Having a crisis at 8 pm on a wednesday while watching House MD.
I have no friends, no partners, no one to talk to.
I'm alone most of the time. At home, cleaning, working on projects, or sleeping.
My best friends are characters in media, stuffed animals, my own creations and my scruffy poodle.
I'm failing most everything in school and am several months behind.
I have no mother or father figure. Only empty shells named mom and dad that take care of my basic physical needs.
I am only 15 and I am already incredibly mentally ill.
I haven't eaten normally my whole life. I'm either binging or starving.
I am just so desperate to get it together. To be at a place where I'm happy with life.
You know your just a teenager who's going through shit, you know it'll pass. You know you'll get through this and be satisfied.
Oh god. Please just let me be happy one day.
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‧₊˚౨ৎ How To Make Baklava ౨ৎ˚₊‧
INGREDIENTS ♡
♡ 4 butter sticks
♡ philo dough
♡ 3 cup almonds
♡ 2 tbs icing sugar
♡ 2 tbs sugar
♡ 1 cup water
♡ pinch of vanilla sugar
DIRECTIONS ♡
♡ heat up oven at 325
♡ mince 3 cups of almonds with 2 tbs icing sugar until granulated
♡ evenly seperate philodough from the middle, and lay first half of the philodough in a a tray
♡ pour the almond and sugar mix on the first half of the philodough and spread evenly
♡ once the almond and sugar is thoroughly spread, i lay the second half of the philodough on top of it like a sandwich
♡ cut baklava into even square pieces
♡ heat up 4 buttersticks until melted
♡ pour melted butter over the baklava
♡ put baklava in the oven and let it bake for 50 minutes
♡ pour 1 cup water in a saucepan, add 2 tbs of sugar, a pinch of vanilla sugar, and let it boil until simmer
♡ take out baklava out of the oven after 50 minutes, and evenly pour the sugar syrup on it when the baklava is hot (there should be sizzling sound)
♡ let it sit for like an hour to cool down then serve!! 🥂
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