14rvby

[14rvby]

"i was bleeding on the bathroom floor and all i wanted to hear was that you had a good day"

[14rvby]

God i wish i were dead already

[14rvby]

sometimes i want to smash my head on concrete

[14rvby]

my mind becomes more corrupt every second, each breath i take becoming more exhausting than the last and as i rot in my room i cant help but think why? why am i like this? why can no one see me? why cant i be normal? i used to enjoy the chemical inbalance in my mind but as time goes on the noise becomes louder and louder and i can no longer hear my own thoughts. all i can hear is the deafening sounds that have been created in my brain and the only scream that shouts is the voice of the clock telling me i am running out of time

[14rvby]

my fig tree branches out into nothing

[14rvby]

i feel like ive been on a comedown all night. i need to get sober. i've lost all sense of individuality. trying to be liked by people i couldnt care less about. all i think about is my time limit.

what the fuck am i doing and who the fuck have i become

[14rvby]

i feel myself getting worse and worse everyday, becoming a more shallow person every hour, i think all i ever wanted was to be seen but it feels impossible when i barely see myself anymore. every day i feel like a helpless child yearning for guidance but i am too small to be noticed, my voice too quiet to be heard, when in my mind it is a constant scream. i often think about my future and then come to realise there is no point anymore, my future is clear.

[14rvby]

[14rvby]

[14rvby]

[14rvby]

[14rvby]

i fear i cant take it

[14rvby]

[14rvby]

God i need to get out of here

[14rvby]

i feel like ive met you in every life time

[14rvby]

i miss you and i miss who you thought i was

[14rvby]