#yeah this is the first time ive posted in a while

[iron-sides]

yayy yippee friends 🎉

i did know zam wanted to talk to subz really bad but id forgotten it was the return stream where she said it ty for the reminder... ive Also seen that post ur talking about its so good..... oh my eclipse federation ☹️

godddd. "maybe subz didnt want to give her that chance. maybe he knew she could convince him" yeah :( i do wonder if that partly determined his timing of it.... i presume there was a degree also of like-- people didnt know when zam would be back (i assume idk i got into ls while she was gone) and it doesnt make sense to delay a project just to include her when u dk how long itll be but like...... yeah. yeah. i dont even have anything to say lmao i hadnt thought of that and now youve said it and i :(( and yeah vitalasy like un-added her 😭 not for very long i think but she like Kept mentioning it onstream she mentioned it like three or four times in the first or second stream after she betrayed eclipse 😭 it was SERIOUS man lol

i mean idk i only saw a couple months of season six i admit but to me its like. devotions learning how to be friends even when theyre not teammates, learning (or not) to deal with each other having friends, poafa and zams whole thing was about a friendship that didnt work out, hannahs season was defined by friends & teammates lost and found (sorry i have to lmao), and then the whole finale was, to me at least, a) spoke wanting to give his friend zam the ending she wanted, and b) zam and mapicc becoming friends again. zam and vitalasy also finally talked about eclipse this season i dont have the clip but its definitely real lmao. idk. i think hope is also a good word for it but i think a lot of the conflicts (at least the ones i feel knowledgeable about) were about friends and missing them and misunderstanding them. but idk! thats just me lol (plus-- bfb, focus & team PE are all teams built on friendships predating the season that Lasted all season (ignore bfb banning themselves i mean they didnt break up), plus the tunnel rats is just very friendly in vibe yk?)

although it was definitely a season about hope, just as much. hoping for a better end, hoping that kindness could prevail. hope and friendship go together i think :)

okay so i went and found the post and i was right it was oneformercy! id feel bad just screenshotting the tags since theyre not mine but yeah no..... bacon wardens arc (explodes and dies)

definitely please do make a post bc i had barely even thought about how differently they were treated regarding threat level.... subz Was a potential server ender whereas bacon, well. he was also a potential server ender but no one was exactly worried about it. and its especially interesting because he used arguably a better mechanism to deploy the wardens! if the end is gone then subz Cant use it anymore thats it, but they cant get rid of the nether. yeah he died testing a few times when subz didnt, but subz had over twice the hearts and they were using different systems-- and they were never actually able to stop bacon! there Was no destroying his mechanism, not like they did with subz. i do think this is part of why his arc was a bit more successful tbh but also their different goals play into that a lot too. god dont even get me STARTED on the hannah exclusion 😔 team atlas we are ENEMIES (silly) (but also i do get genuinely heated if i think about it for too long 😭 ur guy man.... did he have a reason for hating her or is he just a hater bc id heard it was related to her like making fun of zaun but like. the way he treated her during & around the warden arc seems a bit. much. as a reaction to that. but idk maybe hes an overreactor hed hardly be the first 😭) but yeah no it all stings but ESPECIALLY because hannah and mapicc had planned to ban him off the server and bring him back like..... and then team atlas got there first.... 😔 oh welllll whatever its a good story beat for poafa ig like it sucks but they werent there ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ they knew it was bacontask day like it just is what it is ig. oh well!

god yeah. you said it. looking at the past and deciding to move on. and subz... didnt. subz looked at the past and said, no. im not over it and im not going to pretend to be. :(

do you ever think about subz's warden project that he did allegedly in order to be console banned from lifesteal as if he couldn't just leave the server as if there werent a million easier ways since he apparently needed to be console banned in order to keep himself away.... subz who banned himself at the end of season four whos missed huge portions of every season since and keeps coming back anyway..... subz who allegedly hates lifesteal & thinks all the story there was to tell has already been told but did the warden project anyway, begging in everything but words for the server to prove him wrong and it didnt..... who hung out in zams chat during streams when she was killing wardens in order to encourage her to cause chaos (and send her gold farm coords)..... the warden project was only abandoned bc he was sure he was being streamsniped and that was what made him finally leave.... because he couldnt tell the story he wanted to tell anymore. haha. cos i dont!!!!!!! i have never thought about subz even once in my life ^_^

sorry i saw u were thinking about my dead wife i miss him can he come back like ik he says hes not gonna but if i say it enough maybe he will haha what if!!!!!! <- in denial

I bet he will come back, I mean he did in season five.... (hashtag manifesting 4 you)

Subz....what a curious guy. Its so intresting because yeah what lifesteal needed at that time period was conflict. And he delivered it perfectly ! He was the perfect enemy for Derap and the chungpire to rally against, he put on a villainous outfit and started calling the wardens his friends. And he did it in the name of ending the server. What a guy.

The fact he left anyways fucks me up alot also cause...the server failed him, didnt prove him wrong. But like... nothing could have convinced him to stay. Im sure of it. Because what he wanted wasnt possible this season. He just wanted season three/four back. But the servers moved on, everyone has. But him.

And for awhile there it did feel like Subz was going to get what he wanted. The wardens were just really easy to afk and Subz had ALOT before Derap stopped him. Subzs world ending felt like it would have been eventuality, the server ending in anger and inactivity. Cause Subz fel everything had run its course and if that was true no one would have cared enough to get online and stop him...Very fun to imagine Subz as wanting to end the world in hate versus how it actually ended (In love and hope).

[idontreallylikebutterflies]

The real tragedy of Buck's life right now is that if he treats Eddie like a boyfriend, which is what they both want, then his ex and his sister are like "but are you in love with him? Why are you two like that?" but if he treats him like he would treat any other friend, then Eddie's like "where's my fucking husband who promised to be by my side forever" . and of course the problem is that, Eddie, Buck hasn't promised that to you. but Eddie is both so far inside the closet that he can't admit what he feels for Buck isn't platonic and so in love with Buck that he can't be normal about him. So they're both in an impossible situation, Eddie in one where he wants a life partner in buck but he can't admit that to himself, and Buck in one where, being the one out of the two of them who is out of the closet, people will ask him "hey. what the fuck is up with you two" and he can't answer, because that would require admitting that he and his "straight best friend" are basically married. And it's such great conflict

[kerizaret]

I know i like to joke around that haha tsukasa scared of bugs haha funny loser, but please do remember and be mindful of people irl with fears that might seem silly or petty to you, because you never know how it truly makes them feel

[solplease]

meet cassian :]

close ups and more info under the cut!

gloomiest guy you’ll ever meet

pathetic loser

he’s an artist 

comes from a rich family

he barely leaves his house, he stays inside a LOOOOOT

insane attachment issues

clingy and dependant yandere

he guilt trips a lot (isn’t really aware of it lmao) can be really manipulative without trying unfortunately

texts you constantly but if you don’t answer back in like 5 minutes he starts freaking out 

sometimes he’s normal enough but if you take too long he WILL lose it

doesn't like it when you talk to other people, why can't you just talk to him? is he not good enough for you? what's so interesting about other people anyway?

he hates stairs (he's fallen down and up the stairs WAYYY too many times)

shy (lmao ok) and introverted (has a really hard time talking to people)

has a mascot! (his name is PopUp :] he made him for a school project and just ended up liking him a lot lol)

sopping wet cat

don’t be mean to him, he doesn’t like it, even as a joke

doesn’t get much social interaction cause he stays inside a lot

WAYYYY more comfortable texting, he’s like a totally different person when you’re texting him

spams a lot. like a lot

used to be a lot more outgoing and social

wishes you could be by his side 24/7

he’s sad a lot of the time

feels unloved, please shower him in love

really pessimistic when it comes to himself

he’s really passionate about art

you and art are the two things that make him extremely happy

if you thought nox was tired, meet cassian! he has an even worse sleeping schedule than nox

he’ll do ANYTHING to keep you by his side

so he can and will kidnap you! lol!

is also a stalker… great..!

has probably installed a camera somewhere in your room (um??)

you’re probably one of the only people that can convince him to leave his room

really loves shoujo manga, has fantasized about being the perfect male lead for you (he really wants a romance like that, only with you) 

he's a huge romantic, he wants the two of you to have a happy life together

so please don’t leave him. please

takes a lot of walks at night, don’t worry he doesn’t spend ALL of his time inside (he wishes he could tho.)

he wants to have his happy ending with you <3

[p1nkc4lyps0]

i aint one for drinking but im missing dsmp like a motherfucker

[manchesterau]

OKAY

top pre hiatus gaming vids?!

this is like asking a parent to pick their favorite child BUTTT if you insist ;)

not in any particular order:

it's so funny watching dan's descent into madness as the series goes on, ive rewatched it so often i can recite the damn video

this is such a good dan versus phil in my opinion bc if it's your first time watching it they are neck and neck (and i know a lot of dan versus phil's are like that but still). it's just a fun watch (i will be saying this a lot)

i dont know why...but ive come back to this video (and every video on the list lol) SOOOOO often i dont know why this scary game in particular but it's just sooo fun watching them play and get scared by a furby

this is funny bc of how shit phil is at drawing to the point where it's like...is he throwing this but no they're both shit but phil is worse under pressure plus a cute moment at the end of phil being a ****** ****

again another dan versus phil and it's a close one but watching them try and jumpscare each other and be really competitive is just so fun!!! they're both really into the game and i miss this!!!!!

this video is just so......again FUNNNN also dan once again losing his mind and using some very wonderful vocab in this

AHHHHHHH i also come back to this video a lot because first off they just dont know wtf theyre doing and that you couldn't friend anyone on the last day but it's also cute that when dan has 'had enough' phil takes over. also the comments on this are so funny like yeah no one wants to be your friend bc you keep using 'we' and theyre scared of you......

i love that this video started off with 'yeah we werent gonna play it bc we didnt think we should but yall wanted it so here we are' and dan in the cunty wig also my god remember this goddamn game jesus ive been on youtube for far too long.......

SO FUNNNN plus they win in the end and we get a cameo from kath and again so entertaining watching them both care get really into it!!!

this is fun because dan would have won but his hebris...too damn strong and like many other all or nothings he loses and deserves for going along with another all or nothing. another game theyre really into and it's fun to watch (how many times have i said this already

random ass game random ass video to put on this list but idc it's fun!!!!!! also dan taking this game farrrr too seriously and trying to critic it bruh it's a shitty simulator game calm down (ily bb)

[frobby]

mephisto probably pays for twitter

[wolfwarrior142]

My guy don't describe the random lost scientist guy that way to Rayla of all people. That literally just describes Callum.

[c6jpg]

I really like the visuals in skirk's demo but I'm so bummed that music-wise they keep going in the generic anime opening direction like the demo music has been soooooo lacking 😭

[todayisafridaynight]

[kawaii-kushami]

having one of those mid-20s moments where you're like well damn. im really not a teenager anymore i dont hate myself anymore actually. like its insane

sorry i gotta ramble but this feels too silly to post anywhere else

[a-whole-lot-of-things]

i love dead boy detectives to death, and hope with all my being that we can Somehow pull off getting it back (through netflix or otherwise)

but honestly if we cant? if we get stuck at where we are now forever? i honestly think ill miss the potential s2 soundtrack the most

[anti-transphobia]

Everyone posts about how Stardew Valley is a cozy LGBT+ inclusive game but NO ONE mentions the lack of a platonic option for the bachelors/bachelorettes. Which would be good for aspec people and also just more pleasant for many casual players I believe but that's not even the point. I just want to become best friends with everyone and not only does that require me dating everyone at once and feeling like a sleazebag because of it (ik the bad cutscene can be avoided but I know in my heart they'd be hurt if they knew) BUT it also means the women flirt with me!!!!! Constantly!!!!!!! It makes me sick to my stomach. Truly ruining the characters I liked

[crystalkitty1220]

Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN

[a-shadowedvales]

LETS TALK ABOUT BECKY IVES FOR A MINUTE!

when you think about becky, you have to remember that she spent at least four years listening to terry’s “crazy theories” about hawkins lab, and the big bad man taking jane away. she knew terry took part in “hippie crap” and assumed that messed with her head. that those experiences combined with miscarrying in the third trimester had a terrible strain on her mental health, ultimately losing her connection to reality. she spent those years watching terry fight and lose legal battles against brenner and hawkins. she pleaded for her to stop, to get help, as their relationship grew stressed and strained because becky didn’t believe her, and terry hated her for it.

and then when terry’s mind was completely broken, she spent her days and nights caring for her. the show never touched on this. just what did becky think happened to terry? what story was she told? was terry put into a random hospital with doctors from hawkins lab, under a guise of caring for her, just to tell becky there was some kind of accident? maybe a car accident. did they claim the drugs used in the mk ultra testing from all those years ago took affect on her mind? probably not, because then becky would be in an opportunity to sue. i highly doubt there would have been any mention of the lab, opposed to some, "unfortunate accident." it really bugs me that there’s no story about what becky believed made terry catatonic. terry knew becky didn’t believe her, and as such, definitely did not tell her about her plans to break into the lab. so a story could have easily been concocted.

and then, one random day, a kid shows up at her doorstep, claiming to be the daughter she didn’t believe existed. immediately, by jane opening the door with her mind, becky held some kind of belief for she'd heard terry’s rants about her baby being used for experiments, experiments which gave her powers. and in comes jane, demanding to see her mother, able to open a locked door, blood dripping from her nose. all too soon she realises that there has so be some semblance of truth. the girl says her name is jane: she fits all the descriptions. the descriptions of the niece she never had. this child who her sister fought tooth and nail to get back. i can’t even imagine the guilt that would begin to fester for not believing terry, for thinking she was having a mental break, for trying to get her to see therapists and get her some real, serious help.

scared and confused for herself and her sister, and unable to fathom what is happening, what does she do? she comforts jane. there is distance, there’s awkwardness, but this girl is her blood and every moment that passed only proved that she could actually be jane ives. she makes her a sandwich, tries to comfort her, tells her that her mother is in a dream. probably a good dream. she comforts and tells her that terry never stopped believing.

she always believed you were out there. she always believed you’d come home one day. home? yeah, home.

she offered her, this strange little girl, a place in her home with her and her mother. she didn’t push, she didn’t need to know everything in that moment; she focused on jane and nothing else. the girl was obviously traumatised judging by the way she spoke, the way she sheltered herself. if everything terry claimed was indeed true, then becky couldn’t even begin to think about what she’d gone through.

i wanna help you, but to really do that, i need you to talk to me, okay? it doesn’t have to be now. it doesn’t have to be today. when you’re ready, okay?

she never moved a single thing in jane’s room. although she didn’t believe terry, she respected and loved her enough to keep it exactly as she’d planned. and at least she could give jane that, the vision her mother had for her, what the first steps of their wonderful life would have been like. becky claimed terry was “stuck” living the “same dream” over and over. where becky, too, was the one who was stuck. terry became 24/7 care, and unless she had helpers (which i highly doubt), becky would have given up her job, her out of home hobbies, her entire life to care for her sister. stuck in an endless routine until jane came along and struck her with the reality of it all.

as soon as jane contacts the void, you can see becky looks on edge and nervous. which, fair enough! she asks if she can sit and watch, but doesn’t interfere or distract jane. she even sits a little further away from her, perhaps out of fear (which would be completely justified. this girl physically moved things with her mind, who knows what else she can do) or just trying to take this all in within her own time and space. but the moment, the second jane departs the void and is in a state of distress, she moves to comfort her. she isn’t sure how, and doesn’t expect it to be returned, but offers it nonetheless. as far as she knows jane just spoke to her sister; she would be dying to know what happened, if she said anything. but remains silent and focuses on the child.

unfortunately we really don’t see much else of their dynamic on screen, but it is very justified that becky contacted hawkins and tried to get a hold of hopper. he and joyce were the only ones who seemed to have some kind of understanding; of course she would want to contact them. she put on a brave face in front of jane, focused on her and her needs. but as soon as she put the bed down and jane wanted some time alone in her room, becky had a moment to breathe. to think about her, her sister, all those wasted years because she didn’t believe. so, weeks later, when she gets a phone call from a weak sounding girl, saying she was sorry, the relief is immense. when recovered from her illness after closing the gate, the first thing jane wanted to do was call her aunt. hopper got on the line after the initial apology and asked if becky would come to hawkins, so they could work things out from there.

i just think becky is such a neat, complex character for the literal twenty minutes (probably less) screen time she gets. i adore the way she treats jane, and think she is such a good influence in her life. imagine all the stories becky could tell her about terry. things no one else could. her relationship with her aunt is one like no other, for both the sake of her mother, and that she is the only true family she has ever known, or as far as she knows, even has. becky never expects anything from jane (unlike a lot of the people in her life), and in that respect, jane does actually open up to her overtime. to becky, jane isn’t a girl who’s saved the world a few times. she’s the niece she didn’t believe in, and would spend the rest of her life making it up to her and terry.

[unorganisedalienrubbish]

Just wanted to remind everyone, my commissions are open!

I haven't done any commision work before, but in the run up to the holidays if you would like some art for your friends and family I will draw pretty much anything.

I'm currently working on a set of Beatrix Potter inspired Christmas cards! So if you wanted to recommend a character/creature I'd like that very much <3