qingxuan have re-ascended)

• mount tong'lu opens up again

• a bunch of martial gods and junior officials are sent to cut off the paths, but a powerful savage-level ghost called "rashoumon" kills them off

• rashoumon has the ability to turn the fabric of his clothing into whatever he wants

• the heavenly officials have a meeting in the public communication array and decide to send martial gods to kill off any ghosts who have a shot at becoming supremes again

• hua cheng, xie lian, pei ming, lang qianqiu, mu qing, and feng xin are sent again

• guzi also goes

• shi qingxuan insists on going too because she believed there's a chance that he xuan will be there

• a god known as dazai osamu, who ascended a century ago and is able to nullify spiritual energy with a single touch, also goes because, based on the description of rashoumon's abilities, he believes he knows him

• he brings along nakajima atsushi, a god who can transform into a tiger and used to be his deputy god

• obviously, one of their big targets is rashoumon

• but there's also he xuan who might seek going through the kiln to become even more powerful

• he and shi qingxuan meet again and their relationship is beyond repair

• however, he xuan confesses to regretting exacting revenge on shi wudu and that he genuinely cared for shi qingxuan despite everything

• they seperate again, but not before he xuan properly apologizes

• there's also another savage-level ghost called "arahabaki" that can crush people into the ground and move things with his mind

• about a century ago, a man with the same powers infiltrated ghost city with a few subordinates and burned down the qiandeng temple

• (still refering to what happened a century ago) hua cheng and xie lian hunted him down to a cultivation sect and found the man insanely drunk on wine

• they fought, and despite the fact that the man was a mortal at the time, his martial arts abilities and spiritual abilities forced the both of them to fight to their limits

• there was a point where the both of them were being crushed into the ground and hua cheng took the opportunity to get e'ming to stab him in the back

• apparently, that wasn't even the full extent of the man's power

• he muttered, "dammit. you better come back for me, you bastard. o grantors of dark disgrace, you need not wake me again."

• the humanity in his eyes disappeared and he became a terrifying being, sending blasts of pressure at them

• hua cheng and xie lian barely escaped with their lives

• (present day again) they find arahabaki and it turns out, his name was nakahara chuuya

• he fights with hua cheng and xie lian again until dazai nullifies his ability and knocks him out gently when things become too intense

• hua cheng: "what was that for?"

• dazai: "as much as i respect you and your power, you can only dream of ever reaching the same level as chuuya."

• that night at the camp the gods have set up, hua cheng, xie lian, and dazai explain how they each know chuuya

• dazai explains how they were partners in a cultivation group called the "port sect" led by a man named mori ougai

• mori, along with a man named fukuzawa yukuchi, was an apprentice of a god named natsume souseki who discovered that every soul was unique, and if one went under certain training, they could unlock an ability unique only to them

• mori and fukuzawa discovered their own abilities and went on to teach other cultivators to help unlock their abilities

annnd that's all i got 😭😭 sorry, i wish i had more. if anyone wants to pick up after me, i'd be fine with that as long as i'm given credit and a link to the fic

[xinesthetic]

Let my man John Gofman in. Or Ray Bradbury I cannot tell which of the two would be more horrifying in bsd canon

everyone has those authors that you would be so unhinged about if they were introduced in bsd right?

mine are: emily dickinson (it might be too late for her but I’m in denial), franz kafka, and any german author but especially goethe (c’mon asagiri give us the rest of the transcendents) and schiller. I’m not able to describe how unhinged I would be if any of them get introduced

[elf-osamu]

⌦ Fandom and characters I write for

For the time being I will write for Bungō Stray Dogs, Jujutsu Kaisen, Obey Me!, Genshin Impact, Honkai Star Rail, Twisted Wonderland, Paradox Live, Heaven Official’s Blessing and Qiang Jin Jiu <3.

Characters who are minors will be exclusively written in platonic dynamics.

Notes: all my writings are posted only on AO3.

Characters I’ll write about (note: this list could change anytime!):

BSD — Osamu Dazai, Chuuya Nakahara, Atsushi Nakajima, Ryuunosuke Akutagawa, Ranpo Edogawa, Doppo Kunikida, Kyouka Izumi (only platonic), Lucy Maud Montgomery, Akiko Yosano, Edgar Allan Poe, Michizou Tachihara, Tecchou Suehiro, Saigiku Jouno, Sigma, Nikolai Gogol, Fyodor Dostoevskij, Oda Sakunosuke, Yukito Ayatsuji, Yukichi Fukuzawa;

JJK — Yuuji Itadori (only platonic), Megumi Fushiguro (only platonic), Nobara Kugisaki (only platonic), Maki Zen'in (only platonic), Satoru Gojou, Toge Inumaki (only platonic), Suguru Getou;

OM! — Lucifer, Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Asmodeus, Belphegor, Beelzebub, Barbatos, Solomon;

GI — Kaeya, Amber, Venti (only platonic), Jean, Albedo, Diluc, Eula, Zhongli, Ganyu, Xiao, Childe, Itto, Ayato, Kazuha, Thoma, Ayaka, Yoimiya, Al Haitham, Kaveh, Cyno, Tighnari, Neuvillette, Wriothesley;

TWST — Riddle Rosehearts (only platonic), Cater Diamond, Ace Trappola (only platonic), Deuce Spade (only platonic), Trey Clover (only platonic), Leona Kingscholar, Ruggie Bucchi (only platonic), Azul Ashengrotto, Jade Leech (only platonic), Floyd Leech (only platonic), Kalim Al-Asim (only platonic), Jamil Viper (only platonic), Vil Schoenheit, Rook Hunt, Malleus Draconia, Lilia Vanrouge (only platonic);

HSR — Arlan (only platonic), Asta (only platonic), Dan Heng, Himeko, March 7th, Silver Wolf (only platonic), Bronya Rand, Gepard Landau, Sampo Koski, Seele, Serval Landau, Hook (only platonic), Blade, Jing Yuan, Luocha, Kafka, Dr. Ratio, Aventurine, Sunday, Boothill, Argenti, Moze, Jiaoqiu, Mydei, Phainon, Aglaea, Anaxagoras;

PRLV — Every character except Chungsung Baek. As previously stated, minors are written only in platonic scenarios.

TGCF — Xie Lian, Hua Cheng, Mu Qing, Feng Xin, Shi Qingxuan

QJJ — Xiao Chiye, Shen Zechuan

I’m willing to write about romantic ship content, but there are some I’m not comfortable writing about. Please ask me if I can write about certain ships before ordering a commission.

[xinesthetic]

I desperately need Asagiri to write a novel about Hunting Dogs. Except there's no backstories there's no angst it's just the same vibe as the day before Atsushi's entrance exam novel. It's 150 pages worth of Jouno trying to get Fukuchi to sign a restrictive order to ban Tetchou from cooking, it's Teruko on Tachihara's shoulders inviting Suegiku to a 2v2 duel, it's just them trying to get their paperwork done and failing miserably.

[xinesthetic]

BSD x Cyberpunk 2077 AU. Walk with me here

1. Chuuya is still called the gravity manipulator, but gravity manipulation is that one implant that generates gravity fields. He's the only person who can wear it without going insane because of Arahabaki. Arahabaki would be Militech's or Arasaka's brain chip that lets you balance on the verge of full cyberpsychosis without actually going insane; Nakahara is also a Fixer, and Dazai relentlessly bullies him saying he has to be specifically Dog Town's fixer for obvious reasons.

2. Dazai, who almost gets a cyberpsychosis and ends up running away from Mori's company and taking off most of his implants. Which makes him feel weird and that's what largely contributes to him feeling that he's "no longer human". Which is funny because technically that's the opposite of what he is.

3. No one knows who Naomi is and people keep wondering if she's a product of Tanizaki's insanity, an implant that he gave a name to, a hologram or just a hallucination of sorts. Tanizaki is super efficient and is a stealth pro, though, so no one really questions Naomi as long as Tanizaki gets the job done.

4. Fukuzawa is dead and I'm unsure why, but I just really wanted to see Kunikida being the boss in ADA. Given how much he doesn't fuck with the authorities, he would hate corporations especially viscerally after Fukuzawa's death.

5. Reaper Yosano. Need I say more. Just her.

6. The agency dorms is a three-store building where the ADA members both live and work. Yosano's clinic is next to the small cafe on the first floor.

8. The Hunting Dogs are an elite unit of Militech/Arasaka akin to Adam Smasher. Legendary group that people fear for a good reason

[xinesthetic]

Sliding in an extra fact I didn't see be brought up: the way he got into the Armed Detective Agency. Even if joining ADA was his choice to be morally good, it is well known that it's hard to get into ADA and only a very thin spectrum of people would even try to get in, which already begs the question if he's that much of an ordinary guy. Bonus to this, it is stated that his entrance exam was by far the most traumatizing entrance exam in all ADA history to the point Tanizaki himself barely remembers what it was.

Hella curious why only his exam was this bad and what sequence of events led to an entrance exam to even occure in the first place.

The thing with Tanizaki Junichirou is that he isn’t boring, we just know next to nothing about him and why he’s the way he is. We know that he doesn’t consider himself brave, and that he claims that his ability isn’t suited for combat, which is actually severely underplaying his talents, if not an outright lie, because Light Snow absolutely is useful in combat, though we’re rarely shown this in practice, because Tanizaki tends to avoid direct combat. Unless Naomi is threatened, in which case he’d literally burn the world down to keep her safe.

credit to easygoingscans

Disregarding the squicky nature of their implicit relationship for a moment, Tanizaki’s devotion towards Naomi borders on obsessive, surpassing the extent of that which could be normal between either siblings or lovers. We can only speculate what kind of upbringing would have caused this.

We only really see glimpses of Tanizaki’s true capacity a few times. But it’s not just his ability that’s downright terrifying (crashing a civilian truck into Steinbeck, almost assassinating Mori during cannibalism), but his personality too. Tanizaki is always teetering on the edge of morality; he makes the conscious choice to be on the side of good, but he canonically offered to join the Port Mafia in Yosano’s place, which says a lot about what kind of person Tanizaki is. That’s not the kind of offer anyone could make if they were truly opposed to committing atrocities. Rather, Tanizaki making this offer is telling of the idea that although he understands where the line between right and wrong lies, he wouldn’t have second thoughts about crossing it, given a half decent reason.

I could argue than Tanizaki has roughly the same amount of ethical integrity as Dazai, that is to say, none at all. Their employment at the Armed Detective Agency happens to be a result of their conscious choice to be morally upright, in contrast to someone like Kunikida, who could probably never offer to join the Port Mafia, even if it were for the sake of an friend, due to his strict moral code.

Despite all of this, we know nothing about what made Tanizaki this way. We know that he used to be a student alongside Naomi, but that’s about it. Tanizaki’s innocuous previous profession tends to misdirect our thoughts away from reading deeply into Tanizaki. It creates an illusion of normalcy, you could say. But, upon second glance, it’s bizarre that Tanizaki could get written off as boring or simple, by both the characters in the story, and by us, the readers.

I think there is a lot of shots in the dark I could make at what kind of tragic backstory Tanizaki has been keeping secret, but I am going to conclude this post on an open ended note: What is Tanizaki hiding?

[xinesthetic]

I'm cursing Asagiri because Gaiden almost made me cry today but what's worse it made me draw Ayatsuji

[xinesthetic]

Thinking thoughts about how much I disagree with "warm hands Chuuya - cold hands Dazai" headcanon since Arahabaki, aka corruption, has been described as "black flames" ssso many times, and black coloured things are known for absorbing heat. I am fully convinced producing flames like that or black holes in general should consume most of Chuuya's body warmth to a point of hypothermia.

As for Dazai? I was fucking around with bandages and found out that wearing those is, in fact, very warm. This man essentially has a secondary layer of clothes under his regular clothes no fucking way he has cold hands

[xinesthetic]

Tanizaki's and Kunikida's friendship has got to be the most underrated dynamic so far. Literally has never seen anyone mention them despite the two definitely being close? We see them seemingly seamlessly work together both in Dead Apple (if I remember correctly) and DOA arc as well as Atsushi's entrance exam, both in anime and the novel. Like Tanizaki is Doppo's go-to when he needs extra hands for a plan or a scheme against Dazai and not only and you're telling me no one discusses that or thinks about it at all? Absolutely foul if you ask me

Personally would love to think that since Tanizaki is one of the younger ADA members Kunikida was the one to teach him how to hold a gun (tho I would Not be surprised if he already knew) or maybe even tutored him and Naomi a bit in terms of math.

[xinesthetic]

He's just a guy. Just a guy doing guy things (almost killing port mafia's boss) (surviving Koyou which is frankly even more impressive) (later on offering to join port mafia instead of Yosano) just a fella. Just a young lad—

i'm not done talking about tanizaki actually, because that little shit is DERANGED. i think there's a point where he says that nothing traumatic happened to him before the ada but i simply don't believe that shit, because no normal ass bitch could ALMOST. KILL. MORI. he literally broke in to the fucking port mafia and almost killed that bitch during the cannibalism arc! you're telling me he's just normal??? smd there's no way in hell

(please asagiri please please give me a reason that the tanizaki's are like that please don't just let it be for no resson please please please)

[xinesthetic]

Proclaiming Ayatsuji my second cat whilst Tanizaki being the first one and putting them on opposite sides of a spectrum, because Tanizaki is a "must protect the wet miserable guy" type of cat and Ayatsuji is a "I will throw this thing at a wall at a terminal velocity" type of cat

[xinesthetic]

Dazai "I am not human for I am a demon and can never be even remotely as good or humane as they are" Osamu and Fyodor "I am incredibly human because things that make us human are the terrible things humans try to get rid of and not the idealistic concept that society created" Dostoyevsky. By the way.