4dio

[4dio]

my worst toxic trait is; i hurt in silence & pray that someone loves me enough to notice i’m not being myself.

[4dio]

You’ve been haunting my dreams lately.

[4dio]

I dreamt of you last night.

[4dio]

“The depth of your love today is the depth of your wound tomorrow. “

Nizar Qabbani

[4dio]

Everyday I wake up and fall in love with my ghosts. And people wonder why I would rather not be here

[4dio]

I keep living

Hoping that the next day is finally the day I’ll see you again

[4dio]

What do I do?

What do I do?

Do I delete all our pictures, videos, memories? Do I block you on all social media we ever interacted on?

Does making myself hate you make it easier?

Do I slander you to the people we know?

Do I pretend like you never existed?

Or that it was all a waste of time?

What do I do?

What do I do to help myself move on?

Because all I can ever seem to do is miss you.

[4dio]

The love I have for you consumed every last part of me. I no longer recognize myself with you gone

[4dio]

There are so many things I want to tell you. So many experiences and things I’ve done.

[4dio]

“Come back! Even as a shadow, even as a dream.”

— Euripides, Herakles (trans. by Anne Carson)

[4dio]

Some days I think of you and it’s fine. Other times I fall to pieces all over again

[4dio]

I miss you every single day

[4dio]

Nothing makes me happy anymore. Nothing

[4dio]

a stranger I’ve become.

[4dio]

[4dio]

After everything I’d rather you hate me than be treated as just a friend

[4dio]

I shouldn’t think about you for too long