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Why I need to pretend like it’s not bothering me? I’m a selfish individual, I don’t like it at all. It feels me with rage the fact that I can’t always be on his mind like I am with him

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The problem is I want someone who will use me, hit me, abuse me, degrade me, own me >w<

While also treating me like I'm the best thing to ever grace their earth. :3

Theres never someone who meets that balance :(

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Babe I dont think you understand. I NEED YOU.

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I hate having BPD. It makes everything so hard.

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me: man my job sucks i want to play video games or somethin

the nefarious anglerfish:

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it's the last day you can rb this

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Hai I decided I'd make a introduction post :3

Call me devil for animosity reasons, my pronouns are he/him

Im transgender (ftm) and gay.

Im mentally disabled with Autism, BPD, C-PTSD, OCD, depression, and anxiety

I grow obsessed with people very quickly and I love dominant people who wanna take care of me :3

People=shit

DO NOT INTERACT:

Right wing (including liberal, and centrist), homophobic, ableist, terf, misogynistic, racist, transphobic, pro-capitalist, xenophobic, politician apologist, millionaire apologist, fatphobic, bootlicker, antivax, dont believe in climate change, a swiftie, grifter

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So no one was ganna tell me group projects are still a thing in university 🧍‍♂️

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Hi hi hi so I don't like anime very much but boy oh boy do I love being a creepy little guy

OMG I LOVE CREEPY LITTLE GUYS!! they gatta be one of my favorite genders <3

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Get on your knees and suck my boy clit rn

Deadass

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I saw your “Im looking for mutuals to be friends with” post and let me tell you, I have So Many Thoughts about Shigaraki

like, I feel like people don’t really think about how tragic of a character he is! I didn’t really like the way he was framed as a “man-child” because so many of his behaviors, especially relating to video games and action figures/plushies seemed like he was genuinely in so much distress that he was involuntarily age regressing and AFO was using his impaired state of mind to manipulate him into thinking he’s playing a big game of heroes and villains

I think it’s very likely that he was stuck in the mindset of a scared little kid well into his twenties and that AFO forced himself into the role of father in a way he felt that Shigaraki would think of as normal when he knew the situation Shigaraki was in.

this is also reflected in the way that Shigaraki treats Kurogiri like an older sibling, since at the time that AFO… adopted? kidnapped? Shigaraki, he was struggling with the loss of his big sister. In all likelihood, AFO started out by trying to remake Shigaraki’s family with himself as head of the family.

YES I LOVE PARAGRAPHS P L E A S E ENABLE MY SPECIAL INTEREST 🤤

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I totally agree with everything you said. Shigarakis character is so tragic when you get into it. Alot of people are desensitized to media because of how fucked up anime backstories can get, so i feel like Shigarakis situation isnt treated as seriously as it should be by most of the fandom.

Alot of his mannerisms and hobbies are definitely very childish and could indicate that certain things (the hands) could trigger him into a more infantile like state of mind. Thus making him more impulsive, violent, and less concerned with the consequences of his actions with concern to other peoples lives (please note im talking about early shigaraki). Alot of times children will exhibit violent behavior not out of pure malicious interests but because they're state of mind makes them more reactive. I think shigaraki gets triggerd in his everyday life and gets triggered to become violent. For example he gets incredibly violent and angry during stressful situations, more than the fellow leauge members. So there definitely could be an argument made that some part of his brain regresses when exposed to triggers OR part of his brain is less developed due to the trauma.

His interests also show he likes more socially childish things, especially when you take into consideration that hes in japan. If you look at the picture of his room in the manga we see plushes and figurines, which adults definitely collect aswell, but the ones he collects look more like action figures and not really collectable figures (thats just my opinion though) and also the plushy shows that he does have an interest in these more childish things because i kinda doubt AFO or Kurogiri bought it for him.

When people face as bad of trauma as shigaraki did (physical abuse, emotional abuse, neglect, killing his entire family) its not uncommon for them, purposefully or not, to regress to a younger age usually the age at which the trauma occurred. I think shigaraki, wether or not his hobbies have to do with age regression, is at a higher risk of developing this coping mechanism. He is obviously under stress alot. And he was kidnapped by AFO and groomed. Constantly under the expectation of "demon lord" and the pressure of iving up to AFOs potential. I could definitely see him locking his door getting snacks, playing games, looking at his figures and plushies, and feeling his mind slipping him into a younger mental age. But i can also see him get triggerd by any sudden movements or violence and get involuntarily put into a more regressed state of mind.

AFO definitely is trying to make a family for tomura, but not for tomuras sake. We saw that AFO loved his brother and family obviously is something he values so want to have tomura act as his child could provide him some sort of emotional satisfaction. (Along with the satisfaction of knowing his evil is working) And shigaraki definitely treats Kurogiri like an older sibling figure, i have an older sister and the way they interact reminds me of my sister and i. I think shigaraki may subconsciously replacing hana but i also think that tomura is just hanging onto the only person who has been there and provided for him (emotionally).

Sorry if this makes no sense or has mistakes im writing this as my sleeping pills are kicking in and while im watching YouTube so my mind is all over the place but nowhere at the same time lmao im just ranting aboit shigaraki putting whatever came to mind on this post. I might sit down and make an in depth and more well put together post about this ask because i think its super interesting i love tomura shigaraki so much omfg

Thank you so much for sending this ask!!!!

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I am 7-9 of the things on the list. Plus 1 if "a little silly" can mean "really really silly"

Unfortunately I have this thing where I am chronically unaware of any media, and have only ever heard of Boku no Hero Academy in passing. (In passing on a regular basis but still)

A little silly can be as silly as really really silly. Also its perfectly fine! Alot of people dont like/have never watched mha and that's just how individual taste works. I definitely do recommend reading the manga not watching the anime if you ever were to want to get into mha ^^

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hi i am awkward and dont really know how to interact w/ people on tumblr but i love mha, im trans, im leftist, neurodivergent/have mental illnesses, i love spooky/horror stuff, and i am definitely a little bit of a silly guy

WAIT ARE WE LIKE THE SAME PERSON ??? Also its fine i don't know how to interact either i just capslock and hope people pick up what im putting down </3

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No clue how to start convos. heres my franken-car. hand photoshopped by yours truly.

Graphic design is my passion ✨️ ❤️

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*sees i-want-mutuals post*

*slides into your inbox playing The Muslims*

you rang?

RING RING YES I DID

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Reasons I Have a Meltdown

Neurodivergent_lou

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